Hey a question and I really hope you get this and read it and also respond but when you first started trt did it cause any kind of side effects. The reason why I ask is I started trt 2 days after every shot I would get really bad brain fog and felt kinda hungover I don't drink or do drugs just like you. Im 36 150 lbs male with all the above symptoms of what you explain. I was on test C 120mg 2 times a week so 60mg every 4 days quit cause I didn't feel right some people told me I had to get past that part but I couldn't what do you think.
This video has been a turning point in my struggle, absolute fucking legend. I don't like the soppy shit but my man, I don't know if you realise how many peoples lives you may be saving.
Hi i was taking a test and I got weird thoughts bc my cousin died and I was over thinking if life was really real and before that I was awaken in the middle of the night from sharp chest pain (precordial catch syndrome) and since then I keep overthinking the mesning of life , I'm very happy and I'm never sad it's just weird and it causes me to kinda lose touch with reality...
Damn, I remember watching this video a year ago, back when I had a panic attack from weed. Depersonalization sucked, but I got through it, and you guys can too. I remember sitting in class and just feeling so zoned out and scared that I messed up my brain. This happened for months, but I just started eating better and hitting the gym more to help clear my mind. Also, don't smoke weed for a while, this just makes it worse. Take care guys, and remember that good days are to come.
Do you still have it? I got the zoned out feeling my whole sophomore year, and I am going back and I want to feel like I am a person not a guy looking through a person who is stuck in his thoughts during class
Hey Noah, thank you so much for this video man I found your video by looking up depersonlization because i have been going through the worse time in my life. In April a friend of mine gave me a pot brownie without telling me it was a pot brownie that sent me to the ER. Months later in June I went to my pcp for symptoms of feeling like i was drunk all day and with vertigo all day. Ive been to like six emergency rooms because of the way I feel, i can't sleep and I felt scared that I was going to lose my mind so I started to see a psychologist who assured me that iam not losing my mind. But recently my primary and my endocrinologist have confirmed I have low testosterone. My free testosterone is like 5.75 which is under and my total testosterone is like 272 on a scale from 300 to 900. I feel like shit im tired all the time, i feel so depressed like I will never be the same. I can't sleep at night having severe panic attacks sometimes and ive since calmed down a little since ive seen the psychologist who assured me that iam not losing my mind but i did tell her that my low testosterone has been found and she was like great so are you getting testosterone therapy? I told her my endocrinologist is moving very slowly she doesnt want to treat me for some reason. Im really stuck man i think this is the solution to helping me get better. When I was in highschool i suffered from the same problems but somehow someway i was able to get on with my life and forget all about how i felt then, its been 17 years since then and now im thinking man is it possible that maybe at that time I may have had the same disorder all those years ago too. At the age of 17 I didnt have any kind of medical coverage to see a doctor then, so I wouldnt have ever known. But now i know and now im hoping to god that this testosterone will help me feel better man, because i feel so sick everyday, i have two beautiful sons and a wife man and im just hanging on for dear life everyday. I have always suffered from anxiety my whole life but the brownie really sent me deep down into severe panic attacks. I hope you get this message, thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much for this video man, i hope i have a praise report very soon. Kind Regards, Posh
Dan Dart if your levels are normal and you still feel all those things next if i were you id go hard and i mean hard at a parasite cleanse. Sounds odd i know but Your guts got soo much to do with your brain then look into amino acids for support, neurofeedback is also amazing. I Hope u start feeling better soon!
Klonopin completely messed up my gut flora in turn didn't make me want to eat. I became looking like a typical junkie. I quit the benzo's recently and eat everything in the kitchen, insane how naive I used to be to food being the Natrual stabilizer for anxiety.
Hello everybody, I have have dp for several years and had someVery tuff periods. Its so frustrating painfull... I tried lots of things to find the problem or find a cure. Meds, vitamins, psychiatrist, cbd,mri,blood... nothing helped. Now this month i tried another medication that HELPS to feel me better. The dp is totally not gone but i think its lesser then before. I feel better/less depressed thats an amazing feeling. Anyway i just wanted to say that to you guys and hope it can help you. The med i take is called citalopram. I take 20 mg each day in the morning. You have to take it 2 weeks before it works. Goodluck let me know if it works
I went through a month of pretty severe DP/DR when I was 17. It was the most profoundly disturbing and bizarre experience of my life. It felt like the world was a dream within my mind. I was dreaming the world into existence and everything felt like it was an extension or a "projection" of my mind. The boundary between my mind and the external world disappeared. . My sense of personality identity was completely gone. I felt like I had died and had come back as a ghost. I was a ghost that was in purgatory - not really alive, but not dead either. Other people had become machine-like or puppet-like and were no longer human. The buildings and landscape had turned into a surreal sort of facade that felt like something out of a Salvadore Dali painting.
I did things that took my mind off of it. The more you focus on DP/DR, the worse it gets. Do anything that will take your mind off of it; watch movies, play video games, go for a walk, exercise, workout. Don't sit around and ruminate on the weird feeling, it will make it worse.
I know. Im not myself anymore because of this :( I have DP/DR, and i'm not the person i used to be 2 years ago. I was social, funny, energetic. Now i feel exactly as you described. A ghost with no personality unable to feel any emotions. I miss my old me. These thoughts also drove me insane. My thoughts were so powerful, i suddenly started crying at random times because i thought i never would be the same again, and because of the mood-swings, i thought i had bipolar disorder which also made things worse, and when i was at the very bottom, i tried to commit suicide by slitting my wrist. Hopefully i got drunk in bed instead because i failed. Easiest way to describe my feelings: MY THOUGHTS WERE ATTACKING MY MIND, like a self-destructive brain.
Wow me too. Everyone feels like an NPC, and it feels like there's this thick veil between me and everything else, even between me and my own body. Sometimes I'll look down at my legs and for a moment I'll think "holy fuck these are my legs, these are actually my legs and they're real wtf." Or sometimes I'll be in my room at night and it'll hit me "all of this shit is mine, I'm really here I actually exist." And then that fact will freak me out so much that I almost instantly go back to feeling derealized, and worse than before. My memory is shit because my brain can't truly take anything in. I feel so dizzy and fuzzy all the time. Practicing mindfulness doesn't help, all it does is remind me how distant I am from the things I'm trying to take in.
Do you feel any better? I was desperate to figure out if I was in reality or dreaming or dead...and all of this is EXACTLY how I feel with the added complete panic that comes in waves. Everyone around me just tells me to chill they think and that I am just having a panic attack but it's not a panic attack. There are times where I want to end it because I feel like it will just wake me up from this nightmare bullshit. Knowing i am not alone with this awful shit is LITERALLY saving my life. Thank you
this guy is gods fucking gift. I've been this way for 11 months. I'm getting my t tested asap. no one believed me no one understood. but you. thank you. you've given me the strength to look for an answer again. thank you so fucking much.
For anyone who reads this, my dp/dr was triggered by smoking weed, I totally understand all of you I once saw that the best thing you can do is ignoring it. I got rid of it for like 4 years but a week ago it came back but you know what? i wont hurt me the way it did before, before all of this I was very happy and after dp/dr i also was happy . Dont be afraid people it does go away. Im fighting on getting rid of it again Geez. I thinnk losing weight is easier lol. anyone can message me :) stay strong people
*i suffer from depersonalization derealization, it’s basically where you don’t feel real, or you feel like you’re dreaming all the time. it mostly stems from having panic and anxiety attacks. I recently came out to my mom about how I suffer from it and she didn’t exactly take my seriously.. it gets so bad at times to where I get crescent moons in my palms of my hands. (a lot of depersonalization suffers think that pinching or cutting will help them feel real. I do not cut or anything just get crescent moons every once in awhile when my anxiety kicks in or if I’m really feeling even less real that day.) now I am self diagnosed but when I first started getting the symptoms (feeling like you’re dreaming all time) I started to worry.. when you first get the symptoms you won’t notice it right at first. It WILL take you a day or maybe a few hours maybe even years. anyway, when I first got the symptoms I searched up “why do I always feel like I’m dreaming” the first article that popped up was from a therapist who herself helps people who also suffer from dpr (dpr is depersonalization) and I could relate with all of them. you will feel detached from your body, like you’re floating. I look at my hand and it doesn’t even look like it’s mine. I get my moments where I feel somewhat real and it feels so amazing and I wish that I could savor every moment of it, but it’s gone within a matter of seconds. dpr is a result of over thinking or obsessive thinking. if you do suffer from dpr like I do, just remember.. you will get through this, you’re not mentally ill.. you are in a constant stage of discomfort.. not danger.* *dpr is triggered when your body goes into fight or flight mode. EVERYONE has gone through dpr once in their lifetime, meaning it could have been only for a few seconds or like me.. a few days, months, years. when your body goes into fight or flight mode it triggers something in your brain to numb your emotions so you can think effectively to get your way out of the situation. (Many people who smoke weed suffer from dpr)* Dpr is the hardest feeling to describe you have to have gone through it to know how it feels.. and if you’re going through it right now you know exactly what I’m talking about. Symptoms: Not being able to remember things as easily as you could before. Life just goes by in a blur. You feel detached from reality. Things aren’t as interesting as they were before. Often mood swings. Blanking out of conversations often. Always staying in your head. now please.. if you suffer from this as well you can get through this. I myself am fighting (hopefully winning) and I know you can fight too. It may be hard at times.. trust me I know.. but if you want to be better you HAVE to push through the hard times because it will be all worth it at the end.
s n a t c h e d w i g can people and places also feel unreal to you? Sometimes I’ll go to places I’ve been many times and see people I’ve seen hundreds of times and then I’ll just feel like none of us are real. I’ll feel like I’m in some kind of simulation.
Carter Dodd bro, everything feels fake with it, just realize you can get rid of it, I have it and have it bad at this second and cant get rid of it bcs im not trying to, if you still have it try and help yourself bcs it will get worse overtime and dont let it get to you no matter how gone from reality you are
oh louda because you think too much about it. let it be, let it come, accept and move on with your stuff. that's the "miraculous" trick. you're not crazy, you won't die... you are just exagerating so deal with the fact that you just exagerate your thoughts, don't try to make you think they are real because they are not and that's why you feel bad :).
but above all of these visual issues of depersonalisation,dont u guys feel like dizzy or kinda like if u standing in open space,u will feel like fainting and fall back?
Oh my god this comment was made 2 years ago but yeah! I haven't heard people talk about this before but this is what I feel like. Since I'm often not sure if I'm dreaming or not I'm sometimes scared I am going to fall or something. Sometimes it's subconscious and sometimes it's when my derealization and anxiety are really bad. It totally sucks. When this happens I often try touching things.
I sometimes “forget” how to walk and end up stumbling around a bit. This is even when I’m not dissociating so yeah I’d say it’s a trait of derealization/depersonalization.
Yeah, I've even straight up lost consciousness before. So every time I dissociate I freak out thinking I'm gonna pass out. Hasn't happened in a few years though, and I've been feeling better lately.
Man, mine has gotten so bad I'm about backed into a corner. I'll definitely take your advice about quitting coffee and will go get my hormone levels checked as soon as possible. I just turned 17 and had so much going for me I don't know what happened. Myself and everything just feels so robotic and meaningless now it's horrifying. I will do all I can to get my soul back and this video gave me the hope to do just that, so thank you so much man I really mean it.
SushiiCatt Will you let us know what the results are for them? Thanks! I have been like this for about a week and I'm getting pretty stressed and worried about this..
@ibra józef 🇵🇱 I had my hormone/testosterone balance checked 5 years ago and it came back normal. I have had this for 8 years now and I have accepted it. I'm living life normally but it goes by so fast it sucks. I know this will never go away and that's OK. But I would do anything to change that
Zoe Skinner does this help from anxiety from weed? Cuz I kinda feel a derealisation, this been happening for like 6 days but i feel good when I'm fully distracted, I'm overthinking it. How long till i feel good? Or what I should do? I started cutting caffeine and i had really bad diarrhoea and i lost my appetite but i feel better now but not fully, help plz
I've been suffering from DR/DP for over 6 years now. It's been the hardest thing I've ever had to experience in my life. But just recently I've gotten some legitimate hope. So last week, I was walking back to my house from my mailbox and I looked over at my neighbors house. I was thinking about my DR/DP and I thought "the reason I'm having this issue is because I know I'm at a specific place but I'm not living it". For a SPLIT second I was almost completely out of it, but I came back into the derealization. Over the course of the past week I've been having very positive thoughts about getting out of it. And saying something about hormone imbalances is almost like an established plan. I'm almost 130lbs over weight, BUT over the past 2 months, I've been doing mile long walk/runs at least twice a week for the first time since highschool. From what I understand to continue the offensive on this, I need to continue exercising and keep up the positive thoughts. Thank you so much for this.
I always thought the longer you have it the worse it gets. My DP started at around the same time yours did. How are you doing now? Has it improved since? If so, what have you done differently?
Thank you...been suffering from anxiety and sometimes derealization and depersonalization for about 9 years. I have been able to handle it for a long time...but recently when i cam back from vacation 6 months ago I got sick and had a REALLY BAD anxiety attack and derealization and depersonalization. I have been getting better and better each month but it comes and goes. I have started taking vitamins which have helped because i did not want to take anti depressants. but now thank you for the idea of testing my hormones. I have no had my period for about a year and a half and that might be a reason. I have also changed my food consumption. No more soda or chocolate because of caffeine. Now that I am better than before I can continue to fight... but 6 months ago I was suicidal and felt like it would never end. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you!
Been feeling this way since late 2013 after a series of very traumatic events. It's nice to be able to put a name to what's wrong and be able to start looking for answers. I really do thank this gentleman for the way he put's his videos together and makes them actually useful. I really want to start feeling alive again...
hey man. i know it’s been 7 years since this has been posted , but tonight watching this helped snap me back and realize it’s not permanent and it gets better with time and to be patient. thank you. i cried so hard realizing i’m not alone and that i never was the only one , you honestly might’ve saved my life.
Man, you just made me have tears I’ve suffered from dp dr since I was 20 after smoking weed . I’m 56 and still searching for answers You gave me hope my friend thank you and God bless
Holy shit- I've suffered through this feeling for SO many years. I had a panic attack the first time I smoked weed at the age of 15 and it hit me like a tidal wave, and I still feel it to this day five years later. Today, I saw this video, and now I know that it has a name.
Yeah same when I was 14 I smoked weed and had a huge panic attack and the strongest most powerfull derealization you could ever imagine. For 2 hours I was curled up in a ball on my friends bed shaking back and fourth hyperventilating.
Does anyone ever feel like life itself isn’t real and sometimes when I focus on something my brain will compute for a second that this is real and then I’ll freak out.
It's great that you have made such progress. My derealisation was triggered at the start of September (I was fucking stupid and smoked a lot of cannabis in one sitting) this year and I've since been put on 20mg amitriptyline every night. it's helped a bit but I still don't feel 100%; feel about 60-70% back to normal. I still get little blips where I briefly feel I'm watching myself through my eyes on a screen miles away, or that everyone else around me are fake/robots. I've noticed I feel this way a lot more when I'm on my own, so anyone else who also suffers, you should try and hang around with people more because I don't seem to notice it as much. I hope it works for anyone else too. I'm definitely going to get a hormone imbalance check after watching your video. If this doesn't solve anything, I'm definitely considering seeing a psychiatrist or something.
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! I have been searching for a "name" for these feelings I have survived through for a few years now!! your video may quite literally have saved my life! "Thank you!" doesnt seem like an adequate reply for your video.....but its all I have brother.....Thank you for your courage!
Guysss. This is a form of awakening. Literally just be yourself unapologetically and be honest and truthful as much as u can be in all aspects of your life and depersonalization will go away.
I been suffering from depersonalization for the past 3 years, it all happened when i was smoking weed with some friends i had the most extremely horrific trip out ever. ever since that day i was never the same, i would wake up scared feeling like i should wake up even though i was already awake which would make the situation worse. over time i became depressed and felt like everything sucks. i even went to therapy but the woman wanted to give me medicine which i turned down. overtime i taught myself how to control my panic attacks and episodes of depersonalization, What really helps is if you are about to have an episode of depersonalization or a panic attack do what i did. i would stop what i was doing and sing Three little birds-Bob marley. it actually worked for me and would calm me down. also work on your breathing exercises. breathe slowly when you feel a panic attack come in and find a quick distraction. it really works and till this day i still have depersonalization. but i have learned to control it. feel free to message me if anyone would need help. its hard to explain to people who dont know anything about it. only talk to those who have actually went through this experience.
Carlos Gonzalez this is what laterally happened to me !! i feel like im going insane i don't know how to control it i feel like crying my ass off because i feel like im going to something stupid to myself
I’m so happy to hear that I’m not alone, I’ve been feeling this dis attachment from reality, been finding it hard to connect with people because I just simply cannot concentrate on what they’re talking about. Like I’m here physically but my mind is in constantly spinning, I’ve been finding it hard to speak up about it because I never knew what’s going with me... literally feeling phsyco at times. But I feel relieved now knowing that there’s other people out there who’re in the same situation. Things will get better
i was never cured, but i have gotten better. some days it's a little worse, and i have a few minutes/hours that are more rare where it's just unreal. but to be honest, having a loving and supporting relationship helped me deal with it. there have been many moments in the last 3 years where i feel back to normal for about 10 seconds and i nearly cry every time. i would never end my life, it sucks that this is what it's felt like to live for the past 7 years but mine is a personal struggle, and i can only think of the parts of my life I'm privileged and thankful for and it helps me deal with it. i have food, water, a home, an amazing girlfriend that has been there for me since the DP first started, i play video games to enhance happiness lol i have things well off and i recognize that, i can't let this control my life. I'm going to try to use it as an enhancement to my mind, to write novels, music, poetry, etc. to be more objective in life, ask more, think more, learn more. i hope whoever reads this finds their own path to deal with it. i might consider checking my T levels, though.
***** it's hard to predict how others who know nothing about DP will react to it. I was in high school when mine first appeared and the few friends I told didn't understand, the teacher I went to looking for help looked at me like i was a crazy drug addict, no one understood. Hopefully you get a much better result when telling anyone!
Wow I wanna hug you so much right now. I've been crying watching this video because everything you said is exactly what I've been going through. It started 3 days ago and it hasn't stopped and I've though of taking a knife to my wrist and ending it. I took a chance and typed depersonalization into TH-cam and you came up. It's funny you should mention thyroid and hormone imbalances. I've been battling with my doctors for the past 2 years to prove my thyroid is malfunctioning. You are an angel. Thank you for making me feel less alone. *hug*
i just came across your video. i have been suffering for 6 years. I've lost every one and everything. i needed to hear this. i will be calling my family dr today. will update later.
Man I needed this, literally had an episode just before going to bed. My thoughts were racing, I literally thought I was about to die. Thank you man, honestly. Love you bro.
I got this after smoking weed last weekend. I was just laying my head down listening to music and when I got up it was gone. Then yesterday me and my friend were out eating and I had a panic attack... Now I have it again. :(
+Anthony Delara Very common story my friend. Scary stuff for sure. Only you can decide if weed will remain a part of your life. The anxiety component is classic as the DP goes hand in hand. Sorry for your suffering.
Anthony Delara I never smoke anymore, and I'm suffering with it a lot right now, but when I did used to smoke a lot, I got it alllllll the time and I chocked it up to just smoking too much. Getting too high. It's a trigger for me now, so I steer clear of any mind altering substances. Hope you've figured it all out!
I balled my eyes out watching this. I've had this since around 2008. That's almost half my entire life. You've inspired me to get on the pathway to healing.
I feel like shit right now because I cant do anything.. Im too young for TRT but my levels are too low to live a normal life.. What am I supposed to do :( PS: You dont even know what of a good person you are Noah. Your videos probably saved my life and Im sure they saved many other peoples lives.. Thank you very much for that.
I have so much to carry & I haven't even started my life I dont go out no more I'm in a prison of my own & constantly depressed empty nothing Hollow weak tired thanks for the eye opener man I really thought I was insane
Thank you Noah.. thank you for believing in us. Thank you for sharing with us your experience with depersonalisation. I now believe that I can get better just because you believe I could. Thank you so very much for supporting us in our difficult times. Luv u..
Thanks man, this is helped me so much. Had a bad experience with weed and it messed with my 14 year old head, so confused, feeling weak, but this has given me strength. Everything you said I could relate to, especially the looking through a glass wall part. Thanks for this video
Forgot to thank you. Thank you so much. I have never seen anyone take a stand and talk so passionate about mental illness.you are such an inspiration. May god bless you !!
Thank you soo so much for your advice. Today was the day that finally after 9 years of suffering from this I found out the cause. I've been to countless doctors and also ended up hospitalized with huge bills...and nobody would be able to diagnose me. First they thought this was caused by a problem with my ear, somehow causing me vertigo, but as much as I tried to explain to the doctors my symptoms they looked at me like I was just high...they looked confused and ended up just giving me pills for dizziness .....Thank god and thank you for finally finding out what is wrong with me. Now it is time to get my shit together and get out of this dark hole! THANK YOU!!! GOD BLESS! it feels awesome to know that I AM NOT ALONE.
like I really don’t think I’ve ever connected to a person on the internet without even knowing them as hard as I connect to you. you’re my soul family and I deeply appreciate your existence. you’re incredible! thank you so much!!!
I thought I was alone in this thankyou so much, you don't know how much this disorder has affected my life, I can't cope at school I just can't, the dark is my only friend. Thankyou x
My DP got so bad that I had to quit my job and I haven't been able to work since. It's been almost two years and I hadn't been able to find anything that helped. I only found out sometime this year that this is what it could be and I remember finding through my research that my hormone levels could be messed up. And when you said that, my heart dropped. The problem is getting the money to get my blood tested because it costs so much wihtout health insurance. My family is poor and I can't work. I haven't even been able to see a Psychiatrist to diagnose me. It also doesn't help that my parents (I'm 22 but have to live with them currently since they're helping me) think it's sunshine related and that a little fresh air will cure me. But as you said previosuly, the outside world was big and scary. It was a sensory overload. My main goal is to get ablood test currently and see a mental health care professional but I can't see it on the horizon because of money issues. It's just so frustrating. My episodes are so severe and no one understands what I go through and everyone seems to think they have a cure and I'm doing something wrong.
everyone who has felt this I'm sure you've helped I've know what thee name was but know who could legit say how the felt just ppl saying don't panic and shit but you explain everything so serious and in depth of how all of us feel when you learn what it is and see others its the start to coping and when you can roll with it you make it! when you can own something you can do anything and you really just boost this through the roof , man bless you and good luck on your recovery bro you got this and same to everyone else here on these comments we will make it
Deep down i fear that im gonna be like this for the rest of my life, but it is so comforting to know i am not alone Ive been getting the feeling of total loss from reality, like everything goes into slow mo and sound just isnt the same and i feel completely numb in my body as if i am only my eyes, this will last about 10 seconds til i wig out of it but when i look around things still slightly seem dull and it just triggers it and ughhh this just isnt the way i want life to be 😩🔫
I have struggled with this for a very long time. It is only now, after 15 years through therapy, that I have found a therapist that has tapped into my issues at the fullest extent. I have found a good therapist that finally understands where I am coming from. It has been years in the making. I have watched your videos on this and followed your story. Thank you for this.
I have been an everyday smoker of pot for about 2 years now and it honestly helped my anxiety but a few weeks ago I had one of these mind harming panic attacks for the first time and didn’t know exactly what it was or how to deal with it. Since then I’ve smoked twice and had more mild panic attacks. All 3 times when coming down I have felt this derealization and depersonalization, but this time it’s taking me a lot longer to push through it. So thank you x3 for talking about this. I didn’t know exactly what was going on this time and don’t know anyone else who has gone through this. You are truly beautiful and I look forward to watching more of your videos.
Mine spans off from anxiety. Everyday, at school, hanging out with friends, chillin’ at home, it feels like everything going on is in a thought and I’m watching myself, and I’m in autopilot/feeling like I’m a robot. I also look at myself in the mirror and and it feels like I’m forgetting who I am, and everything even though I’m not and I know that. Like when I go through an episode, I forget where I am for a second and it gets me anxious. I’m working on my solution, and this video is fucking awesome.
wow I'm living the same life you went through..it's been bad for me for a year now...I feel like giving up every day your video is such a huge help..I felt I was all alone in this it so scary. I will now have some hope watching this I'm so going to get my blood checked very soon thank you so much for taking time out of your life so people like me can gain hope again you don't K of how much it means....
You have given me inspiration to not give up and keep fighting cause I'm fucking scared and don't know what to do but you have helped me a lot thank you so much for your videos
I like how 'personalized' this video was! It's so heart warming when you say "We'll keep going, we'll get there". One good side effect of going through a mental crisis is you naturally become empathetic. Hang in there guys, we're going through this itself is a sign that we're stronger than many people out there.
I've experienced this before smoking any weed just reactivated after my first active months of doing so. Mine is off and on. My only advice is to focus on other things. I never was an active everyday smoker so mine isn't as bad as anyone described here like feeling numb. Now my understanding is a little off but other than rest, healthy diet and movies keep me from falling all the way through. Also seek out comfort that can help with anxiety/insomnia and more. For anyone who wants to know what it feels like it's almost like when you pull an all nighter and your so tired your kind of out of your mind. Except people feel that way everyday and it's super intense for most who suffer from it. Please try to stay away from stressful things that will also trigger it. I'm no expert I am just telling you my experience of dealing with it. Me sitting here looking this up is triggering it but I want help and let people know that they are not alone.
When u wake up in the morning does it feel like u didn’t sleep cause I have depersonalization and Idk if this is normal waking feeling like I didn’t sleep
When I fall asleep I feel the same. I wake up and feel as if I didn’t really sleep but at the same time I feel like I did. And also I can be very sensitive to slight loud sounds which can immediately wake me up.
IMMEDIATELY when I wake up it still feels like I’m dreaming which freaks me the fuxk OUT! My vision is very blurry I can’t stare at something for too long, and I feel like I’m floating at times. This sucks so much
Thanks for sharing your story. I have depersonalization/derealization. I am healing now but it’s been a journey. I resonate with parts of your story. I’m glad to see you’re doing better now!
Man, you are the first person to make me feel better after months of struggling. Thank you so much, you are far wisened beyond your years and I along with many other people appreciate this.
The moment i left my phone and focused on something else made me feel so confused and i didnt know what to do so i just went back on it. Its a cycle that i dont know how to break.
I cannot thank you enough for this video. I know I’m years late to the video but I’ve only been dealing with this for about a year and I was at my wit’s end for a solution before I did something to just end it all completely. You have sent me in the correct direction. Thank you so much, Noah.
This means sooooo much to me. I smoked weed and had panic attacks over and over. My hormones were all jacked up too. I've been trying to find hope and I haven't yet but your video gave me hope to keep going. Much respect for you. 🙏
Noah I'm so happy to find your video's. I've felt so lonely for months. My friends don't get it my doctor didn't get it but to hear the story of someone who went through it as well makes me feel human again. I'm happy to hear that you got out of it and it gives me the hope that I'm gonna recover as well! the tip you give that you gave to cut out of all stimulants is something I try as well but it's hard when you are 20 years old and all your friends are living the dream.
Omg I could have wrote the description in your video myself! I was SO out there and I had to be babysat by family as well. Not because I was suicidal but because I was convinced and afraid I was going to drop dead any moment. My panic attacks lasted from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed (if I slept). I developed so many irrational fears almost overnight. I vomited every day and couldn't eat. Lost 15-20 lbs in a month. Spent some time in a psychiatric hospital. They tried giving me seroquel, risperidone, ativan, temazepam, inderal. After about a month on zoloft I was no longer in a constant state of panic but things still feel off. Its been about 6 weeks on zoloft and most days I'm ok but something is still off. Haziness, brain fog, my sleep is weird and I have vivid dreams and constant dream flashbacks during the day. My regular doctor just ordered a blood test. It would make sense if this were all hormones. I recently lost a baby at 5 months gestation and they keep telling me this is an emotional response to the stress but hormones would make sense because I started feeling like this 2 months later when I was no longer grieving that hard.
im crying tears of joy right now because i thought these feelings were all in my head. i thought i was the only one to ever have such disturbing feelings such as thinking everything was a simulation, thinking that nothing was real, thinking that nothing truly existed, and many many more. i've had these feelings for so long now. i would try to tell people about it but i could never explain it so it basically turned into a personal secret that no one knew about. i just want to say thank you man. discovering this really changed a lot. ❤️
I'm pretty sure I am suffering from this and I'm so happy there's people like you in this world. I want you to know how much you have helped me calm down and feel better after only watching 2 videos. I appreciate you so much ❤️
Five years with episodes of derealization for me. Sometimes weeks long. Right now I'm in the middle of it for 5 weeks now along with mild dizziness and occasional nausea. Thyroid ok, other stuff as well. Few months ago I've been diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder. Now I try to talk my doctor into putting me under more blood tests to check if all is ok. Also I'll get to neurologist. No alc, no stimuli, no allergies. Thank you for this vid. I know I'm not alone. That's so comforting! Bless you, man.
I have severe depersonalization.. It sucks!!! I can't sleep, I'm afraid of myself, I think I'm a creep.. I can't even sleep alone or be alone for a long time. Any advice?? I feel trapped and I hate it! I smoked weed sometime in Jan. And had an anxiety attack but after a couple of days I was normal again. It just kind of came back a few weeks ago and it's bothering me so much. I question everything about my existence, when I hear myself talk it freaks me out too.. Now my DP is turning into social anxiety.. I just want to feel normal again!
Adriane Frazier dude, you are scared of your own thoughts :). why would you be? it's just your freakin' mind, the more you avoid and you're scared the more they'll kick in harder. it's just thoughts, accept them and laugh about what your mind comes up with. you just have to be aware that what you experience in your head, isn't in fact real... you already know what's real, focuse :)
The key i learned is dont try to fight it. Really you should invite derealization in. Tell you self ok give me a panic attack and keepcthinking about it. Your brain eventually will want to think about something else besides the Dp or Dr. Its like fighting fire with fire. Tell you self i dont care about the panic attacks and or so what give me a axiety attack. The more you fight fire with fire like that your brain eventually tells you to think about something else. I hope i explained it right. I feelvso much better you should try it.
Brandon Johnson but that’s not it ! For SOME ppl it’s just a thought but for others like Noah and I, there’s something CAUSING it. Sure thinking about it makes it worse but if something is causing it , it won’t go away until you find the unbalance .
Weed started dp for me. I thought I was losing my mind at first. I quit the weed, drinking, and tobacco. Started deep meditation and tried to keep my mind active. To be fair my dp was much more mild than a lot of others but it was still noticeable and fucking scary. But like I mentioned, meditation helps a bunch but one way I cope is instead of freaking out, I'll just simply observe my dp, notice my feelings and just ride through it. I've been clean and substance clear for close to half a year now and I'm definitely getting better. Try to stay as positive as I can. But thanks for the video man, it definitely helps to know I'm not the only one out there... Peace, love, happiness
I cannot explain how important and helpful your videos are. You seem so genuine and real and for the first time I truly feel not alone. The words you use explain so accurately how I feel, and I *finally* feel hopeful. I believe that I can overcome this and all because of your videos. Seriously, from the bottom of my heart *thank you.*
I started at severe about a year ago and went to moderate and then to mild throughout he past year. not sure what to do at this point. I kind of just ignore it and let whatever happens happen and it’s seeming to get much better. My biggest tip is to keep living your normal life as long as your normal life does not cause too much stress and not to read/watch too much about it. Remember this is temporary and to whomever is reading this, you can still recover :)
I went from severe to mild/moderate in about 7 years. I don’t hate myself or my life, I’m actually super grateful but I feel like I can’t fully enjoy anything! It’s like being in purgatory or something. I feel like parts of my soul schismed out of my body.
All I want to say is thank you so much for your experience. I'm also working on my depersonalization. I've found that music, yoga & meditation helps a lot. To all those overcoming from depersonalization, I'd say just be brave and keep working relentlessly. Best wishes & love from India
Thanks for the story. I was 17 years old when derealization hit me, following a couple of weeks of completely unexplained panic that came from nowhere after I woke up one day. I dropped out of school (half a year later went back) because I just couldn't cope being in constant fear and deal with how bizarre day to day life had become for me. I thought I might be developing schizophrenia and losing my mind for good, daily I had intense phobias and paranoia that came and went, the faces of my friends and loved ones suddenly looked strange and dreamlike (Even nightmarish) to me, no place looked or felt familiar, everything was absurd - like I was living life straight out of a David Lynch film. I saw things move when they were still, saw things that weren't there, saw shadow figures in the corner of my eyes almost constantly. The depression was bad... to be a normal person one day and wake up with such a bizarre perception of reality the next day, as if someone had drugged me in my sleep, only it was permanent and non-stop. I really thought suicide was my only way out for quite some time, I began to get apathetic, got used to the hallucinations and constant paranoia. Went to see many doctors, but they only wanted to put me on heart medication (Due to the constant fear, my heart rate had jumped up to beating scarily rapidly all the time). After some time (A bit over a year) I got advice to start taking magnesium supplements (Had helped with some people) and began to take two daily, and spend a lot of time working out as a distraction from my mind, I don't how.. but it began to get better, after a month I still felt it - but less than before, after two months it was minimal. Now it's been 4 years, I still suffer from derealization on some days, but it's no longer everyday. My lingering depression and anxiety is still there, but I have learned to cope with day to day life, and I can function as a normal person, and without any medication. So I am glad of this progress.. and maybe one day I'll wake up and be cleared, as mysteriously as it began.
i suffer like you but mine is brought by weed,i completly feel like you,feel like im in a dream,feel like im dead but my mind created a world like this,also seeing things on the corner of my eye,a lot of dejavus please tell me how can i contact you
Hey, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through all that. Try not to worry too much though, sometimes our minds just get a bit worn out and exhausted and need time to process things, If you'd like to contact me, you could email me at raven_315@hotmail.com- I can try to give some advice when I know your situation a little better :-)
Just listening to this helped me feel less alone and like someone else finally understood. Hearing someone else say it besides me is a breath of fresh air. Thank you for that
Your awesome bro! I think your struggle has been something most of can't bear and you've done it. If I ever need some help dude I'll just keep checking on your vids for inspiration.
I am feeling like I am in a dream ! But I don't feel scared at all ! I don't give a shit about anything. I could punch a random person in the streets just to see what happens or feel something. I won't even care after that. I actually unsuccessfully tried to do that and they thought I am some kind of freak. I am not though. I feel anxious all the time, also. I want that feeling of reality but I am not sure if it wasnt an illusion that it was any different before. Thus I am not sure if these are actually symptoms of anything ? Cause for me it's been happening so gradually since september the last year ... that I am not really sure of this difference. I can say for sure that I feel like I am dreaming even now. But, but ... I cant comprehend it even. It makes life feel meaningless actually ... And I pray to God every night since september for him to kill me peacefully in my sleep and make it that nobody misses me or remember me at all. Was it like that for anyone, too ?
Man go look at a podcast called the joe rogan experience its episode 574 its a dr on there that is talking about exactly this. Pls listen to this podcast is very insightful he's the only doctor doing this kind of work
Amazing, im so happy for you! I must do this! I got this myself when i was around 12yrs on a school trip. It feelt like an explotion inside of me.. all my senses..distorted, my hearing, sight and sense of self I was trapped in in a bubble. I cant even count the varios doctors iv'e met.. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS. But my family was the best support i could ever had wished for. I cant thank them enough. without them i wouldnt be writing this. Still life was hard and it got worse. I got emotionally numb as the years passed, the everyday feelings gone. Hate, envy, despair & Strong feelings of love still remained though. I locked myself inside, not wanting to face the world. But you learn to live and adapt to it. I actually got soo good at acting i even fooled myself. But at times I got so damn pissed off at myself! The feeling that I dont deserve this.. so I tried to get some help, maybe this time! a new spark, a new hope and a new.. drug.. This was my life for many years. I understand that I live. I breathe I create I play I joke I love I am normal? I didnt know anymore. The tingeling sense of feelings travelling up my spine and moments of clarity did occur. but nothing long lasting. I look forward, set new goals, compete. I will always do my best. My mind is always racing. now im 28. I got my first ever panic attack about 1 year ago.. but that set me on a path of learning and self-exploration. It was easy to overcome the panic attacks. now i want to reunite myself to me again. I will not loose hope. I will win
I am so glad I found you. You are such a blessing. When my parents, friends, therapist, and even my doctors couldn't understand what I attempted to explain to them...I really thought I was going insane. Thanks you. It already feels better knowing other people share my discomfort each and every minute.
hey man, it's really touching to find a person who feels the same exact way! it's so crazy, big thank you man. But hey, does Depersonalization/Derealization cause memory lapses?
Joseph I’m pretty sure it does cuz I’m getting a lot of deja vu it feels like I’ve been living my life before and I’m just re living my life over and over
I've been sick with Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome for 3 years. I'm 21. I remember when it started I would look in the mirror and think, why do I look like a stranger? As time went on, all of these symptoms took hold. Only now do I realise it is a disorder happening because of the hormonal imbalances caused by my illness. You have no idea what a relief it is to see you being so lucid and present and feeling after having been there, because of hormonal issues too. Thank you for making these videos! They really do help me see the light at the end of this tunnel.
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Hey a question and I really hope you get this and read it and also respond but when you first started trt did it cause any kind of side effects. The reason why I ask is I started trt 2 days after every shot I would get really bad brain fog and felt kinda hungover I don't drink or do drugs just like you. Im 36 150 lbs male with all the above symptoms of what you explain. I was on test C 120mg 2 times a week so 60mg every 4 days quit cause I didn't feel right some people told me I had to get past that part but I couldn't what do you think.
This video has been a turning point in my struggle, absolute fucking legend. I don't like the soppy shit but my man, I don't know if you realise how many peoples lives you may be saving.
+Sam Mclennan ALL 4 ONE
+bignoknow Should i stop drinking pop for 1 week and see if it fixes it?
+Sam McLennan WE GOTS THIS WOO
+Jackamoleoff FUCKING YES
Hi i was taking a test and I got weird thoughts bc my cousin died and I was over thinking if life was really real and before that I was awaken in the middle of the night from sharp chest pain (precordial catch syndrome) and since then I keep overthinking the mesning of life , I'm very happy and I'm never sad it's just weird and it causes me to kinda lose touch with reality...
Anxiety + Depression + Daily stress + Bad panic attacks + Thyroid problems + Bad weed trips = My cause of DP/DR.
I can't take it anymore.
A bad weed trip started my depersonalization and derealization. Then panic attack to general anxiety to acute depression etc etc
same here, hell on earth
I go through every one of those , glad to know I'm not alone because it always feels like it
I never did any drugs, but for some reason I have it.
Gravity Falls it could be from trauma or a lot of stress.. by the way, I also like gravity falls, haha..
lol I love you man.
***** bro hug
:O LAHWF do you have this disorder!?
oh wow, Andrew, what are you doing here
do you have it too?
***** Good Luck man i hope you get beter Andrew
Derealization and Depersonalization had opened my eyes. Mental Health is so important.
Did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body and stomach cramps in ur withdrawals please ans I m 90 days ssober
Yes
@@victorgonzalez-pj9iu how r u now
@@sangeetalambh6389 yes
Damn, I remember watching this video a year ago, back when I had a panic attack from weed. Depersonalization sucked, but I got through it, and you guys can too. I remember sitting in class and just feeling so zoned out and scared that I messed up my brain. This happened for months, but I just started eating better and hitting the gym more to help clear my mind. Also, don't smoke weed for a while, this just makes it worse.
Take care guys, and remember that good days are to come.
In the exact same boat. You do anything specific that helped?
Tyler Haugland so it went away?
Tyler Haugland so u recovered in a year
Tyler Haugland you sound like me imma do what you did
Do you still have it? I got the zoned out feeling my whole sophomore year, and I am going back and I want to feel like I am a person not a guy looking through a person who is stuck in his thoughts during class
Noah...your channel is very important to many people, including me. thank you for sharing.
+Dan Dart I appreciate that Dan. Hope you are well.
Hey Noah, thank you so much for this video man I found your video by looking up depersonlization because i have been going through the worse time in my life. In April a friend of mine gave me a pot brownie without telling me it was a pot brownie that sent me to the ER. Months later in June I went to my pcp for symptoms of feeling like i was drunk all day and with vertigo all day.
Ive been to like six emergency rooms because of the way I feel, i can't sleep and I felt scared that I was going to lose my mind so I started to see a psychologist who assured me that iam not losing my mind. But recently my primary and my endocrinologist have confirmed I have low testosterone. My free testosterone is like 5.75 which is under and my total testosterone is like 272 on a scale from 300 to 900. I feel like shit im tired all the time, i feel so depressed like I will never be the same. I can't sleep at night having severe panic attacks sometimes and ive since calmed down a little since ive seen the psychologist who assured me that iam not losing my mind but i did tell her that my low testosterone has been found and she was like great so are you getting testosterone therapy? I told her my endocrinologist is moving very slowly she doesnt want to treat me for some reason. Im really stuck man i think this is the solution to helping me get better.
When I was in highschool i suffered from the same problems but somehow someway i was able to get on with my life and forget all about how i felt then, its been 17 years since then and now im thinking man is it possible that maybe at that time I may have had the same disorder all those years ago too. At the age of 17 I didnt have any kind of medical coverage to see a doctor then, so I wouldnt have ever known. But now i know and now im hoping to god that this testosterone will help me feel better man, because i feel so sick everyday, i have two beautiful sons and a wife man and im just hanging on for dear life everyday. I have always suffered from anxiety my whole life but the brownie really sent me deep down into severe panic attacks. I hope you get this message, thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much for this video man, i hope i have a praise report very soon.
Kind Regards,
Posh
Dan Dart if your levels are normal and you still feel all those things next if i were you id go hard and i mean hard at a parasite cleanse. Sounds odd i know but Your guts got soo much to do with your brain then look into amino acids for support, neurofeedback is also amazing. I Hope u start feeling better soon!
Klonopin completely messed up my gut flora in turn didn't make me want to eat. I became looking like a typical junkie. I quit the benzo's recently and eat everything in the kitchen, insane how naive I used to be to food being the Natrual stabilizer for anxiety.
Hello everybody, I have have dp for several years and had someVery tuff periods. Its so frustrating painfull... I tried lots of things to find the problem or find a cure. Meds, vitamins, psychiatrist, cbd,mri,blood... nothing helped. Now this month i tried another medication that HELPS to feel me better. The dp is totally not gone but i think its lesser then before. I feel better/less depressed thats an amazing feeling. Anyway i just wanted to say that to you guys and hope it can help you. The med i take is called citalopram. I take 20 mg each day in the morning. You have to take it 2 weeks before it works. Goodluck let me know if it works
I went through a month of pretty severe DP/DR when I was 17. It was the most profoundly disturbing and bizarre experience of my life. It felt like the world was a dream within my mind. I was dreaming the world into existence and everything felt like it was an extension or a "projection" of my mind. The boundary between my mind and the external world disappeared.
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My sense of personality identity was completely gone. I felt like I had died and had come back as a ghost. I was a ghost that was in purgatory - not really alive, but not dead either.
Other people had become machine-like or puppet-like and were no longer human. The buildings and landscape had turned into a surreal sort of facade that felt like something out of a Salvadore Dali painting.
How'd you get out ?
I did things that took my mind off of it. The more you focus on DP/DR, the worse it gets. Do anything that will take your mind off of it; watch movies, play video games, go for a walk, exercise, workout. Don't sit around and ruminate on the weird feeling, it will make it worse.
I know. Im not myself anymore because of this :(
I have DP/DR, and i'm not the person i used to be 2 years ago. I was social, funny, energetic. Now i feel exactly as you described. A ghost with no personality unable to feel any emotions. I miss my old me.
These thoughts also drove me insane. My thoughts were so powerful, i suddenly started crying at random times because i thought i never would be the same again, and because of the mood-swings, i thought i had bipolar disorder which also made things worse, and when i was at the very bottom, i tried to commit suicide by slitting my wrist. Hopefully i got drunk in bed instead because i failed.
Easiest way to describe my feelings: MY THOUGHTS WERE ATTACKING MY MIND, like a self-destructive brain.
Wow me too. Everyone feels like an NPC, and it feels like there's this thick veil between me and everything else, even between me and my own body. Sometimes I'll look down at my legs and for a moment I'll think "holy fuck these are my legs, these are actually my legs and they're real wtf." Or sometimes I'll be in my room at night and it'll hit me "all of this shit is mine, I'm really here I actually exist." And then that fact will freak me out so much that I almost instantly go back to feeling derealized, and worse than before. My memory is shit because my brain can't truly take anything in. I feel so dizzy and fuzzy all the time. Practicing mindfulness doesn't help, all it does is remind me how distant I am from the things I'm trying to take in.
Do you feel any better? I was desperate to figure out if I was in reality or dreaming or dead...and all of this is EXACTLY how I feel with the added complete panic that comes in waves. Everyone around me just tells me to chill they think and that I am just having a panic attack but it's not a panic attack. There are times where I want to end it because I feel like it will just wake me up from this nightmare bullshit. Knowing i am not alone with this awful shit is LITERALLY saving my life. Thank you
this guy is gods fucking gift. I've been this way for 11 months. I'm getting my t tested asap. no one believed me no one understood. but you. thank you. you've given me the strength to look for an answer again. thank you so fucking much.
So how was your blood test? hows your dp/dr ? Give us an update
Baz Workman how you feeling?
Baz Workman
Give us an update my dude!
Update us bro, how you feeling now?
Update
For anyone who reads this, my dp/dr was triggered by smoking weed, I totally understand all of you I once saw that the best thing you can do is ignoring it. I got rid of it for like 4 years but a week ago it came back but you know what? i wont hurt me the way it did before, before all of this I was very happy and after dp/dr i also was happy . Dont be afraid people it does go away. Im fighting on getting rid of it again Geez. I thinnk losing weight is easier lol. anyone can message me :) stay strong people
Brizia Carrazco can you tex me ?
Brizia Carrazco how do I message you?
korra aang my email is : brizia20@icloud.com
Brii Update?
can we please chat
*i suffer from depersonalization derealization, it’s basically where you don’t feel real, or you feel like you’re dreaming all the time. it mostly stems from having panic and anxiety attacks. I recently came out to my mom about how I suffer from it and she didn’t exactly take my seriously.. it gets so bad at times to where I get crescent moons in my palms of my hands. (a lot of depersonalization suffers think that pinching or cutting will help them feel real. I do not cut or anything just get crescent moons every once in awhile when my anxiety kicks in or if I’m really feeling even less real that day.) now I am self diagnosed but when I first started getting the symptoms (feeling like you’re dreaming all time) I started to worry.. when you first get the symptoms you won’t notice it right at first. It WILL take you a day or maybe a few hours maybe even years. anyway, when I first got the symptoms I searched up “why do I always feel like I’m dreaming” the first article that popped up was from a therapist who herself helps people who also suffer from dpr (dpr is depersonalization) and I could relate with all of them. you will feel detached from your body, like you’re floating. I look at my hand and it doesn’t even look like it’s mine. I get my moments where I feel somewhat real and it feels so amazing and I wish that I could savor every moment of it, but it’s gone within a matter of seconds. dpr is a result of over thinking or obsessive thinking. if you do suffer from dpr like I do, just remember.. you will get through this, you’re not mentally ill.. you are in a constant stage of discomfort.. not danger.*
*dpr is triggered when your body goes into fight or flight mode. EVERYONE has gone through dpr once in their lifetime, meaning it could have been only for a few seconds or like me.. a few days, months, years. when your body goes into fight or flight mode it triggers something in your brain to numb your emotions so you can think effectively to get your way out of the situation. (Many people who smoke weed suffer from dpr)*
Dpr is the hardest feeling to describe you have to have gone through it to know how it feels.. and if you’re going through it right now you know exactly what I’m talking about.
Symptoms:
Not being able to remember things as easily as you could before.
Life just goes by in a blur.
You feel detached from reality.
Things aren’t as interesting as they were before.
Often mood swings.
Blanking out of conversations often.
Always staying in your head.
now please.. if you suffer from this as well you can get through this. I myself am fighting (hopefully winning) and I know you can fight too. It may be hard at times.. trust me I know.. but if you want to be better you HAVE to push through the hard times because it will be all worth it at the end.
s n a t c h e d w i g can people and places also feel unreal to you? Sometimes I’ll go to places I’ve been many times and see people I’ve seen hundreds of times and then I’ll just feel like none of us are real. I’ll feel like I’m in some kind of simulation.
Carter Dodd bro, everything feels fake with it, just realize you can get rid of it, I have it and have it bad at this second and cant get rid of it bcs im not trying to, if you still have it try and help yourself bcs it will get worse overtime and dont let it get to you no matter how gone from reality you are
How are you now buddy? Im going crazy i think...
@@goodiegoody1401 how are u now
Yeah nothing seems normal
i literally can't trust my mind it's crazy
oh louda I know the feeling, stay brave
oh louda because you think too much about it. let it be, let it come, accept and move on with your stuff. that's the "miraculous" trick. you're not crazy, you won't die... you are just exagerating so deal with the fact that you just exagerate your thoughts, don't try to make you think they are real because they are not and that's why you feel bad :).
but above all of these visual issues of depersonalisation,dont u guys feel like dizzy or kinda like if u standing in open space,u will feel like fainting and fall back?
Oh my god this comment was made 2 years ago but yeah! I haven't heard people talk about this before but this is what I feel like. Since I'm often not sure if I'm dreaming or not I'm sometimes scared I am going to fall or something. Sometimes it's subconscious and sometimes it's when my derealization and anxiety are really bad. It totally sucks. When this happens I often try touching things.
I sometimes “forget” how to walk and end up stumbling around a bit. This is even when I’m not dissociating so yeah I’d say it’s a trait of derealization/depersonalization.
Yeah, I've even straight up lost consciousness before. So every time I dissociate I freak out thinking I'm gonna pass out. Hasn't happened in a few years though, and I've been feeling better lately.
Syaakir Climbs dizzyness absolutly
Sometimes I feel like I don’t know where I am and i can’t see like I see but it feels like I’m seeing anything
Thank you so much for this. You are a beautiful person.
Man, mine has gotten so bad I'm about backed into a corner. I'll definitely take your advice about quitting coffee and will go get my hormone levels checked as soon as possible. I just turned 17 and had so much going for me I don't know what happened. Myself and everything just feels so robotic and meaningless now it's horrifying. I will do all I can to get my soul back and this video gave me the hope to do just that, so thank you so much man I really mean it.
SushiiCatt Will you let us know what the results are for them? Thanks! I have been like this for about a week and I'm getting pretty stressed and worried about this..
@ibra józef 🇵🇱 I had my hormone/testosterone balance checked 5 years ago and it came back normal. I have had this for 8 years now and I have accepted it. I'm living life normally but it goes by so fast it sucks. I know this will never go away and that's OK. But I would do anything to change that
Mine started at 17 as well... it’s hard when you’re supposed to feel alive at this time
Hey SushiCat how you doing now?
@@who_knowstbs-20 Let's just say I was fortunate when I made that comment.
You are an angel. I'm trying my hardest too ♡
+Zoe Skinner Stay brave.
Zoe Skinner does this help from anxiety from weed? Cuz I kinda feel a derealisation, this been happening for like 6 days but i feel good when I'm fully distracted, I'm overthinking it. How long till i feel good? Or what I should do? I started cutting caffeine and i had really bad diarrhoea and i lost my appetite but i feel better now but not fully, help plz
bignoknow was meant to send that to you sorry
samuel27781 samuel27781 dude this is going to spend crazy but the EXACT things are happinging to me YES
IM SAVED
I've been suffering from DR/DP for over 6 years now. It's been the hardest thing I've ever had to experience in my life. But just recently I've gotten some legitimate hope.
So last week, I was walking back to my house from my mailbox and I looked over at my neighbors house. I was thinking about my DR/DP and I thought "the reason I'm having this issue is because I know I'm at a specific place but I'm not living it". For a SPLIT second I was almost completely out of it, but I came back into the derealization. Over the course of the past week I've been having very positive thoughts about getting out of it.
And saying something about hormone imbalances is almost like an established plan. I'm almost 130lbs over weight, BUT over the past 2 months, I've been doing mile long walk/runs at least twice a week for the first time since highschool. From what I understand to continue the offensive on this, I need to continue exercising and keep up the positive thoughts.
Thank you so much for this.
+iSirAmGreen I've experienced this aswell, did you get your DP from smoking weed?
Yup. I had smoked about 6-7 times previously with no issues. It was during highschool and I was experiencing depression.
Probably same reason for myself. I thought "the SPLIT second" thing was due to zoloft (an anti depressants)
I always thought the longer you have it the worse it gets. My DP started at around the same time yours did. How are you doing now? Has it improved since? If so, what have you done differently?
@@cassandrapothier952 how are u
thank you so much i am 16 i got so fucking scared i saw your video and now i am FULL of hope your video inspired me!!!
I had this for years and I didn’t know what it was till I went to med school. Mine was triggered by anxiety. Healed now.
was it caused by weed?
@@nathancarnevale5945 mine is
Thank you...been suffering from anxiety and sometimes derealization and depersonalization for about 9 years. I have been able to handle it for a long time...but recently when i cam back from vacation 6 months ago I got sick and had a REALLY BAD anxiety attack and derealization and depersonalization. I have been getting better and better each month but it comes and goes. I have started taking vitamins which have helped because i did not want to take anti depressants. but now thank you for the idea of testing my hormones. I have no had my period for about a year and a half and that might be a reason. I have also changed my food consumption. No more soda or chocolate because of caffeine. Now that I am better than before I can continue to fight... but 6 months ago I was suicidal and felt like it would never end. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you!
Amor Dedios have u healed ? I need help
Amor did u feel fatigue like no. spirit in body and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal. Please ans I m 90 days sober
Been feeling this way since late 2013 after a series of very traumatic events. It's nice to be able to put a name to what's wrong and be able to start looking for answers. I really do thank this gentleman for the way he put's his videos together and makes them actually useful. I really want to start feeling alive again...
1. Identify the anxiety trigger and fight it
2.Hormone level test in blood
3.Testesteron replacement therapy
Aap india se ho ab kaise ho ?
hey man. i know it’s been 7 years since this has been posted , but tonight watching this helped snap me back and realize it’s not permanent and it gets better with time and to be patient. thank you. i cried so hard realizing i’m not alone and that i never was the only one , you honestly might’ve saved my life.
I shead a tear watching this.. you're something special man....
Man, you just made me have tears
I’ve suffered from dp dr since I was 20 after smoking weed . I’m 56 and still searching for answers
You gave me hope my friend thank you and God bless
do u feel better?
Holy shit- I've suffered through this feeling for SO many years. I had a panic attack the first time I smoked weed at the age of 15 and it hit me like a tidal wave, and I still feel it to this day five years later.
Today, I saw this video, and now I know that it has a name.
Me too man. Same age same trigger.. People should seriously be aware of this before they smoke. Honestly.
Me too! Six years now! Since I was 13.
Same here! Except I smoked back in August.. I was 14 at the time but now I'm 15 and I still feel the same :/
Yeah same when I was 14 I smoked weed and had a huge panic attack and the strongest most powerfull derealization you could ever imagine. For 2 hours I was curled up in a ball on my friends bed shaking back and fourth hyperventilating.
Have you recovered?
Does anyone ever feel like life itself isn’t real and sometimes when I focus on something my brain will compute for a second that this is real and then I’ll freak out.
yeahme to did u recover now?
It's great that you have made such progress. My derealisation was triggered at the start of September (I was fucking stupid and smoked a lot of cannabis in one sitting) this year and I've since been put on 20mg amitriptyline every night. it's helped a bit but I still don't feel 100%; feel about 60-70% back to normal. I still get little blips where I briefly feel I'm watching myself through my eyes on a screen miles away, or that everyone else around me are fake/robots. I've noticed I feel this way a lot more when I'm on my own, so anyone else who also suffers, you should try and hang around with people more because I don't seem to notice it as much. I hope it works for anyone else too.
I'm definitely going to get a hormone imbalance check after watching your video. If this doesn't solve anything, I'm definitely considering seeing a psychiatrist or something.
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! I have been searching for a "name" for these feelings I have survived through for a few years now!! your video may quite literally have saved my life! "Thank you!" doesnt seem like an adequate reply for your video.....but its all I have brother.....Thank you for your courage!
Man i got DP/DR from weed :( its been 2 months already i wish i could go back in time and stop myself from smoking that.
Have you recovered, any tips ?
Hey man I am going through this right now. Anyone of you guys gets better??
I am going through this. Any tips?....
@@matthewespinosa7682 yes get to the gym and do cardio shocking the system is the only way
bro you just told the same what was i thinking
Guysss. This is a form of awakening. Literally just be yourself unapologetically and be honest and truthful as much as u can be in all aspects of your life and depersonalization will go away.
I been suffering from depersonalization for the past 3 years, it all happened when i was smoking weed with some friends i had the most extremely horrific trip out ever. ever since that day i was never the same, i would wake up scared feeling like i should wake up even though i was already awake which would make the situation worse. over time i became depressed and felt like everything sucks. i even went to therapy but the woman wanted to give me medicine which i turned down. overtime i taught myself how to control my panic attacks and episodes of depersonalization, What really helps is if you are about to have an episode of depersonalization or a panic attack do what i did. i would stop what i was doing and sing Three little birds-Bob marley. it actually worked for me and would calm me down. also work on your breathing exercises. breathe slowly when you feel a panic attack come in and find a quick distraction. it really works and till this day i still have depersonalization. but i have learned to control it. feel free to message me if anyone would need help. its hard to explain to people who dont know anything about it. only talk to those who have actually went through this experience.
Carlos Gonzalez this is what laterally happened to me !! i feel like im going insane i don't know how to control it i feel like crying my ass off because i feel like im going to something stupid to myself
\m/ Ayyee lmaoo I don't even know how to cry. because crying is not real to me.
Bad Moe okay and ?
\m/ Ayyee lmaoo and I feel like crying is not real. I want to cry a lot.
Bad Moe thanks??XD
I’m so happy to hear that I’m not alone, I’ve been feeling this dis attachment from reality, been finding it hard to connect with people because I just simply cannot concentrate on what they’re talking about. Like I’m here physically but my mind is in constantly spinning, I’ve been finding it hard to speak up about it because I never knew what’s going with me... literally feeling phsyco at times. But I feel relieved now knowing that there’s other people out there who’re in the same situation. Things will get better
i was never cured, but i have gotten better. some days it's a little worse, and i have a few minutes/hours that are more rare where it's just unreal. but to be honest, having a loving and supporting relationship helped me deal with it. there have been many moments in the last 3 years where i feel back to normal for about 10 seconds and i nearly cry every time. i would never end my life, it sucks that this is what it's felt like to live for the past 7 years but mine is a personal struggle, and i can only think of the parts of my life I'm privileged and thankful for and it helps me deal with it. i have food, water, a home, an amazing girlfriend that has been there for me since the DP first started, i play video games to enhance happiness lol i have things well off and i recognize that, i can't let this control my life. I'm going to try to use it as an enhancement to my mind, to write novels, music, poetry, etc. to be more objective in life, ask more, think more, learn more.
i hope whoever reads this finds their own path to deal with it. i might consider checking my T levels, though.
***** it's hard to predict how others who know nothing about DP will react to it. I was in high school when mine first appeared and the few friends I told didn't understand, the teacher I went to looking for help looked at me like i was a crazy drug addict, no one understood. Hopefully you get a much better result when telling anyone!
Wow I wanna hug you so much right now. I've been crying watching this video because everything you said is exactly what I've been going through. It started 3 days ago and it hasn't stopped and I've though of taking a knife to my wrist and ending it. I took a chance and typed depersonalization into TH-cam and you came up. It's funny you should mention thyroid and hormone imbalances. I've been battling with my doctors for the past 2 years to prove my thyroid is malfunctioning. You are an angel. Thank you for making me feel less alone. *hug*
i just came across your video. i have been suffering for 6 years. I've lost every one and everything. i needed to hear this. i will be calling my family dr today. will update later.
Have you recovered
Shahin M. Shahin have you recovered?
I cried when u said “you’re stronger than u think”. Oh god. Thank u thousands
Man I needed this, literally had an episode just before going to bed. My thoughts were racing, I literally thought I was about to die.
Thank you man, honestly.
Love you bro.
There are lots of videos about depresion and mental health problems, but nothing like yours. Thank you so much for your words.
I got this after smoking weed last weekend. I was just laying my head down listening to music and when I got up it was gone. Then yesterday me and my friend were out eating and I had a panic attack... Now I have it again. :(
+Anthony Delara Very common story my friend. Scary stuff for sure. Only you can decide if weed will remain a part of your life. The anxiety component is classic as the DP goes hand in hand. Sorry for your suffering.
Bro listen, same with me, I had a panic attack one night in my bed, I almost killed myself, My nan helped me, Just keep praying
Anthony Delara I never smoke anymore, and I'm suffering with it a lot right now, but when I did used to smoke a lot, I got it alllllll the time and I chocked it up to just smoking too much. Getting too high. It's a trigger for me now, so I steer clear of any mind altering substances. Hope you've figured it all out!
I balled my eyes out watching this. I've had this since around 2008. That's almost half my entire life. You've inspired me to get on the pathway to healing.
That’s such a long time. I know it’s 3 years late but I hope your ok. How are you doing now?
I feel like shit right now because I cant do anything.. Im too young for TRT but my levels are too low to live a normal life.. What am I supposed to do :(
PS: You dont even know what of a good person you are Noah.
Your videos probably saved my life and Im sure they saved many other peoples lives.. Thank you very much for that.
Luca Çakır do you feel better know i am 13 years old and weigh 93 pounds please respond back
Have you recovered?
Ur a good dude.. 🙂 it feels like ur talking to me directly, rather than just being some random yt video.
I have so much to carry & I haven't even started my life I dont go out no more I'm in a prison of my own & constantly depressed empty nothing Hollow weak tired thanks for the eye opener man I really thought I was insane
Thank you Noah.. thank you for believing in us. Thank you for sharing with us your experience with depersonalisation. I now believe that I can get better just because you believe I could. Thank you so very much for supporting us in our difficult times. Luv u..
Thanks man, this is helped me so much. Had a bad experience with weed and it messed with my 14 year old head, so confused, feeling weak, but this has given me strength. Everything you said I could relate to, especially the looking through a glass wall part. Thanks for this video
Forgot to thank you. Thank you so much. I have never seen anyone take a stand and talk so passionate about mental illness.you are such an inspiration. May god bless you !!
Thanks for the inspirational video. You were put on earth to help us all.
may god always take care of you and give you nothing but good and happy times ahead ! so sorry you were going through all of this
Thank you soo so much for your advice. Today was the day that finally after 9 years of suffering from this I found out the cause. I've been to countless doctors and also ended up hospitalized with huge bills...and nobody would be able to diagnose me. First they thought this was caused by a problem with my ear, somehow causing me vertigo, but as much as I tried to explain to the doctors my symptoms they looked at me like I was just high...they looked confused and ended up just giving me pills for dizziness .....Thank god and thank you for finally finding out what is wrong with me. Now it is time to get my shit together and get out of this dark hole! THANK YOU!!! GOD BLESS! it feels awesome to know that I AM NOT ALONE.
Any update?
like I really don’t think I’ve ever connected to a person on the internet without even knowing them as hard as I connect to you. you’re my soul family and I deeply appreciate your existence. you’re incredible! thank you so much!!!
I thought I was alone in this thankyou so much, you don't know how much this disorder has affected my life, I can't cope at school I just can't, the dark is my only friend. Thankyou x
Have you recovered?
Love how real you are. You're helping a lot of people.
My DP got so bad that I had to quit my job and I haven't been able to work since. It's been almost two years and I hadn't been able to find anything that helped. I only found out sometime this year that this is what it could be and I remember finding through my research that my hormone levels could be messed up. And when you said that, my heart dropped. The problem is getting the money to get my blood tested because it costs so much wihtout health insurance. My family is poor and I can't work. I haven't even been able to see a Psychiatrist to diagnose me.
It also doesn't help that my parents (I'm 22 but have to live with them currently since they're helping me) think it's sunshine related and that a little fresh air will cure me. But as you said previosuly, the outside world was big and scary. It was a sensory overload. My main goal is to get ablood test currently and see a mental health care professional but I can't see it on the horizon because of money issues. It's just so frustrating.
My episodes are so severe and no one understands what I go through and everyone seems to think they have a cure and I'm doing something wrong.
Hawkeye's Dog once you start getting a régimen going, you will get your life back slowly but surely.
Downloading the DP Manual had helped me!
how are u now
How are u know
everyone who has felt this I'm sure you've helped I've know what thee name was but know who could legit say how the felt just ppl saying don't panic and shit but you explain everything so serious and in depth of how all of us feel when you learn what it is and see others its the start to coping and when you can roll with it you make it! when you can own something you can do anything and you really just boost this through the roof , man bless you and good luck on your recovery bro you got this and same to everyone else here on these comments we will make it
Deep down i fear that im gonna be like this for the rest of my life, but it is so comforting to know i am not alone
Ive been getting the feeling of total loss from reality, like everything goes into slow mo and sound just isnt the same and i feel completely numb in my body as if i am only my eyes, this will last about 10 seconds til i wig out of it but when i look around things still slightly seem dull and it just triggers it and ughhh this just isnt the way i want life to be 😩🔫
Have you recovered?
Shahin M. Shahin have you recovered?
Same ship
@Theo no still the derealized vision has not gone away i been stuck for a year and half
Coffey did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body and stomach cramps in ur withdrawals please ans I m 90 days sober
I have struggled with this for a very long time. It is only now, after 15 years through therapy, that I have found a therapist that has tapped into my issues at the fullest extent. I have found a good therapist that finally understands where I am coming from. It has been years in the making. I have watched your videos on this and followed your story. Thank you for this.
Thank you for making this video. You have such a big heart.
Zachary Walters You're very kind.
I have been an everyday smoker of pot for about 2 years now and it honestly helped my anxiety but a few weeks ago I had one of these mind harming panic attacks for the first time and didn’t know exactly what it was or how to deal with it. Since then I’ve smoked twice and had more mild panic attacks. All 3 times when coming down I have felt this derealization and depersonalization, but this time it’s taking me a lot longer to push through it. So thank you x3 for talking about this. I didn’t know exactly what was going on this time and don’t know anyone else who has gone through this. You are truly beautiful and I look forward to watching more of your videos.
Mine spans off from anxiety. Everyday, at school, hanging out with friends, chillin’ at home, it feels like everything going on is in a thought and I’m watching myself, and I’m in autopilot/feeling like I’m a robot. I also look at myself in the mirror and and it feels like I’m forgetting who I am, and everything even though I’m not and I know that. Like when I go through an episode, I forget where I am for a second and it gets me anxious. I’m working on my solution, and this video is fucking awesome.
wow I'm living the same life you went through..it's been bad for me for a year now...I feel like giving up every day your video is such a huge help..I felt I was all alone in this it so scary. I will now have some hope watching this I'm so going to get my blood checked very soon thank you so much for taking time out of your life so people like me can gain hope again you don't K of how much it means....
You have given me inspiration to not give up and keep fighting cause I'm fucking scared and don't know what to do but you have helped me a lot thank you so much for your videos
alexander olivares Thats a beautiful thing Alexander. We are all in this together no matter how far apart we are. Stay brave.
I like how 'personalized' this video was! It's so heart warming when you say "We'll keep going, we'll get there". One good side effect of going through a mental crisis is you naturally become empathetic. Hang in there guys, we're going through this itself is a sign that we're stronger than many people out there.
I've experienced this before smoking any weed just reactivated after my first active months of doing so. Mine is off and on. My only advice is to focus on other things. I never was an active everyday smoker so mine isn't as bad as anyone described here like feeling numb. Now my understanding is a little off but other than rest, healthy diet and movies keep me from falling all the way through. Also seek out comfort that can help with anxiety/insomnia and more. For anyone who wants to know what it feels like it's almost like when you pull an all nighter and your so tired your kind of out of your mind. Except people feel that way everyday and it's super intense for most who suffer from it. Please try to stay away from stressful things that will also trigger it. I'm no expert I am just telling you my experience of dealing with it.
Me sitting here looking this up is triggering it but I want help and let people know that they are not alone.
this dude actually gives amazing advice, its great to hear something other than 'touch things, focus on things' i love this
When u wake up in the morning does it feel like u didn’t sleep cause I have depersonalization and Idk if this is normal waking feeling like I didn’t sleep
Yes... Like inmediatly you are "awake".
How are u right now? How is your sleep?
When I fall asleep I feel the same. I wake up and feel as if I didn’t really sleep but at the same time I feel like I did. And also I can be very sensitive to slight loud sounds which can immediately wake me up.
Jesús GM yo do you have DP?
IMMEDIATELY when I wake up it still feels like I’m dreaming which freaks me the fuxk OUT! My vision is very blurry I can’t stare at something for too long, and I feel like I’m floating at times. This sucks so much
Thanks for sharing your story. I have depersonalization/derealization. I am healing now but it’s been a journey. I resonate with parts of your story. I’m glad to see you’re doing better now!
Thank you so much for your video. You've offered me a lot of peace and comfort. May God bless you.
Man, you are the first person to make me feel better after months of struggling. Thank you so much, you are far wisened beyond your years and I along with many other people appreciate this.
The moment i left my phone and focused on something else made me feel so confused and i didnt know what to do so i just went back on it. Its a cycle that i dont know how to break.
I cannot thank you enough for this video. I know I’m years late to the video but I’ve only been dealing with this for about a year and I was at my wit’s end for a solution before I did something to just end it all completely. You have sent me in the correct direction. Thank you so much, Noah.
What is “the breaking point” cause I think I’m reaching it
This means sooooo much to me. I smoked weed and had panic attacks over and over. My hormones were all jacked up too. I've been trying to find hope and I haven't yet but your video gave me hope to keep going. Much respect for you. 🙏
Noah I'm so happy to find your video's. I've felt so lonely for months. My friends don't get it my doctor didn't get it but to hear the story of someone who went through it as well makes me feel human again. I'm happy to hear that you got out of it and it gives me the hope that I'm gonna recover as well!
the tip you give that you gave to cut out of all stimulants is something I try as well but it's hard when you are 20 years old and all your friends are living the dream.
So much honesty and greatness in this video
Omg I could have wrote the description in your video myself! I was SO out there and I had to be babysat by family as well. Not because I was suicidal but because I was convinced and afraid I was going to drop dead any moment. My panic attacks lasted from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed (if I slept). I developed so many irrational fears almost overnight. I vomited every day and couldn't eat. Lost 15-20 lbs in a month. Spent some time in a psychiatric hospital. They tried giving me seroquel, risperidone, ativan, temazepam, inderal. After about a month on zoloft I was no longer in a constant state of panic but things still feel off. Its been about 6 weeks on zoloft and most days I'm ok but something is still off. Haziness, brain fog, my sleep is weird and I have vivid dreams and constant dream flashbacks during the day. My regular doctor just ordered a blood test. It would make sense if this were all hormones. I recently lost a baby at 5 months gestation and they keep telling me this is an emotional response to the stress but hormones would make sense because I started feeling like this 2 months later when I was no longer grieving that hard.
All better now?
im crying tears of joy right now because i thought these feelings were all in my head. i thought i was the only one to ever have such disturbing feelings such as thinking everything was a simulation, thinking that nothing was real, thinking that nothing truly existed, and many many more. i've had these feelings for so long now. i would try to tell people about it but i could never explain it so it basically turned into a personal secret that no one knew about. i just want to say thank you man. discovering this really changed a lot. ❤️
I'm pretty sure I am suffering from this and I'm so happy there's people like you in this world. I want you to know how much you have helped me calm down and feel better after only watching 2 videos. I appreciate you so much ❤️
Hey beautiful. Where you from
Malcom Shabazz dude... Not the place to hit on women.
Mathias Hoho 😂 😂
Five years with episodes of derealization for me. Sometimes weeks long. Right now I'm in the middle of it for 5 weeks now along with mild dizziness and occasional nausea. Thyroid ok, other stuff as well. Few months ago I've been diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder. Now I try to talk my doctor into putting me under more blood tests to check if all is ok. Also I'll get to neurologist. No alc, no stimuli, no allergies. Thank you for this vid. I know I'm not alone. That's so comforting! Bless you, man.
I have severe depersonalization.. It sucks!!! I can't sleep, I'm afraid of myself, I think I'm a creep.. I can't even sleep alone or be alone for a long time. Any advice?? I feel trapped and I hate it! I smoked weed sometime in Jan. And had an anxiety attack but after a couple of days I was normal again. It just kind of came back a few weeks ago and it's bothering me so much. I question everything about my existence, when I hear myself talk it freaks me out too.. Now my DP is turning into social anxiety.. I just want to feel normal again!
help??!
Adriane Frazier dude, you are scared of your own thoughts :). why would you be? it's just your freakin' mind, the more you avoid and you're scared the more they'll kick in harder. it's just thoughts, accept them and laugh about what your mind comes up with. you just have to be aware that what you experience in your head, isn't in fact real... you already know what's real, focuse :)
Adriane Frazier low self esteem i think has to do with DP
The key i learned is dont try to fight it. Really you should invite derealization in. Tell you self ok give me a panic attack and keepcthinking about it. Your brain eventually will want to think about something else besides the Dp or Dr. Its like fighting fire with fire. Tell you self i dont care about the panic attacks and or so what give me a axiety attack. The more you fight fire with fire like that your brain eventually tells you to think about something else. I hope i explained it right. I feelvso much better you should try it.
Brandon Johnson but that’s not it ! For SOME ppl it’s just a thought but for others like Noah and I, there’s something CAUSING it. Sure thinking about it makes it worse but if something is causing it , it won’t go away until you find the unbalance .
Im so glad youre still with us man, you have no idea, you seem like such happy passionate person, stay positive bro
Weed started dp for me. I thought I was losing my mind at first. I quit the weed, drinking, and tobacco. Started deep meditation and tried to keep my mind active. To be fair my dp was much more mild than a lot of others but it was still noticeable and fucking scary. But like I mentioned, meditation helps a bunch but one way I cope is instead of freaking out, I'll just simply observe my dp, notice my feelings and just ride through it. I've been clean and substance clear for close to half a year now and I'm definitely getting better. Try to stay as positive as I can. But thanks for the video man, it definitely helps to know I'm not the only one out there...
Peace, love, happiness
Beast did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m ,9o days sober
I cannot explain how important and helpful your videos are. You seem so genuine and real and for the first time I truly feel not alone. The words you use explain so accurately how I feel, and I *finally* feel hopeful. I believe that I can overcome this and all because of your videos. Seriously, from the bottom of my heart *thank you.*
Mild DP might actually be somewhat beneficial.
Moderate DP is very uncomfortable and hard to ignore.
And severe DP is outright terrifying.
I went from severe to moderate in 4 years :/
8 years? Severe DP? You freak me out with this statement.
I started at severe about a year ago and went to moderate and then to mild throughout he past year. not sure what to do at this point. I kind of just ignore it and let whatever happens happen and it’s seeming to get much better. My biggest tip is to keep living your normal life as long as your normal life does not cause too much stress and not to read/watch too much about it. Remember this is temporary and to whomever is reading this, you can still recover :)
I have severe Dr for 13 years now
I went from severe to mild/moderate in about 7 years. I don’t hate myself or my life, I’m actually super grateful but I feel like I can’t fully enjoy anything! It’s like being in purgatory or something. I feel like parts of my soul schismed out of my body.
All I want to say is thank you so much for your experience. I'm also working on my depersonalization. I've found that music, yoga & meditation helps a lot. To all those overcoming from depersonalization, I'd say just be brave and keep working relentlessly.
Best wishes & love from India
Thanks for the story. I was 17 years old when derealization hit me, following a couple of weeks of completely unexplained panic that came from nowhere after I woke up one day. I dropped out of school (half a year later went back) because I just couldn't cope being in constant fear and deal with how bizarre day to day life had become for me. I thought I might be developing schizophrenia and losing my mind for good, daily I had intense phobias and paranoia that came and went, the faces of my friends and loved ones suddenly looked strange and dreamlike (Even nightmarish) to me, no place looked or felt familiar, everything was absurd - like I was living life straight out of a David Lynch film. I saw things move when they were still, saw things that weren't there, saw shadow figures in the corner of my eyes almost constantly. The depression was bad... to be a normal person one day and wake up with such a bizarre perception of reality the next day, as if someone had drugged me in my sleep, only it was permanent and non-stop.
I really thought suicide was my only way out for quite some time, I began to get apathetic, got used to the hallucinations and constant paranoia. Went to see many doctors, but they only wanted to put me on heart medication (Due to the constant fear, my heart rate had jumped up to beating scarily rapidly all the time). After some time (A bit over a year) I got advice to start taking magnesium supplements (Had helped with some people) and began to take two daily, and spend a lot of time working out as a distraction from my mind, I don't how.. but it began to get better, after a month I still felt it - but less than before, after two months it was minimal.
Now it's been 4 years, I still suffer from derealization on some days, but it's no longer everyday. My lingering depression and anxiety is still there, but I have learned to cope with day to day life, and I can function as a normal person, and without any medication. So I am glad of this progress.. and maybe one day I'll wake up and be cleared, as mysteriously as it began.
i suffer like you but mine is brought by weed,i completly feel like you,feel like im in a dream,feel like im dead but my mind created a world like this,also seeing things on the corner of my eye,a lot of dejavus please tell me how can i contact you
Hey, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through all that. Try not to worry too much though, sometimes our minds just get a bit worn out and exhausted and need time to process things, If you'd like to contact me, you could email me at raven_315@hotmail.com- I can try to give some advice when I know your situation a little better :-)
@@DeadButBreathing how are u
Just listening to this helped me feel less alone and like someone else finally understood. Hearing someone else say it besides me is a breath of fresh air. Thank you for that
I’m so glad I’m not alone holy shit, I thought it was just me.
Thank you for being an open book, it's amazing how comforting it can be just knowing I'm not alone in this.
Your awesome bro! I think your struggle has been something most of can't bear and you've done it. If I ever need some help dude I'll just keep checking on your vids for inspiration.
I thank you for helping so many people including me, you are amazing and you deserve a million love 💙
I am feeling like I am in a dream ! But I don't feel scared at all ! I don't give a shit about anything. I could punch a random person in the streets just to see what happens or feel something. I won't even care after that. I actually unsuccessfully tried to do that and they thought I am some kind of freak. I am not though.
I feel anxious all the time, also. I want that feeling of reality but I am not sure if it wasnt an illusion that it was any different before. Thus I am not sure if these are actually symptoms of anything ?
Cause for me it's been happening so gradually since september the last year ... that I am not really sure of this difference. I can say for sure that I feel like I am dreaming even now. But, but ... I cant comprehend it even. It makes life feel meaningless actually ... And I pray to God every night since september for him to kill me peacefully in my sleep and make it that nobody misses me or remember me at all.
Was it like that for anyone, too ?
Thank you man, I don't know how to tell you how much comfort this video gave me.
I appreciate this may the lord be with you
Man go look at a podcast called the joe rogan experience its episode 574 its a dr on there that is talking about exactly this. Pls listen to this podcast is very insightful he's the only doctor doing this kind of work
Amazing, im so happy for you!
I must do this!
I got this myself when i was around 12yrs on a school trip. It feelt like an explotion inside of me.. all my senses..distorted, my hearing, sight and sense of self I was trapped in in a bubble.
I cant even count the varios doctors iv'e met.. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.
But my family was the best support i could ever had wished for.
I cant thank them enough.
without them i wouldnt be writing this.
Still life was hard and it got worse.
I got emotionally numb as the years passed, the everyday feelings gone.
Hate, envy, despair & Strong feelings of love still remained though. I locked myself inside, not wanting to face the world.
But you learn to live and adapt to it. I actually got soo good at acting i even fooled myself. But at times I got so damn pissed off at myself! The feeling that I dont deserve this.. so I tried to get some help, maybe this time! a new spark, a new hope and a new.. drug..
This was my life for many years.
I understand that
I live.
I breathe
I create
I play
I joke
I love
I am normal?
I didnt know anymore.
The tingeling sense of feelings travelling up my spine and
moments of clarity did occur.
but nothing long lasting.
I look forward, set new goals, compete. I will always do my best.
My mind is always racing.
now im 28.
I got my first ever panic attack about 1 year ago.. but that set me on a path of learning and self-exploration.
It was easy to overcome the panic attacks.
now i want to reunite myself to me again.
I will not loose hope.
I will win
you speak so well, thank you for the wonderful clear videos!
***** You are very kind and its truly my pleasure. We are all in this together.
I am so glad I found you. You are such a blessing. When my parents, friends, therapist, and even my doctors couldn't understand what I attempted to explain to them...I really thought I was going insane. Thanks you. It already feels better knowing other people share my discomfort each and every minute.
hey man, it's really touching to find a person who feels the same exact way! it's so crazy, big thank you man. But hey, does Depersonalization/Derealization cause memory lapses?
Joseph I’m pretty sure it does cuz I’m getting a lot of deja vu it feels like I’ve been living my life before and I’m just re living my life over and over
I've been sick with Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome for 3 years. I'm 21. I remember when it started I would look in the mirror and think, why do I look like a stranger? As time went on, all of these symptoms took hold. Only now do I realise it is a disorder happening because of the hormonal imbalances caused by my illness. You have no idea what a relief it is to see you being so lucid and present and feeling after having been there, because of hormonal issues too. Thank you for making these videos! They really do help me see the light at the end of this tunnel.