You are not almost experiencing PTSD. You are experiencing PTSD. My cancer was almost 12 years ago and scans are still stressful. Fatigue takes longer than you can imagine. Give yourself time and space. Stay strong.
Psychologist here: this doesn’t match the diagnosis PTBS. Be careful with terms you are using. There’s a trend to use words like trauma or specific diagnosis (like ADHD) very often and fast but nobody knows the criteria for the actual diagnosis. Not every heavy to take event in life is a trauma. And not every heavy event causes a psychiatric disorder. Humans are resilient, some more, some less. She experienced a very dragging medical treatment while also having to figure out her mental situation - to feel like this afterwards is totally normal. That’s why psychiatric diagnosis always need a minimal duration time frame, not just some days or weeks. It’s okay to feel like shit sometimes is what i’m trying to say. It’s appropriate and totally normal. If it doesn’t stop you should look for help. :)
My husband just past his year 4 scan and appointment (stage 1 GIST that hemorrhaged). That anxiety you are feeling is very real. I will say it was a bit better this year, but the month leading up to it was very tense. My dear, you are a warrior.
Sweetheart don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Major depression after chemo is a real thing. I wish I had been more gentle with myself and gotten into therapy sooner.
It's absolutely wonderful to see you out and about again Jess, don't go full throttle quite yet as you'll only wear yourself out, but definitely enjoy the sunshine and socializing. Love you sweet girl and give your mom my warmest regards.
THANK YOU ❤️Your chatting about how difficult it is to get out of the routine of staying in bed is extremely helpful to me! I’m 72, with arthritis that makes getting up and out very challenging. But you’re setting a great example of fighting to keep going even if you don’t feel like you have it in you.
Jess, thank you for sharing. I have been going g through a serious health journey. I found you sharing the setting daily goals are a great inspiration for me. The shortness of breath is a daily struggle and something that will be with me for life now. Overcoming those fears is a challenge. I applaud your sweet honesty it's helped me and I know many others. We all need a listening ear and kind support, which I send to you as well
I don't normally comment but I just had to hop on here and tell you how wonderful you are! Thank you for this journey(your life) you have taken me on...I have learn so much and balled my eyes out. I am happy Chemo is over and that cancer never comes back! Okay, Ima sit back and watch you thrive now...much love and a hug from me.😊
To be totally honest it took me years to get over my anxiety about post cancer scans and tumor marker blood draws. But... It does get better. 28 years later I no longer get anxious at all. Hang in there!❇💜❇
I am 2 years from my last chemo treatment. I remember being out of breath as I tried to regain some strength. You are doing so amazing and just know you have lots of love coming your way from other cancer survivors like myself.
Take your recovery slow and easy now... your body is busy rebuilding itself while still in shock wondering what the heck just happened. And know the mind thing is expected... your brain underwent chemo too, so thinking and motivation, and all that stuff is slow to come back on line. Just give it all time. Hugs from someone who does know.
Thank you for sharing your experiences and journey. I was recently diagnosed with stage 2 ovarian cancer and your information on chemo is helping me prepare for what can happen. I know everyone is different going through this battle but it still is helpful. I start chemo sept 21 and have 6 rounds of it. I will be strong,strong like you. Thank you again.
I love that you got excited about nose hairs. That will be funny when you are older and the nose hairs appear on the outside. So what does your future hold? Are you planning on going back to college? Work with mom and dad while you continue to heal? I’m so glad that you are going great!
Thank you for bringing up the sores! Geez I was so worried cause I cant see them,,and thought what the hell! Little embarrased to ask even a doctor to look really. Thankyou so much,,I will be taking a salt bath now. Thank you thankyou,,see never hold back your helping someone with stuff no one talks about! I certainly have PTSD on getting another biopsy! Uggggg
Great job. I am retired and usually sleep til noon, rarely make my bed, put away my clean clothes or do any of the productive things you are doing. I do take care of chickens, dogs and cat but my self not so much. I do have some medical problems that go with being old enough to be retired, but it is basically that I am just lazy. When you are working or going to school you have to do things, but when you should but do not have to it is easy to let things slip. If you have 2 or 3 weeks in a row that are downhill or not very good pls talk to someone about it, many things do not get better without a little help and delaying just makes things worse. Good to see you rocking it this week and setting reasonable goals. Go girl!
Read the Love Hypothesis first in Love Theoretically there is a cameo of the characters form Live hypothesis and it is awesome if you know more about the characters.
You are doing just amazing Jess.. you should be so so proud of yourself ❤ we are in awe of you, you wonderful woman. Lots of love always from Yasmin and Dan in the uk 🇬🇧 xxxxx
The third one is Things We Left Behind and it’s AMAZING! (I’m an ARC reader for Lucy Score so I got a copy early) trigger warning though, I don’t think it spoils anything since it opens with it within the first paragraph… there is quite a bit of talk of cancer and death of a secondary character (no one we knew from the first books). So just a warning if that might be too hard to read right now. The whole book doesn’t revolve around it though, but it is a bit heavier emotionally than the others. Lucy does it wonderfully and does everyone justice so it is worth reading. Just wanted to give the small warning.
It’s good to see you begin your journey back towards normalcy. It is amazing considering everything your body was put through that your skin is glowing and you are every bit as beautiful as before they began. I hope the salt baths are helping and you are getting more comfortable.
Your rocking it girlfriend. Nothing to be ashamed of if you need some professional help getting through the transition from chemo. Its great that your talking about your mental health. It may help you become more aware of where your at and it definately helps others who are struggling, not necessarily dealing with cancer. Everyone needs to talk about mental health so the shitty stigma that is attached to it finally disappears. You are a great role model chicklet.
Awwww this was so touching. I think you're such a sweet person & I wish you feel better with each passing day. Your mom looked so awesome dressed up. Looking forward to the book club. 😊❤
I wish you all the best. I hope you make a full and complete recovery. You have been so brave, strong and inspirational. You are a real heroine and such a positive role model.
Jess everyone struggles with chemo so you are no pioneer but watching your struggles reminded me of nursing days with children and adult patients. I shall enjoy watching you go from strength to strength from here on. Be fierce!
I am right there with you dealing with the mental part of ending therapy. I had a rare form of breast cancer with a year and a half of therapy. I am in remission now but mentally struggling. While I am so thankful that treatment worked I can’t seem to find my before cancer joy. Everyone moves on ( as they should) while I still am completely terrified. I am seeing a therapist and she assures me that feeling this way is completely normal. I look forward to waking up some day and cancer being in the background. Congratulations and I wish all the best for you! We are all in this journey together!💪🏻❤️🩷
Aw, hearing you talk about your mouth ulcers in a different place reminded me of when I was in hospital having very strong IV antibiotics. These gave me thrush which I had to try and explain to a foreign male nurse who only spoke a bit of English (just enough for him to be able to do his job). I first tried to tell him how the antibiotics kill the good bacteria along with the bad which causes thrush. He couldn’t grasp this so I then explained about thrush in your mouth, how it gives you a white tongue, but that you can also get this in another place. I thought he understood when he said that he was going to get me something for it. Unfortunately he came back with a mouthwash, tee hee. I then had to explain that I couldn’t use mouthwash in that area. I can laugh about it now but it was actually really uncomfortable. I hope your mouth ulcers in another place aren’t too sore and heal quickly. Love and hugs ❤xx
Glad youre feeling a little better. My son had leukemia when he was 19. He experienced PTSD for the first 2+ years after he ended treatment. Hes much better now, but still gets a little uptight when ue has to go for appointments. Hang in there, it'll get better. Prayers for you.
Having 3 goals and then seeing how it goes is a fantastic idea. So proud of you getting back to "normal" at a pace that is right for you depending on how you feel and what you need. So thankful you're done with chemo.
So glad all your treatments are finally over! I started following you when your Mother's channel came up on my UT suggestions. I have adopted you as my Granddaughter. I am blessed with two Grandsons, 17 & 19 years old. Will be praying for you always. God bless you. You are a brave young woman.
So the dark stain on your hideaway-in-the -woods is kind of an homage to the old family log cabin on Lake Huron? Sweet! Love to see waves on vast lake shore. Reminds me of many happy times on Lake Winnipeg 💕💕
As someone who has Behçet Disease the ulcers.......I feel your pain literally. Salt baths are a winner. So is a low dose spray steroid (the ones for hayfever with a spray are great) On the whole PTSD, please get yourself some kind of therapy. EMDR Therapy is best for PTSD. It's a game changer. As a mum, I think you're incredible, so amazingly strong and a real inspiration x
It really sucks being young and having pulmonary issues. My was due to double pneumonia at 15. It took me what seemed like forever yo recover. pulmonary rehabilitation is a thing that would have helped me then. I dont know if it existed in the 1980's or not, but i didn't know about it. It can just be exercises to help you recover. Im just bringing it up because ive never had it offered to me, even though i qualified for it. It does help.
I'm so happy you are spending time with your mom. It's not only healing you, it's healing her too. It's hard to watch your child (it doesn't matter what age you are) go through hard things. You have a wonderful family. You are a sweetheart.
Jess, you look amazing. It’s so good to start seeing the sparkles back in your eyes and smiling. I enjoyed the video thank you for sharing your life. Love ya
Ouch Jess, so sorry to learn of your sensitive areas, makes my eyes water. You are probably feeling so good now but it’s a bit like when you’ve had flu (I know chemo is lot,lot worse) but your first day of feeling better you go overboard, because you feel so much better, but the day after it comes back to bite you and you feel tired. So, pace yourself, be kind to yourself, eat, sleep, read, rest and exercise gently. I didn’t go through chemo myself but supported my husband and even I can’t drive past the hospital as it makes my stomach turn, so goodness knows what you must be feeling, journalling is good, writing, drawing, photos, vlog, whatever makes it easier.
Good to see you up and about, it's all the little steps that count now Jessica, they will eventually lead towards whatever your new normal will be. If there is something to always keep in your heart, it would be perspective and compassion towards yourself, so far it seems like you are definitely on track. Thanks for sharing, appreciate the update.
Oh Jess my heart was filled when you were walking around the Square. I had an apartment there when I was 19. Friends had a cottage on the lake too. Special memories for me. Ty so much for sharing. I’m a 66 yr old cancer survivor the past two years who now lives in Victoria, BC. Much love to you Jess! ❤️❤️
Thank you for honesty about your journey, it is such an ugly brutal disease! Total agree with the pink sweatshirt ! You are definitely one tough cookie.❤
Yes girl I’m so for those rolls 😁doing a health reset myself, your strength through struggles is inspiring. Keep it up. I think 🤔 I’m going to borrow your goal, a nice walk to help with the reset ❤
I broke my neck 38 years ago. Not saying it’s equal to what you are going through. But PTSD is real. Going into a hospital or having any other surgery is freaky. IT MADE me stronger and it’s amazing what we can push through. You can’t help when an episode will hit you. I know most triggers. Your a superstar ❤
Hey Jess, here in the USA when someone has surgery or have a health issues that put them at risk for infection. The device is called a insensitive spirometer (I might have totally messed up the spelling). It basically helps exercise your lungs and increase lung volume. It might be help you and you could call your respiratory Doctor and ask them about it. ❤
It's an incentive spirometer! And quite a workout. I have one here after finally having significant major surgery after long wait/ inactivity w pain!! Have lost all endurance and strength, apparently! This is your scene plus chemicals in your brain!! Continue to be kind to yourself and savor each step forward. You are a super hero!!
Mild exercise is great for your lungs! Just build it up slowly, it’s good for your mental health as well. I have asthma and COPD so being out of breath is my wheel house. I hope you are doing better every day. Sending hugs and love.
Hard to feel a real sense of goal achieved even after ringing that bell. After poisoning your body with chemo for weeks, it's not a marathon that's over. Recovery takes time. Please don't beat yourself up for spending time in bed. Hearing your breathing with the exertion of climbing the trail at the cottage hurt. Soo happy to see you enjoying food again, a manicure with a friend & Rock of Ages w/your rock-star mom!! 💕💕
I don't know about the pharmacies in Canada, but here in the US you can get small oxygen can to help with breathing. Athletes carry them and use them after games. They may help you too. Here you don't need a prescription for it here.
Jess. So glad to see you trending from surviving to striving. My journalling goal for September is to add TA DA to the next day for things done beyond or instead of the TO DO items from the previous day. You have the right idea to celebrate the victories 😊❤
Jess, you talking about how you are making matcha maybe not the way it is supposed to be made… The best way to do anything is the way that works for you. The best system is the system that works for you. ❤
Jess - I hope you continue vlogging because I find your videos are so relaxing to me. The relationship you have with your mom reminds me so much of me and my mom, who sadly passed away 2 years ago. Also, my entire book club is reading Love, Theoretically along with you, and we’ll be watching your live!
Jess, taking probiotics and prebiotics and well as eating yogurt with live cultures help heal those sores. It also helps improve your gut health. All of those things helped me immensely. 🥰
YES !!!! So happy to see you up and out !!! You cheeks are starting to have color ( healthy color) Sending prayers and love !! Side note> Sandi so loving your hair ❤❤❤
I follow your mum and now you too, and I often think how marvellous that you have a house on the beach. You have your own spa. I got through years of very tough times just from relaxing by the sea and being in the water. I found the salt water healed my skin and helped with the sores that you also suffer from. Stay strong, girl 💙
Hope you have had a nice Labor Day weekend. I'm glad you are sharing Jess. Anyone out there faced with their own journey would definitely appreciate hearing the good bad and ugly reality. Hopefully plan in place with pulmonologist❤
Found your channel a few weeks ago. Just wanted to drop by to let you know that you are AWESOME. Healing prayers sent. Thanks for sharing your journey. ❤️💫
It is nice to see you out and enjoying some time away from home. I love the relationship you have with your mom. That is so special. Not everyone has that bond. Y’all are both so strong. Thank you for taking us on your journey.
Thank you so much for this update. So glad to see you on the road to recovery. I keep you and your family in my heart and prayers every day. Love knowing how everyone is doing and love watching Sandi and her sheep. God bless you today and always. Love Connie
Jessica, I am so very inspired and educated by your Journey, I am an oncology infusion nurse. I have been doing this for over 30 years and listening to your story has brought a whole new understanding of what patients really go through during and after treatment. Thank you and your mom for being so honest, and real about the struggles and wins you have experienced. I have learned so much from you! I will incorporate my new understanding into my practice. Best wishes for a full and rapid recovery & a long and happy life 🐑& thank your Mom for her contributions to your journey and expressing her side of watching her child go through this. 👍🏻😻
Jess, you are very strong and very brave and I am so proud of you ♥️ I have been following you and your family through through TH-cam and I have laughed and cried with you all, So please know your very much loved 🥰 Also, please wear a mask when your around people, only because your immune system is low and we definitely don’t want to see you get sick… Sending y’all lots of love and blessings from Pennsylvania 🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️
I’ve had a lot of medical procedures and PTSD is a real thing. It definitely takes time to regain any physical, mental, emotional stamina. You are blessed with your family. Better times are ahead for you.
You are absolutely adorable…I am so thankful that your Chemotherapy is behind you, and you are gaining your strength back. I am recovering from my treatments last week, they leave me aching and completely exhausted,,,so tired that I just lay and sleep. I will get to feeling better after 7-10 days, and get some energy back. I have one more treatment the end of this month, then be done. Thank God. I have been a little anxious lately thinking about it. I have followed your journey, as I have been on my own,,,you are an inspiration sweetheart, keep posting and being honest, it helps us out here…
You are a sweetheart and make no mistake, because Jess you are a warrior. Survival mode is exactly what going through chemotherapy is like. I was diagnosed with stage 3, with lymph node involvement, Colo-rectal cancer. There were days I wasn't able to pickup my head but even sick we push through in survival mode. You have shown yourself to be a strength onto yourself. I am sure God has special plans for you ahead. Take things ahead one day at a time. You will one day realize your patience and strength have healed you and how quickly healing has happened. Bless you Jess your channel will help others to heal as well.
❤ Howdy Jessica, from me here in Texas. I am so, so happy to see you up and living your beautiful life again. YES, you do need to do some breathing exercises. Breath in thru mouth as deeply as you possibly can. Hold for 10 secs then slowly exhale thru nose. Repeat times 10, at 8 to 10 times spread out over the day. There are 4 lobes to lungs and the lower often do not get as much use as upper unless you are exerting your body and need more oxygen. But... when you are sick you breath very shallowly so even upper lobes are rested and get weak. BREATH EXERCISE... Breath in thru mouth as deeply as you possibly can. Hold for 10 secs then slowly exhale thru nose. Repeat times 10, at 8 to 10 times spread out over the day. As you can, add hold time seconds and add repetitions. The more you exercise the lungs, the faster you will get better and easier at breathing while walking, etc. My Prayers continue for complete and timely healing for you. I love and admire you and your strength. You are an amazing and beautiful young Warrior Woman Jessica. God Bless you and your family. ✝️ 🎉 (P.S. Some may say I have reversed the breath in and out routine. This way is proven method and has gotten me back up and going multiple times. I cannot breath in as deeply thru my nose, as I can thru my mouth, to completely stretch my lungs, including lower lobes.) ❤
Darling, I think you are doing phenomenally well. Cancer may have beat up your body but it didn't touch your spirit. Setting goals is a great idea. During the times of my deep depression, writing achievable goals daily and reading got me out every time. Stay strong girl❤️❤️
Building your lung strength without exercising. This works two fold, when you lie down for bed, stay on your back, relax your body, it will going into a natural breathing cycle; breathing in through your nose, your diaphragm will expand/rise/open/spread. Do not force any of your muscles. Just relax and be self aware of your natural breathing. This may lead to you falling asleep and that is okay because it means you are really relaxed; it also can be the beginning of meditation which is wonderful as well. Here's the lung strengthening: deeper/bigger breaths; while you are relaxed, be self aware stay relaxed, every time you breath in, take a deeper breath keep a consistent smooth flow of inhale and exhale while staying relaxed. It may be difficult at first but it will help your lungs. Keep doing this for a week and notice how much larger your diaphragm will expand. Keep this as your new nightly routine. If you find your asking yourself too many questions, if your doing it right, you're not relaxed. - this advise is coming from singer, wishing you well - Lucinda
I literally yelled out loud when you mentioned the reason for the daily baths. This has been my biggest challenge with the ongoing oral chemo which I have been on for years now. Its endless micro attention to what I eat, drink, exercise... everything. The potential pain in unspeakable. I have had times when I would sob and shake... talk about PTSD! No one warned me. But then what would they say? After years of this my oncologist is now floating the idea of discontinuing the drugs. Not because I am forever healed and there is any hope that tumors will not return if I stop, but it's a quality of life issue she says. There are no data available for this as these drugs are so new. I was diagnosed in 2014 and have had recurrence multiple times. Radiation seems to work as do the daily oral drugs. I am writing this because you helped me by opening up about something that is so deep and scary for me. But, also because you are just starting aftercare and realizing the need to keep fighting and to keep learning and leaning in. I doubt I will stop the drugs; I will likely just continue to fight to stay present and hopeful. I just bought a bullet journal- thanks for the mention- I am hoping that better tracking will help me balance on this razer edge of functionality. Take some time to rest, its ok. You hit on some things that do take some work and you are doing great!
It takes time to heal and bounce back . Glad to see your adventuring out and about, changing up the scenery! Make up, how pretty! I’ve never seen your mom in non barn clothes! She looks marvelous darling!
Hi Jessica. I have followed you and your cancer journey since you started. I am so proud of you!I pray for you and your family as you have so much going on. About the sleeping: I lost three significant people in my life in one month. I have found that is that sleeping helps me process and heal, physically and emotionally. Listen to what your body needs. If it tells you to sleep, then sleep. Blessings!
You are not almost experiencing PTSD. You are experiencing PTSD. My cancer was almost 12 years ago and scans are still stressful. Fatigue takes longer than you can imagine. Give yourself time and space. Stay strong.
Psychologist here: this doesn’t match the diagnosis PTBS. Be careful with terms you are using. There’s a trend to use words like trauma or specific diagnosis (like ADHD) very often and fast but nobody knows the criteria for the actual diagnosis. Not every heavy to take event in life is a trauma. And not every heavy event causes a psychiatric disorder. Humans are resilient, some more, some less. She experienced a very dragging medical treatment while also having to figure out her mental situation - to feel like this afterwards is totally normal. That’s why psychiatric diagnosis always need a minimal duration time frame, not just some days or weeks.
It’s okay to feel like shit sometimes is what i’m trying to say. It’s appropriate and totally normal. If it doesn’t stop you should look for help. :)
My husband just past his year 4 scan and appointment (stage 1 GIST that hemorrhaged). That anxiety you are feeling is very real. I will say it was a bit better this year, but the month leading up to it was very tense. My dear, you are a warrior.
@@Marie13623Seriously... I hope you never have to find out. :) because that always makes it better
@@KDVollerwhat exactly do you mean? finding out what? :)
@@Marie13623thanks for saying this!!! It’s really important!
Sweetheart don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Major depression after chemo is a real thing. I wish I had been more gentle with myself and gotten into therapy sooner.
It's absolutely wonderful to see you out and about again Jess, don't go full throttle quite yet as you'll only wear yourself out, but definitely enjoy the sunshine and socializing.
Love you sweet girl and give your mom my warmest regards.
THANK YOU ❤️Your chatting about how difficult it is to get out of the routine of staying in bed is extremely helpful to me! I’m 72, with arthritis that makes getting up and out very challenging. But you’re setting a great example of fighting to keep going even if you don’t feel like you have it in you.
Jess, thank you for sharing. I have been going g through a serious health journey. I found you sharing the setting
daily goals are a great inspiration for me. The shortness of breath is a daily struggle and something that will be with me for life now. Overcoming those fears is a challenge. I applaud your sweet honesty it's helped me and I know many others. We all need a listening ear and kind support, which I send to you as well
Reading on the lake. Looks like heaven.
You are looking and sounding stronger, not surprising since you are a proven fighter! God bless.
I don't normally comment but I just had to hop on here and tell you how wonderful you are! Thank you for this journey(your life) you have taken me on...I have learn so much and balled my eyes out. I am happy Chemo is over and that cancer never comes back! Okay, Ima sit back and watch you thrive now...much love and a hug from me.😊
To be totally honest it took me years to get over my anxiety about post cancer scans and tumor marker blood draws. But... It does get better. 28 years later I no longer get anxious at all. Hang in there!❇💜❇
I am 2 years from my last chemo treatment. I remember being out of breath as I tried to regain some strength. You are doing so amazing and just know you have lots of love coming your way from other cancer survivors like myself.
Thank you for sharing about your sores....Who knew, i certainly didnt. The more we know the less we fear and the netter support we can be to others.
Take your recovery slow and easy now... your body is busy rebuilding itself while still in shock wondering what the heck just happened. And know the mind thing is expected... your brain underwent chemo too, so thinking and motivation, and all that stuff is slow to come back on line. Just give it all time. Hugs from someone who does know.
I love Eamon and Bec too!!
It would be fun if the Brocks could do a collaboration with Eamon and Bec. 🇨🇦
Thank you for sharing your experiences and journey. I was recently diagnosed with stage 2 ovarian cancer and your information on chemo is helping me prepare for what can happen. I know everyone is different going through this battle but it still is helpful. I start chemo sept 21 and have 6 rounds of it. I will be strong,strong like you. Thank you again.
I hope your treatments go well.
Thank you for sharing your chemo journey. I have learned a lot from you. You and your mom looked adorable on your evening out.
I love that you got excited about nose hairs. That will be funny when you are older and the nose hairs appear on the outside. So what does your future hold? Are you planning on going back to college? Work with mom and dad while you continue to heal?
I’m so glad that you are going great!
YOU ARE SO BRAVE AND STRONG!!! I WISH YOU GREAT RECOVERY AND ALL THE BEST, WHICH CAN BE WISHED!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤
I love seeing you guys RELAX! It's been so stressful. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you for bringing up the sores! Geez I was so worried cause I cant see them,,and thought what the hell! Little embarrased to ask even a doctor to look really. Thankyou so much,,I will be taking a salt bath now. Thank you thankyou,,see never hold back your helping someone with stuff no one talks about!
I certainly have PTSD on getting another biopsy! Uggggg
Slow and steady wis the race. You are amazing.🙏🏻 praying for your recovery. Take one day at a time.
Great job. I am retired and usually sleep til noon, rarely make my bed, put away my clean clothes or do any of the productive things you are doing. I do take care of chickens, dogs and cat but my self not so much. I do have some medical problems that go with being old enough to be retired, but it is basically that I am just lazy. When you are working or going to school you have to do things, but when you should but do not have to it is easy to let things slip. If you have 2 or 3 weeks in a row that are downhill or not very good pls talk to someone about it, many things do not get better without a little help and delaying just makes things worse. Good to see you rocking it this week and setting reasonable goals. Go girl!
Read the Love Hypothesis first in Love Theoretically there is a cameo of the characters form Live hypothesis and it is awesome if you know more about the characters.
You are doing just amazing Jess.. you should be so so proud of yourself ❤ we are in awe of you, you wonderful woman. Lots of love always from Yasmin and Dan in the uk 🇬🇧 xxxxx
The third one is Things We Left Behind and it’s AMAZING! (I’m an ARC reader for Lucy Score so I got a copy early) trigger warning though, I don’t think it spoils anything since it opens with it within the first paragraph… there is quite a bit of talk of cancer and death of a secondary character (no one we knew from the first books). So just a warning if that might be too hard to read right now. The whole book doesn’t revolve around it though, but it is a bit heavier emotionally than the others. Lucy does it wonderfully and does everyone justice so it is worth reading. Just wanted to give the small warning.
It's so great to see you smiling and with energy again. You're almost back to your old sweet self. Hang in there, sweet Jess.
It’s good to see you begin your journey back towards normalcy. It is amazing considering everything your body was put through that your skin is glowing and you are every bit as beautiful as before they began. I hope the salt baths are helping and you are getting more comfortable.
Your rocking it girlfriend. Nothing to be ashamed of if you need some professional help getting through the transition from chemo. Its great that your talking about your mental health. It may help you become more aware of where your at and it definately helps others who are struggling, not necessarily dealing with cancer. Everyone needs to talk about mental health so the shitty stigma that is attached to it finally disappears. You are a great role model chicklet.
It’s the little things that make a difference. Do all the little things that make you happy!!❤
Jess , you are doing so well. I love that you are unwinding your mother with you recovering. You have been in my thoughts and prayers.
Awwww this was so touching. I think you're such a sweet person & I wish you feel better with each passing day. Your mom looked so awesome dressed up. Looking forward to the book club. 😊❤
I wish you all the best. I hope you make a full and complete recovery. You have been so brave, strong and inspirational. You are a real heroine and such a positive role model.
Jess everyone struggles with chemo so you are no pioneer but watching your struggles reminded me of nursing days with children and adult patients.
I shall enjoy watching you go from strength to strength from here on.
Be fierce!
I am right there with you dealing with the mental part of ending therapy. I had a rare form of breast cancer with a year and a half of therapy. I am in remission now but mentally struggling. While I am so thankful that treatment worked I can’t seem to find my before cancer joy. Everyone moves on ( as they should) while I still am completely terrified. I am seeing a therapist and she assures me that feeling this way is completely normal. I look forward to waking up some day and cancer being in the background. Congratulations and I wish all the best for you! We are all in this journey together!💪🏻❤️🩷
sending hugs 🥰
Thank you!❤️@@debrarobinson6558
Aw, hearing you talk about your mouth ulcers in a different place reminded me of when I was in hospital having very strong IV antibiotics. These gave me thrush which I had to try and explain to a foreign male nurse who only spoke a bit of English (just enough for him to be able to do his job). I first tried to tell him how the antibiotics kill the good bacteria along with the bad which causes thrush. He couldn’t grasp this so I then explained about thrush in your mouth, how it gives you a white tongue, but that you can also get this in another place. I thought he understood when he said that he was going to get me something for it. Unfortunately he came back with a mouthwash, tee hee. I then had to explain that I couldn’t use mouthwash in that area. I can laugh about it now but it was actually really uncomfortable. I hope your mouth ulcers in another place aren’t too sore and heal quickly. Love and hugs ❤xx
Glad youre feeling a little better. My son had leukemia when he was 19. He experienced PTSD for the first 2+ years after he ended treatment. Hes much better now, but still gets a little uptight when ue has to go for appointments. Hang in there, it'll get better. Prayers for you.
Respect 🫡
Here comes Autumn and Christmas season. Enjoy all of it. You are looking beautiful and happy. We love you, Jess
Having 3 goals and then seeing how it goes is a fantastic idea. So proud of you getting back to "normal" at a pace that is right for you depending on how you feel and what you need. So thankful you're done with chemo.
So glad all your treatments are finally over! I started following you when your Mother's channel came up on my UT suggestions. I have adopted you as my Granddaughter. I am blessed with two Grandsons, 17 & 19 years old. Will be praying for you always. God bless you. You are a brave young woman.
So happy to see you doing better and chilling with Mom! ❤️🇨🇦
So the dark stain on your hideaway-in-the -woods is kind of an homage to the old family log cabin on Lake Huron? Sweet! Love to see waves on vast lake shore. Reminds me of many happy times on Lake Winnipeg 💕💕
Oh honey! You are so amazing! Give yourself time and rest!
I had those sores, too. No fun. But the bath? Awesome!
As someone who has Behçet Disease the ulcers.......I feel your pain literally. Salt baths are a winner. So is a low dose spray steroid (the ones for hayfever with a spray are great)
On the whole PTSD, please get yourself some kind of therapy. EMDR Therapy is best for PTSD. It's a game changer.
As a mum, I think you're incredible, so amazingly strong and a real inspiration x
It really sucks being young and having pulmonary issues. My was due to double pneumonia at 15. It took me what seemed like forever yo recover. pulmonary rehabilitation is a thing that would have helped me then. I dont know if it existed in the 1980's or not, but i didn't know about it. It can just be exercises to help you recover. Im just bringing it up because ive never had it offered to me, even though i qualified for it. It does help.
I'm so happy you are spending time with your mom. It's not only healing you, it's healing her too. It's hard to watch your child (it doesn't matter what age you are) go through hard things. You have a wonderful family. You are a sweetheart.
Jess, you look amazing. It’s so good to start seeing the sparkles back in your eyes and smiling. I enjoyed the video thank you for sharing your life. Love ya
SO GLAD you and your momma had a day to just be together. Makes me tear up. Hugs to you both.
You are SO beautiful and God is displaying what only He can do. You are a miracle! We love you!❤
Love seeing the process and progress to finding the new normal. You got this ❤
Relax and take time to heal.
I love that your both readers !! Must be nice to have a hobby in common with a parent :o
Ouch Jess, so sorry to learn of your sensitive areas, makes my eyes water. You are probably feeling so good now but it’s a bit like when you’ve had flu (I know chemo is lot,lot worse) but your first day of feeling better you go overboard, because you feel so much better, but the day after it comes back to bite you and you feel tired. So, pace yourself, be kind to yourself, eat, sleep, read, rest and exercise gently. I didn’t go through chemo myself but supported my husband and even I can’t drive past the hospital as it makes my stomach turn, so goodness knows what you must be feeling, journalling is good, writing, drawing, photos, vlog, whatever makes it easier.
You are a warrior! And the love between you and your mother is so heartwarming. ❤❤❤❤❤
Good to see you up and about, it's all the little steps that count now Jessica, they will eventually lead towards whatever your new normal will be. If there is something to always keep in your heart, it would be perspective and compassion towards yourself, so far it seems like you are definitely on track. Thanks for sharing, appreciate the update.
You are amazing!❤
Oh Jess my heart was filled when you were walking around the Square. I had an apartment there when I was 19. Friends had a cottage on the lake too. Special memories for me. Ty so much for sharing. I’m a 66 yr old cancer survivor the past two years who now lives in Victoria, BC. Much love to you Jess! ❤️❤️
Thank you for honesty about your journey, it is such an ugly brutal disease! Total agree with the pink sweatshirt ! You are definitely one tough cookie.❤
So happy to see you doing so well Jess! Stay positive! You're a role model for many young people! I'm sure your parents are so proud of you!!!😍😍😍😍
I love it that you are smiling again and getting better day by day!!! 🥰
Yes girl I’m so for those rolls 😁doing a health reset myself, your strength through struggles is inspiring. Keep it up. I think 🤔 I’m going to borrow your goal, a nice walk to help with the reset ❤
Give your body and mind time to heal. It takes time. Thinking of you!!!
What a wonderful place to read. Glad you and your mom got away.
I broke my neck 38 years ago. Not saying it’s equal to what you are going through. But PTSD is real. Going into a hospital or having any other surgery is freaky. IT MADE me stronger and it’s amazing what we can push through. You can’t help when an episode will hit you. I know most triggers. Your a superstar ❤
Beautiful view. So glad your are feeling better.
Hey Jess, here in the USA when someone has surgery or have a health issues that put them at risk for infection. The device is called a insensitive spirometer (I might have totally messed up the spelling). It basically helps exercise your lungs and increase lung volume. It might be help you and you could call your respiratory Doctor and ask them about it. ❤
It's an incentive spirometer! And quite a workout. I have one here after finally having significant major surgery after long wait/ inactivity w pain!! Have lost all endurance and strength, apparently! This is your scene plus chemicals in your brain!! Continue to be kind to yourself and savor each step forward. You are a super hero!!
I so love your honesty and courage ❤️. I would like to hear more about the book club.
Mild exercise is great for your lungs! Just build it up slowly, it’s good for your mental health as well. I have asthma and COPD so being out of breath is my wheel house. I hope you are doing better every day. Sending hugs and love.
Hard to feel a real sense of goal achieved even after ringing that bell. After poisoning your body with chemo for weeks, it's not a marathon that's over. Recovery takes time. Please don't beat yourself up for spending time in bed. Hearing your breathing with the exertion of climbing the trail at the cottage hurt. Soo happy to see you enjoying food again, a manicure with a friend & Rock of Ages w/your rock-star mom!! 💕💕
Loveyour new pink sweatshirt 😘💓
I don't know about the pharmacies in Canada, but here in the US you can get small oxygen can to help with breathing. Athletes carry them and use them after games. They may help you too. Here you don't need a prescription for it here.
Jess. So glad to see you trending from surviving to striving. My journalling goal for September is to add TA DA to the next day for things done beyond or instead of the TO DO items from the previous day. You have the right idea to celebrate the victories 😊❤
Jess, you talking about how you are making matcha maybe not the way it is supposed to be made…
The best way to do anything is the way that works for you.
The best system is the system that works for you. ❤
I am so very sorry that you are going through this. Feel better soon
Looking good Jess! 🌺💚🙃 Relax and just heal! 🌺💚
Jess - I hope you continue vlogging because I find your videos are so relaxing to me. The relationship you have with your mom reminds me so much of me and my mom, who sadly passed away 2 years ago. Also, my entire book club is reading Love, Theoretically along with you, and we’ll be watching your live!
Jess, taking probiotics and prebiotics and well as eating yogurt with live cultures help heal those sores. It also helps improve your gut health. All of those things helped me immensely. 🥰
I absolutely LOVE how close you are with your mom! Cherish all the time you have together ❤
YES !!!!
So happy to see you up and out !!!
You cheeks are starting to have color ( healthy color)
Sending prayers and love !!
Side note> Sandi so loving your hair ❤❤❤
I follow your mum and now you too, and I often think how marvellous that you have a house on the beach. You have your own spa. I got through years of very tough times just from relaxing by the sea and being in the water. I found the salt water healed my skin and helped with the sores that you also suffer from. Stay strong, girl 💙
Hope you have had a nice Labor Day weekend.
I'm glad you are sharing Jess. Anyone out there faced with their own journey would definitely appreciate hearing the good bad and ugly reality.
Hopefully plan in place with pulmonologist❤
Found your channel a few weeks ago. Just wanted to drop by to let you know that you are AWESOME. Healing prayers sent. Thanks for sharing your journey. ❤️💫
It is nice to see you out and enjoying some time away from home. I love the relationship you have with your mom. That is so special. Not everyone has that bond. Y’all are both so strong. Thank you for taking us on your journey.
Thank you so much for this update. So glad to see you on the road to recovery. I keep you and your family in my heart and prayers every day. Love knowing how everyone is doing and love watching Sandi and her sheep. God bless you today and always. Love Connie
You are doing great huni,, it will take time lv x❤
I truly wish U the very best Jessica. U are strong & U CAN do anything !!
It's good to see you back. 😊😊
Jessica, I am so very inspired and educated by your Journey, I am an oncology infusion nurse. I have been doing this for over 30 years and listening to your story has brought a whole new understanding of what patients really go through during and after treatment. Thank you and your mom for being so honest, and real about the struggles and wins you have experienced. I have learned so much from you! I will incorporate my new understanding into my practice. Best wishes for a full and rapid recovery & a long and happy life 🐑& thank your Mom for her contributions to your journey and expressing her side of watching her child go through this. 👍🏻😻
Jess, you are very strong and very brave and I am so proud of you ♥️ I have been following you and your family through through TH-cam and I have laughed and cried with you all, So please know your very much loved 🥰 Also, please wear a mask when your around people, only because your immune system is low and we definitely don’t want to see you get sick… Sending y’all lots of love and blessings from Pennsylvania 🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️
I’ve had a lot of medical procedures and PTSD is a real thing. It definitely takes time to regain any physical, mental, emotional stamina. You are blessed with your family. Better times are ahead for you.
You are absolutely adorable…I am so thankful that your Chemotherapy is behind you, and you are gaining your strength back. I am recovering from my treatments last week, they leave me aching and completely exhausted,,,so tired that I just lay and sleep. I will get to feeling better after 7-10 days, and get some energy back. I have one more treatment the end of this month, then be done. Thank God. I have been a little anxious lately thinking about it. I have followed your journey, as I have been on my own,,,you are an inspiration sweetheart, keep posting and being honest, it helps us out here…
Seeing the happiness and joy coming back into your eyes gives them such a sparkle! You are a beautiful person and strong person, inside and out!!!!
You are a sweetheart and make no mistake, because Jess you are a warrior. Survival mode is exactly what going through chemotherapy is like. I was diagnosed with stage 3, with lymph node involvement, Colo-rectal cancer. There were days I wasn't able to pickup my head but even sick we push through in survival mode. You have shown yourself to be a strength onto yourself. I am sure God has special plans for you ahead. Take things ahead one day at a time. You will one day realize your patience and strength have healed you and how quickly healing has happened. Bless you Jess your channel will help others to heal as well.
❤ Howdy Jessica, from me here in Texas. I am so, so happy to see you up and living your beautiful life again. YES, you do need to do some breathing exercises. Breath in thru mouth as deeply as you possibly can. Hold for 10 secs then slowly exhale thru nose. Repeat times 10, at 8 to 10 times spread out over the day. There are 4 lobes to lungs and the lower often do not get as much use as upper unless you are exerting your body and need more oxygen. But... when you are sick you breath very shallowly so even upper lobes are rested and get weak. BREATH EXERCISE... Breath in thru mouth as deeply as you possibly can. Hold for 10 secs then slowly exhale thru nose. Repeat times 10, at 8 to 10 times spread out over the day. As you can, add hold time seconds and add repetitions. The more you exercise the lungs, the faster you will get better and easier at breathing while walking, etc. My Prayers continue for complete and timely healing for you. I love and admire you and your strength. You are an amazing and beautiful young Warrior Woman Jessica. God Bless you and your family. ✝️ 🎉 (P.S. Some may say I have reversed the breath in and out routine. This way is proven method and has gotten me back up and going multiple times. I cannot breath in as deeply thru my nose, as I can thru my mouth, to completely stretch my lungs, including lower lobes.) ❤
OMG = I love that maple syrup - from Costco. I use it with honey and cinnamon on pancakes, french toast, and corn bread. Yummy Love your videos!
I'm so happy that you're doing very good Jess 💞 always and forever a big fan of you and your family 💕💕💕
Darling, I think you are doing phenomenally well. Cancer may have beat up your body but it didn't touch your spirit. Setting goals is a great idea. During the times of my deep depression, writing achievable goals daily and reading got me out every time. Stay strong girl❤️❤️
Building your lung strength without exercising. This works two fold, when you lie down for bed, stay on your back, relax your body, it will going into a natural breathing cycle; breathing in through your nose, your diaphragm will expand/rise/open/spread. Do not force any of your muscles. Just relax and be self aware of your natural breathing. This may lead to you falling asleep and that is okay because it means you are really relaxed; it also can be the beginning of meditation which is wonderful as well. Here's the lung strengthening: deeper/bigger breaths; while you are relaxed, be self aware stay relaxed, every time you breath in, take a deeper breath keep a consistent smooth flow of inhale and exhale while staying relaxed. It may be difficult at first but it will help your lungs. Keep doing this for a week and notice how much larger your diaphragm will expand. Keep this as your new nightly routine. If you find your asking yourself too many questions, if your doing it right, you're not relaxed. - this advise is coming from singer, wishing you well - Lucinda
I literally yelled out loud when you mentioned the reason for the daily baths. This has been my biggest challenge with the ongoing oral chemo which I have been on for years now. Its endless micro attention to what I eat, drink, exercise... everything. The potential pain in unspeakable. I have had times when I would sob and shake... talk about PTSD! No one warned me. But then what would they say? After years of this my oncologist is now floating the idea of discontinuing the drugs. Not because I am forever healed and there is any hope that tumors will not return if I stop, but it's a quality of life issue she says. There are no data available for this as these drugs are so new. I was diagnosed in 2014 and have had recurrence multiple times. Radiation seems to work as do the daily oral drugs. I am writing this because you helped me by opening up about something that is so deep and scary for me. But, also because you are just starting aftercare and realizing the need to keep fighting and to keep learning and leaning in. I doubt I will stop the drugs; I will likely just continue to fight to stay present and hopeful. I just bought a bullet journal- thanks for the mention- I am hoping that better tracking will help me balance on this razer edge of functionality. Take some time to rest, its ok. You hit on some things that do take some work and you are doing great!
It takes time to heal and bounce back . Glad to see your adventuring out and about, changing up the scenery! Make up, how pretty! I’ve never seen your mom in non barn clothes! She looks marvelous darling!
Hi Jessica. I have followed you and your cancer journey since you started. I am so proud of you!I pray for you and your family as you have so much going on.
About the sleeping: I lost three significant people in my life in one month. I have found that is that sleeping helps me process and heal, physically and emotionally. Listen to what your body needs. If it tells you to sleep, then sleep. Blessings!
My friend and I call this “Rubber Vegetables”. Love this! So happy to see you. You sound good, upbeat, and positive! 🙏🙏🙏👍👍👍❤️❤️❤️