My friend called me the day before he "deleted" himself. We haven't "talked talked" in years. We used to be housemates. He recently went through a divorce. I offered to pay for his flight from the US to Brighton and to move in with me. At least for 90 days on the passport allowance because he didn't have a visa and was staying in a hostel that was full of junkies. He lost everything and had a lot of baggage. We agreed that was the plan, and we'd finalise it in the next day or two. Never was able to get to that. That conversation has haunted me for some time, and blaming yourself is very common. Constantly, I think about what would happen if I said "this" or "that". I eventually got closure, realising nothing that I could have said or done would have changed his mind. This song really hits home for me and I love it because su!cide grief is very real. I was crying with you, my dude. If you are ever in Brighton, let me know, and we'll go out for some pints.
@Carl-gj4ed sorry for that sadly quite a lot of stories of the day before involve reaching out to others on the part of the victim. You can’t hope to have decoded everything when it felt like you were building plans for the future. Sure he would be apologising to you now if he could.
So sorry mate, really tough one. No matter how much you try you cannot get that "what if" question out of your mind. Thanks for sharing your story bro and I spend a lot of time down brighton so might take you up on that offer
@TunesandChill please do. I'm not far from the train station. We can get a pint or two and salute the friends that couldn't be here. We might even go Ren hunting :) Keep up the great reactions. You are a breathe of fresh air because many reactors don't like the heavier songs.
I remember it too....we all cried together. Little did I know that only a few weeks later I'd being racing in the back of a police car to stop my daughter jumping from the Delaware Memorial Bridge,this song running thru my mind...... Yes,we got to her in time❤
@MySnottyattaC woww,you do? Funny how we comment things and don't realize how many people see lol..... Thank you.....sending big love right back to you💛🌻💛
I echo this sentiment. The vulnerability, the realness. So refreshing, so appreciated and honored to have you share your emotions and thoughts with us like this. Thank you. Quickly becoming my all time favorite reactor.
I’m a 48 year truck driver from Eastern Canada, there’s a lot about my life I’m not ok with; no ability to follow passions and hobbies due to selling my life 5 days at a time, a partner who doesn’t get my sensitive side cause they’re busy ducking my rage (metaphorically not literally) and they’re not the type for inward inspection. I find myself staying up late after she goes to bed when I’m home on the weekends watching reaction videos to beautiful music (I do this on the road too) crying rivers for feeling something with what seems like other like minded souls. No one reaches me like REN He is a gift to us all and I hope he knows it. Tunes and Chill you got my subscription for being brave enough to cry in front of other men, thank you so much for being someone to share the profundity of existence with.
@ there’s a lot of unbelievable talent delivering your couches and deodorant, 47% of working age males in North America identify as a driver of some sort. We can access ANYTHING we desire at a truck stop, except an appointment with a therapist. Let that sink in, nearly half the working men in this country are isolated in high pressure jobs that are sedentary with nearly no access to healthy food. We are the ghosts that keep the living alive
This one really hits me. A few weeks after Ren dropped this,my 30 year old daughter attempted to jump from a suapension bridge over the Delaware River. In the cop car on the way to stop her,the lines "I think about that sometimes Whay it felt like to look down and see tranquility One sudden movement in a world of possibility Only one movement to expose our fragility......." I got to her in time,she got the help she needed,and is living her best life now❤ But man,this one really gets me😭
The guilt, the second guessing, the hurt you bury and pretend isn't there. Sometimes you just need to get it out. One of my friends lost her 18 year old son this way. This came out about 6 months later so I forwarded it to her. She called in tears saying it was the first time she felt someone understood. Having someone understand your deepest grief is a powerful thing.
Much love, my dude. Men need to talk - and cry - more, and we need a society that treats that not only as normal, but as positive; so thanks for standing up and being man enough to be vulnerable and honest.
It will be 25yrs this June... .seems like yesterday, still think & dream about it most days.Still don't understand but won't JUDGE, I miss my Husband everyday! Ren has finally made me accept it with his lyrics & music! It took a long time but this Bard has done more for me than any Doctor did! I'm Scottish, Hubby died overseas with me x
I'm a suicide survivor and Ren has changed my life! I still struggle with my demon, I named him Bob. I tell people that Ren's my therapist and the reactions are my therapy sessions. Thank you for a great session! ❤
My brother took his life on Christmas day last year, with the first anniversary looming each day is getting harder. Ren has helped me so much the last year. Great reaction. Stay safe xx
Never be worried about being vulnerable in your reactions kiddo, we feel your pain! ❤️ Almost 68 years young, found Ren about 4-5 months ago, watch reaction videos every day… almost exclusively Ren😉You do you it’s why we watch! ☮️ ❤️ 🏴
Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable reaction with us - I think that even these painful songs can feel good, because it's comforting to know that someone else really understands how we're feeling. I'm glad that the world is moving towards a space where we can share our painful thoughts and emotions more openly, but we still have a long way to go. When this song came out, Ren posted a comment: "Is it just me that thinks it's weird that you're allowed to have a song called MURDERER without censorship issues but call suicide and it gets flagged???? As a social experiment my next song will be called Genocidal Pimp Shagger Dildo Legs Mcgee" .... I wish he would've followed up on that last part! 😉
"It never really felt like the right time" is such a hard-hitting line. Ren manages to convey the serious struggles of mental health so perfectly in all his works, and I'm so impressed every time. I'm also really happy to see men watch these songs and be comfortable expressing the discomfort of the themes. Love this reaction
I will forever believe Ren can heal a broken and lost soul that didnt even know it needed healing. I'm sorry for your loss. It is a heavy thing to hold. I hope peace has found you. If not, may it find you soon. ❤🙇♀️❤
Thank you for such a vulnerable reaction and sending you lots of love❤❤❤️ If you want a song upbeat, you can check out Humble by Ren and I forgot her name omg but another person lol
Yeah man, up beat now... Many of Ren's songs are fun and maybe this is time for you to listen to them ! Ready for you is a deep one but powerful and hopeful. Maybe is time... Much love 😘
Whenever you post up a new video, if it's a "rough" one I just want to hand you a tissue because I know how they hit. And yes, please treat yourself to Losing It, What You Want, or venture into The Big Push and bop along to their cover of Bongo Bong. Hugs from across the Atlantic.
Still can't get thru this one w/crying. I lost my BFF to this as well. I think you need to do some fun Ren now!! You deserve it. I recommend Power or Animal Flow or Bittersweet Symphony (The Verve cover) Thanks again for another honest reaction. Cheers from a Canadian RENegade❤
I've seen a few reactions to to this one. I thought i might finally find some ease watching it. Desensitised? Nope! Your reaction caused my biggest reaction to it yet. I hate to see people in pain, but i hate more when people don't feel at all. I love your reaction! I felt your reaction. "We can't be something we cant see" is a quote i heard today. A man not afraid to cry shows us all it's ok. Thank you. ....I'd also love to see you happy. Ren is capable of absolute bliss and euphoria too.
Crying along with you dude, I can never get past that. Lovely reaction again, and I’m so sorry for your losses ❤️. There is a much lighter side to Ren too, he can also be quite cheeky, so you have lots to look forward to, from tears to laughter
Your right- its a very hard song to listen to especially for some- its nothing something most will relisten to often- but its a song we NEED to exist- to put those genuin feelings out there and not sweep this issue under the rug. How many people besides ren make such raw and real songs these days? Thanks for uploading your genuine reaction.
So sorry for your loss. I hope and expect that by his openness in sharing specific thoughts and feelings related to the subject, Ren is allowing people to heal from very painful things in community. Definitely time for something a bit lighter. May I suggest: Power the Love Music series Back on 74/Message in a Bottle Loco Uninvited Down on the Beat Wildfire Busking with Chinchilla: One Dance etc. and (on Chinchilla's channel) Sexual Healing 16 Bar challenge Can't Help Falling in Love (Elvis Cover) Ren and Sam Tompkins - Wild Thoughts etc./ Improvising around Stevie Wonder GIRLS! 1990s Pretty much any of the busking videos from the Big Push's channel, or their original song It's Alright. For your Brighton wanderings - check out the Rencylopedia TH-cam channel for a link to a map of Ren places in Brighton.
Big hugs to you! Then, play one of the following: "What You Want," "Uninvited," "Power," "Ocean," "Murderer," "Losing It" or any of the Love Music series. Ren's raps are typically straight-up-fun (e.g. "Down on the Beat") or songs that sound like great fun, but have lyrics that could be interpreted with deeper meaning (e.g. "Illest of Our Time"). Great reaction! ✌️💛
((hugs)), you are right though, his songs are therapeutic. His songs make us feel emotion we bury. It is good to let it out so we don't end up in that place of despair. There should never be a stigma associated with showing emotion. Emotion is part of what makes us human. I am sorry for your loss.♥
Ren to me, is a book with a blank cover. Open the book and the pages transport you to a time, place and emotion of Rens choosing. I'm just an old fart, but Ren has touched and helped me these last couple years. God bless and keep Ren among us, we need him
Thank you. I'd like to recommend Ren's cover of "Ain't No Sunshine" which is on director Samuel Perry-Falvey's channel. I feel that it would really resonate with you. It's more akin to what Ren calls a "retake" than an actual cover as he adds to the song.
I'm a nearly 32-year survivor and lost family/friends as well and yes, time doesn't stop for us to heal. It often reopens wounds, heals, scars, and then reopens again.
I'm so very sorry for those you lost. There's no time limit on grief, and it's not a linear process, as I'm sure you know. Sending a big hug from across the pond. I watched a therapist react to this a while ago (she's a renegade), she lost someone who took their life as well. One thing she said that stuck with me was the way Ren repeated the word so many times in the song to a slightly upbeat melody. Not cheery by any means, but not dark or melancholy. She said that this was so important because the stigma behind the word blocks conversations and education that we need. It's a word that we feel we shouldn't say, which leads to bottled up emotions. If we can educate ourselves and others to recognize warning signs, have conversations about it, and spread awareness and resources to help, then there's hope that it could save a life. As you said, it's especially difficult for men to discuss it and let their vulnerability show. Your reaction was heartbreaking but beautiful. Let's keep it upbeat for the next few reactions, though. You deserve it.
One of the beautiful things about ren is how he isnt afraid to say things and to put things out there that others might not. Ive not had to personally deal with anything having to do with self deletion, so i can only imagine how much harder this is for those that have. But it also gives a inside look to people who havent experienced this how it can affect everyone. Ren must be protected at all costs, hes such a very precious hooman bean 🥹 sending you lots of love and healing energy, my friend 🥹💜💜💜
Ren‘s my therapist, too. He (and especially the two songs Patience and How to be me) brought me back to creating and to making music. I don’t know how he does it.
Me too my friend, me too.... he said everything i felt and still feel 10 years on after my fiance ended his life during a bad bi-polar episode. I think festive period is an ok time, after all what better time to remember those we have lost - its also peak time for people to choose this option :( ....i always have a good cry listening to this and he puts words to my feelings. We do need to talk about it more, perhaps if people feeling lost could understand the deep effect their action would have then they may think twice...Reach out to those you love and check on them this xmas and new year - let them know they are loved, dont leave things unsaid (at least thats my motto now).... Much love - hugs from thailand from an ex brighton girl xx
i like the comment 'ren is our therapist' lol - totally bang on. I may be wrong but i think this is done by retroscope where they animate on top of film.... Please chose 'losing it' for an upbeat one, you will recognise loads of spots from brighton and Ren really shows his funny cheeky chappy side lol
I lost my brother this way, I can't watch it without it emotionally hitting me every time. For Joe is a live extension of the last part of this song, just Ren and his piano. it's very heavy and emotional, something to know going into it. Ren has lighter stuff, I swear. Check out Back on 74 for something a bit more upbeat and classic rock/blues in style. Thanks for the react from the US.
One of the most interesting things about this song is that the ending sequence wasn't originally part of the song. He was done recording. The video was done. He was about to release it, and then he had a podcast conversation with a reactor like you, named Knox Hill. They talked a lot about Ren's friend, and Ren went back and added that ending part, delaying the release. He and Knox have been friends ever since
He speaks to all of us. And he speaks to those who are no longer with us. This is the third song about Joe and Ren followed it with “ For Joe” , which begins where this leaves off. It is gut wrenching. And you are absolutely spot on about how men have been conditioned to shove their emotions down, deep inside of themselves. That being said, I have lost track of how many men have found their “ emotional “ voice through Ren. His authenticity and willingness to lay himself bare ,time and time again, opens the pathway to healing. There will always be scars, some more painful than others❤
I think music is Ren's therapy tbh and so his music is like a processing of feelings, both good and bad. Which makes it incredibly relatable for many. I love that you make yourself so vulnerable in these reactions... I know it can be challenging but just want to make sure you know it's profoundly appreciated and rest assured you are safe to do so in Ren's community. They are a huge group of incredibly empathetic individuals who all just want to experience positive connections with others via music. ❤️🩹
It's a heavy burden to carry the emotions of those we have lost. Ren brings these feelings to the forefront and maybe help us heal. Sending love from a Kemptown girl 🤗
Kemptown! I used to live in the Seven Dials and had a family friend there but we are talking early 80s. Would have stayed in Brighton if I knew Ren was coming along..
The contrast in this piece between walking around your life with it in the back of your mind - then the impact of it actually hitting your loved ones. Seems to me like something that only a person who has gone through it can artistically express. Ren nailed it with this one.
Oh wow :) thank you for that heartfelt reaction ... careful, your humanity is showing :) :) The follow-up Ren song is "For Joe". It overlaps with the ending of this song. You really should watch his related interview ... Behind the Song - 'Suic*de' with Ren
Thank you so much for such a honest and vulnerable reaction. When I first saw this video it gutted me and affected me in this best way. I was affected by suicide at a very young which then ended up effecting me my whole childhood because the people he left behind couldn’t come with terms with his death and wouldn’t get help. Ren opens doors that a lot of people won’t and he helps heal the world. Thanks again for an amazing reaction. One of his more up beat ones and is one of my favourites is Power. He talks about heavy subjects but it’s done in a positive way with a great beat. Much love from Canada.
Man since I saw your reaction to Hi Ren I was hook to your response. I've seen so many other reactions, but yours are the most heartfelt. I wrote then (and later delete) that REN's songs are ment just for your reaction. Thanks for the humanity you bring to his music.
Well, you're definitely hitting all the hard hitting, deep, thought provoking ones. Suggest you take a pause and listen to some others ones of Ren...more fun...upbeat. for example, I shot the sheriff. The live version where he's busking with his band Big Push. Its the one Ren is wearing the red suspenders.
The world also needs more people like you, men willing to openly express their emotions and be vulnerable. There's very much a reason why men who attempt are so much more likely to use deadlier methods and "complete" (I hate that word for it but idk if there's really a better one). I haven't lost anyone to suic*de, but I've almost lost myself, and people find it concerning that I listen to songs like this when I'm feeling that way, but it's bc it brings the feeling out instead of keeping it trapped inside my brain. And this song in particular, with that gut-wrenching ending showing what it feels like to love someone who leaves that way, is one of the best things I've found to combat ideation. The pain that person felt doesn't disappear, it just becomes magnified and spread out among the people who cared about them. The idea that there *is* no one who cares about you is one of the most insidious lies depression tells you, and songs/stories like this give you some ammo to convince yourself to hold on for just one more day, over and over again. I sob every time I watch a reaction to this, and I'm sure many others do too, so you weren't crying alone. ❤
'I miss myself' - says it all really for the ones left behind. A major reason we carry a pain inside that is hard to talk about is that we struggle to find the words. A great poet or artist helps provide the words - or at least a starting point. Ren does this. In my 64 yrs walking on this earth only a few artists come this close to an expression of depth of things not only unspeakable but for many unthinkable. Ren is Ren - and in the words of Bob Dylan 'So easy to look at, so hard to define' - I can only look at and listen to an artist like Ren with admiration and gratitude - would never try to define or confine such a spirit into a category or pigeon hole. I love your reactions as you 'experience' the whole piece and its impact - not just the words. the visuals, the music, the production, the symbolic communication etc but the totality. You get the power of the whole thing. Keep doing it that way - personally I find it more respectful. One theme I have picked up from Ren's work is the important message to remember you are amazing. I echo that - and thank you for being amazing. There are some very fun pieces by Ren (funny in a deliberately juvenile sense) - I know you will enjoy them.
There are so many Ren songs I’d love to hear you react to. I enjoy your reactions because I can relate well. Another hard one that is related to this song is “How To Be Me” live with Chinchilla. There are some other faster songs such as Sick Boi and Seven Sins. Upbeat would be something like Losing It. Angry would be Kujo Beat Down, but if you watch that, first watch his 35 minute video about what happened between he and Kujo so you understand the song’s context. There’s even more. You also can try jumping on the Chinchilla rabbit hole and watch Little Girl Gone, Fingers (live), and 1:5 (live).
Sending you the biggest hug, Kev. This one is so painful to all of us who have lost anyone or been lost. But the conversations this song helps open up, and the vulnerability people like you show while discussing the impact, will keep people here. The legacy of Ren's friendship with Joe Hughes will be that people who wanted to leave will stay and still help. Thank you for being part of that by showing it's okay to be emotional. ❤ You definitely need to do The Big Push. So, so positive. Brilliant energy and the perfect antidote to the heavier things.
Ren is doing something very special and important with his art. He is voicing things we don’t talk about enough. He even made the chorus so catchy that it can get us singing along. The first part of the song is about Ren’s own suicidal ideation. But after losing his best friend Joe, he just couldn’t put his loved ones through that. Instead he had times of wishing that the illness would end his pain for him. Luckily it didn’t, cause the world needs Ren. The second part of the song was written much later after talking about Joe in the first interview with Knox Hill. One day it just started pouring out. It is so raw because he recorded it bit by bit as he wrote it, before he could really process any of it. The added ending really completes the song. And makes it absolutely heartbreaking. Not sure I have come across any other artist who shares their unfiltered emotions and tears quite like this. We feel it so deeply because he feels it. Not only that but Ren is showing us all that it is okay to be vulnerable 🖤 Anyway please please please check out Freckled Angels BEFORE For Joe! It makes it even more special 🖤
You're not alone in this space man. Never has sharing emotions been more relevant than in today's world. The first time I saw this song I was digging along until the second part hit me like a truck and I broke down sobbing. In high school we were three guys who did everything together. Then suddenly I would come to school and my friend was no longer there. One of us was forever gone. It not just "tough", it is devastating. Any guy reading this, you *need* to vent, and vent and vent and vent, until the steam is out of you, until you no longer feel it boiling. It might not every go away, but you can, and must, manage the churning, seething pain. Talk to someone. Anyone. Listen to music that express what you can't, then talk about the music. You can do this.
I'm m sure others are saying this too, but 2 songs connected to this are also beautiful and i thnk you'd love them. For Joe came just aftet Suic!de, and MacKay, for Callum mention in this song.
Suicide is one of my favorite Ren songs. And I've watched many reactions of it. The poem about Joe gets me every time. I have to admit that sometimes when I am listening to the song, I don't watch the poem section. I'm just not up to the sorrow of it sometimes.
Thank you for reacting to this. When Joe jumped and Ren was just a few minutes too late, that pain shaped him. Maybe it's time for you to listen to Ocean or Humble or Fire from Ren, to lift your soul.
I have a brother named Kevin that I can rarely see bc we are so far apart. We keep in contact often through msgs more so than ever bc we miss our other bro who passed on unnecessarily and abruptly. Appreciate you. I’m sure many can relate to what you share.
Love your reactions to Ren videos ♥️He just gets you in the feels every time! It's like damn how does he keep doing that! Keep doing you, Love it! ♥️👍😊👍♥️
This one's definitely theraputic - I've listened to it so many times but it still hits so powerfully every time. "For Joe" is a beautiful follow-on track which picks up with the second part of this and evolves into a tribute to his friend Joe with a more positive and optimistic ending. It's also emotional but very beautiful. Filmed at night on a hillside overlooking the lights of the city of Calgary in Canada whilst Ren was undergoing treatment there. Thank you for your open honesty and emotional expression 💪. A lot of American reactors really struggle with openly expressing how they feel on TH-cam for cultural reasons, it's something UK is streets ahead in terms of changing that. Suppressing and hiding emotion is undoubtedly a contributing factor to male su!cide rates and change is definitely needed more widely.
A highly recommended complement to "Suic!de" is the song "For Joe". It's a live take which starts out the way the "Suic!de" ends and then goes on to show how gratitude and a different perspective can be found with ( what I believe may be) the passing of a bit of time. It's brilliant and beautiful and I know you'll love it! Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us!
I love your reactions. I really like that you watch the whole video and then you comment, I think that actually allows you to feel the music and video If you go walking around Brighton there is a mural of Ren, you may find it 😊 You should watch Power, Down on the beat or Murderer next. Not crying with those songs Keep going down the 🐰 🕳️
This is an intervention: next Ren song needs to be "What You Want" or anything by The Big Push. Try doing What You Want WITHOUT imagining PJ and Duncan covering it... :D
To me, most music might push at the walls we have up but they just sing from outside them. Ren's music, the more emotional pieces especially, knocks those walls down - but gives you a hug after.
I have lost too many people to this subject. I've been told it's the price of loving the extremely broken in this world sometimes, but i would never stop. I understand broken, i dont understand "normal." You, Sir, are a treasure and such a sweet soul. Thank you. ❤
We were all like you the night that song dropped, it was impossible to not feel his pain as it's so genuine ❤ I recommend Power next, uplifting and gives some background in a light and upbeat way. Then the Love Music series goes from baby Ren to very cheeky Ren with everything in between. Very upbeat 4 songs where you can see his progression over the years. 😊
Grief is a nasty beast. And as time passes people expect you to have moved on... And at times you feel like you have ..and then you are hut in the face with it at 2 in the afternoon on a random Tuesday. Hearing Ren somehow makes it ok to grieve
His work provokes honest communication about the subject matters that don't get talked about and if you haven't tried to end it all you know someone that has. The fact that the untold stories of this is the true injustice. The later part of the song is dedicated to friend Joe who jumped off a bridge and was never found. RIP Joe. Like Ren I live differently and a little harder for my lost friends. RIP Wayne, Nathan, Sam, Shane, Clover my first love and Johnathan my unborn baby boy
I’m sure people have recommended Ren’s Chapters 1-8 to get his story beautifully put. But do them after the holidays! Take a break❤️ Love your willingness to be vulnerable you are one of my favorite reactors.
Stay the same emotional guy you are , I cry over so many of his songs ,no mater how many times I listen. My only frustration is I live in Spain and it's hard to find people who can understand his lyrics enough ❤
Thank you for the reaction to this song. I'm so sorry about your losses. It's so hard. My younger brother took his life in 2013, and it was the worst thing I've ever had to deal with. I now suffer from PTSD from survivor's guilt. Being the older sister I should have seen the signs, but I didn't and now he's gone. If only I would have known, maybe I could have saved him. He is loved and missed everyday. 😢
Hey dude, a close friend sent me the link to Hi Ren back in July. Like you, I'd never heard of him before. After Hi Ren, I dove in deeper and two playlists later I can officially say that this guy is my favourite all time artist. I've had many favourite artists over the years and have always gravitated towards more emotionally connected music, but I've never heard someone like Ren. He's one of a kind and that's an understatement. I've gone through many Ren Reactors since July. Thank you for not being afraid to be vulnerable with your emotions. As soon as I saw you shed a tear over Hi Ren, I knew I wanted to see more of your reactions to Ren. I then watched your Tales reaction, followed by Suicide. I've shed many tears to this song since first hearing it. The piano portion towards the end is extremely powerful. I'll be watching your reaction to the Money Game trilogy next. I could recommend almost his entire catelogue for you to react to as he's just that amazing. Based on what you shared re: this song, I'd recommend reacting to or at least listening to Freckled Angels from his album by the same name. It's a tribute to the same friend he's referencing in this song. Thanks again, dude. Sub x2
It's rare to find an artist that can trigger an emotional response from me, but Ren does it time and again. It's great to find a Ren reactor who shares my accent. Much love ✌️
The Internet cried the night he dropped this
You are speaking for a great many people when you say Ren's a therapist. Thank you for being so honest and genuine. I really appreciate your videos.
My friend called me the day before he "deleted" himself. We haven't "talked talked" in years. We used to be housemates. He recently went through a divorce. I offered to pay for his flight from the US to Brighton and to move in with me. At least for 90 days on the passport allowance because he didn't have a visa and was staying in a hostel that was full of junkies. He lost everything and had a lot of baggage. We agreed that was the plan, and we'd finalise it in the next day or two. Never was able to get to that.
That conversation has haunted me for some time, and blaming yourself is very common. Constantly, I think about what would happen if I said "this" or "that". I eventually got closure, realising nothing that I could have said or done would have changed his mind.
This song really hits home for me and I love it because su!cide grief is very real. I was crying with you, my dude. If you are ever in Brighton, let me know, and we'll go out for some pints.
I'm so sorry for your loss and what you went through.
@Carl-gj4ed sorry for that sadly quite a lot of stories of the day before involve reaching out to others on the part of the victim. You can’t hope to have decoded everything when it felt like you were building plans for the future. Sure he would be apologising to you now if he could.
So sorry mate, really tough one. No matter how much you try you cannot get that "what if" question out of your mind. Thanks for sharing your story bro and I spend a lot of time down brighton so might take you up on that offer
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@TunesandChill please do. I'm not far from the train station. We can get a pint or two and salute the friends that couldn't be here. We might even go Ren hunting :)
Keep up the great reactions. You are a breathe of fresh air because many reactors don't like the heavier songs.
Show your emotions, it makes you look strong, not weak.
Agreed.
100%! Being vulnerable is authentic and human. It's what we crave for, especially now. It's why Ren is so special.
Big hugs, my friend. I remember the day this premiered and Ren made the whole world cry. 😢
I remember it too....we all cried together. Little did I know that only a few weeks later I'd being racing in the back of a police car to stop my daughter jumping from the Delaware Memorial Bridge,this song running thru my mind......
Yes,we got to her in time❤
@vivienneclarke2421 so thankful you made it in time 🫶
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I remember your comment/story back then very well.
Much love 💚✌️
@MySnottyattaC woww,you do? Funny how we comment things and don't realize how many people see lol.....
Thank you.....sending big love right back to you💛🌻💛
Probably one of the most genuine people I've ever seen on TH-cam. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Wow, thank you so much for comment. I really appreciate it
I echo this sentiment. The vulnerability, the realness. So refreshing, so appreciated and honored to have you share your emotions and thoughts with us like this. Thank you. Quickly becoming my all time favorite reactor.
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True, amazingly so. 🫡😎🐺💔💙💯🦋
I’m a 48 year truck driver from Eastern Canada, there’s a lot about my life I’m not ok with; no ability to follow passions and hobbies due to selling my life 5 days at a time, a partner who doesn’t get my sensitive side cause they’re busy ducking my rage (metaphorically not literally) and they’re not the type for inward inspection. I find myself staying up late after she goes to bed when I’m home on the weekends watching reaction videos to beautiful music (I do this on the road too) crying rivers for feeling something with what seems like other like minded souls. No one reaches me like REN
He is a gift to us all and I hope he knows it.
Tunes and Chill you got my subscription for being brave enough to cry in front of other men, thank you so much for being someone to share the profundity of existence with.
@wesbaxter1857 "selling my life 5 days at a time" fuck me that's a line bruv.
@ there’s a lot of unbelievable talent delivering your couches and deodorant, 47% of working age males in North America identify as a driver of some sort. We can access ANYTHING we desire at a truck stop, except an appointment with a therapist. Let that sink in, nearly half the working men in this country are isolated in high pressure jobs that are sedentary with nearly no access to healthy food. We are the ghosts that keep the living alive
This one really hits me. A few weeks after Ren dropped this,my 30 year old daughter attempted to jump from a suapension bridge over the Delaware River. In the cop car on the way to stop her,the lines
"I think about that sometimes
Whay it felt like to look down and see tranquility
One sudden movement in a world of possibility
Only one movement to expose our fragility......."
I got to her in time,she got the help she needed,and is living her best life now❤
But man,this one really gets me😭
❤ WOW. 🙏 No words for what I want to say to you as a mother of a 20 year old so let me just send you a big squishy hug from North Dakota!
I'm so happy to read this 🙂😢❤🫂
@@Lift_Eachother_Up Squishy hugs right back~!!🤗
@Dr.Brummel The best part is,,she patched things up with her husband and I now have a precious 5 month old grand son❤️
@@vivienneclarke2421 That's so great. I am so happy for you. Best wishes and much love to you and your family 😀❤.
Ren reminding us that we are human 😢
"How to be Me" is another song that hits perfectly.
I describe it as that feeling you get in the days after you lose someone close to you.
There is a song featuring the renegades!
WynandFouriemusic- loves healing
Its beautiful! Help us spread the love!
Would love to u react to this. Great example of the love that we all share with each other in a song for Ren
The guilt, the second guessing, the hurt you bury and pretend isn't there. Sometimes you just need to get it out. One of my friends lost her 18 year old son this way. This came out about 6 months later so I forwarded it to her. She called in tears saying it was the first time she felt someone understood. Having someone understand your deepest grief is a powerful thing.
Couldn't of said it better my dear friend!
Much love, my dude. Men need to talk - and cry - more, and we need a society that treats that not only as normal, but as positive; so thanks for standing up and being man enough to be vulnerable and honest.
It will be 25yrs this June... .seems like yesterday, still think & dream about it most days.Still don't understand but won't JUDGE, I miss my Husband everyday! Ren has finally made me accept it with his lyrics & music! It took a long time but this Bard has done more for me than any Doctor did! I'm Scottish, Hubby died overseas with me x
We all cry...and then with Ren...we heal. Gentle hugs, Grandma RENegade.
I love how Ren sings the words that so many of us don’t know how to vocalize. He is a treasure!
I'm a suicide survivor and Ren has changed my life! I still struggle with my demon, I named him Bob. I tell people that Ren's my therapist and the reactions are my therapy sessions. Thank you for a great session! ❤
F*ck Bob. Stay strong and be safe buddy. ❤
So so glad you are still here with us 🙏 Stay strong! Sending love energy your way.
My brother took his life on Christmas day last year, with the first anniversary looming each day is getting harder. Ren has helped me so much the last year. Great reaction. Stay safe xx
So sorry Mary hope you have all the other Christmases before to draw good memories of him from
Hi Mary, I am so sorry you lost your brother. This must be such a sad and hard time for you and the family. Sending my love x
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I hope you were able to come to terms this Christmas with your loss, and were able to smile at good memories of times past with your brother.
Never be worried about being vulnerable in your reactions kiddo, we feel your pain! ❤️
Almost 68 years young, found Ren about 4-5 months ago, watch reaction videos every day… almost exclusively Ren😉You do you it’s why we watch! ☮️ ❤️ 🏴
Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable reaction with us - I think that even these painful songs can feel good, because it's comforting to know that someone else really understands how we're feeling. I'm glad that the world is moving towards a space where we can share our painful thoughts and emotions more openly, but we still have a long way to go. When this song came out, Ren posted a comment: "Is it just me that thinks it's weird that you're allowed to have a song called MURDERER without censorship issues but call suicide and it gets flagged???? As a social experiment my next song will be called Genocidal Pimp Shagger Dildo Legs Mcgee" .... I wish he would've followed up on that last part! 😉
It’s extremely gratifying when new reactors who get it find ren.
"It never really felt like the right time" is such a hard-hitting line. Ren manages to convey the serious struggles of mental health so perfectly in all his works, and I'm so impressed every time. I'm also really happy to see men watch these songs and be comfortable expressing the discomfort of the themes. Love this reaction
I will forever believe Ren can heal a broken and lost soul that didnt even know it needed healing.
I'm sorry for your loss. It is a heavy thing to hold. I hope peace has found you. If not, may it find you soon.
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Thank you for such a vulnerable reaction and sending you lots of love❤❤❤️ If you want a song upbeat, you can check out Humble by Ren and I forgot her name omg but another person lol
Mr genuine, honest and true reaction. Keep it up. Good luck.
Yeah man, up beat now... Many of Ren's songs are fun and maybe this is time for you to listen to them ! Ready for you is a deep one but powerful and hopeful. Maybe is time... Much love 😘
Took me a long time to find Ready For You, it’s a favorite now. So good
Whenever you post up a new video, if it's a "rough" one I just want to hand you a tissue because I know how they hit. And yes, please treat yourself to Losing It, What You Want, or venture into The Big Push and bop along to their cover of Bongo Bong. Hugs from across the Atlantic.
Still can't get thru this one w/crying. I lost my BFF to this as well. I think you need to do some fun Ren now!! You deserve it. I recommend Power or Animal Flow or Bittersweet Symphony (The Verve cover) Thanks again for another honest reaction. Cheers from a Canadian RENegade❤
I'm so sorry for your loss also and will definitely go a little more light hearted next time around
@TunesandChill 1990s (Official Lyric Video) is quite funny as well.
I've seen a few reactions to to this one. I thought i might finally find some ease watching it. Desensitised? Nope! Your reaction caused my biggest reaction to it yet. I hate to see people in pain, but i hate more when people don't feel at all. I love your reaction! I felt your reaction. "We can't be something we cant see" is a quote i heard today. A man not afraid to cry shows us all it's ok. Thank you.
....I'd also love to see you happy. Ren is capable of absolute bliss and euphoria too.
Crying along with you dude, I can never get past that.
Lovely reaction again, and I’m so sorry for your losses ❤️. There is a much lighter side to Ren too, he can also be quite cheeky, so you have lots to look forward to, from tears to laughter
Your right- its a very hard song to listen to especially for some- its nothing something most will relisten to often- but its a song we NEED to exist- to put those genuin feelings out there and not sweep this issue under the rug. How many people besides ren make such raw and real songs these days? Thanks for uploading your genuine reaction.
So sorry for your loss. I hope and expect that by his openness in sharing specific thoughts and feelings related to the subject, Ren is allowing people to heal from very painful things in community.
Definitely time for something a bit lighter. May I suggest:
Power
the Love Music series
Back on 74/Message in a Bottle
Loco
Uninvited
Down on the Beat
Wildfire
Busking with Chinchilla: One Dance etc. and (on Chinchilla's channel) Sexual Healing
16 Bar challenge
Can't Help Falling in Love (Elvis Cover)
Ren and Sam Tompkins - Wild Thoughts etc./ Improvising around Stevie Wonder
GIRLS!
1990s
Pretty much any of the busking videos from the Big Push's channel, or their original song It's Alright.
For your Brighton wanderings - check out the Rencylopedia TH-cam channel for a link to a map of Ren places in Brighton.
As Goat Worthy reaction channel says (got from a fan) "in a world full of GOATS, Ren is a unicorn 🦄 🖤🔥🤘
I was crying with you. He does do some that will make you smile. Uninvited is one. Radio is also one. Sweet little lady. 😊
Ps. Radio and Sweet little lady are with Big Push xx
Big hugs to you!
Then, play one of the following: "What You Want," "Uninvited," "Power," "Ocean," "Murderer," "Losing It" or any of the Love Music series. Ren's raps are typically straight-up-fun (e.g. "Down on the Beat") or songs that sound like great fun, but have lyrics that could be interpreted with deeper meaning (e.g. "Illest of Our Time").
Great reaction!
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((hugs)), you are right though, his songs are therapeutic. His songs make us feel emotion we bury. It is good to let it out so we don't end up in that place of despair. There should never be a stigma associated with showing emotion. Emotion is part of what makes us human. I am sorry for your loss.♥
I cried with you. Thank you.
Always let yourself be moved when you are moved. Authentic is beautiful.
Ren to me, is a book with a blank cover. Open the book and the pages transport you to a time, place and emotion of Rens choosing. I'm just an old fart, but Ren has touched and helped me these last couple years. God bless and keep Ren among us, we need him
Thank you.
I'd like to recommend Ren's cover of "Ain't No Sunshine" which is on director Samuel Perry-Falvey's channel. I feel that it would really resonate with you. It's more akin to what Ren calls a "retake" than an actual cover as he adds to the song.
I'm a nearly 32-year survivor and lost family/friends as well and yes, time doesn't stop for us to heal. It often reopens wounds, heals, scars, and then reopens again.
I'm so very sorry for those you lost. There's no time limit on grief, and it's not a linear process, as I'm sure you know. Sending a big hug from across the pond. I watched a therapist react to this a while ago (she's a renegade), she lost someone who took their life as well. One thing she said that stuck with me was the way Ren repeated the word so many times in the song to a slightly upbeat melody. Not cheery by any means, but not dark or melancholy. She said that this was so important because the stigma behind the word blocks conversations and education that we need. It's a word that we feel we shouldn't say, which leads to bottled up emotions. If we can educate ourselves and others to recognize warning signs, have conversations about it, and spread awareness and resources to help, then there's hope that it could save a life. As you said, it's especially difficult for men to discuss it and let their vulnerability show. Your reaction was heartbreaking but beautiful. Let's keep it upbeat for the next few reactions, though. You deserve it.
One of the beautiful things about ren is how he isnt afraid to say things and to put things out there that others might not. Ive not had to personally deal with anything having to do with self deletion, so i can only imagine how much harder this is for those that have. But it also gives a inside look to people who havent experienced this how it can affect everyone. Ren must be protected at all costs, hes such a very precious hooman bean 🥹 sending you lots of love and healing energy, my friend 🥹💜💜💜
I really appreciate your raw emotions and honesty. We all have ours masks. I can see you are showing us behind that as much as you can.
Ren‘s my therapist, too. He (and especially the two songs Patience and How to be me) brought me back to creating and to making music.
I don’t know how he does it.
Me too my friend, me too.... he said everything i felt and still feel 10 years on after my fiance ended his life during a bad bi-polar episode. I think festive period is an ok time, after all what better time to remember those we have lost - its also peak time for people to choose this option :( ....i always have a good cry listening to this and he puts words to my feelings. We do need to talk about it more, perhaps if people feeling lost could understand the deep effect their action would have then they may think twice...Reach out to those you love and check on them this xmas and new year - let them know they are loved, dont leave things unsaid (at least thats my motto now).... Much love - hugs from thailand from an ex brighton girl xx
So sorry for your loss Gail x
i like the comment 'ren is our therapist' lol - totally bang on. I may be wrong but i think this is done by retroscope where they animate on top of film.... Please chose 'losing it' for an upbeat one, you will recognise loads of spots from brighton and Ren really shows his funny cheeky chappy side lol
I lost my brother this way, I can't watch it without it emotionally hitting me every time. For Joe is a live extension of the last part of this song, just Ren and his piano. it's very heavy and emotional, something to know going into it.
Ren has lighter stuff, I swear. Check out Back on 74 for something a bit more upbeat and classic rock/blues in style. Thanks for the react from the US.
To me, FOR JOE is more personal, but also more cathartic.
One of the most interesting things about this song is that the ending sequence wasn't originally part of the song. He was done recording. The video was done. He was about to release it, and then he had a podcast conversation with a reactor like you, named Knox Hill. They talked a lot about Ren's friend, and Ren went back and added that ending part, delaying the release. He and Knox have been friends ever since
He speaks to all of us. And he speaks to those who are no longer with us. This is the third song about Joe and Ren followed it with “ For Joe” , which begins where this leaves off. It is gut wrenching. And you are absolutely spot on about how men have been conditioned to shove their emotions down, deep inside of themselves. That being said, I have lost track of how many men have found their “ emotional “ voice through Ren. His authenticity and willingness to lay himself bare ,time and time again, opens the pathway to healing. There will always be scars, some more painful than others❤
thank you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
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I think music is Ren's therapy tbh and so his music is like a processing of feelings, both good and bad. Which makes it incredibly relatable for many.
I love that you make yourself so vulnerable in these reactions... I know it can be challenging but just want to make sure you know it's profoundly appreciated and rest assured you are safe to do so in Ren's community. They are a huge group of incredibly empathetic individuals who all just want to experience positive connections with others via music.
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For Joe
Follows this one, both songs are about one of his best friends, Joe, who jumped off a bridge
It's a heavy burden to carry the emotions of those we have lost. Ren brings these feelings to the forefront and maybe help us heal. Sending love from a Kemptown girl 🤗
Kemptown! I used to live in the Seven Dials and had a family friend there but we are talking early 80s. Would have stayed in Brighton if I knew Ren was coming along..
He most certainly does bring the feelings out...much to my surprise as I have kept them hidden for so long. Hope you are well
He is just more!!!❤ 🇺🇸
The contrast in this piece between walking around your life with it in the back of your mind - then the impact of it actually hitting your loved ones.
Seems to me like something that only a person who has gone through it can artistically express. Ren nailed it with this one.
Oh wow :) thank you for that heartfelt reaction ... careful, your humanity is showing :) :)
The follow-up Ren song is "For Joe". It overlaps with the ending of this song.
You really should watch his related interview ... Behind the Song - 'Suic*de' with Ren
Thank you so much for such a honest and vulnerable reaction. When I first saw this video it gutted me and affected me in this best way. I was affected by suicide at a very young which then ended up effecting me my whole childhood because the people he left behind couldn’t come with terms with his death and wouldn’t get help. Ren opens doors that a lot of people won’t and he helps heal the world. Thanks again for an amazing reaction. One of his more up beat ones and is one of my favourites is Power. He talks about heavy subjects but it’s done in a positive way with a great beat. Much love from Canada.
Man since I saw your reaction to Hi Ren I was hook to your response.
I've seen so many other reactions, but yours are the most heartfelt.
I wrote then (and later delete) that REN's songs are ment just for your reaction.
Thanks for the humanity you bring to his music.
Well, you're definitely hitting all the hard hitting, deep, thought provoking ones. Suggest you take a pause and listen to some others ones of Ren...more fun...upbeat. for example, I shot the sheriff. The live version where he's busking with his band Big Push. Its the one Ren is wearing the red suspenders.
The world also needs more people like you, men willing to openly express their emotions and be vulnerable. There's very much a reason why men who attempt are so much more likely to use deadlier methods and "complete" (I hate that word for it but idk if there's really a better one). I haven't lost anyone to suic*de, but I've almost lost myself, and people find it concerning that I listen to songs like this when I'm feeling that way, but it's bc it brings the feeling out instead of keeping it trapped inside my brain. And this song in particular, with that gut-wrenching ending showing what it feels like to love someone who leaves that way, is one of the best things I've found to combat ideation. The pain that person felt doesn't disappear, it just becomes magnified and spread out among the people who cared about them. The idea that there *is* no one who cares about you is one of the most insidious lies depression tells you, and songs/stories like this give you some ammo to convince yourself to hold on for just one more day, over and over again. I sob every time I watch a reaction to this, and I'm sure many others do too, so you weren't crying alone. ❤
[Just so that you know], you are valuable and loved.
Be well, mate.
'I miss myself' - says it all really for the ones left behind. A major reason we carry a pain inside that is hard to talk about is that we struggle to find the words. A great poet or artist helps provide the words - or at least a starting point. Ren does this. In my 64 yrs walking on this earth only a few artists come this close to an expression of depth of things not only unspeakable but for many unthinkable. Ren is Ren - and in the words of Bob Dylan 'So easy to look at, so hard to define' - I can only look at and listen to an artist like Ren with admiration and gratitude - would never try to define or confine such a spirit into a category or pigeon hole. I love your reactions as you 'experience' the whole piece and its impact - not just the words. the visuals, the music, the production, the symbolic communication etc but the totality. You get the power of the whole thing. Keep doing it that way - personally I find it more respectful. One theme I have picked up from Ren's work is the important message to remember you are amazing. I echo that - and thank you for being amazing. There are some very fun pieces by Ren (funny in a deliberately juvenile sense) - I know you will enjoy them.
That was my exact response and i am sure many others too. It’s a real real heartbreaker.
That was a beautiful reaction, and it doesn't matter how many times I see this song, it gets me every time.
There are so many Ren songs I’d love to hear you react to. I enjoy your reactions because I can relate well. Another hard one that is related to this song is “How To Be Me” live with Chinchilla. There are some other faster songs such as Sick Boi and Seven Sins. Upbeat would be something like Losing It. Angry would be Kujo Beat Down, but if you watch that, first watch his 35 minute video about what happened between he and Kujo so you understand the song’s context. There’s even more. You also can try jumping on the Chinchilla rabbit hole and watch Little Girl Gone, Fingers (live), and 1:5 (live).
Sending you the biggest hug, Kev. This one is so painful to all of us who have lost anyone or been lost. But the conversations this song helps open up, and the vulnerability people like you show while discussing the impact, will keep people here. The legacy of Ren's friendship with Joe Hughes will be that people who wanted to leave will stay and still help. Thank you for being part of that by showing it's okay to be emotional. ❤
You definitely need to do The Big Push. So, so positive. Brilliant energy and the perfect antidote to the heavier things.
Ren is doing something very special and important with his art. He is voicing things we don’t talk about enough. He even made the chorus so catchy that it can get us singing along.
The first part of the song is about Ren’s own suicidal ideation. But after losing his best friend Joe, he just couldn’t put his loved ones through that. Instead he had times of wishing that the illness would end his pain for him. Luckily it didn’t, cause the world needs Ren.
The second part of the song was written much later after talking about Joe in the first interview with Knox Hill. One day it just started pouring out. It is so raw because he recorded it bit by bit as he wrote it, before he could really process any of it. The added ending really completes the song. And makes it absolutely heartbreaking.
Not sure I have come across any other artist who shares their unfiltered emotions and tears quite like this. We feel it so deeply because he feels it. Not only that but Ren is showing us all that it is okay to be vulnerable 🖤
Anyway please please please check out Freckled Angels BEFORE For Joe! It makes it even more special 🖤
You're not alone in this space man. Never has sharing emotions been more relevant than in today's world. The first time I saw this song I was digging along until the second part hit me like a truck and I broke down sobbing. In high school we were three guys who did everything together. Then suddenly I would come to school and my friend was no longer there. One of us was forever gone. It not just "tough", it is devastating.
Any guy reading this, you *need* to vent, and vent and vent and vent, until the steam is out of you, until you no longer feel it boiling. It might not every go away, but you can, and must, manage the churning, seething pain. Talk to someone. Anyone. Listen to music that express what you can't, then talk about the music. You can do this.
I'm m sure others are saying this too, but 2 songs connected to this are also beautiful and i thnk you'd love them. For Joe came just aftet Suic!de, and MacKay, for Callum mention in this song.
I love how Ren reaches all of us one way or the other. He is the voice we dare not speak ourselves.
Suicide is one of my favorite Ren songs. And I've watched many reactions of it. The poem about Joe gets me every time. I have to admit that sometimes when I am listening to the song, I don't watch the poem section. I'm just not up to the sorrow of it sometimes.
Thank you for reacting to this. When Joe jumped and Ren was just a few minutes too late, that pain shaped him. Maybe it's time for you to listen to Ocean or Humble or Fire from Ren, to lift your soul.
I have a brother named Kevin that I can rarely see bc we are so far apart. We keep in contact often through msgs more so than ever bc we miss our other bro who passed on unnecessarily and abruptly. Appreciate you. I’m sure many can relate to what you share.
Love your reactions to Ren videos ♥️He just gets you in the feels every time! It's like damn how does he keep doing that! Keep doing you, Love it! ♥️👍😊👍♥️
This one's definitely theraputic - I've listened to it so many times but it still hits so powerfully every time. "For Joe" is a beautiful follow-on track which picks up with the second part of this and evolves into a tribute to his friend Joe with a more positive and optimistic ending. It's also emotional but very beautiful. Filmed at night on a hillside overlooking the lights of the city of Calgary in Canada whilst Ren was undergoing treatment there.
Thank you for your open honesty and emotional expression 💪. A lot of American reactors really struggle with openly expressing how they feel on TH-cam for cultural reasons, it's something UK is streets ahead in terms of changing that. Suppressing and hiding emotion is undoubtedly a contributing factor to male su!cide rates and change is definitely needed more widely.
A highly recommended complement to "Suic!de" is the song "For Joe". It's a live take which starts out the way the "Suic!de" ends and then goes on to show how gratitude and a different perspective can be found with ( what I believe may be) the passing of a bit of time. It's brilliant and beautiful and I know you'll love it! Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us!
I love your reactions. I really like that you watch the whole video and then you comment, I think that actually allows you to feel the music and video
If you go walking around Brighton there is a mural of Ren, you may find it 😊
You should watch Power, Down on the beat or Murderer next. Not crying with those songs
Keep going down the 🐰 🕳️
I cried for a week when this song came out 😢he really knows how to get straight to our souls❤
I cried every single time , sending big hugs 🫂☘️💚☘️
Much love. 💛💛💛
This is an intervention: next Ren song needs to be "What You Want" or anything by The Big Push.
Try doing What You Want WITHOUT imagining PJ and Duncan covering it... :D
Bless you, big hugs. 🥰💜
To me, most music might push at the walls we have up but they just sing from outside them.
Ren's music, the more emotional pieces especially, knocks those walls down - but gives you a hug after.
Big hugs ❤ thank you for sharing
Much love, thank you Sir 🙏🦉❤️🐊👍
I have lost too many people to this subject. I've been told it's the price of loving the extremely broken in this world sometimes, but i would never stop. I understand broken, i dont understand "normal." You, Sir, are a treasure and such a sweet soul. Thank you. ❤
We were all like you the night that song dropped, it was impossible to not feel his pain as it's so genuine ❤
I recommend Power next, uplifting and gives some background in a light and upbeat way. Then the Love Music series goes from baby Ren to very cheeky Ren with everything in between. Very upbeat 4 songs where you can see his progression over the years. 😊
Grief is a nasty beast. And as time passes people expect you to have moved on... And at times you feel like you have ..and then you are hut in the face with it at 2 in the afternoon on a random Tuesday. Hearing Ren somehow makes it ok to grieve
His work provokes honest communication about the subject matters that don't get talked about and if you haven't tried to end it all you know someone that has. The fact that the untold stories of this is the true injustice.
The later part of the song is dedicated to friend Joe who jumped off a bridge and was never found.
RIP Joe.
Like Ren I live differently and a little harder for my lost friends.
RIP Wayne, Nathan, Sam, Shane, Clover my first love and Johnathan my unborn baby boy
Ive listened to this song over 100 times and it hits me every time. Having lost ppl to "self-deletion" as well as looking down a barrel twice
I’m sure people have recommended Ren’s Chapters 1-8 to get his story beautifully put.
But do them after the holidays! Take a break❤️
Love your willingness to be vulnerable you are one of my favorite reactors.
Stay the same emotional guy you are , I cry over so many of his songs ,no mater how many times I listen. My only frustration is I live in Spain and it's hard to find people who can understand his lyrics enough ❤
I love watching your the reactions. Thanks for sharing
I told you...this one is hitting HAAARD!!
I've watched it 5 times and still start crying, when Ren cries at the end.
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Thank you for the reaction to this song. I'm so sorry about your losses. It's so hard. My younger brother took his life in 2013, and it was the worst thing I've ever had to deal with. I now suffer from PTSD from survivor's guilt. Being the older sister I should have seen the signs, but I didn't and now he's gone. If only I would have known, maybe I could have saved him. He is loved and missed everyday. 😢
❤❤❤ very emotional.
I'm so sorry for anyone who has lost someone.
Hey dude, a close friend sent me the link to Hi Ren back in July. Like you, I'd never heard of him before. After Hi Ren, I dove in deeper and two playlists later I can officially say that this guy is my favourite all time artist. I've had many favourite artists over the years and have always gravitated towards more emotionally connected music, but I've never heard someone like Ren. He's one of a kind and that's an understatement. I've gone through many Ren Reactors since July. Thank you for not being afraid to be vulnerable with your emotions. As soon as I saw you shed a tear over Hi Ren, I knew I wanted to see more of your reactions to Ren. I then watched your Tales reaction, followed by Suicide. I've shed many tears to this song since first hearing it. The piano portion towards the end is extremely powerful. I'll be watching your reaction to the Money Game trilogy next. I could recommend almost his entire catelogue for you to react to as he's just that amazing. Based on what you shared re: this song, I'd recommend reacting to or at least listening to Freckled Angels from his album by the same name. It's a tribute to the same friend he's referencing in this song. Thanks again, dude. Sub x2
It's rare to find an artist that can trigger an emotional response from me, but Ren does it time and again. It's great to find a Ren reactor who shares my accent. Much love ✌️
Sending you a hug filled with love, peace, acceptance, and light ☯️🕊️🙏🏼❤️
Great name friend
Sending hugs ❤
I love Ren and I love you human! ❤❤❤