@@lovechild872fent can leave lasting brain damage, I doubt she’s still using, she sounds sober, but the lasting effects of such a dangerous drug can really make thinking and memory retrieval difficult. Don’t assume.
I'm a psychiatric ER nurse and also sometimes work in our hospitals inpatient psych ward too. This podcast continuously opens my eyes to the experience so many of my patients have. I really believe these interviews make me be a better nurse. Thank you for giving people a voice.
I watch all these videos and i can say I can relate to some of these people and open to understand wat people go through more . We all our crazy frl we all have certain trauma that’s triggers different things and behaviors in people
don’t you talk to your patients about their experiences though? like why would the podcast open your eyes to the work you’re already doing…if ur working that job fr?? genuinely asking bc i work with 2-92 yr old patients and i’ve heard everything under the sun just cause i ask.
@@abbyz13I'm going to assume if she's an ER nurse she's doing a lot of intakes where people aren't in the best state of mind to really share their stories. They're in the midst of it and likely not open, receptive or have enough self awareness to even know their "story" yet. If I had to guess.
This podcast is by far my favorite. Other people give platforms to already famous people whom we’ve heard their stories over and over. These are real people with real stories and it’s refreshing that they aren’t necessarily famous.
This girl has lived an entire lifetime in 2 years. Her ability to self reflect is impressive. I pray she continues working her sobriety. Amazing young lady
I was sold a fake Xanax bar about five years ago and only took half, scariest night of my life. My boyfriend (now husband) had no idea what was happening and I didn’t know what I took was fentanyl, so he was terrified stayed up all night to make sure I was still breathing. The amount of stories I know and hear now that are exactly like mine, except those people lost their lives, is astounding. Had I taken that whole bar I fully believe I’d be a number of that statistic. So sick of losing people to this poison 😪
@@AyaAmena thanks gf 💗 truly thank God all the time because I can’t imagine the pain I would have put my husband and family through. I’m now a little over 3 years sober with a 3 year old daughter and another on the way 🙂
I was given a fake Xanax as well as I was having a panic attack at work from a coworker I thought I could trust. She gave me a few and it obviously took my pain away. By the time I realized what was happening and what it was, I was already months deep. I was in hell for a full year. I’ve been clean 2 and 1/2 months now. Scariest experience of my life. Also, to preface, I’ve never had any history of drug abuse, ever. We do recover and it can happen to ANYONE.
@@MsNatalieeeee So absolutely disgusting that somebody would do that to you. I wonder if they knew it was fake. Either way, that is so awful. Can’t trust anyone :/ Glad you’re okay now.
I lost my sister in 2020 from laced fentanyl. She was 33. Be safe out there guys. Addiction is hard, but you can get better, and do better. I have been through it myself, and got a wake up call that has forever changed my life.
Grateful this young woman is healthy today, it takes so much courage to get clean. Since she is still so young and new to recovery this interview is great to look back on as she continues to mature through life 🤍 it seems like she needed this platform to share her story as part of her healing.
a friend i knew just passed from fentanyl od the other day, he was 16 as well. thank you for platforming this kind of story, it’s more important than ever to spread awareness of how dangerous it is.
ngl i’m 22 & a fentanyl addict currently so it was very eye opening to see another person like me speak out. Thank you thank you for sharing your story ❤
Have you thought about getting on Suboxone it saved my life I was addicted to pain pills this was back in 2011 before fentanyl was big but a Dr told me about Suboxone and it was life changing it will make you feel normal no withdrawals.
Damn. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find a way out, it’s not easy but you can do it when your ready. Suboxone saved my life, maybe that could be your journey but if not, stay safe out there. ❤
Sophie when I tell you I was GLUED to my phone and could have listened to you for 2 more hours! I absolutely love the way you tell a story and your humor and vulnerability and frankness you share. I wish you the best of luck with everything going forward. I admire you so much!
33:40 she talks about the difference in the feelings fentanyl bars vs xanax bars give. she described it perfectly and the pressed bars in florida ARE mostly fentanyl: i took the same ones. she's lucky to be alive, and so am i. i'm so happy you posted this interview.
my ex boyfriend was a fentanyl addict. i took it a few times. luckily i made it out alive. sadly, after we broke up he continued and gave a girl a pill that lead to her death. he’s now in prison. i haven’t touched a single drug in years. fentanyl is so scary. i hope the younger generation steers clear and this can bring awareness.
I’m so happy for your growth Devorah. You can tell you want to protect your guests in a sense and make them comfortable and I’m so proud of this beautiful girl for talking about such hard times she’s learned a lot
My parents also moved me to FL when I was 15 and it was probably the worst thing they ever did. Please don’t ever move your teenagers out of state unless it’s absolutely necessary!
@@michaelthompson7217it completely destroys their friendships and social groups that they've created and essentially starts them over back at rank zero in the hierarchy of kids at their new school. It destroys any healthy relationships they may have and it will stunt their emotional growth and probably lead to them being isolated more than they would like.
i never comment on youtube. but as someone who is almost 6 years into opioid recovery, i am so grateful for the way you speak to people. this is the therapy a lot of us need
one of the girls in the year below me in high school died from a fent OD when i was in high school. it was mixed in with the xanax she'd picked up and ended up overdosing and dying within the next few days. she was 16 and had a twin sister. the kid who sold it to her had also sold it to another kid who also died; he ended up taking his own life a few years ago. glad this girl is still here and didn't suffer the same fate as a lot of addicts do. she has her whole life ahead of her :)
When you die of an OD, it's usually pretty much instant.. you dont just die a few days later unless they're keeping you on life support but you're already basically dead anyway. at least brain dead. i've OD'd a few times, if I didn't get narcanned I would've died then and there. Not days later
haven’t even finished this story and it hurts how you can still see her mannerisms are still affected from her childhood which was not that long agooo 😭 so proud of you keep pushing through!
this guest was so fun to listen to, i love her humor! happy that she is sober, i hope she can keep it up, she seems like a lovely woman. i only wish the best for her
It’s sad how abuse and mental illness and drug addiction so quickly leads to sexual abuse at the hands of men who have these drugs. Speaking from experience as a fellow bipolar now in treatment. I really felt like I was the one winning in those situations, but I see now I was being taken advantage of by creepy older men. Years later they still try to contact me.
I am 16 and a year clean from meth, I had a friend pass away from a fentanyl overdose last year around October, most of the reason why I stopped was her death, I’d done meth with her and other drugs too, I loved her and her passing really messed with me and still does, but her passing pushed me to stay clean and I get sick when I smell drugs, I’m not proud of it but I’m glad I was able to stop I just wish it didn’t take me losing one of the closest people to me. Stay safe guys. And please genuinely do not take weed from random people. That’s how it starts .
hey girl, i heard ur story and wow. i am really taken aback by how horrible those investigators were to u when u reported the assault. i truly, genuinely wish u healing, recovery and peace after having to deal with this event. and i believe u girl. and none of that was ur fault. thank u for sharing ur story with all of us. good luck on ur journey, i wish u the best.
I swear there needs to be better statistics on sex abuse and drug addiction. Almost everyone I know that's been molested has turned to drugs. including myself. This channel is so important.
I’m a recovered addict and alcoholic. I’ve done what I knew was fentanyl/heroin and I’ve done many pressed Xanax. I can tell you from experience what she’s describing doesn’t sound like fentanyl to me but a research chemical benzodiazepine such as flualprazolam or clonazolam. These are much more potent than regular prescription Xanax which is just alprazolam they induce a much more tired response and more memory loss/black outs. I’ve lost multiple months on them. Everyone’s experience to substances is different, but if it were fentanyl she would have overdosed at least once.
I haven’t finished the episode so forgive me if I’m wrong but if she went to a treatment center/rehab they will prescribe you medication for the detox / withdrawal process so that you do not experience symptoms, and if you do experience symptoms they are very mild to the point you don’t even realize they’re from detoxing. Also, she wouldn’t necessarily overdose at least once from doing fentanyl. I personally know a daily user that has since gotten clean and never did OD, it’s rare but it’s possible that this girl never did OD. It’s crazy the tolerance that can be built up.
😔 Dealing with a close friend who is going through an active fent addiction. It’s really sad. So happy to see this girl recovered. Really appreciate her story and insight.
I hope your friend is able to recover/get clean. While it’s important to do your best for them, remember that your health is just as important- and if you need to take a step back and establish a. boundary where you won’t be in their life until they’re clean, that’s understandable and valid. in fact, sometimes that’s the rude awakening that people need to realize the extent of their addiction.
Sophie, thank you for being so vulnerable. What once were your secrets is now your story, and sharing your story WILL change lives. Recovery looks amazing on you. So glad you’re still here and changing the world by not living in the dark anymore.
my older brother passed from a fent od and it was so hard to come to terms with the fact that i’ll never see him in person again but everyday i see reminders of him ❤ thank you so much for spreading awareness about all this as it’s not very spoken out about
I’m also a bipolar person that was misdiagnosed with depression. What she said was very real for me too, taking antidepressants fucked with my brain. Made me feel extremely anxious, then extremely depressed, then manic… Then when I finally went on mood stabilizers my life changed so much for the better! Bipolar can be very difficult to diagnose and so many of us are misdiagnosed at first. It’s also very common for people with bipolar to start doubting they’re actually bipolar after starting mood stabilizers. So they stop taking it. Sometimes I get those thoughts too. “I feel so normal, there’s no way I need this medication” when the medication is exactly what is giving you stability and normalcy. It’s difficult but I wish everyone reading this to be properly diagnosed and able to take care of themselves
This was my favorite episode so far. I just cried and cried for her. The way she speaks and retells things I relate to a lot and I’m so proud of her for getting better and achieving things she never even had the mindset to achieve , like being a tattoo artist. That’s my aspiration in life and seeing another 19 year old say she’s stable and doing good for herself and having such a cool job ( even if she’s just an apprentice rn ) really opened my eyes to like… wow she’s genuinely inspirational
Her life sounds so much like mine. She’s so articulate for her age, I had forgotten that I was her a few years ago. I’m glad she is where she is today. That takes so much strength.
I lost my best friend to a fentanyl overdose in 2021, she was only 18 years old. She had dreams and and plans for her future.. she wasn’t her happiest hints why she was taking drugs but I know deep down she didn’t want to die she just wanted to get by everyday without experiencing pain. Her name is Tessa and she was my best friend since we were in 5th grade, I hate drugs.
Trips me out how substances effect each person so differently. She has bipolar 2 and only fws downers, I have ocd and prefer uppers. Life is crazy🤷🏼♀️
Weirdly enough I only did downers for the majority of my life bc it calmed my brain and I assumed uppers would just make it worse and had a couple bad E experiences so I refused uppers for about ten years. Fast forward to last year I was diagnosed with ADHD, prescribed meds, and swear to god that craving for downers to cope with any and every situation quite literally went away.
Sophie did a good job on letting people know what this drug is capable of doing to you. It’s such a cheap but deadly drug. Devorah your podcasts are the best you bring awareness to everything that’s going on right now with every day people keep it up. Your helping so many people great great job❤️👌👍
I gotta say, this has been my favorite episode yet. Sophie Lou, you’ve been through so much in 19 years. I’m happy you’re still here to tell your story❤️
As a woman in recovery… her terminology and vibe doesn’t seem clean and sober. She’s very much in active addiction. This is nothing but her reliving her war stories and almost bragging about it. I’ve been there. She still thinks it’s cool.
Just came across this channel, watching this entire video got me hooked and im ready to binge your channel, thank you for spreading awareness, also sharing your story, listening to others and reminding us all we are human and we have all been there or love someone who is there/gone/or been there 😢❤ love love love wishing for the best for all of us
Wow, this one was heavy. We live in such an evil fucked up, preditorial world. I feel for you, young lady, those things should have never happened to you. I wish you healing and great success moving forward. Remember, you are worth a life of respect and love. Don't ever let anyone take that away from you again.
I'm a forensic interviewer, and i think you'd be great in that profession. Your demeanor and non judgment is something that can't be taught, it's an inherit ability
Brave young woman to share her story. I pray her road to sobriety continues and that she finds people with her best interest at heart to help her stay on the right pathway to happiness and success.
I just learned from this video that men fish for recovering drug addicted women… she got offered from a few men in treatment money and an “escape” that’s fucked up! Be aware of your surroundings always! The world is filled with scams.
I’ve never touched any sort of illicit drug, nor marijuana or even a cigarette. This is wild to me. Listening to stories like these makes me feel like I’m living in a completely different world.
You're lucky because living life with addiction/alcoholism is A LIVING H3LL!!! I'm in recovery these days but I spent 25 + years of my life struggling with addiction/alcoholism and it has NOT been an easy road. I'm 40 now and my health is in the toilet from a life of addiction/alcoholism :( You're very blessed to not know this kind of life! Keep it that way!
You're lucky you don't have that BUG. They think it's as a easy as just saying NO.. na it's a whole disease. If you got that tick that'll make you do WHAT ADDICTS DO... just to get their fix. You know it's definitely not a choice you have in it. I always tell ppl... that if they take an opiate and it makes them feel sick and dizzy to just throw them away and never touch em again... cuz it's a chance that one day it won't feel like that and it might change your life forever ... Congratulations to all of y'all who get loaded and hate it tho.. my life would be so much better had I had that
I'm so happy for the people who've overcome their experiences and give a big hug to the people current struggling. I may not have the same experience or addiction (more of an alcohol kind of addiction for me), but I greatly sympathise with that feeling of not being able to quit and feeling like of either dying with this curse or try to quit alive
You were great at listening when she was struggling getting the words out. I’m happy she’s healthy now You’re doing a good thing letting these people tell their stories
I may be wrong, and please forgive me if I am, but I really feel like this poor girl was not sober during this interview. I really hope she's getting the proper treatment she needs. Fentanyl has become such a huge drug issue and I know we all have a close friend, family member or a friend who knew somebody who OD on fentanyl. It is so sad and heartbreaking to see so many young people lost to a false promise...
They given me fentanyl at the hospital for pain during birth, I had asked for the epidural and when the anesthesiologist came in the women giving birth next door coded and an alarm began to sound and all the doctors and nurses rushed to her aid, I was given fentanyl instead I was in so much pain when it hit I couldn’t breathe the nurse was freaking out my boyfriend was like oh my gosh what’s going on and the nurse said “I only gave her less than what is recommended for birth I didn’t know she was going to have this reaction”. Her along with another nurse told me to breathe and calm down but it felt like I couldn’t breathe, once that feeling went away I was out cold, an hour or two later I was finally given epidural and I was so drugged up during my sons birth it felt like I disassociated when he finally came out I was so hazy everything felt like a dream, I ended up getting a high fever that night and staying 4 nights at the hospital it was a horrible feeling I felt like that moment was stolen from me :(
I love how she was just so comfortanble to be herself around you be honest even through all the trauma, what a strong beautiful young woman sending all healing vibes ❤
For those not aware of Florida law, a Baker Act is simply a involuntary admission for mental health, such as a 5150 in California. We also have a Marchman Act, which gets confused with the Baker Act, for involuntary admission for substance abuse.
she’s so beautiful, smart, and funny i hope she heals from all the trauma she’s been through ❤ i do worry that she’s still drinking-but also her sobriety and how it works for her is none of my business, so get ya life girl happy for her :)
Girl. I just found your podcast this week and I am so impressed by you. I love (but also feel so sad) seeing these videos of strong women surviving horrible situations that are pretty relatable. And you do an incredible job of giving them a safe space to share, without a bunch of interruptions or saying it in your own words. Just letting them speak 💗 what a beautiful thing.
I’m so glad to hear this story, mine is very very similar. Same age, same drugs, same situations. It feels good to not be alone and know that it can get better.
i lived in a hathaway house when i was about 3 and i remember trying to wake up my mom (we had 3 other roommates), i screamed and literally was lifting her eyelids trying to wake her up and nothing worked. now i know that it was drugs and i never want to feel that way
“miz blue” made me laugh so hard - Sophie is so charming! I hope she does well in all of her future endeavors and that sobriety is as smooth as it can be for her
I am only about a third through and resonate so much with your story. I have bipolar 2 and antidepressants really messed with me. My brain is fried from 10+ yrs of heavy drug and alcohol use. I am clean now but would have taken anything and everything I could get my hands on (mixing lots of substances). I feel lucky to be alive and without a criminal record considering the irresponsible shit I did. I have word finding difficulties, huge blackout periods and confusion with time/memories. Thank you for sharing as listening to your story makes me feel less alone and less ashamed of my past.
Siento una gran admiracion por Devorah. Siempre logra que sus invitados se sientan protegidos, cómodos y seguros. Logro crear un ambiente libre de prejuicios en el que cada uno de sus invitados, valga la redundancia, pueden compartir sus experiencias junto con una maravillosa anfitriona que esta dispuesta a escuchar de manera activa y empática. Saludos desde Argentina ❤️
I pray that she continues to be sober! It’s so scary because with fentanyl, someone relapsing can very well be their death sentence. She seems like a sweet girl. I hope she gets to know Jesus. He is who has kept me sober 🙏🏼
I'm so glad Sophie turned her life around! A family friend recently passed away from fentanyl laced coke. It's so sad. Again, glad Sophie is doing better and I wish her luck on her tattoo apprenticeship!
Bipolar is SO commonly misdiagnosed as being ADHD + depression; I know multiple people who had that struggle and tried so many different medications to various effectiveness before finally getting the right diagnosis and starting treatment for bipolar
This was hard to listen to. I was addicted to cocaine for about 7 years, I surrounded myself with people who could get it for me. I ruined not only my life but made things difficult for my family as well. I moved states and have been doing really good for 2 years. I really hope she sticks to being sober from the hard stuff, she deserves to be happy.
One of the most intelligent, structured, and actually aware guests ive seen in a long time on your channel. She's incredibly articulate while also giving adequate relatability to the audience. not to mention fantastic storyteller, I think she good be a one of a kind author and storyteller.
This girl is so entertaining. Sorry she had to go though that scene, but she certainly has a very engaging way about her! Hope she finds joy in her future!
Our life stories are parallel to each other. I was addicted to xanax in the same years as you on top of all the other drugs I was doing so I understand the dark hole you spiral down when you’re consuming all of those downers. Just know i’m proud of us & happy we’re both still here. ❤
You'd rather die than keep going through another SECOND of how you are feeling and I understand why people kill themselves!😭 Most people cannot do it without help. I imagine it is similar- if not worse- than heroin withdrawal, which can also kill you.
Omg I would be that friend that dragged your butt into the Uber. I have had friends in the past want to stay somewhere or whatever, and I basically forced them into the car by either being direct or waiting/talking with them until they did come. Your friend is young so I’m sure she did what she could but it’s important to never leave your friends with anybody or in any uncomfortable situation. We girls gotta look out for one another!
She articulates very well honestly ! Awesome video . Thanks for the insight . Learning how to deal with family members be addicted to fentanyl right now. Her recovery gives me faith in those family members!
im only a year younger than her im 18, my heart goes out to anyone around my age struggling. I grew up in north jersey, hearing her past made me resonate with her. Im glad she is doing better, I hope she lives the rest of her life to the fullest.
I hope this young lady reads this- This advice is coming from someone who spent 16 years shooting meth/heroine spent countless years homeless and many trips to hospitals/rehabs so unfortunately I know about this lifestyle all to well. This is not coming from a place of judgement or anything of that sort so please don't take it that way it's just advice after hearing your story and from my own experience.. You say that you're still drinking and smoking weed just not doing the hard drugs but if you listen to your own story a lot of the nightmares that have happened in your life came from drinking and listen I 100% understand how hard it is to grasp the fact that you are so young and you just don't want to spend the rest of your life not being able to have some sort of vice but in the same breathe the fact that you are so young and you have been through as much as you've gone through just shows that drinking might not be the right vice for you. I just don't want you to have to go through anything else like what you have been through. In my experience when i tried to quit the harder drugs and just tried drinking it always eventually lead me back to my drugs of choice in one way or the other. If you could put this lifestyle behind you at your age then it would be such a small small part of your story but it can also be the majority of your story like it became mine. Please just seriously think about if drinking actually brings that much good into your life and if its worth it period that's all im saying
Brave of her to tell her story, I’m happy for her and wish her the best. She’s gone through so much at such a young age, I’m so happy she is turning her life around ❤
I love how supportive and patient you were with her when she was mixing stories
She's still high
@@lovechild872 brother
Same sometimes when talking about trauma it’s hard to explain it clearly, she was patient because she’s not disrespectful.
@@lovechild872fent can leave lasting brain damage, I doubt she’s still using, she sounds sober, but the lasting effects of such a dangerous drug can really make thinking and memory retrieval difficult. Don’t assume.
@@lovechild872 she's not. she's using a nicotine vape, which can't get you high. and she's obviously not using any hard drugs.
I'm a psychiatric ER nurse and also sometimes work in our hospitals inpatient psych ward too. This podcast continuously opens my eyes to the experience so many of my patients have. I really believe these interviews make me be a better nurse. Thank you for giving people a voice.
Your patients appreciate you and your care 🙏🏼
I watch all these videos and i can say I can relate to some of these people and open to understand wat people go through more . We all our crazy frl we all have certain trauma that’s triggers different things and behaviors in people
don’t you talk to your patients about their experiences though? like why would the podcast open your eyes to the work you’re already doing…if ur working that job fr?? genuinely asking bc i work with 2-92 yr old patients and i’ve heard everything under the sun just cause i ask.
@@abbyz13I'm going to assume if she's an ER nurse she's doing a lot of intakes where people aren't in the best state of mind to really share their stories. They're in the midst of it and likely not open, receptive or have enough self awareness to even know their "story" yet. If I had to guess.
@@Kendralovesskincarevery good way to describe it.
This podcast is by far my favorite. Other people give platforms to already famous people whom we’ve heard their stories over and over. These are real people with real stories and it’s refreshing that they aren’t necessarily famous.
I agree
It’s like the guy who does Soft White Underbelly. Love the authenticity of this style
Congratulations
@@Remixchannel-xv2nhokay rude much
frrrrr
This girl has lived an entire lifetime in 2 years. Her ability to self reflect is impressive. I pray she continues working her sobriety. Amazing young lady
I can’t believe we are same age and our lives are so different. My heart goes out to her and I hope good comes to her.
I was sold a fake Xanax bar about five years ago and only took half, scariest night of my life. My boyfriend (now husband) had no idea what was happening and I didn’t know what I took was fentanyl, so he was terrified stayed up all night to make sure I was still breathing. The amount of stories I know and hear now that are exactly like mine, except those people lost their lives, is astounding. Had I taken that whole bar I fully believe I’d be a number of that statistic. So sick of losing people to this poison 😪
That is terrifying. So glad you're okay.
@@AyaAmena thanks gf 💗 truly thank God all the time because I can’t imagine the pain I would have put my husband and family through. I’m now a little over 3 years sober with a 3 year old daughter and another on the way 🙂
@@sarwall_ Congratulations!!!!! Your family is blessed to have you, and you them💕💕 It’ll be so exciting for your daughter to be a big sister!!
I was given a fake Xanax as well as I was having a panic attack at work from a coworker I thought I could trust. She gave me a few and it obviously took my pain away. By the time I realized what was happening and what it was, I was already months deep. I was in hell for a full year. I’ve been clean 2 and 1/2 months now. Scariest experience of my life.
Also, to preface, I’ve never had any history of drug abuse, ever. We do recover and it can happen to ANYONE.
@@MsNatalieeeee So absolutely disgusting that somebody would do that to you. I wonder if they knew it was fake. Either way, that is so awful. Can’t trust anyone :/ Glad you’re okay now.
I lost my sister in 2020 from laced fentanyl. She was 33. Be safe out there guys. Addiction is hard, but you can get better, and do better. I have been through it myself, and got a wake up call that has forever changed my life.
Grateful this young woman is healthy today, it takes so much courage to get clean. Since she is still so young and new to recovery this interview is great to look back on as she continues to mature through life 🤍 it seems like she needed this platform to share her story as part of her healing.
She told her story very well, i felt so seen
Absolutely. I love how candid and so honest, she seems very mature and aware of her mistakes and owns them, it's impressive
a friend i knew just passed from fentanyl od the other day, he was 16 as well. thank you for platforming this kind of story, it’s more important than ever to spread awareness of how dangerous it is.
ngl i’m 22 & a fentanyl addict currently so it was very eye opening to see another person like me speak out. Thank you thank you for sharing your story ❤
Have you thought about getting on Suboxone it saved my life I was addicted to pain pills this was back in 2011 before fentanyl was big but a Dr told me about Suboxone and it was life changing it will make you feel normal no withdrawals.
Hugs xoxo 😘
Stay safe, man 🙏
Keep that narcan on u girl be safe we can recover 🥰
Damn. My heart goes out to you. I hope you find a way out, it’s not easy but you can do it when your ready. Suboxone saved my life, maybe that could be your journey but if not, stay safe out there. ❤
I love the way Dev never makes people feel any kind of way if they mess up a story or get confused with a timeline or anything
It’s crazy to me how oblivious parents can be, and how lenient.
Parents know they just don’t care enough
That also stood out to me. The severe neglect by both parents
right?? were they not concerned when their 15/16 year old daughter was regularly disappearing for DAYS at a time?
Yes it’s true …
I think they just gave up
Sophie when I tell you I was GLUED to my phone and could have listened to you for 2 more hours! I absolutely love the way you tell a story and your humor and vulnerability and frankness you share. I wish you the best of luck with everything going forward. I admire you so much!
I was thinking the same thing, her way of telling her story is so raw but also so interesting - i could listen to her speak for days!
Yes!! Loved her way of sharing her story ❤
This hostess is amazing. The way she treats her guests is truly commendable! So respectful, attentive and kind
She is evil in disguise 🥸
@@vinceblack4086how
@@vinceblack4086how
33:40 she talks about the difference in the feelings fentanyl bars vs xanax bars give. she described it perfectly and the pressed bars in florida ARE mostly fentanyl: i took the same ones. she's lucky to be alive, and so am i. i'm so happy you posted this interview.
my ex boyfriend was a fentanyl addict. i took it a few times. luckily i made it out alive. sadly, after we broke up he continued and gave a girl a pill that lead to her death. he’s now in prison. i haven’t touched a single drug in years. fentanyl is so scary. i hope the younger generation steers clear and this can bring awareness.
I’m so happy for your growth Devorah. You can tell you want to protect your guests in a sense and make them comfortable and I’m so proud of this beautiful girl for talking about such hard times she’s learned a lot
My parents also moved me to FL when I was 15 and it was probably the worst thing they ever did. Please don’t ever move your teenagers out of state unless it’s absolutely necessary!
why? drugs?
ESPECIALLY to Florida.
@@michaelthompson7217it completely destroys their friendships and social groups that they've created and essentially starts them over back at rank zero in the hierarchy of kids at their new school. It destroys any healthy relationships they may have and it will stunt their emotional growth and probably lead to them being isolated more than they would like.
Probably because being uprooted when you're trying to make friends and figure out life is traumatic and really tough@@michaelthompson7217
It depends! I was miserable and moving out of state in high school was seriously the best thing that ever happened to me
i never comment on youtube. but as someone who is almost 6 years into opioid recovery, i am so grateful for the way you speak to people. this is the therapy a lot of us need
one of the girls in the year below me in high school died from a fent OD when i was in high school. it was mixed in with the xanax she'd picked up and ended up overdosing and dying within the next few days. she was 16 and had a twin sister. the kid who sold it to her had also sold it to another kid who also died; he ended up taking his own life a few years ago.
glad this girl is still here and didn't suffer the same fate as a lot of addicts do. she has her whole life ahead of her :)
When you die of an OD, it's usually pretty much instant.. you dont just die a few days later unless they're keeping you on life support but you're already basically dead anyway. at least brain dead. i've OD'd a few times, if I didn't get narcanned I would've died then and there. Not days later
god that is heartbreaking. i hope the families of these poor kids are doing well.
tragedy after tragedy, damn.
haven’t even finished this story and it hurts how you can still see her mannerisms are still affected from her childhood which was not that long agooo 😭 so proud of you keep pushing through!
this guest was so fun to listen to, i love her humor! happy that she is sober, i hope she can keep it up, she seems like a lovely woman. i only wish the best for her
It’s sad how abuse and mental illness and drug addiction so quickly leads to sexual abuse at the hands of men who have these drugs. Speaking from experience as a fellow bipolar now in treatment. I really felt like I was the one winning in those situations, but I see now I was being taken advantage of by creepy older men. Years later they still try to contact me.
I am 16 and a year clean from meth, I had a friend pass away from a fentanyl overdose last year around October, most of the reason why I stopped was her death, I’d done meth with her and other drugs too, I loved her and her passing really messed with me and still does, but her passing pushed me to stay clean and I get sick when I smell drugs, I’m not proud of it but I’m glad I was able to stop I just wish it didn’t take me losing one of the closest people to me. Stay safe guys. And please genuinely do not take weed from random people. That’s how it starts .
❤
Sending you strength. You're worth so much more than that drug.
u are so strong
hey girl, i heard ur story and wow. i am really taken aback by how horrible those investigators were to u when u reported the assault. i truly, genuinely wish u healing, recovery and peace after having to deal with this event. and i believe u girl. and none of that was ur fault. thank u for sharing ur story with all of us. good luck on ur journey, i wish u the best.
I swear there needs to be better statistics on sex abuse and drug addiction. Almost everyone I know that's been molested has turned to drugs. including myself. This channel is so important.
Yup 100%
definitely!!!
Definetely, drugs and alcohol.
I’m a recovered addict and alcoholic. I’ve done what I knew was fentanyl/heroin and I’ve done many pressed Xanax. I can tell you from experience what she’s describing doesn’t sound like fentanyl to me but a research chemical benzodiazepine such as flualprazolam or clonazolam. These are much more potent than regular prescription Xanax which is just alprazolam they induce a much more tired response and more memory loss/black outs. I’ve lost multiple months on them. Everyone’s experience to substances is different, but if it were fentanyl she would have overdosed at least once.
i agree, the fact that she didnt mention withdrawal and NEEDING the drug or being sick is a big indicator of this.
I've watched all of dopesick Nation and soft white underbelly interviews. I also thought it odd that she didn't mention withdrawal
Was thinking the same thing.
I haven’t finished the episode so forgive me if I’m wrong but if she went to a treatment center/rehab they will prescribe you medication for the detox / withdrawal process so that you do not experience symptoms, and if you do experience symptoms they are very mild to the point you don’t even realize they’re from detoxing.
Also, she wouldn’t necessarily overdose at least once from doing fentanyl. I personally know a daily user that has since gotten clean and never did OD, it’s rare but it’s possible that this girl never did OD. It’s crazy the tolerance that can be built up.
😔 Dealing with a close friend who is going through an active fent addiction. It’s really sad. So happy to see this girl recovered. Really appreciate her story and insight.
Be there for your friend. Its so rough going through this
I hope your friend is able to recover/get clean. While it’s important to do your best for them, remember that your health is just as important- and if you need to take a step back and establish a. boundary where you won’t be in their life until they’re clean, that’s understandable and valid. in fact, sometimes that’s the rude awakening that people need to realize the extent of their addiction.
Hey lovely, I'm a former addict (sober for 2 years nearly) and your friend is so fortunate to have you. Sending so much love to you both ❤
Sophie, thank you for being so vulnerable. What once were your secrets is now your story, and sharing your story WILL change lives. Recovery looks amazing on you. So glad you’re still here and changing the world by not living in the dark anymore.
my older brother passed from a fent od and it was so hard to come to terms with the fact that i’ll never see him in person again but everyday i see reminders of him ❤ thank you so much for spreading awareness about all this as it’s not very spoken out about
I’m also a bipolar person that was misdiagnosed with depression. What she said was very real for me too, taking antidepressants fucked with my brain. Made me feel extremely anxious, then extremely depressed, then manic… Then when I finally went on mood stabilizers my life changed so much for the better! Bipolar can be very difficult to diagnose and so many of us are misdiagnosed at first. It’s also very common for people with bipolar to start doubting they’re actually bipolar after starting mood stabilizers. So they stop taking it. Sometimes I get those thoughts too. “I feel so normal, there’s no way I need this medication” when the medication is exactly what is giving you stability and normalcy.
It’s difficult but I wish everyone reading this to be properly diagnosed and able to take care of themselves
This was my favorite episode so far. I just cried and cried for her. The way she speaks and retells things I relate to a lot and I’m so proud of her for getting better and achieving things she never even had the mindset to achieve , like being a tattoo artist. That’s my aspiration in life and seeing another 19 year old say she’s stable and doing good for herself and having such a cool job ( even if she’s just an apprentice rn ) really opened my eyes to like… wow she’s genuinely inspirational
My heart sank as she goes into her story. Thank you for telling your truth and sharing your journey. ❤
Her life sounds so much like mine. She’s so articulate for her age, I had forgotten that I was her a few years ago. I’m glad she is where she is today. That takes so much strength.
I lost my best friend to a fentanyl overdose in 2021, she was only 18 years old. She had dreams and and plans for her future.. she wasn’t her happiest hints why she was taking drugs but I know deep down she didn’t want to die she just wanted to get by everyday without experiencing pain. Her name is Tessa and she was my best friend since we were in 5th grade, I hate drugs.
When the kitty jumped up to comfort her 🥺💕 animals can feel the pain of our stories.
Trips me out how substances effect each person so differently. She has bipolar 2 and only fws downers, I have ocd and prefer uppers. Life is crazy🤷🏼♀️
Weirdly enough I only did downers for the majority of my life bc it calmed my brain and I assumed uppers would just make it worse and had a couple bad E experiences so I refused uppers for about ten years. Fast forward to last year I was diagnosed with ADHD, prescribed meds, and swear to god that craving for downers to cope with any and every situation quite literally went away.
Same I could never get into downers
Sophie did a good job on letting people know what this drug is capable of doing to you. It’s such a cheap but deadly drug. Devorah your podcasts are the best you bring awareness to everything that’s going on right now with every day people keep it up. Your helping so many people great great job❤️👌👍
I gotta say, this has been my favorite episode yet. Sophie Lou, you’ve been through so much in 19 years. I’m happy you’re still here to tell your story❤️
As a woman in recovery… her terminology and vibe doesn’t seem clean and sober. She’s very much in active addiction. This is nothing but her reliving her war stories and almost bragging about it. I’ve been there. She still thinks it’s cool.
I though the same while listening to her, hope she is okay tho
wow
I was wondering if I was the only one thinking that. Big “Jessica Kent” vibes from her.
My thoughts as well. The way I was acting very early on, before I knew I wanted to stay sober.
i mean she’s also a teenager
ur genuinely such a great interviewer I can always tell how engaged you are
I stand by the fact that this podcast is soo underrated
Just came across this channel, watching this entire video got me hooked and im ready to binge your channel, thank you for spreading awareness, also sharing your story, listening to others and reminding us all we are human and we have all been there or love someone who is there/gone/or been there 😢❤ love love love wishing for the best for all of us
Wow, this one was heavy. We live in such an evil fucked up, preditorial world. I feel for you, young lady, those things should have never happened to you. I wish you healing and great success moving forward. Remember, you are worth a life of respect and love. Don't ever let anyone take that away from you again.
the kitty feeling the vibes and going to the table to confort the guest
I SCREAMED when I saw the notification LMAO
i love your podcast so much, it makes me want to share my stories
I’m humbled by this channel 💕
I'm a forensic interviewer, and i think you'd be great in that profession. Your demeanor and non judgment is something that can't be taught, it's an inherit ability
Brave young woman to share her story. I pray her road to sobriety continues and that she finds people with her best interest at heart to help her stay on the right pathway to happiness and success.
I just learned from this video that men fish for recovering drug addicted women… she got offered from a few men in treatment money and an “escape” that’s fucked up! Be aware of your surroundings always! The world is filled with scams.
I’ve never touched any sort of illicit drug, nor marijuana or even a cigarette. This is wild to me. Listening to stories like these makes me feel like I’m living in a completely different world.
must be nice😂😂😂
You're lucky because living life with addiction/alcoholism is A LIVING H3LL!!! I'm in recovery these days but I spent 25 + years of my life struggling with addiction/alcoholism and it has NOT been an easy road. I'm 40 now and my health is in the toilet from a life of addiction/alcoholism :( You're very blessed to not know this kind of life! Keep it that way!
You're lucky you don't have that BUG.
They think it's as a easy as just saying NO.. na it's a whole disease. If you got that tick that'll make you do WHAT ADDICTS DO... just to get their fix. You know it's definitely not a choice you have in it.
I always tell ppl... that if they take an opiate and it makes them feel sick and dizzy to just throw them away and never touch em again... cuz it's a chance that one day it won't feel like that and it might change your life forever ...
Congratulations to all of y'all who get loaded and hate it tho.. my life would be so much better had I had that
My friend passed away on an accidental od from fentanyl almost a year ago. This shit gets real so fast. Thank you for sharing your story 💗
I def was a part of the “Xanademic” in 2015-2016 and I don’t remember most of that time in my life. I was 16-17… I am happy I am alive.
Omg, what an impactful story. Loved this episode and i hope this young woman prospers going forward. I’m rooting for her!!
I'm so happy for the people who've overcome their experiences and give a big hug to the people current struggling. I may not have the same experience or addiction (more of an alcohol kind of addiction for me), but I greatly sympathise with that feeling of not being able to quit and feeling like of either dying with this curse or try to quit alive
You were great at listening when she was struggling getting the words out. I’m happy she’s healthy now
You’re doing a good thing letting these people tell their stories
I really wish this girl the best. She's got so much to offer this world and I hope it has so much to offer her.
I may be wrong, and please forgive me if I am, but I really feel like this poor girl was not sober during this interview. I really hope she's getting the proper treatment she needs. Fentanyl has become such a huge drug issue and I know we all have a close friend, family member or a friend who knew somebody who OD on fentanyl. It is so sad and heartbreaking to see so many young people lost to a false promise...
They given me fentanyl at the hospital for pain during birth, I had asked for the epidural and when the anesthesiologist came in the women giving birth next door coded and an alarm began to sound and all the doctors and nurses rushed to her aid, I was given fentanyl instead I was in so much pain when it hit I couldn’t breathe the nurse was freaking out my boyfriend was like oh my gosh what’s going on and the nurse said “I only gave her less than what is recommended for birth I didn’t know she was going to have this reaction”. Her along with another nurse told me to breathe and calm down but it felt like I couldn’t breathe, once that feeling went away I was out cold, an hour or two later I was finally given epidural and I was so drugged up during my sons birth it felt like I disassociated when he finally came out I was so hazy everything felt like a dream, I ended up getting a high fever that night and staying 4 nights at the hospital it was a horrible feeling I felt like that moment was stolen from me :(
I love how she was just so comfortanble to be herself around you be honest even through all the trauma, what a strong beautiful young woman sending all healing vibes ❤
For those not aware of Florida law, a Baker Act is simply a involuntary admission for mental health, such as a 5150 in California. We also have a Marchman Act, which gets confused with the Baker Act, for involuntary admission for substance abuse.
she’s so beautiful, smart, and funny i hope she heals from all the trauma she’s been through ❤ i do worry that she’s still drinking-but also her sobriety and how it works for her is none of my business, so get ya life girl happy for her :)
Girl. I just found your podcast this week and I am so impressed by you. I love (but also feel so sad) seeing these videos of strong women surviving horrible situations that are pretty relatable. And you do an incredible job of giving them a safe space to share, without a bunch of interruptions or saying it in your own words. Just letting them speak 💗 what a beautiful thing.
I’m so glad to hear this story, mine is very very similar. Same age, same drugs, same situations. It feels good to not be alone and know that it can get better.
this episode is my favourite!! she went through SHIT all caps but her attitude wouldnt show it at all i love that for her, shes so strong!!!!
i lived in a hathaway house when i was about 3 and i remember trying to wake up my mom (we had 3 other roommates), i screamed and literally was lifting her eyelids trying to wake her up and nothing worked. now i know that it was drugs and i never want to feel that way
my brothers close friend died of fentanyl and it affected so many people around them so negatively. thank you for shedding light on this!
“miz blue” made me laugh so hard - Sophie is so charming! I hope she does well in all of her future endeavors and that sobriety is as smooth as it can be for her
what a beautiful soul, i wish her all the best❤️thank u for being so open and vulnerable with us
it makes me so sad that they didn’t believe her about the r- thing. and the fact they made her write the letter even tho it wasnt consensual. 🙁
I am only about a third through and resonate so much with your story. I have bipolar 2 and antidepressants really messed with me. My brain is fried from 10+ yrs of heavy drug and alcohol use. I am clean now but would have taken anything and everything I could get my hands on (mixing lots of substances). I feel lucky to be alive and without a criminal record considering the irresponsible shit I did. I have word finding difficulties, huge blackout periods and confusion with time/memories. Thank you for sharing as listening to your story makes me feel less alone and less ashamed of my past.
Siento una gran admiracion por Devorah.
Siempre logra que sus invitados se sientan protegidos, cómodos y seguros.
Logro crear un ambiente libre de prejuicios en el que cada uno de sus invitados, valga la redundancia, pueden compartir sus experiencias junto con una maravillosa anfitriona que esta dispuesta a escuchar de manera activa y empática.
Saludos desde Argentina ❤️
I pray that she continues to be sober! It’s so scary because with fentanyl, someone relapsing can very well be their death sentence. She seems like a sweet girl. I hope she gets to know Jesus. He is who has kept me sober 🙏🏼
Same❤️ Jesus is everything
I'm so glad Sophie turned her life around! A family friend recently passed away from fentanyl laced coke. It's so sad. Again, glad Sophie is doing better and I wish her luck on her tattoo apprenticeship!
Bipolar is SO commonly misdiagnosed as being ADHD + depression; I know multiple people who had that struggle and tried so many different medications to various effectiveness before finally getting the right diagnosis and starting treatment for bipolar
This is such a wonderful podcast. I hope this woman is doing well and is on her way to becoming a tattoo shop OWNER! She should be proud of herself:)
i was stalking and now im early. love your podcasts
Lost my father to fentanyl he was 35. Glad this lady survived and got better
This was hard to listen to. I was addicted to cocaine for about 7 years, I surrounded myself with people who could get it for me. I ruined not only my life but made things difficult for my family as well. I moved states and have been doing really good for 2 years. I really hope she sticks to being sober from the hard stuff, she deserves to be happy.
good for you! im glad you've been doing better
i think it would really help a lot of people if you did an episode with someone who struggles with POCD
I would love a video on this but it’s probably really hard for someone to put their face out there with it
This girl is so strong, I wish the best for her and I cannot imagine what this battle feels like. All prayers and love for her ❤
I love devorah sm, thank you for this, especially with the crisis that’s going on ❤
One of the most intelligent, structured, and actually aware guests ive seen in a long time on your channel. She's incredibly articulate while also giving adequate relatability to the audience. not to mention fantastic storyteller, I think she good be a one of a kind author and storyteller.
This girl is so entertaining. Sorry she had to go though that scene, but she certainly has a very engaging way about her! Hope she finds joy in her future!
It’s so awkward that she is the only one laughing throughout the story 😩
wow i loved this guest she’s so bubbly and positive i found it very relatable listening to her good job!!
Our life stories are parallel to each other. I was addicted to xanax in the same years as you on top of all the other drugs I was doing so I understand the dark hole you spiral down when you’re consuming all of those downers. Just know i’m proud of us & happy we’re both still here. ❤
Opiate addiction is so hard to get overcome I commend you.
Addicted to benzos/opioids but not one mention of withdrawals ???
Her story is 🧢
You'd rather die than keep going through another SECOND of how you are feeling and I understand why people kill themselves!😭 Most people cannot do it without help. I imagine it is similar- if not worse- than heroin withdrawal, which can also kill you.
we all know how withdrawals works lol
@@NotBornForThisShit uh no actually. It’s a huge part of addiction, and not something someone just skips over when talking about sobriety and dr*gs.
such a smart, funny and insightful guest. Loved this.
Omg I would be that friend that dragged your butt into the Uber. I have had friends in the past want to stay somewhere or whatever, and I basically forced them into the car by either being direct or waiting/talking with them until they did come. Your friend is young so I’m sure she did what she could but it’s important to never leave your friends with anybody or in any uncomfortable situation. We girls gotta look out for one another!
Not much to say other than nowadays, this is a far more common story. Support the youth. You never know what a seven-year-old has been through.
She articulates very well honestly ! Awesome video . Thanks for the insight . Learning how to deal with family members be addicted to fentanyl right now. Her recovery gives me faith in those family members!
fentanyl killed my father. i put in a form, i really hope you decided to have me on to share my story.
im only a year younger than her im 18, my heart goes out to anyone around my age struggling. I grew up in north jersey, hearing her past made me resonate with her. Im glad she is doing better, I hope she lives the rest of her life to the fullest.
I'd love to come to the show and tell my story, but I'm too shy, stumble on my words a lot, and too poor to travel
this was an amazing episode.. all of my heart and my love goes out to sophie. you have come so far. amd the humor to cope is so relatable and funny
Sophie you are amazeballs! I could listen to you all day long! You’re self reflection is deep and honestly kinda beautiful ❤
I hope this young lady reads this- This advice is coming from someone who spent 16 years shooting meth/heroine spent countless years homeless and many trips to hospitals/rehabs so unfortunately I know about this lifestyle all to well. This is not coming from a place of judgement or anything of that sort so please don't take it that way it's just advice after hearing your story and from my own experience.. You say that you're still drinking and smoking weed just not doing the hard drugs but if you listen to your own story a lot of the nightmares that have happened in your life came from drinking and listen I 100% understand how hard it is to grasp the fact that you are so young and you just don't want to spend the rest of your life not being able to have some sort of vice but in the same breathe the fact that you are so young and you have been through as much as you've gone through just shows that drinking might not be the right vice for you. I just don't want you to have to go through anything else like what you have been through. In my experience when i tried to quit the harder drugs and just tried drinking it always eventually lead me back to my drugs of choice in one way or the other. If you could put this lifestyle behind you at your age then it would be such a small small part of your story but it can also be the majority of your story like it became mine. Please just seriously think about if drinking actually brings that much good into your life and if its worth it period that's all im saying
Came to say this. ❤
Brave of her to tell her story, I’m happy for her and wish her the best. She’s gone through so much at such a young age, I’m so happy she is turning her life around ❤