Omg I was in law school at the same time, this is giving me SUCH flashbacks to watching these study videos in my own study breaks 😅 thank goodness this time is over
Being in Cambridge for 4 years and about to start the 5th year (I’m a vet), I’ve never felt so close to the past Holly 😢 I didn’t understand your life style at all when I was watching your videos while I was still in high school. I only understood it all when I came here myself. It’s just a place where you can’t stop. I’ve not had a single day here when I felt rest is justified. When I’m in the bubble, I’m actually fine by forcing myself to forget about everything other than studying. I don’t feel pain until long summer breaks when it’s like suddenly emerging from the deep water. Then I’d realize life is actually not just grades in Cambridge but actually has so much more - friends and family, traveling, hobbies…… The only way I (barely) survived Cambridge was and still is by burying my true self, the one who always craves new adventures and values close relationships. I never believed that uni life should compose of only studying, and I naively thought I could combat the Cambridge toxicity; yet I failed disastrously. 4 years past and I still haven’t found a way to enjoy life here. What’s worse is that I feel like my uni years have been wasted, as one can only have such short periods in their lifetime to explore the world with hope and faith. I feel like my ability to love, to laugh and to believe in a bright future has already been deprived permanently. Saying all these, I could only let myself think like this for 20 minutes. Then I have to neatly bury myself back again and keep grinding 💔
i started following you while you were still in cambridge and its so amazing how much you've changed and how healthy you became over the years, so proud of you 🥰
as someone currently struggling with chronic fatigue, I found myself experiencing a lot of difficult emotions while watching this. I had a few years where I was able to work long hours, but now I don't know if I will ever be well enough to accomplish my goals. I just hope that I can still make myself proud in some way.
@@5itka I’m glad I’m not alone, but it really does suck. I hope you get your energy back or at least that you make peace with your current capabilities.
It was so interesting to see your study videos when you were a student at Cambridge. It is good to see older videos of yourself while you were a student. Of course, I would love you to show old videos of yourself and see how you have grown and changed.
Omg I remember actually watching that study with me when you first put it on TH-cam!! 😮 I was in university at the same time as you, and loved watching your study with me’s to help me be more productive and would study along with you. Would love to see more of these reaction videos ❤️
Ahhh, Holly is having her Heraclitean moment, realizing she cannot in fact step into the same river twice. It's amazing the kinds of reactions that are generated from looking at yourself in the rearview mirror as an older person (with security). This is my first time on your channel 🙂. I'm liking it so far. I am curious about students in the natural sciences and STEM fields on TH-cam though. I'm following people with literature, writing and art vlogs for the most part, then some, and they all think they're 'geniuses' breaking new ground. Refreshing to get a taste of minds actually pushing the boundary of knowledge
omgg Holly I actually have to be honest I forgot your name for so long (very sorry) and I always wanted to rewatch ur old videos so I'm so happy that this video just popped up on my timeline!!! I've loovvedd your Cambridge studying videos and it inspired me sm for school and uni. If I remember correctly you have always written your notes on blank paper and bc of you I started that as well and I still do my notes on blank paper. It's so beautiful how grown up you are and honestly reflecting you are about yourself but also being proud of what you've achieved with a sometimes maybe unhealthy lifestyle. Personally for me your videos very inspired me back then to be more productive bc I've always struggled with stamina whilst studying. I'm gonna rewatch your old videos now and in the next few weeks it's so nostalgic. So happy and grateful to have stumbled upon your channel once again. 🩷☀
Haha thanks! And for sure, there’s no denying that ✨ my personal growth though has definitely been pretty crazy, and I’m very proud of how far I’ve come 😊
You looked so sad and like you said robotic, I wish academic culture normalised lower workloads so we didn't have to push push push and could focus on feeling better in ourselves - if you ever want to make a video addressing these things it would be interesting to hear your perspective on it!
Unfortunately Cambridge doesn’t care about shit. They’re always like ‘if you can’t keep up with a good mental health, it probably means that you’re the wrong candidate for our uni and you’d better quit’ ☺️
One of my friends had severe depression here and wanted to apply for a gap year, and she literally battled with her supervisors, tutors and college management people for two months so that she wouldn’t be forced to quit. They just told her to quit because she had depression…… She was traumatized even more after this, but now that she finally graduated she’s got much much better.
@@_astrog137there is also something called Fitness to Study which is the most evil thing ever - it happened to a friend of mine and they decided to do it on the first day of a new term after she’d lost 2 friends within a month the previous one (with no warning).
Hello sister, I am an undergraduate student from China currently in my sophomore year. I have been watching your videos to motivate myself to learn since my last year of high school. However, before our country had an intranet, I couldn't log in to TH-cam, so I could only watch our domestic reposted videos. Now that I have finally logged in to TH-cam, the first person I pay attention to is you. Sister, you are a Cambridge top student with excellent self-discipline and a role model for many Chinese students. Now that I am in my second year of university, I am also very confused about the future. I hope sister can reply to me, how can I plan my future path well? thank you.
I have been following your videos for several years. It seems that you finally are able to see the ed that what was obvious to pretty much everyone. In some years you will probably realize that at this point you still have some obsessive behaviors wrt food.
I also feel like, the longer I’ve been doing TH-cam the more I’ve dissociated views and numbers from ‘success’ … and to me, that is super important for motivation, consistency and happiness, most importantly 👌🏻
she vlogs because she loves, doing it for views will never make you happy. plus most youtubers who do this as their full time job have less views than her
Omg I was in law school at the same time, this is giving me SUCH flashbacks to watching these study videos in my own study breaks 😅 thank goodness this time is over
Haha undergraduate was inTENSEEEE to say the least 😅 but I’m so glad we both came out in one piece on the other side 🤓😏😏😏
@@HollyGabrielle haha thanks for providing the necessary motivation!
Being in Cambridge for 4 years and about to start the 5th year (I’m a vet), I’ve never felt so close to the past Holly 😢 I didn’t understand your life style at all when I was watching your videos while I was still in high school. I only understood it all when I came here myself. It’s just a place where you can’t stop.
I’ve not had a single day here when I felt rest is justified. When I’m in the bubble, I’m actually fine by forcing myself to forget about everything other than studying. I don’t feel pain until long summer breaks when it’s like suddenly emerging from the deep water. Then I’d realize life is actually not just grades in Cambridge but actually has so much more - friends and family, traveling, hobbies…… The only way I (barely) survived Cambridge was and still is by burying my true self, the one who always craves new adventures and values close relationships.
I never believed that uni life should compose of only studying, and I naively thought I could combat the Cambridge toxicity; yet I failed disastrously. 4 years past and I still haven’t found a way to enjoy life here. What’s worse is that I feel like my uni years have been wasted, as one can only have such short periods in their lifetime to explore the world with hope and faith. I feel like my ability to love, to laugh and to believe in a bright future has already been deprived permanently.
Saying all these, I could only let myself think like this for 20 minutes. Then I have to neatly bury myself back again and keep grinding 💔
i started following you while you were still in cambridge and its so amazing how much you've changed and how healthy you became over the years, so proud of you 🥰
as someone currently struggling with chronic fatigue, I found myself experiencing a lot of difficult emotions while watching this. I had a few years where I was able to work long hours, but now I don't know if I will ever be well enough to accomplish my goals. I just hope that I can still make myself proud in some way.
I feel this. I used to be able to do so much, now I feel exhausted all the time.
@@5itka I’m glad I’m not alone, but it really does suck. I hope you get your energy back or at least that you make peace with your current capabilities.
same happenes with me too 🥲
I still watch these all the time! I love them, they motivate me in school
Haha I’m glad they help motivate you 😉🤓
It was so interesting to see your study videos when you were a student at Cambridge. It is good to see older videos of yourself while you were a student. Of course, I would love you to show old videos of yourself and see how you have grown and changed.
Omg I remember actually watching that study with me when you first put it on TH-cam!! 😮 I was in university at the same time as you, and loved watching your study with me’s to help me be more productive and would study along with you. Would love to see more of these reaction videos ❤️
Ahhh, Holly is having her Heraclitean moment, realizing she cannot in fact step into the same river twice.
It's amazing the kinds of reactions that are generated from looking at yourself in the rearview mirror as an older person (with security). This is my first time on your channel 🙂. I'm liking it so far. I am curious about students in the natural sciences and STEM fields on TH-cam though. I'm following people with literature, writing and art vlogs for the most part, then some, and they all think they're 'geniuses' breaking new ground. Refreshing to get a taste of minds actually pushing the boundary of knowledge
Thank you for this video! Such a healthy reaction and sets a great example of being kind to yourself
omgg Holly I actually have to be honest I forgot your name for so long (very sorry) and I always wanted to rewatch ur old videos so I'm so happy that this video just popped up on my timeline!!! I've loovvedd your Cambridge studying videos and it inspired me sm for school and uni. If I remember correctly you have always written your notes on blank paper and bc of you I started that as well and I still do my notes on blank paper.
It's so beautiful how grown up you are and honestly reflecting you are about yourself but also being proud of what you've achieved with a sometimes maybe unhealthy lifestyle. Personally for me your videos very inspired me back then to be more productive bc I've always struggled with stamina whilst studying.
I'm gonna rewatch your old videos now and in the next few weeks it's so nostalgic. So happy and grateful to have stumbled upon your channel once again. 🩷☀
This video was so good to watch and I’m glad you can honest address the poor physical/mental health you had at Cambridge, you’ve come along way.
You were my inspo for studying and loved watching your videos. Tried your kind of note taking and still using it.
My granddad also passed away very recently on the 13th of August. So I feel you Holly❤ thank you for this video😊
I remember so well those study videos 😢❤❤❤❤ they were amazing
Haha they definitely were iconic 😂😅😉
@@HollyGabrielle thank u so much becaus u used to motivate me every single time, ur Moroccan subscriber 🇲🇦
Holly is not only pretty. She’s intelligent. Such rare combination. Bless you child
Awww 🥹 thank you! 💚 this is very kind ✨
not really a rare combination, most pretty '' women are very intelligent just society overlooks that and views them as objects
Sorry for your loss Holly 🙏🏻
I LIKED the Holly bun!
I really enjoyed this video! Can’t wait for the next one. You should let us suggest some of our favorites to react to!
You worked hard! Fair play to u! And love your vids Holly🤪😁
Haha thanks! And for sure, there’s no denying that ✨ my personal growth though has definitely been pretty crazy, and I’m very proud of how far I’ve come 😊
Thanks for the video (: Have a good day Holly 🫶🏼
Notification gang❤️ all the way from south africa🇿🇦
Ahhh I love that!! 😌💚💚💚
And hello from the UK 🤓🤩
You looked so sad and like you said robotic, I wish academic culture normalised lower workloads so we didn't have to push push push and could focus on feeling better in ourselves - if you ever want to make a video addressing these things it would be interesting to hear your perspective on it!
Unfortunately Cambridge doesn’t care about shit. They’re always like ‘if you can’t keep up with a good mental health, it probably means that you’re the wrong candidate for our uni and you’d better quit’ ☺️
One of my friends had severe depression here and wanted to apply for a gap year, and she literally battled with her supervisors, tutors and college management people for two months so that she wouldn’t be forced to quit. They just told her to quit because she had depression…… She was traumatized even more after this, but now that she finally graduated she’s got much much better.
@@_astrog137there is also something called Fitness to Study which is the most evil thing ever - it happened to a friend of mine and they decided to do it on the first day of a new term after she’d lost 2 friends within a month the previous one (with no warning).
Plssss put a lil ed trigger warning 😢
Will add to the description 💚
13:48 you didn’t have your period and your mom didn’t worry? Didn’t you take hormones or anything to have it back?
Hello sister, I am an undergraduate student from China currently in my sophomore year. I have been watching your videos to motivate myself to learn since my last year of high school. However, before our country had an intranet, I couldn't log in to TH-cam, so I could only watch our domestic reposted videos. Now that I have finally logged in to TH-cam, the first person I pay attention to is you. Sister, you are a Cambridge top student with excellent self-discipline and a role model for many Chinese students. Now that I am in my second year of university, I am also very confused about the future. I hope sister can reply to me, how can I plan my future path well? thank you.
I have been following your videos for several years. It seems that you finally are able to see the ed that what was obvious to pretty much everyone. In some years you will probably realize that at this point you still have some obsessive behaviors wrt food.
Genuine question : How are you staying motivated to keep posting even with low views? I imagine it must be tough. Love from India 🤍
I simply love filming my life and sharing it in my little corner on the internet, that’s it 😊✨
I also feel like, the longer I’ve been doing TH-cam the more I’ve dissociated views and numbers from ‘success’ … and to me, that is super important for motivation, consistency and happiness, most importantly 👌🏻
she vlogs because she loves, doing it for views will never make you happy. plus most youtubers who do this as their full time job have less views than her
How many times do you say "yeah" in one video?
When I was watching these videos in real time I was in highschool, now I rewatch them to keep me motivated through uni 🫶🏽