I got this like 5 years ago when a couple of my friends and i decided to get some tabs from a sketchy connection (we didnt know at the time (young and dumb)).. But these tabs were definitely NOT LSD. To this day im not sure what those little candies were dosed with. A night that forever changed the three of our brains. I remember putting the delicious Necco Wafer on my tongue. It was so tasty that i was moving it all around my mouth to absorb as much LSD as i could. We thought to ourself, what a great trip this is going to be. Seemingly perfect set and setting. Three best friends just enjoying some psychedelics and exploring the depths of their minds together. Ingested on a candy that was oh so yummy.. I actually wanted to eat more because they were so good. Thank god my friends stopped me from doing that though.. So we sat waiting for the effects to kick in, i think we were playing some videos games or watching some cartoons, but i dont really remember to well. After about two hours it was apparent it wasnt LSD which we were dreading that possibility. But so far it didnt seem to have much of an effect at all so we thought maybe it wasnt a bad RC(research chemical).. Unfortunately that wasnt the case and after about 4 hours we were feeling really energetic but in an unpleasant way. No euphoric feelings. Just a blank minded zombie energy feeling. And thats when visually things started to change a bit. Things started to look like they had a static layer over them. no usual LSD visuals but instead just kinda blurred the eyesight a bit. And concentrating was becoming harder to do. Focusing on little things like reading. at the end of the night we layed down to sleep which we were able to sleep after like 5 hours. And if you know what LSD is like youd know that you cant sleep on it. But this was sorta relaxing to sleep on. but the frightening part is everytime we closed our eyes our closed eye visuals were completely realistic and always happening. When your eyes are open youd experience no visual effect aside from the blurriness. But when you close them you were seeing things moving and happening one after another. it was racing thoughts. One image would pop up and dissolve in front of your eyes and then another one would instantly happen. And they seemed to be negative and creepy. I saw doll faces appear and have lines shootingg through their face and then the doll would melt and then something else scary would appear. Any ways. The next day and for weeks after we noticed the lasting effects on our vision and brain. Lots of loathing and depression lasted with us three for a year being the roughest part of the journey. We all would hang out every day and sorta bonded and kept each other sane during this period of time. We were just starting our junior year in highschool and we couldnt even focus or read properly. Everytime we looked at words on a page and tried to read a line, we would end up just reading that same line again instead of the next. We couldnt remember anything we read really. So school was interesting that year. Still had some amazing memories that year but boy was that feeling the most horrible feeling i have been through. Just the realization that things will never look the same or feel the same was enough to make us all go a bit insane. We were changed by this chemical. Yes its something that you can learn to cope with and gets easier and better as time goes on and as the brain heals. But there will always be a change and i will always notice what i have done to myself through messing with the wrong stuff.. Im 21 now its 5 years later and i still have big differences in my eye sight. But its sorta just normal now. I still wish i could go back to before doing any psyches and look through those eyes again. But thats not reality and ive accepted that. I always thought that i wouldnt get screwed over by the things i tried because i thought i was careful. But i think if you are searching these kinds of feelings and seeking them more than just a few times.. It finds its way to bite you in the butt from your ignorance. and sometimes people try things their first time and have HPPD effects. You never know. Others can take acid over 100 times and say they are fine. In my opinion yes those people can be more than fine. but obviously they were still changed a ton by what they did. All im saying is if you like your mind and mindset and how your eyes see the world and having more clear of a mind i would suggest not seeking out these things. mushrooms and weed okay but like tbh what ive learned most from substances is that being sober is more enjoyable than being on something all the time. I currently am addicted to weed that all i do anymore after all these years lol. But i want to quit weed now and try to connect back to a fully sober mindset. Just eating healthy and being in good shape and sober. Then dabble back into weed and maybe mushies every once in awhile. Moderation really has always been the key. And BTW i think mushrooms are just more rewarding than lsd. Lsd can be a fun time and spiritual too i guess. But the way lsd comes down just feels unnatural to me and lingers too much. Sometimes when coming down you ask yourself.. Am i still tripping? and that can last for a couple days or more sometimes lol. especially when smoking weed. But mushrooms just come down nice and easy after about 5 hours and you start to feel grounded back in this reality after. Feels much more like a completed trip rather than something that feels like its still going on maybe..? ANYWHO THANKS FOR WHOEVER TOOK THE TIME TO READ MY STORY LOL
It's very likely that what you took was something along the lines of 25I-NBOMe or 25C-NBOMe. Both of which are full agonists at the respective serotonin receptors as opposed to partial agonists like LSD. Basically they produce a much stronger response at the receptors than LSD would. From the anecdotal stories I've read about these substances, the incidence at which things like HPPD happen is a lot higher with these. I still agree with you about the duration of LSD sucking. It's just too long. However I find the effects of acid in general to be more manageable than those of shrooms, so it's a bit of a catch 22 for me lol.
i am going through this since last year and it is so difficult to get anyone to understand all i hear is "you are just not meant to be doing that stuff" it could happen to anyone! i was experienced for years and safe, never any negative experiences. 3 years of psychedelic use it only took one minute of panic during my last acid trip to mess everything up. some people dont believe HPPD even exists
nayi 99 gotta realize bro these drugs are class schedule 1 illegal ass shit so there’s not a lot of research that can be done besides the shit we already know for sure
It will be awhile but it vision will get better with time. When u do lsd u can damage the optic nerve in the eyes. Mainly affecting contrast. Also the slip of conciousness is causing the distortions. U can help cope with it through lucid dreaming and grasp reality again.
Time heals. Honestly. Listen, you aren’t stuck with this your whole life. A year of abstinence from every drug, nicotine, weed, anything controlled will completely eliminate these illuminating visions randomly coming up
I've been suffering HPPD for 5 years. It's a real life changer. Time and therapy are big helpers. I've been "normal" for about a year until my most recent panic attack, it hasn't been THIS bad since 3 years ago. It feels like I'm going back to square one, but after a few more hours you start to feel more grounded. Mindfulness helps. Rationalizing your thoughts and symptoms helped me immensely. Talking to yourself out loud when you're trying to calm yourself down helps as well.
Also weed contributes to it, I have it too but I’m chillin, it’s intense but idrc. It’s what uou make it, I live with 200ug and weed is so fucking different now
Weed doesn’t give you HPPD, it’s frequently used and widely studied people would know if it did. Obviously people who do things like lsd also smoke weed.
i think it’s really brave of u to post ur story online. to hear ur story really helped me overcome some anxiety i’ve been facing when trying to deal with hppd myself. it’s good to know i’m not alone
Sounds like you did Nmobe. I took it twice thinking it was acid and it fried my brain like no other. Had depersonalization for 6 months, depression, increased social anxiety and still have trouble organizing my thoughts. That was 2 years ago and it’s getting better but I’ll never take LSD without testing it. I hope you’re getting better and take care of yourself 💙
I had an horrendous bad trip 48 years ago. A massively strong tab. Flashbacks for years, panic attacks, totally affected my life for the worse. Deja vu trip, time loop, realisation that I have done all this for infinity. Not good
Bob idk if this will help you but that sounds like Nietzsches eternal return, which may have been inspired the same way, considering he was constantly high on opium. Use that experience to better your life by making it worth replaying
I have hppd and schizophrenia all because I ate a handful of laced sugar cubes while drunk on new years eve 2012. It was only after eating them i found out it was LSD. Didn't even know much about LSD at that point being 17. My whole outlook and personality changed in a very negative depressed way. Its been a night mare. I'm against all meds and drugs , I was given a bezo for anxiety and after a week on them took a knife and stabbed chunks of flesh out of my thigh and stomach, so spend most of the day training. Chasing those moments of bliss and euphoria you get after intense exercise. I would do anything to rewind time and change that one night. Life's precious , its funny how in such a short about of time a life can be altered so dramatically. Reflecting on this reminded me of two close friends I had. One O.D on an opioid. I was told it was heroin but could have been fent . he was only 20 and had a baby son. The other was 18 was drunk and got chased by a group of thugs. He climbed up a tree and slipped . hit the ground hard and became a quadriplegic. You don't hear about these kind of things but just imagine how many extreme situations like these happen every day. Life is mysterious.
How are you doing dude? Your story resonated with me because I've been in a similar situation. Don't give up hope, you can heal. I did but it took me almost 3 years hang in there and stay abstinent.
hey man, almost have had the same exact experience as you. same timeline, same symptoms, same anxiety. thanks for the video because it helps knowing I'm not alone.
I have very bad symptoms of HPPD, I did LSD 5 times in the space of two months, I get tracers, trees and plants look very alien and different than they used to, walls breathe and things move in the corner of my eye, I also get patterns that form over pretty much all surfaces if I look at them for longer than a few seconds and I was extremely anxious and depressed for months even suicidal. But I have recently overcome the anxiety and they no longer bother me at all. At the end of the day HPPD is just simply seeing things slightly different to other people YOU ARE NOT MENTAL. And it was coming to terms with this that enabled me to overcome my anxiety. For example how do I know that green in my eyes isn’t blue in yours? If you are struggling with HPPD out there just remember that you are not mental you just see things slightly differently to others and that does not mean that you can’t enjoy life just as much as other people. Keep yourself busy and overtime you will overcome this problem just like any other problem people have in their life. There are people out there that are colour blind or even blind and they would die just to see anything at all. From what I researched my symptoms of HPPD and they seem to be far worse then 99% of people, so if I can overcome it so can you! Hope this can help
I'm really grateful for these videos because I never did acid when I was younger, no drugs for a decade but I sometimes wonder. Videos like this show me psychedelics are not for me 👍
Don't worry man. I have exactly the same symptoms you have.It's been 6 months for me as well. And my symptoms are getting more intense like how you are experiencing it. It does affect many aspects of daily like and it makes simple things difficult. But I take it as a gift. I repeatedly took those hits of acid and it cannot be undone. It is a gift, my friend. Stay strong.
@@SergeantDomyou will nowi had it for about two years or less, eventually you notice its just gone but it goes away, i miss it sometimes but theres a beauty in the simple things
im so sorry that shit happened to you. freshman year of college something happened to me as a result of an LsD trip. I started meditating and that was a huge help. like much better trajectory life-wise and such. I dont notice anything now except maybe an aura around objects and people every now and again, but that never really bothered me anyhow. I will pray for you dude, keep growing.
Hppd = it is just a higher state of consciousness on which you have to find your way, integrate it into everyday life. Sometimes, if your mind isnt ready for such a experience, you get this "hppd"
Welcome to my world pal. Mine started exactly the same. 1 bad trip in 1995. Its now 2020 and my hppd is just as bad if not worse. I have hppd ongoing. I carnt look into people's eyes without freaking out or feeling a anxiety attack build up. Its changed how i interact with people almost to the point my personality has been taken over and erased. Such a debilitating condition that i wish i had heard off when i was 16 experiencing lsd. I carried on with other drugs, mdma been the main one and i always knew i tripped out far more than my friends. Once thst doorway has been opened you are permanently on a different level of consciousness forever
I have HPPD as well. After my first LSD trip I had become very paranoid, occasionally see objects wave, the walls breath, and weed also made me feel like I was in an acid trip mentality. It was uncomfortable, a little frightening, and caused my anxiety to be hella uncontrollable but over time it became less intense. Recently I had another LSD trip that was a higher dose and didnt have intense HPPD after. Maybe its just because I got use to it but one difference between the trips is that the first trip I was focusing a lot on my issues but I completely ignored it during the trip and that caused some anxiety. The second trip was complete happiness and good vibes. So I feel like if you have negitive or "bad" trips you are more susceptible to HPPD. Also feel like not spacing out trips and doing multiple trips in a month can also cause HPPD. It's not fun when you have no idea what HPPD is but over time you heal from bad trips and it's all just a matter of having the right set and setting and testing your drugs.
Jace Kay Accha cool. The first time I dropped was around 120 ugs and 2 months later after smoking more than the usual amount of weed I started getting mad flashbacks and even the next day when I just took 3 puffs of a spliff I was tripping balls now a month later everything thing is cool so I was planning on taking a higher dose so I was wondering on asking whether I should do it or no?
@@kylecoutinho1296 If you dropped about two months ago then I think you'd be fine to drop again. As for how much it just depends if you're in the right mental state and setting to do a higher dose, if not I'd say take about the same or less, maybe 100 ug. I rarely get my hands on psycidelics so most of my trips are spaced apart very well so I'm usually pretty confident in keeping a positive vibe
I took 4 tabs all at once and my vision hasnt been the same ever since, its not like its blurry but like little “static” colors around words and numbers on my phone it freaked me out at first but I managed to live with it.
@@bigeddymachete wow. that sucks. for me i was panicking sm last month when it first started and its only been a month but i feel pretty normal, some nights it can get really bad but it usually only effects me at nights well i only notice it during the night
@@bigeddymachetestop fear mongering nobody trips forever. You can have visual flashbacks but nobody is actually “tripping”. What you are talking about is derealization/ depersonalization which can stay for extended periods of time when people fear their symptoms so much and never learn to bring down their anxiety
I thought I had the same thing but over time it got a lot better. It helps to get a lot of sleep if possible. Sleep deprivation can cause intense hallucinations and panic attacks just as how you're describing
This happened to my best friend. Her first time taking "acid" I think it was an nbome. But it wasn't tested, I wasn't there either. They gave her 4 hits and she basically lost it for about 3 months. Would see flowers popping up behind dogs ears. Her walls would move. I remember one night we were at a party and she started crying and laughing.... almost like she had some profound break through she starts saying "magic is real". I had to take her home. A lot of our friends turned their backs on her bc they were scared and ignorant. I was there for her though and honestly I was worried too and pissed my friend didn't look out for her in the beginning. She's fine now but I really think she was given an nbome or some RC. Please everyone test your stuff and be safe. Xoxo
Its been a while since you posted this but I just want to say it feels amazing to know mi not alone dealing with this. I spent months convincing myself I had brain tumors, was going to go blind etc.. recently discovered HPPD and it described my symptoms to a tee. All I can say is it absolutely gets better, and we can all improve!
I have had it for 25 years pal, from LSD when i was 13. My first trip. I'm 39 now and i just deal with it. don't let it get ya down, its just a minor affliction although when you've had it for 25 years its easier to say because you become accustomed to it. I didn't touch psychedelics again until my uncle spiked me with mushroom brownies in my 20's. On a more positive note, i have had some of the most profoubd experiences of my life on iboga, dmt, psilocybin, kambo, bufo alvarius and Rapey.
I had extremely intense trips when i first started smoking weed. I was 14. I smoked a bowl with my friend before we went to the bus stop to go to school. We smoked it and then started walking to the bus stop. About 30 seconds after i start walking, i lose my fuckin mind. I completely forgot why i was walking and where i was, i felt like i weighed a million pounds and i was melting into the ground. I felt a very intense, awesome euphoria. My vision was very distorted. Everything was melting down, including me. I started twitching and rubbing my arms together. I arrive at the bus stop and i cannot stop laughing and rubbing my arms and hands together. My friends are laughing at me. I dont really remember the rest of the school day but i do know i never got caught. Anyone ever have weird experiences like this with weed?
yep, i used to have a very low tolerance and If i smoked too much, I would act pretty fuckin weird. Sounds similar, but no twitching. Weed will make you have shakes sometimes.
Bobby Hill - my second time smoking weed... I was 14 and I bought two joints with a couple of my friends and we smiled it then I couldn’t walk anymore and I felt like I had been getting pulled down to the ground and then I saw a very vivid cloud with my dad sitting in the recliner saying remember wha I told you and everyone said I was tweaking and swimming in the sand but after that I’m 17 now smoked a lot of weed and never had mother experience like that again tho
For the weed thing, that's not a symptom of HPPD but rather a symptom of taking LSD. It's not uncommon for people who have taken acid, especially in high doses, to experience weed differently and to have a different high. This is most likely due the way your brain uptakes THC and the way that THC is interpreted has chemically and physically changed as a result of taking LSD.
_@Tim._. This is True! ♥Namaste!♥ Neuro chemistry, is complex, and combining really quite strong substances,may yield unexpected problems. If homeostasis were more robust, then this wouldn't be so problematic!♥ ":)
Hi I just noticed these symptoms after taking shrooms 3 times within the past 13 days. The first time I didn't take much so I just saw things move and felt comfortable, the 2nd and 3rd time I felt like I almost died as my body and mind was adjusting so it felt a bit traumatic. My friends helped me calm down so I enjoyed the com down, but now I'm always stressed when I see things move and the anxiety is making things worse
This is real guys i go through what he does i suffer everyday. I smoked weed 8 times in my life. The first 7 times was great. The 8th time idk what it was i smoked out of a gravity bong and i tell u what. Weed is the only drug i did keep that in mind. 30 seconds after taking a hit it hit me. My whole body vibrating so intense i was hearing very high and low pitches and whispering as well as seeing very bright and dark skulls and all kinds of things. It was like i was paralyzed couldnt move anything on my body i thought i was gonna die. Ever since that happened 16 hours when it came down i was still high. Till this day i feel the high and visuallly see things but not majorly. I know your pain man it sucks. No matter who you tell no one is gonna believe you. It makes me wanna die sometimes because its hard man. Prayers for healings and forgiveness bless you man.
I didn’t know this happened to anyone else. I feel so much better knowing I’m not the only one. I’ve gotten so many panic attacks just from smoking one blunt after dropping. It’s so hard to explain
Kayla Marner do you usually smoke indica? I’ve found that strong indica strains give me more anxiety during trips than sativa does. Perhaps you need some sativa for that psychedelic boost?(;
I had hppd ever since I last taken it, it is like I am remembering the things I saw while on lsd.. Basically in the initial trip I saw the whole world made up literally of letters like literally strings of t's and f's and p's made up of smaller t's and f's and p's in that same infinite loop fractaling in on itself making up my reflection that is the world i see.. It is a reflection of my self. The whole universe was (braman) an infinite but singular consciousness that is shared by everyone but is everyone but fundamentally 'you' (me) in this one moment infinitely repeating forever.. It just repeats forever (death isn't a way out using this pattern) it won't ever stop, i had taken multiple tabs at the same time on multiple occasions leading up to this experience so i thought I could handle it but in this perticular time i took all at once two tabs of unknown strength tabs (but the guy said they were strong) and a drop off 125 ug liquid in my eye. And I was tripping so hard i was unable to see anything other than the taste of the music (I was experiencing full blown sinystisia that took the form of letters made up of letters made up of letters made up of infinitely fractaling letters) let alone walk. But after a while, after became coherent the ordeal had only just begun.. I had full blown telepathy with everyone i looked at or spoke to and i came to the conclusion I was them, not just them but the whole universe. And i was trying to teach my self a lesson by setting myself a test to face my deepest darkest fears (this was completely involuntary) I genuinely believed the projected version of myself had set up a situation where I was meant to be kidnapped and tortured (and this wasn't my friends messing around) I was scared so bad I seriously considered suicide by stabbing myself through the neck on a spiked fence when I ran away (I am not currently suicidal or ever was before this) but I stopped when I looked at the loop and realised death isn't a way out it just repeats forever I regained consciousness a short why later out of the lsd trance and made my way back to the rave. But after this I kept seeing the same letters (not as vivid) constantly and i had to go back to work after that experience and I felt so alone like i (you) was (are) the only person in the world. Even when I explained my experience to my friends who take a much higher doses than me have never seen these letters (please contact me if you have) but 4 years later i still see them out the corner of my eye and it's a smiling reflection of myself staring back at me infinitely.. Judging me. BE CAREFUL WITH ACID it is seriously not to be messed with, I was stupid and I could have messed my life up over that. But ended up teaching me the biggest lesson in the most unexpected way and it showed me god is closer than I previously thought ;)
Tripped on 4Aco-DMT once and had a very similar trip, infinite fractals of letters spiraling. Been fighting HPPD and DPDR for a year and a half now, still hoping it goes away with time.
@@lucasborger6409 oh wow, i did 4 aco dmt once but I didn't experience much maybe I didn't take enough lol.. Dmt however I didn't see letters but was as strong as that lsd trip but i experienced very little hppd.. Strange
thanks for sharing your story! my hppd developed 6 months ago after i graduated as well. got it from 2-cb. i really feel you.. wishing the best :) greetings from germany
I got a bad case of HPPD in 2013 from perhaps 8 tabs dosed at about 150 iu each.. visual/audio hallucinations for 9 months more, it was very tough mentally.. i had a quarter of a tab a month later and it hit me like 5 would.. it was bad, for anyone reading this who is suffering from it please abstain from all substances, I beat it from abstinence and not going to deep in ideas and activities. It gets better, and it can completely go
Just enjoy it dude, its like any intense fear. It stays in your mind. For example if someone was once hit by a car on a certain road, whenever they cross that road they can have "flash backs" of that moment, creating panic or whatever. I had a similar thing (although I wouldn't call it HPPD because I just thoroughly enjoyed it) taking 25i, I got stuck in this time loop for ages, or at least what felt like ages and then too get out of the loop I ran outside and went to hop into a car, instead I looked at the car for a second and then became the car looking at myself, because it was just after this time loop, i thought I was dead. I thought the time loop was my soul still in my dead physical body experiencing the moment of my death over and over and me running outside was my spirit finally disconnecting from my physical. And then me seeing my body whilst taking the form of this car made me think I was now just consciousness, unseen by physical but always there like they say when you lose a loved one, "he's always with you now". But then I became my physical, felt my physical. Felt my physical a little too much because i then started to melt into the ground literally like I was liquid, I tried to walk/run like a river to the car, I got it. Thought about what had just happened, thought maybe the car is really an entity of some sort and then the car and mainly steering wheel came alive, I can't explain the monster/entity thing it became but I was in it and it tripped me out so hard. Then finally my friend hopped in the car, which was also weird because he was there for like 10min and I newly noticed he was there at least 30 times, like "woooahh how the fuck did you get there?" But repetitively. And then as I stopped thinking and allowed myself to simply be, all my fear stopped and I became god, like I became the moment, and only the moment, past and future weren't even an idea. I was everything, yet I was nothing. And then like 2 months later I started seeing weird we things, and then I smoked weed, went into a full on acid trip and understood that those weird we things were creation, were my experience, therefore they were me. And I learnt/taught myself that nothing exists other than now. Now is nothing. Now is infinite. Now is love. I am the experience. The physical body is simply a vehicle to experience. Kind of imagine being in a completely sense depriving room for eternity and after a while your brain starts to imagine, a while longer and your imagination is all you know, therefore it is real. What you are conditioned to believe controls the outcome of your experience. To free yourself, have no conditioning, no attachments, realize you are nothing, realize your identity is only imagined, it is an illusion that keeps you from realizing the infinity of the eternal moment. There is truly only now, this very moment. So anyway, enjoy your HPPD if you wanna call it that because it is now, therefore it is beautiful :) Also drugs will not get you there, they are simply a tool to give you a glimpse through the window. You yourself have to go through the door.
@Kre80r. And, sorry, but so passé to name yourself thus. And Ooh Yeah, cool, Wow man. Yeah, right. If you are so very Conscious, you will Know that for every moment each one is different. To step through the door, is almost certainly not the intended experience. We, in the meat suits, do, not until called,,, If you had been called, Our"conversation,"Would be something suitable and different. You have been to a dissociated state. I am Awareness. And, I have been angry. If it makes you feel that happiness, go ahead and feel. Do you know/feel/understand that what you pronounced, is but one of many truths, as such, Do You Need me to Spell it out for what you advise may be misconstrued? Trust Delusions of the infinite. ...How lovingly will you assist with the aftermath of your advice? Not a truly loving message from such an enlightened BEing! It's subjective, and as such, you ought to know. ... 1st Prize, for the worst. Most EGOCENTRIC advice from one who has (Apparently) No Ego! ♥Namaste!♥AX (Weaving.)
i got hppd, and i always see tracers, light patters everywhere in plants, walls, etc. but i haven’t had it for too long, i’ve had it for like a month now, and i love hanging out with my friends, i wanna spend time with people everyday. and seeing more the visuals everytime i smoke weed is cool to me, i think it’s cool. but idk, maybe overtime i’ll start to get anxiety n shit like this dude said
I've had hppd for over three years now. i got it from 25-I, I had a really bad trip and woke up the next day not feeling much better, the static was there, the floaters and after images were there, even when I closed my eyes it was different, I didn't feel like myself anymore. the first 6 months were a nightmare, I quit all drugs except for alcohol, and i drank myself to the point of black out almost every night to cope with it, than it started to improve, I felt a little more normal again and the visual symptoms weren't as strong. it went on like that for the next year and a half and by the 2 year mark I barely even noticed my hppd, only when I was in the dark really, but than a few months later I just woke up one day and it all came back, worse than it had ever been. the panic attacks were back, the visuals were stronger than ever, and now I had a loud ringing in my ears as well, it was horrible, I could barely make it through the work day without breaking down, I even had to quit MMA, which I was very passionate about. it's been a year sense than and it hasn't gotten any better, the anxiety has subsided for the most part but not completely and the visuals are still so strong I can barely function. the logical choice at this point is suicide, I kinda always figured that's how my life would end anyway, I survived two suicide attempts before I even had hppd, but now I'm sure about ending it. the thing is though, I'm not sure I have the courage, I aways thought I was brave but I guess I'm a coward when it comes down to it. one of these days I'll be brave enough to load up my 12 gauge and blow my brains out, but until than I'll be a living example. if you don't already have hppd, than don't fuck with psychedelics, your life is fine without them and it's not worth the risk, if you already have hppd and you've somehow found a way to live with it than good, I'm glad for you, but learn from your mistakes and don't ever fuck with psychedelics again, it's not worth the risk.
Doug Kelso hang on in there buddy!! maany people have been in your situation before and they all got better with time!! there's no need on killing yourself! LIFE GETS BETTER, TRUST ME on this!! find support out there, with time you can find plenty of it and you will see how things get better! PLEASE, just hang on and keep on living!
Try learning an using Meditation and Mindfulness. Hope you stopped in time, before it was too late. I ended up homeless twice and three times in a drug rehabilitation. Have experienced everything you mentioned
This disorder is mysterious, and it's called,, perception,, for a reason. If you IGNORE IT, it can go away to some extent. It depends on wheather you perceive these visuals as beautiful or just mad scary, or not bothering at all. Those who take acid must be sure that they will like the madness that comes with it. It can be beautiful, but it's not for everyone.
Dude I feel you, I went through the same thing as well! I had to finish my remaining junior year and entire senior Year like this I hope you’re doing okay now bruv
Man when i was 15-16 i used to do all types of research chemicals (25c-25i, N bombs, Fake molly) i did it all and let me tell you, i felt fried & had HPPD really bad, to the point where my mom even had a few psychiatric evaluations done on me, i kicked the drugs started eating right and going to the gym and i'm 21 now, been off the drugs since then and im feeling great it all clears up man just give it time.
Thanks for sharing man! I had hppd for years! I didn't know I had it until I heard about hppd. I thought I was just more creative hahahah it's not that bad. Focus on the positive and take care of your self. No more drugs
I have hppd and find it quite neat and feel it should be a lesson, if it leaves you uncomfortable. Then you weren't practicing harm reduction, and for sure weren't doing any shadow work. Also may I propose my theory that these give access to the other side. The visuals tripping or not, help me get into my headspace and evaluate myself and outside world. Weed is more psychedelic after classical pyschedelics, this imo is bc you have a better reference point for psychedelics. All honesty ik everyone is different but if you can truly heal your innerself you can find acceptance with it or like most suggest just go cold turkey on any mind altering substance.
Not sure what HPPD is, but between 79 to 94, I tripped about 400 times. I now have 23 years clean and sober but my memory is not as good as it use to be, have anxiety and my neck and back are deterating . Some one told me that lsd can impact your back. Back in July 88, I took 12 hits in two weeks and ended up in the first of three drug rehabilitation centers. At times, the lsd led me to being more suicidal
Oh man, I'm sorry to hear about your story. I know it's too late to say this now, but maybe it'll help someone else who might read my comment: For instances like these it's really important to have a benzo on hand. Something like clonazepam (klonopin), diazepam (Valium) or alprazolam (xanax). Xanax is probably the best one for this since it acts the fastest. Seriously why risk HPPD or perhaps psychosis or PTSD when you could just take a tablet to make it all go away. Plus, benzos are safe as long as they aren't abused/used for a prolonged period of time or mixed with other cns depressants.
thats too bad man. i feel so lucky to have always had the dose i ordered. if i had been given a 300-400 ug dose my first time i would have never done it again.
I accidently took too much my first time and struggled with hppd after just one trip. 35 yo m here who has dropped a handful of times but probably only twice in the last 10 years. anyways yea it was pretty bad and getting in the way of life after that first trip for like 6 months or so. It gets easier and more manageable the less you trip. I can smoke weed again and enjoy it. Whatever is left of hppd I embrace, I am not sure if it will ever completely go away. I don't dislike it now that I have learned to manage it.
I tired LSD once about 3 months ago now.. it was the WORST experience of my entire life I used to smoke pot every day I smoked again for the first time in 5 or so months and I can’t smoke anymore I feel so bad when I smoke and go into a full on anxiety attack.. but I’m on medication now and I feel 100% better. YOU will get better.
A VERY reoccurring theme in my trips are- “Man, these tabs aint hittin for shit.” Then I’d presume to down 1-2 more tabs. I always trip pretty heavily and consistently without repercussions (Aside from an absolutely fucking wrecked sleep schedule and HPPD, which doesn’t bother me, really) And then 30 minutes would go by and I’d boost my way back into the nexus, lol. My last trip was 1000 ugs and my heart still pounds thinking about it, lol. My first ever complete and utter DEATH lmao. I admit im still coming to terms in my head of what happened, and it has impacted my life. But the personal growth I feel brewing in myself is unreal. I had no idea what I was looking for in Lucy, but it found me instead. Take the adequate time between trips, let your mental and body heal, and push good vibes friends. :) You don’t have to even trip heavy to reach those points, so be considerate and careful. Much love all :)
Im 14 and im 100% sure i have hppd i have constant visual snow, tracers,halos around things,lights staying behind and ive had this for about a month or so now and ive been struggling quite a lot. I think it started with cannabis and i did lsd and after that it was a lot more apparent. I did it for self growth and im a quite "spiritual" person. I used it to gain answers because i have felt lost through most of my life. I have a huge passion for psychedelics and i want to be a psychedelic researcher when im older and i want to continue to use psychedelics but i dont want this to get any worse. Some days it isnt as bad but some days it can be quite intense. I really just want it to die down but im starting to think it wont. Its not too bad atm but its very annoying and i have trouble concentrating in class. I have now quit cannabis and im gonna see if anything gets better. i try to keep a positive outlook on all this but its hard to carry the anxiety and depression a long with it. Ive suffered from depression since quite a young age. I just hope someone can tell me what i should do because i dont want to give up on psychedelics FOREVER but i would understand taking longer breaks between trips. I wish the best upon all of you.
Heya Luca, sounds like a wild journey! Yea, I'd recommend being sure to rarely smoke cannabis rather than often. Not making a habit of it is a good move. :) You seem to have a healthy approach to the psychedelic journey, I agree that it is something truly spiritual and sacred, and is to be treated as such. Apparently hppd goes, i haven't noticed that it does, only growing and weakening periodically. If you feel you are struggling the kindest you could do for yourself is not take any drugs, The future holds bags of time! for doing all-sorts! But at the moment your body would benefit from being left to return to equilibrium. And for you to let the answers that the medicine has opened you up to assimilate into your awareness. As you can see, the spirits are still at work .... you're still halfway there in that magical realm, the learning never stops. The mind and brain are complex. Introducing things that bend them can make things more complicated and compromise development, especially if the mind is being interfered with too often. Or if incorporated into our diets sparingly, enhance our development in magical ways. See where you are in 4 years, try something you can be a little more sure of what the substance is, for example if you're eating peyote you know you're eating peyote, if you're eating magic mushrooms you know you're eating mushrooms. their strength can be questionable, but at least they are of things that humankind has evolved with,, but a pill could be anything and a crystalline substance could be anything. anyway i think you get the idea. and i went on a mini tangent... Our physical form is an amazing tool for perceiving small pieces of reality, and it works pretty good! If you are sober, you are not missing out one bit. There is limitless wonder to be happened upon in this world, notice it well. Bless you, enjoy nature. Peace
My eyes were stuck dialated like yours after jell tabs wen I was a kid every morning I was literally running to my bathroom to see if my eyes were normal ...I was still chillin smoking weed w friends but I knew I was off. like 7 days later I looked n saw myself I remember it like yesterday just looking in the mirror so happy like there I am. Thank u god. That was the last time I took acid. I’ve took mushrooms since after but that’s it. Stick w natural substances. N if your gonna definitely have your crew n a safe house u can go to or do it wile watching a firework show or a camp fire w music. Or wen it’s snowing ❄️ have .. definitely the best experiences from my past.
This happened to me after I mistook LSD 25i for real acid. I had the scariest day of my life complete with audio hallucinations and all, but not strong visuals, just distortions. I kept thinking it would never go away and that I would be stuck like that for life. For months after I had all of these symptoms and the last time I could say these symptoms really hit me were about 9 months after the initial experience. I didn’t do anything to make it go away but I thoroughly researched what was happening to me and maybe adjusted to the symptoms? Like you I would smoke weed and the HPPD symptoms would be magnified. As for the last time this happened to me I was smoking weed. To this day I still see trails and have the static vision but not much more and I continue to smoke weed to this day and the high is now back to the original weed high I fell in love with. I think the best thing you can do is let time pass and like me you will learn to live with it to the point I’m at now where it is hardly noticeable.
i know EXACTLY what you mean when you talk about the weed high feeling like a trip with the way your mind is. it’s weird i experience the mental side of hppd as far as the mindset goes but i don’t see visuals really ever.
I've tripped 9 times since last august but ever since my 8th I've had a mild degree of HPPD. That trip went horribly wrong after smoking a joint and I feel like the trauma i experienced and how frequent I was tripping is what triggered the HPPD. My symptoms are constant visual snow which is more intense in the dark. I do wonder how much it is effecting my anxiety and personality at the moment but I am hopeful that it will improve in time
Yup, I got HPPD , i would take acid everyday for weeks and having long trips, end up in hospitals, then turn. Into a alcoholic to help with symptoms but now that I’m sober, I can see I got hppd, ptsd from acid trips and other drugs, And also can’t smoke weed , I think I fried my Brain, But yeah exercising! Staying faithful with time you can learn how to live with it, that’s how I been doing it! Anybody wanna talk reach out to me, It would help me understand my trips and it would help you too, Say no to drugs!
I took 300 micrograms of lsd and smoked weed the next day and had very intense psychedelic visuals. I was looking at my neighbors house from about 100 ft away and the walls started to have patterns emerge from them
That's insane. I read too many stories about poeple tripping they're tits off after smoking the same day or 1 day after. I didn't smoke until 2 days after my 220ug trip. Was tooooo paranoid ahah
Once the day after tripping on 2 1/2 I went to a friends and we smoked and I tripped absolute balls. I was freaking tf out and I wasn’t even talking to them just like staring at them.
I don't have a bad case of HPPD, it usually only gets triggered when I'm really stressed. I will see things move at the corner of my eye, the ground will breathe, one time I thought an electric box was a person running down a hill. I'm glad I don't have a bad case.
DRAW DAILY · DxD it’s a horrible thing to go through. Very debilitating. When I first got it I was near suicidal. Once you get used to it it becomes less scary, but in the beggining it feels like you just broke your brain and fucked it up forever (which you did technically) so it’s a very scary experience. Your brain sees the HPPD as a threat so it looks for it and when it sees it a stress response is generated. Stress makes HPPD worse which feeds into making more stress. It’s a shit loop to be stuck in.
Sammy A. Madi and religion doesn't help at all when I experienced hppd I was trying to raise my Kundalini and other spiritual practices then my best friend talk to me into doing a few hits of crystal meth while I was high on weed so I tried. I felt like I was losing my physical body as about to be pulled out into an infinite mental Cosmos where reality was maluable. hallucinations and delusions I started to believe that everyone around me was possessed by some type of entity and they were trying to take me out of my body. I also started to believe that reality itself isn't physical at all it's only what you believe it is. Demons possession shapeshifters human gods immortality Magic are all some of the things that I believed in. Oh yeah that same week i did an 8th and a half of psilocybin. I was also experiencing weird alignments in coincidences with reality almost like everything that I was thinking was being exposed and people can pick up on it.
DRAW DAILY · DxD those are called synchronicities and they commonly occur whenever you’re on the verge of a psychotic break. It’s called “magical thinking” behavior. Where things that would normally not arouse any connection do so and you notice “coincidences” that seem magical. I hope you’re in a better place where you don’t have those kind of thoughts anymore.
Sammy A. Madi yeah it's also called law of attraction and manifestation. 11:11 enlightenment. Astal light body activation. But yeah. I'm good now about 50% normal after a year and a half now.
Wdym. I would treat a phisical deseise the same as a mental deseise. If you get hppd you obviously have a very loose grio on realityare just waiting for anything to trigger you and a trip is a crazy experience simmilar to something tramatizing you so if u already have a loose grip then anything that affects your mental state good or bad, can cause you to have hppd.
I definitely have HPPD after hearing this, however I do think people can handle it at different levels, it’s like relearning human skills & I do believe HPPD is an affect of the brain’s neurological system changing after taking psychedelics. Its like a level up for people who passed the psychosis phase, the brain has a weird way of getting it’s ego back once it experienced something it can’t fully process. LSD is like running high end enterprise software that’s designed for servers on a desktop computer that can barely hold space.
I think I have this too? I'm of the opinion that once you take a real acid trip you're kind of 'through the door.' That's how it was always explained to me by my elders. So I was always kind of ready for it, and content w it. I was given to certain patterned visions in my youth so its always been like home for me.
I had a friend take 6 once and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever seen. He was cussing everyone out, screaming at the top of his lungs. He came out of it after about 5 hours and felt great but 6 tabs… I can’t imagine
Dude it takes time but the mom can heal believe it or not. You experienced some sort of hallucinogenic trauma and know you're easily triggered back to that traumatic experience. Give it time and abstain from all drugs. Run a lot and work out hard , it will ease lot of your symptoms. You can heal. I used to have a friend who used to drop insane ug and then mix with meth, it took him 5 years to finally come down from that. He's now finally completely sober and doing well but he definitely learned his lesson. Hang in there bud you can do it.
ive probably done about 4000 ugs of lsd over the span of a year and this is so fucking relatable especially abhout weed making me trip, except the first few weeks the visuals were a lot more intense than hes describing, i would get the spiraling "boxes" in the center of my vison while dead sober and when i smoked weed i would just loose my mind, complete trip i would trip harder than ive ever tripped in my life, its awful
I actually enjoyed HPPD and I even wanted to provoke it to myself to have permanent LSD-like hallucinations (I didn't know at the time that there was a term for that) I was able to for some time. I was able to distort things with concentration and change the colours of the things. I loved LSD. I had breakdowns on it too from missuse. I was 16 at the time and there was not a lot of information on the internet as there is now or fellow users or I guess it just wasn't mainstream so I did it by myself all of the weekends and smoked weed and listened to Timothy Leary. Good times. I was never able to hold the HPPD for more than a month and I had to use LSD again or smoke weed to reactive it, I don't think it's a serious or permanent issue and people that is scared of it is just thinking too much
I’m 22 now and been dealing with it since I was 14. It doesn’t go away. I still smoke cannabis daily and use acid about once a year. HPPD doesn’t bother me. It used to. But now I’ve realized it’s whatever
@@iiRazorTech i have bad hppd and i cant smoke weed but i love weed a lot. It helps me but i jus cant smoke or ill get shaky and have a panic attack. Did this happen to you? If it did how did you overcome it?
My first trip I remember afterwards weed being a lot more different and trippier. And I’m not sure why but lsd had me feeling brain fried for a bit. I couldn’t smoke weed either for 4 months because the highs would be too strong and I’d see tracers a lot. But after 6 months it was like something clicked back on and I was back to my regular smoking habits. I think I went thru some hppd but never consulted a doctor, but definitely remember it being a lot worse right after my trip and then calming down as months went by. But I’d smoke half a bowl and get nervous of the feeling coming over and then see some lines moving. For me lsd creates that after anxiety but shrooms doesn’t and the flashbacks come more from my acid trips than shrooms. So I think there’s something ab the way acid works that gives people more hallucinations from weed after tripping. I do think that lsd is something that changes you a lot more than most other drugs, but that’s no reason to be scared of it creating permanent damage to your brain. But I will say that after taking lsd youll be able to imagine things more vividly in your head, like a movie projector. And I’ve always thought that was a benefit
I have no permanent effects from taking LSD (only twice, medium doses) but for past maybe 8 years since i haven't been able to smoke weed anymore without feeling like I'm coming up on an acid trip every time. It's to the point where I literally can't get high, i remember trying to just take a tiny, single puff on a joint, something that wouldn't even get me high, and within two minutes i was just in full blown disphoria. Interesting this has happened to others.
I got these exact same symptoms from a modest dose of mushrooms and it’s been 20 months since with HPPD. I had done LSD and psilocybin mushrooms many times before.
I am not sure if this helps but i can imagine going to the gym and doing cadio exercise could possibly help a lot. Exercise has massive benefits for brain/mental health might be something worth tring if you are up to it.
stay strong. fill your life with non-trippy things. lots of human too human contact. be social. try to find comfort in the fact that you may like boredom now that your permanently high'ish. maybe some day you will forget that you have this problem and it will disappear. if you cant stop thinking of it, think of more things, so that it take a less percentage of you headspace. try meditation and art. maybe you can channel you madness into music or other art that we all can enjoy.
@@Weaponized_Autism141 LSD. My symptoms are derealization, feeling weird most of the time, like I'm still tripping, anxiety, depression, impending doom... visuals for me are minimal. It did improve in general but I still have episodes where I think extremely negative. What are yours?
I've had kinda similar experience with LSD and weed: used it less than 10 times, had a very bad trip one night e slowly not being able to smoke anymore cause it made me trip balls each time. Also developed a panic attack disease within few weeks. Not a sign of hppd, tough. But it changed my life definitely, wasn't ready for it and had to quit smoking and drinking. Actually right now I bless that experience cause it freed me from being a fucking addict. Before that I was into pot for more than 10 years, smoking an average of 6 to 10 joints daily. Now recently I tried to smoke again, I still fucking lose my mind but I know the substance and can dose it in a manner in which I actually enjoy it. But I'm gonna do that veeeery sporadically.
I've had HPPD for the past 6 months also, but its quite different for me and not as distracting. Its made me very anxious for a couple of months after the trip but I've since then accepted it as a part of my daily life. I took lsd, it was my 5th trip and i took 3/4 of a tab however this tab was hella strong. I've previously taken 1/4 of the same tab to test the dosage cause it was apparently 200mcg but I had a trip a little stronger than a 100mcg tab from that quarter of a tab. So I decided I was gonna have a strong trip and both me and my friend took around the same dose(i took the rest 3/4 but my friend took a little less im not sure how much), the trip was overwhelming and I had noticeable visuals 20 hours in after which I could finally fall asleep. After the trip my vision was overly colorful and had an effect similar to a very strong contrast filter(still to this day when I look at text on a white background it seems as tho the text is extremely clear and floating above the surface completely separated from its background), also my visual snow and auras which I had for as long as I can remember intensified, it's probably for that reason that it wasn't so distracting as I hear people say it is for them because I've already lived with visual snow and auras for many years. A thing that disturbed me the most is that whenever I looked at myself in the mirror I wouldn't have a sense of "that person in the mirror is me", I knew it was me but it felt like I was looking at a stranger seeing myself out of a 3rd person view(I think this is because I had experienced ego death on the trip). Thankfully that has gone better over the months and now I can recognise myself in the mirror, the other effects are still here but I'm managing through them fine. I don't have any advice other than don't up your usual dose by too much, I still don't regret doing it, I regret doing such a high dose tho because I definitely wasn't mentally prepared for it.
I was high on a bunch lsd, then smoked weed and just when the weed+lsd synergy hit I smoked some changa and got a breakthrough on both lsd+weed and dmt at the same time, then went into a trance repeat ego death type state for half an hour, and all Im noticing is psytrance sounding a bit more natural and soothing than normal.
Took 5 tabs of lsd one night. Ended up being a "bad trip" cause my friend began to freak out. Wasn't terrible tho, still somewhat enjoyed myself. Ever since, every time I smoke weed, its exactly as you said. Mentally I feel like im tripping. Way too spaced out while over thinking, sweating, and low-key panicking. Ive noticed that I comprehend things differently now, its hard to explain it. I guess one way to put it is, even when im stone cold sober, it doesn't feel that way. I dont feel fucked up or anything, things just don't feel right.
i got it after taking lsd once. flashbacks for 5 years. been diagnosed with a bunch of other stuff. since this one fucking trip i can barely leave the house and isolate myself and fucking therapy has sadly not changed much due to myself or others. my life is just fucked. depersonalisation and derealisation constantly for five years as well with a 2 minute break which were like fucking heaven. i wish the best to all people suffering from stuff like this. my heart feels for you and i hope u have people helping you through it.
Hey! I'm really sorry you've been through that. My name is Zen (somewhat ironically, im aware), and after reading what you're talking about I feel like i have had a similar experience, but I wanted to maybe talk to you in more detail about what youre going through, because I have had a TERRIBLE experience on DMT, and LSD, but my result was a bit different. I wanted to see if sharing our stories might help us learn more about ourselves and help us with this journey forward in life.
Damn, I've done LSD about 20 times, since I was 17 years old. I am 19 now. I sometimes get HPPD especially if I stare into space for a few seconds or minutes. Its like everything just goes 'flat'. I kind of just accept it, I don't let it bother me, in fact I do it on purpose sometimes just to remind me what tripping is like. The bit about weed feeling different is true though, except after I've taken a year off acid, weed feels like weed is supposed to feel again. Also, weed or THC is psychoactive, and unfortunately if you smoke weed in a place where it is illegal you're going to be getting really 'potent' bud with 20%+ THC and around 1%CBD which is the compound that counters the psychoactive effect and makes you feel 'chill'. So that is probably why you end up tripping when you smoke, because this happened to me also. I don't smoke that much weed, or take anywhere near the amount of acid, albeit I am tripping again soon.
I found out that I had hppd 3months ago and i kept smoking weed, I got a lot of times hppd from weed in the beggining but as you said I feel like its getting better, now how is it for u atm? I think hppd is only placebo, LSD, SHROOMS, DMT really change you mind in only few hours and then you need a lot of time to get back to normal world again. And I also realized that I was always a little bit anxious hppd just made me notice it more.
@@Elder_rr one bad lsd trip with ppl i didnt know made me develop anxiety which i thought was the only factor at the time, coudlnt smoke weed, couldnt meet new people and was very scatter-brained, developed a 'higher'-state of depression which seemed to be not only ambiental but more of a subconscious type of thing, it has passed close to two yeard now and i can spot the differences of who i were at that moment and who i am now, think it takes a lot of emotional development but once you get used to having all these thought processes it becomes a part of you and you start to enjoy being this aware about the shit in your head and acknowledge all of the bullshit you were put through as something extern and not even close to be related to who you truly are
Genocyde666 yeah the one time I did acid I smoked I think like midway trough the trip and I didn't get to enjoy the full effects just some moving walls and euphoria
it seems like we've got our hppd at the same time (although it was my second time taking lsd and i think what caused it was stress over the fact that my mom unexpectedly came home and i had to fake it till she went to bed and was in a state of panic till the the last 3rd of a trip) I gotta see your other video, my visuals are still there tho when i can i try to pay as little attention to them as possible. I'm an illustrator so i can say it didn't fuck me up as much, life goes on, i did manage to learn and progress more than i could before even in this shakey state. despite falling back right now and getting stressed enough to google it again.
Don't be afraid about it, you got a talent in getting a higher consiousness and perception, you can see things, normaldying people can't. Their souls can't get as deep as your soul. Should a good footballplayer or a singer be afraid about their talent? I don't think so. If HPPD can't give you more then bad feelings, you shouldn't take any substance the hole rest of your life even no alcohol. I study it, I use it and I train it to get a deeper connection with universe and nature, and what this hole life is about, for real this can be frightening, but not when you now what it is, then it is even more exciting and fascinating, what your brian could be able to do. It is one of the best gifts the natur of universe gave me.
TuBFMagier all those drugs must have fried your mind. your delusional and you need to get a grip on reality. any visual disturbances your getting from hppd arent real. it isn't some spiritual gift or something it's just a result of damage to your brain, your perception is altered, not the world around you. schizophrenics think the things they see are real too, but they're not, they only exist in the person's head, and that's how hppd is too.
Károly Davao yup, no reason at all, I swore off drugs back when I first got hppd. it literally happened for no reason at all. guess I'm just lucky like that.
When I was 18 and done 5 dried grams of shrooms alone in silent darkness (heroic dose) i had a 5 hour long panic attack and thought I died, it caused me ptsd, panic disorder, severe anxiety, depersonalization, dissociation. I wasn't able to smoke weed anymore because it was giving me panic attacks and I was a full on stoner for 2 years at that point. I then became a full blown alcoholic shortly after the experience for about 5 years which left me with health problems. Now days have to be put on benzo medications because of panic attacks everyday. Don't fuck with high dose psychs. I've done 1 gram of shrooms and it was fun as fuck, i really didn't know what I was getting myself into taking 5 grams.
Hey i’m sincerely asking not trying to self diagnose before i’m sure but watching this i broke down so much all do the things you were explaining i could relate to from how many tabs you dropped to you’re reaction to smoking the only thing is i haven’t had too many visuals i just started noticing weird things and got scared because i dropped 2 tabs by myself and had a terrible trip and at first i was okay but later i peed my pants and i couldn’t see anything that was real the visuals were the only real thing in my head and i just want to know if you think if these are early signs or i’m just paranoid??
I got this like 5 years ago when a couple of my friends and i decided to get some tabs from a sketchy connection (we didnt know at the time (young and dumb)).. But these tabs were definitely NOT LSD. To this day im not sure what those little candies were dosed with. A night that forever changed the three of our brains. I remember putting the delicious Necco Wafer on my tongue. It was so tasty that i was moving it all around my mouth to absorb as much LSD as i could. We thought to ourself, what a great trip this is going to be. Seemingly perfect set and setting. Three best friends just enjoying some psychedelics and exploring the depths of their minds together. Ingested on a candy that was oh so yummy.. I actually wanted to eat more because they were so good. Thank god my friends stopped me from doing that though.. So we sat waiting for the effects to kick in, i think we were playing some videos games or watching some cartoons, but i dont really remember to well. After about two hours it was apparent it wasnt LSD which we were dreading that possibility. But so far it didnt seem to have much of an effect at all so we thought maybe it wasnt a bad RC(research chemical).. Unfortunately that wasnt the case and after about 4 hours we were feeling really energetic but in an unpleasant way. No euphoric feelings. Just a blank minded zombie energy feeling. And thats when visually things started to change a bit. Things started to look like they had a static layer over them. no usual LSD visuals but instead just kinda blurred the eyesight a bit. And concentrating was becoming harder to do. Focusing on little things like reading. at the end of the night we layed down to sleep which we were able to sleep after like 5 hours. And if you know what LSD is like youd know that you cant sleep on it. But this was sorta relaxing to sleep on. but the frightening part is everytime we closed our eyes our closed eye visuals were completely realistic and always happening. When your eyes are open youd experience no visual effect aside from the blurriness. But when you close them you were seeing things moving and happening one after another. it was racing thoughts. One image would pop up and dissolve in front of your eyes and then another one would instantly happen. And they seemed to be negative and creepy. I saw doll faces appear and have lines shootingg through their face and then the doll would melt and then something else scary would appear. Any ways. The next day and for weeks after we noticed the lasting effects on our vision and brain. Lots of loathing and depression lasted with us three for a year being the roughest part of the journey. We all would hang out every day and sorta bonded and kept each other sane during this period of time. We were just starting our junior year in highschool and we couldnt even focus or read properly. Everytime we looked at words on a page and tried to read a line, we would end up just reading that same line again instead of the next. We couldnt remember anything we read really. So school was interesting that year. Still had some amazing memories that year but boy was that feeling the most horrible feeling i have been through. Just the realization that things will never look the same or feel the same was enough to make us all go a bit insane. We were changed by this chemical. Yes its something that you can learn to cope with and gets easier and better as time goes on and as the brain heals. But there will always be a change and i will always notice what i have done to myself through messing with the wrong stuff.. Im 21 now its 5 years later and i still have big differences in my eye sight. But its sorta just normal now. I still wish i could go back to before doing any psyches and look through those eyes again. But thats not reality and ive accepted that. I always thought that i wouldnt get screwed over by the things i tried because i thought i was careful. But i think if you are searching these kinds of feelings and seeking them more than just a few times.. It finds its way to bite you in the butt from your ignorance. and sometimes people try things their first time and have HPPD effects. You never know. Others can take acid over 100 times and say they are fine. In my opinion yes those people can be more than fine. but obviously they were still changed a ton by what they did. All im saying is if you like your mind and mindset and how your eyes see the world and having more clear of a mind i would suggest not seeking out these things. mushrooms and weed okay but like tbh what ive learned most from substances is that being sober is more enjoyable than being on something all the time. I currently am addicted to weed that all i do anymore after all these years lol. But i want to quit weed now and try to connect back to a fully sober mindset. Just eating healthy and being in good shape and sober. Then dabble back into weed and maybe mushies every once in awhile. Moderation really has always been the key. And BTW i think mushrooms are just more rewarding than lsd. Lsd can be a fun time and spiritual too i guess. But the way lsd comes down just feels unnatural to me and lingers too much. Sometimes when coming down you ask yourself.. Am i still tripping? and that can last for a couple days or more sometimes lol. especially when smoking weed. But mushrooms just come down nice and easy after about 5 hours and you start to feel grounded back in this reality after. Feels much more like a completed trip rather than something that feels like its still going on maybe..? ANYWHO THANKS FOR WHOEVER TOOK THE TIME TO READ MY STORY LOL
Much blessings to you. I want to try DMT but I fear HPPD
Man I feel that... My eyesight is shit compared to what it used to be
It's very likely that what you took was something along the lines of 25I-NBOMe or 25C-NBOMe. Both of which are full agonists at the respective serotonin receptors as opposed to partial agonists like LSD. Basically they produce a much stronger response at the receptors than LSD would.
From the anecdotal stories I've read about these substances, the incidence at which things like HPPD happen is a lot higher with these.
I still agree with you about the duration of LSD sucking.
It's just too long.
However I find the effects of acid in general to be more manageable than those of shrooms, so it's a bit of a catch 22 for me lol.
i am going through this since last year and it is so difficult to get anyone to understand all i hear is "you are just not meant to be doing that stuff" it could happen to anyone! i was experienced for years and safe, never any negative experiences. 3 years of psychedelic use it only took one minute of panic during my last acid trip to mess everything up. some people dont believe HPPD even exists
nayi 99 gotta realize bro these drugs are class schedule 1 illegal ass shit so there’s not a lot of research that can be done besides the shit we already know for sure
Time and complete abstinence will heal your mind.
It will be awhile but it vision will get better with time. When u do lsd u can damage the optic nerve in the eyes. Mainly affecting contrast. Also the slip of conciousness is causing the distortions. U can help cope with it through lucid dreaming and grasp reality again.
Not always true but I sure hope so for this guys sake
Time heals. Honestly. Listen, you aren’t stuck with this your whole life. A year of abstinence from every drug, nicotine, weed, anything controlled will completely eliminate these illuminating visions randomly coming up
You Thought meditation, i heard is very helpful as well and relaxing to the brain of course
@@youthought878 is this a fact are you positive?
I've been suffering HPPD for 5 years. It's a real life changer. Time and therapy are big helpers. I've been "normal" for about a year until my most recent panic attack, it hasn't been THIS bad since 3 years ago. It feels like I'm going back to square one, but after a few more hours you start to feel more grounded. Mindfulness helps. Rationalizing your thoughts and symptoms helped me immensely. Talking to yourself out loud when you're trying to calm yourself down helps as well.
What did u take
how u now?
Anyone else notice that weed gets mentioned so frequently in HPPD reports?
I've also noticed, I think it's the combination of nbome and marijuana
Yeah cos most people who do acid smoke weed.
Also weed contributes to it, I have it too but I’m chillin, it’s intense but idrc. It’s what uou make it, I live with 200ug and weed is so fucking different now
What’s different bout it?
Weed doesn’t give you HPPD, it’s frequently used and widely studied people would know if it did. Obviously people who do things like lsd also smoke weed.
i think it’s really brave of u to post ur story online. to hear ur story really helped me overcome some anxiety i’ve been facing when trying to deal with hppd myself. it’s good to know i’m not alone
Sounds like you did Nmobe. I took it twice thinking it was acid and it fried my brain like no other. Had depersonalization for 6 months, depression, increased social anxiety and still have trouble organizing my thoughts. That was 2 years ago and it’s getting better but I’ll never take LSD without testing it. I hope you’re getting better and take care of yourself 💙
How are u doing now? Same story here
@@dusjoe3007 it's gonna be better man trust me do yoga and meditation
Dus Joe I still sometimes have trouble finding the right word and have other memory lapses, but for the most part, I’m doing MUCH better 🙌🏽
What makes you think it was nmobe?
Cheap and nasty. Good profit for the dealer.
I had an horrendous bad trip 48 years ago. A massively strong tab. Flashbacks for years, panic attacks, totally affected my life for the worse. Deja vu trip, time loop, realisation that I have done all this for infinity. Not good
Bob idk if this will help you but that sounds like Nietzsches eternal return, which may have been inspired the same way, considering he was constantly high on opium. Use that experience to better your life by making it worth replaying
and how're u doing today?
How you doing now?
@@stuntmanlove probably the same he was doing 47 years ago man lmao
@@stuntmanloveIm sure he’s doing fine now it’s all mental
I have hppd and schizophrenia all because I ate a handful of laced sugar cubes while drunk on new years eve 2012. It was only after eating them i found out it was LSD. Didn't even know much about LSD at that point being 17. My whole outlook and personality changed in a very negative depressed way. Its been a night mare. I'm against all meds and drugs , I was given a bezo for anxiety and after a week on them took a knife and stabbed chunks of flesh out of my thigh and stomach, so spend most of the day training. Chasing those moments of bliss and euphoria you get after intense exercise. I would do anything to rewind time and change that one night.
Life's precious , its funny how in such a short about of time a life can be altered so dramatically.
Reflecting on this reminded me of two close friends I had. One O.D on an opioid. I was told it was heroin but could have been fent . he was only 20 and had a baby son. The other was 18 was drunk and got chased by a group of thugs. He climbed up a tree and slipped . hit the ground hard and became a quadriplegic.
You don't hear about these kind of things but just imagine how many extreme situations like these happen every day. Life is mysterious.
How are you doing dude? Your story resonated with me because I've been in a similar situation. Don't give up hope, you can heal. I did but it took me almost 3 years hang in there and stay abstinent.
@@DanielFlores-fo1ee how are you guys doing so many years later
hey man, almost have had the same exact experience as you. same timeline, same symptoms, same anxiety. thanks for the video because it helps knowing I'm not alone.
you are not alone. going through this right now. everything will be good. God is big. I love you guys
Same, except i like it
@@psilocybin5675 Hi dude, I know what you mean, love you
Have u beat it yet??
I have very bad symptoms of HPPD, I did LSD 5 times in the space of two months, I get tracers, trees and plants look very alien and different than they used to, walls breathe and things move in the corner of my eye, I also get patterns that form over pretty much all surfaces if I look at them for longer than a few seconds and I was extremely anxious and depressed for months even suicidal. But I have recently overcome the anxiety and they no longer bother me at all. At the end of the day HPPD is just simply seeing things slightly different to other people YOU ARE NOT MENTAL. And it was coming to terms with this that enabled me to overcome my anxiety. For example how do I know that green in my eyes isn’t blue in yours? If you are struggling with HPPD out there just remember that you are not mental you just see things slightly differently to others and that does not mean that you can’t enjoy life just as much as other people. Keep yourself busy and overtime you will overcome this problem just like any other problem people have in their life. There are people out there that are colour blind or even blind and they would die just to see anything at all. From what I researched my symptoms of HPPD and they seem to be far worse then 99% of people, so if I can overcome it so can you! Hope this can help
I'm really grateful for these videos because I never did acid when I was younger, no drugs for a decade but I sometimes wonder. Videos like this show me psychedelics are not for me 👍
Don't worry man. I have exactly the same symptoms you have.It's been 6 months for me as well. And my symptoms are getting more intense like how you are experiencing it. It does affect many aspects of daily like and it makes simple things difficult. But I take it as a gift. I repeatedly took those hits of acid and it cannot be undone. It is a gift, my friend. Stay strong.
It will go away buddy don't worry the longest cases of HPPD usually only last 3 years
And since that comment is 4 years old I'm incredibly curious as to how you're feeling and if your HTTP is finally gone
@@thefluffychild4619 guess we will never know
@@SergeantDomyou will nowi had it for about two years or less, eventually you notice its just gone but it goes away, i miss it sometimes but theres a beauty in the simple things
Love how much this guy just misses weed
me to
@@tahiralexander3854 *too
I miss ketamine...
i have hppd and i miss weed so fucking much i start tripping really hard every time i smoke bud
im so sorry that shit happened to you. freshman year of college something happened to me as a result of an LsD trip. I started meditating and that was a huge help. like much better trajectory life-wise and such. I dont notice anything now except maybe an aura around objects and people every now and again, but that never really bothered me anyhow. I will pray for you dude, keep growing.
Hope you are ok in 2019. Your story is hard-hitting and so emotive.
He's doing so much better now. ❤️
Hppd = it is just a higher state of consciousness on which you have to find your way, integrate it into everyday life.
Sometimes, if your mind isnt ready for such a experience, you get this "hppd"
e m c o exactly how I look at it
Welcome to my world pal. Mine started exactly the same. 1 bad trip in 1995. Its now 2020 and my hppd is just as bad if not worse. I have hppd ongoing. I carnt look into people's eyes without freaking out or feeling a anxiety attack build up. Its changed how i interact with people almost to the point my personality has been taken over and erased. Such a debilitating condition that i wish i had heard off when i was 16 experiencing lsd. I carried on with other drugs, mdma been the main one and i always knew i tripped out far more than my friends. Once thst doorway has been opened you are permanently on a different level of consciousness forever
I have HPPD as well. After my first LSD trip I had become very paranoid, occasionally see objects wave, the walls breath, and weed also made me feel like I was in an acid trip mentality. It was uncomfortable, a little frightening, and caused my anxiety to be hella uncontrollable but over time it became less intense. Recently I had another LSD trip that was a higher dose and didnt have intense HPPD after. Maybe its just because I got use to it but one difference between the trips is that the first trip I was focusing a lot on my issues but I completely ignored it during the trip and that caused some anxiety. The second trip was complete happiness and good vibes. So I feel like if you have negitive or "bad" trips you are more susceptible to HPPD. Also feel like not spacing out trips and doing multiple trips in a month can also cause HPPD. It's not fun when you have no idea what HPPD is but over time you heal from bad trips and it's all just a matter of having the right set and setting and testing your drugs.
How many ugs was ur dose the first time and the second time?
@@kylecoutinho1296 first time was about 75 ugs and second was 100 ugs, maybe more because I split a 200 ug tab
Jace Kay Accha cool. The first time I dropped was around 120 ugs and 2 months later after smoking more than the usual amount of weed I started getting mad flashbacks and even the next day when I just took 3 puffs of a spliff I was tripping balls now a month later everything thing is cool so I was planning on taking a higher dose so I was wondering on asking whether I should do it or no?
Jace Kay even after all the flashbacks and all how did u have the balls to do acid again man?
@@kylecoutinho1296 If you dropped about two months ago then I think you'd be fine to drop again. As for how much it just depends if you're in the right mental state and setting to do a higher dose, if not I'd say take about the same or less, maybe 100 ug. I rarely get my hands on psycidelics so most of my trips are spaced apart very well so I'm usually pretty confident in keeping a positive vibe
You’re a shaman, our society has lost what it means to see all this shit, I don’t know what it means either, love you man
That's what I was thinking. I'm curious about the wiggling box.
I took 4 tabs all at once and my vision hasnt been the same ever since, its not like its blurry but like little “static” colors around words and numbers on my phone it freaked me out at first but I managed to live with it.
has it gotten better? Like gotten less intense or what
@@Travelogueduster most definitely not he has a permanent high he’ll trip forever basically
@@bigeddymachete wow. that sucks. for me i was panicking sm last month when it first started and its only been a month but i feel pretty normal, some nights it can get really bad but it usually only effects me at nights well i only notice it during the night
@@bigeddymachete It should go away, but it could take years..
@@bigeddymachetestop fear mongering nobody trips forever. You can have visual flashbacks but nobody is actually “tripping”. What you are talking about is derealization/ depersonalization which can stay for extended periods of time when people fear their symptoms so much and never learn to bring down their anxiety
I thought I had the same thing but over time it got a lot better. It helps to get a lot of sleep if possible. Sleep deprivation can cause intense hallucinations and panic attacks just as how you're describing
It always get better. its not that bad. Not a condition.
This happened to my best friend. Her first time taking "acid" I think it was an nbome. But it wasn't tested, I wasn't there either.
They gave her 4 hits and she basically lost it for about 3 months.
Would see flowers popping up behind dogs ears. Her walls would move.
I remember one night we were at a party and she started crying and laughing.... almost like she had some profound break through she starts saying "magic is real".
I had to take her home.
A lot of our friends turned their backs on her bc they were scared and ignorant. I was there for her though and honestly I was worried too and pissed my friend didn't look out for her in the beginning.
She's fine now but I really think she was given an nbome or some RC.
Please everyone test your stuff and be safe.
Xoxo
Wow how old was ur friend when this happend?
What did she take at that party?
Magic is real though and many hallucinogens reveal this to you
Pray to God. Trust me. Ask him to heal you.
you'll be ok, dont smoke weed anymore, dont do drugs anymore, and get yourself fit running is best and snap out of it.
you have no idea what hppd is do you
Your a genuine fuckwit
At least he's being reassuring and offering genuine advice. Meanwhile, you two shit on him for trying to help. Ignorant pricks.
Defiant shut the fuck up clown ass nigga
Its been a while since you posted this but I just want to say it feels amazing to know mi not alone dealing with this. I spent months convincing myself I had brain tumors, was going to go blind etc.. recently discovered HPPD and it described my symptoms to a tee. All I can say is it absolutely gets better, and we can all improve!
Yo xenon wtf
How did I find this video and find you on it 😂
I have had it for 25 years pal, from LSD when i was 13. My first trip. I'm 39 now and i just deal with it. don't let it get ya down, its just a minor affliction although when you've had it for 25 years its easier to say because you become accustomed to it. I didn't touch psychedelics again until my uncle spiked me with mushroom brownies in my 20's. On a more positive note, i have had some of the most profoubd experiences of my life on iboga, dmt, psilocybin, kambo, bufo alvarius and Rapey.
I had extremely intense trips when i first started smoking weed. I was 14. I smoked a bowl with my friend before we went to the bus stop to go to school. We smoked it and then started walking to the bus stop. About 30 seconds after i start walking, i lose my fuckin mind. I completely forgot why i was walking and where i was, i felt like i weighed a million pounds and i was melting into the ground. I felt a very intense, awesome euphoria. My vision was very distorted. Everything was melting down, including me. I started twitching and rubbing my arms together. I arrive at the bus stop and i cannot stop laughing and rubbing my arms and hands together. My friends are laughing at me. I dont really remember the rest of the school day but i do know i never got caught. Anyone ever have weird experiences like this with weed?
Bobby Hill yes! Not nearly as intense as your experience but I do understand the trippiness of cannabis
yep, i used to have a very low tolerance and If i smoked too much, I would act pretty fuckin weird. Sounds similar, but no twitching. Weed will make you have shakes sometimes.
Bobby Hill - my second time smoking weed... I was 14 and I bought two joints with a couple of my friends and we smiled it then I couldn’t walk anymore and I felt like I had been getting pulled down to the ground and then I saw a very vivid cloud with my dad sitting in the recliner saying remember wha I told you and everyone said I was tweaking and swimming in the sand but after that I’m 17 now smoked a lot of weed and never had mother experience like that again tho
This video brought me inner warmth
For the weed thing, that's not a symptom of HPPD but rather a symptom of taking LSD. It's not uncommon for people who have taken acid, especially in high doses, to experience weed differently and to have a different high. This is most likely due the way your brain uptakes THC and the way that THC is interpreted has chemically and physically changed as a result of taking LSD.
Yup everytime I smoke weed I see green and purple, hear shit, everything's morphing and I get hella dizzy and throw up
@@evanmansfield5297
Maybe you should stop?
That doesn't sound like fun, but I thank you for your honesty! ♥Namaste!♥Ax.
_@Tim._.
This is True! ♥Namaste!♥
Neuro chemistry, is complex, and combining really quite strong substances,may yield unexpected problems.
If homeostasis were more robust, then this wouldn't be so problematic!♥ ":)
NEVER SMOKE ON LSD (you can at the end if youre the type who smokes often)
Hi I just noticed these symptoms after taking shrooms 3 times within the past 13 days. The first time I didn't take much so I just saw things move and felt comfortable, the 2nd and 3rd time I felt like I almost died as my body and mind was adjusting so it felt a bit traumatic. My friends helped me calm down so I enjoyed the com down, but now I'm always stressed when I see things move and the anxiety is making things worse
Update?
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Notice how his pupils are dilated even when the lights are on
he's probably tripping
@@puffmartin6848no dilated pupils stick around on hppd i can say from experience
@@b3ter735 oh well
I’ve never done acid nor do I have hppd but my pupils are always big
@@b3ter735 yep, true.
I would say to just use this time to work on yourself. Hit the gym, study, start a new job or hobby. Don’t drink or smoke at all.
This is real guys i go through what he does i suffer everyday. I smoked weed 8 times in my life. The first 7 times was great. The 8th time idk what it was i smoked out of a gravity bong and i tell u what. Weed is the only drug i did keep that in mind. 30 seconds after taking a hit it hit me. My whole body vibrating so intense i was hearing very high and low pitches and whispering as well as seeing very bright and dark skulls and all kinds of things. It was like i was paralyzed couldnt move anything on my body i thought i was gonna die. Ever since that happened 16 hours when it came down i was still high. Till this day i feel the high and visuallly see things but not majorly. I know your pain man it sucks. No matter who you tell no one is gonna believe you. It makes me wanna die sometimes because its hard man. Prayers for healings and forgiveness bless you man.
I hate to break it to you but that wasnt clean weed
Sounds like you have drug induced schizophrenia. Not a doctor but I’ve heard of it. If you just don’t smoke you’ll be completely fine.
you still got the guys number you got that bud from? love to try some of that gas
@@forty4027 i second this
@@forty4027 I doubt that it was clean, from what he makes it sounds somthing was in it definitely
I didn’t know this happened to anyone else. I feel so much better knowing I’m not the only one. I’ve gotten so many panic attacks just from smoking one blunt after dropping. It’s so hard to explain
Kayla Marner do you usually smoke indica? I’ve found that strong indica strains give me more anxiety during trips than sativa does. Perhaps you need some sativa for that psychedelic boost?(;
No you're not alone, plenty of people get this once they've been exposed to psychedelics.
I had hppd ever since I last taken it, it is like I am remembering the things I saw while on lsd..
Basically in the initial trip I saw the whole world made up literally of letters like literally strings of t's and f's and p's made up of smaller t's and f's and p's in that same infinite loop fractaling in on itself making up my reflection that is the world i see.. It is a reflection of my self. The whole universe was (braman) an infinite but singular consciousness that is shared by everyone but is everyone but fundamentally 'you' (me) in this one moment infinitely repeating forever.. It just repeats forever (death isn't a way out using this pattern) it won't ever stop, i had taken multiple tabs at the same time on multiple occasions leading up to this experience so i thought I could handle it but in this perticular time i took all at once two tabs of unknown strength tabs (but the guy said they were strong) and a drop off 125 ug liquid in my eye. And I was tripping so hard i was unable to see anything other than the taste of the music (I was experiencing full blown sinystisia that took the form of letters made up of letters made up of letters made up of infinitely fractaling letters) let alone walk. But after a while, after became coherent the ordeal had only just begun.. I had full blown telepathy with everyone i looked at or spoke to and i came to the conclusion I was them, not just them but the whole universe. And i was trying to teach my self a lesson by setting myself a test to face my deepest darkest fears (this was completely involuntary) I genuinely believed the projected version of myself had set up a situation where I was meant to be kidnapped and tortured (and this wasn't my friends messing around) I was scared so bad I seriously considered suicide by stabbing myself through the neck on a spiked fence when I ran away (I am not currently suicidal or ever was before this) but I stopped when I looked at the loop and realised death isn't a way out it just repeats forever I regained consciousness a short why later out of the lsd trance and made my way back to the rave. But after this I kept seeing the same letters (not as vivid) constantly and i had to go back to work after that experience and I felt so alone like i (you) was (are) the only person in the world. Even when I explained my experience to my friends who take a much higher doses than me have never seen these letters (please contact me if you have) but 4 years later i still see them out the corner of my eye and it's a smiling reflection of myself staring back at me infinitely.. Judging me. BE CAREFUL WITH ACID it is seriously not to be messed with, I was stupid and I could have messed my life up over that. But ended up teaching me the biggest lesson in the most unexpected way and it showed me god is closer than I previously thought ;)
Tripped on 4Aco-DMT once and had a very similar trip, infinite fractals of letters spiraling. Been fighting HPPD and DPDR for a year and a half now, still hoping it goes away with time.
@@lucasborger6409 oh wow, i did 4 aco dmt once but I didn't experience much maybe I didn't take enough lol.. Dmt however I didn't see letters but was as strong as that lsd trip but i experienced very little hppd.. Strange
I’m not fucking alone
Sorry to hear about this dude. I hope you get better
thanks for sharing your story!
my hppd developed 6 months ago after i graduated as well. got it from 2-cb. i really feel you.. wishing the best :)
greetings from germany
Was geht bro^^ it is just a higher state of consciousness on which you have to find your way, integrate it into everyday life.
I got a bad case of HPPD in 2013 from perhaps 8 tabs dosed at about 150 iu each.. visual/audio hallucinations for 9 months more, it was very tough mentally.. i had a quarter of a tab a month later and it hit me like 5 would.. it was bad, for anyone reading this who is suffering from it please abstain from all substances, I beat it from abstinence and not going to deep in ideas and activities. It gets better, and it can completely go
thanks
Just enjoy it dude, its like any intense fear. It stays in your mind. For example if someone was once hit by a car on a certain road, whenever they cross that road they can have "flash backs" of that moment, creating panic or whatever. I had a similar thing (although I wouldn't call it HPPD because I just thoroughly enjoyed it) taking 25i, I got stuck in this time loop for ages, or at least what felt like ages and then too get out of the loop I ran outside and went to hop into a car, instead I looked at the car for a second and then became the car looking at myself, because it was just after this time loop, i thought I was dead. I thought the time loop was my soul still in my dead physical body experiencing the moment of my death over and over and me running outside was my spirit finally disconnecting from my physical. And then me seeing my body whilst taking the form of this car made me think I was now just consciousness, unseen by physical but always there like they say when you lose a loved one, "he's always with you now". But then I became my physical, felt my physical. Felt my physical a little too much because i then started to melt into the ground literally like I was liquid, I tried to walk/run like a river to the car, I got it. Thought about what had just happened, thought maybe the car is really an entity of some sort and then the car and mainly steering wheel came alive, I can't explain the monster/entity thing it became but I was in it and it tripped me out so hard. Then finally my friend hopped in the car, which was also weird because he was there for like 10min and I newly noticed he was there at least 30 times, like "woooahh how the fuck did you get there?" But repetitively. And then as I stopped thinking and allowed myself to simply be, all my fear stopped and I became god, like I became the moment, and only the moment, past and future weren't even an idea. I was everything, yet I was nothing.
And then like 2 months later I started seeing weird we things, and then I smoked weed, went into a full on acid trip and understood that those weird we things were creation, were my experience, therefore they were me. And I learnt/taught myself that nothing exists other than now. Now is nothing. Now is infinite. Now is love. I am the experience. The physical body is simply a vehicle to experience. Kind of imagine being in a completely sense depriving room for eternity and after a while your brain starts to imagine, a while longer and your imagination is all you know, therefore it is real. What you are conditioned to believe controls the outcome of your experience. To free yourself, have no conditioning, no attachments, realize you are nothing, realize your identity is only imagined, it is an illusion that keeps you from realizing the infinity of the eternal moment. There is truly only now, this very moment.
So anyway, enjoy your HPPD if you wanna call it that because it is now, therefore it is beautiful :)
Also drugs will not get you there, they are simply a tool to give you a glimpse through the window. You yourself have to go through the door.
That is terrible advice.
Wow that's def TL:TR. I'd like the abridged version lol.
@Kre80r.
And, sorry, but so passé to name yourself thus.
And Ooh Yeah, cool, Wow man.
Yeah, right. If you are so very Conscious, you will Know that for every moment each one is different.
To step through the door, is almost certainly not the intended experience.
We, in the meat suits, do, not until called,,,
If you had been called, Our"conversation,"Would be something suitable and different.
You have been to a dissociated state.
I am Awareness. And, I have been angry.
If it makes you feel that happiness, go ahead and feel.
Do you know/feel/understand that what you pronounced, is but one of many truths, as such, Do You Need me to Spell it out for what you advise may be misconstrued?
Trust
Delusions of the infinite. ...How lovingly will you assist with the aftermath of your advice?
Not a truly loving message from such an enlightened BEing!
It's subjective, and as such, you ought to know. ...
1st Prize, for the worst. Most EGOCENTRIC advice from one who has (Apparently) No Ego!
♥Namaste!♥AX (Weaving.)
i got hppd, and i always see tracers, light patters everywhere in plants, walls, etc. but i haven’t had it for too long, i’ve had it for like a month now, and i love hanging out with my friends, i wanna spend time with people everyday. and seeing more the visuals everytime i smoke weed is cool to me, i think it’s cool. but idk, maybe overtime i’ll start to get anxiety n shit like this dude said
How do you feel now ?
@@KaptainKash100 i can’t smoke weed or else i like trip balls, the hppd has gone down but i still feel disassociated n shit
@@corbinlotus6199 do you have a instagram or a smapchat? Id like to know more, if u don't mind
I've had hppd for over three years now. i got it from 25-I, I had a really bad trip and woke up the next day not feeling much better, the static was there, the floaters and after images were there, even when I closed my eyes it was different, I didn't feel like myself anymore. the first 6 months were a nightmare, I quit all drugs except for alcohol, and i drank myself to the point of black out almost every night to cope with it, than it started to improve, I felt a little more normal again and the visual symptoms weren't as strong. it went on like that for the next year and a half and by the 2 year mark I barely even noticed my hppd, only when I was in the dark really, but than a few months later I just woke up one day and it all came back, worse than it had ever been. the panic attacks were back, the visuals were stronger than ever, and now I had a loud ringing in my ears as well, it was horrible, I could barely make it through the work day without breaking down, I even had to quit MMA, which I was very passionate about. it's been a year sense than and it hasn't gotten any better, the anxiety has subsided for the most part but not completely and the visuals are still so strong I can barely function. the logical choice at this point is suicide, I kinda always figured that's how my life would end anyway, I survived two suicide attempts before I even had hppd, but now I'm sure about ending it. the thing is though, I'm not sure I have the courage, I aways thought I was brave but I guess I'm a coward when it comes down to it. one of these days I'll be brave enough to load up my 12 gauge and blow my brains out, but until than I'll be a living example. if you don't already have hppd, than don't fuck with psychedelics, your life is fine without them and it's not worth the risk, if you already have hppd and you've somehow found a way to live with it than good, I'm glad for you, but learn from your mistakes and don't ever fuck with psychedelics again, it's not worth the risk.
Doug Kelso hang on in there buddy!! maany people have been in your situation before and they all got better with time!! there's no need on killing yourself! LIFE GETS BETTER, TRUST ME on this!! find support out there, with time you can find plenty of it and you will see how things get better! PLEASE, just hang on and keep on living!
Doug Kelso Hang in there man, you will get through it.
25i is a research chemical its not real acid
Doug Kelso Has it went away?
Snake Messiah Probably dead now
Try learning an using Meditation and Mindfulness. Hope you stopped in time, before it was too late. I ended up homeless twice and three times in a drug rehabilitation. Have experienced everything you mentioned
God bless you I hope you're well
This disorder is mysterious, and it's called,, perception,, for a reason. If you IGNORE IT, it can go away to some extent. It depends on wheather you perceive these visuals as beautiful or just mad scary, or not bothering at all. Those who take acid must be sure that they will like the madness that comes with it. It can be beautiful, but it's not for everyone.
Dude I feel you, I went through the same thing as well! I had to finish my remaining junior year and entire senior Year like this I hope you’re doing okay now bruv
does it go away
@@westbrookrussell6960 Depends, sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't.
Man when i was 15-16 i used to do all types of research chemicals (25c-25i, N bombs, Fake molly) i did it all and let me tell you, i felt fried & had HPPD really bad, to the point where my mom even had a few psychiatric evaluations done on me, i kicked the drugs started eating right and going to the gym and i'm 21 now, been off the drugs since then and im feeling great it all clears up man just give it time.
Thanks for sharing man! I had hppd for years! I didn't know I had it until I heard about hppd. I thought I was just more creative hahahah it's not that bad. Focus on the positive and take care of your self. No more drugs
it is just a higher state of consciousness on which you have to find your way, integrate it into everyday life.
I have hppd and find it quite neat and feel it should be a lesson, if it leaves you uncomfortable. Then you weren't practicing harm reduction, and for sure weren't doing any shadow work. Also may I propose my theory that these give access to the other side. The visuals tripping or not, help me get into my headspace and evaluate myself and outside world. Weed is more psychedelic after classical pyschedelics, this imo is bc you have a better reference point for psychedelics. All honesty ik everyone is different but if you can truly heal your innerself you can find acceptance with it or like most suggest just go cold turkey on any mind altering substance.
I’ve had it for 14 years now it’s shamanic esoteric but it does make it hard in the challenges of every day life
Enrike HerNaN can you elaborate?
it is just a higher state of consciousness on which you have to find your way, integrate it into everyday life.
Yo for anyone taking lsd still, convince urself that u can’t remember anything to avoid this, and Same irl after to not get to that stage
Not sure what HPPD is, but between 79 to 94, I tripped about 400 times. I now have 23 years clean and sober but my memory is not as good as it use to be, have anxiety and my neck and back are deterating . Some one told me that lsd can impact your back. Back in July 88, I took 12 hits in two weeks and ended up in the first of three drug rehabilitation centers. At times, the lsd led me to being more suicidal
Oh man, I'm sorry to hear about your story.
I know it's too late to say this now, but maybe it'll help someone else who might read my comment:
For instances like these it's really important to have a benzo on hand. Something like clonazepam (klonopin), diazepam (Valium) or alprazolam (xanax). Xanax is probably the best one for this since it acts the fastest.
Seriously why risk HPPD or perhaps psychosis or PTSD when you could just take a tablet to make it all go away.
Plus, benzos are safe as long as they aren't abused/used for a prolonged period of time or mixed with other cns depressants.
thats too bad man. i feel so lucky to have always had the dose i ordered. if i had been given a 300-400 ug dose my first time i would have never done it again.
Everybody! TEST YO DRUGS!
Test them w what lol? Most of us aren't drug *connoisseurs*, so to speak & don't even know where to begin w that.
lily blu you’re on the internet with all of the information on it at your disposal.. use it.
@R achternaam so you're the 'nothing on the internet is true' kinda guy
How
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I accidently took too much my first time and struggled with hppd after just one trip. 35 yo m here who has dropped a handful of times but probably only twice in the last 10 years. anyways yea it was pretty bad and getting in the way of life after that first trip for like 6 months or so. It gets easier and more manageable the less you trip. I can smoke weed again and enjoy it. Whatever is left of hppd I embrace, I am not sure if it will ever completely go away. I don't dislike it now that I have learned to manage it.
I tired LSD once about 3 months ago now.. it was the WORST experience of my entire life I used to smoke pot every day I smoked again for the first time in 5 or so months and I can’t smoke anymore I feel so bad when I smoke and go into a full on anxiety attack.. but I’m on medication now and I feel 100% better. YOU will get better.
A VERY reoccurring theme in my trips are- “Man, these tabs aint hittin for shit.” Then I’d presume to down 1-2 more tabs. I always trip pretty heavily and consistently without repercussions (Aside from an absolutely fucking wrecked sleep schedule and HPPD, which doesn’t bother me, really) And then 30 minutes would go by and I’d boost my way back into the nexus, lol. My last trip was 1000 ugs and my heart still pounds thinking about it, lol. My first ever complete and utter DEATH lmao. I admit im still coming to terms in my head of what happened, and it has impacted my life. But the personal growth I feel brewing in myself is unreal. I had no idea what I was looking for in Lucy, but it found me instead. Take the adequate time between trips, let your mental and body heal, and push good vibes friends. :) You don’t have to even trip heavy to reach those points, so be considerate and careful. Much love all :)
I didnt have normal psychadelic hallucinations but when i smoke i full on trip man. Its nice to hear a story from someone else.
Thanks for sharing bro, much appreciated
Im 14 and im 100% sure i have hppd i have constant visual snow, tracers,halos around things,lights staying behind and ive had this for about a month or so now and ive been struggling quite a lot. I think it started with cannabis and i did lsd and after that it was a lot more apparent. I did it for self growth and im a quite "spiritual" person. I used it to gain answers because i have felt lost through most of my life. I have a huge passion for psychedelics and i want to be a psychedelic researcher when im older and i want to continue to use psychedelics but i dont want this to get any worse. Some days it isnt as bad but some days it can be quite intense. I really just want it to die down but im starting to think it wont. Its not too bad atm but its very annoying and i have trouble concentrating in class. I have now quit cannabis and im gonna see if anything gets better. i try to keep a positive outlook on all this but its hard to carry the anxiety and depression a long with it. Ive suffered from depression since quite a young age. I just hope someone can tell me what i should do because i dont want to give up on psychedelics FOREVER but i would understand taking longer breaks between trips. I wish the best upon all of you.
Heya Luca, sounds like a wild journey! Yea, I'd recommend being sure to rarely smoke cannabis rather than often. Not making a habit of it is a good move. :) You seem to have a healthy approach to the psychedelic journey, I agree that it is something truly spiritual and sacred, and is to be treated as such. Apparently hppd goes, i haven't noticed that it does, only growing and weakening periodically. If you feel you are struggling the kindest you could do for yourself is not take any drugs, The future holds bags of time! for doing all-sorts! But at the moment your body would benefit from being left to return to equilibrium. And for you to let the answers that the medicine has opened you up to assimilate into your awareness. As you can see, the spirits are still at work .... you're still halfway there in that magical realm, the learning never stops.
The mind and brain are complex. Introducing things that bend them can make things more complicated and compromise development, especially if the mind is being interfered with too often. Or if incorporated into our diets sparingly, enhance our development in magical ways.
See where you are in 4 years, try something you can be a little more sure of what the substance is, for example if you're eating peyote you know you're eating peyote, if you're eating magic mushrooms you know you're eating mushrooms. their strength can be questionable, but at least they are of things that humankind has evolved with,, but a pill could be anything and a crystalline substance could be anything. anyway i think you get the idea. and i went on a mini tangent...
Our physical form is an amazing tool for perceiving small pieces of reality, and it works pretty good! If you are sober, you are not missing out one bit. There is limitless wonder to be happened upon in this world, notice it well.
Bless you, enjoy nature. Peace
My eyes were stuck dialated like yours after jell tabs wen I was a kid every morning I was literally running to my bathroom to see if my eyes were normal ...I was still chillin smoking weed w friends but I knew I was off. like 7 days later I looked n saw myself I remember it like yesterday just looking in the mirror so happy like there I am. Thank u god. That was the last time I took acid. I’ve took mushrooms since after but that’s it. Stick w natural substances. N if your gonna definitely have your crew n a safe house u can go to or do it wile watching a firework show or a camp fire w music. Or wen it’s snowing ❄️ have .. definitely the best experiences from my past.
Wow man I just looked up this topic and it hits differently when it's someone you know.
This happened to me after I mistook LSD 25i for real acid. I had the scariest day of my life complete with audio hallucinations and all, but not strong visuals, just distortions. I kept thinking it would never go away and that I would be stuck like that for life. For months after I had all of these symptoms and the last time I could say these symptoms really hit me were about 9 months after the initial experience. I didn’t do anything to make it go away but I thoroughly researched what was happening to me and maybe adjusted to the symptoms? Like you I would smoke weed and the HPPD symptoms would be magnified. As for the last time this happened to me I was smoking weed. To this day I still see trails and have the static vision but not much more and I continue to smoke weed to this day and the high is now back to the original weed high I fell in love with. I think the best thing you can do is let time pass and like me you will learn to live with it to the point I’m at now where it is hardly noticeable.
Are u serious? Did it Just go away? What did you do?
i know EXACTLY what you mean when you talk about the weed high feeling like a trip with the way your mind is. it’s weird i experience the mental side of hppd as far as the mindset goes but i don’t see visuals really ever.
I've tripped 9 times since last august but ever since my 8th I've had a mild degree of HPPD. That trip went horribly wrong after smoking a joint and I feel like the trauma i experienced and how frequent I was tripping is what triggered the HPPD. My symptoms are constant visual snow which is more intense in the dark. I do wonder how much it is effecting my anxiety and personality at the moment but I am hopeful that it will improve in time
Bro how are u now?? Did it improve? Same story
how do you feel? have you had any improvements over time? I had the same story, the last symptom is this visual snow shit
Yup, I got HPPD , i would take acid everyday for weeks and having long trips, end up in hospitals, then turn. Into a alcoholic to help with symptoms but now that I’m sober, I can see I got hppd, ptsd from acid trips and other drugs,
And also can’t smoke weed , I think I fried my Brain,
But yeah exercising! Staying faithful with time you can learn how to live with it, that’s how I been doing it!
Anybody wanna talk reach out to me,
It would help me understand my trips and it would help you too,
Say no to drugs!
I took 300 micrograms of lsd and smoked weed the next day and had very intense psychedelic visuals. I was looking at my neighbors house from about 100 ft away and the walls started to have patterns emerge from them
That's insane. I read too many stories about poeple tripping they're tits off after smoking the same day or 1 day after. I didn't smoke until 2 days after my 220ug trip. Was tooooo paranoid ahah
Once the day after tripping on 2 1/2 I went to a friends and we smoked and I tripped absolute balls. I was freaking tf out and I wasn’t even talking to them just like staring at them.
I don't have a bad case of HPPD, it usually only gets triggered when I'm really stressed. I will see things move at the corner of my eye, the ground will breathe, one time I thought an electric box was a person running down a hill. I'm glad I don't have a bad case.
He talks about it like its an STD.
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DRAW DAILY · DxD it’s a horrible thing to go through. Very debilitating. When I first got it I was near suicidal. Once you get used to it it becomes less scary, but in the beggining it feels like you just broke your brain and fucked it up forever (which you did technically) so it’s a very scary experience. Your brain sees the HPPD as a threat so it looks for it and when it sees it a stress response is generated. Stress makes HPPD worse which feeds into making more stress. It’s a shit loop to be stuck in.
Sammy A. Madi and religion doesn't help at all when I experienced hppd I was trying to raise my Kundalini and other spiritual practices then my best friend talk to me into doing a few hits of crystal meth while I was high on weed so I tried. I felt like I was losing my physical body as about to be pulled out into an infinite mental Cosmos where reality was maluable. hallucinations and delusions I started to believe that everyone around me was possessed by some type of entity and they were trying to take me out of my body. I also started to believe that reality itself isn't physical at all it's only what you believe it is. Demons possession shapeshifters human gods immortality Magic are all some of the things that I believed in. Oh yeah that same week i did an 8th and a half of psilocybin.
I was also experiencing weird alignments in coincidences with reality almost like everything that I was thinking was being exposed and people can pick up on it.
DRAW DAILY · DxD those are called synchronicities and they commonly occur whenever you’re on the verge of a psychotic break. It’s called “magical thinking” behavior. Where things that would normally not arouse any connection do so and you notice “coincidences” that seem magical. I hope you’re in a better place where you don’t have those kind of thoughts anymore.
Sammy A. Madi yeah it's also called law of attraction and manifestation.
11:11 enlightenment. Astal light body activation. But yeah. I'm good now about 50% normal after a year and a half now.
Wdym. I would treat a phisical deseise the same as a mental deseise. If you get hppd you obviously have a very loose grio on realityare just waiting for anything to trigger you and a trip is a crazy experience simmilar to something tramatizing you so if u already have a loose grip then anything that affects your mental state good or bad, can cause you to have hppd.
I definitely have HPPD after hearing this, however I do think people can handle it at different levels, it’s like relearning human skills & I do believe HPPD is an affect of the brain’s neurological system changing after taking psychedelics. Its like a level up for people who passed the psychosis phase, the brain has a weird way of getting it’s ego back once it experienced something it can’t fully process. LSD is like running high end enterprise software that’s designed for servers on a desktop computer that can barely hold space.
I think I have this too? I'm of the opinion that once you take a real acid trip you're kind of 'through the door.' That's how it was always explained to me by my elders. So I was always kind of ready for it, and content w it. I was given to certain patterned visions in my youth so its always been like home for me.
I had a friend take 6 once and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever seen. He was cussing everyone out, screaming at the top of his lungs. He came out of it after about 5 hours and felt great but 6 tabs… I can’t imagine
And thats why i love the after effects of taking lots of acid is that when I smoke weed its much more psychedelia
YESSS I smoked after my trip and it put me back there
I already feel psychedelia but I'm smoking 36 percent
Dude it takes time but the mom can heal believe it or not. You experienced some sort of hallucinogenic trauma and know you're easily triggered back to that traumatic experience. Give it time and abstain from all drugs. Run a lot and work out hard , it will ease lot of your symptoms. You can heal. I used to have a friend who used to drop insane ug and then mix with meth, it took him 5 years to finally come down from that. He's now finally completely sober and doing well but he definitely learned his lesson. Hang in there bud you can do it.
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ive probably done about 4000 ugs of lsd over the span of a year and this is so fucking relatable especially abhout weed making me trip, except the first few weeks the visuals were a lot more intense than hes describing, i would get the spiraling "boxes" in the center of my vison while dead sober and when i smoked weed i would just loose my mind, complete trip i would trip harder than ive ever tripped in my life, its awful
A trip sitter that can still be helpful while they’re tripping is a good trip sitter
I actually enjoyed HPPD and I even wanted to provoke it to myself to have permanent LSD-like hallucinations (I didn't know at the time that there was a term for that) I was able to for some time. I was able to distort things with concentration and change the colours of the things. I loved LSD. I had breakdowns on it too from missuse. I was 16 at the time and there was not a lot of information on the internet as there is now or fellow users or I guess it just wasn't mainstream so I did it by myself all of the weekends and smoked weed and listened to Timothy Leary. Good times. I was never able to hold the HPPD for more than a month and I had to use LSD again or smoke weed to reactive it, I don't think it's a serious or permanent issue and people that is scared of it is just thinking too much
It’s been 4 years how you doing brother
for real, I need to know. I'm 1 year in with mine with no sign of letting up
I’m 22 now and been dealing with it since I was 14. It doesn’t go away. I still smoke cannabis daily and use acid about once a year. HPPD doesn’t bother me. It used to. But now I’ve realized it’s whatever
@@iiRazorTech i have bad hppd and i cant smoke weed but i love weed a lot. It helps me but i jus cant smoke or ill get shaky and have a panic attack. Did this happen to you? If it did how did you overcome it?
@@iiRazorTech does your hppd ever get worse after your acid trips, or does it stay the same?
My first trip I remember afterwards weed being a lot more different and trippier. And I’m not sure why but lsd had me feeling brain fried for a bit. I couldn’t smoke weed either for 4 months because the highs would be too strong and I’d see tracers a lot. But after 6 months it was like something clicked back on and I was back to my regular smoking habits. I think I went thru some hppd but never consulted a doctor, but definitely remember it being a lot worse right after my trip and then calming down as months went by. But I’d smoke half a bowl and get nervous of the feeling coming over and then see some lines moving. For me lsd creates that after anxiety but shrooms doesn’t and the flashbacks come more from my acid trips than shrooms. So I think there’s something ab the way acid works that gives people more hallucinations from weed after tripping. I do think that lsd is something that changes you a lot more than most other drugs, but that’s no reason to be scared of it creating permanent damage to your brain. But I will say that after taking lsd youll be able to imagine things more vividly in your head, like a movie projector. And I’ve always thought that was a benefit
I have no permanent effects from taking LSD (only twice, medium doses) but for past maybe 8 years since i haven't been able to smoke weed anymore without feeling like I'm coming up on an acid trip every time. It's to the point where I literally can't get high, i remember trying to just take a tiny, single puff on a joint, something that wouldn't even get me high, and within two minutes i was just in full blown disphoria. Interesting this has happened to others.
I got these exact same symptoms from a modest dose of mushrooms and it’s been 20 months since with HPPD.
I had done LSD and psilocybin mushrooms many times before.
I am not sure if this helps but i can imagine going to the gym and doing cadio exercise could possibly help a lot. Exercise has massive benefits for brain/mental health might be something worth tring if you are up to it.
stay strong. fill your life with non-trippy things. lots of human too human contact. be social. try to find comfort in the fact that you may like boredom now that your permanently high'ish. maybe some day you will forget that you have this problem and it will disappear. if you cant stop thinking of it, think of more things, so that it take a less percentage of you headspace. try meditation and art. maybe you can channel you madness into music or other art that we all can enjoy.
I got this 4 months ago and you can control it to some extent but it takes a lot of effort. First month was the worst, I swear I wanted to end it.
What drug did you get it from and what are your symptoms? did they improve? I'm same situation rn
@@Weaponized_Autism141 LSD. My symptoms are derealization, feeling weird most of the time, like I'm still tripping, anxiety, depression, impending doom... visuals for me are minimal. It did improve in general but I still have episodes where I think extremely negative. What are yours?
I've had kinda similar experience with LSD and weed: used it less than 10 times, had a very bad trip one night e slowly not being able to smoke anymore cause it made me trip balls each time. Also developed a panic attack disease within few weeks. Not a sign of hppd, tough.
But it changed my life definitely, wasn't ready for it and had to quit smoking and drinking. Actually right now I bless that experience cause it freed me from being a fucking addict. Before that I was into pot for more than 10 years, smoking an average of 6 to 10 joints daily.
Now recently I tried to smoke again, I still fucking lose my mind but I know the substance and can dose it in a manner in which I actually enjoy it. But I'm gonna do that veeeery sporadically.
If your smoking weed it will prolong it and will never go away
I've had HPPD for the past 6 months also, but its quite different for me and not as distracting. Its made me very anxious for a couple of months after the trip but I've since then accepted it as a part of my daily life. I took lsd, it was my 5th trip and i took 3/4 of a tab however this tab was hella strong. I've previously taken 1/4 of the same tab to test the dosage cause it was apparently 200mcg but I had a trip a little stronger than a 100mcg tab from that quarter of a tab. So I decided I was gonna have a strong trip and both me and my friend took around the same dose(i took the rest 3/4 but my friend took a little less im not sure how much), the trip was overwhelming and I had noticeable visuals 20 hours in after which I could finally fall asleep. After the trip my vision was overly colorful and had an effect similar to a very strong contrast filter(still to this day when I look at text on a white background it seems as tho the text is extremely clear and floating above the surface completely separated from its background), also my visual snow and auras which I had for as long as I can remember intensified, it's probably for that reason that it wasn't so distracting as I hear people say it is for them because I've already lived with visual snow and auras for many years. A thing that disturbed me the most is that whenever I looked at myself in the mirror I wouldn't have a sense of "that person in the mirror is me", I knew it was me but it felt like I was looking at a stranger seeing myself out of a 3rd person view(I think this is because I had experienced ego death on the trip). Thankfully that has gone better over the months and now I can recognise myself in the mirror, the other effects are still here but I'm managing through them fine. I don't have any advice other than don't up your usual dose by too much, I still don't regret doing it, I regret doing such a high dose tho because I definitely wasn't mentally prepared for it.
His pupils seem like they’re stuck in the size of someone who’s tripping
I was thinking the same thing.
I was high on a bunch lsd, then smoked weed and just when the weed+lsd synergy hit I smoked some changa and got a breakthrough on both lsd+weed and dmt at the same time, then went into a trance repeat ego death type state for half an hour, and all Im noticing is psytrance sounding a bit more natural and soothing than normal.
faaar out...
I manage to live with it but everyone's experience is different I tho I just like the pretty colors and the mind set
The second tab should not have done anything, LSDs tolerance builds so fast that redosing does nothing
@Auto Highwayman good to know, i was going off personal experience as well. ill try that method at some point
it will extend the high, not raise the strength unless taken at the same time. redosing Does shit thats why we tell people not to redose...
Took 5 tabs of lsd one night. Ended up being a "bad trip" cause my friend began to freak out. Wasn't terrible tho, still somewhat enjoyed myself. Ever since, every time I smoke weed, its exactly as you said. Mentally I feel like im tripping. Way too spaced out while over thinking, sweating, and low-key panicking. Ive noticed that I comprehend things differently now, its hard to explain it. I guess one way to put it is, even when im stone cold sober, it doesn't feel that way. I dont feel fucked up or anything, things just don't feel right.
i got it after taking lsd once. flashbacks for 5 years. been diagnosed with a bunch of other stuff. since this one fucking trip i can barely leave the house and isolate myself and fucking therapy has sadly not changed much due to myself or others. my life is just fucked. depersonalisation and derealisation constantly for five years as well with a 2 minute break which were like fucking heaven. i wish the best to all people suffering from stuff like this. my heart feels for you and i hope u have people helping you through it.
Hey! I'm really sorry you've been through that. My name is Zen (somewhat ironically, im aware), and after reading what you're talking about I feel like i have had a similar experience, but I wanted to maybe talk to you in more detail about what youre going through, because I have had a TERRIBLE experience on DMT, and LSD, but my result was a bit different. I wanted to see if sharing our stories might help us learn more about ourselves and help us with this journey forward in life.
Damn, I've done LSD about 20 times, since I was 17 years old. I am 19 now. I sometimes get HPPD especially if I stare into space for a few seconds or minutes. Its like everything just goes 'flat'. I kind of just accept it, I don't let it bother me, in fact I do it on purpose sometimes just to remind me what tripping is like. The bit about weed feeling different is true though, except after I've taken a year off acid, weed feels like weed is supposed to feel again. Also, weed or THC is psychoactive, and unfortunately if you smoke weed in a place where it is illegal you're going to be getting really 'potent' bud with 20%+ THC and around 1%CBD which is the compound that counters the psychoactive effect and makes you feel 'chill'. So that is probably why you end up tripping when you smoke, because this happened to me also. I don't smoke that much weed, or take anywhere near the amount of acid, albeit I am tripping again soon.
I found out that I had hppd 3months ago and i kept smoking weed, I got a lot of times hppd from weed in the beggining but as you said I feel like its getting better, now how is it for u atm? I think hppd is only placebo, LSD, SHROOMS, DMT really change you mind in only few hours and then you need a lot of time to get back to normal world again. And I also realized that I was always a little bit anxious hppd just made me notice it more.
@@Elder_rr one bad lsd trip with ppl i didnt know made me develop anxiety which i thought was the only factor at the time, coudlnt smoke weed, couldnt meet new people and was very scatter-brained, developed a 'higher'-state of depression which seemed to be not only ambiental but more of a subconscious type of thing, it has passed close to two yeard now and i can spot the differences of who i were at that moment and who i am now, think it takes a lot of emotional development but once you get used to having all these thought processes it becomes a part of you and you start to enjoy being this aware about the shit in your head and acknowledge all of the bullshit you were put through as something extern and not even close to be related to who you truly are
weed amplifies acid. you shouldn't smoke before the peak unless you're looking to get floored. also, its a steady couple hour climb to your peak
Genocyde666 yeah the one time I did acid I smoked I think like midway trough the trip and I didn't get to enjoy the full effects just some moving walls and euphoria
it seems like we've got our hppd at the same time (although it was my second time taking lsd and i think what caused it was stress over the fact that my mom unexpectedly came home and i had to fake it till she went to bed and was in a state of panic till the the last 3rd of a trip) I gotta see your other video, my visuals are still there tho when i can i try to pay as little attention to them as possible. I'm an illustrator so i can say it didn't fuck me up as much, life goes on, i did manage to learn and progress more than i could before even in this shakey state. despite falling back right now and getting stressed enough to google it again.
I find it interesting how we can still get these visuals and feelings when we are not thinking about these things.
Don't be afraid about it, you got a talent in getting a higher consiousness and perception, you can see things, normaldying people can't. Their souls can't get as deep as your soul.
Should a good footballplayer or a singer be afraid about their talent?
I don't think so.
If HPPD can't give you more then bad feelings, you shouldn't take any substance the hole rest of your life even no alcohol.
I study it, I use it and I train it to get a deeper connection with universe and nature, and what this hole life is about, for real this can be frightening, but not when you now what it is, then it is even more exciting and fascinating, what your brian could be able to do.
It is one of the best gifts the natur of universe gave me.
TuBFMagier all those drugs must have fried your mind. your delusional and you need to get a grip on reality. any visual disturbances your getting from hppd arent real. it isn't some spiritual gift or something it's just a result of damage to your brain, your perception is altered, not the world around you. schizophrenics think the things they see are real too, but they're not, they only exist in the person's head, and that's how hppd is too.
Yo are saying the relapse came out of nowhere? You didnt take any drugs? I havent even heard any of this case.
Károly Davao yup, no reason at all, I swore off drugs back when I first got hppd. it literally happened for no reason at all. guess I'm just lucky like that.
shut the fuck up moron
Doug Kelso yes, please tell all of US what is real.
I've had hpvd symptoms even ever before using psychedelics, especially the phone trail in the dark.
When I was 18 and done 5 dried grams of shrooms alone in silent darkness (heroic dose) i had a 5 hour long panic attack and thought I died, it caused me ptsd, panic disorder, severe anxiety, depersonalization, dissociation. I wasn't able to smoke weed anymore because it was giving me panic attacks and I was a full on stoner for 2 years at that point. I then became a full blown alcoholic shortly after the experience for about 5 years which left me with health problems. Now days have to be put on benzo medications because of panic attacks everyday. Don't fuck with high dose psychs. I've done 1 gram of shrooms and it was fun as fuck, i really didn't know what I was getting myself into taking 5 grams.
Hey i’m sincerely asking not trying to self diagnose before i’m sure but watching this i broke down so much all do the things you were explaining i could relate to from how many tabs you dropped to you’re reaction to smoking the only thing is i haven’t had too many visuals i just started noticing weird things and got scared because i dropped 2 tabs by myself and had a terrible trip and at first i was okay but later i peed my pants and i couldn’t see anything that was real the visuals were the only real thing in my head and i just want to know if you think if these are early signs or i’m just paranoid??
I will never fuck with psychedelics again