Heroin Addict-Christie

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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Christie, a heroin addict on Skid Row in Los Angeles.
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  • @shelleystephenson3878
    @shelleystephenson3878 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15969

    Absolutely ZERO eye contact.. A tell tale sign of abuse.. despair & depression...truly heartbreaking.

    • @sl4908
      @sl4908 4 ปีที่แล้ว +104

      So true heartbreaking

    • @ewelinagarncarz1857
      @ewelinagarncarz1857 4 ปีที่แล้ว +49

      I totally agree

    • @StandYourGroundHomestead
      @StandYourGroundHomestead 4 ปีที่แล้ว +367

      @@liveyourbestsoftlife5705 no one feels bad for you and your bullshit. There's still black people that are going through this, and every other race at that, you do nothing but spread hate, you contribute to the shit part of humanity and nothing else.

    • @WhiteMountaingirl
      @WhiteMountaingirl 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      FTP

    • @jessicalychee8376
      @jessicalychee8376 4 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      No one told her to put a needle in her arm.

  • @BranMuffin365
    @BranMuffin365 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6641

    I dont see a heroine addict. I see someone desperately trying to escape a life of pain.

    • @vickysantos1916
      @vickysantos1916 4 ปีที่แล้ว +57

      True so true , life was so bad she just needed something to numb the pain

    • @crissy5990
      @crissy5990 4 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      she wants better so badly i believe, im so sad we need to create some help for her

    • @cassandrasmith2727
      @cassandrasmith2727 4 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Branmuffin That’s exactly what I see too. It breaks my heart.

    • @izabelaszczesiak3195
      @izabelaszczesiak3195 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Totally agree. Well put.

    • @JaBoreman
      @JaBoreman 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Branmuffin really? I see a junkie/ piece of shit mother.

  • @kristinab1078
    @kristinab1078 2 ปีที่แล้ว +229

    The way she looks around the studio at the beginning and with that Hello Kitty tattoo on her arm - I can see the lost and frightened child in her. Poignant and heartbreaking.

    • @lllparkerlll
      @lllparkerlll 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Ugh. 💔💔💔

  • @buttianca
    @buttianca 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1033

    From the start, she just described everything in one go. You can tell she's been in her head a lot just replaying her life.

    • @ryleighsunshine
      @ryleighsunshine 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Poor baby

    • @urkent4463
      @urkent4463 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      hhmm i got that too kind'a. at least one part in the brain has boredom

    • @LizzyDel
      @LizzyDel 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      So sad. No pity, just an ache for Justice. I wish the world for her. From the stories puppy know she wouldn’t know how to handle a positive environment. Love. Constant, consistent love. I hope it finds her and she can breathe.

  • @TammyMayCormier
    @TammyMayCormier 4 ปีที่แล้ว +16493

    Childhood trauma: the real gateway drug.

    • @elainejohnson6644
      @elainejohnson6644 4 ปีที่แล้ว +75

      Tammy May Cormier YESS!! 👏🏼

    • @sneakerlove5313
      @sneakerlove5313 4 ปีที่แล้ว +95

      Tammy May Cormier wow!!! I never thought about it that way. Eye opening.

    • @kandilynhunter5471
      @kandilynhunter5471 4 ปีที่แล้ว +54

      So very true, I sadly know from experience!!
      Thank goodness I had support or who knows where I would be!!??

    • @candytwiggytwist3506
      @candytwiggytwist3506 4 ปีที่แล้ว +73

      Yes, those poor, traumatised people have only this in life, drug helps feel no pain.

    • @vampirexion
      @vampirexion 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Exactly..

  • @4WingedAngels
    @4WingedAngels 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3688

    This poor woman wasn’t prostituted at 14, she was trafficked.

    • @phoenixrising9352
      @phoenixrising9352 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      FourWingedAngels
      Same fucking shit.

    • @madronablack8626
      @madronablack8626 4 ปีที่แล้ว +55

      Phoenix Rising um no

    • @phoenixrising9352
      @phoenixrising9352 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Madrona Black umm yes

    • @danieldryden6644
      @danieldryden6644 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      She's a liar and would never tell you the truth because it would make her look bad. She would never admit that "I was bored with my friends and we decided to get high. I became addicted and was so strung out I couldn't work a job to pay it so I started whoring myself out." It's always someone else's fault, they will never admit their mistakes because that doesn't make you feel sorry for her and give her money. These junkie parasites are scam artists and cons

    • @sup9958
      @sup9958 4 ปีที่แล้ว +47

      Daniel Dryden oh yes of course that’s how it always goes! Wow you know it all don’t you lmao

  • @zek7353
    @zek7353 2 ปีที่แล้ว +551

    You could tell she's in physical pain from her injuries during this interview. I feel very sorry for her and hope she's in a much better place today.

    • @jessespad
      @jessespad 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      The only way she could be in pain, is if the dope is wearing off.

    • @vamvam7690
      @vamvam7690 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      @@jessespad heroin is an analgesic, true - but for those who use it regularly and have built up a tolerance it becomes a far less effective pain reliever. Plus it often only lessens pain, not remove it entirely

    • @dannysouthendutdramsay1212
      @dannysouthendutdramsay1212 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      I'm doing gear as I watch this. Woke up sick as a pig and trust me it don't get rid of pain just slightly blocks it emotionally and physically

    • @br00klynnative58
      @br00klynnative58 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@dannysouthendutdramsay1212 what’s gear?

    • @dannysouthendutdramsay1212
      @dannysouthendutdramsay1212 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@br00klynnative58 heroin!

  • @river8760
    @river8760 2 ปีที่แล้ว +290

    Her face looks so painful. These interviews hurt my heart. But they’re also incredibly important and hopefully build empathy in people that do not understand trauma and addiction.

    • @memyselfi2005
      @memyselfi2005 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I hope they help people to have understanding and empathy. Anti drug propaganda has caused the general public to see addicts as some sort of shameful villains rather than traumatized, hurt people. The criminal “justice” system turned drug use into a moral and ethical issue which is never what it was about, but theirs still so many who truly do not understand.

    • @river8760
      @river8760 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@memyselfi2005 yes.

  • @FlowerThePot
    @FlowerThePot 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5019

    When a child says they’re being abused, believe them.

    • @leeleelocrizero4691
      @leeleelocrizero4691 4 ปีที่แล้ว +47

      Just Somebody true! Kids don’t know how to lie (unless coached but that’s abuse in itself

    • @joanniecossette2268
      @joanniecossette2268 4 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      Thinking the same thing. If my kid would tell me my husband was abusing him, I would react. I hope I would... :(

    • @CRColes
      @CRColes 4 ปีที่แล้ว +36

      I've seen where a parent knows but is so dependent on the abuser for everything that they choose to look the other way. It's really sad.

    • @nasyahasabumutima7212
      @nasyahasabumutima7212 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      this is so so so important, people need to believe children

    • @nikkibeacth
      @nikkibeacth 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Just Somebody That shit of a mother for sure knew.

  • @Knifeboi
    @Knifeboi 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10870

    She is absolutely defeated. Her facial expression is just permanent sadness.

    • @xBeautifulcindy
      @xBeautifulcindy 4 ปีที่แล้ว +217

      A true broken soul

    • @margarita3318
      @margarita3318 4 ปีที่แล้ว +162

      Definitely feels broken and unloved. I feel for girls like her it’s so so sad.

    • @ashleycollins8804
      @ashleycollins8804 4 ปีที่แล้ว +47

      This is so sad!! 😭😭😭😭

    • @mindmy609
      @mindmy609 4 ปีที่แล้ว +46

      Melencholy, I hate this world sometimes

    • @jessieh8002
      @jessieh8002 4 ปีที่แล้ว +62

      Ray C ~ I’ve been binge watching his videos, and this one struck me as the most heartbreaking. Just in the very beginning her face is so heartbreakingly sad. I’m so sorry Christie😢

  • @AChadburn
    @AChadburn 2 ปีที่แล้ว +352

    Very sad interview. She comes across as a soft soul who has been preyed on and abused her whole life and has had no one to fight her corner. It's disgusting to think that she probably sees multiple men a day and none of them have any compassion for her situation and just see her as a sex object. I hope she gets her life back on track one day.

    • @memyselfi2005
      @memyselfi2005 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      How can she get her life back on track when it’s never been on track? She’s been abused by men her entire life. She’s never had a chance.

  • @sammayyybee
    @sammayyybee 2 ปีที่แล้ว +573

    Before she even started speaking I started crying. I only used for 8 months before I had a single overdose & have been sober since. It breaks my heart to see how far this addiction can take you & I couldn’t thank god more that I took the second chance I was given. I pray each of these people have the awakening they need before it’s too late

    • @SexMusicPlants
      @SexMusicPlants 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    • @rayfinkle8345
      @rayfinkle8345 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Be wicked proud of yourself Sam! There's not a lot of us who get out of that life alive. Everyday is beautiful and a blessing

    • @leehollebon4777
      @leehollebon4777 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Samantha bogdan my god you are stunning what country do you live in

    • @rayfinkle8345
      @rayfinkle8345 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @@leehollebon4777 yikes dude 😂🤣

    • @norasummers6877
      @norasummers6877 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Amen🙏some dogs are treated better than this poor woman, no one should have to live like this, she needs a break!!! May she get what she desires and get well and get an apartment and see her daughter more, God bless her, please send the right people to help her and support and love her, so sad, I pray that this wicked bondage is broken in the name of our precious saviour Jesus Christ of Nazareth! 💖🕊🙏

  • @GamerGal30
    @GamerGal30 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3841

    Poor girl, you can see that she is ashamed, and broken. Not everyone is born into a loving and good life.
    The world needs more compassion, help those in need.

    • @Stephanie-hc3sg
      @Stephanie-hc3sg 4 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      A lot of drug addicts are born into good families, families who can afford to care for them. Families who love them and can ensure they receive a good education.. Etc etc etc. It simply does not matter. That is what's scary.

    • @zacharyward3068
      @zacharyward3068 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      @@Stephanie-hc3sg that wasnt the point.

    • @JaakkoJohannes
      @JaakkoJohannes 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Stephanie-hc3sg Yes, that is some times the case. Some times however people are in such a bad situation in there life that they really don't stand a chance.

    • @Stephanie-hc3sg
      @Stephanie-hc3sg 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@zacharyward3068 fk off, junkie

    • @67CURTISluciene
      @67CURTISluciene 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Poor girl my eye. She has made choices that have consequences. She is paying for those choices and SO ARE WE.

  • @candacevonthemua.71
    @candacevonthemua.71 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7600

    In her defense, she wasn’t even provided the general basics of a head start in life. I honestly & sincerely understand how she got to this point in life. Her parents literally failed her before the world ever could.

    • @nebojsabobic6480
      @nebojsabobic6480 4 ปีที่แล้ว +118

      In her defence?Like she is quilty of something??In her "image" you cen reflect our "westernized" society in it's true face...

    • @wonderlove447
      @wonderlove447 4 ปีที่แล้ว +53

      I know plenty of people who were never provided the general basics and turned out fine and not a drug addict

    • @ddr6278
      @ddr6278 4 ปีที่แล้ว +294

      @@wonderlove447 Ok but not everyone is the same so that's irrelevant lol

    • @lorettalynndavis9695
      @lorettalynndavis9695 4 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      @@wonderlove447 Yeah, but it's very rare.

    • @likemycommentgurl5196
      @likemycommentgurl5196 4 ปีที่แล้ว +129

      @@wonderlove447 people deal with trauma in different ways

  • @GotBilk07
    @GotBilk07 2 ปีที่แล้ว +245

    She is so exhausted. I wish we could give her one peaceful night in a safe place for sleep. Completely broken watching some of these. Wish nothing but the best for her. I hope she finds peace.

    • @EphemeralProductions
      @EphemeralProductions 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      me too.

    • @KGlifts
      @KGlifts ปีที่แล้ว

      You wouldn't take her in for a night punk

    • @zachyweezer
      @zachyweezer หลายเดือนก่อน

      well said. my heart aches for this young lady.

    • @michele21auntiem
      @michele21auntiem 20 วันที่ผ่านมา

      She passed away. RIH

    • @michelefreeman6512
      @michelefreeman6512 19 วันที่ผ่านมา

      ​​@@michele21auntiemReally😮? Where can I read about it? Do you know her name? This is absolutely HORRIBLE! Thank you

  • @Melissa_the_Swamp_Princess
    @Melissa_the_Swamp_Princess 2 ปีที่แล้ว +69

    I am so thankful that I had two loving parents that watched me carefully and I did not have to endure any sexual abuse as a child. I wish we could wipe all of these evil demons off the face of the earth.

  • @sophiemarshall3482
    @sophiemarshall3482 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4434

    It was the, "probably sounds like everybody else's story" that got me... almost like she feels guilty for acknowledging the severity of her situation

    • @marlenarittenhouse8857
      @marlenarittenhouse8857 4 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      I felt the same thing. Poor girl. God bless

    • @SpitFactsAndThenDontReply
      @SpitFactsAndThenDontReply 4 ปีที่แล้ว +59

      No she said that because she has first hand experience of cause and effect. The majority of people who come from ruff upbringings turn out like her. She has heard similar stories told be people she knows. Same with me everybody I met while i was homeless chasing meth or heroine has a dysfunctional past. 90% of the time.

    • @sophiemarshall3482
      @sophiemarshall3482 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Zach Ryan that's why I said "almost"... wasn't saying that's necessarily the case

    • @ahhhndy
      @ahhhndy 4 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      Yes, it’s like she said that to make it seem like she knows she’s not special because she know people will judge. My heart is aching for her and anyone in similar situations.

    • @Madelope
      @Madelope 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Zach Ryan why are you saying “no” lmfao.. the original comment was correct and subjective. You can’t just disagree lmfao

  • @MissSamGreen
    @MissSamGreen 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4855

    This poor woman.. Life has been just so cruel to her.. She didn't deserve any of this! Nobody does!

    • @sev9642
      @sev9642 4 ปีที่แล้ว +68

      spiralout72 so people aren’t able to not come from well off backgrounds? The fuck?

    • @ohwellwhateverr
      @ohwellwhateverr 4 ปีที่แล้ว +90

      spiralout72 You’re part of the problem. Fuck your apathy. Happy, stable people don’t do heroin. It’s a painkiller. It numbs all feeling. People who take it are desperately seeking some exit door out of life.

    • @brehernandez5129
      @brehernandez5129 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      spiralout72 she literally said her dad molested her? Her sister also ran off how is that a good stable family?

    • @layner3123
      @layner3123 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Addiction doesn't discriminate anyone can be an addict. To be honest I think it's ridiculous to think everything she said throughout this interview is true considering she never even looked up from the ground, she mumbled and paused constantly throughout the whole interview, she played the victim card every chance she got and never once took ownership for anything that happened in her life. And literally shit on everyone mentioned throughout the whole interview, plus she's an active addict. Active addicts lie every chance they get and don't even realize it, this is coming from an addict in recovery.

    • @agnesaj9199
      @agnesaj9199 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@christina7215 your heart is as hard as stone. She is the very picture of pitiful and anyone with some basic humanity would feel so very sorry for her. You sound self-righteous and condescending as hell - where is your sympathy?

  • @macandthebird
    @macandthebird 2 ปีที่แล้ว +140

    Every part of this interview was crushing, but the "probably sounds like everybody else's [story]" really got me at the end there. She's not wrong. We don't all live in LA but there are people suffering in the same way around our own street corners that we have the opportunity to help. At the very least to talk to in a way Mark does. Not judgmental but caring.

    • @stephcrumpled
      @stephcrumpled 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      dont worry, shes surely dead by now :)

    • @memyselfi2005
      @memyselfi2005 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yes! That would be a big step in the right direction.

  • @sandys.6768
    @sandys.6768 2 ปีที่แล้ว +124

    If I could find this girl, I would let her stay in my home and I would do absolutely everything in my power to help her. She's the saddest and most defeated person I've ever seen. I seriously would nurse her back to health and show her love and kindness.

    • @kicnbac
      @kicnbac 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      From what I gather, shes dead now

    • @mickbowling4412
      @mickbowling4412 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Get in touch with Mark, he can probably help you find her.

    • @bmmaaate
      @bmmaaate 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Be careful. Heroin addicts are accomplished liars and will promise to quit but at the first sign of cold turkey they will sell everything you own to the pawn shop just to get one fix.

    • @mickbowling4412
      @mickbowling4412 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@bmmaaate exactly

    • @loveitwhenyoudothat
      @loveitwhenyoudothat 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      What a beautiful thing to say

  • @Teeterrr
    @Teeterrr 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3676

    Her family disowned her for interacting with black people. Wow.

    • @xy8379
      @xy8379 4 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      Teeterr my reaction exactly

    • @anelatea-anac2978
      @anelatea-anac2978 4 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      I was like what in the world they most likely called her a wigger

    • @missladye2634
      @missladye2634 4 ปีที่แล้ว +135

      Her family members are the ignorant ones. I feel for her and pray for her healing.

    • @savannahshon5928
      @savannahshon5928 4 ปีที่แล้ว +296

      Her family probably disowned her because she was hanging out with drug addicts .. who just so happened to be black.. two sides to every story

    • @ricdwe
      @ricdwe 4 ปีที่แล้ว +227

      @@savannahshon5928 You don't know that ... now do you? You're making an assumption, based on how she lives her life. Funny though, going on your premise, it's okay to deal with white drug addicts, but not black ones.
      Racial hatred is racial hatred -- got nothing to do with drug addiction. However, it has everything to do with socio-economic status, skin color, prejudice, and bigotry. Hell, neither of her parents are morally, legally, or ethically fine models of society, doing drugs themselves. Sometimes there are MORE than two verisions to a story. Believe that.

  • @teamcougars
    @teamcougars 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3217

    She is absolutely broken you can see it in her body language and her eyes are vacant so sad.

    • @Professionalasshole
      @Professionalasshole 4 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      Those were my exact thoughts. She doesn't want to do what she's doing. I think she thinks there's no way to get out, or just maybe doesn't know how or where to start.

    • @EmpressofChrist
      @EmpressofChrist 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yea

    • @GypsyJBLUE2023
      @GypsyJBLUE2023 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I was going to comment the same thing. You beat me to it.

    • @MT-hv8zr
      @MT-hv8zr 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Bro that’s absolutely obviously obvious!

  • @loose_phlegm3047
    @loose_phlegm3047 2 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    5 years recovering from heroin addiction myself. The look on her face is honestly devastating

    • @mjriemen
      @mjriemen ปีที่แล้ว +1

      10 years clean here man! Great job! We can do it!

  • @marissahuber6265
    @marissahuber6265 2 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    Honestly, she's so well spoken, knows what is going on, understands the questions and answers cognitively. Hope the best for yoy Christine!

    • @paulwashington98e
      @paulwashington98e 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Hi there? Hope you’re fine and staying safe?

  • @yolandag5756
    @yolandag5756 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2198

    These girls deserve our help and not our judgement. A lot of people think “oh, they knew what they were doing!” Uh, no they didn’t. What 14 year old child knows the consequences or even dangers of living in the streets? Furthermore these girls are threatened and beaten in order to keep them compliant and they’re given drugs to keep them docile. As a society it should be our job as adults to protect little boys and girls at all costs, if you see something, say something. If a child tells you they’re being abused, BELIEVE THEM, children don’t make up lies like these for no reason.

    • @YoMama9021
      @YoMama9021 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Yolanda G good to see like minded folks. We must stand strong for our country and the people that make it what it is. Although I’m pretty sure we were cursed to begin with. Nothing goes right here. Seriously we need a new reform through and though.

    • @bruhmoment3834
      @bruhmoment3834 4 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      Amen. This woman is a victim, not a perpetrator.

    • @ili1017
      @ili1017 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I agree,,, the children deserve protection. But once you get to this point, it’s difficult. This woman has learned to survive on the streets. She has adopted the streets as her reality and unless she makes the decision to dedicate her efforts to make it out of that lifestyle, she will remain in that cycle. I’ve met several ppl like her. It’s very very sad. Only she knows what it’s going to take to change her life.

    • @bodoorgeest
      @bodoorgeest 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      My mother warned me not to go play in the woods, bc there where men who would harm me. But the only harmful men lived in my home. Always believe your kids, they need your protection. And this young woman broke my heart, she obviously needs protection and a lot of love to heal..

    • @bodoorgeest
      @bodoorgeest 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@ili1017 she can't make this decision on her own, she's addicted with no family/friends..

  • @kimle190
    @kimle190 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3976

    She still looks like a lost child. Poor girl

    • @michelleguzman3277
      @michelleguzman3277 4 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      Kim Le she is a lost child !! 14!!

    • @kimle190
      @kimle190 4 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      @@michelleguzman3277 I meant like, a toddler, those innocent baby eyes... but damn, 14! I must have missed that! Poor darling!

    • @jamieleeharrison
      @jamieleeharrison 4 ปีที่แล้ว +43

      Kim Le she isn’t 14, she said that she’s been on the streets since she was 14

    • @jessicalychee8376
      @jessicalychee8376 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Meh. She didn’t have to put a needle in her arm and bang dudes for $20 bucks. Poor girl “goes to the girl who goes to school and is working for a better further. This thing got brought to LA from her pimp since she was early teens. Whoever she chose to hang with messed her up. Bad.

    • @StandYourGroundHomestead
      @StandYourGroundHomestead 4 ปีที่แล้ว +87

      @@jessicalychee8376 your lack of empathy is astonishing, please stay on your little pedestal away from anyone that is struggling as you will only keep them down.

  • @beccag13
    @beccag13 2 ปีที่แล้ว +75

    It’s so sad how so many interviewees are so quick to tell their stories often only being asked one or two questions. They finally have a chance to tell someone

  • @Fairy-door-78-86
    @Fairy-door-78-86 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Probably one of the saddest interviews I've watched, I wish could give her a hug. Truly heartbreaking.

  • @Ms.eleven11
    @Ms.eleven11 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1701

    She looks total defeated by this life. A permanent sadness. I felt like her SOUL IS TIRED.

    • @sharonhare4835
      @sharonhare4835 4 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      Mrs. 11:11 Jesus said “Come to me, all you who are burdened and heavy laden, and I will give you rest. “She needs the only remedy, Jesus.

    • @brandogrl
      @brandogrl 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I feel hopeless for her. How do you actually get through this. From day one she's been abused, & mistreated.. I don't know @ this point if her body/mind/soul could even prossess happiness or true peace.. not in this life. I don't say it to be mean.. It just seems like entirely too much for one lifetime . My heart aches for her

    • @sharonhare4835
      @sharonhare4835 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      brandogrl the only way she gets good in the next life is through salvation in the Lord Jesus Christ.

    • @Zayshotma
      @Zayshotma 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      brandogrl There is always hope for a suffering addict as long as God puts breath in their body. I am a recovering addict with trauma, and a substance abuse counselor of 18 years.

    •  4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@sharonhare4835 Jesus also gives us doctors when we are sick and rehabilitation centers when we are drug addicted. Unfortunately Jesus allowed people to be molested, raped and abused when they were children and now they have trauma and trying to numb that pain. Jesus please just heal it, you are all powerful. Jesus, please heal, love, and nurture your precious children, please.

  • @vintagejunktofunk4616
    @vintagejunktofunk4616 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1413

    This is so sad.. she can’t even look up or look into his eyes to talk. She is just a shell of a human being
    I hope she gets clean and gets to live the life she deserves

    • @LadyDelSangue87
      @LadyDelSangue87 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      She's obviously stimming by going side to side like that in the chair. I would safely say she's autistic along with all the other issues. :(

    • @alex-ur3vp
      @alex-ur3vp 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      It's Amanda I wouldn’t be so quick to call it autism, PTSD can mimic a lot of the symptoms of ASD. it’s truly a tragedy what this girl had to go through.

    • @jaderoman187
      @jaderoman187 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@LadyDelSangue87 really?? Autism?? That's the same body language someone gives when they are not being truthful. It blows my mind how many people in these comments jump to crazy ass conclusions based off a ten minute video of some junkie answering questions.

  • @baublesanddolls
    @baublesanddolls 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I've never seen anyone look so sad and depleted. I wish I could take her as a mother, give her a safe, warm landing spot with a nice bubble bath and a home-cooked meal. It looks like she needs a clean, comfortable bed, a long sleep, and lots of love and hugs. I have a daughter and can't imagine her in that shape. So incredibly sad.

  • @goberianchloex3646
    @goberianchloex3646 2 ปีที่แล้ว +259

    This poor young girl has had no decent family or boyfriends! ( the boyfriend that got her hooked on crack since 14 ! ) Jesus, just a child.
    She has been abused by everyone she had the misfortune to meet since birth.
    I’m amazed she got clean for 2 whole years with all that against her. That proves she has strength.
    She needs just one decent person to give her a lift in life.
    This girl really needs to have a follow up vid to know she is ok :0/

    • @fionn9852
      @fionn9852 2 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      the fact her family disowned her when she was being trafficked and needed help as a 14 year old CHILD is so appalling

    • @chrisarm3047
      @chrisarm3047 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Spot on. I just want to hug her and give her a room at my place.

    • @bang2020
      @bang2020 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      She isn’t going to be found to do another video. Sad but she’s a train wreck

    • @typicallyusual6984
      @typicallyusual6984 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      She could’ve continued on that upward trajectory when she got clean but instead her baby daddy abused her and it just sent her right back to where she started. Absolutely awful human being.

    • @bang2020
      @bang2020 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@chrisarm3047 open your doors

  • @erikaanjanette8374
    @erikaanjanette8374 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2432

    Damn dude this fuckn hurts . She never had family to help her out . She’s someone’s kid, how can you leave em n in the streets .

    • @silvergirl3688
      @silvergirl3688 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Erika Anjanette Is he supposed to take everyone in?

    • @SvobodovaEva
      @SvobodovaEva 4 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Not only they didn't help her, they are the very reason why she ended up like this

    • @brockmeeks1695
      @brockmeeks1695 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Probably a really toxic household. She was trafficked when she was 14 smh. I don’t get it either. How could you let your child live this way?

    • @brockmeeks1695
      @brockmeeks1695 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      SweetPhantom I’m not from Texas but still in the south. It’s easier for interracial couples now. My nieces cousins are mixed race and it’s none of the older family members say anything. When I hear someone do it though they never blame the children. “The mother should have known better!” Which just isn’t right. We’re all the same.

    • @angely267
      @angely267 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      It Would have been great if somebody help her or help her now but the first step needs to be her, if she don't have the confidence of doing something about . Even if she haves all of her fam with her to help , if she don't want to get better she wont.

  • @34ImpossibleShapes
    @34ImpossibleShapes 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3150

    When people say “it’s a choice” and that they have non compassion for people on the streets because they “did it to themselves”. I wish they would watch these videos.

    • @skyt3265
      @skyt3265 4 ปีที่แล้ว +36

      it blows my mind and breaks my heart. same as when people don’t understand that addiction is a disease. bless you

    • @eliquate
      @eliquate 4 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      You would need SUPER human strength to get through this and be successful.

    • @keroleena1
      @keroleena1 4 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      I agree. If you had a good role model or mentor be grateful for them. Not everyone is fortunate enough to have good role models and mentors. I feel so bad for this woman, she was abused as a child, that's where it all began. So heart breaking. She clearly has a vision of a better life but all the trauma she's gone through stops her. Sigh. I wish I could help somehow.

    • @ICPadict36
      @ICPadict36 4 ปีที่แล้ว +39

      is it a choice, yes, do they do it to themselves yes.

    • @lirihnurlette2068
      @lirihnurlette2068 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Exactly

  • @rebekahkissel7629
    @rebekahkissel7629 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I can see what she would look like without all the abuse and a grime, the pain and the drugs and she is so beautiful she really is. She was a Sweet child that's been broken down. I pray to God that she finds the way out of this life .Amen

  • @kaycar1161
    @kaycar1161 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This is the saddest person I have ever seen. God I feel so bad for her. I just want to hug her.

  • @Sammy-rl6nh
    @Sammy-rl6nh 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1370

    She really disowned because she “messed” with black people , she started at 14, she got beaten and she is mentally hurting I wish her all the best. I’m so sorry for her

    • @betsyross9503
      @betsyross9503 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Sammy ! - Hmm. She says that her family disowned her because she messed with black people, but you don’t know if it’s true. I find it hard to believe anyone is that racist nowadays.
      Nonetheless, it’s extremely extremely sad.

    • @micahimmeldirk9770
      @micahimmeldirk9770 4 ปีที่แล้ว +107

      @Betsy Ross believe me there are still people who are racist like that. And yeah that's sad

    • @exox7534
      @exox7534 4 ปีที่แล้ว +87

      @@betsyross9503 you find it hard to believe anyone is that racist? Aw, ignorance is bliss.

    • @aribri7463
      @aribri7463 4 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      @@betsyross9503 - there are certainly racists. Im sure you know a few, even if it goes over your head.

    • @user-pampam70634
      @user-pampam70634 4 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      @@betsyross9503, sad to say, there are so many on the streets because their parents are so fricking racist. Racism is at every corner you turn. I could not disown my child for something as trivial as that, even if it came down to a divorce with my husband, we brought our kiddos into this world and we are the only true parents they get. God in trusted them to us, not to abuse them in any way, but to love them through what they are dealing with. I do realize at some point the tough love has to come out, but it doesn't involve beating them or sexually abusing them, those are sick parents that do that.

  • @teem7340
    @teem7340 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1346

    This one really hurt me. You can tell she’s truly defeated and drained emotionally.

    • @opiumdensRus
      @opiumdensRus 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I agree. Your hot.

    • @lols5509
      @lols5509 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I don't usually get why girls go down a drugs selling themselves but this girl got to me also ,, poor girl is so broken I hope she finds her way out but I fear is she so broken she cant be fixed so so sad , what a waste of a life , gob bless her

    • @charmingsiren
      @charmingsiren 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@opiumdensRus Wow. Gross.

    • @keishajenner3573
      @keishajenner3573 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Eric Roberts bahahaha

    • @keishajenner3573
      @keishajenner3573 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Andro X ew lol

  • @taylormccracken970
    @taylormccracken970 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    This girl wasn’t given the chance. I watch so many of your videos, and if anyone I’ve seen that has struck a chord with me, it’s her. She needs help, rehab, support system, road map to get where she needs because looking at her, she is capable of getting there. I hope you take her under your wing and teach her how to fly. You are a very inspiring man. Thank you for making a difference.

    • @dorisjohns8124
      @dorisjohns8124 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      This interview really stuck with me too.

  • @onlyren563
    @onlyren563 2 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    When you think your life is hard and you listen all this ppl and what they've been through 😢 you realise how lucky you are. Really sad to hear so many ppl been abused by parents..

  • @laurengilley2926
    @laurengilley2926 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2482

    This just shows not all drug addicts aren’t bad people, they are hurt people. We need to provide more help for drug addicts

    • @suzannemullett9506
      @suzannemullett9506 4 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      Lauren Gilley they have to want the help for it to work. I’ve seen first hand. They can have all the help in the world but if they refuse it, it’s pointless.

    • @cassandrasmith2727
      @cassandrasmith2727 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Lauren Gilley Absolutely!

    • @okitwasmesike2132
      @okitwasmesike2132 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Not all of them

    • @cocomamas3289
      @cocomamas3289 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      there’s always going to be successful people & there’s always going to be the people sleeping in tents. it’s reality. & we can’t help everybody. they have to help their self.

    • @MegaPerson012345
      @MegaPerson012345 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      No. Drug addicts can be all kinds of people. I would agree if you said not all drug addicts are bad. Often how they are depends on how their character was before ever being fucked up high, their current state of mind, what kind of drugs they are on, and whether they are high at that moment, coming down, or having withdrawls.

  • @Erecura
    @Erecura 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4921

    This is the result of a human being who never experienced love, even from childhood with parents. She was never loved, cared for, or protected to develop her own sense of self worth and self love. So incredibly sad. I truly think her only cure is self love to get out of this mess and violence, but I think she first needs to experience unconditional love from someone else. I think this is why many abandoned addicts find religion and God as a means to sobriety.

    • @MzAnzu
      @MzAnzu 4 ปีที่แล้ว +42

      and yet there are also plenty of people with awful upbringings, but they don't end up as drug users etc.....

    • @TEM14411
      @TEM14411 4 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      Amen. Well said. I never had peace until I developed my relationship with God.

    • @lar4305
      @lar4305 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@MzAnzu They made the choice to stick a needle in there arm! fuck them!

    • @jackpotg-larz7445
      @jackpotg-larz7445 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      That's just there excuse they use to do this shit. Its everyone's personal choice.

    • @gretchenstewart8616
      @gretchenstewart8616 4 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      lar4305 she was a baby when a PIMP POS took her and put her on the street!

  • @alohagoodies
    @alohagoodies 21 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

    😞 RIP Christie, just saw a clip that she passed. 1991-2024 🙏🏼

    • @southernsoulfarm
      @southernsoulfarm 21 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      So sad, RIP Christie 😭😭💔💔

    • @stephaniediaz7057
      @stephaniediaz7057 16 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Oh wow she did? God bless her

    • @joannepiritz9718
      @joannepiritz9718 3 วันที่ผ่านมา

      So sorry to hear. R.i.P🙏

  • @JoyPaul-pe7ij
    @JoyPaul-pe7ij 21 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    This interview was one of the most heartbreaking 💔 ones to watch, and I've watched a lot of SWU clips. Oh my, this poor child. Some never have a chance. 😢🙏😢

  • @julieford3340
    @julieford3340 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1222

    She is still the 14 year old whose soul was ripped from her body. So very tragic

    • @datura_boof
      @datura_boof 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      14? Or when she was 5 being molested by her father?

  • @alexandrianguyen766
    @alexandrianguyen766 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1207

    When she said she wants to go back to school, have an apartment and be with her daughter in the next five years, that broke my heart. I pray and hope she gets a chance to live a life like that❤

    • @epicgamermoment9890
      @epicgamermoment9890 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Alexandria Nguyen Amen 🙏🏽 me too!! This made me cry 😭

    • @lucysapam2411
      @lucysapam2411 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Even as she said it in her mind it must have been like.... Fuck... Its not gonna happen... Why am i even dreaming
      .....she keeps on mumbling away for a few more seconds and brushes away her tears from her face with her hand.
      It is heartbreaking .

    • @TerminusEst1982
      @TerminusEst1982 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      What the fuck is praying going to do? Make you feel better about someone else's misery? Yeah close your eyes and hope for the best. Instead maybe get out there and learn about what's really going on.

    • @alexandrianguyen766
      @alexandrianguyen766 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@TerminusEst1982 if you're not the type of person to pray that's fine. I dont expect everyone to do it. I pray because I believe there can be change. Also I'm not saying praying is the only option... yes I do agree something should be done in order to prevent all of this from happening, I wish I could help this lady get back on her feet and start a fresh new life, not only her but to all of those who are in need. I've volunteered to help some of those individuals and they've shared their stories with me about their struggle. It doesnt matter if you're religious or not, this lady is pleading for help and torn in the inside. The only thing we can do is hope for the best for her.

    • @mumfriend2545
      @mumfriend2545 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@TerminusEst1982 just because you don't believe in praying doesn't mean you need to be an asshole to someone who does. Its simply just a way of giving hope and respect to someone because alot of the time, we can't do anything to help. I'm not even religious either but at least I dont shame people for going by what they believe in :/

  • @romanamann4296
    @romanamann4296 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    After so many hardships and years and the street her beauty shines right through! She is a sad beautiful woman. I hope she is doing better now 🙏🏻

  • @jaredthorson6366
    @jaredthorson6366 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    My heart breaks for her! Sending positivity, love, and healing vibes for her! One day at a time, we do recover! I hope she finds her recovery!

  • @jblank1862
    @jblank1862 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2855

    The depth of her sadness feels endless.

    • @vickibaker8372
      @vickibaker8372 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      She needs Jesus to save her soul

    • @ballzmcgee9585
      @ballzmcgee9585 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Yep, usually why you start doing heroin ... Pain

    • @saysrry48
      @saysrry48 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I cant stop watching these videos and i've associated with the homeless and addicts for some reason they are drawn to me and i am to them

    • @beckee6282
      @beckee6282 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Vicki Baker Jesus isn’t real. If god was real he wouldn’t let this happen unless he was a malevolent being. If that’s the case, fuck him. Stop worshipping nothingness

    • @kyleallen1858
      @kyleallen1858 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@beckee6282 ya that's why I have a hard time with religion. Whats the purpose of life if this is the shit were put through 🥺

  • @TheKimber35605
    @TheKimber35605 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2057

    She is suffering to the point of numbness. There is no
    real emotions, other than pain. She is in a ptsd survival
    mode. I hope by the grace of God she is given a way
    out before its too late.

    • @snowbird7377
      @snowbird7377 3 ปีที่แล้ว +56

      Kim if god existed then she wouldn’t have been molested as a 5 yo child, or trafficked as a 14 yo child, then abused repeatedly and unloved to this day.

    • @funneboneskupcake3694
      @funneboneskupcake3694 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      @@snowbird7377 All that happened to her was because of Satan's power over people who hurt her. They allowed themselves to listen to his promptings rather than God's.

    • @thetgwarrior
      @thetgwarrior 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      By d grace

    • @velveteencherrytart6335
      @velveteencherrytart6335 3 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      @@funneboneskupcake3694 if god is all-powerful, he’d be able to stop this woman’s life from being brutalized from childhood. with all due respect, any god that allows this to happen to a person is a god that i fucking hate.

    • @lilhailey5652
      @lilhailey5652 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@funneboneskupcake3694 lmao shut up fuck

  • @daniellefarrow7956
    @daniellefarrow7956 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Her pain just radiates even though she’s probably so numb she feels nothing anymore, just a shell of the human she once was.
    💔💔💔

  • @Vic292
    @Vic292 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    It all stems from such a traumatic childhood. I hope she gets the help she needs to turn her life around!

  • @misspink9676
    @misspink9676 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1740

    The fact that these poor women think they started 'prostituting' as teens, they were abused. My heart breaks.

    • @woolzem
      @woolzem 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      This

    • @Teenywing
      @Teenywing 2 ปีที่แล้ว +58

      I’m so glad you said that. I just can NOT understand how the world thinks girls/women choose to do this and can just easily stop working and stop getting used, stop getting abused, stop self harming ….

    • @goberianchloex3646
      @goberianchloex3646 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Best comment Iv seen in years girl x x

    • @alexisadair148
      @alexisadair148 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      It’s called trafficking

    • @mdumiseninsibande3071
      @mdumiseninsibande3071 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      This is the most ignorant comment ever. She chose to sell bums.

  • @daisyadkins505
    @daisyadkins505 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1438

    Imagine being so broken and used that running away with a pimp sounded like a better living situation

    • @keeleyalohna3889
      @keeleyalohna3889 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Daisy Adkins exactly.....why don’t people understand that?

    • @potipwa
      @potipwa 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sorry I'm French but what's a pimp? Is it linked with prostitution or drugs?

    • @mandy22f
      @mandy22f 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@potipwa A pimp is a person who controls prostitutes and arranges clients for them. They make money of prostitutes, a bit like being sort of a manager.

    • @potipwa
      @potipwa 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@mandy22f thanks, that's what I was thinking

    • @psychokitteh8626
      @psychokitteh8626 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It's called sex trafficking. He groomed her for it idiot.

  • @ripleymt
    @ripleymt 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m really so sorry for what this young lady has been through. My heart breaks for so many of the people Mark interviews.

  • @aimeekohanski412
    @aimeekohanski412 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This is the sadness person I have ever seen. I just want to hold her tight and tell her she deserves better....

    • @dorisjohns8124
      @dorisjohns8124 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Christi needs to hear the words, I love you

  • @kendrakay9142
    @kendrakay9142 4 ปีที่แล้ว +809

    Her constant rocking is a way of soothing yourself. She can’t even look up and keep eye contact. Heartbreaking!

    • @paulwashington98e
      @paulwashington98e 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hi there? Hope you’re fine and staying safe??

    • @firstnamelastname59
      @firstnamelastname59 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Congratulations you are able to observe a video 👏

  • @lauram3115
    @lauram3115 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1308

    This poor girl never had a chance. I hope she gets help and is okay.

    • @laurasutcliffe723
      @laurasutcliffe723 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      This made me sick to my stomach , literally 😢

    • @lucylucy4416
      @lucylucy4416 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      😢

    • @lauram3115
      @lauram3115 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Laura Sutcliffe It was so saddening to watch. Her whole life has been nothing but pain. I just want to give her a hug, a warm safe place to live and tell her everything is going to be okay. 😢

  • @alyssajoyblack5007
    @alyssajoyblack5007 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    That loss of hope you can see in every fibre of her being is so gutwrenching. Even when she spoke of where she’d like to be in 5 yrs there was no determination behind her words. I empathise so much, as vastly different as our worlds may seem. I hope with all sincerity she is alive and on her way to fulfilling the dream I don’t think even she believes she can fulfil.

    • @ryanpatrick6582
      @ryanpatrick6582 17 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Pretty sure she passed on.Pretty sure people that far gone don’t come back.Anythings possible but nothings guaranteed

  • @jamesian-allen8725
    @jamesian-allen8725 ปีที่แล้ว

    All these videos are things you can not un see...but this one I'll never be able to un see. This was absolutely heart wrenching...I so hope that this woman finds real love and gets the help she needs and gets to a better place. She deserves a better and happy life .

  • @Moona1966
    @Moona1966 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1332

    God, she's like a wounded animal... So full of fear and pain.

    • @Misterwatermonkey
      @Misterwatermonkey 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Moona1966 she’s human not an animal

    • @beakmug
      @beakmug 4 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      @@Misterwatermonkey that's why there's the word 'like'

    • @Moona1966
      @Moona1966 4 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      @@Misterwatermonkey Humans are animals too.

    • @betsyevers4363
      @betsyevers4363 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Moona1966 that’s exactly what I thought. Like a lonely sick cat or dog that someone could take in! Heart Breaking

    • @brennafinn4276
      @brennafinn4276 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Moona1966 I just want to hug her 😢 ugh you can feel her want more human connection when he says “Good luck out there!” And she goes, “alright....” 💔

  • @lilbicch7480
    @lilbicch7480 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1416

    Imagine being disowned for having black friends...it’s clear her life was never easy,not even for a second
    Edit: y’all have such peripheral vision. I was molested too. I didn’t want to think about it. Just because I pointed one thing out doesn’t mean I’m ignoring the rest. Y’all act like children,fr.

    • @stacitaylor1064
      @stacitaylor1064 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Lil Bicch 💔

    • @YoMama9021
      @YoMama9021 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Lil Bicch yeah it’s enough to make you want to be anything and everything your shitty parents didn’t want you to become.

    • @atechcomputingsolutions9551
      @atechcomputingsolutions9551 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Lil Bicch not surprised

    • @muezzathestray750
      @muezzathestray750 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      My mother ..

    • @oh_kay2954
      @oh_kay2954 4 ปีที่แล้ว +35

      Daniel she was 14.....they just left their 14 year old to be out on the street. Knowing she was hanging with older guys. A 14 year old GIRL at that. No excuse for what they did.

  • @runningwithfire7
    @runningwithfire7 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Oh man my heart is so broken watching these interviews. I wish I could play a part to help!

  • @ebonyeyes4122
    @ebonyeyes4122 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This was a hard watch. I wish and pray for their pain to go away. My stomach turned so much watching this. Lord I hope you build a hedge of protection around this young lady and her children.

    • @JD-zh5nv
      @JD-zh5nv 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      There you go. All good now.

  • @Ali-Renee
    @Ali-Renee 4 ปีที่แล้ว +989

    I am a grown woman and every part of me wants to put my arms around this girl & hug her, tell her it will be ok. Help her in any way I can. No one should ever have to live a life like hers

    • @rosstaylor6051
      @rosstaylor6051 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      What's stopping you?

    • @jessicalychee8376
      @jessicalychee8376 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Ali Scone so help her. Be the one. Go ahead.

    • @tiffanyroseangeles7517
      @tiffanyroseangeles7517 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Ross Taylor she's only trying to be kind. Why does that concern you?

    • @tiffanyroseangeles7517
      @tiffanyroseangeles7517 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Jessica Lychee again I sense anger here I may be wrong,but both you & Ross sound ticked off at the woman's simple statement of wanting to be kind. Did you ever think she might be ill herself?
      Many empathetic people say things such as they'd wish to help.
      What you don't hear is many have no transportation to get to the destination,they could even be mentally ill.
      Some of the most empathetic ppl are.
      I don't get the rude comebacks to this kind woman's just simply wanting to help.
      People are wanting to help re the fires in Australia too.
      But they pray to whatever faith they have & try & appreciate everyday life more.
      Because who knows ,it could all be taken away like that.
      You could lose your home & rough it on the streets.
      So,if it were me....
      It's not.
      Please think before you write words that may hurt others.
      We live in dangerous times full of cyber bullies,
      Or just plain ppl that don't use their minds to think of their words effects
      Upon others,not knowing their ages young -old
      Online isn't a safe place anymore

    • @LauraStar127
      @LauraStar127 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sorry, she is a grown woman. Not a "girl". Be respectful please.

  • @jeannefrench2048
    @jeannefrench2048 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1776

    All I see is pain, in her eyes. I don’t think she has ever felt anything else but pain. So sad.

    • @jessicalychee8376
      @jessicalychee8376 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Jeannie French what eyes. She never looked up. She has scabs on her face and babies. What eyes!!

    • @rainsara2795
      @rainsara2795 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@jessicalychee8376 1:47

    • @jessicalychee8376
      @jessicalychee8376 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      RainSara wow how hard did you search for that one second 💔poor girl. She never had to put a needle in her arm.

    • @rainsara2795
      @rainsara2795 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@jessicalychee8376 it came up as I read your comment. Haha

    • @kfkkfk7995
      @kfkkfk7995 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@jessicalychee8376 shut up

  • @miran4471
    @miran4471 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I am crying for her. Can Amerika help please these people. I am from the Netherlands, and things go different here. 🙏

    • @raymesquite
      @raymesquite ปีที่แล้ว +1

      In Europe, addiction is treated as a health issue. In the U.S., it's treated as a criminal problem. It's definitely a big difference.

  • @brianh5730
    @brianh5730 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This woman is worth so much more than this. Bless her heart. Heartbreaking.

  • @ang_ro
    @ang_ro 4 ปีที่แล้ว +839

    the pain in her eyes is heartbreaking. she is so broken by how people have treated her. she hates herself. so sad.

    • @agnesaj9199
      @agnesaj9199 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@christina7215 you are a beast, an evil idiot with no heart. Shut up please.

    • @RS-cn7js
      @RS-cn7js 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@christina7215 You are disgusting. A vile, closed minded, racist puke. To say she DESERVES THIS! I always say we are ALL equal...but you my dear are a different breed...lower then gutter low.

    • @jaicbenjosil6179
      @jaicbenjosil6179 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Christina x ur ugly as fuck

  • @ricktharp1
    @ricktharp1 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1523

    This poor kid has been used her entire life

  • @MrsBee-uo2lc
    @MrsBee-uo2lc 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So heartbreaking! My heart goes out to you darling. Much love and blessings. Please stay safe.🥺🤍

  • @colettespencer3357
    @colettespencer3357 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    We truly need more social programs for these people. These are kids who fell through the cracks. Really devastating.

  • @markjohnson1020
    @markjohnson1020 4 ปีที่แล้ว +876

    The look on her face is the epitome of absolute sadness.

    • @Naomiluvsice
      @Naomiluvsice 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      She wouldn't know love if it starred her right in the face.

    • @crunchythedave
      @crunchythedave 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Definitely a strong lookin face

    • @PauliePinch13
      @PauliePinch13 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Yeah man, she is just so beat up. Them streets will always beat a human being up so bad. It’s a un winnable fist fight with them streets.

    • @tiffymarieseestheteamarie4454
      @tiffymarieseestheteamarie4454 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yep agreed

    • @audrealambert9583
      @audrealambert9583 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Her face has a painfull look her voice sounds defeated.God please help her amen🐞

  • @corimcmahon477
    @corimcmahon477 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1742

    So many of these stories involve molestation. It’s just heartbreaking.

    • @harrisonfunke8466
      @harrisonfunke8466 3 ปีที่แล้ว +122

      Child molesters should get the death penalty. It's on par with murder for the damage it does.

    • @fionnagrant6636
      @fionnagrant6636 3 ปีที่แล้ว +45

      It's everywhere. Most victims never speak about it.

    • @lucyhanna5172
      @lucyhanna5172 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      If you are used as a sex object, it's the road to Hell

    • @WeRNthisToGetHer
      @WeRNthisToGetHer 3 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      Almost all of them. It's my experience that it often does more damage than physical violence abuse because when people see physical scars they will more likely get help for you, but people treat sexual abuse like it's something you just get over but it doesn't work like that. Then the emotional survival mechanisms start to turn on you and people don't want to deal with you and the cycle continues. My dad and stepgrandfather molested me most of my childhood and somehow I avoided some of the pitfalls many of my peers have with drugs and alcohol but I have some pretty severe emotional problems and extreme night terrors. I have a lot of heroin and alcohol addiction in my family and I believe that my trauma from seeing and experiencing the results of that gave me a healthy fear of it as well as the fear of being out of control. I smoke way too much weed though and I start dissociating if I don't have it for a long time. I got pregnant as a teen and they took my babies, as well. I wasn't even on drugs or anything. It just seems to start a cycle of serious problems for kids who get molested, especially by incest. Its the most prevalent and widespread in the entertainment industry but it's also very common in foster care and children's homes. LA is a hotbed for child molestation especially because of its prevalence in the entertainment industry. They have the most lax child abuse laws.

    • @melissabritt9305
      @melissabritt9305 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@WeRNthisToGetHer I'm so sorry that you've experienced those things and I commend your bravery to share and to avoid drugs/alcohol. Peace, love and healing energy to you dear.

  • @jordyphillips5013
    @jordyphillips5013 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    God bless you mark you are so amazing. I wish I could sit down and give you my life story as a drug addict from 12 yrs old untill now 30 yrs old. I'm near Vancouver BC. Love u man thank you for everything you do I wish we had more people like you in this world

  • @raymondsalazar5291
    @raymondsalazar5291 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This channel has made me more appreciative in life.

  • @sophia-es6wk
    @sophia-es6wk 4 ปีที่แล้ว +638

    “I had a fucked up childhood” you see the pain buried deep down within her when she says that. I pray she finds a support system and finds the strength to get clean and sober. She needs lots of therapy and love 😭❤️

    • @markaburns4436
      @markaburns4436 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sadly, I think she's too far gone. I'm in no way trying to criticize her. I just think some people are not capable of getting past their circumstances. It's all she's ever known. To try and overcome everything that got her where she is today would be extremely difficult! Not saying it's not possible, but I think very few would be able to overcome it. It's incredibly heartbreaking. JMO

    • @itwasmeant2b246
      @itwasmeant2b246 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      ​@@markaburns4436 Only because she is on the street with no support...

  • @TrueCrimeTalkWithTaves
    @TrueCrimeTalkWithTaves 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2720

    Her family disowned her for hanging out with black people.....Like the nerve of her them. What they put her through and disown her over THAT?! I feel bad for her. She’s so damaged.

    • @celestejacobs7386
      @celestejacobs7386 4 ปีที่แล้ว +95

      Her family sounds terrible in general. Not surprising that they're racist.

    • @noonexoxo7482
      @noonexoxo7482 4 ปีที่แล้ว +36

      I don't believe that claim at all I think that is a deflection of why they really want nothing to do with her - because she is a selfish drug addict who lies and steals.

    • @joeschmoe373
      @joeschmoe373 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      2020...its time to eradicate all sick blind hatred!!!!

    • @cleombangi3081
      @cleombangi3081 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      @@HB-ey2dk true she might be lying

    • @scullyiv3s
      @scullyiv3s 4 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      Cleo Mbangi maybe, but who knows? nobody but her. she might be damaged mentally by the drugs and abuse. either way, i hope she gets help 🤷‍♀️

  • @beckbeverley3451
    @beckbeverley3451 11 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Firstly RIP and thank you For both of U. he is such an amazing person we can all learn from him. It's terrible what happened and the lack of support and aid for this incredible man. I wish he had a larger voice he could of been given such a voice as his message is so strong. Thank U for giving us the opportunity to hear and learn from one of the most amazing people. Thank you

  • @planetjen8963
    @planetjen8963 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    wait i love the way this was edited in the intro!?! MARK DO MORE INROS LIKE THIS

  • @PR12379
    @PR12379 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1085

    Parents when your child tells you
    That another parent or a family member is molesting them..please believe on them. Do not ignore them.
    This is one of the consequences for a lot kids out there because of the sexual abuse.

    • @user-jd9sj1mq2b
      @user-jd9sj1mq2b 4 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      They know and believe them, but deny it and refuse to take responsibility for it. That's all it is.

    • @marcydw1
      @marcydw1 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Especially not helpful when the very people that I report this type of abuse to don't listen to the child. DFS, CAC and court appointed guardians are complicit also!

    • @christinehayes4543
      @christinehayes4543 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

    • @domoniquemurry5340
      @domoniquemurry5340 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Yeah because alot of them call their kids liars

    • @asciai
      @asciai 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Exactly, what child lies about something so serious? Kids don't just come up with that shit in their head. I know children lie a lot but when it comes to serious matters like this, I highly doubt a child would make that up. Especially the young ones who shouldn't even know what sex is.

  • @Dana-zr7mw
    @Dana-zr7mw 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1705

    As a recovering addict myself, trauma is usually the catalyst for drug use especially sexual assault. A child's brain structure is altered by trauma. I am grateful this man interviews addicts educating the world.

    • @MaMa-uj4pp
      @MaMa-uj4pp 3 ปีที่แล้ว +39

      @@EchoBravo370 : most of all addicts say- when you ask them on the beginning of a rehab - oh yes I had a good childhood!!
      Or at least - I had a pretty normal childhood...
      But by 95 % when you ask deeper you will see that there was a lot of "not normal", a lot of violence, divorses, illnesses - physically and just more psychically, lonlyness, child abuse and neglect, emotionally emptyness, early deaths and so on and on...- in one word - a lots of trauma...!!!
      But if you don't know anything else pretty all is normal for you...!!
      Most of the addicts that you ask after a therapy would not say again that they had a '' good' or just even normal childhood'...!!!!!

    • @ReadyMindsetGo
      @ReadyMindsetGo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Trauma happens on many levels, and a lot of it is unknown to people because it's societally accepted. There are professionals out there who are more and more aware of how this works and also what can be done about it, even later in life (check out Gabor Maté, and Bessel van der Kolk here on YT, just to name 2). But common understanding, legislation and enforcement of legislation are very slow to pick up on the scientific understanding of trauma... often also strongly hindered by politics.

    • @k666ti
      @k666ti 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@EchoBravo370 yes ..

    • @magavelli3199
      @magavelli3199 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@EchoBravo370 Yeah I agree! A LOT of the drug addicts I know were actually from rich families or mostly very good families and nothing traumatic ever happened to them they just couldn't give it up.

    • @gregoriosoutelo414
      @gregoriosoutelo414 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      666 likes, idk

  • @90youngjulia
    @90youngjulia 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I pray you get your daughter back and overcome this addiction that is weighing you down. You deserve LIGHT and you are a beautiful woman inside and out!!!

    • @paulwashington98e
      @paulwashington98e 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hi there? Hope you’re fine and staying safe?

  • @danielledriffill-shelmidin2098
    @danielledriffill-shelmidin2098 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I pray this woman gets help, you deserve the world and I hope your world gets better

  • @LaurelCasey
    @LaurelCasey 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2862

    Completely broken. I wish so much for this woman and her future - and her kids, wherever they may be.

    • @angelajarrell2225
      @angelajarrell2225 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      All I want to do is wrap my arms around her and never let go 😭😭

    • @andrewlink9726
      @andrewlink9726 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Let me just ask you how you can feel bad for someone like this? Like for real? Can’t even think straight because of drugs.

    • @dianaorozco1391
      @dianaorozco1391 3 ปีที่แล้ว +70

      Andrew Link Maybe because we are normal human being with feelings and emotions? Lol? She had a terrible and horrible childhood upbringing which obviously led her to rely on drugs to numb everything that ever went on in her life. Sure it might’ve been HER decision to end up like this on drugs instead of get something good out of it but still don’t bash anyone for ending up like this when they have been traumatized, basically trafficked, abused, abandoned, and struggling their entire life. She is hurt, and as much as she tried to get better, the only thing that sadly helps most broken people is drugs.

    • @india1422
      @india1422 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Andrew Link I think that’s why people feel sorry for her

    • @andrewlink9726
      @andrewlink9726 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      mitch jonas hell yeah! I have no sympathy for someone who sits under highway shooting up crack.

  • @firefeethok_tui2355
    @firefeethok_tui2355 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2821

    One of the saddest stories. She looks absolutely fractured. Shame on the human race.

    • @kvdme
      @kvdme 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      You use written word well.

    • @leonardocosta5966
      @leonardocosta5966 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      😓😓😓

    • @crystala2326
      @crystala2326 4 ปีที่แล้ว +40

      Shame on her parents. It's our job to protect and love our kids. They did neither. No 14yr old deserves a life like that.

    • @tomsylvester8089
      @tomsylvester8089 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      darcie emge yup

    • @jennifercleland4852
      @jennifercleland4852 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yes but most states help these addicts with methadone maintenance. And possibly housing n or a shelter

  • @Cynn955
    @Cynn955 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Bless her Heart! She’s so sad, lonely and lost. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻❤️❤️❤️

  • @rickyrclarke
    @rickyrclarke 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I just saw Christie's video and now it's Feb 2022 ..Christie was understandably despondent and she left me in tears..l pray to God that people give her the respect she deserves!

  • @stfuhannah
    @stfuhannah 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1428

    I’m disgusted that nobody has helped her in life. Everyone has failed her. Hopefully the interviewer didn’t fail her but not providing her with some sort of information on how to get herself clean and off the streets.

    • @stacyyoust
      @stacyyoust 4 ปีที่แล้ว +58

      Ain't that simple

    • @stfuhannah
      @stfuhannah 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      stacy youst to provide her with information?

    • @sonjajerome2616
      @sonjajerome2616 4 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      stfuhannah to get off the street. You could say “jUsT dOnT dO It”, but that does jackshit.

    • @kateadams4994
      @kateadams4994 4 ปีที่แล้ว +30

      Sonja Jerome obviously it’s not that simple but offering her resources or information would at least guide her in the right direction, if she is in fact ready to become sober.

    • @orphan124
      @orphan124 4 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      She already knows how to fix it. Chooses not to. She has choices.

  • @JoeStunner
    @JoeStunner 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1123

    I can't recall seeing a sadder interview with such a damaged person. So immensely sad

    • @rosemariecervellero4003
      @rosemariecervellero4003 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      She really needs help.

    • @annetteyoutube742
      @annetteyoutube742 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I think the first thing is to address her nutritional and health needs:
      1) a safe sleeping environment
      2) optimal hydration
      3) increase healthy vegetables and protein
      4) healthy exercise and movement
      5) safe meditation (the wrong type can bring up the PTSD)
      Getting healthy will:
      1) help her feel better
      2) help her brain work better
      3) make it a little easier to get off the drugs

    • @simplym3_2
      @simplym3_2 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      AML Films also has some very disturbing heartbreaking interviews.

    • @cv-zx5el
      @cv-zx5el 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@annetteyoutube742 no shit...u think if she could get those things she wouldnt? Jesus...

    • @cv-zx5el
      @cv-zx5el 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@annetteyoutube742 healthy vegetables a priority lmao

  • @kwristal00
    @kwristal00 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Is there any update on her? I really hope she's away from this life and healing. 🙏🏻

  • @user-ob3uu2jn3c
    @user-ob3uu2jn3c 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    She passed away last July

  • @shannonmarie6766
    @shannonmarie6766 4 ปีที่แล้ว +266

    If a child says they are being abused or touched, BELIEVE THEM, they may not be old enough to understand or know why it’s going on but they trust you to make the right decision and HELP them.

    • @paulwashington98e
      @paulwashington98e 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hi there? Hope you’re fine and staying safe??

  • @tectonicD
    @tectonicD 4 ปีที่แล้ว +608

    There are millions of broken people like this in America, and most us don’t look nearly this rough. Remember that when you are out in public. Go out of your way to be kind to people. We need it.

    • @rachelw821
      @rachelw821 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      s t o l e n i d e n t i t y exactly... some of us even look pretty together from the outside

    • @vidascupcakes
      @vidascupcakes 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Well said. Thank you for this comment brother.

    • @dakotachavers1160
      @dakotachavers1160 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Right.....I'm recovering heroine and meth addict and I cant tell you how many people say wow when they hear that. All shapes and forms.....

    • @utahboxergirl11
      @utahboxergirl11 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      s t o l e n i d e n t i t y Kindness Matters!!!

    • @dmcjr927
      @dmcjr927 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      My favorite is "shes too fat to be a drug addict" 🙄🙄 my sister's a fat junkie, so I shut that shit down real quick! Unfortunately, I'm not kind to her. But I'm not mean. I just don't have anything to do with her or her kids 💁‍♀️ theres a lot more to it though than her just doing drugs. Point is...you cant just say someone is or isn't an addict by looking at them. Makes me sick.

  • @pattycorm
    @pattycorm 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I really hope things work out for her. I’m glad Mark is going to try to help. Heartbreaking.

  • @joyce9523
    @joyce9523 20 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    RIP😢IVE LOST TWO BROTHERS TO THIS DRUG,THIS ANGERS ME

  • @immilovesJesus
    @immilovesJesus 4 ปีที่แล้ว +670

    “Good luck out there, be safe.” Like, that’s all you’re going to do? Can’t they offer her some help or something to get off the streets?! ANY ONE of us could be on her shoes. I just feel so sorry... I hope she gets clean and finds a stable life with security.

    • @jessybee1389
      @jessybee1389 4 ปีที่แล้ว +83

      That's not so easy... we have countless women in the streets with very similar stories. Los Angeles has streets full of them, and theres just not enough help to go around. I volunteer down in areas that appear worse than 3rd world countries, and I can't help them all. It's heartbreaking and you have no idea how dangerous it is to even try to help them, drugs make them do horrible things to the kindest people.

    • @Mawliefy
      @Mawliefy 4 ปีที่แล้ว +82

      He has done more than most of us. He gave her a voice to tell her story. He is interviewing countless of people, it's not possible to help them all overcome their problems.

    • @brooke4296
      @brooke4296 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      At least give her some food and clothes for doing this interview, people are cheap

    • @brooke4296
      @brooke4296 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Pernille_elise don’t be naive, not every one in this world cares their opinion. And shit happens everyday. Do something practical that can help them is much better to just “ listen to” them

    • @f.k.a1010
      @f.k.a1010 4 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      @@brooke4296 Just shut your hole. How do you know she wasn't given food? Stop assuming.
      As for you, Imani...you can't help anyone who doesn't want to be helped.

  • @kassidi621
    @kassidi621 4 ปีที่แล้ว +944

    I pray for healing and better things for her. She’s someone’s baby that needs love and support. No life is too far gone. No person is too lost.

    • @robertkelly8469
      @robertkelly8469 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Have you ever been lost?

    • @shayloveeee
      @shayloveeee 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Demyanii my heart aches for her🙁

    • @yolandashaw2940
      @yolandashaw2940 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      You are right as long as you wake up there is hope

    • @takingitonedayatatime7851
      @takingitonedayatatime7851 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @Dave Bryant God has always been near. We just overlook him alot of times because we're distracted by something else.

    • @kayla-ln8oy
      @kayla-ln8oy 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Dave Bryant god is not real . the only thing that will help her is a therapist and the hospital and some money and a bath .

  • @endtimeawakening5557
    @endtimeawakening5557 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Bless her precious Soul! Mercy is all that I know to pray!❤🙏❤️

  • @Alltakenbla
    @Alltakenbla 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for this channel.