Lil Xan Talks About His Drug Addiction, Withdrawals and Getting Sober | Wild Ride! Clips
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- A clip from Steve-O's Wild Ride! Episode 106 with Lil Xan
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I really appreciate how Steve isn’t afraid to call people out on their BS
That’s a recovery thing.
He never called out Carter.
@@FantsyPants cause carter is a fun clown to watch & listen To lol
He never called out Aaron Carter and Carter NEEDS to be called out and put into his place. Carter also scams people thru his merch line, concert tickets, etc... he "sells" sweatshirts online and NEVER mails them out!!! He sells a few concert tickets and always cancels, no refund policy. Carter is a crook.
It's lil xan, no one is afraid of calling him out.
Can't hide addict BS from another addict. He's got a ways to go.
For real dude definitely did some bars.
Right he’s still on
He's a kid still with access to the world, of course he's gonna have a struggle of it but as of right now he's speaking clear English and staying awake... that's a lot to ask from someone in his position..
He's just starting out. We all slip..some of us get back up..some of us don't. Let's keep it positive..cause addiction fucking sucks for anyone.
He's addicted to hydrocodone he's been off of xanax for a couple years I'm addicted to opiates and ots definitely opiates what he's on xanax your more loose and out there if he was on vars you would know talking slow and not pronouncing your words on opiates is common xanax he would be totally slurring and voice cracking
I gained a lot of respect for Steve-O for not letting him pull BS when it comes to mental health and addiction and sobriety. Thanks for this Steve-O, you are a legit guy!
Lil Xan too, seems to have his head screwed on.
That's all part of the culture known as "Alcoholics Anonymous " that he constantly avoids talking about while he parrots all of his bullshit.
I smoked weed in early sobriety and I’m still clean. My doc was heroin. I just had my 3 years.
Steve O let him wear that stupid beanie.
xanax can literally makes you feel like you are the fucking shit,
if ur an introvert, it often makes you more talkative, out going, bolder, its EXTREMELY similar to Alcohol...
this poor kid is fried tho, literally.
Steve o and xan
I am 10 years sober. I was addicted to alcohol and opiates real bad. My wife left w my daughter and I should have died. I am now sober and re married to a wonderful woman and see my kid a lot. I own my own business as a knife maker, and have an awesome life. People don’t believe me when I tell them I’m in recovery. It’s always going to be a part of me. Stay strong boys.
Inspiring , great job.
Inspired by your story. 15 years as an alcoholic, drug addict with eating disorders. I can’t imagine being without it for 10 years let alone starting a business. Hope I can be as strong as you brother
Stay strong man. Jan 28th 2012 for me is my date. One day at a time!
People like to talk crap about addiction but they don’t understand the power of it. Just like this man here who lost a wife over addiction he like many didn’t want to loose anything but that’s how powerful it is.
incredible job man 👑
Steve-o is an absolute treasure to anyone who appreciates sobriety. Honesty is important to the process, but more-so honesty to yourself in the process... I hope this dude stays sober and keeps that pattern in his life.
He not sober just look at him and listen to his voice he's got the perky raspie voice from Soo much talking and using trust me I know from experience of being a addict myself of the fentanyl laced M-30's he's not well and relapsed unfortunately even Steve-O could see straight thru his BS
He is an absolute hypocrite
Xan is NOT clean
*gets sober
He is high as a kite right now.....
Lil Xan the definition of the kid that does this shit to be cool. Tells his story as if its so unique and profound with no self awareness to his own naivety.
he got a scholarship to rehab. That means a full paid rehab at no expense to him. Really doubt this idiot understands how many people actually could use a scholarship to a rehab who actually cannot afford it.
This kid is a clown. Everything for clout. Awful
Yup
Took the words right out of my mouth
nah it just sounds like he's happier that hes sober now didn't sense any pretension or anything
I have literally never heard lil xan talk this clearly. Glad to see he’s doing better
why is he wearing pink fucking pyjamas?
@@markgaudreau8053 comfort? he dont give a shit LOL
@@markgaudreau8053 Why did Steve-O let a snake bite his dick? lmfao
@@jackhebdon8360dude always looks like a clown
@@alexjohnson439 he looks chill asf fym?
Steve-O really keeps it real with people, and I love that. I think he is a great person to be around when you need help grounding yourself.
I’m sooo surprised and also not ,how uneducated even these so-called Celebs who have all this life experience and exposure to so many intelligent and important people in their lives and whom they’ve met are still clueless about what drugs they’re taking and what they are. PERC’s are not blue 30s!! Percocet and Percodan are with acetaminophen like 10/325 or 5/500. Anything with acetaminophen is perc. As soon as you get to 15mg or 30mg blue round pills or green those are now called Roxicodone. Immediate release oxycodone. The 15 and 30mg without acetaminophen are all Roxicets or Roxicodone. Same as when you get to the 10mg of hydrocodone with 325acetominaphen is a ‘Norco’ not a Vicodin. I understand it’s subtle differences but they make a big difference when your friend is OD-ing fish flopping on the floor and you’re trying to give the EMTs the correct info, they can’t do their best job to medically help you or your friend if they’re getting bad feedback and info. It’s really not that hard people to inform yourself. You have such specific nuance info about a hundred other subjects in your life that you can proudly spout off intricate details and data from so you should know what you’re partying with also and put into your body. Takes 2mins to google and look and educate yourself do it right now and prove me wrong or right😉 there’s a challenge for you to educate yourselves and prove this idiot me wrong. Yes I understand that if they’re imposter pills then that may seem like it doesn’t matter what the shape is but it does. It helps emt and friends and others and cops know what to look for in future in that small community or city when dealing with certain pills. The most common ‘imposter’ pill, not fake because they are a real drug(usually Fentanyl) just not what you intended or wanted…is light blue in color ‘M’ printed with a circle ⭕ around the M, 30mg Roxicodones. Theyre supposed to be 30mg of immediate release, as compared to delayed extended release, oxycodone. But that’s the most frequently imposter faked pill that turns out to be Fentanyl instead. There ya go people, your education for the day.
I was recently hospitalized for withdrawing off of alcohol cold turkey. I honestly felt like I was going to die and told all my loved ones I loved them. Thankfully, I am sober 6 weeks now! Steve-o has helped me so much! Watching and listening to these podcasts inspire me every time!!
Congrats @beals77. Best of luck on your sobriety!
Keep going..it gets better
Congrats!!!
That's amazing keep inspiring people 👌🙏
Same thing happened to me twice but I never was sober for more than 16 days unfortunately
I would never let my friend leave the house dressed like that
he looks like a toddler
😁😁
Well. With a buncha tattoos all over his face, I think the silly outfit isn’t a big stretch lol
Yeah im confused is he a pink panda or what, Each to their own but WTF dude...
Sadly this boy doesn't have someone who loves him enough to hold him to standards xan would agree with sober
I got sober when I was 33, earlier this January. I’ve been sober for 7 months. It’s never too late to get sober. Everyone please be careful. I flatlined on a fentanyl laced oxy. Took 2 narcan shots and an adrenaline shot to bring me back to life. It’s not worth going through that.
♥️♥️
I’m 21 I went through that once I hit the back of my head went psychotic for a week:/ I was 19 when it happened never wish on anyone. Things get better with time sober ever sense💯🙏
Why do u say it like it was forever ago u said it yourself u only been clean 7 months people neda get real with them selves u were on drugs all that time but your gonna claim victory I'm 7 months don't u think that's a bit foolish bet your still on subs 2 people are in denial u just like lil zan
@@Stfu1019 I went psychotic when I was 21. Felt like i dealt with PTSD from that experience for a couple of years. I recommend cognitive behavioral therapy.
Keep it going my friend, I'm 10+ years clean from heroin and know I've been down and out too many time. Life is better without !
STEVE’O said on one of his podcasts getting sober is like getting into a pool you can’t dip ur feet to test the waters you have to jump right in, man I really needed to hear that.
Everyone here is tripping I’m pretty sure from what I’ve been seeing recently he’s doing good and looking healthy
That’s deep bro 😢
It's the business you cut the cola with fetty they then get sick after few days cause fentynal is an opiod but they think it's the coke so go back to dealer with that coke n magically feel better...N what a dumb answer by the teddy bear you can't die from fetty but can from xanax WRONG die from either take enough...Surprised Steve O didn't call him out on that shit.
I fully agree with that as being sober is full time 🙏
Tbh this is the most coherant I've ever seen Xan in forever. He still has a ways to go, but it's good to see he's putting his all into being sober. He just needs to be more honest with himself and not downplay any of his issues.
I'm glad Steve O was able to reach him, call him out when needed without making him feel attacked or embarrassed, which is SUPER important to a recovering addict
Because he knows Steve-o would have jumped ALL over his ass if he showed up fucked up. Seeing another person like that can be triggering for those in recovery
Everyone in that room can see he isn’t clean and sober
@@realeyesbars Dude, he's got high eyes. And his speech pattern is a dead give away. Man is gone even here. Yeah you can understand him a little better but your right he's not even close to being sober.
Hes not sober
@@dgoo8294 I agree ☝️ 💯 with u
It's hard to take someone seriously who's dressed like a pink Care bear with tattoos on his face.
@Mike Here we go, I guess I'm cancelled now. I'm not saying gay people are bad.
@@Woozlewuzzleable hahahaha
@@Woozlewuzzleable lmao
@Mike shut up
@@Woozlewuzzleable he deleted 😂
I bet after detoxing he must have said "WHO THE FU** DREW THIS SH!T ON MY FACE?!!"
🤣
If he makes it to 70. Boy, it's gonna be awkward at The Olive Garden.
Good thing, when you're there, you're family.
😂😂😂😂
It's amazing that someone so young would make a decision to permanently make themselves unemployable and plain stupid looking. Waste of space. And why does he get a scholarship? He's got money to smoke pure percs. Let him pay.
@llorT next thing you're going to tell me is they can change people's noses and give em bigger boobs.
That's crazy talk.....🥴
@@angelascharmedlife I don’t think it’s really that serious I see plenty of people covered head to toe in tattoos working regular jobs maybe not doctors or lawyers but even if he had no tats I doubt he would ever have been a doctor or a lawyer 😂😂
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to heroin. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Heroin addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 4 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Yes sure of Dr.benfungi
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.benfungi.Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
From my experience it really works excellently! It doesnt even need to be a full hit. With potent shrooms 2-3 small ones will still make a clear difference. It will be a few hour cosy rumbling moment around rest time, but afterwards its just calm and you feel amazing and gain your freedom. Psilocybin is different dudes, its the only "treatment" I would recommend to someone who genuinely wants to get better. There is no addiction, withdrawal, or negative side effects. It's just pure healing., far more effective than any anti-depressant. You can thank me later,
Steve I super appreciate you talking to survivors of drug/alcohol abuse. Good info for those needing to get out of that lifestyle. ❤️
As a former addict myself of over 20 years this guy is full of crap! His voice, his eyes, his speech etc all point to him still being on. He has said so much that is out and out BS it's shocking.
Absolutely. Bunny is high as balls.
Yeah stories not matching up throughout, seems just like he’s talking to talk
No shit. So correct.
It’s a script weren’t you listening
do yall really think Steve-O would allow that on his podcast??? thats like spitting in his face making him look like a joke.
I’ve seen Xan on his xan days. Everyone’s saying he’s not sober but this is the most coherent I’ve probably ever seen him 🤔 I hope he does well
Doesn't matter he's still high he's just not currently Nodding out on camera like I used to see him but you ain't hiding from other addicts
True I think his brain is just slow and messed up from the drugs but he does seem sober he’s talking pretty clear
He’s still a tool, “I got the real stuff “ he repeated it like four times haha. Alright man clam down you’re the coolest guy in the room
@@spookyt8692 yeah he got it from hospice patients. So he is double legit
His drug use has slightly cooked him. I believe he was sober here..
I had a seizure from quitting cold turkey about 10 yrs ago..🙏🏽🙏🏽I’m so blessed to still be here with my 3 boys and my wife! Stay clean lil xan man!
congrats foo
I'm withdrawing benzos right now. It's horrible.
@@kathis6840so am I it sucks
@@kdizzle901 it really does :(
As I’m listening to this I can’t help but hearing all the same lies I told others when I was in that situation. Hopefully he gets where he needs to go, because he’s not there like he says he is.
Yeah bro. First of all he 100% lying about taking 25 xans a day. That just is not true AT ALL. He’s over exaggerating for sympathy. It’s sad. I’m an addict and do the same. But I guess, as I can admit that, I have crossed a certain path. Hope he stays clean for real. My honest opinion is that he is not sober and does not want to be.
@@ryanfowler240 I think the dude has a image and brand to maintain, he is called Lil Xanax, of course he is going to hype is drug use.
@@ryanfowler240 yeah no way, I was an addict for years and when I took 13 buses 2 days later I od’d and then another time I took 8 buses and od’d. I know others can handle more but this guy is tiny I call bs on 25 a day
I was thinking the same there’s no one that can take 25 xan bars in a day and not OD idc how high ur tolerance is I have a high tolerance to every single drug and I used to go on benders and take like 6 maybe 7 bars in a day and be so far gone and falling out in the bathroom luckily there’s always been Sumone there to help me wake up and still alive but I’m lucky I never died all those times cuz I was also shooting up herion while taking the xans but I don’t see how Sumone can take that many in a day and still be alive I call BS too in that
@@ryanfowler240 I know people who would take 25 a day LOL
I think if withdraws were talked about WAY more than they are talked about, it would stop a lot of people from doing drugs. Withdrawals are HELL
You think? I mean maybe. I doubt it though. People just assume it won't get to that point for them. I really don't think it would stop anyone. It's already well known that drugs cause withdrawal.
Would t stop an addict
That’s the difference
Damn straight. People think it’s all fun and games because rappers romanticize it.
He ain’t done that part yet
I don’t know. I think most people just don’t think about stopping or what it’s going to really truly be like when they stop. So, I don’t think they give a damn about what the withdrawal effects, as they don’t think they will be experiencing them anytime soon. But it could be good to up discussion about withdrawal not to necessarily prevent the drug use, but to further educate people who will inevitably have to face those symptoms.
I’m almost 6 years sober, I was addicted to both alcoholic and benzodiazepines. Getting off benzos was absolute hell. When drs prescribe benzodiazepines for anxiety they don’t tell you that when you finally get off of them the anxiety from the withdrawals will be a million times worse than the anxiety you’re experiencing before you’re prescribed the pills. I encourage people with anxiety to try talk therapy, meditation, breathing exercises, yoga etc before turning to benzos. Even some antidepressants help with anxiety. I’m very grateful for every day that I have sober💖
Thank god I never got the deal with benzos , I tried zans a couple times and felt blurry , woke up 3 days later wondering why the calendar jumped 3 days but reality is i was on autopilot and couldn’t remember a thing.
Didn’t enjoy it a bit . But anyway keep up the good fight man. A sober life is a good one.
Yep.
Iam 50 years old.
Began to take diazepam and alprazolam 1994.
Took it daily intill april 2021.
Of course been clean when done jailtime.
So many horror whitdrawels this years.
But when quit totally 2.4 years ago it was Hell.
To quite benzo is the worse you can do.
Rather take heroin or morphine whitdrawels.
But alprazolam wow. Hell.
And last summer. One year clean.
Still so sick. Depression,suicid. Crazy. Belived my brain was damaged for life.
Tok one year more.
This spring when had 2 year my head began to feel ok.
The life began to be ok.
So this ride was and are tough.
Still i get this craving for take some benz.
But nop. Not one pill. It could set my life in fire again.
Its so important to eat right. Sleep. The Halt. Hungry,angry, lonley,tired. Can make you relapse.
But one day s time.
Bless every day to be clean from benzo. The Devil drug nr 1.
Yak. Al shit in my life have been beacuse i was to high on benz.
Iam still addicted to buprenorfin. I am in a program here in Sweden.
Was a heavy heroin user in the 90 to.
Here in Sweden benzo have allways been the biggest drug of choice.
Belive the stress of its unlegal or the dark climate. We have the highest alcohol use here to in Swede.
Sadly many of my friend in the methadone and buprenorfin program take benzo.
And i know. Its hard to quit.
And methadone and subutex in high doses make you deppresive. So you use benz and alcohol as medicin.
I taken alot of lsd and mucrooms both full dose and microdose.
I would never be the one iam today whithout those holy fungy.
It helped alot to quit the benzoz.
Have made me understand more and read the kabyloin the secret teaching of the laws of this reality together whit holy fungy.
Yes. Life is beautiful now.
Maybe i also quit the buprenorfin also.
But have a broken back. Whiplash. From driven motocyckle heavy benzo Dizzy into a refugee and fly 17 meters woke up in the air flying. Remember thinking. Wow this will hurt. Then i landed om my head. Got paralyesd in left side. My face was hanging. Could not walk. But a miracle . I just nop. I will be ok.
One year later i was running and my face ok.
That happened 2009.
Today. Little problem whith the balance. And alot of pain in neck and back. But the opieds help me.
But one day i will get totally clean.
But this 2 year have been Tough. So one thing a time or who do you say it.
Sorry about spelling and grammar.
School was not my thing he he he.
Much love to everyone out there.
Love from cold and soon dark northern Sweden.
Bless. And just do it.
No one wait for it.
And holy spirit. And the higher is real.
Say no to religion.
But love Jesus and the holy spirit.
Learn to listen.
Open your Third eye and reality will show the rest.
Love and more love.
I pray for everyone that are in whitdrawels right now.
I Promise it will get better. But takes time. Hang in. Dont give up..
Peace and love
I was diagnosed with Anxiety first, tried serotonin and therapy and I was still a wreck. Then I got tested/treated for ADHD and it helped a lot more just knowing what I have. ADHD in women can show up as daydreaming, distraction, and anxiety and we get treated for the wrong disease. If you dont like ADHD meds, magnesium is a great supplement for anxiety as well as exercise and high protein diet.
I realize that they have their medical uses, but I really don't think benzos should be prescribed to your average person unless every other option has been exhausted. My doc put me on them - knowing full well that I had a drinking problem (I didn't know or realize how addictive benzos were, I just thought they were anxiety meds) - and I ended up nearly dying from the interaction. Getting off of them was indeed no picnic, although I still preferred it to alcohol withdrawal. Sober from both now.
Now the cartels are cutting their fentynal with benzodiazapine's for the purpose of making quitting almost impossible without a near death long stay in a hospital, stopping cold turkey put me in the ICU for one month with 1 week in a coma , benzos are nasty and to be avoided at all costs.... 6 months clean and feeling like a million bucks.
"Give me the shittiest tattoos you got" - Lil Zan at the tattoo parlor.
🤣🤣🤣🤣 Who is this little Facker anyway?
Actually laughed at this.
bet they look sick when youre off your face on xanax tho🤣
As a fellow recovering addict I love watching Steve-Os ability to have talk about his addiction and guest come on to openly talk about their struggles with addiction too. #WeCanRecover
Me too, friend!!!!
I’m sooo surprised and also not ,how uneducated even these so-called Celebs who have all this life experience and exposure to so many intelligent and important people in their lives and whom they’ve met are still clueless about what drugs they’re taking and what they are. PERC’s are not blue 30s!! Percocet and Percodan are with acetaminophen like 10/325 or 5/500. Anything with acetaminophen is perc. As soon as you get to 15mg or 30mg blue round pills or green those are now called Roxicodone. Immediate release oxycodone. The 15 and 30mg without acetaminophen are all Roxicets or Roxicodone. Same as when you get to the 10mg of hydrocodone with 325acetominaphen is a ‘Norco’ not a Vicodin. I understand it’s subtle differences but they make a big difference when your friend is OD-ing fish flopping on the floor and you’re trying to give the EMTs the correct info, they can’t do their best job to medically help you or your friend if they’re getting bad feedback and info. It’s really not that hard people to inform yourself. You have such specific nuance info about a hundred other subjects in your life that you can proudly spout off intricate details and data from so you should know what you’re partying with also and put into your body. Takes 2mins to google and look and educate yourself do it right now and prove me wrong or right😉 there’s a challenge for you to educate yourselves and prove this idiot me wrong. Yes I understand that if they’re imposter pills then that may seem like it doesn’t matter what the shape is but it does. It helps emt and friends and others and cops know what to look for in future in that small community or city when dealing with certain pills. The most common ‘imposter’ pill, not fake because they are a real drug(usually Fentanyl) just not what you intended or wanted…is light blue in color ‘M’ printed with a circle ⭕ around the M, 30mg Roxicodones. Theyre supposed to be 30mg of immediate release, as compared to delayed extended release, oxycodone. But that’s the most frequently imposter faked pill that turns out to be Fentanyl instead. There ya go people, your education for the day.
He's still got the opiate voice and half closed eyes, so he's still smashing some thing
He’s on Methadone
@@Atomic1710 methadone won’t do that if he’s on the correct dose. He shouldn’t feel any buzz, voice change, literally nothing. If he’s purposely on a high dose then yeah he’ll get buzzed. He’s always talked this way as far as I remember but I also don’t know if he was high in those interviews I saw years ago so, who knows what his real sober self looks like. Hopefully he gets there and can stay clean this time. I know it’s not easy but he still sounds off to me, like he’s just spewing rehab shit to make it sound like he’s doing great.
Tought he is a benzo addict. His voice and demenour looks like brain damage from high dosage benzodiazepine use.
@@Atomic1710 defo not methadone. His pupils are FAR from pinned.
eh, i dont see it, and i know it, baLEEEV dat
"Oh no no! I don't do edibles, that would put me in hospital. I just advertise for other people to do it"
yeah weed helps some people and effects other people negatively, is there an issue?
he's sounds like an immature kid, who woulda thought
sad thing is he's closer to 30 than 20 but plays the I'm just a kid card
If yall have ever been sober for an extended amount of time you'll know that Steve O is treating Lil Xan amazing here. He knows that basically everything Xan is doing is taking him down the wrong road and that he likely won't make it but he is able to raise those issues politely without making Xan feel like he isn't on his side. Really a wonderful, sober, human being. I had no idea he'd been to rehab but as soon as i saw him and heard him talk, i immediately knew he was sober. Not sober with 2 blunts a week, but sober and working a program. It's difficult but the rewards are unrivaled.
He’s literally overdosed people. I don’t think he is a prime example.
Shit with 2blunt a week youre still sober only not them couple hours in them 2days tho
Steve-o is definitely a vet in the sobriety world you can tell.
I was addicted to heroin and then eventually fent for about a decade. I am 28 years old now. With that said I had times where I went 1 year sober then 2 years sober and I relasped twice both after staying off it for awhile. I had that same thought once I had a little bit of time and said I got this for sure, never relapsing ever again. When you think about it that is such a foolish thing to say, it was for me. Life can be long and you never know what can happen. I am still sober to this day after my relapses. The last couple times I went out I got humbled real quick and was able to learn what I needed to learn and get rid of my ego the best I could which is huge in sobriety. I just take it day by day. I wish Lil Xan the best but hope he learns not to think he has got it in the bag because its a day to day thing for the rest of your life.
If you have any advice on that final leap of faith you took to stop I would be all ears ! Did you go cold turkey or did you do medically assisted detox ?!
I wish I could. I've never even had a week sober since 14, and I'm 35.
He sounds way more coherent than before but he's still an addict and his recovery will be life long. Hopefully he gets the help he needs and get his shit together.
Well said. Hope he gets it together & doesnt end up broke & addicted
AA/NA is literally scientologist nonsense . Addiction is a choice. Sure a heroin addict may need a couple days of medical supervision but then it's right back to being a choice. A choice you make in response to life situations, when the situation changes you won't need the drugs. Thousands of US soldiers were using heroin in Vietnam, the government prepared for 100s of 1000s to come home hopelessly addicted, most just stopped on their own , the horrific situation that made heroin seem necessary was over.
The withdrawal from 10 Xanax a day cold turkey is a traumatic experience to say the least. Its absolutely horrifying. He doesn’t seem like he knows anything about that. I don’t believe he has experienced Such a withdrawal. It took me a year to even begin to come back mentally after quitting Xanax. Doing an interview in public or even having conversation with someone 40 days after going cold turkey would’ve been impossible for me for several reasons. 40 days sober my ass 🙄 But I wish him the best of luck
Yeah he isn't even sober in this interview look at his eyes.
Lying to himself which is sad. Will probably end up a statistic sadly.
Absolutely spot on. He would never be able to do an interview 40 days off 10 a day. No way. And fent…. Takes months. It all does. Into a year- 18 months.
Yeah I’m ngl I wanna make myself believe he’s telling the truth but I was stuck on fent for 2 and half years barley been 6 months cold turkey and My eyebags are slightly going away. From an addict to another I believe he wants to stop for the look of his peers and media but not for himself as much.
@@kellyharris8976 yeah when you're completely off the stuff you feel miserable, dont wanna talk to anyone and your ego shrinks to the size of a pea because you dont have your "stuff", to feel good anymore.
@@kellyharris8976 it took me about 9 months of methadone treatment for me to start to feel "normal", with just methadone. Prior to that 9 month mark, i felt like i HAD to stack other opiates on top or else id feel awful.
Took me an additional year after that point to begin getting comfortable tapering off. And then from Jan 2022 til June 2022 I managed to taper off completely from methadone.
Now im 2+ months free from the clutches of big Pharma. The past few years felt like such a haze, it still boggles my mind how i could allow myself to be completely enslaved like that for years
😂 “not fentanyl” after every drug use story. 😂 okay. We believe you.
There's Fetty in most things now people would never know,these days it's not the time to be out here experimenting. Straight up pass away smoothly.
he flex
He just said he was taking 10 fake xans with heroin them
There is no more heroin. And certainly not in fake Xanax. Dude was in fentanyl. 100%
@@AE-wi3zbnobody is putting heroine in pills dude , it’s fent, idk why he lying
This guy's brain has melted, wearing this to his interview.
The kid is a tool.. literally. Asking him a question about anything is a dumb idea
hate to say this old man but he's a celeb appealing to younger audiences not old farts that gave up 20 years ago
He flips back and forth so much it's hard to tell what part of his story is factual. But I really hope he's clean and can stay clean 🙏🏽
Yeah he’s talking shit for the most part. I’m doubtful
Compared to how he used to be, I’d say he is clean or at least more clean. If he is still using, he’s probably toned it down ALOT.
Hes in a pink bear suit... Not a good sign
Just making shit up lol
I’d bet my hand that he is not clean.
Y’all bashing on someone who clearly has long term damage from the drugs he abused. Some people don’t ever go back to speaking normal, and are left with a slur or stutter. Go back and watch old vids of him, he sounds a lot better compared to then.
20 year ex addict on Xanax and 30's and do not look or sound permafried. As an ex Xanax head he's definitely not sober here.
@@rustzz8 Not everyone reacts the same bro.
No, that's what he is loved and hated for. So he acts it..lamery
Lil Xan is a nothing
@@rustzz8 if you listened to him, he didn’t only abuse xans, he was doing coke and opioids as well. His name is lil xan, but it’s not the only drug he took. Why you tryna act like the xan veteran out here.
This kid needs a father in his life, like now.
or a sponsor
@@lexremillard2549 or both
He could use a wardrobe guy too
His dad is bad influence clearly … he got to want to stop swallowing pills 💊
hes 25 bro a little late for that
Was addicted to Xanax and Percs from 17 to 26. Fell asleep at a stop sign for a half hour with my foot on the break, crashed four cars, ruined every relationship I had. When I got clean the detox kept me up for 3 days and I puked so hard it came out my eyes.
Don’t do drugs kids
He's a clown. But. I don't wish him ill. I hope he can hold on to sober.
Unfortunately being completely honest with yourself and others is a cornerstone of long-term recovery.
Steve-0 is a blessing to the recovery community. I hope this kids understands he sat with a Legend.
Dude ain't sober he definitely took some Xanax before this interview.
He is a clown. But he is very young and had success early in his life. Reaching that pinnacle again is very unlikely and reaching that pinnacle very obviously wasn’t from hard work or even natural talent. The odds of him coming out of that pink teddy bear suit are zero to none.
@@papabilby8855
I'm concerned that an early taste of fame and fortune will be his demise. My hope is Steve-0 pulled him into his orbit. Steve-0 has the skills and heart to reach this kid if this kid wants to be Steve-0 reached and will reach out himself.
His journey towards wellness is an inspiration.
I work in recovery. If I had one wish, it would be Steve-0 telling our guys and gals that there's hope. In person, of course 😅
Not saying I wouldn't ask him to sign my taint with a tattoo gun. Not saying I would either 😜
Yeah hes gotta realize a lot and realize FAST wheres the humility? Still thinks hes a lowkey god
He looks like he’s gonna be on gummo 2
I really hope he gets well. It is hard to see it happening until he stops lying to himself. He does paid promotions where he lies about using products and his fans are young and impressionable. Steve has been sober a long time and Xan couldn't even listen for 5 seconds to Steve's advice before he started talking over him and giving his own opinions. Really do wish him luck ..
Omg I know I just wanted to shake him and say “Diego! Shut up… listen”
Fuck'em. It's his life to destroy. If he doesn't care then why should anyone else care.
@@philippealexandra468 lmao Diego 😂 but fr dude has to be xanned out either he’s not taking as many as he use or something
I’m sooo surprised and also not ,how uneducated even these so-called Celebs who have all this life experience and exposure to so many intelligent and important people in their lives and whom they’ve met are still clueless about what drugs they’re taking and what they are. PERC’s are not blue 30s!! Percocet and Percodan are with acetaminophen like 10/325 or 5/500. Anything with acetaminophen is perc. As soon as you get to 15mg or 30mg blue round pills or green those are now called Roxicodone. Immediate release oxycodone. The 15 and 30mg without acetaminophen are all Roxicets or Roxicodone. Same as when you get to the 10mg of hydrocodone with 325acetominaphen is a ‘Norco’ not a Vicodin. I understand it’s subtle differences but they make a big difference when your friend is OD-ing fish flopping on the floor and you’re trying to give the EMTs the correct info, they can’t do their best job to medically help you or your friend if they’re getting bad feedback and info. It’s really not that hard people to inform yourself. You have such specific nuance info about a hundred other subjects in your life that you can proudly spout off intricate details and data from so you should know what you’re partying with also and put into your body. Takes 2mins to google and look and educate yourself do it right now and prove me wrong or right😉 there’s a challenge for you to educate yourselves and prove this idiot me wrong. Yes I understand that if they’re imposter pills then that may seem like it doesn’t matter what the shape is but it does. It helps emt and friends and others and cops know what to look for in future in that small community or city when dealing with certain pills. The most common ‘imposter’ pill, not fake because they are a real drug(usually Fentanyl) just not what you intended or wanted…is light blue in color ‘M’ printed with a circle ⭕ around the M, 30mg Roxicodones. Theyre supposed to be 30mg of immediate release, as compared to delayed extended release, oxycodone. But that’s the most frequently imposter faked pill that turns out to be Fentanyl instead. There ya go people, your education for the day.
Look at his hat... He wants us to believe he is sober???
Just another clown. Who cares if he's sober
@@twistedmofo_22 probably his mother.
🤣🤣🤣
If you have a problem with people going through the rehab process fuck off of this channel, please. Thanks 😁
So if u wear funky clothes you use drugs? Man gtfo lol
As an ex nurse that specialized in the end of life process, ( cancer patients ) We used Fentanyl in a small sponge , with a lemon flavor. It was applied via the sides of the mouth for pain relief in final moments. It's not joke.
WE LOVE YOU STEVE-O! An icon and an inspiration
He is a bull shit artist
Bro injures himself for a living and takes opioid drugs to not feel the pain. How is that a inspiration ?
@@madetenyo5465 exactly my point 😆 make it make sense
@@madetenyo5465 Have you seen the episode with his sister?, I lost all respect I had for this guy, he and his sister think they're better than everyone else because they had rich parents and that rules of society don't apply to them because they're "smarter than everybody else", they're just a pair of old spoiled brats.
its a great thing your doing here steve-o. talking to these guys and sharing it with the world. great job.
You're*
@@jasonbower7763 k
I’m sooo surprised and also not ,how uneducated even these so-called Celebs who have all this life experience and exposure to so many intelligent and important people in their lives and whom they’ve met are still clueless about what drugs they’re taking and what they are. PERC’s are not blue 30s!! Percocet and Percodan are with acetaminophen like 10/325 or 5/500. Anything with acetaminophen is perc. As soon as you get to 15mg or 30mg blue round pills or green those are now called Roxicodone. Immediate release oxycodone. The 15 and 30mg without acetaminophen are all Roxicets or Roxicodone. Same as when you get to the 10mg of hydrocodone with 325acetominaphen is a ‘Norco’ not a Vicodin. I understand it’s subtle differences but they make a big difference when your friend is OD-ing fish flopping on the floor and you’re trying to give the EMTs the correct info, they can’t do their best job to medically help you or your friend if they’re getting bad feedback and info. It’s really not that hard people to inform yourself. You have such specific nuance info about a hundred other subjects in your life that you can proudly spout off intricate details and data from so you should know what you’re partying with also and put into your body. Takes 2mins to google and look and educate yourself do it right now and prove me wrong or right😉 there’s a challenge for you to educate yourselves and prove this idiot me wrong. Yes I understand that if they’re imposter pills then that may seem like it doesn’t matter what the shape is but it does. It helps emt and friends and others and cops know what to look for in future in that small community or city when dealing with certain pills. The most common ‘imposter’ pill, not fake because they are a real drug(usually Fentanyl) just not what you intended or wanted…is light blue in color ‘M’ printed with a circle ⭕ around the M, 30mg Roxicodones. Theyre supposed to be 30mg of immediate release, as compared to delayed extended release, oxycodone. But that’s the most frequently imposter faked pill that turns out to be Fentanyl instead. There ya go people, your education for the day.
The greatest thing about this interview is the connection among recovering addicts. People don't like that label but we in it together
It isn’t the teletubby outfit?
Lil braindamage is far from sober. Dudes just a egotistical liar who wants attention.
@@jamesmckeon9139 I clicked because of the outfit. First time hearing about this Lil Xan guy btw.
@@santiagoferrari1973 Who is Lil Xan?
We all get ourselves in a bad road, everyone the right and ability to get out
A grown man in a bunny suit is not someone I would take seriously on any level.
He looks absolutely ridiculous
im YEARS SOBER and XAN looks to be anything but sober
As a fan, I can 100% tell he’s sober. He’s used for a while, and it messed him up, he is definitely recovering and recently sober.
maybe he's just living his best life.
Nah this is just how he is. He’s come a long ass way.
Maybe he ain't sober but maybe he uses less than he used to? You're meant to taper anyway, or maybe he's on diazepam instead
Thinks he knows it all, "ive completely got it this time" without humility he'll end up back on drugs pretty quickly. He's also lacking the fear. It wasn't until I came to terms with the fact that addiction could pull me back at any time and kill me, that I started taking it seriously. Took me until the age of 24, using from the age of 13, to get sober, now I'm 30. This guy has a lot of maturing to do before he can apply the necessary attitude for a sustained period of sobriety. I wish him all the best.
why be afraid
of a choice?
I detoxed and went through withdrawals from xanax and alcohol at the same time and I almost died. 3 years sober now though!
“Just got out of rehab and you’re sober”
Camera pans out to a pink bear mess
Big respect to Steve O for holding these people accountable
So you're telling me he chose to dress like that sober?
I want to see a fight between him and filthy Frank's pink guy
It's good you make your guest feel comfortable to open up about their habits. Being able to talk openly about substance @buse is important for puplic awareness. Respect
It's hard to get sober when you dress like a gummi bear
42 days bro good fucking job, speaking as a heavy Xanax user for the past decade nonstop
If he hadn't said he's a drug addict, I would have never guessed.
Lmao
🤣
lol xD
lol
Hilarious
I am an addict an alcoholic an will be the rest of my life. But I have 18 years clean, 5 years sober by the grace of God.
God does not exist if you recovered it was because of your balls and your decision, good for you and for the lives of the people around you
@@elpalancas Thank you Sir. If you put your mind to it, anything is possible....
I really like how they frame the questions and respectfully keep him on track, personally I was able to drop pills and only use marijuana for hypersensitivity and I believe it's not dangerous, hopefully he's learned the respect for the herb and how to use it as a tool to get where you want to go but some people can't alter their mind at all without craving something more extreme
So true, there has been many times where I smoked just a little bit of weed and started craving alcohol. Just because the anxiety of the weed made me want to drink. So you gotta be careful if your gonna smoke a Lil bit of weed
Marijuana would always make cravings and withdrawal so much worse for me
You're telling me he chose to wear that completely sober?
I am so happy that Novak and Steve-O landed ok. Steve-O has done a lot of good since he has been in recovery.
Honesty was the key to my sobriety. With myself and everyone around me. This kid needs to figure that out fast. Hope the best for him. You've got to be called on your shit and be able to call yourself on it
Fentanyl is still only primarily in patches (aside from a very few sprays or oral suckers for specific cancer types), the stuff called fentanyl on the streets are analogues of fentanyl that are produced in foreign labs in bulk and imported as powder, they have absolutely nothing to do with US pharmaceutical drugs. Also, much of the reason many opioid addicts switch to fentanyl analogues is because A. They are able to actually get high again (For a short time), as long heroin use has amped up their tolerance so high that they were simply chasing withdrawal away, not getting high, and B. Because it is cheaper per high than heroin
I was addicted to fentanyl because they were fake pills and it was more expensive to me than heroin because the high only last like an hour so it was a 20$ every hour habit lol
some one actually knowledgeable? am i still on youtube?
We get free test kits for our drugs here and it usually comes up as fentanyl, I've had the lollipops and patches as well.
I know a lot of opiate dependant people and I don't know any that prefer fentanyl to Heroin or even oxy. its just all they can find anymore. And its doesn't save them money really because its the same price on the street here as heroin, also, it doesn't last as Long as H, therefore they are doing it more often to stay "well"... its not as euphoric as other opiates either so they might be doing more to reach a high they aren't capable of getting if you have a strong tolerance. The only thing is if you're sick it will take less to get you "well" than other opiates because its "stronger" in a sense, but for me, once I'm well there is no point in doing more because its like a ceiling effect, now if I mixed other strong opiates on top of fett, then yeah I might be able to feel something. But yeah that's the experience here anyway.. Ive also never known of people smoking it, I mean folks have tried, but its just like wtf.?. Anyway I'm sure there's different kinds of shit going around different areas.
Ive od'd once but that was on CARfentanyl, which is much stronger. In 48 hrs 176 people overdosed in my little neighborhood alone , in that one weekend in August 2016, a big batch of CARfentanyl hit the block, it was wild, the city had to call in help from surrounding districts in the city and even other townships and smaller cities etc. It was wild. Opiate WD sucks, which is the only reason I'm still on them. Four years ago I tried quitting and didn't sleep for 17 days. I became severely dehydrated and had hypertension level four and had two minor seizures ( which a lot of people say can't happen with opiate WD, but it def did.) I felt like I was going crazy from lack of sleep so I gave in.
@@ayten3617 Carfentanil is just one of the analogues I mention, they are all analogues though, all varying strengths (there are probably over 100 analogues, some of them are carfentanil, sufentanil,dimethylfentanyl, difluorofentanyl,alfentanyl, acetylfentanyl, isofentanyl, etc,etc,etc. . All of them will test positive for fentanyl on the drug tests because they are not able to differentiate the metabolites from each other because they are too similar. (Much like how delta 8 thc is an analogue of delta 9 and you will test positive for d9 if you use d8.)
Stevo thinking, "Boy, back in the day we would wear something like that as a prank on a show called JACKASS. This kid is wearing it SERIOUSLY, to be cool"
I can't knock a guy for trying to get his shit together. Godspeed Mr. Xan.
Mr. Xanax
😂 he’s not clean 🧼 or even near it
@@realeyesbars so you think that’s funny? Seek help
@@mightbecolton6594 😂 you need help. I was laughing at the fact someone thought he’s clean you weirdo, not at the fact he’s mashed off his face on pharmaceuticals. Maybe try not jumping to conclusions in future ?? I won’t even ask why you’re so sensitive in the first place 😂 the answer would probably be scary 😂
"I'll end up in the hospital on edibles" bruh went to the hospital for hot cheetoes
He's really young and definitely showing off "wisdom", know how and street credibility. No matter if he's still using or not, he's an obnoxious show off and has much to learn. He's many years and many steps in terms of sobriety away from impressing Steve O in the slightest.
If you're trying to impress others at all you still have a lot of growing up and learning to do.. impress yourself.. that's all that matters
Bro he said he went in for 20 norcos and 20 xans 😂😂😂2 min before he said it was 20 hydros and 10 xans… He dont even know wtf he rambling bout he still on nem broski when u seen ppl and been there ya self, u know when somebody high. He might not be at the extreme he used too but he defo not sober fr….
@@snowpacino37 yeah then he ended with yeah I was smoking real perc 30s lol
@@daniburke9452 nobody smokes real perc 30s. People who smoke off the foil are at the point that real oxy isn’t cutting it anymore
And perc 30s don’t exist
That strong headed thing stevo says is 💯 percent correct. Once you become overconfident is when you slip. An addicts favorite line is well I can do it this one time and not do it again. Sorry it doesn't work that way.
That's facts about hospice. My Dad (rip) he was in hospice for about 1 year and man they gave him morphine,hydrocodone, Xanax, methadone. Just to make sure he was pain free and live his last day comfortable.
It’s def helpful for situations like your dads. They should make this much harder to get….
He actually seems much more coherent
Tolerence
By how many times he said he did not / is not using fentanyl....... He 100% was/is
That's not true homie. I was a former fentanyl abuser and I'm 4 months clean right now. But when your famous you can get real scripts, shit even Lil Xan talked about how his producer got him doctor's to write scripts.
@@sethmartin7159 that was a lie, his manager doesn’t even do drugs watch Adam 22 address those allegations he knows lol xan and even he thinks he was lying about that and the manager denies it
I'll look it up but I'm not saying his manager used, his manager helped him get high.
He was probably shocked that when he went in there was no fent. He even mentions in this clip that he's done stuff that was cut with other stuff unknowingly
Perc 30’s can’t be smoked unless they have fentanyl in them. Idk why he was trying to deny so hard he was doing fentanyl.. he most certainly just only fetty.. glad he’s clean now though!
Lil Xantac. Gotta keep that heartburn down man.
Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it’s just so hard to source here
Psychedelics are the reason why i didn’t take my life when i was at my end. I was stripped of my ego and saw the beauty of life and interconnectivity and even though i still battle anxiety and depression, I’m doing better everyday and will never think in such a self destructive way again.
LSD and mushrooms completely changed my whole outlook on life. I became a better version of myself
This experience gave me a lot of confidence about my self and my body. A bunch of bad thought / behavior patterns were broken. One of these was pretty bad OCD that made me wash my hands a lot. It gave me a lot of hope that things will be fine, this is the one thing that I heard throughout the trip: Everything is alright. The main reason for the trip was my severe depression and it definitely helped me (although it's not gone). Before all I could do was lay in bed. Now I am trying to rebuild my life one step at a time which wasn't possible before."
[_James_tray]
Got psychs
@@sarahh321 Where to search?? Is it IG?
@@Jerryberger9235 Yes
"I know I got it this time" 😂 Ahhhhh oh the many times I have heard that from addicts including myself.Took me 4 times in rehabs and still relapsed.Every trip everyone had it that time.Woke up after a dream I had after taking xanax all day and blacking out.I been clean ever since. Almost 4 years.In that time 12 people I know died from OD or suicide.Dont do drugs kids.
Put spaces after your periods.
Drugs are Bad mmmmkay
here in eastern ky its like a nuke has hit us.
@@vickielawson3114 I don't care about text unless it is for someone of importance. I rarely even and correct punctuation,typos or spaces. I just put the statement out there. You are correct though. I should at least do that. Have a blessed day my friend
@@isaacshaver6218 I agree mmmmkay
bro said he got a scholarship to a rehab center 😂😂😂
That’s a real thing, my scholarship to new beginnings saved my life.
This kid in one looks completely sums up so much of what wrong with people now a days.
That literally doesn't mean anything at all. What's wrong is the crumbling economic system and going into Capitalistic feudalism
Honestly I’ve seen this kid before, when he was on drugs and he was so slow and hardly could keep his eyes open. Here he is coherent and actually answering questions with relevant answers. I would say he is clean but at least he seems a lot better now, even if he isn’t 100% clean.
He isn’t clean at all
@@realeyesbars he’s clearly cleaner than what he has been. 🙄
@@SiannanIsTheBest not at all. He’s just not stoned on marijuana in this vid. He’s still on plenty of pills 💊. In the programme he speaks of, there’s no such thing as being “cleaner” - you’re clean or you’re not. Lil Xan is FAR from clean 🧼 and he still lies A LOT during interviews… I wish he’d at least stop lying 🤥 but I don’t think that’s going to stop 🛑 until he has no audience at all. It sucks but that is how it seems to be…
@@realeyesbars are u there with him everyday? Tf do u know
@@SiannanIsTheBest clearly more than u 🙄
It helps being reminded of the negative affects ; mental, physical & spiritual & the withdraw. Not only that, it inspires others to stay sober on the bad days.
This actually gave me so much more respect for Diego most rappers just take whatever and don’t know shit about what’s in what they’re taking but he’s actually hella honest and actually knows his shit
Steve will interview anyone lol
And it is the BEST.
lol true
Dude is always gonna have the punch able face in history
Lmao 🤣
Getting face tattoos is certified douchebag behavior
If he’s not still on drugs then he should be… So
at least he’d have an excuse for that sh*t he’s wearing…..😂😂😂
No doubt
Also the stupid tattoos on his face
Really appreciated this thanks steve damn lil xan is right for real i was addicted to xans and had a few seizures myself xans are real deadly stuff stay away from drugs kids
He’s a kid, but not a dumb kid. He’ll grow up, and be embarrassed about about his youth like the rest of us. I look forward to seeing where he is in 20 years. I expect good things! ❤
Guess I matured early
nah he dumb AF
Ummm if this is considered smart then wtf is considered dumb???
Called it mate suss new jumpers interview with lil xan you can see a massive difference In him
He won't be alive in 20 years
“His friend” Mac Miller… like he wasn’t known so much more then this guy.
Dude I've watched xan for 5 years this is the clearest he's been. Its a path a hard one atleast he's steppin straight gna stumble but let's go
I hate how people say "Perc 30". It isn't Percocet, it's a 30 mg Roxicodone. Percocet is a brand name for Oxycodone. Roxicodone is also oxycodone, but Roxicodone is the brand name. It's a fucking 30 mg Roxicodone. That just shows the ignorance of most drug users/addicts. They don't even know what they are taking. I literally researched EVERYTHING i ever put into my body. I used to be a hardcore opiate addict. I was doing lethal doses of morphine. I've been sober for 5 years now and I'm not looking back. For anyone else going through the struggle, I'm here with you and you can do it. I believe in you.
This😊
At some point you can’t hold up your accomplishments to someone else and say you “should do what I’ve done because I’m right.” It’s a fine line between thinking you’re helping someone, and just liking the sound of your own voice and hearing validation from people you know. That becomes the new drug.
Steve o is a fantastic guy. We all need a dude like him in our lives.
I withdrew from fentanyl and Xanax and wanted to die rather than get clean. I was hospitalized bc the detox unit couldn’t even help me. Having seizures non stop. Was very very rough. So anyone who can come off Xanax or opiates … is a lot stronger than most people give them credit or will ever realize…
Opiates are nothing compared to benzos. Id rather be addicted to h than xanax.
He’s got a ways to go but he sounds a bit more coherent so props to the guy
I am learning a lot about the world of addicts via Steve-o's channel. I've learned that it sounds painful and nauseating 🤮🤢. Withdrawals sound like madness. I'm glad these people are working on getting clean so they can be free
Addiction and being dope sick definitely blows..
I'm sober and that is not what sober looks like 😂 🤡
Lol!
Dude has always looked this way. Ever seen pictures he’s showed of him growing up? Lmao dude looks permafried.
Bartarded
Compared to how he used to talk and act, this is night and day, you can actually make out the words he's saying and you can see his eyeballs the entire time.
if they had asked him what medications is he on currently
is he going to still try to blame his addictions on other people?
That’s what addicts do
Sober since 3 years…
However, here is a little story.
I quit CT max dose of diazepam after almost three years of daily use.
I was in an indescribable living hell for 4-5 months.
First happy feelings returned to me after a full year of stopping.
Now it’s 3 years ago and I am feeling pretty good.
Every day for 2 months it got worse. Two or three weeks in I was in such a broken state I pretty much thought that I had broken my entire brain and body.
I can’t even describe the level of horror when it got worse & worse for 2 months straight.
The lowest point, if I would try to paint a picture.
My entire body was trembling, freezing and a feeling of my skin being on fire at the same time.
The level of anxiety was like the worst hangover you can ever imagine times 200.
My thoughts were not thoughts, I was “screaming” in my head, every thought was like a panic scream. I could not stop this from happening, it was a fucking soul crushing symptom.
I felt like i was outside my body and had completely lost my mind. I was convinced that I had gone insane.
I had panic attacks constantly and had spasms.
That is benzo withdrawal.
I’m 17 months off a Valium 5 mg cold turkey that I was on for 6 years. The burning skin is hell no doubt. I’m enduring it tho. I also have IBS type symptoms
Glad to hear you are doing better. That's why so many people relapse. The anxiety and depression is what is absolute hell. I came of percs and I went absolutely insane so I can't imagine how bad benzos are... Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy!
You ain't lyin'
@@AnimeRaindrop Impressive stuff! Glad you're off it.
Hope you're doing well :)
7 years off Xanax and klonopin. I agree with everything you said.
You can watch other interviews with him obviously high. Surprisingly this is actually him sober
Doubt it.
“My good friend Mac miller” This dude was never even on macs radar. Goofy
People here in Ontario Canada would also smoke the patch. Had a buddy die from that. He was all hammered, never smoked weed or done drugs yet. Brought this girl home who was a pill head. She was smoking patches and got him to hit one. He od'd and she bailed for his mom to find him in the morning blue. Crazy shit man. Also, may not have been OD. No idea on those patches, could just been some kind of poisoning or toxic component or something but he didn't make it. This was 2012 or so, nobody really knew what it was other than people really deep in the pill world.
2012 was towards the end of the huge spike in the pill world. But you're right, very few people knew what fentanyl was, I was snorting the gel patches in 2005, which to this day I can still remember the taste of the drip and the kick from snorting a 100mcg/hr patch in 1 go. Just a blob on the pinky, snort it and within 2 minutes you'd be nodding like crazy. When I was a proud addict, I was a huge fentanyl advocate due to its potency, but bluelighters and drugs-forum posts convinced people the high was not eurphoric. However, I was wreckless and OD'd too many times to count. And FWIW, oxymorphone>oxycodone>hydromorphone>heroin>fentanyl>hydro>codeine as far as eurphoria goes, but H is so variable that it can fit anywhere from the top to the bottom of the list. I'd love to interview him... Does anyone know what smoked oxy smells/tastes like? Does anyone remember the original OC 80's and 40's? $1 a milligram on the streets, shit was nuts. I had a supply like nobody would believe, but years after my family was "done" with oxy's, i found a bottle of 140 original 40mg OC's in our garage... needless to say, one call to a friend in san francisco 7 hours away, and 7 hours later I was a rich man and he was the happiest addict I'd ever seen. The good ole days were insane and I ruined almost 20 years of my life thinking of them as good days. Sorry for the war stories, I should be on reddit if I want to post this stuff but oh well.
@@elikerr785 u were just putting the gel in your nose? did u know u couldve gotten more from mixing it with vinegar or citric acid and some water.
@@elikerr785 bro the addict in me just got triggered from that 140 quantity lol
I used to smoke injectbpatches I've been clean since July 25 2018
Nope he died from an overdose. That’s lethal to even an addict to smoke fentanyl.
Respect to the kid though. He’s back in his body now, sounding normal. Going through barb withdrawals is no joke. Sounds like he faced his demons some never do. Well done.
Yes, it's written all over his face. 🥁- tissue!
Benzos not barbs
Xanax is a benzo
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̶"̶B̶e̶n̶z̶o̶s̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶B̶a̶r̶b̶s̶"̶ ̶a̶s̶ ̶i̶n̶
̶ ̶"̶B̶e̶n̶z̶o̶d̶i̶a̶z̶e̶p̶i̶n̶e̶s̶,̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶B̶a̶r̶b̶i̶t̶u̶r̶a̶t̶e̶s̶"̶
@@SynchronicitySequence I didn't respond to that person. I responded to op...