I saw them in 94, 97, and 98, smack in the middle of this period. My biggest complaint of the era was the way they would only play half of Master. Ending it in the middle always infuriated me. Still does.
!!!! Been a massive fan since 94. Back then i never understood why thayd do that. Glad they snapped outta it. I think they did that and thought theyd dissappoint me with 72 seasons instead.
when i first heard Master on the radio in middle school, I thought they had combined two Metallica songs together. No excuse for skipping the best parts live for any band!
They kind of had a relatively limited repertoire for a long time, it's not a knock against them but they were one of those bands that generally stuck to a set list for a tour and you always know you're guaranteed to hear a good number of songs (One, Sandman, Nothing Else Matters, Bellz, etc.). So I understood their desire to get weird. The Justice medley comes to mind, or the addition of the acoustic encores, and in the extreme case S&M. But people also eagerly expect to hear those big songs, and Master is one of the biggest. It's like a radio station that ends Hotel California before the guitar solo. Cutting Master in half was just a terrible idea. You won't find a single person who defends it.
@@worsethanhitlerpt.2539 despise them or not, they were huge. Goddamn arena metal😂 No metal band has even come close to the mainstream level of fame they got during the early 90s. After that….well… lets say rolling down from so high takes time.
@@worsethanhitlerpt.2539 more like they skyrocketed into the top of all charts with the black album and made more cash than any other metal band. Then they made a bunch of mediocre albums and finally reached rock bottom with st anger😂
@@alexalexalex797 They've been a stadium act ever since Black Album. Don't think much has changed since then? Obviously they don't tour 3 hour shows for 3 years anymore.
@@ShadowZero1980 man, you probably weren’t around when the black album came out. It took over, globally. That’s when they hit their peak as far as popularity goes. For a while Metallica was literally EVERYWHERE. Since then, they haven’t reached anywhere near those heights.
man i love metallica and every member including james, cliff em all tho, but whoever threw that shoe at james is a legend and that shoe will live on forever in honor of Layne Staley.
Fair enough, there is a good bit of fluff (arguably, even if subjectively) on ReLoad, but very little on Load. I would have happily taken one bigger longer album, though.
I agree in that it was my gateway into metallica being about 12 when it came out and was on the radio, but even then I remember listening to it and some hit hard like king nothing and others were just duds there were no middle ground with these songs, I feel the same way now it was either banger or trash. And if they’d just combined the best of both albums and chocked the rest it would have been for the better. Hindsight being 20/20 and all. That being said even watching this video and seeing them go from justice to load, appearance wise I can very easily see long term fans being like “fuck this” lol
Same here. The Black Album and Reload are my two favorite Metallica albums. I was 12 when Reload was released and like TheBeerslammer said it was my gateway to their previous work which I also like. Unfortunately Garage Inc. was the final album I bought by them and everything after that lost me.
Agreed but I’ve never been a music snob so I don’t think it would’ve mattered even if I had grown up with their heavier prior material. And to this day I love it all and can listen to any of their music and enjoy it for the music and no other bs that would stop that
@@charlesdarwin7253 He told a so-called joke about Kurt Cobain blowing his brains out ffs. I used have huge James Hetfield posters on my wall in the early-mid 90s but I was also a Nirvana fan, and I hadn't heard that "joke" until a few minutes ago. It was a long time ago but if you didn't know until now it's fresh.
As someone who was a teen during the black album and load/reload period, I have a lot of vivid memories of how I felt and what I thought. The black album was huge, and the tour was enormous, they played 3 hours every night for years. You'd often see James and Lars being interviewed by local news, sometimes for a whole news hour. Mandatory Metallica became a thing I haven't seen anything similar for a band before or since, and it still continues to this day in places. Wearing a Metallica shirt to school every day made me feel different, like some kind of reflected glory landed on me. I was a fan of the biggest, heaviest band in the land. They were just untouchable. Life was great. All that changed with Load. My first experience with it was during a road trip in a friend's car, and the first thing he said was "brace yourself." We went through Load and I can't say I hated it at all, but man was it a change. The biggest change was how other people reacted to you though as a Metallica fan. Suddenly that respect was gone, a lot of the local metalheads saw them as traitors. People started calling them shit like Alternica. The level of disrespect for them as a band and for their fans was a terrible feeling, and to some extent it still exists among some today. A different kind of person would walk up to you when you wore the shirt. They'd be the type wearing normal clothes or even a suit and tie that loved Until It Sleeps and didn't even know there were other records in the discography. It took me a few years of growing up to get over the changes and to accept that all bands have to grow and change. In the end the Load era let them explore music from a different angle, and what you hear from them today is a blend of "old" Metallica and that Load period. I love every Metallica record, even St. Anger for all its flaws though those songs sound way better live. But damn do I miss that black album era, and that era's James. He was like a predatory vulture with his old stance perched on the edge of the stage glaring into the crowd. Metallica was a whole phenomenon, and I don't know that we'll ever see its like with a metal band again.
I remember my dad telling me he stopped listening to Metallica after the black album for several years because he felt betrayed with the changes in their music, he loves all of their music nowadays but I always found that funny.
I could say exactly the same thing except swap Load to The Black Album. I was the biggest Metallica fan after Justice (learned to play guitar and write my own songs because of that album) and how the suddenly changed their style from that album to Black was absolutely shocking. It was the most drastic change they made musically whereas Load for me felt like a natural continuation. That's why I actually enjoyed Load much more because it wasn't such a shock anymore compared to what they did on the previous album.
@@Blackened30 The funny thing with James is, despite their sound changing with the Load / Reload era, he was still that aggressive arrogant 'Mighty Hetfield' badass on stage. Case in point: Cunning Stunts, and their 'King Nothing' performance on an MTV awards show. Then just prior to that was Mullet-era James, during the writing / recording of Load. He looked and carried himself as if he could be primed to have pumped out another cutting thrash masterpiece in the vein of AJFO. Alas, it was not to be. I still like Load / Reload for what it is though.
You forgot to mention the Napster lawsuit. They were (still are) one of my favorite bands. But latter 90's- it was not "cool" to be a fan. Then tack on the Napster deal at the end of the 90's/early 2000's. Everyone called them sellouts. At the end of the day, they prevailed.....and they were right about what was coming. Look what's happened to music these days. Now I just sound old, but it's true.
Just remember, The Beatles had a huge backlash and everyone burned and stomped on their records. Those people wen right back out and bought new copies of those albums and nobody says anything bad about them because their body of work is solid, and yet there are a number of songs that were just straight corny or dumb (yellow Submarine). as a teen I get it, they were your identity and it felt like someone reached in and socked you in the stomach. Metallica will always be heralded as the greatest metal band of all time, and they have rightfully earned that distinction.
@@95ZR580 I heard it, and it is awesome. The bass definitely adds a lot of definition, but for an album that originally had little to no bass in it, And Justice was still awesome. Thanks for the reply. YAH bless!!!
Never been a huge Metallica fan, in terms of Heavy Metal, I prefer Iron Maiden, but And Justice For All is without doubt my favourite as well. It's not even the rawness - there's just something about the songwriting and the hooks that grab me across the entire album!
@@Warstub a deep commited immersion in an idea by dedicated pros free from trick production...that album is full of such intense playing and expanded arrangements.
I loved Reload, Load, Master of puppets, Metallica and Ride the lightning, so I gave And justice for all a good chance. I've listened to it a lot, but other than One and To live is to die, it never really appealed to me. always interesting how different parts of this band can be appreciated.
The day I got sober, January 3rd of '97, "Hero of the Day" was playing in my head. Since then, every time I hear that tune, I remember why I still walk this Earth. Addiction can be BEATEN. If my simple ass can do it, anybody can!
Yeah, I concur. I have been clean about 11 months. Suboxone was harder to beat than Heroin, for anyone considering that course of treatment. It was harder by about 2 months of steady withdrawal symptoms!
They lost what they had trying to ride popularity, unfortunately they never got that magic back , when they realised it was too late . At least they have spent the last 20 years trying to make amends.
It’s not that they changed. Good bands evolve all the time. Metallica just simply sold out. They made their music softer so it could get on the radio. It’s that simple.
@@Zanatos9 Megadeth certainly sold out in the 90's. The less said about Risk the better. But even Youthanasia was quite soft for them. As for Slayer, they never put out anything great after 1990. After a while, I get tired of his screaming. I love older Slayer, but after a while it really is just more of the same.
Man, this video was in my recommended section every time I opened TH-cam and I was not able to play it until now and gotta tell you I love the way you narrate the stuff and how well edited as a whole the video is. I am glad I finally played it!. 🤘🏾
I had an interesting start to Metallica. First album I ever bought with my own money was actually St. Anger with no clue of who Metallica actually were. Then I bought load and reload and THEN the black album lol. I worked backwards. 16 years later, 30 years old and they're my favourite band of all time. Seen them live 10 times to date and off to Scandinavia to see them another 3 times in 2024. Long live the kings
@@426baron With all due respect, taste changes at times especially with musicians!! If you talk to Jonathan Davis from Korn he doesn't even listen to metal! And like lars ones said just because I listen to deep purple and king diamond doesn't mean I can listen to Beethoven
@@jacobmonster7721 indeed. I both listen to a wide variety of music and I regularly go back to listen to older albums or artists I did not like at the time. I sometimes get to appreciate things differently. But "newer" Metallica never has done it for me so far.
This video came up in my feed a few times and I really wasn't going to watch it as I am one of the old dogs from the beginning and thought I knew most of what there is to know about MettalicA. Man was I wrong. Well done! And thanks for putting this together!
Only the most dedicated of Metallica fans could have created this exceptional look into the band's mid 90s exploits. Well done, uploader. Fantastic stuff 🙏
Yeah It's by far my fav album of theirs. I bought Load in 2001 I think. I enjoyed it, but 80Min of sameish songs was a lot to take. None of it sticks out like songs from their other albums. It's kind of a blur even with some decent lyrics.
This is so well done I'm throughly impressed. I've been a diehard Metallica fan for 40 years and you have created a story that has dug deeper and done more homework than any other documentary about the band. And you managed to do it with one of my favorite albums from them. I wasn't a hater at any point in their career and st anger was close for me personally but I still proudly wear my Metallica tattoos and will defend them still. Great job thanks for this I'm gonna go check out some more of your videos
St. Anger is still my personal favourite of all of their albums. Yes it's not classic Metallica, but that's why it's so great: It's not as overplayed as the rest of their catalogue And it's RAW as fuck, the best album for when you're in a rough state
@utry_daniel438 bleeding me is not bad. It's not a song I go looking for. I suppose if it were a woman, I wouldn't kick it out of bed... but I'd still be embarrassed if my friend saw me with her. 😄
@@bigshagg3815 fair enough. It’s a top 5 Metallica song for me, as unpopular as that sounds. The S&M version is amazing. Then again, the S&M version of any song kicks ass lol
Great storytelling. I came here thinking i will just watch 5 minutes of this and here I am, having watched it in full and wanting another video about next albums! Thank you for your job good sir, keep it up!
Load was my first ever Metallica album I owned on CD. So it has sentimental meaning to me. My mom got it for me for Christmas in 1996. Where as I get why Metallica fans would hate on it, or rank it low in what is considered "heavy metal" when it comes to Metallica, the album has a lot of nice, beautiful lyrics and melodies to it. Reload to me was just as amazing when I bought it a year later. When I got into vinyl record collecting a few years back, Load and Reload were the first two Metallica albums I bought. I have many more now, but still, I figured if I was going to have just two Metallica vinyls, Load and Reload were the ones for me to have.
That is why people should always comment respectably regarding anothers taste. You met them at the right time for you and er um 'nothing else matters 😂....but seriously, your mother set you on a journey that Xmas which no doubt went in all sorts of directions, but Load started it
@@akseli5790 i shouldn't really be on here at all because I asked for S club 7 and got Metallica. Still haven't listened to any Metallica....just having ya on ..good story!
I remember when Load came out. I was so pissed. It took me years to actually listen to it. Once I finally really gave it a listen, I loved it. I still think there are amazing songs and riffs on that album.
Yep. You just have to get past the shock of how different they are from their old stuff. Look at the Beatles. Every album they released was completely different. Artists usually don't like to do the same thing over. and over
I've been a huge metallica fan since 1989 and I love load and reload. It's a piece of my childhood I wouldn't change for anything. I started listening to metallica at 5 years old and justice for all is my favorite album with load and reload a close second.
I was 3 when I heard Enter Sandman! So that style of Metallica was all I knew for years haha. I remember hearing their thrash stuff for the first time and not being a fan 😂. That changed later on though.
Such a great channel! My aunt introduced me to Metallica when I was 11. It was 2008, the year of Death Magnetic. I still remember the excitement when she brought me a dusy box filled with every Metallica album to explore. Even as a kid I never felt that Load and Reload were bad records. Though my favourite album was AJFA, I was able to appreciate and enjoy few songs from Load and Reload. I didn't have any context when listening because I didn't read any reviews, and had no friends who were Metallica fans. Maybe that helped me not to be prejudiced and to appreciate the good elements. In the 80's Metallica curated the image of a band against the commercial glam and pop in metal and they attracted similar people, who were very attached to the idea of "true" metal. I think for these diehard fans, Load and Reload were like slap in the face. People who opposed the loudest didn't see Metallica as a band made of people who just played music they liked but an institution of metal, a golden standard. They saw the mainstream metal scene crumbling. I think it would be easier for them to accept St.Anger than Load and Reload xd
Great content, sir. I lived through all of this, and as someone who found Metallica just before the Black Album hit, I remember every step of this journey - I had all kinds of apprehension about Load and Reload, but appreciated aspects of them. At the same time, newcomers in the metal genre (namely System of a Down and, to a lesser extent, Korn) were pulling my attention towards something that was arguably as rough and raw as early Metallica, but novel in its newness. I'm now 42 and, after recently doing a promo for a Metallica cover band, my interest was re-kindled and I found 72 Seasons, which I'm really appreciating. This new album feels _right_ for them.
Oh my word, I got the Hero Of the Day single, and a Quake demo on my dad's pc. I'd play the first level of Quake, whilst playing that single, and every time a new screen loaded, it skipped to the next track, which were the Motorhead covers they did. I was such a loser ha
Two points: First, album bloat became a problem for many artists across all genres in the 90s, not just Metallica. As albums began to be written for CDs rather than LPs, the standard 45 minute runtime suddenly was extended by 30 minutes. Many 90s albums were 10-15 minutes away from being double albums. My second point is that Hetfield circa '96 is a dead ringer for Chris Pratt. This was a great video, keep 'em coming!
@@Kathayne636 In the sense they were using styles and genres that weren’t necessarily meant to please fans but most likely pleased them (country for Hetfield, for example).
At the 28 minute mark, is a performance on "Later with Jools Holland". A live music show on the BBC each week. I remember eagerly recording that on video tape, where we got an awesome performance of Wasting my Hate, King Nothing, and a really unique , solo acoustic Mama Said. The era of the band, whilst yes was and is polarizing, is also very interesting. I still discuss over many a drink with friends how the material and band would have looked if they kept the hair and standard "metal" image througout that time. I agree with your words on Bad Seed and Attitude. They are B Side material and Reload, whilst having some studded gems in there, is too rushed and filled out with filler. Kirk's soloing is lazy and uninspired at times on there too.
Bad seed and Attitude, two of my favourites on reload but there are a few on reload I don't care for too much, where the wild things are, fixxxer and slither arnt my favourite.
metal fans are more apt to hate everything about 'selling out' mostly, so the image, to me, is immaterial. The music changed dramatically and were it not only for that, the technicality and quality went off the deep end. Load I remember had great radio songs, which is great and that's what it's for. But for such a dramatic change in the band to occur musically, nothing else matters..
@@dannyscarborough Its a fascinating performance. Wasting my Hate is a great little revved up song that doesnt hang about that long. I remember being super surprised that they played it, and its not really been performed much since. Their look/attitude at the time really adds to the interest of people still. This was when Machine Head, Sepultura and Pantera were seen as the flag flyers for 90s Metal. In the midst of it was MetallicA in nice clothes, eyeliner and cut hair. The metal community reaction was insane! 😁 Some of the images/photography of the band from '96 perhaps hasnt aged too well😁, but hey, they were stepping out of comfort zones, and metal fans' perceptions of them. Challenging themselves and people. Not all of it worked, but there is a 5 star brilliant album across both Load/Reload, were it released as a single album. And- Papa Het still looked The Man. I saw them for the first time on the Load tour, and he was an Absolute Tower of Power onstage as always.👍
For young me S&M was probably the most impactful thing I had ever listened too. Still love it to this day, No Leaf Clover and minus Human are simply fantastic additions to a career spanning fantastic songs.
@@RealAlphaDrum you can hear it especially on No Leaf Clover at around 4 minutes and 35 seconds. His pitch bends perfectly to hit the note in an extremely unnatural way. I can’t blame them for using autotune, it was a rather new, hip technology at the time, but Rock or whomever was in charge of the vocal effects really went overboard. It’s all over the album though, everytime he hits a note and it bends or straight up jumps to a note in a robotically smooth fashion, that’s autotune. Look up No Leaf Clover vocals only on TH-cam and check out the isolated vocal track, it’s much easier to hear it
Yeah those jabs at Layne and Kurt were really shitty. I’m honestly not surprised that grunge being popular at the time got them a lot of hate. It knocked so many previously popular genres off their perch. This just comes off as sour grapes by James and Lars because they couldn’t stand alternative bands being more successful than them.
I always looked at 80s Metallica and 90s Metallica as 2 different bands. Both had great sounds and great albums. They were kids in the 80s and then they were grown adults in the 90s. Then there was St. Anger and beyond. We don’t talk about that. lol
Rock and roll as an industry got dismantled in the 90s (and it wasnt just the glam bands), no idea how they managed to 'keep up with the times' somehow.
Dude there's the first 4 albums, then Black album was the preview of their downfall, then they went to hell. The 80s albums are the most important metal records of all time though. I mean there's Venom, Kreator, Slayer, Maiden, Anthrax, Celtics frost, king diamond, cro mags etc but those first 4 Metallica are it bro.
Great video edit in the final part! Thank you for the story! For me, L&R are the greatest Metallica period albums and the peak of their creative career.
They got so cocky after 93-94’ and the music scene humbled them so hard that on 98-99’ they tried to go back to their old image, James, Kirk and Lars grew their hair back, especially on the Garage Inc Era the “Alternative” Look disappeared completely, Load/Reload was a weird time for Metallica, and even so, those records have a special place on my heart
This is a great documentary! I just came across this, and I am absolutely impressed. I first saw Metallica in 1988 at the monsters of rock concert when they opened up for Dokken, scorpions, and Van Halen. It had only been six months after Cliff Burton was killed when I got to see them live, and the show was amazing even though they only played an hour. Still, I have been a fan throughout their highs and lows and truly Load and Reload could be edited down into one album of eight songs. Maybe nine. But that’s just my opinion. Keep up the great work!
This was an absolutely fantastic re-telling of Metallica's 90s. I've been an uber-fan fan since I was a teen in the early 90s, and there's still a lot of this that I didn't know, before! Thank you for making this! (Also, I'm apparently the one lone fan who loves Bad Seed. Someone has to! Attitude can go away, though.)
@jefferydean7556 You're not alone bud. I also like Bad Seed! I have an Alesis electronic drum kit, and I play along to it, quite often! Devils Dance is another favorite that I love playing along to!!
Great doc. Im only 30 but i grew up disecting all of Metallica's songs and learning them on guitar. I love everything besides st anger, and now im diving into these docs. Great channel and content, my man
The more you find out about Hetfield and Ulrich the more they seem like the two most unlikeable people on the planet. Making fun of a man's incredibly recent suicide on stage and then bitching when people take issue with that is such boomer behaviour lol. Another fantastic video my dude, hope you're keeping well!
By no means was it my intention to condemn James or Lars or inspire others to think any less of them. They’re heroes to many a musician, me included, and deservedly so. And like everyone, we all have flaws and have done and said terrible things. I included those clips to highlight what band’s was mindset was after the Black Album, which was extreme hubris. Give a 20-something year old millions of dollars, widespread acclaim, and celebrity, and watch how they turn into a monster in the following years. It’s a tale as old as time, really.
@@adarkerstandard Sadly yeah. They ultimately turned into the very thing they claimed to be against in their early days. As the song goes, money changes everything. That being said, it is incredibly low to mock a man who recently killed himself and also pretty fucked up to mock someone struggling with addiction, especially when you consider James' own battles with alcohol.
People change and grow, I’m pretty sure they would never do or say such things now. We all do, 45 year old me is very different than 30 yo me. That’s lost on most people these days. They want and believe that people should be virtuous and perfect at all times. It’s just not a reality.
@@adarkerstandard Totally right, mate. Im sure Hetfield would look back now and regret his onstage piss takings towards Kurt or Layne. It was almost 30 years ago, he was a totally different person. Time , perspective, personal journey and travels change you. New families, experiences. Back then of course, he was Wilder, younger and full of Metal Behemoth bravado that, would all come crashing down by the decade's end, once his own Demons knocked on his door. I love his "Papa Het" persona since Rehab. His insights and hindsights as a Father and Metal God whos been through the never and back again are fascinating to aspire to.
Gotta say, your channel is seriously underrated. This retrospective and even the ST anger retrospective were so well made and informative, i am seriously shocked that you only have 6 thousand subscribers.
Great Video , I’m a very long time fan , and one who embraced all their changes over the years , each album is a classic and different in sound , and apart from the tin can drums of st anger , which had some great songs , the haters (and there’s plenty of keyboard warriors on the internet who’ve think they’ve done it all ) forget people grow up and styles and music change over the decades , this band not only changed and grew but still dominated
I was a hardcore hip hop head until i heard reload, something about it grabbed me, and afterwards bought the rest of their albums, and a metalhead i became
They think it justifies their behavior. 'I may be an alcoholic, but at least I don't do this, or that narcotic.' People in the wrong, divert attention away from themselves to those 'more' in the wrong.
I can’t quite put into words how much I enjoyed this video. I’ve just watched it for the second time tonight and I enjoyed it even more than the first time. Keep up the good work sir. We want more!!!!!
Can’t thank you enough for supporting what I do! New video is about 60% edited, just some odds and ends to get finished up. I’m super proud of it and I know it’s going to be of the level of quality I produced on this one!
I appreciate that so much man, thank you It’s a tough mountain to climb but I also neglected to properly build momentum in the past. Now it’s time to put out videos more frequently!
I don't understand why people "move on" I mean you can like other stuff and still enjoy Metallica right? People act like they "graduated" from Metallica as if they're somehow inferior to their super unknown "real" metal bands they listen to now. That is a dumb childish way to look at things imo. Oh well to each their own at least you gave load and reload cred.
Who remembers the memory remains playing every 15 minutes on MTV? I think at the same time they were playing Jay-Z hypnotize on the boat every 15 minutes
I was 15 when Load came out. I just remember how much hype preceded it. So much so, that back then, I really felt like there was a "selling out" vibe with the band. The new image, the different tone of the album, etc. Nowadays, my favorite song is "Bleeding Me." I think, had they, accepted that not every track needed to be released, we would have gotten a very good single album rather than two mediocre albums with some good songs on each.
@@TimmyTickle I respectfully disagree; I dislike most of the singles that came off of Reload. When I think of tracks on that album that I would want, it's things like Fixxer and Prince Charming. I'll never understand why Prince Charming wasn't a single; it's a banger.
You also had the napster situation. A lot of metal heads saw themselves as working class, screw-the-system types- especially since prior to Metallica, metal struggled for radio play- bootleg recordings were the mechanism that made it grow. Durjng this period you have Metallica change their sound but also get haircuts and dress a bit more “preppy” then follow that up with the image (right or wrong) that they took the side of wealthy corporations in the music biz vs the working class folks who wanted to download and listen, and it’s easy to see why the perception that they abandoned the metal culture would take hold.
I Love Load & Reload!!!!!! Not putting down the album's from the past. Load & Reload have a meaning in my life. For what I went through. So Thankful for these's Albums.
Hero of The Day is such a great song, I love the video as well. Phenomenal video, I learned so many things in this I didn't even know and I'm a die hard Metallica fan; great job!
I saw Metallica in Rome in 1996. They nailed every track. The huge stunt they pulled was magnificent, but had only been done a couple of times previously, so most of the Italian audience werent aware of it, and thought it was a real event. It got dangerous in there really quick when a bit of panic set in. The house lights stayed up as they calmed the place down. Then everyone was laughing. Great show. One of the best concerts I've even been to.
Great video! I've been a Metallica fan since S&M and I never really had any context to what the band was going through when they followed up the black album. Good stuff dude!
At the time, these albums were definitely criticized by Metallica’s more thrash-oriented fanbase…and I understood why. You could draw a line from the black album to reload and see them becoming more and more “hard rock”. I always loved these albums though. The songwriting was top tier and it was very “of the era”. Hero of the Day and Bleeding Me will *always* be two of my favorite Metallica slow jams.
I didn’t even start listening to Metallica until the load album. Until it sleeps is still one of my favorites. This album opened me up to more Metallica and I’ve enjoyed their music ever since.
First, excellent video. Subbed! I love this kinda stuff. As someone who first heard Tallica with the Black album, I was eight or nine at the time, so Garage Inc came out later that year. My brother was cool and bought me Reload and Kill 'Em All that Christmas. So I had basically a really strange intro to the band. On one hand, the Black Album was so groovy! James's voice is huge and the sonic aspects of those drums and guitars can't be overstated. On the other hand, Reload was so .... chilled out. It was like this strange second band where James sang but everything felt super dumb and not heavy. Young me was very much about the chugging 4/4 stomping of stuff like Devil's Dance, but the majority of the stuff was sloppy, whiny garbage. I was nine and already had a rough idea what the thing was and why people didn't care for the Load series. Kill em All is so different from anything they ever released that I basically hated it. James sounds like a little kid and everything's screechy and full of reverb and grossness. Hahaha. I was not a 80s thrash guy then. Still not the hugest fan but I respect the old Exodus and Testament records drenched in verb and delay. I got Puppets and Lightning after that, and Justice last of all. I know right? I was so pumped when a friend of mine was playing "Blackened," I basically was tryna buy it off him lol. Had to wait a few weeks to buy it, but anyway... Their best. No doubt. It was like all that other stuff I'd heard was a breath on the sea compared to the storm of pure energy and fury. Ok I'll calm down :p My only saving grace with Load and Reload are their memories. There were awesome times as a kid I can remember with "Better Than You" or "King Nothing" playing. Sure the songs themselves kinda suck, but being around friends and killing a bunch of soda and going apeshit is a good time I'll remember. peace
Memory remains slamming into its guitar solo was just the perfect amount of heavy and melody to hook me and drag me into a lifelong love of all things Metallica and entirely change my life forever as it inspired me to pickup guitar, which became my profession for the next 20 years. Crazy how time has passed. Metallica’s most melodic and lyrically deep writing is found in Load and Reload. Reload especially, along with Outlaw Torn and Bleeding Me, are full of gut wrenching genius. Fixxxer, Low Man’s Lyric. They’re brilliant. Listen to the lyrics and every snare strike. It’s so phenomenally structured. It’s true art. The heavier faster stuff is fun and sure it’s more “Metallica” but I would far rather live in a world where they make what they want to make and we get things like FiXXER and Until It Sleeps and I hope we get much more like it. I’ve always looked forward to the day when they play what they want to play. Covers, tributes, and even solo stuff. Though I never wanna see them split. But I love their music, all of it (well anger isn’t something I can listen to unless it’s remixed) so hearing each of their talents and loves come out is pure joy.
Have a sub dude! Amazing work; I really enjoyed watching this. Truly a trip down memory lane and just so well-narrated and I'm interested to see if you do a follow-up to this during their St. Anger era struggles with Jason Newsted's departure, and all that was going on during that time.
My perfect album from that era: Entitled "FULLY LOADED" -Fuel -Until it sleeps -King Nothing -Hero of the Day -Bleeding Me -The Memory Remains -Devils Dance -Better than You -The Outlaw Torn -Fixxxer Each track getting a little trimmed and polished up more The rest released on a B sides compilation entitled "UNLOADED"
Watching Jaymez criticize Kurt Cobain and Layne Staley for being addicts is pretty cringey considering how fucked up both of them sound and their own notorious addictions.
Owing to my age, the mid-to-late 90s Metallica is the band I was introduced to and fell in love with. I was 6 when my dad got himself ReLoad and it was the coolest ever. To this day I find myself coming back to ReLoad on a regular basis and it still holds up.
I personally always loved these albums. I still like them more than their recent releases. I figure it was quite jarring for the thrash fans when they first listened them, but I think the sludge metal + Alice in Chains vibes worked really damn well. Cure (one of my favorite songs from Load) sounds like something Danzig would write.
Exactly and they were influenced by those guys. Alice and Danzig so it isn't surprising they would try stuff like that. They never was full on thrash other than maybe kill em all.
I honestly try and enjoy every aspect of their career. (Yes including st anger and deafened magnetic. I call it that cause of how horrible the production was).
Those 2 albums are imperfect classics. Personally, I liked that they decided to stretch creatively when it would have been safe (yet boring) to just do a rehash of their previous records.
Not gonna lie the Blue eyes joke about Kurt Cobain is actually quite funny and fits perfectly in today's jokes about Cobain's death. Not sure how well it fitted back then tho.
Yeah this is a really good documentary. I was 16 when Load came out and just discovering my "musical taste". I loved the Black Album but too much all at once is a great way to describe Load/Reload. Their hair wasn't necessarily the issue, it was what it represented. If they cut their hair before like Justice nobody would have cared. But since it occurred simultaneously while releasing a bunch of watered down crap it was a def shot to the system. Load was also the start of my hating James's voice. It's terrible on everything after the Black Album. He isn't a "singer" so don't try and "sing". It's Naturally deep and raspy so why change that.
I was pretty much at the same age and even turned my back on metal after "Load". After a few months of beeing "musically homeless" I fully went to electronic music where I´m still today. Yes, it was that severe! The final nail in the coffin for me was seeing that shit show of a "concert" here in Frankfurt/Germany with staged "incidents" like shown in this video. Some german youth magazine already had spoiled what was to come in regard to this. I even stopped playing bass guitar at that point, sold my gear and bought a DJ-Setup. I was a real "teenage metal head" right up to this record. So James and Lars... yes, you guys lost me with that one, good job. Never regreted it for a second up until today.
@mlautner03 ... I thought that at the time. It was just too much too quick. Had they kept the long hair, I think the music would have been accepted more. Just a hard rock bar band sound. It wasn't terrible. But everything was weird in the mid 90s. Post-grunge era was an odd time for metal bands.
Same, I was 17, and I still was deep into Metallica, waiting for the album. And suddenly, that absolute empty work (excluding just one song), which stank of bob rock's shit mixed with a new shiny, shitty, MTV-ish mainstream look, in the blink of an eye just erased the new Metallica from my life. And time just proved that - Metallica has passed away, and some new kind of Metallica was born. Boring and idealess.
I knew of and heard Metallica in the late 1980s and early 1990s, but I cut my teeth on Load and ReLoad. I was in High school when those albums hit store shelves and they certainly were instrumental in my developmental years. This is my Metallica era.
I didn't like neither load nor reload, but I'm going to listen to them the coming days again. Thanks for your video! Good choice in scripting and words!
When Load came out, my friends and I snapped the CDs in half. We hated the music that much. Now, 27 years later, i actually like Load. Blues biker rock is a good way to describe the music. I get now that James still wanted to write heavy music, just through bluesy/southern modes. Still dont like reload or anything afterwards though lol
If you try yourself to play the exact same songs over and over a thousand times, you'll also be tired to death and try to do something new. Load was amazing
I saw them in 94, 97, and 98, smack in the middle of this period. My biggest complaint of the era was the way they would only play half of Master. Ending it in the middle always infuriated me. Still does.
Damn that really sucks, i had no idea they cut Master in half
!!!! Been a massive fan since 94. Back then i never understood why thayd do that.
Glad they snapped outta it.
I think they did that and thought theyd dissappoint me with 72 seasons instead.
when i first heard Master on the radio in middle school, I thought they had combined two Metallica songs together. No excuse for skipping the best parts live for any band!
They kind of had a relatively limited repertoire for a long time, it's not a knock against them but they were one of those bands that generally stuck to a set list for a tour and you always know you're guaranteed to hear a good number of songs (One, Sandman, Nothing Else Matters, Bellz, etc.). So I understood their desire to get weird. The Justice medley comes to mind, or the addition of the acoustic encores, and in the extreme case S&M.
But people also eagerly expect to hear those big songs, and Master is one of the biggest. It's like a radio station that ends Hotel California before the guitar solo. Cutting Master in half was just a terrible idea. You won't find a single person who defends it.
they did that since the black album tour in 92 all thru the 90s
Looking back. Its insane how BIG metallica was in the early 90s.
C R A Z Y
@@worsethanhitlerpt.2539 despise them or not, they were huge.
Goddamn arena metal😂
No metal band has even come close to the mainstream level of fame they got during the early 90s.
After that….well… lets say rolling down from so high takes time.
@@worsethanhitlerpt.2539 more like they skyrocketed into the top of all charts with the black album and made more cash than any other metal band.
Then they made a bunch of mediocre albums and finally reached rock bottom with st anger😂
"Metalli-something"
@@alexalexalex797 They've been a stadium act ever since Black Album. Don't think much has changed since then? Obviously they don't tour 3 hour shows for 3 years anymore.
@@ShadowZero1980 man, you probably weren’t around when the black album came out.
It took over, globally. That’s when they hit their peak as far as popularity goes. For a while Metallica was literally EVERYWHERE.
Since then, they haven’t reached anywhere near those heights.
man i love metallica and every member including james, cliff em all tho, but whoever threw that shoe at james is a legend and that shoe will live on forever in honor of Layne Staley.
Realistically, if they removed the fluff from both albums, putting the two together would make one really solid album.
Fair enough, there is a good bit of fluff (arguably, even if subjectively) on ReLoad, but very little on Load. I would have happily taken one bigger longer album, though.
I’ve always thought this. Could’ve been 1 amazing album
I made a mix of the two...but then ended up listening to their old stuff instead.
At least they tried something new.
Loaded
Fuel
Memory
Devil
UFG-II
Hero
Bleeding
Fix
Hate
Carpe
Low
Jack
Twisted
Outlaw
Bleeding and Outlaw are top 20 MetallicA songs
I'm so lucky I was a kid when this album came out and I could listen to these songs without bias.
I agree in that it was my gateway into metallica being about 12 when it came out and was on the radio, but even then I remember listening to it and some hit hard like king nothing and others were just duds there were no middle ground with these songs, I feel the same way now it was either banger or trash. And if they’d just combined the best of both albums and chocked the rest it would have been for the better. Hindsight being 20/20 and all. That being said even watching this video and seeing them go from justice to load, appearance wise I can very easily see long term fans being like “fuck this” lol
Same here. The Black Album and Reload are my two favorite Metallica albums. I was 12 when Reload was released and like TheBeerslammer said it was my gateway to their previous work which I also like. Unfortunately Garage Inc. was the final album I bought by them and everything after that lost me.
Agreed but I’ve never been a music snob so I don’t think it would’ve mattered even if I had grown up with their heavier prior material. And to this day I love it all and can listen to any of their music and enjoy it for the music and no other bs that would stop that
@TheBeerslammer same for me, reload was my intro to them. Good comment.
You had no bias from the 4 previous albums? Sorry, I don't believe that.
Gotta love how James insults some of the biggest bands, then wonders why people are angry, throwing shoes at him
Dude that happened 30 fucking years ago. Let it go.
@@charlesdarwin7253 that's how big a band Metallica is even people that don't like them can't stop thinking about them ha ha
While having been through rehab .. how many times now?
@@charlesdarwin7253Love this. The OPs weird 30 year old rant and your curt reply. Hahaha! You were totally right to call out his BS.
@@charlesdarwin7253 He told a so-called joke about Kurt Cobain blowing his brains out ffs. I used have huge James Hetfield posters on my wall in the early-mid 90s but I was also a Nirvana fan, and I hadn't heard that "joke" until a few minutes ago. It was a long time ago but if you didn't know until now it's fresh.
As someone who was a teen during the black album and load/reload period, I have a lot of vivid memories of how I felt and what I thought. The black album was huge, and the tour was enormous, they played 3 hours every night for years. You'd often see James and Lars being interviewed by local news, sometimes for a whole news hour. Mandatory Metallica became a thing I haven't seen anything similar for a band before or since, and it still continues to this day in places. Wearing a Metallica shirt to school every day made me feel different, like some kind of reflected glory landed on me. I was a fan of the biggest, heaviest band in the land. They were just untouchable. Life was great.
All that changed with Load. My first experience with it was during a road trip in a friend's car, and the first thing he said was "brace yourself." We went through Load and I can't say I hated it at all, but man was it a change. The biggest change was how other people reacted to you though as a Metallica fan. Suddenly that respect was gone, a lot of the local metalheads saw them as traitors. People started calling them shit like Alternica. The level of disrespect for them as a band and for their fans was a terrible feeling, and to some extent it still exists among some today. A different kind of person would walk up to you when you wore the shirt. They'd be the type wearing normal clothes or even a suit and tie that loved Until It Sleeps and didn't even know there were other records in the discography.
It took me a few years of growing up to get over the changes and to accept that all bands have to grow and change. In the end the Load era let them explore music from a different angle, and what you hear from them today is a blend of "old" Metallica and that Load period. I love every Metallica record, even St. Anger for all its flaws though those songs sound way better live. But damn do I miss that black album era, and that era's James. He was like a predatory vulture with his old stance perched on the edge of the stage glaring into the crowd. Metallica was a whole phenomenon, and I don't know that we'll ever see its like with a metal band again.
I remember my dad telling me he stopped listening to Metallica after the black album for several years because he felt betrayed with the changes in their music, he loves all of their music nowadays but I always found that funny.
I could say exactly the same thing except swap Load to The Black Album. I was the biggest Metallica fan after Justice (learned to play guitar and write my own songs because of that album) and how the suddenly changed their style from that album to Black was absolutely shocking. It was the most drastic change they made musically whereas Load for me felt like a natural continuation. That's why I actually enjoyed Load much more because it wasn't such a shock anymore compared to what they did on the previous album.
@@Blackened30 The funny thing with James is, despite their sound changing with the Load / Reload era, he was still that aggressive arrogant 'Mighty Hetfield' badass on stage. Case in point: Cunning Stunts, and their 'King Nothing' performance on an MTV awards show.
Then just prior to that was Mullet-era James, during the writing / recording of Load. He looked and carried himself as if he could be primed to have pumped out another cutting thrash masterpiece in the vein of AJFO. Alas, it was not to be. I still like Load / Reload for what it is though.
You forgot to mention the Napster lawsuit. They were (still are) one of my favorite bands. But latter 90's- it was not "cool" to be a fan. Then tack on the Napster deal at the end of the 90's/early 2000's. Everyone called them sellouts. At the end of the day, they prevailed.....and they were right about what was coming. Look what's happened to music these days. Now I just sound old, but it's true.
Just remember, The Beatles had a huge backlash and everyone burned and stomped on their records. Those people wen right back out and bought new copies of those albums and nobody says anything bad about them because their body of work is solid, and yet there are a number of songs that were just straight corny or dumb (yellow Submarine). as a teen I get it, they were your identity and it felt like someone reached in and socked you in the stomach. Metallica will always be heralded as the greatest metal band of all time, and they have rightfully earned that distinction.
The 90s was a difficult time for any classic rock & roll band
The way james caught that shoe was smooth as fuck though
The best shoe dodge ever was president Bush taking nothing away from James.
@@joemamma416true
It was smooth lol
"Why did you throw this at me??"
@@daywalker3735 bro if I was that guy who was questioned id probably piss myself
And Justice For All was , is, and always will be my favorite Metallica album. That album was so raw. YAH bless!!!
Check out and justice for all with bass on youtube. The dude plays bass to the entire album and it's amazing!
@@95ZR580 I heard it, and it is awesome. The bass definitely adds a lot of definition, but for an album that originally had little to no bass in it, And Justice was still awesome. Thanks for the reply. YAH bless!!!
Never been a huge Metallica fan, in terms of Heavy Metal, I prefer Iron Maiden, but And Justice For All is without doubt my favourite as well. It's not even the rawness - there's just something about the songwriting and the hooks that grab me across the entire album!
@@Warstub a deep commited immersion in an idea by dedicated pros free from trick production...that album is full of such intense playing and expanded arrangements.
I loved Reload, Load, Master of puppets, Metallica and Ride the lightning, so I gave And justice for all a good chance. I've listened to it a lot, but other than One and To live is to die, it never really appealed to me. always interesting how different parts of this band can be appreciated.
The day I got sober, January 3rd of '97, "Hero of the Day" was playing in my head. Since then, every time I hear that tune, I remember why I still walk this Earth.
Addiction can be BEATEN. If my simple ass can do it, anybody can!
Stay well brother 👍🇺🇲
@PumpkinHead-jt3vx Nah, I just grew up!
Yeah, I concur. I have been clean about 11 months. Suboxone was harder to beat than Heroin, for anyone considering that course of treatment. It was harder by about 2 months of steady withdrawal symptoms!
Some people can't,I try to keep them working, it's alcohol for them, prayers never hurt anyone.
@@shannobailey2917 "Can't" is the death of some people. Prayers work quite well, when addicts are ready to turn can't, into "can drink/use no longer!"
This is one of the best videos of this style I’ve ever seen. Well spoken, straight forward yet detailed. Excellent stuff
The older you get. The more you understand why bands change.
They lost what they had trying to ride popularity, unfortunately they never got that magic back , when they realised it was too late . At least they have spent the last 20 years trying to make amends.
Megadeth, Anthrax, Slayer didn't "change" against their target audience.
It’s not that they changed. Good bands evolve all the time. Metallica just simply sold out. They made their music softer so it could get on the radio. It’s that simple.
@@worsethanhitlerpt.2539yes it's all about the money... Grow up
@@Zanatos9 Megadeth certainly sold out in the 90's. The less said about Risk the better. But even Youthanasia was quite soft for them. As for Slayer, they never put out anything great after 1990. After a while, I get tired of his screaming. I love older Slayer, but after a while it really is just more of the same.
Bleeding Me and Outlaw Torn are two of their greatest deep cuts
I agree. Bleeding Me is so underrated!!
Man, this video was in my recommended section every time I opened TH-cam and I was not able to play it until now and gotta tell you I love the way you narrate the stuff and how well edited as a whole the video is. I am glad I finally played it!. 🤘🏾
Appreciate that! Thanks for watching bro!
I had an interesting start to Metallica. First album I ever bought with my own money was actually St. Anger with no clue of who Metallica actually were. Then I bought load and reload and THEN the black album lol. I worked backwards.
16 years later, 30 years old and they're my favourite band of all time. Seen them live 10 times to date and off to Scandinavia to see them another 3 times in 2024. Long live the kings
Very interesting. You can't imagine the disappointment of 80s metalheads when playing the Load CD for the first time. Metallica died for me that day.
@@426baron With all due respect, taste changes at times especially with musicians!! If you talk to Jonathan Davis from Korn he doesn't even listen to metal! And like lars ones said just because I listen to deep purple and king diamond doesn't mean I can listen to Beethoven
@@jacobmonster7721 indeed. I both listen to a wide variety of music and I regularly go back to listen to older albums or artists I did not like at the time. I sometimes get to appreciate things differently. But "newer" Metallica never has done it for me so far.
@@worsethanhitlerpt.2539 I am so happy to finally meet someone who thinks that MoP is meh. One good track and fillers all around. Nice name BTW, Mr H.
@@worsethanhitlerpt.2539 I like Battery, for it's kind of brutal simplicity. But yeah it probably didn't take too much effort to write.
This video came up in my feed a few times and I really wasn't going to watch it as I am one of the old dogs from the beginning and thought I knew most of what there is to know about MettalicA. Man was I wrong. Well done! And thanks for putting this together!
Love to hear that man, glad you liked it! Cheers!
"Stunning c....I mean cunning stunts" 😅 had me dying!!
Hahaha, I’m glad you appreciated that one
@adarkerstandard little humor is always nice. Not sure how many people actually caught it.
Totally why they named it that!
James using bullets to write lyrics is pretty awesome ngl
pretty metal
Only the most dedicated of Metallica fans could have created this exceptional look into the band's mid 90s exploits.
Well done, uploader. Fantastic stuff 🙏
And Justice For All is honestly perfect and Frayed Ends Of Sanity is underrated
And Justice for All sounds like midi file shit though. It's not just the lack of bass.
As a bass player, I completely reject this point of view.
Yeah It's by far my fav album of theirs. I bought Load in 2001 I think. I enjoyed it, but 80Min of sameish songs was a lot to take. None of it sticks out like songs from their other albums. It's kind of a blur even with some decent lyrics.
It's not perfect by any means. The first 3 albums were closer to perfect.
@@spice_krispieskill em all literally exists, hideous production. justice is better imo.
This is so well done I'm throughly impressed. I've been a diehard Metallica fan for 40 years and you have created a story that has dug deeper and done more homework than any other documentary about the band. And you managed to do it with one of my favorite albums from them. I wasn't a hater at any point in their career and st anger was close for me personally but I still proudly wear my Metallica tattoos and will defend them still. Great job thanks for this I'm gonna go check out some more of your videos
@@brianjohnson8616 Lou was an interesting project indeed but I think what I dislike most about st anger is the drum sound
@@dgrn101 I bought St. Anger after sooooo much anticipation. Man the disappointment hurt. The songs felt boring and those drums man....
I swear they made St. Anger just so people would think Load and Reload weren’t as bad.
That's exactly what they did, inadvertently.
St. Anger is still my personal favourite of all of their albums. Yes it's not classic Metallica, but that's why it's so great:
It's not as overplayed as the rest of their catalogue
And it's RAW as fuck, the best album for when you're in a rough state
If Load was twenty minutes shorter and released under a different name, it’d be hailed as a stoner rock classic nowadays
That's a great point
You'd have to be pretty damn High to Like That album. 😂
@@bigshagg3815 It has some duds but you're lying if you say Bleeding Me and Outlaw Torn aren't fantastic songs.
@utry_daniel438 bleeding me is not bad. It's not a song I go looking for. I suppose if it were a woman, I wouldn't kick it out of bed... but I'd still be embarrassed if my friend saw me with her. 😄
@@bigshagg3815 fair enough. It’s a top 5 Metallica song for me, as unpopular as that sounds. The S&M version is amazing. Then again, the S&M version of any song kicks ass lol
I'm glad I never got hung up on genres and labels. I have always simply enjoyed good music.
Same here
Enjoying something without interacting with the fandom is always best!
I’m not smart enough to label music. And do you know where labels belong?
On Packages
Totally agree I like every Metallica album despite the changes in genre they just make good music.
In the end it is all rock'n'roll.
This is a very well made documentary. Great job dude!
Great storytelling. I came here thinking i will just watch 5 minutes of this and here I am, having watched it in full and wanting another video about next albums! Thank you for your job good sir, keep it up!
Excellent job with this video. Thoughtful commentary and even some clips I’ve never seen as a 30+ year fan.
what an incredibly well organized, researched, and spoken video documentary. I'm gonna binge your other videos
Load was my first ever Metallica album I owned on CD. So it has sentimental meaning to me. My mom got it for me for Christmas in 1996. Where as I get why Metallica fans would hate on it, or rank it low in what is considered "heavy metal" when it comes to Metallica, the album has a lot of nice, beautiful lyrics and melodies to it. Reload to me was just as amazing when I bought it a year later. When I got into vinyl record collecting a few years back, Load and Reload were the first two Metallica albums I bought. I have many more now, but still, I figured if I was going to have just two Metallica vinyls, Load and Reload were the ones for me to have.
That is why people should always comment respectably regarding anothers taste. You met them at the right time for you and er um 'nothing else matters 😂....but seriously, your mother set you on a journey that Xmas which no doubt went in all sorts of directions, but Load started it
I wished reload cd for christmas.. I got Spice Girls cassette. I listen to Metallica till this day but no Spice Girls.. 😀
@@akseli5790 i shouldn't really be on here at all because I asked for S club 7 and got Metallica. Still haven't listened to any Metallica....just having ya on ..good story!
@@akseli5790 just heard some of 72 seasons. Sounds pretty cool
@@akseli5790honestly that Spice Girls album was considerably better than Load. Wannabe, 2 Become 1 and Say You’ll be There were all jams.
I remember when Load came out. I was so pissed. It took me years to actually listen to it. Once I finally really gave it a listen, I loved it. I still think there are amazing songs and riffs on that album.
FACTS! I personally really like Load and Reload and they still hold up today.
Yep. You just have to get past the shock of how different they are from their old stuff. Look at the Beatles. Every album they released was completely different. Artists usually don't like to do the same thing over. and over
I still think Load sucks & they never completely recovered after that. But hey,I'm sure there's been a good album since then
It's a decent album, but that Ronnie song is horrible. What were they thinking.
Oh there’s definitely some garbage on ‘load’. But some really good stuff too. But ‘re-load’… I still can’t listen to that one. That was hot trash.
The ending was perfectly timed, nicely written and well executed, nice job!
I've been a huge metallica fan since 1989 and I love load and reload. It's a piece of my childhood I wouldn't change for anything. I started listening to metallica at 5 years old and justice for all is my favorite album with load and reload a close second.
I was 3 when I heard Enter Sandman! So that style of Metallica was all I knew for years haha. I remember hearing their thrash stuff for the first time and not being a fan 😂. That changed later on though.
@@fail_master_z I Was two weeks old when I first heard Fade to black! Ah the memories remain
This is a great retrospective, man. I'm sure some serious work went into this, so thank you!
Such a great channel! My aunt introduced me to Metallica when I was 11. It was 2008, the year of Death Magnetic. I still remember the excitement when she brought me a dusy box filled with every Metallica album to explore. Even as a kid I never felt that Load and Reload were bad records. Though my favourite album was AJFA, I was able to appreciate and enjoy few songs from Load and Reload. I didn't have any context when listening because I didn't read any reviews, and had no friends who were Metallica fans. Maybe that helped me not to be prejudiced and to appreciate the good elements.
In the 80's Metallica curated the image of a band against the commercial glam and pop in metal and they attracted similar people, who were very attached to the idea of "true" metal. I think for these diehard fans, Load and Reload were like slap in the face. People who opposed the loudest didn't see Metallica as a band made of people who just played music they liked but an institution of metal, a golden standard. They saw the mainstream metal scene crumbling. I think it would be easier for them to accept St.Anger than Load and Reload xd
Great content, sir. I lived through all of this, and as someone who found Metallica just before the Black Album hit, I remember every step of this journey - I had all kinds of apprehension about Load and Reload, but appreciated aspects of them. At the same time, newcomers in the metal genre (namely System of a Down and, to a lesser extent, Korn) were pulling my attention towards something that was arguably as rough and raw as early Metallica, but novel in its newness. I'm now 42 and, after recently doing a promo for a Metallica cover band, my interest was re-kindled and I found 72 Seasons, which I'm really appreciating. This new album feels _right_ for them.
This is better than anything MTV could dream about making, great job
Maybe old 90's MTV could... Long time dead now
What emoji is that?
@@SX1995ableappears to be a yellow man squinting while shooting a Load album
@@herehere3139 that's a thumbs up dumbo
MTV? What year do you think this is?
I love Load. Nothing brings me back to 1996 like playing Quake while listening to Load does. Such good memories.
Dude, nice! That sounds like an awesome memory
Wow I thought I was the only one who did that.
Hey, me too!
Same for me with donkey kong country and smb3/smw. I was only about 8 years old but already loved metal and grunge.
Oh my word, I got the Hero Of the Day single, and a Quake demo on my dad's pc. I'd play the first level of Quake, whilst playing that single, and every time a new screen loaded, it skipped to the next track, which were the Motorhead covers they did. I was such a loser ha
This is a great video! Great behind the scenes info as well as thoughtful, balanced and restrained commentary.
Two points: First, album bloat became a problem for many artists across all genres in the 90s, not just Metallica. As albums began to be written for CDs rather than LPs, the standard 45 minute runtime suddenly was extended by 30 minutes. Many 90s albums were 10-15 minutes away from being double albums. My second point is that Hetfield circa '96 is a dead ringer for Chris Pratt.
This was a great video, keep 'em coming!
I wasn’t crazy about these albums, but I respected the band for making music that seemed honest.
Thank you. Swear to god for years I’ve been saying those two albums are the most honest Metallica albums.
Honest in what way?
@@Kathayne636 In the sense they were using styles and genres that weren’t necessarily meant to please fans but most likely pleased them (country for Hetfield, for example).
8:07 Metallica mocking others for their addictions is the biggest example of the pot calling the kettle black
Man, he caught that shoe perfectly.
At the 28 minute mark, is a performance on "Later with Jools Holland". A live music show on the BBC each week. I remember eagerly recording that on video tape, where we got an awesome performance of Wasting my Hate, King Nothing, and a really unique , solo acoustic Mama Said. The era of the band, whilst yes was and is polarizing, is also very interesting. I still discuss over many a drink with friends how the material and band would have looked if they kept the hair and standard "metal" image througout that time. I agree with your words on Bad Seed and Attitude. They are B Side material and Reload, whilst having some studded gems in there, is too rushed and filled out with filler. Kirk's soloing is lazy and uninspired at times on there too.
Well Said Kyle Reese
Bad seed and Attitude, two of my favourites on reload but there are a few on reload I don't care for too much, where the wild things are, fixxxer and slither arnt my favourite.
metal fans are more apt to hate everything about 'selling out' mostly, so the image, to me, is immaterial. The music changed dramatically and were it not only for that, the technicality and quality went off the deep end. Load I remember had great radio songs, which is great and that's what it's for. But for such a dramatic change in the band to occur musically, nothing else matters..
I also have the Jools Holland show on VHS taped off the telly. Used to rewatch it quite often back then, I was only around 11 or 12
@@dannyscarborough Its a fascinating performance. Wasting my Hate is a great little revved up song that doesnt hang about that long. I remember being super surprised that they played it, and its not really been performed much since.
Their look/attitude at the time really adds to the interest of people still.
This was when Machine Head, Sepultura and Pantera were seen as the flag flyers for 90s Metal. In the midst of it was MetallicA in nice clothes, eyeliner and cut hair. The metal community reaction was insane! 😁
Some of the images/photography of the band from '96 perhaps hasnt aged too well😁, but hey, they were stepping out of comfort zones, and metal fans' perceptions of them. Challenging themselves and people.
Not all of it worked, but there is a 5 star brilliant album across both Load/Reload, were it released as a single album. And- Papa Het still looked The Man. I saw them for the first time on the Load tour, and he was an Absolute Tower of Power onstage as always.👍
For young me S&M was probably the most impactful thing I had ever listened too. Still love it to this day, No Leaf Clover and minus Human are simply fantastic additions to a career spanning fantastic songs.
I love No Leaf Clover and Minus Human, but the album is so autotuned that I can’t bear to hear it any more.
@@adarkerstandard that's fair enough. I've never really noticed it too much. Might be worth another video!
@@adarkerstandard what are a few instances of autotune? I love the album and learned how to drum from it.
@@RealAlphaDrum you can hear it especially on No Leaf Clover at around 4 minutes and 35 seconds. His pitch bends perfectly to hit the note in an extremely unnatural way. I can’t blame them for using autotune, it was a rather new, hip technology at the time, but Rock or whomever was in charge of the vocal effects really went overboard. It’s all over the album though, everytime he hits a note and it bends or straight up jumps to a note in a robotically smooth fashion, that’s autotune.
Look up No Leaf Clover vocals only on TH-cam and check out the isolated vocal track, it’s much easier to hear it
@@RealAlphaDrumNo leaf clover is autotuned to death...
Yeah those jabs at Layne and Kurt were really shitty. I’m honestly not surprised that grunge being popular at the time got them a lot of hate. It knocked so many previously popular genres off their perch. This just comes off as sour grapes by James and Lars because they couldn’t stand alternative bands being more successful than them.
Hey man,, just wanted to say I loved your CKY reviews so really happy to see you getting some exposure on your excellent work on this one!
I always looked at 80s Metallica and 90s Metallica as 2 different bands. Both had great sounds and great albums. They were kids in the 80s and then they were grown adults in the 90s.
Then there was St. Anger and beyond. We don’t talk about that. lol
Yes we definitely talk about St. Anger. I always do.
Exactly bro👏my exact take
Rock and roll as an industry got dismantled in the 90s (and it wasnt just the glam bands), no idea how they managed to 'keep up with the times' somehow.
Dude there's the first 4 albums, then Black album was the preview of their downfall, then they went to hell.
The 80s albums are the most important metal records of all time though.
I mean there's Venom, Kreator, Slayer, Maiden, Anthrax, Celtics frost, king diamond, cro mags etc but those first 4 Metallica are it bro.
@@YBM2007 no need for them to 'keep up', they simply make music so good it is timeless and universal
This was really good man. As a huge Metallica fan I hope you do more from them. Great job🤘🤘
Wonderfull storytelling and more in depth than anything i have seen before on youtube. Thanks for this!
Great video edit in the final part!
Thank you for the story! For me, L&R are the greatest Metallica period albums and the peak of their creative career.
They got so cocky after 93-94’ and the music scene humbled them so hard that on 98-99’ they tried to go back to their old image, James, Kirk and Lars grew their hair back, especially on the Garage Inc Era the “Alternative” Look disappeared completely, Load/Reload was a weird time for Metallica, and even so, those records have a special place on my heart
Honestly to me it shouldn’t really matter what they look like it’s their choice not ours.
This is a great documentary! I just came across this, and I am absolutely impressed. I first saw Metallica in 1988 at the monsters of rock concert when they opened up for Dokken, scorpions, and Van Halen. It had only been six months after Cliff Burton was killed when I got to see them live, and the show was amazing even though they only played an hour. Still, I have been a fan throughout their highs and lows and truly Load and Reload could be edited down into one album of eight songs. Maybe nine. But that’s just my opinion. Keep up the great work!
Thanks!! I appreciate that a lot. More videos are coming soon!
Cliff Burton died in September of 86
This was an absolutely fantastic re-telling of Metallica's 90s. I've been an uber-fan fan since I was a teen in the early 90s, and there's still a lot of this that I didn't know, before! Thank you for making this! (Also, I'm apparently the one lone fan who loves Bad Seed. Someone has to! Attitude can go away, though.)
They were far better in the 80's.
Bad Seed is way better than Fuel or TMR.
@jefferydean7556 You're not alone bud. I also like Bad Seed! I have an Alesis electronic drum kit, and I play along to it, quite often! Devils Dance is another favorite that I love playing along to!!
Great doc. Im only 30 but i grew up disecting all of Metallica's songs and learning them on guitar. I love everything besides st anger, and now im diving into these docs. Great channel and content, my man
The more you find out about Hetfield and Ulrich the more they seem like the two most unlikeable people on the planet.
Making fun of a man's incredibly recent suicide on stage and then bitching when people take issue with that is such boomer behaviour lol.
Another fantastic video my dude, hope you're keeping well!
By no means was it my intention to condemn James or Lars or inspire others to think any less of them. They’re heroes to many a musician, me included, and deservedly so.
And like everyone, we all have flaws and have done and said terrible things.
I included those clips to highlight what band’s was mindset was after the Black Album, which was extreme hubris.
Give a 20-something year old millions of dollars, widespread acclaim, and celebrity, and watch how they turn into a monster in the following years. It’s a tale as old as time, really.
@@adarkerstandard Sadly yeah. They ultimately turned into the very thing they claimed to be against in their early days. As the song goes, money changes everything. That being said, it is incredibly low to mock a man who recently killed himself and also pretty fucked up to mock someone struggling with addiction, especially when you consider James' own battles with alcohol.
People change and grow, I’m pretty sure they would never do or say such things now. We all do, 45 year old me is very different than 30 yo me. That’s lost on most people these days. They want and believe that people should be virtuous and perfect at all times. It’s just not a reality.
@@adarkerstandard Totally right, mate. Im sure Hetfield would look back now and regret his onstage piss takings towards Kurt or Layne.
It was almost 30 years ago, he was a totally different person. Time , perspective, personal journey and travels change you. New families, experiences.
Back then of course, he was Wilder, younger and full of Metal Behemoth bravado that, would all come crashing down by the decade's end, once his own Demons knocked on his door.
I love his "Papa Het" persona since Rehab. His insights and hindsights as a Father and Metal God whos been through the never and back again are fascinating to aspire to.
@@adarkerstandardNo
Great video!
I hope to see a follow-up to this one soon 🤘
Gotta say, your channel is seriously underrated. This retrospective and even the ST anger retrospective were so well made and informative, i am seriously shocked that you only have 6 thousand subscribers.
Happy to know you enjoyed it! I take it in stride, a small subscriber count just means I have a lot of growth ahead of me!
@@adarkerstandard Keep up the fantastic videos, my friend. You have great potential!
excelent work dude! every metallica fan should watch this. cheers from Argentina! looking forward to next part
Great Video , I’m a very long time fan , and one who embraced all their changes over the years , each album is a classic and different in sound , and apart from the tin can drums of st anger , which had some great songs , the haters (and there’s plenty of keyboard warriors on the internet who’ve think they’ve done it all ) forget people grow up and styles and music change over the decades , this band not only changed and grew but still dominated
I was a hardcore hip hop head until i heard reload, something about it grabbed me, and afterwards bought the rest of their albums, and a metalhead i became
Damn this is a great video, definitely going somewhere with these
Great job on this. The narration is fantastic and so is the content! 💯💯
I think it's funny when alcoholics make fun of drug addicts. It's really the pot calling the kettle black.
They think it justifies their behavior. 'I may be an alcoholic, but at least I don't do this, or that narcotic.' People in the wrong, divert attention away from themselves to those 'more' in the wrong.
Then they had no clue why people were throwing shit at them
Humanity is wrong @@Liam-zw1ek
I thought the same thing.
pot?
Quite accurate, very tasteful - good job on this.
I can’t quite put into words how much I enjoyed this video. I’ve just watched it for the second time tonight and I enjoyed it even more than the first time.
Keep up the good work sir. We want more!!!!!
Can’t thank you enough for supporting what I do! New video is about 60% edited, just some odds and ends to get finished up. I’m super proud of it and I know it’s going to be of the level of quality I produced on this one!
I was incredibly shocked to see this guy has only 3k subscribers, this was a higher quality video than your average million subscribers plus TH-camr
I appreciate that so much man, thank you
It’s a tough mountain to climb but I also neglected to properly build momentum in the past. Now it’s time to put out videos more frequently!
I'm not a metallica fan these days because I've moved on but I love load and reload
I don't understand why people "move on" I mean you can like other stuff and still enjoy Metallica right? People act like they "graduated" from Metallica as if they're somehow inferior to their super unknown "real" metal bands they listen to now. That is a dumb childish way to look at things imo. Oh well to each their own at least you gave load and reload cred.
@@midnight347 I think the guy is just saying, in a few words, he's not into their new shit. That's all.
I moved on cuz James sings about the same stuff most of the time there's only so much you can say about your childhood before it becomes stale
Who remembers the memory remains playing every 15 minutes on MTV? I think at the same time they were playing Jay-Z hypnotize on the boat every 15 minutes
I was 15 when Load came out. I just remember how much hype preceded it. So much so, that back then, I really felt like there was a "selling out" vibe with the band. The new image, the different tone of the album, etc.
Nowadays, my favorite song is "Bleeding Me."
I think, had they, accepted that not every track needed to be released, we would have gotten a very good single album rather than two mediocre albums with some good songs on each.
For years I've asserted that there's a good album between those two inconsistent albums.
@@RobbyRaccoon If you mixed the deep album cuts from Load with the radio singles from Reload, you'd have a great album
Bleeding me … such a great heavy emotional song. Of course , Inamorata takes that vibe even farther and higher.
@@TimmyTickle I respectfully disagree; I dislike most of the singles that came off of Reload. When I think of tracks on that album that I would want, it's things like Fixxer and Prince Charming. I'll never understand why Prince Charming wasn't a single; it's a banger.
You also had the napster situation. A lot of metal heads saw themselves as working class, screw-the-system types- especially since prior to Metallica, metal struggled for radio play- bootleg recordings were the mechanism that made it grow. Durjng this period you have Metallica change their sound but also get haircuts and dress a bit more “preppy” then follow that up with the image (right or wrong) that they took the side of wealthy corporations in the music biz vs the working class folks who wanted to download and listen, and it’s easy to see why the perception that they abandoned the metal culture would take hold.
Pantera changed Metal forever in 1991. Everybody wanted to get that dimebag groove!!!
Amazing video!! Can't wait to see your other Metallica stuff.
I Love Load & Reload!!!!!! Not putting down the album's from the past. Load & Reload have a meaning in my life. For what I went through. So Thankful for these's Albums.
That was exceptional! I would love to watch a documentary for The Prodigy.
This was incredibly well produced. As one of those obsessive Metallica fans, I appreciate how accurate your information was in this video.
Hero of The Day is such a great song, I love the video as well. Phenomenal video, I learned so many things in this I didn't even know and I'm a die hard Metallica fan; great job!
Where the wild things are is one of my favorite Metallica songs that is way overlooked.
My fave of the entire load/ reload arsenal
I saw Metallica in Rome in 1996. They nailed every track. The huge stunt they pulled was magnificent, but had only been done a couple of times previously, so most of the Italian audience werent aware of it, and thought it was a real event. It got dangerous in there really quick when a bit of panic set in. The house lights stayed up as they calmed the place down. Then everyone was laughing. Great show. One of the best concerts I've even been to.
Great video! I've been a Metallica fan since S&M and I never really had any context to what the band was going through when they followed up the black album. Good stuff dude!
At the time, these albums were definitely criticized by Metallica’s more thrash-oriented fanbase…and I understood why. You could draw a line from the black album to reload and see them becoming more and more “hard rock”. I always loved these albums though. The songwriting was top tier and it was very “of the era”. Hero of the Day and Bleeding Me will *always* be two of my favorite Metallica slow jams.
I didn’t even start listening to Metallica until the load album. Until it sleeps is still one of my favorites. This album opened me up to more Metallica and I’ve enjoyed their music ever since.
First, excellent video. Subbed! I love this kinda stuff.
As someone who first heard Tallica with the Black album, I was eight or nine at the time, so Garage Inc came out later that year. My brother was cool and bought me Reload and Kill 'Em All that Christmas. So I had basically a really strange intro to the band. On one hand, the Black Album was so groovy! James's voice is huge and the sonic aspects of those drums and guitars can't be overstated.
On the other hand, Reload was so .... chilled out. It was like this strange second band where James sang but everything felt super dumb and not heavy. Young me was very much about the chugging 4/4 stomping of stuff like Devil's Dance, but the majority of the stuff was sloppy, whiny garbage. I was nine and already had a rough idea what the thing was and why people didn't care for the Load series.
Kill em All is so different from anything they ever released that I basically hated it. James sounds like a little kid and everything's screechy and full of reverb and grossness. Hahaha. I was not a 80s thrash guy then. Still not the hugest fan but I respect the old Exodus and Testament records drenched in verb and delay.
I got Puppets and Lightning after that, and Justice last of all. I know right? I was so pumped when a friend of mine was playing "Blackened," I basically was tryna buy it off him lol. Had to wait a few weeks to buy it, but anyway... Their best. No doubt. It was like all that other stuff I'd heard was a breath on the sea compared to the storm of pure energy and fury. Ok I'll calm down :p
My only saving grace with Load and Reload are their memories. There were awesome times as a kid I can remember with "Better Than You" or "King Nothing" playing. Sure the songs themselves kinda suck, but being around friends and killing a bunch of soda and going apeshit is a good time I'll remember.
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Load and Reload are incredible. Also from the same era, “I Disappear” is probably my favorite 2nd generation Metallica song.
Four Leaf Clover is pretty awesome too.
@@bleedingfly It's not as good as No Leaf Clover
@@dr.loomis4221 Sometimes i get distracted by all the hookers and cocaine.
2nd gen? Hmm, I'd say metallica was in their third or fourth by then.
@@bleedingflyyou mean no leaf clover.
Memory remains slamming into its guitar solo was just the perfect amount of heavy and melody to hook me and drag me into a lifelong love of all things Metallica and entirely change my life forever as it inspired me to pickup guitar, which became my profession for the next 20 years. Crazy how time has passed. Metallica’s most melodic and lyrically deep writing is found in Load and Reload. Reload especially, along with Outlaw Torn and Bleeding Me, are full of gut wrenching genius. Fixxxer, Low Man’s Lyric. They’re brilliant. Listen to the lyrics and every snare strike. It’s so phenomenally structured. It’s true art. The heavier faster stuff is fun and sure it’s more “Metallica” but I would far rather live in a world where they make what they want to make and we get things like FiXXER and Until It Sleeps and I hope we get much more like it. I’ve always looked forward to the day when they play what they want to play. Covers, tributes, and even solo stuff. Though I never wanna see them split. But I love their music, all of it (well anger isn’t something I can listen to unless it’s remixed) so hearing each of their talents and loves come out is pure joy.
It's insane that they basically toured behind the Black Album for the whole duration of Nirvanas popularity
Nirvana's popularity in the early 90s was NOTHING like Nirvana's popularity today.
Have a sub dude! Amazing work; I really enjoyed watching this. Truly a trip down memory lane and just so well-narrated and I'm interested to see if you do a follow-up to this during their St. Anger era struggles with Jason Newsted's departure, and all that was going on during that time.
Despite how much people love to hate, load and reload were both amazing albums
My perfect album from that era: Entitled "FULLY LOADED"
-Fuel
-Until it sleeps
-King Nothing
-Hero of the Day
-Bleeding Me
-The Memory Remains
-Devils Dance
-Better than You
-The Outlaw Torn
-Fixxxer
Each track getting a little trimmed and polished up more
The rest released on a B sides compilation entitled "UNLOADED"
Cure is a must
The Memory Remains is horrible.
Absolute trash! Triple flush that shit and hope it doesn't clog your pipes!
There are some phenomenal songs on those albums. "Hero of the Day" is a forever banger.
Yup...love that song
the trio of Hero, King Nothing, and Until It Sleeps may be three of there best songs.
The worst song ofnthe album.
@@fidacuca *Second best
Outlaw torn is the best in those 2 albums. Imo
Man I can’t wait for the load/reload deluxe box sets
Watching Jaymez criticize Kurt Cobain and Layne Staley for being addicts is pretty cringey considering how fucked up both of them sound and their own notorious addictions.
the last Metallica album i ever bought was and justice for all. they were my fav band up till then.
Owing to my age, the mid-to-late 90s Metallica is the band I was introduced to and fell in love with. I was 6 when my dad got himself ReLoad and it was the coolest ever. To this day I find myself coming back to ReLoad on a regular basis and it still holds up.
I personally always loved these albums. I still like them more than their recent releases.
I figure it was quite jarring for the thrash fans when they first listened them, but I think the sludge metal + Alice in Chains vibes worked really damn well. Cure (one of my favorite songs from Load) sounds like something Danzig would write.
Exactly and they were influenced by those guys. Alice and Danzig so it isn't surprising they would try stuff like that. They never was full on thrash other than maybe kill em all.
I honestly try and enjoy every aspect of their career. (Yes including st anger and deafened magnetic. I call it that cause of how horrible the production was).
Those 2 albums are imperfect classics. Personally, I liked that they decided to stretch creatively when it would have been safe (yet boring) to just do a rehash of their previous records.
Not gonna lie the Blue eyes joke about Kurt Cobain is actually quite funny and fits perfectly in today's jokes about Cobain's death. Not sure how well it fitted back then tho.
Yeah this is a really good documentary. I was 16 when Load came out and just discovering my "musical taste". I loved the Black Album but too much all at once is a great way to describe Load/Reload. Their hair wasn't necessarily the issue, it was what it represented. If they cut their hair before like Justice nobody would have cared. But since it occurred simultaneously while releasing a bunch of watered down crap it was a def shot to the system. Load was also the start of my hating James's voice. It's terrible on everything after the Black Album. He isn't a "singer" so don't try and "sing". It's Naturally deep and raspy so why change that.
I was pretty much at the same age and even turned my back on metal after "Load". After a few months of beeing "musically homeless" I fully went to electronic music where I´m still today. Yes, it was that severe! The final nail in the coffin for me was seeing that shit show of a "concert" here in Frankfurt/Germany with staged "incidents" like shown in this video. Some german youth magazine already had spoiled what was to come in regard to this. I even stopped playing bass guitar at that point, sold my gear and bought a DJ-Setup. I was a real "teenage metal head" right up to this record. So James and Lars... yes, you guys lost me with that one, good job. Never regreted it for a second up until today.
Thank you for this brother. I thought I was the only one who felt this way.
@mlautner03 ... I thought that at the time. It was just too much too quick. Had they kept the long hair, I think the music would have been accepted more. Just a hard rock bar band sound. It wasn't terrible. But everything was weird in the mid 90s. Post-grunge era was an odd time for metal bands.
Same, I was 17, and I still was deep into Metallica, waiting for the album. And suddenly, that absolute empty work (excluding just one song), which stank of bob rock's shit mixed with a new shiny, shitty, MTV-ish mainstream look, in the blink of an eye just erased the new Metallica from my life. And time just proved that - Metallica has passed away, and some new kind of Metallica was born. Boring and idealess.
@@h1n1worm Perhaps for us. My 10 year old son loves 72 seasons. There are some catchy riffs and tunes on it.
I knew of and heard Metallica in the late 1980s and early 1990s, but I cut my teeth on Load and ReLoad. I was in High school when those albums hit store shelves and they certainly were instrumental in my developmental years. This is my Metallica era.
I didn't like neither load nor reload, but I'm going to listen to them the coming days again. Thanks for your video! Good choice in scripting and words!
The "winding and bloated cuts" joke at 1:49 flew over a lot of people's heads. That was good man.
it didnt fly over my head, it was just poorly executed and made it seem more like a mistake than a joke..
Is that meta or something?
When Load came out, my friends and I snapped the CDs in half. We hated the music that much.
Now, 27 years later, i actually like Load. Blues biker rock is a good way to describe the music.
I get now that James still wanted to write heavy music, just through bluesy/southern modes.
Still dont like reload or anything afterwards though lol
I got to the country song and did the same.
I bought it the day it came out. Haven't listened to the whole album even five time since then. It's really not what I liked about Metallica.
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If you try yourself to play the exact same songs over and over a thousand times, you'll also be tired to death and try to do something new. Load was amazing