“Don’t get in the ring” - I had to have that come up when I turned on my phone every morning. I can go from 0-100 in a second as well….. and still can in sobriety sadly. I have had to learn to just walk away as soon as I feel things getting out of control. Not always possible but at least we are aware that we cannot afford this behaviour anymore - we really can’t. It can spin my head for weeks. My siblings can give me the zizz instantaneously!
I lost my nephew to an accidental overdose on December 18th, 2022. I miss him so terribly. I am grieving and find myself going from sadness to anger in a moment. Right now, I am angry and pissed off. Everyone grieves differently. My nephew's wife has chosen to lash out at the family and is choosing to be angry at us. It is becoming a hardship in our family at such a terrible time while mourning. I am not mad at her. I get it. She is suffering immense pain and grief. She has 3 children to raise on her own now. But words have been said that can't be taken back. Feelings are hurt and I am stuck being pissed off at the whole thing. I am mad God allowed this to happen. I am pissed off that Jordan didn't come to us before he made that one pill his death sentence. I am angry that no one is going to give a fuck. The drug dealer he bought the (what he thought) "Xanax" that was laced with fentanyl surely doesn't give a fuck that he has killed people. He/she may not have even known it was laced, but they are still responsible for his death. Although Jordan chose to use, he was poisoned! He did not know it contained deadly fentanyl. How can i turn this anger around when it is all so tragic?? Thank you for sharing, Gary. Love and light to you all
Gary, can you set up PO Box ? I want to send up a Christmas card n maybe a letter. Don't put any details online, I think its too dangerous. Now then..you hv been in The Tank? Its horrendous to feel like that, I feel like that most days. In my opinion, You are The Tank. Not Crazy...Normal. I think we were born Twins..miles apart...when you talk I am like OMG...an intelligent beautiful compassionate human who is hurting... So, example...without a drink I wd hv jumped out the vehicle and screamed at that lil Shit...n knocked him out.... its not insanity, nor violence, its a deep Love of equanimity. I have the RAGE...I stay in. But you make me smile so much when it's a time you should make people Cry. Bro...I am not on the path yet, but let me send you a Christmas card. 🎄🧸🦋👌
I’m running out to a meeting right now when I get back I’ll get you in touch with me I’ll get you my address and all that stuff phone number whenever you want I would love to chat with you. I don’t care what path you’re on our paths crossed and our spirits touched. I’ll check back with in with you in a little bit give me a couple hours
So I am 7 hours ahead my Twinny, 🇫🇷 French time, just after midnight, I might start watching Breaking Bad for the 7th time... Don't feel responsible for The World.
“Don’t get in the ring” - I had to have that come up when I turned on my phone every morning. I can go from 0-100 in a second as well….. and still can in sobriety sadly. I have had to learn to just walk away as soon as I feel things getting out of control. Not always possible but at least we are aware that we cannot afford this behaviour anymore - we really can’t. It can spin my head for weeks. My siblings can give me the zizz instantaneously!
I will not be getting in the ring with Mike Tyson anytime soon.... Although I would do it for the paycheck! LOL
I fight with my mouth but try hard not to anymore! Count to 10…..
I lost my nephew to an accidental overdose on December 18th, 2022. I miss him so terribly. I am grieving and find myself going from sadness to anger in a moment. Right now, I am angry and pissed off.
Everyone grieves differently. My nephew's wife has chosen to lash out at the family and is choosing to be angry at us. It is becoming a hardship in our family at such a terrible time while mourning. I am not mad at her. I get it. She is suffering immense pain and grief. She has 3 children to raise on her own now. But words have been said that can't be taken back. Feelings are hurt and I am stuck being pissed off at the whole thing. I am mad God allowed this to happen. I am pissed off that Jordan didn't come to us before he made that one pill his death sentence. I am angry that no one is going to give a fuck. The drug dealer he bought the (what he thought) "Xanax" that was laced with fentanyl surely doesn't give a fuck that he has killed people. He/she may not have even known it was laced, but they are still responsible for his death. Although Jordan chose to use, he was poisoned! He did not know it contained deadly fentanyl. How can i turn this anger around when it is all so tragic?? Thank you for sharing, Gary. Love and light to you all
Gary, can you set up PO Box ? I want to send up a Christmas card n maybe a letter. Don't put any details online, I think its too dangerous.
Now then..you hv been in The Tank? Its horrendous to feel like that, I feel like that most days.
In my opinion, You are The Tank. Not Crazy...Normal. I think we were born Twins..miles apart...when you talk I am like OMG...an intelligent beautiful compassionate human who is hurting... So, example...without a drink I wd hv jumped out the vehicle and screamed at that lil Shit...n knocked him out.... its not insanity, nor violence, its a deep Love of equanimity. I have the RAGE...I stay in. But you make me smile so much when it's a time you should make people Cry. Bro...I am not on the path yet, but let me send you a Christmas card. 🎄🧸🦋👌
I’m running out to a meeting right now when I get back I’ll get you in touch with me I’ll get you my address and all that stuff phone number whenever you want I would love to chat with you. I don’t care what path you’re on our paths crossed and our spirits touched. I’ll check back with in with you in a little bit give me a couple hours
@@sobrietyandthefivedaygodch2124 Do not share any personal details online... 🙏
So I am 7 hours ahead my Twinny, 🇫🇷 French time, just after midnight, I might start watching Breaking Bad for the 7th time... Don't feel responsible for The World.
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