we love you, and are rooting for you girly!!!!! i really and truly believe that you will do incredible things with your life, no matter the direction you take it
“Everyone understands everything just fine…” no girl, EVERYONE feels exactly what you’re feeling. They’re just really good at hiding it. You are not alone. Go talk to some of your classmates. You’ll be fine. You can do it. And definitely talk to a therapist, a counselor, a friend!
So true!!, I had the same feeling in my 2 years in graphic design, everyone somehow knew how to do it with no issues while I felt so lost and asked for help from some classmates but they were to busy :c
I am at the end of my first semester as a law student. At first, I was a mess, feeling like everybody around me was so much smarter than me but with time and with the help from friends, I accepted that I was here to learn, and therefore it was okay to feel like I didn't know what I was doing. Always remember that everyone is special and has something unique to offer. There are other options besides quitting, but be respectful of your limits.
hello!!! i am currently a sophomore in highschool and have grown an interest in going to law school :) how are you doing? what is law school like? is it worth it? is it fun?! tell me everythingggg
@@Junebug-xm9ui if you happen to really like social studies I recommend, in the first semester all courses have been about social sciences, philosophy, sociology, anthropology, and even economy, I'm aware this will change from uni to uni, but here they make sure you really understand the structures behind the society we live in before going into the heavy legal and procedural stuff, although we had some technical courses like theory of the state and theory of the constitution sometimes the subjects we discuss can be pretty grim which is a bummer, but we have to adapt law to what reality really is and reality sucks, so... but is cool to know that things can get better with a little work I think is also important to mention that I study law in brazil and have little idea of how different things are in other countries, but generally is sort of an art, a dance between moral and law, of self and social, pretty cool stuff
This is probably the realest thing about college I have seen in a while. Thank you for normalizing and showing us good and the ugly it’s such a learning experience to be by yourself and do adult things. As a second year trust me it gets easier just trust in yourself and be patient :)) everything you are feeling rn is a universal experience
Man this takes me back to my first week of film school, filled with existential dread, wondering what I was doing with my life, feeling like an imposter. I never ended up working in film, but I met the people who would shape the next 30 years of my life, some who are still great friends, and had some of the best times of my life. No regrets! Seeing your big portfolio made me laugh remembering what a pain it was to carry that thing across campus in upstate New York winter. Was like having a sail! Best of luck Camilla. You have way more discipline and talent than I had, You're going to do great. Savor every minute of it.
I'm starting film studies in college next week ! If you don't mind me asking what did you do after film school ? I'm kind of lost with what I'm doing and I'm not even sure that film is what I want to do but your comment gives me hope haha
@@livflr My best friend from college got a job setting up a video production department for an ad agency and got me hired as director of videography (the department was just the two of us). It was mainly corporate video. While there I got into 3D animation (early 1990's). We left after three years and started our own company. Demand for 3D was high so I did that full time. That lasted for 25 years. Now I do 3D product visualization and marketing images for a large furniture company. Even though I taught myself 3D (it didn't really exist yet when I was in school), a ton of stuff I did study in school has been very useful. Composition, framing, visual language, color theory, film theory, video editing, etc. My major mixed in a lot of art and photography classes which ended up being really helpful, as did having the opportunity to learn computer graphics and animation at that first job. Good luck! Following your passion doesn't always take you where you expect, but it can still be somewhere you like being!
@@boredomatethecat but saying god's name in vain is just a religious thing, everyone uses popular expressions like "good God" or "good lord" normally That's why I said that
Don't worry. The first semester is always the hardest. Schools do that on purpose to sift the people out who aren't serious about it. You'll slay it, I'm sure!
What I learned in college (I’ve gotten two degrees- in person classes) is that people “appear” to know what the professor is saying, but no one actually does. Everyone is just as insecure as you and they’re probably calling their friends/family saying the same things you are. You’re there to learn and it can be really intimidating! You’re really wise to say you’re going to give it some time before making any decisions to leave the class. You’re going to do great! And your art is fantastic ❤️
Ok I wanna share my experience as a fine arts student (in Egypt ) . I know this feeling of u wanting to drop off but as u said it just see how it is gonna go for this semester, enjoy it ,give it ur best , work hard ,do all ur projects and the most important thing just prioritize ur mental health and ur wellbeing over school cause Ik this time when u pull an all nighter to finish a project before the deadline but plz don’t overwork yourself, so you won’t have the worst mental breakdowns . Make new friends ,and enjoy your time and try to get along with the college and like it I know it requires a lot of work and sometimes the lectures don’t make sense but it is just how it is everywhere, I wanna tell you that you are an inspiration to me and OMG the joy I felt in my heart when I saw the notification. Wish you the best girl and happy semester .
my uncle once told me that you have to do what other people want you to do before you find yourself and get to do EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO DO AND MORE. you learn the rules to break the rules. You have so much potential and are so talented. I believe in you. I'm a 23 year old painter in NY.
BRO YOUR ART DOES NOT SUCK!!! Its amazing and I’m sure there is room for improvement, like everything else in the world does. But your artwork is amazing, as a person viewing it from not the artist eye. Your artwork can only grow from here !
I visited a college a few days ago and thought it was nice. Seeing this video makes me feel that it’s all a trick. They present it nicely, then hit you with reality and stress
that happens with all colleges and universities lmao since its a superior level or education the course work will be heavier that another education level, but its normal, of course colleges will paint it all nice and pink
awww girly you got this!! i just graduated from art school and lemme big-sister you through this. first off: no one knows what's going on in art history, don't worry. everyone's just nodding along and pretending like they've heard these words before, everyone just pulls BS out of their ass - especially in the first couple of weeks. you got this :)) and it'll get easier as you learn more - you're not gonna fail, promise. (also, cute that you're doing the readings - naive and new to art school LOL, (it's not going to last LOL, you'll give up on readings by midterms haha)) 2. i feel you on the drawing class! and if/when you do painting classes - OOF; you ruin sO many clothes. I ended up wearing the same outfit every week to that one class because i simply did not have enough clothes to change my outfit throughout the semester 3. don't stress girl about not having supplies - you probably know now but especially in the first day, most profs will (usually) be understanding if you don't have all your supplies- they know that a lot of students are trying to get the same stuff, so a lot of times art stores run out, so they usually have extra. if not, i'd always help out other classmates if they needed something, and most will feel the same, yall struggling together 4. we all procrastinated. we all said "im going to do this entire assignment today to get it out of the way" and we don't even start it. it's normal, LOL enjoy the luxury of the first week where the consequences aren't that bad yet and you aren't that busy yet 5. sorry to say, but the feeling of wanting to quit, isn't going to go away, i litearlly went through like 4 years of saying every day: "why am i here?" "why didn't i go into engineering?" "what am i going to do in the future" "this is so stupid." "I need to leave" -- but guarantee, a lot of the rest of the school is thinking the same thing; just gotta shift the perspective every once in a while and think about it like ... heY YOU ARE GOOD AT THIS, IT'S GOING TO BE STRESSFUL FOR A BIT, BUT YOU'LL GET THROUGH IT! Just remember that you like art, you enjoy drawing and making things and don't get all caught up about pleasing profs/instructors or being embarrassed in front of your classmates and let yourself just enjoy the process. 6. don't worry, you're not going to fail. only people i know that ever failed a class in art school are ones that didn't show up, didn't finish their work, or didn't hand anything in. as long as you submit somETHING - you're not going to fail. 7. be proud of your work more often! the assignments might be stupid sometimes, and they might be pretty meaningless, especially in your first year when they're teaching you a lot of basics, but make sure you are genuinely proud of at least one of your assignments at the end of each semester. i know a lot of people that went through a whole semester and couldn't find 1 piece that they liked. critiques can be gruelling and demotivating sometimes - you're not always in the mood to be roasted, and it sucks when you thought you'd done well and then get a lot of harsh critiques. so even if it's just a small part of it, maybe you just like the top left corner of this painting, or the colour palette of something, make sure you're proud of at least something. if it helps, make it a tradition to look through your art at the end of the semester (when you're probably going to be cleaning your room after making a mess of it throughout the last couple of weeks), to sit down with all the art and look through it, see how far you've come and find something you're proud of, and one common thing (keep it to 1) that you don't like and want to improve on (ie. anatomy, colour palettes, dynamic composition, etc.) and something that I wish i considered before going into art school: keep all your work. even if you hated it or you hate the outcome or did very bad on the grade, keep them, you'll be happy you did in the future when you look through it again and see 1. how much work you really did over such a short span of time, and 2. how far you've come. you got this girl!! good luck this semester :)
YOU'RE DOING GREAT CAMILA!! Wow 8 hour studios?? I went to my state college and our studios were only 3-4 hours long, that's wild! Through my entire college career, those thoughts of "what am i doing, should I quit" never fully went away, but don't listen to those doubts - ur so talented and if anyone can take on RISD, it's gotta be you!! :3
@@sarahjohnson2164 my degree was focused on graphic design, so maybe our studios were shorter than fine arts? (my school was also not as prestigious lol) but my drawing classes were definitely not even hitting 6 hours!! Kudos to everyone who goes through that 👏
I’m a new sub and I’m 53. I went to college at 30 when both of my kids were in school full time and I felt the same exact way! I came home from school every day and told my husband I was going to quit because I’m too old and I wasn’t smart enough. Well, like you after the first week I only broke down in tears towards finals that first semester. Then in the 2nd semester I remember crying when my kids got chicken pox and I had to miss a week and was so stressed out about it and the last time was when my husband was injured at work in another state and I had to miss another week. It literally got better each semester and by the time I graduated I had a 3.8 GPA. So this long message is to say cry when you need to but don’t worry - you will do amazing!! ❤
You got this! First semester is always the hardest because you have to learn time management 😭 reminder breaks are good !! drawing for yourself is good!! you cant be in work mode all the time or else you will burnout !! College isnt just about learning ur major its also about learning yourself and making strong connections ( friendship/work/mentors) and again you got this!!
Honestly, the one major thing I've learned is even if everyone looks like they understand, they don't. I promise we're all struggling along with you, it got a bit easier for me once I met other people and was able to find common ground so I didn't feel alone. You're doing so well, keep going! c:
You are soooooo going to make it. Don’t quit. I felt just like you at Art School in London. You have a huge amount of supporters cheering you on. Enjoy the assignments even when you have materials and techniques that you’re not resonating with.
Would love to see vids of you going through all the assignments you did each semester or each half semester and just talking about how your ideas are evolving. College is hard, keep up the good work
Literally first few days of art school, they told us that we are definitely gonna cry a lot, and yes... yes we did. As much as it was painstaking, it is good to question your work, its not that its bad, its just where can we take it from here, that will be most of the journey but you improve so so much and you do stuff you wouldn't have done before, so stay strong!! you can do this!!
Gurl don't you worry it's all super overwhelming and different right now but it will calm down soon! I know it seems like everyone else understands stuff when you don't...I PROMISE you that probably at least 75% of the other people in the room feel the same way as you just no one says anything. I felt like that for my entire degree 😂! I don't know how big your classes are but if you're in a position to ask questions and you feel able to, then if you want to..ask for clarity. I guarentee someone else will be happy you asked. You don't know what you don't know, no shame in that. Also you're there to LEARN not to understand what everything means already. That's the whole point! 😁😁 you've absolutely got this! Also please remember so much of art is subjective but OBJECTIVELY..your art does not suck!
Google popped your video in my news feed… probably because I’m an alumna. 40 years ago this fall I felt the EXACT same as you. All the experiences and emotions you’ve shared resonated with me. Shocking how so much of the essence of first week/first semester remains the same after decades. Hang in there!!
I just finished my first month of art school, and lemme tell you. I AM SUFFERING WITH YOU CAMILLA, MY WRISTS SOUND LIKE CEMENT MIXERS BECAUSE OF MY DRAWING CLASSES, AND MY LEGS ARE KILLING ME BECAUSE OF MY 6 HOUR MODEL DRAWING CLASSES AND I HAVE TO STAND DURING THE ENTIRE LESSON.
I just wanted to add this…I just looked at some of your work on your other videos and I’m blown away. The fact is, you are an artist ALREADY! Art school will teach you how to make it a potential future career, and you’ll have a blast along the way learning to live on your own, be self-driven and generally working out life. However, your skill set is outstanding, and I truly feel that your art is amazing, with or without art school. I wish you all the best.
Im currently a junior in art school, honestly i wanted to drop out for the first year and a half lol. I think the first 2-3 semesters were pretty hard for me because I felt very confined by the topics and it got a lot better once I was able to do some topics I actually really enjoyed. Even though I did not enjoy the first 3 semesters I still learned a lot. If you are a perfectionist, I recommend trying to get out of that mindset because I drove myself crazy and had horrible art block because I was trying to make every drawing perfect. Also I found it very important to make time for personal artwork too. Art school can be extremely stressful and its really important to make sure you are able to do things you enjoy outside of school.
I remember carrying around a portfolio that big and having to ride the city bus and then walk up a few flights of stairs for my classes even with an elevator to help, my feet hurt at the end of each day. But you'll eventually get use to it if you stick to it, it will get better. I was very intimidated by everyone in my classes cuz i thought they were better than me and the moment we worked with paint after drawing in charcoal for about 3 months i was panicking big time, everyone else's paintings looked so professional. After i survived the first semester i was back to my "don't care about anything" attitude just went about it normally
as a former risd pre college student there is an elevator that takes you up the hill. go into the textile building w your student id at the bottom of the hill, then take the elevator up all the way, and walk out of the building. you will be on the top of the hill near bolt coffee, just cross to dorms from there! risd can be hard but you got this :)) without the hill it's def easier. also get on the met banana bread, and try charuma for boba
Everything you’re feeling is so valid! Going to school and especially in a new enviornment is really nervewracking but it all feels easier once you get used to your surroudings and the people. Wishing you the best of luck on your endeavors!
Stick with it . I definitely regret not going to art school . I'm 64 now and while I recently started painting again , I always feel like I don't know enough . Everyone feels the way you do right now . As the days pass , you will get more comfortable with everything that is so new to you .
bro. real talk...you scared the absolute poop! out of me ever pondering..."should I go to art school??" honestly, more power to you for sticking it out, that shit looks crazy. I thought 3 months of interior design was tough...WRONG!!!
Never found any art student blog thier experience this much before without just bring music over it, let alone at a school as tough and hard to get into as RISD. Seriously girl, your really talented at what you do. Don’t give up yet! Fellow art student here as well (well more of going to community college since art schools too expensive. You got this!!
I just got my AA and am starting my BA next week. I always want to quit, too. I love psychology, but school gets real. Dealing with feed back again after being out of school for a decade felt like alot. Super proud of you for sticking with it. If it was easy everyone would do it. You're already such a talented artist, just imagine how much you'll grow in 4 years.
I graduated from risd in ‘09. They try to weed people out the first year by giving you more work than you can possibly do, just do your best, they don’t actually expect you to finish all of it!! Networking is where you’ll get your money’s worth so go meet people! Good luck, you’ll be fine!
It could be very stressful and very depressing, but you can do it. Even if you don't believe it, you can do it. It's okay to rest and take time to breathe, and it's really okay to cry. I cry a lot when classes and homework overwhelm me hahaha. But you can do it, take some time to recharge and then do it. I send you a huge hug
im a senior in undergrad rn and i promise you it does get better!! the first few weeks of school are always tough for everyone, even if they dont show it, so just keep pushing through and eventually you'll find your groove. part of going to school is learning new things and you wont be great at everything which is fine! you'll learn what you like and dont like which is a great thing to know earlier in life.
I burst out laughing at "we're gonna finish all the paintings today, because I SAID SO" followed by "I didn't even start them lol" that part was personal for me i have been there too many times
lol this video was such a mood to me in my first semester in art school, overwhelmed, screaming internally, feeling behind everyone, and generally being a complete mess. and trust me its always a tough beginning, but i can tell u it does get better! currently a 2nd yr animation student, it gets easier from here, trust me
Your video sent me back to my art school days. Each emotion, that stress, the overwhelming notions and the haphazard nature of life is so real and traumatic to revisit. I am here praying for you and sending loads of love your way. You are a survivor, you will power through this like a humongous Amazonian tree, standing tall and towering masha Allah
Also, don't forget that everyone else is feeling exactly the same! They may look calm, cool, and collected on the outside, but inside they are freaking out just as badly! So if you're struggling, talk to people. How are you getting on with your roommate? It's been over thirty years, and I'm still friends with my college roommates. Probably due to shared trauma - haha!
You’re there to learn!!! Everyone’s there to learn. You have in INSANE talent, but you’re still learning, and that’s okay. It may feel like everyone’s better than you, but everyone’s at a different level. School is a place to grow and learn so embrace that and try your hardest. 💗
don't worry about not understanding somethings thankfully art is very free, after the basic classes once you reach the major classes and you see your improvement in art it won't be that bad. Trust as a fellow art student I had the same feelings of dropping out, push through YOU GOT THIS.
The first few weeks from home can be pretty lonely, especially if the food, sounds, weather, and people are REALLY different. But you'll adapt and figure it out. The town will start to become familiar, the people will not seem so different and your classes will keep you busy. You'll be fine. What you're going through is normal. You got this.
im also just starting art school (in Mexico, around 5-6 weeks into the course) and i understand the feeling of just starting and having all of those doubts and insecurities, but once i kinda got the hang of it, and all the overwhelming emotions started to clear up i started having so much fun !! you're gonna be surrounded by so many people with the same tastes, similar goals and i think thats one of the best parts, im sure you'll have great friends to go into the path/hell hole that is university LMAO good luck and have fun at school
hey Camila I'm majoring in architecture as a freshman and I swear we had the same first week experience lol. I showed up to class not knowing what to bring, we played with paper to discuss "space" and "gesture", we had a massive supply list that left us all broke, and I have that same Bristol paper and cutting mat to make models. Good luck to us both!
I’m studying Fine Arts too in Greece and I had the same feelings/thoughts the first week , but don’t give up we all are so confused , it’s not an easy study :)
are ur professors actually mental?!?!! yall should have atleast done some tiny medium assignments. but NO them professors just HAD to make it difficult. but i lowkey love the tree drawing. GASLIGHT✨GATEKEEP✨GIRLBOSS✨. the fact that you actually do ur homework is so incredible, cause i havent done my homework and im a MIDDLE SCHOOLER.. lowkey pray for me🙏😭😿
bro i have been obsessed with your videos since the last 3 days and im literally watching them the whole timeeee YOUR ART IS SO PRETTY i love your concepts! hope you keep growing and have a fun time at art school
I went to RISD pre-college this summer and honestly I feel u omg. Though obviously actual RISD is probably wayyy harder,, pre-college was already bad but it looks like ur doing okay so far good luck!
bro college is a true discipline that I have to pat myself off for every day. I am a junior and I can say everything you're experiencing is normal. but ik that things that always seem to be a challenge bring the most change.
Hi Camila! I totally understand when you tried to follow your professor, that was me throughout my college journey. You deserve to be there, it’s just the imposter syndrome hitting because you are far from home. I don’t know much art but i know many others on this channel can agree that you are amazing and creative. I wish you the best and send positive vibes! and don’t forget to take care of yourself🎉
Don’t worry! Everyone is stressed as you are ( so was I ) I couldn’t imagine how many art work you had to do! My drawing professor is going to start a project this week with stuff we bring from home. You got this!
You had a better first week at RISD than I had for sure. I thought your tree drawing was great, and it's nice to see they upgraded the furniture in the dorms!
Hi!! I recently subscribed but I have randomly watched a few videos over the years that were suggested to me. I find you to be super entertaining to watch and your art skills are wonderful!! Further education is very hard, and can be very competitive but it DOES NOT HAVE TO BE! You do not have to compare yourself EVER to still be intrinsically good at your outlet. You will get through this and you will learn, no worries. I wish you the best!!
i love how this video is a whirlwind of emotions. SO REAL.😭😭i’m applying for art school as well and this is already hitting me hard even though i haven’t even been accepted in yet💀
I'm only like a minute in the video, but most of your classmates are most likely feeling exactly like you. They may seem like they understood everything in class but it could easily be them putting up a front and trying to save face. It's actually very common, so don't be discouraged when you don't know something. Better yet, ask questions! That's something rarely anyone does and is such a missed opportunity when no one says anything. That's what you're there for: to learn! It's ok if you don't know everything, but it is important to show that you are willing and enthusiastic to learn to your professors. If they're a good teacher, they will see that and be more than happy to help you. Keep it up, Camila!
Listen, your art is amazing. You shouldn’t compare you art because each style is amazing. You are such a funny person and I love your videos. Have fun at art school!
RISD is my top pick (probably can't afford to go though😭) I love seeing the process. Thank you for recording your suffering. I can't wait to see how things will pan out.
GIRL! i’ve seen you so much on tik tok and i was so in love with your art. i had no idea we were the same age! i’m in the same boat i’ve just started at vcuarts. it’s hellish. we’re gonna GET. THROUGH. THIS! we’ve GOT THIS! we are academic WEAPONS!
God you are so beautiful. You seem like such a genuine person. I know nothing about you outside of your astonishing art, but idk. The vibes are good. I wish nothing but the best for you and your journey
This actually brought me a bit of comfort. I just started art college at lsad on Monday and the anxiety was wild. I literally had thoughts about dropping out on day 2. Glad to know I'm not alone 😅
I plan on going to Risd when I graduate in like 2 years.. I’m scared 😨 but your Risd videos help me to stay encouraged and excited! You’re doing great!
Just graduated from art school this May, started watching this thinking it would be nice to have on in the background while I do some work. Turns out it was TOO relatable and reminded me off all the trauma of year 1 😅😅 hang in there girlie. It gets better!!! Try not to compare yourself too much to your peers because I promise everyone is feeling exactly the same way. You are exactly where you need to be right now ❤️ trust the process
This really made me feel at ease. I feel like everyone around me already knows everything and I'm clueless, but you made me feel less alone. I've been going for a couple weeks at my school and it's consumed me, the first week was definitely a ride. But, this is honestly such a accurate depiction of college that I haven't seen from any youtuber in a while. You're going to slay it up and survive, you got this !!
I swear to you things will get easier as soon as you get used to the teachers, roommates and the actual college place. Don’t worry as much, the first semester is supposed to messiest
Please don’t dropped out! I felt the same exact way in Mexico and I dropped out my second year in arts and plastic and I regret every second of it 🥲 your so talented and smart you can do it!!!
Honestly girl u are doing great! I'm in my second year of graphic design and i relate to wanting to drop out and constantly comparing myself to others. I think making good friends is key to surviving lol, bcz they can relate to your feelings and make u feel less alone. Seriously enjoy every moment bcz it does go by so fast💗💗
I’m actually really glad you’re sharing these vlogs and keeping it real, because now I’ll what to expect when I go to college I hope you feel better tho 💖
I hope you do more of these videos I surprisingly enjoyed it c: also hope you can show more of what assignments you get in class I’ve always been curious to know what kind of work they make you do ✨ good luck in school and don’t give up 😤
You are doing great! It's important to do what you like and something you will keep doing in the future. Down the line you can find out which direction you want to go to. So maybe being an courtroom artist, art teacher, gallery owner or something else. Also don't worry. It may seem as if everyone knows what they are doing, but most of them are also stressed out and rethinking their life decisions. You will be fine. Make friends, eat good and sleep!
NOOOO because I understand. By the way, your art is incredible!!! I'm in a community college and I have to walk 3 flights of stairs!!!. I walk into class breathing as if I just ran a marathon and everyone is sitting in class as if they had Macarons and a freshly blended smoothie for breakfast.....WHY IS THERE CHARCOLE ON MY PANTS....I haven't even put my bag down. The teacher laughing, students making incredible, brilliant art then there's me... Acrylic paint on my wrist, and one earbud working, and Befuddled by how to express emotions and empathy with circles. But you gonna get through it I promise, keep it girl!!
I also started art school this month, I am an absolute wreck and I don't think I've ever felt this exhausted. As an introverted autistic person, I am absolutely drained, like it's fun, meeting people with the same interests and talents, but it's just so exhausting and so much change
Do not let professors or other let you down. Your art is absolutely amazing and others WISH they had your talent. These pretentious professors worry about technique and all this other stuff and are probably miserable because they can’t do what you or others do and hence that’s why they’re teaching. I had an art teacher who was very discouraging and she doesn’t even draw or paint and everything I did sucked to her and I do realism and comic style art 😑. Whatever you do, do not let these professors dumb you down and make you forget how YOU know how to draw or paint. Everyone has their own technique and their way of doing things. That’s what makes and ARTIST! 👌🏼 The BEST artists surprisingly never been to art school, or some just obtain the degree to be able to apply for art jobs that require it. So, don’t quit. Persevere and keep your art spark no matter what! ✨Keep going!!! 👍🏼
You got this! I started uni last year and I really struggled as well. I felt like everyone had so much background knowledge and I was so basic... but the whole point of school is to learn! Hold in there, you got this
this got me LAUGHING thankyouu, i have sick rn and im so lonely but then i saw you so thankyou rlly😂 (keep it up though, you never know maybe you might suprise urself somedayy)
Just wanna say this is so relatable as an art student at a normal college. It's tough, but the first year seems to be for everyone + I dealt with the SAME EXACT THING WITH HULKIN AROUND THOSE CANVAS BAGS!!
Haven’t gone to art school, YET. But my cousin did, and I swear the first year or semester is always SO BAD. But eventually you just get used to it. Stay strong girlie. Art school is BRUTAL.
honestly i relate to this feeling so much back when i started my first semester if art school i kept thinking like why am i doing this and how stressed i was honestly school in general is not my cup of tea i am very much a self learner type of person. But i hope everything goes well i am rooting for you
Good luck camila! Your a wonderful artist don’t let artists whose art is different make you think yours is bad there’s no such thing as bad art it’s art
Oh man. As someone who was in college for 10 years, I’ve never watched anything more realistic in my life. 😂 “I wanna quit” going through your head for years is TRUTH. But I promise it gets easier, even as the workload gets harder because all the first time scary things become normal and you learn to navigate.
IM LITERALLY PSYCHIC i was just thinking i wonder if camilla has posted her artschool video so i check and boom anyway im so proud of you omg you just do what you want to do right now and then youll figure it all out later
Omg you’re going to do great!! I have seen your art and have been a fan of you ever since I discovered you in 2021. I love your art and as a fellow artist who aspires to be like you when It’s time for me to go to college you give me the extra motivation that I need. Thank you so much ❤️
My first time watching. You are hilarious by the way, so I’m subscribing for sure. The work you did in your first week was really good, so don’t put yourself down in any way! I’m sure once you settle in more you’ll start to feel a flow. Good luck with week two. 👍
just want to say thanks again for all the support!! i know i'm pretty dramatic LOL but you guys watching along makes me feel less alone so thank you 🫶
As we should we love ya❤
Your art is amazin😍🤗
We are here for youuuu!! College sounds scary but hopefully you will have a great time (also art history is confusing i understand lollll)
Lol same, it’s my first time away from home and for school purposes so I’d cry to, I’d be the same if I made videos surviving the whole endeavour
Can’t wait to watch!!
we love you, and are rooting for you girly!!!!! i really and truly believe that you will do incredible things with your life, no matter the direction you take it
“Everyone understands everything just fine…” no girl, EVERYONE feels exactly what you’re feeling. They’re just really good at hiding it. You are not alone. Go talk to some of your classmates. You’ll be fine. You can do it. And definitely talk to a therapist, a counselor, a friend!
So true!!, I had the same feeling in my 2 years in graphic design, everyone somehow knew how to do it with no issues while I felt so lost and asked for help from some classmates but they were to busy :c
I am at the end of my first semester as a law student. At first, I was a mess, feeling like everybody around me was so much smarter than me but with time and with the help from friends, I accepted that I was here to learn, and therefore it was okay to feel like I didn't know what I was doing. Always remember that everyone is special and has something unique to offer. There are other options besides quitting, but be respectful of your limits.
hello!!! i am currently a sophomore in highschool and have grown an interest in going to law school :) how are you doing? what is law school like? is it worth it? is it fun?! tell me everythingggg
@@Junebug-xm9ui if you happen to really like social studies I recommend, in the first semester all courses have been about social sciences, philosophy, sociology, anthropology, and even economy, I'm aware this will change from uni to uni, but here they make sure you really understand the structures behind the society we live in before going into the heavy legal and procedural stuff, although we had some technical courses like theory of the state and theory of the constitution
sometimes the subjects we discuss can be pretty grim which is a bummer, but we have to adapt law to what reality really is and reality sucks, so... but is cool to know that things can get better with a little work
I think is also important to mention that I study law in brazil and have little idea of how different things are in other countries, but generally is sort of an art, a dance between moral and law, of self and social, pretty cool stuff
The first year is the worst . It gets much better.
Plss give me an update😭
This is probably the realest thing about college I have seen in a while. Thank you for normalizing and showing us good and the ugly it’s such a learning experience to be by yourself and do adult things. As a second year trust me it gets easier just trust in yourself and be patient :)) everything you are feeling rn is a universal experience
Man this takes me back to my first week of film school, filled with existential dread, wondering what I was doing with my life, feeling like an imposter. I never ended up working in film, but I met the people who would shape the next 30 years of my life, some who are still great friends, and had some of the best times of my life. No regrets! Seeing your big portfolio made me laugh remembering what a pain it was to carry that thing across campus in upstate New York winter. Was like having a sail! Best of luck Camilla. You have way more discipline and talent than I had, You're going to do great. Savor every minute of it.
thank you so much, i super appreciate it :)
I'm starting film studies in college next week ! If you don't mind me asking what did you do after film school ? I'm kind of lost with what I'm doing and I'm not even sure that film is what I want to do but your comment gives me hope haha
@@livflr My best friend from college got a job setting up a video production department for an ad agency and got me hired as director of videography (the department was just the two of us). It was mainly corporate video. While there I got into 3D animation (early 1990's). We left after three years and started our own company. Demand for 3D was high so I did that full time. That lasted for 25 years. Now I do 3D product visualization and marketing images for a large furniture company. Even though I taught myself 3D (it didn't really exist yet when I was in school), a ton of stuff I did study in school has been very useful. Composition, framing, visual language, color theory, film theory, video editing, etc. My major mixed in a lot of art and photography classes which ended up being really helpful, as did having the opportunity to learn computer graphics and animation at that first job. Good luck! Following your passion doesn't always take you where you expect, but it can still be somewhere you like being!
@@ChipMatthews thank you so much for your answer! It's really helping to hear that you don't need to have it all figured out from the start
@@livflr I'm pretty sure I still don't have it all figured out :)
I went on a tour to RISD this summer. Providence is gorgeous but the hills, good lord. My ankles were KILLING me. I feel for you girl 😭
THE HILLLSSS 😭😭😭
Please dont use God's name in vain, it is disrespectful
@@aesqueth2815 not everyone has the same religion as you lol
@@turtl202Just because you don’t share their religion doesn’t mean you can’t be respectful :)
@@boredomatethecat but saying god's name in vain is just a religious thing, everyone uses popular expressions like "good God" or "good lord" normally
That's why I said that
Don't worry. The first semester is always the hardest. Schools do that on purpose to sift the people out who aren't serious about it. You'll slay it, I'm sure!
What I learned in college (I’ve gotten two degrees- in person classes) is that people “appear” to know what the professor is saying, but no one actually does. Everyone is just as insecure as you and they’re probably calling their friends/family saying the same things you are. You’re there to learn and it can be really intimidating! You’re really wise to say you’re going to give it some time before making any decisions to leave the class. You’re going to do great! And your art is fantastic ❤️
Ok I wanna share my experience as a fine arts student (in Egypt ) . I know this feeling of u wanting to drop off but as u said it just see how it is gonna go for this semester, enjoy it ,give it ur best , work hard ,do all ur projects and the most important thing just prioritize ur mental health and ur wellbeing over school cause Ik this time when u pull an all nighter to finish a project before the deadline but plz don’t overwork yourself, so you won’t have the worst mental breakdowns . Make new friends ,and enjoy your time and try to get along with the college and like it I know it requires a lot of work and sometimes the lectures don’t make sense but it is just how it is everywhere, I wanna tell you that you are an inspiration to me and OMG the joy I felt in my heart when I saw the notification. Wish you the best girl and happy semester .
thank you thank you thank you!!
my uncle once told me that you have to do what other people want you to do before you find yourself and get to do EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO DO AND MORE. you learn the rules to break the rules. You have so much potential and are so talented. I believe in you. I'm a 23 year old painter in NY.
BRO YOUR ART DOES NOT SUCK!!!
Its amazing and I’m sure there is room for improvement, like everything else in the world does.
But your artwork is amazing, as a person viewing it from not the artist eye.
Your artwork can only grow from here !
I visited a college a few days ago and thought it was nice. Seeing this video makes me feel that it’s all a trick. They present it nicely, then hit you with reality and stress
that happens with all colleges and universities lmao since its a superior level or education the course work will be heavier that another education level, but its normal, of course colleges will paint it all nice and pink
awww girly you got this!! i just graduated from art school and lemme big-sister you through this.
first off: no one knows what's going on in art history, don't worry. everyone's just nodding along and pretending like they've heard these words before, everyone just pulls BS out of their ass - especially in the first couple of weeks. you got this :)) and it'll get easier as you learn more - you're not gonna fail, promise. (also, cute that you're doing the readings - naive and new to art school LOL, (it's not going to last LOL, you'll give up on readings by midterms haha))
2. i feel you on the drawing class! and if/when you do painting classes - OOF; you ruin sO many clothes. I ended up wearing the same outfit every week to that one class because i simply did not have enough clothes to change my outfit throughout the semester
3. don't stress girl about not having supplies - you probably know now but especially in the first day, most profs will (usually) be understanding if you don't have all your supplies- they know that a lot of students are trying to get the same stuff, so a lot of times art stores run out, so they usually have extra. if not, i'd always help out other classmates if they needed something, and most will feel the same, yall struggling together
4. we all procrastinated. we all said "im going to do this entire assignment today to get it out of the way" and we don't even start it. it's normal, LOL enjoy the luxury of the first week where the consequences aren't that bad yet and you aren't that busy yet
5. sorry to say, but the feeling of wanting to quit, isn't going to go away, i litearlly went through like 4 years of saying every day: "why am i here?" "why didn't i go into engineering?" "what am i going to do in the future" "this is so stupid." "I need to leave" -- but guarantee, a lot of the rest of the school is thinking the same thing; just gotta shift the perspective every once in a while and think about it like ... heY YOU ARE GOOD AT THIS, IT'S GOING TO BE STRESSFUL FOR A BIT, BUT YOU'LL GET THROUGH IT! Just remember that you like art, you enjoy drawing and making things and don't get all caught up about pleasing profs/instructors or being embarrassed in front of your classmates and let yourself just enjoy the process.
6. don't worry, you're not going to fail. only people i know that ever failed a class in art school are ones that didn't show up, didn't finish their work, or didn't hand anything in. as long as you submit somETHING - you're not going to fail.
7. be proud of your work more often! the assignments might be stupid sometimes, and they might be pretty meaningless, especially in your first year when they're teaching you a lot of basics, but make sure you are genuinely proud of at least one of your assignments at the end of each semester. i know a lot of people that went through a whole semester and couldn't find 1 piece that they liked. critiques can be gruelling and demotivating sometimes - you're not always in the mood to be roasted, and it sucks when you thought you'd done well and then get a lot of harsh critiques. so even if it's just a small part of it, maybe you just like the top left corner of this painting, or the colour palette of something, make sure you're proud of at least something. if it helps, make it a tradition to look through your art at the end of the semester (when you're probably going to be cleaning your room after making a mess of it throughout the last couple of weeks), to sit down with all the art and look through it, see how far you've come and find something you're proud of, and one common thing (keep it to 1) that you don't like and want to improve on (ie. anatomy, colour palettes, dynamic composition, etc.)
and something that I wish i considered before going into art school:
keep all your work. even if you hated it or you hate the outcome or did very bad on the grade, keep them, you'll be happy you did in the future when you look through it again and see 1. how much work you really did over such a short span of time, and 2. how far you've come.
you got this girl!! good luck this semester :)
I've never clicked a video as fast as this one🗣🗣🗣
omg same lol
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YOU'RE DOING GREAT CAMILA!! Wow 8 hour studios?? I went to my state college and our studios were only 3-4 hours long, that's wild!
Through my entire college career, those thoughts of "what am i doing, should I quit" never fully went away, but don't listen to those doubts - ur so talented and if anyone can take on RISD, it's gotta be you!! :3
Most studio classes are 6-8 hours long 💀
@@sarahjohnson2164 my degree was focused on graphic design, so maybe our studios were shorter than fine arts? (my school was also not as prestigious lol) but my drawing classes were definitely not even hitting 6 hours!! Kudos to everyone who goes through that 👏
Hang in there!! Freshman year at RISD is hard for everyone, but it's just designed to push us out of our comfort zone as artists. You got this :)
I’m a new sub and I’m 53. I went to college at 30 when both of my kids were in school full time and I felt the same exact way! I came home from school every day and told my husband I was going to quit because I’m too old and I wasn’t smart enough. Well, like you after the first week I only broke down in tears towards finals that first semester. Then in the 2nd semester I remember crying when my kids got chicken pox and I had to miss a week and was so stressed out about it and the last time was when my husband was injured at work in another state and I had to miss another week. It literally got better each semester and by the time I graduated I had a 3.8 GPA. So this long message is to say cry when you need to but don’t worry - you will do amazing!! ❤
You got this! First semester is always the hardest because you have to learn time management 😭 reminder breaks are good !! drawing for yourself is good!! you cant be in work mode all the time or else you will burnout !! College isnt just about learning ur major its also about learning yourself and making strong connections ( friendship/work/mentors) and again you got this!!
Honestly, the one major thing I've learned is even if everyone looks like they understand, they don't. I promise we're all struggling along with you, it got a bit easier for me once I met other people and was able to find common ground so I didn't feel alone. You're doing so well, keep going! c:
You are soooooo going to make it. Don’t quit. I felt just like you at Art School in London. You have a huge amount of supporters cheering you on. Enjoy the assignments even when you have materials and techniques that you’re not resonating with.
Would love to see vids of you going through all the assignments you did each semester or each half semester and just talking about how your ideas are evolving. College is hard, keep up the good work
Literally first few days of art school, they told us that we are definitely gonna cry a lot, and yes... yes we did.
As much as it was painstaking, it is good to question your work, its not that its bad, its just where can we take it from here, that will be most of the journey but you improve so so much and you do stuff you wouldn't have done before, so stay strong!! you can do this!!
Gurl don't you worry it's all super overwhelming and different right now but it will calm down soon! I know it seems like everyone else understands stuff when you don't...I PROMISE you that probably at least 75% of the other people in the room feel the same way as you just no one says anything. I felt like that for my entire degree 😂! I don't know how big your classes are but if you're in a position to ask questions and you feel able to, then if you want to..ask for clarity. I guarentee someone else will be happy you asked. You don't know what you don't know, no shame in that. Also you're there to LEARN not to understand what everything means already. That's the whole point! 😁😁 you've absolutely got this! Also please remember so much of art is subjective but OBJECTIVELY..your art does not suck!
Google popped your video in my news feed… probably because I’m an alumna. 40 years ago this fall I felt the EXACT same as you. All the experiences and emotions you’ve shared resonated with me. Shocking how so much of the essence of first week/first semester remains the same after decades. Hang in there!!
I just finished my first month of art school, and lemme tell you. I AM SUFFERING WITH YOU CAMILLA, MY WRISTS SOUND LIKE CEMENT MIXERS BECAUSE OF MY DRAWING CLASSES, AND MY LEGS ARE KILLING ME BECAUSE OF MY 6 HOUR MODEL DRAWING CLASSES AND I HAVE TO STAND DURING THE ENTIRE LESSON.
CEMENT MIXERS???????!!!!!!! Omg 😭
They force you to stand the whole time?? That's fucked up tbh. What about students with chronic pain and stuff?
Whatever you do, make sure to memorize those wrist exercises and stretches. Even wear a brace or glove if needed. Wrist pain is the absolute WORST 😭
I just wanted to add this…I just looked at some of your work on your other videos and I’m blown away. The fact is, you are an artist ALREADY! Art school will teach you how to make it a potential future career, and you’ll have a blast along the way learning to live on your own, be self-driven and generally working out life. However, your skill set is outstanding, and I truly feel that your art is amazing, with or without art school. I wish you all the best.
Im currently a junior in art school, honestly i wanted to drop out for the first year and a half lol. I think the first 2-3 semesters were pretty hard for me because I felt very confined by the topics and it got a lot better once I was able to do some topics I actually really enjoyed. Even though I did not enjoy the first 3 semesters I still learned a lot. If you are a perfectionist, I recommend trying to get out of that mindset because I drove myself crazy and had horrible art block because I was trying to make every drawing perfect. Also I found it very important to make time for personal artwork too. Art school can be extremely stressful and its really important to make sure you are able to do things you enjoy outside of school.
OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU IVE BEEN WA5CHING FOR THE PAST COUOLE MONTHS AND YOU ARE SO AMAZING WE ALL LOVE YOU SO MUCH ❤️
I remember carrying around a portfolio that big and having to ride the city bus and then walk up a few flights of stairs for my classes even with an elevator to help, my feet hurt at the end of each day. But you'll eventually get use to it if you stick to it, it will get better. I was very intimidated by everyone in my classes cuz i thought they were better than me and the moment we worked with paint after drawing in charcoal for about 3 months i was panicking big time, everyone else's paintings looked so professional. After i survived the first semester i was back to my "don't care about anything" attitude just went about it normally
as a former risd pre college student there is an elevator that takes you up the hill. go into the textile building w your student id at the bottom of the hill, then take the elevator up all the way, and walk out of the building. you will be on the top of the hill near bolt coffee, just cross to dorms from there! risd can be hard but you got this :)) without the hill it's def easier. also get on the met banana bread, and try charuma for boba
aahhh i already know the shortcuts 😭 it’s still horrible tho
aaa that it is, you got this tho@@caamileon
Everything you’re feeling is so valid! Going to school and especially in a new enviornment is really nervewracking but it all feels easier once you get used to your surroudings and the people. Wishing you the best of luck on your endeavors!
Stick with it . I definitely regret not going to art school . I'm 64 now and while I recently started painting again , I always feel like I don't know enough . Everyone feels the way you do right now . As the days pass , you will get more comfortable with everything that is so new to you .
bro. real talk...you scared the absolute poop! out of me ever pondering..."should I go to art school??"
honestly, more power to you for sticking it out, that shit looks crazy.
I thought 3 months of interior design was tough...WRONG!!!
Never found any art student blog thier experience this much before without just bring music over it, let alone at a school as tough and hard to get into as RISD. Seriously girl, your really talented at what you do. Don’t give up yet! Fellow art student here as well (well more of going to community college since art schools too expensive. You got this!!
I just got my AA and am starting my BA next week. I always want to quit, too. I love psychology, but school gets real. Dealing with feed back again after being out of school for a decade felt like alot. Super proud of you for sticking with it. If it was easy everyone would do it. You're already such a talented artist, just imagine how much you'll grow in 4 years.
CAMILA YOU ARE LITERALLY SUCH A MOOD AND I AM HERE FOR IT.
I graduated from risd in ‘09. They try to weed people out the first year by giving you more work than you can possibly do, just do your best, they don’t actually expect you to finish all of it!! Networking is where you’ll get your money’s worth so go meet people! Good luck, you’ll be fine!
It could be very stressful and very depressing, but you can do it. Even if you don't believe it, you can do it. It's okay to rest and take time to breathe, and it's really okay to cry. I cry a lot when classes and homework overwhelm me hahaha. But you can do it, take some time to recharge and then do it. I send you a huge hug
im a senior in undergrad rn and i promise you it does get better!! the first few weeks of school are always tough for everyone, even if they dont show it, so just keep pushing through and eventually you'll find your groove. part of going to school is learning new things and you wont be great at everything which is fine! you'll learn what you like and dont like which is a great thing to know earlier in life.
I burst out laughing at "we're gonna finish all the paintings today, because I SAID SO" followed by "I didn't even start them lol" that part was personal for me i have been there too many times
lol this video was such a mood to me in my first semester in art school, overwhelmed, screaming internally, feeling behind everyone, and generally being a complete mess. and trust me its always a tough beginning, but i can tell u it does get better! currently a 2nd yr animation student, it gets easier from here, trust me
Your video sent me back to my art school days. Each emotion, that stress, the overwhelming notions and the haphazard nature of life is so real and traumatic to revisit. I am here praying for you and sending loads of love your way. You are a survivor, you will power through this like a humongous Amazonian tree, standing tall and towering masha Allah
I genuinely hope you find a love for art school!
NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT!!
Also, don't forget that everyone else is feeling exactly the same! They may look calm, cool, and collected on the outside, but inside they are freaking out just as badly! So if you're struggling, talk to people. How are you getting on with your roommate? It's been over thirty years, and I'm still friends with my college roommates. Probably due to shared trauma - haha!
You’re there to learn!!! Everyone’s there to learn. You have in INSANE talent, but you’re still learning, and that’s okay. It may feel like everyone’s better than you, but everyone’s at a different level. School is a place to grow and learn so embrace that and try your hardest. 💗
don't worry about not understanding somethings thankfully art is very free, after the basic classes once you reach the major classes and you see your improvement in art it won't be that bad. Trust as a fellow art student I had the same feelings of dropping out, push through YOU GOT THIS.
The first few weeks from home can be pretty lonely, especially if the food, sounds, weather, and people are REALLY different. But you'll adapt and figure it out. The town will start to become familiar, the people will not seem so different and your classes will keep you busy. You'll be fine. What you're going through is normal. You got this.
im also just starting art school (in Mexico, around 5-6 weeks into the course) and i understand the feeling of just starting and having all of those doubts and insecurities, but once i kinda got the hang of it, and all the overwhelming emotions started to clear up i started having so much fun !!
you're gonna be surrounded by so many people with the same tastes, similar goals and i think thats one of the best parts, im sure you'll have great friends to go into the path/hell hole that is university LMAO good luck and have fun at school
hey Camila I'm majoring in architecture as a freshman and I swear we had the same first week experience lol. I showed up to class not knowing what to bring, we played with paper to discuss "space" and "gesture", we had a massive supply list that left us all broke, and I have that same Bristol paper and cutting mat to make models. Good luck to us both!
not to mention the insane workload everyone is talking about lol. But I'm having fun so it's fine
I’m studying Fine Arts too in Greece and I had the same feelings/thoughts the first week , but don’t give up we all are so confused , it’s not an easy study :)
are ur professors actually mental?!?!! yall should have atleast done some tiny medium assignments. but NO them professors just HAD to make it difficult. but i lowkey love the tree drawing. GASLIGHT✨GATEKEEP✨GIRLBOSS✨. the fact that you actually do ur homework is so incredible, cause i havent done my homework and im a MIDDLE SCHOOLER.. lowkey pray for me🙏😭😿
That's RISD for you. Or maybe any other art school for that matter 😭
bro i have been obsessed with your videos since the last 3 days and im literally watching them the whole timeeee YOUR ART IS SO PRETTY i love your concepts! hope you keep growing and have a fun time at art school
I went to RISD pre-college this summer and honestly I feel u omg. Though obviously actual RISD is probably wayyy harder,, pre-college was already bad but it looks like ur doing okay so far good luck!
bro college is a true discipline that I have to pat myself off for every day. I am a junior and I can say everything you're experiencing is normal. but ik that things that always seem to be a challenge bring the most change.
Hi Camila! I totally understand when you tried to follow your professor, that was me throughout my college journey. You deserve to be there, it’s just the imposter syndrome hitting because you are far from home. I don’t know much art but i know many others on this channel can agree that you are amazing and creative. I wish you the best and send positive vibes! and don’t forget to take care of yourself🎉
Don’t worry! Everyone is stressed as you are ( so was I ) I couldn’t imagine how many art work you had to do! My drawing professor is going to start a project this week with stuff we bring from home. You got this!
You had a better first week at RISD than I had for sure. I thought your tree drawing was great, and it's nice to see they upgraded the furniture in the dorms!
last time i send a virtual hug, this time i'll send two! you're doing great
Hi!! I recently subscribed but I have randomly watched a few videos over the years that were suggested to me. I find you to be super entertaining to watch and your art skills are wonderful!! Further education is very hard, and can be very competitive but it DOES NOT HAVE TO BE! You do not have to compare yourself EVER to still be intrinsically good at your outlet. You will get through this and you will learn, no worries. I wish you the best!!
i love how this video is a whirlwind of emotions. SO REAL.😭😭i’m applying for art school as well and this is already hitting me hard even though i haven’t even been accepted in yet💀
I'm only like a minute in the video, but most of your classmates are most likely feeling exactly like you. They may seem like they understood everything in class but it could easily be them putting up a front and trying to save face. It's actually very common, so don't be discouraged when you don't know something. Better yet, ask questions! That's something rarely anyone does and is such a missed opportunity when no one says anything. That's what you're there for: to learn! It's ok if you don't know everything, but it is important to show that you are willing and enthusiastic to learn to your professors. If they're a good teacher, they will see that and be more than happy to help you. Keep it up, Camila!
Listen, your art is amazing. You shouldn’t compare you art because each style is amazing. You are such a funny person and I love your videos. Have fun at art school!
RISD is my top pick (probably can't afford to go though😭) I love seeing the process. Thank you for recording your suffering. I can't wait to see how things will pan out.
GIRL! i’ve seen you so much on tik tok and i was so in love with your art. i had no idea we were the same age! i’m in the same boat i’ve just started at vcuarts. it’s hellish. we’re gonna GET. THROUGH. THIS! we’ve GOT THIS! we are academic WEAPONS!
God you are so beautiful. You seem like such a genuine person. I know nothing about you outside of your astonishing art, but idk. The vibes are good. I wish nothing but the best for you and your journey
This actually brought me a bit of comfort. I just started art college at lsad on Monday and the anxiety was wild. I literally had thoughts about dropping out on day 2. Glad to know I'm not alone 😅
this is currently how I’m feeling as an art major, you got this !
I plan on going to Risd when I graduate in like 2 years.. I’m scared 😨 but your Risd videos help me to stay encouraged and excited! You’re doing great!
Just graduated from art school this May, started watching this thinking it would be nice to have on in the background while I do some work. Turns out it was TOO relatable and reminded me off all the trauma of year 1 😅😅 hang in there girlie. It gets better!!! Try not to compare yourself too much to your peers because I promise everyone is feeling exactly the same way. You are exactly where you need to be right now ❤️ trust the process
This really made me feel at ease. I feel like everyone around me already knows everything and I'm clueless, but you made me feel less alone. I've been going for a couple weeks at my school and it's consumed me, the first week was definitely a ride. But, this is honestly such a accurate depiction of college that I haven't seen from any youtuber in a while. You're going to slay it up and survive, you got this !!
NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT?!?!?!?!??!
never 😭 give 😭 up 😭
I swear to you things will get easier as soon as you get used to the teachers, roommates and the actual college place.
Don’t worry as much, the first semester is supposed to messiest
Please don’t dropped out! I felt the same exact way in Mexico and I dropped out my second year in arts and plastic and I regret every second of it 🥲 your so talented and smart you can do it!!!
Honestly girl u are doing great! I'm in my second year of graphic design and i relate to wanting to drop out and constantly comparing myself to others. I think making good friends is key to surviving lol, bcz they can relate to your feelings and make u feel less alone. Seriously enjoy every moment bcz it does go by so fast💗💗
I’m actually really glad you’re sharing these vlogs and keeping it real, because now I’ll what to expect when I go to college
I hope you feel better tho 💖
I hope you do more of these videos I surprisingly enjoyed it c: also hope you can show more of what assignments you get in class I’ve always been curious to know what kind of work they make you do ✨ good luck in school and don’t give up 😤
You are doing great! It's important to do what you like and something you will keep doing in the future. Down the line you can find out which direction you want to go to. So maybe being an courtroom artist, art teacher, gallery owner or something else.
Also don't worry. It may seem as if everyone knows what they are doing, but most of them are also stressed out and rethinking their life decisions. You will be fine. Make friends, eat good and sleep!
NOOOO because I understand.
By the way, your art is incredible!!!
I'm in a community college and I have to walk 3 flights of stairs!!!. I walk into class breathing as if I just ran a marathon and everyone is sitting in class as if they had Macarons and a freshly blended smoothie for breakfast.....WHY IS THERE CHARCOLE ON MY PANTS....I haven't even put my bag down. The teacher laughing, students making incredible, brilliant art then there's me... Acrylic paint on my wrist, and one earbud working, and Befuddled by how to express emotions and empathy with circles.
But you gonna get through it I promise, keep it girl!!
I also started art school this month, I am an absolute wreck and I don't think I've ever felt this exhausted. As an introverted autistic person, I am absolutely drained, like it's fun, meeting people with the same interests and talents, but it's just so exhausting and so much change
Don´t you worry ! ... art school is fun ( been there, done that ) ... and you are talented ! = WIN !
Ok but the way I’m literally in your exact same situation right now so this video just really came out at the perfect time
Do not let professors or other let you down. Your art is absolutely amazing and others WISH they had your talent. These pretentious professors worry about technique and all this other stuff and are probably miserable because they can’t do what you or others do and hence that’s why they’re teaching. I had an art teacher who was very discouraging and she doesn’t even draw or paint and everything I did sucked to her and I do realism and comic style art 😑. Whatever you do, do not let these professors dumb you down and make you forget how YOU know how to draw or paint. Everyone has their own technique and their way of doing things. That’s what makes and ARTIST! 👌🏼 The BEST artists surprisingly never been to art school, or some just obtain the degree to be able to apply for art jobs that require it. So, don’t quit. Persevere and keep your art spark no matter what! ✨Keep going!!! 👍🏼
This is so peak artschool! Love it! I never knew half of why I was doing things, but it was fun! Albeit super stressful at times…
You got this! I started uni last year and I really struggled as well. I felt like everyone had so much background knowledge and I was so basic... but the whole point of school is to learn! Hold in there, you got this
this got me LAUGHING thankyouu, i have sick rn and im so lonely but then i saw you so thankyou rlly😂 (keep it up though, you never know maybe you might suprise urself somedayy)
Just wanna say this is so relatable as an art student at a normal college. It's tough, but the first year seems to be for everyone + I dealt with the SAME EXACT THING WITH HULKIN AROUND THOSE CANVAS BAGS!!
Haven’t gone to art school, YET. But my cousin did, and I swear the first year or semester is always SO BAD. But eventually you just get used to it. Stay strong girlie. Art school is BRUTAL.
honestly i relate to this feeling so much back when i started my first semester if art school i kept thinking like why am i doing this and how stressed i was honestly school in general is not my cup of tea i am very much a self learner type of person. But i hope everything goes well i am rooting for you
Currently procrastinating coloring watching this 😀👍🏻
It will get better, you're an amazing artist. Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us. Rooting for you, girl!
I’m excited this video came out!! I just recently followed, and I’ve just been binging the videos. Glad to get an update!!
youre gonna love art school!!! stick in there!!!!
You can do it!!!! Surpass your limits!!! Im cheering you on!!!
Good luck camila! Your a wonderful artist don’t let artists whose art is different make you think yours is bad there’s no such thing as bad art it’s art
Oh man. As someone who was in college for 10 years, I’ve never watched anything more realistic in my life. 😂 “I wanna quit” going through your head for years is TRUTH. But I promise it gets easier, even as the workload gets harder because all the first time scary things become normal and you learn to navigate.
IM LITERALLY PSYCHIC i was just thinking i wonder if camilla has posted her artschool video so i check and boom anyway im so proud of you omg you just do what you want to do right now and then youll figure it all out later
As someone who just started taking art classes in college I FEEL THIS SO HARD 💀
Omg you’re going to do great!! I have seen your art and have been a fan of you ever since I discovered you in 2021. I love your art and as a fellow artist who aspires to be like you when It’s time for me to go to college you give me the extra motivation that I need. Thank you so much ❤️
i am so alone in the night. this has brought me company in the day
My first time watching. You are hilarious by the way, so I’m subscribing for sure. The work you did in your first week was really good, so don’t put yourself down in any way! I’m sure once you settle in more you’ll start to feel a flow. Good luck with week two. 👍