People who weren’t abused don’t understand how it permeates your life, your relationships, your choice in partners and mistrust affecting how many friends you make. It makes your world really small. I wish you all the best. Keep fighting the good fight.
It’s difficult to imagine how one can grow up in a constant state of fear and deprivation for 18 years. Fear of rage, physical and mental abuse, starvation, freezing - with no one and no place to go for comfort and safety. Abuse leaves one with a hidden disability. The victim has a very difficult time with relationships as one is unable to trust. The world and others are seen thru the lens of distrust and automatic defensive thoughts kick in. I too was a victim of abuse but not nearly as extreme as Senne experienced. My heart goes out to her. She’s clearly getting the help she needs and has a keen understanding of what happened to her. She’s a beautiful young woman (inside and out.) I wish her the very best.
I couldn’t agree with you more. My mother was unbalanced to say it kindly. Growing up was tough. I am now 74 years old and still have nightmares. It has affected every part of my soul. This young lady is so brave I have nothing but envy for her strength.
Her listing off the family members that assaulted her made me…. Nauseous. I’m gonna end up being a crazy mom, literally never leaving my kid alone because of stories like these omg.
Never!! I’m polite to people but I always viewed everyone as a possible perpetrator given the opportunity, no matter how nice they are. I didn’t give anyone a chance to prove they weren’t.
@@eydra1452 I am so very sorry. Every child deserves security, happiness and love. It always makes me so very sad and so outraged to hear such stories.
@@eydra1452I hope you are doing better now. Or as “better” as you can be. ❤❤❤ I’m sure you’re a very strong person. I’m sorry you had to go through that 😢
@@Cosmicvzn the survivor in the video was abused by women as well so IDK how much that’d help. because the comment above mine said the interviewer was yawning, maybe an interviewer who gaf would have helped.
This is what I kept saying during covid. CPS reports plummeted, abused children weren't being discovered. 10% of reportings are made by schools alone. Then to add human trafficking the world is just a mess.
They have to live there always every afternoon til the morning- Christmas break spring break summer break. They only have these people. What do you mean lockdown
@@elizabethlloyd3013you may recall Covid, also referred to as the lockdown. Kids who live in an unsafe environment were unable to have some measure of relief by going to school and away from all that.
@@candacebrandt8211exactly. Also not getting fed at school. Lots of children have simply disappeared since lockdown. "The missing children of lockdown" is a real life horror.
Her voice might be soft and demure, but this girl is a straight up warrior. Amazing resilience and strength to endure what she has. She’s beautiful inside and out and I hope she’s treating herself so kindly in this second part of her life. She is so worthy 🦋
@@randymarsh9488 you’re not funny, you guys will say this to any woman who’s obviously a person of color. She has ethnic features. And she doesn’t even look trans.
Looking back at high school in the 80’s, I ache now for the kids who we considered “weird” or different somehow. Now I know that some of them had miserable, abusive home lives. We never could have imagined what they were going through then. I wish healing and peace for Senne. 🙏
Same! Or the children you were t to school with that became drug addicts or alcoholics, even the addicts/alcoholics who came from what seems to have been a great home life. Maybe that home life wasnt great after all.
I remember a kid in my grade showed me the cigarette burns on her arms and a scar where she was burned by an iron. Coming from an abusive household myself, I remember thinking oh she has it worse than I do. It wasn’t until I was much older that I realized I should have done something to help her. I still wonder became of her.
Same for the 90s too. I remember in like 3rd grade, this set of twins moved to our school and they were extremely aggressive towards ALL the other kids. Like a level that I couldnt comprehend at that age. I was terrified of them. I think back now in my thirties and wonder what kind of home they must have experienced up until that point to be so aggressive as such young kids. Breaks my heart.
U read my mind. Thats exactly how i think remembering those kids from my class and i just hate it that i was not mature enough to try to get close to them and figure out whats wrong with them. Too late, now. ((
I had a best friend in 6th grade. She got bullied mercilessly for being “weird” and for always coming to school smelling like smoke. Because I was the only friend she had, I would go over to her house. Her father was actively dying from lung cancer. He had a coffee tin by his bed full of spit and blood. The coughing is something that stuck with me to this day. My 12 year old friend was about to lose her father, and she got no solace at school either. I think of her very often.
Exactly, and when you try to talk about it the stress responses are activated (fight/flight/freeze) and as they become activated the language center of the brain starts shutting down. When this happens for me I end up talking in really strange patterns with big gaps between words, I’ll keep repeating the same word over and over because I can’t work out what word I’m trying to find that’s supposed to come next in the sentence, and I start to stutter as well (when I don’t stutter at all normally). All I can say is, I feel for her because I know I get so frustrated and I WISH I could just spit the words out, but it’s not possible…
Exactly! Plus when Mark does interviews with people who struggle to speak like her, I just turn the playback speed up faster. I heard her interview in a way that it was faster than most. Not because I didn’t like her way of speaking. But because it’s hard to find the time to watch an almost hour & a half long video.
Yes…she speaks in a child like voice because as you said, she is emotionally stunted. She is verbally stunted too because of the emotional damage done to her. She speaks at about the age when the majority of the damage was done to her. That’s my humble opinion. It’s almost like an alter.
When you close your eyes and listen, you can hear a very fragile, vulnerable and innocent child who remains within this brave lady , feeling everything like it happened yesterday. God bless her.
She said her mother left her with family because she didn't trust strangers yet the family turned out to be worse. She would've been better off with a (normal) babysitter. What a warped family! I hope this girl can find some sort of healing and peace from all the horrific trauma.
Sadly it is their culture, I am pretty sure I know which religion, but other religions of the sub continent have similar vile standards. What a cruel existence you had Senne, nobody deserves such treatment.
Her commitment and dedication to help herself and regulate after her trauma is so incredibly admirable. She chose to help herself when nobody else did. I hope she experiences nothing but joy and peace and healing from here on out.
Most important thing I learned from “soft white underbelly” is that everyone has a story and each is interesting and you will learn something. Thanks for opening my mind to this point of view.
I mean what could a person with zero background in psychology possibly learn from this. It’s just drama you enjoy drama and that’s ok. It’s like that family he used to have on here, people just gawk and pretend to be intellectuals who are learning. You want to actually learn take a course
This is very true. It also speaks to her memory as early as 2 years old. She can’t recall the details but when her body feels the same threat she recalls the experience.
I have memories from the first couple years my councellor was shocked but it just sticks in your head for some unknown reason, for me, no emotion towards it. Like it wasn’t me. Odd. I understand why she remembers I don’t think he disbelieves her just was shocked at the age she remembers
I can clearly remember warmth, love, woman other than my mother cooking and other kids laying. We were one and a half years old, certainly not more than two. Next, quite complex memory is from home and the way to hospital when brother was born. Both are very positive, quite a bit darker times came later..
I totally understand what she’s saying at the 1 hour mark. My therapists and family keep telling me moving won’t help as much as I think, but I’m so tired of being constantly triggered by my surroundings. I’m so proud of her for getting far away from her family. She is truly a beacon of strength
I could see cautioning someone that moving won’t be a “cure-all” and fix everything, but I can’t see how it could hurt. Fresh surroundings, fresh start.
This is so deep. She was physically and sexually abused badly for 11 years. But for 7 years her mom emotionally abused her. And that 7 years outweighed the 11 years. She barely cried until she talked about her mom. Wow. 🤯
Bc out of everyone, you’d expect the person who birthed you would love you regardless. Regardless of the shit they put you through they still loved you-and when even THAT is gone, what’s left?
This is so fucked up for her I was molested at the age of five by my father and I can tell you from a man’s perspective,It completely shaped my whole identity and my future as a human being on this planet. I can only imagine what it does to a woman who is still developing as a young girl and had to go through that same horror, I’m so hurt by what she had to go through that is absolutely terrible.😢
It blows my mind that people can be capable of this towards children I’m sorry bro I just can’t even understand or begin to understand all I can do is just be sorry that this happened to you.
I was molested at about, I was 6-8, I'm not sure, I didn't remember until about 13 or 14. My brain locked it away & I don't think I would've ever known about it if my sister hadn't brought it up, bc apparently she walked in on it happening but never said anything. My brain decided it was too fkd up to remember so it locked it away in the "Do Not Touch" part of my mind. When the memory came back, it came back hard, it was like reliving it all over again. Everything was so raw & vivid & I remembered every detail, down to the flowers on the blanket & the nightgown I was in. Ok that SA is traumatic for everyone that has been through it, but I think it may actually be worse for boys that are SA'd by another male bc it's emasculating & something about another guy touching you like that goes deeper than just the SA, it destroys everything about you that makes you a male. Idk, it was in my head what I wanted to say, but them I started typing & I lost it. Yeah, another great thing from my SA's (yeah, I've had more that 1) is short term memory loss, & I'm pretty sure the drug addiction that followed the 1st one didn't help. I'm clean now, but it took years to reach that. What I'm trying to say is, I don't think SA is any less traumatizing for a female than it is a male, but I think it may actually cause more psychological trauma for a guy.
I just want to hop through the screen and give her a hug and tell her how strong, smart, brave and beautiful she is. I hope the beach helps heal her soul and she finds a support system out there that allows her to have an amazing life.
@@PNUTCAMPUSKING thank you so much ❤ I haven’t been to a real beach before and it was amazing! This island is truly healing and I’m ready to move forward
Never before in my 46 years have I felt such an urge to comfort and protect a person who isn't a family member. You are a beautiful person whose life is of great value. You deserve to find peace and happiness, which I dearly wish for you, Senne.
My dad remembers when he was 2 and he was separated from his brother in foster care..my dad is 62 and remembers that vividly 😢 I'm just glad he met my mom and made the family he always wanted
I remember things from a very early age ! My mom asks me all the time how do I remember certain things,she use to think someone told me, until I told her something that happened and only me and her was present and she never told anyone!!
funny i am 62 and my family came to nz frm uk i remember images frm before 3 and one memory frm as a baby so absolutely he remembers.glad you come frm a happy family
When your only evidence in your own memory it really doesn't mean much. People tend to think they have accurate memories because they can picture it in their mind and they assume it's like a recording the brain saved to be looked at anytime. But that's not how it works at all. It's proven beyond doubt that memories are manipulated through our entire life by our own brain. Not only that but outside forces can actually change how one remembers things. In reality our memories are not recordings but what your current mind has put together with a lifetime of fragmented memories and experiences.
I'm a retired therapist and she presents as the most intelligent and resilient person I have ever seen to have been through more hell than most people will face in a lifetime. All her relatives, especially the mother, don't have a clue as to how much damage they have caused her. Her family is a lost cause and she should never trust them. She is a beautiful precious young woman who has overcome so much! Please don't kill your beautiful life! If family aren't for you walk away. You don't know your own strength until you stand on your own strength! Bless her heart! She has affected me so strongly and just keep putting one foot in front of the other! God bless you 🙏
facts. Can someone do a video about me and my family? It was literally exactly what this woman is describing. The answer is no. No one gives a fuck and its so sad. All of my family members who abused us are fine, not in jail, and not paying consequences. This unfortunately happens to a lot of people.
You can tell she's in therapy. She's making sense of what's wrong and right. I'm so happy she's talking about it. It's the only way to heal. What a sweet soul whose lived 30 lives before I was even born and I'm 44. Bravo for graduating college too. I love this girl.
This man should not be interviewing her though he does not know how to react to trauma. Opening up to anyone and they react wrong can be traumatic in and of itself
I just want to hold this girl's hand. Give her space and safety. I feel these interviews are just for entertainment and provocation. Interviewer seems blunt and rude. What is his responsibility when he after he asks these people to share their stories? None. Unethical.
I had a horrible traumatic childhood as well, it leaves scars that no one can see. I'm just now starting to heal finally at 38 with the power of Christ, therapy, groups, etc. I pray this lady gets the help and healing she deserves 🙏❤️
@@Soyloca666 I don't question God, I firmly believe that everything I've been through happened for a reason and has made me into the woman I am today and I love myself today 💞
@Soyloca666 Christ has given us all the choice to do evil or to be good. In our theology it may seem like these monsters get away with it but trust me, I've traveled to where they go in a vision. They receive their consequences in full.
telling your baby girl to stop talking about it is absolutely heartbreaking. I hope you have all the love that you deserve now. i’m rooting for you girlie
@@SenneXplainsI just want to wish you the best day in the world. I hope you out of every single person in this universe have the best day. Im rooting for you. Thank you for being here and thank you for your courage.
Senne's story is a testament to the human spirit. To go through so much negativity, so much pain, so much abuse, yet come out on the other side wanting to live, wanting to contribute, wanting to make things better is inspirational. I wish her all the best.
@@travisanderson8771That's because 95% of the people Mark interviews have been abused in childhood, what tf is wrong with you? Don't you have any empathy? 🙄
@@travisanderson8771 I understand. Sometimes it does become repetitive. But it's because each person like Senne is equally amazing. If you've watched SWU for any length of time, you know some of the most damaged of society are mired in drug and alcohol abuse, homelessness, and s@x work/p0rn. Senne, and others like her, rose above seemingly impossible obstacles, not only surviving circumstances that would break most people, but coming out whole, willing to be in the world, working in it, making it better. And each are, in my humble opinion, worthy of admiration.
The silence between her words is the most silent silence, I 've ever heard... Horrible, to have to live through all of this. I'm so glad, she is so incredibly strong to be here and talk about this.
@@lisamichels1825....that....or she's just earning English and thinks trauma is how America's youth bond. And when there is no abuse, just make up some. I bet she's not a familiar face on skid row.
Seeing her smile when talking about her job ❤ I am honestly very impressed that after going through everything instead of being a person full of hate shes still an angel
This is one of the hardest interviews to sit through. The human race is so vile, abusive, and depraved, and it honestly makes me wonder how there is any good that happens in this world. Abuse of animals and children should result in corporal punishment. I pray that you continue to be resilient and focused on healing from your trauma, Senne.
Most people aren't vile, abusive or depraved. As in the vast majority of the human race is not like that. You just don't hear the everyday good news stories that abound because that doesn't sell. Don't lose your faith in humanity. There is a lot of good to be found if you just look. Peace ✌🏼
"Corporal punishment"? Did you mean capital punishment? That doesn't fix generations of trauma and abuse. Understanding where the trauma comes from and how it repeats breaks the cycles of abuse. Most paedophiles and abusive people were also horribly abused themselves as children. That's why they are like they are. Harsher punishment is not a deterrent.
@gimmedimmy6533 They mean spanking. That is called corporal punishment. And they are saying it hasn't helped in thousands of years so maybe we should stop. 😊
You hear one thing she says and you think “it can’t get worst”….. yet it does. I wish this young woman nothing but the best and a future filled with endless brightness.
I lived it and I'm still asking myself "what's next?" Life is a journey though I am still walking through it so that has to account for something. Thank you!
Just what I was thinking....she kept revealing one trauma after another and I sat here saying to myself ...how can it get any worse 😢 Prayers and blessings for this beautiful soul❤
Just what I was thinking....she kept revealing one trauma after another and I sat here saying to myself ...how can it get any worse 😢 Prayers and blessings for this beautiful soul❤
Everything that happened to you was not your fault or your brothers. Your parents should be in prison for what they put you through.Anyone that touched you as a child should be punished. You're a beautiful young woman, and I am so proud of you for telling your story. I'm so sorry for all you have been through. I wish you the best in life. God bless you.🦋
Best comment yet thank you so much for saying this to this brave beautiful soul. Sienne, I’m so very immensely sorry for the abuse you went through. You are a survivor thank you for your bravery and your story and for raising awareness for victims of abuse. You are very strong and brave. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. Hoping you are in a better place now. I send you my Love and Compassion. Lauren. (((HuGs))))~*~*Blessings to you and may your life be blessed and way better moving forward I hope you find the love, validation and support you need and deserve. May you find peace. 🕊️
I didn't. Sleepovers only at my home. One trusted babysitter and very few trusted immediate relatives. Once my son was old enough to have a girlfriend, I was shocked at how many parents dropped their 15 year old daughters at my house never even meeting us.
her voice is like a little girls so much pain and vulnerability, so much trauma in her family. she has so much potential and has a sweet heart. i pray for her to have her best life
The little girls voice is very common in women that were abused at a very, very young age.. as soon as I heard her voice, I knew there was a lot of sexual abuse in her past. It’s a telltale sign.
Not necessarily true. It's quite common in Asian cultures to have that juvenile voice late into adulthood. Let's not play TH-cam psychologist over every little detail.
@@earth2saka go look it up… It’s a thing.. As soon as I heard her voice, I knew there were sexual abuse in her past.. and well I wasn’t wrong was I? Does that mean everyone with a little girl voice was sexually abused? Of course not but it is a telltale sign.
2:06 she's describing trauma that happens before you have the capacity of language. The feelings are viseral and unexplainable because of this lack of language at the time.
I have memories at young ages. I remember having an extremely horrible case of chicken pox at 2 and a half years old. I remember falling down the stairs at the age of around 4 years old. I think that we remember things that are scary to us. This poor young lady went through so much trauma at suck a young age. She seems so sad. 💔😟 Her family failed her so badly.
So powerful to hear her say that the mental abuse was worse than the physical abuse. My heart goes out to this young lady because I know her pain. I had to stuff my feelings down for my mentally abusive/narcissistic mother, and it still affects me to this day.
@@JessGraham-p3y I've been divorced for over 15yrs and I still have PTSD due to the verbal/emotional and psychological abuse that my ex put me through.
This is not fair, her story broke my heart. Her voice so delicate and her trembling so innocent but so damaged that she did not choose. I hope she thrives and breaks her tragedy. She is so beautiful and brave and courageous. Thank you for letting her tell her story. I hope she felt any amount of relief and simply just cared about. I care.
Her story makes me feel so ill. I wish someone would've saved her in any way, but I suspect her culture didn't allow for her to speak to teachers, (if she even went to school), friends parent's (if she EVEN was allowed friends)...oh dear we are doomed, just based on this childs experience. Knowing millions of children endure this makes me wish for nuclear decimation of ONLY the human species...never happen, but I can still wonder if it might be better...beyond horrific. Juko is in heaven, understanding you, child.
@@slimchism6643 My guess would be Chinese, Heart breaking to think she's walking on eggshells as a small child, While everyone else was on a no boundaries free for all ..... Than berated for feeling anything or making normal mistakes when she was to young to be having that responsibility in the first place, 🙏🏽💙😢 I truly hope you don't shoulder any blame for being surrounded by chaos. The Metal blow's had to be unbearable numb is the brains kill switch/ over load.... People see you, and care 🫂
Senne - I grew up with an abusive Asian mother and I agree with you that the mental abuse is worse than the rest. It feels like your real brain has been hijacked by the rewiring that occurred before you even knew it was happening. I understand, and I’m so so sorry you’re living with this. Please read or listen to “What My Bones Know” by Stephanie Foo if you haven’t yet. I’m still struggling, but it did help. I love you sister, and I really wish you the best in your quest to recover your real self back from your personal tyrant. Please remember: don’t let people tell you there’s nothing wrong with you. There is, but it really and truly is not your fault.
Sending blessings ur way fam. We on this road to healing together. I tend to forget often that we are not alone that's why I watch these videos to remind myself
She is such a sweet and beautiful person. I feel so sorry. I am 70 years old and went through a very dramatic childhood. I just want to tell her: never ever give up! You are a sweetheart and you don’t deserve what they did to you. I would never ever have told everything so free as you did. You are very brave! Sending love to you from far away!
@@SenneXplains you will sweetheart, concentrate on positive things and people who support you. I did a lot of therapy. Walking in nature helped me a lot. Maybe you have a god given talent for something. A hobby is a good thing to develop. I wish you all the best. You have a strong personality, you can do it , I believe that you can. If no one else around believes in you , you are your own best friend, trust in your instincts. Sending you love and a big virtual hug. Sorry for my basic English, my mothertongue is German.
Children deserve to feel loved and cared for. I never want any child to go through what I went through. Unfortunately with the world we live in, that isn’t realistic but I can do my part in providing that safety and support to the children I work with ❤
@@SenneXplainsThank you for sharing your story, I’m so very sorry for what you went through, it must have been so traumatic, I wish I could give you a big warm hug. Sending peace, love and empathy, I’m crying with you❤
the strength shown by senne is humbling. through adversity such strength but retaining her kindness. i wish you all the best in this world. thank you for your story and thank you for the work you do now
I worked with the Department of Children & Families for years. Some of the stories are absolutely horrific. Yet, I was always continuously impressed with the resiliency and strength children showed. And it was so beautiful when they finally experienced someone who cared about them and you saw them thrive.
I am so thankful for your willingness to work in this area . It is so important. I worked with children as a speech therapist for many years and loved helping kids. However I could never have done what you did, it would have been too triggering. Again, kudos to you!
Thank you for being patient with her and allowing her to tell her story. My heart goes out to her. It takes so much courage to share something so personal and traumatic. And her level of self awareness tells me that there is so much hope of her being able to continue to heal and work through all the traumas and create a much better life for herself as an adult than the one that was forced on her as a child. I believe in you, Senne!
My story is very similar to your story. I wasade a 5150 when I was 30 yrs old from a suicide attempt. I wrote a poem when I was 16 called Only when I cry. It goes- I look at life without feelings, time just passing by. Life is like an untold story with my feelings stuffed inside. I cant express my feelings, I don't know why I even try. The only time someone listens to me is only when I cry. Is life really worth living, most days I want to die. The only time I have reason to live is only when I cry. I was hospitalized 4 times. In my 40s I dated a narcissist and my life got so much worse. To include being choked unconscious, body slammed on the floor etc. The police had to kick my door in to arrest him. Guns drawn and police dogs. But in that time I finally learned how to love myself. Now I'm 52 and finally have peace in my life and 2 small dogs that I love dearly. Thank you for sharing your story ❤
"The only time someone listens to me is only when I cry" wow... This line cuts to the bone. I'm so sorry for what you went through, friend. I'm glad you're still here. 🌻
I am so happy that you are doing well these days. You deserve to enjoy every day for the rest of your life, and even better to have dogs as your family showing you so much love. Be well.
When I look at this girl I saw a warrior on the outside and a hurting child on the inside. Her timid voice, studdered and hesitant speaking, almost like she's still scared. I can't imagine her childhood. But to see she's turned out to be a beautiful, strong, resilient woman, so proud of her! She deserves all the happiness this life has to offer. ❤
I know this isn’t realistic but I wish there was a test to confirm parents were fit to bring a child into the world and could do regular check ins for the first few years to confirm health, safety and proper housing. Maybe even continued parenting classes. Wishful thinking. 😢 thank you for having the courage to share Senne.
@@bentheredonethat-lx6nh Lmao strange projection. Not sure how my personal background is relevant to the comment I made but I'm a british disabled woman and I paid taxes while I was able to work. Not sure many brits would describe ourselves as patriots, we're too dry for that, that's kind of an american thing, though I think most of us have a strong affection/pride for parts of our culture. My parents are still married and have had a fairly equal relationship in terms of earning and housework, which is one of the main things they credit for a healthy relationship. They also waited to become financially stable before having kids and planned for us long term. I'm very grateful to them and I wish all kids had that kind of support
I deeply agree. Three kids over here and I am not perfect but I take so much pride in being a mom. I think everyone should be required by law to take basic first aid class(es) because wow, the park moms are clueless.
Aldous Huxley agrees it will happen. I don't think government should have a role in it. Can't destroy autonomy, even if it rarely creates situations like this. Freedom is greater than safety.
i relate to this woman so much, down to the trauma, bpd, even the scoliosis. your body absolutely manifests trauma into physical problems. she looked so happy when she said it was her decision to move to hawaii. i love that she finally got to make her own life decisions that made her happy❤
As a social worker I really appreciate these videos. This is the kind of trauma I hear everyday from my clients. Trauma affects almost everyone in this world. My heart goes out to every child who has experienced a traumatic event. I hope the girl in the video, and any child who has experienced such hell on this earth thrives as an adult and is able to heal and not continue the cycle. No child deserves this! ☹️
Hello, I am a clinical psychologist and wanted to reach out to you as another professional in the field. I definitely believe without doubt that this woman has been through terrible abuse in her life, however, I wondered if you picked up on some embellishment or a few things that didn’t add up while listening to her story? Obviously, these can be symptoms of her diagnosed BPD. Either way, it is great that she is under good care now but I genuinely just wanted your take on this. Thank you.
I went to grad school for clinical psychology. Left the program after 4.5 years towards PhD. My experience was that psychologists were the most stigmatizing towards mental illness. I enjoy learning about psychology and human behavior but it wasnt for me.
As someone born and raised in Hawai'i. Her able to make it through so much trama, she'd really fit in with alot of the great locals of the islands. There's alot of people that would bring her in as family and treat her with the respect she deserves. Much love and aloha to this brave young lady ❤️
@@notoriousPcp my comment was just a hypothetical brother. All I meant is, if she was to come across some of the better people of my homeland, it would've been awesome.
If you see this Senne I want to say how incredible I think you are, the grace and strength you display is inspiring. You are such an intelligent articulate beautiful young woman and I wish you all the best in your life. Thank you for telling your story, much love ❤️.
I really hope you're taking precautions before, during and after these interviews. I'm serious. Don't leave someone like this, a survivor of the most horrific of human behavior.... to walk out of your care feeling as if they are exactly 8 years old again... All the time you take through this interview... I pray that you are taking time after to empower, embrace, heal and support 🙏🏼
This re-triggering could definitely trigger suicidal behaviours, especially as a lot of these people have disorders. Maybe he does have some aftercare support for them, I really really hope so.
I don’t know for sure but believe he does, with the way that people come back again to be interview by him. Also with all the editing, I’m sure they take breaks when needed to make sure the guest is ok. Idrk tho I’m just assuming
I am not trying to shed a bad light on Mark because he does provide a platform for those who don’t have a voice but I will be frank and honest. I left crying in a mess and feeling used. He said that hour long videos don’t get enough views… I told him I’m sorry and he can cut out whatever to make it shorter.
@@BethSparyThere is no aftercare. He didn’t talk to me before the interview or after. He just rolled the camera and when it was done, he said it was too long. I apologized and told him to cut or edit whatever he wants. I left crying and feeling used. But that’s LA I guess.
all i want to do is hug her, senne seems so sweet and kindhearted and just listening to her story made me cry so much, it makes me wish i could go back to that time and save her. trauma is so hard to deal with and im so proud of her for still being here and for continuing to heal. she deserves the world and if i were to ever meet her i’d give her the biggest hug
The context of her explaining her culture and where she’s from notates that she’s Hmong. Unfortunately, there are some concepts of our culture that we are still struggling with. Whether it’s generational trauma from the War, or immigrating into our new country, there is no excuse for sexual abuse. Finally, these things in our culture are being spoken about. Go you Senne, thank you being strong and being able to speak to on behalf of your own ability. Txoj quaj os mos, peb hmoob tseem hlub koj os.
Yea I guessed Hmong too. I grew up in a state with the largest Hmong population, and a lot of my bestfriends growing up were Hmong. Very strong people, but unfortunately a lot of destructive/abusive behavior towards my friends growing up.
Thank you Senne for telling your story. I love how you lit up at the end talking about the children you're helping. You have found your calling and have the experiences to help better understand these kids. Thank you Thank you for helping others!
I have never wanted to reach thru a screen and hug someone so much. I cried thru this whole video. I’m so sorry u went thru all this and I’m proud of u for being so strong 💜
Young lady....you are an incredible person and you have touched our souls....Aloha is real...learn about hooponopono....it can heal you...your story scared me for my daughter....it hurt my heart to watch you relive this abuse....but the Spirit of God is with you my dear....go prove to all those little kids that LOVE is the greatest thing in the universe! Thank you for your courage....you inspire us all...
@SenneXplains You are so strong and beautiful. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make all your bad memories and pain away. And I'd rather not tell you what I wish I could do to punish all the people who cause it. Please take care and know that you are loved and admired by people that you'll never know. I wish you all the best and never forget what a beautiful survivor warrior you are.💕
I’m 27, and a mother of two - i just want to protect her. My heart aches terribly for her… i’m so proud of her and I hope she knows how strong, intelligent, and beautiful inside and out she is. She’s amazing. Hearing her stories and other stories like hers make me and push me to be the best mother I can be for my children… their safe space.
She's like a broken bird, but the bird is an eagle, there is strength and resilience despite the broken wings. I wish nothing but happiness and goodness for the rest of her life❤
He knows... thats why Jesus had to come, take into His body all the sins that happened to her, you, me...everybody. He was perfect and gave it to us. He knew her trauma and tragedy still decided to come for her. Thank you LORD.
My bio mother disappeared when I was a little under two, and I have many memories of her. People my whole life told me I was probably just using my imagination and thinking it was real but when I finally met her again as an adult I asked her and each one she confirmed was a memory, good and bad. I also remember when she disappeared, I remember the fear and the pain I felt then and for years. I remember her showing me a map while sitting on her lap and her showing me where I was and where she was going (other side of the country) and I remember crying, and her telling me it wouldn’t be for a long long time and not to worry… she was gone the next morning. So yeah, trauma DOES sear memories into your head, even at 1-2 years old. Anyone saying it’s impossible should be grateful they didn’t have a trauma at that young of an age. It affects you your entire life.
If I'm crying after reading your comment, I can only imagine (and do a poor job at that) how deeply that must've hurt you. I hope you're doing better now!
Thanks for sharing this. You made me think back. I remember many things from my first 2 years of life. I remember the whole layout of the house, the pets and the overwhelming smell of cleaning products. I remember being in my baby body feeling helpless and unable to coordinate my movements. I just stared at my fluffy pink carpet from my crib and waited for my Mom to come back. It triggers me when others say I was too little to remember. Even counselors couldn't really take me seriously when I got to be an older child talking about my earliest memories.
Not falling into drugs, alcohol, smoking, sex work, etc was truly my saving grace. I’m sure my life would have turned out very different if that were the case but I have so much compassion for the ones who are battling addiction and substance abuse.
This is not even questionably the most gut wrenching videos I have EVER seen in my life. I’m 32 years old and I have seen a lot. Thank god my mother was annoyingly over protective and protected me from any harm as much as she could.. I couldn’t imagine being alive living and being able to tell this story to a stranger yet alone the world.. I hope she is okay and thrives in her life. Truly a warrior. ❤️❤️❤️
Senne is so so brave. She deserves all the happiness in the world. Thank you for being so respectful when interviewing her. Your style of interview is incredibly unique and makes for vulnerable people to feel comfortable to open up.
Have to say this is the most extreme childhood I've ever been exposed to. She didn't even have a good friend to lean on. Frankly, I'm stunned that she is even walking and talking, and able to relate this story. God bless her and all the walking wounded out there😢😢😢
Senne, if this interview brings you anything, let it bring you the awareness that you are loved, that you are valued, and that you are not alone in the suffering. Thank you for sharing your story, and may you find peace in your heart someday. I know it doesn’t come easy. Please don’t give up.❤
Kudos to Mark for giving her the time she wanted and needed. She had intent and wasn't going to be rushed along. This woman has been through a lot, and what comes out the other side of it will be amazing.
I did feel rushed and felt bad as he was yawning and stretching. Afterwards he said it was too long and I told him to edit or cut what he wanted to. But I am grateful he let me talk at all.
@@SenneXplainsthat is terrible to hear you had to have that reaction when you were so strong throughout your time speaking. I am so sorry you felt rushed in any capacity and that he said it was too long at the end. You are a warrior of a person and did not deserve any of what these people did to you throughout your life. I hope you are finding some solace in Hawaii and continue recovering from the trauma you endured. ❤❤❤
There was violence in my home as an infant. My brother (age12) would put me under a small table and hang blankets all around. I remember looking up at the bottom of that table and seeing the brackets on the legs underneath. I was removed at 18 months, so I know these memories are that early. By brother was my champion and protector.
I hope you and your brother are living your best lives now. Good thing your brother did what he could to try to prevent you from visually having to witness the abuse taking place.
I grew up in Milwaukee around the Hmongs too. The toxicity that’s not talked about is mind blowing. It’s so normal to them. Cheating, abuse of every kind is so normal to them. I had so many young girl Hmong friends and i felt so bad for how suppressed they were and I knew this at 5. They couldn’t be happy like I could and I respect a lot of Asian women because there’s a high chance that they’re struggling when they go home.
@@evagreen9968 they are great people but a huge majority have experienced abuse yes. Not speaking for all of them some of the best people I know are Hmong!
@@NancyRamos-e9e An ethnic group from Laos or Vietnam that also lives in south China. In the US they mostly live in Wisconsin like this young woman, Minnesota and North Carolina.
@@Prizzy999and California. They *were originally indigenous to China, with a nomadic history (they were kicked out of their indigenous mountain lands, immigrated to Southeast Asia.) I grew up with many Hmong friends and I have to agree the parents were absolutely never around.
Thank you Mark! These interviews are very healing for me and would like to hear more. Being Asian, I understand her trauma and have also rejected my ethnic background completely. Thank you for letting her speak at her pace. A lot of us have a hard time verbalizing because we were taught not to feel. I am very proud of Senne and wish the best for her!
I hope the right person see’s this and guides Senne into a counseling role. She is amazing and could help so many others out including herself. What a beautiful person…
Considering how she grew up being forced to parent her brothers, idk if that's something she'd want to do. I think she should be supported throughout life and I hope she finds her life passion 🙏
I am a teacher and caregiver. I don’t think I could be a counselor or therapist. I feel way too much empathy and would cry hearing other people’s stories. I wouldn’t be able to help them in a professional manner. But I do work with kids and that has brought me so much joy!
As a parent, sitting here listening to this is sickening. Hearing her talk about how they moved around, how her mom said “if it happens one more time, let me know”, hearing her experience of being punched in the face her first day of kindergarten. My boy just started grade 1 and the thought of him starting school with a black eye inflicted by his dad, the person that is supposed to protect him, brings me to my knees. I am so sorry no one protected you, I am so sorry no one interfered, I am just so sorry. I wish you peace in your life. The people responsible should be removed from society permanently.
Absolutely but I can't help but wonder if maybe she would be better served to deal with her trauma in private therapy and come to terms with it a bit further before sharing it all publicly in an effort to help others. As the saying goes, you've got to save yourself before you can save other people. .
@doomrat I hear what you're saying ... but everyone is different... anyone who talks to Mark actually might be taking the 1st step before they can be enclosed in an Office with a Therapist ... it could actually work both ways. Being brave enough to speak out on ANY platform I think is in the ' First Step ' phase of liberating, Coping, and Healing.
Can you imagine how much progress she's made to be even able to discuss it like this.. let alone to have fully digested it all.. we're talking years and years of constant therapy and working on herself .. now idk if youtube is the best place but she did an incredible job I was in tears not even because of how sick these people were to her but at how strong she was to be vocal about it.
@doomrat I've been thinking that the entire interview. I think she needs a LOT of support, and loys if unconditional love, and encouragement and validation....this poor baby....my heart is just broken for her. How does a child process such complex emotions all while being told not to feel. She is stronger than she knows.
Senne's resilience is incredible. I hope she knows how many are rooting for her to continue and thrive in her healing journey. To go through all of that and to clearly still be so kind is a testament to her strength.
I'm the same age as you Senne, and also grew up in an Asian household. It's strange growing up and realizing how toxic your parents were (and in some cases still are), when our culture teaches us to respect them despite how they treat us. I'm also still learning to deal with the mental trauma my mom inflicted on me. I too am learning to rewire my brain as an adult. I'm learning to feel proud of myself, to let myself feel emotions and to cope with them healthily, to love myself, etc. I hope you are doing well each day. You deserve so much love and happiness.
Yooo... My mom is Korean and my dad is 10 yrs older than her, but they're both hard traditional... Oh my God... All the unintentional neglect and abuse I thought was normal till like, a few years ago... The deprogramming in fucking real dude. I don't trust anyone.
@@andylee5759 THIS. Unintentional neglect, especially emotional neglect doesn't register as trauma to a child. It wasn't until I looked back on my experiences and understood that my relationship with parents wasn't as supportive/caring/loving as a thought. Nice to hear someone else is on the deprogramming journey like me. Thanks for sharing and I also hope you're doing better
People are brave enough to share harrowing experiences that may help other victims, and people in the comments are "her voice..I cant..spit it out" etc. This attitude is why abuse still exists. People only want to listen or take her seriously if she presents in a way they approve of. Idiots
Yes it’s possible to remember something in that age … I was 2,5 years old when my mom left me forever with a bunch of dolls to play… that moment when I realized that I was alone … I am 52 today … i remember everything in that room, everything 😢😢😢
Interesting, I too have a similar memory at the same age, being left alone in a strawberry patch while I watched my parents walk to the car. It was the realization that i was not within 3 feet of my mother anymore, and it is seared in my mind.
I & my younger brother ( 4 & 2 yrs old) were left w relatives, all I remember was my days were filled with such a loneliness, empty, devastating, scarcity. Im still struggling with insecurities & abandonment issues in my old age...Mom's response until this day is, I should be grateful that she didnt threw me away instead...I have no words.
I know that Japanese mothers will lock out children from their homes as a form of punishment. I’ve seen in it Japan and it happened to me in BFE, Ohio. It wasn’t uncommon for my mom’s gen to be punished by moxibustion…a hot burning poultice that left 1 inch burn marks on my beautiful mom’s back. She is 76, from Hiroshima, her war trauma and old-school Japanese discipline raised this woman (me, an only child) to be fiercely independent, taught me to fiercely hate myself, blah blah blah…it took a pandemic for us to sort things out…she battles hoarding, albeit a very organized one who could feed an army with her food stocks…and it passed down to me. But I fight it and I am changing it. Soon to be 55 and I feel like the pandemic helped me come to life. Shifting paradigms…it’s mighty frightening, but it’s hella worth it. Senne, thanks for sharing your story. Your voice may sound weak, but it’s only perceived as such by those who cannot listen. Fight the good fight, live and love with all your might!
A few words to describe this young woman. Resilant, strong, warrior, beautiful, hopful, scarred, encouraging, heartbroken, courageous. Sending positive vibes to you and hugs from Brooklyn, NY
Senne I hope you see how much your story has touched people and how you are stronger than anyone should ever have to be. I wish you love and happiness for the rest of the days of your life. You are loved far and wide.
I'm pretty sure her family is Hmong. There are huge social issues in that community with child marriage, abduction, forced marriages, etc. it's horrible. I hope she continues to heal.
How are you so sure she’s Hmong? Do you know her personally? That’s very ignorant of you to group the Hmong community. Yes, there are those bad apples but the majority of them are not like that. If you hadn’t realize, there’s sickos in every culture even yours.
@@Xwing567you sound pretty defensive. A lot of people have said the same thing about Hmong in the comments section. Obviously, abuse happens in all cultures and religion's but in this instance, people think that based on what she has said, she was raised Hmong. Deflecting like this is the reason why abuse like what this poor woman suffered is able to continue.
10:06 - it broke my heart how upset she was to recount that her abuser tainted the only pure relationship she had with anyone at that time, the ultimate act of cruelty. I pray she finds true affection and however much happiness is possible after all she's endured.
Dismissing her memories from when she was that young is wild. My very first memory is from when I was about 8 months old. I didn’t walk yet. It wasn’t an abusive memory, but I did have a traumatic childhood so maybe kids that went through severe trauma have that ability to go way back. As someone said, the body remembers.
Yeah he pissed me off with that. My oldest memory is sitting at the wheel of an old car with a tan leather steering wheel and seeing a bright flash. I told my dad about it as a teenager and he pulled out an old photo album and showed me a picture of me as a baby, about 8 months old, standing on his lap behind the wheel of his car, and the bright light I saw was actually the flash from a Polaroid camera.
True! I'm autistic and a lot of autistic ppl have very early memories. My first memory is from when I was only 14 months old. Every brain works differently, and some people just indeed have very early memories. To dismiss that, especially with such traumatic memories, is just stupid & cold.
true, I remember explaining a memory to my mom & she said I wasn't even 1 year old, that's impossible but it's so clear in my mind it's a happy/pretty memory in my case
@@YardaFreeman so what… you think paying attention is all that’s needed? After after you see, hear, & feel what you do, then what lol There’s action. Parents must absolutely be their children’s protection. Their defenders. Their advocates. I’m not saying fight all your kids battles for them, that’s the extreme you’re talking about. A parent who does not make efforts to protect their child, from any and all potential harm/threats; including the negative impacts of their own actions, behaviors, and mental health, is failing. Point blank. Yes. Pay attention. Guide within reason. Don’t be overbearing. Let the child experience failure. And protect them from all the “bad” you can.
Very endearing woman, sweetheart. Takes a lot of bravery to share her story. You deserved better. I hope you find peace, stability and support from people who truly care about you. ❤
I have a baby girl. These stories make me feel so grateful for my life and the love and tenderness I have in my heart. She deserves to be protected and nurtured. This type of stuff is horrific.
Thank you! Every child deserves to feel loved and cared for! I’m very grateful to provide that for the children I work with ❤ they mean the world to me
People who weren’t abused don’t understand how it permeates your life, your relationships, your choice in partners and mistrust affecting how many friends you make. It makes your world really small. I wish you all the best. Keep fighting the good fight.
It’s difficult to imagine how one can grow up in a constant state of fear and deprivation for 18 years. Fear of rage, physical and mental abuse, starvation, freezing - with no one and no place to go for comfort and safety. Abuse leaves one with a hidden disability. The victim has a very difficult time with relationships as one is unable to trust. The world and others are seen thru the lens of distrust and automatic defensive thoughts kick in. I too was a victim of abuse but not nearly as extreme as Senne experienced. My heart goes out to her. She’s clearly getting the help she needs and has a keen understanding of what happened to her. She’s a beautiful young woman (inside and out.) I wish her the very best.
Sooner or later that abuse kills you.
so very true
I couldn’t agree with you more. My mother was unbalanced to say it kindly. Growing up was tough. I am now 74 years old and still have nightmares. It has affected every part of my soul. This young lady is so brave I have nothing but envy for her strength.
THIS!!!!
Her listing off the family members that assaulted her made me…. Nauseous. I’m gonna end up being a crazy mom, literally never leaving my kid alone because of stories like these omg.
Never!! I’m polite to people but I always viewed everyone as a possible perpetrator given the opportunity, no matter how nice they are. I didn’t give anyone a chance to prove they weren’t.
I never leave my kids with anyone but Grandparents. I will not let my child be abused!
They should be brought up on criminal charges
9/10 SA is normally committed by family members. An also family friends x
Grandparents abuse too. Boy have I got stories...@@terraphleb
This is so heart wrenching. She never had a minute of peace, no safe space, no guardian, just predators.
I know right, ughhh.
I had a very similar childhood it’s horrible and takes huge toll on your mental health
@@eydra1452 I am so very sorry. Every child deserves security, happiness and love. It always makes me so very sad and so outraged to hear such stories.
@@eydra1452I hope you are doing better now. Or as “better” as you can be. ❤❤❤ I’m sure you’re a very strong person. I’m sorry you had to go through that 😢
When she said that her mom left her with family members because she didn’t trust strangers?!??! The way Senne said it just broke my heart.
To the man making these videos. Thank you for giving victims a voice. It can be very therapeutic to talk about your pain.
No hate to the interviewer but i feel like theyd be more comfortable with a woman interviewer
@@Cosmicvznnobody asked you freak
@@CosmicvznThey come to him to be interviewed he don't go to them. He pays them a small fee to be interviewed.
The survivor said somewhere in the comments section that the interviewer was yawning the entire time they were making this video.
@@Cosmicvzn the survivor in the video was abused by women as well so IDK how much that’d help. because the comment above mine said the interviewer was yawning, maybe an interviewer who gaf would have helped.
These are the kids I worried about during Covid lockdowns. Stuck at home with the worst of humans.
This is what I kept saying during covid. CPS reports plummeted, abused children weren't being discovered. 10% of reportings are made by schools alone. Then to add human trafficking the world is just a mess.
They have to live there always every afternoon til the morning- Christmas break spring break summer break. They only have these people. What do you mean lockdown
@@elizabethlloyd3013you may recall Covid, also referred to as the lockdown. Kids who live in an unsafe environment were unable to have some measure of relief by going to school and away from all that.
@@candacebrandt8211exactly. Also not getting fed at school. Lots of children have simply disappeared since lockdown. "The missing children of lockdown" is a real life horror.
Exactly. I'm a teacher and I worried so much for my babies who I knee had rough home lives.
Her voice might be soft and demure, but this girl is a straight up warrior. Amazing resilience and strength to endure what she has. She’s beautiful inside and out and I hope she’s treating herself so kindly in this second part of her life. She is so worthy 🦋
Her voice is like that because she was told she didn’t matter by everyone in her life.
Go back to booktok and stop fetishising trauma you gooner
It's a guy, not a woman
@@jennyhateseverythingit's a guy
@@randymarsh9488 you’re not funny, you guys will say this to any woman who’s obviously a person of color. She has ethnic features. And she doesn’t even look trans.
Looking back at high school in the 80’s, I ache now for the kids who we considered “weird” or different somehow. Now I know that some of them had miserable, abusive home lives. We never could have imagined what they were going through then. I wish healing and peace for Senne. 🙏
Same! Or the children you were t to school with that became drug addicts or alcoholics, even the addicts/alcoholics who came from what seems to have been a great home life. Maybe that home life wasnt great after all.
I remember a kid in my grade showed me the cigarette burns on her arms and a scar where she was burned by an iron. Coming from an abusive household myself, I remember thinking oh she has it worse than I do. It wasn’t until I was much older that I realized I should have done something to help her. I still wonder became of her.
Same for the 90s too. I remember in like 3rd grade, this set of twins moved to our school and they were extremely aggressive towards ALL the other kids. Like a level that I couldnt comprehend at that age. I was terrified of them. I think back now in my thirties and wonder what kind of home they must have experienced up until that point to be so aggressive as such young kids. Breaks my heart.
U read my mind. Thats exactly how i think remembering those kids from my class and i just hate it that i was not mature enough to try to get close to them and figure out whats wrong with them. Too late, now. ((
I had a best friend in 6th grade. She got bullied mercilessly for being “weird” and for always coming to school smelling like smoke. Because I was the only friend she had, I would go over to her house. Her father was actively dying from lung cancer. He had a coffee tin by his bed full of spit and blood. The coughing is something that stuck with me to this day. My 12 year old friend was about to lose her father, and she got no solace at school either. I think of her very often.
I know people are saying just spit it out but for some people they're reliving the trauma all over in there head and they struggle to articulate.
Exactly, and when you try to talk about it the stress responses are activated (fight/flight/freeze) and as they become activated the language center of the brain starts shutting down. When this happens for me I end up talking in really strange patterns with big gaps between words, I’ll keep repeating the same word over and over because I can’t work out what word I’m trying to find that’s supposed to come next in the sentence, and I start to stutter as well (when I don’t stutter at all normally). All I can say is, I feel for her because I know I get so frustrated and I WISH I could just spit the words out, but it’s not possible…
Exactly! Plus when Mark does interviews with people who struggle to speak like her, I just turn the playback speed up faster. I heard her interview in a way that it was faster than most. Not because I didn’t like her way of speaking. But because it’s hard to find the time to watch an almost hour & a half long video.
I think she's dissociating as she tells what happened.
Spot on and I'm glad you clarified that for those that don't understand trauma and how it appears. 🙏
Yes…she speaks in a child like voice because as you said, she is emotionally stunted. She is verbally stunted too because of the emotional damage done to her. She speaks at about the age when the majority of the damage was done to her. That’s my humble opinion. It’s almost like an alter.
When you close your eyes and listen, you can hear a very fragile, vulnerable and innocent child who remains within this brave lady , feeling everything like it happened yesterday. God bless her.
You can keep your eyes open and it still has the same effect.
U dont need to close your eyes to hear it.
If you keep your eyes open, you can also see that small child.
That’s a big part of having your childhood robbed of you. The mentality and desire to get that back is the ultimate addiction
Yes..the voice...😢
She said her mother left her with family because she didn't trust strangers yet the family turned out to be worse. She would've been better off with a (normal) babysitter. What a warped family! I hope this girl can find some sort of healing and peace from all the horrific trauma.
Sadly it is their culture, I am pretty sure I know which religion, but other religions of the sub continent have similar vile standards. What a cruel existence you had Senne, nobody deserves such treatment.
I was thinking the same thing and how there's no anger towards her mom.
God bless this child 🙏
well we trust our families
@@michelemiletich7540 in this case, that was a big mistake
Her commitment and dedication to help herself and regulate after her trauma is so incredibly admirable. She chose to help herself when nobody else did. I hope she experiences nothing but joy and peace and healing from here on out.
Most important thing I learned from “soft white underbelly” is that everyone has a story and each is interesting and you will learn something. Thanks for opening my mind to this point of view.
Mixed in with a whole bunch of scammers, bs artists and self promoters
Also, watching these horrific stories shows me how awesome and wonderful my situation is. Comparatively I am blessed beyond belief!!
Truth
@@bruce274always got that one
I mean what could a person with zero background in psychology possibly learn from this. It’s just drama you enjoy drama and that’s ok. It’s like that family he used to have on here, people just gawk and pretend to be intellectuals who are learning. You want to actually learn take a course
It doesn’t matter how young she was, her body remembers. The body holds the trauma.
This is very true. It also speaks to her memory as early as 2 years old. She can’t recall the details but when her body feels the same threat she recalls the experience.
That’s made up BS
A lot of people have memories from that young but mark feels the need to voice his doubt and invalidate people every opportunity he gets
I have memories from the first couple years my councellor was shocked but it just sticks in your head for some unknown reason, for me, no emotion towards it. Like it wasn’t me. Odd. I understand why she remembers I don’t think he disbelieves her just was shocked at the age she remembers
I can clearly remember warmth, love, woman other than my mother cooking and other kids laying. We were one and a half years old, certainly not more than two. Next, quite complex memory is from home and the way to hospital when brother was born. Both are very positive, quite a bit darker times came later..
I totally understand what she’s saying at the 1 hour mark. My therapists and family keep telling me moving won’t help as much as I think, but I’m so tired of being constantly triggered by my surroundings.
I’m so proud of her for getting far away from her family. She is truly a beacon of strength
moving will 100% help, trust me
Your therapist is so wrong. I moved. Best choice ever. Get out and start over. You deserve it.
Moving absolutely helps!
Moving helped me a lot. I won't ever go back.
I could see cautioning someone that moving won’t be a “cure-all” and fix everything, but I can’t see how it could hurt. Fresh surroundings, fresh start.
When i watch these videos i always thank my MOM & DAD for being the best parents in the WORLD!!
Same hare. i feel so incredibly blessed and lucky to have won the jackpot with my parents!! 🙏🏻💝
SAME!!!
Absolutely. So grateful and humbled
I was blessed to have great parents as well.
This is so deep. She was physically and sexually abused badly for 11 years. But for 7 years her mom emotionally abused her. And that 7 years outweighed the 11 years. She barely cried until she talked about her mom. Wow. 🤯
I noticed this too and it is so real.
Yeah I was sexually abused too, but that was nothing compared to the abuse from my mother.
Really struck/affected me too
I noticed and began to cry with her too because I know what those mommys hurt you like.
Bc out of everyone, you’d expect the person who birthed you would love you regardless. Regardless of the shit they put you through they still loved you-and when even THAT is gone, what’s left?
This is so fucked up for her I was molested at the age of five by my father and I can tell you from a man’s perspective,It completely shaped my whole identity and my future as a human being on this planet. I can only imagine what it does to a woman who is still developing as a young girl and had to go through that same horror, I’m so hurt by what she had to go through that is absolutely terrible.😢
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💔😭 He will face GOD'S wrath.
It blows my mind that people can be capable of this towards children I’m sorry bro I just can’t even understand or begin to understand all I can do is just be sorry that this happened to you.
@@kimt1054nice thought but no he won't
I was molested at about, I was 6-8, I'm not sure, I didn't remember until about 13 or 14. My brain locked it away & I don't think I would've ever known about it if my sister hadn't brought it up, bc apparently she walked in on it happening but never said anything. My brain decided it was too fkd up to remember so it locked it away in the "Do Not Touch" part of my mind. When the memory came back, it came back hard, it was like reliving it all over again. Everything was so raw & vivid & I remembered every detail, down to the flowers on the blanket & the nightgown I was in. Ok that SA is traumatic for everyone that has been through it, but I think it may actually be worse for boys that are SA'd by another male bc it's emasculating & something about another guy touching you like that goes deeper than just the SA, it destroys everything about you that makes you a male. Idk, it was in my head what I wanted to say, but them I started typing & I lost it. Yeah, another great thing from my SA's (yeah, I've had more that 1) is short term memory loss, & I'm pretty sure the drug addiction that followed the 1st one didn't help. I'm clean now, but it took years to reach that.
What I'm trying to say is, I don't think SA is any less traumatizing for a female than it is a male, but I think it may actually cause more psychological trauma for a guy.
This girl looks younger than my daughter.. all I want to do is protect her. She has been let down her whole life. Some people don’t deserve children.
Amen to that!👏👏♥️♥️
I just want to hop through the screen and give her a hug and tell her how strong, smart, brave and beautiful she is. I hope the beach helps heal her soul and she finds a support system out there that allows her to have an amazing life.
I say this all the time.
@@PNUTCAMPUSKING thank you so much ❤ I haven’t been to a real beach before and it was amazing! This island is truly healing and I’m ready to move forward
Thank you ❤
For some reason when I saw the thumbnail and title, I thought she was going to be discussing her job as a haunted house actor.
Glad I wasn't rhe only one
OMG Me too . But I thought more like a haunted house fetish type situation ... lol
My exact thoughts. Three minutes in and I’m already worried for what’s about to happen
Same
Same
Never before in my 46 years have I felt such an urge to comfort and protect a person who isn't a family member.
You are a beautiful person whose life is of great value. You deserve to find peace and happiness, which I dearly wish for you, Senne.
My dad remembers when he was 2 and he was separated from his brother in foster care..my dad is 62 and remembers that vividly 😢 I'm just glad he met my mom and made the family he always wanted
I remember things from a very early age ! My mom asks me all the time how do I remember certain things,she use to think someone told me, until I told her something that happened and only me and her was present and she never told anyone!!
funny i am 62 and my family came to nz frm uk i remember images frm before 3 and one memory frm as a baby so absolutely he remembers.glad you come frm a happy family
When your only evidence in your own memory it really doesn't mean much. People tend to think they have accurate memories because they can picture it in their mind and they assume it's like a recording the brain saved to be looked at anytime. But that's not how it works at all. It's proven beyond doubt that memories are manipulated through our entire life by our own brain. Not only that but outside forces can actually change how one remembers things. In reality our memories are not recordings but what your current mind has put together with a lifetime of fragmented memories and experiences.
@@tokivikerness8863that’s true
@@tokivikerness8863 Have you ever been abused in any way?
Snakker du norsk?
I'm a retired therapist and she presents as the most intelligent and resilient person I have ever seen to have been through more hell than most people will face in a lifetime. All her relatives, especially the mother, don't have a clue as to how much damage they have caused her. Her family is a lost cause and she should never trust them. She is a beautiful precious young woman who has overcome so much! Please don't kill your beautiful life! If family aren't for you walk away. You don't know your own strength until you stand on your own strength! Bless her heart! She has affected me so strongly and just keep putting one foot in front of the other! God bless you 🙏
facts. Can someone do a video about me and my family? It was literally exactly what this woman is describing. The answer is no. No one gives a fuck and its so sad. All of my family members who abused us are fine, not in jail, and not paying consequences. This unfortunately happens to a lot of people.
specially the mother? sorry but her male relatives and cousin literally r*ped her as a child...
@@AMunoz-rh9cz lol humor me.
@@AMunoz-rh9cz your account is fucking fake.
This is Mark using really advanced social media boosting tools to add fake comments.
You can tell she's in therapy. She's making sense of what's wrong and right. I'm so happy she's talking about it. It's the only way to heal. What a sweet soul whose lived 30 lives before I was even born and I'm 44. Bravo for graduating college too. I love this girl.
This man should not be interviewing her though he does not know how to react to trauma. Opening up to anyone and they react wrong can be traumatic in and of itself
@@barbqueue-v8v they're not forced to give interviews. I think he acted fine. She knows this guy isn't a therapist.
I just want to hold this girl's hand. Give her space and safety.
I feel these interviews are just for entertainment and provocation. Interviewer seems blunt and rude. What is his responsibility when he after he asks these people to share their stories? None. Unethical.
I really hope she is!
thank you so much! it feels like a lifetime of abuse but I'm so glad to actually start my life and take control of it
I had a horrible traumatic childhood as well, it leaves scars that no one can see. I'm just now starting to heal finally at 38 with the power of Christ, therapy, groups, etc. I pray this lady gets the help and healing she deserves 🙏❤️
I hope for your healing and sending love
Why did Christ allow that to happen to you and children in general if he is real ?
@@Soyloca666 I don't question God, I firmly believe that everything I've been through happened for a reason and has made me into the woman I am today and I love myself today 💞
Christ is beautiful. He is our hope. He is the only light my darkness, I pray that He shines even brighter for you in yours.
@Soyloca666 Christ has given us all the choice to do evil or to be good. In our theology it may seem like these monsters get away with it but trust me, I've traveled to where they go in a vision. They receive their consequences in full.
telling your baby girl to stop talking about it is absolutely heartbreaking. I hope you have all the love that you deserve now. i’m rooting for you girlie
thank you!
heartbreaking and common
@@j.r.4627exactly why should she ever stop speaking up
@@SenneXplainsyou a strong woman I been thru similar to u u are inspiration u didn’t let ur horrible family define you that’s strength god bless you
@@SenneXplainsI just want to wish you the best day in the world. I hope you out of every single person in this universe have the best day. Im rooting for you. Thank you for being here and thank you for your courage.
Senne's story is a testament to the human spirit. To go through so much negativity, so much pain, so much abuse, yet come out on the other side wanting to live, wanting to contribute, wanting to make things better is inspirational. I wish her all the best.
She is lying!!! There is no true emotion here. How can you people not see this? She is for sure here to promote her OF or something....
SAME COMMENTSEVERYTIME .MOST OF THESE PPL ARE LYING LIKE A RUG . FOR ATTENTION AND MARKS MONEY .TF
@@travisanderson8771That's because 95% of the people Mark interviews have been abused in childhood, what tf is wrong with you? Don't you have any empathy? 🙄
@@travisanderson8771 I understand. Sometimes it does become repetitive. But it's because each person like Senne is equally amazing. If you've watched SWU for any length of time, you know some of the most damaged of society are mired in drug and alcohol abuse, homelessness, and s@x work/p0rn. Senne, and others like her, rose above seemingly impossible obstacles, not only surviving circumstances that would break most people, but coming out whole, willing to be in the world, working in it, making it better. And each are, in my humble opinion, worthy of admiration.
@@travisanderson8771 You were not there! Please stop judging. Blessings x🙏♥️
The silence between her words is the most silent silence, I 've ever heard...
Horrible, to have to live through all of this. I'm so glad, she is so incredibly strong to be here and talk about this.
Yes, it’s very hard to follow. Poor girl, she can barely get the words out
@@lisamichels1825....that....or she's just earning English and thinks trauma is how America's youth bond. And when there is no abuse, just make up some. I bet she's not a familiar face on skid row.
Thts such a brutual thing to say to someone whos been through a lot. Reflect on urself.@@landofthelivingskies3318
@@landofthelivingskies3318you think she’s lying?
@@landofthelivingskies3318she grew up in America so she’s fluent
Seeing her smile when talking about her job ❤ I am honestly very impressed that after going through everything instead of being a person full of hate shes still an angel
This is one of the hardest interviews to sit through. The human race is so vile, abusive, and depraved, and it honestly makes me wonder how there is any good that happens in this world. Abuse of animals and children should result in corporal punishment. I pray that you continue to be resilient and focused on healing from your trauma, Senne.
Yes and the mother said "dont talk about it." she need to talk about it!!
We’ve been doing corporal punishment for thousands of years and things are still as fucked as ever. Maybe it’s time to try something new.
Most people aren't vile, abusive or depraved. As in the vast majority of the human race is not like that. You just don't hear the everyday good news stories that abound because that doesn't sell. Don't lose your faith in humanity. There is a lot of good to be found if you just look. Peace ✌🏼
"Corporal punishment"?
Did you mean capital punishment?
That doesn't fix generations of trauma and abuse.
Understanding where the trauma comes from and how it repeats breaks the cycles of abuse.
Most paedophiles and abusive people were also horribly abused themselves as children. That's why they are like they are.
Harsher punishment is not a deterrent.
@gimmedimmy6533
They mean spanking. That is called corporal punishment. And they are saying it hasn't helped in thousands of years so maybe we should stop. 😊
You hear one thing she says and you think “it can’t get worst”….. yet it does. I wish this young woman nothing but the best and a future filled with endless brightness.
I lived it and I'm still asking myself "what's next?" Life is a journey though I am still walking through it so that has to account for something. Thank you!
@@SenneXplains I’m so sorry, but it’s sure to get better from here. You’re so strong and you deserve the world ❤️
Just what I was thinking....she kept revealing one trauma after another and I sat here saying to myself ...how can it get any worse 😢 Prayers and blessings for this beautiful soul❤
Just what I was thinking....she kept revealing one trauma after another and I sat here saying to myself ...how can it get any worse 😢 Prayers and blessings for this beautiful soul❤
My god this girls voice cuts into my soul. She sounds so fragile but her words are indestructible
She sounds very intelligent too. I hope she’s doing well
same. i am having a really hard time listening to the story. i keep uttering “scum bags wtf they at”. i have so many questions!
I think it’s because of the trauma she went through at such a young age
Hearing her voice break in between words😢
Her voice is reminiscent of a young child, but yet somehow holds the power of all the ancestors cheering her victory in unison.
I saw her short and wasted no time and typed it in the search bar. Her story, being told low and subtle, apprentice screamed out to me.
FYI u usually don’t have to search. This one is linked on the short rt at the caption spot.
Everything that happened to you was not your fault or your brothers. Your parents should be in prison for what they put you through.Anyone that touched you as a child should be punished. You're a beautiful young woman, and I am so proud of you for telling your story. I'm so sorry for all you have been through. I wish you the best in life. God bless you.🦋
"God bless you"
Best comment yet thank you so much for saying this to this brave beautiful soul. Sienne, I’m so very immensely sorry for the abuse you went through. You are a survivor thank you for your bravery and your story and for raising awareness for victims of abuse. You are very strong and brave. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. Hoping you are in a better place now. I send you my Love and Compassion. Lauren. (((HuGs))))~*~*Blessings to you and may your life be blessed and way better moving forward I hope you find the love, validation and support you need and deserve. May you find peace. 🕊️
Agreed
Beautifully put
My heart goes out😢❤
So the moral of the story is: don’t leave your kids alone with anyone EVER.
100 percent. There are sick individuals out there!
I didn't. Sleepovers only at my home. One trusted babysitter and very few trusted immediate relatives. Once my son was old enough to have a girlfriend, I was shocked at how many parents dropped their 15 year old daughters at my house never even meeting us.
@@mrs.beasley1979u sound like my mom. She was so protective yet it happened. She trusted no one except her parents. Well her dad touched me
So sorry to hear that:(
Sadly - nor your grandparents
her voice is like a little girls so much pain and vulnerability, so much trauma in her family. she has so much potential and has a sweet heart. i pray for her to have her best life
The little girls voice is very common in women that were abused at a very, very young age.. as soon as I heard her voice, I knew there was a lot of sexual abuse in her past. It’s a telltale sign.
Not necessarily true. It's quite common in Asian cultures to have that juvenile voice late into adulthood. Let's not play TH-cam psychologist over every little detail.
@@earth2saka go look it up… It’s a thing.. As soon as I heard her voice, I knew there were sexual abuse in her past.. and well I wasn’t wrong was I? Does that mean everyone with a little girl voice was sexually abused? Of course not but it is a telltale sign.
Oh i was wondering about this...@@Solitaire427
This does happen. But It’s quite possible also that she is like 5’0” tall.
2:06 she's describing trauma that happens before you have the capacity of language. The feelings are viseral and unexplainable because of this lack of language at the time.
I have memories at young ages. I remember having an extremely horrible case of chicken pox at 2 and a half years old. I remember falling down the stairs at the age of around 4 years old. I think that we remember things that are scary to us. This poor young lady went through so much trauma at suck a young age. She seems so sad. 💔😟
Her family failed her so badly.
Thank you for explaining this. I have a memory from long ago that I can see but can describe
So powerful to hear her say that the mental abuse was worse than the physical abuse. My heart goes out to this young lady because I know her pain. I had to stuff my feelings down for my mentally abusive/narcissistic mother, and it still affects me to this day.
Myself also. And I’m in my 50’s
@@TheAnngirlI'm 48...it seems to just get worse, the pain😢
@@TheAnngirl
Yep, me too at almost 60. Mental/emotional abuse is horrific. Not to mention the physical and sexual abuse
Omg same. Sometimes I feel like physical abuse while no less horrible, would be easier to understand. Physical abuse is black and white.
@@JessGraham-p3y
I've been divorced for over 15yrs and I still have PTSD due to the verbal/emotional and psychological abuse that my ex put me through.
This is not fair, her story broke my heart. Her voice so delicate and her trembling so innocent but so damaged that she did not choose. I hope she thrives and breaks her tragedy. She is so beautiful and brave and courageous. Thank you for letting her tell her story. I hope she felt any amount of relief and simply just cared about. I care.
agree, and I care too.
Her story makes me feel so ill. I wish someone would've saved her in any way, but I suspect her culture didn't allow for her to speak to teachers, (if she even went to school), friends parent's (if she EVEN was allowed friends)...oh dear we are doomed, just based on this childs experience. Knowing millions of children endure this makes me wish for nuclear decimation of ONLY the human species...never happen, but I can still wonder if it might be better...beyond horrific. Juko is in heaven, understanding you, child.
Sadly, it happens to many of us.
@@wrmlm37 what culture do u think she is specifically? Jw
@@slimchism6643 My guess would be Chinese, Heart breaking to think she's walking on eggshells as a small child, While everyone else was on a no boundaries free for all ..... Than berated for feeling anything or making normal mistakes when she was to young to be having that responsibility in the first place, 🙏🏽💙😢 I truly hope you don't shoulder any blame for being surrounded by chaos. The Metal blow's had to be unbearable numb is the brains kill switch/ over load.... People see you, and care 🫂
I have never wanted to hug someone more than Senne. I am pray that you have the best that life can offer in Hawaii. Keep speaking your truth
Thank you!
@@SenneXplainsGod bless you sweetheart may our blessed mother watch over you & protect you 🙏🌹💔😪☘️🇮🇪
One of the most impactful video shares. Her strength is profound. You’re a good listener, letting her be free.
Senne - I grew up with an abusive Asian mother and I agree with you that the mental abuse is worse than the rest. It feels like your real brain has been hijacked by the rewiring that occurred before you even knew it was happening. I understand, and I’m so so sorry you’re living with this. Please read or listen to “What My Bones Know” by Stephanie Foo if you haven’t yet. I’m still struggling, but it did help. I love you sister, and I really wish you the best in your quest to recover your real self back from your personal tyrant. Please remember: don’t let people tell you there’s nothing wrong with you. There is, but it really and truly is not your fault.
Thank you for posting this book/podcast. Oh My how valuable for those of us who have gone through trauma.
This. The Asian daughters of this generation are going to break the curse for good. Stay strong sisters ❤
Sending blessings ur way fam. We on this road to healing together. I tend to forget often that we are not alone that's why I watch these videos to remind myself
The body keeps the score ,is also good 😢😢
@@TaylorLee you’ve given me more energy to keep healing. Thank you.
She is such a sweet and beautiful person. I feel so sorry. I am 70 years old and went through a very dramatic childhood. I just want to tell her: never ever give up! You are a sweetheart and you don’t deserve what they did to you. I would never ever have told everything so free as you did. You are very brave! Sending love to you from far away!
Glad you've made it & are still with us. Much love your way ❤
I hope to live as long as you and be just as brave! Thank you ❤
@@SenneXplains you will sweetheart, concentrate on positive things and people who support you. I did a lot of therapy. Walking in nature helped me a lot. Maybe you have a god given talent for something. A hobby is a good thing to develop. I wish you all the best. You have a strong personality, you can do it , I believe that you can. If no one else around believes in you , you are your own best friend, trust in your instincts. Sending you love and a big virtual hug. Sorry for my basic English, my mothertongue is German.
Senne went through all of that horrendous abuse, and she still wants to give. Senne, you are a sweetheart. ❤
Children deserve to feel loved and cared for. I never want any child to go through what I went through. Unfortunately with the world we live in, that isn’t realistic but I can do my part in providing that safety and support to the children I work with ❤
@@SenneXplainsThank you for sharing your story, I’m so very sorry for what you went through, it must have been so traumatic, I wish I could give you a big warm hug. Sending peace, love and empathy, I’m crying with you❤
the strength shown by senne is humbling. through adversity such strength but retaining her kindness. i wish you all the best in this world. thank you for your story and thank you for the work you do now
I worked with the Department of Children & Families for years. Some of the stories are absolutely horrific. Yet, I was always continuously impressed with the resiliency and strength children showed. And it was so beautiful when they finally experienced someone who cared about them and you saw them thrive.
Must have been hard to work for such a corrupt organization.
I am so thankful for your willingness to work in this area . It is so important. I worked with children as a speech therapist for many years and loved helping kids. However I could never have done what you did, it would have been too triggering. Again, kudos to you!
Thank you for being patient with her and allowing her to tell her story. My heart goes out to her. It takes so much courage to share something so personal and traumatic. And her level of self awareness tells me that there is so much hope of her being able to continue to heal and work through all the traumas and create a much better life for herself as an adult than the one that was forced on her as a child. I believe in you, Senne!
My story is very similar to your story. I wasade a 5150 when I was 30 yrs old from a suicide attempt. I wrote a poem when I was 16 called Only when I cry. It goes- I look at life without feelings, time just passing by. Life is like an untold story with my feelings stuffed inside. I cant express my feelings, I don't know why I even try. The only time someone listens to me is only when I cry. Is life really worth living, most days I want to die. The only time I have reason to live is only when I cry. I was hospitalized 4 times. In my 40s I dated a narcissist and my life got so much worse. To include being choked unconscious, body slammed on the floor etc. The police had to kick my door in to arrest him. Guns drawn and police dogs. But in that time I finally learned how to love myself. Now I'm 52 and finally have peace in my life and 2 small dogs that I love dearly. Thank you for sharing your story ❤
"The only time someone listens to me is only when I cry" wow... This line cuts to the bone. I'm so sorry for what you went through, friend. I'm glad you're still here. 🌻
And thank you for sharing yours. It's incredible how much pain people can endure and especially for how long.
I am so happy that you are doing well these days. You deserve to enjoy every day for the rest of your life, and even better to have dogs as your family showing you so much love. Be well.
Survivors are a remarkable type of species!
You did great on this poem. I wrote some of my best poems when I was in a dark place. ❤❤
I would be so proud to have Senne as a daughter. Despite everything, she has strength and hope, bringing good into the world. 🌻
Having the fortitude to tell your story to the entire world is something to be admired. This girl is a warrior.
Thank you! After being silenced for years, I was able to let it all out and finally move forward and heal.
When I look at this girl I saw a warrior on the outside and a hurting child on the inside. Her timid voice, studdered and hesitant speaking, almost like she's still scared.
I can't imagine her childhood. But to see she's turned out to be a beautiful, strong, resilient woman, so proud of her! She deserves all the happiness this life has to offer. ❤
Thank you!
I know this isn’t realistic but I wish there was a test to confirm parents were fit to bring a child into the world and could do regular check ins for the first few years to confirm health, safety and proper housing. Maybe even continued parenting classes. Wishful thinking. 😢 thank you for having the courage to share Senne.
A solid mental evaluation wouldn’t hurt and financial stability for that matter
I always found it strange you need a license to go fishing but no kind of checks necessary to be a parent
@@bentheredonethat-lx6nh Lmao strange projection. Not sure how my personal background is relevant to the comment I made but I'm a british disabled woman and I paid taxes while I was able to work. Not sure many brits would describe ourselves as patriots, we're too dry for that, that's kind of an american thing, though I think most of us have a strong affection/pride for parts of our culture. My parents are still married and have had a fairly equal relationship in terms of earning and housework, which is one of the main things they credit for a healthy relationship. They also waited to become financially stable before having kids and planned for us long term. I'm very grateful to them and I wish all kids had that kind of support
I deeply agree. Three kids over here and I am not perfect but I take so much pride in being a mom. I think everyone should be required by law to take basic first aid class(es) because wow, the park moms are clueless.
Aldous Huxley agrees it will happen.
I don't think government should have a role in it. Can't destroy autonomy, even if it rarely creates situations like this. Freedom is greater than safety.
i relate to this woman so much, down to the trauma, bpd, even the scoliosis. your body absolutely manifests trauma into physical problems. she looked so happy when she said it was her decision to move to hawaii. i love that she finally got to make her own life decisions that made her happy❤
There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you!! You are so strong and a survivor!! You’re amazing!!
Thank you❤
As a social worker I really appreciate these videos. This is the kind of trauma I hear everyday from my clients. Trauma affects almost everyone in this world. My heart goes out to every child who has experienced a traumatic event. I hope the girl in the video, and any child who has experienced such hell on this earth thrives as an adult and is able to heal and not continue the cycle. No child deserves this! ☹️
Hello, I am a clinical psychologist and wanted to reach out to you as another professional in the field. I definitely believe without doubt that this woman has been through terrible abuse in her life, however, I wondered if you picked up on some embellishment or a few things that didn’t add up while listening to her story? Obviously, these can be symptoms of her diagnosed BPD. Either way, it is great that she is under good care now but I genuinely just wanted your take on this. Thank you.
@@elisabettamoretti-mx5hkAbsolutely. There are a few I have watched where the stories don’t add up. I respect you for the work you do! ❤
@@Datbishh33 same to you!
I went to grad school for clinical psychology. Left the program after 4.5 years towards PhD. My experience was that psychologists were the most stigmatizing towards mental illness. I enjoy learning about psychology and human behavior but it wasnt for me.
@Inner_wild_childthis 👏🏻👏🏻
As someone born and raised in Hawai'i. Her able to make it through so much trama, she'd really fit in with alot of the great locals of the islands. There's alot of people that would bring her in as family and treat her with the respect she deserves. Much love and aloha to this brave young lady ❤️
Agreed 👍
I don't think it has anything to do with a location dude. Good and bad things happen everywhere, and there's good and bad people everywhere.
@@notoriousPcp my comment was just a hypothetical brother. All I meant is, if she was to come across some of the better people of my homeland, it would've been awesome.
That's cool they weren't so friendly to my friend when she was lil
Given the history of non native migrants to the islands that's very kind of you to express such welcoming and caring words for her. ❤️
If you see this Senne I want to say how incredible I think you are, the grace and strength you display is inspiring. You are such an intelligent articulate beautiful young woman and I wish you all the best in your life. Thank you for telling your story, much love ❤️.
The way you make your guests feel safe to talk and don't force them to stay on traumatic topics if they feel uncomfortable, is heartwarming.
She has such a soft and beautiful voice. I’m glad she is able to use her voice to share her story. I wish her the best.
I am so self-conscious about my voice but thank you for finding it soft and beautiful. I’m grateful I was able to share my story.
@@SenneXplains you are beautiful and you matter.
@@SenneXplainsyou have an asmr voice for sure. Thank you for telling your story. Stay well 🤲🏻
@@SenneXplainsYou are beautiful inside and out. You are invaluable and I hope you get to realise one day ❤
I really hope you're taking precautions before, during and after these interviews.
I'm serious.
Don't leave someone like this, a survivor of the most horrific of human behavior.... to walk out of your care feeling as if they are exactly 8 years old again...
All the time you take through this interview... I pray that you are taking time after to empower, embrace, heal and support 🙏🏼
This re-triggering could definitely trigger suicidal behaviours, especially as a lot of these people have disorders. Maybe he does have some aftercare support for them, I really really hope so.
I'm almost positive he gives them resources if needed and also talks to them he just shows their stories in these interviews@@BethSpary
I don’t know for sure but believe he does, with the way that people come back again to be interview by him. Also with all the editing, I’m sure they take breaks when needed to make sure the guest is ok. Idrk tho I’m just assuming
I am not trying to shed a bad light on Mark because he does provide a platform for those who don’t have a voice but I will be frank and honest. I left crying in a mess and feeling used. He said that hour long videos don’t get enough views… I told him I’m sorry and he can cut out whatever to make it shorter.
@@BethSparyThere is no aftercare. He didn’t talk to me before the interview or after. He just rolled the camera and when it was done, he said it was too long. I apologized and told him to cut or edit whatever he wants. I left crying and feeling used. But that’s LA I guess.
all i want to do is hug her, senne seems so sweet and kindhearted and just listening to her story made me cry so much, it makes me wish i could go back to that time and save her. trauma is so hard to deal with and im so proud of her for still being here and for continuing to heal. she deserves the world and if i were to ever meet her i’d give her the biggest hug
The context of her explaining her culture and where she’s from notates that she’s Hmong. Unfortunately, there are some concepts of our culture that we are still struggling with. Whether it’s generational trauma from the War, or immigrating into our new country, there is no excuse for sexual abuse. Finally, these things in our culture are being spoken about. Go you Senne, thank you being strong and being able to speak to on behalf of your own ability. Txoj quaj os mos, peb hmoob tseem hlub koj os.
Yea I guessed Hmong too. I grew up in a state with the largest Hmong population, and a lot of my bestfriends growing up were Hmong. Very strong people, but unfortunately a lot of destructive/abusive behavior towards my friends growing up.
When she said she was from Wisconsin originally, I thought it might be that too. Cause of course there's a huge hmong population there
Thank you Senne for telling your story. I love how you lit up at the end talking about the children you're helping. You have found your calling and have the experiences to help better understand these kids. Thank you Thank you for helping others!
Thank you! All children deserve love and care. I feel so blessed being apart of such an important part of their lives.
I have never wanted to reach thru a screen and hug someone so much. I cried thru this whole video. I’m so sorry u went thru all this and I’m proud of u for being so strong 💜
Aww I’m so sorry my story made you cry… I wish I could give you a hug too! ❤
@@SenneXplainsI’m proud of u for staying strong and moving towards healing. Sending u all the love ur heart can stand. Keep moving towards happiness ❤
Young lady....you are an incredible person and you have touched our souls....Aloha is real...learn about hooponopono....it can heal you...your story scared me for my daughter....it hurt my heart to watch you relive this abuse....but the Spirit of God is with you my dear....go prove to all those little kids that LOVE is the greatest thing in the universe! Thank you for your courage....you inspire us all...
Me too.
@SenneXplains You are so strong and beautiful. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make all your bad memories and pain away. And I'd rather not tell you what I wish I could do to punish all the people who cause it. Please take care and know that you are loved and admired by people that you'll never know. I wish you all the best and never forget what a beautiful survivor warrior you are.💕
I’m 27, and a mother of two - i just want to protect her. My heart aches terribly for her… i’m so proud of her and I hope she knows how strong, intelligent, and beautiful inside and out she is.
She’s amazing.
Hearing her stories and other stories like hers make me and push me to be the best mother I can be for my children… their safe space.
She's like a broken bird, but the bird is an eagle, there is strength and resilience despite the broken wings. I wish nothing but happiness and goodness for the rest of her life❤
🫶🏻 beautifully said Holly. ❤
lol shut up 😂😂😂
@heatherb9588 best part of you dripped down the Crack of your mommy's ass
@@heatherb9588BOOOOOOO 👎👎👎
Omg how lame
Dear Father in heaven, this sweet soul didn’t deserve any of this trauma, may she heal.
Dear Father in heaven, you could have prevented it.
Amen
You Christians are something else 😂
You're the one in control of your life.
@@easypeasy837 Thank god there's no god! There's only good and bad people and everything good and bad is only human's actions.
He knows... thats why Jesus had to come, take into His body all the sins that happened to her, you, me...everybody. He was perfect and gave it to us. He knew her trauma and tragedy still decided to come for her. Thank you LORD.
My bio mother disappeared when I was a little under two, and I have many memories of her. People my whole life told me I was probably just using my imagination and thinking it was real but when I finally met her again as an adult I asked her and each one she confirmed was a memory, good and bad. I also remember when she disappeared, I remember the fear and the pain I felt then and for years. I remember her showing me a map while sitting on her lap and her showing me where I was and where she was going (other side of the country) and I remember crying, and her telling me it wouldn’t be for a long long time and not to worry… she was gone the next morning. So yeah, trauma DOES sear memories into your head, even at 1-2 years old. Anyone saying it’s impossible should be grateful they didn’t have a trauma at that young of an age. It affects you your entire life.
This just made me cry. Wow
I'm so sorry. How do you feel about her now?
If I'm crying after reading your comment, I can only imagine (and do a poor job at that) how deeply that must've hurt you.
I hope you're doing better now!
Thanks for sharing this. You made me think back. I remember many things from my first 2 years of life. I remember the whole layout of the house, the pets and the overwhelming smell of cleaning products. I remember being in my baby body feeling helpless and unable to coordinate my movements. I just stared at my fluffy pink carpet from my crib and waited for my Mom to come back. It triggers me when others say I was too little to remember. Even counselors couldn't really take me seriously when I got to be an older child talking about my earliest memories.
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Many people remember things from infancy. It simply varies person to person.I remember things also that my mother has verified.
Couldn’t get through this one 😢❤ my sincere love and acknowledgment of her journey, goes to this guest❤
She has done well to stay sober having suffered so much trauma. I hope she finds love and prosperity ❤. Thanks Mark.
Not falling into drugs, alcohol, smoking, sex work, etc was truly my saving grace. I’m sure my life would have turned out very different if that were the case but I have so much compassion for the ones who are battling addiction and substance abuse.
This is not even questionably the most gut wrenching videos I have EVER seen in my life. I’m 32 years old and I have seen a lot. Thank god my mother was annoyingly over protective and protected me from any harm as much as she could.. I couldn’t imagine being alive living and being able to tell this story to a stranger yet alone the world.. I hope she is okay and thrives in her life. Truly a warrior. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you ❤
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Senne is so so brave. She deserves all the happiness in the world. Thank you for being so respectful when interviewing her. Your style of interview is incredibly unique and makes for vulnerable people to feel comfortable to open up.
I agree thank you mark for your kindness
Have to say this is the most extreme childhood I've ever been exposed to. She didn't even have a good friend to lean on. Frankly, I'm stunned that she is even walking and talking, and able to relate this story. God bless her and all the walking wounded out there😢😢😢
Senne, if this interview brings you anything, let it bring you the awareness that you are loved, that you are valued, and that you are not alone in the suffering. Thank you for sharing your story, and may you find peace in your heart someday. I know it doesn’t come easy. Please don’t give up.❤
Thank you for your kind words, I really needed to heart that ❤
@@SenneXplainswe are all rooting for you Senne! hope all is well with you 😌
Kudos to Mark for giving her the time she wanted and needed. She had intent and wasn't going to be rushed along. This woman has been through a lot, and what comes out the other side of it will be amazing.
I did feel rushed and felt bad as he was yawning and stretching. Afterwards he said it was too long and I told him to edit or cut what he wanted to. But I am grateful he let me talk at all.
@@SenneXplainsthat is terrible to hear you had to have that reaction when you were so strong throughout your time speaking. I am so sorry you felt rushed in any capacity and that he said it was too long at the end. You are a warrior of a person and did not deserve any of what these people did to you throughout your life. I hope you are finding some solace in Hawaii and continue recovering from the trauma you endured. ❤❤❤
@@SenneXplainsThat's so awful.. he was yawning and stretching? That's totally unacceptable. :(
Mark just exploits these people to line his own pockets. He's insensitive and offers no aftercare or resources. He's predatory.
Such a gentle timid soul my heart goes out to her
Thank you!
Sending all the love to this strong woman! ❤
There was violence in my home as an infant. My brother (age12) would put me under a small table and hang blankets all around. I remember looking up at the bottom of that table and seeing the brackets on the legs underneath. I was removed at 18 months, so I know these memories are that early. By brother was my champion and protector.
I hope you and your brother are living your best lives now. Good thing your brother did what he could to try to prevent you from visually having to witness the abuse taking place.
@@LittleWhoo we were separated when we were both removed, but we were reunited as adults. I remember how he hugged me so long when we met.
@@stacirizner4461 God bless you both. Wishing you the most happiness and stability possible
@stacirizner4461 I was separated from my brother and I can assure your brother, he thought of you every single minute of the day
Omg your story made me cry. Your brother was amazing and I’m so glad you were reunited ❤
What a sick family .They all need to be arrested
She's a BPD. All BPDs claim to have had a toxic family, when in reality THEY were the toxic one!
Shøt.
Many more sick families out there like this.
Before we arrest the world, let's hear from the family too. This lady definitely looks in need of help, granted.
I only see a few lose screws...🤣😂🤣😂
I grew up in Milwaukee around the Hmongs too. The toxicity that’s not talked about is mind blowing. It’s so normal to them. Cheating, abuse of every kind is so normal to them. I had so many young girl Hmong friends and i felt so bad for how suppressed they were and I knew this at 5. They couldn’t be happy like I could and I respect a lot of Asian women because there’s a high chance that they’re struggling when they go home.
What a sick culture!
What it means Hmong ?
@@evagreen9968 they are great people but a huge majority have experienced abuse yes. Not speaking for all of them some of the best people I know are Hmong!
@@NancyRamos-e9e An ethnic group from Laos or Vietnam that also lives in south China. In the US they mostly live in Wisconsin like this young woman, Minnesota and North Carolina.
@@Prizzy999and California. They *were originally indigenous to China, with a nomadic history (they were kicked out of their indigenous mountain lands, immigrated to Southeast Asia.) I grew up with many Hmong friends and I have to agree the parents were absolutely never around.
I just want to give her the biggest hug. ❤ you’re so strong! And not alone. Thank you for sharing your story!!
Thank you Mark! These interviews are very healing for me and would like to hear more. Being Asian, I understand her trauma and have also rejected my ethnic background completely. Thank you for letting her speak at her pace. A lot of us have a hard time verbalizing because we were taught not to feel. I am very proud of Senne and wish the best for her!
Thank you!
agree! i am asian too and i can resonate with her.
I’m in actual tears. Her explaining the abuse from her dad brings me so many flashbacks.
Sending you hugs ❤
I hope the right person see’s this and guides Senne into a counseling role. She is amazing and could help so many others out including herself. What a beautiful person…
Considering how she grew up being forced to parent her brothers, idk if that's something she'd want to do. I think she should be supported throughout life and I hope she finds her life passion 🙏
Right? Sometimes it's enough to just get through retelling it 😢@@kreissthekeeper
I am a teacher and caregiver. I don’t think I could be a counselor or therapist. I feel way too much empathy and would cry hearing other people’s stories. I wouldn’t be able to help them in a professional manner. But I do work with kids and that has brought me so much joy!
@@kreissthekeeperI work with children ❤️ they make me very happy and I’m blessed to be apart of such an important part of their lives
As a parent, sitting here listening to this is sickening. Hearing her talk about how they moved around, how her mom said “if it happens one more time, let me know”, hearing her experience of being punched in the face her first day of kindergarten.
My boy just started grade 1 and the thought of him starting school with a black eye inflicted by his dad, the person that is supposed to protect him, brings me to my knees.
I am so sorry no one protected you, I am so sorry no one interfered, I am just so sorry. I wish you peace in your life.
The people responsible should be removed from society permanently.
This poor girl is deeply struggling and so overwhelmed 😢 ❤
Absolutely but I can't help but wonder if maybe she would be better served to deal with her trauma in private therapy and come to terms with it a bit further before sharing it all publicly in an effort to help others.
As the saying goes, you've got to save yourself before you can save other people. .
@doomrat I hear what you're saying ... but everyone is different... anyone who talks to Mark actually might be taking the 1st step before they can be enclosed in an Office with a Therapist ... it could actually work both ways.
Being brave enough to speak out on ANY platform I think is in the ' First Step ' phase of liberating, Coping, and Healing.
Can you imagine how much progress she's made to be even able to discuss it like this.. let alone to have fully digested it all.. we're talking years and years of constant therapy and working on herself .. now idk if youtube is the best place but she did an incredible job I was in tears not even because of how sick these people were to her but at how strong she was to be vocal about it.
If you listened to the entire interview, you'd have learned that she did do therapy.
@doomrat I've been thinking that the entire interview. I think she needs a LOT of support, and loys if unconditional love, and encouragement and validation....this poor baby....my heart is just broken for her. How does a child process such complex emotions all while being told not to feel. She is stronger than she knows.
Senne's resilience is incredible. I hope she knows how many are rooting for her to continue and thrive in her healing journey. To go through all of that and to clearly still be so kind is a testament to her strength.
Thank you so much ❤
I'm the same age as you Senne, and also grew up in an Asian household. It's strange growing up and realizing how toxic your parents were (and in some cases still are), when our culture teaches us to respect them despite how they treat us. I'm also still learning to deal with the mental trauma my mom inflicted on me. I too am learning to rewire my brain as an adult. I'm learning to feel proud of myself, to let myself feel emotions and to cope with them healthily, to love myself, etc. I hope you are doing well each day. You deserve so much love and happiness.
Thank you for sharing. Wishing you all the BEST.
Yooo... My mom is Korean and my dad is 10 yrs older than her, but they're both hard traditional... Oh my God... All the unintentional neglect and abuse I thought was normal till like, a few years ago... The deprogramming in fucking real dude. I don't trust anyone.
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@@andylee5759 THIS. Unintentional neglect, especially emotional neglect doesn't register as trauma to a child. It wasn't until I looked back on my experiences and understood that my relationship with parents wasn't as supportive/caring/loving as a thought. Nice to hear someone else is on the deprogramming journey like me. Thanks for sharing and I also hope you're doing better
People are brave enough to share harrowing experiences that may help other victims, and people in the comments are "her voice..I cant..spit it out" etc. This attitude is why abuse still exists. People only want to listen or take her seriously if she presents in a way they approve of. Idiots
Right these people are disgusting and have no manners
Facts I thought the same
Thanks for spelling out what must of us are thinking
Poor girl. This is so horrible
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Yes it’s possible to remember something in that age … I was 2,5 years old when my mom left me forever with a bunch of dolls to play… that moment when I realized that I was alone … I am 52 today … i remember everything in that room, everything 😢😢😢
Interesting, I too have a similar memory at the same age, being left alone in a strawberry patch while I watched my parents walk to the car. It was the realization that i was not within 3 feet of my mother anymore, and it is seared in my mind.
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I & my younger brother ( 4 & 2 yrs old) were left w relatives, all I remember was my days were filled with
such a loneliness, empty, devastating, scarcity.
Im still struggling with insecurities & abandonment issues in my old age...Mom's response until this day is, I should be grateful that she didnt threw me away instead...I have no words.
I know that Japanese mothers will lock out children from their homes as a form of punishment. I’ve seen in it Japan and it happened to me in BFE, Ohio. It wasn’t uncommon for my mom’s gen to be punished by moxibustion…a hot burning poultice that left 1 inch burn marks on my beautiful mom’s back. She is 76, from Hiroshima, her war trauma and old-school Japanese discipline raised this woman (me, an only child) to be fiercely independent, taught me to fiercely hate myself, blah blah blah…it took a pandemic for us to sort things out…she battles hoarding, albeit a very organized one who could feed an army with her food stocks…and it passed down to me. But I fight it and I am changing it. Soon to be 55 and I feel like the pandemic helped me come to life. Shifting paradigms…it’s mighty frightening, but it’s hella worth it.
Senne, thanks for sharing your story. Your voice may sound weak, but it’s only perceived as such by those who cannot listen. Fight the good fight, live and love with all your might!
I’m sorry 🫂
A few words to describe this young woman. Resilant, strong, warrior, beautiful, hopful, scarred, encouraging, heartbroken, courageous. Sending positive vibes to you and hugs from Brooklyn, NY
Thank you!
Senne I hope you see how much your story has touched people and how you are stronger than anyone should ever have to be. I wish you love and happiness for the rest of the days of your life. You are loved far and wide.
I'm pretty sure her family is Hmong. There are huge social issues in that community with child marriage, abduction, forced marriages, etc. it's horrible. I hope she continues to heal.
How are you so sure she’s Hmong? Do you know her personally?
How are you so sure she’s Hmong? Do you know her personally? That’s very ignorant of you to group the Hmong community. Yes, there are those bad apples but the majority of them are not like that.
If you hadn’t realize, there’s sickos in every culture even yours.
@@Xwing567you sound pretty defensive. A lot of people have said the same thing about Hmong in the comments section. Obviously, abuse happens in all cultures and religion's but in this instance, people think that based on what she has said, she was raised Hmong. Deflecting like this is the reason why abuse like what this poor woman suffered is able to continue.
Ooo like the Gran Torino movie
Being from Milwaukee WI. Very high chance she is Hmong
There's a light that shines in this woman...they didn't break her Soul,I've no clue how but they didn't xxx
Thank you ❤
This young woman is so brave and so full of grit as she learns how to recover and move forward. Never give up!
Thank you!
10:06 - it broke my heart how upset she was to recount that her abuser tainted the only pure relationship she had with anyone at that time, the ultimate act of cruelty. I pray she finds true affection and however much happiness is possible after all she's endured.
Dismissing her memories from when she was that young is wild. My very first memory is from when I was about 8 months old. I didn’t walk yet. It wasn’t an abusive memory, but I did have a traumatic childhood so maybe kids that went through severe trauma have that ability to go way back. As someone said, the body remembers.
i caught that tone with him too
Yeah he pissed me off with that. My oldest memory is sitting at the wheel of an old car with a tan leather steering wheel and seeing a bright flash. I told my dad about it as a teenager and he pulled out an old photo album and showed me a picture of me as a baby, about 8 months old, standing on his lap behind the wheel of his car, and the bright light I saw was actually the flash from a Polaroid camera.
@@Aroachimaaru that’s so cool
True! I'm autistic and a lot of autistic ppl have very early memories. My first memory is from when I was only 14 months old. Every brain works differently, and some people just indeed have very early memories. To dismiss that, especially with such traumatic memories, is just stupid & cold.
true, I remember explaining a memory to my mom & she said I wasn't even 1 year old, that's impossible but it's so clear in my mind
it's a happy/pretty memory in my case
I’m sitting here crying ..
My heart is breaking for this woman. Protect your children 😢
I'm protecting the shit outta my kids
You dont have to protect them, that is other extreme. Just to pay attention is enough.
@@YardaFreeman so what… you think paying attention is all that’s needed? After after you see, hear, & feel what you do, then what lol
There’s action.
Parents must absolutely be their children’s protection. Their defenders. Their advocates.
I’m not saying fight all your kids battles for them, that’s the extreme you’re talking about.
A parent who does not make efforts to protect their child, from any and all potential harm/threats; including the negative impacts of their own actions, behaviors, and mental health, is failing. Point blank.
Yes. Pay attention. Guide within reason. Don’t be overbearing. Let the child experience failure.
And protect them from all the “bad” you can.
I’m sorry. I wish I could give you a hug but I swear that I’m in a better place now
@@SenneXplains is this really you?
Very endearing woman, sweetheart. Takes a lot of bravery to share her story. You deserved better. I hope you find peace, stability and support from people who truly care about you. ❤
Thank you!
I have a baby girl. These stories make me feel so grateful for my life and the love and tenderness I have in my heart. She deserves to be protected and nurtured. This type of stuff is horrific.
Thank you for your transparency but even bigger thank you for working with children. They NEED you!!!!
Thank you! Every child deserves to feel loved and cared for! I’m very grateful to provide that for the children I work with ❤ they mean the world to me