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I am so so happy I found your channel. I think we think very similarly and I'm greatly enjoying that. What's the French film you mentioned near the end?

One of the realisations that this video reinforced in me is how im tired of repetitive arguments, my life and so many people in this world are so fixateted in their mindset and they force you down this drain of making the same points or asking the same questions over and over again and im so tired of it, experiencing creative thoughts also expressing them is a growth mindset, a way of a curious eye, i have some friends i can have this with but life keeps us far apart so it isnt as often as id like, my family my friends and just society in general continuously expect me to show up as the same person and its tiring, reading and writing help ofcourse, when talking to my chatgpt i realise how much potential my conversations have if only met with an equal curiosity, yk?

I love how you think about things your very intelligent Loving the vids please keep making ❤️❤️

Thank you for making this video. As you predicted, I ended up at this one having started at your pacing video. Looks like it’ll probably be an ongoing process for both of us!

You have made something wonderful and poetic out of this awful experience. I admire you 🙏

have u read the idiot by elif batuman? bc some of the way u were talking about ur intellectual life / ur passion and enthusiasm in sharing cultural responses with ur friends rly made me think of it tbh - there’s this bit which is about how u talk about some intellectual obsession u have that’s like about a painting or something & u share ur thoughts + knowledge about it with ur friends as a way to talk about ur emotional life & I rly liked that :) ❤❤

I love your intro, the storytelling is so dreamy!!!! love your brain and the way you speak <3

GREAT🙂🙂

this is exactly the type of people who are increasing the housing crisis in barcelona and forcing the locals out of the city :/

I love your videos so much. 🩵💙🩵💙

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"I know that this isn't a satisfying video..maybe" - on the contrary. It's so good to hear from you again and this video is ideal! From everything I have been learning about recovery & improvement stories, all of the things you have mentioned align perfectly. And it is messy and never a straight line, so to hear what you did over the past while is invaluable and confidence boosting, hopeful, and inspiring!

So great to watch you again after a few years. Both of us are in different places. My me/cfs was very bad at the time. And now I'm starting to do a lot better and going out socialising again, walking further, as well as doing other more normal stuff too with greater ease. Go us 👏👏, and long may it continue. And funny you say about your family link, my mum has it too and she has never got completely rid of it either but manages it

I have wondered how you are doing, I subscribed to you a few years ago after searching here for others with me/cfs. I have had me/cfs for over a decade and I am recovering well using nervous system techniques and some other things! Congratulations on your progress, wishing you continued success with health and all other endeavors too.

This update video was reallly great to hear by the way- thank you for the video

Living alone is good for my health because there’s less stimulation and I sleep significantly better. Thankfully we have a big place so we spend a lot of time quietly or in different rooms - I will always need to have as many bedrooms as people I live with or more so I can always manage to be alone and quiet

Super interesting video, am grateful for the update. Recovery is /so/ nuanced but stories like this give me hope. ty and well wishes <3

it feels so inspiring you're able to pursue your creative passions and record and talk us through what you have been battling chronically ! i have two autoimmune disorders and it just feels like my life has to stop bc of it sometimes but the feeling of being on "pause" doesn't have to be forever! excited for your barcelona life and sending healing energy your way 🤍

Have been watching your channel for a few years, I remember your very helpful ME/CFS pacing video at the time. The phrase seeking 'small dreams' stuck with me. I have ME/CFS well. You might be interested in my channel which talks about the research. Hope you can continue to improve.

Been watching your videos for years, I have CFS too and recently got the visible app which measures heart rate variability, I'm finding the connection between the heart and CFS very interesting. I'm glad to hear you are moving towards feeling better.

More £££/$$$ Needs raising for CFS/ME/FMA Cures!!... :)

Did it get deleted?

This left me feeling calm and cozy thank you 🙏🏼

This video deserves millions of views ❤so poetic and beautiful

I shared this with my daughter who also loves Paris❤ love the scenes of the cafes and the French 🎵🎶 musique in the background. So true how inconsistency is common at age 21 when one is trying to find themselves! This is an age befoe eyiir kufe takes flight! Such a wonderful time of freedom to be who you want to be! I remember this age with fondness! 😊❤ Love your musings and your ability to articulate your thoughts. Excellent writing young lady❤😊

Love this ❤ J'aime Paris❤ very thoughtful thoughts 😊 Merci beaucoup. Thanks for sharing yori insights.

oh my goodness losing access to my documents is my absolute worst nightmare.... feeling a lot for you about that. But also it's amazing to hear your thoughts about it after the cataclysm - I see exactly what you mean about how it's a wake up call to live out loud - "I have to carry my soul in my body now" is SUCH a good way to put it. The google drive IS a daemon, or a horcrux or a secret mirror to gaze upon the version of our most authentic past selves... but also I'm having deeper thoughts about how (even if it's beautiful) it can be limiting if we comfort ourselves with it but don't move it out into the world... or if it's an excuse to not share that piece of soul with the people in front of us bc we know we've always got it in our back pocket. lol getting into the royal "we" here, but this resonated IMMENSELY with my own relationship with my own hidden writing and authentic hidden voice and questions of anonymity vs. being perceived that I've been having lately. As always you put it all so well. Also I love the fashion tie-in and YES that makes perfect sense and here's to tapping into the energies of all our past selves through the clothes and memories attached to those clothes, literally everything is full of dust and magic ;)

i gasped out loud when u tlked about loosing the documents !! im sorry :( u have a lot of rly incredible clothes !

I’m sorry you lost all your documents - being transported by your own words is an amazing thing and you’re a beautiful writer

You look good in everything, how could you ever decide?!?

The vibe💗

lets goooo <3 <3

Hello again! Your last bit, being in your 20s is “a time for experimenting”- with the right mindset that’s the whole thing. I find it is even more pleasurable as we age because we have learned to let go of the youthful judging. I hope for that for you!

missed you dude!! glad to see you back and having fun :~) I 100% have to go read A Spy in the House of Love, wtf that was beautiful

so glad you’re making videos again!!!

Hi Feargha! ❤

the body is a cop comment made me laugh sm !!! seeing the body as friend and not monster i think can be rly hard in the context of being sick.... moonbathing sounds like a lovely life philosophy ! i feel like ur so interested in form [forms of life / youtube / health / creativity] !! sooo lovely to see u back here :) i feellike my comment does not do justice to the interestingness & depth of ur thoughts shared in this video but alas !!! that is life i guess lol also i am so sorry u got pneumonia !! am happy to hear abt ur health being a bit better beside that tho ! <3 xxxx

The bit about the body keeps the score is so fucking real, that book gives me so much anxiety

Oh my goodness I literally googled you this week to find out where you were at

We miss you on here ❤

Got wobbly lip watching this. Beautiful work. Thank you. I'm in similar position. This is sooo helpful. ❤

I just watched this video twice in a row. It's exactly what I needed to hear today

How long did your full recovery take

I'm staying home to to get better

What do to with the lonelyness ? I really wanna have cuddles andaube dates and al this things..i feel lonlely if i try to be consisten😔