This video is officially making me cry! Max and Occy, please keep her memories in ur heart. Thank u for being vulnerable and sharing these memories with us.
Max, you have so bravely shared Lee’s truth and we are so unbelievably proud of you 💛. She had SO MUCH life in her years and those four years travelling the world with you are a great snapshot of the fearless, joyful and disarming Lee we all know and love 🌻. Equally as important (but so difficult to share) were those darker days of depression and the dark side to this online world. May it act as a reminder to us all that mental illness can strike ANYONE and that those who shine the brightest can still be suffering. Choose kindness and #SpeakUpForLee We love you 🌞
@@Cindy-hi7gg I can assure you that our support for one another goes far beyond TH-cam comments but I do know what you mean 🤗. Feel VERY lucky to have Max and a few others in our grieving bubble (even if we are half way across the world and stay up way too late on FaceTime 😆).
Hi Eamon and Bec Thank you so much for the amazing ongoing support and friendship you are providing Max. I see first hand the impact your chats have on him. The shared tears, laughter and stories are making each day slowly easier for him. Thank you from my entire family, keep well guys, hope to meet you both one day xx
Eamon & Bec, I agree! This was such a beautiful tribute, so honest, so loving, and yet, so difficult for Max to do. Hugs to all of you as you continue to spread Lee's word and try to help your hearts heal from such an immense loss.
@@tom_bids6023 good to know your family is right there supporting Max. I have visions of sweet Occy licking his tears and lying right beside him also. Sending thoughts of comfort to all of you at such a difficult time. Thanks for letting us know Max is continuing to share his emotions. It helps.
I remember a couple years ago, you and Lee were doing an awareness / fundraiser video about suicide/MH awareness . I commented my thanks, and shared that my brother in law took his life in 2008 (while I was pregnant with his first niece)after experiencing a brain injury from active duty in Afghanistan. Lee responded to my comment with such love and compassion that it made me cry. And she reminded me that Tim was still a part of our family as long as we kept him in our hearts. It meant the world to me at the time. She wasn’t an ‘influencer’ or ‘youtuber’ in that moment. She was a friend. Her words have echoes in my head this past 5 weeks. I hope you find comfort, too. Broken up or not - she’d want the best for you. ❤️
Lee was so amazing and special that she made us feel special too every time we engaged with her in the comments. I felt she was a friend to me too even though I never met her. ❤️❤️❤️ Love you Lee!!
Thank you for sharing this Max, we can’t begin to imagine how hard it must have been ❤️ speaking out and breaking down the stigma around mental health is so important. Sending you a massive hug ❤️
Max, i only just found your channel and this episode. I have had mental health issues for a almost 20 years. I tried going off the medication two years ago. Oh boy was that the worst. I ended up at my doctors pleading fir an appointment to go back on the medication. I am 62 and know i will always be on the medication. I am loving occy. my 14 yo samoyed passed away two years ago. Enjoying watchingvyou renovate you little place. I am a avid bird photographer, i bet you have wonderful birdlife.
Max, I’m from the future, and I want to say, life gets better. You will love again, own a cottage in a rain forest and your family and friends love you. And Occy is happy and loving his home. We all wish mental illness was more understood and I’m writing this to make the point that things can get better. So if you are suffering please don’t give up.❤️❤️❤️
Lee was a gift to the world. Max please never blame yourself for what happened to Lee. You loved her with all of your heart. She knew that. I am sending you a giant hug. Be good to yourself. This video shows how brave and carrying you are.
@@jamieosygus141 It was kinda weird to use caps...it's not preference but cultural expectations. Usually caps are interpreted as yelling. It was odd for you to assign the appearance of capital letters as the preference of an individual.
I realize this post is older but the message is still so now. 22yrs ago I lost my brother to suicide on the anniversary of his Irish twins' death from cancer. I spoke with him on Sunday and was going to see him on Friday. He killed himself Monday morning. I still struggle with it and feel at times I should have known something was up. My heart is forever broken. Be kind always and 🧘🏻🙏🌎☮️ daily. Much love from High Falls State Park in GA. USA
yep its still very sad, oddly it pops up on my recommended all the time, which i'd prefer other max and lee videos where they were having fun instead of this sad moment.
What a beautiful video, Max. We're sure you've put so much pressure on yourself to make it perfect for Lee, and you did. I still can't imagine being able to sit down infront of the camera and speak about the loss of a loved one as candidly as you did.. It was heartbreaking, honest, and you spoke with your heart. Lee was, as you said, too good for this world, and everyone who followed her journey has had to grapple with that loss in some form or another. Sending you love as you pick up the pieces.
A beautiful dedication for a beautiful person,, I just started following you two late 2019 and wished from then on to find true souls on my path like you both are! I’m going through similiar condition Lee suffered. I found peace in my heart listening to Lee share her story and looked up to her... I was deeply shooked by her passing and think of her everyday since. Thank s for your courage for sharing a sweet hommage for Lee. Take good care of yourself and may you be blessed🧚🏽♂️🌞🌈🌹
Mental health is more important than physical health.. you cannot sustain physical health without mental health.. our mind is the most powerful and instrumental organ in our body.. the body follows the mind…
She died so young.. but honestly she lived more life in the short time she was here then most people get the opportunity to live in an entire lifetime.. ♥️ she definitely didn't waste the time she was given and I think that's a bigger thing to remember then how it ended for her.
My therapist told me to do something that makes me happy everyday. Max, you are loved, Occy adores you! I also have an Australian Shephard, a red tri, she is like my therapy dog.
I commented earlier but wanted to come back and say something about online hate talk. The worst thing most of us ever learnt in childhood was "Sticks and stones can break my bones but words will never hurt me." Wrong! Wrong! SO WRONG! I'm gonna quote the inimitable Tim Minchin: "Sticks and stones can break your bones, but words can break hearts." And now I want to quote Max from this vid: "Be kind." Kindness costs nothing, but it can be a gift beyond measure. Big love, Max.
My therapist removed the stigma I was carrying about medication. He said when you can't see you get glasses and anti-depressants are just "glasses for the brain". They have helped me a lot. It also helped me a lot to talk to a therapist.
My ex girlfriend, passed away in the same way as Lee.We watched Max & Lee together. She was strugling too. Never felt free. Until now. She has shown me in ways you won't believe. I don't regret a day with her. Even the diffucult ones. I loved her so much. So Let's speak up together. Let's be strong together. Let's love life together. Once more.
Hope you don't beat yourself over this. "What if I could've done something different." My brother committed suicide and I questioned a lot of things. But I came to the conclusion that there's nothing I could've done differently. You can't turn back time. You get one shot and you try to do the best you can. Sorry for your loss.
@@jffpviana Man muss doch nicht so übertreiben. 🙄 Was hat sie Großartiges getan? Es ist nur das zweite Video, das ich hier sehe, ich vermute, dass sie Reisebloggerin war? Das wäre für mich der langweiligste und sinnloseste Job überhaupt. Strand, Meer, Bungee Jumping. Das sind sinnleere Dinge für mich. Mich langweilen Reisen. Und ich will nicht 200.000 Menschen motivieren mit einem Flugzeug an "schöne Plätze" zu fliegen und für diesen sinnlosen "Genuß" die Umwelt zu zerstören. Ich persönlich würde jedenfalls extrem deprimiert werden, wenn ich dazu Videos drehen und täglich lächeln müsste. Ich würde die Kamera in die Ecke werfen und in meine Heimat fahren. Jeden Tag mehr, höher, weiter, spektakulärer. Das ist klar, dass man als Influencer innerlich ausbrennt. Ich dachte schon zweimal darüber nach, mein Leben zu beenden, (wegen PTBS/ erlebter Gewalt). Aber: Während COVID wäre ich nie auf die Idee gekommen. Zu dieser Zeit wurde nämlich mein Vater krank und ich war rund um die Uhr beschäftigt ihn zu retten. Ich hatte monatelang etwas Sinnvolles und extrem Wichtiges zu tun! Er war so dankbar. Echte Dankbarkeit und dieses glückliche Lächeln. Das ist echte Befriedigung. Das erhält den Lebenswillen. Lesen Sie Viktor Frankl, den berühmten Psychiater der gegen Suizid geforscht hat. Der fehlende Sinn ist das Übel. Eine fehlende Antwort auf "wozu das alles"? Und ich muss sagen in meinem Land gibt es unzählige Influencer, die von ihren Depressionen sprechen. Vor allem junge und sehr reiche Menschen, die alles haben, reden darüber. Zuwenig gesprochen wird bei uns definitiv nicht, es ist ein Dauerthema. Ich bin der Ansicht, dass Reisen von der eigenen Seele wegbringen. Soviel Neues. Überflutung, sinnleere Orientierungslosigkeit. Warum nicht an einem Ort bleiben und zur Ruhe kommen? Werden Sie Farmer, suchen Sie sich eine solide Aufgabe mit sinnvollem Ergebnissen. Harte Arbeit, das härtet ab. Es ist spannend all die Tiere zu beobachten und zu pflegen, oder die Ernte zu bewachen. 😣 Es ist NICHT der Genuß, der ein Leben befriedigend macht. Es ist der Sinn! Ich weiß, Sie wollten etwas Nettes sagen, @jffpviana. Aber es ist doch Unfug wenn man Dinge schönredet um "Trost zu spenden". Wenn man jungen Menschen einredet, dass man mit viel Action dann ein erfülltes Leben als Ergebnis haben, dann wird es schiefgehen. Wie ein Hamster im Rad, der ewig rennt. 🙄 Vielleicht ist genau dieser Lifestyle der Fehler. Das ist so, als würden Sie einem einsamen Witwer sagen "du bist nicht allein" sobald er auf dem Marktplatz von Venedig steht. Ja, dort sind viele Menschen, das stimmt. Und viele Menschen würden dort gerne Urlaub machen. Aber das heißt doch nicht, dass DORT die Einsamkeit des Herzens weggeht. Einsamkeit kann dort extrem hart zuschlagen. Ich finde es zudem unglaublich verwirrend, wenn in diesem Video so viele fröhliche Szenen gezeigt werden. Sowas ist nur die halbe Wahrheit und kein Mensch will Halbwahrheiten sehen. In der Werbebranche gibt es genügend davon. Um Suizide künftig zu vermeiden wird man über Auslöser konkret sprechen müssen. Ich glaube nicht, dass einem ehemaligen Lebenspartner diese Aufgabe gelingen kann. Ärzte und Psychiater sind da besser geeignet. Ich finde es auch schwierig, wenn jemand seinen Channel weiterführen will, aber kritische Kommentare zensiert. Das hilft dem TH-camr. Aber es hilft anderen nicht. Keinem lebensmüden Menschen, keinem Angehörigen, ist geholfen wenn man behauptet: "Wir hätten nichts besser machen können." Diese ewigen Floskeln blockieren die ernsthafte Forschung, die herausfinden will, ob man nicht doch etwas besser machen kann. Natürlich gilt dem Channelbetreiber mein Beileid für den Verlust. Aber ich bin es gleichzeitig leid von Hinterbliebenen zu hören "Da kann man nichts machen", während es ehrlicherweise lauten muss: "Ich konnte es leider nicht verhindern". Geben Sie der Suizidprävention mehr Chancen.
I have lost all my friends due to chronic depression due to chronic Lyme disease. I cant believe I am still alive, I have no human in my life. My animals are the only reason I am alive. Otherwise I would have ended it a long time ago. And also antidepresants doesnt help people with lyme because the brain is being poisoned by the lyme spirochetes (bacteria) 😪
Anyone who dislikes this video doesn’t understand the magnitude of what you’re doing. Focus on the positive and the good in the world. It can literally change someone’s life... (Edited for grammar)
As a sufferer of chronic, debilitating depression and anxiety, Lee's death has had an impact on me that can't be fully described and due to the disconnect and brain fog that comes with this disease, I won't try. But Max, please know that there was NOTHING more you could have done. The beast that is clinical depression has a mind of its own. It doesn't know logic. It can't be reasoned with. It cannot be penetrated. To highlight that point, I have the most supportive, loving, patient, kind and compassionate husband who is a gifted listener. And yet my depression persists and I have been close to suicide many times, despite having a "great life" and an ideal marriage that many people will never attain. So PLEASE, Max, do not blame yourself. You are a kind and decent man, but at a time like this you are only going to see your own faults and shortcomings. Any perceived failures on your part did not cause Lee to take her life. Lee's personal monster did. None of Lee's loved ones could fight or win the battle for her because the battle was hers and hers alone. That is the nature of this horrid beast. Despite massive support and love, ultimately you have to fight it alone. Hugs to you and everyone who is grieving this indescribable loss. And my heart goes out to all those who suffer from this destructive and relentless disease.
This comment is perfect. After battling depression/anxiety since the age of 17 I agree there’s NOTHING anyone could have done for Lee at that crossroad in her illness. We loved her and we love you too. Be kind to YOURSELF. Allow us to comfort you. You deserve it.❤️🙏🏻❤️
@@morningstarscotty.8656 it’s usually when I’m in what I call “The Pit”... on medication that seems to be working right now so insomnia now due to Fibromyalgia!!! You win some you lose some!❤️
Forgive yourself for what you think you “should have” done. Lee already did. She would not want you to throw your life away with regret. Being a forgiving person requires that you also forgive yourself ♥️
I am happy to say that I supported Lee earlier this year when she was attacked for using the “Max and Lee” channel to show videos of Jordan and her. I am happy to say that Lee responded personally to me so I feel like she heard my words of encouragement. At 68, I am a lifelong sufferer of depression. I understood what I saw in Lee’s last vlogs. She was trying so hard to appear happy and “normal.” But it was not really her. She was fighting depression the best way she knew how. Sadly, for all of us, Lee chose suicide to end her pain. She suffers no more. I think “we” have been waiting to hear from you Max. I have to say that through it all, I never felt like you quit supporting Lee. I don’t feel like you judged her for introducing Jordan on your shared channel. Your feelings and love for each other was deeper than any pettiness could destroy. My heart aches for you. May you heal and know that only Lee could save Lee. She knew she was loved. Sometimes it just doesn’t matter. Sometimes it’s not the “cure.” Love to all. And for all who suffer from depression, please, if nothing else, take it one day at a time. Tomorrow could be the best day of your life. 😎✌️🤙🤘😎
I have suffered depression and anxiety on and off for 30+years. As a nurse, spending all my time treating/healing others, everyday I would put on a smiley mask so that people around me wouldn't see that I was dying inside. I have been close to the edge a few times and have needed crisis intervention. When you come back from the edge you realise how bloody scarey it is being in that place. I know people say its a permanent solution to a temporary problem but its not that easy. When you are that close to the edge, you don't want to die, and leave all your friends and family, you don't want them to hurt as much as you do right in that moment, all you want is for the pain to stop, and quite often you will have tried many other ways and means of solving or treating the problem and none of it works, and ending it all seems to be the only answer. What you have to remember is that when you get to that point you are not seeing things clearly or rationally, you know your family and friends love you but that doesn't ease your pain. It is not something you can just "snap out off" or "pull yourself together". When my mood is low and I'm reacting to things I can hear myself saying that I'm being totally unreasonable but thats the chemical imbalance I'm my brain. So yes before you speak your mind, either verbally or written think, is it correct, is it necessary, is it kind because you never know the impact those words could have on someone else. You don't know what they are dealing with and your words could be the last straw. If you disagree with someone's post, and you can't be nice scroll by. Like @Max and Occy said if you see someone else being unkind, report them. I understand there were some who were very unkind to Lee on social media and that must have affected her massively with her struggles, and whilst we don't know what it was exactly that drove her to that drastic action that day, I'm sure some of those harsh words would most undoubtedly will have stuck with her. Trolling, bullying and harassment is unforgivable. Lee, sweetheart, I hope you have found peace from your struggles, God bless you, you beautiful young woman. Please watch over your loved ones and keep them all safe. 💜💜💜
THANK YOU for speaking up for Lee, Diane. The last line of your comment is SO TRUE and I wish all pepole suffering from depression could remember and take to heart; “tomorow could be the best day of your life”. Holding onto that faith & belief in tomorrow is the challenge when one is living with depression and/or anxiety. But absolutely the best advice ever. God bless Max for preparing such a difficult but necessary & honorary video to Lee and #speakingupforLee as you did too.. ❤️🙏🏼
Oh Max. I’m heartbroken again and again and again. She didn’t have to know someone in person to crawl inside their hearts. This is such a huge loss. I’m so sorry you have to walk this road.
It can be incredibly difficult to open up about depression, I remember when I first told the doctor about it or my therapist I couldn’t hold back the tears, but it’s so important to let it out and seek help, I’ve tried “fixing” depression on my own first and also was embarrassed that I even had it in my normal, good life. But like you and many people said, it is much more complicated than just being sad, and in my case only second time going on medication I’ve started to really feel the change in how I feel. So thank you for being brave and open and speaking up, I know Lee would’ve wanted only the best for you going forward, much love to you and your loved ones.
For all those like myself who rarely comment, I'd like to say that our prayers are with you and Lee's family. So many that simply won't comment but their hearts are with you.
You have no idea how many people kill themselves and no one care. A LOT of good people with good intention being left by themselves in an hopeless situation. Yet, Big corp like TH-cam, Google, even Gov and Biggest Corporations in the world, don't care. Been there.... My Actual Suicide tendencies just became melancholic Music... I Hate This World with Passion.
Fly high sweet Angel. Covid definitely played a huge part in mental health. Lost my world on April 27 2020. When my sweet boy gave into it. He was 21. Be kind. Be kind. Be kind because you never know what someone’s going through
My heart aches for you. I hope you have found some peace. Although our memories and love can help to sustain us, nothing means more than having our loved ones with us in our life. Godspeed to your beautiful son.
Max, what an incredibly beautiful ending to a very courageous video. I wanted to share with you that Lee’s story has been really life changing for me over the past 4 weeks. It inspired me to check in on my mental health for the first time in a while. After reflection, Lee inspired me to completely remove myself from Instagram stories and my life in the past month has been more filled with joy, less anxiety and we’ve had a stronger marriage. I am forever grateful to her and to you and your community for Speaking up for Lee. Her story has now truly changed my life. 💕 Continuing to keep you in our hearts, Fin
Thank you for sharing this message with us ❤️ i hope you Will speak about it on youre channel (did not know youre channel) but you can see how much 1 person can change so many people 😢❤️😘
THANK YOU for this. I'm a psychotherapist and have seen close up how painful suicide can be. "We believe in being good people", there is no better epitaph for Lee. You have done us all a service and this needs to be spread throughout. Social media can be a gift (your travels to SA reminded me of my own life journeys) but it also has its dark side. Let's all be good people.
Bless you. I suffer with mental illness and just last Sat. was my last suicide attempt especially after seeing this. I'm back on my antidepressants and have had a rough start but am doing a bit better now after my start date April 24/21. Please everyone, please be kind when texting on social media as you have no idea what people are going through in their lives. God bless you all and please stay Healthy & Safe. 🙏❤🙏
@@jean-63 the world needs you in it. I promise you that. I know personally how hard that is to believe when you’re so deep in the pain and darkness that depression brings. But we all have a purpose here and it’s worth the fight. I’m proud of you for muscling through the hard times. Keep it up. One step forward at a time. Healing hurts like hell but it’s worth it. 💙
@@Suprachiasmatic Thank you for your kind words 🙏 but I'm 57 and have been fighting this battle to long and just wish science could figure this out and cure all of us. Right now I'm fighting every day not to go through with it and when you live in a small town up North (Canada) and the health care system fails you and your mental health worker kicks you to the curb and Life Skill worker kicks you to the curb, it really makes me wonder if I should listen to my step niece that told me to go kill myself on IG for the world to see. * *TEARS* *
Thank you for your vulnerability and courage Max. We learned a lot from this video and we can't thank you enough for talking more about mental health and cyberbullying. We wish you and Occy a lot of light and healing throughout your journey.
Oh Max... 💔 This video is a perfect tribute to an amazing soul. She lived a whole lot more than most people in her 28 years. Lee deserved a fighting chance. Our healthcare system is awful.
It really is awful. It can take years to get the meds right and months to get in with a doctor that takes insurance. Can you imagine asking someone to hold on for that long that had cancer or diabetes. Mental illness is just as critical. People also need to understand that these serious illnesses show up in women around age 25 and men around 19 and waiting to seek help will only increase the time it takes to get depression or mania under control.
@@zenseed75 I will never look at anyone on or offline the same again. Who would have thought that beautiful smile was hiding so much pain. Changed forever.
This was posted on the eve of me doing a fundraiser sunrise walk to raise awareness around mental health. The only reason I sighed up this year was for Lee ❤#darknessintolight
TEARS........I only "knew" Lee by your videos together, and "floored" doesn't begin to explain my own reactions to her death. I'm 65; this hit me hard....... and I have to admit, I'm only still around because I never wanted to hurt my parents if I ever went thru w/ it all. My dad is 91; it would crush him.....and that's my secret vow to self: Don't.
It's only a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I can relate, I have been there. I'm 67 and have lost my whole family. Alone is harder, stick with positive people. Throw out the trash, draw lines and take care of YOU. My advice to myself as well. Jesus bless you 🕊
tommy i feel the exact same way. when i learned the news i had the hardest week. haven't felt the same since. :( i struggle with depression and anxiety and know how hard it is. just know that i want you here and the only thing we can do is keep trying. things will get better.
Thank you for sharing. I was in total shock when I heard the sad news and it hit me pretty hard, even though I only knew you both through You Tube. You both have such magnetic personalities. Please get all the support and help you can to cope with this difficult loss, I’ve been worried for you. 💔. Recovery is a journey and you will have good days and bad days and go through all the emotions even anger at times. Please take care! You’re doing great! Everyday will get a bit easier!
Thank you Tommy. You just described what I felt for a very long time. The only thing stopping me was the pain would be unbearable to my mom. Losing my dad in 2014 was difficult for us both . But being the only person,by law, to have to decide to pull the plug on my uncles (her baby brother) life support in 2012 was unimaginable. I could not put her through anymore pain. I was grateful that I resources to reach out to for help. And it saddens me, yet does not surprise me, that she could not get the medical care in the US that was desperately needed. Please, everyone reading these com comments, if you are struggling reach out to someone , anyone. And those who don’t suffer from any form of depression, remember this time. No one, not one person should ever be denied mental health care in this,the so called greatest country in the world. Perhaps we should suspend using that title until we actually begin acting like it. A beautiful soul was lost and as easy as it is to point fingers, we all should look in the mirror. If you do not like you reflection, seek help. If you are sad , angry , and are tired of losing people to suicide and depression, reach back and help those in need . Pull them close . And fight for more access for all and especially mental health care. Some of us are just a family members death away from the unknown. #SPEAKUPFORLEE
I’m late at commenting but i wanted to say i had a Lee too. She was my closest friend since age 13. When Rox was up, she was the brightest light I’ve ever experienced. She unalived herself in 2005 and I fell apart. Bipolar is hard on sufferers. I was blessed to know such an unusual woman for 35 years. I now accept her choice. I just miss her friendship and extraordinary love. This is a lovely tribute to Lee. Bless you Max.
I don't think you could've made a better video for Lee. She is an angel who in your own words was too good for this world. I cannot think of a more empathetic soul. bless you Max and everyone who's Lee's passing has effected.
Dear Max, what a beautiful and incredibly moving tribute to Lee. By sharing your own story you've amplified her message about mental health. A river of tears are flowing around the world. Peace, love, and kindness. 🙏
I really hope everyone who ever wrote a horrible comment about Lee takes a hard look in the mirror. Such a devastating loss - thank you for this video Max and for opening up about your mental health struggles. You continue to impress me with your strength, intelligence and determination, well done!
Thanks Max while I was watching this I’ve been in the midst of a major depression episode and I’ve been trying to push through it alone. I booked an appointment with my doctor before the end of the video. Thank you for your beautiful tribute to Lee.
@@Helen-mh8mqthank you! Yes, I ended up getting on antidepressants and it’s been ok. Getting used to them has been a bit of adjustment but I’m starting to feel better. I didn’t realize how bad the anxiety was until they started working.
@@selahrisinghey there! Just checking in on you. How are you doing? I wanted to tell you about psilocybin. It has been so helpful for my depression. Do I still struggle with depression? Yes, but nearly as bad as it used to be. Anyway, look into it if you’re ever feeling like giving up!
Max, I’m crying along with you. We’re all crying along with you. This loss is huge and will affect this community for a long, long time. I don’t even know what more to say. Love you Lee ❤️
I still can’t believe she is gone from us. I just wanted to wish you and Occy continued joy and bliss on your journeyʻs. Lee was an angel and a bright shining light of love for this world. I miss her and all 3 of you together. 🙏🏽😎❤️
This came back up onto my feed almost 3 years after her passing. Lee had such an impact on me and she still continues to influence the way I go through my day to day life. Lee showed us that your struggles aren’t to be fought on our own. She showed us the importance of community and transparency. Thank you Lee ❤
I had my 5th brain surgery at the beginning of Covid. And no one was allowed to visit for a month. I am a lot like Lee, very social, happy, adventurous and suffer from depression. My fiance lost his brother to mental illness in 2011. Lee was a beautiful person. Her light burned bright & hot! I'm glad you have these videos, to remember some of the great times! Do not go down the guilt road. It is not your fault. Mental illness is stronger than most.
I don't understand how anyone could write anything negative about/to Lee. She was such a beautiful, and caring soul. This makes me so angry. I'm so sorry that she had to go through that. She didn't deserve it. No one does.
WOW. I'm a Paramedic in Canada and suffer from PTSD and Depression. My name is Shane and I want to truly thank you for such a heart felt video. I have followed Lee and others that you are tied to. When I heard about Lee it broke my heart and and I can truly relate. Your candour is truly a breath of fresh air. I have just started following you and you are an inspiration and a leader. As was Lee and you cant beat yourself up, My heart goes out to you, Lee and everyone that knows both of you. Thank you so much for doing this video. I have been suffering due to 17 bad paediatric calls that went south. Luck of the draw they say. I have been struggling with this for sometime now and you have made an amazing video that allow a glimpse of inside life of Lee and yourself. Keep up the great work and continue on. I know you went to Emman and Becks and other van people but if you're ever in Ontario again from one medic to another you have a place here anytime. Cheers and thank you
Depression is a horrible disease. I too was a very outgoing and confident person, then in my late 20’s depression set in. I have been on antidepressants since then and now I am in my sixties. I am a loner and that is how I cope. Watching you and all the other van lifers is my escape, you have all helped me soooo much. You are all my extended family. It is difficult to talk out because people just don’t want to know, I don’t even speak with my three daughters as I know it upsets them and they worry about me. I am OK so long as I remember my meds. I fought against taking medication as I felt such a failure but now realise it is a chemical imbalance and not my ability to move past it. My heart goes out to you and Lee’s family and everyone effected by this great loss. We owe it to Lee to move on with our lives and enjoy ourselves, have fun and help each other, that is what she would want us to do. Thinking of you Max and Occy. 😘🙏🏻🙏🏻
Max, I have followed you, Lee & Occy since the very beginning. The three of you brought a tremendous amount of joy to life over the years. The loss of Lee is absolutely soul crushing. I was driving when I got the notification of Lee's passing and I literally yelled, Nooooo! I have mourned her death in a way I didn't think was possible for a person that I'd never met. She was a LIGHT and will continue to be a light through all of us! Her energy is still here. Her essence is still here. ❤ I've struggled with depression this year in a big way... pretending to be okay. I don't do that anymore. I've spoken out about my own mental health struggles with friends who have in turn done the same. Lee and I share the same spirit and energy. When she said that she had lost her joy and felt like she had nothing left to give to the people around her... I felt this in my core. I'm a fixer, a hugger, a laugher, a "counselor", a listener, a cheerleader and above all a lover. On my bad days, I share the sentiment of those words. My purpose in this life is to love people just as they are. My "energy" is a gift for other people and without it I feel like I'm unable to contribute. Lee's life and death have greatly impacted my life. She was one of the most beautiful souls and I believe you're correct in saying that she was too good for this world. I'm sending so much love to you and Occy and everyone who loved Lee. 🙏 - Sasha Leigh
Brother, let me tell you that was straight courage making this video. I’m terribly sorry for your loss. Over these past couple years I’ve followed your journey together and there was no doubt of the love and bond you two shared in all of the incredible experiences discovered together. It was Occy that first brought me into your world. An Aussie lover seeing an Australian Shepard in Costa Rica? So cool. Then I watched every episode over time and I am grateful for all of it. I grieve with you for Lee was an old soul. As you said, too good for this time. Yet this is just a part of your own journey, and watching this I felt relieved and gutted. So now you must move forward and I will follow your journey, as we all will. And we will always love and remember Lee by spreading the message #SPEAKUPFORLEE You are loved mate. Now you and Occy keep sending us a postcard now and then...🐺
Max You are the bravest man that I have ever known. It takes an Extraordinary person to bear their heart to just one but you did it to everyone for the sake of Lee. You are a shining example of what a man should be in this time of deepest sorrow. We all love you and are here for you. Thank you for passing on Lee's message to the word ❤
A beautiful and heartfelt tribute, I lost an ex girlfriend to suicide in 1997 she was 30yrs old, the grief was brutal and I still think about her, it’s a lot harder to have to grieve so publicly and have people comment on it, and also not being able to go to Lee’s funeral makes it more difficult and the grief more complicated. Be gentle on yourself. Take care.
Hang in there! My wife lost her battle against depression a few years ago we were together 32yrs. It will always hurt but the hurt periods get shorter and fewer as you emerge into living and breathing again. I chat to her from time to time but l got stronger and live again as you will. Take care Mike
This year, I nearly lost a friend to suicide. She Texted me and said she was going to end her life. I called the police and they were so kind to her even when she bit one of them and tore off her clothes screaming. I lost a friendship with her, but I am at peace with knowing she is still alive. She chose to no longer be my friend and I can live with that. I am truly saddened by the loss of Lee. She was a vibrant, beautiful young women who was stronger than she realized.
Such a terribly difficult decision to make. But I’m proud of you. Having worked in emergency mental health I’ve seen the aftermath of these calls and so often I’ve seen people heal and apologize for being angry with the people who loved them enough to save their life even though it was a risk to their relationship. Even if you never get an apology you did the right thing. It takes a strong and empathetic person to risk a close relationship for the greater good. 💙 hoping the best for your friend, and for you. May all heal with time.
Everyone needs a friend like you! And I'm SO glad that the police handled it well. Sadly, that's not always the case and the police are not to blame since they are not mental health professionals. So much has to change before we can truly get those with mental illness the help they need, myself included.
Godspeed brother!!! I lost my son to suicide in 2019. I understand how devastating and surreal life can be in the aftermath. Just be good to and take care of yourself, reach out and ask for help if you need it, and remember it’s okay to not be okay. Sharing this was a very brave and beautiful thing for you to do. Love and. Respect to you!
Max... I just wanted to jump through the screen and give you a big hug bro! We are all torn over what happened, and I commend you for speaking up for Lee, for yourself, and for others who are suffering through mental illness. Thank you mate! Bryan from Vancouver
Wow ...what a light she was so full of love n life ... beautiful jist absolutely beautiful ❤️ she will be missed loved and still talked about alot ...rest now Lee .💜🙏🏻
I reached out to my daughter today ..... thanks to you and Lee. Lee’s death scared me as I know in depression I am not thinking clearly and making the best decisions. I am making lots of poor decisions ...... Lee gave me hope as like me getting up and accomplishing things was very difficult for her. I realized I was not alone. I saw myself in Lee even though I am her parents age. Outgoing and friendly to the world and dying inside. I tried to explain to an old friend how much I was hurting .... last September, but she cut me off after over 50 years of friendship. Some people do not understand depression or possibly are not ‘real’ friends. You both helped me to be honest and brave again even though the first time it did not go so well. As I watched you share about how much harder van life was alone my 💔 broke for you. I could feel your pain. I was glad you went to meet up with a new friend in Tasmania. I saw you genuinely having fun again! I think you are falsely taking responsibility for the online bullies ..... I thought you were very classy and heard you speak up for Lee. Guilt is anger turned inwards. You do not deserve that .....please be kind to yourself too. You are a great guy! I truly think trolls would not have listened whether you spoke up once or twice like you did or a million times. No one deserves bullies .... I say block and delete or turn comments off during vulnerable times. Model kindness and change one person at a time. I do not usually read comments left for others so I was surprised when I heard you speak up. I had no idea she had trolls. I truly think Covid isolation threw gasoline on a fire she was already fighting. Her difficulty getting the needed healthcare crippled her ability to fight ...... the bullies were the nail in the coffin. It simply was too much to deal with. The effort to put on a happy face was too much pressure. I do not think anybody could have done anything more. Lee was well loved. She needed to be home in Canada getting professional health. Her family, her friends, you and her newest partner are in my prayers. Grief is a long road and has many setbacks that hit you like waves when you least expect it. It was easy to see how much people loved Lee..... there was so much to love about her. Speaking up for Lee is really helping people. I know because it helped me speak up when I had given up. Lee’s light continues to shine bright! Sending prayers and hugs to you all. I am glad you are surrounded by friends and family. 😪🙏🥰😓
Hope you found a better person to replace that one who rejected you.. She was not strong enough to give you the support you are needing.. I'm praying for you sweet soul.
My dearest Max, this is the bravest and most honest video I have ever seen. I wish I could reach through the screen and hold you close. There is a big community here who care for you and love you so very much, please take care of yourself before you take care of the world. You cannot pour from an empty cup, please fill yours to the very top. You are never alone, I’m always here. Much love to you and Occy xxxxx
The most beautiful, thoughtful and rounded tribute to Lee. This was heart wrenching to watch, and yet uplifting and hopeful. Thank you for putting this together, Max. We can only image how hard it must be to go back through the hours of footage of your adventures together, and to distill your emotions and experiences into a single film. And thank you for bravely opening up about your own struggles - we truly hope you are and continue to receive the help & support you need. Sending you lots of love to you and the rest of Lee’s loved ones 💛 xx Tania
Such a devastating news. At least she experienced more things in her short life than 95% of us will ever do in our entire life. Sending prayers to you Max, her family and everyone who loved her. 💔
My condolences. I followed your adventures for two years. I can’t imagine your grief. I was in law enforcement and my partner committed suicide. All I can say is time has made the pain seem less intense and I remember the good times he and I shared. I made a donation to the crisis clinic in my area in Lee’s memory. Yes, be kind and talk to your loved ones.
You said it all so well. Nurse here. Chose to walk away from "friends" Bravely. For my mental health. 3 years of tough work in healthcare, I realised I outgrew my friends who never saw a problem, They begrudged their freedom lost. For three years, I have daily held the hands of many who sufferred through COVID. Lost jobs, lost dreams, , raising children in a far from normal world. I have grown. I have changed. I could wallow in the pits of depression, but instead I choose to raise my arms, and hope that others arms are held in mine, as we lift them high. We survived.
Oh Max, you did so well with this video. My son suffers from chronic anxiety and depression. Everything you just shared is going to help people so much. Let's stop hatefulness. Big big hug to you from Canada. You are a beautiful person. Lee is and was an angel. Pure magic. Thank you.
That’s exactly how I feel as well! I send you and Occy huge hugs also and I’m very proud and grateful for your honesty with this lovely tribute to Lee. God bless 🙏❤️🤗😔🥰🇨🇦
I lost my husband in 2001 while I was pregnant...same way. He was such a beautiful person as well, and I wonder if maybe this world just isn't good enough for some of these souls that feel and love so deeply. I pray that you keep working on making it through each day, the first year is the hardest. The pain of that day is not forgotten, and I still miss him with all my heart...but life has continued, and I have had other wonderful experiences. It is hard, but I am sure his soul would be hurting if he understood how much it hurt me. In his memory, I go on...until we meet again. God be with you.
My condolences about your great loss. I'm sure your kindness and true understanding of the situation does/has helped Lee's loved ones. It's very selfless of you to share your experience. I hope after all these years you do feel some peace.
Hey Max just found your channel this evening and I'm so glad I did. This video hits home. I just lost my wife to depression and suicide on dec1 2022. She battled it for many many years. It's so hard. I'm so sorry Lee had to put up with negativity on top of how she was already feeling. Thanks for putting out this video. Everything you said was so how I've felt these last 6 months. Also, I've watched some of your newer videos and it gives me hope that things will be good again. Thanks and I look forward to new videos from you. Congrats on the house and property!
What a beautiful tribute to an amazing young woman. I share in your grief. I lost my 25yr young daughter by suicide. Somedays the pain is overwhelming. I too suffer from depression. I guess we just hold on tight and love each other even tighter. Pls reach out if u r in pain. I don't want another mother to experience this. 💜💛
I don’t know if I’ve ever seen anyone speak so honestly and raw about grief before. Thank you so much for this Max, I know it will move and affect and help many people 💛
I just came across your channel tonight and I do not know you or Lee, but I’m crying like a baby. As a person who is very sensitive and who has suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my 53 years, I have spent many intense moments months where it has taken every ounce of my being to stay alive when I wanted so desperately to not be here. I get mental illness and I am so sorry that this beautiful human being fell victim to its devastating power of pulling her under. It is so sad and my thoughts are with all her love and are grieving for her. This life is full of highs and lows and for some of us the lows are just too overwhelming and we get extremely tired. Rest peacefully Lee, I hope that you are now free from your torment and pain. ❤
So so very proud of you bro. I know how hard this was for you to make, and you have done an exceptional job. We will always miss you Lee, thank you for changing Max's life for the better in every way xx
Thank you for being there for Max. Keep checking in on him and as Lee said in Eamon and Bec's podcast, "just show up", even if he doesn't want you to because often people push people away when they are really suffering
I will never be able to wrap my head around cyber bullying. It's heartbreaking to know that so many people are hateful and have ugly, dark hearts. I know this video is older, but I pray for your continued comfort, because the grief never really goes away. We learn to live with it, and that's it.
It’s important that if someone asks “are you ok?” they ask because they see that you may not be. Answer them truthfully. Take that dee breath and say “No actually, I am not. Can you spend a moment with me?”
You know What i always Find upsetting.....people always apologize for crying 😢 why do we do that? We dont apologize when we start laughing?!? And instead of asking people; hey how are you doing? I ask people (depends who they are and how I know them off course) how fucked up has you’re life been the last time? Because that is a conversation starter! Trust me! Try it with a few people......some people even said to me, I’ve not thought about it like that but now you’re are asking; I am feeling pretty shitty lately!
I have my own story about depression so it's hard to craft a comment today. I'll just say: thank you for opening up, Max, I know how hard it is. You didn't have to, and still you chose to. Even if it feels like shit right now, in my eyes, after all that has happened, you're doing great. Huge hug, take your time, stay safe. Lee, I wish you would still be here, but know that by seeing how your loss has affected your loved ones and us all, I am more convinced than ever that I can't give up.
What a beautiful way to honor Lee, by speaking truth. May you Max, Occy, Lee's family & friends feel the worldwide love and support as you walk the hard road of grief.
People must understand how their most casual words/comments can deeply hurt someone. Rest in peace Lee, you will always be alive in our hearts. And Max we are here for you,always. Stay strong.
You two were my 1st van lifers I ever watched. Any my favorite. Occy too. I can relate to the sadness and mental illness. It's hard and it is a battle every day. Lee was amazing. When I think about Lee I keep thinking if she could have just hung on for a little longer so she could make it home to Canada. I love that girl. She was so bright. A light that will shine forever. Hang in there Max. You are an amazing person. Kiss Occy for me and give him a big hug. I love that boy too.
I will always cherish my time with you in this world and hope beyond hope to see you in the next ✨ Save some mini eggs for me Mountie 💛
We love you max and Lee loves you too❤️❤️❤️
Takes an extreme amount strength to post this man.
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Take care Max ❤️ Sending you all the love
This video is officially making me cry! Max and Occy, please keep her memories in ur heart. Thank u for being vulnerable and sharing these memories with us.
I hope the 'people' that cyber bullied Lee are feeling pleased with themselves as they contributed to this beautiful girls' death. Shame on you!
so true..so evil and so many hypocrites out there….that are sooo cold….
Max, you have so bravely shared Lee’s truth and we are so unbelievably proud of you 💛. She had SO MUCH life in her years and those four years travelling the world with you are a great snapshot of the fearless, joyful and disarming Lee we all know and love 🌻. Equally as important (but so difficult to share) were those darker days of depression and the dark side to this online world. May it act as a reminder to us all that mental illness can strike ANYONE and that those who shine the brightest can still be suffering. Choose kindness and #SpeakUpForLee
We love you 🌞
@@Cindy-hi7gg I can assure you that our support for one another goes far beyond TH-cam comments but I do know what you mean 🤗. Feel VERY lucky to have Max and a few others in our grieving bubble (even if we are half way across the world and stay up way too late on FaceTime 😆).
Hi Eamon and Bec
Thank you so much for the amazing ongoing support and friendship you are providing Max. I see first hand the impact your chats have on him. The shared tears, laughter and stories are making each day slowly easier for him. Thank you from my entire family, keep well guys, hope to meet you both one day xx
Eamon & Bec, I agree! This was such a beautiful tribute, so honest, so loving, and yet, so difficult for Max to do. Hugs to all of you as you continue to spread Lee's word and try to help your hearts heal from such an immense loss.
@@tom_bids6023 good to know your family is right there supporting Max. I have visions of sweet Occy licking his tears and lying right beside him also. Sending thoughts of comfort to all of you at such a difficult time. Thanks for letting us know Max is continuing to share his emotions. It helps.
@@eamonandbec 💙
“I could have told you, Vincent…this world was never meant for One as Beautiful as You”
I remember a couple years ago, you and Lee were doing an awareness / fundraiser video about suicide/MH awareness . I commented my thanks, and shared that my brother in law took his life in 2008 (while I was pregnant with his first niece)after experiencing a brain injury from active duty in Afghanistan. Lee responded to my comment with such love and compassion that it made me cry. And she reminded me that Tim was still a part of our family as long as we kept him in our hearts. It meant the world to me at the time. She wasn’t an ‘influencer’ or ‘youtuber’ in that moment. She was a friend. Her words have echoes in my head this past 5 weeks. I hope you find comfort, too. Broken up or not - she’d want the best for you. ❤️
rip to lee and rip to your sweet brother
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Lee was so amazing and special that she made us feel special too every time we engaged with her in the comments. I felt she was a friend to me too even though I never met her. ❤️❤️❤️ Love you Lee!!
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Thank you for sharing this Max, we can’t begin to imagine how hard it must have been ❤️ speaking out and breaking down the stigma around mental health is so important. Sending you a massive hug ❤️
And thank you again for opening up too. You also have my deepest respect.
Take care
Such a beautiful soul, both Max and Lee. They have been like family to many who are not so blessed.
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@@kathy888 you are so right they were my first glimps into vanlife and i love the vanlifer seen but max occy & lee were the first
Max, i only just found your channel and this episode. I have had mental health issues for a almost 20 years. I tried going off the medication two years ago. Oh boy was that the worst. I ended up at my doctors pleading fir an appointment to go back on the medication. I am 62 and know i will always be on the medication. I am loving occy. my 14 yo samoyed passed away two years ago. Enjoying watchingvyou renovate you little place. I am a avid bird photographer, i bet you have wonderful birdlife.
Max, I’m from the future, and I want to say, life gets better. You will love again, own a cottage in a rain forest and your family and friends love you. And Occy is happy and loving his home. We all wish mental illness was more understood and I’m writing this to make the point that things can get better. So if you are suffering please don’t give up.❤️❤️❤️
Lee was a gift to the world. Max please never blame yourself for what happened to Lee. You loved her with all of your heart. She knew that. I am sending you a giant hug. Be good to yourself. This video shows how brave and carrying you are.
BECAUSE OF YOU MAX.....YOU PROVIDED HER SOME OF THE GREATEST LAST YEARS OF HER LIFE!!! SHE WAS LIVIN LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!
No need to use caps, show some respect
@@VanBooter Your preference for lowercase makes a post disrespectful? Got it🙄
I agree you did partner with her on some of the greatest adventures.
@@jamieosygus141 It was kinda weird to use caps...it's not preference but cultural expectations. Usually caps are interpreted as yelling. It was odd for you to assign the appearance of capital letters as the preference of an individual.
@@cazigrey836caps on equals shouting. It always has . Be aware.
I’m a 57 year old man from Canada, I’m crying with you my friend and feel your pain! Cheers Max and Occy! I’ll miss Lee!
I realize this post is older but the message is still so now. 22yrs ago I lost my brother to suicide on the anniversary of his Irish twins' death from cancer. I spoke with him on Sunday and was going to see him on Friday. He killed himself Monday morning. I still struggle with it and feel at times I should have known something was up. My heart is forever broken. Be kind always and 🧘🏻🙏🌎☮️ daily. Much love from High Falls State Park in GA. USA
Max ✨A True Gentleman
I've seen this video before. But for some reason it popped up again today. That smile - What a tragic loss. RIP Lee.
These apps listen, I know someone that has taken their own life recently and I believe this is why this video has come up for me. I might be wrong.
yep its still very sad, oddly it pops up on my recommended all the time, which i'd prefer other max and lee videos where they were having fun instead of this sad moment.
Same.
Such a lovely lady, suffering of what so few knew.
Sadly missed by so many. RIP Lee.
same😢
What a beautiful video, Max. We're sure you've put so much pressure on yourself to make it perfect for Lee, and you did. I still can't imagine being able to sit down infront of the camera and speak about the loss of a loved one as candidly as you did.. It was heartbreaking, honest, and you spoke with your heart. Lee was, as you said, too good for this world, and everyone who followed her journey has had to grapple with that loss in some form or another. Sending you love as you pick up the pieces.
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Beautifully said.💝
You said it all so perfectly ♥️
A beautiful dedication for a beautiful person,, I just started following you two late 2019 and wished from then on to find true souls on my path like you both are! I’m going through similiar condition Lee suffered. I found peace in my heart listening to Lee share her story and looked up to her... I was deeply shooked by her passing and think of her everyday since. Thank s for your courage for sharing a sweet hommage for Lee. Take good care of yourself and may you be blessed🧚🏽♂️🌞🌈🌹
Amén! 🙏🏼💞
Mental health is more important than physical health.. you cannot sustain physical health without mental health.. our mind is the most powerful and instrumental organ in our body.. the body follows the mind…
"Now I know I have a heart, because it's breaking."
The Tin Woodman,, "The Wizard of Oz"
Sending lots of love.❤️
The audacity of those dislikes... is truly heart breaking
Maybe they dislike what has happened to Lee. Maybe it’s not the video or message they dislike. Let’s pray that what that means.
@@kawardle I was thinking the same.
You have to learn to say 'who cares' when things dont look how you expect.
She died so young.. but honestly she lived more life in the short time she was here then most people get the opportunity to live in an entire lifetime.. ♥️ she definitely didn't waste the time she was given and I think that's a bigger thing to remember then how it ended for her.
This is a beautiful way to look at her life. Thank you for sharing...
So true!
I love your comment. It is a comfort to look at someone's life and the way they lived it, not the way it ended.
Well said
Exactly
My therapist told me to do something that makes me happy everyday. Max, you are loved, Occy adores you! I also have an Australian Shephard, a red tri, she is like my therapy dog.
I commented earlier but wanted to come back and say something about online hate talk. The worst thing most of us ever learnt in childhood was "Sticks and stones can break my bones but words will never hurt me." Wrong! Wrong! SO WRONG!
I'm gonna quote the inimitable Tim Minchin: "Sticks and stones can break your bones, but words can break hearts." And now I want to quote Max from this vid: "Be kind." Kindness costs nothing, but it can be a gift beyond measure. Big love, Max.
My therapist removed the stigma I was carrying about medication. He said when you can't see you get glasses and anti-depressants are just "glasses for the brain". They have helped me a lot. It also helped me a lot to talk to a therapist.
My ex girlfriend, passed away in the same way as Lee.We watched Max & Lee together. She was strugling too. Never felt free. Until now. She has shown me in ways you won't believe. I don't regret a day with her. Even the diffucult ones. I loved her so much. So Let's speak up together. Let's be strong together. Let's love life together. Once more.
@@sandram4670 Thank u 💜
Am so sorry for what had happened. Mental illness is something serious. Let's fight it together and to help those suffering from it
How did she pass
So sorry for your loss🙏🏻❤️
Sorry for your tragic loss mate 😥🙏
Why do the best of us, leave the soonest? Thousands cried watching this.
Hope you don't beat yourself over this. "What if I could've done something different." My brother committed suicide and I questioned a lot of things. But I came to the conclusion that there's nothing I could've done differently. You can't turn back time. You get one shot and you try to do the best you can. Sorry for your loss.
It’s the greatest tragedy of those left behind....”what if....If only I” So take care of your heart ❤️
You’re absolutely right. Sending love and strength to you as well ❤️
She lived more in her short life than most people would live in a thousand lives. What a human.
It means to live one life's to the fullest and actively choosing not to leave petty comments online. Have a good day, mate.
my thoughts exactly
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Wow well said!!
@@jffpviana Man muss doch nicht so übertreiben. 🙄
Was hat sie Großartiges getan? Es ist nur das zweite Video, das ich hier sehe, ich vermute, dass sie Reisebloggerin war?
Das wäre für mich der langweiligste und sinnloseste Job überhaupt. Strand, Meer, Bungee Jumping. Das sind sinnleere Dinge für mich. Mich langweilen Reisen. Und ich will nicht 200.000 Menschen motivieren mit einem Flugzeug an "schöne Plätze" zu fliegen und für diesen sinnlosen "Genuß" die Umwelt zu zerstören. Ich persönlich würde jedenfalls extrem deprimiert werden, wenn ich dazu Videos drehen und täglich lächeln müsste. Ich würde die Kamera in die Ecke werfen und in meine Heimat fahren.
Jeden Tag mehr, höher, weiter, spektakulärer. Das ist klar, dass man als Influencer innerlich ausbrennt.
Ich dachte schon zweimal darüber nach, mein Leben zu beenden, (wegen PTBS/ erlebter Gewalt). Aber: Während COVID wäre ich nie auf die Idee gekommen. Zu dieser Zeit wurde nämlich mein Vater krank und ich war rund um die Uhr beschäftigt ihn zu retten. Ich hatte monatelang etwas Sinnvolles und extrem Wichtiges zu tun! Er war so dankbar. Echte Dankbarkeit und dieses glückliche Lächeln. Das ist echte Befriedigung. Das erhält den Lebenswillen.
Lesen Sie Viktor Frankl, den berühmten Psychiater der gegen Suizid geforscht hat. Der fehlende Sinn ist das Übel. Eine fehlende Antwort auf "wozu das alles"?
Und ich muss sagen in meinem Land gibt es unzählige Influencer, die von ihren Depressionen sprechen. Vor allem junge und sehr reiche Menschen, die alles haben, reden darüber. Zuwenig gesprochen wird bei uns definitiv nicht, es ist ein Dauerthema.
Ich bin der Ansicht, dass Reisen von der eigenen Seele wegbringen. Soviel Neues. Überflutung, sinnleere Orientierungslosigkeit.
Warum nicht an einem Ort bleiben und zur Ruhe kommen? Werden Sie Farmer, suchen Sie sich eine solide Aufgabe mit sinnvollem Ergebnissen. Harte Arbeit, das härtet ab. Es ist spannend all die Tiere zu beobachten und zu pflegen, oder die Ernte zu bewachen.
😣 Es ist NICHT der Genuß, der ein Leben befriedigend macht.
Es ist der Sinn!
Ich weiß, Sie wollten etwas Nettes sagen, @jffpviana. Aber es ist doch Unfug wenn man Dinge schönredet um "Trost zu spenden".
Wenn man jungen Menschen einredet, dass man mit viel Action dann ein erfülltes Leben als Ergebnis haben, dann wird es schiefgehen. Wie ein Hamster im Rad, der ewig rennt. 🙄 Vielleicht ist genau dieser Lifestyle der Fehler.
Das ist so, als würden Sie einem einsamen Witwer sagen "du bist nicht allein" sobald er auf dem Marktplatz von Venedig steht. Ja, dort sind viele Menschen, das stimmt. Und viele Menschen würden dort gerne Urlaub machen. Aber das heißt doch nicht, dass DORT die Einsamkeit des Herzens weggeht. Einsamkeit kann dort extrem hart zuschlagen.
Ich finde es zudem unglaublich verwirrend, wenn in diesem Video so viele fröhliche Szenen gezeigt werden. Sowas ist nur die halbe Wahrheit und kein Mensch will Halbwahrheiten sehen. In der Werbebranche gibt es genügend davon.
Um Suizide künftig zu vermeiden wird man über Auslöser konkret sprechen müssen. Ich glaube nicht, dass einem ehemaligen Lebenspartner diese Aufgabe gelingen kann. Ärzte und Psychiater sind da besser geeignet.
Ich finde es auch schwierig, wenn jemand seinen Channel weiterführen will, aber kritische Kommentare zensiert. Das hilft dem TH-camr. Aber es hilft anderen nicht.
Keinem lebensmüden Menschen, keinem Angehörigen, ist geholfen wenn man behauptet: "Wir hätten nichts besser machen können." Diese ewigen Floskeln blockieren die ernsthafte Forschung, die herausfinden will, ob man nicht doch etwas besser machen kann.
Natürlich gilt dem Channelbetreiber mein Beileid für den Verlust.
Aber ich bin es gleichzeitig leid von Hinterbliebenen zu hören "Da kann man nichts machen", während es ehrlicherweise lauten muss: "Ich konnte es leider nicht verhindern".
Geben Sie der Suizidprävention mehr Chancen.
I know this is a year later, but I hope you know that this message is just as important now as it was then. Sending light and love ❤️
I totally agree
It’s a message that will be relevant forever.
I have lost all my friends due to chronic depression due to chronic Lyme disease. I cant believe I am still alive, I have no human in my life. My animals are the only reason I am alive. Otherwise I would have ended it a long time ago. And also antidepresants doesnt help people with lyme because the brain is being poisoned by the lyme spirochetes (bacteria) 😪
Anyone who dislikes this video doesn’t understand the magnitude of what you’re doing. Focus on the positive and the good in the world. It can literally change someone’s life...
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probably they dont understand what the thumbs mean.
As a sufferer of chronic, debilitating depression and anxiety, Lee's death has had an impact on me that can't be fully described and due to the disconnect and brain fog that comes with this disease, I won't try. But Max, please know that there was NOTHING more you could have done. The beast that is clinical depression has a mind of its own. It doesn't know logic. It can't be reasoned with. It cannot be penetrated.
To highlight that point, I have the most supportive, loving, patient, kind and compassionate husband who is a gifted listener. And yet my depression persists and I have been close to suicide many times, despite having a "great life" and an ideal marriage that many people will never attain.
So PLEASE, Max, do not blame yourself. You are a kind and decent man, but at a time like this you are only going to see your own faults and shortcomings. Any perceived failures on your part did not cause Lee to take her life. Lee's personal monster did. None of Lee's loved ones could fight or win the battle for her because the battle was hers and hers alone. That is the nature of this horrid beast. Despite massive support and love, ultimately you have to fight it alone.
Hugs to you and everyone who is grieving this indescribable loss. And my heart goes out to all those who suffer from this destructive and relentless disease.
This comment is perfect. After battling depression/anxiety since the age of 17 I agree there’s NOTHING anyone could have done for Lee at that crossroad in her illness. We loved her and we love you too. Be kind to YOURSELF. Allow us to comfort you. You deserve it.❤️🙏🏻❤️
I could not have said this better. I suffer as well....
Very well said. Depression is a personal monster
Ruinsane100 how are you doing these days?I too suffer from depression insomnia you name it
@@morningstarscotty.8656 it’s usually when I’m in what I call “The Pit”... on medication that seems to be working right now so insomnia now due to Fibromyalgia!!! You win some you lose some!❤️
Forgive yourself for what you think you “should have” done. Lee already did. She would not want you to throw your life away with regret. Being a forgiving person requires that you also forgive yourself ♥️
Well said. ❤️
So true ☀️🌙💫❤️🩹
This just came up in my feed agian, and she’s still making an impact in peoples lives to this day/ minute/second. For lee❤
I am happy to say that I supported Lee earlier this year when she was attacked for using the “Max and Lee” channel to show videos of Jordan and her. I am happy to say that Lee responded personally to me so I feel like she heard my words of encouragement.
At 68, I am a lifelong sufferer of depression. I understood what I saw in Lee’s last vlogs. She was trying so hard to appear happy and “normal.” But it was not really her. She was fighting depression the best way she knew how. Sadly, for all of us, Lee chose suicide to end her pain. She suffers no more.
I think “we” have been waiting to hear from you Max. I have to say that through it all, I never felt like you quit supporting Lee. I don’t feel like you judged her for introducing Jordan on your shared channel. Your feelings and love for each other was deeper than any pettiness could destroy.
My heart aches for you. May you heal and know that only Lee could save Lee. She knew she was loved. Sometimes it just doesn’t matter.
Sometimes it’s not the “cure.”
Love to all. And for all who suffer from depression, please, if nothing else, take it one day at a time. Tomorrow could be the best day of your life.
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I have suffered depression and anxiety on and off for 30+years. As a nurse, spending all my time treating/healing others, everyday I would put on a smiley mask so that people around me wouldn't see that I was dying inside. I have been close to the edge a few times and have needed crisis intervention. When you come back from the edge you realise how bloody scarey it is being in that place. I know people say its a permanent solution to a temporary problem but its not that easy. When you are that close to the edge, you don't want to die, and leave all your friends and family, you don't want them to hurt as much as you do right in that moment, all you want is for the pain to stop, and quite often you will have tried many other ways and means of solving or treating the problem and none of it works, and ending it all seems to be the only answer. What you have to remember is that when you get to that point you are not seeing things clearly or rationally, you know your family and friends love you but that doesn't ease your pain. It is not something you can just "snap out off" or "pull yourself together". When my mood is low and I'm reacting to things I can hear myself saying that I'm being totally unreasonable but thats the chemical imbalance I'm my brain. So yes before you speak your mind, either verbally or written think, is it correct, is it necessary, is it kind because you never know the impact those words could have on someone else. You don't know what they are dealing with and your words could be the last straw. If you disagree with someone's post, and you can't be nice scroll by. Like @Max and Occy said if you see someone else being unkind, report them. I understand there were some who were very unkind to Lee on social media and that must have affected her massively with her struggles, and whilst we don't know what it was exactly that drove her to that drastic action that day, I'm sure some of those harsh words would most undoubtedly will have stuck with her. Trolling, bullying and harassment is unforgivable. Lee, sweetheart, I hope you have found peace from your struggles, God bless you, you beautiful young woman. Please watch over your loved ones and keep them all safe. 💜💜💜
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Well said Diane, I feel exactly the same way. ♥♥♥
I read your comments....I am proud of you for standing up for her. Bless you. ♥️
THANK YOU for speaking up for Lee, Diane. The last line of your comment is SO TRUE and I wish all pepole suffering from depression could remember and take to heart; “tomorow could be the best day of your life”. Holding onto that faith & belief in tomorrow is the challenge when one is living with depression and/or anxiety. But absolutely the best advice ever. God bless Max for preparing such a difficult but necessary & honorary video to Lee and #speakingupforLee as you did too.. ❤️🙏🏼
Oh Max. I’m heartbroken again and again and again. She didn’t have to know someone in person to crawl inside their hearts. This is such a huge loss. I’m so sorry you have to walk this road.
She was so much more than her illness...you did good Max💜💜
It can be incredibly difficult to open up about depression, I remember when I first told the doctor about it or my therapist I couldn’t hold back the tears, but it’s so important to let it out and seek help, I’ve tried “fixing” depression on my own first and also was embarrassed that I even had it in my normal, good life. But like you and many people said, it is much more complicated than just being sad, and in my case only second time going on medication I’ve started to really feel the change in how I feel. So thank you for being brave and open and speaking up, I know Lee would’ve wanted only the best for you going forward, much love to you and your loved ones.
Lee wasn't here for a long time, But she had such a huge impact on this world while she was here. What a powerful soul. Thank you Lee for your gift.❤️
For all those like myself who rarely comment, I'd like to say that our prayers are with you and Lee's family. So many that simply won't comment but their hearts are with you.
You have no idea how many people kill themselves and no one care.
A LOT of good people with good intention being left by themselves in an hopeless situation.
Yet, Big corp like TH-cam, Google, even Gov and Biggest Corporations in the world, don't care.
Been there.... My Actual Suicide tendencies just became melancholic Music...
I Hate This World with Passion.
I can not imagine how difficult this was for you to do, and what a brave and fitting tribute to her and her life. Be well Max.
Fly high sweet Angel. Covid definitely played a huge part in mental health. Lost my world on April 27 2020. When my sweet boy gave into it. He was 21. Be kind. Be kind. Be kind because you never know what someone’s going through
My heart aches for you. I hope you have found some peace. Although our memories and love can help to sustain us, nothing means more than having our loved ones with us in our life. Godspeed to your beautiful son.
Sorry for your loss. Did he happen to have had the covid vaccine?
@@jdizzle6324 It was 2020, obviously there was no vaccine yet. Please be quiet you horrible troll
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Sorry for your loss 😢
Max, what an incredibly beautiful ending to a very courageous video. I wanted to share with you that Lee’s story has been really life changing for me over the past 4 weeks. It inspired me to check in on my mental health for the first time in a while. After reflection, Lee inspired me to completely remove myself from Instagram stories and my life in the past month has been more filled with joy, less anxiety and we’ve had a stronger marriage. I am forever grateful to her and to you and your community for Speaking up for Lee. Her story has now truly changed my life. 💕 Continuing to keep you in our hearts, Fin
Thank you for sharing this message with us ❤️ i hope you Will speak about it on youre channel (did not know youre channel) but you can see how much 1 person can change so many people 😢❤️😘
THANK YOU for this. I'm a psychotherapist and have seen close up how painful suicide can be. "We believe in being good people", there is no better epitaph for Lee. You have done us all a service and this needs to be spread throughout. Social media can be a gift (your travels to SA reminded me of my own life journeys) but it also has its dark side. Let's all be good people.
Bless you. I suffer with mental illness and just last Sat. was my last suicide attempt especially after seeing this. I'm back on my antidepressants and have had a rough start but am doing a bit better now after my start date April 24/21. Please everyone, please be kind when texting on social media as you have no idea what people are going through in their lives. God bless you all and please stay Healthy & Safe. 🙏❤🙏
@@jean-63 My mother always said 'you don't know what people are going through' such wise words. Love to you Jean!
@@jean-63 You are more than your worst days. We all can be good people!
@@jean-63 the world needs you in it. I promise you that. I know personally how hard that is to believe when you’re so deep in the pain and darkness that depression brings. But we all have a purpose here and it’s worth the fight. I’m proud of you for muscling through the hard times. Keep it up. One step forward at a time. Healing hurts like hell but it’s worth it. 💙
@@Suprachiasmatic Thank you for your kind words 🙏 but I'm 57 and have been fighting this battle to long and just wish science could figure this out and cure all of us. Right now I'm fighting every day not to go through with it and when you live in a small town up North (Canada) and the health care system fails you and your mental health worker kicks you to the curb and Life Skill worker kicks you to the curb, it really makes me wonder if I should listen to my step niece that told me to go kill myself on IG for the world to see. * *TEARS* *
Please be kind, those dislikes are so hurtful !! Please be kind. We love you Max, Occy, and all of Lee's loved ones. Rest in peace Lee we love you.
God bless you Max and to all those who suffer mental illness. We’re all sorry for Lee’s loss!🙏❤️
Thank you for your vulnerability and courage Max. We learned a lot from this video and we can't thank you enough for talking more about mental health and cyberbullying. We wish you and Occy a lot of light and healing throughout your journey.
Beautiful comment guys, I agree with everything you shared. Xx
Oh Max... 💔 This video is a perfect tribute to an amazing soul. She lived a whole lot more than most people in her 28 years. Lee deserved a fighting chance.
Our healthcare system is awful.
It really is awful. It can take years to get the meds right and months to get in with a doctor that takes insurance. Can you imagine asking someone to hold on for that long that had cancer or diabetes. Mental illness is just as critical. People also need to understand that these serious illnesses show up in women around age 25 and men around 19 and waiting to seek help will only increase the time it takes to get depression or mania under control.
God help her what a waste of a young girl
@@MsSAMMACK agree mine started around that age, over 15 years ago... I just now got the right medication mix and dose. Thanks to Lee. 💔
😔 Didn't even know her but think about her every single day. Wish this was a dream.
@@zenseed75 I will never look at anyone on or offline the same again. Who would have thought that beautiful smile was hiding so much pain. Changed forever.
Max, You have done such a beautiful job with this video for Lee, yourself and all of us. RIP Lee and fly high. Until you meet again, Max and Occy.
This was posted on the eve of me doing a fundraiser sunrise walk to raise awareness around mental health. The only reason I sighed up this year was for Lee ❤#darknessintolight
TEARS........I only "knew" Lee by your videos together, and "floored" doesn't begin to explain my own reactions to her death. I'm 65; this hit me hard....... and I have to admit, I'm only still around because I never wanted to hurt my parents if I ever went thru w/ it all. My dad is 91; it would crush him.....and that's my secret vow to self: Don't.
It's only a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I can relate, I have been there. I'm 67 and have lost my whole family. Alone is harder, stick with positive people. Throw out the trash, draw lines and take care of YOU. My advice to myself as well. Jesus bless you 🕊
tommy i feel the exact same way. when i learned the news i had the hardest week. haven't felt the same since. :( i struggle with depression and anxiety and know how hard it is. just know that i want you here and the only thing we can do is keep trying. things will get better.
Thank you for sharing. I was in total shock when I heard the sad news and it hit me pretty hard, even though I only knew you both through You Tube. You both have such magnetic personalities. Please get all the support and help you can to cope with this difficult loss, I’ve been worried for you. 💔. Recovery is a journey and you will have good days and bad days and go through all the emotions even anger at times. Please take care! You’re doing great! Everyday will get a bit easier!
Thank you Tommy. You just described what I felt for a very long time. The only thing stopping me was the pain would be unbearable to my mom. Losing my dad in 2014 was difficult for us both . But being the only person,by law, to have to decide to pull the plug on my uncles (her baby brother) life support in 2012 was unimaginable. I could not put her through anymore pain. I was grateful that I resources to reach out to for help. And it saddens me, yet does not surprise me, that she could not get the medical care in the US that was desperately needed. Please, everyone reading these com comments, if you are struggling reach out to someone , anyone. And those who don’t suffer from any form of depression, remember this time. No one, not one person should ever be denied mental health care in this,the so called greatest country in the world. Perhaps we should suspend using that title until we actually begin acting like it. A beautiful soul was lost and as easy as it is to point fingers, we all should look in the mirror. If you do not like you reflection, seek help. If you are sad , angry , and are tired of losing people to suicide and depression, reach back and help those in need . Pull them close . And fight for more access for all and especially mental health care. Some of us are just a family members death away from the unknown. #SPEAKUPFORLEE
I'm not very good with words. I love you Max, that's all I've got. Stay strong. ❤️
I’m late at commenting but i wanted to say i had a Lee too. She was my closest friend since age 13. When Rox was up, she was the brightest light I’ve ever experienced. She unalived herself in 2005 and I fell apart. Bipolar is hard on sufferers. I was blessed to know such an unusual woman for 35 years. I now accept her choice. I just miss her friendship and extraordinary love. This is a lovely tribute to Lee. Bless you Max.
I don't think you could've made a better video for Lee.
She is an angel who in your own words was too good for this world.
I cannot think of a more empathetic soul. bless you Max and everyone who's Lee's passing has effected.
Dear Max, what a beautiful and incredibly moving tribute to Lee. By sharing your own story you've amplified her message about mental health. A river of tears are flowing around the world. Peace, love, and kindness. 🙏
I really hope everyone who ever wrote a horrible comment about Lee takes a hard look in the mirror. Such a devastating loss - thank you for this video Max and for opening up about your mental health struggles. You continue to impress me with your strength, intelligence and determination, well done!
Thanks Max while I was watching this I’ve been in the midst of a major depression episode and I’ve been trying to push through it alone. I booked an appointment with my doctor before the end of the video. Thank you for your beautiful tribute to Lee.
Hope you are feeling better!❤
@@Helen-mh8mqthank you! Yes, I ended up getting on antidepressants and it’s been ok. Getting used to them has been a bit of adjustment but I’m starting to feel better. I didn’t realize how bad the anxiety was until they started working.
@@selahrising Glad it's helping.Anxiety is a horrible thing!!
@@selahrisinghey there! Just checking in on you. How are you doing? I wanted to tell you about psilocybin. It has been so helpful for my depression. Do I still struggle with depression? Yes, but nearly as bad as it used to be. Anyway, look into it if you’re ever feeling like giving up!
I don't know you, but I'm so proud of you new friend. I've had a hard time making that call.
If you are passing in a difficult stage of your life remember you are her for a reason, you are special, you are unique, I love you
thank you
Max, I’m crying along with you. We’re all crying along with you. This loss is huge and will affect this community for a long, long time. I don’t even know what more to say. Love you Lee ❤️
I still can’t believe she is gone from us. I just wanted to wish you and Occy continued joy and bliss on your journeyʻs. Lee was an angel and a bright shining light of love for this world. I miss her and all 3 of you together. 🙏🏽😎❤️
This came back up onto my feed almost 3 years after her passing. Lee had such an impact on me and she still continues to influence the way I go through my day to day life. Lee showed us that your struggles aren’t to be fought on our own. She showed us the importance of community and transparency.
Thank you Lee ❤
"... mental health is just as real as physical health..." Thank you, Max.
I had my 5th brain surgery at the beginning of Covid. And no one was allowed to visit for a month. I am a lot like Lee, very social, happy, adventurous and suffer from depression. My fiance lost his brother to mental illness in 2011. Lee was a beautiful person. Her light burned bright & hot! I'm glad you have these videos, to remember some of the great times! Do not go down the guilt road. It is not your fault. Mental illness is stronger than most.
I don't understand how anyone could write anything negative about/to Lee. She was such a beautiful, and caring soul. This makes me so angry.
I'm so sorry that she had to go through that. She didn't deserve it. No one does.
WOW. I'm a Paramedic in Canada and suffer from PTSD and Depression. My name is Shane and I want to truly thank you for such a heart felt video. I have followed Lee and others that you are tied to. When I heard about Lee it broke my heart and and I can truly relate. Your candour is truly a breath of fresh air. I have just started following you and you are an inspiration and a leader. As was Lee and you cant beat yourself up, My heart goes out to you, Lee and everyone that knows both of you. Thank you so much for doing this video. I have been suffering due to 17 bad paediatric calls that went south. Luck of the draw they say. I have been struggling with this for sometime now and you have made an amazing video that allow a glimpse of inside life of Lee and yourself. Keep up the great work and continue on. I know you went to Emman and Becks and other van people but if you're ever in Ontario again from one medic to another you have a place here anytime. Cheers and thank you
Hey Shane! Have you ever tried Psilocybin? It’s been really helpful for me!
Depression is a horrible disease. I too was a very outgoing and confident person, then in my late 20’s depression set in. I have been on antidepressants since then and now I am in my sixties. I am a loner and that is how I cope. Watching you and all the other van lifers is my escape, you have all helped me soooo much. You are all my extended family. It is difficult to talk out because people just don’t want to know, I don’t even speak with my three daughters as I know it upsets them and they worry about me. I am OK so long as I remember my meds. I fought against taking medication as I felt such a failure but now realise it is a chemical imbalance and not my ability to move past it. My heart goes out to you and Lee’s family and everyone effected by this great loss. We owe it to Lee to move on with our lives and enjoy ourselves, have fun and help each other, that is what she would want us to do. Thinking of you Max and Occy. 😘🙏🏻🙏🏻
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Max, I have followed you, Lee & Occy since the very beginning. The three of you brought a tremendous amount of joy to life over the years. The loss of Lee is absolutely soul crushing. I was driving when I got the notification of Lee's passing and I literally yelled, Nooooo! I have mourned her death in a way I didn't think was possible for a person that I'd never met. She was a LIGHT and will continue to be a light through all of us! Her energy is still here. Her essence is still here. ❤ I've struggled with depression this year in a big way... pretending to be okay. I don't do that anymore. I've spoken out about my own mental health struggles with friends who have in turn done the same. Lee and I share the same spirit and energy. When she said that she had lost her joy and felt like she had nothing left to give to the people around her... I felt this in my core. I'm a fixer, a hugger, a laugher, a "counselor", a listener, a cheerleader and above all a lover. On my bad days, I share the sentiment of those words. My purpose in this life is to love people just as they are. My "energy" is a gift for other people and without it I feel like I'm unable to contribute. Lee's life and death have greatly impacted my life. She was one of the most beautiful souls and I believe you're correct in saying that she was too good for this world.
I'm sending so much love to you and Occy and everyone who loved Lee. 🙏
- Sasha Leigh
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Brother, let me tell you that was straight courage making this video. I’m terribly sorry for your loss. Over these past couple years I’ve followed your journey together and there was no doubt of the love and bond you two shared in all of the incredible experiences discovered together.
It was Occy that first brought me into your world. An Aussie lover seeing an Australian Shepard in Costa Rica? So cool. Then I watched every episode over time and I am grateful for all of it. I grieve with you for Lee was an old soul. As you said, too good for this time.
Yet this is just a part of your own journey, and watching this I felt relieved and gutted. So now you must move forward and I will follow your journey, as we all will. And we will always love and remember Lee by spreading the message #SPEAKUPFORLEE
You are loved mate. Now you and Occy keep sending us a postcard now and then...🐺
You are so strong Max. God bless you. Lee is at peace
Max You are the bravest man that I have ever known. It takes an Extraordinary person to bear their heart to just one but you did it to everyone for the sake of Lee. You are a shining example of what a man should be in this time of deepest sorrow. We all love you and are here for you. Thank you for passing on Lee's message to the word ❤
Perfectly said Mike.
A beautiful and heartfelt tribute, I lost an ex girlfriend to suicide in 1997 she was 30yrs old, the grief was brutal and I still think about her, it’s a lot harder to have to grieve so publicly and have people comment on it, and also not being able to go to Lee’s funeral makes it more difficult and the grief more complicated. Be gentle on yourself. Take care.
Hang in there! My wife lost her battle against depression a few years ago we were together 32yrs. It will always hurt but the hurt periods get shorter and fewer as you emerge into living and breathing again. I chat to her from time to time but l got stronger and live again as you will. Take care Mike
I’m so sorry for your loss 🙏🏼
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Nearly 3 years now. You are missed. Max and Occy are building a beautiful life for themselves now. But I'm sure you know that. 💙🙏😊
This year, I nearly lost a friend to suicide. She Texted me and said she was going to end her life. I called the police and they were so kind to her even when she bit one of them and tore off her clothes screaming. I lost a friendship with her, but I am at peace with knowing she is still alive. She chose to no longer be my friend and I can live with that. I am truly saddened by the loss of Lee. She was a vibrant, beautiful young women who was stronger than she realized.
Such a terribly difficult decision to make. But I’m proud of you. Having worked in emergency mental health I’ve seen the aftermath of these calls and so often I’ve seen people heal and apologize for being angry with the people who loved them enough to save their life even though it was a risk to their relationship. Even if you never get an apology you did the right thing. It takes a strong and empathetic person to risk a close relationship for the greater good. 💙 hoping the best for your friend, and for you. May all heal with time.
Thanks, Kat, for sharing this personal story. That must have been very hard. Wishing you all the best.
Everyone needs a friend like you! And I'm SO glad that the police handled it well. Sadly, that's not always the case and the police are not to blame since they are not mental health professionals. So much has to change before we can truly get those with mental illness the help they need, myself included.
You did what was right, when she heals she will know with how much love for her you did that call
Fly high beautiful lady 💕🌈
Godspeed brother!!! I lost my son to suicide in 2019. I understand how devastating and surreal life can be in the aftermath. Just be good to and take care of yourself, reach out and ask for help if you need it, and remember it’s okay to not be okay. Sharing this was a very brave and beautiful thing for you to do. Love and. Respect to you!
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Max...
I just wanted to jump through the screen and give you a big hug bro!
We are all torn over what happened, and I commend you for speaking up for Lee, for yourself, and for others who are suffering through mental illness.
Thank you mate!
Bryan from Vancouver
Ditto… 🙏🏽❤️
Wow ...what a light she was so full of love n life ... beautiful jist absolutely beautiful ❤️ she will be missed loved and still talked about alot ...rest now Lee .💜🙏🏻
I reached out to my daughter today ..... thanks to you and Lee. Lee’s death scared me as I know in depression I am not thinking clearly and making the best decisions. I am making lots of poor decisions ...... Lee gave me hope as like me getting up and accomplishing things was very difficult for her. I realized I was not alone. I saw myself in Lee even though I am her parents age. Outgoing and friendly to the world and dying inside. I tried to explain to an old friend how much I was hurting .... last September, but she cut me off after over 50 years of friendship. Some people do not understand depression or possibly are not ‘real’ friends. You both helped me to be honest and brave again even though the first time it did not go so well. As I watched you share about how much harder van life was alone my 💔 broke for you. I could feel your pain. I was glad you went to meet up with a new friend in Tasmania. I saw you genuinely having fun again! I think you are falsely taking responsibility for the online bullies ..... I thought you were very classy and heard you speak up for Lee. Guilt is anger turned inwards. You do not deserve that .....please be kind to yourself too. You are a great guy! I truly think trolls would not have listened whether you spoke up once or twice like you did or a million times. No one deserves bullies .... I say block and delete or turn comments off during vulnerable times. Model kindness and change one person at a time. I do not usually read comments left for others so I was surprised when I heard you speak up. I had no idea she had trolls. I truly think Covid isolation threw gasoline on a fire she was already fighting. Her difficulty getting the needed healthcare crippled her ability to fight ...... the bullies were the nail in the coffin. It simply was too much to deal with. The effort to put on a happy face was too much pressure. I do not think anybody could have done anything more. Lee was well loved. She needed to be home in Canada getting professional health. Her family, her friends, you and her newest partner are in my prayers. Grief is a long road and has many setbacks that hit you like waves when you least expect it. It was easy to see how much people loved Lee..... there was so much to love about her. Speaking up for Lee is really helping people. I know because it helped me speak up when I had given up. Lee’s light continues to shine bright! Sending prayers and hugs to you all. I am glad you are surrounded by friends and family. 😪🙏🥰😓
Hope you found a better person to replace that one who rejected you.. She was not strong enough to give you the support you are needing.. I'm praying for you sweet soul.
My dearest Max, this is the bravest and most honest video I have ever seen. I wish I could reach through the screen and hold you close. There is a big community here who care for you and love you so very much, please take care of yourself before you take care of the world. You cannot pour from an empty cup, please fill yours to the very top. You are never alone, I’m always here. Much love to you and Occy xxxxx
The most beautiful, thoughtful and rounded tribute to Lee. This was heart wrenching to watch, and yet uplifting and hopeful. Thank you for putting this together, Max. We can only image how hard it must be to go back through the hours of footage of your adventures together, and to distill your emotions and experiences into a single film. And thank you for bravely opening up about your own struggles - we truly hope you are and continue to receive the help & support you need. Sending you lots of love to you and the rest of Lee’s loved ones 💛 xx Tania
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Beautifully said
Well said. ❤☮
Rest in eternal peace Beautiful Lee 🌷💖🕊️✝️
Such a devastating news. At least she experienced more things in her short life than 95% of us will ever do in our entire life. Sending prayers to you Max, her family and everyone who loved her. 💔
Lee gives me hope . I want to continue to fight my depression for her.
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Please dont ever give up.
I am sure you are loved.
Stay strong😊
Please don’t give up
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My condolences. I followed your adventures for two years. I can’t imagine your grief. I was in law enforcement and my partner committed suicide. All I can say is time has made the pain seem less intense and I remember the good times he and I shared. I made a donation to the crisis clinic in my area in Lee’s memory. Yes, be kind and talk to your loved ones.
You said it all so well. Nurse here. Chose to walk away from "friends" Bravely. For my mental health. 3 years of tough work in healthcare, I realised I outgrew my friends who never saw a problem, They begrudged their freedom lost. For three years, I have daily held the hands of many who sufferred through COVID. Lost jobs, lost dreams, , raising children in a far from normal world. I have grown. I have changed. I could wallow in the pits of depression, but instead I choose to raise my arms, and hope that others arms are held in mine, as we lift them high. We survived.
Oh Max, you did so well with this video. My son suffers from chronic anxiety and depression. Everything you just shared is going to help people so much. Let's stop hatefulness. Big big hug to you from Canada. You are a beautiful person. Lee is and was an angel. Pure magic. Thank you.
That’s exactly how I feel as well! I send you and Occy huge hugs also and I’m very proud and grateful for your honesty with this lovely tribute to Lee. God bless 🙏❤️🤗😔🥰🇨🇦
I lost my husband in 2001 while I was pregnant...same way. He was such a beautiful person as well, and I wonder if maybe this world just isn't good enough for some of these souls that feel and love so deeply. I pray that you keep working on making it through each day, the first year is the hardest. The pain of that day is not forgotten, and I still miss him with all my heart...but life has continued, and I have had other wonderful experiences. It is hard, but I am sure his soul would be hurting if he understood how much it hurt me. In his memory, I go on...until we meet again. God be with you.
Sorry to hear that, take care 😘😘
My condolences about your great loss. I'm sure your kindness and true understanding of the situation does/has helped Lee's loved ones. It's very selfless of you to share your experience. I hope after all these years you do feel some peace.
Hey Max just found your channel this evening and I'm so glad I did. This video hits home. I just lost my wife to depression and suicide on dec1 2022. She battled it for many many years. It's so hard. I'm so sorry Lee had to put up with negativity on top of how she was already feeling. Thanks for putting out this video. Everything you said was so how I've felt these last 6 months. Also, I've watched some of your newer videos and it gives me hope that things will be good again. Thanks and I look forward to new videos from you. Congrats on the house and property!
Strength to you as well mate.
@@tsgthesleepinggiant thanks
Love and light to you.
Hope your doing ok and have some good people around you.
Don't forget she's still walking with you.
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Still think of Lee…. Wishing love to all who miss her.
Me too, she pops into my head every now and then, hence rewatching this video. She’s left an amazing legacy.
What a beautiful tribute to an amazing young woman. I share in your grief. I lost my 25yr young daughter by suicide. Somedays the pain is overwhelming. I too suffer from depression. I guess we just hold on tight and love each other even tighter. Pls reach out if u r in pain. I don't want another mother to experience this. 💜💛
Sending some love your way. I'm so sorry about your daughter. ❤🌻
Sending love to you ❤
Lots of love and warm embrace 💜🤗
Thanks for having faith in us enough to share this video where you are vulnerable and open, it is a great tribute to Lee.
I can't believe anyone could have been mean to Lee. She was such a sweet, beautiful person.
Jealousy is an evil monster unfortunately! but the guilt will rot his soul eventually
I don’t know if I’ve ever seen anyone speak so honestly and raw about grief before. Thank you so much for this Max, I know it will move and affect and help many people 💛
I just came across your channel tonight and I do not know you or Lee, but I’m crying like a baby. As a person who is very sensitive and who has suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my 53 years, I have spent many intense moments months where it has taken every ounce of my being to stay alive when I wanted so desperately to not be here. I get mental illness and I am so sorry that this beautiful human being fell victim to its devastating power of pulling her under. It is so sad and my thoughts are with all her love and are grieving for her. This life is full of highs and lows and for some of us the lows are just too overwhelming and we get extremely tired. Rest peacefully Lee, I hope that you are now free from your torment and pain. ❤
Thanks for the wonderful closing videos❤️
So so very proud of you bro. I know how hard this was for you to make, and you have done an exceptional job. We will always miss you Lee, thank you for changing Max's life for the better in every way xx
Thank you for being there for Max. Keep checking in on him and as Lee said in Eamon and Bec's podcast, "just show up", even if he doesn't want you to because often people push people away when they are really suffering
I will never be able to wrap my head around cyber bullying. It's heartbreaking to know that so many people are hateful and have ugly, dark hearts. I know this video is older, but I pray for your continued comfort, because the grief never really goes away. We learn to live with it, and that's it.
I’m blown away by the pathetic boredom and spite required in someone to bully such a light.
It’s important that if someone asks “are you ok?” they ask because they see that you may not be. Answer them truthfully. Take that dee breath and say “No actually, I am not. Can you spend a moment with me?”
Dee was meant to be deep. Bloody fast fingers.
You know What i always Find upsetting.....people always apologize for crying 😢 why do we do that? We dont apologize when we start laughing?!? And instead of asking people; hey how are you doing? I ask people (depends who they are and how I know them off course) how fucked up has you’re life been the last time? Because that is a conversation starter! Trust me! Try it with a few people......some people even said to me, I’ve not thought about it like that but now you’re are asking; I am feeling pretty shitty lately!
What a beautiful person and tragic loss.
I have my own story about depression so it's hard to craft a comment today. I'll just say: thank you for opening up, Max, I know how hard it is. You didn't have to, and still you chose to. Even if it feels like shit right now, in my eyes, after all that has happened, you're doing great. Huge hug, take your time, stay safe.
Lee, I wish you would still be here, but know that by seeing how your loss has affected your loved ones and us all, I am more convinced than ever that I can't give up.
What a beautiful way to honor Lee, by speaking truth. May you Max, Occy, Lee's family & friends feel the worldwide love and support as you walk the hard road of grief.
People must understand how their most casual words/comments can deeply hurt someone. Rest in peace Lee, you will always be alive in our hearts. And Max we are here for you,always. Stay strong.
You two were my 1st van lifers I ever watched. Any my favorite. Occy too. I can relate to the sadness and mental illness. It's hard and it is a battle every day. Lee was amazing. When I think about Lee I keep thinking if she could have just hung on for a little longer so she could make it home to Canada. I love that girl. She was so bright. A light that will shine forever. Hang in there Max. You are an amazing person. Kiss Occy for me and give him a big hug. I love that boy too.