If may ask, all of that is heavy. How did God get you free from it? Where hands lay on you for deliverance? Or did you fast to be free? Was it reading certain scripture that spoke to you about freedom in Christ? I know it must of been a journey to be set free, and I ask because I'm praying for help with my back and forth with believing in Jesus Christ. Intellectually I know about the gospel, Jesus Christ but in my heart that truth isn't there.
first reveling his presence ,that transcended experience shocked and pushed me to change then he provided a church for me out of nowhere and through the church doing discipleship and attending mass I slowly was healed
@@pacifistidentitarian549 thank you for sharing. I can see that, that transformation was just for you. God knows how to get someone attention and that how he got yours. Reminds me how scripture says "He who the son set free is free indeed."
Amen I experienced a mental attack in 2016 . Numbness, anxiety attacks, desperate, hopeless, scared of the future, depersonalization, derealization, negative thoughts. I'm not just writing all this because I heard of them but because I very much lived them. Even in my sleep I would be attacked, there was no escape. I felt like I was on top of a cliff and a huge dark force heading my way trying to push me off the cliff. The sun rose everyday and for me was the same. I knew about the lord but never had a real relationship. Didn't wanna let go of my ways. I would cry so much asking him to heal me. The process took about a year and half. Now I don't wanna loose him because that was very scary. Now I have peace again. We don't even realize God gives us peace every second of our lives. We take it for granted. But now I value this peace he gives. Because God is love and peace. Now I can exhale and smile knowing he got my back
I went through that too. I’m still struggling with DP but I believe I’m on the other side of it and on my way out. All praises to God the Father for your deliverance ❤️
I agree with what you said he was articulate in speech. But almost at the end of this video he says he has a speech impediment. Lol what else is he lying about in this video. ?
@@kaelynnmarshall1724 He never said that. And he contradicts himself. he sounds like a selfish person ya he talks about God and quoted some verses but saying his birth that it was an accident that he wasn't supposed to live he is crazy God decided to create him before he created anything and he has an expiration date on his head like all of us because its appointed for men to die and than be judged. there are no accidents God planed it and it's up to us wether we accept God or reject him. He contradicts himself saying he chose to save me for a purpose but I'm an accident who wasn't supposed to be here. He is strange for bringing up the color of people skin saying black people are known for dads leaving. It's not a skin color thing it's a human thing it's a SIN thing nothing more nothing less we live in a fallen world. These things are to be expected shouldn't be shocked or bbn blindsided. We are told in the word of God the heart is deceitful above all things. People are evil people are not good there is only 1 who is and that's God.
In 2013 it was the Lord who healed me of depression, and did not let me lose my life. I heard a voice that said while I repeated with pain that no one loved me, and that voice said: I Love You, while I writhed crying on the floor... I was in depression for 13 years and He healed me in three days. For 3 days I spent in silence without knowing what was happening, I didn't even think about anything. But on the third day his presence was manifested, it is impressive what my whole being felt. It happened in the middle of my relatives, they noticed my face and asked what was wrong, but I wanted to hide under the table, I didn't know what to do. I had to run to the bathroom and there I looked at my hands and my face in the mirror, I felt that it was the work of his hands. Before all that happened, I heard a voice like a speaker coming out of the mouth of a person in my family. Many strange beautiful things happened for 8 months in my house and around me. And I promised to follow him if that being who spoke to me, healed my heart because I couldn't take it anymore. And immediately the pain stopped... for 3 days until today. The God of Israel is so real, like me looking at the palm of my hand. The boy's testimony made me remember that I was in that room for a few days in the hospital because I tried to kill myself, and the last time God in his mercy gave me another chance. Glory to his Name.
Everyday is a battleground for the mind, we need to continually seek the Lord and the Spirit of the Living God to renew our hearts and minds everyday and trust His word, indulge in His word for it is healing to the mind, body, spirit and soul. "The law of the Lord is perfect converting the soul the testimony of the Lord is pure making wise the simple."
Amen Chloe the mind is definitely a battleground and it’s where we win and lose battles. God’s word is so important it is alive and so powerful. That’s why the enemy tries to keep us bound so we don’t seek after God. I know this to be true in my own life but God is so faithful and he has never left me nor has he forsaken me. It is through the word of God that I find strength. Do I read the word of God, pray, seek his face everyday absolutely not? I’m so guilty of this but each time I listen to these testimonies it encourages me to do what I should do everyday. Have a great day today Chloe.
@@mobpsychology135 hey yeah ! I’ll try to be short about it. I was raised in a catholic Filipino home. I was sexually molested at a young age by several people. I was constantly surrounded by sexual perverted things that it became my part of thinking. I was addicted to porn/hentai. I had perverted thoughts. I was physically/ emotionally abused by my own mother to the point I just felt like I wasn’t loved I wasn’t worthy of my parents love. I became suicidal in my junior year and wanted to commit suicide. Wrote the letter and said good bye to my siblings. I was going to hang myself on the orange tree in my backyard. I was sobbing like crazy. I looked at the catholic cross and prayed one last time. I fell asleep while praying. I remember having this most peaceful dream! I was sleeping on a Jesus’s lap. I’ve never felt such peace,security, warmth, love. And such a fatherly love. I remember waking up and kind of in disbelief at what happened, but it felt like the heavy weight came off of me. I started to read the Holy Bible but I didn’t know how to or didn’t understand it well. Not only that every time I tried to read it there was this great pain in back. The demons residing in me didn’t want me to read the Bible. My mom would also take back the Bible and hide it from me. But because I didn’t know any Christians or couldn’t go to a Christian church, I eventually fell back into the world. I met my now husband in senior year and he invited me to church. The summer after that I got baptized. I’d like to mention, now that I realize it, the demons tried to prevent me from getting baptized. My knees’ ligament got torn on both legs. But I thought I was just sore or bruised but that led down to a spiral of other stuff later on. I got baptized but I still didn’t know what to do as a newborn Christian. So I kept living in the world, living in fornication for 7 years, drinking and getting drunk, getting high and abusing pills. I became suicidal again. I was cutting myself. I was distracting myself with video games and drinking and worldly shows/anime. I was in a very dark place. The Alford started to give me dreams of spiritual warfare. Fighting demons in my dreams. My mom suddenly passed away and this added to my darkness. I was grieving and on top of that trying to take care of my autistic brother and my little sister who was also going through her own troubles. I was overwhelmed. Then the next two years I lost my first pregnancy. The next year I lost another one. I was truly desperate to be free from whatever it was that was causing me all these darkness. I eventually got into spiritual warfare by Isaiah saldivar and Derek prince. I got delivered by many demons. I got healed. I’ve surrendered myself fully. I stopped playing video games. I destroyed lots of my board games that didn’t glorify God. My husband destroyed hundreds of dollars worth of Magic the Gathering cards. I’ve stopped drinking alcohol. God is so good. I’ve heard many people who protest and say “why’d you do that or why’d you stop…” but it’s only because IT DIDNT CURE ME! It only numbed me! Jesus healed me. my Father loves me and delivered me from my oppressors. I surrendered all of me to Him. I can’t just give him 99% of me when He wants all of me. His joy surpasses all the partying, all of the drinking, all of the highs, all of it! He is so good. I tried to shorten it but it’s still long haha. All glory to God. God bless.
@@LoveHope-mi4lx I prayed for you, and now I want to encourage you with some verses that have encouraged me: God’s love for us individually: Psalms 139: 17How amazing are your thoughts concerning me, God! How vast is the sum of them! 18Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand on the sea- Individually, that is hard to really take in, but it is the key to life. Jesus is the love of our life and we are the love of his! Job 7 17“What is mankind that you make so much of them, that you give them so much attention, 18that you examine them every morning and test them every moment? Psalms 139 1You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. 2You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely. … 7Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10even there your hand will guide me …. 13For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 16Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalms 53 2God looks down from heaven on all mankind to see if there are any who understand, any who seek God. Ecclesiastes 3:11 11He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet a no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. Psalms 145 8The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love. 9The Lord is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made. Joel 2 Return to the Lord your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity. 14Who knows? He may turn and relent and leave behind a blessing. Jeremiah 33:3 ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’ James 4 7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8Come near to God and he will come near to you. Amos 4 13He who forms the mountains, who creates the wind, and who reveals his thoughts to mankind, who turns dawn to darkness, and treads on the heights of the earth- the Lord God Almighty is his name. James1 5If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. Isaiah 30:18 Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion… How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Psalms 25 14The Lord confides in those who fear him; Psalms 34 18The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Jeremiah 13 17If you do not listen, I will weep in secret because of your pride; my eyes will weep bitterly, overflowing with tears, Micah 7:18 You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy. Jeremiah 29 11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, Ezekiel 18 21“But if a wicked person turns away from all the sins they have committed and keeps all my decrees and does what is just and right, that person will surely live; they will not die. 22None of the offenses they have committed will be remembered against them. Because of the righteous things they have done, they will live. 23Do I take any pleasure in the death of the wicked? declares the Sovereign Lord. Rather, am I not pleased when they turn from their ways and live? Ecclesiastes 3:17 “God will bring into judgment both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time to judge every deed.” Ecclesiastes 4:4 And I saw that all toil and all achievement spring from one person’s envy of another. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. 2 Samuel 14:14 But that is not what God desires; rather, he devises ways so that a banished person does not remain banished from him. Romans 4 7“Blessed are those whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. 8Blessed is the one whose sin the Lord will never count against them.” Psalms 68 I am a Father to the fatherless… Hosea 11:3 but they did not realize it was I who healed them. 4I led them with cords of human kindness, with ties of love. To them I was like one who lifts a little child to the cheek, and I bent down to feed them. 2 Chronicles 16:9 For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. Psalms 33 13From heaven the Lord looks down and sees all mankind; 14from his dwelling place he watches all who live on earth- 15he who forms the hearts of all, who considers everything they do. Psalms 14 1The fool a says in his heart, “There is no God.” They are corrupt, their deeds are vile; there is no one who does good. 2The Lord looks down from heaven on all mankind to see if there are any who understand, any who seek God. Acts 17 26From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands. 27God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us. 28‘For in him we live and move and have our being. Psalms 139 4Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely. 1 Peter 5 “God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” 6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Jeremiah 12:3 3Yet you know me, Lord; you see me and test my thoughts about you.
Psalms 68 5A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling. 6God sets the lonely into families, he leads out the prisoners with singing; but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.
I’ve been struggling with mental illness as of late. In March I was hit by a car crossing the highway which nearly took my life. It broke my tibia and fibia, split open my head which required stapes and knocked out my teeth. I am so grateful to God for showing me grace and surviving, but 4 months in and I’m still not walking nor can I afford physical therapy or doctor visits. I’m without insurance and at the moment my husband is the only one working. Every single bit of money he makes goes towards bills which most of the time keeps us scrambling just to get basic necessities. I’m trusting in God at the moment to provide a way to pay for my remaining therapy and doctors visits. I’ve never had to cling to faith so strongly.
the Lord saved me from 2 suicide attempts and about 1.5 years after I began to seek Him, He healed me of 7.5 year depression over night. I could relate a lot to brother Phillip's testimony, especially some of his descriptions of depression and I was in tears. God is so, so good and thank you Phillip for sharing your testimony, thank you Delafe Testimonies for putting out these amazing videos because honestly testimony is so powerful (hearing 2 people's testimonies is what pushed me to finally properly seek Christ when I was ready to kill myself). praise God!!!!!!!
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective. Laura
Thank you Jesus I’m still trusting in you even though I’m struggling putting groceries in the refrigerator, and paying bills. I lost my job because I declined the vaccine. I declined because of my pre existing health condition (Lupus) and Heart disease. I was denied my medical/religious exemption from Forsyth Hospital. My husband passed away three years ago, Im all alone. I’m a single mother. Both of my sons are autistic and non verbal. Every month is a struggle, a battle to not end up on the streets. I’m so depressed and embarrassed by my situation. I’ve been put down and mocked because of my circumstances. BUT even after all these things. I STILL HAVE FAITH GOD WILL PROVIDE. EVEN as I face homelessness seemly every month with two young children. I have faith our Heavenly Father will provide. Thank you Jesus.
Maybe someone else can help or take care of your disabled children that sounds impossible, and unbearable, and unnecessary!! I doubt Got is forcing you to live like that?!
I am also a single Mom struggling to pay the bills also with a non verbal autistic young child. If you want my phone number to text me I will give you my phone number 😃
I am 56 years old, and I grew up without a father. He died when I was 1 1/2 years old leaving my Mother as a widow. Thank you for saying that it’s okay to hurt from Fatherlessness and for saying that it does effect you in many different ways. Even now, the church lightly treats fatherlessness and gives pat answers such as God is the father that you never had. While on one hand this is true, it minimizes the developmental effects on a person. This helped me make sense as to why I feel burnt out at times. For women with no fathers, it can keep you from having a healthy relationship with a man that would lead to marriage. This puts a tremendous amount of pressure on a woman to function in this world as a man-her own protector, provider and problem solver. God is showing me that He designed men to be those things for a woman and that it’s okay to depend on the right man.
What’s even more painful is when fatherlessness leaves you unaware of men who can take advantage of your vulnerability and lack of protection. They call it “daddy issues “ but it’s really you not knowing your worth. You not knowing who you are. Girls desperately need fathers as much as boys do. But it’s literally such a problem in society, may God send more men to become real fathers.
I returned to the Lord again just recently. Depression, Anxiety Attacks and Constant Psychological torment make me want to keep sleeping. I stay awake and cry and cry and pray and worship just to find enough peace to sleep again, just to wake up to the nightmare again. Please pray for me
I feel I've been honored to hear Phillip's testimony. The blessing I've received by listening to your thick journey is intangible and reminds me of the mystery that Jesus, the author and completer of faith, is unchanging yet ... immeasurable. Thank you so much for taking the time to relay your story, it is truly a service.
Very blessed, thank you. My family is extremely dysfunctional and I very much relate to your testimony. I heard my mom fell down the stairs resulting in my 6 weeks premature birth - in the 1960s. My mom has never bonded with me. Until this day the relationship is shallow. I learned vicariously and was a scared timid child. I never knew how to take care of myself well in adulthood so I made terrible decisions, allowed stress to compact in many layers, and didn't allow myself to heal. Sadly, my pain affected my relationship with my adult children. During the pandemic I've learned so much about my history and the way the world works that Jesus' Grace is finally helping me heal and have peace. 🙏💕 I pray my children find healing through Grace.
Thank you so much for your transparency and honesty, we pray just for healing in your children and through that we just pray that the Lord begin to mend the relationship with you and your children !
I need God so bad right now I'm really coming to my end, after 7 years of asking I really need him to speak to me 😪 I suffer from CPTSD, anxiety and depression, I've never been able to trust a soul since my childhood, I don't know love and it's BREAKING me, so close to suicide please pray for me 😞😞
@@francisward9812 my life is a disaster too! You have a friend! There's a ton of prophetic signs indicating that we're in the season and the Rapture could be soon. Look to Jesus like he's handing you a life jacket. That's what I have to do. If you're interested in being a prayer partner via email let me know. God bless.
I watch pastor Derek Prince's videos, it always convicts me in the right direction and heals my soul. I have PTSD and learning to heal daily, I get peace and deliverance listening to testimonies. You can try it too hot yourself 🙂 be blessed
Most people don't realize parents are grown children with age.....but don't have alot figured out for themselves. They were not ready for the full responsibility of a child.
I am amazed that you had a speech impediment. You are so articulate. You know how to express emotions so well. I could have listened to you for ages. Your voice is so calm and soothing. You are truly a gift to the world. God bless you, you have blessed and helped me.
Thank you delafe and everyone who is willing to share their life. It brings up repressed memories from what I've suffered through. It leads me to just cry and bring it up to Jesus, thanking Him for saving me from all of that. I love you Jesus. I hope we can all share the love and freedom to our unbelieving friends
It's the fact that he was supposed to be a statistic, ended up with speech impediment as a result of the pre-birth fall. And now as a precious and favored child of God he is very well articulated than most. God you are the best father there could be! The works of your hands are mighty and marvelous! May you continue to walk in your purpose with the Spirit of excellence. Thank you for blessing all of us with your testimony.
These testimonies are so uplifting! Thank you for sharing your story, I know God is working wonders in your life and those who watch and listen to your testimony. God keep using you and bless you!!
@@delafetestimonies You want to be FREE then start letting yourself free: Seek out the MISSING KNOWLEDGE Destroy your PHONES, TVs, WALLETS, CRETIT CARDS, DOCUMENTS =BE FINALLY FREE. I destroyed my phone, credit cards, documents, wallet. I seek`d out the truth. I`m now 100% free. How can i still use computer and internet? - through the mercy of GOD, whom i trust and believe in. Matthew 6:25 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
I grew up without my biological parents, been suicidal from a very young age, my parents didn’t know how to explain adoption or race to me at all, I thought I was grey, I got great comfort when this young man said “Father give me peace, Father give me rest” for adoptees it’s insane the amount of lies we grow up with with zero people in our corner. God is my real father I never had and always longed for. Thank you for your testimony. I identified with a lot of the thoughts and feelings. The mental chaos and suicidal obsession and voices telling me to do it by train or knife or hanging it’s truly a miracle I am still living and seeking God.
I had a sad childhood also and The Lord saw me in the middle of my neglectful family life and my depression. Now I see how He has always been with me through hills and valleys. I’m a happy person now with a tight relationship with Jesus!
Psalms 68 5A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling. 6God sets the lonely into families, he leads out the prisoners with singing; but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.
I need a miracle too. I'm suffering from postpartum depression and anxiety. I have always been scared of labor and I spent 2 weeks in the hospital before giving birth because my water broke at 31 weeks. My precious baby boy spent 3 weeks in the NICU, which really messed me up.I pray for peace and comfort everyday and read his word, but I need every little bit of grace to get through the day. 4 months postpartum and still waiting to feel normal and like myself again. Everyday is such a struggle.
Philip, i can relate to what you have gone through. As a korean immigrant with no kids living in the states, i can picture the hardships of keeping jobs, language barrier, cultural barrier.. and unique culture in the korean community. I’m so thankful for God’s grace and love for you. I will pray for you when God bring you on my mind. God bless you! XOXO
I also had suicidal thoughts when I was 18 or 19 and I was checked into a mental hospital because I had stopped eating and sleeping. I was supposed to be there for one night and I ended up having to stay five days because I I was an adult bc my parents could not be my legal guardian once I turned 18 so I had to stay longer. But in that time I also cried the first night alone and repented of realizing I didn’t really know the Lord even though I did all the Christian things my whole life . Towards the end of my stay I was able to comfort a man that had cut himself and I was able to go back a pray with a coworker at that same hospital for freedom from depression and self hatred! At that time before the hospital, I had bitterness toward my mom bc of her not knowing how to love me the way I felt I needed. I also felt like I couldn’t be honest with my parents convinced they wouldn’t care or understand and believed they didn’t love me. Know I know that was the enemy speaking lies and I soaked it in as truth. I had been adopted at 4 but never really felt close to my parent’s and became jealous of there relationship with my friends and my parents friends. When I finally admitted to my mom of hating her I felt soo ashamed and devastate that I could feel that toward her and truly wanted to forgive my parents and ask god for forgiveness and learn how to love others as I knew God loved me. Stilll years later I’m learning day by day how to love others better and myself and year after year slowly being healed and set free from different thought patterns and learning how to strengthen my mind and soul with reading his word and asking God to speak to me or heal me as I do. Even 20 yrs later from that hospital visit in the last 2yrs I found myself getting depressed and getting angry and not wanting the lord but I cried out to him and he woke me up and gave me a love for his word again to read ! He is faithful when we are faithless and merciful when we don’t show mercy . This has begun to transform me in a way that’s long lasting in love patience kindness and faithfulness! He has restored my soul to peace and contentment and when I start to feel depressed I remember his word and speak it out and worship the lord and I feel full of his spirit of joy and peace and strength again! God truly takes his children from glory to glory hallelujah!
You know, Phillip, I never met anyone who was raised the same way as I was... I was raised by my aunts and didn't have a father figure... I thought I was alone... Thank you Phillip for your testimony! Thought that no one knew what I was going through until I saw your testimony on TH-cam! Thank you brother! I hope we can conversate and be friends and talk! May The Lord Bless You! I think that The Lord had me see your testimony! Phillip, do you have a fb or fb mess so that we can talk and I can have a brother in Christ to help me through my struggles, most of all, that understands me!
Every one of these testimonies has lead me to pray. I had been struggling to pray for a while but when I’m listening to these testimonies I feel Gods presence and I’m so grateful!
Yes sister I need to pray more to seek him with everything you have and don’t forget where he brought your from cause sometimes I do and when I think back I be like dang he’s a good God hallelujah
Brother your testimony has changed the way I view so much. I grew up without a dad. He left. It affected all my relationships. Especially my marriage. When my marriage broke down after 25yrs, I didn’t feel much. But with God I was able to break down and ask Him to give me a heart of flesh to feel. He did. The pain was unbearable. I’m left with our three, almost grown up, 21, 18 & 15. I’m now trusting Father with everything. He is in control. I thank you for your frankness. You are very self aware and it was a real honour to listen to how articulate you are. I love the way God has used your life experience to show His glory to us all. May He continue to work powerfully through you. I hope you find peace, joy and love in Him always. In Jesus name. 🙏🏼
In so many ways you explained what I've gone through,it's a process, God bless you brother, keep speaking, people do need to hear, I still haven't publicly given my whole testimony, my son hates his absent father., Alot to the story, layers have been stripped off of me, the Lord gave me peace, it's still a journey, but how thankful I am for Jesus 💜🙏🌹
I can relate when mentioned how he never believed mental illnesses were real and people can just “get over it”. I used to say that a lot even though I’ve been experiencing anxiety since I was literally 10 I always didn’t take it seriously. I grew up in the church and there’s been times where God delivered me from it but I would go back to doing things that I knew didn’t please God and I would open that door for the devil. It wasn’t until march i experienced a severe mental breakdown and a raging panic came upon me. I was having these irrational fears that I’m still experiencing till this day and honestly I haven’t felt comfort since march. These fears are literally so strange that it honestly doesn’t even make sense to me at all. Sometime I just sit and wonder if I will live like this forever. I have an irrational fear of almost everything. Eating like the literal motion of swallowing freaks me out and I don’t see why I am even afraid of something that is so natural. The sky. A horrible fear of the sky and being scared of being out too long or even driving just knowing there is a bunch of nothing over me. I loved sunsets I loved going to the beach I even loved driving with no actual destination but it all terrifies me so much. Everyday is a battle but ever since that happened to me I have gotten closer to Jesus and even though I’m going through this I know he is building me up first before he will deliver me from everything.
Me too Astrid. March last year I got a huge panic attack, never had one before. Still going through it. We will be set free. I’m Gods will, Gods time and with prayer, fasting and reading our Bible ❤️
Brother Phillip , you are a beautiful man God made. Please forgive your dad, so u can be free. Without God through his beautiful son Jesus. We would all be messed up. Stay happy and strong💖
One of the best testimonies I’ve ever heard. Not only in the context of “being saved” but the development of his relationship and not only how it grew, but his awareness of how it was growing and the unveiling of the relationship as he was learning and receiving. Very thought provoking and encouraging and very well stated. Thank you for your story.
I love this brother in Christ soo much. I'm soo sorry to hear about his father. I can relate to this so much and completely understand those feelings of depression and anxiety. I love you all my brothers in sisters in Christ we have to endure until the end. One day all this suffering will be over and we'll be with God forever in his abundant love.
I’m so glad I stuck with listening to this testimony because my Lord, God is too good! I was attacked mentally a lot of times during my life with fear and anxiety and later on depression. I realized I needed peace and deliverance and God did so amazing at showing me love grace and joy! Jesus is truly my peace.
What incredible self awareness and transparency! Gifted with such intelligence, you really shared such a deeply poignant testimony! Thank God for you and your deeply beautiful soul. Thank you!
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective. Laura
Beautifully peaceful! You are loved!! Before I heard your testimony I found your voice and tone, was so peaceful. Truly blessed, God gave you great peace and everyone receives it through your voice tone. It’s just peaceful I can’t even explain it. Thanks be to God and blessings to you and all here. Amen 🙏
I have had 52 years of chaos with no resolution yet. I was hit by a car fractured skull swallowed my tongue and choked to death at 8. I have been seeking God for years. i get no answers to my ?'s. resulting in a severe brain injury. no education and a very difficult life. I wish i had been left dead. this life has been a prison and torture. What ever i was born to be, died. I do not know who i am. nothing but a partial person. I feel like my soul was cut in half. you can never get past it because it affects you every day.
Philip, man, I see you as a father of MANY. An Abraham. I don't know where you work & I don't want to tell you what to do, but I see you as a father of many. Children need you.
You're so eloquent. I sense the poet in you. May God bless and keep you. Thanks for sharing. Very proud of you. I also have 2 boys. Praying for their salvation.
What a highly intelligent, well spoken young man!!! I'm 72 and still working on the fatherless thing..I see the picture of it in my mind and I believe what Jesus tells me about it..just that one issue still makes me feel like a little girl. That's ok..it's part of my journey and i thank God, Jesus knows all about it..He comforts me and reassures me "Father God" is truly who HE says HE is to me. Incredible testimony..thank you very much for speaking out❣💟❣
Gosh you've been through alot from such a young age! You must have alot to do in this life; otherwise the enemy would not have come @ you so hard!...go get them my friend...you have a destiny & an anointing with poetry...there is good life waiting for you!🙏🌟🙂
Our stories are so different, yet so similar. related in many ways on a deep level ... ur testimony and words of wisdom have given me such a revelation. A man anointed by the Holy Spirit... so well spoken, articulating key details in such a powerful way. Praise be to God for ur life and ur ability to overcome.
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective. Laura
I thank God for my fellow brother sharing his testimony. May it impact many lives and be a testament of your great love to bring healing and transformation. I thank you for being brave and sharing your story. And I thank those at Delafé for their beautiful ministry and making this possible. May God bless you all!
this really meant a lot to me to hear, thank you philip. i felt the holy spirit several times while listening to you speak, sometimes it felt like you were speaking on my behalf. i've recently been struggling with my own emotions... i felt like i was regressing as you put it, or backsliding... just the other day i was tearing up in the car talking with the lord about "i thought i already forgave them, i was doing fine, why am i suddenly hung up on what happened again?" even to the point where i was doubting where i stand before the lord. the end when you mentioned that this is part of the healing process... god hasn't given up on me, i need to try not to give up on myself, too. i have peace but lately have been feeling at war within myself.
Wow! This is very very similar to what I have been through as well. This testimony really spoke to the core of my soul. I'm very relieved on knowing that it's ok and I'm ok. It overwhelmed me my body started to feel the warmness and goosebumps on my body that my eyes couldn't hold back the tears. I don't know how to explain it but I'm just at lost for words hearing you and what I have been through. I would love to have a opportunity to cross paths with you one day idk why,but thank you so much for this msg.someone like you I need in life with Christ. Amen
T the spirit of suicide running through his bloodline; Got his dad and tried to get him. It ran through his family until it ran into him! Praise God! Father, use this man largely for your Kingdom. Such an anointing upon this man's life. God bless you, brother.
You can tell listening to him express himself, he has a really high intellect and longs to feel the things that he is scared to, but wants to. And he is very articulate in his communication, as others have noted.
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective. Laura
God bless you, brother! 🙏 Amazing testimony! Before I got saved I had checked myself into a mental health facility 2 times. I heard voices telling me to kill myself and hurt people I love, they would tell me to cut myself.. those "voices" are demons. And now I realize that everytime I would cut myself it was just making them stronger. THANK YOU JESUS FOR SETTING ME FREE FROM ADDICTION AND SELF HARM AND PERVERSION! 🙏 🙌 ✨
I was blessed by this thank you Phillip. You have a beautiful soul & I’m so grateful you shared your story to help so many others. I pray you live out the rest of your days with an abundance of peace, rest & joy! May the desires of your heart be fulfilled with your cup running over with blessings. Stay the course my brother God is faithful!
I was born 2 1/2 premature and same thing a freak accident and was told choose between me and her surviving because she was bleeding to death but through the grace of God. Our stories are so similar. God bless you
You're not alone. I'm half Korean, 2.2 GPA high school, went through ups and down... grew up in Church, including Korean church, thought I was a Christian, went in and out of Churches, had trouble reading the Bible... eventually found God. You definitely had it worse than me, but it blows my mind how similar our life stories... our testimonies are. And we're not alone... I'm sure many others are or have or will be going through similar trials... it'll inspire them to seek Jesus... glad you are sharing your story.
Beautiful testimony, dear brother in Christ! YOU NEVER REALIZE THAT JESUS IS ALL YOU NEED UNTIL YOU REALIZE THAT JESUS IS ALL YOU HAVE. 🕊👑💐🕊👑💐🕊👑💐🕊👑💐🕊👑💐🕊👑
Philip i am moved by your testimony to have more compassion for those without a dad. God bless you for sharing. Praise God He saved your life. Thanks for all you have done especially holding onto the HOPE OF CHRIST IN YOU.
Please pray that God has mercy on me and saves me. That I surrender all and that I encounter him Yeah there’s free will but prayer can be effective as well Laura
What an excellent testimony. He was fatherless and did not have the normal family movie, bowling, restaurant outings. I can relate… thanks for sharing.
You are such a blessing. Everything you say is so deep, poetic, and honest. This spoke to me because I worry about my nephews and niece who lost their dad to suicide. After he started to deal with mental illness, he wasn't really in their lives very much, but still I know his suicide hurts them immensely. I pray that God leads them to a place of healing like he has done for you.
Young brother, God has indeed touched your life and given you wisdom to share. I really appreciate the fact that you were able to verbalize (through your experience) many different concepts of what others feel also to help them.
This is a wonderful testimony! I listened to the whole thing. You are so eloquent and communicate so well. I am inspired and blessed by you! God is using you. I pray you continue to grow in Him and help others with your gift of teaching, compassion and encouragement!
I respect him for pointing out how widespread it is in the african American community and how “normalized” its becoming. Great testimony! Thank God for your life 🙏🏾
Due to lack of true father in the home!!! Most kids and adults are fornication-children, single-parent children, garbage Jezebel mothers, fly-by-night (so-called) fathers, etc.
All I can say is *HALLELUJAH, THANK YOU JESUS!* I praise God for Philip's life 👏🏾 It's amazing how he talked about the power of other people's testimonies in his life - his own testimony has really encouraged me and I'll be sure to remember the many pearls of wisdom he shared.
This could not have been so relatable. Blessing and power to this ministry. I had thoughts of just plugging off a few days ago, but me stumbling upon these testimonies from this channel are giving me life and hope.
God Bless you Phillip🙏🏾❤️ I needed to hear this as I am forgiving my earthly father. I had such a strong love for him as a child but the bond faded. I’m still not sure of everything he was going through besides at 16 and at the time my dad was 41 finding out he was adopted (I’m a few years older now) but I don’t think I could forgive myself if he were to leave this earth and I didn’t put more effort into a relationship with him knowing that he does try and has been trying for some years now. I need to let go of the past and ystrdy and start anew. God definitely wanted me to hear this as I really opened up to my dad two days ago and the relief I felt.
"When my father and mother forsake me then the Lord will take me up." Psalms 27:10. Thank you for your beautiful testimony and also want to let you know I used your example to ask God for peace. I don't know why I didn't before.
depression, anxiety, suicide and drug Addiction is what the Lord delivered me from , all praise to the most high, thank you for sharing your testimony
If may ask, all of that is heavy. How did God get you free from it? Where hands lay on you for deliverance? Or did you fast to be free? Was it reading certain scripture that spoke to you about freedom in Christ? I know it must of been a journey to be set free, and I ask because I'm praying for help with my back and forth with believing in Jesus Christ. Intellectually I know about the gospel, Jesus Christ but in my heart that truth isn't there.
first reveling his presence ,that transcended experience shocked and pushed me to change then he provided a church for me out of nowhere and through the church doing discipleship and attending mass I slowly was healed
@@HasanUnknown For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many.-Matthew 24:5
@@pacifistidentitarian549 thank you for sharing. I can see that, that transformation was just for you. God knows how to get someone attention and that how he got yours. Reminds me how scripture says "He who the son set free is free indeed."
Amen ,Christ is King !!!
Amen I experienced a mental attack in 2016 . Numbness, anxiety attacks, desperate, hopeless, scared of the future, depersonalization, derealization, negative thoughts. I'm not just writing all this because I heard of them but because I very much lived them. Even in my sleep I would be attacked, there was no escape. I felt like I was on top of a cliff and a huge dark force heading my way trying to push me off the cliff. The sun rose everyday and for me was the same. I knew about the lord but never had a real relationship. Didn't wanna let go of my ways. I would cry so much asking him to heal me. The process took about a year and half. Now I don't wanna loose him because that was very scary. Now I have peace again. We don't even realize God gives us peace every second of our lives. We take it for granted. But now I value this peace he gives. Because God is love and peace. Now I can exhale and smile knowing he got my back
I'm currently going through this same thing rn. It's always good to know that you're never alone in fighting stuff like this
🙏 amen I feel that way 🥺💙
I went through that too. I’m still struggling with DP but I believe I’m on the other side of it and on my way out. All praises to God the Father for your deliverance ❤️
@@_Love85 me too its super scary it feels like ir going crazy but ima pray that everyone that struggles with is n myself heal ❤
Awesome 👍
Brother Phillip is very articulate in the way that he speaks I thoroughly enjoyed listening to his testimony, GOD is definitely GOOD!
That's exactly what I was thinking to comment down
Amen !
I agree with what you said he was articulate in speech. But almost at the end of this video he says he has a speech impediment. Lol what else is he lying about in this video. ?
@@joeyvlljs7931 he said that the Lord healed him.
@@kaelynnmarshall1724 He never said that. And he contradicts himself. he sounds like a selfish person ya he talks about God and quoted some verses but saying his birth that it was an accident that he wasn't supposed to live he is crazy God decided to create him before he created anything and he has an expiration date on his head like all of us because its appointed for men to die and than be judged. there are no accidents God planed it and it's up to us wether we accept God or reject him. He contradicts himself saying he chose to save me for a purpose but I'm an accident who wasn't supposed to be here. He is strange for bringing up the color of people skin saying black people are known for dads leaving. It's not a skin color thing it's a human thing it's a SIN thing nothing more nothing less we live in a fallen world. These things are to be expected shouldn't be shocked or bbn blindsided. We are told in the word of God the heart is deceitful above all things. People are evil people are not good there is only 1 who is and that's God.
Truly, nothing is impossible with Jesus!
Amen!
🙏🙏🙏
Are you sure nothing is impossible with jesus? Can he turn himself into a demon?
In 2013 it was the Lord who healed me of depression, and did not let me lose my life. I heard a voice that said while I repeated with pain that no one loved me, and that voice said: I Love You, while I writhed crying on the floor... I was in depression for 13 years and He healed me in three days. For 3 days I spent in silence without knowing what was happening, I didn't even think about anything. But on the third day his presence was manifested, it is impressive what my whole being felt. It happened in the middle of my relatives, they noticed my face and asked what was wrong, but I wanted to hide under the table, I didn't know what to do. I had to run to the bathroom and there I looked at my hands and my face in the mirror, I felt that it was the work of his hands. Before all that happened, I heard a voice like a speaker coming out of the mouth of a person in my family. Many strange beautiful things happened for 8 months in my house and around me. And I promised to follow him if that being who spoke to me, healed my heart because I couldn't take it anymore. And immediately the pain stopped... for 3 days until today. The God of Israel is so real, like me looking at the palm of my hand. The boy's testimony made me remember that I was in that room for a few days in the hospital because I tried to kill myself, and the last time God in his mercy gave me another chance. Glory to his Name.
Amen🙏🙏🙏
Hallelujah ! Jesus is Lord ! I am so glad our Saviour came and rescued you.
He's a good good father.!!
I just experienced the love of God reading this. I have been convinced I will struggle with depression. But reading this gave me hope.
Thank Holy Jesus for saving you!
Everyday is a battleground for the mind, we need to continually seek the Lord and the Spirit of the Living God to renew our hearts and minds everyday and trust His word, indulge in His word for it is healing to the mind, body, spirit and soul. "The law of the Lord is perfect converting the soul the testimony of the Lord is pure making wise the simple."
Amen!
Amen Chloe the mind is definitely a battleground and it’s where we win and lose battles. God’s word is so important it is alive and so powerful. That’s why the enemy tries to keep us bound so we don’t seek after God. I know this to be true in my own life but God is so faithful and he has never left me nor has he forsaken me. It is through the word of God that I find strength. Do I read the word of God, pray, seek his face everyday absolutely not? I’m so guilty of this but each time I listen to these testimonies it encourages me to do what I should do everyday. Have a great day today Chloe.
Thank you for this comment, I've been in a struggle to know Jesus Christ, intellectually I know about Jesus Christ but I don't know him and I want to.
Jesus saved me from suicide at 17 years old. You're testimony is a blessing to me. God bless you.
Amen God bless you!
I love the way you explain your testimony with such wisdom, thank you and God bless you and your family
Can you tell me your story?
@@mobpsychology135 hey yeah ! I’ll try to be short about it. I was raised in a catholic Filipino home. I was sexually molested at a young age by several people. I was constantly surrounded by sexual perverted things that it became my part of thinking. I was addicted to porn/hentai. I had perverted thoughts. I was physically/ emotionally abused by my own mother to the point I just felt like I wasn’t loved I wasn’t worthy of my parents love. I became suicidal in my junior year and wanted to commit suicide. Wrote the letter and said good bye to my siblings. I was going to hang myself on the orange tree in my backyard. I was sobbing like crazy. I looked at the catholic cross and prayed one last time. I fell asleep while praying. I remember having this most peaceful dream! I was sleeping on a Jesus’s lap. I’ve never felt such peace,security, warmth, love. And such a fatherly love. I remember waking up and kind of in disbelief at what happened, but it felt like the heavy weight came off of me. I started to read the Holy Bible but I didn’t know how to or didn’t understand it well. Not only that every time I tried to read it there was this great pain in back. The demons residing in me didn’t want me to read the Bible. My mom would also take back the Bible and hide it from me. But because I didn’t know any Christians or couldn’t go to a Christian church, I eventually fell back into the world. I met my now husband in senior year and he invited me to church. The summer after that I got baptized. I’d like to mention, now that I realize it, the demons tried to prevent me from getting baptized. My knees’ ligament got torn on both legs. But I thought I was just sore or bruised but that led down to a spiral of other stuff later on. I got baptized but I still didn’t know what to do as a newborn Christian. So I kept living in the world, living in fornication for 7 years, drinking and getting drunk, getting high and abusing pills. I became suicidal again. I was cutting myself. I was distracting myself with video games and drinking and worldly shows/anime. I was in a very dark place. The Alford started to give me dreams of spiritual warfare. Fighting demons in my dreams. My mom suddenly passed away and this added to my darkness. I was grieving and on top of that trying to take care of my autistic brother and my little sister who was also going through her own troubles. I was overwhelmed. Then the next two years I lost my first pregnancy. The next year I lost another one. I was truly desperate to be free from whatever it was that was causing me all these darkness. I eventually got into spiritual warfare by Isaiah saldivar and Derek prince. I got delivered by many demons. I got healed. I’ve surrendered myself fully. I stopped playing video games. I destroyed lots of my board games that didn’t glorify God. My husband destroyed hundreds of dollars worth of Magic the Gathering cards. I’ve stopped drinking alcohol. God is so good. I’ve heard many people who protest and say “why’d you do that or why’d you stop…” but it’s only because IT DIDNT CURE ME! It only numbed me! Jesus healed me. my Father loves me and delivered me from my oppressors. I surrendered all of me to Him. I can’t just give him 99% of me when He wants all of me. His joy surpasses all the partying, all of the drinking, all of the highs, all of it! He is so good. I tried to shorten it but it’s still long haha. All glory to God. God bless.
@irish hazel you are a warrior🛡
“I was trying to pursue Him as my Father in Heaven, without ever knowing what it was to have a Father on earth”. Spectacularly eloquent.
🎯💯🙏
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me
That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective.
@@LoveHope-mi4lx
I prayed for you, and now I want to encourage you with some verses that have encouraged me:
God’s love for us individually:
Psalms 139:
17How amazing are your thoughts concerning me, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand on the sea-
Individually, that is hard to really take in, but it is the key to life. Jesus is the love of our life and we are the love of his!
Job 7
17“What is mankind that you make so much of them,
that you give them so much attention,
18that you examine them every morning
and test them every moment?
Psalms 139
1You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
…
7Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10even there your hand will guide me
….
13For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
Psalms 53
2God looks down from heaven
on all mankind
to see if there are any who understand,
any who seek God.
Ecclesiastes 3:11
11He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet a no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
Psalms 145
8The Lord is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and rich in love.
9The Lord is good to all;
he has compassion on all he has made.
Joel 2
Return to the Lord your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.
14Who knows? He may turn and relent
and leave behind a blessing.
Jeremiah 33:3
‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’
James 4
7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8Come near to God and he will come near to you.
Amos 4
13He who forms the mountains,
who creates the wind,
and who reveals his thoughts to mankind,
who turns dawn to darkness,
and treads on the heights of the earth-
the Lord God Almighty is his name.
James1
5If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
Isaiah 30:18
Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion…
How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you.
Psalms 25
14The Lord confides in those who fear him;
Psalms 34
18The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Jeremiah 13
17If you do not listen,
I will weep in secret
because of your pride;
my eyes will weep bitterly,
overflowing with tears,
Micah 7:18
You do not stay angry forever
but delight to show mercy.
Jeremiah 29
11For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14I will be found by you,” declares the Lord,
Ezekiel 18
21“But if a wicked person turns away from all the sins they have committed and keeps all my decrees and does what is just and right, that person will surely live; they will not die. 22None of the offenses they have committed will be remembered against them. Because of the righteous things they have done, they will live. 23Do I take any pleasure in the death of the wicked? declares the Sovereign Lord. Rather, am I not pleased when they turn from their ways and live?
Ecclesiastes 3:17
“God will bring into judgment
both the righteous and the wicked,
for there will be a time for every activity,
a time to judge every deed.”
Ecclesiastes 4:4
And I saw that all toil and all achievement spring from one person’s envy of another. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
2 Samuel 14:14 But that is not what God desires; rather, he devises ways so that a banished person does not remain banished from him.
Romans 4
7“Blessed are those
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
8Blessed is the one
whose sin the Lord will never count against them.”
Psalms 68
I am a Father to the fatherless…
Hosea 11:3
but they did not realize
it was I who healed them.
4I led them with cords of human kindness,
with ties of love.
To them I was like one who lifts
a little child to the cheek,
and I bent down to feed them.
2 Chronicles 16:9
For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.
Psalms 33
13From heaven the Lord looks down
and sees all mankind;
14from his dwelling place he watches
all who live on earth-
15he who forms the hearts of all,
who considers everything they do.
Psalms 14
1The fool a says in his heart,
“There is no God.”
They are corrupt, their deeds are vile;
there is no one who does good.
2The Lord looks down from heaven
on all mankind
to see if there are any who understand,
any who seek God.
Acts 17
26From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands. 27God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us. 28‘For in him we live and move and have our being.
Psalms 139
4Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
1 Peter 5
“God opposes the proud
but shows favor to the humble.”
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Jeremiah 12:3
3Yet you know me, Lord;
you see me and test my thoughts about you.
Psalms 68
5A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows,
is God in his holy dwelling.
6God sets the lonely into families,
he leads out the prisoners with singing;
but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.
I’ve been struggling with mental illness as of late. In March I was hit by a car crossing the highway which nearly took my life. It broke my tibia and fibia, split open my head which required stapes and knocked out my teeth. I am so grateful to God for showing me grace and surviving, but 4 months in and I’m still not walking nor can I afford physical therapy or doctor visits. I’m without insurance and at the moment my husband is the only one working. Every single bit of money he makes goes towards bills which most of the time keeps us scrambling just to get basic necessities. I’m trusting in God at the moment to provide a way to pay for my remaining therapy and doctors visits. I’ve never had to cling to faith so strongly.
sorry to hear that i will keep you in my prayers
the Lord saved me from 2 suicide attempts and about 1.5 years after I began to seek Him, He healed me of 7.5 year depression over night. I could relate a lot to brother Phillip's testimony, especially some of his descriptions of depression and I was in tears. God is so, so good and thank you Phillip for sharing your testimony, thank you Delafe Testimonies for putting out these amazing videos because honestly testimony is so powerful (hearing 2 people's testimonies is what pushed me to finally properly seek Christ when I was ready to kill myself). praise God!!!!!!!
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me
That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective.
Laura
Thank you Jesus I’m still trusting in you even though I’m struggling putting groceries in the refrigerator, and paying bills. I lost my job because I declined the vaccine. I declined because of my pre existing health condition (Lupus) and Heart disease. I was denied my medical/religious exemption from Forsyth Hospital. My husband passed away three years ago, Im all alone. I’m a single mother. Both of my sons are autistic and non verbal. Every month is a struggle, a battle to not end up on the streets. I’m so depressed and embarrassed by my situation. I’ve been put down and mocked because of my circumstances. BUT even after all these things. I STILL HAVE FAITH GOD WILL PROVIDE. EVEN as I face homelessness seemly every month with two young children. I have faith our Heavenly Father will provide. Thank you Jesus.
Maybe someone else can help or take care of your disabled children that sounds impossible, and unbearable, and unnecessary!! I doubt Got is forcing you to live like that?!
Wow, that’s very sad. Start a gofundme and I’ll donate. Keep trusting God🙏🌈
@@riseagain9677 Yes! Start a gofundme, or leave your cashapp in the comments so people can help🙏🏾
♥️✝️♥️
Please do start the GoFund
I am also a single Mom struggling to pay the bills also with a non verbal autistic young child. If you want my phone number to text me I will give you my phone number 😃
I am 56 years old, and I grew up without a father. He died when I was 1 1/2 years old leaving my Mother as a widow.
Thank you for saying that it’s okay to hurt from Fatherlessness and for saying that it does effect you in many different ways.
Even now, the church lightly treats fatherlessness and gives pat answers such as God is the father that you never had. While on one hand this is true, it minimizes the developmental effects on a person.
This helped me make sense as to why I feel burnt out at times. For women with no fathers, it can keep you from having a healthy relationship with a man that would lead to marriage. This puts a tremendous amount of pressure on a woman to function in this world as a man-her own protector, provider and problem solver. God is showing me that He designed men to be those things for a woman and that it’s okay to depend on the right man.
What’s even more painful is when fatherlessness leaves you unaware of men who can take advantage of your vulnerability and lack of protection. They call it “daddy issues “ but it’s really you not knowing your worth. You not knowing who you are. Girls desperately need fathers as much as boys do. But it’s literally such a problem in society, may God send more men to become real fathers.
I returned to the Lord again just recently. Depression, Anxiety Attacks and Constant Psychological torment make me want to keep sleeping. I stay awake and cry and cry and pray and worship just to find enough peace to sleep again, just to wake up to the nightmare again.
Please pray for me
“In the moment, discipline never feels good” wowwww 🥺
I feel I've been honored to hear Phillip's testimony. The blessing I've received by listening to your thick journey is intangible and reminds me of the mystery that Jesus, the author and completer of faith, is unchanging yet ... immeasurable. Thank you so much for taking the time to relay your story, it is truly a service.
Very blessed, thank you. My family is extremely dysfunctional and I very much relate to your testimony. I heard my mom fell down the stairs resulting in my 6 weeks premature birth - in the 1960s. My mom has never bonded with me. Until this day the relationship is shallow. I learned vicariously and was a scared timid child. I never knew how to take care of myself well in adulthood so I made terrible decisions, allowed stress to compact in many layers, and didn't allow myself to heal. Sadly, my pain affected my relationship with my adult children. During the pandemic I've learned so much about my history and the way the world works that Jesus' Grace is finally helping me heal and have peace. 🙏💕 I pray my children find healing through Grace.
Thank you so much for your transparency and honesty, we pray just for healing in your children and through that we just pray that the Lord begin to mend the relationship with you and your children !
Keep praying for your kids God will help them. My mother has always been extremely jealous of me and harmful to my life so I understand your pain.
Great. ❤️❤️❤️❤️. Hugs!
I need God so bad right now I'm really coming to my end, after 7 years of asking I really need him to speak to me 😪 I suffer from CPTSD, anxiety and depression, I've never been able to trust a soul since my childhood, I don't know love and it's BREAKING me, so close to suicide please pray for me 😞😞
Francis... I'm right here, praying for you. Do you believe in the Rapture?
@@denisekay4292 thank you, and yes I do
@@francisward9812 my life is a disaster too! You have a friend! There's a ton of prophetic signs indicating that we're in the season and the Rapture could be soon. Look to Jesus like he's handing you a life jacket. That's what I have to do. If you're interested in being a prayer partner via email let me know. God bless.
Praying for you in Jesus name !
I watch pastor Derek Prince's videos, it always convicts me in the right direction and heals my soul.
I have PTSD and learning to heal daily, I get peace and deliverance listening to testimonies. You can try it too hot yourself 🙂 be blessed
Most people don't realize parents are grown children with age.....but don't have alot figured out for themselves. They were not ready for the full responsibility of a child.
I am amazed that you had a speech impediment. You are so articulate. You know how to express emotions so well. I could have listened to you for ages. Your voice is so calm and soothing. You are truly a gift to the world. God bless you, you have blessed and helped me.
Thank you delafe and everyone who is willing to share their life. It brings up repressed memories from what I've suffered through. It leads me to just cry and bring it up to Jesus, thanking Him for saving me from all of that. I love you Jesus. I hope we can all share the love and freedom to our unbelieving friends
Amen ! Thank you so much !
What a deeply bright and articulate young man! So much depth and wisdom beyond his years - a gift from God! I loved this testimony! 🙏🏼✝️💝
It's the fact that he was supposed to be a statistic, ended up with speech impediment as a result of the pre-birth fall. And now as a precious and favored child of God he is very well articulated than most. God you are the best father there could be! The works of your hands are mighty and marvelous! May you continue to walk in your purpose with the Spirit of excellence. Thank you for blessing all of us with your testimony.
These testimonies are so uplifting! Thank you for sharing your story, I know God is working wonders in your life and those who watch and listen to your testimony. God keep using you and bless you!!
Amen!! Thank you for watching and supporting Berenice
@@delafetestimonies You want to be FREE then start letting yourself free:
Seek out the MISSING KNOWLEDGE
Destroy your PHONES, TVs, WALLETS, CRETIT CARDS, DOCUMENTS =BE FINALLY FREE.
I destroyed my phone, credit cards, documents, wallet. I seek`d out the truth. I`m now 100% free. How can i still use computer and internet? - through the mercy of GOD, whom i trust and believe in.
Matthew 6:25 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
I grew up without my biological parents, been suicidal from a very young age, my parents didn’t know how to explain adoption or race to me at all, I thought I was grey, I got great comfort when this young man said “Father give me peace, Father give me rest” for adoptees it’s insane the amount of lies we grow up with with zero people in our corner. God is my real father I never had and always longed for. Thank you for your testimony. I identified with a lot of the thoughts and feelings. The mental chaos and suicidal obsession and voices telling me to do it by train or knife or hanging it’s truly a miracle I am still living and seeking God.
“Jesus to me is everything.” “As long as you become vulnerable before the Lord…”Love his statements🙏🏽🥰
I had a sad childhood also and The Lord saw me in the middle of my neglectful family life and my depression.
Now I see how He has always been with me through hills and valleys.
I’m a happy person now with a tight relationship with Jesus!
Psalms 68
5A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows,
is God in his holy dwelling.
6God sets the lonely into families,
he leads out the prisoners with singing;
but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.
I have a father but I always felt like he wasn’t there. I felt fatherless. This was so helpful. Thank you, God bless you.
I need a miracle too. I'm suffering from postpartum depression and anxiety. I have always been scared of labor and I spent 2 weeks in the hospital before giving birth because my water broke at 31 weeks. My precious baby boy spent 3 weeks in the NICU, which really messed me up.I pray for peace and comfort everyday and read his word, but I need every little bit of grace to get through the day. 4 months postpartum and still waiting to feel normal and like myself again. Everyday is such a struggle.
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Philip, i can relate to what you have gone through. As a korean immigrant with no kids living in the states, i can picture the hardships of keeping jobs, language barrier, cultural barrier.. and unique culture in the korean community. I’m so
thankful for God’s grace and love for you. I will pray for you when God bring you on my mind. God bless you! XOXO
I also had suicidal thoughts when I was 18 or 19 and I was checked into a mental hospital because I had stopped eating and sleeping. I was supposed to be there for one night and I ended up having to stay five days because I I was an adult bc my parents could not be my legal guardian once I turned 18 so I had to stay longer. But in that time I also cried the first night alone and repented of realizing I didn’t really know the Lord even though I did all the Christian things my whole life . Towards the end of my stay I was able to comfort a man that had cut himself and I was able to go back a pray with a coworker at that same hospital for freedom from depression and self hatred! At that time before the hospital, I had bitterness toward my mom bc of her not knowing how to love me the way I felt I needed. I also felt like I couldn’t be honest with my parents convinced they wouldn’t care or understand and believed they didn’t love me. Know I know that was the enemy speaking lies and I soaked it in as truth. I had been adopted at 4 but never really felt close to my parent’s and became jealous of there relationship with my friends and my parents friends. When I finally admitted to my mom of hating her I felt soo ashamed and devastate that I could feel that toward her and truly wanted to forgive my parents and ask god for forgiveness and learn how to love others as I knew God loved me. Stilll years later I’m learning day by day how to love others better and myself and year after year slowly being healed and set free from different thought patterns and learning how to strengthen my mind and soul with reading his word and asking God to speak to me or heal me as I do. Even 20 yrs later from that hospital visit in the last 2yrs I found myself getting depressed and getting angry and not wanting the lord but I cried out to him and he woke me up and gave me a love for his word again to read ! He is faithful when we are faithless and merciful when we don’t show mercy . This has begun to transform me in a way that’s long lasting in love patience kindness and faithfulness! He has restored my soul to peace and contentment and when I start to feel depressed I remember his word and speak it out and worship the lord and I feel full of his spirit of joy and peace and strength again!
God truly takes his children from glory to glory hallelujah!
You know, Phillip, I never met anyone who was raised the same way as I was... I was raised by my aunts and didn't have a father figure... I thought I was alone... Thank you Phillip for your testimony! Thought that no one knew what I was going through until I saw your testimony on TH-cam! Thank you brother! I hope we can conversate and be friends and talk! May The Lord Bless You! I think that The Lord had me see your testimony! Phillip, do you have a fb or fb mess so that we can talk and I can have a brother in Christ to help me through my struggles, most of all, that understands me!
That part I tried having a father in heaven without knowing what it’s like to have one on Earth , and not knowing how to be alone 😭🙏🏽❤️
Every one of these testimonies has lead me to pray. I had been struggling to pray for a while but when I’m listening to these testimonies I feel Gods presence and I’m so grateful!
Yes sister I need to pray more to seek him with everything you have and don’t forget where he brought your from cause sometimes I do and when I think back I be like dang he’s a good God hallelujah
Brother your testimony has changed the way I view so much. I grew up without a dad. He left. It affected all my relationships. Especially my marriage. When my marriage broke down after 25yrs, I didn’t feel much. But with God I was able to break down and ask Him to give me a heart of flesh to feel. He did. The pain was unbearable. I’m left with our three, almost grown up, 21, 18 & 15. I’m now trusting Father with everything. He is in control.
I thank you for your frankness. You are very self aware and it was a real honour to listen to how articulate you are. I love the way God has used your life experience to show His glory to us all.
May He continue to work powerfully through you. I hope you find peace, joy and love in Him always.
In Jesus name. 🙏🏼
I could listen to you speak all day Philip 🙌🏿
In so many ways you explained what I've gone through,it's a process, God bless you brother, keep speaking, people do need to hear, I still haven't publicly given my whole testimony, my son hates his absent father., Alot to the story, layers have been stripped off of me, the Lord gave me peace, it's still a journey, but how thankful I am for Jesus 💜🙏🌹
I can relate when mentioned how he never believed mental illnesses were real and people can just “get over it”. I used to say that a lot even though I’ve been experiencing anxiety since I was literally 10 I always didn’t take it seriously. I grew up in the church and there’s been times where God delivered me from it but I would go back to doing things that I knew didn’t please God and I would open that door for the devil. It wasn’t until march i experienced a severe mental breakdown and a raging panic came upon me. I was having these irrational fears that I’m still experiencing till this day and honestly I haven’t felt comfort since march. These fears are literally so strange that it honestly doesn’t even make sense to me at all. Sometime I just sit and wonder if I will live like this forever. I have an irrational fear of almost everything. Eating like the literal motion of swallowing freaks me out and I don’t see why I am even afraid of something that is so natural. The sky. A horrible fear of the sky and being scared of being out too long or even driving just knowing there is a bunch of nothing over me. I loved sunsets I loved going to the beach I even loved driving with no actual destination but it all terrifies me so much. Everyday is a battle but ever since that happened to me I have gotten closer to Jesus and even though I’m going through this I know he is building me up first before he will deliver me from everything.
Me too Astrid. March last year I got a huge panic attack, never had one before. Still going through it. We will be set free. I’m Gods will, Gods time and with prayer, fasting and reading our Bible ❤️
Try pastor Kevin la Ewing I found him and all my depression and anxiety are gone and I feel soo much happier and more alive 💘 please 🙏 try him 💗🙏
I was just watching a video about expensive car collection in a rich man's house in Dubai
But this is surely more important Thank God
Jesus loves us!
Brother Phillip , you are a beautiful man God made. Please forgive your dad, so u can be free. Without God through his beautiful son Jesus. We would all be messed up. Stay happy and strong💖
Thank You Phillip for sharing your story, your testimony. I wish I could give you a big hug💗
One of the best testimonies I’ve ever heard. Not only in the context of “being saved” but the development of his relationship and not only how it grew, but his awareness of how it was growing and the unveiling of the relationship as he was learning and receiving. Very thought provoking and encouraging and very well stated.
Thank you for your story.
Thank you Jesus Christ 🙏
God bless you. May God continue to use you! Amen 🙏
Amen! thank you for watching Jackie
I love this brother in Christ soo much. I'm soo sorry to hear about his father. I can relate to this so much and completely understand those feelings of depression and anxiety. I love you all my brothers in sisters in Christ we have to endure until the end. One day all this suffering will be over and we'll be with God forever in his abundant love.
WOW. That is TERRIBLE. SO sorry to hear that. Only God TRULY knows what someone is going through or what they have been through.
I’m so glad I stuck with listening to this testimony because my Lord, God is too good! I was attacked mentally a lot of times during my life with fear and anxiety and later on depression. I realized I needed peace and deliverance and God did so amazing at showing me love grace and joy! Jesus is truly my peace.
What incredible self awareness and transparency! Gifted with such intelligence, you really shared such a deeply poignant testimony! Thank God for you and your deeply beautiful soul. Thank you!
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me
That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective.
Laura
Beautifully peaceful! You are loved!! Before I heard your testimony I found your voice and tone, was so peaceful. Truly blessed, God gave you great peace and everyone receives it through your voice tone. It’s just peaceful I can’t even explain it. Thanks be to God and blessings to you and all here. Amen 🙏
I love hearing how your heavenly father has led you, spoken truth to you and guided your life!! 🙌🏼 God bless you for sharing and encouraging others. 😀
I have had 52 years of chaos with no resolution yet. I was hit by a car fractured skull swallowed my tongue and choked to death at 8. I have been seeking God for years. i get no answers to my ?'s. resulting in a severe brain injury. no education and a very difficult life. I wish i had been left dead. this life has been a prison and torture. What ever i was born to be, died. I do not know who i am. nothing but a partial person. I feel like my soul was cut in half. you can never get past it because it affects you every day.
Never give up. life's a struggle each day just keep going life's not forever. Maybe you can help people with the same struggles etc
my dad was never close to me and it hurt a lot but when i became a christian i realized that i have the best father in the world
His TESTIMONY HAS NO FRUITS.
Philip, man, I see you as a father of MANY. An Abraham. I don't know where you work & I don't want to tell you what to do, but I see you as a father of many. Children need you.
You're so eloquent. I sense the poet in you. May God bless and keep you. Thanks for sharing. Very proud of you. I also have 2 boys. Praying for their salvation.
Thank you so much!
We unite with you in the prayer for your boys !
JESUS CHRIST LOVES YOU AND YOUR BOYS SO MUCH! 🤲🏾🙏🏽🌹☺️🙏🏽🌹🌸
You got me thinking of checking if i have underlying mental illnesses, thank you God bless you.
What a highly intelligent, well spoken young man!!!
I'm 72 and still working on the fatherless thing..I see the picture of it in my mind and I believe what Jesus tells me about it..just that one issue still makes me feel like a little girl. That's ok..it's part of my journey and i thank God, Jesus knows all about it..He comforts me and reassures me "Father God" is truly who HE says HE is to me.
Incredible testimony..thank you very much for speaking out❣💟❣
Gosh you've been through alot from such a young age! You must have alot to do in this life; otherwise the enemy would not have come @ you so hard!...go get them my friend...you have a destiny & an anointing with poetry...there is good life waiting for you!🙏🌟🙂
Thank you Phillip.
Our stories are so different, yet so similar. related in many ways on a deep level ... ur testimony and words of wisdom have given me such a revelation. A man anointed by the Holy Spirit... so well spoken, articulating key details in such a powerful way. Praise be to God for ur life and ur ability to overcome.
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me
That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective.
Laura
I thank God for my fellow brother sharing his testimony. May it impact many lives and be a testament of your great love to bring healing and transformation. I thank you for being brave and sharing your story. And I thank those at Delafé for their beautiful ministry and making this possible. May God bless you all!
Amen!! Thank you so much for watching and supporting us
this really meant a lot to me to hear, thank you philip. i felt the holy spirit several times while listening to you speak, sometimes it felt like you were speaking on my behalf. i've recently been struggling with my own emotions... i felt like i was regressing as you put it, or backsliding... just the other day i was tearing up in the car talking with the lord about "i thought i already forgave them, i was doing fine, why am i suddenly hung up on what happened again?" even to the point where i was doubting where i stand before the lord. the end when you mentioned that this is part of the healing process... god hasn't given up on me, i need to try not to give up on myself, too. i have peace but lately have been feeling at war within myself.
Such a beautiful testimony
You are a brave young man. Be string IN THE LORD. 💞💞💞💞 Powerful testimony
Big hug Phillip! Greetings from Denmark!
Wow! This is very very similar to what I have been through as well. This testimony really spoke to the core of my soul. I'm very relieved on knowing that it's ok and I'm ok. It overwhelmed me my body started to feel the warmness and goosebumps on my body that my eyes couldn't hold back the tears. I don't know how to explain it but I'm just at lost for words hearing you and what I have been through. I would love to have a opportunity to cross paths with you one day idk why,but thank you so much for this msg.someone like you I need in life with Christ. Amen
T the spirit of suicide running through his bloodline; Got his dad and tried to get him. It ran through his family until it ran into him! Praise God! Father, use this man largely for your Kingdom. Such an anointing upon this man's life. God bless you, brother.
You can tell listening to him express himself, he has a really high intellect and longs to feel the things that he is scared to, but wants to. And he is very articulate in his communication, as others have noted.
Please pray God has mercy on me and saves me
That I encounter him and submit everything to him. Yeah there’s free will. But prayers can be effective.
Laura
God bless you, brother! 🙏 Amazing testimony! Before I got saved I had checked myself into a mental health facility 2 times. I heard voices telling me to kill myself and hurt people I love, they would tell me to cut myself.. those "voices" are demons. And now I realize that everytime I would cut myself it was just making them stronger. THANK YOU JESUS FOR SETTING ME FREE FROM ADDICTION AND SELF HARM AND PERVERSION! 🙏 🙌 ✨
I was blessed by this thank you Phillip. You have a beautiful soul & I’m so grateful you shared your story to help so many others. I pray you live out the rest of your days with an abundance of peace, rest & joy! May the desires of your heart be fulfilled with your cup running over with blessings. Stay the course my brother God is faithful!
love the testimony. Great communicator great ambassador for the Lord💓💓💓
I was born 2 1/2 premature and same thing a freak accident and was told choose between me and her surviving because she was bleeding to death but through the grace of God. Our stories are so similar. God bless you
Thank you for this testimony. Amen
Thank you for watching Jacob!
Powerful. Trust the process. Thank you for your testimony.
You're not alone. I'm half Korean, 2.2 GPA high school, went through ups and down... grew up in Church, including Korean church, thought I was a Christian, went in and out of Churches, had trouble reading the Bible... eventually found God. You definitely had it worse than me, but it blows my mind how similar our life stories... our testimonies are. And we're not alone... I'm sure many others are or have or will be going through similar trials... it'll inspire them to seek Jesus... glad you are sharing your story.
Did you find God 1 on 1 or did church help you ?
@@pitchbuckets2860 A mix. My sermon brought up forgiveness which led me to being saved. Its mind blowing how it all played out... 100% God's will.
Thank God for Phillip!Powerful testimony.God loves us despite what we maybe going through!
What a beautiful man. You are my brother. Thank you.
Beautiful testimony, dear brother in Christ!
YOU NEVER REALIZE THAT JESUS IS ALL YOU NEED UNTIL YOU REALIZE THAT JESUS IS ALL YOU HAVE.
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Amen! 🙏
@@dubletar7351
I am a barren widow who lives alone, but I’m never afraid or lonely. 🕊
Thanks be to God for you brother
Philip i am moved by your testimony to have more compassion for those without a dad. God bless you for sharing. Praise God He saved your life. Thanks for all you have done especially holding onto the HOPE OF CHRIST IN YOU.
Please pray that God has mercy on me and saves me. That I surrender all and that I encounter him Yeah there’s free will but prayer can be effective as well
Laura
What an excellent testimony. He was fatherless and did not have the normal family movie, bowling, restaurant outings. I can relate… thanks for sharing.
Beautiful! I’ve been there! God is able and willing to heal all of our wounds 🙏🏽🙌🏼
@13:03 - Wow, I can relate to this. Thank you for your testimony, Phillip!!
Excelllent testimony. Praise God!!
Bless you!
You are such a blessing. Everything you say is so deep, poetic, and honest. This spoke to me because I worry about my nephews and niece who lost their dad to suicide. After he started to deal with mental illness, he wasn't really in their lives very much, but still I know his suicide hurts them immensely. I pray that God leads them to a place of healing like he has done for you.
Young brother, God has indeed touched your life and given you wisdom to share. I really appreciate the fact that you were able to verbalize (through your experience) many different concepts of what others feel also to help them.
This is a wonderful testimony! I listened to the whole thing. You are so eloquent and communicate so well. I am inspired and blessed by you! God is using you. I pray you continue to grow in Him and help others with your gift of teaching, compassion and encouragement!
Someone tell Philip I needed His testimony. 👋 😢 He touched on many things I experienced and am suffering.
Thanks for being obedient by sharing..GOD bless you
I respect him for pointing out how widespread it is in the african American community and how “normalized” its becoming. Great testimony! Thank God for your life 🙏🏾
Due to lack of true father in the home!!! Most kids and adults are fornication-children, single-parent children, garbage Jezebel mothers, fly-by-night (so-called) fathers, etc.
A beautiful testimony!! The lord is so faithful and good 💙
All I can say is *HALLELUJAH, THANK YOU JESUS!* I praise God for Philip's life 👏🏾 It's amazing how he talked about the power of other people's testimonies in his life - his own testimony has really encouraged me and I'll be sure to remember the many pearls of wisdom he shared.
This could not have been so relatable. Blessing and power to this ministry. I had thoughts of just plugging off a few days ago, but me stumbling upon these testimonies from this channel are giving me life and hope.
Thank you for sharing your testimony! God bless you!
Praise the Lord. ALL GLORY TO GOD!! Thank you for sharing your testimony. 🙏 GOD BLESS!.
Thank you for your testimony!! 🙏🏼♥️
Thankyou so much for sharing. JESUS CHRIST forever bless you and be with you ❤️
Amen! The Peace of God.
God Bless you Phillip🙏🏾❤️
I needed to hear this as I am forgiving my earthly father. I had such a strong love for him as a child but the bond faded. I’m still not sure of everything he was going through besides at 16 and at the time my dad was 41 finding out he was adopted (I’m a few years older now) but I don’t think I could forgive myself if he were to leave this earth and I didn’t put more effort into a relationship with him knowing that he does try and has been trying for some years now. I need to let go of the past and ystrdy and start anew. God definitely wanted me to hear this as I really opened up to my dad two days ago and the relief I felt.
Wow thank you so much for sharing this beautiful testimony! We pray that the relief just Continue to allow the perfect place for healing in Jesus name
This is an amazing story. I'm so glad I came across this. My prayers are with Philip and his family.
"When my father and mother forsake me then the Lord will take me up." Psalms 27:10. Thank you for your beautiful testimony and also want to let you know I used your example to ask God for peace. I don't know why I didn't before.
Yesss I was blessed by your testimony God bless you Phillip keep allowing God to use you to do His work🙏🏼🙏🏼