About my mom.
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 3 พ.ย. 2021
- Usually I would reserve a video like this for my Zackrawrr account, but because this has been such a huge event for me, I wanted to post it here for all of you to see. Thank you to everyone who's been so supportive online, to Tips, Cody, Zack, my dad, and especially Izzy. I love you all, I'll see you soon.
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Brother we love you. Your mum was and still is incredibly proud of you and who you are. Take your time, be around friends and keep being the son your mum raised. God bless x
stay strong brother , we love you , gretting from Argentina! sorround yourself arround friends and happy feelings , we love you.
@@edieromero8297 it's a troll he's replying to every comment for attention
Asmon helped her live a great life. She's one of the proudest mothers that ever lived
@@evankropf1796 Yeah. Report and move on. That most definitely falls under both spam and harassment/bullying.
God isn't real.
She raised a good son.
The thing I love about most of the popular streamers, is that most of them might seem cocky, but that's only because of their persona. Asmon, xQc etc. all play a persona, but when they aren't, they are the nicest guys
not really he has literally done nothing with his life and let his mom set herself on fire.
@@sprayqauza3060 He's a productive member of society that provides entertainment for millions and has climbed his way to great success over many years despite coming from humble origins. He was supportive, close and kind to his mother whilst being openly critical of some her conspiracy theories. Despite him being unorthodox I think that most mothers would be proud to have a son like him.
@@sprayqauza3060 youre a terrible human
@@sprayqauza3060 what do you do leave your children and rob gas stations? Your names dumb af btw
My mom passed away about a month ago. It's hard not having her around in the house anymore. It's so quiet and depressing. I can't believe she's gone.
im sorry for you'r loss both of my parents are smokers i hope the best for you.
Cherish the memories always. I love you, stay strong.
Man I'm really sorry to hear this. I know it hurts unimaginably. Please stay strong.
much love bro. you've brought so much positivity and smiles to so many, I appreciate the impact you've had here and you've still got so long to go
Youll be okay. I doom this day but I think this is helping me come to terms.
I just saw this Asmon, and I know it’s over two years old, but I wanted to throw my support your way with some words of encouragement. I lost my mom suddenly in 2014, no warning. She was here one day, gone the next. Then I lost my biological father two years later and my step father a year after that. In the span of just 3 years, I was now an “orphan” and lost all 3 parents. I was as close to my mom as any son could be. I was a mommas boy through and through and she was a wonderful person. She was a nurse and dedicated her life to helping the elderly in geriatric care.
The loss never goes away. I’m coming up in 10 years since my mom passed and I still think about her nearly every single day. There’s almost nothing I wouldn’t give to just have 5 minutes with her to talk and to hug her and say goodbye. However, it has become easier. It hasn’t gotten better, but easier, if that makes any sense. Still, sometimes a smell or a song will make a memory rush back and I’ll end up in tears, but a lot of the time I end up smiling because I have so many good memories with her.
There’s no words anyone can say that would make any real difference. All anyone can do is let you know that you certainly aren’t alone, and that there are many of us who understand exactly what you went through and are still going through. I’m not under any illusion that we are friends or that we know each other, so I’m not coming from that angle. I’m just coming from one human being to another who has experienced profound loss and how that loss changes you, forever.
I hope this finds you doing well, given the nature of the subject at least, and that you have many happy memories to fill your mind with that make you smile when you think of your mom. I still dream of my parents now and then. I don’t know if it’s them really speaking to me while I’m sleeping, or if it’s just my mind still coping with the fact that they’re gone, but I’ve had some really great dreams where I get to talk to them and express my feelings. I remember these dreams vividly, which is strange since I normally don’t remember my dreams at all.
We are coming up on the holidays now, and this time of year is especially difficult for me, as I had decades of very happy times around now. Every thanksgiving and Christmas was always a family affair with my moms cooking and lots of family around, all being happy and just enjoying each others company. I do miss those times, a lot. I’m married with a child, but still long for those days again.
I’ll stop here, so I don’t end up typing a George RR Martin length novel. I just hope you are doing ok, and that you keep your mom in your heart and memory. I truly believe that, as long as someone remembers your loved one, and loves them, they are never really gone, they live on in the hearts and minds of those left behind. Cheesy and a cliche, I know, but it’s truly how I feel.
Take care bud.
I’m 21 and my mom is 59 I’m starting to think about that day and it gets me so anxious she is my only parent that I have I’m scared to lose her and be all alone in this world with just 2 of my siblings my dream is to become successful before that day will come and make her proud of me
@@shonkoren3773 The only advice I can give is to spend as much time as you can with her and just enjoy every moment you get. You don’t want to be left thinking “I wish I had spent more time with her” when it’s too late. My mom said she had the flu, and I was supposed to go over on a Wednesday to see her. I wanted to let her rest and I didn’t want to get sick, so I postponed the visit until Friday. Well, 1am from Thursday into Friday is when she had a massive coronary and never recovered. It took them 45 minutes to get her heart beat back, but by then it was too late. She had been deprived of oxygen for too long and that caused catastrophic brain damage.
Not a day goes by that I don’t regret not going over to her house on the Wednesday I planned on going. Maybe I could have seen how sick she looked and convinced her to go to the ER. Heart attacks can present differently in women and sometimes they can present as flu like symptoms that go on for days. I will regret postponing that visit until the day I die.
Your mom still has some good years ahead of her though, I’m 50 and my wife is 53. While my mom passed at 70, that was young for the women in her family. If your mom doesn’t have any major health issues, she could be around for 30+ more years, and I hope she is. There’s a very special bond between a son and their mother, one that’s unique and can’t be substituted. I was a hardcore mommas boy, and I was her only child. She was a spectacular mother, woman and nurse. When we are blessed with a mother who is wonderful, it makes the passing all the more devastating.
I’d say you hopefully have a lot more time with your mom, but like I said, spend as much quality time with her as you can and just be present (put down the phone…) and in the moment when you are spending time with her. Never hesitate to tell her you love her, and don’t hesitate to tell her how thankful you are for everything she’s done for you. While it’s expected that a parent would do their best for their child, it means the world to them to hear their child express gratitude for all the hard work and sacrifices they made to give you a better life.
Sorry for your loss, my mom is going threw stage 4 cancer right now and is almost on her last breath it seems recently, i hope I can be as strong as all of you
@@MyNamesMike I’m so sorry about your mom. I had to watch my grandmother go through cancer and it’s not something I’d wish on anyone. It’s not easy and never will be. All I can say is that it gets better. It doesn’t get easier, but it does get better. After a time you’ll find yourself remembering all the good times that you had. I hope you have some people in your life that you can lean on. That’s really important at a time like this, to have people you can really trust for help emotionally to get you through this.
I wish you the best and hope your mom has as peaceful of a transition as she can, one without pain. Just be there for her, that’s all you can do.
Yup i lost one of my best friends coz he drank too much alchohol though he was ultramarathonner like me but not sporting lately, 2 more relatives in same year too during the pandemic(but not due to the pandemic, or maybe due to partly... well we cant talk against it coz otherwise the agent smiths tend to censor comments) but anyway... yeh lost ma father around 15 years ago as well i was still in school back then. u only learn to adapt to it but I had such great plans with my best friend both of us very huge fans of the matrix, printed him on a t-shirt and I run 10km+ a day usually, go to lots of half marathons/5kmruns weekly, etc... so putting him on a picture on a t shirt with me next to him running is like a tribute to him
I am so sorry Zack.
Even the weather in the background is crying... T_T
@Daniel Foodist Man why is it funny?
@@christalone9016 he's a troll.
@Daniel Foodist Man What is wrong with you, the guy is literally bearing his soul out in the video.. Seek out help man, your comments are sickening
@@ExploderPwN Dont give him attention, creatures like him have nothing worth anything so their pathetic lives need to be validated by trying to sap on other peoples suffering.
I fear my mother's death even more than i fear my own
Yeah sometimes I fear more losing loved ones than my own
I can relate to this comment more than anything I've ever read. When the day comes I'll be a broken person.
That's real. I'm terrified that life without her will feel like walking through the cold, dark woods with no blanket to keep me warm anymore.
@@calebalwayswill7423 Yeah, i'll be alone because she's the only person left that i can trully trust. It is a real scary feeling
Same my mother is my world
Every mother on the planet would be proud to have a son like you. ❤❤❤
Watching this back this week because my grandfather just passed away. I totally understand the feeling of thinking they will get better and pull through until the very last day that they pass. :( my papa had COPD for many years and then declined pretty rapidly one day after a stroke… in the hospital he even told my grandma he knew he had a stroke and waited two hours to wake her up because he didn’t want to go to the hospital and thought it would just get better.
He really was a fighter. He spent five days in the hospital and begged to go home, he refused every surgery that he needed (g tube.) He said if he was a younger man, he would’ve, but he was ready to be at home. We got him home on hospice to make him comfortable. He then passed away with his dog by his side and all of his family where he wanted to be at home 🥺♥️😭
Can we just take a moment to commend Zack for being as brave as he was. He was the man of the house and took care of his mom, all the while doing his job without letting it reflect his performance. He "took breaks" from streaming and took all the criticism from people that had no idea what was going on behind the scenes. Zack is a fucking champ and any mother would be proud to call him their son.
Facts.
@William Munny The take not many want to look at, in a way I agree. Horrible he had to lose his mom and my heart goes out 10 fold. But hopefully he can manage to have a happy and fulfilled life, she would want that.
@@stevelamb9453 video is demonetized idiot
@@stevelamb9453 why are you like that?
@@stevelamb9453 I kinda see what you're trying to say, but over all the years he's been streaming, I'd imagine he views his ACTUAL FANS as family, even if he doesn't realize it. He's just doing what feels familiar in a time where he also feels lost. Dude, you can show a little compassion. Everyone deals with their grief differently. Maybe this is good for him, to speak about it rather than holding it in and raging. He may be getting paid for it, but he's also informing all his viewers of the situation. How he does it is less important. Cut the man some slack.
We love you
Let's make this the top comment.
Yes
We all do man.
Asmongold, you were such a selfless, caring, beautiful son to your mom. She was so blessed to have you.
Your beloved Mother is now your Guardian Angel.🙏💚💚💚
I’m just “getting to know” you on TH-cam. I’m an old gamer and I play WoW which is how I found you… but I just want you to know, your voice is important. You are far more than a gamer/streamer. You are a good man and to be honest, although I’m older than you, I look up to you. I admire how effortlessly you can express your opinions without being an asshole, not something I’m good at. I don’t look up to many people, or admire people that are famous just because they’re famous, I admire people who are human and have the capacity to admit their defects while also exhibiting their belief in themselves even despite those defects. You are a good man for taking care of your mom and I just wanted to express to you that, yeah, you are a streamer, a WoW guru, etc… but never underestimate how impactful your voice and your other messages are, especially the ones like this, that have nothing to do with gaming. Thanks for sharing this!
Please take the time you need Zack. Losing someone is never easy, believe me I know. When my wife passed I was numb for a year. Please just let yourself feel, and don't put yourself on anyone else's timetable. Grief is unique to everyone. We love you man, I'm sorry you are going through this.
Love you, dude. Hope you’re doing as best you can.
Yea its hard man hope for the best
Ignorance
@@DevoFett Yeah you are
@Jack Wrath not cool man :/
Your content has been showing up in my feed as of late. Started watching more just today actually. This one came up and I needed it. I lost my Mom Last July. She suffered from health issues that could’ve been avoided as well. The last day I saw her standing was Christmas 2022. She went in the hospital in January and never got back out of bed. Her B12 levels dropped so low she gave off the signs of a stroke. She lost control of her limbs and was placed on a feeding tube. That was the only thing keeping her nourished. She also started having symptoms of dementia. My Dad, brother and myself had to make the decision to take her off the tube and make her as comfortable as we could. I feel your pain so much on this one. My Mom and me were really close but I had someone of a falling out with my father for some time and that affected our relationship overall. I try not to live in regret but will always have my second guesses on what I could or should have done. Sounds like we both share similarities. I grew up with close friends in my neighborhood that loved my mom and called her a second mom. She would pack us up in her van a take us up to the local comic book store to buy Pokémon cards, action figures and comics. Thank you for sharing this Zack. It helped me today.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope your doing OK
Mom left me 5 days ago. I'm devestated. I love you Mom.
My mum died around the same time. Hope you're doing OK, buddy.
Sorry for your loss buddy, stay strong and keep moving forward but never forget.
sorry to hear that good luck to you
Make her proud and do what she always wanted / told you to do ❤
why is everbodys mom dead somehow lol
I'm sorry about your loss
thanks
@@AxxLAfriku Shouldn't be allowed to use internet.
@@AxxLAfriku bro, can you not? just this once
@@AxxLAfriku what the fuck is wrong with you
@@AxxLAfriku what the crap man? So insensitive!
been a year in 6 months since my mother passed from brain cancer. i know the feeling, ive been able to not cry when mentioning it to other people after about a year. take it easy asmon, love you man
I'm sorry for your loss. May her memory live on forever 💜
Same thing happened to my father about the same time ago, such a horrible disease to bat. All the best to Asmon and yourself.
My condolences
Sorry for your loss too, brother
My dad passed around the same time as well. Much love to you and your family.
This video is almost two years old now, but I know the loss never really goes away. Time has a way of dulling the pain, you learn to cope, but you'll never stop missing someone you love, and it's clear you loved your mom a whole lot. We're close to the same age--think I'm a little older--but I've lost two grandmothers I was very close to, and I know how it is man. A couple good friends have been lost along the way as well. I still think of all of them on a regular basis, and usually it makes me smile, but I still have to remember that they're gone now. None of us are getting any younger, tons of people lost loved ones to covid, etc., so cherish your friends and family while they're still here because tomorrow is never guaranteed. Your videos are normally a welcome reprieve from all the heavy stuff you have to deal with in life, but this one was obviously a little different, and more people than you know are probably going through a similar loss. Hang in there buddy, it gets easier with time.
yes even if it's 2 years it's a empty spot in heart that can't be filled and I guess asmon should get married now.
I know I’m late to the video but thank you for putting this out. I’m a 23 year old type 1 diabetic who at one point pretty much gave up on life. It’s true that you can’t help someone who won’t help themselves. Thank you for sharing your perspective. It helped me to understand what I was putting my family through. So thank you for helping me and my folks for not having to grieve over my loss.
Our bodies can’t run forever. Even a car has to go to the shop every once in a while. If you don’t take care of your car, it won’t be around forever. Gotta put some work into the keep up. We are the same way. Laziness and unwillingness to try breaking habits kills just as much as ne’er-do-wells
So sorry for your loss, man.
You two really went through a lot, and it sounds like you're the best son she could've ever asked for.
If you plan to have kids someday, I wish you'll receive as much love, care and affection from them as your mom received from you, it sounds like you made her life so much more joyous and even more meaningful every single day.
@Logan Roof didn't ask what?
@The Real Princess Daddy edgy kid ur so funny haha!!
@The Real Princess Daddy I feel sorry for you
@Logan Roof you like 10?
Ye
Your mum will live on through you zack, so live your best life, for her and yourself, she will want you to be happy. you didn't fail your mum at all, you did everything you could, you cared for her for 10+ years, you made all the right choices, you cared and looked after her more than any doctor could of. Stream only if you need to, we'll all be here to listen to you, what ever helps.
I don’t agree with this guy’s political stance or moral views but losing your mom is a universal language. I’m sorry for your loss Asmon . Wether you believe in a religion or after life or not , I hope wherever your mother is now that she is at peace . RIP Mrs Asmon
@@jaygee5874 What do you disagree with?
@@FragbiteOeXistenz I would totally go into this but I don’t think this is the video to do it . Even if I disagree , I don’t think political views excludes you from being a human and that’s something everyone should relate with .
@@jaygee5874 I know, I just wonder why you even would mention politics or what moral he has that you disagree with.
@@FragbiteOeXistenz You’re probably right in that I shouldn’t have even brought up politics but I only meant it as “ doesn’t matter what political or moral stance“ losing a parental figure is devastating and I only hope the best for Asmon . I definitely wasn’t trying to turn this into a political discussion and I apologize if it came across that way.
The background rain sound and you telling the last of her story was so beautiful.
She would be so proud of you man. What you’ve been able to accomplish in the last few years is insane.
You’re an awesome dude, always been my favorite streamer. I hope you’re doing better now.
I'm watching this at 8AM and streaming some tears. I took care of my old man for a few years. He was a dialysis patient. He passed away 02/25/2022 last year. Felt like I was listening to myself talk. My father was obsessed with restoring old Mopars. Was useless and a waste of money in his old age, but it made him happy. You hit the nail on the head.
It's sad that your mother was unable to beat her addiction, but I wouldn't blame yourself at all. Addiction is not something you can overcome for someone else, they have to make that decision themselves. You obviously love her tremendously and I'm sure she loved you even more. May she rest in peace.
100% agree. you can't blame yourself for something you can't control.
stay strong asmon, i've been there too. it takes time to heal :/
@Jack Wrath You are such a sad person, eh?
@@doctorgears9358 There was another one in the video about Rich finding out about her death. Not the same kid, but very similar video content in the channel.
@Obito Shelledy jeez nobody needs your rudeness on a heartfelt comment
@@Unigeeque_ This is why YT needs a better system for reporting these god awful trolls. We can report them but the comments are still there and all of them mass spam the same comments over and over again. I’m so disgusted by the trolls here and YT not doing a thing about it.
Zack. I’ve rewritten this message a dozen times. Hopefully this reaches you. I stopped playing wow when I had my first kid five years ago but continued to watch your channel not only because you were a fellow human warrior, but because of your authenticity. As a father, I hope my kids share the same love for me as you do your parents. Take care of yourself. Much love and respect.
@@jonathansoko1085 it seems you are talking about your self...😌
@@jonathansoko1085 I can tell you’re probably no older than 15 and if you are I feel sorry for you but who cares if it doesn’t reach him. I think the guy knows Asmon probably won’t read it but who cares it’s a nice message. Imagine being such a shithead for no reason lol.
@@jonathansoko1085 for a meme like you it would be that case. But it helps everyone to have ppl behind our back which support us. You can lock yourself into your house if someone loved passes but that’s not the case for everyone. Life goes on
@UCc_qWitLv_Sjh9SHjknYICA you are a weird dude ? Such odd behavior to think he isn’t looking at the comments after he put a video out about his mom ?
@UCc_qWitLv_Sjh9SHjknYICA so you're just a piece of shit in real life? Lmao
Even with my mum healthy in an aging way and not needing any ongoing medical care I am terrified of losing her. My heart goes out to you Asmon.
All humans, without exception, will eventually die.
Don't be terrified, it's the natural way of things. Finish this adventure then off to the next one.
It's my biggest fear brother
Ignore the calendar and the clock my friend, opt for shits n giggles with the ones you love instead 👍
@@Eeyeore360love this (:
Hey Asmon,
this is Daniel. I am a 42 years old IT guy from Germany.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings in such an authentical way!
In my experience the way you are dealing with that sad situation is a good way to do and
it is a sign of greatness.
The fact that you always bin there for your mum tells everything!
This is absolutely not common in these days.
I think there is no reason to put ANY kind of blame on yourself.
In this kind of sensitive and emotional situations there is never a 100% right or wrong way.
You can be proud!
I am pretty sure your family and mum are.
All the best for you and your family
Daniel
Best to you and your family, sir. Losing family is never easy, take all the time you need.
@SharkTank rethink your life.
@@TheXxdarkangel10xx no it's not a bot, it's just a genuinely awful person.
@Daniel Foodist Man wtf dude
@@jackkaniowski1579 it's a bot or someone with no life having a poor attempt at trolling. Just ignore it or report.
If you respond to them you give them what they want. Just report the channel and all of the replies as harassments. Ignore them ffs
I was raised dirt poor. No running water or hot water. Kids laughing at me because I would stink at school. You're one of the lucky ones to make something out of nothing. My mom is 72 now, smoking for 50 years and COPD. Lost my father 19 years ago. Life has always been a struggle for me and continues to this day. Alcoholism and drugs ruined my body and my mind. Anxiety overwhelms me daily. The stress of this life just doesn't stop. I'm glad you made it out alive and you have your sanity. I'm 47 now. Broke. Beaten. But alive. Wife and kids are taking care of me because of my years of addiction. Unable to work or make ends meet. All I have left is my faith and it's in tatters. Thank you for being true and open for the world to see. May you find peace in your journey.
The whole finding peace thing takes clarity and introspection (sometimes from pain, other times from pressure and just perspective). Life is hard for everyone, sorry for your pain and be the best role model for your kids. They need that model to live on successfully after you.
That's a lot. I feel for you, inasmuch as I can from my experience. I think faith counts for a lot, it's not about proof nor belief, it's about our learning pathway, because the reality of being and experience is all there is, so it's really about who we are and that we can choose to embrace that, suffering and all. To doubt that anything can prove our doom, prove pointlessness, because really it can't, however much some people or thoughts might try to convince us otherwise.
A lot is unprovable about life and death and their interpretations, which means there's as much room for hope and resolve as for despair or bitterness. Reality filters to us through our mind and other minds, a lot is assumption. So if we cast off unnecessary assumptions and choose our necessary assumptions our reality can transform. Faith in life is one of those assumptions, and taking it on consciously can help us find possibility and meaning and transform life's pain, help us open to learning, trust that there is a next step toward something meaningful within grasp, whatever the timeframe, and that brings value back into the present.
I don't know if that might help at all, but at least I always hope for people in dark places to learn that there are others who care about them, wherever they are, and that it's okay and possible to doubt oblivion without closing your eyes, but also that despair at times is understandable and doesn't make you faulty.
Best wishes and thanks for sharing.
@@cliftut Am I misunderstanding you or did you just write 3-4 paragraphs in support of fairytales, alternative facts and religion to give emotional support & hope? Just because you may not be educated and don't understand science or the cycle of life & death (thus you may believe in one of the 3,000 proposed gods in history), does not mean our species should follow opinions/fairytales or religions when shaping our future or needing solace.
For anyone grieving and feeling hopelessness: Know that you are important and worth everything good. It hurts beyond anything else but feel solace that every human has gone through pretty much the same thing as you have in terms of loss & grieving. Show resilience and also respect for your ancestors, buck through & succeed in life. Success is relative and just surviving = success for many. I believe in you. You should too. We are a fantastic species, everyone is important, and you can make a real difference. People that die around you can't, but you can!
Whether there is an afterlife & rebirth (science actually supports that our atoms are recycled and re-used!), or a god do not matter really in practical terms. You must lead your life to serve our species. Be helpful and be grateful. What comes will come regardless. Just be good and know that you matter.
Love you Zack, take care of yourself mate
I like how This dude in the comments of this made 3 alt accounts to try and troll a dude whose mom died tragically. Kinda sad ngl, go outside and make your life better if your so unsatisfied with living. You’re the definition of sad.
@Logan Roof you are a sad strange little man and you have my pitty
@KYSF I would say the same to you, but TH-cam would likely have my account revoked as well. Better you alone than both of us.
@@wa2k360 who are you talking too?
@@tylercalvert5815 I’m guessing he was replying to someone who’s comment was deleted
I’m very sorry about your mom’s passing. You’re good son to take care of your mom & wanting to guide her toward a healthier path. She had her reasons for making the decisions she made. May she rest in peace & always be with you. 💐
Hey man, I recently just started watching your content and I can't say I'm not hooked. Your mom must be so proud. She raised a good boy. Not often do I feel touched by content creators but your such a genuine gem of a human being. You have my upmost respect. I'm sorry for your loss. I know most people say time heals all sounds but when someone like this means so much to you, it's tough to even want that wound to heal because I'd feel like I'm letting go of a big peace of myself. Stay positive my friend.
P.S. Never stop the 2 dollar steak routine.
You never failed her man. You did your best as her son and that's really all you can do. Your mom loved you and you will always love your mom.
@Logan Roof News Why would tate laugh at him? Tate would understand his loss. Be a real fam of tate
@Logan Roof News who's Andrew Tate?
@@ryanthomas2432 can yall stop bringing a misogynist into a video about a son mourning his dead mother
@@ulfie9914 You are right. I apologise
@@ulfie9914 L take. Brainwashed
You're a good man Asmon, not everyone has a heart like yours.
True!
there is so much i want to tell him, and don't have the words for it. ...man...
What an amazing human being. You deserve a the success in the world, sir. My condolences for your mother. R.i.p
I lost my mom 2 days ago to lungcancer, I remembered this video and had to watch it again, thank you for sharing, it helps me. I was with my mom in the hospital the last 24 hours until she took her last breath. It was so painful to watch her fight this horrible decease, watching so much pain on the one you love the most. I am heartbroken and miss her deeply, she was an amazing person. R.I.P moms
I’m a seventy two year old mom and you went,above and beyond,for your Mother. She must have been so proud of you. I’m proud of you. It’s time to live your life now. I lost my Mother young. She left behind 10 children. I also lost my best friend. I will always miss her. She would want you to go on with your life.
Sweet
A seventy two year old who watches asmongold? Who's account was made when this video was released? A channel with no vids and this single comment?
@@thatguyintherain3168 i guess she really wanted to show him support because she could relate to him
@@JTG95 hmmmmmmmmm
@@thatguyintherain3168 You know what sucks the most? the fact that peoples minds jump to "they are a fake" so quickly.. rather than maybe thinking they did just see them browsing YT and wanted to comment. So many people think negative first not postitive. And even if it is true, they were still giving a nice message and kind words to him. Why be the crappy person to turn things to Sh%t in a situation like this.
Coming back to this vid because I recently lost my mom. I feel you so much.
Sorry for your loss. Hope you’re doing okay Skyyohh
Be safe and take care man. I recently lost mine too.
stay strong KING
may god bless her stay strong dude
@@donkeyscarab207 True, keep getting over your obstacles, make your mom proud
I lost my mother in 2019 and I still hope she walks back in. It's the hardest thing I ever went through. Be strong you will see her again.
I just went through a video where you explain why you live a simple life, and you talk about your mom. Then directly into this. It was quite emotional to me. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. I hope you have come to terms with it nowadays and life is treating you better. Whatever loss you had, some people out there are glad to have your mom back, if you believe those things. We never lose anyone, we just return them. May your life be filled with love and peace for dedicating so much to the one who gave you birth into this world.
I've been lurking your content for years and just never really commented because it would get lost in the vast sea of your fans that love you. Your mom was absolutely proud of you, who you are, what you've become. You've made so many sacrifices for the good of your mom. Your an absolute legend, amazing son and a hero. Take it easy, take your time. We'll be here
You were right to decline the ventilator. I was an ICU RN for decades and took care of patients like you mom. The vent would have caused her a lot of pain and distress in the end. You did what a lot of people are unable to do, you put your mom's wellbeing above your own emotional needs. Now retired, I still think about the patients whose families chose the vent in situations like this and the suffering I witnessed. You are a good boy Zack, God bless you!
What Amy said is exactly right
You made the loving decision for you Mom
The ventilator would not have made her better and caused additional suffering.
Have had this discussion with patients many time. Take the time off. Come back when you are ready
I agree. If I have a son like him one day I'd consider myself blessed. He's a good son. One of the best.
Ventilators are great machines, the unfortunate thing is that the longer you're on one, the less likely you'll make it after it's removed. I've only known two people that had to be ventilated, and neither made it - not that it was the fault of the ventilator just it was prolonging the inevitable.
God that brought back a memory. Not a good one (surprise). I'll never forget watching my friend die in front of me when he was taken off life support. Which I admit IDK if what he was on was a ventilator. But whatever the correct name for it did the breathing for him. I was one of a couple of people his parents offered to be in the room when they took him off the life support to "say goodbye". I can still picture it clear as day. How purple his lips turned, his mom collapsing to her knees and vomiting etc. This was ~10+ years ago, I was 20 he was 18 about to be 19.
He was a party animal but a good guy, and you couldn't ask for a better best friend. We met at work when he got hired, we both were working part time at Walmart while going to college full time. One night at some little party he accidently overdosed on opioids because they were drinking too (the whole don't mix opioids and Alcohol thing is stressed for a damn good reason). The people there noticed quickly. So did they call 911? Nope. Get him to the hospital as fast as they could? No. They were more concerned wondering if they would get in trouble if they called 911 (him being under 21 and they were drinking etc). So they casually loaded him into a car. And casually drove to the hospital, pulled up and shoved him out the door onto the sidewalk. They were able to get his hear beating again, but he couldn't breath on his own. I got the news about that right after I got off work that day. They had a CT scan scheduled for the next day. Everyone hoped for the best of course but we all knew what the outcome was almost guaranteed to be. Then the next day at work I get the news about the results. He was braindead from to much time without oxygen. Which meant either leave him on the vent or let him die. And of course his parents made the right decision (literally nothing could be done for him) and let him go. The Doctor told his parents if the people there had called 911, he would be alive. They would have given him a EpiPen of Naloxone and that would have been about it. Hope karma repays all of them 10x. RIP Matt.
I bet those amazon packages just made her day! I wish I could have done that for my mom. Don't ever forget how happy you made her ❤
Sorry for your loss. My mom died April 2022 and I still miss her. Maybe all mothers are hanging out together in heaven and waiting for us. They want the best for us, so let's do our best. God bless
Sending you the biggest of hugs ever brother
I could feel it even over here Spartan
@UCWYl2VlHY-hsFGhctuSO6dg Whoever is behind this account is vile
Let's make this the biggest group hug❤
@KYSF I’d like you too reply, what did you feel when you commented that? Baffles me how anyone could be so vile.
This was a huge wake up call for me. I just tossed the last of my smokes. I don’t want to do this to my daughters. So sorry for your loss.
Good luck with your quitting journey. I'm trying to be patient with my boyfriend's smoking addiction. I hope he quits as well
Good for you. Don't cheat and "have just one" ..That never works out. You gotta just completely cut it out, no weaning or slowly stopping bullshit. Cold Turkey is the only way.
wishing you success, you can do it. dont ever give up
Sorry for your loss keep strong rip amen 🙏 ❤ 🌹to your lovein mother thank you for sharing lots of love 👌love your videos watching Johnny Depp thank you
Blessings on your journey. I just lost my mom last year.
You did all the right things. My dad was the same way and died with COPD as one of his many complications. You’re a great human.
Just joined the club. This sucks. Thank you for sharing, this is helping me very much. Love the way you joke about your mom, mine was the same down to the T. Copd, alien shows, junk food, living like a freshman 😊 it’s a fond memory now.
My Mother died on February 13, 2022. Its been 3 months and I am still grieving. I've been watching a lot of you during the Amber/Johnny trial and I am always in such awe of how much energy you possess. Your personality emanates such light. I would have never known you had endured such a recent loss. I took care of my Mother for 7 years due to her Parkinson's Disease and Dementia. She has been a very, very healthy woman before getting sick. She never smoked, never drank, ate healthy and was quite slim. Death comes for healthy people too. You did all you could. Being a caregiver is THE HARDEST thing to be as a fairly young person. I'm still soooo tired and trying to figure out what my future will be like since I had to put my own life on hold for so long. You certainly have my respect, sir. Thank you for your vulnerability. 🖤🥀
In essence, you can never get over loved ones passing. They will always be in your heart. I have lost my grandparents and I loved them, I don't think I will ever forget about then.
Thanks for sharing, i’m so sorry for your loss 🙏🏽🤍 The grief will always stay in our hearts, the wound just gets less raw overtime and that’s okay.
I recognize your question about how to live your life from now on, my experience (my mom passed away 12 years ago) is that life will lead you where you need to be. As long as you get up every morning, work hard and grand yourself to enjoy life despite your loss, life will lead you were you ought to be. Have faith in your own strength that your mother gave you, take care ❤️
My sincere condolences to you and your family.
December 22 2020 I lost my mother to cancer. Ive yet to delete her number or any voicemails and still can’t talk about her or anyones mom for that matter without tearing up they say it gets easier and while I’ve yet to be convinced thats true I can tell you that its just a matter of getting over the physical grieving, the actual heartache. After that you just do it all in your head. Keep her memories alive and hold on to them tight. God bless
You will grieve for the rest of your days.
After seeing this I am going to quit smoking. I have to. I've tried numerous times over the years, always giving myself a distant deadline. Oh I'll quit before my wedding, before my daughter is born, before I'm 30. Here I am, still smoking. After seeing what you have gone through and the love you have for your mother I can't bring myself to continue. Thank you as always for sharing your life with us. If it makes any difference your mom's story has most definitely changed my life. Thank you MommaGold, may you rest easy knowing how much your son has impacted us for the better.
ive been thinking the exact same thing lately, ive smoked too long now and i am done with it :(
Find something else as a habit, I support your decision. Do what you have to for your family. *hug*
I used sunflower seeds when I quit, it helped immensely
Seeing this scares me. I'm 22 and my dad if 50, but I've tried to get him to quit so many times, in excess of 7-8 attempts. He uses his e-cig and then secretly smokes when I'm not around, but I can smell it on him. That or he "loses" the e-cig and has to buy cigarettes. He says "I need them, I am so stressed" but they are the reason he is stressed. He needs to smoke them to get rid of the stress that they give him when he doesn't smoke them. He refuses to see that. He has a persistent cough, he used to be obese but lost the weight after a divorce, I wish he had lost it the right way but at least he's not 130kg anymore. Both my parents smoked a pack a day for over 20 years.
Nicotine is a bitch for sure dude. Staying away from painkillers was easier
My grandmother just passed away. About 10 hours ago. It is so hard. I don't know how I will live my life. She was like a second mom to me. Just thinking about living without her and the things she did for me and the small things that we did together like watching the news on TV... It breaks my heart. And it feels just as it is said. A heartbreak. It hurts my chest and I just can't. I cried for days now, because she was in the ICU. We knew she was likely to pass, but I just hoped she wouldn't. I felt like it was my duty to hope for her recovery. But she did pass away. Just 1 min into this video and every single word just hits where it hurts. Its too relatable. Its too painful. I hope it will pass or get better, but from what I can tell this grief never stops and you just have to live with it. I am trying to think of the good times and think of the sad things with nostalgia. I hope it gets better.
Hey broski, I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my grandmother back in the beginning of 2019, so it's been a few years since she passed. The heartache gets a little easier day by day. The best advice I can give is don't remember how she passed, but rather how she lived. Cherish the memories you have with her because you'll find yourself smiling more often than not. It's okay to be sad and vulnerable. If someone gives you a shoulder to cry on, then bawl and remember you're not alone in your grieving. The last thing I want to add is cherish today and yesterday's memories with friends and loved ones, and NEVER take things for granted i wish you and your family very good health.
@@McMirphy thanks
Hey, responding to this a month late, but I hope things are going better for you, you sound like a wonderful and respectful human being.
My dad died a couple of hours ago and this video really hits home. My dad has COPD and I've been put in a similar postion of taking care of him. I know this is a kinda old video, but it's been helping me. I'm gonna really miss him. Thank you for making this
I know these words are worthless atm, but I’m sorry, mate, all love from me to you, keep strong ❤️
@Jack Wrath Cool well thats a awful thing to say, a man loses his closest family member and you laugh, disgusting.
Valrak my man.
@@oliverwithers9736 Sometimes comedy is good in situations like this, but then again - you're not gonna go "You're next" to the oldest person at the funeral if you know what I'm saying
@@oliverwithers9736 who the fuck are pussies who keep deleting their comments , fucking loosers
Valrak
My mom smoked for 70 years until she passed. Cigarettes were a comfort to her. She was a MASH nurse in WW2. Cigarettes were sophisticated and glamorous during that era. You have been a beautiful and loving son. Let your guilt go, she was so lucky to have you.
Very sorry for your loss, may she r.i.p.
Yeah it's actually worse for their body if they try and quit smoking after soo many decades.
Like my uncle has to keep drinking because that's basically what's keeping him alive
I fell into one of your videos a few months ago. I could not help but laugh the entire video. I started watching a lot of your content after that. Something that I noticed about you, or your TH-cam personality. Is that you are who you are, and no outside force changes that. It is awesome to watch someone just truly be themselves on the outside. I think you did all the right things for your mother. It is easy to doubt the decisions you make, when you feel that, that 1% chance is still there. That if you make every right decision along this path, then you will win at the end. Unfortunately that is just not the case. It seems your mom no matter what, was always herself to the end. It was always fun listening to your stories about her with WOW and the games you would play together. I think that trait of just being yourself, in the best of ways has rubbed off on you. You took that and created a successful life for yourself. I wish you nothing but the best of luck in dealing with this situation emotionally. WE CARE FOR YOU ZACK!!!!!
my dad a stubborn soul is goin though end of life cancer, its hard to watch him each day get a bit worse but he lived his life how he wanted and just like your mom, quality of life is what matters so when the time comes he wont go on life support, thank for the video I needed this right now
I was a nurse for 40 years. I had to deal with many families going through similar situations. I have no doubt that you made the very best choices you could. It is never easy to lose a parent, just know you have many supporters and you are loved.
It takes a special kind of strength and character to do what you and others in your field do and did. Thank you
Dear sweet Zack,
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I have not heard of you until you began covering the JD trial. I am so glad I found you because, your show makes me smile and laugh. Your commentary and play by play is so spot on and I love your sense of humor.
Your momma raised a beautiful boy and she was blessed to have you care so deeply for her. Those good times you spoke of at the end of your video here.... they're her gift to you. Those memories are there to keep you company, to bring a smile to your face and to remind you that she loved you and you loved her. Not every child or parent can say they have or had what you both did.
I know that as you move forward in your life, you will emit much of the beauty, sensitivity and personality she had. She will always be a part of who you are. So I encourage you to go forward and shine your best light, be all that you can be, and know that you are seen, you have value and you have worth. I see it.
Blessings and love to you.
Same here ! I love your JD videos went through your videos and came across this. I can relate to your story 💯. My mother n I had the same relationship. My mother passed in 2014. You are too sweet n funny 😁. My 25 yr old son is a gamer and you totally remind me of him . Keep up doing what your doing and remember not everyone is lucky to have Moms like us . You never get over the loss but in time is does get easier. You will start to just remember all the good , fun, funny and loving times more than the what If's. 🤗
I took care of my mother and grandmother from about 8 til i was 29. My grandmother passed in 03' and my mother a few years ago. You'll see ghosts of memories... it doesn't go away. To this day i still think i see my mom walking around at the store or i think i hear her... i feel your pain my friend... i am sorry for it all... but you know in your heart that the bond was worth it.
This inspired me to open up about my mom...never went to therapy and wish that I had...3 years and counting it doesn't seem to get any easier...But you have people who support you even a year later we all love you man
I, like many others, “found” you from the trial. This video has popped up so often but I kept avoiding it because my own heart is still so broken from unexpectedly losing my Dad in November 2020. Today I mustered up the courage to watch & it made me treasure you even more. Look 👀 at all of the people your Mom has played a part in rallying around you ~ she’s STILL impacting your life in ways you could never have anticipated. I don’t have any great advice to give because I’m still in the throes of it but I just read someone telling you to, “listen for the whispers” and I have to tell you, that is some phenomenal advice, I’m going to take it myself. One foot in front of the other is the best we can do ~ I wish you peace Zack🕊✌️✝️ xoxo
Same! I knew it would be so similar to my story with my mom. May our angels rest in peace.
im sorry for your loss
Take all the time for mourning.
i also lost my father nov 2020. He lived in the U.K and i was stuck in Australia, I was able to send a voice message along with my 2 sisters. it was played to him and he passed away. still doesnt feel reel to this day
Ditto, ditto, ditto. I feel for him - said bye to mom a year ago - did everything I could to kee her healthy and alive and my goal was for her to be happy. She died from the virus at 97 but I still feel such (unwarranted) guilt and loss. I guess we all go through it. Many hugs for all of you.
I just lost my mother yesterday. Everything feels like a nightmare to me right now. It's truly not something easy to go through I'm trying my best to push forward through this. Anybody who is going through the same thing I pray for us all. Love.
🙏🏽~
sorry your profile picture makes this funny lol
I'm sorry for your loss; having lost my mum 2 years ago now I would say as time goes on and you accept what has happened the grief does become more bearable. You can overcome it and in the end what got me through was just wanting to make her proud for who she left behind :). Some days its still a struggle but all you can do is try and make most out of life. Wishing you peace and sending you lots of love
Im sorry man
I am very sorry to hear about your mother. You are loved. We love you though you do not know us. You are not alone. If you need anyone to talk to, we are here. We love you.
I found you during the Depp trial and have adored you every since. I just watched this beautiful video about your Mom. I'm so sorry for your loss. You are one hell of a young man for taking care of her the way you did.
Oh my god 😢 I’m so sorry you went through that.. I’ve been watching you for the past year or so and you’re a great person! She did well to raise you into the man you are today! I want to go back in time to the beginning and see your journey from the very first video, she’d be super proud of how far you keep pushing yourself for your audience and for yourself.. ❤️🩹🩵
Lost my mom when I was 9 years old, I'm 57 now and I still think of her probably every day. You never get over it, you just learn to live with it.
Lost mine at same age im 33 this spoke to my soul
I just started a 4th grade when my mom died. I'm 41 now and I still think that it was all a bad dream and that I will wake up any second now.
@@Proton_Nmy friends mom died when he was 5, father abandon him and was raised by uncles. They were good to him but he made a worst thing possible last year. He decided to meet her a lot too soon on his own. My point is that keep going guys, its obviously hard to loose that important person, but i want you to know they for sure wont meet you on the other side when youre 18 like him. You need to keep strong anyone of you to make them happy and proud.
Your comment just made a grown man cry
@@filipkrol8283I read this multiples times and i was like i dont understand how he can meet her if she's dead then it clicked i was like oh...
My heart goes out to you Zack. Thank you for all of the years that you got me through my toughest times. Your mom is beyond proud of who you are and everything you’ve accomplished. You are her greatest triumph. Find some peace and take some time to heal, you have a community here who sends their regards and love.
I came across your channel and I know this is an older video but I'm so very sorry for your loss. I lost my mom last December she was 74 and the situation was very similar. Your an amazing person.
Bless you brother. I lost my mom too around your age. There is never a good time to loose your mom but having it happen in your twenties or early thirties made me feel like she would never see the son she raised become what I am today. Also missing her never goes away.
Hoping for the best for you man, I’m so sorry. Take care.
@Daniel Foodist Man You should seek help :-)
@UCR0HK-ona6V_JYr7TDLxPgw stop this isnt azmongold talking this is zack talking its not a joke dont be a dick head
@Daniel Foodist Man wow, I’m guessing you got beat as a child?
@@artz4528 dont give him any attention that is what he wants cuz he got none
@@m4xw3ll75 just dont pay attention to those people this is what they want
Asmon - I’m an ICU nurse and I just wanted to say you absolutely made the right decision when it comes to providing comfort for your mom. You should never question that. Your story is inspiring and it brings me to tears because I love my mom like that and I’m afraid of the day that I will face what you have endured. You’re stronger and smarter than you can ever imagine. Peace and love.
Medic here. I'm just now watching this and am blown away by how strong and selfless he is. Too many times we see patients put on vents, infusions, etc. only to prolong their suffering. To make that decision, for her, takes more strength and compassion than most of us are capable of. I have new found respect for Asmon.
KINGPIN HERE… absolutely inspirational story you can learn from
I just started watching your content, along with OTK. I have genuinely enjoyed it so much and then i come across this video. It caught me off guard so much because I recently just lost my mother a few months ago. By the time we figured out what was wrong she was already in the end stages of colon cancer. Hearing you talk about your mom, and how my mom was exactly the same with horses/hating masks/hating the hospitals etc. Knowing I'm not the only one with this pain really helps. But damn hearing you talk about your mom made me start crying remembering my mom. so sorry for your loss no matter the time that has passed.
I cried watching your video, I felt your heartbreak. I am so sorry you lost your mom. Sending you love, condolences, and prayers.
Hi Honey, your video really woke me up. I am in the same situation as you described your Mom. You also described my son the same as you. Since then, I have quit smoking cigarettes, stopped drinking soda/pop, gave up chocolate/sweets, and started walking twice a day. Yes, I have my oxygen on when I walk cos of COPD. I want to prolong my son going through what you went through in this video for as long as I possibly can. I am 100% more responsible today than I was when I watched this video the first time. Thank you so much for sharing your pain..it changed my life and my sons. Forever grateful.
Hugs 🤗 keep it up. ❤️
U ARE AWESOME! Keep it up!
Wow, thanks for your comment....this video did the same for me. God Bless
How have you been doing now that months have passed, has your health improved ?
Hope you are still doing well 🙏🏼
I've been staring at a blinking cursor for at least ten minutes now wondering what I could possibly add that 27k comments haven't said already.
Maybe just this: My mother is in her 70s and drives 2 hours to visit me every 2-4 months (she really likes the road trips).
You have reminded me just how precious these moments are. You are a great son and I truly hope you are well and at peace with yourself.
Thank you for sharing this video.
❤️
I've been blessed beyond belief as well:). They truly are our angels, and has never given up on her wild daughter. My parents are also in their mid 70s, which makes this really hit home
This was beautiful... I take care of my mother I'm 34 and she will be 70 next year if the Lord says the same. I am without a doubt blessed as well.
Same. Sorry to hear about your loss its very stressful
32:26 First off I want to thank you for sharing this difficult time with us. I've worked as a nurse in the field for 16+ years. An this is definitely the hardest part of life. I applaud your bravery in speaking out to your following about it. Your relationship with your mom sounds like it was the best. An you always did the best you could for her. Hearing your story, you made the right decisions and its natrual to have felt this guilt. But her happiness was what you were passionate about... you were a good son to her.Keep those good memories close to your heart. She raised an level head, humble man. I've watched alot of your content as a gamer and found that we see eye to eye on alot as a gamer and day to day life situations. I truly grown to appericate it. I'm very sorry for your loss of your mother, your life will as you said never be as it was for sure. She is a huge part of who and why you are. Seeing all the success your having with your personal life you know she is beyond proud of you. An will be with you each step of the way and your biggest cheerleader.
As a medical professional, it sounds like you make the right decision at every turn. Most families are very selfish at the end of their loved one's life, when prolonging that life just prolongs, and even exacerbates the pain and discomfort, and only for a little while. The fact that you had the strength to do that speaks volumes. Best wishes Asmon. It'll get better.
My grandpa was 95 and he’d still have his little appartment, a car and a garden, he did everything in his life, lived WW1, did WW2, built houses, cars, but one day one of my aunt decided that he was too old to be on his own and put him in a retirement home, his health went down rapidly, he would forget who we are, couldnt get out of a chair without help, he lived untill 99yo but was a totaly different person at the end
So i have to agree, most families are very selfish, and im sure my grandpa would’ve still been very happy untill the end even if it meant living a little less
@@jeanmouloude Thank you for your family service.
Well it’s neither selfish nor not selfish, it is just a decision based on what they think is best
Daniel it isn't being selfish, it is fulfilling what their loved one wanted. Not what Daniel wanted.
I happen to be one of those selfish family members you talk about. The idiotic medical team wanted to foist upon us a one way extubation as they were convinced my mother would not make it out of that hospital alive.
We stood up against them and after 7 months of fighting to save her life she was discharged. She had to re- learn to talk, eat, drink and walk at 73.
You can bet that she's very grateful for our stubborness and selfishness.
And I have to say, I have never met so many dumb people like last year. Most of them were doctors who did not know what they were doing.
Often times it’s hard to know what the right or wrong decision to make is, the right decision can often seem like the wrong one, attempting to stop someone from smoking may seem like the right thing to do, but the other person views this as you taking away something that brings them happiness.
Do you try to make them happy long term by making the right decision or do you not say anything and let them be happy short term. You don’t know the answer and neither do they. For some short term happiness is worth trading for long term damage.
What matters the most is you’ve been there for her, you’ve cooked food for her, you’ve shared your fortunes with her, and most importantly of all, you’ve spent time with her, the most any parent can ask from their child.
In the end you both knew you had the strongest and purest connection any two humans can have, irrelevant of what was going on in your life, you knew they were there for you.
good words spoken from the memer man himself
@SharkTank listen, I know you're doing a 0/10 troll but there's a time and a place. I don't think this is an appropriate time.
@SharkTank yo tard please.... dont do this now ..
yeah man if your mom is doing drugs dont take away their happiness im sure that keeping the supply up is the right thing to do
@@bandit9259 This guy doesnt have loved ones, at least none that care for his atrocious behaviour.
It´s been 4 years since my mom died and it still feels like yesterday. So much happened in those 4 years that I need to tell her and I can´t. I saw your video like 3 or 4 times since it came out 2 years ago and it always reminds me of the love that me and my mom had. Thank you Asmongold for making me laugh in tough times and you gotta know that your mom is and always be proud of you as well as I am sure that my mom would be proud of me. Thank you again and I wish you all the best!
Thank you Asmon for Sharing this with everyone.. alot of what you stated I feel inside.. my mom passed away almost a year now on June 16th, on me any my wifes' 5 year anniversary, and this year that even falls on fathers day, which i am as well.. but I grew up in little ol Killeen Texas and lived there almost the entirety of my life up until recently at least.. but ever since my moms passing i still have a hard time coming to terms with the fact and has taken a toll on some of my decision making in my life, good and bad.. ive been trying to use youtube kind of as an outlet in a way i guess to also take my mind off of the things i dont want to do or want to come to terms with.. i have ambitions but there is always some wall in the way that i cant get past or sometimes just unnecessarily is there.. this i guess is getting to long for a comment but just thank you for your video and in a way it definitely inspires me to move forward with what i love to do and for what i need to so for my own family.
I'm so sorry for your loss. 😔 I lost my mom a few years ago. It really sucks.
Thank you for your courage for speaking up on this. Struggles with Mental Health is a subject that is not nearly brought up about nor nearly accommodated enough.
And no, it's not your fault for giving her cigarettes. If someone makes a poor decision about their health, there's not much you can really do about it if they refuse to change. COPD would have claimed her in the end regardless.
EDIT- She sounded like an incredibly stubborn woman; that doesn't mean she's a bad person for it, nor does it mean that it's your fault. You did everything you could, and I'm sure she tried everything she could to stop making poor decisions about her health. When someone is in poor mental health, it can be very difficult to take good care of yourself, and it can be very difficult and embarrassing to ask for help from others. It sounded like she was really struggling right up to the end. 😔
Love the words you've spoken. Amen, and God Bless my friend
@@yggdrasil8747 Thank you. 😊
Wise words, stay strong brotha
He also made the right decision, extending her life would just been to see her suffer more for mostly selfish reasons. Making that decision is hard as fuck, but was the right thing to do.
My condolences. Both my parents passed away 2019. Sending you love.
As someone who lost both his parents within three years of each other, it's tough. I still miss my mom and dad every damn day. You will never get over it but it will get easier. Love ya man.
I can relate to your situation, unfortunately i lost both of my parents in less than 2 years (1.5 years) to be exact. Hang in there buddy, you are not alone.
The memories however and the love can't die, as stupid and cliché as it may sound. I can think about my deceased father and smile, I had such a wonderful childhood. Remembering how happy you were back then, what you did together, how you talked to eachother. We can't change it, sadly ...
But what helped me the most is to understand that they probably don't want you to be sad and fall into a depression. Even it if seems to be getting harder by every day you should embrace the daily struggle, finding the strengh to carry on. Learn to appreciate the small moments of happiness on your path, even if it is just a little butterfly you see on your way back home from work. There may be stones on the road and you may stumble, but your goal lies beyond this. I'm sure you guys will overcome this and whoever is in the same situation without as many support as Asmongold gets will walk again soon.:)
i lost my mom to suicide when i was 10, im 29 now
I don't know you but from watching your videos over the years and seeing the unique relationship you had with your mom in terms of gaming and so on I'm sure she was blessed to spend so much time with you and live how she wanted to live. The thing is alot of people who live for different reasons can work their whole life to reach a certain goal and become ill and never get to even reach what they lived to achieve. Your mother did everything she wanted and you were a great son done all a mother could ever ask for in your situation. That also is something to be at peace with alot of mothers and fathers die Alone because their own children neglect them at the time they need care and protection. It's so sad to watch because my grandparents both went in a similar way. Not the smoking part but it was so quick for my Grandma and I just couldn't even believe she was that sick so when she left us I found it hard to accept and honestly it's been over 7 years and i still just feel heartbroken when I imagine her face. God bless you mate know your not only a good son but even people who don't personally know you benefit mentally from your wisdom and mentality is a real cause of alot of human downfalls. God bless and mother is peaceful looking over her boy ❤
This might be the deepest, most vulnerable thing I’ve ever seen, and definitely hit home for me, as I have a slightly similar situation with my mother. She doesn’t have health issues (aside from a little asthma), but she’s a very “particular” person who gets overwhelmed easily and doesn’t really make enough money to keep up with the house, so me and my brother both live at home and help out. She also doesn’t have any real friends she hangs out with or talks to on a regular basis, and so part of it is also dreading the thought of leaving her home by herself with no regular human interaction outside a trip to the grocery store. And I just know how badly that would affect her mentally, being such a codependent person. But it is what it is. I have no shame in still living at home at 34yo to help support her, financially and emotionally. And given today’s quickly-deteriorating economic landscape, imo it’s the more practical, economic option unless you’re already well-off (and tbh this is most likely only the beginning of our economic woes).
So kudos and respect to you for doing what needs to be done for family, regardless of any stigma around it or what opportunities it might cost. It’s what any decent person would do for the people they love. Anyone that says otherwise is just fortunate enough to not have been burdened (I hate putting it like that 😖) with a very-complicated situation like that. Or they just don’t give a shit about their family.
And you made the right decision with your mother. Tbh with her refusal of the mask, and having to know how serious things were, it sounds like that’s what she wanted. I think the situation with the oxygen tank really put things into perspective for her, as she somewhat implied when she said “I really fucked up”. It made her reflect on how much harder her stubbornness made things for both you and her, and how much undue stress that caused you, leaving you with some really fucked up and twisted decisions to make. That was her wanting to free you from that burden and stress to be able to pursue life entirely on your terms, even if it meant the pain of losing her. You’re a beautiful person, my dude, and you can rest more easily knowing that you went above and beyond what many would do in your shoes. There was nothing else you could’ve possibly done to change the outcome. And the fact you were able to keep it together enough to disconnect and escape into gaming, while constantly entertaining thousands of people via your streaming, is a true feat of human resilience and perseverance. Incredibly inspirational. You should have enough good karma accumulated to last a few lifetimes. This is the beginning of a new, and very different, chapter in your life. Best of luck on your journey and may the force be with you. 🙏
Every parent should be so fortunate as to have a son like you. ❤️
This is the sweetest thing I've ever heard as a 73 year old mother, I hope I will be loved as much .
I like you already!
@Logan Roof News Lets see who's laughing when your mom dies
@Logan Roof News ?
@Logan Roof News Mr. Testosteron dont get to laugh at anyone
you are :D
You're mom was an amazing person. A real OG in the gaming community.
I can't even fathom what you were going through during such difficult times/situation. I'm glad you both didn't get blown up, damn that's intense. The next few days were the toughest in your life I'm sure. Sorry for your loss bro. 🌹
I can literally relate a lot to what you went through. What's fucked up is I had put my dog down on the exact same day 29/10/2021 2:37pm. 😔 He was my best friend. Never even felt that kind of pain when I lost my mom at the age of 18 (distant reletionship). She actually got me into gaming back in the good ol NES days. Played Mario, Castlevania and Double Dragon together when I was just a boy. My father age 76 was diagnosed with COPD the day he went for a triple bypass surgery after having a heart attack. Talk about the way of the universe huh!? Life will never be the same for us. So many emotional triggers it's hard to be normal.
Keep influencing a positive mindset and stay strong bro! We as a following community are always here for you.
really appreciate you for the honesty and courage to make that video. it helped me to go through some of the repressed emotions of grief of my own. it's a shame that our culture treats death as if it didn't exist and the only people that can have conversation about it are the ones that have gone through these experiences themselves. hope you're doing better today
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So random that an eSports org hearted this.
@@magkautumn3533 a lot of people care about this man, he’s great
@@svffix7594 never said he wasn't, just the last org I expected to watch this video much less comment
@@magkautumn3533 yes me too
@Logan Roof fucking cringelord, no one deserves death over political party choice, and this is coming from a transgender leftist that has been nothing but harassed by Trump supporters. Grow up man, this isn't the place for these antics.
“ I’m not an emotional person but instead of being filled with grief it’s just filled me with so much emptiness “, felt the same when my father died 4 years ago. Keep your head up my dude you are a wonderful human being, and that is the reason I watch your videos. You remind me there is still good in this world. Ty.
@UC65St6nTfCFFqxH24RML2lw what is wrong with u du***ss have some respect ffs im nowhere near a asmongold fan to be honest but u gotta respect what hes going trough now.
@@dabba.7657 It's just some kid being a jerk.
@@fabesey2016 ikr sir.. its just sad to see such lost souls trying so hard to ruin others days/lifes over the internet… like i said im not a asmon fan but im idd a family person and then seeing those guys trying so hard to bully ppl over the fkn internet is just poor and embarassing af ngl
@UC65St6nTfCFFqxH24RML2lw your a fucking tool this man is greiving have some fucking decency
Reported that dummy
I was having a rough day because I was struggling with a loss from my past. Sometimes it comes back for a while, like an uninvited guest.
I was frustrated because I knew there wasn't anyone that had the willingness or understanding to go all the way deep with me - to just listen and empathize. But for once the algorithm provided sustenance in the famine, and your video came up.
Thank you for sharing this. While our losses are different, there is much that is the same. Beyond that, thank you for being open and taking it slow. Sometimes we just need to sit in the discomfort of the moment. You helped my burden today, and not at a small price. But thank you for sharing your hurt - it helped me with mine.
My mom has been in a similar condition since I was 14, I'm 41 now, I've even been going through the same Amazon experience!😂 I'm sorry for your loss, I understand much more than I wish I did. I'm glad you're capable of being so transparent with what's going on in your life, as it resonates so deeply with so many. I hope you never stop growing emotionally, while still keeping that core of transparency and vulnerability that so many of us can relate to. Thanks for sharing your story.
She raised a super star. The best content creator in my books
Agree
He's not a super star he just plays video games and streams
@@kissme1518 he's more of a super star than you will possibly ever be.
@@kissme1518 What a miserable cunt you must be.
@@kissme1518 let shizos do whatever they want
Asmon. Your mom's qualities shine through you as a person. This brought tears to my eyes. You're a good guy dude. Really.
i don't think i've cried to a youtube video in year's and i came back to watch this because i took a hiatus from asmons stream and had no clue his mom had passed until recently i balled up crying to this video this may be a later replky btu you've got this asmon you've got a huge community that loved both you and your mom for years
I just lost my dad In April and this video hit me because you're describing my mom as she is currently right down to copd, this was a very real thing to do thanks for sharing your story
we love you man, stay strong.
Zack, you didn't fail your mum. You were probably the greatest light in her life and she was lucky to have you with her in her final years.
You're a great son and person. Don't change bro.
Just saw your video, man. I'm really sorry for your loss. I lost my Dad last year after he was bedridden for six months, and those were the hardest of my life. I didn't agree with the decisions my siblings made for him, and can't help but question my role. This is natural and we just have to convince ourselves to let these doubts go. Like you said, it happens to everybody. It's tough and life will never be the same. But it can be good - just in a different way. Your Mom will always be with you through your memories, and I hope they bring you as much peace as mine do of my Dad.
Hey Asmon, I know this is an old video that you may never revisit or want to, but I just wanted you to know that I think your mother raised a humble and kind man who is not an asshole.
You’re the first streamer I’ve started watching and only in just in the past few weeks and I honestly relate to you a lot.
Stay strong and God Bless you and your loved ones.
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