(not so) Teenage Angst
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 21 ส.ค. 2024
- Again, I hope you guys know that my vlogs are a visual diary of what’s happening in my life and what I’m feeling that week. I’m not speaking for everyone, so take with a grain o’ salt!
Crispy Salmon Skin Onigiri (makes 4)
- 400g freshly made warm white rice
- ½ tsp kosher salt
- ½ tsp sesame oil
- 200mL water + 2 tsp kosher salt
- 300g salmon
- 1½ tbsp Kewpie mayo
- ½ tbsp sriracha or chili oil
- 1 tbsp olive oil
Cooking the Salmon
1. Pat dry the salmon. Season the salmon with salt.
2. Drizzle in olive oil to a non-heated frying pan.
3. Place the salmon skin side down. By placing the salmon before the pan is hot, the salmon will not curl and will crispy evenly.
4. Heat the pan on medium high.
5. Once the salmon starts to sizzle, close the lid and cook on medium low heat for 5 minutes.
6. You can cook only on one side with the steam gently cooking the meat. I flipped it just to show that it was v crispy :3
7. Once cooled, remove the skin gently from the meat.
Dakgalbi
500g Chicken Thighs
½ onion
1 leek
Sauce
2 tbsp gochugaru (Korean chili flakes)
2 tbsp gochujang
4 tbsp soy sauce
2 tbsp honey / sugar
1 tbsp minced garlic
1 tsp sesame oil
black pepper
1 tbsp neutral oil for baking
Marinate for at least 30 minutes, or until overnight.
On a parchment lined baking tray, lay the chicken thighs skin side up.
Bake at 425F for 40 minutes.
Rest of the ingredients:
Pico de Gallo
- 1 large tomato
- ½ red onion
- 1 lime
- Cilantro
- Salt & Pepper to taste
I used ¼ of the pico de Gallo to make guac as well
- ¼ pico de Gallo
- 1 avocado
- salt & pepper to taste
Lettuce
Rice
Sour Cream
Cheese
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Ahhhhh sorry about the repost!! I posted the wrong video an hour ago.. and had to re-render :< Again, sorry to the amazing people who watched it & commented before. Still making rookie mistakes :
It's alright..we all make mistakes :)
No problem!!!! Ly xxx get better soon!!! ❤️❤️
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Ahh don't worry doobs 😄 hope u get better soon love u ❤️❤️
Try going vegan for a month, i bet you would feel happier ☺️
Thanks for being vulnerable. I’ve also really struggled with leaving the house and being excited by things. Glad your recovery from Covid is going well! My day is always brightened by your videos
I'm gladdddd thank you so much for the kind words sarah
Do you seriouy believe she got her sense of smell back? She is lying. She is lying about getting her sense of smell back. She realised she made a huge mistake revealing her losing sense of smell, I mean all her videos are about making dish and tasting them! Who would buy her now when she says "oh it tastes so delicious!" So realised she should have never mentioned about losing her sense of smell so now she is acting ad thought she got it back. Liar
@@jimjames1079 with all due respect, i have seen cases where the person infected gets their sense of smell back, and a gentle reminder, we don't know anything about dooby or how she has been recovering not including the bit she shows us. Please be respectful with what you say.
@@jimjames1079 lol this is a weird thing to get all tin foil about 😂😂😂 there are bigger and better conspiracies out there like Ukraine Russia conflict is a distraction, we all know Covid wasn’t that serious but some people are still in denial and apparently you’re one of them 😂😂😂
oh gosh im so excited for you to finally be able to go on a trip!!! ngl i love your cozy and unpredictable vlogs so much (and rewatch on the regular for good vibes) but im excited for whatever content is to come!
I liked seeing you talk about how you felt like your life had no direction and then once you got covid you realized that life doesn't have to be so deep and it turned your sense of self around I'm very happy for you and I love your content
It's kind of the opposite for me. It's crazy how well life works for many different perspectives. Life for me was going nowhere and I cared for absolutely nothing.
I grew up and became more mature from 17 to 23 was one hell of an adventure in my young adult life. After college I found out how much deeper life goes than just working and finding a girlfriend. I found out life was deeper than finding a way to make more money to become independent and just living life comfortably away from the troublesome issues you can't control from your previous life as a child.
When I moved out on my own and found a job and was able to achieve what I wanted in life, independence, wants and needs like food, a new car, etc. I realized life isn't just being a person living day to day working, paying bills, and eating.
In some way, to some of us at least, life was about finding ways to contribute to humanity. Whether that be part of a group that builds homeless shelters, learning to be empathetic with people from a complete different walk in life, or being an understanding individual (and many many many other things).
I am 27 now, I've had time to ponder on things that mattered to me. I developed a way to talk to people nicely and learned to fight my emotional anger and angst in an effort to just listen and understand an individual, rather than to just assume from his demeanor and choice of words, is who that person is. It's a bit hard to describe as I am still working on it, but I changed myself to become a person who can be connective and understanding in hopes that one day I can see others do the same.
@@daoyang223 man, I uh really don’t want to go through that, and also I do. Maturing sounds like a fundamental and wonderful process in my point of view, but having those thoughts is overwhelming. Every time I feel unclear, doubting, or just unmotivated for no reason is that I’m looking for answers. I avoid those existential thoughts like plague but I know that sitting with oneself and thinking about how your life is going, how you interact with people, etc is important for maturing. It’s just overwhelming. It’s like digging a hole and realizing you’re not even half done. But I want to have that emotional intelligence that you have, stop minimizing people that way and putting a label on them. I want to grow as a person. I’m 15, I’m trying to work academically and try going to a successful university overall, yet my emotional intelligence is below the floor. I’ve realized that I often push people away and judge, yet I don’t realize what is going out of my mind. There are so many things I’ve got to figure out, and I’ve guided myself with my dreams. However, I still know that when I achieve that I’ll be lost and left with nothing. Growing up seems exciting yet overwhelming.
when my mind is messed up or I'm not feeling well, I immediately run to re-watch videos from Dooby, because that can be an encouragement and heal various issues from my mind, thank you Tina!!❤️✨
We’re close in age so I love seeing you navigate the ups and downs that is our early 20’s. There has been countless times where I relate to how you’re feeling and seeing you relentlessly pursue happiness (even when life throws you Rona sized curve balls) inspires me to do the same 💜
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@@Doobydobap your content>>>
Guys i have just recently entered the exciting world of being a person who is in their 20's. Ahhh what advetures we will go on.
@@punchman1075 omg you are so old 😂
@@Rico401Prov lol don’t worry life will humble you soon enough too
I can definitely understand the “feeling sad without understanding what exactly the cause is” part. As someone in their mid 20s, I think it can be good to just ride out those emotions. As you said, there may not be a deep meaning to living life and that’s perfectly ok. You just pursue what makes you feel good and just be conscious (without judgement) of how you are feeling when your emotions start becoming more turbulent/feel overbearing.
Also, when you ate that stick of ice cream, I briefly stopped paying attention and thought you actually took a bite out of a stick of butter lol.
Personally I believe there is a deep meaning to living life but the way our society is currently structured it intentionally leads you away from realizing that so that you can be a consumerist slave to the 1%
@@Saulgoodmane I can also agree with this as well haha
Love how you share about emotions, especially publicly on social media. I think it's important to share things like that so we can normalize it for others that feel the same way and know that we aren't the only ones and that it's okay that you feel that way. It's reason I became a counsellor so that i could normalize a lot of things for clients. It's sad to think that a lot of people think it's a bad thing if they aren't happy. Once you find acceptance, things can shift in whatever way you want
I don’t think the point is why is feeling sad a bad thing? It’s more about is the human brain/body able to resist that level of sadness for an extended period of time? Which begs the question of why we feel sadness in the first place… what is the purpose of feeling sad
@@alectobi144 what you resist persists! and does there need to be a reason why we feel sad? Just feeling your emotions is enough to have it move through.
Loving these vlogs. Your use of silence and subtitles is so calming, and then you add in such tasteful music to aid the feeling of the narrative. Thanks for being so open and honest, we almost all can relate! Keep it up, looking forward to future vids!
Any dog and its ass hair can create this kind of content.
@@michaelpark5681 Must be miserable in life to go out of you way to comment something so distasteful. Praying for u my dude 🤗
@@ofunass3460 I must be doing something right if I triggered your ass enough to write me.
vanilla is typically made with the actual vanilla bean while french vanilla is made with egg yolks for a richer, custard like consistency
French is best
Your vlogs are such a breath of fresh air. The music, the transitions, lighting, content, everything! Definitely my favorite channel for vlogs, good food and company. Can’t wait for the Europe content.
I'll be honest, the first thing I thought was: "oh, she's living on a top tier country, has no financial problems, crearly talented, pretty af. Why would her feel like that?". Living in Brazil sometimes makes we believe that people "upside the Equator" have no problems, everything is always fun and games, but it isn't. I've heard about the high pressure that young people suffers on their choices in personal life, like marriage and stuff, and career, specially in asian society. I don't know if that applies to you, but it shows that every-fucking-where in this world will put you to be tested, no matter your age, economics, talents, etc. I hope you get the best of the best on everything.
I live upside the Equator, just below USA, Mexico, and we also have those problems, wish I only had those problems
@@idontwant2beasoldiermama241 I know, I know... It's just a figure of speech. But I feel you bro, I've been hearing a lot of stuff about Mexico, things are not good
everyone has problems independently of where they live..life is like this, otherwise, we wouldn't know how to differentiate good moments from bad ones. we all just gotta be grateful that we get a chance at living this life once and taking it one day at a time 🙏
Dooby, I love how you don't talk in your vlogs. I was having a really bad couple of weeks, and no amount of music was able to drown out the noise in my head. I put on your vlog and got distracted by cleaning up my room, but slowly realised its nice to have the sounds from your vlog going on in the background to help me feel like I'm just doin' my thing like you are. Thank you for your content!
I can't express how much I love this girl.
she really gives reasons to smile brightly while watching :D
Bro she doesn't know you.
@@TheInfamousDope um ok so what?
@@Sawakoix A man should never say 'love' so easily. Even if we are only on yt.
@@michaelpark5681 wtf I'm not even a man I'm just a fan girl and this lady puts a smile on my face so I love her IS IT WRONG TO LOVE A TH-camR NOW and I don't mean that kind of love she's way older then me bruh
oh god i’ve been in the same spot- still am ngl. people tend to make fun and not take the “emo teenage angst” seriously but we all need a down in order for there to be an up yk- so seeing u inspires me lots :>
ofc the food looks and delicious as alwayssss ✌︎
Those are such inspiring words.. thanks for the reminder 🤍
Not true. You don't need to have a down to have an up.
"If you're having trouble breathing and suffering from high fever you don't contemplate existence of life"
Yep. That's why when I'm feeling depressed, I remind myself how much of a first-world problem it is. While there are people happy to be getting food, I'm upset because I can't find the meaning in mine. That's when I try to focus on small things and take my life one moment at a time, because I'm so used to ignoring all of it. Of course I'm not saying that if you're depressed you're unthankful or bad. That's not true. It's just that for me personally, making a conscious effort to focus on small tasks and seeing the joy in them gives me a new perspective and helps me feel better, it keeps me from spiraling into trying to find a meaning for it.
Well said!
"Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there." One of my favourite quotes from Perks of Being A Wallflower :) I also struggle with the same thoughts a lot so seeing someone else put those thoughts out there was really comforting. Thank you for all that you do Tina!
Thank for the Vlog Dooby. You vlog always makes my day whenever i am low. They are very amazing 😊
No, thank you Achintya for always supporting!!!
@@Doobydobap you are my favorite youtuber. I'll be here always ☺️
@@Doobydobap i feel like faling in love....with you....not sure 333rd time...its like treat to watch you...stay healthy and be as drama queen you are..😘😘😊
Hope your recent days have been a high! ✨🤍
@@_dearolive Thanks Olive 😊
I really feel this. I've been going through the same thing, been working to reconnect back to my purpose and found that feeling sad / disconnected was as a result of that. Hope you're doing better, keep doing you. Holding space for you right now. Thank you for these vlogs, it's an awesome reminder for many out there that they're not alone in what they're going through. Stay blessed ✌🏻
Lol @ 'holding space for you right now'.
"Holding space for you right now"
can I have some of this too?
@@michaelpark5681 Sometimes even a stranger telling you they're holding space for whatever it is you're going through, i.e you're not alone, can be a big help. Not sure what the issue is ?
@@xHuskyy You're fucking gold.
its really nice to hear that someone else struggles the same way i do. i just graduated last year and moved out and the silence of living my own life kills me. i know there’s a potential for deep happiness and fulfillment but i am unable to access it. i fear that i will lose something that i dont even know exists… i recently discovered i actually struggle with unresolved past pain. im getting a therapist and hopefully existence will be less painful once i figure out why im hurting so much. i agree that existence shouldn’t be painful.
i completely relate to what you wrote and it's kinda good to know that i'm not the only one feeling such things. i'm just a random stranger on the internet but i really hope you'll figure things out and eventually find true happiness!
I’ve never felt this glad for someone to get their taste buds back. I love seeing dooby nom
I'm so glad to see you're getting well . Love you 😍
thank youuuuu love you back!!!
I relate to you so much. Living alone is sad but makes you think more about life and what you really are as a person.
i dont want to be understood wrong but being sick alone is kinda part of the experience of life and as much as i saw you handled it so frickn good
My friend, who is a professional footballer here in India had covid, and he felt the exact same as you did. He told me that nothing excites him anymore and he’s been sitting on a hill too while his other teammates are practising in the field. And coming from a guy who’s played and love football since he was 8 years old was so weird. I hope you get better, and love from India.
Bruh did u even watch, she said she felt that way BEFORE she had COVID, and that COVID made her feel less depressed if anything.
dooby's videos are so calming, AND her comments section is too! i feel so happy watching her and being a part of this community :)
I have been there myself, thinking everything had a deeper meaning (existential crisis) and it doesn't. Life is to be lived the way you want. Take it in your stride. You seem like you need inspiration and everytime you wanna go on a trip to get that something stands in the way but take it from me, a 37 year old. Blocks happen because better things are coming. Trust the process... Frustrating I know. I believe in you and your brighter future. Keep going 💗
Ive grown to love your videos over the past week or so. perfect combination of introspection, humor and just the sensory joy of cooking. ive been feeling much the same having recently moved out, to a different state even, and while im intellectually very happy to have done so and it being a great decision in the grand scheme of things, it has brought me a different perspective on life and made me realize how long a game this is, and how it really is about enjoying little moments and taking small steps out of your comfort zone here and there.
the relentless love you receive from people here is touching
I'm on my 30s and I feel conflicted about several aspects in life. I always thought positive but now I don't even get out often. Then I was being too hard on myself thinking I must strive to see better results both in my studies and in my career.I was negative. Watching this video made me realize that there's good in struggle and in challenges. I wish you can keep doing what you like. :)
Hey Dooby, just a suggestion, a high-quality tamper and distributer tool do wonders for espresso shots! Love seeing your evolution in coffee and glad you are feeling better!
... Hey is for horses lil bruh
would highly recommend measuring (weighting) the coffee doses as well!
Dooby is such a dumb name.
Honestly u showing ur vulnerablity is what attracts me to ur videos, like I’m not the only one! Somehow it’s like me watching myself being honest about how I feel about life lol.
i love the serenity in your videos. for me the hardest part about being alone is the silence, but when i watch your videos im almost envious of your silence?? makes me appreciate my silence more i think idk yet ok bye ily
Thank you for such a heart warming vlog. I've been feeling down and everything seems anxiety inducing at the moment. But you sharing your struggles makes me feel like we aren't alone in this. Proud to be a dooby
Stay strong! 🤍
Hi Tina! I’m glad that you’re feeling better. I just wanted to say thank you because you’re the first youtuber i saw that actually inspired me to start learning how to cook. i love watching your content for the food but also because of how you share your life with us. So to keep it short, just wanted to say thank you again and keep taking care of yourself. :)
Do you seriouy believe she got her sense of smell back? She is lying. She is lying about getting her sense of smell back. She realised she made a huge mistake revealing her losing sense of smell, I mean all her videos are about making dish and tasting them! Who would buy her now when she says "oh it tastes so delicious!" So realised she should have never mentioned about losing her sense of smell so now she is acting ad thought she got it back. Liar
"It's not that deep honey"- really what i needed to hear today after coming from school. Thank you so much for being real about how you felt : )
i just... love your soul. thats what makes these videos so comforting. thanks for being you
I'm glad you're getting better! Take care!💜💜💜💜
thank you fellow dooby :}
She is lying about getting her semse of smell back. She realised she made a huge mistake revealing about her losing sense of smell, I mean all her videos are about making dish and tasting them! Who would buy her now when she says "oh it tastes so delicious!" So realised she should have never mentioned about losing her sense of smell so now she is acting as thought she got it back
@@jimjames1079 Go touch some grass. Be normal.
@@pinkmatter8488 paranoia is a hell of a drug
@@jimjames1079 💀💀💀
Omg you’re getting so much better and better
Is yet to come! Believe me I’m old, and the trick for me at your age was, and still is, truly taking each day for what it is and not putting so much focus in yesterday or tomorrow.
personally i think your background music choices are always fabulous. they aren’t too distracting but are satisfying to fit the video and sound good too :)
This is the great barrier we all hit. Breakthrough will come. It’s ok to feel sad. It’s ok to say no when you are pressured to say yes. Counseling, a solid group of people who speak life (even when it hurts) into me, and my relationship with the Lord has helped me get through this last rough season of my life. Blessings, sister.
Dooby picking up dropped foods is one of things that makes her so relatable
Yessss
going to sleep excited to make a cup of coffee the next morning is too relatable 😆 much love to you; glad you’re feeling better
I usually save your videos so i can watch them while i’m running on the treadmill at the gym, but i’m glad i watched this one at home. You bring such a cozy vibe to my life and i’m grateful for each video you post! I hope you get to travel and see beautiful things in the near future.
so glad to see you doing better, i was genuinely worried! and you're not being a drama queen at all and i agree with how you felt after getting sick. i didn't get sick but i went through a really bad episode of depression that was like no other. im doing much better now though and my perspective changed after i got out my my slump that felt never-ending. and one thing is that life is meaningless which is why you should enjoy living, being in the moment, and having fun.
I’m really happy that you’re feeling ok, I was really worried when I first found out, I honestly even prayed for u hoping that u would get better but I’m really glad you’re starting to feel better ❤️
Tina, I am in my late 20's and still feel like I have no fricken idea wtf I am doing and what I want out of life. But its good that we ponder these things right rather than passing through life obliviously, you are certainly not alone gurl ! Also that gochujang chicken looks amazing, gotta try that twist on a chipotle bowl, plus some scotch bonnet on that salsa, I need my spice! ❤❤❤❤
when we're sick both mentally and physically, our human instincts to survive naturally kicks in and suddenly, now that we actually know what being in actual pain is like, we actually don't want to face that sadness and live like that anymore so we do all we can to survive the hard moments and when the big storm is over and the sun shines again, we are once again reminded of our strength and i think we as humans, we all learn that one way or another in our lives and that the rain doesn't last forever and the sun will always shine again. stay strong dooby! you are so strong !!! 🤍🤍
I love this video. Everything about it. It's honest and gives a true insight on mental health. I struggle from depression, PTSD, and severe anxiety. Thank you for this. Plus, that food at the end looked really yummy. ❤️
Stay strong! 🤍
@@_dearolive thank you sweetheart 💋
Was literally having an existential crisis and a mental breakdown an hour ago , I'm not even 20 but I don't even know what to do with my life , just gotta keep going I guess .
You said what makes u excited to the next morning is almond latte ig, and those days what makes me excited is ur vlogs honestly since im so stressed bout finals it really gives me a good feeling to watch ur calming vlogs and i love ur jokes it makes me feel like we r besties in some kind of way haha, i hope u see this and it makes u feel better
This channel is a safe place for me ❤️ such a blessing to watch you.
I'm so glad to see that you're doing better! Fingers crossed for your London trip! Traveling is going to be a breath of fresh air for you after all of the madness I just know it.
French vanilla is usually just the difference in texture cause they add eggs lol but I've definitely been where you are. One thing I found that helped was trying new activities and meeting new people through them. Tennis, hiking, yoga, fishing, surfing if it's available in SK lol also traveling is good but hard nowadays. Life's too short to put yourself into a box, you're definitely capable of a lot! Glad to hear you're doing & feeling better!
you are so hard on yourself!! you don't have to apologize, you know, the things you're feeling 99% of human beings feel at some point, i'ts okay
. i really like your content, lots of love
I am really grateful you shared unnie! You see,I am a teenager and I too was feeling the same everyday.I was trying to figure a better reason to be sad but then i was always guilty. The main cause of it was my dream was to become an artist and then there is my Asian parents who is willing to do anything for it not to happen but you always inspire me and make me feel better and I really appreciate you!Thanks for making our days better.
I admire how you look life into perspective and translate it into realistic vlog. I tend to overthink things as well. Finding meaning in everything I do... But yuh, not everything has to have deep meaning. Sometimes existing is already a meaning of life. Have a safe trip to London. Can't wait to see more of you. 🌹💘
I can relate to this so much. I struggle with anxiety and depression and if I don't find quick solutions I just tumble into self doubt. Like rn am struggling with finding evidences to support a theory (because Researcher) but seriously not coming to conclusions and thinking what will I tell my seniors is driving me insaneeeee!!!!! Lots of hope, patience and love for us who are trying to get out of our comfort zone and show up ❤️❤️❤️
Hope you find what you need and are able to celebrate your successes soon! ☺️✨
@@_dearolive thank you ❣️
Man It felt like you just broke down my feeling in words when I was in quarantine too. It really made me humble and be grateful for every small little things that I took for granted such ad my mother serving me my meals throughout the day.
I legit have a crush on you from watching how you cook and just putting your soul into sharing your life. Doesn’t hurt that you’re a timeless beauty too!
we all feel like that sometimes but for these dope, excellent and crispy videos you give us know that we would never "yuck your yum" on this channel. at least for me. keep going. great work 😂
Anyone else just find a video from her randomly on their recommended and is now totally addicted.
Meeeeee, idk what it is about them but they are so relaxing.
I feel so seen! You are definitely not the only one who feels this way! Sending you love and positive thoughts and a virtual hug.
I love your videos so so much, just enjoy watching it. It's refreshing, the moment your video drops am like yayy everything has to wait, headphones on have to enjoy this video
I wish I was as cool as Tina!
As do I
I nominate tina as one of the most beautiful woman in the world 😎
@@kdfteddy2677 Lol jesus fucking chirst.
@@michaelpark5681 how does it feel to be Tina's no. 1 stalker / fan
@@qwertyboo Hi my number 1 stalker/fan!
I love this bc i've had and am having those exact thoughts rn and its good to know I'm not alone
your editing is amazing... everytime I watch one of your videos is like a chapter of a good book
I love your videos , they’re always so non sketchy and real. it reminds me that everyone is human somehow and everyone goes through vulnerable times even those who are perfect in my eyes (you)
@22:18 exactly the thing I would have done! never let good food go to waste! Glad you're back Dooby = )
This sounds like a first world problem to me. In my childhood and youth, I did not have much, and now I live in order to give my descendants more in the future than I had myself. Idk, for me it sounds deep enough to keep studying, working and pushing my way through life.
Your honesty and sincerity is why we love you so much, enjoy ever day as if it were your last . Glad your feeling a whole lot better.
I love your honesty. Watching your vids is a vibe. Calming.
I love this, like I’ve just gotten into my twenties and love people who are bit older in their twenties literally be so realistic and honest about their ups and downs… makes me less panic in my life and my future 🥺🥺
So funny. I got married at 22, worked like crazy only to lose my wife ten years, then lose everything.
If you are ever obsessing, having an existential crises, then work more. It will not solve your problems, but you will at least pass time and have some accomplishments.
That food falling off the spoon is just so perfect, it's like the universe wrote the script of this episode
A year and a half ago during covid I was stuck at home for almost the entire time.
When it started I was soo happy that I would have so much time to just play games the entire time and not be worried by school or whatever. Maybe 2 months in the happiness and excitement had died down and I was getting kinda bored. Being bored was weird because I didn’t think I’d get sick of playing but yeah it happened. So I asked my mom what I could do to not be bored and she said I should ask my friends if we could do anything. But then that was a really hard thing to do cause I didn’t really have friends. I had just gotten into high school (my country’s school system might be a bit diff from yours but bear with me) and didn’t know anybody. And then the boredom suddenly made me think a lot more than I usually do and I started feeling very lonely and very lost. All the nothingness started making me feel so alone and so confused. It was a living nightmare. I started realising that I didn’t have any friends, I wasn’t doing well in school and I had no fucking clue what I was supposed to be doing. Trying to find that reason or goal I was supposed to be achieving really stressed me out and I wanted to find it but it just wasn’t there. I was in full blown depressed mode, I was a 15 year old teen with severe hair loss and I just looked like shit. Didn’t wanna tell my parents because they didn’t like this type of stuff and I knew that and they’re response would probably be to scold me for ever thinking like that and that I was wasting my time. Shit started getting really out of control when I lost my appetite for any food and my body clock was so fucked up. I would sleep at 10 in the morning and start my day at 6 in the evening and it was just terrible. This went on for months and almost a year later I actually met someone online and they had the same experiences as me and they sympathised with me. They had gotten through that rough time that I had just begun and they told me something that you wouldn’t think as comforting “bro you’re 15, why are you stressing out about something you should be doing in your 30s”. That made me realise that the shit I was so afraid over, was never really there. I had been so bored in quarantine that I started overthinking SO much to the point of stressing out about what I should be doing in my 30s… bitch I’m fuckin 15 why am I thinking about this shit. Then I opened up to my parents and they were so supportive about it and they were so disappointed that I thought they would scold me about this. We talked it through and it made me feel so much better about myself. Things gradually started to ease and after maybe 2 months of struggling I’d say I’m back to my good ol self again. I’d even started working out and actually paying attention in online classes.
I even made some friends from school through discussing some homework.
So yeah I’d say it was the worst thing I have ever had the misfortune to experience but I’d say it has really benefited me and I’ve learned to always be in the present and just value what I currently have and don’t overthink things that haven’t happened yet. Those things will come with time and I think I’m more than ready to take them on.
If you’ve actually read through me describing my “emo teen phase” then the best advice I can give you is through one quote that perfectly resonates with me:
“The future is a mystery, the past is history, but NOW is a gift, that’s why it’s called the present” -Eleanor Roosevelt
I felt the same way few weeks ago, Being in solitude is mentally strengthening and straining on oneself, but having that occasional human motion/energy/frequency of the world outside of our grind is reassuring that you’re on a journey. Having someone to share the emotions and the feeling of joy is a gift in life. You know you best and when you feel lost, you are exactly where you need to be
this was really comforting to watch as I'm currently recovering from covid, can't wait to see your adventures in London/Europe :)
I actually really appreciate you sharing the process in which it takes you to edit / prepare a video (especially interwoven into your day). I think we typically take things for granted and assume everything can be outsourced. While I love your videos already (and take a lot of pick-me-up advice with me along the week), it’s even that much more meaningful to see the process. Rooting for you and your work ethic!
I love how you articulate feelings that I, and I think many of us, have. You make it feel okay and like we aren't alone struggling to figure out how to do life right. Thank you for that :)
Only TH-camr I watch their videos from start to end! You’re vlogs make me feel like Im part of your day lol
I came to the same realization when I was diagnosed with cancer. Luckily I'm fine today, but continue to fight it for the last 14 years. There is no grand goal of life; just be happy and share it with others along the way is what I learned.
Well said
The ending with the music… insane. Love your videos to the ends of the earth :)
This video was really comforting :) sometimes I feel alone in my worries but seeing that it’s normal to feel emotions is comforting 💗 this was healing 💐
this made me so happy. the whole video was just so relaxing and the things you said in the beginning really uplifted me for studying. thank you!
Reading all that is exactly how I felt before and after I got over covid. It made me very grateful and thankful. Cheers to you dooby, glad to see you’re recovering well.
So wholesome to watch, nearly made me cry to find other people who had the same experience. I'm gonna keep watching, and hope you have a great day, at any time.
Thank you for being vulnurable. My day is always brightened by your videos.
I love your videos, each of your videos give me an personal fulfillment for my LIFE!!!! Love you!! Stay safe!!!
Immaculate music and you a real juan Tina ✨ thank you for sharing and connecting everyone across the world. Glad you’re feeling better
You are the definition of inspiration ✨
I’m actually obsessed with your vlogs, they are so relaxing to watch😂 not over dramatic like other TH-camrs *cue explosions/fireworks every two seconds of editing
I really mean it when I say it when your videos help shape the way I think about life. I’ve been increasingly introspective in a similar way and your narrations help me realise I’m not the only one in my early 20s grappling with similar questions.
Keep doing what you’re doing 🤟🏽
Sending good vibes to you from a big fan in London!!
The fact that you're aware of your crisis while I'm not back then I swear it's hard to even breathe every day TT
‘Another one-DJ Khalid’ 😂🤣 and I died at *thick thighs saves lives*🤣🤣🤣 your vlogs are becoming a routine for me thank you for sharing and always being authentic 💯❤️
Everything has meaning, and yet nothing has meaning. The more we learn the less we know is the saying or something like that. It’s so cool to see someone share their experiences like this because I think a lot of us think the same things, but you got the balls to put into the world. And for that I look up to you.
I love your vlogging style and how you bring about such relatable content. Good luck on traveling and keep up the good work!!
you don't understand how this made my day. you put all my thoughts into words! 🤍 i've been ruminating on the purpose of existence the past few weeks, and it's a daily battle to find meaning bec we are literally on a floating rock on space!! 🥲 on the other hand, i'm terrified of time passing and growing old. life is a confusing concept but i guess it's up to us to create our own happiness. so proud of you, dooby, for braving each day and spreading some love & joy in this otherwise bleak world! 🌸
just discovered you and I am hooked, what an amazing perspective you bring, you voice what I have been feeling for a long time and while I watch your videos, for a moment, I do not feel alone...Your wisdom at such a young age is amazing too...
I have felt the same way for a long time, I have tried to set new goals and have tried to find things to look forward to.
And working for my new long term goal has helped me look at things more positively.
Thanks for always bringing a smile to my face and making me find the best bops to listen to while I'm cooking
The line is “Though this be madness, yet there is method in 't.”
Also you a complete and constant source of solace and joy.