I found the same things in terms of fear and excitement being the same energy via applying the principle of Polarity, because lol they are in fact polar opposites.
I'm afraid of relaxing again. That's because I'm afraid that what my mind suggests or tells me, might be important and true. And that by just relaxing my focus, I will not take my mind seriously enough. I just don't know what is more trustworthy: my mind or presence. I have been very strongly identified with/attached to my mind since early childhood. Part of me believes that the best option is to get inside the thought-stream and cooperate with what my thoughts suggest. If I relax my focus, I automatically detach myself from the humanity, from the society. And it's scary to me, though it's relaxing. But because of it being scary, I have a strong tendency to return to my mind. BTW: A psychiatrist has diagnosed me with OCD. Maybe I'm experiencing a kind of "backdoor spikes". I am very doubtful about almost everything I do, including sending this comment. I am becoming more doubtful and OCD-like like that, after intense (intense for me, probably not intense for most people) social situations, which I had 2 days ago.
I am my inner-body. My inner-body is tense. I am tense. Sure, there is also free awareness. So at the same time I am peaceful and free. But at the same time I am also tense...
Thanks for these great uploads Luuk! Glad you shared this gem❤
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I found the same things in terms of fear and excitement being the same energy via applying the principle of Polarity, because lol they are in fact polar opposites.
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What if I'm afraid of redefining it? What if I'm afraid of relaxing?
Someth what makes u afraid of relaxing?
Then enjoy it. Just notice it. If you are clear that 'you' experience tension that shows that you are not tense!
Not anymore, thank you :)
I'm afraid of relaxing again. That's because I'm afraid that what my mind suggests or tells me, might be important and true. And that by just relaxing my focus, I will not take my mind seriously enough. I just don't know what is more trustworthy: my mind or presence. I have been very strongly identified with/attached to my mind since early childhood. Part of me believes that the best option is to get inside the thought-stream and cooperate with what my thoughts suggest. If I relax my focus, I automatically detach myself from the humanity, from the society. And it's scary to me, though it's relaxing. But because of it being scary, I have a strong tendency to return to my mind. BTW: A psychiatrist has diagnosed me with OCD. Maybe I'm experiencing a kind of "backdoor spikes". I am very doubtful about almost everything I do, including sending this comment. I am becoming more doubtful and OCD-like like that, after intense (intense for me, probably not intense for most people) social situations, which I had 2 days ago.
I am my inner-body. My inner-body is tense. I am tense. Sure, there is also free awareness. So at the same time I am peaceful and free. But at the same time I am also tense...
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