I am 30 years old and I started 3 years ago to learn how to worry less..Cause as long as I can think I worry nearly about everything and it takes a lot from my living quality. It got better since I consciously started to work on that, especially stop worrying what people think about me and trying to satisfy others. it's a long process and i still have a lot to work on. Your videos inspire and help me a lot! So thank you for that, Conni
I love you Connie, thank you, you are great. the thing with perfectionism and not comparing with others and make your own way of life, being single, be who I am. The thing about shame and vulnerability, and dont care what others think of me, yeah, thank you, really important things for me. Love from Buenos Aires ❤
Conni, thank you so much for making these videos. I can’t tell you how many things have come under the microscope since I started listening in. Early this year, I went through a really harsh breakup that I thought was going to be the death of me. Literally. Little did I know that this was actually leading me to my awakening. It’s been a process. I have never spent so much time alone in my life. But this transitional period has allowed me to actually sit with myself, which is something I had lost the ability to do. Not only did this lead to me refining what I want for my love life, but I also moved on from some friendships that were no longer serving what I was trying to become. I have been able to more easily take assessments of my life and find out what is making me happy/unhappy. I took a new job with better learning opportunities that will lead to longer spaces for travel. I traveled alone A LOT to countries that I had only ever dreamed of as a child. My health and routine is a much bigger priority, and while I am still trying new things and seeing what I like and don’t like, the presence of this priority has helped me immensely. Although I still have moments of anxiety, restlessness, questioning, comparison...I feel like I can take in a breath to the deepest point now. I can live with content and fullness and am not on constant extreme highs and extreme lows. Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you’ve been a pretty significant part of my life for several months. I really thank you for all of the inner and outer work that you have done and then shared with your audience.
A lot of important points in this video! For me the real challenge was to stop caring about others and about all the rules that derive from others (their opinion, the "right" way to live according to society, others being better than me at my job...). Obviously it's an ongoing process, but deciding to stop caring and understanding that you need to stop caring, are powerful tools. An amazing thing is that, having this new perspective of not caring, I had the possibility to re-evaluate my life so far: I thought I made a lot of mistakes, but they where mistakes only in the eyes of others! Actually I just was on a different path (a path that suits me better).
Just to let you know: You're one of the most inspiring people out there! I love your videos. You're giving me courage to do my thing and be myself. Thank you!
I just found your channel and I love it. 😍😍😍😍 Thank you so much for the inspiration. I started my minimalist journey 2.5 years ago and I feel much happier and “full” than before. Hugs from Miami. 🤗🤗🤗
Nr 8, the perfectionism, combined with nr 1 is what I REALLY have to work on ... thanks for the push, Conni! you are such a great inspiration for me and I'm so unbelievably glad and thankful that I've found you about 3 years ago and am following you on all channels since :) lots of love from Hamburg ❤
Hey Conni! This is all so inspiring, thank you! I love the first point, not caring what other people think. It is so hard and I guess the main problem for many people. But your second point, wow. I love it! Not caring what day of the week or what hour it is and you go with your own flow! That sounds really great and like my dream ❤️
New subscriber and I absolutely love your channel! Looking forward to watching every single video! Thank you for all you're doing and making a difference in so many others lives! Much success wished to you and I'm stoked to watch the others!
My mum made me care about what other people thought of me. How I dressed, how I spoke, everything. I honestly felt like she taught me to p*ssy foot around everyone in life. Be courteous of everyone no matter what. Yes I'm a very well mannered individual. But theres a fine line between kissing ass and being a genuinely lovely member of the community. Even these days if someone is rude or horrible or cruel to me, I try so damn hard not to let anything get to me. But we are all human at the end of the day and its very hard to change how your mother has brought you up to be like.
Awesome Conni, thank you so much for this great video!! Especially not giving a * about what other people think of me and how I live my life has made the biggest impact ever, I am still working on it but it's getting better and better :)
Best video I've seen since quite a while. I am glad you switch to English language on your vlogs, otherwise I couldn't have reached you. A lot of what you say in this video, especially about the news, perfectionism and comparing to others, resonates with me and thought about it through time. It was inspiring what you said about how to do things, also, in addition of that, sometimes if you just do it your own way and also be aware of the ways others do it, you can take from that what you need/suites you, so it can become a both way learning process. But in order to benefit that, you should be aware of doing things your own way.
Thanks Conni for this wonderful video! Especially the last point is a very important one for anyone with a blog or whatever else. Very inspiring, thank you!
Great stuff! I stopped caring about being isolated (I am changing and still need to find people that are wired like me) and am accepting it as a phase of my life. BTW: I resonate with so much you say that I sometimes think I am the 9 year older version of you 😉 💚
Wouldn't have guessed that you are a fellow Bavarian ;) - Your English is pretty good (a bit of an understatement: It is outstanding). I myself pride myself on speaking the language fluently, but I would probably trip up sooner or later when talking in front of a camera, so: Well done! Didn't enjoy the stuff about eating (I don't think a plant based diet is ideal, but on the other hand: You do you! Whatever works for you!) I prefer frugalism (so no buying useless stuff (or a coffee from Starbucks...I'd rather bring my own, or stick to tab-water!) you will not enjoy long term - hell, when I buy tech-gadgets I mull the decision over for months before I buy something!) over minimalism. I don't own a massive amount of stuff (it after all still fits in a single room which also contains my bed - I don't have an extra bedroom and I am fine with that!), but only owning a suitcase full? Hm...doubt I could do and frankly I do not want to!
Bingo, there's number 7 again: Ich bin mir nicht sicher, ob ich deine Frage richtig verstanden habe. Kannst du sie mir bitte nochmal auf deutsch stellen, damit ich drüber nachdenken kann.
Sicher, ich möchte deine Anregung bestmöglich nutzen. Es hat auch heut nacht gleich angefangen zu arbeiten, mit Albtræumen Herzklopfen ... also bin ich auf der richtigen Spur. Sherlock Holmes grüsst ;) Danke nochmal Conni und danke Theresa
Love it! Just stared with a few points and really enjoying caring less of what others think. But it's more easy away from home to be honest so this is going to be my next challenge. And the perfectionism is my nemesis so i really need to fuck it and finally start my own business cuz not trying if failing already. Love from Thailand 🌺
love this video! You changed again, I can see it! Do you make a video about your second Tony Robbins event? I would love to watch that topic! And what are the 10 things you really care about? Big hug and huge thankfulness!
Ich freu mich so dich im Mai auf der DNX im Berlin sprechen zu hören. Du warst quasi mein Einstieg ins Digitale Nomadentum. Immer eine große Inspiration! Die 10 Punkte sind wirklich toll, viele davon hab ich auch schon geschafft loszulassen aber ein paar fehlen noch. Erst gestern hab ich auch ein Video zum Thema Perfektionismus gemacht. Das Leben macht einfach so viel mehr Spaß, wenn man nicht alles perfekt machen will. Ich fand deine 30 day vulnerability challenge so toll! Das hat dich noch "realer" gemacht und man sieht, dass auch erfolgreiche Menschen ihre struggles haben. Danke nochmal dafür 😊 ganz liebe Grüße aus Panama 🌴
I stopped caring about so-called 'possibilities' or better 'impossibilities", as I - for myself - figured out, that everything you think is possible, is :-)
hallo conni, wo in nicaragua hältst du dich denn auf? ich bin noch in san diego, will aber den sprung nach zentralamerika in der nächsten woche wagen. ich erinnere mich, dass du vor einigen monaten noch in medellin rumgelümmelt hast. lg aus san diego, timo :-)
hey grüß dich :)sag mal mit was für ein Programm schneidest du und bearbeitest deine vids so?wäre super nett wenn darauf antworten würdest!GL & HF in your life
Loved this video Conni! I've been especially working on the perfectionist one. That happy medium of doing your best work, but in a reasonable amount of time. takes practice for me
GRreat info, thank you! Would you mind telling us how you cope with "stopping to care to be there for your family personally"?... I am sure you are (whatsapp, etc).... but I am very alike to you in my soul but I have not been able to let go of being there for my elder family...they are getting sick and old and there is always someone who needs help now... Now that I am at a age where I finally I thought I could be free for REAL (finished university) I find myself so dependent and feeling kind of "guilty" for going away for MONTHS again as I have been doing it for the past years.... So: Apart from spending a birthday in Bavaria or texting with your mum/siblings or so... do yu never feel regrets for just doing your own thing regarding family? Or do they never make you feel guilty? (Then you`re very lucky:D!!) THANKS, I would appreciate some feedback..... KEEP IT GOING CONNI! YOU ROOOOOOCK!
My whole life has been very nomadic since I was a teenager, it's the way my family knows me. They respect my desire for freedom and my need to be a world citizen who lives anywhere. I also have three siblings, so I am not the center of attention. And so far, my parents are both still well and healthy. If anything happened, I would make sure to come home more often to visit, but my homebase would never be Germany. They know how unhappy I would be there in the long run. Guilt-tripping sucks and I am sorry to hear this is your reality. But in the end, we cannot live our lives for anyone else if it means we end up not living our authentic truth.
Ok I just wrote to you on Facebook too but I'll still reply here in case anyone else wants to join the conversation.... Do you realise (rhetorical question, I am sure you do) that by sharing things you give other people permission to share on the same level. So you posting this and saying 'don't wait for perfect just get it out there' is powerful. AND by the same notion, when you post a video of you crying about something that hurts, that is extremely powerful. So thanks for going first and giving permission to us that aren't as brace.... yet 😁
mega content video conni, thx for that! und solltest du das buch "breaking the habit of being yourself" von dr. joe dispenza noch nicht kennen, dann kann ich dir das nur wärmstens empfehlen. :)
Hey Conni, I’m watching this for the second time.....Thank you for such a thoughtful video. If only our young people today heard your message. Just imagine junior high and not caring what others think! It really is so empowereing. I’m definitely going to work on my list but proud to say that I have marched to my own beat most of my life which meant moving and creating a lot of gardens while working out the mental stuff. Plants are so beautifully healing. Check me out on Facebook or instagram Gardens by Rachel
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I am 30 years old and I started 3 years ago to learn how to worry less..Cause as long as I can think I worry nearly about everything and it takes a lot from my living quality. It got better since I consciously started to work on that, especially stop worrying what people think about me and trying to satisfy others. it's a long process and i still have a lot to work on.
Your videos inspire and help me a lot!
So thank you for that, Conni
the question is, what fears are you feeding by worrying so much? look at the fears, not the worries :)
this has just changed my life. i'm gonna watch this video everyday to get inspiration. haha
thank you!
much love from brazil ❤️
Good for you! My big one is being in control. When I was diagnosed with MS I learned to live in the moment and let life happen.
that's wonderful :)
I love you Connie, thank you, you are great. the thing with perfectionism and not comparing with others and make your own way of life, being single, be who I am. The thing about shame and vulnerability, and dont care what others think of me, yeah, thank you, really important things for me.
Love from Buenos Aires ❤
Conni, thank you so much for making these videos. I can’t tell you how many things have come under the microscope since I started listening in. Early this year, I went through a really harsh breakup that I thought was going to be the death of me. Literally.
Little did I know that this was actually leading me to my awakening. It’s been a process. I have never spent so much time alone in my life. But this transitional period has allowed me to actually sit with myself, which is something I had lost the ability to do. Not only did this lead to me refining what I want for my love life, but I also moved on from some friendships that were no longer serving what I was trying to become. I have been able to more easily take assessments of my life and find out what is making me happy/unhappy. I took a new job with better learning opportunities that will lead to longer spaces for travel. I traveled alone A LOT to countries that I had only ever dreamed of as a child. My health and routine is a much bigger priority, and while I am still trying new things and seeing what I like and don’t like, the presence of this priority has helped me immensely. Although I still have moments of anxiety, restlessness, questioning, comparison...I feel like I can take in a breath to the deepest point now. I can live with content and fullness and am not on constant extreme highs and extreme lows. Anyway, just wanted to let you know that you’ve been a pretty significant part of my life for several months. I really thank you for all of the inner and outer work that you have done and then shared with your audience.
A lot of important points in this video! For me the real challenge was to stop caring about others and about all the rules that derive from others (their opinion, the "right" way to live according to society, others being better than me at my job...).
Obviously it's an ongoing process, but deciding to stop caring and understanding that you need to stop caring, are powerful tools.
An amazing thing is that, having this new perspective of not caring, I had the possibility to re-evaluate my life so far: I thought I made a lot of mistakes, but they where mistakes only in the eyes of others! Actually I just was on a different path (a path that suits me better).
Thank you Conni, I really appreciate your videos!!!
Just to let you know: You're one of the most inspiring people out there! I love your videos. You're giving me courage to do my thing and be myself. Thank you!
Hi Conni, I stumbled onto your channel today. You’re awesome! And I love your hair. 🤓
I just found your channel and I love it. 😍😍😍😍 Thank you so much for the inspiration. I started my minimalist journey 2.5 years ago and I feel much happier and “full” than before. Hugs from Miami. 🤗🤗🤗
Love your videos, very inspirational!
I so needed to hear this... Thank YOU!
Thank you for putting yourself out there and sharing what you go through. It’s great to be reminded of what really matters ◡̈
Thanks Conni!
Your videos are balm for my soul and give me so much courage.
I related to so many of these things :) amazing video!!
Nr 8, the perfectionism, combined with nr 1 is what I REALLY have to work on ... thanks for the push, Conni!
you are such a great inspiration for me and I'm so unbelievably glad and thankful that I've found you about 3 years ago and am following you on all channels since :) lots of love from Hamburg ❤
wonderful, happy to hear!!
Hey Conni! This is all so inspiring, thank you! I love the first point, not caring what other people think. It is so hard and I guess the main problem for many people. But your second point, wow. I love it! Not caring what day of the week or what hour it is and you go with your own flow! That sounds really great and like my dream ❤️
New subscriber and I absolutely love your channel! Looking forward to watching every single video! Thank you for all you're doing and making a difference in so many others lives! Much success wished to you and I'm stoked to watch the others!
Don't stop caring about being single. You'll meet someone when you least expect it, just leave yourself open to the idea.
One of your best videos. Many important things in a short time sympathetically and authentically brought over! Thank you!
I am happy to hear you enjoyed it so much!!
Super "klärendes" Video. Kommt genau zur richtigen Zeit. Vielen Dank dafür
I feel truly inspired and just admire ur perspective on living in peace as a whole!! Thanks for sharing!
My mum made me care about what other people thought of me. How I dressed, how I spoke, everything. I honestly felt like she taught me to p*ssy foot around everyone in life. Be courteous of everyone no matter what. Yes I'm a very well mannered individual. But theres a fine line between kissing ass and being a genuinely lovely member of the community. Even these days if someone is rude or horrible or cruel to me, I try so damn hard not to let anything get to me. But we are all human at the end of the day and its very hard to change how your mother has brought you up to be like.
I am new to this journey but you hit on a lot of points that I have been feeling lately.
Awesome Conni, thank you so much for this great video!! Especially not giving a * about what other people think of me and how I live my life has made the biggest impact ever, I am still working on it but it's getting better and better :)
awesome, I'm happy to hear!!
Du bist super inspirierend Conni. Vielen Dank für deine Videos :-)
aaaaargh! perfectionism.....thank you connie
Hoi. Zurich.
Best video I've seen since quite a while. I am glad you switch to English language on your vlogs, otherwise I couldn't have reached you. A lot of what you say in this video, especially about the news, perfectionism and comparing to others, resonates with me and thought about it through time. It was inspiring what you said about how to do things, also, in addition of that, sometimes if you just do it your own way and also be aware of the ways others do it, you can take from that what you need/suites you, so it can become a both way learning process. But in order to benefit that, you should be aware of doing things your own way.
Happy to hear my mindset resonated with you!! :)
Great video. I really like your honesty and enthusiasm for life!
Danke für die guten Worte! Auch wenn ich das auch fast alles bereits abgelegt habe, ist es sehr ermutigend nochmal daran erinnert zu werden
Sooo ein wunderbares Video! Danke dafür. ❤
Thank you, Conni! This really helped and inspired me! All the best for you:)
Cooles Video, du sprichst mir aus der Seele...
Thanks Conni for this wonderful video! Especially the last point is a very important one for anyone with a blog or whatever else. Very inspiring, thank you!
thanks my dear!!
agree indeed. thanks connie!
Great stuff!
I stopped caring about being isolated (I am changing and still need to find people that are wired like me) and am accepting it as a phase of my life.
BTW: I resonate with so much you say that I sometimes think I am the 9 year older version of you 😉 💚
Ich SUCHTE dich momentan. Danke, dass du das hier machst. ❤
Thank you so much Conni! :)
my pleasure!
Wouldn't have guessed that you are a fellow Bavarian ;) - Your English is pretty good (a bit of an understatement: It is outstanding). I myself pride myself on speaking the language fluently, but I would probably trip up sooner or later when talking in front of a camera, so:
Well done!
Didn't enjoy the stuff about eating (I don't think a plant based diet is ideal, but on the other hand: You do you! Whatever works for you!)
I prefer frugalism (so no buying useless stuff (or a coffee from Starbucks...I'd rather bring my own, or stick to tab-water!) you will not enjoy long term - hell, when I buy tech-gadgets I mull the decision over for months before I buy something!) over minimalism. I don't own a massive amount of stuff (it after all still fits in a single room which also contains my bed - I don't have an extra bedroom and I am fine with that!), but only owning a suitcase full? Hm...doubt I could do and frankly I do not want to!
I just found you today, and this video makes me think of Dr. Brene Brown's books... Great and useful content, thank you
Thanks Conni! I would love to meet you one day! Me and my husband are planning from next year onwards to do the same! All the best for yoy
Just 100 % on point!
Thank you so much for this video - you're so inspiring. Have a great time in Nicaragua!
thanks my dear!!
:)
Wonderful! Thank you. Personally I struggle with number 1 and number 7
What would it take for you to not struggle with 1 and 7 anymore?
Bingo, there's number 7 again: Ich bin mir nicht sicher, ob ich deine Frage richtig verstanden habe. Kannst du sie mir bitte nochmal auf deutsch stellen, damit ich drüber nachdenken kann.
@Gabriela - cool, dass du genauer nachfragst!
Sicher, ich möchte deine Anregung bestmöglich nutzen. Es hat auch heut nacht gleich angefangen zu arbeiten, mit Albtræumen Herzklopfen ... also bin ich auf der richtigen Spur. Sherlock Holmes grüsst ;) Danke nochmal Conni und danke Theresa
inspiring, thx! headed back to Nica soon
Just come across your channel, love your style and energy, subscribed :-) You have a lovely time of day that is appropriate to when you read this
Love it! Just stared with a few points and really enjoying caring less of what others think. But it's more easy away from home to be honest so this is going to be my next challenge. And the perfectionism is my nemesis so i really need to fuck it and finally start my own business cuz not trying if failing already. Love from Thailand 🌺
yes woman!! you do need to finally start you own biz! it's soooo time, Lini!!!
...love...love...love ❤️...thanxxx conni🙏🏼
love this video! You changed again, I can see it! Do you make a video about your second Tony Robbins event? I would love to watch that topic! And what are the 10 things you really care about? Big hug and huge thankfulness!
Check my last video!
Just came across your channel love it from Tasmania. X
i just stop caring what people say about me i just be happy
You can not put a price tag on living free. Great video
cool Conni.. I'love you still for ..what ever!!! cheers t..
Hammer geiles Video Conni! ich freue mich, wenn wir uns eines Tages über den Weg laufen =)
Mach weiter so!
Danke!
Ganz viel Liebe aus Wolfsburg
thank you
Conny we love you!!!!
love you too!!
Hi, I'm a new subscriber love your videos
Love ❤️ Nicaragua
thank you my dear!!
Great video ;-) Best wishes from Germany
Glad to hear you like it!!
I have connected to you so much, thanks for making this video , love from India ❤️❤️❤️
my absolute pleasure!! thank you for taking the time to leave some love :))
Thank you
my pleasure ;)
Ich freu mich so dich im Mai auf der DNX im Berlin sprechen zu hören. Du warst quasi mein Einstieg ins Digitale Nomadentum. Immer eine große Inspiration! Die 10 Punkte sind wirklich toll, viele davon hab ich auch schon geschafft loszulassen aber ein paar fehlen noch. Erst gestern hab ich auch ein Video zum Thema Perfektionismus gemacht. Das Leben macht einfach so viel mehr Spaß, wenn man nicht alles perfekt machen will.
Ich fand deine 30 day vulnerability challenge so toll! Das hat dich noch "realer" gemacht und man sieht, dass auch erfolgreiche Menschen ihre struggles haben. Danke nochmal dafür 😊 ganz liebe Grüße aus Panama 🌴
my pleasure, my dear! and thanks for the kind words!!
How do you work or make your money from online business??
Love your stuff - thank you~ rokuh
I stopped caring about so-called 'possibilities' or better 'impossibilities", as I - for myself - figured out, that everything you think is possible, is :-)
absofuckinglutely!!
Do you come from Poland?
No, I am German, but my last name is Polish - it goes back a looong time though ;)
Nicaragua vlog plsssss!!! I am going there soon for the first time!
it's an awesome country!!
🙋 here's an individual that is inspired a lot from your videos!! this was a great video, thank you so much :)
wonderful!!
Ps. Bist du im August auf Bali? :)
Ich bezweifel es..
hallo conni, wo in nicaragua hältst du dich denn auf? ich bin noch in san diego, will aber den sprung nach zentralamerika in der nächsten woche wagen. ich erinnere mich, dass du vor einigen monaten noch in medellin rumgelümmelt hast. lg aus san diego, timo :-)
any thing less than your hair style ,,, cant impress me ,,wow Love the way u r🌹😘
you are amazing too 😘
hey grüß dich :)sag mal mit was für ein Programm schneidest du und bearbeitest deine vids so?wäre super nett wenn darauf antworten würdest!GL & HF in your life
alles in der Beschreibung unter jedem Video
Loved this video Conni! I've been especially working on the perfectionist one. That happy medium of doing your best work, but in a reasonable amount of time. takes practice for me
haha yeah I feel ya babe, it's a tough for creative minds!!!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this video. * *sends cyber-hugs your way* *
What things have you stopped caring about that changed your life? Which ones do you struggle with? Share with me!!
Conni Biesalski , definately what others think from a mom perspective! And I am a new subscriber and enjoy ur videos!
GRreat info, thank you!
Would you mind telling us how you cope with "stopping to care to be there for your family personally"?... I am sure you are (whatsapp, etc).... but I am very alike to you in my soul but I have not been able to let go of being there for my elder family...they are getting sick and old and there is always someone who needs help now... Now that I am at a age where I finally I thought I could be free for REAL (finished university) I find myself so dependent and feeling kind of "guilty" for going away for MONTHS again as I have been doing it for the past years....
So: Apart from spending a birthday in Bavaria or texting with your mum/siblings or so... do yu never feel regrets for just doing your own thing regarding family? Or do they never make you feel guilty? (Then you`re very lucky:D!!)
THANKS, I would appreciate some feedback.....
KEEP IT GOING CONNI! YOU ROOOOOOCK!
My whole life has been very nomadic since I was a teenager, it's the way my family knows me. They respect my desire for freedom and my need to be a world citizen who lives anywhere. I also have three siblings, so I am not the center of attention. And so far, my parents are both still well and healthy. If anything happened, I would make sure to come home more often to visit, but my homebase would never be Germany. They know how unhappy I would be there in the long run.
Guilt-tripping sucks and I am sorry to hear this is your reality. But in the end, we cannot live our lives for anyone else if it means we end up not living our authentic truth.
Good video
Just press publish - so relevant to me haha
#massiveaction baby
Ok I just wrote to you on Facebook too but I'll still reply here in case anyone else wants to join the conversation....
Do you realise (rhetorical question, I am sure you do) that by sharing things you give other people permission to share on the same level.
So you posting this and saying 'don't wait for perfect just get it out there' is powerful.
AND
by the same notion, when you post a video of you crying about something that hurts, that is extremely powerful.
So thanks for going first and giving permission to us that aren't as brace.... yet 😁
Brave*
nr 5. except when it comes to the iPhone :P
:)
mega content video conni, thx for that! und solltest du das buch "breaking the habit of being yourself" von dr. joe dispenza noch nicht kennen, dann kann ich dir das nur wärmstens empfehlen. :)
already read the book and I am going to one of his events soon!
Hey Conni, I’m watching this for the second time.....Thank you for such a thoughtful video. If only our young people today heard your message. Just imagine junior high and not caring what others think! It really is so empowereing. I’m definitely going to work on my list but proud to say that I have marched to my own beat most of my life which meant moving and creating a lot of gardens while working out the mental stuff. Plants are so beautifully healing. Check me out on Facebook or instagram Gardens by Rachel