She’s very honest. Many people make excuses and blame others. She doesn’t. She claims to hate responsibility but, she does take responsibility for her chosen life.
She may not be stressing the point but being pimped out by an aunt when she was a kid is probably not an irrelevant detail if we want to consider root causes.
She probably does not have much to lose, we lie when we care what others think. I live in Michigan, I know that area and I work with substance abuse patients. I would love to help her get into our program if she wanted to try being sober. She is going through heavy things, but she is not a waste of a human being. I really want to help her
She meant burden of responsibility. Bills&payments , early mornings, self-discipline, sobriety, lease agreements, moving all of the furniture to a new place, credit history, renewing state ID/driver's license, FILING TAXES... I hate it too.
@@threat645 in the interview she said it was fine. she got pimped out by an aunt who probably started off being nice and got her on drugs or some shit if i had to guess. she does say she got pimped out by an aunt who was feeding an addiction.
@@durianriders thats what im saying... i mean, she was introduced shittily, but really it sounds like she got out, but went back. Because she admittedly "likes it better than anything else" and maybe for her, its the only way to be, ....youre not gonna argue with this girl
@clandestine2178 Depends on what area you live in, the news where I'm from is mostly about wholesome events, but in more dense urban areas you hear about messed up people taking part in malicious activities, it's sad because they can't help it either, it's the society around them that molded their behavior
I was homeless for 10 years sleeping in the worst conditions in England I'm now a director of my own cleaning company and have a flat ! Many times i was gonna end my life but I'm glad i kept fighting and turned my life around ! I remember 6 Christmases in the same block of flats just to keep warm smelling people's Christmas dinner whilst hungry 🙏🏾 I'm so thankful and grateful I've made it through those bad times if anyone is going through the same please don't give up 🙏🏾♥️ love you all 💯
Her aunt pimped her out. That will traumatize anyone, and make a person feel low, wanting to get high only makes sense. Drug use shouldn’t be criminalized. People need help, not jail time.
I agree with that as long as they’re non violent drug users. However the second you break into someone’s house, kick their door down and or tie up the residents and ransack the place, well I think those people should be shot on site or as they’re breaking it. This girl doesn’t seem like she would ever do that
Nope. You are going in the wrong direction. My dad was an alcoholic and anybody, ANYBODY!!!! with an addiction will tell you an addict needs to hit rock bottom and enabling them only makes it worse. The only reason my dad finally went to rehab with the right state of mind was because he was about to lose his job and his wife. If my mom was willing to stay with him longer and his employer was more accommodating, he would have just kept up his lousy lifestyle. You poor saps always think you get a compassionate ribbon if you hand out a victim card. Stop it already. It is your mentality that is causing the rise of homelessness in America. I'll remind you too that alcohol is legal and it doesn't stop anyone from ending up on the streets because of it.
She is not at all living by mind , but by heart & by her impulses & mood. She had seen surely some depth & details of life suffering yet deepest eye opening naked truth with self experience, so she is such a bold & honest & very transparent, not hypocrat like our World's mundane rat race culture & society , who distinguishes people between good & bed , right & wrong , this & that & others , as labeled by & large around world.
Its different tho, some ppl get addicted to the life style, i got addicted thru a bf was for 10 yrs got clean n the hardest part was letting go of the lifestyle, the running around, the constant on the go, rush of getting the money n the drugs etc, that dragged me back in, then gor clean 5 yrs, got with an ex friend n got into it again, im just now getting back my life after kicking him out 5months ago
@@amber616renee congratulations 👏 🙌 💖 keep going!! I am about that far in too but on subs. Idc bc it is helping me get my life back. Reach out if u need a friend to talk to. God bless u
He’s asking her all of these normal questions, humanises and normalises her in our eyes, also makes a compliment, shows her support and shows her belief in her which she obviously is in desperate need of.. she’s obviously been thinking about her life and her life choices a lot..
@@taylorhumes7567 what he means by “humanise” is that so many interviewers would ask questions that are almost as if the interviewee weren’t human. For example: what’s it like being an alcoholic? Drug addict? Are you begging to buy more drugs? They don’t get normal conversations but only those harsh questions which might make them feel like the dirt in society.
I achieve ,,just,,150£ a day ,but when i quit from habit i never have this motivation do this amout in normal live without ,,superhero,,ability come from substance .top up the tax you pay for is biggest than you profit -experince proov
My big brother was just like her in so many ways. He died a couple years ago at 32, due to the way he was living, like her. I'm so glad the interviewer treated her like a human, and cared. So much to be learned with instances like this.
I'm sorry for your loss. I understand, i lost my dad to heroin 13 years ago. It never stops hurting. He was a great man, it kills me when people refer to him as a junkie. His addiction was apart of him, it wasn't who he was however.
What we have learned is you can’t help people like that. It’s simple. The way they see the world in their mind....it’s not possible to help. They have to help themselves. Even bringing clothes food etc. just enables them to get more drugs. No one wants to see it for what it is. There’s plenty of well loved people that commit suicide.......once the mind is gone it’s gone. For the ones of us still here we should realize there’s nothing we could have done to save them. They made the choice. The drug has to get into your body the first time.....
@@justemusicme you're right, in and out of rehab, I've seen it several times unfortunately. You really can't change until you want to. I did. But we shouldn't leave our empathy behind.. As someone who has alot of family struggling with addiction; a new set of clothes, a meal, and someone who cares can change your life. Never stop trying to heal people.
@off spec yea my bro told me he had a close relationship with fellow homeless addicts. It was a tight knit friendship/hardship. They all took the same harsh comments. Ppl passing by throwing trash at them and yelling at them to get a job. Responsibility can be tough but abandoning that brings on a totally different set of circumstances and hardships. Life is tough either way but we need to keep our chins up! I Love Y'all
I’m surprised that after 10 years of hard drugs she’s still very clear in her thinking and coherent and articulate. Imagine how much smarter she would’ve been without drug abuse. Escaping life through drugs but paying a huge price through terrible quality of life.
Yeah but it's only a matter of time for when the affects show. It's different for everyone of course but for some, it's a very slow affect. I know someone who did these drugs hardcore for years & only now (last couple years) it's finally hit her. It's very sad to see
I've been using since I was 13. I'm 29 now and the only time I was sober was at the start of feburary 11th 2011 which lasted about three and a half years so somewhere between 23 and 24 I started using again (went through a very traumatic experience and was also placed back in toxic environment with no support system) I always like to think of myself as different then everyone else. People that dont know me are always get scared or look at me funny. I'm a very nice person people tell me after getting to know me that I surprised them or that I'm not what they expected. People come up to me talking about religion and end up leaving shocked because I schooled them and told them something they didn't know and proved it right then and there lol but nothing negative always something positive to add to there experience and not to say that I dont learn anything or that im so smart no one can tell me anything...No im open minded and always willing to listen to you and your opinion and also see if I can learn anything from you. I feel like ive been ostracized by the whole world I spend half my day trying to hold in the tears. Its so lonely. I wish could be the same as everyone else its so hard everyone thinks just because im homeless that im a dumb ass or a monster I may not be as smart as I was but i try to educate myself as much as possible. I love history english math and chemistry...but nobody every stops to ask me..instead people through things at me groups of girls laugh at me and people run from me it just adds to the weight thats already on my shoulders. have you felt the world lately? its so heavy..
I've been on the gear for 20 years, I'm married , support a step son , live in a rented property and have held down a job all my life. I think it's the crack that takes its toll on people more then the smack , I'm 38 but I look more like 25.
Except this wasn't necessarily due to external conditions. A lot of people believe that addicts and alcoholics are born with the disease of addiction/alcoholism. Which would mean that she's bound to end up here eventually no matter what. Doesn't mean this is where it ends tho.
@@Ma_K95 Consider this. If she’s bound to eventually end up here because she was “born with addiction” then you wouldn’t have people who were addicted, stoped, and changed there ways. Like she said, she doesn’t want to change. A individual chooses there fate when it comes to substance abuse.
@@Ma_K95 are you talking about the predisposition to addiction or addictive personality? If so, don't forget that predisposition doesn't mean that someone will absolutely get an addiction. It just means that if two people use the same drug (alcohol or cigarettes for example) at the same times, the person with the predisposition will be more at risk to developing and sustaining an addiction. It also doesn't need to be drugs, it could be gambling, shopping or even exercising.
She sounds institutionalized to that lifestyle. That's where her friends are and where she's not judged. It sounds like she gets clean, but misses her community, so she gets sucked back in. I also hope her kid understands that his mom not being there doesn't make him unlovable; I hope he gets that it's not anything to do with him.
Wow, great insight, I my self am a drug addict & that is a huge problem I have every time I get clean, it’s really hard when I try make new friends who are not drug user’s, normal people are not as friendly, I end up very lonely, mental health starts slowly slipping, insomnia & anxiety starts getting worse each day....... Hey I know what will fix it 💉🤷🏻♂️ ✌️🇦🇺
@@danielgonzalez-yp7hi I just want to apologize on behalf of the "normal" people that think this way. I've struggled with mental health, but I can't even begin to imagine the trials and tribulations you've overcome on your journey. It's sad but that life is normal, comfortable and familiar to many people in that situation. I have never been in that situation but I know that comfort and familiarity are things we seek even if they may not be the most pleasant situations. Not sure where I'm going with this, but I just wanted you to know that your voice is heard and your progress is extremely admirable. Stay strong Daniel ✌♥
@@danielgonzalez-yp7hi I hope you are well.. I feel like any recovery journey will include learning to be alone, not without support, but still mostly on your own because as much as anyone can love you, no one will really get what you're going through unless they're recovering too.
@@testing123. i hope u are well also, I mostly feel this way after a year or 2 sober, it’s hard but I sometimes relapse just because I’m lonely, or is it an excuse & my brain is tricking me 🤔 Thanks for the reply, I hope u have an awesome day/night
@@FloreFleur Exactly. Loser's mentality. And nobody better try and use her lifestyle or upbringing to make excuses for her. I've seen plenty of videos of people in her exact same situation who have said they would love to get out of doing this shit and have a better life. She doesn't. - "Don't save her, she don't wanna be saved."
Basically proves how strong addiction is... she is no dummy she knows what that kinda money could buy her but she's not interested. The drug is her lover, her best friend, her everything. Addiction is cunning and strong and talks to her. It is a disease.
Barbara Von..God may have made us in His image but pretty sure he gave us FREE WILL for a DAMM good reason. For all we know this could be a trial BOOT- camp of sorts equipping us with KNOWLEDGE time to get it out of our system. HE WHO BELIEVETH IN ME shall INHERIT the KINGDOM
“I don’t want responsibilities” Some people think she deserves it because of that thought, but it’s a shallow analysis, the “not wanting” responsibilities might be attached to the fact that she has a very poor self image and believes she lacks the capacity to deal with life, specially considering her current reality. Those are things that can be treated over time if approached correctly and straight to the point, presenting a different view of life in which she can, indeed, be able to do better herself and things are not lost. Unfortunately, most of us are not willing to go further, and usually have a very savage deck of words to deal with this kind of situation when, in fact, is a life that can still be saved.
A someone who has dealt with depression and anxiety for years, I definitely see some parallels here. When you're in that deep, dark hole nothing seems achievable or even worth it. It doesn't matter if it's something that you've been comfortable with your whole life. Once you cross a certain point, it's just not worth in in your mind. Perspective can most definitely change once you get things in order, however. I know these are very different issues, but I just wanted to thank you for publicly saying this. I'm not sure how many people struggling with addiction can relate, but I can definitely understand this. Thank you for these beautiful words. Love, strength, and hope to those dealing with addiction and/or mental illness ♥
Could you please make a commentary on this video and upload it on your channel? I'm asking because your comment will soon be buried by the comment algorithm that always favors cheeky or short emotional comments.
Absolutely. And just because she says doesn't mean that's the truth. Very few of us can sum up the reasons we have the problems we do with anything approaching precision.
she is a really good interview, i respect how blunt and real she is. wish her the best of course, you can tell she could be successful in life definitely not a dummy
She is a damn dummy not because you can talk means you know what you are doing....she has a child an leaves that responsibility on her mother.....please that says it all..
she probably feels and got more freedom then most of the ppl with a haus, a famaly, stressfull job and who just want to be "RIGHT" how the Society wants them to be. my english is not best, ut i think u know what i mean ...
"I don't wanna deal with life" is a perfect answer. That is exactly how I felt during my last few drinking years. Life seemed to me an overwhelmingly difficult task for which I had zero capacity and, hence, zero motivation.
@@ristomikkonen5255 I drink almost everyday like a beer or 2. I’m a bit worried about it. What do you think? Should I be worried? Because I just enjoy the stress release so much when I drink and.. it’s not a lot
Sad that an addict would introduce her into this world knowing how it is. Family should want more for their kin. It’s very sad. Seems like she never had a chance to use that sharp brain of hers. I respect how honest she is
Caite's been to rehab 18 times, and it didn't take. She returns again and again to a lifestyle on the streets, which has become a de facto comfort zone, or home for her. Even if she were able to beat her addictions and get clean, returning to the lifestyle would likely cycle her right back into addiction, as I'm guessing it has done many times before. It is truly heartbreaking, because well-meaning people everywhere would want something better for Caite, but you really can't give something to someone who wouldn't sooner have it for themselves. I wish for Caite the small miracle she needs to turn her life situation around--the very same miracle that several people who meant the world to me didn't get in time.
I grew up outside the city and there are so many people like Catie. Smart, still young, had a good upbringing and they “miss the streets”. Its truly heartbreaking
@@englishlanguagewithnina5965 go to 4:10 in the video. He asks her if her problems today have anything to do with her upbringing. She replies, “no, i had a good upbringing”.
@DIV1NITAL the reason they miss the streets is because our lives are fake and plastic, we're just going through the same motions. Whereas on the streets people are actually living more of an authentic life compared to the people going through the same commodified motions day in and day out.
Excellent. Ended the interview with the promise of some needed necessities in exchange for her time. I hope he follows through with toiletries, as well.
@@shakeandbaked1 it's what heroin does and why it's so dangerous especially for those with depression. It not only takes away physical pain but also mental pain. All the depression, sadness, self loathing bad memories, etc goes away when you get on that stuff.
I feel so sad for her mom. Can you imagine raising your grandchild not knowing where your daughter is, if she's okay or not? I bet she's cried herself to sleep so many nights. 💔
Most women on drugs still would want to be in their child’s life but don’t want to be in and out or don’t want the kids to see them in that condition. When he asked her if she could snap her fingers and be soccer mom with good husband,nice car,&nice home she quickly replied “no I don’t want the responsibility”. To know she has a child and answered that question so quickly irked me lol.
My son has scizophrenia OCD Fasd ADHD...and born addicted to hear s mom's powerfull anti phsycotic meds...I ve had I'm scince 19 hours old...he developed phsycosis leading to scizophrenia via smoking weed and drinking scince 13...now full blown meth use weeed alcohol .And now he's tried harion fentynol pills methadon...and I completely Ely understand his draw of street life ..to me I believe it to be very tribal ..my son is native andour streets lined with native folks..I understand his desire to use...to escape the brain crunk of boredom of mental chaos of feeling broken .. Feeling trapped in the OCD tics...I get it...he also has s brain injury from an over does on fentynol whilst out in a pass his first time in treatment.
As a recovering addict my heart goes out to her. I can’t help but get choked up listening to her. I know the feeling of just wanting to be a ghost among the living. I hope she’s still alive. And if she is, I pray that she’s clean.
@@johndanielsforJesus Jesus can grab hold of anyone’s heart and transform them. I’m living proof of that. Whether it’s the most powerful king who ever lived or just a simple drunk and drug addict like me. I owe everything to Christ for saving me from addiction. God Bless.😇🎚
@@alyssag.5758 For what? The poison is coming from the inside destroying her body. There's no room for vanity at this stage. Only the plastic world we live in that focuses on the external when people struggle with diseases like addiction.
She seems to be a smart, straightforward person with poor life choices. She definitely has the chance to turn everything for the better, but her mindset of not accepting responsibility will definitely keep her tied up for good.
The fact she said her fav book was “ A piece of cake “ by cupcake brown!!!!Oh wow that speaks volumes ! That is an amazing book about addiction and the lifestyle! She is very aware of her life and her life choices! Many blessings to her
It's hard to smell shit when you have grown up in it, you only notice how shitty it was once you are able to get out and smell the fresh air. As nice as Caite is, that has nothing to do with her Trauma. Being pimped out by a family member to fuel their drug habit has long-lasting effects which are on display in the interview.
feels like you just dont like the idea someone is better off doing drugs for 12yrs than following the meta, she said she had good times growing up and had no issues/traumas.. she seems smarter that the average while having done drugs for so long, so im confident she knows better than some random dud
@@user-ir7qs3oe9e yeah bro sure, tell that to her son,whose mom is a drug addict and lives by the streets meanwhile he is all alone with his grandparents. He sure is in good company and well taken care of though but he has a mom who prefers living the drug addict lifestyle that raising that boy. She seems a nice girl, don't take me wrong, it's just that her choices doesn't seem fair to me.
I never said she didn't find happiness in and with her drug use. Nevertheless, she is doing something to herself that is quite destructive. Experiencing good parts of one's childhood is excellent, but I would wager that those experiences did not lead her to drug use. I am not sure what you mean about following the meta, but I would be interested in learning if you are willing to share? In my experience, substance abuse is a method that many folks leverage as a means to self-medicate. The conscious or unconscious reasons why one feels the need to do this varies from person to person.
@@Daigham23 sorry for my english, with following the meta i mean following the "standard", to simplify, something like: study> socialize> get a job> make a family if we assume she isnt lying and take to account how logically she spoke, id say that even if she is selfdestructing, she did make her choice in doing so and she likely evaluated what was best for her giving her situation. when you say "you only notice how shitty it was once you are able to get out and smell the fresh air" you assume that she doesnt know/remember the smell of fresh air, im sure if you give her a house, a million $ and caring friends, she would probably change her way of living while enjoying it more, but its just not happening, so she simply choose whatever worked better for her.. thats how i see it
@@user-ir7qs3oe9e Ahh, sure, and just for the record, I am not suggesting or implying that anyone lives a status quo life, a.k.a. meta. I hear you, and yes, I am making an assumption based on the little bit of info I have. With that, I can only assume that she hasn't experienced the fresh air as a full-fledged adult, so to speak. Not to mention that she can't smell, hear or feel things accurately based on her drug abuse, meaning she wouldn't be able to tell the difference even if she were to given a million $ and caring friends. Lastly, I agree that she simply chooses whatever works better for her but that all comes at a huge cost to her and anyone connected to/with her. Thank you for the explanation, by the way!
@@kamtorz Drugs are just as available in prison. And I hate to point this out but they have been locking up drug users for over half a century and guess what? Nothing has changed, drugs are flowing freely and the prisons are full. Do you know the definition of madness?
It breaks my heart even more that her favorite book is "A Piece Of Cake" by Cupcake Brown. Cupcake was her at one point. I hope she finds the same strength that cupcake did to get out of this life
Wow. She’s so honest and real, and I cannot help but respect that. I lived in Detroit for 3 years and love that city (South West is a great area). Her perspective on how sobriety has to be her choice is spot on! I also had to come to that realization in my own journey. I recently celebrated 19 months free from my own demons. I hope she finds the peace that she truly deserves. I hope she finds it within herself to escape the grips of the shadows that follow her. I hope she truly discovers her infinite worth and can one day claim freedom.
The interviewer sounds so sweet and non-judgmental. I love how transparent he was the entire time . Continue to spread the love and kindness you never know how it might affect others. 💛 Prayers for her as well .
It is hard for me to understand being addicted to “the lifestyle” of feeling sweaty and unkept, freezing, facing physical attack, abuse, rape and getting arrested, being physically addicted to drugs, having ones body break down with teeth falling out. My heart goes out to them all as they all need love, acceptance and hope for the future💜
I used to feel the same way but my daughter is an addict and shes said to me that it's not just the drugs u give up it's the "lifestyle" and I thought how deranged but if u really think abt it they dont have jobs or responsibilities and literally the MAIN focus in life is to get high,all the other things they dont even truly care abt bc their high and those things dont matter. Its really heartbreaking and I wish I could save them all but I cant even save my own child.
@@kimhancock5965 That does sound extremely hard to watch happen. I can see what you mean by focusing on the goal to get high. Hopefully one day the cycle is broken to realize it's much more rewarding to take positive steps in life.
I think people don't get depression, anxiety and mental health if you've never gone through it. I don't blame people turning into alcoholics or drug addiction. When you've hit rock bottom and life seems worthless, you turn to anything just to help each day pass, whatever the cost.
I don’t know how you feel you don’t know how I feel. I luckily asked for help when I needed it and am diggin my way out of a hole I started digging when I was a teenager, but you nailed it. Can’t understand the struggle if you’ve never felt it. Do anything to breath when it feels like your suffocating
People never leave these conditions they either adapt and learn to cope "somehow" or they go downhill.. As you said Mental health problems will MAKE you understand what it is in the harshest way possible
Only pure unconditional love can be of any help ( that too without any subtle , show off & without any conditioning) & hope for all such beautiful soul with open heart & no~mind spegetti people of life, jus like enlightened mystic radical master of life , so blunt yet so pure , so much hurt yet so real , so vulnerable, yet so real n delicate & sensitive enough for self life.
@@hhhvvbbb6266 what;s the problem? You don't think this lady will steal from you because her favourite movie is 'Anchorman' and you find that relatable? She may be a nice person, but her choices make her a terrible person too. Her son is growing up without her, and presumably without a father. What will his life be like? Hopefully better than hers at least. Addiction is powerful but remember that it involves making choices about scoring and using.
I appreciate how you do remind them that it’s not too late to try and change for good, but at the same time your still calm and understanding when they usually honestly don’t wanna hear it
@@lukusfelix9308 I agree. There is no need to create an excuse story to it, she just doesn't want responsibility and that's it. She couldn't fail more than she already has.
@Observe self true, i mean the aunt introduced her to it and pimped her. who is her mother, and where was she in those times, she stayed respectful because in my experience family can gas light you into thinking you’re the worst person alive for not being grateful for the good life you live despite the horrible things surrounding you that no one likes to point out because it would destroy their perfect little world.
Had something happen and went through depression and anxiety, still fighting. Didn't work for two years. Even that, even getting back out there was the hardest thing I've ever done. 12 years of her lifestyle? I don't know how you fight back from that
Hardened hearts are not good. The desire of the drug is her master. It controls your mind, body and emotions. It is repetitive cycle that has to be broken when she decides.
So heartbreaking. Addicts do not realize the effects they have on their children, NO MATTER WHO IS RAISING THEM. They need their mommy’s and daddy’s. Clean and healthy mommy’s and daddy’s. 💗🙏🏼
When she says she doesn’t want responsibility... that is a trauma response. Drugs drugs and her lifestyle medicate her trauma so she doesn’t have to think about the shit that happened to her when she was young. She continues to use the drugs so she doesn’t have to feel or deal with anything.
100%, lots of here are going to think that she might be telling the truth, when she says that stuff but absolutely not, if you have dealt with people who are addicted you know what that really means. She is trapped, and absolutely that is a trauma response.
Lot of people dealing with trauma. The loss of innocence as a child is a trauma in it self. almost everyone is out of touch with there feeling and body so they can survive. Most people are surviving not living. The epidemic makes this clearer then ever.
Not every body is comfortable with the lifestyle you suggest, if she wanted that she would have it. I've had it, made me nervous and stressed, so much happier being free!
@@SomebodysGrandmother, understandable. It feels good to be content with what you have. It's not for everyone. It requires a good deal of time to research the facts and fundamentals, and set the best exit price, and small mistakes can equal great losses.
@@Stonktradomus So true, seems the more we have the bigger the gamble, as far as what we do financially and in personal relationships. Really, there are no guarantees in our lives, especially with the world spazing out like it is. I think those with some money setting up a scenario where they have a food supply, a water heat and cool source and protection in several areas would be the thing to do. Getting out of the cities is wise.
Money is & always can be means , no ends .... such substance abuse victims are generally sensitive & very emotional & vulnerable as well , to outside impacts easily , where as those who live by jus mind , jus always live by mind when with their love as well , both need to be balanced actually & it's life mystery unfolding in Moment2Moment from Known2unknown2unknowable, they all need some little more unconditional love & proper & subtle rehab with all the best processes & devices of meditation like catharsis to retreat to active meditation to cleanse & clear their all emotional garbages in sacred space , where their are not judged or even any subtle way conditioned or put in any of belief system but gives them maximum creative outlets of dance , painting or in sacred space to allow it & let go & who live with them & love them , as they are , accept them as they are , don't try to impose change that hard as well ....otherwise it may create more suffocation to let go & then rather it create more attraction for substance more actually.....they need YES to life , YES to Nature , YES to let go , YES to allow it to go... YES to life affirmations energy, aura & vibrations.... they need CAN DO & CAN COME OUT , unconditional love & support.
@@yellow-stand-u8wdn2 Her mind is not consciously fighting. However, subconsciously, her mind and body are fighting to survive the abuse of constant drugs being dumped into the system. When they give up, she will die.
I got to met a mother at my job that told me her son was homeless. She expressed her pain through tears. She told me, “ DONT APOLOGIZE HE WANTED THAT LIFE STYLE”! She accepted his faith, she stated that all there is to do is pray.
A lot of people don’t understand that this isn’t just drug use, this is a lifestyle. I lived this lifestyle for so long and you don’t just get addicted to the drugs, you get addicted to it ALL and it becomes your normal. For the first few years of my sobriety I would white knuckle every minute of everyday because I was so BORED and would constantly think “how the hell am I going to do this for the rest of my life..same shit different day, what kind of living is that”.....until I realized that’s EXACTLY what I did during addiction, same shit different day. I’m so happy and thankful to be sober now (9 years later) but for most addicts once you’ve been in the life for so long you honestly don’t know how to live any other way, much less motivate yourself enough to WANT to live any other way. I mean sure every addict says they want to be sober but in reality it’s hard to even imagine what sobriety would look like! It’s boring as hell...but I love my boring ol life!
10 years 7 month 2 days. I wish I would feel some boredom. I have so much stuff to do its just crazy. Not all of the things I am doing daily I am really willing to do, but it is faaar away from boring.
She doesn't know how to tap into and express what she's feeling. I can assure you that thing she's seeking is a true connection and she needs stimulation in her life. Boredom is our enemy.
@@mrshaneobuenosnodgrass3328 I don't talk about attachment and I'm aware that there is a spectrum. But I mean addiction in terms of a mental disorder. There is certain criteria which have to be met. If it doesn't affect the individual or the people around it it's not an addiction.
@@godsson7957 there are always attachments. It's part of life. Sobriety is a stupid ideology of the church. I'm not saying it isn't worth trying to stay off drugs and gambling and what not but it's also ok to indulge here and there when it costs one to much energy to stay away.
I totally get it... Every single morning that I have to get up and go to work or deal with the smallest responsibility I say to myself, "I don't want to do this!". But I feel there's no other alternative but to get up and do it! I'm a grateful recovering addict and I absolutely loved my drugs of choice, but it just isn't an alternative for me anymore. I couldn't deal with the guilt and shame of not being there for my children. I love them more than the drugs and they positively deserve the best version of me. That's what gave me the desire and the motivation to quit and stay clean (11yrs clean). Best decision I ever could've made! Do I still roll my eyes and snarl at the thought of responsibility??? ABSOLUTELY!!!! No time for pity parties, so I do what has be done and tackle the day... I'm a happier and better person for it and best and most importantly is my kids are happy, healthy and well taken care of!
I cured a cocaine habit 25 years ago and never looked back. 1 st, admitting that you have a problem is key to recovery , second wanting to get better and thinking positive are important as well. Third , praying to God and wanting to make a difference helping others around you will make one feel better about themself. Trust me I was about one paycheck away from winding up homeless.
Meth causes them to nervously pick at their skin and scar the hell out of it when their senses come back after he ng stoned and numb. Every little tickle you feel on your face is hypersensitive after dulling your senses through dysregulation.
This girl is so clear minded and sharp for being addicted to serious substances. She’s so endearing and calm. It hurts to see someone with such an awesome personality stuck in the trenches of that crappy life. I hope she’s able to get out and enjoy the life that could be. The trauma that her aunt put her through definitely stays with you and I’m sure that’s the reason for her downfall in life. It really sucks. Choose you Caite. You deserve a warm bed and home to lay your head, your son who needs you so badly and all of the good shit that comes with a square life. It’s so worth it. We’re rooting you on.
Because she knows she can't handle responsibility without support. This girl is clearly traumatized and not able to handle life because it's too painful.
@@englishlanguagewithnina5965 Ok, so why don’t she find the support then !? Well...l will tell you why ? Because she has another excuse for not to find it Besides, the main reason why people live like that is bc they don’t want to fight with totally sacrifice. Or maybe it’s just like she said, she just don’t wanna responsibility bc it’s “easier” without it
could never imagine another woman raising my daughter, even my mother. once i became pregnant with her, my whole world changed. she is my number one responsibility and I am happy to give her the attention she deserves. so sad her little boy doesnt know his mom, or rather... so sad she doesnt know her little boy.
I appreciate people like her more than some “soccer moms” because she knew the situation she was in and she decided to own up to the facts and not try to blame something else. Its awful to see someone make those choices but its also nice to see someone realize the choices they’re making and not try to hide it. Lying about it doesn’t change anything. I hope someday she does rid herself of those addictions but never rids herself of the brutal honesty. An honest criminal is better than a law abiding liar.
I think its weird, her face is all F'd up.. but her teeth are white and looks good. Makes me wonder, can you do crack, and if you brush the teeth, the teeth wont get all F'd up?
I'm not gonna lie, at a very hard point in my life I was homeless and doing H too. But i had such a hard childhood all the way to adulthood. In fact, I always wanted to write a book detailing how crazy my life was. But I just want to say how cool it is that not only were you super gracious doing that interview, because so many times people treat homeless people like their dirt, but I also think it was a wonderful gesture to offer her clothes and shoes as well. God bless you sir. Btw, sober since 2014.
Between my wife and I we make 170k a year. We spend maybe $30 a day on average. Rent only $800 a month for the house and no car payments and no kids. Being raised on the low side of middle class by frugal parents made me like this.
that’s why she’s on the streets with no home or car. very sad in my eyes but if that’s the life she wants i just hope she at least stays safe. her love for drugs is the only thing she wants in life and satisfying that is her motivation for survival.
@@jonathansaffron3119 What do you work as? You don’t have to share if you don’t want to of course, I’m just looking into career options since I’m turning 18 in less than a decade
It's not a mystery... once lady H takes ALL your pain and sorrow away and puts you on the cloud pillow of love... and then you come down and see the shit your really in and how insanely hard it is to get out of... gee, I wonder why $20 and a dude right next to you that can put you right back there is a constant desire. Not even too mention the insane sickness when it leaves your system. I hope you make more and more people realize the vicious cycle and how smart and sweet so many of these HUMANS stuck out there are. And I think you do, and it's really a great service you're doing Tom. Keep up the good work, as they say. :) And those reading this: try to remember this stuff when you pass an addict on the street-- be kind, say hi... if they're assholes (just like anybody can be) , just go on down the lane. Peace to you all and stay safe~
Thank you! A lot of people make judgmental comments or, “I’d never do that.” In someone else’s shoes, you wanna bet? Never judge someone whose life you haven’t lived. And even though treatment centers tell us that accepting full responsibility is necessary and people find those who do to be refreshing...I hope they also realize there’s a hell of a reality most addicts have lived in most of their lives. That’s why they want to escape (not a bad or weak character). Your comment shows a deep level of understanding. I hope people listen.
mykep28 Yes, I’m glad you’re sharing your experience, to increase the understanding. When I was on a treatment list, the only way I could get from where I was to treatment was to use up until I checked in, or I would get too sick to get to the facility! And not only when I was on opiates but...people say stimulants like crack don’t have a withdrawal but newer studies & many people’s experiences say otherwise. It could be weeks until I was able to get the energy to make it to an appointment. If I stopped using in the interim. They told me that the waiting list was weeks to months so I didn’t have a specific target date or even a ballpark date. I was financially saddled with keeping my self and my man going, day after day, which cost a lot (for drugs, as well as rooms, etc). Had to get the money all night, every night. I was still on opiates, as well,, so I would get sick and also crash for 3 days after a daily 24/7 run. That would invariably be the day the treatment would call, and I’d be back at the bottom of the list. Or I’d lose my phone or had it jacked, or the police would seize it, and back to square one, Finally, I was arrested for prostitution and the first thing I did was ask the judge for help, and I got into the treatment I had been trying to go to. When my probation officer got the new case he said he was sorry and would’ve like to help me but they were backed up over a year on their case management load so I had not been able to ask him for help, because we never had an in person meeting in the couple years I’d been on probation (although I was referred for supervision). So my record got some serious damage (I got a year and a day prison sentence) before I got treatment, but finally got into the only residential program with medically assisted withdrawal, in my are, Although I had to wait an extra three weeks in treatment before they had a “heroin spot” open. It was a really horrible shaming punitive type of place and I didn’t stay off of everything. Finally though I ran into someone I had met there who was staying off drugs & she referred me to a better outpatient treatment in town which I could finally managed to get to since I wasn’t in opiate withdrawals if I didn’t go. (I had quit the opiates with the first treatment but still had to kick the stimulants). And the second treatment had that therapeutic approach to get me on the right track. I was so, so lucky, though. I know people who died in the meantime, trying to get in, and now there is no medical assisted withdrawal or a residential treatment in my area due to loss of funding. If you are court ordered they should be you across the state for residential but there are a lot of people with kids or who are placebound who can’t go. It’s also just scary you’re going somewhere that you know you’re going to at least need a greyhound ticket to get back (and if you fail the treatment you won’t get one). I’m not saying poor me but just trying to provide a perspective on the difficulty of getting into treatment, like you brought up. I also hear a lot of people commenting that people should just “go home,” And I’m not sure they realize that a lot of people who are addicted have had very strange family lives or been abused or raised in toxic homes, whose parents are homeless or live in a single occupancy, Who are not in touch with their families and were discharged from foster care, or whose parents have passed away. People with addictions are almost always going through more than others know, and are not the partying hedonists that people often assume. After a very short while it’s no party anymore... just a way to stay awake and/or not sick, and there’s never enough $ for substances to keep basically functioning. We are often living on the streets, usually with people who are in full blown addiction, also. It’s a life that’s easy to get into on so hard to get out of, for sure. There’s so much wreckage behind me it’s hard for me to keep hope up to keep going... i’m just so lucky not to be at that point anymore I of trying to get the drugs out of my system. It’s not an experience I would wish on anyone, but it can be of some value from what we learn from it, and teach others. I hope everything is going well with you. Keep on speaking out! In the state my man came from the waiting list was 9-11 years! Well, sorry for the book... just realized how long it was! 😳. Your positive feedback means a lot.
I had such a weird experience trying to get on Suboxone-- I had been trying to do less (thinking it would be helpful) and they told me I didn't have ENOUGH dope in my system so I actually had to go out and do MORE than I had been to get on the program. I did and I got on and I'm sure it saved my life but boy was it strange to have a nurse tell me, "gotta go do more H". After 4 years I'm now in the process of the off Subs. Down to 1mg should be done by the end of this week, then for my Vivitrol shot (for alcohol).... Sigh.... It's always one thing or another. I've been clean before for almost a year until I had neck surgery. Can't wait to get back to that pure, present, aliveness! Best, K
I was addicted to meth for 20 years and i know how hard it is to be in this kind of darkness,I just want to praise my Lord Jesus for changing my life, now im serving Him in His message that there is no past to dark for the love of Jesus Christ.
@@pinknoisefloyder Yeshua, the Messiah of Israel died for all our transgressions, and reading the Bible gives us the true meaning to why we exist and what we should do while we're still alive during our very short lifespans.
@@pinknoisefloyder It is hard to understand I know Ive been there, but when you set your heart to understand Jesus, that's the start. He will give you the understanding through His words in the Bible and Holy Spirit. I was an addict, a gambler and smoker for 20 years and in just one day the, all of it was gone, Now im picking up my cross daily to follow Jesus.
I am so relieved to see a sensitive interviewer and hear not have to hear the same questions over and over, irrespective of what type of situation is keeping them on the streets!
Yo man she's super candid answering personal questions without hesitation. As if she's accepted the reality she's in and it doesn't seem depressing (to her). Most people want more to life and up getting it and find its not enough. Multiple times rehab says she's does not want to be cured. Crazy how drugs do to an average human being .
You can see that the drugs have altered her appearance but they haven’t altered her brain. She explains that she is where she is because she wants to be there. She wants to be in the streets and she wants the high. It’s very honest and it destroys the stereotype of what people imagine homeless junkies to be.
Eh can't say I agree with that. The drugs have absolutely altered her brain. The feeling of the high makes her want to abandon a normal life which includes her own child.
Lost my aunt to this lifestyle she had a good upbringing, spoiled etc. she got with the wrong boyfriend introduced her to drugs, she loved it and left all 6 of her kids and is now on the street doing drugs.
Heart-breaking how such nice and clever girl can waste her life. She is so self-conscious, so aware of her condition. And she is not even close to tears. Its mi life. Period. I wish could heal her wounds and giver a second chance.
As an addict I can tell you rehab won’t work until you have rock bottom and want a better life. I’ve had 1 year clean on April 6th, I’ve lost everyone and everything I love. I still have my son on weekends thank goodness but the life I was once used to and the woman I loved and family that was there for me are gone. It’s a sad life sometimes in recovery, work during the week and go home to an Oxford house with other recovering addicts the only thing I have to look forward to is the weekends with my son. But like I said, the life and woman and family I wish I could have back is in the past so please everyone who is fighting this battle take it seriously because the life and people who are there for you now and are waiting for your change can be gone before you know it. Take it from me you don’t want to look back and wish you would of done it earlier. Watching the woman you love pick your son up and watching them leave wishing you could leave back home with them is really heartbreaking. The time I went to rehab before I got clean this time the director of the rehab facility told me “son get it together cause you think this time away from your family is hard, watching another man raise your son and being with the woman you love is some of the worst pain you will go through”. I wish I would of took his advice back in 2019. So please people take care of yourself and your addiction.
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She’s very honest. Many people make excuses and blame others. She doesn’t. She claims to hate responsibility but, she does take responsibility for her chosen life.
She may not be stressing the point but being pimped out by an aunt when she was a kid is probably not an irrelevant detail if we want to consider root causes.
She probably does not have much to lose, we lie when we care what others think.
I live in Michigan, I know that area and I work with substance abuse patients. I would love to help her get into our program if she wanted to try being sober. She is going through heavy things, but she is not a waste of a human being. I really want to help her
I bet she did when she was younger, you just reach a point and age where you can't fake it anymore, just don't have it in you nor do you care to
Not the brightest crayon in the box are ya?
She meant burden of responsibility. Bills&payments , early mornings, self-discipline, sobriety, lease agreements, moving all of the furniture to a new place, credit history, renewing state ID/driver's license, FILING TAXES...
I hate it too.
She is 29 and has been on the streets since she was 17.
Holy crap, thats sad.
pimped out is sad. pimped out by aunt is heart breaking.
Though, she is, doing what she wants....
I bet her childhood was HELL. Thats why people numb the noise with drugs.
@@threat645 in the interview she said it was fine. she got pimped out by an aunt who probably started off being nice and got her on drugs or some shit if i had to guess. she does say she got pimped out by an aunt who was feeding an addiction.
@@durianriders thats what im saying... i mean, she was introduced shittily, but really it sounds like she got out, but went back. Because she admittedly "likes it better than anything else" and maybe for her, its the only way to be, ....youre not gonna argue with this girl
These are the type of interviews you will never see on mainstream media
Bless this young woman's soul. She has so much more life to live.
Hey DuckDuck ?!
Yes you do. You just don't pay attention.
@clandestine2178 duck
@clandestine2178 Depends on what area you live in, the news where I'm from is mostly about wholesome events, but in more dense urban areas you hear about messed up people taking part in malicious activities, it's sad because they can't help it either, it's the society around them that molded their behavior
I’m in Detroit. And I met her at a dollar tree. Lowkey she was soooo sweet. God bless her.
I was homeless for 10 years sleeping in the worst conditions in England I'm now a director of my own cleaning company and have a flat !
Many times i was gonna end my life but I'm glad i kept fighting and turned my life around ! I remember 6 Christmases in the same block of flats just to keep warm smelling people's Christmas dinner whilst hungry 🙏🏾 I'm so thankful and grateful I've made it through those bad times if anyone is going through the same please don't give up 🙏🏾♥️ love you all 💯
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Great job! GOD BLESS U!
think i saw you comment this somewhere else. congrats.
wow, thats inspiring. you are a lionheart
How did you change your life so drastically what did you do??? we need the blueprint
These girls spend more in a day than I do in a whole week.
but then people send them money
That is what addition will do...spend it all, while being homeless and going hungry :(
Yes that's true.... But please don't judge until you have been in her shoes. Addiction is a HORRIBLE disease. I've been there.
Alexis and Bill Clerico well said, none of us have the rights to judge, good luck to the lady, some people don’t realise how lucky they are x
@@jennyfoster792 you are so correct!!! Sounds like you understand. ❤️
“You’re such a nice girl.”
*the brokenness she feels and starts to tear up*
My heart ached and still aches after watching this.
Her aunt pimped her out. That will traumatize anyone, and make a person feel low, wanting to get high only makes sense. Drug use shouldn’t be criminalized. People need help, not jail time.
I agree with that as long as they’re non violent drug users. However the second you break into someone’s house, kick their door down and or tie up the residents and ransack the place, well I think those people should be shot on site or as they’re breaking it. This girl doesn’t seem like she would ever do that
Do you know how much the govermemt makes from drugs? Bro the cops ship the heroin in state's. It's a monopoly.
Wait so her aunt pimped her out at 19 cause thats weird....always blame game with these people ....
@@gothivore277 amen brother
Nope. You are going in the wrong direction. My dad was an alcoholic and anybody, ANYBODY!!!! with an addiction will tell you an addict needs to hit rock bottom and enabling them only makes it worse. The only reason my dad finally went to rehab with the right state of mind was because he was about to lose his job and his wife. If my mom was willing to stay with him longer and his employer was more accommodating, he would have just kept up his lousy lifestyle. You poor saps always think you get a compassionate ribbon if you hand out a victim card. Stop it already. It is your mentality that is causing the rise of homelessness in America.
I'll remind you too that alcohol is legal and it doesn't stop anyone from ending up on the streets because of it.
She says she doesn't want to deal with life yet she's dealing with life the worst way ...😩
She is not at all living by mind , but by heart & by her impulses & mood. She had seen surely some depth & details of life suffering yet deepest eye opening naked truth with self experience, so she is such a bold & honest & very transparent, not hypocrat like our World's mundane rat race culture & society , who distinguishes people between good & bed , right & wrong , this & that & others , as labeled by & large around world.
Its different tho, some ppl get addicted to the life style, i got addicted thru a bf was for 10 yrs got clean n the hardest part was letting go of the lifestyle, the running around, the constant on the go, rush of getting the money n the drugs etc, that dragged me back in, then gor clean 5 yrs, got with an ex friend n got into it again, im just now getting back my life after kicking him out 5months ago
@@amber616renee congratulations 👏 🙌 💖 keep going!! I am about that far in too but on subs. Idc bc it is helping me get my life back. Reach out if u need a friend to talk to. God bless u
True.. and Ive been there
Sad
He’s asking her all of these normal questions, humanises and normalises her in our eyes, also makes a compliment, shows her support and shows her belief in her which she obviously is in desperate need of.. she’s obviously been thinking about her life and her life choices a lot..
Humanizes? She is human... no matter what she does or doesn't do.
@@taylorhumes7567 what he means by “humanise” is that so many interviewers would ask questions that are almost as if the interviewee weren’t human. For example: what’s it like being an alcoholic? Drug addict? Are you begging to buy more drugs? They don’t get normal conversations but only those harsh questions which might make them feel like the dirt in society.
Damn $400 a day? You know what kind of a life you could live with that money? This is heart breaking.
She would never be motivated to make that much, without drugs.
I achieve ,,just,,150£ a day ,but when i quit from habit i never have this motivation do this amout in normal live without ,,superhero,,ability come from substance .top up the tax you pay for is biggest than you profit -experince proov
What you think she's making that kind of money legally? If she leaves the life the money goes with it smh
Well, it's not a job you do and live straight.
@@kaibarrera9911 You’re right 👍 it’s just sad.
My big brother was just like her in so many ways. He died a couple years ago at 32, due to the way he was living, like her. I'm so glad the interviewer treated her like a human, and cared. So much to be learned with instances like this.
I know the feeling, same happened to my brother 😞
I'm sorry for your loss. I understand, i lost my dad to heroin 13 years ago. It never stops hurting. He was a great man, it kills me when people refer to him as a junkie. His addiction was apart of him, it wasn't who he was however.
What we have learned is you can’t help people like that. It’s simple. The way they see the world in their mind....it’s not possible to help. They have to help themselves. Even bringing clothes food etc. just enables them to get more drugs. No one wants to see it for what it is. There’s plenty of well loved people that commit suicide.......once the mind is gone it’s gone. For the ones of us still here we should realize there’s nothing we could have done to save them. They made the choice. The drug has to get into your body the first time.....
@@justemusicme you're right, in and out of rehab, I've seen it several times unfortunately. You really can't change until you want to. I did. But we shouldn't leave our empathy behind.. As someone who has alot of family struggling with addiction; a new set of clothes, a meal, and someone who cares can change your life. Never stop trying to heal people.
@off spec yea my bro told me he had a close relationship with fellow homeless addicts. It was a tight knit friendship/hardship. They all took the same harsh comments. Ppl passing by throwing trash at them and yelling at them to get a job. Responsibility can be tough but abandoning that brings on a totally different set of circumstances and hardships. Life is tough either way but we need to keep our chins up! I Love Y'all
I’m surprised that after 10 years of hard drugs she’s still very clear in her thinking and coherent and articulate. Imagine how much smarter she would’ve been without drug abuse. Escaping life through drugs but paying a huge price through terrible quality of life.
Yeah but it's only a matter of time for when the affects show. It's different for everyone of course but for some, it's a very slow affect. I know someone who did these drugs hardcore for years & only now (last couple years) it's finally hit her. It's very sad to see
I've been using since I was 13. I'm 29 now and the only time I was sober was at the start of feburary 11th 2011 which lasted about three and a half years so somewhere between 23 and 24 I started using again (went through a very traumatic experience and was also placed back in toxic environment with no support system) I always like to think of myself as different then everyone else. People that dont know me are always get scared or look at me funny. I'm a very nice person people tell me after getting to know me that I surprised them or that I'm not what they expected. People come up to me talking about religion and end up leaving shocked because I schooled them and told them something they didn't know and proved it right then and there lol but nothing negative always something positive to add to there experience and not to say that I dont learn anything or that im so smart no one can tell me anything...No im open minded and always willing to listen to you and your opinion and also see if I can learn anything from you. I feel like ive been ostracized by the whole world I spend half my day trying to hold in the tears. Its so lonely. I wish could be the same as everyone else its so hard everyone thinks just because im homeless that im a dumb ass or a monster I may not be as smart as I was but i try to educate myself as much as possible. I love history english math and chemistry...but nobody every stops to ask me..instead people through things at me groups of girls laugh at me and people run from me it just adds to the weight thats already on my shoulders. have you felt the world lately? its so heavy..
Hit me after 3 years clean Haven slot of trouble with short term memory
Imagine if the drugs were regulated and she could pay for them with a regular job instead of selling herself and stealing.
I've been on the gear for 20 years, I'm married , support a step son , live in a rented property and have held down a job all my life. I think it's the crack that takes its toll on people more then the smack , I'm 38 but I look more like 25.
It's like the movie Butterfly Effect.. In another life, she is that soccer mom..
Like the way ya think
Except this wasn't necessarily due to external conditions. A lot of people believe that addicts and alcoholics are born with the disease of addiction/alcoholism. Which would mean that she's bound to end up here eventually no matter what. Doesn't mean this is where it ends tho.
@@Ma_K95 Consider this. If she’s bound to eventually end up here because she was “born with addiction” then you wouldn’t have people who were addicted, stoped, and changed there ways. Like she said, she doesn’t want to change. A individual chooses there fate when it comes to substance abuse.
@@Ma_K95 are you talking about the predisposition to addiction or addictive personality? If so, don't forget that predisposition doesn't mean that someone will absolutely get an addiction. It just means that if two people use the same drug (alcohol or cigarettes for example) at the same times, the person with the predisposition will be more at risk to developing and sustaining an addiction. It also doesn't need to be drugs, it could be gambling, shopping or even exercising.
Excellent comment.
I did not expect her to provide such a compelling and articulate conversation. It broke my heart
She sounds institutionalized to that lifestyle. That's where her friends are and where she's not judged. It sounds like she gets clean, but misses her community, so she gets sucked back in. I also hope her kid understands that his mom not being there doesn't make him unlovable; I hope he gets that it's not anything to do with him.
Wow, great insight, I my self am a drug addict & that is a huge problem I have every time I get clean, it’s really hard when I try make new friends who are not drug user’s, normal people are not as friendly, I end up very lonely, mental health starts slowly slipping, insomnia & anxiety starts getting worse each day.......
Hey I know what will fix it 💉🤷🏻♂️
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@@danielgonzalez-yp7hi I just want to apologize on behalf of the "normal" people that think this way. I've struggled with mental health, but I can't even begin to imagine the trials and tribulations you've overcome on your journey.
It's sad but that life is normal, comfortable and familiar to many people in that situation. I have never been in that situation but I know that comfort and familiarity are things we seek even if they may not be the most pleasant situations. Not sure where I'm going with this, but I just wanted you to know that your voice is heard and your progress is extremely admirable.
Stay strong Daniel ✌♥
@@danielgonzalez-yp7hi I hope you are well.. I feel like any recovery journey will include learning to be alone, not without support, but still mostly on your own because as much as anyone can love you, no one will really get what you're going through unless they're recovering too.
@@Peanutbutter_Funk thank you 😊
@@testing123. i hope u are well also, I mostly feel this way after a year or 2 sober, it’s hard but I sometimes relapse just because I’m lonely, or is it an excuse & my brain is tricking me 🤔
Thanks for the reply, I hope u have an awesome day/night
So f-ing clear and honest. "I don't want to quit", "I don't want responsibility", "I just don't want to deal with life", "I would miss this mess"
Her honesty is to be respected, but her mentality is not. For her to say that while having a child is inexcusable.
@@D_2387 preach 🙌
She doesn’t want to do better.
@@FloreFleur Exactly. Loser's mentality. And nobody better try and use her lifestyle or upbringing to make excuses for her. I've seen plenty of videos of people in her exact same situation who have said they would love to get out of doing this shit and have a better life. She doesn't.
- "Don't save her, she don't wanna be saved."
@@D_2387 THANK YOU for saying this!!! Finally someone practical.
$400 a day. That’s 145,000 a year. Hustle like that anywhere else and you’ve got one fabulous life.
Basically proves how strong addiction is... she is no dummy she knows what that kinda money could buy her but she's not interested. The drug is her lover, her best friend, her everything. Addiction is cunning and strong and talks to her. It is a disease.
Also when you get off the drugs... you get off the hustle too so you don't make that kinda money UNLESS you're using.
We share traits with billionaire entrepreneurs. Its not that we lack potential but that we don't focus it or tap into it.
@@NoBeunoPendejo it replaces need for food, shelter and love in the brain. Yes.
@@Unbotheredbythat facts! We all can be something If we put our mind into it
Her honesty is so pure
I agree.
@Barbara Von Traumer angels don't do drugs. A demon took over HER body.
Barbara Von..God may have made us in His image but pretty sure he gave us FREE WILL for a DAMM good reason. For all we know this could be a trial BOOT- camp of sorts equipping us with KNOWLEDGE time to get it out of our system.
HE WHO BELIEVETH IN ME
shall INHERIT the KINGDOM
@Barbara Von TraumerAngel??? Gee...enable much!!! More like.... irresponsible idiot!!!
She seems like she has no emotion. She was so calm about not being in her son's life.
“I don’t want responsibilities”
Some people think she deserves it because of that thought, but it’s a shallow analysis, the “not wanting” responsibilities might be attached to the fact that she has a very poor self image and believes she lacks the capacity to deal with life, specially considering her current reality. Those are things that can be treated over time if approached correctly and straight to the point, presenting a different view of life in which she can, indeed, be able to
do better herself and things are not lost.
Unfortunately, most of us are not willing to go further, and usually have a very savage deck of words to deal with this kind of situation when, in fact, is a life that can still be saved.
A someone who has dealt with depression and anxiety for years, I definitely see some parallels here. When you're in that deep, dark hole nothing seems achievable or even worth it. It doesn't matter if it's something that you've been comfortable with your whole life. Once you cross a certain point, it's just not worth in in your mind. Perspective can most definitely change once you get things in order, however.
I know these are very different issues, but I just wanted to thank you for publicly saying this. I'm not sure how many people struggling with addiction can relate, but I can definitely understand this.
Thank you for these beautiful words. Love, strength, and hope to those dealing with addiction and/or mental illness ♥
Could you please make a commentary on this video and upload it on your channel? I'm asking because your comment will soon be buried by the comment algorithm that always favors cheeky or short emotional comments.
Absolutely. And just because she says doesn't mean that's the truth. Very few of us can sum up the reasons we have the problems we do with anything approaching precision.
"deck of words" great term
I just see trauma and lost dreams in her answer, Its the direction she have accepted for her and she thinks truely she doesnt deserve better,
she is a really good interview, i respect how blunt and real she is. wish her the best of course, you can tell she could be successful in life definitely not a dummy
She's articulate and well liked in the area. Like I always say, it's the interviewee that makes for a great interview, not me. Thanks.
@@ChosenWon prayers
She is a damn dummy not because you can talk means you know what you are doing....she has a child an leaves that responsibility on her mother.....please that says it all..
A few hard knocks and that is it.
And what a beautiful smileon that kid
“I don’t want responsibility I don’t” I felt that.
😇💯🙏🤳
Same
Same
It's insane how much of a narcissist drugs make you.
Honest as hell, she’s so pretty and you can tell she’s smart as hell.
Poor young woman. She’s aware of the path she’s on but her addiction won’t allow her to do a reset on her life.
She doesn't really want to stop. She even said it.
its a choice, like taking care of yourself!
she probably feels and got more freedom then most of the ppl with a haus, a famaly, stressfull job and who just want to be "RIGHT" how the Society wants them to be.
my english is not best, ut i think u know what i mean ...
@@jojojimys there is no freedom in addiction. Simple as that.
@@your_belief_vs_everything She can't stop, she even said it. It's not like flipping a toggle switch and you're clean.
"I don't wanna deal with life" is a perfect answer. That is exactly how I felt during my last few drinking years. Life seemed to me an overwhelmingly difficult task for which I had zero capacity and, hence, zero motivation.
How did ya stop drinking btw? I tried AA but it just wasn't for me
@@rippinstitches7394 Through peer support.
@@ristomikkonen5255 I drink almost everyday like a beer or 2. I’m a bit worried about it. What do you think? Should I be worried? Because I just enjoy the stress release so much when I drink and.. it’s not a lot
@@ericvandoornen461 if your worried about it then stop. Or treat your one or two beers as a reward when your daily routine is accomplished
@@evanspader6762 true, I will :)
She seems so bright; Quick answers. What a shame.
She has a lot of ability
Crack makes you quick! 👏 poor girl...
Your addiction to rude is far worse.
@@jennifercochran6398 And you don't think calling someone out for having their own opinion isn't rude? Get over yourself.
Sad that an addict would introduce her into this world knowing how it is. Family should want more for their kin. It’s very sad. Seems like she never had a chance to use that sharp brain of hers. I respect how honest she is
I enjoyed her no B.S. attitude. If she wasn’t on dope I could see her in a leadership role in the corporate world.
Amen.
@@ChosenWon 100%
There is alot of people in the coporate world on pain killers
that what I was thinking, the thrill of investing and hustle of Wall Street would suit her needs.
@@blitzsmurf4371 true
Caite's been to rehab 18 times, and it didn't take. She returns again and again to a lifestyle on the streets, which has become a de facto comfort zone, or home for her. Even if she were able to beat her addictions and get clean, returning to the lifestyle would likely cycle her right back into addiction, as I'm guessing it has done many times before.
It is truly heartbreaking, because well-meaning people everywhere would want something better for Caite, but you really can't give something to someone who wouldn't sooner have it for themselves. I wish for Caite the small miracle she needs to turn her life situation around--the very same miracle that several people who meant the world to me didn't get in time.
I grew up outside the city and there are so many people like Catie. Smart, still young, had a good upbringing and they “miss the streets”. Its truly heartbreaking
Good upbringing?? Her Aunt pimped her out! She didn't say anything about having a good upbringing
@@englishlanguagewithnina5965 go to 4:10 in the video. He asks her if her problems today have anything to do with her upbringing. She replies, “no, i had a good upbringing”.
@@englishlanguagewithnina5965 and comes from a good family. Her words. I didnt just assume that.
@DIV1NITAL the reason they miss the streets is because our lives are fake and plastic, we're just going through the same motions. Whereas on the streets people are actually living more of an authentic life compared to the people going through the same commodified motions day in and day out.
@@jimmiehissong It's possible she just dont have the energy to acknowlege that she had a screwed up childhood.
He's a good interviewer.
Excellent. Ended the interview with the promise of some needed necessities in exchange for her time. I hope he follows through with toiletries, as well.
@@RP-ez2jm yeah but I'm pretty certain he pays the people cash for the interviews in the first place. Everything else is an added bonus.
Phenomenal
Yeah I’m impressed. I would subscribe if he had more videos
A Piece of Cake by Cupcake Brown is literally a memoir about a woman’s life whose similar to hers. Read it
Yes, thought that was so interesting she said that was her favorite book. She seems like a bright lady just needs to make up her mind to quit.
Couldn’t believe we had the same favorite book. She’s the first person I’ve ever heard mention that book.
I would rather watch The Trip Back.
I love that book I still have it after all these years.
I'd not heard of the book before today but will try to order a copy 🙏 hopefully it is available in England.
Sounds like she misses her friends and can’t relate to regular society enough to fit in long enough to get back to reality
She is also not interested in responsibility.
work at a morgue and you'll start wondering what even is reality
@@shakeandbaked1 it's what heroin does and why it's so dangerous especially for those with depression. It not only takes away physical pain but also mental pain. All the depression, sadness, self loathing bad memories, etc goes away when you get on that stuff.
This girl is so genuine, I hope she finds her light in anything other than drugs. Best of luck Caite!
I feel so sad for her mom. Can you imagine raising your grandchild not knowing where your daughter is, if she's okay or not? I bet she's cried herself to sleep so many nights. 💔
Not to mention her nine year old kid who doesn’t know where his mom is.
@@veronicamascaro3041 honestly, it's better that way. The kid will be better off without her coming in and out of his life.
Most women on drugs still would want to be in their child’s life but don’t want to be in and out or don’t want the kids to see them in that condition. When he asked her if she could snap her fingers and be soccer mom with good husband,nice car,&nice home she quickly replied “no I don’t want the responsibility”. To know she has a child and answered that question so quickly irked me lol.
My son has scizophrenia OCD Fasd ADHD...and born addicted to hear s mom's powerfull anti phsycotic meds...I ve had I'm scince 19 hours old...he developed phsycosis leading to scizophrenia via smoking weed and drinking scince 13...now full blown meth use weeed alcohol .And now he's tried harion fentynol pills methadon...and I completely Ely understand his draw of street life ..to me I believe it to be very tribal ..my son is native andour streets lined with native folks..I understand his desire to use...to escape the brain crunk of boredom of mental chaos of feeling broken .. Feeling trapped in the OCD tics...I get it...he also has s brain injury from an over does on fentynol whilst out in a pass his first time in treatment.
😢😢
As a recovering addict my heart goes out to her. I can’t help but get choked up listening to her. I know the feeling of just wanting to be a ghost among the living. I hope she’s still alive. And if she is, I pray that she’s clean.
Love your screen name.
Aptly named. 🙏
@@johndanielsforJesus Jesus can grab hold of anyone’s heart and transform them. I’m living proof of that. Whether it’s the most powerful king who ever lived or just a simple drunk and drug addict like me. I owe everything to Christ for saving me from addiction. God Bless.😇🎚
Amen
She's still kickin
@@cerseyxo9323 That’s encouraging to hear…She’s in my prayers.
I was homeless for 2 years.
A month is a bitch to survive.
Glad i got the motivation to change my mindset and to get my life back together.
I was homeless for a couple months. It does suck.
I'm not homeless, more like home-free.
When he asked her "have you tried rehab?" And she says " its not gonna work unless you want it to". Thats real
The drugs have ravaged her body. It's surprising that she's made it this far after 12 years on the street.
Yeah, I wish she could see a nice dermatologist.
Her face looks like it has cellulitis
@@anh7807 what is it?
@@alyssag.5758 For what? The poison is coming from the inside destroying her body. There's no room for vanity at this stage. Only the plastic world we live in that focuses on the external when people struggle with diseases like addiction.
She has better teeth than some people tho
She seems to be a smart, straightforward person with poor life choices. She definitely has the chance to turn everything for the better, but her mindset of not accepting responsibility will definitely keep her tied up for good.
Poor life choices? She said her Aunt pimped her out as a young girl. Thats gonna fuck anyone up. The difference between you and her is luck.
You are clueless
damn das fucked up
Gotta love clueless, completely ignorant people talking about addiction.
you'll see who she really is when she's sober
The fact she said her fav book was “ A piece of cake “ by cupcake brown!!!!Oh wow that speaks volumes ! That is an amazing book about addiction and the lifestyle! She is very aware of her life and her life choices! Many blessings to her
Such a great book.
Came here to day this! Never knew anyone else who read that book. It’s a great one!
@veelexi hey, is the authors' name cupcake brown? Thanks :)
@@geehvf3173 yes
I thought the same thing, I love that book.
It's hard to smell shit when you have grown up in it, you only notice how shitty it was once you are able to get out and smell the fresh air. As nice as Caite is, that has nothing to do with her Trauma. Being pimped out by a family member to fuel their drug habit has long-lasting effects which are on display in the interview.
feels like you just dont like the idea someone is better off doing drugs for 12yrs than following the meta, she said she had good times growing up and had no issues/traumas.. she seems smarter that the average while having done drugs for so long, so im confident she knows better than some random dud
@@user-ir7qs3oe9e yeah bro sure, tell that to her son,whose mom is a drug addict and lives by the streets meanwhile he is all alone with his grandparents. He sure is in good company and well taken care of though but he has a mom who prefers living the drug addict lifestyle that raising that boy.
She seems a nice girl, don't take me wrong, it's just that her choices doesn't seem fair to me.
I never said she didn't find happiness in and with her drug use. Nevertheless, she is doing something to herself that is quite destructive.
Experiencing good parts of one's childhood is excellent, but I would wager that those experiences did not lead her to drug use.
I am not sure what you mean about following the meta, but I would be interested in learning if you are willing to share?
In my experience, substance abuse is a method that many folks leverage as a means to self-medicate. The conscious or unconscious reasons why one feels the need to do this varies from person to person.
@@Daigham23 sorry for my english, with following the meta i mean following the "standard", to simplify, something like: study> socialize> get a job> make a family
if we assume she isnt lying and take to account how logically she spoke, id say that even if she is selfdestructing, she did make her choice in doing so and she likely evaluated what was best for her giving her situation.
when you say "you only notice how shitty it was once you are able to get out and smell the fresh air" you assume that she doesnt know/remember the smell of fresh air, im sure if you give her a house, a million $ and caring friends, she would probably change her way of living while enjoying it more, but its just not happening, so she simply choose whatever worked better for her.. thats how i see it
@@user-ir7qs3oe9e Ahh, sure, and just for the record, I am not suggesting or implying that anyone lives a status quo life, a.k.a. meta.
I hear you, and yes, I am making an assumption based on the little bit of info I have. With that, I can only assume that she hasn't experienced the fresh air as a full-fledged adult, so to speak. Not to mention that she can't smell, hear or feel things accurately based on her drug abuse, meaning she wouldn't be able to tell the difference even if she were to given a million $ and caring friends.
Lastly, I agree that she simply chooses whatever works better for her but that all comes at a huge cost to her and anyone connected to/with her.
Thank you for the explanation, by the way!
Can we stop treating drug addiction as criminality and instead as the mental disorder it is? Sending a broken person to jail doesn`t fix them.
@@kamtorz Drugs are just as available in prison. And I hate to point this out but they have been locking up drug users for over half a century and guess what? Nothing has changed, drugs are flowing freely and the prisons are full.
Do you know the definition of madness?
You should fix em
@@kamtorz you obviously have no idea how our jail system works🤦♂️
Unfortunately they need JAIL as a thing to keep them in check from abusing further
@@kamtorz throwing a drug addict in jail doesn’t fix why they chose to so drugs in the first place.
It breaks my heart even more that her favorite book is "A Piece Of Cake" by Cupcake Brown. Cupcake was her at one point. I hope she finds the same strength that cupcake did to get out of this life
Wow. She’s so honest and real, and I cannot help but respect that. I lived in Detroit for 3 years and love that city (South West is a great area). Her perspective on how sobriety has to be her choice is spot on! I also had to come to that realization in my own journey. I recently celebrated 19 months free from my own demons. I hope she finds the peace that she truly deserves. I hope she finds it within herself to escape the grips of the shadows that follow her. I hope she truly discovers her infinite worth and can one day claim freedom.
The interviewer sounds so sweet and non-judgmental. I love how transparent he was the entire time . Continue to spread the love and kindness you never know how it might affect others. 💛 Prayers for her as well .
It is hard for me to understand being addicted to “the lifestyle” of feeling sweaty and unkept, freezing, facing physical attack, abuse, rape and getting arrested, being physically addicted to drugs, having ones body break down with teeth falling out. My heart goes out to them all as they all need love, acceptance and hope for the future💜
I feel the same way. Then again when you fall on hard times and lack hope... I'm sure not much feels worth the effort.
I used to feel the same way but my daughter is an addict and shes said to me that it's not just the drugs u give up it's the "lifestyle" and I thought how deranged but if u really think abt it they dont have jobs or responsibilities and literally the MAIN focus in life is to get high,all the other things they dont even truly care abt bc their high and those things dont matter. Its really heartbreaking and I wish I could save them all but I cant even save my own child.
@@kimhancock5965 That does sound extremely hard to watch happen. I can see what you mean by focusing on the goal to get high. Hopefully one day the cycle is broken to realize it's much more rewarding to take positive steps in life.
@@serenedelusions it's beyond heartbreaking 💔😢🙏🏼 drugs mess up everything---they take control of your mind 😕 and devour your soul
sereneDelusions that’s true, what you said about falling on hard times.
I think people don't get depression, anxiety and mental health if you've never gone through it. I don't blame people turning into alcoholics or drug addiction. When you've hit rock bottom and life seems worthless, you turn to anything just to help each day pass, whatever the cost.
Exactly...
I don’t know how you feel you don’t know how I feel. I luckily asked for help when I needed it and am diggin my way out of a hole I started digging when I was a teenager, but you nailed it. Can’t understand the struggle if you’ve never felt it. Do anything to breath when it feels like your suffocating
Not all alcoholics and drug addicts had problems that made them turn to it. Some just started doing it, liked it and got addicted.
I know this is true
People never leave these conditions they either adapt and learn to cope "somehow" or they go downhill.. As you said Mental health problems will MAKE you understand what it is in the harshest way possible
this girl seems like a bright person, just grew up around the wrong things. u can tell shes a good person
Thank you for doing this and thank you to the lady for speaking up so young ones would be educated
One of the most interesting interviews so far Tom .
Certainly gave me a better understanding as to the why ?
Candid and pleasant girl .
Thanks.
Only pure unconditional love can be of any help ( that too without any subtle , show off & without any conditioning) & hope for all such beautiful soul with open heart & no~mind spegetti people of life, jus like enlightened mystic radical master of life , so blunt yet so pure , so much hurt yet so real , so vulnerable, yet so real n delicate & sensitive enough for self life.
Wow she said it like it is! She’s addicted to the lifestyle. She seems very nice.
She looks like you would catch something from her
Seems nice until she breaks into your house or car.
@@anh7807 hhhhhh
Doesnt want to deal with reality.
@@hhhvvbbb6266 what;s the problem? You don't think this lady will steal from you because her favourite movie is 'Anchorman' and you find that relatable? She may be a nice person, but her choices make her a terrible person too. Her son is growing up without her, and presumably without a father. What will his life be like? Hopefully better than hers at least. Addiction is powerful but remember that it involves making choices about scoring and using.
This is Beautiful. I wish more humans were this nice to each other. ❤️❤️❤️
Stfu
@@projectm4181 triggered by niceness. New low?
lmao when humans talk humans like they are above their own humanity.
I didn't notice anything particularly "nice to each other" moment during this interaction. All I saw was an interview.
@@joseamador255 exactly. I guess because the interviewer wasn't mean???
It's nice to see somebody just asking her questions instead of trying to preach to her it's her life.
I appreciate how you do remind them that it’s not too late to try and change for good, but at the same time your still calm and understanding when they usually honestly don’t wanna hear it
"It's not going to work unless you want it to"
Honest harsh truth
Maybe she doesn't want responsibility because she feels like she would fail at it, that's tragic
And that’s an increasing amount of young people today
She’s living a fail 100% why not take a chance and succeed🤷🏻♂️ but then again she told us, she don’t want any responsibility
@@lukusfelix9308 I agree. There is no need to create an excuse story to it, she just doesn't want responsibility and that's it. She couldn't fail more than she already has.
@Observe self true, i mean the aunt introduced her to it and pimped her. who is her mother, and where was she in those times, she stayed respectful because in my experience family can gas light you into thinking you’re the worst person alive for not being grateful for the good life you live despite the horrible things surrounding you that no one likes to point out because it would destroy their perfect little world.
Had something happen and went through depression and anxiety, still fighting. Didn't work for two years. Even that, even getting back out there was the hardest thing I've ever done. 12 years of her lifestyle? I don't know how you fight back from that
Kudos to the interviewer for treating her so kindly and with compassion !
I cant be empathetic for anyone who has a child and doesn’t want to get their shit together for the child’s sake, so messed up. Bless her baby
Agreed. The least she could do is go get on methadone and establish some type of stability.
@@wantsome-zs5sq wow so sorry you had to go through all of that!
@@wantsome-zs5sqwow you have been through a lot dear friend and people complain about there lifes
Hardened hearts are not good. The desire of the drug is her master. It controls your mind, body and emotions. It is repetitive cycle that has to be broken when she decides.
I also agree
I really hope she's turned/turning her life around. She really seems like a genuine kind person. 🖤
She's in too deep
Honestly, she's straight up .
Glad to hear her mom is taking care of her child. ❤
wow, glad I listened in. God bless every one of us!
I felt bad for her son when she said she dont want any responsibility 😥
I felt bad that she's been addicted to crack and heroine for 12 years and her son is 9 😣💔
Addicts are always self serving. They don't care about anything but the high
@@jodistevenson5479 That's all on her.
@@kristingallo2158 thats not true, and if you truly believe that, I'm sorry for you.
So heartbreaking. Addicts do not realize the effects they have on their children, NO MATTER WHO IS RAISING THEM. They need their mommy’s and daddy’s. Clean and healthy mommy’s and daddy’s. 💗🙏🏼
When she says she doesn’t want responsibility... that is a trauma response. Drugs drugs and her lifestyle medicate her trauma so she doesn’t have to think about the shit that happened to her when she was young. She continues to use the drugs so she doesn’t have to feel or deal with anything.
omg thats so eye opening your comment. bless her
100%, lots of here are going to think that she might be telling the truth, when she says that stuff but absolutely not, if you have dealt with people who are addicted you know what that really means. She is trapped, and absolutely that is a trauma response.
Lot of people dealing with trauma. The loss of innocence as a child is a trauma in it self. almost everyone is out of touch with there feeling and body so they can survive. Most people are surviving not living. The epidemic makes this clearer then ever.
Exactly
I don't know, I think she was real.
I imagine where she would be if she invested that $400 each day into the stock market. No judgment here. I get it. I really do. It's just sad.
Not every body is comfortable with the lifestyle you suggest, if she wanted that she would have it.
I've had it, made me nervous and stressed, so much happier being free!
@@SomebodysGrandmother, understandable. It feels good to be content with what you have. It's not for everyone. It requires a good deal of time to research the facts and fundamentals, and set the best exit price, and small mistakes can equal great losses.
@@Stonktradomus
So true, seems the more we have the bigger the gamble, as far as what we do financially and in personal relationships.
Really, there are no guarantees in our lives, especially with the world spazing out like it is.
I think those with some money setting up a scenario where they have a food supply, a water heat and cool source and protection in several areas would be the thing to do.
Getting out of the cities is wise.
Money is & always can be means , no ends .... such substance abuse victims are generally sensitive & very emotional & vulnerable as well , to outside impacts easily , where as those who live by jus mind , jus always live by mind when with their love as well , both need to be balanced actually & it's life mystery unfolding in Moment2Moment from Known2unknown2unknowable, they all need some little more unconditional love & proper & subtle rehab with all the best processes & devices of meditation like catharsis to retreat to active meditation to cleanse & clear their all emotional garbages in sacred space , where their are not judged or even any subtle way conditioned or put in any of belief system but gives them maximum creative outlets of dance , painting or in sacred space to allow it & let go & who live with them & love them , as they are , accept them as they are , don't try to impose change that hard as well ....otherwise it may create more suffocation to let go & then rather it create more attraction for substance more actually.....they need YES to life , YES to Nature , YES to let go , YES to allow it to go...
YES to life affirmations energy, aura & vibrations.... they need CAN DO & CAN COME OUT , unconditional love & support.
@@SomebodysGrandmother but it would be better than this current situation she is in
Much love to you Caite❤️ Praying for you
She’s in my prayers. I feel sorry that she fights with drugs. It’s not easy. I lost my cousin to the war on drugs. I hope she can kick that habit.
Well, Im sure that will help 🙄
@@yellow-stand-u8wdn2 Her mind is not consciously fighting. However, subconsciously, her mind and body are fighting to survive the abuse of constant drugs being dumped into the system. When they give up, she will die.
My cousin died from the war on drugs too. He was shot and murdered in Mexico by the cartel, and yours?
She doesn't fight.
I got to met a mother at my job that told me her son was homeless. She expressed her pain through tears. She told me, “ DONT APOLOGIZE HE WANTED THAT LIFE STYLE”! She accepted his faith, she stated that all there is to do is pray.
Life is just a ride. Goes around and around because we like surprises after getting bored of being God
A lot of people don’t understand that this isn’t just drug use, this is a lifestyle. I lived this lifestyle for so long and you don’t just get addicted to the drugs, you get addicted to it ALL and it becomes your normal. For the first few years of my sobriety I would white knuckle every minute of everyday because I was so BORED and would constantly think “how the hell am I going to do this for the rest of my life..same shit different day, what kind of living is that”.....until I realized that’s EXACTLY what I did during addiction, same shit different day. I’m so happy and thankful to be sober now (9 years later) but for most addicts once you’ve been in the life for so long you honestly don’t know how to live any other way, much less motivate yourself enough to WANT to live any other way. I mean sure every addict says they want to be sober but in reality it’s hard to even imagine what sobriety would look like! It’s boring as hell...but I love my boring ol life!
10 years 7 month 2 days. I wish I would feel some boredom. I have so much stuff to do its just crazy. Not all of the things I am doing daily I am really willing to do, but it is faaar away from boring.
Pretty picture
She doesn't know how to tap into and express what she's feeling. I can assure you that thing she's seeking is a true connection and she needs stimulation in her life. Boredom is our enemy.
@Mossimo Tiberi or crack gives the brain what's its nor making on it's own.
Yep I heard a preacher say, " Many think they are addicted but really just have a bad habit! I agree and yes its from boredom
Please God touch this ladys heart , mind and soul and heal her from this horrible addiction
You're talking to a wall
@@SyrianHch so are you
@@davidandcookie7648 true
@@smokingcrab2290 experience my ass. I know bc I'm smart enough to figure out bullshit
This is exactly what addiction means... people choose drugs over life, it's that simple.
That drug Krokodil is a prime example..
There is many types of addictions and different levels. Almost everyone has an addiction to something.
@@mrshaneobuenosnodgrass3328 I don't talk about attachment and I'm aware that there is a spectrum. But I mean addiction in terms of a mental disorder. There is certain criteria which have to be met. If it doesn't affect the individual or the people around it it's not an addiction.
The Life of Soberity is the best life we can live under GOD.
@@godsson7957 there are always attachments. It's part of life. Sobriety is a stupid ideology of the church. I'm not saying it isn't worth trying to stay off drugs and gambling and what not but it's also ok to indulge here and there when it costs one to much energy to stay away.
"I don't want to deal with life." Lot's of us don't, we just do. Best of luck to you.
Magnolius T. Most people don’t actually. They all have their ways of pretending though
I don't want to deal with life either, but I have too, and I sure am not going to use dope to avoid it! She will probably OD someday, so sad.
I totally get it... Every single morning that I have to get up and go to work or deal with the smallest responsibility I say to myself, "I don't want to do this!". But I feel there's no other alternative but to get up and do it! I'm a grateful recovering addict and I absolutely loved my drugs of choice, but it just isn't an alternative for me anymore. I couldn't deal with the guilt and shame of not being there for my children. I love them more than the drugs and they positively deserve the best version of me. That's what gave me the desire and the motivation to quit and stay clean (11yrs clean). Best decision I ever could've made! Do I still roll my eyes and snarl at the thought of responsibility??? ABSOLUTELY!!!! No time for pity parties, so I do what has be done and tackle the day... I'm a happier and better person for it and best and most importantly is my kids are happy, healthy and well taken care of!
@@KimMc74 Very good that you chose to be an adult, especially while being a mother.
B J so many people are jerks and don’t know what they’re talking about and want to judge addicts they just don’t understand
I miss your videos/ interviews they were really good!
Things changed. Thanks
I cured a cocaine habit 25 years ago and never looked back. 1 st, admitting that you have a problem is key to recovery , second wanting to get better and thinking positive are important as well. Third , praying to God and wanting to make a difference helping others around you will make one feel better about themself. Trust me I was about one paycheck away from winding up homeless.
I don't understand how her skin can look so healthy with the exception of her face.
Meth causes them to nervously pick at their skin and scar the hell out of it when their senses come back after he ng stoned and numb. Every little tickle you feel on your face is hypersensitive after dulling your senses through dysregulation.
METHAMPHETAMINE. DO NOT EVER TOUCH THIS SUBSTANCE. YOU CAN TELL SHE WAS AN ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL GIRL. HEART. BREAKING.
@Jessie t thats adorable.
You believe the words of a junker.
Her eyes are so sad. She’s holding back the tears. Very sweet very polite.
This girl is so clear minded and sharp for being addicted to serious substances. She’s so endearing and calm. It hurts to see someone with such an awesome personality stuck in the trenches of that crappy life. I hope she’s able to get out and enjoy the life that could be. The trauma that her aunt put her through definitely stays with you and I’m sure that’s the reason for her downfall in life. It really sucks. Choose you Caite. You deserve a warm bed and home to lay your head, your son who needs you so badly and all of the good shit that comes with a square life. It’s so worth it. We’re rooting you on.
“I don’t wanna deal with life...I don’t wanna responsibility”
That’s the common reason !
Because she knows she can't handle responsibility without support. This girl is clearly traumatized and not able to handle life because it's too painful.
@@englishlanguagewithnina5965 Ok, so why don’t she find the support then !?
Well...l will tell you why ? Because she has another excuse for not to find it
Besides, the main reason why people live like that is bc they don’t want to fight with totally sacrifice.
Or maybe it’s just like she said, she just don’t wanna responsibility bc it’s “easier” without it
@@abc5456 because it’s the only thing she’s known for a looong time. If you were her, you’d likely do the same thing.
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@@abc5456 what fucks you up at a young age kinda sticks, everybody got a problem that carries from childhood. Even you.
could never imagine another woman raising my daughter, even my mother. once i became pregnant with her, my whole world changed. she is my number one responsibility and I am happy to give her the attention she deserves. so sad her little boy doesnt know his mom, or rather... so sad she doesnt know her little boy.
I appreciate people like her more than some “soccer moms” because she knew the situation she was in and she decided to own up to the facts and not try to blame something else. Its awful to see someone make those choices but its also nice to see someone realize the choices they’re making and not try to hide it. Lying about it doesn’t change anything. I hope someday she does rid herself of those addictions but never rids herself of the brutal honesty. An honest criminal is better than a law abiding liar.
I think its weird, her face is all F'd up.. but her teeth are white and looks good.
Makes me wonder, can you do crack, and if you brush the teeth, the teeth wont get all F'd up?
I find it sweet that he takes the time to actually go through and like almost all of the comments
Poor girl probably would not be in this mess if it wasnt for her aunt.......wish her the best
@@CMoore8539 that's so sad 😢
She flat out said she likes it and doesn't want responsibility. She fully admits it.
initially but at some point its on you to get your shit together!
I'm not gonna lie, at a very hard point in my life I was homeless and doing H too. But i had such a hard childhood all the way to adulthood. In fact, I always wanted to write a book detailing how crazy my life was. But I just want to say how cool it is that not only were you super gracious doing that interview, because so many times people treat homeless people like their dirt, but I also think it was a wonderful gesture to offer her clothes and shoes as well. God bless you sir. Btw, sober since 2014.
Congratulations because as a ex'junkie my self.. it's not easy. You are one of the lucky ones.
May God continue to bless you too. You are amazing!
most people with a low 6 figure salary dont spend $200 a day
Shit people that clear 200,000 don't even spend 200 a day
Between my wife and I we make 170k a year. We spend maybe $30 a day on average. Rent only $800 a month for the house and no car payments and no kids. Being raised on the low side of middle class by frugal parents made me like this.
that’s why she’s on the streets with no home or car. very sad in my eyes but if that’s the life she wants i just hope she at least stays safe. her love for drugs is the only thing she wants in life and satisfying that is her motivation for survival.
@@jonathansaffron3119 What do you work as? You don’t have to share if you don’t want to of course, I’m just looking into career options since I’m turning 18 in less than a decade
Thank you for reminding these ladies that they all matter.For giving them a voice and respect.
Thank you
Damn she doesn't even think she just tells the truth instantly. I hope she get clean at some point she seems like a sweet person.
It's not a mystery... once lady H takes ALL your pain and sorrow away and puts you on the cloud pillow of love... and then you come down and see the shit your really in and how insanely hard it is to get out of... gee, I wonder why $20 and a dude right next to you that can put you right back there is a constant desire. Not even too mention the insane sickness when it leaves your system. I hope you make more and more people realize the vicious cycle and how smart and sweet so many of these HUMANS stuck out there are. And I think you do, and it's really a great service you're doing Tom. Keep up the good work, as they say. :) And those reading this: try to remember this stuff when you pass an addict on the street-- be kind, say hi... if they're assholes (just like anybody can be) , just go on down the lane. Peace to you all and stay safe~
Thank you! A lot of people make judgmental comments or, “I’d never do that.” In someone else’s shoes, you wanna bet? Never judge someone whose life you haven’t lived. And even though treatment centers tell us that accepting full responsibility is necessary and people find those who do to be refreshing...I hope they also realize there’s a hell of a reality most addicts have lived in most of their lives. That’s why they want to escape (not a bad or weak character). Your comment shows a deep level of understanding. I hope people listen.
Kelly Vance 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
mykep28 Yes, I’m glad you’re sharing your experience, to increase the understanding. When I was on a treatment list, the only way I could get from where I was to treatment was to use up until I checked in, or I would get too sick to get to the facility! And not only when I was on opiates but...people say stimulants like crack don’t have a withdrawal but newer studies & many people’s experiences say otherwise. It could be weeks until I was able to get the energy to make it to an appointment. If I stopped using in the interim. They told me that the waiting list was weeks to months so I didn’t have a specific target date or even a ballpark date. I was financially saddled with keeping my self and my man going, day after day, which cost a lot (for drugs, as well as rooms, etc). Had to get the money all night, every night. I was still on opiates, as well,, so I would get sick and also crash for 3 days after a daily 24/7 run. That would invariably be the day the treatment would call, and I’d be back at the bottom of the list. Or I’d lose my phone or had it jacked, or the police would seize it, and back to square one, Finally, I was arrested for prostitution and the first thing I did was ask the judge for help, and I got into the treatment I had been trying to go to. When my probation officer got the new case he said he was sorry and would’ve like to help me but they were backed up over a year on their case management load so I had not been able to ask him for help, because we never had an in person meeting in the couple years I’d been on probation (although I was referred for supervision). So my record got some serious damage (I got a year and a day prison sentence) before I got treatment, but finally got into the only residential program with medically assisted withdrawal, in my are, Although I had to wait an extra three weeks in treatment before they had a “heroin spot” open. It was a really horrible shaming punitive type of place and I didn’t stay off of everything. Finally though I ran into someone I had met there who was staying off drugs & she referred me to a better outpatient treatment in town which I could finally managed to get to since I wasn’t in opiate withdrawals if I didn’t go. (I had quit the opiates with the first treatment but still had to kick the stimulants). And the second treatment had that therapeutic approach to get me on the right track. I was so, so lucky, though. I know people who died in the meantime, trying to get in, and now there is no medical assisted withdrawal or a residential treatment in my area due to loss of funding. If you are court ordered they should be you across the state for residential but there are a lot of people with kids or who are placebound who can’t go. It’s also just scary you’re going somewhere that you know you’re going to at least need a greyhound ticket to get back (and if you fail the treatment you won’t get one). I’m not saying poor me but just trying to provide a perspective on the difficulty of getting into treatment, like you brought up. I also hear a lot of people commenting that people should just “go home,” And I’m not sure they realize that a lot of people who are addicted have had very strange family lives or been abused or raised in toxic homes, whose parents are homeless or live in a single occupancy, Who are not in touch with their families and were discharged from foster care, or whose parents have passed away. People with addictions are almost always going through more than others know, and are not the partying hedonists that people often assume. After a very short while it’s no party anymore... just a way to stay awake and/or not sick, and there’s never enough $ for substances to keep basically functioning. We are often living on the streets, usually with people who are in full blown addiction, also. It’s a life that’s easy to get into on so hard to get out of, for sure. There’s so much wreckage behind me it’s hard for me to keep hope up to keep going... i’m just so lucky not to be at that point anymore I of trying to get the drugs out of my system. It’s not an experience I would wish on anyone, but it can be of some value from what we learn from it, and teach others. I hope everything is going well with you. Keep on speaking out!
In the state my man came from the waiting list was 9-11 years! Well, sorry for the book... just realized how long it was! 😳. Your positive feedback means a lot.
I had such a weird experience trying to get on Suboxone-- I had been trying to do less (thinking it would be helpful) and they told me I didn't have ENOUGH dope in my system so I actually had to go out and do MORE than I had been to get on the program. I did and I got on and I'm sure it saved my life but boy was it strange to have a nurse tell me, "gotta go do more H". After 4 years I'm now in the process of the off Subs. Down to 1mg should be done by the end of this week, then for my Vivitrol shot (for alcohol).... Sigh.... It's always one thing or another. I've been clean before for almost a year until I had neck surgery. Can't wait to get back to that pure, present, aliveness! Best, K
I was addicted to meth for 20 years and i know how hard it is to be in this kind of darkness,I just want to praise my Lord Jesus for changing my life, now im serving Him in His message that there is no past to dark for the love of Jesus Christ.
Agreed brother, He is the only one who can truly satisfy the longings of the soul
Agreed brother, He is the only one who can truly satisfy the longings of the soul
@@pinknoisefloyder Yeshua, the Messiah of Israel died for all our transgressions, and reading the Bible gives us the true meaning to why we exist and what we should do while we're still alive during our very short lifespans.
@@pinknoisefloyder It is hard to understand I know Ive been there, but when you set your heart to understand Jesus, that's the start. He will give you the understanding through His words in the Bible and Holy Spirit. I was an addict, a gambler and smoker for 20 years and in just one day the, all of it was gone, Now im picking up my cross daily to follow Jesus.
No complaints whatsoever well done. Props to her as well for being truthful
Covid 19 is the least thing she could catch .
“ I don’t want to deal with life” that hit home.
the most brutal honesty i've seen in a long time
I am so relieved to see a sensitive interviewer and hear not have to hear the same questions over and over, irrespective of what type of situation is keeping them on the streets!
Invisible People is a much better channel as far as helping the homeless.
Yo man she's super candid answering personal questions without hesitation. As if she's accepted the reality she's in and it doesn't seem depressing (to her). Most people want more to life and up getting it and find its not enough. Multiple times rehab says she's does not want to be cured. Crazy how drugs do to an average human being .
You can see that the drugs have altered her appearance but they haven’t altered her brain. She explains that she is where she is because she wants to be there. She wants to be in the streets and she wants the high. It’s very honest and it destroys the stereotype of what people imagine homeless junkies to be.
Eh can't say I agree with that. The drugs have absolutely altered her brain. The feeling of the high makes her want to abandon a normal life which includes her own child.
Drugs definitely altered her brain 🧠 that's how they work.
how has it altered her appearance?
@@xisotopex pits, scars, sores, run down looking, etc.
@@xisotopex Lol are you on drugs?
This interviewer is fantastic
Lost my aunt to this lifestyle she had a good upbringing, spoiled etc. she got with the wrong boyfriend introduced her to drugs, she loved it and left all 6 of her kids and is now on the street doing drugs.
Heart-breaking how such nice and clever girl can waste her life. She is so self-conscious, so aware of her condition. And she is not even close to tears. Its mi life. Period.
I wish could heal her wounds and giver a second chance.
As an addict I can tell you rehab won’t work until you have rock bottom and want a better life. I’ve had 1 year clean on April 6th, I’ve lost everyone and everything I love. I still have my son on weekends thank goodness but the life I was once used to and the woman I loved and family that was there for me are gone. It’s a sad life sometimes in recovery, work during the week and go home to an Oxford house with other recovering addicts the only thing I have to look forward to is the weekends with my son. But like I said, the life and woman and family I wish I could have back is in the past so please everyone who is fighting this battle take it seriously because the life and people who are there for you now and are waiting for your change can be gone before you know it. Take it from me you don’t want to look back and wish you would of done it earlier. Watching the woman you love pick your son up and watching them leave wishing you could leave back home with them is really heartbreaking. The time I went to rehab before I got clean this time the director of the rehab facility told me “son get it together cause you think this time away from your family is hard, watching another man raise your son and being with the woman you love is some of the worst pain you will go through”. I wish I would of took his advice back in 2019. So please people take care of yourself and your addiction.
Beautiful comment I hope you are well
When he asked her questions not relating her addiction you can see her in a deep thought. Please God protect her and guide her down the right road 🙏
Thank you for giving her a chance, this must have meant the world to her.