eeeep hello friends!! 🦋 if any of you are back at home after graduating, taking a gap year, or feeling ALL the nostalgia for an education you loved, I hope this video makes you feel seen!! I know this state is impermanent and it's so nice to document it all to look back on when I'm (hopefully, eventually haha) content in my new path. lots of love
Hi Jade, this realy helped thank you! I feel less alone in this particular situation right now, this is already my second gap year. Right know I feel like the most important thing for myself to do is to learn to realy embrace myself and explore the world, let people in, make connection's, but I am a little bit scared to be honest. I have trouble with self worth and choosing to take care of myself, and so it makes making friends extremely hard, frustrating and unreal (because I somehow don't feel like I deserve it, and when people are nice to me that just feels very odd, like they are meant to not like me, but they do, I dont know if you understand but it just feels off). That is my goal for this year, to have the honest intension to take good care of myself and let people in, and you inspire me to do so, you show us in full honesty that you are climbing that tough ladder with all you got, it gives me hope! :)
My friend sent me this video, and I did not expect to find such a deep and relatable experience/feelings in post grad times. I feel as though no one really prepared me for what this time was going to feel like (but how could they as they didn’t know my path) - but that aside, I am just so appreciative that you are sharing your story and current experience as it gives awareness and a space for people to relate and not feel so alone. Anyway, just wanted to say Thank You. ❤️
Hi Jade :) have you ever considered becoming a teacher/professor etc.? since you have so much passion for studying and studied cognitive science yourself :)
hi Jade, I felt exactly like this a year ago. I felt really weird because nothing concretely bad had happened to me but I was mourning the loss of my past self, life, and friends. It was a really hard adjustment :( but as you are, I allowed myself to be sad, I sought help and comfort from those I missed, and eventually gained the mindset of "the grass is always greener where you water it" and I can look back at my past self and be so proud of the growth that has happened in the last year. you already know it but you go this! best of luck and a bigggg hug
I'm in pretty much the same situation right now, mourning a chapter of my life, and not knowing what the next chapter will entail. I just read 'Days at the Morisaki Bookshop' which was absolutely perfect for me in this moment. My favourite quote from it will probably resonate with anyone in the same situation: "It’s important to stand still sometimes. Think of it as a little rest in the long journey of your life. This is your harbor. And your boat is just dropping anchor here for a little while. And after you’re well rested, you can set sail again."
I love how real and authentic this video is. I didn’t think about the fact that not only do you have to embrace this uncertainty- but you’re doing it in front of so many people, that’s incredibly brave of you 💕 This time you have with your family right now really is precious, I live at home as well and am so grateful for this time with my family, I know it won’t always be like this.
university is structured and everything is perfectly planned out for you. you just have to put in the time and follow the path. that empty feeling in your stomach is the realization that its all on you now. no path to follow but the one you lay out for your self. good luck!
hey Jade. putting out videos like this is just so valuable 💌 internet really lacks this honesty and deepness and vulnerability! watching this feels very intimate and personal. thank you for this. i am in existential crisis about work too.
My casual magic today was walking in to my mums bee room (while she was harvesting honey) and just talking about life, loneliness this feeling of what you SHOULD be doing at a given point in your life, fomo and more. We talked for like 30 minutes and it was just nice and I just feel so much better now, both after talking to her and after watching your video
I’m 16 and haven’t been to school in 4 school years due to chronic illness, and I’ve had the ‘back to school without the back to school’ experience because I’ve been learning from home. All of these points I relate to so much, especially the pessimism/realism about the myriad of problems in the world, and the uncertainty and not being able to solve all the problems because they’re too big. I’ve had quite a few people say they’ve seen a change in me recently. Thank you for sharing Jade, and wishing you the best.
You hit the nail on the head towards the end. You’re so right….this in itself is a chapter! You are enough, and being kind to yourself right now and feeling the love and humbling support of your parents is exactly what you need to lean into. Let them love you, love yourself and know that the fire in your belly will light up again at the just right time for you. No pressure, no rush, just love x
Dear Jade, I’ve never written a comment before, but have been watching your videos for a while now, and - I don’t know - just wanted to say that you seem like a really fine human being (in German I would say: Du bist wirklich schwer in Ordnung - which is meant as a compliment). I think a lot of people will be able to relate to how you are feeling at the moment, even if they haven’t just graduated. The transition from a stage of life that is important and beloved to the next can make ones heart feel so heavy and full with love, grief, melancholy, gratitude and just the deep sense of life as something that is everchanging. Even though of course I don’t know what you will be doing in one, ten, twenty, fifty years from now, I somehow know for sure (!) that you will do the world some good. Being a decent, even wonderful human being, that cares and thinks about themself, others and our environment is already contributing so much to this world. And I’m sure you want to do more, and will do more, but - just like you said - you being (you) really is enough in this moment. And though your decision on what to do next will influence the course of the rest of your life, you still never know where the knowledge, skills and insights you develop along the way may take you over time - I always find that thought so calming and liberating when big decisions and life changes lie ahead. Anyway, I really just wanted to say, that I am glad you are here in this world, Jade. 🦋 I am sending the best of wishes Sophia
Thank you for the comforting words, Jade. I am in a similar position, having just graduated uni in the spring and beginning the journey of “trying” in life. And I’ve come to realize that looking towards the future that has yet to be planned feels like I am staring out at sea from the shoreline. I wonder what’s next often, as if I really have any say in what happens externally. So, looking internally has to be enough right now. And the present moment has to be enough right now. And the lasting impact of my distant friendships and the budding glimpses of new friendships and storylines and possibilities, it all has to be enough right now, for right now is all we have ever had and all we will ever have. Thank you, Jade, for being this reminder to me today :,)
I just discovered your channel today. This video brings back memories of when I was going through just what you are…25 years ago! (Wow, it does not seem that long ago!!) I graduated from college, moved back into my parents’ house, and also felt so lost and sad for a while. I didn’t even know exactly what kind of job I wanted. But after a few months, I ended up getting a really interesting job that I hadn’t even thought I was qualified for…and my life progressed on from there, as life always does. Now at age 47, I find myself back in a similar situation of feeling “lost.” After many years as a stay-at-home mom to my 4 kids, they’re all getting older, and I’m trying to enter a new career and figure out the rest of my life. Your words, and my own memories of that time in my life, remind me that there’s really no point in worrying about the future and the “big picture,” because life is full of surprises and there’s just no way to predict what will happen. Transitions are always hard because of the uncertainty involved, but life is always full of uncertainty. We just become more aware of it at times like this. My only advice to you is to not rush into anything just to escape your feelings of sadness and loneliness. Take this wonderful gift of time you’ve been granted to explore all your options and make good decisions. What you’re feeling is normal, and it will pass. Take everything one day at a time, and take care of yourself. Good luck!
You weren't kidding when you said you poured your heart out. This was like unfiltered jade. Also I love this video the night time setting and soft lighting and you in your comfy night clothes and speaking softly (because everyone is going to sleep probably) this felt so comforting.
No 1 most relatable queen ever. Thank you so much Jade for making these videos✨🙏 It makes me feel a whole lot less alone in this loose - after graduation - back with the parents - no clue what Im doing - or how to purposely contribute to the world - and all the other big life questions - in between space that we're in. But knowing I'm not in this 'all the feelings' space alone, is a huge help🙏💗🌿
Jade, this video is delightfully candid and relaxed. I am glad you posted it. I am glad you have this life period of reflection and exploration. I understand your feelings of loneliness and let down after your electric, action-driven university experience (which I have followed all along with delight). You may not think this current situation involves much growth, but I think it does. It is perhaps a slower growth, or more of an inward growth, but it is also a balance for the dynamics of your last few years. The beauty of it is that you've got the freedom to choose your next steps. As life does all work out, I see this time as a formative period for you, as you ponder your moves within the comfortable nest of your lovely family. There is nothing wrong with that. You will fill empty spaces, as you always do. Quieter periods of questioning need not last long. You are simply in preparation for the next adventure. Much love to you😘
Hey Jade, I’m not one to comment of TH-cam videos I just pleasantly lurk but today I just really want to affirm that you are such a special and influential person! Not maybe in the ways you think but your vulnerability is so necessary and has helped me so much to not feel alone in how overwhelming life can be with societal pressures. Thank you for reminding me that despite all the feelings of not being enough and judgement, I am enough. Jade you too are enough. We got this,there is so much power in softness xxxx
Thank you for posting this video Jade. I’m definitely going through a similar faze in my life right now and this video hit. I don’t really cry at all and I cried two or three tears of relief watching this video. Idk why but… I did so thank you. If you are somebody reading this comment just know… you are never as alone in your thoughts and feelings as you think you are. I can guarantee someone else out there feels the same ❤
I love that term casual magic! Mine was running into my neighbour and having a quick chat with her ❤️ I love community and thank you Jade for sharing and being vulnerable
I finished uni in May 2022 and was thrown exactly into this position a year ago. I came home to my parents and genuinely did not know where I was going with my life (not to mention missing the uni world and my friends). This last year has been a lot of ups and downs and there were some moments I was the saddest and most lost I have ever really felt. With that being said, now that I’ve been doing it for a year I am able to look back and realise with hindsight that I have actually done a bunch of cool things this year and met some great people and was actually moving forward, even though it really didn’t feel like it in the moment (I felt like I was doing nothing but treading water). Now I would say I’m not really any clearer in my mind of where I am headed but I have definitely become more comfortable with the uncertainty. There are still moments where it’s really hard but I would say I’ve matured a lot in this last year and got better at just taking life as it comes and that is progress in itself. All of this is to say, there’s a lot of people in this same position and it does actually get a bit easier with time 💕
i wish i had such a good university experience 😩 but here i am hardly waiting for it to be over next year. i miss my hometown, my parents, my friends and the feeling of belonging somewhere. it is a completely different reality listening to you. i wish you all the best in your new journey, hopefully it will as spectacular as the last 💛
Oh wow, this is so interesting thank you for sharing!! I'm sorry university hasn't been everything you'd hoped it'd be ❤🩹 I know it may seem strange, but I encourage you to just lean into the time you have left. You have all the goodness of homecoming next year, and maybe there's still hope to find some value in your time left!! Good luck with it all ✨
I spiraled so hard during that period of life. But you will look back on it fondly, spending time with loved ones, healing from burnout. Weirdly, I feel like my self growth was huge during that period even though it wasn’t an academic type of growth, it was more of an embracing of rest. Accepting who I am as a human and decoupling it from “what I do”. I’m one year out from it and work can be very tough, in a new city, but very exciting and life has changed in such incredible ways.
I'm in my final months of college and already feeling myself saying goodbye to this chapter and thinking about what on earth am I going to do next. Seeing what you are going through is very inspiring! thank you so much for sharing this with us. Hugs from brazil!
Hi Jade, I graduated over a year ago. I’m living with my parents. Worked in retail for a bit and then travelled SE Asia and now i’m back at my family home again job searching. It is weird being in your 20s living with your parents. But I appreciate you making a video like this because it makes me feel better about my circumstances. So thank you for showing me I’m not alone in this ❤
Jade you couldn’t have worded this any better! I am in exactly the same situation and it’s been so hard loosing the student identity. I feel this isn’t talked about enough and was so reassuring to hear that I am not alone. Love from Scotland 🏴 ❤
I'm so grateful for your video, Jade! I graduated a few years ago and there was never time to reflect, I just had to focus on surviving without student funding and make sure I had a full-time job basically the day after Uni ended. It's so nice to see you reflect on your experience and recognise that I had many of the same thoughts/feelings but also forgive myself for the things that were difficult because I didn't have all the resources I needed. It's like you've created a time and space for me to think back and reflect for myself. ❤
Jade, and anyone else in a similar situation - I can't recommend getting a part time casual job enough. It gets you a schedule to be out the house and socialise with people, earn a bit more money, and still have time to concentrate on other plans and full time job hunts. It kept me sane over summers at home to have some kind of purpose!
Dealing with ambiguity or uncertainty is one of the keys to success. It forces you to know yourself, remain open to new experiences and to make decisions without all of the facts before moving forward with naivety. Leap out into the world and you will be surprised, but most of all, you will grow beyond what you can imagine. Jade, you are no ordinary human. You are destined for greatness! The success of this channel is only the tip of your iceberg. You got this - go forth, explore, and make a difference in the world! ❤😊❤
Hey Jade! I don't comment on videos often but wanted to tell you that I relate SO MUCH to what you said about feeling pessimistic about the world and its issues, specifically about the climate crisis! I've just started the second year of my masters (in the NL hehe) and questions about where I want to put my time and energy have been preoccupying me so much lately as I slowly approach the end (I'm pretty sure) of my time in academia. What has helped me mentally and 'purpose' wise recently has been taking part in climate activism, by attending protests demanding the government to stop fossil fuel subsidies - the energy there has been really infectious, and I've been reading a lot about collective action. And also, I feel you, life is so non-linear and full of challenges and uncertainty. Thanks for this ramble, much love Xx
Jade! PLEASE start a PODCAST! Also thank you for posting this video, it makes me feel less alone in this weird phase. You always remind me to be positive, you really are like a symbol of positivity 🔆✨
I'm currently in my 2nd year of university and one of the things I'm getting increasingly worried about as the years go by is the post-grad depression. Like you said, school is all I know. I know academics, I know I'm good at academics, and I know the path, I know I'm good at following the path. I'm really worried about how things are going to feel once I actually have to set off on my own and do something with my degree... But it's comforting to know that others are experiencing this exact thing that I fear. Seeing them handle it will such acceptance and such grace is giving me the comfort of knowing that, while I can't avoid that stage being difficult, I too, will learn to navigate it, and it helps cultivate a sense of appreciation for the stage I'm in right now. :) Thank you for your words of comfort Jade.
I haven’t watched the video yet but oh my god I’m exactly in this position right now! Just a 22 year old who came back to her hometown with no plan so far really, just in between university and the rest of her life. It’s so comforting knowing that others are going through the same
You are going to do great things Jade! You already have!This video is soooo relatable. I just graduated from uni after studying three years abroad and I have now moved back home with my family and I have no idea where life is going to take me. I feel both comfortable and bored living at home again? Like I miss my independence, but when I lived by myself as a student I really missed my family, so I want to find a better balance.
I have literally experienced all of what you have described and the line "Too much of me with me" - girl that is what I've been going through lately and just that you've said it here has already caused me to feel better. The power of sharing our experiences and how we feel/what we are going through. ❤
An odd comment but a lot of ytbers like you and other studytubers often give me a feeling of both inspiration and resentment. I've grown up in poverty with undiagnosed ADHD and struggled throughout my education (my degree ended up being twice as long as it should've) and the emotional intelligence and peace that I feel from you is something I'm so envious of. I also am close to my parents but resentful of many things because of my problems with them (that never seem to end) and having to continuously come home to all of it because I can't afford to stay away and my confidence is too low. Sometimes it feels like words of wisdom don't apply to people like me because I don't feel that positive energy from the people in my life. But at the same time it pulls me back into the real world and says "THIS is what a healthy lifestyle looks like" and reminds me not to get sucked in. Wish I didn't have to think so much about escaping and just love life like you do. You can't be the best version of yourself without the basics. Hoping one day to be out of this fight-or-flight lifestyle.
Thank you Jade for making me reflect over my post grad feelings! I have actually looked forward to having freedom after school, but instead it is a nightmare to choose what to do. It is a lonely/sad time tooo, and now I know it is the beautiful student bubble that cracked. The reality of climate crisis also hit me hard, I really want to do something but also feel hopeless. But we cannot give up! At least we can say to our children that we tried.
Dear Jade, thank you for making these videos and being honest about life after university. I had lots of difficult periods in college, but still miss it after graduating. I also moved home and started a job that makes me pessimistic, you have really articulated how I’m feeling about it all.
It's lovely watching you grow up and see the phases of life. I can relate even though it was nearly 10 years ago for me. I did a professional qualification starting about 2 years after uni ended but the course was part time and the exams were always in October and Novembers (which was handy in the sense that the public libraries were empty as it is not exam season). Now... I realise this October will be my first October without exams in 6 years!!! Just be open and keep meeting people. Despite graduating 8 years the vast vast majority of my friends are still my old friends from uni! That would be my main advice, the sad post uni times will pass. I was unemployed for months but then I got a little part time job and that lead to my amazing career I have and I have met so many amazing people and learned so many amazing things in the 8 years. 😅
"you don't realise you've graduated until Summer is over" so true 😭 even though i've been feeling kind of sad during the summer, it wasn't until last monday (when classes began in my uni) that properly hit me that I'm not going back to uni this year... when i tell you I cried for an hour lmao. i did not have an amazing uni experience regarding friends, but I loved learning and my professors and just making an effort and proving myself that I could do it. the transition is being really, really hard. but it'll get better :') my casual magic of the day was feeling understood by you, and many other people in this comment section, and being able to form a connection despite not knowing each other.
"your future self will be so proud of you." this sentence makes me feel in peace with my present self, it's really healing and it kinda made my day. thank you jade❤
Hey Jade! I totally get what you're going through. I'm 25 and I just moved back in with my parents after years of studying at uni. It's definitely an adjustment, but omg EMBRACE this time with your parents. Because after this, you will most likely never live with them again. Cherish these precious times 💛 Also, it's probably good for you to feel a bit lonely, to do some self-reflection and get used to being comfortable in your own company.
Jade! I am loving these rambly videos. It validates my thought patterns and often really resets me when I am having a weird day mentally. Thank you for being such a gorgeous human- a podcast from you would be such a gift!
Hi Jade. I graduated law school this June and I was in the same place as you are in at the moment. It felt like one of the most lowest points of my life and the truth of uncertainty of the job market dawning on me was so scary. The only thing that kept me going, as you said, was knowing that it shall pass. I recently got into uni for post-grad and am currently procrastinating on an assignment as I write this. Life in university is truly treasurable! There's something in the joy of procrastinating, knowing that at the end of the day, it's just uni and we're yet to step out into the real world. I wish you lots of joy and strength and casual magic to help you navigate this time of your life. Whichever path it is that you choose to embark on next - I hope there are endless little moments of sunshine to look forward to :)
Jade, these videos of yours always make me feel so grateful and they elevate my vibe so much! Thank you for these casual chats, it feels so genuine and peaceful, just as if we are catching up with a friend.✨🦋
i absolutely ADORED this video - it feels very honest and you and genuine and just a real comfort. I'm about to finish yr 12 (from australia hehe) and i have sooo many feelings surrounding it, so it's comforting to have your wisdom but also sadness coz it's just so validatingggg. At the moment i'm also struggling a lot with the concept of uncertainty, especially in just day to day life - what am I going to do with my day, what should i do to relax, what will i do with a whole gap year, i love learning but don't technically need to go to university(?) and a lot of things like that, so thankyou so so much for sharing. I feel so grateful that i get to hear your stories and feel like there are other people just like me, and that how i think and feel is so normal and beautiful - watching your videos broadens my perception of the world and it's opportunities so much. sending lot's of love and support 💜💜💜
Thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable! ♥️ I personally really love the rambley videos. I think a lot of us have felt similar feelings and it’s really validating to hear you so eloquently describe them in words. You’re not alone with these feelings.
Hey! Just wanted to say thank you for the video! This is definetly something that has been weighing heavily on my mind - and among my peers I often feel alone with these thoughts. For the past year I have been overwhelmed by the feeling that I am going through my education a bit too fast, and that I should probably slow down - because the existential crisis is hitting me hard. I decided that I will actually finish my degree at a slower rate than normal, so I will take my courses more spread out and with breaks in between. I felt like this was the only breather I could get before I graduate, because I actually don’t feel excited to graduate. Instead, I just feel immense anxiety and dread. I want to see id taking some time off will make me happier and more secure, but in life we can never be sure.
Ahh this resonates so much with me. I'm not a recent graduate but have recently came back to my parent's home and my small town and I understand so much all you're saying. And it feels so good to be seen in this way and know that I'm not alone as this uncertain life unfolds ahead of me. Thank you for existing and sharing!! Big virtual hug ❤️ 🦋✨
My casual magic today was at work (at the hospital) and just looking at the hospital as I finished and thought to myself "one week from now, I become a student nurse... wow".
I've been watching your videos since high school and now I'm close to graduating in law, I know it feels scary to have so many people watching your life but I just want you to know I'm super grateful I get to grow up with you. Wish you so much happiness, Jade
you just pulled EVERYTHING i had in my head, jade. it's made me feel better to hear you talk about these things, you give a calming presence and i am thankful for you encouraging all of us to find that casual magic and remembering the impermanence of many things in life
Jade, thank you so very much for this series. I also graduated this year - have always been a very high-achieving student - genuinely enjoy academics - had a university experience I loved - and have now moved back to live with my family for the time being. These videos have verbalized so much of what I've also been going through and have made me feel so comforted and validated over the last few months. Thank you ❤
I can totally relate to this transition! Post-grad life can be a challenging adjustment, but it's also an exciting new chapter full of opportunities. Your video captures the emotions and experiences so well. Keep navigating this journey with curiosity and an open heart.
There's just something engaging and soothing about your videos that I find incredibly relaxing. Maybe it's the ASMR-esque qualities or just the raw and honest, heartfelt content that makes me glad that I stumbled across you channel a while back. Whilst I do look back upon my uni days with some nostalgia, it's important to be ready to write the next chapter of your life story, and sometimes that means looking forward and not back. It's always a scary thing to take the first step out into the unknown, but you got this.
Dear Jade (and also beautiful people reading this), Yesterday it was my mum's sister funeral, one of my favourite aunts. It was the first time I went through the death of a close relative, even though I'm 21. They were a couple heavy days... However, I realized that this wasn't the lowest I reached in the past two years. Uni was not the greatest experience, so I dropped college before joining a master's (which is usual in my course). It was quite hard emotionally for 2/3 of that uni time. I am currently recovering, even though I lost some of my closest friendships due to betrayal. Recovering, breathing, trying to smile and learning how to drive... For the magic of the day, today I oppened a fresh new LP disc from Coldplay, the album Mylo Xyloto. Sending hugs to you all 🦋
Jade I think this is my favourite video you’ve ever posted. I related so much to you. Thank you so much for sharing, you really don’t know how much it means❤️
hi jade, such cute vibes from this video!! My casual magic for today: I’m staying with a family friend for a short while, which is a welcome break from hostels, and tonight she called “dinner time!” and I felt really at home ☺️ lots of uncertainty in my life rn, gap year travels got me craving routine and stability 🥲 definitely relating to your feels atm
i've been out of grad school for a year now, but this past summer i moved back in with my family and to my little hometown from my big college city where all my friends live! so, so much of what you said here really hit me jade. wishing you all the best in this new phase and lots of happiness and peace :)
❤ one of the best videos i have ever watched. Embrace this chapter and its feelings, u will miss this moment. Time literally flies away. I had this period after uni im still having it, in a certain way, and i graduated in march 2022. And don't worry, no one can really judge you for your choices. But I understand the feeling, I have it too, even if I am not sharing my life online.
Awww! Enjoy this special time Jade! My daughter is also back home after 4 years at uni and just like you and your parents, we are enjoying some of life's simple pleasures - like eating our breakfast together in the garden, or going to the zoo, or walking in nature. I'm also very conscious of the fact that while it's an adjustment for both of us and there will always be a few speed bumps, it might be the last time she lives at home, possibly forever! So I'm savouring every moment, living life from a place of love and compassion and enjoying the shared moments of fun and laughter. I feel very grateful to have raised two amazing young women who actually WANT to spend time with me! xx
This is so real. Love your authenticity, reflectiveness, and emotional intelligence. Honestly, as an on-and-off watcher of your videos, I would probably prefer if you were not super specific about your next career moves/ more private about certain areas of your life.
This is such a lovely video I adore these rambly ones it's like my actual brain. I graduate next year and have been worried about this exact feeling but I'm trying not to wish away my final year by dreading the end?? You're doing amazing and I love the way you're putting effort into how you look at things, reframing your perspective is not a simple task but it's absolutely worth it. I also worry about things ill crave/regret later on in life, it's nice to hear I'm not going crazy. All my love always, you got this girlie, thanku for every video you post x
I’m in this exact position. I feel like we all feel as though we are the only ones going through these experiences and emotions, so I am so grateful to have found someone who has said exactly how I feel!❤️
Jade, I'm going through *almost* the exact same thing as you. We're both in the same stage of our lives, and I hope you know how much comfort your words and your experience give me. Everything is so scary because of the unstableness of finishing my degree (in 4 days I defend my dissertation and that's it), it's also sad because I too loved my uni friends and my life outside my home with my flatmates, but it's also incredibly exciting because burnout has me so eager for a calm life where I can finally properly take care of myself. And when you talk about how you've found all these causes to fight for so you aren't sure what to focus on because you want to help with so many issues but at the same time it's like nothing you'll ever do could make a difference in this bast huge world, man I really feel you. Anyway, thank you for sharing this and making me feel seen. You're amazing, and everyone in this community, and also myself. I know that despite all the doubts and bad thoughts and feelings, we are special and we can do special things, whatever that means for each of us. Love from Spain!!
P.S. my casual magic from today was catching up with one of my all-time friends that I had not seen in a while and doing so over churros con chocolate :)
Hi Jade ❤ thanks for the honesty! I appreciate this type of videos of you just rumbling because that’s how I write in my diary so this feels like a video of my thinking 💭 ❤just 2 points: - It’s so true about parent’s relationship. You may not see it now but they are getting older. If it helps, the process of you getting into adulthood and getting wiser, is the same process but for your parents but getting older and somehow weaker. It motivates me to move on in life looking up to be able to help them and be their rock whenever they reach to that point in life. - About your career, it’s totally ok to be private! I think it’s better so you don’t feel judged by the big internet. However I do want to point out that you said climate change looks like a big unfixable problem but you have in your heart to do something about it. The biggest changes and advancement in this world wasn’t done just by one person but it always started with one person wanting to do the job. I believe in Jesus and there is a teaching that you can give five breads and two fishes and then God multiplies it to fed 5000 people. That teaching applies to any calling of our heart. We may looked unqualified or it may look impossible but just give the first step and see how God provides the rest that you need (wether is people, resources, faith, etc). If you don’t want to call it God is ok! Some people call it universe.
Hi Jade! I just wanted to say how much i enjoy your videos and your channel. You inspire me and brighten my day. Me and my wife always look forward to watching your content and only want what’s best for you! If you’re happy that’s all that matters, thanks for being great!❤
During my first (and only) september out of education was so strange for me, I felt like a fish out of water and missed being back at school so much that I returned to uni a year later, got my masters and am now a teacher lol ❤ now i get to experience the back to school feeling for the rest of my life and I won't change it for the world.
I am also a graduate so I am going through a similar situation, but I feel very caught up in my anxiety around this uncertainty rather than feeling good about it. Those videos are truly coming at the right time for me and they’re so comforting. Thank you Jade ❤
see my circumstances are a bit different but I can relate so much and it kinda made me emotional the way you described it... but in a way where I feel like I can understand the state of things a little better now and I want to thank you so much for that! I wish you the best of luck navigating this strange period and hope you find where you want to be
my casual magic was i went to a cat cafe alone, i originally was going with a friend but she couldnt make it last minute, so instead of not going, hating being alone and doing things, i just went. I met some lovely people and adorable kitties. Past me could never, im grateful for past me for battling my anxiety each day :)
Oh Jade, when you mentioned that video of the guy being told he was only going to see his parents 15 times in the rest of his life I felt like I wanted to cry. I wasn't super close to my parents growing up and things have been better between us now that I'm older and have my own life but there's something so sad and scary about thinking there will be an end to all the family Christmases and birthdays and special events where we are together and I feel like I need to go tell all my family I love them. I know being in the part of your life where everything is uncertain and there's no structure can be scary but I'm glad you're still looking for the beauty in it and appreciating your time at home while you're building up to your future. I hope everything you wish for comes easily to you and can't wait to hear whatever you do next!
So glad you decided to post this Jade 🙏I'm in a similar boat atm and its so comforting to know I'm not alone in these feelings 💛 keep rambling we love it!
Sending big hugs Jade!! 💕 I know you will find your footing and will find your next steps. Keep on trusting your intuition and the universe will help show you the next move ☺️
I love this video Jade. I am doing an internship abroad currently and although this should help my future career, I feel like I'm standing still because all my friends at home started a new study year or a new job. I miss the excitement of starting something new in September and sharing that with people around you.
Aww Jade you just made me cry . I came back from my study abroad in Tokyo a couple of months ago and I still miss it so much: the adventures, feeling yourself grow from all those challenges, feeling independent and having all those lovely connections. Now I am back at my home university working on my dissertation while all my friends already graduated while I was gone (._.)
awwwn good luck with all this! Im kind of in the opposite situation, where after years of dropout, Im going BACK to uni. « Real » life is indeed challenging, but you got a good head to help you navigate what will be thrown at you. It probably will be a bit tough but I truly believe you’ll manage to get trough it❤
Thank you for posting this Jade. Like so many other people, I am in a similar position too, having just graduated and back to my hometown. It is weird being back to where you were born without really having a life here. Sometimes the days feel endless and like you have nothing to do, but I am also trying to remember that this is impermanent and that we are so lucky to have a period of rest and of being closer to family. You aren't alone in this.
Thank you for this jade! Currently in the same rut moving back home and running my own business. It’s unlike anything I’ve experienced before. It’s a weird feeling to be grateful and also lonely at the same time. Surprised by how many others are going thru it.
i graduated last december and yes, i had a still-going depressive episode because it hit me that i would never go back to university as an undergraduate. i still miss uni and everything about that life, but i cannot believe yet that life is not mine anymore, while everything ahead feels so uncertain.
I was waiting for this video Jade!! As soon as the fall weather started to hit I was taken back to the school days and felt empty, now I’ve been trying to structure my days alottt and fill this school sized hole 🥹❤️
Thank you so much for posting this!!! I am currently on gap year and I feel just the same as you. So stressed about my future and expectations. Also comparing myself way too much to others that my gap year is not 'perfect' enough. It is way harder than it should be and that is probably my fault but still it's kind of difficult.
this felt like an intimate podcast episode❣I've also recently graudated after doing 6 years of full time study (bachelors straight into masters), and I've been comtemplating this so much. It feels so scary when all you've known is being a student and getting good grades, and suddenly it's all been taken away from you and you don't know who you are any more - which can also be really exciting to recreate yourself and a great opportunity to find out who you are without academia! We got this❣
eeeep hello friends!! 🦋 if any of you are back at home after graduating, taking a gap year, or feeling ALL the nostalgia for an education you loved, I hope this video makes you feel seen!! I know this state is impermanent and it's so nice to document it all to look back on when I'm (hopefully, eventually haha) content in my new path. lots of love
Hi Jade, this realy helped thank you! I feel less alone in this particular situation right now, this is already my second gap year. Right know I feel like the most important thing for myself to do is to learn to realy embrace myself and explore the world, let people in, make connection's, but I am a little bit scared to be honest. I have trouble with self worth and choosing to take care of myself, and so it makes making friends extremely hard, frustrating and unreal (because I somehow don't feel like I deserve it, and when people are nice to me that just feels very odd, like they are meant to not like me, but they do, I dont know if you understand but it just feels off). That is my goal for this year, to have the honest intension to take good care of myself and let people in, and you inspire me to do so, you show us in full honesty that you are climbing that tough ladder with all you got, it gives me hope! :)
My friend sent me this video, and I did not expect to find such a deep and relatable experience/feelings in post grad times. I feel as though no one really prepared me for what this time was going to feel like (but how could they as they didn’t know my path) - but that aside, I am just so appreciative that you are sharing your story and current experience as it gives awareness and a space for people to relate and not feel so alone. Anyway, just wanted to say Thank You. ❤️
What you studied in university
Hi Jade :) have you ever considered becoming a teacher/professor etc.? since you have so much passion for studying and studied cognitive science yourself :)
hi Jade, I felt exactly like this a year ago. I felt really weird because nothing concretely bad had happened to me but I was mourning the loss of my past self, life, and friends. It was a really hard adjustment :( but as you are, I allowed myself to be sad, I sought help and comfort from those I missed, and eventually gained the mindset of "the grass is always greener where you water it" and I can look back at my past self and be so proud of the growth that has happened in the last year. you already know it but you go this! best of luck and a bigggg hug
I'm in pretty much the same situation right now, mourning a chapter of my life, and not knowing what the next chapter will entail. I just read 'Days at the Morisaki Bookshop' which was absolutely perfect for me in this moment. My favourite quote from it will probably resonate with anyone in the same situation: "It’s important to stand still sometimes. Think of it as a little rest in the long journey of your life. This is your harbor. And your boat is just dropping anchor here for a little while. And after you’re well rested, you can set sail again."
Thank you for this lovely quote. I'm in a similar situation as well 💛
I'm reading that book at the moment as well!!
Aww I just read this book a month or so back and this brought back all the emotions I felt while reading it
I love how real and authentic this video is. I didn’t think about the fact that not only do you have to embrace this uncertainty- but you’re doing it in front of so many people, that’s incredibly brave of you 💕
This time you have with your family right now really is precious, I live at home as well and am so grateful for this time with my family, I know it won’t always be like this.
university is structured and everything is perfectly planned out for you. you just have to put in the time and follow the path. that empty feeling in your stomach is the realization that its all on you now. no path to follow but the one you lay out for your self. good luck!
so true, so true!
It is quite overwhelming and strange but also quite exciting
hey Jade. putting out videos like this is just so valuable 💌 internet really lacks this honesty and deepness and vulnerability! watching this feels very intimate and personal. thank you for this. i am in existential crisis about work too.
I totally agree with you 💛
My casual magic today was walking in to my mums bee room (while she was harvesting honey) and just talking about life, loneliness this feeling of what you SHOULD be doing at a given point in your life, fomo and more. We talked for like 30 minutes and it was just nice and I just feel so much better now, both after talking to her and after watching your video
I’m 16 and haven’t been to school in 4 school years due to chronic illness, and I’ve had the ‘back to school without the back to school’ experience because I’ve been learning from home. All of these points I relate to so much, especially the pessimism/realism about the myriad of problems in the world, and the uncertainty and not being able to solve all the problems because they’re too big. I’ve had quite a few people say they’ve seen a change in me recently. Thank you for sharing Jade, and wishing you the best.
You hit the nail on the head towards the end. You’re so right….this in itself is a chapter! You are enough, and being kind to yourself right now and feeling the love and humbling support of your parents is exactly what you need to lean into. Let them love you, love yourself and know that the fire in your belly will light up again at the just right time for you. No pressure, no rush, just love x
Dear Jade,
I’ve never written a comment before, but have been watching your videos for a while now, and - I don’t know - just wanted to say that you seem like a really fine human being (in German I would say: Du bist wirklich schwer in Ordnung - which is meant as a compliment). I think a lot of people will be able to relate to how you are feeling at the moment, even if they haven’t just graduated. The transition from a stage of life that is important and beloved to the next can make ones heart feel so heavy and full with love, grief, melancholy, gratitude and just the deep sense of life as something that is everchanging. Even though of course I don’t know what you will be doing in one, ten, twenty, fifty years from now, I somehow know for sure (!) that you will do the world some good. Being a decent, even wonderful human being, that cares and thinks about themself, others and our environment is already contributing so much to this world. And I’m sure you want to do more, and will do more, but - just like you said - you being (you) really is enough in this moment. And though your decision on what to do next will influence the course of the rest of your life, you still never know where the knowledge, skills and insights you develop along the way may take you over time - I always find that thought so calming and liberating when big decisions and life changes lie ahead. Anyway, I really just wanted to say, that I am glad you are here in this world, Jade. 🦋
I am sending the best of wishes
Sophia
I can feel it is written from the bottom of the heart 💛
I am not alone !
thank u jade and thanks for everyone who shared his story in the comments it is really nice ❤
It encourages us in away and make us us comfortable and not feel alone in this world
Thank you for the comforting words, Jade. I am in a similar position, having just graduated uni in the spring and beginning the journey of “trying” in life. And I’ve come to realize that looking towards the future that has yet to be planned feels like I am staring out at sea from the shoreline. I wonder what’s next often, as if I really have any say in what happens externally. So, looking internally has to be enough right now. And the present moment has to be enough right now. And the lasting impact of my distant friendships and the budding glimpses of new friendships and storylines and possibilities, it all has to be enough right now, for right now is all we have ever had and all we will ever have. Thank you, Jade, for being this reminder to me today :,)
i needed this reminder and love it sm!
I just discovered your channel today. This video brings back memories of when I was going through just what you are…25 years ago! (Wow, it does not seem that long ago!!) I graduated from college, moved back into my parents’ house, and also felt so lost and sad for a while. I didn’t even know exactly what kind of job I wanted. But after a few months, I ended up getting a really interesting job that I hadn’t even thought I was qualified for…and my life progressed on from there, as life always does.
Now at age 47, I find myself back in a similar situation of feeling “lost.” After many years as a stay-at-home mom to my 4 kids, they’re all getting older, and I’m trying to enter a new career and figure out the rest of my life. Your words, and my own memories of that time in my life, remind me that there’s really no point in worrying about the future and the “big picture,” because life is full of surprises and there’s just no way to predict what will happen. Transitions are always hard because of the uncertainty involved, but life is always full of uncertainty. We just become more aware of it at times like this.
My only advice to you is to not rush into anything just to escape your feelings of sadness and loneliness. Take this wonderful gift of time you’ve been granted to explore all your options and make good decisions. What you’re feeling is normal, and it will pass. Take everything one day at a time, and take care of yourself. Good luck!
Watching this 2 days before my first day of University as a Computer Science student, I hope I will love it as much as you did!
You weren't kidding when you said you poured your heart out. This was like unfiltered jade. Also I love this video the night time setting and soft lighting and you in your comfy night clothes and speaking softly (because everyone is going to sleep probably) this felt so comforting.
No 1 most relatable queen ever. Thank you so much Jade for making these videos✨🙏 It makes me feel a whole lot less alone in this loose - after graduation - back with the parents - no clue what Im doing - or how to purposely contribute to the world - and all the other big life questions - in between space that we're in. But knowing I'm not in this 'all the feelings' space alone, is a huge help🙏💗🌿
Jade, this video is delightfully candid and relaxed. I am glad you posted it. I am glad you have this life period of reflection and exploration. I understand your feelings of loneliness and let down after your electric, action-driven university experience (which I have followed all along with delight). You may not think this current situation involves much growth, but I think it does. It is perhaps a slower growth, or more of an inward growth, but it is also a balance for the dynamics of your last few years. The beauty of it is that you've got the freedom to choose your next steps. As life does all work out, I see this time as a formative period for you, as you ponder your moves within the comfortable nest of your lovely family. There is nothing wrong with that. You will fill empty spaces, as you always do. Quieter periods of questioning need not last long. You are simply in preparation for the next adventure. Much love to you😘
my favorite videos are honestly the sit down - ramble ones
Hey Jade, I’m not one to comment of TH-cam videos I just pleasantly lurk but today I just really want to affirm that you are such a special and influential person! Not maybe in the ways you think but your vulnerability is so necessary and has helped me so much to not feel alone in how overwhelming life can be with societal pressures. Thank you for reminding me that despite all the feelings of not being enough and judgement, I am enough. Jade you too are enough. We got this,there is so much power in softness xxxx
Thank you for posting this video Jade. I’m definitely going through a similar faze in my life right now and this video hit. I don’t really cry at all and I cried two or three tears of relief watching this video. Idk why but… I did so thank you. If you are somebody reading this comment just know… you are never as alone in your thoughts and feelings as you think you are. I can guarantee someone else out there feels the same ❤
I love that term casual magic! Mine was running into my neighbour and having a quick chat with her ❤️ I love community and thank you Jade for sharing and being vulnerable
I finished uni in May 2022 and was thrown exactly into this position a year ago. I came home to my parents and genuinely did not know where I was going with my life (not to mention missing the uni world and my friends). This last year has been a lot of ups and downs and there were some moments I was the saddest and most lost I have ever really felt. With that being said, now that I’ve been doing it for a year I am able to look back and realise with hindsight that I have actually done a bunch of cool things this year and met some great people and was actually moving forward, even though it really didn’t feel like it in the moment (I felt like I was doing nothing but treading water). Now I would say I’m not really any clearer in my mind of where I am headed but I have definitely become more comfortable with the uncertainty. There are still moments where it’s really hard but I would say I’ve matured a lot in this last year and got better at just taking life as it comes and that is progress in itself. All of this is to say, there’s a lot of people in this same position and it does actually get a bit easier with time 💕
Same with me graduated not knowing what to do😢
i wish i had such a good university experience 😩 but here i am hardly waiting for it to be over next year. i miss my hometown, my parents, my friends and the feeling of belonging somewhere. it is a completely different reality listening to you. i wish you all the best in your new journey, hopefully it will as spectacular as the last 💛
Oh wow, this is so interesting thank you for sharing!! I'm sorry university hasn't been everything you'd hoped it'd be ❤🩹 I know it may seem strange, but I encourage you to just lean into the time you have left. You have all the goodness of homecoming next year, and maybe there's still hope to find some value in your time left!! Good luck with it all ✨
I spiraled so hard during that period of life. But you will look back on it fondly, spending time with loved ones, healing from burnout. Weirdly, I feel like my self growth was huge during that period even though it wasn’t an academic type of growth, it was more of an embracing of rest. Accepting who I am as a human and decoupling it from “what I do”. I’m one year out from it and work can be very tough, in a new city, but very exciting and life has changed in such incredible ways.
Thank your for sharing your experience. It really resonates with me and gives me hope 💫
Good luck
I'm in my final months of college and already feeling myself saying goodbye to this chapter and thinking about what on earth am I going to do next. Seeing what you are going through is very inspiring! thank you so much for sharing this with us. Hugs from brazil!
It's scary isn't it? But maybe also a little exciting and exhilarating 😄
Hi Jade, I graduated over a year ago. I’m living with my parents. Worked in retail for a bit and then travelled SE Asia and now i’m back at my family home again job searching. It is weird being in your 20s living with your parents. But I appreciate you making a video like this because it makes me feel better about my circumstances. So thank you for showing me I’m not alone in this ❤
Jade you couldn’t have worded this any better! I am in exactly the same situation and it’s been so hard loosing the student identity. I feel this isn’t talked about enough and was so reassuring to hear that I am not alone. Love from Scotland 🏴 ❤
I'm so grateful for your video, Jade! I graduated a few years ago and there was never time to reflect, I just had to focus on surviving without student funding and make sure I had a full-time job basically the day after Uni ended. It's so nice to see you reflect on your experience and recognise that I had many of the same thoughts/feelings but also forgive myself for the things that were difficult because I didn't have all the resources I needed. It's like you've created a time and space for me to think back and reflect for myself. ❤
Jade, and anyone else in a similar situation - I can't recommend getting a part time casual job enough. It gets you a schedule to be out the house and socialise with people, earn a bit more money, and still have time to concentrate on other plans and full time job hunts. It kept me sane over summers at home to have some kind of purpose!
Dealing with ambiguity or uncertainty is one of the keys to success. It forces you to know yourself, remain open to new experiences and to make decisions without all of the facts before moving forward with naivety. Leap out into the world and you will be surprised, but most of all, you will grow beyond what you can imagine. Jade, you are no ordinary human. You are destined for greatness! The success of this channel is only the tip of your iceberg. You got this - go forth, explore, and make a difference in the world! ❤😊❤
Hey Jade! I don't comment on videos often but wanted to tell you that I relate SO MUCH to what you said about feeling pessimistic about the world and its issues, specifically about the climate crisis! I've just started the second year of my masters (in the NL hehe) and questions about where I want to put my time and energy have been preoccupying me so much lately as I slowly approach the end (I'm pretty sure) of my time in academia. What has helped me mentally and 'purpose' wise recently has been taking part in climate activism, by attending protests demanding the government to stop fossil fuel subsidies - the energy there has been really infectious, and I've been reading a lot about collective action. And also, I feel you, life is so non-linear and full of challenges and uncertainty. Thanks for this ramble, much love Xx
Jade! PLEASE start a PODCAST! Also thank you for posting this video, it makes me feel less alone in this weird phase. You always remind me to be positive, you really are like a symbol of positivity 🔆✨
I'm currently in my 2nd year of university and one of the things I'm getting increasingly worried about as the years go by is the post-grad depression. Like you said, school is all I know. I know academics, I know I'm good at academics, and I know the path, I know I'm good at following the path. I'm really worried about how things are going to feel once I actually have to set off on my own and do something with my degree... But it's comforting to know that others are experiencing this exact thing that I fear. Seeing them handle it will such acceptance and such grace is giving me the comfort of knowing that, while I can't avoid that stage being difficult, I too, will learn to navigate it, and it helps cultivate a sense of appreciation for the stage I'm in right now. :) Thank you for your words of comfort Jade.
I haven’t watched the video yet but oh my god I’m exactly in this position right now! Just a 22 year old who came back to her hometown with no plan so far really, just in between university and the rest of her life. It’s so comforting knowing that others are going through the same
You are going to do great things Jade! You already have!This video is soooo relatable. I just graduated from uni after studying three years abroad and I have now moved back home with my family and I have no idea where life is going to take me. I feel both comfortable and bored living at home again? Like I miss my independence, but when I lived by myself as a student I really missed my family, so I want to find a better balance.
I have literally experienced all of what you have described and the line "Too much of me with me" - girl that is what I've been going through lately and just that you've said it here has already caused me to feel better. The power of sharing our experiences and how we feel/what we are going through. ❤
An odd comment but a lot of ytbers like you and other studytubers often give me a feeling of both inspiration and resentment. I've grown up in poverty with undiagnosed ADHD and struggled throughout my education (my degree ended up being twice as long as it should've) and the emotional intelligence and peace that I feel from you is something I'm so envious of. I also am close to my parents but resentful of many things because of my problems with them (that never seem to end) and having to continuously come home to all of it because I can't afford to stay away and my confidence is too low. Sometimes it feels like words of wisdom don't apply to people like me because I don't feel that positive energy from the people in my life. But at the same time it pulls me back into the real world and says "THIS is what a healthy lifestyle looks like" and reminds me not to get sucked in. Wish I didn't have to think so much about escaping and just love life like you do. You can't be the best version of yourself without the basics. Hoping one day to be out of this fight-or-flight lifestyle.
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honestly you’re my no.1 role model jade
Thank you Jade for making me reflect over my post grad feelings! I have actually looked forward to having freedom after school, but instead it is a nightmare to choose what to do. It is a lonely/sad time tooo, and now I know it is the beautiful student bubble that cracked. The reality of climate crisis also hit me hard, I really want to do something but also feel hopeless. But we cannot give up! At least we can say to our children that we tried.
ommgg why do i connect with you so deeply everytime i watch youu!!
Dear Jade, thank you for making these videos and being honest about life after university. I had lots of difficult periods in college, but still miss it after graduating. I also moved home and started a job that makes me pessimistic, you have really articulated how I’m feeling about it all.
soooo amazing how open you are about that season in your life, it comforts and there is healing in this talking
It's lovely watching you grow up and see the phases of life. I can relate even though it was nearly 10 years ago for me. I did a professional qualification starting about 2 years after uni ended but the course was part time and the exams were always in October and Novembers (which was handy in the sense that the public libraries were empty as it is not exam season). Now... I realise this October will be my first October without exams in 6 years!!!
Just be open and keep meeting people. Despite graduating 8 years the vast vast majority of my friends are still my old friends from uni! That would be my main advice, the sad post uni times will pass. I was unemployed for months but then I got a little part time job and that lead to my amazing career I have and I have met so many amazing people and learned so many amazing things in the 8 years. 😅
jade, i think you're the coolest and the most inspiring person ever. ily.
"you don't realise you've graduated until Summer is over" so true 😭 even though i've been feeling kind of sad during the summer, it wasn't until last monday (when classes began in my uni) that properly hit me that I'm not going back to uni this year... when i tell you I cried for an hour lmao. i did not have an amazing uni experience regarding friends, but I loved learning and my professors and just making an effort and proving myself that I could do it. the transition is being really, really hard. but it'll get better :')
my casual magic of the day was feeling understood by you, and many other people in this comment section, and being able to form a connection despite not knowing each other.
"your future self will be so proud of you." this sentence makes me feel in peace with my present self, it's really healing and it kinda made my day. thank you jade❤
Hey Jade! I totally get what you're going through. I'm 25 and I just moved back in with my parents after years of studying at uni. It's definitely an adjustment, but omg EMBRACE this time with your parents. Because after this, you will most likely never live with them again. Cherish these precious times 💛 Also, it's probably good for you to feel a bit lonely, to do some self-reflection and get used to being comfortable in your own company.
Jade! I am loving these rambly videos. It validates my thought patterns and often really resets me when I am having a weird day mentally. Thank you for being such a gorgeous human- a podcast from you would be such a gift!
Hi Jade. I graduated law school this June and I was in the same place as you are in at the moment. It felt like one of the most lowest points of my life and the truth of uncertainty of the job market dawning on me was so scary. The only thing that kept me going, as you said, was knowing that it shall pass. I recently got into uni for post-grad and am currently procrastinating on an assignment as I write this. Life in university is truly treasurable! There's something in the joy of procrastinating, knowing that at the end of the day, it's just uni and we're yet to step out into the real world.
I wish you lots of joy and strength and casual magic to help you navigate this time of your life. Whichever path it is that you choose to embark on next - I hope there are endless little moments of sunshine to look forward to :)
Jade, these videos of yours always make me feel so grateful and they elevate my vibe so much!
Thank you for these casual chats, it feels so genuine and peaceful, just as if we are catching up with a friend.✨🦋
i absolutely ADORED this video - it feels very honest and you and genuine and just a real comfort. I'm about to finish yr 12 (from australia hehe) and i have sooo many feelings surrounding it, so it's comforting to have your wisdom but also sadness coz it's just so validatingggg. At the moment i'm also struggling a lot with the concept of uncertainty, especially in just day to day life - what am I going to do with my day, what should i do to relax, what will i do with a whole gap year, i love learning but don't technically need to go to university(?) and a lot of things like that, so thankyou so so much for sharing. I feel so grateful that i get to hear your stories and feel like there are other people just like me, and that how i think and feel is so normal and beautiful - watching your videos broadens my perception of the world and it's opportunities so much. sending lot's of love and support 💜💜💜
Thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable! ♥️ I personally really love the rambley videos. I think a lot of us have felt similar feelings and it’s really validating to hear you so eloquently describe them in words. You’re not alone with these feelings.
Hey! Just wanted to say thank you for the video! This is definetly something that has been weighing heavily on my mind - and among my peers I often feel alone with these thoughts. For the past year I have been overwhelmed by the feeling that I am going through my education a bit too fast, and that I should probably slow down - because the existential crisis is hitting me hard. I decided that I will actually finish my degree at a slower rate than normal, so I will take my courses more spread out and with breaks in between. I felt like this was the only breather I could get before I graduate, because I actually don’t feel excited to graduate. Instead, I just feel immense anxiety and dread. I want to see id taking some time off will make me happier and more secure, but in life we can never be sure.
Ahh this resonates so much with me. I'm not a recent graduate but have recently came back to my parent's home and my small town and I understand so much all you're saying. And it feels so good to be seen in this way and know that I'm not alone as this uncertain life unfolds ahead of me.
Thank you for existing and sharing!!
Big virtual hug ❤️ 🦋✨
My casual magic today was at work (at the hospital) and just looking at the hospital as I finished and thought to myself "one week from now, I become a student nurse... wow".
I've been watching your videos since high school and now I'm close to graduating in law, I know it feels scary to have so many people watching your life but I just want you to know I'm super grateful I get to grow up with you. Wish you so much happiness, Jade
oh Jade, Im grateful for your existence
you just pulled EVERYTHING i had in my head, jade. it's made me feel better to hear you talk about these things, you give a calming presence and i am thankful for you encouraging all of us to find that casual magic and remembering the impermanence of many things in life
Jade, thank you so very much for this series. I also graduated this year - have always been a very high-achieving student - genuinely enjoy academics - had a university experience I loved - and have now moved back to live with my family for the time being. These videos have verbalized so much of what I've also been going through and have made me feel so comforted and validated over the last few months. Thank you ❤
I can totally relate to this transition! Post-grad life can be a challenging adjustment, but it's also an exciting new chapter full of opportunities. Your video captures the emotions and experiences so well. Keep navigating this journey with curiosity and an open heart.
There's just something engaging and soothing about your videos that I find incredibly relaxing. Maybe it's the ASMR-esque qualities or just the raw and honest, heartfelt content that makes me glad that I stumbled across you channel a while back. Whilst I do look back upon my uni days with some nostalgia, it's important to be ready to write the next chapter of your life story, and sometimes that means looking forward and not back. It's always a scary thing to take the first step out into the unknown, but you got this.
Dear Jade (and also beautiful people reading this),
Yesterday it was my mum's sister funeral, one of my favourite aunts. It was the first time I went through the death of a close relative, even though I'm 21. They were a couple heavy days...
However, I realized that this wasn't the lowest I reached in the past two years. Uni was not the greatest experience, so I dropped college before joining a master's (which is usual in my course). It was quite hard emotionally for 2/3 of that uni time. I am currently recovering, even though I lost some of my closest friendships due to betrayal. Recovering, breathing, trying to smile and learning how to drive...
For the magic of the day, today I oppened a fresh new LP disc from Coldplay, the album Mylo Xyloto.
Sending hugs to you all 🦋
Jade I think this is my favourite video you’ve ever posted. I related so much to you. Thank you so much for sharing, you really don’t know how much it means❤️
hi jade, such cute vibes from this video!! My casual magic for today: I’m staying with a family friend for a short while, which is a welcome break from hostels, and tonight she called “dinner time!” and I felt really at home ☺️ lots of uncertainty in my life rn, gap year travels got me craving routine and stability 🥲 definitely relating to your feels atm
So authentic, transparent and comforting!!✨️
Sending lots of love Jade❤
i've been out of grad school for a year now, but this past summer i moved back in with my family and to my little hometown from my big college city where all my friends live! so, so much of what you said here really hit me jade. wishing you all the best in this new phase and lots of happiness and peace :)
❤ one of the best videos i have ever watched. Embrace this chapter and its feelings, u will miss this moment. Time literally flies away. I had this period after uni im still having it, in a certain way, and i graduated in march 2022. And don't worry, no one can really judge you for your choices. But I understand the feeling, I have it too, even if I am not sharing my life online.
Love love this
Awww! Enjoy this special time Jade! My daughter is also back home after 4 years at uni and just like you and your parents, we are enjoying some of life's simple pleasures - like eating our breakfast together in the garden, or going to the zoo, or walking in nature. I'm also very conscious of the fact that while it's an adjustment for both of us and there will always be a few speed bumps, it might be the last time she lives at home, possibly forever! So I'm savouring every moment, living life from a place of love and compassion and enjoying the shared moments of fun and laughter. I feel very grateful to have raised two amazing young women who actually WANT to spend time with me! xx
This is so real. Love your authenticity, reflectiveness, and emotional intelligence. Honestly, as an on-and-off watcher of your videos, I would probably prefer if you were not super specific about your next career moves/ more private about certain areas of your life.
Thank you, you’re helping me through my period grief and longing for stability so much! Thank you!
literally obsessed with you jade you are such an inspiration to me and you are so gorgeous xxx
This is such a lovely video I adore these rambly ones it's like my actual brain. I graduate next year and have been worried about this exact feeling but I'm trying not to wish away my final year by dreading the end?? You're doing amazing and I love the way you're putting effort into how you look at things, reframing your perspective is not a simple task but it's absolutely worth it. I also worry about things ill crave/regret later on in life, it's nice to hear I'm not going crazy. All my love always, you got this girlie, thanku for every video you post x
Absolutely loveeee these rambly videos! The existentialism around choosing career paths is real
Lately seeing all the deers in the town I’m living in is so special ❤️
I’m in this exact position. I feel like we all feel as though we are the only ones going through these experiences and emotions, so I am so grateful to have found someone who has said exactly how I feel!❤️
u have a beautiful voice
especially your lower register! very soothing 🥺
Jade, I'm going through *almost* the exact same thing as you. We're both in the same stage of our lives, and I hope you know how much comfort your words and your experience give me. Everything is so scary because of the unstableness of finishing my degree (in 4 days I defend my dissertation and that's it), it's also sad because I too loved my uni friends and my life outside my home with my flatmates, but it's also incredibly exciting because burnout has me so eager for a calm life where I can finally properly take care of myself. And when you talk about how you've found all these causes to fight for so you aren't sure what to focus on because you want to help with so many issues but at the same time it's like nothing you'll ever do could make a difference in this bast huge world, man I really feel you. Anyway, thank you for sharing this and making me feel seen. You're amazing, and everyone in this community, and also myself. I know that despite all the doubts and bad thoughts and feelings, we are special and we can do special things, whatever that means for each of us. Love from Spain!!
P.S. my casual magic from today was catching up with one of my all-time friends that I had not seen in a while and doing so over churros con chocolate :)
Hi Jade ❤ thanks for the honesty! I appreciate this type of videos of you just rumbling because that’s how I write in my diary so this feels like a video of my thinking 💭
❤just 2 points:
- It’s so true about parent’s relationship. You may not see it now but they are getting older. If it helps, the process of you getting into adulthood and getting wiser, is the same process but for your parents but getting older and somehow weaker. It motivates me to move on in life looking up to be able to help them and be their rock whenever they reach to that point in life.
- About your career, it’s totally ok to be private! I think it’s better so you don’t feel judged by the big internet. However I do want to point out that you said climate change looks like a big unfixable problem but you have in your heart to do something about it.
The biggest changes and advancement in this world wasn’t done just by one person but it always started with one person wanting to do the job. I believe in Jesus and there is a teaching that you can give five breads and two fishes and then God multiplies it to fed 5000 people. That teaching applies to any calling of our heart. We may looked unqualified or it may look impossible but just give the first step and see how God provides the rest that you need (wether is people, resources, faith, etc). If you don’t want to call it God is ok! Some people call it universe.
Hi Jade! I just wanted to say how much i enjoy your videos and your channel. You inspire me and brighten my day. Me and my wife always look forward to watching your content and only want what’s best for you! If you’re happy that’s all that matters, thanks for being great!❤
Watching this before bed was so calming 💕 my thank you to you Jade, from my unsertain time to yours 🙂
During my first (and only) september out of education was so strange for me, I felt like a fish out of water and missed being back at school so much that I returned to uni a year later, got my masters and am now a teacher lol ❤ now i get to experience the back to school feeling for the rest of my life and I won't change it for the world.
why do i feel like i'm looking at my future hahahaha so happy for you!! 💌
sending you love and courage ❤ whatever you will do, wherever you will go, you will be amazing!!
I am also a graduate so I am going through a similar situation, but I feel very caught up in my anxiety around this uncertainty rather than feeling good about it. Those videos are truly coming at the right time for me and they’re so comforting. Thank you Jade ❤
Thank you for this, it helps us not feel alone in this akward time of our lives that’s not spoken enough!❤
see my circumstances are a bit different but I can relate so much and it kinda made me emotional the way you described it... but in a way where I feel like I can understand the state of things a little better now and I want to thank you so much for that! I wish you the best of luck navigating this strange period and hope you find where you want to be
my casual magic was i went to a cat cafe alone, i originally was going with a friend but she couldnt make it last minute, so instead of not going, hating being alone and doing things, i just went. I met some lovely people and adorable kitties. Past me could never, im grateful for past me for battling my anxiety each day :)
Oh Jade, when you mentioned that video of the guy being told he was only going to see his parents 15 times in the rest of his life I felt like I wanted to cry. I wasn't super close to my parents growing up and things have been better between us now that I'm older and have my own life but there's something so sad and scary about thinking there will be an end to all the family Christmases and birthdays and special events where we are together and I feel like I need to go tell all my family I love them. I know being in the part of your life where everything is uncertain and there's no structure can be scary but I'm glad you're still looking for the beauty in it and appreciating your time at home while you're building up to your future. I hope everything you wish for comes easily to you and can't wait to hear whatever you do next!
So glad you decided to post this Jade 🙏I'm in a similar boat atm and its so comforting to know I'm not alone in these feelings 💛 keep rambling we love it!
Sending big hugs Jade!! 💕 I know you will find your footing and will find your next steps. Keep on trusting your intuition and the universe will help show you the next move ☺️
I love this video Jade. I am doing an internship abroad currently and although this should help my future career, I feel like I'm standing still because all my friends at home started a new study year or a new job. I miss the excitement of starting something new in September and sharing that with people around you.
Aww Jade you just made me cry . I came back from my study abroad in Tokyo a couple of months ago and I still miss it so much: the adventures, feeling yourself grow from all those challenges, feeling independent and having all those lovely connections.
Now I am back at my home university working on my dissertation while all my friends already graduated while I was gone (._.)
Thank you Jade, for this video, for your vulnerability. Watching this made me feel calm, thank you.
Loved this!! So much resonated and was just *chefs kiss* as always 👏🫶🏼
awwwn good luck with all this! Im kind of in the opposite situation, where after years of dropout, Im going BACK to uni. « Real » life is indeed challenging, but you got a good head to help you navigate what will be thrown at you. It probably will be a bit tough but I truly believe you’ll manage to get trough it❤
Thank you for posting this Jade. Like so many other people, I am in a similar position too, having just graduated and back to my hometown. It is weird being back to where you were born without really having a life here. Sometimes the days feel endless and like you have nothing to do, but I am also trying to remember that this is impermanent and that we are so lucky to have a period of rest and of being closer to family. You aren't alone in this.
Thank you for this jade! Currently in the same rut moving back home and running my own business. It’s unlike anything I’ve experienced before. It’s a weird feeling to be grateful and also lonely at the same time. Surprised by how many others are going thru it.
i graduated last december and yes, i had a still-going depressive episode because it hit me that i would never go back to university as an undergraduate. i still miss uni and everything about that life, but i cannot believe yet that life is not mine anymore, while everything ahead feels so uncertain.
I'm just really grateful for your rambly videos, Jade💜 They're somehow very comforting to me
I was waiting for this video Jade!! As soon as the fall weather started to hit I was taken back to the school days and felt empty, now I’ve been trying to structure my days alottt and fill this school sized hole 🥹❤️
Thank you so much for posting this!!! I am currently on gap year and I feel just the same as you. So stressed about my future and expectations. Also comparing myself way too much to others that my gap year is not 'perfect' enough. It is way harder than it should be and that is probably my fault but still it's kind of difficult.
this felt like an intimate podcast episode❣I've also recently graudated after doing 6 years of full time study (bachelors straight into masters), and I've been comtemplating this so much. It feels so scary when all you've known is being a student and getting good grades, and suddenly it's all been taken away from you and you don't know who you are any more - which can also be really exciting to recreate yourself and a great opportunity to find out who you are without academia! We got this❣