I love myself. I want to share that love with someone. I want to feel wanted by someone else other than myself. I want to belong. I want my achievements to be acknowledged. I want to feel like I have purpose. I want to be understood and listened to. Everytime I've sought this has only led me back to the same lonely, desperation that I feel because most people don't care, some people pretend to care, and all people hurt you.
I hear you. The ones that pretend to care but don't are the worst kind. I don't agree though that all people hurt you...well, okay: if you mean unconsciously, yes, it happens, as we ourselves hurt others as well without noticing. Key is apologizing/ talking through it. Very few are willing to do it. It is very rare indeed.
I understand how that feels. I feel the exact same way, every single moment of my life and nothing seems to be working out...it almost feels unfair at some point
+Rahil Kaiser No I probably wouldn't. The vast majority of people do it. Kinda like how having sex isn't a hobby. Also getting a hobby that benifits you is a good thing. Maybe bike riding or a sport. Maybe Rc stuff. All those things you learn a lot and it gets you outside.
Some people feel a deep existential boredom caused by nihilism. Even if there is temporary excitement, it may not appear to have any deeper meaning to them. Some people are hellbent on finding objective meaning that can be empirically proven, rather than subjective meaning.
you nailed this explanation. It was exactly what I went through, and when I faced the fact that that I don't need to find an objective meaning to things, and believe only in which that i can prove, it allowed for my creativity, passion, and meaning to start slowly flowing back into me. I no longer needed to have an explanation for everything, because life was still life with or without it, and nihilism is excruciating, so eventually I found my way out into a mindset and perspective that was more progressive. It takes a lot of self reflection and awareness to take oneself out of a nihilistic mindset. It is liberating once you're free from the chains of nihilism, it's so nice to feel enthusiasm for life again-- and that's an understatement.
Pamela F Yeah I know what you mean.. I've actually gotten past that too.. I found that my thoughtpatterns were causing me that emptiness. Now I meditate on love every day and I feel at peace. I'm in love with love itself. It's beautiful. Excitement is unessecary. All that matters is peace and love and understanding, and the only understanding I need is love. ^_^
Family never spent time with me and spent most my life alone. Soical anxity and fear from emotional abuse keeps me away from people and feeling empty and borde.
I wrote a poem last night to show how I was feeling and already 30 seconds into this video it covers most of what I wrote down. here is my poem: Pure vandilisim That is what chocked out my inner soul. I was not physically here And happiness felt like an act Something easy I pulled off flawlessly But it damaged my inner self Walking aimlessly through streets not knowing what my instincts even were It lead me nowhere To absolute isolation in my head I had lost my spirit My motive And my heart I felt a wreckage to my life Which was being swallowed into a void I couldn’t stop it. No matter how much I tried There was no cure to the darkness that arose Pieces of life were floating a away And I was brainwashed to follow with it too No fresh starts No reset button I was going somewhere Somewhere people said was not on earth But hell is where we stand its right in our mind Depression itself is the empty hell void
Vandalism, I understand these feelings and that it can be good to reflect and look into the dark places. Sometimes, usually in hindsight I wonder why I spend as much time as I do drowning myself there. Even then I have to remind myself to be kind or patient with my self for going so deep into my processes. To find meaning and joy in the little things and acknowledge that a joy shared is more than doubled and a sorrow shared is less than halved.. It can be true but often our individual priorities of problems are really how worth our focus?
Can I ask something? It's maybe awkward, but what do you have to do if you like a girl, she likes you back, but hang with many guys? Am I specia for her or what..?
About your statement... Here comes one BIG question that helped me. Here it goes... WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT IT? This question reminds me that I am in the power. It moves you to change the thought- action pattern (coming out of vicitm/being weak state) and brings your vibration higher. Sending best wishes.
Honestly, the minute those needs are met-it feels euphorically satiating. I've had a starving need to belong since I was a kid and whenever I come across genuine connection it feels like my heart's genuine desire. However, the starvation can also make us act out in manners that go against our ultimate best interests for eg. many a times I've accepted tiny morsels and breadcrumbs of love and connection because that was the only thing avaliable to me in the moment and soon I found myself in profoundly abusive situations. So I think while it's necessary to meet these needs, there's some discretion required in how we go about meeting them.
- raise vibration to the feeling you would have when you get what you specifically need - deep dive into the emptiness, find out exactly what is it that you need & be with its presence. Give it full attention
How is life 2 years later if you don't mind me asking? I've felt nothing but complete emptiness for almost a year now and honestly I struggle not to end my life.
A wound I had was activated this weekend - It was the unmet emotional need from my mother. I didn’t realise it was still there to that extent, as I have been doing inner child work and was feeling much more peaceful generally. Afterward I went to a special tree in my garden and hugged it. I started to cry. I feel more emotional connection with that tree than I ever have with my mother.
I can relate to that feeling. When I was a kid, we had three hazelnut trees in our front yard and they always looked like older women to me and I used to gather the nuts that they dropped and eat them and I felt like they were gifts and I know what you mean about them feeling more like your mom than your real mom. My mom couldn’t give me what she didn’t have, but in later years we were able to become friends with each other, even though there was still some friction. Now we have to try to be our own moms. 💕
I fall spot on into the category she mostly describes here. My parents met all of my physical needs - above and beyond, really - and just about none of my emotional ones. I felt lonely, misunderstood and "wrong". I felt like my very existence had something "wrong" about it, because even though I made every effort to achieve and to be "good", I still exacted burdens on my parents, like time spent taking me to events, money being paid for schools (money was big in our family), and - God forbid - certain outpourings or even minor expressions of emotion that were treated like bad behavior, because my parents didn't know what to do with them. They only knew what to do with me when I seemed happy all the time. So I tried to be that, and learned to stuff and suppress and silence any emotion I felt, to the point where it didn't even feel safe to be honest with myself that I was feeling such things (or anything at all, really). I started to take pride in being what my father endearingly called me: "Grace under fire." Because where else could my self-worth come from? It ended up coming from achievements, and being able to keep my emotions in check. What resulted was a two year bout of acute mania, during which all of my pent up emotions exploded on me and everyone else. That was for me. The question I have with respect to this video is - I don't know if it's a question. I guess I'd just say that figuring out exactly what needs weren't being met, and then working within the parameters of what you feel you are emotionally capable of taking on to meet them, simply isn't as simple as it might seem. It's like undoing years of programming, not to mention working your mind out of the habit of negative self talk that used to somehow keep me safe. Really I think I need a therapist, but one who knows what he or she is doing with respect to me. Not sure where to find one of those!
I REALLY relate to what you have said. My father responded to my 'unpleasent' emotions with anger and my mother mimicked my emotions which then made me feel responsible for everyone elses emotions so like you said, it was less stress for me to be 'ok' all the time yet still meet the emotional needs of others. except now I have no idea how to get MY emotional needs met. I seem to have 'ok' emotion, depressed (which I keep to myself) and anger....which is RAGE anger which is not nice to let out. Unlike you though I tend to get depressed rather than manic. I need to learn how to express myself and get my emotional needs met as well. good luck to you x
You just described my life, my dad worked his ass off to get me proper education, but he barely spent time with me. Whenever he sees me or my siblings playing or having fun, he'd just make us feel guilty about it. We would run away from him. My mum did a lot for us, but not emotionally too. So exactly as you said it, I'm keeping my emotions under control, with programs I don't even know how to access anymore. Exactly like you said, programming of years. I'm blank right now. I try to know what do I feel at all times, but it's really hard. I also have social anxiety. I think negatively of everyone. Exactly like you said, my negative thoughts are efforts to keep me safe. I feel empty.
Same with my mom,she met my needs but not emotionally so I always thought well she takes care of me so it must be me that's the problem not her, now I'm seeing the issue was I didnt get my emotional needs met in any way shape or form. The hardest part is other people see these type of parents and think they are amazing, and then think the kids the asshole because of how they act and they have no idea the inner void these kids feel which is the very reason they act the way they so
This feeling usually is the same feeling that doesn't let you enjoy things. It's like " if I just had that one thing that I am lacking, I will be able to enjoy and relax myself".
This is so true. I just stopped drinking and I just realized everything in my life is technically perfect. I started crying a little while ago after realizing that and realizing that I still feel so empty and depressed inside. Which is what led me to this video. I feel a sense of relief now, knowing that maybe now I have some answers.
I’m so thankful for everything in my life. Lately I start asking myself what is this feeling inside me I couldn’t even explain with words , I was asking myself. Am I sad ? Am I anxious or depress? But your explanation just gave a good start. Thanks teal
I have done tons of self healing over the years to some good effect but I remained aware that I was not whole but could not find the missing links.....until your videos today. I am overwhelmed with gratitude. Thank you so much!
I've been feeling empty and apathetic from time to time to a point where I don't know what to do with my life anymore. It was like a void of emptiness within me that was taking a toll in me and my life. I was resisting what Teal said probably because I didn't want to change my old ways but it is creating the change that we want and need will make us get out of the cycle. Also, healing the emotional body was of great help to me. Whoever hasn't done it yet and are having emotional problems I encourage you to try it.
I feel lonely. If I'm being honest, deep down I am an extremely lonely person who hardly ever feels understood by the people around me. But I'm learning to not hold grudges against them for it, because they are just being true to their own needs. I just wish I could meet someone that acknowledges me and cares and worries enough to meet my needs. ❤ Is that really selfish to ask for?
I'm an extremely independent person and Teal talks of not meeting all your needs on your own: (ie the river doesn't drink itself). I've been burnt a couple of times by reaching out to others in time of need a few years ago and to not have any help/needs met. With the benefit of time, I've discovered I turned to the wrong people as they were not capable of being there for me, yet twisted this to reflect badly on me by shaming me into asking for assistance (talk about projecting!). This was family, unfortunately, which was a huge blow as I realised I cannot turn to them (on the rare occasion that I did) for support. Since that time, I've attracted a few caring and loving friends who have shown that I can turn to them in time of need. Just wanted to put it out there for people who may relate to my experience and that it's ok to ask for help, and there is nothing wrong with you if you do. Because that's what people who care and love you do. Peace and blessings.
Can you make a list of things you love about yourself? Have you ever had a pet that loved you? Do you connect with nature? Somewhere in you there is love and even though it may feel that no one has ever loved you, I’ll bet that’s not true. It’s possible you didn’t even know it. You can love yourself if you try really hard. It’s difficult for me, too, but I’m working on it. I’m trying to forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made that I would absolutely forgive my loved ones for, so why not forgive myself? That’s what I keep asking myself. Good luck!
Thank you, Teal. I love your solution of sitting with the void in the present moment and feeling what it is that you’re lacking, what you need. Then simply getting it for yourself with the help of presence and conscious awareness. I know it helps to sit with the pain, as well, without adding any conceptual thought to it. To just be the observer of that void in your belly like it’s a bright light or a gremlin but don’t add thoughts just feel the pain and watch it. It’s going to eventually dissolve. When you do go back into thinking again, you’ll have a fresh petter perspective of what right action to take if any, for your need to be fulfilled.
that void you talk of! i had experienced it a few years back, its exactly as you explained it. dark lonely and heavy in the chest once that need for love was met it disappeared! wow we all experience about the same things in life and same solutions work!
Focus on : i will find AMAZING company because i am AMAZING. Experiment with this try it out. Brainwash yourself with whatever YOU want youre welcome and i know it helps believe WILL change your world
This is absolutely perfect. Even the piece about being frozen at the point of time of an original trauma is completely accurate. At the age of six, I found my mother, dead, when I arrived home from school. Since then I had felt empty and as though I had a black hole in my stomach, yet craved deep emotional connection (with a soul mate, for example). Forty two years later, I met "the one", who made me feel complete and connected intimately, intuitively and emotionally. After a traumatic and argumentative year we broke up and three months after that the abandonment (of losing her) consumed me and was so painful that I felt as though I was on a distant, cold, planet: desolate and disconnected and from what I needed the most (her). I was terrified . The pain was horrendous, even physical (jabbing pain in my head) and I wanted to hurt myself just to distract myself from it. I didn't. After a few days, it passed and I gradually recovered but this time no longer felt empty. What I believe happened is that she triggered the unprocessed emotional grief and loss of my mother's death, forty years earlier. Just wish the relationship worked though. She was magical and enchanted. Everything I wanted. The feel of her touch felt earthing to me, made me feel whole and her voice felt like honey dripping into my ears soothing my anxious brain. But I couldn't give myself and commit, I pulled away every time when I was with her but wanted her when I wasn't. I didn't feel safe. But I don't feel empty anymore.
I feel empty cause the people around me make me empty. They drain me! I don't feel alone when I'm lonely, I'm feeling alone when I'm with the wrong people
Yes! The only way we can transform any part of us, is first being aware of that part of us and then accepting that part of us completely, just as it is. When we embrace what we once ignored, we heal and move forward. Thank you Teal
I feel dead inside because I can't learn to let go.Every bit of sadness stays with me,I can barely ever remember what those things are,But the thing that really hit it was my dog passing away.My parents don't know,therefore they can't help,I don't know If they even would.I left a couple of hints at school,6th grade,but I'm going to middle school so can't help,Even though she probably wouldn't,and (awkward alert)I have crushes on fictional characters,They just seem so lovable,but they don't exists so I can't even MEET them.Inwant somebody to hug me and say it's ok.I want to be happy.I even had to hold back tears while writing this.
dear Teal...i have been through infinite waters , to finally find this video. this is the video that has open my eyes to my pain and what has caused so much anger and emptyness in my life. thank you very much for sharing this. i think i know now how to proceed to becoming a better version of myself.
Thank you so much for the part where you point out that we are not an island unto ourselves! I've been feeling that I'm expected to be alum by myself eternally without anyone's approval and that I should somehow be able to be self actualized by that. Thank you, Teal, for pointing out that this is not true!
At the end of the day in quiet moments something inside of our human nature demands to know if life is worth living. Suicide, insanity, depression await the answer. Worth requires purpose for if things serve no purpose, we throw them away. Real purpose can only come from a Creator. And if we do assume a Creator, it seems clear to me that our purpose is to seek Him.
As i listen to another brilliant video, I realize how little does it show up on our faces the turbulences of life that we had. Teal, you look so confident and strong, so spiritual and yet fragile and only God knows what took you to be where you are now (after reading your bio), but I want to say that I am sincerely grateful you do what you do and say what you say. You are amazing human being!!
I'm in grade 7. It all started when I questioned myself, "What is the meaning of life?" Afterward, whatever I did, that question just kept reverberating in my head, and I just couldn't have fun. I kept thinking about my death, my family dying, how will I deal with it, stuff I shouldn't be worried about at this stage of my life. There's always this hollow feeling in my chest, sometimes it goes away, but whenever I come to home from school, it starts. I keep thinking what happens after life, is there really a God? (Even though I believe in one). I don't know what has got in my mind, but I want my life back, the life I used to enjoy, about one year ago, that life. Not this life, where I worry about questions that are not worth worrying about, because they would never be answered, until we die, and see what comes after. I want not to be so depressed like what I am now. Do any of you recommend a solution to this problem? Have any of you suffered from the same thing? Please reply.
Majed Kalaoun I am suffering from the same thing, I wonder about after life as well and wonder if there is a god.I have suffered my loved ones dieing at a young age. I shut a lot of my family out now I spend most of my time in my room. I have harmed myself once now. I don't know why I did it. my parents don't know what runs through my head and at school I'm suffering more and more each day. this Christmas my parents realised something was wrong. they asked me why I was dull, but I didn't say. I don't want to open up to my family or friends but I'm fine talking to people I don't know. I feel like my world is being ripped apart. I want my old self back just like you do. why can't I just have a normal life?
+alanna hayden This feeling is going away in me. Just build friends, socialize, and that feeling will fade off. Although your case is much stronger than mine, going out and making friends, talking with them, going on social media, interacting with people will solve that hollow feeling or sort of depression. This is because if you don't make friends and socialize, you'd think you're alone in life, that no one cares about you, and you begin trying to find the purpose of our existence in a very bad way. If you do go outside and socialize, you will see that you fit in the community, that you're not alone in this world, that people care about you, and you start having fun and realizing our truer purpose.
I'll try it doesn't mean it will work but I'll try. If it works I'll say now thanks. Awhile ago I turned diabetic/ type 1 and that was when it started to hurt me
Your healing the emotional body work helped me very much. I kind of used it in my meditation. I used to get these repeating visions in my meditations. Where I found myself in a childhood place. And I ALWAYS discarted them as a distraction. After watching your video and doing the healing practise I meditated as I always did. One of the visions came again and I let it be. I just watched it. I actually expected it would lead me to see something that had happened at that place. Instead, as I let it be, the whole scene turned 180 digrees and I saw my young self standing there. First I thought she was kind of wierd and dirty. Then I found she was actually broken and empty as a shell. God I got so moved by that. I swear that was 100% real and a surprise for me. Not an ego manufactured stuff. (which I admitt I do sometimes while I'm "trying to meditate") My point being : You are real!!!!! Following you never let me down. It really shows me the truth about me. I don't worship you. I just love you for actually being. For going through all the s$#t you went through so ppl like me can actually find their life. 💗
"People trying to fill the void (emptiness/emotional neglect/loneliness/fear) with Shopping, Sex, Drugs & Food..." Well, it sounds like you perfectly described our modern day All-American Dream. (Sad, but true) Beautiful video, Teal. You ROCK, girl!
I found that the first thing everyone should do is make sure their eating healthy food. Trying to think and understand feelings when you don’t have energy can be confusing. And a lot more if you’re intoxicating yourself with food that does not do well or have preservatives that puts you in a intoxicated state. Fix that need first and then follow steps that Teals suggest here.
I don't feel this emptiness, but I used to. I found Kwan Yin, and that changed everything. What you say about parents is spot on. In a sense, Kwan Yin has become my parent. We've developed a relationship. In a way, the very emptiness I once felt has become a blessing. If it hadn't been for that emptiness, I never would have connected with Kwan Yin. Since then, Kwan Yin has become the most important thing in my life. My own internal pain drove me toward a spiritual realization. This makes me think that it's not the situation you're in that determines your life, but what you do with it.
I can't fill my void, I had a great relationship with a girl whom I loved more than a healthy amount, a great relationship that turned very grim, lots of it's my fault. After the break up, she cut off all connections with me, and blocked me on everything, and she lives far away from me, so there's no real way for me to contact her. I've become a different person since then, but to no avail in filling my own personal void as I'm worried as to how she's doing and how I've negativity affected her. I have no closure from the relationship. Even with that, I fear there's a void within me that's much deeper and more primal, that I'm not completely aware of. Self love is a concept I've never begun to understand. There is one benefit however to the void, the closer I draw to it, the more and more creative I become.
Focus on yourself, your life, your emotions, your feelings, your goals. Teal has lots of videos about these things. Improve your life in every area and be happy!
Once we face within ourselves what has caused emptiness within us, we can begin to heal from within. I believe we should do the exercise that Teal shows us in 'How to heal the emotional body', then write down what you feel about the people that made you feel empty from the beginning, write down every emotion of anger, hurt, fear, hate, that these or this person made you feel like. Know that you will be whole again, embrace whatever you've learned about the entire experience, then take that paper you wrote all of those feelings down on and burn it. Let it go, its time to fill your life with happiness, positive energy and love. Using these exercises like a tool to help all of us heal from a shattered childhood will place us on the path of living life, loving ourselves and truly living happily. Thanks Teal.
I lack love, the statements you made about disconnected parents are so true, I was always not understood emotionally, probably because my asperger condition, which leads me here, struggling with myself, trying to find a way the meaning of “love yourself”.. you are an angel.. I truly would like to hug you with all of my heart, but maybe it’s because I would like to receive that hug ❤️
Honestly, u touch me more than any therapist has had, u understand WAY more than any therapist, watching only 1 of your video is equal to at least 10 therapy sessions. Teal, so very glad that I've come across your chanel. It's a bless. Thank u very much! U're right with everything u say. Talking about me, while I do understand and do agree what u teach us, it's still very difficult for me to apply your suggesstions. I rather avoid the reality, my real feelings instead of having the guts to met them and change my situation. Hope, I'll manage that like u're managing it. Love xxx and thanks!! (sorry for my English, I'm non native English speaker)
I tend to avoid reality also, and I’m trying to change it, but it’s not easy. Good luck to you! P. S. I think your English is very good. I used to teach English to international students and it’s a very difficult language to learn. I admire you. 💕
@@whitebirchtarot Hello friendly stranger 🙋♀️ Thank you very much for commenting my message and letting me/us something know of your life/experiences. Yes, meanwhile I‘ve faced my brutal reality. I still do it. I hate it and I love it at the same time. Sometimes it feels too overwhelming for me. Too much to handle. But at the same time I feel real and authentic because only with emotions we human beings become human. Are you facing your reality by yourself or do you have some support?? Thank you very much for your positive feedback referring to my English skills. You put a smile on my face for that I am very thankful because today is a bad and difficult day for me. Thank you for putting some sunshine in my cloudy day. 🤗
@@luticia Hi! I know exactly how you feel about life feeling too overwhelming sometimes. I’m very emotional and I find life to be too rough for me. But you’re right; if we want to be human we have to let ourselves experience the good and the bad because they always go together! I don’t have much support actually. In the last year and a half, I lost my only niece, my dad, and my dear husband who was ill for four years with Lewy body dementia and Parkinson’s and who caught Covid at the end of August 2021 and passed away on September 30, 2021. This month has been especially hard for me. I’m glad he’s not suffering anymore, but I miss him so much I can hardly stand it. I live 1800 miles away from my old friends because I moved halfway across the country 30 years ago and for some reason I just haven’t made any friends here. But I am on some zoom groups that are helpful. I have one sister who is my only family member left, but she has Alzheimer’s and lupus and she’s not well. She’s 12 years older than I am, and I don’t know how long she’s going to last. I want to move back to where my friends are, but I don’t want to leave her. I don’t get to see her very often though. Not sure what I’m going to do with the rest of my life, but hopefully I’ll think of something. I would like to find a way to help people. I wish Covid would go away! How about you? Do you have a good support system? I think that’s the most important thing, don’t you? I’m glad I was able to put a smile on your face, even if it was temporary. I can tell you’re a nice person! Take care and remember that you’re not alone. There are lots of caring people out there, but sometimes it can be difficult to connect with them. But you will! I’ll keep trying if you will! 💕😊🦋
By wisdom a house is built and by understanding it is established; through knowledge its rooms are filled with every precious and beautiful treasure. - Proverbs
First, shut off the TV, stop worrying about celebrities, stupid shows, sports results, and don't try to find fulfillment in materialism. Tune into yourself. Let your creativity flow regardless of what others may think. I draw, paint, and write, emptiness is something I rarely experience.
So, you are suggesting that the emptiness would go away if I do more activities that reguire creativity. And ditch gaming and shows that make me feel sad?
I don't have tv in my house..i never worship celebrate and imI don't care about materials but my social anxiety is destroying my life. I am not living normal life because i am disgusted by who i am as a person. I really hate myself
I used to be angry with the needs of my ego. I found them misleading me, but the truth is that by never satisfying me,they point toward to see the bigger picture and the higher self
I know a woman who's suitable for me, but she'd just started seeing someone. A year later, she's working near me, and I've let her know I still like her. Suppose I'll have to just let go now, and get on with my job, and tidy loose ends up at home, etc. The better prepared we are for actually having people in our lives, the more likely it will work. It's no good rushing anything, and after being alone for 11 years means another couple of years means nothing. I won't risk getting involved with anyone unsuitable, and being introverted means it's all just a minefield anyway. I'm torn between wanting to wait for the woman I know is right, and just giving up, and just date available people who seem reasonable enough. I don't want to do that though, because I have something deep inside saying to wait for the one woman I strangely have feelings for. It's something I can't even explain. It's not nice, or horrible, nor do I think it's silly either. Probably is silly though, I should just let go and move on, or at least just let go. I've never had this situation before, and it's puzzling.
So your answer to my feeling empty is to just figure out what I need and give it to myself? I have felt empty all my life. I have tried many things throughout my life to fill the void. No matter what, I still feel empty. I didn't get any help here, just so you know!
I’m lacking being, I have no more will to expend. I’ve felt empty since I was 10, I used to cry going home. I belong nowhere and feel the burden of being alive everywhere.
You make it sound so simple and easy. Loving yourself when you have believed your whole life that you are nothing but a piece of crap is not easy. It's impossible. I wish we could all be as together and integrated as you appear to be. Some are lucky, some aren't.
Nitephall damn, u continue to buy in drama and make yourself suffer by a make up story. What a shame, lose to a mere ego. Stand up, prove to ur ego thats u re not a piece of crap, then in time u will see urself change. it will take time, but how long is up to u
Nitephall if u decide it cant not be change then it will not be change, u re done for bro. If u beleive in urself that much so why bother anyone say u re not like them. Cmon i can see a big drama miles from where u ar. U have a nice story there, i know but its not that special because anyone has their own stories too. Well if u feel bad, get help, do something u like, faq all to those stand in your way, do things u feel good then see if that helps but i dun say that u should blaming all thing with drugs or smoke hehe
HoangGia Nguyen I am trying to get help. I'm reading books on how to cope with the problems I have, trying to see a therapist, and watching Teal's videos, also ASMR videos as well. Also journaling a lot. Thank you for your comments.
I disagree with your spiritual convictions, but I just saw that video of you on the news and I've got to tell you darling, my heart goes out to you. Anyone who has the courage and integrity to speak out against satanic ritual abuse is a friend of mine.
I guess I just feel empty because I feel like I'm a burden to so many others peoples lives. I'm always nice and respectful and a gentleman who wants to become successful to make his family proud. However middle school neglects this and puts me in the possession of the kid who nobody cares for. The teachers and my parents and friends always say their proud of me but it never feels genuine. I just want to Love and Serve other people and make ge world better. Not be pushed away and rejected for believing in what I want to. And girls definitely isn't helping. I just want to be Accepted... And not have to rely on T.V. and books ad anime to make fantasys of me being important in another world.
i love you. the thing is i have company but even with company i feel empty after all. company can distract me but i feel empty and i’m getting obsessed with romantic love. my dad did not show me love. my mom was obsessed with him so much that she also sometimes put him first. i guess i need to start here. i’m totally exhausted. i don’t want to be obsessed. before i had the void feeling a had huge anxiety, heart problems and many other physical symptoms. i started heal them and here is the depression. the more i heal my anxiety by relaxing the more depressed i become and more emptiness i feel.
Teal; you are beautiful both on the inside and outside. I have been blessed by your wonderful and insightful teachings, and your clear and compassionate delivery of them. Keep up the good work :)
You are a balanced creature, between a physical and spiritual side. If your spiritual side is lacking, you will feel empty inside. I myself am god conscious which feeds my soul and therefore balances both spiritually and physically. Try this when all other remedies have failed.
I personally experienced that, I got over it nearly fully in 2 months just magically and before I suffered it for more than a year. My idea is came when I was reflecting on my own, and I really felt the presence of anxiety and suprisingly realized that anxiety feels similar to excitement. Actually anxiety gives my life more excitment and fun, a good thing!!! That was when I go out and try socialzing much more htna before because I want to get the exictment.
Hi Teal, Just wanted to tell you how much I've come to appreciate your work. I've gone through my own roller coaster and your words have helped me put alot of things in to perspective. Your words helped me get in touch with and understand a lot of the things I put in the back burner. Thank you for that, may you be blessed for your contributions.
Am I the only one feeling this way? -Feeling like a zombie -don't get why people laugh or cry or at least can't relate -Feeling like deep down some sadness/Anxiety/Excitement -Don't know what to do -Don't know where to go in life -Stressed out -Burnouts, exhaustion,tiredness -Feeling like a spark of change but don't know how to reach it -Desperate af Can you relate?
Sometimes I wake in the night and it feels like parts of me are missing, usually my chest. It feels so odd I will physically touch the part that is missing to make sure im there. There are times when I dont feel, that I cant feel, until physical contact points this out to me. An example; when a doctor puts thier hand on my shoulder to hold the stethoscope to my chest or back. Suddenly I realize I wasnt feeling my body, or i instantly drop tention i was holding. When this happens it usually feels warm, like a hug. I miss hugs. Why is it I cant feel physical hugs, but i can feel hugs from passing spirits? Things seem to be inverted lately. If anyone has some words of wisdom, please chime in. I'm tired of life feeling pointless and backwards.
We are humans who are in and out, but in is out, and out is in. But we are confused if in and out are different. There in you have missed the point. We are not only travelers of space and time but also travelers of branching dimensions. They are fractured in and out, out and in but when out is in and in is out, the fracture merges and you sense the shift of dimensions as a sense of the passing of spirits. I'm too high. :D
I wonder if you shut off emotionally when someone physically hugs you? It’s just a thought, but I, too, really crave physical contact and yet when I get it, it scares me. It’s like I can either be there emotionally or I can be there physically, but I can’t do both at the same time. Does that make sense?
@@whitebirchtarot Ive learned a lot about myself in the past 2 years since this post. I found someone neutral that agreed to help me find out what I was dealing with. First we held hands so I could just feel into the experience. This alone triggered a major panic and led to a whole soul retrieval later that night! It was a very intense experience! Long story short, I had a big shame/arousal response to physical contact, but this was only a distraction from a bigger fear of intimacy. I cant say that all my fear is faced at this point, but that day i did hold hands with a stranger. Later we met again to hold a hug to see how things went. Turns out this would be the first time in my life i experienced a sense of safe. I was in disbelief that in 32 years on this planet and I had never experienced safe. A week ago, now 34 years old, I was able to make my second memory of safe. Progress! Thanks for the reply!
@@matthewtikka5133 Oh, good for you! It’s strange that I even replied to your post because I usually don’t, but I just felt some kind of connection. I think I suffer from the same thing. The first time in my life I ever felt safe with a physical touch was when the man I ended up marrying hugged me for the first time and I felt like I was home. I was 42 years old. He passed away last September and I’m going through hell missing him. I’m so glad to hear that you’re making progress. It’s not easy, but it’s worth it. Thank you for letting me know. Good luck to you, brave soul! 💕
I know there is something missing in my life. In fact there are many things. And I am scared and I feel lonely and unstable in every part of my life. What the hell am I doing wrong? And Why is all of this happening to me?
You both should try deep meditation. Unless you want to enroll in therapy, which may be a great option that is proven to work, then deep self reflection is needed to find the answers to what you feel is lacking. Even if you do try therapy, meditation/self reflection is still a good thing. Watching videos like this is a great step in the right direction! I know you'll be better faster than you ever dreamt one day.
Therapy is a good idea, especially when you feel you can't change things on your own. Or you can start to change how you feel by taking baby steps in a positive direction. The first thing I did when I felt like you, is I wrote down all the feelings that were negative, being completely honest with myself, I didn't hold back. Then I wrote down all of the feelings that were positives. We all have some kind of positives within us. Its just that sometimes our negatives overwhelm our positive emotions. Then I circled the emotions that I wanted to feel and I began to stop giving into the negative feelings by counter acting towards them with a positive emotion. I just kept doing that until I was able to stop the negatives from clouding my true self, which is positive. It may feel difficult at first but it is possible. You have to put your heart into it. It may also help you to know that how ever you came to this state of being is not your fault. You have already begun your journey to change just by recognizing that you don't like the feelings you feel right now. You direct your own thinking. I use to wish that I could take my brain out of my head and wash it all clean from all of the negative debris that has collected in there over the years. That's not going to happen. So we do what we can by seeing things for what they are and by working towards how we want things to be. And today I've made huge progress with changing my thought patterns. It starts with learning to love yourself, trust yourself, believe in yourself. Change your thoughts... change your life.
This is what I am doing in regards to feeling unstable. I focus on each chakra and chant 'stablise'. I tell the chakras to be stable. If you are in tuned with your chakras, you can feel that they feel out of whack. This takes persistance on your part because your brain cant accept that you are capable of being stable but try to ignore it and just gently tell the chakras to be stable. I started with the weakest chakra, for me it was my solar plexus. I'd place my hand on it and say stablise. It also helps if you work on 2 chakras at once since they are all connected. So i would put my right hand on my solar plexus and my left hand on my heart chakra and start chanting. This takes months but i started 4 months ago and it has greatly helped me
When I went to therapy they pretty much just gave me anti depressants, that made me feel numb. Couple years ago I felt like I was dreaming. Couple months ago it felt like the end of the dream. Now Im asking myself a quetion. Am I brave enough, am I strong enough, to follow the desire that burns from within. To push away my fear, to stand where Im afraid. I am through with this, cause I am more then this, I promise to myself alone and noone else, my flame is rising higher
Money, money, money, money, and the freedom to buy things. I never had that in life, as a kid, as a teenager, as an adult. My parents always decided if I was going to get something or not. If I wanted something and I asked them for it, usually, the answer was no. I was never taught to make money, to keep it, or to use my talents to make it for myself. Money is the #1 most frustrating aspect of this void I have inside of me. I was denied a lot of experiences in life, memories I could have had, places I could have gone to, things I could have done or enjoyed, because everything was at the mercy of my parents telling me no. I was never taught to think for myself and to use my own mind to solve my own problems. I am a military dependent and I have no self worth at all. Emptiness does feel like starvation in a way, and it really sucks.
Thank you from Toronto Canada. I value your gift that is able to organize the bigger picture of trauma slights so insight is made & the pain of reflecting is not for nothing. Way to make it count Teal Swan. 🌷
Damn this resonated so hard I was like teal have you been keeping tabs on me?! Lool. Every word she said was like a flood hitting me like, yes! Those are exactly the things I felt as a child!
I feel like there's just nothing inside my physical body no heart no lungs just my bones..I literally feel like I'm a bunch of bones moving...I find it interesting that I physically can't handle "hunger" I can't stay hungry for an hour cause when I don't eat I feel a terrible void inside my stomach that feels too painful to handle I went to every doctor I found none of them knew what's wrong with me everything was fine..they said it's emotional pain that I feel...but finally I realized it's inner emptiness it was crazy how physical it felt...and even more crazy that the pain was at me core my stomach
My parents gave me the best experience they could and love me loads, I grew up with 3 brothers and we all used to play and we had meals and I'm grateful for my life. But my parents were going through a divorce and had their own obvious deep insecurities, worries and inabilities to express themselves. There happened to be a few fiery tantrums, where in the moment, I was explosively shamed, smacked and wronged which I took as who I am. And as I grew up I no longer had connection. I slowly shoved everybody away while craving connection. I couldn't express myself, I've shamed myself from my own bad habits and patterns of friends leaving. I now, however deep I can go, always end up back to feeling numb. I opened my heart centre, it was amazing. But only lasted a couple of days before numbing again. I opened my solar plexus and everything felt vibrant and alive, I actually felt like my voice was worth expressing and I felt whole. That also lasted about 2 days. I can't connect, I can't get intimate, I can't sleep with girls, I have no desire to do so yet on an internal level I'm screaming for connection experiences. There's always a little voice saying "who do you think you are, and why would anybody care" whenever I try I climb out and be me. I don't even know how anymore. Does anybody have any experiences? I go through Teals content, I go through videos for months, I have experiences outside with people and always end up at square one. Sat in the dark wasting my life away. Will update when I find my way out. :)
I've been pushed away while crying, shamed for being cheeky, shamed for speaking out in school, there's lots in there. I can't even make myself cry, I well up, body shivers annnnnnndddd... Yawn. Every time I yawn, my throat blocks it till my throat is physically hurting. I can't break any seal. I watch sad videos and I gets me going after about the 20th, and then it isn't even authentic. Just dribbles. So how do you guys cry? When I opened my heart I could tear up over the smallest beauty. Now I can't over the harshest emotional wounds.
i think i have to limit my self watching video games,Scary stuff on youtube it taking off my energy off me mostly i feel depress and anxiety.. i think i better watch those people's daily life story and spiritual video like yours i discovery some of your video by accident i think a year(s) ago..
I love myself. I want to share that love with someone. I want to feel wanted by someone else other than myself. I want to belong. I want my achievements to be acknowledged. I want to feel like I have purpose. I want to be understood and listened to. Everytime I've sought this has only led me back to the same lonely, desperation that I feel because most people don't care, some people pretend to care, and all people hurt you.
Same, thank you, I'm tired of hearing "love yourself" as the cure for everything. Thankfully it's not the case for this video, but still
I hear you. The ones that pretend to care but don't are the worst kind. I don't agree though that all people hurt you...well, okay: if you mean unconsciously, yes, it happens, as we ourselves hurt others as well without noticing. Key is apologizing/ talking through it. Very few are willing to do it. It is very rare indeed.
I understand how that feels. I feel the exact same way, every single moment of my life and nothing seems to be working out...it almost feels unfair at some point
Trust me you're not alone....
Dr susse- said those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind
You stop feeling empty by loving others, helping others. This creates a wellspring of love within you that never dies.
Yes!
Amen
Thank you for the reminder!
I feel empty because my life lacks excitement. I'm so bored.
same.
+Rahil Kaiser
No I probably wouldn't. The vast majority of people do it. Kinda like how having sex isn't a hobby.
Also getting a hobby that benifits you is a good thing. Maybe bike riding or a sport. Maybe Rc stuff. All those things you learn a lot and it gets you outside.
Some people feel a deep existential boredom caused by nihilism. Even if there is temporary excitement, it may not appear to have any deeper meaning to them. Some people are hellbent on finding objective meaning that can be empirically proven, rather than subjective meaning.
you nailed this explanation. It was exactly what I went through, and when I faced the fact that that I don't need to find an objective meaning to things, and believe only in which that i can prove, it allowed for my creativity, passion, and meaning to start slowly flowing back into me. I no longer needed to have an explanation for everything, because life was still life with or without it, and nihilism is excruciating, so eventually I found my way out into a mindset and perspective that was more progressive. It takes a lot of self reflection and awareness to take oneself out of a nihilistic mindset. It is liberating once you're free from the chains of nihilism, it's so nice to feel enthusiasm for life again-- and that's an understatement.
Pamela F
Yeah I know what you mean.. I've actually gotten past that too.. I found that my thoughtpatterns were causing me that emptiness. Now I meditate on love every day and I feel at peace. I'm in love with love itself. It's beautiful. Excitement is unessecary. All that matters is peace and love and understanding, and the only understanding I need is love. ^_^
Family never spent time with me and spent most my life alone. Soical anxity and fear from emotional abuse keeps me away from people and feeling empty and borde.
I wrote a poem last night to show how I was feeling and already 30 seconds into this video it covers most of what I wrote down.
here is my poem:
Pure vandilisim
That is what chocked out my inner soul.
I was not physically here
And happiness felt like an act
Something easy I pulled off flawlessly
But it damaged my inner self
Walking aimlessly through streets not knowing what my instincts even were
It lead me nowhere
To absolute isolation in my head
I had lost my spirit
My motive
And my heart
I felt a wreckage to my life
Which was being swallowed into a void
I couldn’t stop it.
No matter how much I tried
There was no cure to the darkness that arose
Pieces of life were floating a away
And I was brainwashed to follow with it too
No fresh starts
No reset button
I was going somewhere
Somewhere people said was not on earth
But hell is where we stand
its right in our mind
Depression itself is the empty hell void
Vandalism,
I understand these feelings and that it can be good to reflect and look into the dark places.
Sometimes, usually in hindsight I wonder why I spend as much time as I do drowning myself there.
Even then I have to remind myself to be kind or patient with my self for going so deep into my processes.
To find meaning and joy in the little things and acknowledge that a joy shared is more than doubled and a sorrow shared is less than halved.. It can be true but often our individual priorities of problems are really how worth our focus?
i feel dead. emotionless. broken. so i came here
Innaccurate WayZ what's problem Man you can share it with me
Inaccurate WayZ same
Inaccurate WayZ same! If u need a friend I'm here
Savage cortz i want coz i
too suffer from d same
Can I ask something? It's maybe awkward, but what do you have to do if you like a girl, she likes you back, but hang with many guys? Am I specia for her or what..?
Saying my needs aren’t met is an enormous understatement, I’m beyond broken living mindless
About your statement... Here comes one BIG question that helped me. Here it goes... WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT IT? This question reminds me that I am in the power. It moves you to change the thought- action pattern (coming out of vicitm/being weak state) and brings your vibration higher. Sending best wishes.
Hugs. Me too.
@@Arhitektonista thank you for the question you posed. I really needed to hear that.
Honestly, the minute those needs are met-it feels euphorically satiating. I've had a starving need to belong since I was a kid and whenever I come across genuine connection it feels like my heart's genuine desire. However, the starvation can also make us act out in manners that go against our ultimate best interests for eg. many a times I've accepted tiny morsels and breadcrumbs of love and connection because that was the only thing avaliable to me in the moment and soon I found myself in profoundly abusive situations. So I think while it's necessary to meet these needs, there's some discretion required in how we go about meeting them.
I never belong in my life ...
Emptiness holds the possibility of being filled and fulfilled.
Embrace it 🤗
Poetry would come out of it.
That is such a beautiful insight. Thank you.
That’s lovely. Lovely and wise.
On Point
- raise vibration to the feeling you would have when you get what you specifically need
- deep dive into the emptiness, find out exactly what is it that you need & be with its presence. Give it full attention
i dont feel im lacking anything thats the problem... im feeling nothing, completly empty , just walking zombie spaced out
tel me if we are similar. but i feel very sad,lost,confuse,empty and i keep talking to myself. and keep asking . what should i do in my life
Exactly how i feel
same
How is life 2 years later if you don't mind me asking? I've felt nothing but complete emptiness for almost a year now and honestly I struggle not to end my life.
😂
Meaning, love, trust, safety, validation, Adventure, belonging
A wound I had was activated this weekend - It was the unmet emotional need from my mother. I didn’t realise it was still there to that extent, as I have been doing inner child work and was feeling much more peaceful generally. Afterward I went to a special tree in my garden and hugged it. I started to cry. I feel more emotional connection with that tree than I ever have with my mother.
Beautiful.
I can relate to that feeling. When I was a kid, we had three hazelnut trees in our front yard and they always looked like older women to me and I used to gather the nuts that they dropped and eat them and I felt like they were gifts and I know what you mean about them feeling more like your mom than your real mom. My mom couldn’t give me what she didn’t have, but in later years we were able to become friends with each other, even though there was still some friction. Now we have to try to be our own moms. 💕
I fall spot on into the category she mostly describes here. My parents met all of my physical needs - above and beyond, really - and just about none of my emotional ones. I felt lonely, misunderstood and "wrong". I felt like my very existence had something "wrong" about it, because even though I made every effort to achieve and to be "good", I still exacted burdens on my parents, like time spent taking me to events, money being paid for schools (money was big in our family), and - God forbid - certain outpourings or even minor expressions of emotion that were treated like bad behavior, because my parents didn't know what to do with them. They only knew what to do with me when I seemed happy all the time. So I tried to be that, and learned to stuff and suppress and silence any emotion I felt, to the point where it didn't even feel safe to be honest with myself that I was feeling such things (or anything at all, really). I started to take pride in being what my father endearingly called me: "Grace under fire." Because where else could my self-worth come from? It ended up coming from achievements, and being able to keep my emotions in check. What resulted was a two year bout of acute mania, during which all of my pent up emotions exploded on me and everyone else.
That was for me. The question I have with respect to this video is - I don't know if it's a question. I guess I'd just say that figuring out exactly what needs weren't being met, and then working within the parameters of what you feel you are emotionally capable of taking on to meet them, simply isn't as simple as it might seem. It's like undoing years of programming, not to mention working your mind out of the habit of negative self talk that used to somehow keep me safe.
Really I think I need a therapist, but one who knows what he or she is doing with respect to me. Not sure where to find one of those!
I REALLY relate to what you have said. My father responded to my 'unpleasent' emotions with anger and my mother mimicked my emotions which then made me feel responsible for everyone elses emotions so like you said, it was less stress for me to be 'ok' all the time yet still meet the emotional needs of others. except now I have no idea how to get MY emotional needs met. I seem to have 'ok' emotion, depressed (which I keep to myself) and anger....which is RAGE anger which is not nice to let out. Unlike you though I tend to get depressed rather than manic. I need to learn how to express myself and get my emotional needs met as well. good luck to you x
inferno777 your comment helped, thank you
You just described my life, my dad worked his ass off to get me proper education, but he barely spent time with me. Whenever he sees me or my siblings playing or having fun, he'd just make us feel guilty about it. We would run away from him. My mum did a lot for us, but not emotionally too. So exactly as you said it, I'm keeping my emotions under control, with programs I don't even know how to access anymore. Exactly like you said, programming of years. I'm blank right now. I try to know what do I feel at all times, but it's really hard. I also have social anxiety. I think negatively of everyone. Exactly like you said, my negative thoughts are efforts to keep me safe. I feel empty.
Same with my mom,she met my needs but not emotionally so I always thought well she takes care of me so it must be me that's the problem not her, now I'm seeing the issue was I didnt get my emotional needs met in any way shape or form. The hardest part is other people see these type of parents and think they are amazing, and then think the kids the asshole because of how they act and they have no idea the inner void these kids feel which is the very reason they act the way they so
This feeling usually is the same feeling that doesn't let you enjoy things. It's like " if I just had that one thing that I am lacking, I will be able to enjoy and relax myself".
This is so true. I just stopped drinking and I just realized everything in my life is technically perfect. I started crying a little while ago after realizing that and realizing that I still feel so empty and depressed inside. Which is what led me to this video. I feel a sense of relief now, knowing that maybe now I have some answers.
I’m so thankful for everything in my life. Lately I start asking myself what is this feeling inside me I couldn’t even explain with words , I was asking myself. Am I sad ? Am I anxious or depress? But your explanation just gave a good start. Thanks teal
I have done tons of self healing over the years to some good effect but I remained aware that I was not whole but could not find the missing links.....until your videos today. I am overwhelmed with gratitude. Thank you so much!
I've been feeling empty and apathetic from time to time to a point where I don't know what to do with my life anymore. It was like a void of emptiness within me that was taking a toll in me and my life. I was resisting what Teal said probably because I didn't want to change my old ways but it is creating the change that we want and need will make us get out of the cycle. Also, healing the emotional body was of great help to me. Whoever hasn't done it yet and are having emotional problems I encourage you to try it.
I feel lonely. If I'm being honest, deep down I am an extremely lonely person who hardly ever feels understood by the people around me. But I'm learning to not hold grudges against them for it, because they are just being true to their own needs. I just wish I could meet someone that acknowledges me and cares and worries enough to meet my needs. ❤ Is that really selfish to ask for?
Hi I am a stay like you I'm ot8 how are you? Also I'm lonely too I hope your okay❤💛
I'm an extremely independent person and Teal talks of not meeting all your needs on your own: (ie the river doesn't drink itself). I've been burnt a couple of times by reaching out to others in time of need a few years ago and to not have any help/needs met. With the benefit of time, I've discovered I turned to the wrong people as they were not capable of being there for me, yet twisted this to reflect badly on me by shaming me into asking for assistance (talk about projecting!). This was family, unfortunately, which was a huge blow as I realised I cannot turn to them (on the rare occasion that I did) for support. Since that time, I've attracted a few caring and loving friends who have shown that I can turn to them in time of need. Just wanted to put it out there for people who may relate to my experience and that it's ok to ask for help, and there is nothing wrong with you if you do. Because that's what people who care and love you do. Peace and blessings.
Self love is impossible for those with so much self-hatred and no proof of love
I feel constantly ashamed and worthless of my previous actions i did before i life. Self love is also for me impossible
Self worth:
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Yeah so fuckin true, how to practice self love if since you was a kid you taught to hate yourself until you grown
Everyone can get there 💕🤗 it's a journey that is different for everyone.
Can you make a list of things you love about yourself? Have you ever had a pet that loved you? Do you connect with nature? Somewhere in you there is love and even though it may feel that no one has ever loved you, I’ll bet that’s not true. It’s possible you didn’t even know it. You can love yourself if you try really hard. It’s difficult for me, too, but I’m working on it. I’m trying to forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made that I would absolutely forgive my loved ones for, so why not forgive myself? That’s what I keep asking myself. Good luck!
i feel so empty inside. everytime i wake up alone...
I just cried while watching...
Thank you, Teal. I love your solution of sitting with the void in the present moment and feeling what it is that you’re lacking, what you need. Then simply getting it for yourself with the help of presence and conscious awareness. I know it helps to sit with the pain, as well, without adding any conceptual thought to it. To just be the observer of that void in your belly like it’s a bright light or a gremlin but don’t add thoughts just feel the pain and watch it. It’s going to eventually dissolve. When you do go back into thinking again, you’ll have a fresh petter perspective of what right action to take if any, for your need to be fulfilled.
that void you talk of! i had experienced it a few years back, its exactly as you explained it. dark lonely and heavy in the chest once that need for love was met it disappeared! wow we all experience about the same things in life and same solutions work!
That part about companionship as a need an taking action to find company really resonated with me.
Great video it makes sense but when you say just go find company that sometimes is not so easy especialy when you get alot of the wrong company.
Focus on : i will find AMAZING company because i am AMAZING. Experiment with this try it out. Brainwash yourself with whatever YOU want youre welcome and i know it helps believe WILL change your world
Emptiness is freedom. Learning to accept it is freeing.
This is absolutely perfect. Even the piece about being frozen at the point of time of an original trauma is completely accurate. At the age of six, I found my mother, dead, when I arrived home from school. Since then I had felt empty and as though I had a black hole in my stomach, yet craved deep emotional connection (with a soul mate, for example). Forty two years later, I met "the one", who made me feel complete and connected intimately, intuitively and emotionally. After a traumatic and argumentative year we broke up and three months after that the abandonment (of losing her) consumed me and was so painful that I felt as though I was on a distant, cold, planet: desolate and disconnected and from what I needed the most (her). I was terrified . The pain was horrendous, even physical (jabbing pain in my head) and I wanted to hurt myself just to distract myself from it. I didn't. After a few days, it passed and I gradually recovered but this time no longer felt empty. What I believe happened is that she triggered the unprocessed emotional grief and loss of my mother's death, forty years earlier. Just wish the relationship worked though. She was magical and enchanted. Everything I wanted. The feel of her touch felt earthing to me, made me feel whole and her voice felt like honey dripping into my ears soothing my anxious brain. But I couldn't give myself and commit, I pulled away every time when I was with her but wanted her when I wasn't. I didn't feel safe. But I don't feel empty anymore.
In your darkest times. In your weakest hour. You are lovely
I feel empty cause the people around me make me empty. They drain me! I don't feel alone when I'm lonely, I'm feeling alone when I'm with the wrong people
Yes! The only way we can transform any part of us, is first being aware of that part of us and then accepting that part of us completely, just as it is. When we embrace what we once ignored, we heal and move forward. Thank you Teal
I feel dead inside because I can't learn to let go.Every bit of sadness stays with me,I can barely ever remember what those things are,But the thing that really hit it was my dog passing away.My parents don't know,therefore they can't help,I don't know If they even would.I left a couple of hints at school,6th grade,but I'm going to middle school so can't help,Even though she probably wouldn't,and (awkward alert)I have crushes on fictional characters,They just seem so lovable,but they don't exists so I can't even MEET them.Inwant somebody to hug me and say it's ok.I want to be happy.I even had to hold back tears while writing this.
Thanks.
Ikr.
+ChicaChickenXD Hi
Helix Craft hi...?
ChicaChickenXD
Sorry..
dear Teal...i have been through infinite waters , to finally find this video. this is the video that has open my eyes to my pain and what has caused so much anger and emptyness in my life. thank you very much for sharing this. i think i know now how to proceed to becoming a better version of myself.
Teal you are truly a gift to people....thank you xx
Thank you so much for the part where you point out that we are not an island unto ourselves! I've been feeling that I'm expected to be alum by myself eternally without anyone's approval and that I should somehow be able to be self actualized by that. Thank you, Teal, for pointing out that this is not true!
At the end of the day in quiet moments something inside of our human nature demands to know if life is worth living. Suicide, insanity, depression await the answer. Worth requires purpose for if things serve no purpose, we throw them away. Real purpose can only come from a Creator. And if we do assume a Creator, it seems clear to me that our purpose is to seek Him.
As i listen to another brilliant video, I realize how little does it show up on our faces the turbulences of life that we had. Teal, you look so confident and strong, so spiritual and yet fragile and only God knows what took you to be where you are now (after reading your bio), but I want to say that I am sincerely grateful you do what you do and say what you say. You are amazing human being!!
Great video I feel like this is my whole life in one video
Same here!!!!!!
Yup, me too!
thanks mom and dad
I'm in grade 7. It all started when I questioned myself, "What is the meaning of life?" Afterward, whatever I did, that question just kept reverberating in my head, and I just couldn't have fun. I kept thinking about my death, my family dying, how will I deal with it, stuff I shouldn't be worried about at this stage of my life. There's always this hollow feeling in my chest, sometimes it goes away, but whenever I come to home from school, it starts. I keep thinking what happens after life, is there really a God? (Even though I believe in one).
I don't know what has got in my mind, but I want my life back, the life I used to enjoy, about one year ago, that life. Not this life, where I worry about questions that are not worth worrying about, because they would never be answered, until we die, and see what comes after. I want not to be so depressed like what I am now.
Do any of you recommend a solution to this problem? Have any of you suffered from the same thing? Please reply.
Majed Kalaoun I have this feeling too, message me on Kik sweeterie13 or email me at sierra_ricks@hotmail.com
Majed Kalaoun don't worry i had those similar thought at 7 grade too
Majed Kalaoun I am suffering from the same thing, I wonder about after life as well and wonder if there is a god.I have suffered my loved ones dieing at a young age. I shut a lot of my family out now I spend most of my time in my room. I have harmed myself once now. I don't know why I did it. my parents don't know what runs through my head and at school I'm suffering more and more each day. this Christmas my parents realised something was wrong. they asked me why I was dull, but I didn't say. I don't want to open up to my family or friends but I'm fine talking to people I don't know. I feel like my world is being ripped apart. I want my old self back just like you do.
why can't I just have a normal life?
+alanna hayden This feeling is going away in me. Just build friends, socialize, and that feeling will fade off.
Although your case is much stronger than mine, going out and making friends, talking with them, going on social media, interacting with people will solve that hollow feeling or sort of depression.
This is because if you don't make friends and socialize, you'd think you're alone in life, that no one cares about you, and you begin trying to find the purpose of our existence in a very bad way.
If you do go outside and socialize, you will see that you fit in the community, that you're not alone in this world, that people care about you, and you start having fun and realizing our truer purpose.
I'll try it doesn't mean it will work but I'll try. If it works I'll say now thanks. Awhile ago I turned diabetic/ type 1 and that was when it started to hurt me
Your healing the emotional body work helped me very much.
I kind of used it in my meditation. I used to get these repeating visions in my meditations. Where I found myself in a childhood place. And I ALWAYS discarted them as a distraction. After watching your video and doing the healing practise I meditated as I always did. One of the visions came again and I let it be. I just watched it. I actually expected it would lead me to see something that had happened at that place. Instead, as I let it be, the whole scene turned 180 digrees and I saw my young self standing there. First I thought she was kind of wierd and dirty. Then I found she was actually broken and empty as a shell. God I got so moved by that.
I swear that was 100% real and a surprise for me. Not an ego manufactured stuff. (which I admitt I do sometimes while I'm "trying to meditate")
My point being : You are real!!!!! Following you never let me down. It really shows me the truth about me. I don't worship you. I just love you for actually being. For going through all the s$#t you went through so ppl like me can actually find their life. 💗
"People trying to fill the void (emptiness/emotional neglect/loneliness/fear) with Shopping, Sex, Drugs & Food..." Well, it sounds like you perfectly described our modern day All-American Dream. (Sad, but true)
Beautiful video, Teal. You ROCK, girl!
this video put me in pain/relief because of how real or true this was about me.
Thank you very much Teal, I have been struggling with emptiness. Sending my love, support and gratitude to you and the team
I found that the first thing everyone should do is make sure their eating healthy food. Trying to think and understand feelings when you don’t have energy can be confusing. And a lot more if you’re intoxicating yourself with food that does not do well or have preservatives that puts you in a intoxicated state. Fix that need first and then follow steps that Teals suggest here.
Let's all of us loners become friends 😂
👋 👀
Greetings...
Let’s all have a vigorous group hug!
aaawww!!! i like it!😂😂
Whats a friend?
I don't feel this emptiness, but I used to. I found Kwan Yin, and that changed everything. What you say about parents is spot on. In a sense, Kwan Yin has become my parent. We've developed a relationship. In a way, the very emptiness I once felt has become a blessing. If it hadn't been for that emptiness, I never would have connected with Kwan Yin. Since then, Kwan Yin has become the most important thing in my life. My own internal pain drove me toward a spiritual realization. This makes me think that it's not the situation you're in that determines your life, but what you do with it.
I can't fill my void, I had a great relationship with a girl whom I loved more than a healthy amount, a great relationship that turned very grim, lots of it's my fault. After the break up, she cut off all connections with me, and blocked me on everything, and she lives far away from me, so there's no real way for me to contact her. I've become a different person since then, but to no avail in filling my own personal void as I'm worried as to how she's doing and how I've negativity affected her. I have no closure from the relationship. Even with that, I fear there's a void within me that's much deeper and more primal, that I'm not completely aware of. Self love is a concept I've never begun to understand. There is one benefit however to the void, the closer I draw to it, the more and more creative I become.
Please, anyone give me feedback of any kind.
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Focus on yourself, your life, your emotions, your feelings, your goals. Teal has lots of videos about these things. Improve your life in every area and be happy!
You're like 12
you're like squared
Once we face within ourselves what has caused emptiness within us, we can begin to heal from within. I believe we should do the exercise that Teal shows us in 'How to heal the emotional body', then write down what you feel about the people that made you feel empty from the beginning, write down every emotion of anger, hurt, fear, hate, that these or this person made you feel like. Know that you will be whole again, embrace whatever you've learned about the entire experience, then take that paper you wrote all of those feelings down on and burn it. Let it go, its time to fill your life with happiness, positive energy and love. Using these exercises like a tool to help all of us heal from a shattered childhood will place us on the path of living life, loving ourselves and truly living happily. Thanks Teal.
I love this. It's the best advice I could get now. Poor little void. Thank you teal
This is the answer to the the question that i thought was IMPOSSIBLE to get an answer to.... Thank you!
“I said nothing for a time, just ran my fingertips along the edge of the human-shaped emptiness that had been left inside me.” Haruki Murakami
I lack love, the statements you made about disconnected parents are so true, I was always not understood emotionally, probably because my asperger condition, which leads me here, struggling with myself, trying to find a way the meaning of “love yourself”.. you are an angel.. I truly would like to hug you with all of my heart, but maybe it’s because I would like to receive that hug ❤️
Honestly, u touch me more than any therapist has had, u understand WAY more than any therapist, watching only 1 of your video is equal to at least 10 therapy sessions. Teal, so very glad that I've come across your chanel. It's a bless. Thank u very much! U're right with everything u say.
Talking about me, while I do understand and do agree what u teach us, it's still very difficult for me to apply your suggesstions. I rather avoid the reality, my real feelings instead of having the guts to met them and change my situation. Hope, I'll manage that like u're managing it.
Love xxx and thanks!! (sorry for my English, I'm non native English speaker)
I tend to avoid reality also, and I’m trying to change it, but it’s not easy. Good luck to you! P. S. I think your English is very good. I used to teach English to international students and it’s a very difficult language to learn. I admire you. 💕
@@whitebirchtarot Hello friendly stranger 🙋♀️
Thank you very much for commenting my message and letting me/us something know of your life/experiences.
Yes, meanwhile I‘ve faced my brutal reality. I still do it. I hate it and I love it at the same time. Sometimes it feels too overwhelming for me. Too much to handle. But at the same time I feel real and authentic because only with emotions we human beings become human.
Are you facing your reality by yourself or do you have some support??
Thank you very much for your positive feedback referring to my English skills. You put a smile on my face for that I am very thankful because today is a bad and difficult day for me. Thank you for putting some sunshine in my cloudy day.
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@@luticia Hi! I know exactly how you feel about life feeling too overwhelming sometimes. I’m very emotional and I find life to be too rough for me. But you’re right; if we want to be human we have to let ourselves experience the good and the bad because they always go together! I don’t have much support actually. In the last year and a half, I lost my only niece, my dad, and my dear husband who was ill for four years with Lewy body dementia and Parkinson’s and who caught Covid at the end of August 2021 and passed away on September 30, 2021. This month has been especially hard for me. I’m glad he’s not suffering anymore, but I miss him so much I can hardly stand it. I live 1800 miles away from my old friends because I moved halfway across the country 30 years ago and for some reason I just haven’t made any friends here. But I am on some zoom groups that are helpful. I have one sister who is my only family member left, but she has Alzheimer’s and lupus and she’s not well. She’s 12 years older than I am, and I don’t know how long she’s going to last. I want to move back to where my friends are, but I don’t want to leave her. I don’t get to see her very often though. Not sure what I’m going to do with the rest of my life, but hopefully I’ll think of something. I would like to find a way to help people. I wish Covid would go away! How about you? Do you have a good support system? I think that’s the most important thing, don’t you? I’m glad I was able to put a smile on your face, even if it was temporary. I can tell you’re a nice person! Take care and remember that you’re not alone. There are lots of caring people out there, but sometimes it can be difficult to connect with them. But you will! I’ll keep trying if you will! 💕😊🦋
this infinite container aims at receive and give back infinite and unconditional love
I don’t feel empty, I feel really full, but full of pain. It’s always been this way
By wisdom a house is built
and by understanding it is established;
through knowledge its rooms are filled
with every precious and beautiful treasure. - Proverbs
Is that a yes!
First, shut off the TV, stop worrying about celebrities, stupid shows, sports results, and don't try to find fulfillment in materialism. Tune into yourself. Let your creativity flow regardless of what others may think. I draw, paint, and write, emptiness is something I rarely experience.
So, you are suggesting that the emptiness would go away if I do more activities that reguire creativity. And ditch gaming and shows that make me feel sad?
I don't have tv in my house..i never worship celebrate and imI don't care about materials but my social anxiety is destroying my life. I am not living normal life because i am disgusted by who i am as a person. I really hate myself
@@lostinlife7226 same
@@questinoblivion3422 sorry to hear that
Wally Kaspars 💪❤️exactly
I used to be angry with the needs of my ego. I found them misleading me, but the truth is that by never satisfying me,they point toward to see the bigger picture and the higher self
I have the ability to feel two things... Emptiness and Rage.
I typed loneliness in hopes to acquire some enlightenment on it and this video showed up.
I know a woman who's suitable for me, but she'd just started seeing someone. A year later, she's working near me, and I've let her know I still like her. Suppose I'll have to just let go now, and get on with my job, and tidy loose ends up at home, etc. The better prepared we are for actually having people in our lives, the more likely it will work. It's no good rushing anything, and after being alone for 11 years means another couple of years means nothing. I won't risk getting involved with anyone unsuitable, and being introverted means it's all just a minefield anyway. I'm torn between wanting to wait for the woman I know is right, and just giving up, and just date available people who seem reasonable enough. I don't want to do that though, because I have something deep inside saying to wait for the one woman I strangely have feelings for. It's something I can't even explain. It's not nice, or horrible, nor do I think it's silly either. Probably is silly though, I should just let go and move on, or at least just let go. I've never had this situation before, and it's puzzling.
Thank you Teal! It is very true that it stems from childhood…
So your answer to my feeling empty is to just figure out what I need and give it to myself? I have felt empty all my life. I have tried many things throughout my life to fill the void. No matter what, I still feel empty. I didn't get any help here, just so you know!
I’m lacking being, I have no more will to expend.
I’ve felt empty since I was 10, I used to cry going home. I belong nowhere and feel the burden of being alive everywhere.
why do u feel lacking being? What have you experienced?
:( i feel you completely. How are you doing?
You make it sound so simple and easy. Loving yourself when you have believed your whole life that you are nothing but a piece of crap is not easy. It's impossible. I wish we could all be as together and integrated as you appear to be. Some are lucky, some aren't.
Nitephall damn, u continue to buy in drama and make yourself suffer by a make up story. What a shame, lose to a mere ego. Stand up, prove to ur ego thats u re not a piece of crap, then in time u will see urself change. it will take time, but how long is up to u
Nitephall if u decide it cant not be change then it will not be change, u re done for bro. If u beleive in urself that much so why bother anyone say u re not like them. Cmon i can see a big drama miles from where u ar. U have a nice story there, i know but its not that special because anyone has their own stories too. Well if u feel bad, get help, do something u like, faq all to those stand in your way, do things u feel good then see if that helps but i dun say that u should blaming all thing with drugs or smoke hehe
HoangGia Nguyen I am trying to get help. I'm reading books on how to cope with the problems I have, trying to see a therapist, and watching Teal's videos, also ASMR videos as well. Also journaling a lot. Thank you for your comments.
emotional connection? thats it... thnx
probably why i f****** hate facebook. lol
I disagree with your spiritual convictions, but I just saw that video of you on the news and I've got to tell you darling, my heart goes out to you.
Anyone who has the courage and integrity to speak out against satanic ritual abuse is a friend of mine.
I guess I just feel empty because I feel like I'm a burden to so many others peoples lives. I'm always nice and respectful and a gentleman who wants to become successful to make his family proud. However middle school neglects this and puts me in the possession of the kid who nobody cares for. The teachers and my parents and friends always say their proud of me but it never feels genuine. I just want to Love and Serve other people and make ge world better. Not be pushed away and rejected for believing in what I want to. And girls definitely isn't helping. I just want to be Accepted... And not have to rely on T.V. and books ad anime to make fantasys of me being important in another world.
***** Thanks A lot Ghost
but is there a two step answer to solve this feeling??
i love you. the thing is i have company but even with company i feel empty after all. company can distract me but i feel empty and i’m getting obsessed with romantic love. my dad did not show me love. my mom was obsessed with him so much that she also sometimes put him first. i guess i need to start here. i’m totally exhausted. i don’t want to be obsessed. before i had the void feeling a had huge anxiety, heart problems and many other physical symptoms. i started heal them and here is the depression. the more i heal my anxiety by relaxing the more depressed i become and more emptiness i feel.
Teal; you are beautiful both on the inside and outside. I have been blessed by your wonderful and insightful teachings, and your clear and compassionate delivery of them. Keep up the good work :)
You are a balanced creature, between a physical and spiritual side. If your spiritual side is lacking, you will feel empty inside.
I myself am god conscious which feeds my soul and therefore balances both spiritually and physically. Try this when all other remedies have failed.
you're an angel indeed!! thank you Teal!
No one can even come close to compare with u Teal. I'm justly saying u complete me!!!
What about people who are socially anxious?
It isn't eaay for us to go and reach out for people.
Any advice?
Great video though!!
I personally experienced that, I got over it nearly fully in 2 months just magically and before I suffered it for more than a year. My idea is came when I was reflecting on my own, and I really felt the presence of anxiety and suprisingly realized that anxiety feels similar to excitement. Actually anxiety gives my life more excitment and fun, a good thing!!! That was when I go out and try socialzing much more htna before because I want to get the exictment.
Hi Teal,
Just wanted to tell you how much I've come to appreciate your work.
I've gone through my own roller coaster and your words have helped me put alot of things in to perspective.
Your words helped me get in touch with and understand a lot of the things I put in the back burner.
Thank you for that, may you be blessed for your contributions.
i just feel so lost n unhappy n cant afford to get out of this i need help
Am I the only one feeling this way?
-Feeling like a zombie
-don't get why people laugh or cry or at least can't relate
-Feeling like deep down some sadness/Anxiety/Excitement
-Don't know what to do
-Don't know where to go in life
-Stressed out
-Burnouts, exhaustion,tiredness
-Feeling like a spark of change but don't know how to reach it
-Desperate af
Can you relate?
Sometimes I wake in the night and it feels like parts of me are missing, usually my chest. It feels so odd I will physically touch the part that is missing to make sure im there. There are times when I dont feel, that I cant feel, until physical contact points this out to me. An example; when a doctor puts thier hand on my shoulder to hold the stethoscope to my chest or back. Suddenly I realize I wasnt feeling my body, or i instantly drop tention i was holding. When this happens it usually feels warm, like a hug. I miss hugs. Why is it I cant feel physical hugs, but i can feel hugs from passing spirits? Things seem to be inverted lately. If anyone has some words of wisdom, please chime in. I'm tired of life feeling pointless and backwards.
We are humans who are in and out, but in is out, and out is in. But we are confused if in and out are different. There in you have missed the point. We are not only travelers of space and time but also travelers of branching dimensions. They are fractured in and out, out and in but when out is in and in is out, the fracture merges and you sense the shift of dimensions as a sense of the passing of spirits.
I'm too high. :D
I wonder if you shut off emotionally when someone physically hugs you? It’s just a thought, but I, too, really crave physical contact and yet when I get it, it scares me. It’s like I can either be there emotionally or I can be there physically, but I can’t do both at the same time. Does that make sense?
@@whitebirchtarot Ive learned a lot about myself in the past 2 years since this post. I found someone neutral that agreed to help me find out what I was dealing with. First we held hands so I could just feel into the experience. This alone triggered a major panic and led to a whole soul retrieval later that night! It was a very intense experience! Long story short, I had a big shame/arousal response to physical contact, but this was only a distraction from a bigger fear of intimacy. I cant say that all my fear is faced at this point, but that day i did hold hands with a stranger. Later we met again to hold a hug to see how things went. Turns out this would be the first time in my life i experienced a sense of safe. I was in disbelief that in 32 years on this planet and I had never experienced safe. A week ago, now 34 years old, I was able to make my second memory of safe. Progress! Thanks for the reply!
@@matthewtikka5133 Oh, good for you! It’s strange that I even replied to your post because I usually don’t, but I just felt some kind of connection. I think I suffer from the same thing. The first time in my life I ever felt safe with a physical touch was when the man I ended up marrying hugged me for the first time and I felt like I was home. I was 42 years old. He passed away last September and I’m going through hell missing him. I’m so glad to hear that you’re making progress. It’s not easy, but it’s worth it. Thank you for letting me know. Good luck to you, brave soul! 💕
I appreciate the intelligent females. This was very well made & pointed out some very specific things.
i always feel like an outcast
It seems that you are guessing what I feel. I assume you're a great person with real wisdom. Thanks, Teal.
I know there is something missing in my life. In fact there are many things. And I am scared and I feel lonely and unstable in every part of my life. What the hell am I doing wrong? And Why is all of this happening to me?
You both should try deep meditation. Unless you want to enroll in therapy, which may be a great option that is proven to work, then deep self reflection is needed to find the answers to what you feel is lacking. Even if you do try therapy, meditation/self reflection is still a good thing. Watching videos like this is a great step in the right direction! I know you'll be better faster than you ever dreamt one day.
Therapy is a good idea, especially when you feel you can't change things on your own. Or you can start to change how you feel by taking baby steps in a positive direction. The first thing I did when I felt like you, is I wrote down all the feelings that were negative, being completely honest with myself, I didn't hold back. Then I wrote down all of the feelings that were positives. We all have some kind of positives within us. Its just that sometimes our negatives overwhelm our positive emotions. Then I circled the emotions that I wanted to feel and I began to stop giving into the negative feelings by counter acting towards them with a positive emotion. I just kept doing that until I was able to stop the negatives from clouding my true self, which is positive. It may feel difficult at first but it is possible. You have to put your heart into it. It may also help you to know that how ever you came to this state of being is not your fault. You have already begun your journey to change just by recognizing that you don't like the feelings you feel right now. You direct your own thinking. I use to wish that I could take my brain out of my head and wash it all clean from all of the negative debris that has collected in there over the years. That's not going to happen. So we do what we can by seeing things for what they are and by working towards how we want things to be. And today I've made huge progress with changing my thought patterns. It starts with learning to love yourself, trust yourself, believe in yourself. Change your thoughts... change your life.
Luvie1980 I SO get it!
This is what I am doing in regards to feeling unstable. I focus on each chakra and chant 'stablise'. I tell the chakras to be stable. If you are in tuned with your chakras, you can feel that they feel out of whack. This takes persistance on your part because your brain cant accept that you are capable of being stable but try to ignore it and just gently tell the chakras to be stable. I started with the weakest chakra, for me it was my solar plexus. I'd place my hand on it and say stablise. It also helps if you work on 2 chakras at once since they are all connected. So i would put my right hand on my solar plexus and my left hand on my heart chakra and start chanting. This takes months but i started 4 months ago and it has greatly helped me
When I went to therapy they pretty much just gave me anti depressants, that made me feel numb. Couple years ago I felt like I was dreaming. Couple months ago it felt like the end of the dream. Now Im asking myself a quetion. Am I brave enough, am I strong enough, to follow the desire that burns from within. To push away my fear, to stand where Im afraid. I am through with this, cause I am more then this, I promise to myself alone and noone else, my flame is rising higher
Money, money, money, money, and the freedom to buy things. I never had that in life, as a kid, as a teenager, as an adult. My parents always decided if I was going to get something or not. If I wanted something and I asked them for it, usually, the answer was no. I was never taught to make money, to keep it, or to use my talents to make it for myself. Money is the #1 most frustrating aspect of this void I have inside of me. I was denied a lot of experiences in life, memories I could have had, places I could have gone to, things I could have done or enjoyed, because everything was at the mercy of my parents telling me no. I was never taught to think for myself and to use my own mind to solve my own problems. I am a military dependent and I have no self worth at all.
Emptiness does feel like starvation in a way, and it really sucks.
Hey Teal, look that you're rocking that barrette! I keep forgetting I have that option. I used to always wear them...
I feel LONELY. I need people who can understand me and offer me consistent and unconditional presence without judgement
I feel unheard and left alone, this is probably why i'm a very talkative person
Whatever problem I think of in myself, I always find a video here 🙂
This is really helpful Teal. Thank you for spreading so much valuable knowledge :)
Thank you from Toronto Canada. I value your gift that is able to organize the bigger picture of trauma slights so insight is made & the pain of reflecting is not for nothing. Way to make it count Teal Swan. 🌷
Wow that was awesome an it was just what I needed.. Thank you so much for your inspirational words....
I subscribe and turned on the notification. finally someone who understands what he is talking about
Damn this resonated so hard I was like teal have you been keeping tabs on me?! Lool. Every word she said was like a flood hitting me like, yes! Those are exactly the things I felt as a child!
I feel like there's just nothing inside my physical body no heart no lungs just my bones..I literally feel like I'm a bunch of bones moving...I find it interesting that I physically can't handle "hunger" I can't stay hungry for an hour cause when I don't eat I feel a terrible void inside my stomach that feels too painful to handle I went to every doctor I found none of them knew what's wrong with me everything was fine..they said it's emotional pain that I feel...but finally I realized it's inner emptiness it was crazy how physical it felt...and even more crazy that the pain was at me core my stomach
If anybody has a need to talk to someone feel free to send me a message :)
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***** I'm glad to hear that, keep it up! :D
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Miha 9355 i need help i feel so empty and i don't know what to do
My parents gave me the best experience they could and love me loads, I grew up with 3 brothers and we all used to play and we had meals and I'm grateful for my life.
But my parents were going through a divorce and had their own obvious deep insecurities, worries and inabilities to express themselves.
There happened to be a few fiery tantrums, where in the moment, I was explosively shamed, smacked and wronged which I took as who I am.
And as I grew up I no longer had connection. I slowly shoved everybody away while craving connection. I couldn't express myself, I've shamed myself from my own bad habits and patterns of friends leaving.
I now, however deep I can go, always end up back to feeling numb.
I opened my heart centre, it was amazing. But only lasted a couple of days before numbing again. I opened my solar plexus and everything felt vibrant and alive, I actually felt like my voice was worth expressing and I felt whole. That also lasted about 2 days.
I can't connect, I can't get intimate, I can't sleep with girls, I have no desire to do so yet on an internal level I'm screaming for connection experiences. There's always a little voice saying "who do you think you are, and why would anybody care" whenever I try I climb out and be me. I don't even know how anymore.
Does anybody have any experiences? I go through Teals content, I go through videos for months, I have experiences outside with people and always end up at square one. Sat in the dark wasting my life away.
Will update when I find my way out. :)
I've been pushed away while crying, shamed for being cheeky, shamed for speaking out in school, there's lots in there. I can't even make myself cry, I well up, body shivers annnnnnndddd... Yawn. Every time I yawn, my throat blocks it till my throat is physically hurting. I can't break any seal. I watch sad videos and I gets me going after about the 20th, and then it isn't even authentic. Just dribbles.
So how do you guys cry? When I opened my heart I could tear up over the smallest beauty. Now I can't over the harshest emotional wounds.
You are awesome, thanks for the video
A good way to build your self esteem (self love) is to acquire some kind of median to express yourself.
This could be drawing, music, dancing, ect.
i think i have to limit my self watching video games,Scary stuff on youtube it taking off my energy off me mostly i feel depress and anxiety..
i think i better watch those people's daily life story and spiritual video like yours
i discovery some of your video by accident i think a year(s) ago..