Ren btw. wrote about the last song of this mashup: "We went and watched fred in LA back in October, toward the part of his set he played Angie (I've been lost) and the simplicity but power of that one repeated line pretty much broke me and I remember breaking down in the middle of a crowd of people. Something so simple pretty much summed up the last 10+ years of my life and explained everything in a sentence. Music is fucking magic for that."
@@BeccaDoss I think the same thing happened again while filming the video which is why he had to calm himself and his leg at the end. Take care of yourself becca. We love you.
@@Hexenkind1 That would actually make perfect sense. Thanks, brother, gonna take some time away from technology now, but I’m so glad to have connected with so many here over this one.
@@BeccaDoss I can't watch this song without crying, even though I watch it quite a lot, but until now I didn't think about others, and now I cried with you, for you, and for others, because so many people are in pain. My heart is in pieces, I really want you to be better
@@somogyieva That is so kind of you to say, friend, thank you for the compassion that shines through your soul. I hope you’re being gentle with yourself after the emotional rollercoaster.💕
In one of his interviews he stated his legs will always be in pain. It was described as if his bones are on fire. When he is standing up playing guitar with his old band he is always lifting up his legs to likely get some relief. He stated he has been in pain for so many years he couldn't imagine what having no pain would be like. It is a foreign concept.
Oh, Kelly, my heart hurt reading this and I have tears in my eyes. I know that pain so well. The number of times I've described it as feeling like i have "firewater running under my skin," or like Ren said, "my bones are on fire" is too many to count. It breaks my heart knowing he feels the same. I've also said the exact same thing about not even remembering what it's like to not be in pain every day, it's a foreign concept, indeed. I kid you not, those are the exact words I've used. Oh my goodness, thank you for taking time to type this out.
Living with neuropathy (diabetic) I am always in pain myself. Luckily my pain is controlled at night to help with sleeping. There a blend of numbness and pain 7x24. So I emphasize with on Ren on this issue.
@@Jason_xofilosI got neuropathy too. Mine was from od'ing and shutting my kidneys down making my legs swell damaging my nerves. It is numbness mixed with pain 24/7. I've been trying to describe it for a while now and that sums it up perfect. Thank you
“I’ve been lost for a while…” as he looks out over a city that is not his home town, that hits hard. 😢 Even though he says those same words over and over, his delivery changed with each repetition and gave it new meaning each time. Amazing!
As a writer Ren is the love child of Bob Dylan’s social commentary and Leonard Cohens emotional intelligence with Jimmy Hendrix soul and Jim Morrison’s mystical reach with Tom Waits flair for authentic and raw eclectic vocalizations, Laurie Anderson’s genius for metaphysical mental performance and that brilliance of body language developed by Antoin Artaud in his Theatre Of the absurd! Generational talent is an understatement! An artist full of greatness, walking the razors edge of genius and madness, who articulates the human condition and human suffering like the painters Van Gogh and Francis Bacon! As so many reactors have broke down and exclaimed the genre is REN! This is what they said about Picasso. This is what we say about REN! I’m so blessed his emergence has come while I’m alive. We all are. At just the very beginning of our awareness of him and we already have the gifts of Hi Ren, The Tales, The Demos, Money Game Trilogy, Chalk Outlines, How to be Me, and Now OMFG Fred Again Mashup-already no less than 10 paradigm shifting masterpieces. And let’s not forget the brilliant Flex of Sic Boi! Viva Ren!!! Lets F’ing Go Ren! Don’t put that guitar down the future of music history is waiting on your every song!
There is no way I could add anything to this, you encapsulated it so perfectly well, I just wanted you to know I appreciated YOUR use of language and emotion in YOUR words here. It’s such a wonderful experience to find an artist who hits all those notes (bad pun intended) at once, who is so versatile, but above all, who uses all his talent and hard work to make music that matters-to him, to us, to the world. He is a gem, and I’m so glad he’s having an impact on countless souls by simply sharing his gift and his story.💕
He made me cry, too. And now knowing that in the middle of the Fred Again concert that he broke down to those words, just breaks my heart even more. Ren is the king of portraying emotions through song, whether it be his guitar or his voice or his expressions. Total package. And yes, I see that at the end as him trying steady his shaking knee. Not sure, but that is what it looks like to me. Big hugs to you, Becca. I really wish you and Ren could be healed or in less pain. xoxo
Oh, friend, I am so running short on adequate words right now, but thank you. This was such a blessing to read. He really is all of that, it's amazing. That knee part really broke me. I appreciate you so very much.
If anybody is curious about the "Fred Again..." songs he "mashed up" there they are as follows: - Jungle - Delilah (pull me out of this) - leavemealone - Clara (the night is dark) - Angie (i’ve been lost)
Thank you SO MUCH for adding this here! It was actually your post on FB that clues me in to which songs they were, so I know others will also appreciate this list!💕
Thanks for this. Thanks even more for making the playlist of the Mashup so we could hear the original songs that inspired him and see how Ren made them his own. Again, really appreciate you doing that playlist for everyone.
By the way, beautiful and heartfelt breakdown. You will be in my prayers Becca. My heart aches for you and Ren. I want to reach out and give you both a hug.
38 minutes and 22 seconds of pure...even through the pain...joy! It feels like a mashup or remix of its own accord. Ren has oft repeated (and is something I have believed for a long time) that art is EXPRESSION, nothing more. Your offerings to us are nothing but expression, intelligent and bright, passionate and open, vulnerable and determined, resolute and compassionate! Thank you so much, Becca! And faith? I think God must be the art, the expression of the universe, which is LOVE. Listening and watching you is compelling, near proof that love is Real!
I had been really down for a few weeks. I’d been hiding from the world. And while the world is still awful, this song helped me reconnect. It brought me some peace. I’m so thankful for Ren. And I’m thankful for his community of fans. Just watched the last Big Push concert with other fans on his Discord with other fans. And it meant so much. ♥️♥️🔥🔥 Keep holding on, Becca. 🤗
I have been having times of struggle with my faith as well. My girlfriend is dying and the world is going to hell, but for some reason, there are times like these, watching you and ran and the whole universe come together and it brings me back to the conclusion that there is something Beyond this . Thank you so how much
Oh, Andrew, my heart hurts for you and I wish I could relieve some of your pain. I am so, so sorry to hear about your girlfriend, that is such an excruciating thing to endure for both of you, but especially for those of us who are left in this world for now. Even more so since we all know the world is not a kind, gentle place. I am so grateful to know Ren’s art has been a source of healing for you, and it’s humbling to even play any small part in that. I know it can be nearly impossible to hold onto our faith in these times, but you said it perfectly: moments like this undoubtedly help us connect to that truth of a bigger picture and something more that the pain we see, feel, witness in others each day. I am sending you so much love, empathy, and compassion. Thank you for feeling safe enough to share this so vulnerably.💕🫂
I was the person who remarked on your theological books. I am a catholic leaning Anglican and I feel very similar to you. I have had horrendous mental issues and suicidal tendencies. I think Ren's questioning theism is very impressive. I am also a huge fan of Bach and Beethoven, belief in God is tough and doesn't make it any easier, its something we know not something we do!!
Alan! I can’t tell you, the number of times I’ve sat down to record, and while making sure my camera is angled correctly, I’ve caught sight of my books up there and thought of your comment about them. It’s happened many times. Thank you for making the connection in this comment, because I may not have recognized your username immediately, but I absolutely remember that comment you left. I feel you so deeply, and I am heartbroken to know that you have experienced so much of this pain firsthand, as well. It is an honor to be able to hold space here for anyone who feels comfortable and safe enough to share some of their own story, so thank you for being willing to be open and vulnerable. I think by the end of all of this, whenever it happens, this will all eventually serve to defined my faith as an adult, instead of it, just being what I thought it was “supposed to be” for most of my life, but it’s definitely a hard refining fire to get there. Sending you so much love and compassion, and lifting you up in prayer, brother.💕🙏🏼
I watched you watch this yesterday, and it still haunts me. Such visceral reactions. There are things that do that to me. I lost 30 years of my life to depression. You, we, me...are not alone, even when we're alone. Ren is such a wonderful messenger.
I hope you’re being gentle with yourself as you deal with the waves of emotion, friend. I’m sending you so much love, empathy, and compassion. I’m so sorry to hear you lost to many years to the monster that is depression-no one should have to live out that story. And you’re right, we’re absolutely not alone. Not at all. Ren has definitely been a gift to all of us in that way, for sure. And I hope you’re able to just keep holding on, even if it’s just a tiny spark there to hold onto. Because even the smallest spark can overcome an entire room full of darkness. I really appreciate you and your thoughtful words.💕🫂
I think Ren need to sing the words of Angie (I’ve been lost) from his first breakdown at the Fred again concert. I think you and many of us (if not all of us) needed to hear and feel these words. Especially to know that we are not alone with whatever darkness, situations, or illness each if use are dealing with. If not us then a family or dear friend is dealing with in which we feel helpless in helping with. Fred (Fred Again) was dealing with the situation of his girlfriend who was sick at the time of creating this song. When Ren looked to his right twice at Sick Boi illuminated logo during his Angie part just hit my hard and affected my deeply.
Fred again baby! Instant top 5 Ren for me! A mash up become instant classic! A masterpiece of eclecticism in vocal talents. And the champagne bottle cracked over the next album. Omfg I can’t wait!
I agree, it very quickly rose near the top for me! It was absolutely amazing, and I've played it on repeat like so mayn of us have the past few days. Gonna be a great year for Ren stuff in 2024!
I cry a lil everytime I hear the emotion in his voice when he says ‘I been lost’ and over heard the song atleast 30 times from the regular and reactions, I feel your emotion
I’m really sorry my friend for all you are dealing with… it is so hard to find the light through these times… I pray that Ren continues to hold your musical hand on this journey.. Ren had somehow touched as all… yes…the music is great, the performance is special and the persona is upper eschaton… but I truly think 99 percent of us fell in love with Ren’s humanness.. he is us or who we strive to be…I have been through some of the struggles you have and I know it’s so hard to continue sometimes… but I hope you keep fighting!!!♥️🫶🏻♥️xx lots of love
Oh the power of this song/performance. Especially after Ren posted about how he broke down at the concert. His performance did the same thing to me. He has a gift of saying the exact words I need to hear at the time I need to hear them. I relate so much to him in this one and to you in this reaction. From the "leave me alone" to the "courage my soul" to "I've been lost but I've been trying..." This is true magic. The expression on his face in the last section just about broke me. I live in the same town that Ren is currently in and I had a really hard time not going and hugging him (not that I would ever intrude on his privacy that way). As always, your breakdown and analysis were completely on point and incredible. Sending healing hugs to you 💜💜💜
I guess I forgot who Ren was for a second because I wasn't expecting a fun "throwaway" live mashup of EDM tracks to be so utterly utterly wonderful and powerful. Another great reaction, thank you Becca!
Oh my gosh, you said this in such a perfect way (and it gave me a much-needed chuckle, so thanks for that😂). He continues to just keep raising the bar! So glad you enjoyed this one, friend, always thankful for you.💕
Oh gosh, I’m so, so sorry to hear that your Lyme has come back. I can only imagine how hard that must be to swallow, knowing exactly what you’re in for and having in come over you again anyway. I’m truly sorry. I hope that you’re able to defeat it again soon, I understand not being well enough to handle the treatment right now, but I really hope you can rid yourself of it quickly and easily. It’s definitely not fair that you have to live with so much. Please know I’m sending you love and I really appreciate you getting so many videos out even though you’re feeling so terrible ❤
‘Though the night is dark’ broke me…..it took me back to so many nights I had during my chemo and transplant recovery…..but those nights, so often it was music that got me through until I was able to get back to dancing to it again. Fredagain is another of my favourite artists. I was so excited to hear Ren was going to be paying homage to Fred……and he did! Ren’s song choices were so inspired for this ……paid homage to Fred whilst telling his own story. This mash up has been on repeat since the drop…..and there’s been excitement, tears, goosebumps and singing from the top of my lungs. It’s different each time. Seeing your reaction…💜🫂 visually seeing it really hit home for you…..Ren’s music makes us feel.
Oh friend, I see you, I hear you, I feel your pain, and I’m sending you so much love. I relate to your words so much more than I can say right now. I’m glad to know music has helped you keep going in those darkest times-I have plenty of my own moments where I’ve not had anything else to hold onto, but music alone was able to soothe and calm my soul and nervous system. It’s really magical in that way. And I am THRILLED to hear you are now dancing to the music again! You said it perfectly: Ren’s music makes us FEEL. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.💕 Very grateful for you.
I'm not a Christian but I grew up really devoted. When he's really singing the "I've been lost" towards the end, it reminded me of some of the live worship cds I used to listen to. Musically I love it, even if not in a religious way. Just the pure emotion and desperation.
Becca, Excellent reaction and perfectly timed. Many people in the live-chat during the premiere. I saw a number greater than 70! Congratulations And so fast after the release by Ren. Many renegades still bingewatching the reactors for this fresh content. And in all comments and chats this community proves how great it is. It is so great to be a witness to all this support you receive and deserve. This community keeps on growing because they all feel connected to you and want to stay in touch and see more of your reactions. Thank you all commentors and subscribers for this positivity. Thank you Becca for this genuine emotional content. Thank you Ren for being the performing artist you are and finding the right words and pulling the right strings on that guitar to transfer and mash up so many emotions. Again and again. Amen.
This was the first of your reactions to Ren that I'd ever seen, and I enjoyed it so much that I went through your entire back catalogue of Ren reactions and I just adore you. I'm AuDHD and a lupus patient, so while I'm not walking the same path as you, we're definitely on parallel paths and I just really, really LOVE your reactions. Thank you so much for doing them!
Beautiful reaction, Becca. I found myself crying twice during your reaction prior to you getting to the end of Ren's performance, just knowing how that last bit was going to affect you and really hit home. I've been listening to this song again and again every day since it came out and that last bit gets me every time. It so beautiful, so heartbreaking, so honest, so real.
God bless you Becca... When going through hell, it's best to keep going... The night is darkest before a dawn! A new day is coming Becca, you got this!
That is something that has struck me about Ren from the very beginning, and it took me a little while to articulate it, but ever since that phrasing came to me, I’ve held to it. He is masterful at that. And thank you for your kind words, too. I really appreciate you, and I’m glad you enjoyed this one.💕🫂
Think about how you admire and love Ren because he's felt lost and he's had so many health crises but he's really trying. And his trying lifts up and heals so many others who feel lost. I hope you can see the parallel and know that what you're feeling is deep and human, and even the best people struggle with it, and even Ren has to try really hard... and maybe that will re-create or begin to strengthen your faith. 💘
Oh Julie, thank you so very much for these words. It’s taken me a month to get to them, because I’ve been overwhelmed by the kindness in this community, but I want you to know just how deeply this comment touched my heart. Bless you. Sending you so much love.💕
Thank you 🙏 my heart bleeds for your suffering. Just know you are loved and adored by so many of us…and as you know well that we have all come together as a community around Ren is perhaps that hand of God you seek reaching into your soul…because for me Ren is a vessel of spirit through his art that I have never found in music before. He is the love love child of Dylan and Cohen as a writer with the heart of Jeff Buckley! We are all blessed to be here for his life’s work! Be strong!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul. I could feel the love as I read your words, and everything you said about Ren is so true, what a blessing it is to be alive to witness this. I love the way you worded that "vessel of a spirit" line, it gave me chills. Thanks for being here, and for being you.
I just want to reach out to you Becca, firstly because I love the passion in your reactions to Ren. Secondly my daughter was in high school with Ren and that makes it very personal to me to see how well he is doing. Like you he has been and continues to be going through an awful lot and yet he manages to have eating out of the palm of his hand. I wish you well Becca and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please accept this hug 🤗 from the Isle of Anglesey North Wales 🏴 UK 🇬🇧 x
I swear I thought I replied to this, but only now saw I didn’t. Thank you so much for sharing this with me, it’s so cool your daughter went to school with him! Huge accepted and appreciated.💕
I love how you pointed out the power as well as the pain of that last section. Chronic pain can make you lose yourself but the strength to battle back against that is a beautiful thing and people are often bad at giving themselves credit for that. I think it's because we feel the strength of the struggle as well as the pain in Ren's performance that it touches our souls. Thanks for the wonderful, honest reaction Becca.
I knew all these songs before, they are dance songs, club songs, I never listened to the lirycs or they had no effect on me, I was at the premiere of Ren mash-up, I expected the same effect, Ren's performance completely broke me, my daughters were next to me , I had to explain to them why I was crying, none of these songs would sound the same to me anymore. All the best for you, sending hugs and love❤ P. S love your Screech figurine😊
Wow gurl! I’ve already seen so many reactions to this since it came out, and you’re the first to comment on the duality of the colors and lighting! Really got me thinking. Thank you! Great job 👏🏼
You always have a brilliant break-down of Ren's music, thank you for that! I am also not a happy person these days, so hearing you talk about "keep trying" was really appreciated. Thanks again for your insights!
Oh friend, I am so sorry to hear you’ve been having a rough go of it-I feel you on it being hard to channel/feel happiness. I’m extremely grateful that section was able to resonate with you-as I think I said at some point, I knew I needed to hear that message, so my saying it aloud was first for everyone else who may be watching (since I know a lot of us are in the trenches every day), but also for myself. I could feel the power in the words as I said them, and it was my hope and prayer that the power could come through the screen to anyone else who needed the reminder. So just to repeat/summarize it again, you may feel lost, but as long as you keep trying, you cannot and will not lose. Sending you love and compassion.💕🫂
Yes, it was from the overture for Screeches Tale. I was so excited to have finally, in a long time, made it to a Ren premiere. But when he went from “ pull me out of this “ ….” Everybody everybody everybody…leave me alone … I’m battling …” I officially Broke 😭 And that last verse just broke my heart. He’s still struggling, battling and, despite reaching a certain level of acceptance you can tell that he’s still feeling lost ( and loss ). I love him, his heart, his wisdom, his empathy, his beautiful soul. I’ve been lost , I’ve been lost…for a while. But I’m really trying… “ Sobbing then. Sobbing now. And Becca I am so wishing that I was there with you so I could wrap my arms around and sob in solidarity. I don’t know what the cause is but I have felt a burning sensation under my skin , wrapping itself around my chest and back…on fire, every single day and night. For almost 3 years. You describe your pain and it is a perfect description of a river of fire underneath your skin of mine. My love to you Becca xo
Oh friend, I wish so badly I could take away your pain. Since I can’t, I’m just glad you were able to find some camaraderie and solace here. It’s such a hard thing to deal with, and I really hope you’re able to give yourself grace on the days that are harder, and embrace the glimmers of light that can show up amidst what feels like overwhelming darkness.
I go back to this phrase, sometimes, often when I get one of the few doubters in the comment section, telling me, I am “overreacting“ or faking, whatever emotions I’m sharing. But the jokes on them, because if they paid me $1 million, I would not be able to fake emotion, I am notoriously and historically terrible at that, so it means the world to me when I’m able to share so openly, and when others Let me know they appreciate or are able to connect with it.
I can tell its genuine, also remember faith through adversity is true faith -the parable of the mustard seeds honours Jesus and is very accurate toward easy faith as we see in all churches@@BeccaDoss
The part where he goes ive been lost always gets me crying. Theres so much pain in his voice. I know what that foreign concept of no pain is too. I od'd on fentynal in 2017 which caused my kidneys to shut down making me septic and made my legs swell resulting in having to have cuts on both sides of my legs for relief. The swelling caused nerve damage. Now my feet feel like they are being stabbed with a million needles 24/7. Weed helps. Thank god. It makes it tolerable but the pain never goes away.
That I've been lost part means so much to me cuz for years I was a junkie being lost. But I've been sober for a Lil over 5 years and I'm fuckin trying!!!
Oh friend, I am so sorry to hear of your pain (mental and physical). I’m also glad his music has been a source of relatability and hopefully catharsis for you. I’m so glad you’re still here with us, in this world AND in this community.💕
Becca, I have cried with you once again in hearing that last one. My mental health, my grief… yeah, I’ve been lost… but I’m really trying. His words are my feelings. God bless you Becca. My faith is shaken too but I also know of His power and that things would’ve gone really south if He weren’t holding me. Much love and blessings…
Becca at times through this reaction you looked emotionally broken and I get that. What I also saw was strength, courage, determination and a will to keep going. Do not doubt yourself lady, you have fire in your veins. Bless you. x
Great video as always Becca. Love to hear your perspective. And yes, that last verse is so good. I think this is the best song Ren has done. I can't stop listening to it.
I’m right there with you, Jason, I’ve had this on constant repeat ever since filming. This is in the upper echelon, for sure. That last verse really, REALLY took me out, and I know it’s been the same for so many other Renegades who have watched. As always, I appreciate you so much, I’m glad you’re here, and I’m really thankful to know you were able to enjoy this one.💕
Becca Stankface- I love how the emotions are showing on your facial expressions, and of course how well you always dissect and interpret his lyrics. Awesome reaction!
If you haven't already encountered it you should look up the song Patience that Ren wrote over 8 years ago - before his lyme disease diagnosis and still struggling to get answers. Look at the one on the Ayesha Jones page - he performed it in an interview of some sort. Since first hearing it a few week ago, i listen to it at least once a day and get very emotional every time I hear it.
It's been on my radar, but I may have to just get to it sooner rather than later. I'm so glad it's been a source of healing and/or catharsis for you since finding it. Songs like that are just so wonderful.
@@BeccaDoss I came across the lyrics somewhere and printed them off (yes I still have a printer at home and print things off) and will just read the lyrics as a reminder when I am working. I hope you can find a way out of your current health issues and can thrive!
@@amyl9864 I love this because that is something I do regularly (whether it’s reading my own lyrics or poetry, or others’, as you know, speaking it aloud just helps us channel the power). Thank you so much for sharing.
The lick is the moment in tale of screech when he stands up in the stairway and walks to the wall for the intro. I think the reference is a call back to the moment we feel screech running away to Patrick at #54. Also a moment when he (ren/screech) wants to be pulled out of this.
I am so glad you were able to enjoy this reaction, thank you so much for taking time to stop by and let me know. Love to you from just a little further north (KY)!😊
I’m sorry I’m so late getting back to you, but I really appreciate you taking time to stop by and say hi and check out the channel! It makes my heart smile anytime someone lets me know they’re enjoying these reactions, so I’m really grateful you took time to leave this comment. So glad to have you here!💕
Yes! I love when he goes into that style, and the fact that he added that Easter egg in there amidst all the other styles (and apparently some of that guitar section was taken from Fred Again’s instrumental, someone pointed out to me in a comment). The way he weaves a connected thread throughout so many of his songs and videos blows my mind.
I absolutely feel that love, Katherine, thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul. I really appreciate you taking time to stop by and not only watch, but leave such a kind comment. God bless you, His light is shining through you.💕 Sending you so much love and gratitude.🙏🏼
Thanks for your breakdown and explanation of the ‘boobies’ line. Haven’t seen any other reactor attempt it. So (as Ren would say) big up yourself. Edited to say subbed to hear your Ren reactions.
Thanks so much for taking time to let me know you enjoyed this one, AND for sticking around for future Re(n)actions! I’ve got a lot up so far, but have many, MANY more I can’t wait to get to. I appreciate your comment on that line, too. To me, it was such a clear connection to his song Dominoes, and my mind immediately went down that thought train. I’m glad to be able to add something to the mix.😊💕
No worries, friend! I know it was late notice to post it, and I needed to get it out of the way before some other stuff today, but it’ll be here whenever you’re able to stop by! Hope work’s been okay today.💕
Beautiful reaction as always. This song didn't resonate with me the first time I heard it, mostly because I struggled to hear the lyrics. Each time I hear it, though, it hits a little deeper, and I love it. Given your Lyme disease relapse and struggles with faith, I once again recommend Ren's "Seven Sins" lyric video. Buckle up, though, because it will hit hard. Edit: I've checked out Fred Again as a result of this mash-up. I will be listening to more. I've never listened to EDM, mostly because I, too, get a sensory overload from what little I have heard. Fred Again, though, is a master of making extremely simple phrases powerful. If you listen to nothing else of his, I'd recommend his NPR Tiny Desk Concert. It has a vibe similar to this mash-up: th-cam.com/video/4iQmPv_dTI0/w-d-xo.htmlsi=SIgS7e-SC4UPxZ1h
I’m behind on replies, but thank you, friend. It definitely is something that tends to hit deeper the more you listen, at least that’s also been the case for me. (Though it also clearly really got me the first time, albeit partly because I checked the lyrics after he sang them) I’m definitely eager to get to Seven Sins (and more off the Sick Boi album), it’s just felt daunting thus far. But I may have to try to do that one in my next recording session, it keeps coming up in the comments so I have no idea it’s a tour de force in its own right. (Thanks for the heads up about the tiny desk concert!)
@@BeccaDoss, I realized I struggled to understand him on the first few listens because his phrasing is so unique. It made it difficult to find the word boundaries, especially with such unexpected juxtapositions. Take care and be well!
Thank you, Billie. And no worries, no apology needed. Unfortunately, eating disorders take no mercy and do not discriminate-I’ve been fighting mine for 20+ years now, but am so determined to finally tsk back my life. Especially since I’ve had a resurgence of Lyme and some other health issues flare recently, I need to take care of the anorexia recovery side of things more than ever. It’s been hard, because with my physical illnesses, it’s impossible to access the level of eating disorder treatment I actually need, so we’ve been trying to piecemeal treatment on our own the past 2.5 years. I do appreciate your prayers.💕
@@LouHeritage Hey friend! 💕 Thank you for mentioning this, I actually recorded this back in March, I just haven’t been able to emotionally handle, sitting down to edit it yet. It’s definitely on my list to get to sooner rather than later, so I get it uploaded hopefully before too much more time passes. I hope you’re doing well, friend, be gentle with, and take care of, yourself in anyway possible.
I'm sorry I missed this when you left it, I didn't seem to have issues on my end, aside from a random 2-seconds where the box of Ren's video went green, randomly. Were you having trouble?
@@siwlasilva I’m so sorry, I’ll try to see if anyone else had the same issues. Tech stuff can be so annoying. 🫂 But absolutely no apology needed, that’s why I leave the videos up! (Except when I have to take them down to fix audio and re-upload😉)
Ren btw. wrote about the last song of this mashup:
"We went and watched fred in LA back in October, toward the part of his set he played Angie (I've been lost) and the simplicity but power of that one repeated line pretty much broke me and I remember breaking down in the middle of a crowd of people. Something so simple pretty much summed up the last 10+ years of my life and explained everything in a sentence. Music is fucking magic for that."
It broke me a little just to read this. He's so right. And I felt the exact same. Wow. Wow Wow Wow. Thanks for sharing the quote.
@@BeccaDoss I think the same thing happened again while filming the video which is why he had to calm himself and his leg at the end. Take care of yourself becca. We love you.
@@Hexenkind1 That would actually make perfect sense. Thanks, brother, gonna take some time away from technology now, but I’m so glad to have connected with so many here over this one.
@@BeccaDoss I can't watch this song without crying, even though I watch it quite a lot, but until now I didn't think about others, and now I cried with you, for you, and for others, because so many people are in pain. My heart is in pieces, I really want you to be better
@@somogyieva That is so kind of you to say, friend, thank you for the compassion that shines through your soul. I hope you’re being gentle with yourself after the emotional rollercoaster.💕
In one of his interviews he stated his legs will always be in pain. It was described as if his bones are on fire. When he is standing up playing guitar with his old band he is always lifting up his legs to likely get some relief. He stated he has been in pain for so many years he couldn't imagine what having no pain would be like. It is a foreign concept.
Oh, Kelly, my heart hurt reading this and I have tears in my eyes. I know that pain so well. The number of times I've described it as feeling like i have "firewater running under my skin," or like Ren said, "my bones are on fire" is too many to count. It breaks my heart knowing he feels the same. I've also said the exact same thing about not even remembering what it's like to not be in pain every day, it's a foreign concept, indeed. I kid you not, those are the exact words I've used. Oh my goodness, thank you for taking time to type this out.
Living with neuropathy (diabetic) I am always in pain myself. Luckily my pain is controlled at night to help with sleeping. There a blend of numbness and pain 7x24. So I emphasize with on Ren on this issue.
@@Jason_xofilosI got neuropathy too. Mine was from od'ing and shutting my kidneys down making my legs swell damaging my nerves. It is numbness mixed with pain 24/7. I've been trying to describe it for a while now and that sums it up perfect. Thank you
“I’ve been lost for a while…” as he looks out over a city that is not his home town, that hits hard. 😢
Even though he says those same words over and over, his delivery changed with each repetition and gave it new meaning each time. Amazing!
Aww sweeheart i wish i cud reach through the screen and give you the biggest hug.you got this
As a writer Ren is the love child of Bob Dylan’s social commentary and Leonard Cohens emotional intelligence with Jimmy Hendrix soul and Jim Morrison’s mystical reach with Tom Waits flair for authentic and raw eclectic vocalizations, Laurie Anderson’s genius for metaphysical mental performance and that brilliance of body language developed by Antoin Artaud in his Theatre Of the absurd! Generational talent is an understatement! An artist full of greatness, walking the razors edge of genius and madness, who articulates the human condition and human suffering like the painters Van Gogh and Francis Bacon! As so many reactors have broke down and exclaimed the genre is REN! This is what they said about Picasso. This is what we say about REN! I’m so blessed his emergence has come while I’m alive. We all are. At just the very beginning of our awareness of him and we already have the gifts of Hi Ren, The Tales, The Demos, Money Game Trilogy, Chalk Outlines, How to be Me, and Now OMFG Fred Again Mashup-already no less than 10 paradigm shifting masterpieces. And let’s not forget the brilliant Flex of Sic Boi! Viva Ren!!! Lets F’ing Go Ren! Don’t put that guitar down the future of music history is waiting on your every song!
There is no way I could add anything to this, you encapsulated it so perfectly well, I just wanted you to know I appreciated YOUR use of language and emotion in YOUR words here. It’s such a wonderful experience to find an artist who hits all those notes (bad pun intended) at once, who is so versatile, but above all, who uses all his talent and hard work to make music that matters-to him, to us, to the world. He is a gem, and I’m so glad he’s having an impact on countless souls by simply sharing his gift and his story.💕
Wow. Who ARE you?? You just named some fairly obscure but well loved artists (especially Laurie Anderson). Thank you for this. ❤️😊❤️
He made me cry, too. And now knowing that in the middle of the Fred Again concert that he broke down to those words, just breaks my heart even more. Ren is the king of portraying emotions through song, whether it be his guitar or his voice or his expressions. Total package. And yes, I see that at the end as him trying steady his shaking knee. Not sure, but that is what it looks like to me. Big hugs to you, Becca. I really wish you and Ren could be healed or in less pain. xoxo
Oh, friend, I am so running short on adequate words right now, but thank you. This was such a blessing to read. He really is all of that, it's amazing. That knee part really broke me. I appreciate you so very much.
This is emotional, but we all love you.
If anybody is curious about the "Fred Again..." songs he "mashed up" there they are as follows:
- Jungle
- Delilah (pull me out of this)
- leavemealone
- Clara (the night is dark)
- Angie (i’ve been lost)
Thank you SO MUCH for adding this here! It was actually your post on FB that clues me in to which songs they were, so I know others will also appreciate this list!💕
Thanks for this. Thanks even more for making the playlist of the Mashup so we could hear the original songs that inspired him and see how Ren made them his own. Again, really appreciate you doing that playlist for everyone.
By the way, beautiful and heartfelt breakdown. You will be in my prayers Becca. My heart aches for you and Ren. I want to reach out and give you both a hug.
I'm so very grateful for you, for you kind words, and of course, for your prayers. Thanks for being such an awesome human.
38 minutes and 22 seconds of pure...even through the pain...joy! It feels like a mashup or remix of its own accord. Ren has oft repeated (and is something I have believed for a long time) that art is EXPRESSION, nothing more. Your offerings to us are nothing but expression, intelligent and bright, passionate and open, vulnerable and determined, resolute and compassionate! Thank you so much, Becca! And faith? I think God must be the art, the expression of the universe, which is LOVE. Listening and watching you is compelling, near proof that love is Real!
I had been really down for a few weeks. I’d been hiding from the world. And while the world is still awful, this song helped me reconnect. It brought me some peace.
I’m so thankful for Ren. And I’m thankful for his community of fans. Just watched the last Big Push concert with other fans on his Discord with other fans. And it meant so much. ♥️♥️🔥🔥
Keep holding on, Becca. 🤗
I have been having times of struggle with my faith as well. My girlfriend is dying and the world is going to hell, but for some reason, there are times like these, watching you and ran and the whole universe come together and it brings me back to the conclusion that there is something Beyond this . Thank you so how much
Oh, Andrew, my heart hurts for you and I wish I could relieve some of your pain. I am so, so sorry to hear about your girlfriend, that is such an excruciating thing to endure for both of you, but especially for those of us who are left in this world for now.
Even more so since we all know the world is not a kind, gentle place. I am so grateful to know Ren’s art has been a source of healing for you, and it’s humbling to even play any small part in that. I know it can be nearly impossible to hold onto our faith in these times, but you said it perfectly: moments like this undoubtedly help us connect to that truth of a bigger picture and something more that the pain we see, feel, witness in others each day. I am sending you so much love, empathy, and compassion. Thank you for feeling safe enough to share this so vulnerably.💕🫂
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I was the person who remarked on your theological books. I am a catholic leaning Anglican and I feel very similar to you. I have had horrendous mental issues and suicidal tendencies. I think Ren's questioning theism is very impressive. I am also a huge fan of Bach and Beethoven, belief in God is tough and doesn't make it any easier, its something we know not something we do!!
Alan! I can’t tell you, the number of times I’ve sat down to record, and while making sure my camera is angled correctly, I’ve caught sight of my books up there and thought of your comment about them. It’s happened many times. Thank you for making the connection in this comment, because I may not have recognized your username immediately, but I absolutely remember that comment you left.
I feel you so deeply, and I am heartbroken to know that you have experienced so much of this pain firsthand, as well. It is an honor to be able to hold space here for anyone who feels comfortable and safe enough to share some of their own story, so thank you for being willing to be open and vulnerable.
I think by the end of all of this, whenever it happens, this will all eventually serve to defined my faith as an adult, instead of it, just being what I thought it was “supposed to be” for most of my life, but it’s definitely a hard refining fire to get there. Sending you so much love and compassion, and lifting you up in prayer, brother.💕🙏🏼
I watched you watch this yesterday, and it still haunts me. Such visceral reactions. There are things that do that to me. I lost 30 years of my life to depression. You, we, me...are not alone, even when we're alone. Ren is such a wonderful messenger.
I hope you’re being gentle with yourself as you deal with the waves of emotion, friend. I’m sending you so much love, empathy, and compassion. I’m so sorry to hear you lost to many years to the monster that is depression-no one should have to live out that story. And you’re right, we’re absolutely not alone. Not at all. Ren has definitely been a gift to all of us in that way, for sure. And I hope you’re able to just keep holding on, even if it’s just a tiny spark there to hold onto. Because even the smallest spark can overcome an entire room full of darkness. I really appreciate you and your thoughtful words.💕🫂
I found my peace. it's your time. @@BeccaDoss
I think Ren need to sing the words of Angie (I’ve been lost) from his first breakdown at the Fred again concert. I think you and many of us (if not all of us) needed to hear and feel these words. Especially to know that we are not alone with whatever darkness, situations, or illness each if use are dealing with. If not us then a family or dear friend is dealing with in which we feel helpless in helping with. Fred (Fred Again) was dealing with the situation of his girlfriend who was sick at the time of creating this song.
When Ren looked to his right twice at Sick Boi illuminated logo during his Angie part just hit my hard and affected my deeply.
I was finally able to sit down and watch your reaction, it did not disappoint
Fred again baby! Instant top 5 Ren for me! A mash up become instant classic! A masterpiece of eclecticism in vocal talents. And the champagne bottle cracked over the next album. Omfg I can’t wait!
I agree, it very quickly rose near the top for me! It was absolutely amazing, and I've played it on repeat like so mayn of us have the past few days. Gonna be a great year for Ren stuff in 2024!
I can hear your love for Ren's music in the passionate way you talk about it.
I get it. He's amazing 👍
This mashup gets better and better with every repetition. I love Ren for that. It doesn't happen often :)
Hugs Becca, Ren's a soul healer
I cry a lil everytime I hear the emotion in his voice when he says ‘I been lost’ and over heard the song atleast 30 times from the regular and reactions, I feel your emotion
I feel you, friend. Sending love.💕
I’m really sorry my friend for all you are dealing with… it is so hard to find the light through these times… I pray that Ren continues to hold your musical hand on this journey.. Ren had somehow touched as all… yes…the music is great, the performance is special and the persona is upper eschaton… but I truly think 99 percent of us fell in love with Ren’s humanness.. he is us or who we strive to be…I have been through some of the struggles you have and I know it’s so hard to continue sometimes… but I hope you keep fighting!!!♥️🫶🏻♥️xx lots of love
Oh the power of this song/performance. Especially after Ren posted about how he broke down at the concert. His performance did the same thing to me. He has a gift of saying the exact words I need to hear at the time I need to hear them. I relate so much to him in this one and to you in this reaction. From the "leave me alone" to the "courage my soul" to "I've been lost but I've been trying..." This is true magic. The expression on his face in the last section just about broke me. I live in the same town that Ren is currently in and I had a really hard time not going and hugging him (not that I would ever intrude on his privacy that way). As always, your breakdown and analysis were completely on point and incredible. Sending healing hugs to you 💜💜💜
I guess I forgot who Ren was for a second because I wasn't expecting a fun "throwaway" live mashup of EDM tracks to be so utterly utterly wonderful and powerful. Another great reaction, thank you Becca!
Oh my gosh, you said this in such a perfect way (and it gave me a much-needed chuckle, so thanks for that😂). He continues to just keep raising the bar! So glad you enjoyed this one, friend, always thankful for you.💕
Oh gosh, I’m so, so sorry to hear that your Lyme has come back. I can only imagine how hard that must be to swallow, knowing exactly what you’re in for and having in come over you again anyway. I’m truly sorry. I hope that you’re able to defeat it again soon, I understand not being well enough to handle the treatment right now, but I really hope you can rid yourself of it quickly and easily. It’s definitely not fair that you have to live with so much. Please know I’m sending you love and I really appreciate you getting so many videos out even though you’re feeling so terrible ❤
‘Though the night is dark’ broke me…..it took me back to so many nights I had during my chemo and transplant recovery…..but those nights, so often it was music that got me through until I was able to get back to dancing to it again.
Fredagain is another of my favourite artists. I was so excited to hear Ren was going to be paying homage to Fred……and he did!
Ren’s song choices were so inspired for this ……paid homage to Fred whilst telling his own story. This mash up has been on repeat since the drop…..and there’s been excitement, tears, goosebumps and singing from the top of my lungs. It’s different each time.
Seeing your reaction…💜🫂 visually seeing it really hit home for you…..Ren’s music makes us feel.
Oh friend, I see you, I hear you, I feel your pain, and I’m sending you so much love. I relate to your words so much more than I can say right now. I’m glad to know music has helped you keep going in those darkest times-I have plenty of my own moments where I’ve not had anything else to hold onto, but music alone was able to soothe and calm my soul and nervous system. It’s really magical in that way.
And I am THRILLED to hear you are now dancing to the music again!
You said it perfectly: Ren’s music makes us FEEL. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.💕 Very grateful for you.
Dear Becca, I cried with you, cause I can’t endure his pain he had to go through. I never saw pain so perfectly delivered 😢🥰
Same ❤️
I'm not a Christian but I grew up really devoted. When he's really singing the "I've been lost" towards the end, it reminded me of some of the live worship cds I used to listen to. Musically I love it, even if not in a religious way. Just the pure emotion and desperation.
Becca,
Excellent reaction and perfectly timed.
Many people in the live-chat during the premiere. I saw a number greater than 70! Congratulations
And so fast after the release by Ren.
Many renegades still bingewatching the reactors for this fresh content.
And in all comments and chats this community proves how great it is.
It is so great to be a witness to all this support you receive and deserve.
This community keeps on growing because they all feel connected to you and want to stay in touch and see more of your reactions.
Thank you all commentors and subscribers for this positivity.
Thank you Becca for this genuine emotional content.
Thank you Ren for being the performing artist you are and finding the right words and pulling the right strings on that guitar to transfer and mash up so many emotions.
Again and again.
Amen.
This was the first of your reactions to Ren that I'd ever seen, and I enjoyed it so much that I went through your entire back catalogue of Ren reactions and I just adore you. I'm AuDHD and a lupus patient, so while I'm not walking the same path as you, we're definitely on parallel paths and I just really, really LOVE your reactions. Thank you so much for doing them!
Beautiful reaction, Becca. I found myself crying twice during your reaction prior to you getting to the end of Ren's performance, just knowing how that last bit was going to affect you and really hit home. I've been listening to this song again and again every day since it came out and that last bit gets me every time. It so beautiful, so heartbreaking, so honest, so real.
I mean, no one reacts like you, thank you and be well dear Becca !!!!!! Ren has some kind of magic that touches our hearts, right?
God bless you Becca... When going through hell, it's best to keep going... The night is darkest before a dawn!
A new day is coming Becca, you got this!
You said it so well, friend, thank you so much. God bless you, too. One day at a time!💕🌥️
His voice and soul are instruments... that is so accurate and wonderful. And so are you. Thank you for this
That is something that has struck me about Ren from the very beginning, and it took me a little while to articulate it, but ever since that phrasing came to me, I’ve held to it. He is masterful at that.
And thank you for your kind words, too. I really appreciate you, and I’m glad you enjoyed this one.💕🫂
Love ya 🥰🫂 Great react as always, and thanks for being you 🫂🥰
Back at you, friend, so thankful to have you here. (Thanks for letting me know you enjoyed this one!)😊💕
Think about how you admire and love Ren because he's felt lost and he's had so many health crises but he's really trying. And his trying lifts up and heals so many others who feel lost. I hope you can see the parallel and know that what you're feeling is deep and human, and even the best people struggle with it, and even Ren has to try really hard... and maybe that will re-create or begin to strengthen your faith. 💘
Oh Julie, thank you so very much for these words. It’s taken me a month to get to them, because I’ve been overwhelmed by the kindness in this community, but I want you to know just how deeply this comment touched my heart. Bless you. Sending you so much love.💕
Thank you 🙏 my heart bleeds for your suffering. Just know you are loved and adored by so many of us…and as you know well that we have all come together as a community around Ren is perhaps that hand of God you seek reaching into your soul…because for me Ren is a vessel of spirit through his art that I have never found in music before. He is the love love child of Dylan and Cohen as a writer with the heart of Jeff Buckley! We are all blessed to be here for his life’s work! Be strong!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul. I could feel the love as I read your words, and everything you said about Ren is so true, what a blessing it is to be alive to witness this. I love the way you worded that "vessel of a spirit" line, it gave me chills. Thanks for being here, and for being you.
Love it how much you see and hear and share it with us. So a great reaction!! Love you ❤️🙏🕊️
I’m so glad you enjoyed it, friend, thank you so much for your kind words. Sending love right back your way.💕
I just want to reach out to you Becca, firstly because I love the passion in your reactions to Ren. Secondly my daughter was in high school with Ren and that makes it very personal to me to see how well he is doing. Like you he has been and continues to be going through an awful lot and yet he manages to have eating out of the palm of his hand. I wish you well Becca and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please accept this hug 🤗 from the Isle of Anglesey North Wales 🏴 UK 🇬🇧 x
I swear I thought I replied to this, but only now saw I didn’t. Thank you so much for sharing this with me, it’s so cool your daughter went to school with him! Huge accepted and appreciated.💕
I love how you pointed out the power as well as the pain of that last section. Chronic pain can make you lose yourself but the strength to battle back against that is a beautiful thing and people are often bad at giving themselves credit for that.
I think it's because we feel the strength of the struggle as well as the pain in Ren's performance that it touches our souls. Thanks for the wonderful, honest reaction Becca.
I knew all these songs before, they are dance songs, club songs, I never listened to the lirycs or they had no effect on me, I was at the premiere of Ren mash-up, I expected the same effect, Ren's performance completely broke me, my daughters were next to me , I had to explain to them why I was crying, none of these songs would sound the same to me anymore. All the best for you, sending hugs and love❤
P. S love your Screech figurine😊
Wow gurl! I’ve already seen so many reactions to this since it came out, and you’re the first to comment on the duality of the colors and lighting! Really got me thinking. Thank you! Great job 👏🏼
❤ #ren 🖤
He certainly know's how to get us all in our feeling's 🥺🖤
Such a outstanding artist 🥰
Oh he's the best at that, for sure!
Many blessings to you Becca.Your purity of heart on display is something to behold. Thank you💜✌️
Thank you, friend, this really means a lot to me. I appreciate you.💕
You always have a brilliant break-down of Ren's music, thank you for that! I am also not a happy person these days, so hearing you talk about "keep trying" was really appreciated. Thanks again for your insights!
Oh friend, I am so sorry to hear you’ve been having a rough go of it-I feel you on it being hard to channel/feel happiness. I’m extremely grateful that section was able to resonate with you-as I think I said at some point, I knew I needed to hear that message, so my saying it aloud was first for everyone else who may be watching (since I know a lot of us are in the trenches every day), but also for myself. I could feel the power in the words as I said them, and it was my hope and prayer that the power could come through the screen to anyone else who needed the reminder.
So just to repeat/summarize it again, you may feel lost, but as long as you keep trying, you cannot and will not lose. Sending you love and compassion.💕🫂
@@BeccaDoss I hope you hear often that you are amazing. :) Thanks for your support. I'll keep watching for your reactions, they're brilliant.
Hello again friend!😊 I loved what Ren took and did with this! 5 songs into one with his own style! Amazing! ❤
Yes, it was from the overture for Screeches Tale.
I was so excited to have finally, in a long time, made it to a Ren premiere. But when he went from “ pull me out of this “ ….” Everybody everybody everybody…leave me alone … I’m battling …” I officially Broke 😭 And that last verse just broke my heart. He’s still struggling, battling and, despite reaching a certain level of acceptance you can tell that he’s still feeling lost ( and loss ). I love him, his heart, his wisdom, his empathy, his beautiful soul.
I’ve been lost , I’ve been lost…for a while. But I’m really trying… “
Sobbing then. Sobbing now. And Becca I am so wishing that I was there with you so I could wrap my arms around and sob in solidarity.
I don’t know what the cause is but I have felt a burning sensation under my skin , wrapping itself around my chest and back…on fire, every single day and night. For almost 3 years. You describe your pain and it is a perfect description of a river of fire underneath your skin of mine. My love to you Becca xo
Oh friend, I wish so badly I could take away your pain. Since I can’t, I’m just glad you were able to find some camaraderie and solace here. It’s such a hard thing to deal with, and I really hope you’re able to give yourself grace on the days that are harder, and embrace the glimmers of light that can show up amidst what feels like overwhelming darkness.
Thank you for the great reaction. Keep holding on and fighting to get better! ❤❤❤
I can't stop thanking you. This reaction was so much needed. My thoughts exactly. Love you
Just knowing it was able to resonate with you is a blessing to me, thank you for continuing to let me know. Sending so much love to you.💕
Also your emotional honesty is astonishing!
I go back to this phrase, sometimes, often when I get one of the few doubters in the comment section, telling me, I am “overreacting“ or faking, whatever emotions I’m sharing. But the jokes on them, because if they paid me $1 million, I would not be able to fake emotion, I am notoriously and historically terrible at that, so it means the world to me when I’m able to share so openly, and when others Let me know they appreciate or are able to connect with it.
I can tell its genuine, also remember faith through adversity is true faith -the parable of the mustard seeds honours Jesus and is very accurate toward easy faith as we see in all churches@@BeccaDoss
The part where he goes ive been lost always gets me crying. Theres so much pain in his voice. I know what that foreign concept of no pain is too. I od'd on fentynal in 2017 which caused my kidneys to shut down making me septic and made my legs swell resulting in having to have cuts on both sides of my legs for relief. The swelling caused nerve damage. Now my feet feel like they are being stabbed with a million needles 24/7. Weed helps. Thank god. It makes it tolerable but the pain never goes away.
That I've been lost part means so much to me cuz for years I was a junkie being lost. But I've been sober for a Lil over 5 years and I'm fuckin trying!!!
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Oh friend, I am so sorry to hear of your pain (mental and physical). I’m also glad his music has been a source of relatability and hopefully catharsis for you. I’m so glad you’re still here with us, in this world AND in this community.💕
You go girl and hang on in there ❤ I know its hard but we all have to keep trying and making the most of the good bits 🩷
You said it perfectly: this good bits, those small glimmers, aren’t so small when they’re the threads we can hold onto amidst a lot of darkness.💕
Becca, I have cried with you once again in hearing that last one. My mental health, my grief… yeah, I’ve been lost… but I’m really trying. His words are my feelings. God bless you Becca. My faith is shaken too but I also know of His power and that things would’ve gone really south if He weren’t holding me. Much love and blessings…
Oh friend, I am sending you so much love, and asking God to let you feel His presence as He holds you in his arms. 💕
@@BeccaDoss amen and thank you 💕
Becca, I cried with you. Oh, beautiful woman, please be well. We need your gentle, inspirational and insightful responses to beauty. ❤️🙏❤️
Becca at times through this reaction you looked emotionally broken and I get that. What I also saw was strength, courage, determination and a will to keep going. Do not doubt yourself lady, you have fire in your veins. Bless you. x
Becca, your courage and openness is inspiring 💜
Ren Rabbit hole fans 🐇🕳️🖤 sent me I’m very glad they did. Brilliant reaction to our Boi’s masterpiece.
Sending love your way….never give up!!❤
Great video as always Becca. Love to hear your perspective. And yes, that last verse is so good. I think this is the best song Ren has done. I can't stop listening to it.
I’m right there with you, Jason, I’ve had this on constant repeat ever since filming. This is in the upper echelon, for sure. That last verse really, REALLY took me out, and I know it’s been the same for so many other Renegades who have watched. As always, I appreciate you so much, I’m glad you’re here, and I’m really thankful to know you were able to enjoy this one.💕
“I’ve been lost” is gut wrenching to someone like me, who thinks they’re coping but I’m trying. Keep trying Becca❤
Much love and support
Becca Stankface- I love how the emotions are showing on your facial expressions, and of course how well you always dissect and interpret his lyrics. Awesome reaction!
I felt that…more power to you!
Thanks, Rudy, really thankful for you!💕
If you haven't already encountered it you should look up the song Patience that Ren wrote over 8 years ago - before his lyme disease diagnosis and still struggling to get answers. Look at the one on the Ayesha Jones page - he performed it in an interview of some sort. Since first hearing it a few week ago, i listen to it at least once a day and get very emotional every time I hear it.
It's been on my radar, but I may have to just get to it sooner rather than later. I'm so glad it's been a source of healing and/or catharsis for you since finding it. Songs like that are just so wonderful.
@@BeccaDoss I came across the lyrics somewhere and printed them off (yes I still have a printer at home and print things off) and will just read the lyrics as a reminder when I am working. I hope you can find a way out of your current health issues and can thrive!
@@amyl9864 I love this because that is something I do regularly (whether it’s reading my own lyrics or poetry, or others’, as you know, speaking it aloud just helps us channel the power). Thank you so much for sharing.
Gods love for us/you is unshakable!!!! 🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️
The lick is the moment in tale of screech when he stands up in the stairway and walks to the wall for the intro. I think the reference is a call back to the moment we feel screech running away to Patrick at #54. Also a moment when he (ren/screech) wants to be pulled out of this.
Yes! I noticed it in editing but didn't take time to add a note, so I really appreciate you leaving this here!
You are a awesome person keep your head up and you did a fantastic job much love to you from Tennessee
I am so glad you were able to enjoy this reaction, thank you so much for taking time to stop by and let me know. Love to you from just a little further north (KY)!😊
ive been lost. ty becca for reminding me to try...i cant lose. ty
A very tight and warm hug, Becca. 🌻❤️
Felt and very appreciated. 🫂 Thank you, friend.
Ren is the greatest artist alive, Ronnie Radke from falling in reverse is a close second, then I’d put harry mack probably
I found you from ren recommending people come 2 ur channel and show some love.i came 4 ren here 4 u.great reaction.wish you health and happiness
I’m sorry I’m so late getting back to you, but I really appreciate you taking time to stop by and say hi and check out the channel! It makes my heart smile anytime someone lets me know they’re enjoying these reactions, so I’m really grateful you took time to leave this comment. So glad to have you here!💕
I love the almost baroque flourish at the end of the guitar solo! And yes, I'm pretty sure part of that comes from Screech's tale.
Yes! I love when he goes into that style, and the fact that he added that Easter egg in there amidst all the other styles (and apparently some of that guitar section was taken from Fred Again’s instrumental, someone pointed out to me in a comment). The way he weaves a connected thread throughout so many of his songs and videos blows my mind.
@@BeccaDoss he is gifted, and a gift. I feel so privileged to be witnessing his career as it unfolds.
Enjoyed watching your energy and emotion.😊
Thank you so so much, friend, this makes me extremely glad and thankful to hear. It was impossible not to feel this one on a visceral level.💕
Your reaction brings me in tears.You are strong and good looking..you are special!And yes Ren special to..oké of a kind!
Bless you, friend. I’m so glad to hear you enjoyed it.💕
As i watched u go thru the video, ik after u saying u couldn't help stop it, the end was going to hit home💪
Absolutely. And it did hit. HARD.
For everybody please stay healthy stay strong and fight those demons
Love your rennergy ❤Bec lots of love
Thanks, Michael! (Love the word Renergy, too) Love received and reciprocated.
@@BeccaDoss it came off the top off my head glad you liked it Bec lots of love from the netherlands 😘
Next time when you use rennergy in your video's makes my hart grow a little 😊
@@michaelpijl7567 Oh I will definitely be using that word from now on! :)
I dont know who you are, but i can tell you this. You are very genuine and i hope that you feel God's and even my love for you as a person.
I absolutely feel that love, Katherine, thank you from the bottom of my heart and soul. I really appreciate you taking time to stop by and not only watch, but leave such a kind comment. God bless you, His light is shining through you.💕 Sending you so much love and gratitude.🙏🏼
I hope you had a long rest after hearing this. It looked like it really took it out of you ❤
Girl you are way to smart to have a eating problem but I know it is hard God Bless You
This is not about being "smart" or not. Please do not speak about issues you have no idea of.
im so on youre thing as a uk guy . i struggle . do many miss the reggaea aspect aat work
Thanks for your breakdown and explanation of the ‘boobies’ line. Haven’t seen any other reactor attempt it. So (as Ren would say) big up yourself.
Edited to say subbed to hear your Ren reactions.
Thanks so much for taking time to let me know you enjoyed this one, AND for sticking around for future Re(n)actions! I’ve got a lot up so far, but have many, MANY more I can’t wait to get to. I appreciate your comment on that line, too. To me, it was such a clear connection to his song Dominoes, and my mind immediately went down that thought train. I’m glad to be able to add something to the mix.😊💕
@@BeccaDoss yep. I’m going through them. Thanks 👍
So good to see you 😊
Back at you, friend.
So sorry for you am here if you need 😊😊
I really want to watch this reaction Becca! It's a good one! I get done work right at 10, but I will definitely be checking it out!!!😊🖖
No worries, friend! I know it was late notice to post it, and I needed to get it out of the way before some other stuff today, but it’ll be here whenever you’re able to stop by! Hope work’s been okay today.💕
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This is going to be deep!!
Beautiful reaction as always. This song didn't resonate with me the first time I heard it, mostly because I struggled to hear the lyrics. Each time I hear it, though, it hits a little deeper, and I love it.
Given your Lyme disease relapse and struggles with faith, I once again recommend Ren's "Seven Sins" lyric video. Buckle up, though, because it will hit hard.
Edit: I've checked out Fred Again as a result of this mash-up. I will be listening to more. I've never listened to EDM, mostly because I, too, get a sensory overload from what little I have heard. Fred Again, though, is a master of making extremely simple phrases powerful. If you listen to nothing else of his, I'd recommend his NPR Tiny Desk Concert. It has a vibe similar to this mash-up: th-cam.com/video/4iQmPv_dTI0/w-d-xo.htmlsi=SIgS7e-SC4UPxZ1h
Yes.
Seven sins.
And also Castles in the sand.
I’m behind on replies, but thank you, friend. It definitely is something that tends to hit deeper the more you listen, at least that’s also been the case for me. (Though it also clearly really got me the first time, albeit partly because I checked the lyrics after he sang them)
I’m definitely eager to get to Seven Sins (and more off the Sick Boi album), it’s just felt daunting thus far. But I may have to try to do that one in my next recording session, it keeps coming up in the comments so I have no idea it’s a tour de force in its own right. (Thanks for the heads up about the tiny desk concert!)
@@BeccaDoss, I realized I struggled to understand him on the first few listens because his phrasing is so unique. It made it difficult to find the word boundaries, especially with such unexpected juxtapositions.
Take care and be well!
@@yasha.hartberg I noticed you recommended the lyric video of seven sins.
Have you seen the fan made visualiser by Mark Lalonde ?
@@pvandewyngaerde, I have now. Thanks for the recommendation!
Sorry!One of a kind!!
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O I'm sorry didn't know about your affliction I will be praying for you
Thank you, Billie. And no worries, no apology needed. Unfortunately, eating disorders take no mercy and do not discriminate-I’ve been fighting mine for 20+ years now, but am so determined to finally tsk back my life. Especially since I’ve had a resurgence of Lyme and some other health issues flare recently, I need to take care of the anorexia recovery side of things more than ever. It’s been hard, because with my physical illnesses, it’s impossible to access the level of eating disorder treatment I actually need, so we’ve been trying to piecemeal treatment on our own the past 2.5 years. I do appreciate your prayers.💕
Becca your amazing big hugs lovely ❤️ ren fan xxxx
Thankful for you, Gayle.💕💕
Not going to stop this much....38 minutes later.
Yep, I really gotta stop saying that.😉🤷🏼♀️
Becca, I would love to see you react to REN Crutch. But it is very emotional!! 😢xx
@@LouHeritage Hey friend! 💕 Thank you for mentioning this, I actually recorded this back in March, I just haven’t been able to emotionally handle, sitting down to edit it yet. It’s definitely on my list to get to sooner rather than later, so I get it uploaded hopefully before too much more time passes. I hope you’re doing well, friend, be gentle with, and take care of, yourself in anyway possible.
Hold on Becca, you're precious x
💕🫂 Grateful for you, friend.
Will you take the Red pill or the Blue pill and see how far the rabbit hole will goes 😉
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Is it misbehaving? 🤔
I'm sorry I missed this when you left it, I didn't seem to have issues on my end, aside from a random 2-seconds where the box of Ren's video went green, randomly. Were you having trouble?
It was glitching maybe on my end...had to wait a bit and come back after the premiere sorry. 😕,
@@siwlasilva I’m so sorry, I’ll try to see if anyone else had the same issues. Tech stuff can be so annoying. 🫂 But absolutely no apology needed, that’s why I leave the videos up! (Except when I have to take them down to fix audio and re-upload😉)
Don’t smoke crack all I’m going to say that