AMANDA PALMER - BRIDE-TRIPPING: a short film by alina simone & amanda laws
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 28 ส.ค. 2024
- read the entire backstory of this film at: amandapalmer.ne...
short story: in 1999, a young amanda palmer (aspiring musician, street performer, lost soul) and alina simone (aspiring filmmaker, lost soul) went on a road trip. this short is culled from over 25 hours of footage that alina took on the road. almost twenty years later, alina and editor amanda laws went through the footage.
this project was made possible by ongoing support/funding from over 10,000 patrons at / amandapalmer .
thank you, all of you. this is the shit.
watch the unedited (NSFW!) version of the documentary on vimeo: vimeo.com/2667...
CREDITS:
a film directed by alina simone and amanda laws
edited by amanda laws
filmed by alina simone
featuring amanda palmer and alina simone
"I've spent a lot more time thinking about music than actually creating music"
I feel personally called out.
(Thank you, i need more of that in my life.)
This video is exactly what any other lost soul needs
i have a sudden sense of hope now as a young poet and artist. thank you amanda, i needed this now.
Alice Dayton I was about to say that...I'm an artist as well and this is definitely motivating...incomprehensibly precise
@@vdiaz1051 😊
"This movie doesn't end until we're dead" Amanda F***ing Palmer.
I am in a similar place to 1999 Amanda right now, I am full of ideas and inspiration, and I can see a terrifying amount of time ahead of me to explore that. I have more free time than I know what to do with and I try to fill it with making shit. Basically this really hit home for me, just like the Art of Asking did. It is a welcome reminder that now is indeed a point on a curve, and there is plenty time and space to do whatever the fuck I want, and if I keep at it, I might end up somewhere. This reminded me that in order to build an audience, you must first perform without an audience, without even the expectation of an audience. So thank you again Amanda, for reminding this strange Scottish kid that art is a journey, and I hope one day to meet you and thank you in person. In the meantime, imma go make some shit x
Hey scottish kid, here is a Swedish kid thinking the exact same thing. Did you make something in the two years it took me to find this comment?
@@justlittleme-2149 well... I failed out of a degree I hated, started one that I actually enjoy, I've written and performed pieces for very small audiences, and am always working towards the next piece...
I'm definitely not where I thought I'd be, when I wrote that comment, but I'm somewhere and that's just as good!
I had forgotten this comment, this time capsule of me 2+ years ago, until you replied, it's good to look back and see how far I've come, and also how much is still _me_
I don't know where you're at, but you're somewhere, and you're on your way, so whatever happens, keep going, keep making shit, because what else is there?
Solidarity
that is exactly what I hoped for when I saw your comment haha!
It's funny how the journey never really goes they way one thought. No idea where I will be in two years from now. Right now I'm sitting at my desk with my new engraving tool and drawing mushrooms on a glass. I'm restless to do more, but all in due time.
If you'd like to share your work with a random stranger feel free to!
Solidarity
@matthewanderson7875@@justlittleme-2149 Same question to both of you, 5 years after the first comment :)
Isn't there a German word for a feeling of being nostalgic for a time you weren't even present in? Getting that so hard watching this.
John Koenig, who has spent the last seven years writing an original dictionary of made-up words, "The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows" defines that feeling as 'Anemoia.'
Yup, that's it, thanks! Though... aren't all words (except for screams) made up? :D
That's a really useful word actually. I feel it often.
girl anachronism?
SAME HERE SO MUCH... so much that I'm actually going to do my living statue costume and my friend is going to play guitar alongside me. Call me boring for doing exactly what Amanda did but I just need this experience so much..
Omg that part in the forest "this is a really beautiful place." and amanda walks through like CRONCH CRONCH CRONCH so fucking loud omg
being 23 and feeling lost. seeing you being 23 and feeling lost. and then well, the 43 Amanda saying you hadn't done anything by then and had anything by then feels comforting af. thank you, thank you.
you are an icon for me.
And many others..
“The goal is to be an icon”
Young Amanda, you are so incredibly important to so many lives and worlds of artistic expression. 💞
This is AMAZING! Thank you for sharing this trip! So insightful to see young Amanda and her ideas for the future Amanda... well done. Also, Amanda gave me a flower in statue mode on her book tour, and it was incredible and I cherish it.
How beautiful life is, and all our versions and phases crashing into us
This video is packed with so much nostalgia. Feels so familiar and cosy. Gives me hope and security that life happens and art is valid and I'm not crazy for pursuing it.
Thank you for posting this, Amanda. You're more than an icon to me -you're my role model. Your music is inspiring, raw, and meaningful.
I thought always thought how I viewed the world was strange. People never seemed to understand my yearning for art and something real. I felt so alone until your music.
Thank you. I truly mean it.
If you're ever in Portland, OR, hit me up! Coffee with you is a dream of mine.
There really is no one else like you, beautiful soul Amanda.
Loved it!
Specially the ending with the "The Time Has Come" from two different decades, is amazing how the voice still the same when some singers get significant voice changes after this long.
That was amazing 💖💖💖 I inspired to make a zine now. Thank you Amanda for all the amazing art you create. It heals me all the time. Also every time I thought about how this was filmed in 1999, I just imagined a baby (me) in a suburban back yard just learning how to exist (which we never really stop doing) while an amazing woman goes on a journey. Also I loved your duet with yourself at the end 💖
How amazing -- and strange, and maybe painful -- for you to have this time capsule, this snapshot of yourself at 23 to look back on. I bet a lot of us would give a lot to have something this specific to represent that period of our lives.
Three years, almost 4, after I originally commented YT offers me this. Seriously and continuously prophetic. Prior to the eyebrow shave and sharpie fill, and way prior to the current NZ pandemic regrow. Losing the bride gown was one of the saddest moments of my life. We move forward, we grow up, we have kids. Our partners come and go. Who knew? Still calling it your prophetic post adolescent pre-pandemic view into your career. Damn. It still grabs me by the heart and shakes me.
I wasn't even halfway through the movie when I added it to my favourites. Thank you for this, I needed it more than I realised.
Amanda... You're the bomb. I was born in 1999, and many people in my generation admire nostalgia, and seeing this film of you with your friend in the late 90s is just epic and kind of relatable. I'm at the age where I've always doubted myself to pursue music, which I have no skills in playing (just singing) and only wanting to start and learn how to play and possibly perform. Seeing your music grow and what you've put out is amazing, and it has your own energy. It is very admiring because I love people who think outside the box.
I really don't know what to say right now cause i'm in tears... I just want to thank you Amanda for not giving up of your dream and being this incredible artist and make such great songs... I just realized that i know your work for 9 years now and you never stop to amaze me. Thank you so much for everything you are. I love you and you're an icon for me.
As a young artist, seeing this gives me hope and space to realize I have so much time to figure things out. Thank you.
I love the rawness of this - so much humanness in the art-making. Thanks for being so honest with us.
You're life is interesting, you are a wonderful person, an icon -and we really do all want to see all of it.
How utterly prophetic..
I'm proud to be one of your many Patreons....because you make the (beautiful) things that we all truly need.
Thank you for sharing this. It means so much to me - I'm actually an aspiring artist (before anyone asks, I've tried, no there is no way to say that without sounding a bit pretentious) and yes, there are times where you're just overwhelmed and think "fuck...is it all worth it?" and while I know that level of success you've built up isn't going to be achievable by everyone, this film kind of makes finding an audience and/or making money off what us creatives are still making without an audience seem a bit more achievable (especially ones that create oddball shit...like me).
Especially since I'm younger now than you were when you went on this road trip.
There's something really unsettling, yet also deeply comforting about watching this, and I think the two feelings come from the same place. Amanda looks so young and sort of innocent and full of bravado. I'm currently the same age she was in the film, and I feel as old as the hills. I'm thinking constantly about my career and art and whether my name will be known. It makes me wonder whether in a few years, I'll be looking back on this time and thinking about how I was naive and trying a little too hard. It gives me hope - because this might be the start and not the end of my potential. But also makes the stakes of the here and now feel less tangible.
It's sort of haunting forwards.
I’m 14 and I’m about to turn 15 in a few months but I’ve listened to your music and watched interviews with you in it since I was 11 or 12 and somehow you’ve become my inspiration and making me wonder if I can make it as a creator since I want to be a an artist but I want to have that connection with people that you had when you were being the bride but I’m afraid to do it because of the crash and burn that might come with it. I just might be a failure but I’m so scared to try and I don’t know where to start but you have giving me a lot of confidence and I’m selling some art things at school I’m not getting anywhere but it’s a start and I hope to become a person like you sort of but I also want to be my own person. This is too long and I’m terrible at grammar but I just wanted someone to read my feelings I guess
Moog Dood I feel you...and it's wonderful how Amanda always creates a place in which people "like us" gather together no matter where we are at
I'm 17 and I was 15 when I got into Amanda's music. I'm so glad to see this comment. Amanda is such an inspiration for us young artists. :)
Loved when she crawled up the stairs on her knees and then slid down the handrails. 😂
I am so glad this film was made, omfg
It's always such a surreal trip to see a snippet in a person's life, not to mention something so personal like this one
Thank you for sharing this with us
I'm a fan that found your through your audiobook, and now am becoming a fan of the story behind the music, behind the book. Thank you for sharing this amazingly different point of view and life path. I am in admiration and deep gratitude.
oh to meet the bride was delightful x
Yep -- Take a picture, it'll Last.
I really really love this and suddenly wish I'd filmed some of my life when I was in my 20s! So much nostalgia and I love how aware of yourself and your situation and ideals you were at 23. More like this please!
I watched this for the first time today - what an adventure! Wonderful to see the younger AFP so very herself, whether it felt like that at the time or not. It makes me think a bit more fondly of my own younger self - and I have some old videotapes of my own to sift through some time, thanks for the prompt :) xo
Thank you for this Amanda! I'm in a similar place right now. I'm 31 and have no idea what I'm doing. Most of the time I just wing it. I have loads of ideas and materials to create art but I have too many other things going on that the art making gets pushed to the side. I look at you and you can do it and that gives me hope.
you became an icon! So interesting to see this. Also the WTC only 2 years before it went down.
absolutely beautiful
bleiph сова!!
I started that and didn't even look away for the duration of it. SO GOOD. Thank you so much for this. It is SO cool to see where Amanda started and where she's come. If she is addicted to attention, I'm glad for it, because I am addicted to watching her. She is a beautiful soul and has meant more in my life than any other artist. She inspires me, and love her.
Wow. So many places. I have been to the same locations throughout the years. Brings me joy to know we walked that same path. Then brings me sadness we never met.
"we could be genuflecting...redemption, redemption, redemption."
thank you for sharing this video Amanda
She said;
...I feel like I'm too spread out, focusing on 15 or 20 things
Instead of like, 5 or 6 things, and I know that
But if I just focus on those things,
then that means I'll have to actually do them...
Something to that extent, anyways...
That's the part when I cried.
Yes. This exactly.
This is absolutely amazing. And the timing couldn't be better, at least for me. I'm about to finish reading The Art of Asking and the fact of seeing the bride in action and young Amanda ready to eat the world it's fucking awesome.
This is the inspiration that I needed, and I also thank you for that. And yeah, you did it, you became an icon (and even more than that) for a shitload of people out there, myself included of course. Greetings, hugs and love from Mexico, a place that desperately needs more people like you.
Thank you for this, Amanda! Thank you for the young you, and for the now you. Thank you for your beautiful mind. Thank you for being YOU! You are such an inspiration!
Honestly? Icon.
The dress is never lost. It remains lingering in all of our memories
To share in this arc of an artist’s path, the early trajectory, well, it’s thrilling to me. Thank you, Amanda...
What an incredible chronicle of such an important time in your life. I Absolutely loved the fade from you playing in the 90s to playing the same song today. You are such an incredible artist Amanda, thank you for all you do.
Oh my god baby Amanda is adorable. :)
I enjoyed this. Amanda is so interesting and beautiful.
I watched this to the end and am now watching it again. Fuck I want to go on a road trip now... and make my own living statue costume and try this thing out. I live for these stories. It seems so magical. "Inspirational" doesn't even begin to describe how I feel from this.
Thankyou Amanda and Alina.
Oh, man... this makes me think of my own old videos taken on a camcorder like that. Also, the fact you two stopped at Lily Dale makes my day. I live about an hour away and took a road trip there with my best friend before she moved to the west coast. I took photos on my old Nikon F, like I was old school. It was an amazing trip...
i was trully happy and interested watching this, thank you!
I am glad I took a break from the same old content and watched this amazing video
That's was brilliant, a treasure to watch
I am exactly at the crossroads where you used to be, and all of this - gave me hope, and that validation we all crave for. Beautiful. And you are exactly right. “ That it inevitably will happen as long as I want it to.”
That's my upcoming ink. Right there. Thank you.
I could never thank you enough. I couldn’t possible express to you how much you have helped me free myself thank you!
Wow. Amanda, you are a real role model for me. This short film is incredible.
At 22 now, this just makes me go: what kind of a boring fkn life am I living, working my shitty desk job and having traveled nowhere?
That aside, this was wonderful to watch ❤
Icon achieved! Thank you.
We need to find the dress.
Thank you for this, thank you so very much.
So beautiful I can't tell you. There was a bride I met in New Orleans a drag bride before Katrina 2 decades ago almost after this and I like to think this bride ghost coaxed the few beautiful souls very few into it. The gay bride in Marti Gras was seemingly a character of a gay man who wanted to be a bride that wasn't the 8 bride totally different. I'm so proud of you Amanda and after so many ventures fighting against sexual abuse against a father so powerful and becoming an SA cousnelor from Nashville to San Francisco then blowing up in a passive suicide attempt I foudn you. I healed by way of many folks but i was always a witch. You going to lilydale i love so much. So proud of you.....
Thank you Amanda gor sharing this, and to Alina and Amanda for editing and recorded this, the inspiration drawn from this piece, it is art, it is movement, it is all you want to do, thank you!! And to more!!
I’m a 24 year old aspiring artist who has had more jobs to make my dreams of making art happen, each one exhausting. Young, depressed and trying to make it happen to success as an artist..for myself and for the world. I connect with this so hard. Also I vaguely remember the early 2000’s..simply was interesting indeed..thank you!!!!!
Gosh that took me back! The soundtrack to my angst filled teenage years! Now here i am an adult xuddling my two year old to sleep, still with pink hair and surrounded by 1000 unfinished projects XD thank you Amanda for always being you! You will also be an icon to us all xx
I cried while watching this. I just think it’s really powerful!
I’m 20 years old and I’m studying a career that I like, but it’s not what I want to do for a living. I’m always so worried that I’m going to regret it one day; I feel stuck in this life and I feel like I cannot get out.
Your movie made me kinda sad but also inspired me, Amanda, same as your music (actually, your music makes me feel a lot of things haha).
Thank you for sharing this experience! I enjoyed it very much.
Thank you for sharing as a presuccessful artist who has been relating to you and your work for years it's profound to view this retrospective. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I feel a wide variety of emotions and I don't know why
Thank you, Amanda.
love you amanda, been a fan for years
from one Amanda to another, I love you
This is so amazing. You're an awesome human.
Amazing and strange
"I've spend a lot more time thinking about music, than actually creating music."
Amanda, this short film really will help other lost souls. And hearing these words from someone like you, who's made so much music, really gives me hope.
I myself am writing and writing a lot of songs/music. I've been playing instruments all my life, but never been particularly good at it. Now I'm trying to learn the cello and it's my dream instrument, have been for all of my life. But I feel stucked, I feel like I keep writing, but I'm too shy or too scared of moving on to the next steps. I dream of performing my songs one day, nothing big I don't want to become big and famous. I just wish I could play for some people one day. But right now, nothing is happening...
Anyway, hearing you say these words, feeling these feelings of doubt and also guilt, is hard to hear, but also somehow hopeful.
Thank you all for this short film. Oh, and btw English isn't my first language, so I'm sorry if it's hard to understand what I mean......
this was an awesome look back into ur life amanda...and who you have become ...love what u create ..i have been a fan of ur work for such a long time...thankyou for being u x
a masterpiece
Happy birthday Amanda!
How many people actually grow up to be the person they wanted to be when they were 23? A genuine passion for something (art) is what you need I guess. Amazing.
I didn't know how much I was needing something like this video until I've watch it. It really inspires me a lot in something like a creative and existential crisis I'm having right know.
Thank u so much for your art.
Amanda, have you ever thought that maybe the dress just left when you didn't need it anymore?
that last shot gave me Chills oh god
That was beautiful! Thank you
thank you so much for sharing this. where you were then reflects a lot of where i am now and it helps so much knowing that you were there once and you found yourself creatively/career wise still
Amazing, thank you for sharing. It reminded me so much of that time. I was only 19 then, not so much younger than you when you made it. Hardly seems like I'm twice that age now.
I need this so much right now.
I can't believe how many people would second that right now.
28:37 "You're just a work in progress... You shouldn't ever be finished" Thank you for this...
i love this and it was so cute to see Amanda at that age
You said you weren't a great musician....I believe you have become one. Your patreon songs just get richer and richer x
GIRLS FUCKING RULE. This is absolutely beautiful. Increíble, precioso, tiene un gran significado. I'm from mexico; when i found you, Amanda, i was so amazed by your personality, some days I'd ask myself 'why do i like her music ? ' it's because i like you. All the others bands and singers i like, i like their music first and their personality is something secondary.
Sometimes is hard to relate to you because I'm not from the US. But in the end, I'm with you, because you're human, you're a woman
you're the rockstar that loves me and I'm the girl who loves you back, that's just the way it is, that's just the truth. Thank you for everything. I'm proud of you.
Thank you so much for this. I am a work in progress till the end. I like that notion. It gives me hope.
Might there be a photo book with the pictures of the bride from this trip? Maybe with some stories/lyrics/poems? In the same vein as WKAFP? 134/10 would purchase.
so inspiring, i loved it
Hi! It took a while to DIGEST this (inspiring-well-done) thing. It shows an honest Amanda Seed, a true, young and real little artist. It is you before the dream came true, you and your deepest aspirations. It is a kind of behind the scene/ life that allows us to see through time and reach the origin of your art. Inspiring, real and consistent with your message as well. (Again: well done).
It lasts in my mind, I will watch it again.
Amanda Palmer- the icon.
This is a heartwarming glimpse into your past
Thank you :) exactly what i needed.
Also, glad you stopped in the corn fields in dublin. I live in columbus, and have visited their a lot. :)
I LOVE AMANDA FUCKING PALMER. It's great to see this insight into her thoughts 🙂 It's nice to see that even Amanda Fucking Palmer has relatable fears about making art and living an authentic life.