An update on my life with Schizophrenia and Psychosis. Things are going well. EDIT: 16/01/2023 Shop is COMING SOON and is in the making! Follow to keep up to date! Art Instagram: / albino.fawn
@@samwilliamson4614 Yes I think she was saying she was on all sorts of medications back then, and now she said she only takes one, just when she needs it. This is very good. Visit www.CounterHarassment.com to see how good morals protect us. :)
you are super brave to talk about this so openly. I have schizophrenia too and I'm trying to do the same thing, but I can't show my face yet. I'm to afraid. No one knows I have it except my family, a few friends and my boyfriend. I hope someday I'll b as brave as you. Not hiding behind images and a voice over.
As someone who struggles with their own mental issues, I'm stunned by your bravery in making these videos (it's not something i could do!)..You may not be religious as you said but you're the closest thing to an angel I've seen in a very long time x
Honestly this video totally just made my day, you look worlds better than you did 7 months ago and I am so so happy for you!! Keep getting better, wish you the best of luck with college or whatever you decide to do next!
you look great! glad to hear of your progress! just remember not to push yourself too far. if you can manage without medications, thats fantastic. if you are better with meds, thats okay too. youv got nothin to prove. we all just want to see you doing the best that you can. lookin good love. be well xoxo
Welcome back Emily ! You look lovely. I’m so glad you’re feeling uplifted and i hope you don’t encounter anymore stress . About keeping a train of thought and not forgetting things during the day, i once read that if you recite what you did the whole day before going to bed ( like telling a story to yourself) every day, it helps a lot with memory ! I hope this helps in some way :)
It´s actually a mystic technique. You can go back to your past lives if you are persistent enough with that. But you have to do it backward. Like rewinding a tape.
A few days ago i found your channel and thought it is dead and i followed your Instagramm acc, cause of the awesome Art. Now you did a new Video ! This is amazing. Keep up this channel !
Life for people with a "Schizo-effective"disorder,is such an up hill battle,and unless you've gone through it,you really cant understand what it's like.I was on "Lorazapam" for several years,and I had to be taken off it,because it was damaging my brain(I kept forgetting where I was or what I was doing).I was just recently discharged from the hospital (For paranoid delusions and voices).I was put on a higher dose of "Risperidone"and I'm starting to feel better.I don't really hear voices anymore (witch is wonderful).Thank you for sharing your struggles with "Schizophrenia" Emily.You are giving a lot of us hope.Please don't stop sharing.:)
I'm so impressed. I pray my daughter can someday be as clear minded as you seem. She struggles and is tormented by terrible visual disturbing people. God bless you and keep it up. You give me hope for my baby girl.
Emily, I just found your video's this morning. Needless to say I watched the others first. You look so much better now and much more clear and confident. You have the maturity of a woman twice your age, and the bravery that surpasses most men to be able to sit there and talk about your problems with all honesty. You have really opened my eyes in a subject I knew nothing about. I for one hope you continue with more of these videos I am sure you have helped others in the same condition and educated those that did not know. I personally wonder how many parents, brothers, sisters have come across these vids and watched them and gained insight into what was happening to a member of the own family. You are and amazing woman Emily, I wish you all the best.
I can so empathize with you since I've experienced a lot of the same things. Looking back , every time I had an episode was when I wasn't being heard or believed. I was once taken to the hospital by police after I caught my abusive , now ex , fiancè. There should have been a crisis worker there but they were " on call " , but after waiting over 4 hours by myself and no crisis worker , I walked out and all the way home . I could have hurt myself or others but didn't admit I would . Then my first psychiatric hospital stay , I was responsible and admitted myself . I didn't want to be there but knew I would be helped . It was only two weeks , but when I got home It felt weird like I wanted back in the hospital cause it felt safer . Bless you Emily 😇
It is really bizarre that you say this. I am only 17, but I also had admitted myself to a psychiatric hospital, which only lasted two weeks. I also could have hurt others, to some degree, I still do want to hurt people. Nonetheless, when I left out I wanted to go back(still do), I really liked being there, something about being there really stuck with me. I guess it feels ok, knowing someone else has felt the same way.
I can relate to your words my brother used to admit himself when times were trying we loved him he left this life with a lot of love thank you for sharing your blessings
Was starting to get worried. Glad you’re back and seem to be doing better. You look and sound way healthier now than in your older vids. You’ve probably read that a thousand times now but yeah...don’t be a stranger. Love your art by the way. Hang in there.
Emily i have only discovered your channel today and i just wanted to say that you should feel incredibly proud for how well you are doing. It's clear how far you have come in the short amount of time between now and your previous videos and to hear how well you are doing is fantastic. You are a strong, beautiful person and you should feel proud of what you are accomplishing. You are an inspiration to many.
You look and sound much more together! Amazing. I have heard that in different societies, people with the symptoms described as schizophrenia are viewed differently. Generally in the west, it is viewed as craziness, and the voices are generally negative. There are some cultures though where these symptoms are thought of as a special type of gift, and it is more common that the voices are positive. People who have these symptoms are sent to who we generally think of as a Shaman or something like that who knows how to help integrate these experiences into life in a healthy way. You have probably come across this type of material on your searches on google, but in case you haven’t, I just wanted to bring it up... So wow, considering the experiences you have had, I’m no expert, but I find it incredible to see you so healthy and lucid. You must have a very strong spirit. Your art is fantastic. You just seem like an absolutely brilliant human being, and I wouldn’t be surprised to see you have an extraordinary life making wonderful art or doing whatever your passion is. So happy to see you bright.
I think stress and being tired is the biggest factor as well. good on you for kicking the meds that made you sick. stay strong. please don't let them experiment on you. good for your parents as well. I know someone who got better as they got into their 20's as their brain finished developing. they still hear and see things sometimes but only when they are really stressed out and they can make ignore it untill it goes away. thank you for sharing. you sound very coherent to me and are conveying your thoughts very clearly. take care.
I just happened to stumble upon your video and even though I do not know you, your honesty and sweetness touches me and I am so glad that you are off your medication. After watching this video, I went to look at a couple of your older videos..... heartbreaking... What an absolutely huge difference from back then to now. I'm so happy for you.... seeing that you are in a much, much better place now. I wish you all the blessings and good times to come, that you could possibly have. Love, Zoe
Hi Emily! I hope you’re well. It is amazing, I just watched your videos less than 24 hr ago. I subscribed yesterday and you have a video today! AMAZING! That’s some serendipity. Welcome back.
You seem like a person that expresses more through art and music then words. If u can start learning and instrument, it was a great way for me to express and deal with my emotions and thoughts, btw you showed the orange right as i was eating one ^^
Dane Rajacic I saw her drawing of the orange just as I decided to scroll down in the comments and clicked on "read more" on your comment :) So we both connected somehow I think
I think that you are doing a great service in helping us understand how Schizophrenia effects people. Thank you for this and I wish all the best for you.
Nice to see you again, Emily!!! You are much more alert and "alive" now and it really shows that you are doing better! I hope this progress continues - looking forward to seeing your coming artwork also (nice orange there!) :) *waves*
This just made my day. I was not expecting a video. Glad you are alive and well...well, sort of well. Hopefully those nightmares will go away. You sound and look a lot better than in the older vids. You could tell you were zonked off the meds. I’m rambling, anyway, I wish nothing but the best for ya. Stay positive.
Wow... I just checked your first video out, and comparing to this one you've come a long way. You seem very confident, and more open and fluid in the way you talk. It's almost like opening up about this on TH-cam has taken a weight off your shoulders. Maybe the change in medication was a massive factor too. I know you're still suffering, and I hope your road to recovery from this point on is short and easy. I'm not schizophrenic myself, so I could never truly imagine what you're going through.
The lion you drew is absolutely gourgeous and the blue makes it also psychedelic. think about drawning more animals, a Tiger maybe? I would easily buy something like that to put it on my wall. Edit: you have strong expressions, through your art and through your talking in the videos. You dont need necessarily a objective to the videos cause your expression says it all. Beautiful human being you are!!! Beautiful soul (if that is a real thing). Nice to know you are better now. Keep posting the videos if they help u somehow. Wish you all the love u deserve, from brazil
i,m experiencing the same things, the voices, the things you see. a while ago the voices were gone for 3 hours and i was glad but at the same time i did not felt complete, like something was missing, in a little while i will be hospitalized for a few months because at the moment i,m having too much medication and it does not help, well... great to hear from you again. you look much better. thanks for the update :-)
Hope your feeling better..!! If your able to avoid toxic antipsychotics the better, too many risky side affects and then there’s the way they leave you feeling.!
Welcome back! Glad to see you post again! I can relate with a LOT of what you talk about. Also, you're very smart and well-spoken, and I really like how you talk about these topics. That's great you went to the hospital when you needed more support, I've been helped by the system many times and really believe the hospital can be the right place to go to stay safe, because safety is most important. Glad you're doing better now. Yay new art! Have you ever heard/read about dissociation, and emotional flashbacks? I get that senses heightened stuff you described during emotional flashbacks, and dissociation can happen along with stress and psychosis and lead to some of these feelings. I hope you don't mind me commenting if you don't want input... but I'm glad to hear you're off meds rn. Honestly, meds aren't what they're chalked up to be. I say this because I took many different meds for many years, and stopping psych meds was the best decision I ever made. Although I still have psychosis at times, I had it on meds anyway and I feel so much better off them. Off them for 5 years now and doing well. Emotional support from other people has helped me so much more. And, Incidentally, there's a ton of great vids on here about psychiatry being pseudoscience. But if they help you then whatever works for you is what's best!! Stay strong and keep being awesome!
I just discovered your videos and I really like them. I don't have schizophrenia but I have experienced a lot of the symptoms you have described like the lack of drive and anxiety problems (I have OCD). I learned a lot from your videos, and I enjoy your candidness and honesty. Keep it up! And you are a very talented artist as well.
I think you're videos are really good for the way they show people without schizophrenia that schizophrenics aren't anything to be scared of and that they're genuinely lovely people. It kind of dismantles the stigma towards mental illness.
Your videos are helping, I'm in graduate school studying this and I find youtube channels like this more valuable than my textbooks. Trust me, keep making videos.
I was very depressed 6 years ago. I wish I could’ve go to a mental facility because of the things I was doing to myself and how my family suffered. I put them in a very horrible position... then I forced myself to get better but I think my life could be very different if I have gotten other kind of help. I think you are very mature and resilient. Love your videos!!! You look specially beautiful in this. Have a great week!
Glad to hear you're doing better, Emily! Cool to hear you're maybe thinking of going back to school too. To tell your story honestly, to put yourself out there how you have--Emily, all that takes a lot of courage and will, and with what you've shown and said here today I think you could do anything you set your mind to. I wish you the best! Peace.
I was so happy when you found the word "hightened" :3 On that note (and what you talked about in the video), you definitely speak more clearely and consistently, you seem to lose track of your thoughts way less and you seem to not give up on recalling your thoughts when you do forget. Your voice is fuller and more vibrant, and its great to see you giggle, i felt physical warmth spread trough my chest at some points with how glad I was for you :) I found your channel two hours ago and i just binged all the videos, but i think that's exactly why I can see how stark this contrast from before and now is. Its really a huge change. Im so happy for you! :3
You're very brave kiddo to share these videos and you're helping others, like myself, to understand what it is you are experiencing. I admire how you're taking control of your situation and thinking it thru. Your parents must be so proud of you.
you look and sound much better than 7 months ago im glad youve overcome the worst of what youve been dealt so far, seeing your progress helps give me some hope for my own :-)
It's good that you feel in better control and are feeling more joyful. You have an amazing insight and acceptance of your illness. You express yourself and your experiences very clearly. This must be very helpful in getting the help you need. And with any mental illness that is a huge challenge. I think you are helping educating people about schizophrenia. You are very brave to make these videos. You tell your story intelligently and honestly. Take the support and prayers people are sharing with you here. Just be mindful of the few people who are cruel or "too affectionate". They are just "Trolls" that bother all you tubers. Delete the comments, block them, then just focus on the good people who are offering you support. All the best to you on your complicated journey. You have much good to bring to this world. Hold onto your Joy!
yay, thank you for the update, I am glad things are going well for you =) to spread awareness and help educate and erase the stigma of mental health issues, is an honorable thing to do =) keep up the good work sweetie, I look forward to your next vid
I'm glad to see you're doing better. I ran in to your videos a couple months back, and didn't subscribe because I thought you stopped uploading. You seem much happier now. I'm looking forward to future videos and art from you.
It is a beautiful orange segment, hyper realism! Sounds like your art may be a great outlet to vent and express yourself. Really creative, talented work.
When I first watched this video I was absolutely overjoyed! Seeing you look so healthy, and hearing you speak so clearly, was all just wonderful. If you feel up to it, there are many people who would love to hear about your progress. P.S. I’ve rewatched your first video, then this video a few times when I’ve been feeling really down. It’s always made me really happy!
I grew up with a schizophrenic mother. When she was off her meds she got very bad...talking to herself and hallucinations. Yes the meds make you sluggish but help you have some sort of normality around others. People can be cruel and not understand your problem. My mother wrote a lot.
All i can say is wow... i just watched your older video about hallucinations and have to say you look in very good health and seem much happier in yourself. Hope you continue that way!
Thanks God you posted! I am sure I am Not the only one who has been worried. You look so mature with your new hair! You are so sweet! I hope you will get some rest soon. Stay safe! X
You're so sweet! Such a drastic improvement in coherence and enthusiasm since the last video, and you look much better. Whatever it is you're doing, keep it up. Good luck with college, try to find something that makes you happy
You're very brave as any schizophrenic person is. It takes lot of courage handling what is happening in your mind every day. And I thank you because you and other schizophrenic people try to share things about this condition of the mind so we can understand it. I have an aunt with schizophrenia. She never talks about it and I think it isn't helpful for her. I think it's the society's fault. Now it's different. I mean in our era. She is over 60 years old anyway. Though, she got married. She got two kids (no of them have schizophrenia). She is a smiley and a kind peson when you talk to her but when she's just being alone you can see the despair and the lonliness in her eyes. And as I said that takes lot of courage! I talked about her for sharing my experiances with this mind's condition.
Nice to see you like this (happy). Sad to hear that people didn't believe what you were experiencing in the past. I think it helps others that you are sharing what you've been through. Be well.
You are a champion for doing these videos. Continue to meet with and access professionals around you and keep people you love in the loop on what you are doing with your meds as they are the ones who can alert you if things are changing. Your journey is a challenging one so keep your head held high and just know you are not alone. Hats off to you!
Thank you for making these videos. I had my first mental health ward experience. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, though I know they're all different from each other. I hope you keep talking things through. The content you're making is really helpful.
I've been recently diagnosed with schizoaffective! I've been checking into other things besides medication that actually increase dopamine receptors and dopamine in the brain. And most of the schizophrenics that I have been checking out on TH-cam, generally seem to be artistic. I see that is a good thing because one of the main points about building more dopamine receptors in the brain is being creative! So I would suggest continuing with the art as much as you can and being as creative as you can along with other holistic health things to keep your brain Sharp. I would also like to propose an idea for future videos. Maybe you could do some videos of you in the process of painting or doing art so that we could get a better idea of what's your like while you're painting or being creative. From what I have seen of your work you're pretty good! And I would like to see more of it , and if I had more money I would buy some of them.
What a recovery you've shown! I almost can't believe how assured you sound off your medication, may i just say how amazing your art is, i highly recommend you utilise ur art as an outlet for expressing these aspects of urself, as im sure you know it can be very rewarding and cathartic. whether you choose to continue ur meds, youtube or art, i'm keen to see the next stage in your progression! :) Peace and Prosperity
I feel like I'm just saying the same thing as everyone else. But honestly, when I saw your video pop up it made me feel realy exited, and after watching it I felt realy happy for you Emily. Great to finaly hear from you again. And yes, everyone is right, your haircut is lovely :)
I subscribed some weeks ago and I'm so happy you've uploaded again as your videos have helped me a lot, you look gorgeous! welcome back ❤ hope to see more uploads
I've been sectioned twice. Both times were hell. Second time I was there, I actually got worse during the 6 weeks. So when I got out, I was more messed up than before. This is Finland's mental health care for you. Oh, I'm a paranoid schizophrenic.
I had just become so invested in your channel only to realize you hadn't posted in so long. I am so happy to see your lovely face back and to see you doing alright. A very wonderful video, I love your videos and learning about you. -nai
Dude, just found your channel. So feeling your sense of self and intuition about what is best for you; sleep is so so important, I think you should follow your gut on being concerned about that (and not being concerned about being off meds). Keep doing you! Also that orange slice is fucking awesome wow
you look better and sound much better. it's good to see you smiling and laughing, didn't realize how much your were going thru at the time but it sounds like you went thru a pretty rough patch. so, good to see how much progress you've made since then, your stories are interesting and no doubt help people, including yourself. good luck with your art and congratulations on selling the lion.
Can relate to a lot of what youre saying here. Ive been sectioned before and was forced on aripiprazole for a while. Terrible stuff. Felt like being locked in as an observer to my own life. I hope youre doing well now and youve found ways to manage your mind.
Careful, sweetheart, with not taking your meds, please. My friend Logan gets uncomfortable with the meds. He feels like he’s not comfortable his own skin, and anxious every now and then and it’s his meds. He stops taking them for a bit, he says he just puts up with the eyes and shadows, but feels better. I just fear that he’s endangering himself to having a bad episode. Be patient, I know it seems like a constant battle with the meds, but they’ll keep you well. Just involve the professionals when adjustihg any dose. Logan said recently when someone asked him if he thinks he knows what brought it on, and he said stress, as well. I’m not on ant social media ( besides here) it would be an honor to communicate with you. I love your orange. You’re doing a great job informing people!!!
jerry am schizophrenic too, those antipsychotics has strong side effects and I know what feels this young girl, you're against the wall or you have a bloody psychotic outbreak that lasts for weeks or even months without taking those medications or you have to endure those side effects you are between the sword and the wall (cornered without a third way) or you have a damn psychotic outbreak that last weeks or even months without taking those medications or you have to endure those side effects. The difference with Emily and me I suffer another desease at birth drug -resistant epilepsy my seizures looks similar as Anneliese Mitchel s seizures. My neuropsychriatrists and neurologists they predicted me a silent disease Persistent depressive disorder, another disease that I have to carry on my back...
Best wishes for you. You are such a wonderful being. Glad i came upon your channel. I look forward to seeing more of you. Thank you for being so brave to be on TH-cam. Much respect and admiration.
Are you still around here?
I am! I may come back to TH-cam soon and create some more content!
@@AlbinoFawnArt please do tell us more about hallucinations
I'm so glad to hear this 💘🙏❤️
@albinofawnart how are you doing now
You actually look much more healthy than 7 months ago. :)
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@@samwilliamson4614 Yes I think she was saying she was on all sorts of medications back then, and now she said she only takes one, just when she needs it. This is very good. Visit www.CounterHarassment.com to see how good morals protect us. :)
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I'm schizophrenic as well, really comforting to see someone my own age going through some of the same things, thanks for making these videos
When we share our stories , we help others heal and heal ourselves .
Angel hugs n Blessings to you and yours 😇
AMOEDEN888, Yes, that's right.
YES THIS GIRL IS BRAVE AND MOTIVATOR I AM ALSO IN CONDITION OF ANXITY DISORDER.
You seem better! More energetic and talkative. Discovered your videos recently and im enchanted!!! Take care :)
You're beautiful, eloquent and deeply interesting. You're a precious flower. Stay well
I love your hair in this video. You are such a beautiful woman, not just physically but also your gentle spirit. Your honesty makes you shine.
Wow lucky I subscribed recently. I thought you stopped uploading but here you are! It’s nice to know that you seem more talkative this video.
you are super brave to talk about this so openly. I have schizophrenia too and I'm trying to do the same thing, but I can't show my face yet. I'm to afraid. No one knows I have it except my family, a few friends and my boyfriend. I hope someday I'll b as brave as you. Not hiding behind images and a voice over.
Nice to see you back :) you look so much happier and congruent. Hope you have a nice week!
As someone who struggles with their own mental issues, I'm stunned by your bravery in making these videos (it's not something i could do!)..You may not be religious as you said but you're the closest thing to an angel I've seen in a very long time x
Honestly this video totally just made my day, you look worlds better than you did 7 months ago and I am so so happy for you!! Keep getting better, wish you the best of luck with college or whatever you decide to do next!
You are helping people with every little experience you share dont stop.
you look great! glad to hear of your progress! just remember not to push yourself too far. if you can manage without medications, thats fantastic. if you are better with meds, thats okay too. youv got nothin to prove. we all just want to see you doing the best that you can. lookin good love. be well xoxo
Such such such a powerful happiness seeing you going way better, warm thoughts to you, like before and forever
and so glad to see this much people coming around and be supportive as paradise, remembered the very very beginning, it went on a beautiful journey :)
Welcome back Emily ! You look lovely.
I’m so glad you’re feeling uplifted and i hope you don’t encounter anymore stress .
About keeping a train of thought and not forgetting things during the day, i once read that if you recite what you did the whole day before going to bed ( like telling a story to yourself) every day, it helps a lot with memory !
I hope this helps in some way :)
It´s actually a mystic technique. You can go back to your past lives if you are persistent enough with that. But you have to do it backward. Like rewinding a tape.
A few days ago i found your channel and thought it is dead and i followed your Instagramm acc, cause of the awesome Art. Now you did a new Video ! This is amazing. Keep up this channel !
Life for people with a "Schizo-effective"disorder,is such an up hill battle,and unless you've gone through it,you really cant understand what it's like.I was on "Lorazapam" for several years,and I had to be taken off it,because it was damaging my brain(I kept forgetting where I was or what I was doing).I was just recently discharged from the hospital (For paranoid delusions and voices).I was put on a higher dose of "Risperidone"and I'm starting to feel better.I don't really hear voices anymore (witch is wonderful).Thank you for sharing your struggles with "Schizophrenia" Emily.You are giving a lot of us hope.Please don't stop sharing.:)
glad your back you look great!
I'm so impressed. I pray my daughter can someday be as clear minded as you seem. She struggles and is tormented by terrible visual disturbing people. God bless you and keep it up. You give me hope for my baby girl.
Emily, I just found your video's this morning. Needless to say I watched the others first. You look so much better now and much more clear and confident. You have the maturity of a woman twice your age, and the bravery that surpasses most men to be able to sit there and talk about your problems with all honesty. You have really opened my eyes in a subject I knew nothing about. I for one hope you continue with more of these videos I am sure you have helped others in the same condition and educated those that did not know. I personally wonder how many parents, brothers, sisters have come across these vids and watched them and gained insight into what was happening to a member of the own family. You are and amazing woman Emily, I wish you all the best.
I can so empathize with you since I've experienced a lot of the same things.
Looking back , every time I had an episode was when I wasn't being heard or believed.
I was once taken to the hospital by police after I caught my abusive , now ex , fiancè.
There should have been a crisis worker there but they were " on call " , but after waiting over 4 hours by myself and no crisis worker , I walked out and all the way home .
I could have hurt myself or others but didn't admit I would .
Then my first psychiatric hospital stay , I was responsible and admitted myself .
I didn't want to be there but knew I would be helped . It was only two weeks , but when I got home It felt weird like I wanted back in the hospital cause it felt safer .
Bless you Emily 😇
AMOEDEN888
Stay strong Dear! You've been through a lot but keep going, you're doing great! Cheers.
It is really bizarre that you say this. I am only 17, but I also had admitted myself to a psychiatric hospital, which only lasted two weeks. I also could have hurt others, to some degree, I still do want to hurt people. Nonetheless, when I left out I wanted to go back(still do), I really liked being there, something about being there really stuck with me. I guess it feels ok, knowing someone else has felt the same way.
I can relate to your words my brother used to admit himself when times were trying we loved him he left this life with a lot of love thank you for sharing your blessings
Was starting to get worried. Glad you’re back and seem to be doing better. You look and sound way healthier now than in your older vids. You’ve probably read that a thousand times now but yeah...don’t be a stranger. Love your art by the way. Hang in there.
Emily i have only discovered your channel today and i just wanted to say that you should feel incredibly proud for how well you are doing. It's clear how far you have come in the short amount of time between now and your previous videos and to hear how well you are doing is fantastic. You are a strong, beautiful person and you should feel proud of what you are accomplishing. You are an inspiration to many.
You look and sound much more together! Amazing. I have heard that in different societies, people with the symptoms described as schizophrenia are viewed differently. Generally in the west, it is viewed as craziness, and the voices are generally negative. There are some cultures though where these symptoms are thought of as a special type of gift, and it is more common that the voices are positive. People who have these symptoms are sent to who we generally think of as a Shaman or something like that who knows how to help integrate these experiences into life in a healthy way. You have probably come across this type of material on your searches on google, but in case you haven’t, I just wanted to bring it up... So wow, considering the experiences you have had, I’m no expert, but I find it incredible to see you so healthy and lucid. You must have a very strong spirit. Your art is fantastic. You just seem like an absolutely brilliant human being, and I wouldn’t be surprised to see you have an extraordinary life making wonderful art or doing whatever your passion is. So happy to see you bright.
You’re back!!
Wow, 30 seconds into the video and I could see a massive difference in you! Please continue making videos, you are so interesting to watch ♡
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I think stress and being tired is the biggest factor as well. good on you for kicking the meds that made you sick. stay strong. please don't let them experiment on you. good for your parents as well.
I know someone who got better as they got into their 20's as their brain finished developing. they still hear and see things sometimes but only when they are really stressed out and they can make ignore it untill it goes away. thank you for sharing. you sound very coherent to me and are conveying your thoughts very clearly. take care.
I just happened to stumble upon your video and even though I do not know you, your honesty and sweetness touches me and I am so glad that you are off your medication. After watching this video, I went to look at a couple of your older videos..... heartbreaking... What an absolutely huge difference from back then to now.
I'm so happy for you.... seeing that you are in a much, much better place now.
I wish you all the blessings and good times to come, that you could possibly have.
Love, Zoe
Hi Emily! I hope you’re well. It is amazing, I just watched your videos less than 24 hr ago. I subscribed yesterday and you have a video today! AMAZING! That’s some serendipity. Welcome back.
Remember ,you are your best advocate.make it a balance of your own and professionals opinion s. Please be on soon again😕 I hope I don’t bother you.
schizophrenics aren't huge fans of coincidences 😂 but that is really cool
vickie g yeah, I shoulda thought of that. I hope she knows I have only good intentions.
you have such incredible beautiful eyes :D
You seem like a person that expresses more through art and music then words. If u can start learning and instrument, it was a great way for me to express and deal with my emotions and thoughts, btw you showed the orange right as i was eating one ^^
Dane Rajacic I saw her drawing of the orange just as I decided to scroll down in the comments and clicked on "read more" on your comment :)
So we both connected somehow I think
and one of your playlist contains a single video that I've also watched!
you're a lot more smiley in this video and that makes me feel very happy for you!! so glad you're doing a lot better
Thanks for the update. I was wondering about you. Glad you are feeling better.
I think that you are doing a great service in helping us understand how Schizophrenia effects people. Thank you for this and I wish all the best for you.
Nice to see you again, Emily!!! You are much more alert and "alive" now and it really shows that you are doing better! I hope this progress continues - looking forward to seeing your coming artwork also (nice orange there!) :) *waves*
Yaaaaaaay!!!!!! I am soooooo happy to see you do another video!
This just made my day. I was not expecting a video. Glad you are alive and well...well, sort of well. Hopefully those nightmares will go away. You sound and look a lot better than in the older vids. You could tell you were zonked off the meds. I’m rambling, anyway, I wish nothing but the best for ya. Stay positive.
Hope ur good and fine, lots of love from finland
Wow... I just checked your first video out, and comparing to this one you've come a long way. You seem very confident, and more open and fluid in the way you talk. It's almost like opening up about this on TH-cam has taken a weight off your shoulders. Maybe the change in medication was a massive factor too.
I know you're still suffering, and I hope your road to recovery from this point on is short and easy. I'm not schizophrenic myself, so I could never truly imagine what you're going through.
The lion you drew is absolutely gourgeous and the blue makes it also psychedelic. think about drawning more animals, a Tiger maybe? I would easily buy something like that to put it on my wall.
Edit: you have strong expressions, through your art and through your talking in the videos. You dont need necessarily a objective to the videos cause your expression says it all. Beautiful human being you are!!! Beautiful soul (if that is a real thing).
Nice to know you are better now. Keep posting the videos if they help u somehow.
Wish you all the love u deserve, from brazil
i,m experiencing the same things, the voices, the things you see. a while ago the voices were gone for 3 hours and i was glad but at the same time i did not felt complete, like something was missing, in a little while i will be hospitalized for a few months because at the moment i,m having too much medication and it does not help, well... great to hear from you again. you look much better. thanks for the update :-)
Hope your feeling better..!! If your able to avoid toxic antipsychotics the better, too many risky side affects and then there’s the way they leave you feeling.!
Welcome back! Glad to see you post again! I can relate with a LOT of what you talk about. Also, you're very smart and well-spoken, and I really like how you talk about these topics.
That's great you went to the hospital when you needed more support, I've been helped by the system many times and really believe the hospital can be the right place to go to stay safe, because safety is most important. Glad you're doing better now. Yay new art!
Have you ever heard/read about dissociation, and emotional flashbacks? I get that senses heightened stuff you described during emotional flashbacks, and dissociation can happen along with stress and psychosis and lead to some of these feelings.
I hope you don't mind me commenting if you don't want input... but I'm glad to hear you're off meds rn. Honestly, meds aren't what they're chalked up to be. I say this because I took many different meds for many years, and stopping psych meds was the best decision I ever made. Although I still have psychosis at times, I had it on meds anyway and I feel so much better off them. Off them for 5 years now and doing well. Emotional support from other people has helped me so much more. And, Incidentally, there's a ton of great vids on here about psychiatry being pseudoscience. But if they help you then whatever works for you is what's best!!
Stay strong and keep being awesome!
I just discovered your videos and I really like them. I don't have schizophrenia but I have experienced a lot of the symptoms you have described like the lack of drive and anxiety problems (I have OCD). I learned a lot from your videos, and I enjoy your candidness and honesty. Keep it up! And you are a very talented artist as well.
I think you're videos are really good for the way they show people without schizophrenia that schizophrenics aren't anything to be scared of and that they're genuinely lovely people. It kind of dismantles the stigma towards mental illness.
Watching this after one of your old videos made me feel so much better knowing some things are improving. You're so strong and beautiful
It's great to see you again! You are a nice person. 🙄
Your videos are helping, I'm in graduate school studying this and I find youtube channels like this more valuable than my textbooks. Trust me, keep making videos.
I'm glad you're making videos again!
you are an incredibly strong person for sharing your life and trouble online, i hope all is well!!
I was very depressed 6 years ago. I wish I could’ve go to a mental facility because of the things I was doing to myself and how my family suffered. I put them in a very horrible position... then I forced myself to get better but I think my life could be very different if I have gotten other kind of help. I think you are very mature and resilient. Love your videos!!! You look specially beautiful in this. Have a great week!
That's odd, I've discovered your channel just few hours ago and you upload fir the first time in 7 months, glad ur back
Glad to hear you're doing better, Emily! Cool to hear you're maybe thinking of going back to school too. To tell your story honestly, to put yourself out there how you have--Emily, all that takes a lot of courage and will, and with what you've shown and said here today I think you could do anything you set your mind to. I wish you the best! Peace.
I was so happy when you found the word "hightened" :3
On that note (and what you talked about in the video), you definitely speak more clearely and consistently, you seem to lose track of your thoughts way less and you seem to not give up on recalling your thoughts when you do forget. Your voice is fuller and more vibrant, and its great to see you giggle, i felt physical warmth spread trough my chest at some points with how glad I was for you :)
I found your channel two hours ago and i just binged all the videos, but i think that's exactly why I can see how stark this contrast from before and now is.
Its really a huge change. Im so happy for you! :3
i love how honest you are. your videos are really intersting, im looking forward to next one, keep up awesome work :)
You're very brave kiddo to share these videos and you're helping others, like myself, to understand what it is you are experiencing. I admire how you're taking control of your situation and thinking it thru. Your parents must be so proud of you.
you look and sound much better than 7 months ago im glad youve overcome the worst of what youve been dealt so far, seeing your progress helps give me some hope for my own :-)
It's good that you feel in better control and are feeling more joyful. You have an amazing insight and acceptance of your illness. You express yourself and your experiences very clearly. This must be very helpful in getting the help you need. And with any mental illness that is a huge challenge. I think you are helping educating people about schizophrenia. You are very brave to make these videos. You tell your story intelligently and honestly. Take the support and prayers people are sharing with you here. Just be mindful of the few people who are cruel or "too affectionate". They are just "Trolls" that bother all you tubers. Delete the comments, block them, then just focus on the good people who are offering you support. All the best to you on your complicated journey. You have much good to bring to this world. Hold onto your Joy!
You look so much better than you did in the last. Healthier and more confident. Keep kicking ass, love!!!
yay, thank you for the update, I am glad things are going well for you =) to spread awareness and help educate and erase the stigma of mental health issues, is an honorable thing to do =) keep up the good work sweetie, I look forward to your next vid
Such a surprise 💙 you look so much better
I'm glad to see you're doing better. I ran in to your videos a couple months back, and didn't subscribe because I thought you stopped uploading. You seem much happier now. I'm looking forward to future videos and art from you.
It is a beautiful orange segment, hyper realism! Sounds like your art may be a great outlet to vent and express yourself. Really creative, talented work.
When I first watched this video I was absolutely overjoyed! Seeing you look so healthy, and hearing you speak so clearly, was all just wonderful. If you feel up to it, there are many people who would love to hear about your progress.
P.S. I’ve rewatched your first video, then this video a few times when I’ve been feeling really down. It’s always made me really happy!
I grew up with a schizophrenic mother. When she was off her meds she got very bad...talking to herself and hallucinations. Yes the meds make you sluggish but help you have some sort of normality around others. People can be cruel and not understand your problem. My mother wrote a lot.
Delighted your mojo has returned! Real wishes for your continued improved wellness.
All i can say is wow... i just watched your older video about hallucinations and have to say you look in very good health and seem much happier in yourself. Hope you continue that way!
this was my thoughts 5 seconds in, i watched the rest afterwards and glad to see you are actually happier in yourself lol
Hey Emily, you look wonderful
I am so glad to see you back! Your personality is really shining.
Thanks God you posted! I am sure I am Not the only one who has been worried. You look so mature with your new hair!
You are so sweet! I hope you will get some rest soon. Stay safe! X
You're so sweet! Such a drastic improvement in coherence and enthusiasm since the last video, and you look much better. Whatever it is you're doing, keep it up. Good luck with college, try to find something that makes you happy
You seem so much more coherent and with more energy. The bangs look sharp and you look beautiful.
Gotcha Mojo back. I love it!!!
Wishing Well to You and Yours. You Are Helping People. Thank You.
You're very brave as any schizophrenic person is. It takes lot of courage handling what is happening in your mind every day. And I thank you because you and other schizophrenic people try to share things about this condition of the mind so we can understand it. I have an aunt with schizophrenia. She never talks about it and I think it isn't helpful for her. I think it's the society's fault. Now it's different. I mean in our era. She is over 60 years old anyway. Though, she got married. She got two kids (no of them have schizophrenia). She is a smiley and a kind peson when you talk to her but when she's just being alone you can see the despair and the lonliness in her eyes. And as I said that takes lot of courage! I talked about her for sharing my experiances with this mind's condition.
I'm so glad to see you back and that you're making progress. Stay safe and sound!
Nice to see you like this (happy). Sad to hear that people didn't believe what you were experiencing in the past. I think it helps others that you are sharing what you've been through. Be well.
You are a champion for doing these videos. Continue to meet with and access professionals around you and keep people you love in the loop on what you are doing with your meds as they are the ones who can alert you if things are changing. Your journey is a challenging one so keep your head held high and just know you are not alone. Hats off to you!
Thank you for making these videos. I had my first mental health ward experience. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, though I know they're all different from each other. I hope you keep talking things through. The content you're making is really helpful.
You’ve been your prettiest. Much love from brazil 🇧🇷❤️
I love how nationalist Brazil is.
I'm so jealous of her green eyes. Beautiful!
I've been recently diagnosed with schizoaffective! I've been checking into other things besides medication that actually increase dopamine receptors and dopamine in the brain. And most of the schizophrenics that I have been checking out on TH-cam, generally seem to be artistic. I see that is a good thing because one of the main points about building more dopamine receptors in the brain is being creative! So I would suggest continuing with the art as much as you can and being as creative as you can along with other holistic health things to keep your brain Sharp.
I would also like to propose an idea for future videos. Maybe you could do some videos of you in the process of painting or doing art so that we could get a better idea of what's your like while you're painting or being creative. From what I have seen of your work you're pretty good! And I would like to see more of it , and if I had more money I would buy some of them.
Hello! Good to hear from you again, and I know we are all delighted to know that you are doing better and are happier now ! Take care, Emily!
What a recovery you've shown! I almost can't believe how assured you sound off your medication, may i just say how amazing your art is, i highly recommend you utilise ur art as an outlet for expressing these aspects of urself, as im sure you know it can be very rewarding and cathartic. whether you choose to continue ur meds, youtube or art, i'm keen to see the next stage in your progression! :) Peace and Prosperity
I feel like I'm just saying the same thing as everyone else. But honestly, when I saw your video pop up it made me feel realy exited, and after watching it I felt realy happy for you Emily. Great to finaly hear from you again.
And yes, everyone is right, your haircut is lovely :)
I subscribed some weeks ago and I'm so happy you've uploaded again as your videos have helped me a lot, you look gorgeous! welcome back ❤ hope to see more uploads
welcome back!
sorry if it can be a touchy subject but you could make a video about your experience with criticism
ps: SO happy to see ur videos again u just make me calm and feel much more good about myself
I've been sectioned twice. Both times were hell. Second time I was there, I actually got worse during the 6 weeks. So when I got out, I was more messed up than before. This is Finland's mental health care for you.
Oh, I'm a paranoid schizophrenic.
Paramite84 how are you doing now? have you found balance?
I'm doing better now, even though I'm heavily medicated.
Paramite84 I hope you are able to continue school and college to pursue the things you want to be the best at
I had just become so invested in your channel only to realize you hadn't posted in so long. I am so happy to see your lovely face back and to see you doing alright. A very wonderful video, I love your videos and learning about you.
-nai
Dude, just found your channel. So feeling your sense of self and intuition about what is best for you; sleep is so so important, I think you should follow your gut on being concerned about that (and not being concerned about being off meds). Keep doing you! Also that orange slice is fucking awesome wow
You look better! Remember to stay strong and I believe that you can get even better 💕💕
you look better and sound much better. it's good to see you smiling and laughing, didn't realize how much your were going thru at the time but it sounds like you went thru a pretty rough patch. so, good to see how much progress you've made since then, your stories are interesting and no doubt help people, including yourself. good luck with your art and congratulations on selling the lion.
Can relate to a lot of what youre saying here. Ive been sectioned before and was forced on aripiprazole for a while. Terrible stuff. Felt like being locked in as an observer to my own life. I hope youre doing well now and youve found ways to manage your mind.
Careful, sweetheart, with not taking your meds, please. My friend Logan gets uncomfortable with the meds. He feels like he’s not comfortable his own skin, and anxious every now and then and it’s his meds. He stops taking them for a bit, he says he just puts up with the eyes and shadows, but feels better. I just fear that he’s endangering himself to having a bad episode. Be patient, I know it seems like a constant battle with the meds, but they’ll keep you well. Just involve the professionals when adjustihg any dose. Logan said recently when someone asked him if he thinks he knows what brought it on, and he said stress, as well. I’m not on ant social media ( besides here) it would be an honor to communicate with you. I love your orange. You’re doing a great job informing people!!!
jerry am schizophrenic too, those antipsychotics has strong side effects and I know what feels this young girl, you're against the wall or you have a bloody psychotic outbreak that lasts for weeks or even months without taking those medications or you have to endure those side effects
you are between the sword and the wall (cornered without a third way) or you have a damn psychotic outbreak that last weeks or even months without taking those medications or you have to endure those side effects.
The difference with Emily and me I suffer another desease at birth drug -resistant epilepsy my seizures looks similar as Anneliese Mitchel s seizures. My neuropsychriatrists and neurologists
they predicted me a silent disease Persistent depressive disorder, another disease that I have to carry on my back...
Emily, don't worry about what others say, I sometimes can't express myself either. Just keep doing what makes u happy
You look 1000% better ! I just saw your first video
Keep positive vibes inside 💪💪🍀
You look so much healthier and happier! I'm glad for you!
Best wishes for you. You are such a wonderful being. Glad i came upon your channel. I look forward to seeing more of you. Thank you for being so brave to be on TH-cam. Much respect and admiration.
Emily, You look and sound amazing!!!!! I’m so glad things are well; it’s so great to see you again. Hugs and best wishes to you💜