TRANS GUY REACTS TO GIRL PICTURES | NOAHFINNCE
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- IT IS ME, NOAHFINNCE REACTING TO PICTURES OF WHEN I WAS A GIRL.. THE WHOLE CLASSIC "TRANS GUY REACTS TO GIRL PICS THING" BECAUSE I WAS MEAN TO MYSELF IN THE OLDER VIDEOS I DID ON THIS!
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alternative title: Noah talks about his hair for 26 minutes straight
*26 minutes gay
LMAOOO
i was waiting for someone to say it
Your username says everything about you
I completely forgot this video was not about his hair
I think I had recently found your channel when you released the ‘I was an ugly girl’ video, and it’s honestly such a privilege to grow along side you. When I followed you then I thought I was an intense straight ally (come on, many of us have been there) and now I identify as bisexual/lesbian. I’ve been watching your videos for a while now and it’s fun to reflect on how much has changed in the meantime. Thank you, you’ve really helped me and also a lot of my genderqueer friends. I don’t know what’ll be going on in a year, but I know I’ll still be subscribed to your channel and learning from it.
I actually gasped when he said looking at himself in the mirror made him want to crawl out of his body because although I don't feel dysphoric very often, when I do that's the exactly what I feel like! Obviously I'm not happy about either of us feeling that but knowing at least one other person knows how I feel makes me feel so much better
As a gay guy. I love being a male. And if I was born a female, I think I would have transitioned too. I think we, cis people, are very lucky because we don’t have to go through that.
oh wow 💀
@@nieaktualne55555 oh sorry, did I say something offensive? Sometimes I don’t think things through.
As a lesbian cis girl, I love being a female too, I would have transitioned too
@@raulantunez4228No, don't worry, you didn't. I have no idea why they said that
@@nieaktualne55555What?
I love how careful Noah is in this video to make sure that younger trans people don’t have themselves. It’s so sweet and he’s a great person
it's hard to remember that cis ppl see the agab versions of us as "normal" even though photos from those times in our lives usually look so wrong to us
My family actually doesn’t really like looking back at my pre transition photos. It’s weird looking at them. They don’t really make me or my parents feel uncomfortable but it’s just feels like we are looking at a picture of someone who doesn’t exist anymore.
For real… it’s like… you know that was an empty human in a weird way and even by the way you pose you can tell 😅
You wonder…how is people not seeing that I’m deeply uncomfortable ?
I'm cis and Noa in a dress does definitly not look "normal". I think veryone in the LGBTQAI+ bubble realises such things. Not all of us are the stereotype old-white-hetero-cis guys 😂
The amount of growth and self love you’re showing is absolutely incredible. You’re old video made me so sad hearing you be so hard on yourself. I totally got it, as I had my moments where I felt that way too (I think we all do especially as teens/kids), but to hear someone else have the those same thoughts…it broke me, because I never wanted anyone to feel and think the way I did for a short time about myself. Life is all about growth and learning to embrace yourself and just be you. You got it figured out, dude. Happy for you.
It’s so cool to watch how your perspective of yourself has changed. You’ve really grown❤️
ik this video was a year ago but watching ur videos makes me more confident being a transmale
@user-vb3go2xz8che is accepting himself and accepting he is a trans guy, you don't know him and yet you manage to be an asshole, instead of bitching about people who know who they are go complain to a manager or something, I'm sure your good at it
Aww look who deleted their comment
I'm really sorry about the mean comment, I'm trans ftm too btw :)
I recently finally came out to my friends as non-binary and starting using my preferred name. They are really supportive of me thankfully.
Is it okay if I noticed later in life and didn't know until I was 11?
sure everyone goes at their own pace!
I'm so grateful to be growing up in a time where transgender people are more common and more people are educated about what being trans means, and there's so much more support for being LGBTQ+.
I'm a trans woman and I can relate, I know those feelings to need to appear in a completely different to way that you feel like and panic
My hair is the opposite to how yours was. It's really dry and dandruffy so I have to condition it often even with short hair. Also I was a people pleaser for the first 11 years of my life and then realized I really wasn't happy, cut my hair and the rest is history. Basically my "girl phase".
i am you
Omgggg me rn
When I was in elementary, I think it was 4-5th grade, I got made fun of for my facial hair and arm hair. I was actually happy that I had facial hair when I hit puberty, but I got pretty ridiculed for it.
Jokes on those little gremlins, my hair got thicker and helped me feel better later on. Now I get told by my one friend that they are jealous of my sideburns. (I’m FtM)
Once I hit high school, it all just got so much better. I started socially transitioning in high school and I really have to admit that people are right when they say high school is the best setting with school (at least for public education).
At least for me, high school is best.
you look happy and in peace with yourself now , glad to see how far you've come. i've been here since end of 2018 and seeing your growth was really inspiring.
no cuz why am i crying rn lmao i only subscribed to u 2 years ago so its not been forever but seeing u be more kind to your past self is so precious n im so proud of u bestie
I’ve been watching Noah for a few years now, since I’ve been out pretty much but somehow it always surprises me how he’s my age and came out and got on r and top all pretty close to when I did, probably because it’s easier to see how he’s grown and changed over time than it is to see for myself. Anyway it’s always helpful to watch his vids and it helps me see how my perspective has changed over time too.
Oi, learning about his relationship with his hair all his life makes it to when he says "I hate my hair" in other videos hit home differently
*I hope this is received as intended*
I can't lie, I love the old pictures. In part, because of how obvious it is that you've been Noah all along. I used to look at my old pictures and think about all the things that hurt--it hurt how much I could see myself trying to please other people so that I wouldn't be harassed...Now, I look for the parts that were immutable. No matter how hard people try to tell us trans folx that we don't know ourselves, no matter how much we're forced to hide it to be safe--our transness exudes life and joy. I feel like it's that undeniable beauty that helps keep us alive and moving forward and progressing towards this moment. This moment of greatest authenticity and self determination. That said, I quite like the picture at 24:28, because like you said--your decision to start living as yourself becomes so clear. The black to maintain the emo side, the converse instead of heels, your hair is short again, your posture even seems more stereotypically masculine--it all says Noah. I'm so happy for you that you get to be yourself, and proud that you knew yourself well enough to fight for yourself. I'm 29 and part of my journey as a trans person has been made easier by your videos, so thank you.
you've literally never looked like a gurl, like it feels so wrong that people thought you were one
*“hello underachievers” just makes my day*
that would sound so weird out of context bahah
Superb video, Noah. So raw and honest but at the same time, sweet and very *you*!
I'm so thankful this generation has you tubers like you.
Love from a mum of a beautiful 13 year old trans boy on this very same journey! X
I couldn't come out either when I was at school and not for a LONGGGGG time afterwards either. I have now and I'm living my real life. It's sad in a way that even 25 years after I felt unable to come out at school and to everyone else too, trans people STILL have the same issue. I'm so happy you are living your real life now and didn't have to wait as long as I did. Loved the video. So interesting to see things the other way round!
I look up to you Noah. Thank you so much for existing
I went to the Primark in Blackpool behind the tower today and was wearing my Life’s A Bit hoodie and the person at the till complimented it and said they watch Noah too. It was so weird finding another Underachiever in the wild. I was really shocked when they said they liked it and met him
I recently came out ads trans and I also have autism so almost all of my clothes were picked by my mom same with haircuts, she did it to "help me makes friends give a conversation starter." What I found is I used to have this black in white I am told I have to be a girl so that's how it is regardless of my personal feelings.
So I met some trans kids and as naive as I was; I was like whoa I want to look like you and be you not the girls but the men in the group I talked with them and realized how I was feeling was not very cis of me. After a long mental debate I came out in 8th grade twice like a month or two apart I was basically told I was faking since I didn't act like xyz and bullied by staff and teachers never mind at home.
Finally had the courage to come out again end of my junior year. I'm finally starting the process of transitioning and I couldn't be happier.
damn, i used to do the exact same thing with pulling ugly faces in photos because then i was "in on the joke" about being 'ugly'
You have come so far! We're all so proud of you! 🖤
Noah talking about hating wearing dresses is really relatable. As a trans guy with unsupportive parents, sometimes my mom will make me wear feminine clothes and it makes me want to peel off my skin. Like i think "why do i look like this? This isnt me." because in my mind i am a guy. Im glad that at school though, i have a lot of supportive friends and teachers so things are better now!
@@Nico_was_here1201 abandons family for friends and teachers who won’t be for you in the end 😭😭 this is a major part of the trans agenda
This is wholesome... I've got a young relative who has just come out to me as teams and sworn me to silence because I'm trusted and safe. So I'm scouring the internet for things to help give them confidence that i, as a cis woman, can't help with other than lots of unconditional love and keeping their secret safe until they're ready to come out more later.
I knew I'd seen your younger photos somewhere, but I love that you privated those videos because of how harsh you were about yourself for the dysphoria you were forced to endure. This is accepting that shit happens, it was out of your control, and seeing you able to accept your origin story is sweet. Life beginning at 19 isn't the worst thing.
So i watched this with young relative, and they said "young Noah looks like the girl in lots of your high school photos. Oh my god you were dating a girl! Your 'boyfriend' was your best friend which is why he's your best friend and it's been like, 20 years or something since some of the photos! You were a baby bi still in the closet! I can't imagine you in the closet" - and I laughed because I'm nearing 35 now, and holy heck i can't imagine closeted life again, which is something I said to young relative. That it sucks now but with time there's a point of no return and life just gets better.
Also, I just raided my old photos and yeah, young Noah looks like young baby bi Kati's secret girlfriend which is surreal because I watch your videos with a sisterly pride and amusement. Like, only my siblings and best friend can call me "loser" but it's endearing in that little brother way when you say it.
So, hopefully my young relative finds some comfort after I've directed them to you, Jamie, and Sam Collins because you're all wonderful humans doing completely different things and not at all forced into a box of what people think trans is/should be and what you're capable of.
God this is sonsappy and sentimental. Gonna go be an underachiever for a few hours before I have to teach veterinary medicine students important shit.
it's lovely to see you showing yourself more compassion. I can't imagine how hard it must be to live with dysphoria everyday and have to feel that all the time, but I think it's important to remember that even people who aren't trans look back at themselves and cringe at the things they did.
Hell, I went through a HARDCORE "not like other girls" phase when I was younger, and now when I look back I cringe. But I didn't understand back then that i didn't actually hate other girls or frilly things or the color pink, that my "not like other girls" phase was actually a response to the gender roles and patriarchal ideas that were forced upon me by society, and that's what I was rejecting and was so unhappy with.
We all do those kinds of things and go through that sort of phase where we reject the social BS that's thrust upon us and do whatever we can to reject the shit we hate and find ourselves, whether it's just rejecting typical gender roles, the idea of heteronormativity, or the gender assigned to us at birth.
I imagine it's much more difficult and confusing when you're trans though, especially if you don't understand what it is you're feeling exactly or why you don't feel like everyone else does, and the pressure of society and other kids must be brutal.
But my point is, I'm glad to see you showing yourself some compassion, because we should all be kinder to our younger selves. It's not our fault we're forced into these boxes by society that we don't fit and don't understand, and that we struggle with that while we're figuring ourselves out.
I'm so glad that you've gone on that journey though and been able to become who you were always meant to be. You're an inspiration to so many younger trans kids out there who are struggling with themselves, and I hope that they can see how far you've come and know that there's hope that they won't have to feel so shitty forever.
Also, little edit: Maybe it's because I know the version of you that I see in your videos now and the person you truly are, but honestly, I look at damn near all those older pictures of you and I just see a young boy. A young boy who's going through the emo phase, or a young guy who happens to be dressing in girl clothes. Like I said, maybe it's because I know you're a guy, but somehow I see those pictures and I still just see a boy, I still see the real you even through all that feminine crap you did to try to fit in. (Hopefully you get what I mean and that didn't come out screwed up or offensive)
I absolutely hate how society has made hair=gender. I'm not a girl but love having long hair.
Me,
0-3: long hair and dressed like a girl
4-10: long hair and dressed like a boy
11: cut hair same style and questioning gender
12/currently: trans masc, androsexual and demiromantic
This vid should be named: my entire HAIR STORY 😂😂
To be honest, as a trans guy (FTM), your videos give me much confidence about me transitioning in the future, since i cant really do it now as a minor. I wanted to thank you!
Best of luck to you! :D
I'm genderfluid and my parents sent me to an all-girls school to "Fix me."... I met my boyfriend (he is trans.)there
I'm so proud of you for being kinder to yourself!
OMFG i just remembered something one of my VERY VERY VERY ex-friends said when we were having a neutral conversation about LGBTQ and she was like "I just think its weird that these people have to decide when their so young!" And omg when i tell you this pissed me off...... WE DONT HAVE A CHOICE ITS HOW WE ARE BORN
12:57 Now that takes me back to the good old days...
"Can you hear the silence? Can you see the dark? Can you fix the broken? Can you feel. Can you feel my heart?"
I'm 14 rn and I think I'm trans but i am so confused and idk not sure ig? bc I didnt exactly wanted to be a boy when I was younger. It was more like me wanting to finally have puberty to feel like a “real woman“ and for the past like 2-3 years I just accepted it and thought thats just how everyone feels as a girl and all. But when Igot further into the LGBTQ scene bc of my sexuality and gender I thought already almost a year ago when I just turned 14 that I could possibly be trans, because of many reasons. I literally thought abt it for 4h at night but at the end I just said I‘m nonbinary. But now here I am again :,)
Btw. the first time I thought abt this so much was bc the thing that I noticed the most was, that I only had like butterflys in my stomach when I saw two boys being gay yk, like in animes or fanart or whatever, and I never felt the same if I‘d imagine this as a boy and girl, it just felt wrong. But at the same time I thought I was just fetishizing it lol
and btw. I was going to a christian prv. girls school since I was 8 until this new school year-
Which also means I never knew really any boys or how they are diffrent from girls and was just scared of them bc yk I just didnt know lmao 💀 Now I‘m still to scred to speak to them except if they do the first step lol (also bc of my social anxiety tho lmao)
And yeah now I‘m just not sure if I could even be trans yk
Last comment....knowing him as Noah......it feels like he's showing a random girl s photos....he's come such a long way as a dude, that I'd swear that was another person and I couldn't imagine Noah as a cis girl. If he wasn't a guy before....Noah defo is now. NO-ah going back. Excuse the pun.
Whenever he mentioned that he didn’t cut his hair I was just like “NOO- THE DEAD ENDS”
Me: Look at girl pictures of Noah
Also me: Why is he crossdressing lol
im a bigender (i think)person, transmasc, and i loved watching this
seeing that it's not just me freaking out about my hair T-T
i'm trying to gain the confidence to cut it short
i cut it short in 5th grade and haven't since- and it makes me sad
i think ill cut it short because of the happiness you said you got
thank you :)
I've only got ONE pic of myself when I was still "him". I only use it for transition Tuesday pics in trans groups. People are so surprised between old and new me
Your childhood photos where you say you looked like a girl, they just remind me a lot of my little brother, haha.
Awkwardly sitting on the toilet trying to pee like a “boy” is so real 2:48
bro, you looked more like a boy as a kid/teenager than I ever did and I’m f*cking cis lol
24:55 oh the joy of a double life
dude u pass so well i couldnt even tell u were trans
AHH THIS COMMENT SECTION-- Everyone is so supportive!! :D
Everyone?
I'm watching this when noah is about 26. His voice is soo different here.
Hey Noah! I know this is an old video but I want to say thank you. This video helped me understand the experience of a loved one (except they are MTF). What a journey! Also wanna say: I'm cis but goddamn I hate dresses/skirts and I don't shave my legs (or pits) anymore (lol). F the patriarchy. People need to quit fetishizing biological sex.
Our culture has women running around in circles obsessed with clothes, hair, makeup, shaving, plucking, waxing, bras, shapewear, dieting, exercise and on and on and on so that we don't even effing realize we don't have the same rights and societal value as men. So much TIME is wasted on appearance. And in many cases it's against the person's will. There are tons of CIS women who are doing all this stuff you describe for the same reasons--to fit in/avoid bullying--even though they don't want to do it! UGH. I'm not saying no one should do any of it, but I think people should just do what they want and less importance should be placed on completely unnatural changes to appearance.
That said: I'm 50 years old and in summer I still live in dread that someone will make a comment about my hairy legs to try to shame me. More than anything I'm worried that I won't be able to quickly think of a snappy and delightfully-mean comeback. But it's not enough to actually make me shave my legs. :D LOVE YOU!
I cannot believe he is 22 I thought he was like 16
ok but that bob is mine now
specifically copyrighted
it looks like a mullet but short
*mine*
the best feeling is when people think you're a boy for me. like, they have never seen me before- boy. It's honestly the best feeling in the world.
I want all the details for Noahs haircut NOW,,, like- How does that work? How did you bleach it to such a pretty color? What was the cut or is this styling and how do you style it???
3:46 I think every kid has this haircut at some point. I’m a girl and I had this haircut from about 3-6, so did my sister, and my dad had it too 😂 I hated it cause it looked like a bowl cut. Idk if I can forgive my mom for it, I looked like an egg while all the other little girls had cute braids and long hair
You are such an amazing person to look up to I am super proud of you and how far you have made it and how you actually feel good about yourself now as far as I know and can look back at yourself and not think “ew I was an ugly girl” and that you see the sad little child that grew into a handsome man and how you have made it so far
When I was a kid I use to cut my own hair every chance I got, my mum hated it and thought it was just me messing around, but I remember being like 5-6 and thinking about being a boy and like my brothers and dress like them, I grew up very tomboyish and was a “daddy’s girl” so my dad would dress me like a little tomboy and Shi because that’s what I liked, and when I got to about 11-12 I started cutting the under part of the hair to hide it, then when I got home id tie it up and only have the short parts out, after a while it became a stress reliever and when I was upset I’d cut my hair, my mum hated it and one time I walked out of my room on a Monday morning at 7am and I had cut off most of my hair, it was waist length I cut it above my shoulders and was using the name Alex online, my mum had no idea and still doesn’t know so that’s fun, if your still here thank you for listening to me ramble
I love the one with those pillows in the back and the beanie pic ooo
A tiny thought about the girls in your boarding school: all the compliments on your body and how good you looked in dresses, is probably because they could sense a smidge of how uncomfortable you were, and wanted to reassure you by projecting what they themselves were insecure about! Of course, that compleeeetly backfired, but that’s in my experience how most people give compliments! Perhaps that can shape some of those horrible memories to something better, I think they really were trying!
I liked this comment a while ago, but rewatching the video and seeing it again I just want to say, like this is an amazing comment because some people in the comment section are sort of bashing that girls (they mean well lol) and this is probably what was going through those girls heads :)
This is exactly what I try to do and it’s so sad to think I could compliment someone to try to raise their spirits, only to accidentally hit their dysphoria right in the face. But I think it’s okay to have good intentions and realize you still hurt someone. We all do it eventually.
@@jazwhoaskedforthis Every sinner, including homosexuals (lgbtq+) are all called to REPENTANCE:
Luke 5:32 I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
Matthew 9:13
But go ye and learn what that meaneth, I will have mercy, and not sacrifice: for I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.
Genesis 13:13
But the men of Sodom were wicked and sinners before the LORD exceedingly.
Romans 5:8
But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
Luke 13:5
I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish.
Luke 13:3
I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish.
You won´t be heard by GOD if you have not come to REPENTANCE:
John 9:31
Now we know that God heareth not sinners: but if any man be a worshipper of God, and doeth his will, him he heareth.
John 3:3
Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
John 3:7
Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
Because of the lack of knowledge which you all also practice, therefore none of you truly know, what you are doing nor what you are supporting.
Luke 23:34 Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots.
"I only started being a person when I was 19, and I'm only 22 now so" resonates in a way that i don't know how to explain
Same here and I'm not even trans...
Yeah as an 18-year-old who has recently been kind of freaking out about the fact that I haven’t gotten anywhere in life that line definitely made me feel a lot better about myself
@Real Ray i understand that so much. i feel like i'm still waiting to truly live because the way my parents have decided i have to be is so different than who i really am that most times i don't feel like a person at all. but as every year passes, i see myself becoming more and more of who i really am and i am watching as my parents loose their grip on me and one day, one day soon ish, i will begin to live, and i can't wait.
it will get better for both of us, i think. until then, find the good in the little things i guess, and continue to figure out who you are so that when you can finally be yourself, you can do it so loudly
@Real Ray damn, yeah i kind of get that. I'm not trans so i can't pretend to understand how that must feel, but the part about being born a dead son waiting to live really resonates with me. i feel like my mom had an idea of the kind of child she wanted me to be even before i was born and since i don't live up to that, I've had to discover who i am all by myself and bide my time until one day i can finally shout in her and my dad's face: this is me and there isn't a damn thing you can do about it.
it makes sense how having to hide your gender identity would make you feel like you aren't living and i can understand how hiding something as important as your true gender identity can cause you to have to hide so much of the rest of yourself as well. i hope that you are able to be your true self one day, gender identity and all, loudly and proudly, and that everyone in your life will accept you for the real you.
here's to waiting to live
I am 19 right now and kind of feel the same way, only started living for real this year since I graduated from school and went to university. I am not trans but I still felt like I could not be myself before. I have a lot of nice memories from childhood though so I did definately live before. But right now I feel like this big and exciting, but sometimes scary world has opened itself up to me for the first time, that I am finally free to live my life as I want to and to do the things that truly matter to me.
“It sucks being a trans person and being complimented on the aspects of your body that make you want to die”
Took words off my mouth
it's absolutely horrible. i remember my friend at the time commenting on how my hips were getting bigger and how it finally made me look feminine (i was already masculine presenting) and i really thought of just jumping under traffic then and there. still one of the most traumatic interactions in my life
Literally same my moms friends being like “oh your such a cute GIRL” yeah thanks 😒 or my mom yelling when i was younger “you need to stop acting so uncomfortable with your body why do you do that your a girl all of us are like that 🙄” maybe i didn’t wanna be a girl mom 😇
@@reever_r sameeee
oh, now all makes sense
I dont even consider this a compliment
this should be titled noah's hair journey
Top comment but no replies?! I’ll fix that!
How has this only got 3 comments? It’s the top comment!
Maaaan, I had the almost exact same relationship with my hair in the past. Super long, scene layers for many many years... Deffo hid behind it. Even obsessed over it, because it was like, the only thing I ever got complimented on. So, as an anxious teen uncomfortable with their gender and changing body might assume from that praise... Long hair = people liking me....despite all the gender issues hidden over layers of EDs, mental health issues, and just assuming I had super low self esteem.
Funny how I only started recognising myself in the mirror after I chopped it!
Omg I love your videos Jamie
Such an icon
YOOO JAMIES HEREEEEEE
me: just scrolling through the comments
me: **sees something that looks like jamie's pfp**
me: **scrolls back up furiously**
me: JAMIEEEEE
my name is jamie too
it is my name
the name i chose for myself
ive always loved the name and when you chose it i loved it more because i was like "wow this super awesome human has my name too!"
This comment is literally calling me out rn-
The fact that Noah as an older trans guy doesn't want us younger ones to hate ourselves like he did, ik it's such a little thing but it means so much to think someone who's experianced it wants to look out for people still in the deepest pits of it. If that makes sense :,)
This sounds so dumb of me to say about myself but i dont feel like i can acept myself i dont wanna be the real me yet but also i do and i wanna be a boy but rn i feel like struggeling in self aceptense😅 (i know my pfp probaly look femine i forgot to update my pfp this photo is from a show i used to watch 3 years ok oops😂)
@@pastelpurpleflowers4044 tbh i feel like a i kind of relate to that like... i know how i feel and how i have been feeling about my gender but at the same time i think deep down that i wish i didnt have to deal with it, like there have been times where i have considered trying to identify as my agab but i could just never go through with trying to do that bc doing that wasnt bc i thought i was wrong but bc if i were cis again then i wouldnt have to worry about losing anything but at the same time i just wouldnt be living like me. Sorry if i put words in ur mouth and the long paragraph
@@rejecthumanityreturntocrab6521 no you dont and oh i'm glad not being the only one wich i know i arent i feel like being cis is an act and it feels like hiding who i am but i know if i keep pushing thro i maybe one day can come out and acept myelf for who i am tysm for responding you seems pretty nice and yesh i am glad someone responded because idk what to do with myself sometimes😂
Older? Holy shit i'm 22 and i'm still feel like a little kid D:
@@pastelpurpleflowers4044 very relatable
“I was very depressed obviously. Not just because of the trans thing *flicks wrist* 💅 “
Always remember: Every picture is a reminder of how far you've come. Even if you feel like there's no way out and you don't even recognize yourself in the mirror, every small choice and act of self-acceptance is another step towards your best self. To those who can't be their true selves right now, know that there are people out there who support you and amazing people like Noah providing inspiration for your eventual success. Take a deep breath, and keep your head up. You can do this
Thank you very much❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
Anytime!
I- no I can’t :D
Right back at ya
Not me having a baby picture of me giving my mom the stink eye
I absolutely love how a transition video slowly became a haircut progression video
somebody call brad mondo!
“If I can’t be an emo boy then I can be an emo girl” fucking preach Noah!!
@@jeremylee5990 nah
@@jeremylee5990 🏳️🌈
@@jeremylee5990 no tf he is a guy-
dumbass
@@jeremylee5990 aaah. the girl NOAH.
I'm guessing the Jeremy dude said something concerning
him talking : kalm
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I'm so impressed with you. You're here on the internet letting everyone watch you grow as a person.
I'm old enough to be your grandparent (and trans) and if you were my grandson I would be so proud! Keep being you!
💙
Omg my heart just melted ☺️
love that you are an old trans person
I'm not trans but I'm genderfluid, bi, and a big LGBTQ+ supporter. Can you adopt me as well?
My heart
crazy to me that Noah's like "well even tho i was already masculine i still looked like a little girl" and in my head I'm like "no you didn't (?) what are you talking about" idk if it's his current image that's too strong for me but my brain cannot fathom that kid being a girl lol
Same. The only picture where he looked like a girl, he was asleep. Even with long hair he looked like he belonged in an 80s all male hair band
Yeah he was always a guy. That photo of him in the black dress (the last time he wore a dress) looks like a guy who was made to wear a dress by his mates and feels awkward about it. If you took the photo from the neck up most people would see a guy. I feel the same way about Jammidodger's pre-transition pictures .
"I knew I was not the best looking, maybe I wasn't ugly, but I felt ugly, so in all my pictures I tried to make ugly faces to counteract how ugly I felt because I was like 'oh, what if I purposely make an ugly face then people can't call me ugly they'll see a picture of me looking ugly' and it's I look ugly because I'm pulling a silly face, uh, so that's what I did".
Dude, I really feel that...
Yeah, when he said I was like oh I did that too
All my old pictures of myself are so bad because I felt this way
Yes I still do that when my friends want to do selfie with me. It kinda annoys some of them unfortunately so I try to just not look at myself when they do the photo
@@sprout_05 same
Noah! You won't remember this at all but you did a video looking back at your early T videos etc, and I left a long comment saying you were way too harsh on baby Noah & should be kinder to him. So hearing you saying you should have been kinder to your younger self & setting a better example for other trans people made me do a little cry. I'm super proud of you! Also, I'm 32 & going through some gender stuff and love your videos, so it's not just young trans people who you inspire & support. Sending you so much love pal, you're doing fucking great ❤️❤️❤️
Noah is amazing and he gives me hope when I'm feeling low. I'm 21 months on hormones (I'm a trans girl) right now,I'm really depressed as I've been waiting 3 1/2 for my first appointment at my gender clinic
@@themikaylashow1987 aww, I'm so sorry for that. I know I can't do anything much, but just know that you're so swag and very strong. I'm so proud of you!
@@ollie5963 thank you so much. My family hates me for being trans but all my friends has noticed how much happier I am being on hormones
@@themikaylashow1987 It sounds to me like your friends are your real family, most of my biological family hates that I'm trans as well (ftm) I don't associate myself with them anymore and I now think of my friends as my real family.
@@ollie5963 totally agree,my trans family IS my family
"Young trans guys"
Me: woaahh he's talking about me
It was just the path of least resistance :'( That broke my heart so much. It is so amazing to see you look back and clearly articulate your feelings but also be kind to your past self.
I find myself salting the earth every time that I miss you, I feel the way you do.
it hits so hard :/
And I don’t deserve you, you deserve the world.
When I was little (maybe 5) my mom got my brother a Superman costume for Halloween and it had the six pack and everything. My brother said it was uncomfortable and so I said I would wear it. I walked around going house to house and every time someone called me “superwoman” I would say “I’m superMAN!” Looking back on it I’m thinking wow. How can my parents not tell.
Me in my room at 4:28 am like “HELLO UNDERACHIEVERS!”
'ELLO UNDERACHIVERS* ;)
that picture of you smiling after you cut off all the bottom layers of your longer hair made me genuinely smile after all the discomfort in your other pictures. ilysm and am so proud of how far you’ve come :))
never thought i’d be so invested watching someone talk about their hair for 26 minutes
Me neither, and I took time off studying for this. He is so entertaining to watch and I never leave a video of his feeling like I wasted time (even if it is about hair, which he somehow makes enjoyable).
me neither
@@vavacadoz same
Sometimes I find him so relatable.
Fun fact about haircuts, Noah: the first "scene haircut" picture you showed... I knew several guys in high school with that exact cut (though, by my time it was no longer cool, tbh). That was definitely a popular "guy haircut" from the '70s to the mid '90s in the US, I'd say. 😊
That haircut came back when I was in middle school. So many guys I new had a long scene haircut
"I look like a little...Oliver twist, orphan child here"
😂
who is zayn
@@peterevans6480 unrelated but ok haha, zayn is from one direction, in 2015 he moved on from 1D to do a solo curreer, hopefully that’s enough information haha, if your wondering about my pfp, he is being framed for something at the moment, most of the DIRECTIONERS are setting this as their pfp
@@lees_act ah ok that makes sense. ive been seeing these pfp a lot
@@lees_act but didnt he admit to it? and there is nothing to "stand with"?
@@peterevans6480 my hubby
I always smile once I hear “HELLO UNDERACHIEVERS”
I love your profile pic
💙💚? What the fuck? Not a video I thought I'd find y'all on.
@@songofthesea6353 yeah didn’t expect to see sonic x Shrek here 😂
@@findrochelle I was thinking Larry Stylinson?
@@songofthesea6353 I am indeed a Larry fan
I am your age but feel so behind. I had always experienced dysphoria as a kid but i thought it was just Body Issues like they teach all young girls not to worry about. I also dated a guy all through high school and until i was 20, who kinda formed my identity as "girlfriend". I didnt mind doing girly things bc it made him happy and i thought thats what fulfillment is. Just over a year ago i bought my first binder and cut my hair shorter than i ever had before, and i finally feel like myself. Like so, so free. I just wish i had the chance when i was younger to get started with transitioning with hormones and surgery, trying to get started at 22 feels so impossible when youre graduated from university and finding jobs and panicking whenever a recruiter calls me by my birth name lol
As a gay guy in school, I avoided doing sports lessons as I found the other boys hated me being in the same changing rooms, that always accused me of perving on them.....I got bullied slot for my sexuality in school. I used to skip sports class as a result and used to end up with detention for it. But I never told teachers why. Now as an adult I never use public places for my gender and pee in a cubicle as it just makes me feel uncomfortable..... seriously bad school memories have lasted in my mind.
Hah my school is so gay that we end up hating on the straight people more than the straight people hate on us. I’m sorry to hear that though man, i know how much this stuff can get to you.
I feel that, I'm gay and I live in a religious conservative part of America and I get scared sometimes when I go to school
@@rafaelfactor120 I feel your suffering. My school days thank goodness are behind me, but boy does the mental hurt from that period of my life stay with me. Prejudice is so awful and unacceptable. Stay strong brother and always be you. Never let the haters win. Being gay isnt something to be ashamed of, its something to be proud of. It's a part of you, never apologies for it and never hide it. Be gay and be proud- as am I fully these days.🏳️🌈💙👍
@@Sam-zu5mr I feel more scared in my own home because my parents are hella religious and they believe me being gay is like a disease or a sin or whatever
@@rafaelfactor120 it ain't a sin or a disease....its how you feel sexually. A true sin is not supporting your sexual orientation. Your thier child, they should love you UNCONDITIONALLY. That's what love is. You are who you are and never apologise for it....not even to family members. If there is a God....you will be loved for being your true self and by living a truthful life. If your Gay, God meant you to be that way....think about it. Your sexuality isnt your fault, you were made that way. God made you that way. Hope this helps.
Im a 13 year old transgender boy but I sadly have to go back to being a girl because all last year I got bullied pretty badly and still this year. My parents constantly fight with me and I feel that if I go back to being a girl then I'll finally get treated like a human being. I've been letting people call me she and my birth name and it feels horrible but I'll hopefully get used to it. I'm just gonna try to hold on (till may) until I can transition and move out. Next school year I go to high school so nobody there will knoe abt me being trans and hopefully people thay I know just forget abt it
I don't think you were ever ugly. I'm so glad you have found your way. You are an inspiration to many. Well done mate !!!
I just had a memory come back to me. I elementary school there was a student his name was Jay and before he transitioned the school forced him to wear a dress. I remeber him crying and being really sad. He was in 5th grade (about 10 or 11) I can't get that out of my head :(
poor guy 💙
@@salmonellq2981 I know it made me so sad for him.
I actually enjoy seeing pictures of myself as a girl because I look at them and ask myself how can a haircut and some clothes change a person this much. Now if I put on girls clothes I just think I look ridiculous.
The weirdest part is that when I was still presenting as a girl I really felt like a guy in a dress when wearing dresses, but obviously no one else saw it
Does this mean that de-gendering clothes will remove gender dysphoria? Just curious
@@Anonymous-df8it maybe, but it's not my case. I know I would still have dysphoria if I did it when I actually have dysphoria. But sometimes I forget about it and if I do it then I can actually have a laugh. Now I have much less dysphoria than before (I've had top surgery and started T since then), so I would probably be able to have a laugh at any time
Noah, I'm a 33-year old trans guy just starting my transition, and I'm so happy that you were able to transition at a young age and that you share your experiences. Your channel has been a real source of solace and hope for me, it's fantastic to see you thriving and listen to how you talk about your old body and your new one (for the lack of better words); watching you really makes me feel safe and confident in my own identity, and makes medical transition feel normal and natural instead of this big scary thing I've made it out to be in my youth.
The trans community really needs people like you and I hope you all the best in life.
Noah is so amazing and he's such a great guy. Whenever my dysphoria kicks into overdrive,he really helps me out
i love how he doesn't even look like a girl in a lot of these pictures. he looked like a boy pretending to be a girl, because that's basically what he was.
Honestly how can transphobes say it’s just a phase or children don’t understand,? This clearly shows that as a child you knew you were a boy! I definitely wouldn’t say you were ugly but you for sure suit masculinity better!
I love your teeth! There is something about an imperfect smile that is so attractive in a world full of perfectly straight teeth.
One of the many reasons I love Freddie Mercury as well as Noah!
YES!!!! They are so endearing, and suit his style and aesthetic so well. I honestly think it adds to his attractiveness 10x. He is already very handsome, but the teeth add to it honestly. They give that punk rock, don't want to be perfect looking vibes lol.
This might be the first comment I've seen on this channel that is actually encouraging of self-acceptance. I think that calling the smile "imperfect" rather damages the message, but it's a start. Well done!
this makes me feel so accepted and happy how you tell us your experience of how you grew as a true person, as a confused non-binary who doesn't know who they are yet, you always cheer me up. You are so fucking cool and I hope I can be as proud of myself as you when I finally learn who I am. The phrase "HELLO UNDERACHIEVEMENTS'" always makes me so happy. Thank you for everything you have done to us Noah.
Am I still trans even though I wasn’t super tomboy since I was little? Don’t get me wrong, there were definitely signs all throughout my life, but I wasn’t a tomboy growing up. A big part of it was copying my female friends and trying to fit in, also I’ve always been a super shy person, so I always just did what everyone told me to do. But I never straddled a toilet seat or anything similar 😂 I deal with dysphoria every day and it’s shit. I know deep down that I am trans, it’s so obvious to me, but I still get doubts, almost entirely because I wasn’t masculine as a young child. So I guess what I’m wondering, is can I still be trans, even though it wasn’t obvious growing up the same way it was for Noah?
It's very common for trans people to act as they are "expected" to and not seem like they are trans as children. A lot of trans people don't even mind their agab but that doesn't make them less trans. You are still trans even if you were afab and feminine as a child. You are still trans even if you were amab and masculine as a child.
of course ! all trans people have different experiences and it's not because you don't have the same as Noah that it's not valid.
as long as it feels right, that you feel true to yourself, it's true
Everyone's experience is different and not being a tom boy doesn't invalidate your identity or make you less trans. All trans means is you don't identify as the gender you were assigned at birth so if you fit that description then you're trans. Also gender expression and gender identity are separate things.
@@randomdreamer5429 Thankyou. It definitely feels right. I’m a boy, not a girl :)
@@toothtruck i'm happy to hear you say that. i wish you the best :))
I was watching this video with my (Very gay) brother and when Noah said that he was 22 my brother goes “wtf he looks 16!” And I just laughed because I look 12…trans guy problems✌️
(I say problems but I still get away with child price tickets on the tube)
Thank you for the video, ive been dysphoric the whole day, im atm locked In my room been In a bad place, this video just gives me so much hope
you got this! it's gonna get better
Lovejoy🙃
ITS 3:45 AM AND I JUST BITE MY TONGUE
youre strong. ive also been in a dysphoric rut this whole day. I get it, it's hard man
I know how you feel. The past 3 days I've been so dysphoric