Let's chat #6 | why I started beading, my mental health journey & processing trauma
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 26 ก.ค. 2024
- Hi there! 🙂
I have decided that it's time to answer everyone's question about why, when and how I started beading. So here it is. I apologize for the choppy speaking and rambling. Saying out loud that I am not quite ok is hard for me because I can ignore it just fine when I don't think about it. My clinical depression was undiagnosed for over a decade and learning that it is not normal to feel this way and I am actually suffering from mental health issues is quite freeing but also... you lose yourself a little. Because you wonder who you would be if you were actually healthy and happy. So anyway...
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Music:
"May it Bloom" by Anna Landstrom at 10:32
"Journey" by Megan Wofford at 13:00
"Silent Rain" by Roots and Recognition at 33:34
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Time stamps
0:00 my plans for the next few days to weeks
10:33 beading my Miriam earrings
14:51 chatting about my mental health and how I started beading
33:34 more beading
39:08 random topics - seed beads, digital downloads, ...
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I got teary while I listened to you describing your ongoing ordeal with depression. It takes massive courage to speak out about your struggle and how you've coped with it. I am so happy that you are beading and creating such lovely items and I know full well how creating can help one's mental health. I've dealt with cancer and its effects for 26 years now and if I couldn't create my art I'd probably not be here. I admire you and hope you will continue creating your beautiful jewelry. Thank you ... stay safe during your travels 💞
💜💜💜! Your style is so pretty and unique!! I started beading in 1992, great for helping me get through the pain as well. So funny how we have all these beads, and just find ourselves getting more!!😂🤗
Our stories are similar. I numbed out my trauma for 20 years with substance abuse. I was born a musician and am always creating. Silversmithing, crochet, beading, etc. I entered detox just about one year ago (May 24th) and have been in recovery since. I didn’t create a single piece during this time up until last weekend, I finished a pair of earrings. I’m happy I found my way back to beading. I’m still in therapy and probably will be for a long time. Severe depression and or constant substance abuse is no way to live. I will be 50 in July and never thought I’d make it to this age with my chosen lifestyle. It’s never too late to face your demons. Sending love and light from Colorado. 💜
I think that’s my order lol! You are brave to share your background, it’s not easy talking about mental health struggles. I too have had many bad days and found that beading is my best outlet for some comfort. I don’t pressure myself too much with selling my pieces as long as I am enjoying myself creating because after all it’s my hobby first and foremost and definitely a great creative outlet. Your new earring designs are beautiful! I have not seen the scalloped edging like that, what a great technique you have. Enjoy your business trip!
I have a sense of how you are feeling. I started beading when I lost my job of 15 years. I was devastated. I, as you, picked up beading on TH-cam. It has fed my soul...every day! I really appreciate your tutorials that you share...many, many thanks. Hope your healing journey brings you peace. Vertual hugs. ❤
As the spouse of a person who's suffered trauma and depression (PTSD), I can tell you that it is tough but therapy made all of the difference for us both. 44 years together and as much as I have supported him, he supports me also and understands my struggles. I don't think that there is a person on earth who does not struggle with something and it helps so much when you voice it and share with others. Thank you for sharing and know that you are not alone. You do beautiful work. Thank you for sharing that also!
I thank you for sharing your personal journey and I know it wasn't easy, but a big step for your healing. I want you to know what a wonderful talent you have with all your creations. I know you have inspired me not only with your gift of creating, but with the words you spoke in this video. You have a special gift of giving through your beading which is a very positive result from the challenge you have been given. Always the best to you. I love your style🙂
Maria, I have watched your videos for a few weeks, jumping around learning this and that from you. But this video completely hit my heart.
I too suffer depression, as well as anxiety and ADHD. I have been a creative person all of my life and began beading at age 15 as a way of therapy. I've dabbled in many other crafts, but always come back to my beading.
Thank you so very much for sharing something so personal. From the very first time I saw you, I thought, oh I could totally be friends with her, and now I feel you are a kindred spirit.
I am so impressed with the journey you've been on over the past 3 years and the gorgeous creations you've made. Keep going and keep pushing your creativity.
You are such an inspiration to so many!❤
p.s. I love your organization of your studio. Sadly, with my ADHD, I am not as organized, but I will keep creating.
Cheers!
Michelle Kirkham
So sorry to read that you are going through such a rough time! I hope that you will learn to cope with your different struggles and that you can find a way to make things work for you. Support form your loved ones definitely helps and I hope that you get that from your friends and family. I hope that you can get therapy and/or medication if you need it! When I find myself going back to my dark thoughts it helps a lot to focus on creativity and creating something beautiful. Nothing good or useful will come from troubled thoughts... Hopefully these problems will not stop you from expressing your creativity - go at your own pace, if something clearly does not work for you try something else. I hope that you can navigate your life in a way that will make you happy! Sending you hugs and wishing you all the best! 🌞
Your story is similar to mine. I’ve had depression for most of my life, many years undiagnosed. Then I also had events happen that caused severe trauma. I started my jewelry business at the same time as you, and I also do not wear jewelry really 😂. I’ve also been involved in many different creative areas, and am self taught. I’m so glad you shared and love your vids. ❤
Don't forget while you are being introspective about how your clinical depression changed you, there is a possibility it changed you for the better too. I know my own depression made me more empathetic, more able to look at people and notice their struggles, and a connection I didn't utilize before. I have had many very difficult times in my life but I do believe every single thing that has happened, whether or not it was due to my own bad choices or outside of my control entirely, has been a gift in the end. Not to say I believe people should suffer, but, that the bad times change or disappear, and, you are left with the positives more often than the negatives.
I think you are very brave to " tell" us your story. Take care of yourself! You sell wonderful beads and make stunning earrings 😙
I was diagnosed with clinical depression some 30 yrs ago & was hospitalised on & off for around 2 yrs. I still have my black days & I still struggle. Sending hugs & best wishes to you. Just one day at a time x
Thank you for opening up to us and for being you. You are an amazing person and a fabulously creative artist ❤
Thank you so much for your AWESOME tutorials....they have been incredibly helpful in my new hobby.....Of all the youtube videos, your's are the best and most helpful!!!.....your designs are very creative and beautiful.......please keep your tutorials comeing - I look forward to your next one!!!
I too bought beads that weren't quality, many years ago. The Jan/Feb issue of Better Homes & Garden, on the cover, shows beaded blooms. I've been using up those beads and they're lovely. ❤
Thank you for sharing your story. It's very sad, but I'm glad that your therapy helps you. I do beading when I have bad days and thoughts. Rely on your support. That help as well. Continue with your clinical therapy. May God continue to help you on your to recovery. ❤
Maria - I just want to put my arms around you and give you a big hug. I know it wasn’t easy sharing your experience with Major Depressed, as well as you therapy- it sounds like you had a great therapist. I am 72 an in my mid 30’s was diagnosed with depression and later told Bipolar (I was overly medicated). At that time my daughters we 13 and 17 an I also became anorexic and got down to 72 lbs. I had a great therapist but lousy psychiatrists who kept adding new meds and not discontinuing any. My family kept telling me the pills were messing me up but I wouldn’t listen until about 7 years ago. I kept telling my psychiatrist I wanted my meds reduced and all he kept saying was “ “we’ll talk about it at your next appointment “. Well I decided to titrate off my meds one at a time and when I told my psychiatrist he said “well good for you because if you don’t need to be on meds than you shouldn’t! I only stayed on one but very low dose as it helps with sleep. I got a new psychiatrist who reviewed my whole history and after several sessions he told me I had been miss diagnosed all those years- I was no bipolar. I have PTSD from severe childhood trauma and depression- I also have an attachment disorder from being placed on and out of foster homes.
You are blessed to have a boyfriend who accepts you for who you are. You are a sweet girl worthy of love, happiness, and acceptance. When things get bad blast your music (I found that quite helpful) - if you need to cry then cry a don’t hold back the tears. As stated I am 72 now and my life is great - do I have down days, yes but I talk to myself about my blessings and what I have survived and overcome- if you ever need to chat I would be glad to share my email with you.
I live on Social Security and have a very tight budget which is preventing me from making so many of your earrings - but I am trying to save up as I want to get back to making and hopefully sell some pieces to supplement my income
Keep smiling - and remember you are loved by many. Have a wonderful day
Thank you for ur vlog I get beading for metal health I do the same
If I may ask, how do you come up with your design ideas?
Hello, people with mental illness are very creative. And can be very successful. I was a life time sufferer of Depression. I would drink and party to deal. Now that I am older, I have turned everything around with faith in God. Just took me a long time to find the real God who loved me so much that he gave His only begotten son Jesus for me to have a new life filled with joy, strength, peace and hope. It didn't happen overnight. I had to trust him enough
To lead me into that right path. I don't need to drink or party. Just read his word and pray. He does the rest. I am grateful for all of the wonderful miracles he's given me. He will do the same for you if you trust him. But you have to be believe in him. Praying for you, honey. ❤ love watching your tutorials.