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i feel so lost in my life. my birthday is in a week and i’m turning 27. i have a lot of things to be grateful for, but it just doesn’t feel like that to me mentally. i feel like im meant for something more but i don’t know what or where to go. i’m stuck in an endless spiral of constant work and barely any free time to pursue my aspirations, but im also not in a place where i can afford to quit. i just walk in a straight line and every now and then i get a little moment like this where i can reflect on things and think. i cherish it. i hope whoever sees this also tries to find a tiny bit of solace in a short moment. i hope you have a moment where nothings wrong

I’m on call with my boyfriend per usual, and he sent me the link to this video :3 I love him to death, this month is our second Christmas together, even if we’re long distance and actively trying to close in on the distance. Nothing can take away from how much I’m truly in love with him. Really proud of him for staying by my side for over a year now, coming up on 1 year and 5 months. I wish I was someone typing out an even sweeter message like woah I’m expecting, or I just got engaged but I prefer my life with him, and that includes the pace we go at and the pace life lets us go at. Fingers crossed I come back to this silly video in a year or so and have an even better update to share. We’re all just snow monkeys slowly making our way around mountains and have stories and feelings to share.

i miss you katie

I feel like I’m losing it. In a bad way.

I’ve been a diabetic for 26 years and my dog was recently diagnosed with diabetes. She lost her sight within two weeks of being diagnosed. She loves to play fetch and has done it all her life, she is 10 now. I beat myself up every day for not catching the signs sooner and saving her eye sight. It’s like a cruel joke. It was right under my nose. I’ve had dogs my whole life and she is undoubtedly my soul mate. She has watched me struggle to become a man and guided me through it. I wasn’t a believer in a higher being until she came into my life. My love for her is something I can’t explain and I feel like I failed her. I understand it’s now my turn to be her guide but I cry every day watching her age. I break down every time I watch her dream and do her little barks because I know she can see in that moment. God turned the lights off and it breaks my heart. I would give anything to watch her run around without bumping into things. I’m so sorry little one.

December 3rd 2024, 1:29am I have been fighting for what seems a long time but i havent been on this earth for that long. Now all i am left with is emptiness and feelings of disconnection from my reality. I have always been battling with my own mind and i hope one day i finally find peace. My only escape is when the cigarettes’ bud hits my mouth and i slowly watch the smoke come out of my system. Everyone keeps telling me to quit but i can seem to help it. Talking about it wont ease its toll on me and it keeps coming back. I started smoking at a very young age and i regret doing so. Hoping one day i open my eyes and enjoy the sunlight hitting my eyes from my bedrooms window. Dont get me wrong i do enjoy life but i think i am just tired and exhausted. I am burnt off and dont know what to expect from all of this. I keep fighting and fighting and i hope it will be worth it.

I’m so tired. And I wonder how long I can continue to pretend that I am not. My lungs feel pressed and stuck together. My muscles feel like partially set cement. My neck feels like a brittle structure, not meant to withstand the test of time. My head feels pressurized, both high and low and unable to gain equilibrium. I don’t know how much longer I can go on like this.

My Poppa died this afternoon, I fear I never spoke to him intensely enough about his life. I should’ve asked more questions. I’ve got such an awful headache I almost can’t think about it, maybe from the stress of it all and exams in a week. I want to hug my mum. Seeing her break down will kill me but I’ve got to be there for her.

It’s the first time since I’ve cried over the song…

2 dec 2024. This was in my YT suggestions. I clicked on it because i remember that one special guy mention this. I fell and im still falling so hard for him. I liked him since July and recently found out he feels the same. I'm so grateful to have him, he makes me feel so loved, without being sexualized. I can't wait to see him this weekend. If you ever come to read this comment, i want to tell you that i love you so so much and you're anything i could ever ask for<3

Studying for my last set of exams before I start my bachelor thesis. My life has been full of blessings but I've always felt alone. Seeing these comments makes me really realize everyone is going through something and that's life. I hope to come back here in a few years and finally feel like I belong somewhere. I hope everyone reading this is able to find happiness.

So I Met this Girl, I Don t know, it seems I attracted her! So I opened my Heart 1:56 for her, we were cool, but i realised she get colder and colder to me, postet something in Social Media about negative Energy and Don t messaged me, then from nowhere blocked me! I know Woman nature and sometimes you want to be Real and Don t Play Games! That hurts when you ready or Open Your Heart for someone and They get cold for you! One time I cryed infront of my ex, guess What happend, yeah she left me, Next couple days! That is shameless, that hurts bro! I know life is hart, and to be sad over a women is childish, and I have listened all this psychologic thing about men and woman! Ahhh I Don t know, the Reality, it hurts! When you couple time fall in love, and it don t workout for you, because that Woman get bored or whatever, it makes me tired bro! But it is all good, that is my destiny, and this is the Generation where I live, this Shit is normal now! I Fokus on my Self, maybe one day I ll find the perfekt Match! But I dont chase love anymore, what comes comes what goes goes

2024-12-02 At this point I don't know where my life is going. I'm 27 now and it feels like nothing's changed in life since I graduated and got a job. I like my work for the most part, but almost every other part of my life is unsatisfying. The place I live feels like a dead end, everyone else who lives here either grew up here or seems like they just got stuck here... I want out. My friendships are ones of convenience and I still don't know how or where to find new friends. I've been on numerous first dates, but haven't been in a relationship that's lasted more than three months since college. Molly, I still love you even though you're married now; thank you for the happiest times of my life. Dad, I've come so close to finally forgiving you for the years of abuse, but I hate you for spitting at mom, you should be ashamed of yourself. Mom, you enable your disabled daughter and are cheating her out of any potential future without you. Life feels empty and overwhelming at the same time, and the passing of time seems to be accelerating. I want to start going to church again and I think I'm going to get a cat.

I'm 15 and for a while I been feeling like a lot of people who used to be friends gave completely moved on from me and left me behind. Basically I have little to no friends now. But over the past few months I stared to learn how much of a blessing it is to feel free from the drama, the trust issues, and the control of having a lot of friends. I'm really passionate about music and art and I wanna do that for a living. I stared distancing myself from a lot of people in school and I started being a lot more independent. I know nobody ariund me really cares about me other than my family so what's the point of trying so hard to fit in if I know I just don't. I'm not into a lot of the things peolle my age are into. I'm just into doing my own shit. Making music and chasing my dreams. It sucks not having people to hang out with. It sucks being alone at lunch BUT it gives me so much more time to do things like this and just reflect and find out who I really am and make a deeper connection with myself. Pretty much what I'm tryna say is that it's ok to feel alone and not really fit in. This probably means your different, you're special, that's a gift. You are so much more free to pursue what YOU wanna do. Stop trying to fit in and be yourself. Even if that means being a little lonely because your authentic. And down the line people will respect that way more than someone who blindly follows what everyone else does. Don't follow the herd, make your own ♥️

Just sitting here. Thankful for this life.

Малинин и удовольствие

это так успокаивает, спасибо Aphex Twin

I will always love you Hana, even though you moved on quick.

Fuck it. Listening to this as I let due dates lapse this semester. I'm failing another course. I haven't been able to really focus like I used to, in hobbies or academics, since my father passed last year from suicide after suffering from extreme depression for years. Being estranged so long, I'm not sure I ever really knew him. Life is hard.

I mm about to pick one of the most important thing in my whole existence right now, it’s stay in the church where I’ve grown my whole life or stay in the path I’m right now, one is giving my life to “serve and help others” every single day for 2 years or not and have the conscious that everyone close to me wanted me to go and I failed them in a way they’ll still love me and like me but with that remorse of why didn’t you go!? It would’ve been so much better it was a great experience for xxxx, you know what I mean? But what I’m mostly unsure is that I also think nothing it’s truly real I think I that in my awakening I woke up more than what I should’ve, but I think for the peace of my mind that’s it’s been a scramble since the start of this year I’m going to choose stay not because I feel pressured but because that’s the one I want to choose I ain’t gotta give you explanations so have an amazing life and enjoy every single part of this

People call many songs life’s menu music, Right now to me this is it.

this song feels like a hug to me, i love it

wrapping a gift to this girl. promised myselft to enjoy more the present, without living in the future, i'm thinking only about today, and what happens, happened, but i'll go on, with no regrets, because i lived the moment

bro i don’t know what to said about how am i feeling about all this sh1t, i’m in love with a girl since 2021, nov 29 2024 i kissed her but i know i’m not the kind of man she wants, i’m just a f alcoholic that fail on every aspect of his life, i just want to become better, I’m 16 years old bro i know that i’m young but i hate myself, december 14 is my birthday, i don’t know what to do, i have tried a lot of times, i’m so stressed about this girl, fixing my life for her, grades, college, mom and sister. I have thought many times on dy1n g but i can’t because i still believe that all this mess will get better. I hope how i will look when i turn 18.

I occasionally come back to this video when I relapse from something I want to take rid of my life. Each relapse means self doubt and self shame and each time it happens I can't help but feel hate about myself and the condition I let myself living in. But this audio helps me a little in this "put into perspective" process. An addiction doesn't define a person, the most important thing about overcome an addiction is to never let go, each relapse is chance to rework on your strategy and so become stronger than before. I will stay strong, and this video helps me to remind that.

December 1st, 2024 - Going to start over with a clean slate after having been in a deep depression for the last 8 years from my brother's suicide. I hope everyone reading this stays strong during these uncertain times and remembers to check in on your family and friends ❤

How is this from the same guy that made Come To Daddy and Windowlicker?

I'm just telling you about my beliefs. I think we're here to experience strong moments, ecstasy, sadness, love or drama... All this is just experience, to learn from it later. I don't know you or your situation but know one thing, its okay, this world is complicated at the moment but we choose to be here, so let yourself be carried along, give as much love as you can to those around you and to yourself and you'll already have done your bit. I'm thinking a lot of you this evening, I'm going to do my yoga and send a prayer of strength and kindness to you who will be reading this comment. Take care of you ❤️☀️

December 1st 2024 - I'm sitting in my room, in the middle of the night; hoping for something to change. I've been wandering throughout my life; lost, yet at peace. I hope my life takes good turns. I feel happy, I can say. This comment section gives me hope, that there is light in times of darkness. I wish the very best to all of you out there.

every once in a while, this song, is really what you need, it doesn’t matter if your sad, angry, happy or anxious, this will always make you feel better, or at least it did the job for me

My whole life has led up to this moment here, sitting at work at 5am on a Sunday morning. I always wanted to be an adult growing up, now I want nothing more than to go back to being a kid. I’m only 25, but I feel I’ve done everything I want in life, not sure what to do with the rest of it.

Comment section full of emotion… god.. reading some of this made me teary😢

Wowsers😮I'm drifting off into another world listening to this😮

love skibidi toilet balls bruh

Life, existence, consciousness, it’s a beautiful thing, but the mind can trick you into believing it’s a heavy burden, almost crushing sometimes, with the sheer weight of it all, but the weight is of my own making. Just left military service after 23 years, looking for work, an identity, life is pretty good to be honest, only, days are slipping by like minutes and I want to do everything but often find myself doing nothing because I can’t decide what to do, another week gone by, peddling fast but not sure if I’m getting anywhere - must ground myself and take stock, relax a bit, don’t think too much….just be…. life is good ❤

every tick is a bit of life ticking away. you have to decide what to do with every tick, while simultaneously savoring every tick, and yet somehow not worrying as the ticks pass quickly. almost paradoxical when you think about it.

Its the )3vv$, stupid

will love really find me in the end? i'm so tired of being so unlucky

Oh man, what a rough month... It was tough already with the ammount of work and stress from art school, mostly from deadlines. Then my friends get angry with me because I don't go out that often, my grandpa gets diagnosed with leukemia, my father is on a psychic hospital or something like that... But I was happy because this weekend I could see my girlfriend, that's a person that really helped me... but she just mentioned to separate, I'm currently waiting to talk to her about it and my head keeps eating me and eating me, i don't know how much I can take anymore... I thought of killing myself yesterday but I will not do it, it's just... tough man... My mother told me that she doesn't know how am I this strong mentally but I don't know if I can take it any longer... I wanna be kind to people and I really work on becoming better so they don't suffer much, I didn't really had the help in some situations and I'd love to offer it to people I care, I still love my girlfriend and I do not know if it's just a mind thing she has because I know we are the same in that regard, or that this is actually an end after almost 2 years... This is too much... I hope that at least, I can help someone with this someday, so they don't feel how I am feeling right now...

I met a girl that feels like home, but I’m having a hard time opening up to her because of the way my other relationships have gone. It’s been over 3 years since my last relationship and I have no idea how to do this, I can’t mess this up though

I felt like i got lost somewhere long time ago.. i felt empty. Now i realized i was escaping from myself. I just wanted to be liked my parents and society. Dostoevsky once said your worst sin is that you have betrayed yourself for nothing. You already know you are. Be brave to be yourself. Love you, stranger. All of this void in our heart will be filled one day.

This song tells us about the shortness of our days .I was there with him brother .He grabed me by my arm and whispered that my days are numbered just like his were

one day i hope to find someone to listen ti these songs with. quietly in each others arms

Lost my only born son this October 2024 it's November 30 his mother lied and cheated on me before marriage I stayed with her all the way through loyal beginning and end still celibate , still feeling used and lost a little bit, each day it's a lil better sometimes not so much .

Hello everybody my names welcome

leaving a comment for fellow loners. life has a funny way of giving you bits and pieces of what you love and ultimately taking them away. Youth, love, connection come as quick as they go. my dreams of my life change by the hour and i can feel my life drifting past me and i stand here confused and unable to participate in it. we are confused wanderers trying to find our way back home. some are running away, some are hiding away and some are standing still,..... which one are you?

Salad fingers, anyone?

i wish i could cry to this. i really do. but its really FUCKING hard to cry when images of markiplier being jumpscared are playing over and over again

I turned 21 a few days ago, my teenage years are over and now i am on the road towards working on my life. Hopes, dreams, family, friends, sadness, doubt, uncertainty, i am engulfed by all these thoughts and emotions. My dad used to say “what you do in your 20’s matter alot because these years shape the pathway of your future” as a young man who’s learning about life bit by bit, i wanna make the most out of it. I don’t know what future holds for me, but going through the comments that are here as time capsules surely made me believe that we are all on the same voyage, rowing through the infinite stream of time. To every one who reads this, I LOVE YOU ALL and WE EXIST! and that’s the most amazing thing about us all!

Hi. It is currently 22:30, November 29th, 2024. My Name is Luke, I like go karting and I want to be a race car driver. I am eighteen years old and I am studying Carpentry and Joinery at college. I am unsure of what is going to happen in the near future and if I'll even get to be a racing driver, but I just wanted to leave a message to prove that I exist. Love you all. PARADISE IS A STATE OF CONSCIENCE.