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You can't ignore your health. I remember on the airplane, they say put the air mask on yourself first, then help your kids or whoever else needs it. It's sensible.

not me watching this at 3 am during a manic episode...

3:03 man I can relate to this so so much. I got my diagnosis at 30 and looked back at my history the exact same way. Now knowing I have bipolar this has been illuminating.

I got diagnosed by my doctor at the end of May, about two weeks after turning 20. I had been experiencing extreme mood swings, anger that appeared out of nowhere (I thought it was my antidepressants not working), and an event that occurred the year before where I spent more than half of my savings account (about $2000 on art supplies from Amazon). The story is very long and would require a video on me explaining my experiences. Long story short, I damaged my bank account and my mom, dad and stepdad were mad at me. During this time I was questioning if it could be bipolar as my mom has bipolar and it’s often genetic. At the start of this year I began seeing a new doctor from the same telehealth company my mom and stepdad see. After the first few months of seeing her, I went on and off various dosages of anxiety meds and antidepressants. I even went on Adderall for a month to try and reduce the extreme symptoms thinking it was my adhd, but I had to go off the adderall as it made my heart rate too high when exerting myself. During one of my recent appointments, I brought up the extreme shopping spree story of July 2023 and how my mood was unstable at work. That same appointment I was sent a prescription of mood stabilizers which I’ve been taking for about two and a half months now. The mood stabilizers have worked in making me more stable and my episodes less severe.

I have had several manic episodes in my life. On my TH-cam channel you can see when I went to japan suddenly in an overnight decision and got “stranded” there back in 2009. Literally dropped my TH-cam channel and my job and everything overnight and went to live in Japan and didn’t come back til 2017 (divorced with 2 kids… :|) And after the manic episode went away I became extremely depressed. In 2017 I also left Japan in a manic episode with my 2 kids in an overnight decision. We came to America with no money, nowhere to live, a couple backpacks full of favorite toys and 1 large suitcase of clothes. We were homeless because of that. My ex husband divorced me (he was abusive anyway) I wanted to end my life in Japan and when I left o was planning on doing it but left instead. I thought my life would get better in America but it didn’t.. it was just as bad but different. Later I got a job for $11/hr at a bank and I was still depressed. The bank had a clinic on the main corporate campus that I could go to for free so I went there and they put me on anti depressants. On the anti depressants I had constant intrusive thoughts about crashing my car and I felt like I could hear screaming in my head. I quit my job abruptly from the bank and went back to work at Walgreens (where I worked before the bank but no insurance) and I was lucky enough to find a forensic psychiatrist ?? At a clinic in Oklahoma City that operates on a sliding scale. I told him about the anti depressants and quitting my job and Japan and he let a keep taking the same and observed me for about a year. He saaw me stable and hesaw me very depressed and he saw me manic (but I just seemed happy and like I was making progress in life) but then when I got depressed he put me on a different anti depressant and I asked him if it causes you seeing and hearing stuff. He asked me what I meant and I said that I always see cockroaches lately but I can never find them and me and my kids looked everywhere for them even tho my kids said they never saw any bugs. So I thought I was just seeing things and it was a side effect. And that someone was knocking on my window but my kids never heard anything or saw anything and I set up a camera and it never recorded anything so I must me imagining it. He was like “hmmm no it shouldn’t cause that” but he kept observing me. Then shortly after starting this new anti depressant and about 2 weeks later I was fully in a MIXED episode where I was manic but also depressed somehow and had a major freakout at my job and quit suddenly and he wanted to see me and call me every 2-3 days and that is when he diagnosed me with bipolar 1 and I started taking Abilify and one other med I can’t remember what it’s called now.. I took that for a few years and it was “okay” but then I had another major breakdown in 2021 and got switched to Latuda which is what I take now. So that’s my bipolar 1 story.. or some of it anyway. Thanks for reading lol.

I hope your upcoming events go well. Passing on things you know are too stressful for you is just smart. I was wondering if you get uptick in migraine and bipolar symptoms at the same time. Thanks.

Im 17 male, As a kid I used to hit my self in the head, punching etc, I’ve grown out of that but now, I’ve realized recently I’m depressed, never want to admit it but I am. My parents even asked me after I had a tantrum when I was 14 and said “we think your bipolar” and that has stuck with me ever since. I’m finally coming to the realization that maybe I am bipoler. I haven’t had any full blown manic episodes but definitely notice I will do sketchy and illegal things when I feel “free and energized” that stage usually last only a few days or about a week, then I’m back to my old ways of laying in my room doing absolutely nothing, but overthink and think “what’s wrong with me?” Sometimes I feel completely empty and don’t talk to ppl for days. What your recommendation on getting help? How do I really know I’m bipoler? I’m still young so I guess we will have to see

Hi how long have you been mentally stable?

I got the rare rash

My best friend snapped 5 days ago... he was irate all Saturday and it carried on the sunday morning. That morning he smashed his head in the wall and ran threw the window. Then he threw everything around, broke everything. Grabbed his girlfriend in a choke hold and then sliced his arms and throat. Noone understood why he was so enraged and noone could stop him. He is now in pscy-holding in jail. With 2 felony charges. I have always wondered for years if he was bipolar.

I am a Matt Smith subscriber !!! Quality work keep it up. Great contribution to hip hop community, I like his breakdowns.Great interview too 💯

I have hosimoto’s and a new therapist after 2 visits thinks I’m bipolar, however I don’t think I am. I truly believe it’s my thyroid. I’m definitely not going to go on meds. I am watching all of these videos to see if I relate. 🤷‍♀️ Do you have any videos about your thyroid and bipolar?

Awe, your hair looks nice!

Ive been diagnosed with bipolar 1 and Ive never had instances of delusional thoughts. Have I been misdiagnosed perhaps?

I’m worried my son 21 yr old may be. Idk how to go about getting a diagnosis since he doesn’t want to go to doctor or be tested for it. I’m so sorry. My mom was bipolar.

Hmmm. I think for events I look forward to, I do have to mind that I avoid getting too “amped up”. And for ones that I want to avoid, I have to mind maladaptive behaviors that fuel mood episodes.

I love your hair! And I totally can relate. Pot gummies help me. Maybe they can help you too 👍🙏🏼☺️

It’s not just for people with bipolar but for anyone with anxiety as well

Great interview. Hats off to the both of you

There’s always a way! ❤

I’m so sick of BP🏴‍☠️

I have bipolar, and I'm unmedicated, idk if thats good or bad but being on supplements and living healthier/not doing drugs has led me to be much more stable by the grace of God. Great interview, I'm glad I watched, Matt is inspirational

This is an awesome interview. I hope Matt knows his real fans will be patient and will enjoy his content when he puts it out. I love his content but don't want videos at the expense of his mental health. We can wait, take care of yourself first 🫶🏾.

I love your videos and your demeanor. I'm also a type 1 but not nearly as sweet as you seem to be. And it seems like you landed a dream job! I love hearing stories like yours!!! I am a Full-time SAHM right now, though looking for at least part-time work. My best job for my mental wellness was a casual position doing crisis work where I was "relief" staff and worked as little or as much as I wanted to, provided I met minimum monthly shift requirements, which was easy. The last few months I worked there I was basically full-time employed. It was so flexible. Another bonus was that the hours worked for raising my kids as we didn't require childcare. I've been bipolar for 20 years. Though I've only taken the disorder seriously since having a family. Here is to stability!!!

Great interview. S/o to my guy for being vulnerable

Thank you both for sharing your experience with bipolar disorder.. My sister suffers from depression and I am interested in learning what I can so I can be more supportive and understanding.. ❤

Awesome video Jess! Staying employed is definitely a task when you are bipolar. Feels like you have to create your own path.

Love <3

Good stuff

Thanks Matt. Love you channel. Great that you were able to get donations. Thanks to this channel too!!! Subscribed

I'm so happy that in this day and age people and talk so freely about mental health. This healthy discourse just warms my heart. ♥️♥️

I love watching his beef breakdown vids so it’s dope to see the man behind the channel. Everyone struggles and I think shedding light on it without glorifying or propagating a victim mentality is important 🙏

Everyone with bipolar has a unique story and perspective and its so interesting to me. Great video!

Great interview and hats off to my guide matt

❤️‍🔥🙏🏽❤️‍🔥keep doing your thing brother❤️‍🔥🙏🏽❤️‍🔥

Matt is a the goat. The people love you big homie. I have also struggle at times with my own mental health

Great chat. So relate to bipolar impulsivity impact on work. Glad you each have found solutions that work for you now. The Alchemist is a great book!

Do people know when they are manic? I need help with my son.

My 22 year old son got diagnosed this week. TY so much for your videos...

Thank you for sharing your story, your Amazing!!!

Been there done that don’t do it folks if your not stable 😅 thank you for sharing your story really important :)

Facts

There can be a lot if anxiety when traveling

I resonate so much with your story ❤❤❤ thank you for sharing and hope you are having a lovely Sunday ☺️✨💫

unrelated to seroquel - but my psych took me off lamictal cold turkey a couple weeks ago because I started having a rash around my eyes and mouth, blurred vision and she said it could be Steven Johnson syndrome. I'd been taking lamictal since 2018. Have you heard of developing the rash after all those years. Only change in dosage was when we went down to 150mg from 200 back in November, then I went back up because I was not doing well on a lower dose. LMK if you have any thoughts on this.

Thank you for having the courage to share this difficult time

Could have been worse. You could have gone with softball in the museum.

I have bipolar 1 with psychotic features and I also unfortunately went on a trip before i was on the right meds (my doctor thought i only had OCD so i was on lexapro only. Yikes). My family and I went to Arizona when I was 20 and it was one of the most traumatizing, embarrassing periods of my life. I just remember being so paranoid and having "revelations" about how people work. I thought the hotel staff was out to get me and I started to freak out my family members. I had to scream into a pillow in the hotel room because I felt like I couldn't go on, and my family stood there watching me, horrified. I can definitely relate about what you said about feeling overstimulated. That's exactly how it was being on antidepressants. Anyway, thanks for sharing, I really like your content its very relatable.

Good to see you. I was wondering where you were! I have depression and occasional mania and take a low dose of lexapro. I would like to do a channel and think I have good ideas to share but I don't like the way my eyes look. I'm kind of zombiefied. I thought I'd get a discussion about whether people who have extreme psychosis can read and enjoy a book. I don't think it's possible. I lost my love of reading slowly over several decades and feel fortunate I can play a musical instrument. I am learning to draw too. I can write a simple letter and I use snail mail. That gets me to thinking. Overall I'm doing well and only on low doses of two medications. I think exercise is the best thing I can do for myself but sadly it is not my top priority, which is unreasonable.

What were you doing during mania? Being loud, talking a lot? Could you give an example, please?