Hello Monica the stories you bring are very educative and inspiring. Am requesting you please don't rush the guests allow some to have part 1 and 2 those that are very long this stories are therapy
I am a single mom to a young man in his teens. I love listening to these stories because they help me introspect on my relationship with my son. I know how mothers and sons are close, and for single moms, sometimes it's unhealthy. So such stories keep me in check. I also learned about keeping healthy boundaries with him. He is my son and a son! When he gets a wife, our relationship must adjust, and as a mom, I am working day and night to learn my position! Wamama, let's learn!
I loved my in laws to bits and supported them alot financially.The moment my husband died, they all turned against me and wanted our property which we had bought with my late husband. They were in for a very rude shock! The property was in our both names! That's some inlaws for you.
You are lucky everything was under your both names,mine siezi enda ata kwao,he is aware watu wao ni mahuru bt he is so reluctant in taking action on letting me know about his properties,Jamaa ako na Mali BT Niko gizani n hakuna hope ya kuwai sikizana na watu wao.He has grown tukiwa na yeye I got him akiwa chini bt he only consult me for advices BT kunihusisha kwa Mali anaweka mipaka...I feels like giving up nikiwaza Kesho bt I know IPO siku...
Listening to her story I feel she's genuine, the story is flowing very well u even don't want it to end ... She even accepts her mistakes ... All the best Esther🎉❤ ... Looking forward to part 2
Part 2 is coming of her asking for forgiveness to that Same family stay tuned I hope the story will still flow as it is flowing to you now and thank You Esther for coming out to clear that family’s name i was still hopeful that it was not you giving that story nothing beats peace and forgiveness
She is simply an amazing woman I could listen to her all day Lesson to be learnt there is no pride in suffering life is not a Nigerian movie You can always start again ❤
My Schoolmate, the lady who welcomed me to Joburg from Easterncape South Africa. Her story is so genuine. Keep on pushing Esther. May God open more doors for you gal
First time watching someone i recognise at metha ... happy to see you ester after many years ....we went church school pamoja at mahigani peca...class mate at ndemu class 5. Nitafuta kwa email, watching from the Netherlands 🇳🇱
Kwanza ukiona mwanaumme mpole hana maneno mingi jua atakuwa wale wakushout, mwenye kuficha mambo usijue chenye anafanya, am married but this is Story of my life he don't tell me anything unajua mambo na marafiki, he don't if talk or want discussion, kushout kama mtu ako na stress Zake mara "wacha kugongesha mlango" ukifanya makosa kidogo makelele mara kufura
Esther personality is huge and you can confuse her to be proud and I feel that's what the in laws maybe misunderstood cos she has a voice and she's very sincere and genuine and I nullify those words by mother in law and declare greatness in your life and your children's life in Jesus Mighty name Amen.
In fact Monica could have told her there is part 2 for her to narrate all of it she's a vibe and she doesn't give a damn she is typical me I have a narcissist baby daddy who is typical her baby daddy but mine hakuwa mpole wangu hata kufight we did
I can relate with her story, once in law's interferes with marriage, it can never stand. I got married to such toxic family, there's was alot resentment from everyone. I had to walk out of that marriage for my peace.
So many marriages are being broken by Mother in laws. Especially to those sons who looks well up Ed they are the breadwinner to the family. Anyway God is always thea to revenge for us.
This is me my inlaws interfered with my marriage...and..that was the end they even brought another woman in my house..now the mother in law is always calling me...m
Good interview, she's very real hajaonesha herself as soo innocent and she has also shown you should not allow circumstances bring you down. Hii nayo is no. 1.
I have listened to this story and am like the one who is giving my story. Women out here we go through hell under in-laws hands plus the unsupportive husband
Great story Monicah.. But you seem distructed by ur phone throughout the interview.. Kindly when interviewing someone, keep your fone away so that it doesn't distructed you.. It sends a wrong message to the guest and also the viewers.
I like the part that the hubby could have alerted her about his in laws. That is very true. Before I got married my boyfriend now hubby told me the mother is very strict surprisingly we bonded very well.
Woi ladies tujipende aki, let us not ignore the red flags whatsoever. Let us empower ourselves as well , madharau ingine it's not fair. Tuache kutegemea mtu for everything si poa. Mungu hujibu maombi
The reason why I stopped question God about people who are suffering magojwa sugu and all is because I realized some are paying for their sins. Love is a command ukiikosa utalipa. That monster in law and spinsters in law broke your family. Grabbing the child ndio uka spend kwao,the monster telling you to not to return,them pretending to befriend you ndio upeleke boy are the profuse attempts so that the son would send the upkeep money to them ndio wamkule. That ooman is seriously money starved perhaps the son should give her more money you know afrigan parents educate their kids with blood and sweat 🤔
Ama hawa watu walikuwa wachawi...after all the mother-in -law said many things will happen..even the way this man behaved,giving the baby food!!The man came from a wachawi family...😢😢
I’m just seeing this comment now,I wish people are not so quick to judge ,this same lady giving this story has come back to that same family Unaita wachawi to ask for forgiveness because she wronged them by sitting here and spreading stories that are not true,I hope you will still be here to comment the same when she comes back with a part 2 asking for forgiveness
She even claimed that she was insighted by people to do that,I wish there’s a place I can pin photos of her with that family looking happy together recently
Story of Courage and a Lady with Self Love. You moved out in Time. I appreciate your family of origin. Very sober and stable. Theor support to Esther was timely. It is the way it should go. Not telling a girl to vumilia until she is killed or maimed.
Ooh she is very innocent and genuine. She didn't know how people react to a more beautiful gal than them...I feel you gal..Andu a mirìmo matiendetwo monagwo tamaretìa.
Wow, this is very brave. I thought i was the only one encountering this kind of loneliness. Speaking up takes alot of courage. I would listen time and again, am soo encouraged
Moral of the story. Girls, no matter how much in love you are do not sacrifice your education or financial independence. Love is a fleeting emotion which fades with time but financial independence you will be respected.
Ladies, when you meet in a foreign land with a man dont ever rely on him. First of all we leave our own country with mission. Its okay to get married but please be your own boss. It's your family that escorted you to the airport in the first place and let them always wait for you when you get back. My thoughts though.
Listening to this whole story this was a power couple, problem is he listened to his family , if he marries again they will do the same . Esther know this to be true as it is written in Proverbs 26:2 his moms words are null and void. You an amazing woman , disconnect yourself with that relationship and pray for a husband.God bless.
I think Abt kujuana vizuri ndio muoane it does not matter coz Kuna watu hukutana Leo wanaoa wanakaa.. wengine wanajuana years ndio waoane but they divorce
Narcissist start frustrating the moment you get pregnant when you're almost due . Mother in law and sister A were also narc very stressful life being married in such a family
Monica thanks for what you do. But at times we don't get the s. ory as it should be. Could you include her journey after she landed in Kenya to-date? Thanks.
These are stereotypes. There are good people and bad people. I was married in Muranga and my in-laws chased me away. They were nasty, nasty,nasty. Let us not generalize
Stereotyping is the word Njeri even us from Kiambu we have been told don't marry from Murang'a or Nyeri but who are we tuliolewa huko.People are different toa hio mentality madam
Weuh am from Nyeri but by grace of God I bought property in Kamangu Kiambu My neighbours are the old women and I can tell you they destroy their son's family without thinking twice.When I research around they face the wives to the son's as property takers apparently they prefer their daughters to stay home and take care of their grandchildren
Am from kiambu and I can say hakuna kuzuri because am married in Nyeri woiiii huko ndio Kubaya, men get controlled by their mums, Nayo muranga ndio mbaya kabisaaa siwezi talk of uchawi na shida mingi hadi wakipata ukikula sausage kwako ni shida unawaste pesa ya kijana yao.
Halloo Monica and Easter. I thought ni me tu marriage yangu iliharibiwa na sister in law. She called my dad akamwambia nitoke kwao. Its a long story but God has walked with me and now am healed.
I can relate my mom in law .... attacking me when I was 8 months pregnant ....n her telling me to stay like her son died ....yaani this pple can frastrate u. .n I had to leave my peace of mind came fast ...but I still pain n wonder why lie n brk your son's marriage wat the benefit ... But anyway God Ako he is a just God 🙏
Easter is very genuine, Kati Kati ya ii story nmechekaaa aki she is also funny 😂, God will give her the right man. Aki some in laws will never see heaven
My case is like hers when i get the strength to talk about it mutaionea hapa tu,mimi nilipata depression nkiwa na mtoi wa 4 months na mimba ingine nawakati nilipeleka mtoi kwa mam inlaw mara ya kwanza ju alikuwa anagonjeka saa zote nilikuwa nashinda hosi,weeeh niliambiwa mtoto wao awezi kaa na mwendawazimu,mimi sasa,nasaizo nimemzalia watoto watatu,will never forget i tried commiting suicide with my kids but God saved me
I watched this story and I really loved listening to this lady... I can listen to her the whole day without getting bored....
Brief it please sielwi language
True she is a good story teller
the story is flowing well hata na rewind😊😊
Hello Monica the stories you bring are very educative and inspiring. Am requesting you please don't rush the guests allow some to have part 1 and 2 those that are very long this stories are therapy
This lady is very genuine. Genuinely pointing into her flaws.
Since I started watching this channel , I have learnt to respect single mothers.
I am a single mom to a young man in his teens. I love listening to these stories because they help me introspect on my relationship with my son. I know how mothers and sons are close, and for single moms, sometimes it's unhealthy. So such stories keep me in check. I also learned about keeping healthy boundaries with him. He is my son and a son! When he gets a wife, our relationship must adjust, and as a mom, I am working day and night to learn my position! Wamama, let's learn!
I agree
I totally agree with you.
True
True
True true my dear
Enyewe my dad was a rare gem. He always defended my mother from my grandmother and his family. Its unfortunate his life was cut short so early.
This is the best inspiring story I have ever heard… A learning lesson for both married and single couples
Ahsante Monica🇬🇧
I have learnt too much
She looks like lyne ngugi
Hii tabia ya kuhost inlaws in your house,it never ends well.And if you can't host inlaws, don't host your own family also.Watu wakae hostel.
😂😂😂😂ati
Kabisaaa
Na vile niko na inlaws kwa nyumba
Marriage is for 2 peoples..wengine niwakuharimbu..
Sure
I love the way, this lady anajipenda,her self-esteem is high.
Esther I love your story ❤️ and its similar with mine,I left my early marriage because of mother in law and the sisters 12yrs single and happy
@Jacinta Maina kila mtu akae kwao if you want peace tonduu weeee
To my suggestion once you marry keep distance to your inlaws to make your marriage successful , not with hatred but with love
I loved my in laws to bits and supported them alot financially.The moment my husband died, they all turned against me and wanted our property which we had bought with my late husband.
They were in for a very rude shock!
The property was in our both names! That's some inlaws for you.
You are lucky everything was under your both names,mine siezi enda ata kwao,he is aware watu wao ni mahuru bt he is so reluctant in taking action on letting me know about his properties,Jamaa ako na Mali BT Niko gizani n hakuna hope ya kuwai sikizana na watu wao.He has grown tukiwa na yeye I got him akiwa chini bt he only consult me for advices BT kunihusisha kwa Mali anaweka mipaka...I feels like giving up nikiwaza Kesho bt I know IPO siku...
Listening to her story I feel she's genuine, the story is flowing very well u even don't want it to end ... She even accepts her mistakes ... All the best Esther🎉❤ ... Looking forward to part 2
Part 2 is coming of her asking for forgiveness to that Same family stay tuned I hope the story will still flow as it is flowing to you now and thank You Esther for coming out to clear that family’s name i was still hopeful that it was not you giving that story nothing beats peace and forgiveness
She is simply an amazing woman
I could listen to her all day
Lesson to be learnt there is no pride in suffering life is not a Nigerian movie
You can always start again ❤
Wewe ni mjeuri.
I could listen to this lady all day...
My Schoolmate, the lady who welcomed me to Joburg from Easterncape South Africa. Her story is so genuine. Keep on pushing Esther. May God open more doors for you gal
Thanks love,penda wewe sana😘
Can we talk am here in cape town
This lady is a good narrator.. what doesn't break you makes stronger..
Beautiful lady,u can listen to her the whole day.
First time watching someone i recognise at metha ... happy to see you ester after many years ....we went church school pamoja at mahigani peca...class mate at ndemu class 5.
Nitafuta kwa email, watching from the Netherlands 🇳🇱
Happy to see you Esther we schooled together at Githunguri girls
Kwanza ukiona mwanaumme mpole hana maneno mingi jua atakuwa wale wakushout, mwenye kuficha mambo usijue chenye anafanya, am married but this is Story of my life he don't tell me anything unajua mambo na marafiki, he don't if talk or want discussion, kushout kama mtu ako na stress Zake mara "wacha kugongesha mlango" ukifanya makosa kidogo makelele mara kufura
Im also married to a hypocrite hio upole nikujifanya. Yaani mko na msee kwa nyumba unastukia mambo anafanya na unajua na marafiki zake. Ni urimu
@@rosegithiri7383 Aki hio maisha huwa ni stressful
Weee
Very true, it happened to me.
Easther even me I left my 4 yr marriage coz of mother inlaw weee...am happily single now her son jump from 1 woman to another wacha kiwarambeee
This lady has a beautiful heart and spirit about her. May God bless you
I like her story the way it's flowing well and the selflove.
It Is Never Too Late To Start Again With A Positive Thought. Esther Your Day Is Coming. Humbleness Is Your Character ❤❤❤❤❤
Esther personality is huge and you can confuse her to be proud and I feel that's what the in laws maybe misunderstood cos she has a voice and she's very sincere and genuine and I nullify those words by mother in law and declare greatness in your life and your children's life in Jesus Mighty name Amen.
Amen, thanks dear
Anafanana na wangechi wa kariuki(fechi organics)....a very nice and inspiring story
I love her voice and she’s a great storyteller .May God restore you and find a man that truly loves you,your destiny ni nèene.
my old friend good lady her heart is the best i know. i listen to her most of the time and i don't get tired.
Oh Nimuu, thanks gal, wuuuuui tutafutane mamaa
Married people should protect their spouses, and the sister in-laws God is watching
Great, well narrated, at least she is healed. Move on dear sister.
You are very intelligent and a strong woman and a wife material keep staying strong
If you are married tafadhali,bad news za family ya in-laws let their son or daughter pass it.Often its twisted to mean wewe ndiye unskataa.
Wow, hii story imeflow vizuri Sana, I like how she's composed
In fact Monica could have told her there is part 2 for her to narrate all of it she's a vibe and she doesn't give a damn she is typical me I have a narcissist baby daddy who is typical her baby daddy but mine hakuwa mpole wangu hata kufight we did
At least i have an understanding husband who defends me from inlaws otherwise some of our stories ni kama drama. Nigerian movies kando
I admire how truthful, bold❤ and genuine she is❤❤❤
I can relate with her story, once in law's interferes with marriage, it can never stand.
I got married to such toxic family, there's was alot resentment from everyone.
I had to walk out of that marriage for my peace.
So many marriages are being broken by Mother in laws. Especially to those sons who looks well up Ed they are the breadwinner to the family.
Anyway God is always thea to revenge for us.
We are on the same page
No regrets whatsoever
Very true this is my story
Poleni sana.
This is me my inlaws interfered with my marriage...and..that was the end they even brought another woman in my house..now the mother in law is always calling me...m
Esther was my school mate a humble lady.
Hae namesake
A lady of substance
Women of substance!
Thanks dear
Good interview, she's very real hajaonesha herself as soo innocent and she has also shown you should not allow circumstances bring you down. Hii nayo is no. 1.
I have listened to this story and am like the one who is giving my story. Women out here we go through hell under in-laws hands plus the unsupportive husband
I love how she is talking
Nyeri accent it's so nice. I'm enjoying it too
Bezvalley, Bruma hoyeeee!!! shiks waaa what a story!!! life goes on Mungu mbele💯💯
Great story Monicah.. But you seem distructed by ur phone throughout the interview.. Kindly when interviewing someone, keep your fone away so that it doesn't distructed you.. It sends a wrong message to the guest and also the viewers.
Well said,..
Truee
I like the part that the hubby could have alerted her about his in laws. That is very true. Before I got married my boyfriend now hubby told me the mother is very strict surprisingly we bonded very well.
Wow! Esther Njuguna my high school classmate. Esther is a go getter. May God remember you and give you a wonderful husband.
Amen amen, thanks mama
A woman of substance
Yes it's better to love yourself first and make a peaceful dicission than hurting yourself in the name of status 😊good gal
Woi ladies tujipende aki, let us not ignore the red flags whatsoever. Let us empower ourselves as well , madharau ingine it's not fair. Tuache kutegemea mtu for everything si poa. Mungu hujibu maombi
Single mom.tujipende tulembeke 😅😅😅😅 i like this girl wow i love 💕 it
The reason why I stopped question God about people who are suffering magojwa sugu and all is because I realized some are paying for their sins. Love is a command ukiikosa utalipa. That monster in law and spinsters in law broke your family. Grabbing the child ndio uka spend kwao,the monster telling you to not to return,them pretending to befriend you ndio upeleke boy are the profuse attempts so that the son would send the upkeep money to them ndio wamkule. That ooman is seriously money starved perhaps the son should give her more money you know afrigan parents educate their kids with blood and sweat 🤔
That family was narcissistic
Next time Kiondo itajaa MCA Esther 🙏🏽✊🏽
Gari ya mwanaume, wachana nayo!!! Its their toys, even if he loves you, his toy the car is loved the most than you. From experience!!
Learnt that from my own dad.🤣🤣
Very true,cars are their small gods.
We have sisters-in-law who interfere with their brothers families and end up breaking them
Ooh now I understand my dad n his pickup
My hubby has never had issues with me driving his car. Before anything his kids and I are thebmost important
Ama hawa watu walikuwa wachawi...after all the mother-in -law said many things will happen..even the way this man behaved,giving the baby food!!The man came from a wachawi family...😢😢
I’m just seeing this comment now,I wish people are not so quick to judge ,this same lady giving this story has come back to that same family Unaita wachawi to ask for forgiveness because she wronged them by sitting here and spreading stories that are not true,I hope you will still be here to comment the same when she comes back with a part 2 asking for forgiveness
She even claimed that she was insighted by people to do that,I wish there’s a place I can pin photos of her with that family looking happy together recently
@@Alicewambui-qd7setell your story!! She’s told her story! How do you know is lies???
Beautiful, eloquent and sincere..must be a nice gal.
Story of Courage and a Lady with Self Love. You moved out in Time. I appreciate your family of origin. Very sober and stable. Theor support to Esther was timely. It is the way it should go. Not telling a girl to vumilia until she is killed or maimed.
I love this channel freely it encourages me so much for past five years thank u🎉
I know this lady.Thanks for standing strong.Continue being focused,I know you can make it.
I love 💕💕 the way she narrates the story
I love this woman self esteem very high
Ooh she is very innocent and genuine.
She didn't know how people react to a more beautiful gal than them...I feel you gal..Andu a mirìmo matiendetwo monagwo tamaretìa.
I admire how your bold talking true,yuve healed
Shiku my good friend. Inspiring me more and more.keep soaring strong 💪
Love you gal🙏
Esther your such a strong woman,very confident and full of hopeful .
Wow, this is very brave. I thought i was the only one encountering this kind of loneliness. Speaking up takes alot of courage. I would listen time and again, am soo encouraged
Weeee pia wewe uko uku
@@marymaina9090 Niko mtu wangu, za masiku?
Nko fyn
Esther thanks for talking about this story I remember you.that family made my life a living he'll.
Pole muiru wakwa,there is God in heaven mama
@@esthernjuguna2690wow and why I’m I seeing this now,Esther welcome back nothing beats peace and forgiveness 😊
She is so pretty as well and i like it that she went to sa and she speaks perfect kikuyu
Moral of the story. Girls, no matter how much in love you are do not sacrifice your education or financial independence. Love is a fleeting emotion which fades with time but financial independence you will be respected.
👍 good
true
This is a Woman of SUBSTANCE ⭐
Very genuine woman n let's always upload the red signs
Some inlaws behaves like their son would have married them or theirs daughter's
What a story 😊... Esther is a good storyteller.Monicah plz be doing two parts of a story coz it's soo fast we don't get to hear enough
Wow you are such a sweet lady, I love it, you are a genuine and a sweet soul, I have learnt I will never host inlaws or my own family
Ladies, when you meet in a foreign land with a man dont ever rely on him. First of all we leave our own country with mission. Its okay to get married but please be your own boss. It's your family that escorted you to the airport in the first place and let them always wait for you when you get back. My thoughts though.
My classmate in high school...more grace dear for sure you are a lady of substance
Thanks sue,be blessed
That part of wee wi ngui was just chilling aki men🤣🤣
My Hussy ukimtumania kiama mukikosana ili aongeleshwe na cousin zake wakienda anasema sasa ulikuwa unawambia wafanye aje
This lady is vibs & beautiful ❤️❤️ nmempenda she have a good heart ❣️
The lady is so beautiful and mature
Listening to this whole story this was a power couple, problem is he listened to his family , if he marries again they will do the same . Esther know this to be true as it is written in Proverbs 26:2 his moms words are null and void. You an amazing woman , disconnect yourself with that relationship and pray for a husband.God bless.
Mhesh you are a good Lady n what you did was good this men who value their blood relatives than you will never give you happiness na barua 😂😂😂.
The mother in law, will cry twice
I think Abt kujuana vizuri ndio muoane it does not matter coz Kuna watu hukutana Leo wanaoa wanakaa.. wengine wanajuana years ndio waoane but they divorce
Narcissist start frustrating the moment you get pregnant when you're almost due . Mother in law and sister A were also narc very stressful life being married in such a family
Exactly
Monica thanks for what you do. But at times we don't get the s. ory as it should be. Could you include her journey after she landed in Kenya to-date? Thanks.
Am from Muranga, and my grandmother used to tell us beware of Kiambu men and women, that explains mother in-law and sister in-law 😮
These are stereotypes. There are good people and bad people. I was married in Muranga and my in-laws chased me away. They were nasty, nasty,nasty. Let us not generalize
Stereotyping is the word Njeri even us from Kiambu we have been told don't marry from Murang'a or Nyeri but who are we tuliolewa huko.People are different toa hio mentality madam
I'm a certified nyerian but I already fear them.
Weuh am from Nyeri but by grace of God I bought property in Kamangu Kiambu My neighbours are the old women and I can tell you they destroy their son's family without thinking twice.When I research around they face the wives to the son's as property takers apparently they prefer their daughters to stay home and take care of their grandchildren
Am from kiambu and I can say hakuna kuzuri because am married in Nyeri woiiii huko ndio Kubaya, men get controlled by their mums, Nayo muranga ndio mbaya kabisaaa siwezi talk of uchawi na shida mingi hadi wakipata ukikula sausage kwako ni shida unawaste pesa ya kijana yao.
Hapo kwa barua ya apology ,Yours faithfully wife ❤❤❤❤❤.Is a nooo!
Halloo Monica and Easter. I thought ni me tu marriage yangu iliharibiwa na sister in law. She called my dad akamwambia nitoke kwao. Its a long story but God has walked with me and now am healed.
I can relate my mom in law .... attacking me when I was 8 months pregnant ....n her telling me to stay like her son died ....yaani this pple can frastrate u. .n I had to leave my peace of mind came fast ...but I still pain n wonder why lie n brk your son's marriage wat the benefit ... But anyway God Ako he is a just God 🙏
nilisoma na haka kadame,,Esther Njuguna githunguri girls, she's a go getter
Easter is very genuine, Kati Kati ya ii story nmechekaaa aki she is also funny 😂, God will give her the right man. Aki some in laws will never see heaven
What a happy ending...dust yourself and pick up from where you left.. leave that family alone your peace and mental health matters most
Mûirîtu mwega no nî aregire kûhakûo macûrû.😅
It's very educative story
Hehe, I am married to an introvert. After years of therapy, I went for karate self defense, ten years later... kuna heshima
😂😂😂its not easy
I think nitaenda karate before kuolewa 😂😂😂
You went to SA when I was leaving ciz I left SA october 2011.A beautiful country with life.
Same shenenagins my family does to my sister inlaw of 25years..i stand for her but its sickening to dislike a woman who came to ur home.
I love her confidence and self-love
She is very beautiful n she loved herself enough to leave for her peace of mind
Maneno ya in-laws? Wacha tupatane kwa get togethers….
Wow such an amazing woman soo inspiring story she is soo confide u can never get bored listening to her all day thanks monicah the the show ❤
My case is like hers when i get the strength to talk about it mutaionea hapa tu,mimi nilipata depression nkiwa na mtoi wa 4 months na mimba ingine nawakati nilipeleka mtoi kwa mam inlaw mara ya kwanza ju alikuwa anagonjeka saa zote nilikuwa nashinda hosi,weeeh niliambiwa mtoto wao awezi kaa na mwendawazimu,mimi sasa,nasaizo nimemzalia watoto watatu,will never forget i tried commiting suicide with my kids but God saved me