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Veteran teachers feel the same. I'm in my 15th year and still feel so overwhelmed that I lose who I am completely. Nevee think you are less for being new. New is wonderful! You will never feel good enough at any of it but there are rare days when you leave knowing that you have really had an amazing learning day with your kids. The days when you leave knowing you have helped your students cope with the world better or help a child to heal or just feel more confident are the ones that will keep you going. Not the test scores, student growth measures or perfect lesson plans. Be there for your kids emotionally, build relationships, build confidence, have fun. Take care of yourself! The rest will come along. They will learn so much even when you feel like they are never listening. I feel you about the superhero thing. It is not possible to do everything that is expected of us and to do it all well. You are amazing! Every day!
Thank you for this Lindsay!!
The hardest thing for me about being an inner city teacher was that I had to turn myself into someone that I’m not. I had to be a drill sergeant all day, every day. I could never be nice or show weakness. I couldn’t be human. The kids would eat you alive if you let up for even a second. The behavior of so many of them was animalistic. There was no support from administration. If you guys in the burbs think you have it bad, you have no idea.
Thank you so much!! I needed this.
Hey girl! I’ve been teaching for 6 years this year. Even when it looks like those 20 year teachers have it all together, they don’t. Sometimes, they are also afraid to say they are lost too because of the amount of years they’ve been teaching. These past few years have been new territory for them too. Give yourself grace & remember that you’re learning how to pivot in a year that many of the veteran teachers (15+ year) teachers never had to. They are learning right along with you. I have battled with the same decision for the last two years. I keep coming back to this: this is what I’m called to do. I love your channel! Keep inspiring!😘
Thank you Lacey!!
This is year 20 for me and I still have those days when I am questioning why??? Then I run into a student that I had or a kid gives me a huge hug this is why. Hang in there the biggest thing to me is relationships and making an impact on someone's life. You got this!!
I like how you’re brave enough to show this side of how you feel about teaching. You’re not alone Madison.
I’m a 2nd year Middle School Teacher and I had to move from my home state to a new state this school year! The standards of learning are different. I went from Common Core to Standards of Learning. So far, we are now in Q3 and no one has explained SOL to me or the proper data protocols.
I understand 110% I’m just surviving right now!
The Teacher community understands You and we are all in the same ill floating boat!
Hang in there!
As a first year 2nd grade teacher I am feeling this so much right now. Questioning all of my choices and wondering if I made a mistake. It’s those rare moments that you spoke of where things go well that make me push through the bad days. Never feel like you are alone.
This is my 29th year of teaching, and this year has been the most difficult. Oh sure, there is talk from administrators about taking care of oneself, but they do not want to take care of teachers by placing all of the other responsibilities on them. Pacing guides and other assessments need to be thrown out the window right now. It takes you a couple of years to learn not to compare yourselves with other teachers. We all have our wonderful moments and those times when things just go wrong. Take a sheet of paper and write the word IMPERFECTION. Circle the word PERFECT. Teaching is about finding the perfections within the imperfections that are happening throughout the day. Look at the little notes or pictures that your students give you. Place them on a wall in your class by your desk. Those will get you through any dark or challenging moments. I am sending you a hug. Take care.
You will be that teacher that these students will look back on and remember. I am 29 and still keep in contact with my kindergarten teacher and my 4th grade teacher. Not because I learned the most from them (even though they were both great teachers) but because they made a long lasting impact on me. You have such passion and dedication and make it a point to make a difference in these kids lives. You ARE a superhero teacher!
Thank you for this 🥺
I’m a second year teacher too and I feel exactly the same! When I started the year, I was like I got this! I was so confident! But now, I’m asking myself everyday if I’m good enough! I know I’m good but I’m always afraid I’m not good enough! 😞 thanks for sharing Madison! ❤️
Girl! All teachers feel this way regardless of how long they have taught. Especially during this whole pandemic thing. Sometimes you just get by and you need to care for yourself. Teaching is so much more than people think! You are doing great!!
I feel you, Madison! I have been working in education for 6 and a half years and I have honestly been feeling inadequate for most of this time... There is so much connected with this work and - as you said - nobody talks about it..
I’m a junior in college and an education major, I have been feeling horrible about myself since I don’t have much classroom experience because of covid. I also have pretty bad anxiety and new things make me super uncomfortable. I want so badly to apply myself, but I feel like I’m inadequate in the teaching department so I somewhat understand. I am so nervous to get out there and do it all myself-I don’t feel ready at all
Im sorry you’re going through this! As someone who also started teaching in the pandemic, it is not easy! But I’m sure you’re doing so many great things!!
@@chanelmeyerr thank you🥺
Girl you & me both 🥺 I’m a junior in college & Ed major too & this couldn’t be more true. It’s so hard for us having to start our careers like this. Sending love & reminding you that we are in this together & that how you feel is exactly how I feel too
@@laurenardelt4338 I appreciate it, I wish the best to you as well!
7th year teacher here! NEVER lose that new teacher feel! The best teachers are the ones who are always learning, growing and changing. When you feel like you know it all that’s when you become stagnant and non-effective. Choose one area each year to focus on improving and pretty soon you will feel much better about your practices. Whenever you critique yourself, list 3 things that you are great at. As for admin pressures with data and what not, note that it’s something to improve on by the end of year…not the end of the week. In my experience, admin over emphasize everything to get their point across. They know the teachers who always do the right thing will work towards it, and teachers who are set in their ways need more emphasis.
The expectations are utterly impossible to meet and it's important to acknowledge that. It physically not possible to be 100% for every single student every minute of the day. Data and progress tracking is a frankly ridiculous amount of time and effort that most of us quite literally don't have time in the day for. Not meeting all of these insane expectations doesn't make you inadequate. The absolute most important thing is that you are showing up for your students and TEACHING them. We are teachers. We teach. We guide our students and be there for them. At its core, that is our job ---- the other stuff is secondary. And all the other stuff hasn't always been a part of it -- even veteran teachers with 30+ years are calling it quits because things have gotten so outrageous (and no, not because of covid -- these issues existed before covid). You are not alone.
Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. I’m a first year teacher and I feel exactly like this daily. And it feels like there is no one I can talk to about it because it seems like every other teacher is crushing it and I’m all alone in feeling like a failure. It can feel so isolating. Knowing that I’m not alone and that there’s other teacher out there feeling like me is so comforting. I’m sure you are doing so much better than you realize. You are enough and you are doing the best that you can💗
You're certainly NOT alone. After 10 years, THIS is the year that I'm questioning my choice of profession.. hang in there 🧡
Oh god I can relate.
I feel the same way girl. 2nd year teacher and 2nd grade too. I haven’t been doing my best on progress monitoring because I have to 100 other things to do during the day on top of getting through the curriculum and making sure the kids are not beating each other up in the corner 🙃 And it makes me question whether I’m doing enough or, like you said, even doing the job and what I’m suppose to be doing. I feel you 100%. This is definitely not advice lol but I always remind myself that I’m there, my kids think I’m doing a good job, so if they think so, that should be enough, right? At least for this year! Hang in there, you got this. 💕
Hi Madison! I feel you on this. Watching this video made me think back to a conversation I had with my husband just last Friday. Some days I feel so strong in what I do and some days are just really rough... Leading me to question this career. I am in my 5th year of teaching. Trying my best to hang on to the good days and telling myself that I am not perfect and not every day will be that either! Sending you love 💞
I'm one of your newer subscribers, I'm just a mom, not a teacher, but I feel the same way you do just with Motherhood in general. It's hard not to compare yourself, you are not alone. You are amazing and I hope you stay strong. Sending you positive thoughts ❤
This is my 21st year teaching. As a veteran teacher, I still have these feelings. Yet, there are days when I feel great being a teacher. It’s totally normal to have those feelings, just remember the reasons why you wanted to be a teacher. I do feel that the work load is tremendous, but keep pushing through. We veteran teachers really don’t have it all together, but we push through. I have 7 more years and I’m retiring at year 28. So I’m trying to find the joy in teaching again in the midst of all the data tracking, lesson plans, technology, student behaviors, covid, and life. Hang in there. We need great teachers.
I've been teaching 30 years and still question myself all the time. You learn with every year of experience. Don't be hard on yourself.
You’re doing great with the teacher and life balance. I’ve taught for 16 years and it is the hardest job, mentally exhausting. Your kids are blessed to have you. Thanks for being raw and honest. ❤️
Believe me, your youth and energy and ability to connect with students make older teachers feel inadequate! you are so right that you can't compare yourself to others but it can be SO HARD. You're not responsible for everything!" Especially not in a pandemic...
I think many of us needed to hear this - so glad that you felt like you could share. You are not alone! I’m on year seven and I feel this way daily this school year.
Sometimes (many times) it is just TOO MUCH.
Feel your feelings, girl. They are 100% valid. ❤️
You are not alone in how you feel!!! You are an amazing teacher and your students are lucky to have you in their lives!!
I UNDERSTAND 💯!!! I feel the same exact way. I am a second year 2nd grade teacher and it is SO overwhelming. No one outside of this profession really understands everything that goes into being a teacher. Keep your head up, go have fun and try not to be so hard on yourself. You got this!!
I feel the same way!! I am a new second grade teacher that was hired in the middle of the year. It is the hardest thing I’ve ever done! I feel overwhelmed mentally and physically. I graduated college early at the top of my class and thought I had what it took to do this, but it’s harder than I thought. I also am the person who wants to have it all together, but I don’t feel that way at the moment . It’s also stressful when the students treat you like a sub, talk over you, and some times disrespect you. I also am not getting paid as much as I thought on top of all of that! Even though I am in a permanent position, I came in at the middle of the year and my check is in half!! Trying to stay positive though.
I usually don't comment on videos, but girl this one spoke to my soul! I had my second post observation with my assistant principal this week and when she asked me how things were going so far I promise you that I told her the exact same thing you talked about. I love the teaching part of this job, it's the other stuff that has me questioning if this is the right career for me.
I’m in my last year off my teaching degree and will be starting student teaching soon and I’m so glad I found your channel! I love how real and honest you keep it 🥰
You are not alone!! I have taught in two title 1 schools and the pressure is really tough. Constantly feeling like they aren’t making enough progress even though they are, the data is just low because the students come in years below grade level. I adore helping students in title 1 schools, but in talking to friends in other public schools, it is so much more pressure
I currently teach in a title 1 school and I’ve been trying to focus on the smallest of smallest progress but it is not easy :(
I’m not through the video yet but just wanted to stop and say I felt the same way last week!! For the first time I felt maybe this isn’t what I should be doing with my life and I love teaching but man!!! It’s so difficult. More than words can truly articulate. I’m right there with you. We are clearly amazing just on our ability to self reflect.
Thank you so much for posting this. I am 15 years in and having a real tough time just keeping my head above water this year. I feel so much less alone watching your video and reading the comments. Thank you.
Have you ever thought about doing a podcast? Just listening to your voice is very soothing and I think alot of those new teachers like just being able to listening to you and your opinions. Just thoughts for you.
Yes I’ve thought about it! 👀
I would definitely listen
I would listen too!
Being a teacher is the purest profession at all .. Keep it up! You're amazing!😊✨❤️🌻
Girl...same. I am on the struggle bus right now. I know we will get through this, but I feel like I am failing. We just did our winter testing and they did FANTASTIC, but man I don't feel it on the daily. We can get through this!
This has been a year like no other for all of us. Believe me when I say there are days ( more now) when veteran teachers (myself included) feel inadequate as well. Education in these past few years have been horrific. The pandemic only brought out the glaring problems that were already there but had enough band aids on them to kind of cover them for a while. It's tough for all of us right now....but your best is just that- yours. Be proud of your best. Your best is awesome!
I have never related to a video more. Thank you so much for being this open!
Fourth year teacher here, and I still feel this way. I think some teachers (even veteran teachers) still feel this but they’re better at hiding it. It doesn’t help when your planning taken by PLC’s and other meetings, because our day is already so busy. When I feel like this, I just remind myself who I’m doing this job for - the kiddos! I’m sure yours love you 💕
You’re an awesome teacher who clearly cares so hope you stick it out it like always in life…. Go with your gut!
I hear you. I’ve been teaching for 23 years. You’re doing a wonderful job. Take it a day at a time. You already sound like you’ve got it all figured out you just needed to get it off your chest. I’m sure your students love you and you’re amazing. I live 25 minutes from you so I love seeing all the familiar sites. Keep making a difference.
I am a 2nd year, 2nd grade teacher and I am right where you are at. I’ve been struggling so much lately feeling like a bad teacher, like I’m not doing enough, etc and questioning if I’m in the right profession. Just take it one day at a time. You are not alone girl! We will get through this ❤️
I listen to alot of motivational podcast on spotify when I feel down or even before I go to sleep at night it really does help me and helps me decompress after a rough day at work or whatever it may be because of.
I’m a first year teacher and I feel the exact same way. Always questioning and comparing myself to other teachers. I completely understand you and having those rare moments of “ok I’ve got this down”. It’s been extremely hard 😣😔
6 year teacher here 👋🏻 As a teacher you’ll never have it all together there is just way too much to do. I felt just like you in my 1st, 2nd, 3rd year and still do!! The key is to realise no one has it all together and if they tell you they do they’re lying! Focus on the positives, what are you achieving daily? Because I’m sure it’s pages and pages of things!! Pick 1 thing to focus on that you wish to develop each year I.e. assessment, data tracking etc and work on that slowly. As the years go on you’ll realise you’re growing more and more and developing as a teacher. At the end of they day the most important thing as a teacher is that your kids are safe, happy and learning - so if you are doing that you’re winning!, Celebrate your wins and let the other stuff go. As hard as that might be it’s the key to surviving as a teacher-realising you can’t do it all and what you’ve done is enough ❤️
Hey I have been teaching 3rd grade 12 years. You are not alone! You are enough, I love your videos. I am team teaching with my partner teacher, we have 24 students. Last week while reviewing information that students did a project on for a quiz, she grabbed her book sack to leave! I grabbed mine too. We did not leave. It’s those 1 or 2 students who totally distract everyone from learning and thinking, that you send out but they come back doing the same thing. It is heartbreaking, overwhelming, and frustrating. Take care of yourself, you are awesome.
I agree with Lindsay ⬇️ ! We veteran teachers feel the same but we just don't always voice our feelings of overwhelm because A) Younger teachers need to feel like someone has it together or they'd really lose it 😆 and B) Sometimes other colleagues can use it as a weapon, unfortunately, when you admit to weakness. It depends on the culture of your building. I feel like Michele Emerson's suggestions for scheduling tasks are super helpful to keeping on top of the most important things. I know you watch her channel sometimes. Her Top 3 Things helped me prioritize tasks and feel better about what I was getting accomplished. You will never be good at it all every day. You have to choose each day what you're going to focus on and be good with that. My cooperating teacher during student teaching picked five kids a day to really intentionally focus on. She called those parents, met 1 on 1 with those kids, made special tweaks to gear her lessons to those kids. She still did her job with all students but if each kid gets laser focus like that at least once per week by the end of the year you're going to be in good shape.
This is my 16th year and I also struggle with feeling inadequate as a teacher. I don’t think it matters how long you’ve been teaching, you always feel like you could be doing better.
As a 20 year veteran, these pandemic years have been overwhelming and made me feel less than. Good days and bad days. Try to focus on the kids and do what you can do.
This year is certainly worse than last year for a variety of reasons. I have many family members who are also teachers and we all feel so burnt out. I love what I do but it is extremely exhausting every day. This is my tenure year (I am in NY) and 3/4 of the years have been part of the pandemic. It took me until recently to just decide that I have to come first before anything else because if I can't take care of myself, how can I effectively do my job? I have taken days off for me and I do NOT feel guilty at all!
Also, in regards to your cruise...I have been on Carnival and Norwegian. Carnival is one of your cheaper options but feel like it is very family oriented. I went on a baltic cruise in the summer to Europe on Norwegian and loved it! My friends have gone on Royal Caribbean. It honestly depends on the length of your cruise, what ports, etc. Don't forget to factor in the excursions if you want to do any!
Madison, you ARE NOT inadequate. The fact that you care shows you are more than adequate. I’ve been teaching 12 years and this year has been difficult for everyone. Hang in there, ask for help and take time for yourself.
Love to you Madison. (HUG) You didn't depress anyone, no worries. Appreciate you being so candid. I often find that I compare myself to others...in more ways than one. Trying to mitigate that. As I said last time, teachers many times fall under the radar and don't get the admiration they so deserve. Hey that sweater is so pretty, cool color too. As for Spring Break..doesn't apply this end. lol Fingers crossed you get to go on a cruise :)
You are not alone. I have been teaching for over 20 years, and I feel the same some days. The last couple of years have been tough on all of us.
Keep going lovely lady, you got this. I have been there and that doubt in yourself doesn’t last long so don’t worry and push through it. It does get better and easier. Lots of love coming from the UK xx
I am currently feeling exactly how you are girl! You are not alone. Other first year teachers like me feel similar at my school too.
I’m a veteran teacher (25 years). Honestly, I think social media is a big cause of how you are feeling. We now have the opportunity to compare ourselves to thousands of teachers around the world. In the past, we just interacted with those in our building or district. Life was better “back in the day”. We are comparing our whole day/week to the highlights of others. Turn off social media for a bit and see how you feel.
You are definitely not alone! I’m in my 25th year of teaching and I also have days where I feel inadequate as well. It was a rough week for me too and next week is a new week that I’m looking forward too. 😊💜
Sweet teacher, you are doing great and Wayyyy better than I ever did my first years of teaching!! Be kind to yourself.
Madison I have been teaching 27 years. We ALL feel the way you described. January, Feb, and March is hard. I get winter blahs. lol(that is a whole quarter) This is a cold wintery winter. So we are all feelin it. Thanks for keepin it real.
I've been teaching along time and have no idea what I'm doing these days. It's overwhelming at times. Be encouraged.
dont give up its going to get better I promise you. You have to go through hard days to get to the better days. You're doing great Theirs days that I go home mad or discouraged like I didnt do enough but I promise you the hard days are sometimes the best days because the students still look up to you and I love when the students notice you had a rough day because then you get alot of attention that day. So I promise you it'll get better trust me you're doing great never give up.
Girl! I feel you! I am totally in that boat. Questioning if this is the right job for me or not. Super hard, exhausting and having a hard time balancing life and work
You are the kind of teachers kids need. Keep your head up.
I feel like that at being a mom.
Some days are wonderful and I LOVE my job. But some days are like brutal.
Only down fall is I’m stuck with it.
I can’t go back, or return them. I love my kids but it’s definitely hard. Everything you hear and see is true. I look at moms that “have it together” and feel like the worst mom ever.
Don’t think your alone. Period. Every job and career around you at some point feels that way.
Hope you feel better. I hope I helped . ❤️
YOU are a super hero. All moms are. Thank you for this comment. 💖
YOU ARE an amazing teacher!!!! You may doubt yourself some times but your truly amazing!!! Were all here for you.
Thank you Emma 🥺💖
@@madisonleighmaryan You are so welcome! I hope you feel more confident soon. I doubt my self too much!
Praying for you!! 🤍
First off, teaching is very hard. But give yourself a break. Yes, you’re still a new teacher and you can’t possibly know everything. 10 years ago I was struggling and feeling just like you. I questioned myself all the time- but I have learned so much about myself since. The challenges I’ve had, humiliating moments, times of doubt all made me a wonderful teacher who can take on so many challenges. I dont sweat the small stuff these days. My life outside of school is just too precious! I do think it’s awesome that you are also putting yourself out there, working on your social media game. It’s great to always have a back up plan, creative outlet etc. The skills you’re learning now can be used in other areas/career etc. Keep it up girl!
Going to Tennessee for the first time over spring break, I’m so excited!! If anyone has any must-do recommendations lmk!!
Cruises are my favorite way to vacation!! I have only ever done Carnival but my favorite port is actually San Juan, Puerto Rico.
No plans over spring break because we are doing a 5 week road trip from WV to ALL the places from here to the west coast for my oldest daughter’s 18th birthday and graduation gift.
Teaching is so hard. People who don’t teach have no idea. I am in year 4 and I question all the time if this is what I want to do. I mean it is, but I don’t think I have found my forever school or grade yet.
I think you are doing an amazing job! Everyone has off days and I’m happy you are going to get your nails done
All you can do is try to have a good day & maybe tomorrow the kiddies will be better
Honestly, my team mate and I feel this way every time after a PLC meeting where our admin are talking to us about data and testing. It is such a mood killer. We are struggling already but those meetings just destroy our morale. (2nd grade teacher in AZ)
I hate PLC for this exact reason! Hang in there!!
I’m a first year teacher and actually feel like I have it all together for the most part but PLC’s give me so much anxiety!!!
I love your videos and you and your giving me so much inspiration
Also videos about people's struggles are the ones I feel connected to, learn from, value, seek out - the ones who are apparelty all doing wonderful eating clean exercising skinny happy loved etc, - they aren't nearly so interesting or useful. Also, great outfit with that rusty coloured sweater!
Hey Madison, just a quick message to say though I am not a teacher, I have struggled with imposter syndrome a lot lately too. I see you! Know though you may FEEL like you aren't meeting yours and others' expectations in your job, you are trying the best you can and truly make a difference for your kiddos every day (whether you can identify that difference or not) You're doing so much better than you think! Sending love
Thank you for this 🥺
Norwegian cruise line is amazing!! I’ve been on a cruise to Bermuda twice and the beaches are some of the most beautiful in the world. Pink sand!!! ☀️🌊🏝🏖
HELLO Madison, dear Madison, don't compare yourself with other teachers, each one is in a different way, each one lived a different life experience, as you said, they have 20 years of teaching, of course it's easier for them, difference is what you do.
Do your best in the conditions you have, as long as you don't have better conditions.
I'm also a teacher and I know how frustrating this can be, but do it for yourself, do it for your students and never ever compare yourself to other teachers.
I love your videos, I think you are an excellent teacher, person and your profession is really wonderful.
if i could i would give you a big hug right now and i can say i know what you are feeling.
hugs, Emilyn from Brazil
Thank you so much Emilyn!
@@madisonleighmaryan madison, you inspire me a lot to start a channel about my teaching journey, you are my biggest teacher inspiration, let me ask, doesn't your boss think it's bad that you record in the classroom? does she know that you record? I want to start a channel, but I'm worried because I can't use my cell phone at school. could you tell me how it works for you? thank you, i will be very happy if you answer.
Came back to rewatch cause I’m feeling this again today, a Monday for sure! And I cried twice feeling inadequate!!
Student teaching 100% scared me away from education. I don't regret it and I LOVED my students but holy moly the expectations (which aren't even as many as classroom teachers!) But as the librarian we were still in the PLCs and were there to help all the teachers in the whole school. My mentor was and is absolutely amazing and she told me that your first few years are rough and I was like honestly I just don't think I can. I don't want to spend years miserable and stressed to just hopefully feel better eventually. Totally get it, but you're doing great and I know you're not alone!
Norwegian cruise “freestyle cruising “ is very nice
I’ve been wrestling with just whether or not once I finish my teaching degree if I will even use it for teaching. I feel so much anxiety over all the craziness I keep hearing about in the teacher community that I follow. Also I subbed pre-COVID and I felt like I just spent my day being a drill Sargent. If you are too nice the students take advantage, but teaching isn’t fun if you spend the day being strict. It just makes me feel mean. Idk if I want that to be my day to day. I know it’s just a job but even in my retail job now I still feel like I try to give it my best…I feel like that is what you should do. I tend to go overboard. Sorry for ranting. This just made me want to throw it all out there.
I think this is the curse of a teacher (I’m a school SLP). Not many can understand the load that is put on us. It’s so much more than just the work load- it’s the emotional toll of feeling that we have to do it all, be it all, always be “on” and positive. We educators often have a similar personality type- we have such high expectations for ourselves and we chose a profession where we feel like what we are doing is NEVER enough. Just know that you are not alone, girl! Some days are gonna be great, others are gonna suck, and we have to learn to be OK with all of it. Hugs to you- you seem like an amazing teacher and your kids are so lucky to have you!!!
Thank you so much for this comment Julia!!
I am gong to Gatlingburg, TN for spring break. I have been on two cruises both on Carnival. We went to both Eastern and Western Caribbean. Love it. I am a little leery still of going on one right now because I do not want to be stuck in my cabin due to an outbreak.
Madison, you should not base your worth as a teacher on data. You said one of your strengths is relationships with kids and that is WAY more important than data. I am a 16th year teacher and it took me about 11 years to feel like I finally “got it”, but throughout those first 11 years, I still made connections with my kids and would have little wins with students and that is what matters. Thank you for being honest, but please don’t beat yourself up. We all have these days, even teachers who have been teaching for 40 years.
I know you’re right. Thank you for this comment.
Madison, if this were just "a job," you wouldn't feel like this. Instead, it is a rewarding and challenging career that will continue to push you to grow into who you are next. Teaching is: Performative and PERSONAL, so those of us who feel deeply and put ourselves out there are going to be most affected and have unrealistic expectations about ourselves. Don't worry about your "insides" matching someone's "outsides." In my 27 years at this, I still run into grown up kids who speak to me fondly about their year with me, and those moments are what keep me moving forward. Watch Brené Brown's TED talk about teachers. It will make your day! I sure love the work you do here!!!
I’ve been on 2 cruises and they’re amazing!!
This is my fourth year teaching, but it is my first year in a new grade. I know exactly how your feeling!!
Usually when I'm expecting my monthly, I'm in that mood. Where I'm in B mode all day. And I have zero patience at all.
Every teacher struggles. There is no way other teachers in your school aren't feeling the exact same way you are- even veteran teachers- even the teachers that appear to have the "perfect classroom". Covid has put a damper on so many things. Take care of yourself! I would definitely get tested for Covid, even if it feels like nothing. Feel better!
went to bermuda via norweigan out of boston! was a great time, super nice boat
I feel you! My voice was NOT ready when I came back from Christmas break. 😂
A cruise sounds amazing!!
I went on an Alaskan cruise in 2016. On The Norwegian Jewel. It was awesome!!! We went out of Seattle.
your an awsome teacher i use so many hacks that you have tought us
I feel ya. I just posted a video today about my worst teaching day ever I completely relate!
I hate the feelings of inadequacy that comes with teaching...
We had a prep day on Friday and I was really sitting and thinking about all the stuff that goes into teaching. I had a full day of random stuff to do and never even saw kids. I didn't realize it when I was student teaching, but as a teacher....I get it. it's so much stuff. SO much stuff.
I'm 26 too. I grew up in apartments, and I feel like I'm used to it. I hope I can own a house one day. impossible in california.
Youre not alone, i havent even starting my career and I feel inadequate during my college course work
I can related with such moments as a teacher
I am resigning at the end of the year after 18 years from my district. This is me giving myself another chance before I leave the profession. I am tired.
i don't know yet what my spring plans are but hopefully going somewhere warm or visiting family
I would love for you to talk about books on here, too!
Heading to Aruba for spring break!
I am curious if you have ever thought about starting a podcast. You seem to enjoy sitting down and chatting with us. I would love to listen to a podcast of yours. Just an idea because I think you may enjoy it! :) You are a rockstar, believe it or not. As a high school student, I can tell you that all your hard work has not gone unnoticed. Things are just sucky in general right now, but there is always good. Make sure to find that and cling to it. Just keep doing your best for those kiddos of yours. This will all be worth it. I see you and I love you. Thank you for all that you do!