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I really feel bad today so thanks ig

GUYS I DID IT!!! I FINALLY FUKING DID IT!!! I OVERCAME MY HYPERSEXUALITY AFTER SIX YEARS AND BARELY BEING 13 😋😋😋 Haven't overcome my SA tho :/

I got sa at 4, 11, and 13 and my parents only see the 11 year old one. I need to tell them the others but they won't believe me but i have a burning memory of this. I don't like church because of being sa at church at 4 while in the kid watch zone. The 11 year one we are taking care of. But then at 13 it happened again. I blame myself for all of this. I also got groomed by my abuser and many people that almost sa me. and dated. Sa is a huge part of my trauma. I feel seen by this playlist. I wanna be okay but i will never have my body and childhood ever back again thanks to all my abusers.

12:46 this song reminds me of my old friend...🥲

JIMMY SHUT UP

if evergreen plays when you finally feel freedom, outside with no buildings around on a bright day and you can actually smell the flowers again and feel the sun, thats bliss

11:15 my favourite song :)

Is it ok if someone tries to kill me?

Sorry I need someone to talk to sorry to waste someone's time

TW SA It was by my dad this happened about three years ago almost 13 now and I still can’t get it out of my mind So basically, I used to cuddle with my dad and it seemed harmless at the time, but then he started to touch me in different ways. He told me to never tell my mom about it because she would get angry and he used to touch my upper chest a lot, but he told me that he was asleep for it and how the fact that he didn’t remember after about two months of that going on to go lower and that’s when I freaked out I ran to my bedroom and shut the door but then my mom got home and she was crying so I told her what happened. He got slapped on the face and I still live with him.

Real (I was groped by someone around the same age as me but I can't tell if it's sa or not)

when i heard this is home i.... i just wasnt prepared for cave town i love this

i just got disowned yesterday and its really surreal. its a weird feeling to have your father relinquish your last name like its a title. its a weird feeling to have your mom pick you up and take you to subway and hear his song there. its a weird feeling to have you mom fight for him to keep his rights over me so she can up his child support but hes fighting to give me away. its a weird feeling to be 13 and having your already halfway gone father sign me off on paper. it hurts

To everyone who is struggling please go to god he will help you he has helped me just try it you have to let him help you just try it thats what i did and im better now not perfect but better. Plus if your afraid of someone leaving you again god wont he will always love you he will always care for you so please go to him because he loves you and he doesn’t want to see you like this.❤🙏

This made me missing the touch of comfort so much no one has comfort me in years

dang,yall have such crazy stories...i'm just,dunno

My stepfather 🍇 me when I was 8 years old

Js got hugged by my friend today. Idk how to feel. This playlist made me feel tho

Is that freaking Meat Lantern!?

As someone who's been SA'd and groomed (online.) when I listen to playlists like this, that's how Ik it's getting bad again.

i cried bc my bd is today(19november)and my bsf unfire,ded me n said i hate u n f u bc a fake friend told lies abt me:(

i wish someone could hold me again.. i feel alone, filthy, and just sad. i need a hug, i need cuddles, i need someone to.. need me for once, more than just greedness, or someone thats stays quiet and ignores me, i NEED spmeone that loves me. not how i look i need someone that was make me feel safe for once not forgotten..

Repressed memories of being SAd when I was like five have started coming up a few months ago. I think a part of me always knew, but part of me wishes I never remembered so that I could pretend that everything was fine. After weeks of hints, it came back to me almost all at once and I couldn't stop vomiting for at least fifteen minutes. Doing slightly better now, but I still have off days.

I wasn’t r/ped but I have been assulted and they said I was just a joke when they touched me sexually :(

Tw I guess (SA, being groomed) After being SA-d throughout my whole childhood I fell into a man's arms, who's 8 years older (I was 19 when we got together, I didn't want to be in a romantic relationship with him but he told me that he wants to and I really needed someone in my life). He reminded me of my rapist for months with his personality then I got into the psychic ward after I tried to break up, but with a toxic household, I didn't see any meaning after that and attempted to end my life. He was the only person who I could count on during this time and who could get me out as he had a few connections. Then we moved to a different city and in my country it is almost impossible to live alone. However, now I am trying my best to finally have a plan to break up and save up to move out as I am 21 - why? Because I was groomed by another man who's 17 years older and my coworker and I just love the attention he gaved me - now he's a prick, I suppose bc he knows that currently I am in a relationship. My heart is broken, I feel physically and mentally exhausted, I just want it to be over. I feel like I am not attractive to people my age. The best thing is that noone thinks that I'm groomed except me so maybe I am just delusional.

Got SA'd at work a few days ago and I've been on autopilot since with everything that followed, finally just took a day off to cry and this playlist is good for that

I was crying but then I went to this song and I fell asleep

Hey guys, God loves you very much❤ I love you to❤ stay strong things Will get better!

I wasn’t ever raped, but I was in a relationship with a ‘friend’(I don’t talk to her basically ever but I have to sometimes because our moms are friends) for about 2ish years, she would rub my thighs, close to my inner thighs, randomly touch my stomach or chest, and she forced me to kiss her after I told her I didn’t want to multiple times, I told her at least 30 times I wanted to break up, she never accepted it, I had to ghost her for a while(about 4ish months) for her to get the hint, I also had(I say had because I don’t consider him or his mother family anymore) cousin(he was probably like 4 or 5 at the time) that would grope my thighs or chest, I told him to stop, he never did, I told adults, they never did anything, I know he was a kid but the adults never did anything! And now I can’t forget how either of them felt, I hate people touching me, i take burning hot showers but I can’t forgot their hands on me, and now I’m stuck always feeling them on me…even pain doesn’t make it go away…sorry for the long rant, I have a hard time realizing how much I type..

Me and my little sister were groomed by our older brother when we were 9 he would always touch us and be weird We were stuck in a room with him once and we were crying trying to get away from him That had a huge impact on my life,I haven’t talked to my sister in months and as for my brother I seen him a couple months ago I haven’t told anyone yet I’m 13 now

i remember having a massive mental break down for like 2 hours because when i told one of my closest freinds about how i got SA'd they said it might've just been a dream and it hurt so much..

Soo... ,what's this new feeling. "Happy"?

Bro, it’s so embarrassing to think people think they have the right to SA people. I’ve survived it 3 times. I’m so done with the people of this planet.

I need a hug.. Anyone..? I have been really stressed.. School is hard and I am always forced to put on a fake smile so that I never make anyone sad...! I'm basically spilling my guts to strangers because no one will want to listen to my problems.. And even though I am having a hard time with life, my mom fails to notice that and always tells me to clean my room.. And my dad yells at me too much.. My crush friendzoned me.. My bestie is drifting away.. Im trying to be happier and take care of myself.. But I cant.. At this point Im just crying every night. I have no purpose of living... No one likes me.. I have lost my girlfriend because she was being inapropriate.. No one accepts me as a therian.. No one accepts me as a lesbian... Except for my bestie.. I am very introverted and have a hard time communicating with people.. I am having a hard time breathing lately.. Im on the verge of crying.. Its almost midnight... I am so tired but I cant sleep.. Its therian day but I cant tell my parents that I am one because they think that therians do inapropriate stuff.. These songs are my life.. Please..? A hug?❤ Edit: Im feeling alot better, but I still don't have any purpose of living. I am still young yet I am thinking abt death. I need help.

Yes you, I though i'd tell you something..... I love your smile I love your laugh I love your personality I love your hair (or lack thereof) I love your insecurities I love your accomplishments I love your failures I love your eyes I love your beauty I love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) I love the way you dance I love you on your happy days I love you on your sad days I love you on the days you feel lonely I love you on the days you feel helpless I love you on the days you feel like no one cares I love you on the days you feel forgotten I love you on the days you feel unmotivated I love you on the days you feel loved I love you on the days you feel sick I love you on the days you feel motivated I love you on the days you feel depressed I love you on the days you feel stresses I love you on the days you feel crazy I love you on the days you feel hopeful I love you on the days you feel cuddly I love you on the days you feel clingy I love you on the days you feel amazing I love you on the days you feel beautiful I love you on the days you feel like a failure I love you on the days you feel angry I love you on the days you feel aggressive I love you on the days you feel horrible I love you on the days you feel safe I love you on the days you feel unsafe I love you on the days you feel vulnerable I love you on the days you feel weird I love you on the days you feel ok I love you when you're healthy I love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) I love your taste in music I love your taste in movies I love your taste in tv shows I love the way you move I love the way you act I love you when you cry I love you when you're kind I love you when you're mean I love you when you're alone I love you when you can't feel I love you when you feel too much I love you when you can't take life anymore I love you when you feel like it's too much I love you when you're asleep I love you when you have nightmares I love you when you have dreams I love how you believe I love you when you believe in yourself I love you when you don't believe in yourself I love you when you hate yourself I love you when you love yourself I love the way you think I love you problems I love your solutions I love how you support I love you when you're in pain I love you when you're hurt I love your promises I love your secrets I love your attitude I love you sass I love your creativity I love your voice (or lack thereof) I love you hand gestures I love your stories I love your wounds I love your scars I love your face I love your past I love your future I love your present I love your outfits I love your style I love your art I love your honesty I love you when you lie I love you when you're tired I love you when you're energetic I love how you look I love how you cook I love you when you're adventurous I love you when you're scared I love your imperfections I love your perfections I love you when you worry I love you when you talk (or communicate) I love your opinions I love you when you have a headache I love you when you have a stomach ache I love you when you help others I love you when you need help I love you when you're mature I love you when you're immature I love you in the hard times I love you in the easy times I love you when life is meh I love you when you're responsible I love you when you're irresponsible I love you when you fight I love you in your darkest moments I love you in your brightest moments I love your heart I love you in the day I love you in the night I love you at midnight I love you at 3 am I love you at all times I love you at your best I love you at your worst I love the little things you do I love all of you I love you when you're you I love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :) (THIS ISNT MINE BUT PLEASE PASS IT AROUND :DD) <3

thank you for the songs!🥰🥰

random vent . .. .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. idk whats wrong with me whenever i feel almost happy i get a feeling of unworthiness like i don't deserve it and distance myself from the people that make me feel this way even when i don't want to actually i don't even know why i'm like this i feel ungrateful i have so much yet i can't even appreciate it when there's people who barely have enough and they can be happy and i'm scared to tell anyone because i feel fake what if it's just a season thing and i bother everyone plus all my parents will tell me to do is pray honestly i don't know how to even pray for myself anymore i don't see the results it's been over 2 years and i'm not feeling better i don't know what's wrong with me. i couldn't even tell thhe difference between fake and real friends till i met a group of friends that treated me so well and didn't hurt me everyday calling me fake and a lier then i started liking my bsf which i don't even know if it's like or the fact that ive never actually had a friend that treated me right until i met them and right when i was getting comfortable w them i had to move to a whole new place where everything is different almost everyone is fake and the people who i see as friends so far we have no classes togethher i only talk to them after school and my bsf from before isn't good w online communication and it's not the same i miss them so bad idk whats wrong with me it's not that deep i keep comparing everyone to them and all ive been doing is staying in my room listening to songs and drawing i just want to sleep cause i feel better but then it's barely anything people go through worse and i'm sad over moving and not being able to accept the things around me idk what to do thx if anyone read this it wasn't important but it was bugging me🥲

Watching this after my mom made me have a mental breakdown 🩷..

listening this after my parents fought

loved are you know to you want just I ...calming so is playlist This

i gotta move out. i really need to and i wantt to and im excited but i think hearing im moving out made my mum cry