You talk about your car the way a musician talks about their beat up, cheap, years old, modded into a complete ship of theseus first guitar, and it's an absolutely beautiful thing. It might be an inanimate object full of parts that struggle to work but it's a family member with a name and a history. Also Clyde is a total vibe, blessed.
Clyde seems like a lovely companion. But please, please get a headrest for the driver's seat. It's an important safety feature. You can easily reupholster one to fit Clyde's style.
This made me cry so much. My first car was a 2007 proton Satria Neo. I bought it when I was 16, and spent countless hours driving it, washing it, crying in it. Ask anyone who knew me over the past 9 and a half years would tell you the same thing, that car was a part of me. I couldn’t afford to keep it perfect all the time, but it never left me stranded. A couple months ago someone backed out of a driveway without looking, straight into the road as my friend was driving. The car kept her safe, and even with a shattered wheel, bent suspension and chassis, it still was able to limp itself out of harms way. I never properly processed it or let myself grieve, but I broke out in tears watching this video. Now I’m standing here crying in a subway parking lot, and all I can say is, thank you ❤.
as a car guy I am so glad that you have customized the car the way you like it. honestly that's how cars should be, little sanctuaries that are a part of who you are.
This is was so adorable, one of my favourite videos of yours. The ceiling tapestry is sick and I'd steal the idea if I had the skill and energy to do as thorough a job as you did. Honestly this kinda made me feel bad for treating all my belongings - cars, guitars, computers, etc - as replaceable tools regardless of how central they are to my life. Great work 💜
Holly shit! The Narcissistic Cookbook, god I love your music and it makes so much sense you’d watch Leadhead too. Both of you guys are amazing artists and have shaped me as a person. I wish you both the best
I love my car too. I named her Fifi. She’s amazing and I cry every time something goes wrong with her. She’s an old old lady but I love her to death. She changed my life from the days where I was constantly in public transit in a town where that wasn’t the most convenience thing in the world. She’s not in the best shape and I’m gonna be sad when she’s gone but for now I’m showing her all the love I can
Toyotas are immortal, unfortunately Hondas tend to rust. It deppends on many factors, if you live in a dessert it might not be likely, but in general, they do rust quite a bit.
@@YOEL_44Toyotas can rust as well. See Toyota Tundra frame recalls on models from 1995 to 2010 (many of which are impressively still on the road and otherwise fully functional).
My first car was a 2000 Opel Astra. I Loved that car. My ganddad drove the Same model so I named it after him - Manni. Manni drove me and my friends to all sorts of places. He helped me move for the first time and helped me through my vocational training. I'll never forget this car and was so sad when it crashed down after +200k kilometres.
I think this might be one of my favorite videos of yours. honestly, I get sentimental about losing anything I've owned for a while but have never shown so much love and affection for something like you have with clyde. it really makes me wanna try and build that kind of appreciation for more of the elements of my life. or at least learn to take care of my things better.
"Don't even try telling me that's not the actual cutest thing ever" every part of this inspires me to care a little bit more about the things i'm already attached to. Amazing as always
Ive seen fragmented snapshots of all the car mods on your Twitter, but its nice to finally be introduced and given a formal tour. Great job Penny, that's one cool ass car you've got.
I call mine Sophie. The Sentra. She's a piece of crap, hates the Canadian winter like every woman I've ever met, is constantly tettering on the edge of destruction, and needs all the care I can provide. Been 11 years of ramshackle repairs. I love that car.
BTW I love your headliner mod, and I might find an excuse to do it myself, in another style, that's for sure, but it seems easy enough and it becomes a great feature of the interior. I've only been the owner of Bart for like 6 months or something, but it has opened me so many doors that I cannot thank him enough, I've already driven over 5000km with it, and have invested over 1000€ in maintenance, upgrades and tweaks, I do really like my 2008 Abarth 500. First I removed all the junk from the previous owners (I'm the fifth, that I know...), things like plastidipped chrome parts, a really janky elbow rest, a red highlight strip in the rear splitter that was peeling, a full professional cleaning, etc... Then I made some maintenance and some basic QoL changes, fixed a tiny leak, new front tires, a 10" head unit with custom USB and Jack center panel adapter, a phone holder, some head rests (the seats are helmet ready, so they have a lot of room for the head), a short shifter to replace the very tired factory shifter, fixed some of the squeacks and crackling noises, etc... Now I'm starting the tuning phase, real carbon fiber rearview mirror caps, custom valve caps and antenna, a tow strap as an interior trunk handle, replaced all the interior and accesory lights with LEDs, a DIY copy of the Pista shifter knob, a carbon cover for the steering wheel airbag, new tail lights, some red accents for the fog lights, etc... The car had already some good changes made, like a full suspension upgrade, custom red leather interior, custom pearl white and black paint, and it came with some nice extras like the Pandemonium brake kit, the 17" diamond cut wheels and the Interscope Sound System. People sometimes joke that I'm always down to take anyone anywhere with it, but I had to take the bus before I had him, so yeah, I really really enjoy driving, being free and doing new things with the people I care about and with Bart. It's also a good reminder of how I managed to turn things around when I was in the deepest darkest place, and that I do also deserve to have nice things every now and then.
I have that same light problem in my 2003 Pontiac grand am (Kane) It was the switch not contacting properly anymore Nothing a little contact cleaner and moving the switch around cant fix if it is in fact that same issue Also this video hit really hard for me. Kane was released the same year I was born and was basically the only home and safe space for me and my mom growing up. To this day it's the place I feel most comfortable and I have worked hours trying to keep every part of him working.
My ND Miata got me through my early transition. Yeah Stacey looks gaudy in her purple wrap, and aftermarket stuff but that girl has seen me through too many mountain runs getting away from my problems. And despite all those runs with with airbag fuse pulled in the middle of an episode, we've both pulled through only with some scars. She only fits two, but the amount of queers I have stuffed into her because one of us needed support at 2AM is what makes her special. Idk I love her I love u
I recently got an old early 2000s ford. I love it, i love my car so much. the exterior paint is chipped, theres small dents, the check engine light is always on. yet, i love it so much. it is everything to me, and after watching your video, i think i need to make it feel perfect
this is how i am with my laptop. it's got me through the best of times and the worst of times. its got so many stickers on it. some from old friends, some from games, some from exes. i only have one rule, and its to never EVER remove a sticker, so they've piled up and every stickers shape is visible beneath the others. my laptop i know that one day that some part will break and be unfixable, but i at least have the comfort of being able to take its sticker covered shell and hold on to it. in the worst of times ive fallen asleep with it in my arms.
this might be my favorite video of yours, ever. i had a Subaru Baja named Pilgrim (Grim or Grimmy for short) that i loved dearly. he took me on a lot of important trips that i kind of came to regard as pilgrimages, so the name seemed obvious. he had a built-in ashtray, and i had a marlboro cooler in the bed full of tools. i kept the stock radio, so i starting collecting CDs from yard sales and bandcamp pages so i would have something to listen to other than public radio. i had the hippie seat covers (i specifically picked out the truck size; Grimmy was a truck dammit) and matching seat cover, thrift store jewelry hanging from his mirror, and the rear seat basket thing filled with a bouquet of fabric flowers and plastic greenery. i tried to cover the headliner with those interlocking squares of plastic plants (the kind you use to make a green wall) but i couldn't get the weight to hold. at one point i needed to take 6 people to an abandoned factory we were going to explore (another pilgrimage) and the weight of the people in the truck bed + an unfortunate pothole ripped off his muffler and i inadvertently became one of those jerks with a loud engine. Grim's engine died on him when i was in an intersection in a big city, and i coaxed him into inching into a side street. after i got a ride, a friend came with a uhaul to pick him up, and when he told me that Grim just barely managed to climb into the trailer, I cried so much. hell, i cry every time i think about it i have a new car now, and i haven't come up with a name for it yet (or even figured out what its pronouns are). i'm not over Pilgrim, and i guess i'm waiting for my new car to somehow tell me who it is so i'm not forcing an identity on it.
I get it. Drove my dad's 2001 e46 330xi for a while, and she was damn near a family member. Usually called her "old girl." Got so used to dealing with all her little idiosyncrasies, like the time she became afraid of the dark (automatic headlights, burnt out bulb shorted to the chassis)- or how sometimes the turn signal would think it failed, and you had to turn it on for a few seconds to get it to work again. Got collected in a multi-car wreck in her, and she still drove well enough to get her safely off the freeway. (Didn't hit a car directly, pretty sure I hit a semi wheel at 70 mph.) When I had to leave her, I kissed her on the badge and thanked her and then I sobbed. That wreck totaled her- took out the front crossmember, and the radiator. Insurance took her and paid out. But shit, I miss her.
I'd say that's a good reason to rescue one of her siblings... M539 has restored several E46s, and while he makes hard shit look easy, that and forums can be a big help.
11:17 as an autistic person who’s favorite type of train is in the process of being decommissioned and scrapped I understand what that sorta grief feels like. It’s a really weird one that can be awkward to bring up since it can sound kinda silly if you don’t personally have that emotion for a machine
This was really soothing. The life is strange soundtrack fits in really well thematically, gives it this unsure yet uplifting tone. Wish you and clyde the best on this journey :)
Lovely video. I never felt any strong desire to customize my own car- the fact I haven't payed for it myself likely being the reason- but I love videos that are just someone going into detail about why something means so much to them. That's the thing that really draws me to your videos, when they're not already about things I enjoy like Steam games or cool FPSs. Long reign Clyde.
Gosh it's always so beautiful to hear you talk about anything you love, makes me jealous to have the same passion for things you do and makes me think and wonder how can I love stuff in my personal live just how you love yours. Penny, thank you so much for what you do
this video made me cry, i'm just starting to transition, and this video feels so intimate and personal i do the same you do with clyde with my room and my pc two of the only things that have been with me always and protected me and cared for me, i apply stickers and put makeshift book shelfs, random drawings or paintings to customize it, i just wanna say thanks to you and hug my room
Pop off that dash piece, finish off the stickerbomb so it completely wraps around the edges, then get some clear spray paint and do a couple of coats and your sticker bomb will look much better and more like you imagined.
i have a slightly different relationship with my bmw E39. I have named it Dingus. It likes to me a pain in the neck but it drives well enough for me to still keep it...
I love this. The stories were all adorable, but it's not only that, its something deeper, what you say about Clyde and your previous car can also be said about relationships, both to cars, people, or anything else. About appreciating, taking care of what is here now, looking back at our guilty pasts and learning from it.... idk I just really loved this video. It's just about a car that belongs to an artist who's work I enjoy, sure, but to me and what I took from it, it's not really about the car I saw some other people commenting this and I gotta agree: This was one of my favourite videos here
You’ll always be my bonnie and you’ll always be my Clyde is the cutest thing in the world This may sound wierd but you give me hope as a trans person just starting their transition, thank you, for being so seemingly yourself
Might sound kinda silly but I've been playing a bunch of Armored Core 6, so the idea of the vehicle as an extension of the self is resonating with me right now, despite my never having owned anything you might call a vehicle. This is such a lovely video.
my god this is beautiful. The more heartfelt and personal your videos get, the more they refuel my love for like everything. It just obligates me to remember I love being alive. Thank you for this, a lot
I hope to someday learn to love a car the way you love Clyde. This video genuinely moved me to tears, and by the end I was full on sobbing when you were talking about parting with him. I felt like you'd given me a glimpse into a small and impossibly precious part of your life, and I really want you to know how much I appreciate it. I couldn't help thinking as you closed the video out, if Clyde knew just how much he'd be loved when they were putting him together on the assembly line. I hope to one day be able to conceptualize and articulate my feelings on the people and objects closest to me the same way you have. Amazing job, one of my favorite videos of yours I've ever seen.
There are two cars that I'll never forget having: My first car which was a 95 Corolla, and the 02 Accent that picked up the load after the Corolla's untimely end. Combined, those cars lasted me more than a decade and got me through a lot of rough times (especially the Accent). Neither was anything fancy, but they were awesome in their own ways.
I always stood out from other people when I formed a lot of really sentimental attachments to things I owned, never really met anyone who would care so much for things others consider so mundane and utilitarian. Happy to see someone else caring so much about something like a car. I hope you can stay with Clyde for many years :)
I dont own a car but I know the feeling. I go on monthlong hiking trips out in the woods and have the same emotional connection to my backpack and my tent. There is something very comforting about having all that matters (right now) in one place, barely bigger than me, that I can take with me whereever I go and that is, most importantly, truely and completely MINE.
I name my computers/phones/etc because they use some name in communication and it's easier to know which is which when it's not a random serial number. It does result in some anthropomorphism, that I've been told is weird by friends and colleagues. Thank you for proving I'm not alone. I've never loved anything as much as you love Clyde, but that's a compliment; aspirations.
your my absolute favorite youtuber and your videos have changed my life for the better. the life is strange music is almost bringing me to tears i adore you and your car!
My father isn't normally a sentimental person, but when our family minivan finally died, he wrote a bit of a eulogy: Farewell old and loyal friend. You served us well for 22 years and now you retire to the Space Coast. My best guess is that it will not be resold but go to a scrap yard where it's parts can be sold. The sad inevitable end of almost all cars. You were a reliable servant who helped raise our children, took them to school, to see their grandparents and family, to the mountains to ski and the sea. Always ready enduring whatever we wanted, but finally rust never sleeps. The disease that is the killer of machinery finally got you. We know you are not alive, but yet you live in our hearts and memory.
i'm still kicking myself over getting rid of my pontiac vibe! she was a hand-me-down from my dad who had driven it for almost decade and a half before she came into my life. (his previous car before the vibe was a honda accord he'd owned since the 80s!) after a few more years the entire floor had rust rot and i needed to replace the muffler really badly, and the total cost would've been pretty high... but so was buying another car! which is what i did! and while i also love my little smart car (i bought her secondhand, obviously) i'm always going to be reminiscing about the trunk space and the sun roof my vibe had. i wish i would've just spent the money on repairs, but hindsight and all that.
I have a bike, a Zanella ZB 110cc, one of the blue ones, he has a name too, Pegasus He's not exactly my best friend, but to me, he's that one homie that may not be around all the time, but he's the coolest, most reliable man i know I personally plan to make some DIY stuff on him too, i'm thinking of making a stencil i can use to paint his name in nice cursive accross the sides of the seat, and getting some custom handles, if i had the budget. As a matter of fact, i already made a custom job on my helmet, i painted monster eyes and teeth on it, and she looks absolutely sick (although she needs a repaint soon), and she also has a name, Quimera My sentimental relationship with Pegasus isn't incredibly intense, but it's noticeable, i wash him or wipe him down almost every morning, i worry about him, i care for him, i make sure every detail i can find on him is spotless, and when i find out he's leaking gas or oil, or that he has a scratch, i freak out, it's like me having a younger brother, which i think i needed at the time i got him I know i'll say goodbye to Pegasus one day, and personally, i'm not bothered by that, i'll have him in my memory, i have pictures of a photoshoot i did with him once, and no matter what happens with him, if one day i crash and wreck him to the point of being irrecoverable, or if i have to sell him to get a bigger bike down the line, the history is already written, he will go down as my first ever bike, and i couldn't ask for more than that
Had a 2000 camera I drove for 250,000 miles and when the engine gave out and I moved on it was a surreal experience. I sold it to the scrap metal yard and I kept thinking about the brave little toaster and I went to my friends house and we all poured one out for the car that took us to all sorts of bullshit and shenanigans. I never thought I'd be the sentimental type, but I guess that was just those early years that my first car got me to and from.
being in a household that doesn't accept me for who I am, my anatasia (anna) is my escape. My parents are transphobic, but they still got me a nice car (2019 Hyundai Veloster). While I don't knock it, it still feels empty and hollow knowing that they will never know who I really am. So, I'm turning my anatasia into my own car. Making little investments when I can, to make it my esacpe from transphobic people in general.
Hey i really enjoyed this video. This kind of personal thing is something i find really valuable. I also relate to this kind of thing as someone who extends myself into my belongings and considers that a part of life, and someone who can't help but feel about objects, all which is something i don't see or hear or get to do much. I enjoyed this video. Thank you for showing me and others Clyde
As someone who dislikes driving and sees cars as more of a tool I reluctantly have to tolerate because they took over modern society and became an inevitability of daily life, I can't really relate to the idea of loving one of those things. But while I feel distaste for the actual physical object called a car, I actually kinda love them as an abstract concept, the idealization of a car is really cool, mostly because it doesn't come with any of the long list of annoyances of the real item. So while I struggle with the idea of someone legit loving their car, I can somewhat see why that might be the case if for a moment I ignore that it is an actual machine.
I think you'll understand if you ever have a bit of tech you out your life on, even if it's a scooter or a bike. I was full on like fuck cars everything and then I got a motorcycle and I was making a long trip one time and "just the two of us" started playing in my earbuds and I was like "fuck I get it"
@@36shadowboy maybe. My experiences with cars have always been between neutral and bad, I forcefully inherited one that came with a bunch of debt attached to it that I got rid of as fast as humanly possible, I just shuffled it to some other relative willing to take it. I've also never needed one for survival, always relied on public transport just fine. Or just walking since I live in a city.
This video changed my life in such a special way... i can't describe it, it helped me change the way i see things and myself.. i just wanted to thank you
This video made me cry so much, thank you. One of my favorites of yours yet!! You're such an incredible storyteller, using these foils (games, your car, whatever) to paint such a beautiful and human picture of your life. You pour so much heart and soul into these videos you share with us, and it shows. These past few days I've felt the most insecure since coming out, it's been soul crushing. But these touches of your life are so full of wonder, and always help me recapture the joy and wonder in my own life. For that I am so thankful I never thought that when I watched a little video patching up the gaps in my advice as a baby trans that it would lead to me being so deeply touched by you and your story. Thank you for what you put out into the world
So, I never really post any comment on youtube blablabla, but this one is special. (I'm a pretty tired + auDHD, sorry if English broke at some point, not my native language.) I went up from bed after watching exactly 2 of your videos. I watched them right now, and never seen anything else you did before that. I discovered you and your channel several days ago. I was looking for more video essayists to follow, mostly because I love it, and would like to do so some of my own. But it is a great deal to me to watch esayists whose views of the world are similar to mine, because of so many things that are communicated and meant, even when not acknowledged. But I digress. So yeah, I blindly subscribed. I saw your vid on my feed. Title was interesting, I thought "pretty sure that's one of the folks I blindly subd to, let's give it a go". It is a very tender video. The relationship you have with Clyde as well as Montana are beautiful. I've been moved by your excessively genuine story. About your cars. For the background, I'm a bike advocate, I traveled a bit with it, and it's my way to be and feel free. I get what you mean about being free. I love the two bikes I own very dearly. Being able to flee, fly on and about. That's incredibly precious. I'm a fuckcar type of bitch, but I understand how important it is for a lot of people. And this video is going -straight- gay into my favs. Because it's encouraging, empowering about so many things. I want to get into creating stuff, but stupid traumas and auDHD get in the way, and I'm so grateful to have my gfs and close ones with me through this. I'll truly hope you and Charlotte will get through what you're going through. AND THE STARS STORY, omg, I literaly never heard a cutest story before. Genuinely. And the second video is the one before this one. Yeah, the one about ARG, because of the tile, netx in line, and team fucking defense fort 2. Yeah I love that game too. And seeing everything that has derived from shitposting is just... aspiring. I'd like to be able to do stuff. But I'm so afraid. I'm my own sapper but I don't even feel like I'm any building to be sapped at all. So yeah, I barely discovered you, and the importance to say stuff on the internet, because comments can resonate withe the lives of several people. I want to make art. I want to write about stuff, games I love, essay a bit, philosophy that, game studies there,.... I want to be able to shitpost. And you two are making it more possible to me than it's ever been. Thank you. I'll continue to watch you and the amazing stuff you seem to make, that I barely scratched the surface of.
I've personally always been kinda jealous of those who go all in on personalizing their spaces, or perhaps it's giving their space a unique personality that's separate but also complimenting them? Never really had the guts to make such a change and stick to it, or simply accepting that I can just as easily change it up again. Instead I've always kept things at their given place, always placed things back when its been moved. While keeping the space around clean and sterile of any outgoing personality. Newly I've figured it might be an issue with not feeling comfortable with myself and who I am, or who I'm supposed to be. But I've been trying to be better at it ever since I moved out on my own. Slowly placing pieces of art I enjoy on the walls, bringing home small trinkets I find, even so far as painting the space. Just making it MY little nest and safe space. Maybe it's time to let that personality grow, maybe even give it a name too :)
Damn, this video got to me 🥹 I'm currently in the process of trying to fix up a car, haven't had a working vehicle for the majority of my adult life. You really miss the independence that comes with having your own ride once it's gone. I'm so glad you have Clyde and are clearly treating him well ❤️
kinda off topic, but I saw some of your half-life videos couple years ago and now this video pops in my home tab, so I just want to say (maybe a bit late) congrats on the transition :) nice video btw, I started to mod my car recently
This is the most romantic, insightful, and honest take on car ownership I have seen. If you hadn't already won my heart with the choice of music for this video, you sure did with the melody and harmony anecdote. I hope Clyde last infinitely longer, and he takes you and Charlotte on so many more adventures
I've always looked at Clyde with such awe, every video that he's been in I've just stared at every little detail I could find. I'm currently saving up money to get a drivers licence and a car, and I one day hope to make my future car into as much of a person as you have made Clyde (sorry for my poor-ish english, I don't know if that sentence makes sense). You have given me such inspiration, thanks to you and Clyde!
I understand completely the feeling of personal attachment to a car. I have a 1990 Celica GT and it was one of my dream cars, it feels like a second come to me and it’s beautiful. I moved to a different state in late august of last year and I could not take Celi with me (that’s her nickname) and it broke my heart, I’m hoping that I can bring her with me soon, because if I can’t I’m going to have to sell her to buy a new car and the thought just breaks my heart.
I've been a fan of yours since like your third ever video and you've GOTTA stop finding new ways to hit me in the feels like this it just ain't fair lol. Never thought anyone else would get so attached to a car that they would cry over feeling like they'd let it down. I'm gonna have to do that headliner replacement, Ashley really deserves some TLC
We had to just recently get rid of our minivan. An Opel Zafira A to be exact. its been a part of our family longer than I have been. Growing up and being into cars, this minivan meant a lot to me. I was just able to take driving lessons with it, before it had to go. From sitting in a baby seat to driving them myself, 22 years of history written all over the body panels.
Sorry to be "that guy" but I am a bit worried about the ceramic pot in the back. Please please make sure that thing doesn't become a cannonball destined for your head if you get into a car crash ❤️
I hope you get many more years with Clyde. I have had my car for 26 years, in a much worse climate, so cars can live long if they are looked after.
You talk about your car the way a musician talks about their beat up, cheap, years old, modded into a complete ship of theseus first guitar, and it's an absolutely beautiful thing. It might be an inanimate object full of parts that struggle to work but it's a family member with a name and a history. Also Clyde is a total vibe, blessed.
Clyde seems like a lovely companion. But please, please get a headrest for the driver's seat. It's an important safety feature. You can easily reupholster one to fit Clyde's style.
if clyde goes out, she's going down with the ship lmao
Clyde is such a fitting name for a car
K2000 thoughts
guys i think she loves her car
This made me cry so much. My first car was a 2007 proton Satria Neo. I bought it when I was 16, and spent countless hours driving it, washing it, crying in it. Ask anyone who knew me over the past 9 and a half years would tell you the same thing, that car was a part of me. I couldn’t afford to keep it perfect all the time, but it never left me stranded.
A couple months ago someone backed out of a driveway without looking, straight into the road as my friend was driving. The car kept her safe, and even with a shattered wheel, bent suspension and chassis, it still was able to limp itself out of harms way.
I never properly processed it or let myself grieve, but I broke out in tears watching this video. Now I’m standing here crying in a subway parking lot, and all I can say is, thank you ❤.
R.I.P. Neo, 2007 - 2023
I don't usually kiss my car cause sometimes birds poo on it
something so utterly human about having this kind of attachment to a car loll
as a car guy I am so glad that you have customized the car the way you like it. honestly that's how cars should be, little sanctuaries that are a part of who you are.
I got a 2017 Hyundai Elantra but I like to call it my elytra. I feel free with her, she’s my wings carrying me anywhere I wish to go
This is was so adorable, one of my favourite videos of yours. The ceiling tapestry is sick and I'd steal the idea if I had the skill and energy to do as thorough a job as you did.
Honestly this kinda made me feel bad for treating all my belongings - cars, guitars, computers, etc - as replaceable tools regardless of how central they are to my life.
Great work 💜
Holly shit! The Narcissistic Cookbook, god I love your music and it makes so much sense you’d watch Leadhead too. Both of you guys are amazing artists and have shaped me as a person. I wish you both the best
I love my car too. I named her Fifi. She’s amazing and I cry every time something goes wrong with her. She’s an old old lady but I love her to death. She changed my life from the days where I was constantly in public transit in a town where that wasn’t the most convenience thing in the world. She’s not in the best shape and I’m gonna be sad when she’s gone but for now I’m showing her all the love I can
Honda's are literally Immortal
my grandma's old honda just died a couple of months after she did
Toyotas are immortal, unfortunately Hondas tend to rust.
It deppends on many factors, if you live in a dessert it might not be likely, but in general, they do rust quite a bit.
true, my honda is rusty but I'm not letting go of it, never. I'll get it fixed up eventually
@@YOEL_44Toyotas can rust as well. See Toyota Tundra frame recalls on models from 1995 to 2010 (many of which are impressively still on the road and otherwise fully functional).
OMG!
I FORGOT TO SEND THE STICKERS!
I will ASAP!
Hopefully in the mail by this weekend!
I am so sorry, it completely slipped my stoner mind!
TKS HELLO!!! I DIDNY REALISE YOU WATCHED HER, THATS RLY COOL
Thanks for the hours long facts videos too fall asleep too
My first car was a 2000 Opel Astra. I Loved that car. My ganddad drove the Same model so I named it after him - Manni.
Manni drove me and my friends to all sorts of places. He helped me move for the first time and helped me through my vocational training.
I'll never forget this car and was so sad when it crashed down after +200k kilometres.
I think this might be one of my favorite videos of yours. honestly, I get sentimental about losing anything I've owned for a while but have never shown so much love and affection for something like you have with clyde. it really makes me wanna try and build that kind of appreciation for more of the elements of my life. or at least learn to take care of my things better.
i don't every really connect with inanimate objects, so its really cool to see someone else's love for something
All of my biggest investments have had a name, that way I care more about them, even some of my graphics cards...
"Don't even try telling me that's not the actual cutest thing ever"
every part of this inspires me to care a little bit more about the things i'm already attached to. Amazing as always
Ive seen fragmented snapshots of all the car mods on your Twitter, but its nice to finally be introduced and given a formal tour. Great job Penny, that's one cool ass car you've got.
I don't remember subscribing to this channel, but this was beautiful enough to make me stay
Clyde is a Honda who is being taken care of, he’ll live close to forever.
One I loved the Life is Strange music, and the stickers you got from TKS-Mantis make me so jealous
I call mine Sophie. The Sentra. She's a piece of crap, hates the Canadian winter like every woman I've ever met, is constantly tettering on the edge of destruction, and needs all the care I can provide.
Been 11 years of ramshackle repairs. I love that car.
Top Gear must be the equivalent of LiveLeak to her
BTW I love your headliner mod, and I might find an excuse to do it myself, in another style, that's for sure, but it seems easy enough and it becomes a great feature of the interior.
I've only been the owner of Bart for like 6 months or something, but it has opened me so many doors that I cannot thank him enough, I've already driven over 5000km with it, and have invested over 1000€ in maintenance, upgrades and tweaks, I do really like my 2008 Abarth 500.
First I removed all the junk from the previous owners (I'm the fifth, that I know...), things like plastidipped chrome parts, a really janky elbow rest, a red highlight strip in the rear splitter that was peeling, a full professional cleaning, etc...
Then I made some maintenance and some basic QoL changes, fixed a tiny leak, new front tires, a 10" head unit with custom USB and Jack center panel adapter, a phone holder, some head rests (the seats are helmet ready, so they have a lot of room for the head), a short shifter to replace the very tired factory shifter, fixed some of the squeacks and crackling noises, etc...
Now I'm starting the tuning phase, real carbon fiber rearview mirror caps, custom valve caps and antenna, a tow strap as an interior trunk handle, replaced all the interior and accesory lights with LEDs, a DIY copy of the Pista shifter knob, a carbon cover for the steering wheel airbag, new tail lights, some red accents for the fog lights, etc...
The car had already some good changes made, like a full suspension upgrade, custom red leather interior, custom pearl white and black paint, and it came with some nice extras like the Pandemonium brake kit, the 17" diamond cut wheels and the Interscope Sound System.
People sometimes joke that I'm always down to take anyone anywhere with it, but I had to take the bus before I had him, so yeah, I really really enjoy driving, being free and doing new things with the people I care about and with Bart.
It's also a good reminder of how I managed to turn things around when I was in the deepest darkest place, and that I do also deserve to have nice things every now and then.
hi please try to get a headrest for the driver's seat if you can, your neck could break if you got rear-ended without it!
I have that same light problem in my 2003 Pontiac grand am (Kane)
It was the switch not contacting properly anymore
Nothing a little contact cleaner and moving the switch around cant fix if it is in fact that same issue
Also this video hit really hard for me. Kane was released the same year I was born and was basically the only home and safe space for me and my mom growing up. To this day it's the place I feel most comfortable and I have worked hours trying to keep every part of him working.
My ND Miata got me through my early transition. Yeah Stacey looks gaudy in her purple wrap, and aftermarket stuff but that girl has seen me through too many mountain runs getting away from my problems. And despite all those runs with with airbag fuse pulled in the middle of an episode, we've both pulled through only with some scars.
She only fits two, but the amount of queers I have stuffed into her because one of us needed support at 2AM is what makes her special. Idk I love her
I love u
I recently got an old early 2000s ford. I love it, i love my car so much. the exterior paint is chipped, theres small dents, the check engine light is always on. yet, i love it so much. it is everything to me, and after watching your video, i think i need to make it feel perfect
this is how i am with my laptop. it's got me through the best of times and the worst of times. its got so many stickers on it. some from old friends, some from games, some from exes. i only have one rule, and its to never EVER remove a sticker, so they've piled up and every stickers shape is visible beneath the others. my laptop i know that one day that some part will break and be unfixable, but i at least have the comfort of being able to take its sticker covered shell and hold on to it. in the worst of times ive fallen asleep with it in my arms.
this might be my favorite video of yours, ever.
i had a Subaru Baja named Pilgrim (Grim or Grimmy for short) that i loved dearly. he took me on a lot of important trips that i kind of came to regard as pilgrimages, so the name seemed obvious. he had a built-in ashtray, and i had a marlboro cooler in the bed full of tools. i kept the stock radio, so i starting collecting CDs from yard sales and bandcamp pages so i would have something to listen to other than public radio. i had the hippie seat covers (i specifically picked out the truck size; Grimmy was a truck dammit) and matching seat cover, thrift store jewelry hanging from his mirror, and the rear seat basket thing filled with a bouquet of fabric flowers and plastic greenery. i tried to cover the headliner with those interlocking squares of plastic plants (the kind you use to make a green wall) but i couldn't get the weight to hold.
at one point i needed to take 6 people to an abandoned factory we were going to explore (another pilgrimage) and the weight of the people in the truck bed + an unfortunate pothole ripped off his muffler and i inadvertently became one of those jerks with a loud engine. Grim's engine died on him when i was in an intersection in a big city, and i coaxed him into inching into a side street. after i got a ride, a friend came with a uhaul to pick him up, and when he told me that Grim just barely managed to climb into the trailer, I cried so much. hell, i cry every time i think about it
i have a new car now, and i haven't come up with a name for it yet (or even figured out what its pronouns are). i'm not over Pilgrim, and i guess i'm waiting for my new car to somehow tell me who it is so i'm not forcing an identity on it.
I get it. Drove my dad's 2001 e46 330xi for a while, and she was damn near a family member. Usually called her "old girl." Got so used to dealing with all her little idiosyncrasies, like the time she became afraid of the dark (automatic headlights, burnt out bulb shorted to the chassis)- or how sometimes the turn signal would think it failed, and you had to turn it on for a few seconds to get it to work again. Got collected in a multi-car wreck in her, and she still drove well enough to get her safely off the freeway. (Didn't hit a car directly, pretty sure I hit a semi wheel at 70 mph.) When I had to leave her, I kissed her on the badge and thanked her and then I sobbed. That wreck totaled her- took out the front crossmember, and the radiator. Insurance took her and paid out. But shit, I miss her.
I'd say that's a good reason to rescue one of her siblings... M539 has restored several E46s, and while he makes hard shit look easy, that and forums can be a big help.
@@melancholyflapper7027 LOVE m539, reasonably confident wrenching. Don't tempt me! Definitely my goal in the next few years.
11:17 as an autistic person who’s favorite type of train is in the process of being decommissioned and scrapped I understand what that sorta grief feels like. It’s a really weird one that can be awkward to bring up since it can sound kinda silly if you don’t personally have that emotion for a machine
This was a lot prettier than I'd thought it'd be.
I had just woken up, pretty probably isn't the right word. Uhhh.. heartfelt. that's the closest i can describe the feeling of this video.
@6:12
HAVE YOU TRYED THE FUSE BOX?!?
This was really soothing. The life is strange soundtrack fits in really well thematically, gives it this unsure yet uplifting tone.
Wish you and clyde the best on this journey :)
Lovely video. I never felt any strong desire to customize my own car- the fact I haven't payed for it myself likely being the reason- but I love videos that are just someone going into detail about why something means so much to them. That's the thing that really draws me to your videos, when they're not already about things I enjoy like Steam games or cool FPSs. Long reign Clyde.
Gosh it's always so beautiful to hear you talk about anything you love, makes me jealous to have the same passion for things you do and makes me think and wonder how can I love stuff in my personal live just how you love yours. Penny, thank you so much for what you do
this video made me cry, i'm just starting to transition, and this video feels so intimate and personal i do the same you do with clyde with my room and my pc two of the only things that have been with me always and protected me and cared for me, i apply stickers and put makeshift book shelfs, random drawings or paintings to customize it, i just wanna say thanks to you and hug my room
I take public transit
i do too, but thats not an option for everyone, especially those in more rural areas
Very apt name
The "Oh-Shit Handles"
Pop off that dash piece, finish off the stickerbomb so it completely wraps around the edges, then get some clear spray paint and do a couple of coats and your sticker bomb will look much better and more like you imagined.
i have a slightly different relationship with my bmw E39. I have named it Dingus. It likes to me a pain in the neck but it drives well enough for me to still keep it...
My phone's name is "wretched digital slab" but that's different because it has no battery access, and was thus designed to die
I love this. The stories were all adorable, but it's not only that, its something deeper, what you say about Clyde and your previous car can also be said about relationships, both to cars, people, or anything else. About appreciating, taking care of what is here now, looking back at our guilty pasts and learning from it....
idk I just really loved this video. It's just about a car that belongs to an artist who's work I enjoy, sure, but to me and what I took from it, it's not really about the car
I saw some other people commenting this and I gotta agree: This was one of my favourite videos here
You’ll always be my bonnie and you’ll always be my Clyde is the cutest thing in the world
This may sound wierd but you give me hope as a trans person just starting their transition, thank you, for being so seemingly yourself
Might sound kinda silly but I've been playing a bunch of Armored Core 6, so the idea of the vehicle as an extension of the self is resonating with me right now, despite my never having owned anything you might call a vehicle. This is such a lovely video.
my god this is beautiful. The more heartfelt and personal your videos get, the more they refuel my love for like everything. It just obligates me to remember I love being alive. Thank you for this, a lot
I've never been much of a car gal, but this video made me really emotional. Thank you for another great video
The last line before the patron credits made me tear up, so thank you Leadhead for helping make the world a better place with your art
I hope to someday learn to love a car the way you love Clyde. This video genuinely moved me to tears, and by the end I was full on sobbing when you were talking about parting with him. I felt like you'd given me a glimpse into a small and impossibly precious part of your life, and I really want you to know how much I appreciate it. I couldn't help thinking as you closed the video out, if Clyde knew just how much he'd be loved when they were putting him together on the assembly line. I hope to one day be able to conceptualize and articulate my feelings on the people and objects closest to me the same way you have. Amazing job, one of my favorite videos of yours I've ever seen.
damn I went offline for two years and dude's already fuckn crazy
the girls who get it get it and the girls who dont dont its that easy
There are two cars that I'll never forget having: My first car which was a 95 Corolla, and the 02 Accent that picked up the load after the Corolla's untimely end. Combined, those cars lasted me more than a decade and got me through a lot of rough times (especially the Accent). Neither was anything fancy, but they were awesome in their own ways.
I always stood out from other people when I formed a lot of really sentimental attachments to things I owned, never really met anyone who would care so much for things others consider so mundane and utilitarian. Happy to see someone else caring so much about something like a car. I hope you can stay with Clyde for many years :)
I dont own a car but I know the feeling. I go on monthlong hiking trips out in the woods and have the same emotional connection to my backpack and my tent. There is something very comforting about having all that matters (right now) in one place, barely bigger than me, that I can take with me whereever I go and that is, most importantly, truely and completely MINE.
I name my computers/phones/etc because they use some name in communication and it's easier to know which is which when it's not a random serial number.
It does result in some anthropomorphism, that I've been told is weird by friends and colleagues. Thank you for proving I'm not alone. I've never loved anything as much as you love Clyde, but that's a compliment; aspirations.
your my absolute favorite youtuber and your videos have changed my life for the better. the life is strange music is almost bringing me to tears
i adore you and your car!
My father isn't normally a sentimental person, but when our family minivan finally died, he wrote a bit of a eulogy:
Farewell old and loyal friend. You served us well for 22 years and now you retire to the Space Coast. My best guess is that it will not be resold but go to a scrap yard where it's parts can be sold. The sad inevitable end of almost all cars. You were a reliable servant who helped raise our children, took them to school, to see their grandparents and family, to the mountains to ski and the sea. Always ready enduring whatever we wanted, but finally rust never sleeps. The disease that is the killer of machinery finally got you. We know you are not alive, but yet you live in our hearts and memory.
I don't think there's any need to apologize for "this video being too self-centered." It was interesting and inspiring, so it was well worth it.
Personal channels are the intersection of publicity and self
Thanks!
i'm still kicking myself over getting rid of my pontiac vibe! she was a hand-me-down from my dad who had driven it for almost decade and a half before she came into my life. (his previous car before the vibe was a honda accord he'd owned since the 80s!) after a few more years the entire floor had rust rot and i needed to replace the muffler really badly, and the total cost would've been pretty high... but so was buying another car! which is what i did! and while i also love my little smart car (i bought her secondhand, obviously) i'm always going to be reminiscing about the trunk space and the sun roof my vibe had. i wish i would've just spent the money on repairs, but hindsight and all that.
trans girl try not to be emotionally dependent on her car challenge (impossible) (I'm also a trans girl emotionally dependent on her car)
bruh we have the same name
Automobile-centric infrastructure moment
I have a bike, a Zanella ZB 110cc, one of the blue ones, he has a name too, Pegasus
He's not exactly my best friend, but to me, he's that one homie that may not be around all the time, but he's the coolest, most reliable man i know
I personally plan to make some DIY stuff on him too, i'm thinking of making a stencil i can use to paint his name in nice cursive accross the sides of the seat, and getting some custom handles, if i had the budget. As a matter of fact, i already made a custom job on my helmet, i painted monster eyes and teeth on it, and she looks absolutely sick (although she needs a repaint soon), and she also has a name, Quimera
My sentimental relationship with Pegasus isn't incredibly intense, but it's noticeable, i wash him or wipe him down almost every morning, i worry about him, i care for him, i make sure every detail i can find on him is spotless, and when i find out he's leaking gas or oil, or that he has a scratch, i freak out, it's like me having a younger brother, which i think i needed at the time i got him
I know i'll say goodbye to Pegasus one day, and personally, i'm not bothered by that, i'll have him in my memory, i have pictures of a photoshoot i did with him once, and no matter what happens with him, if one day i crash and wreck him to the point of being irrecoverable, or if i have to sell him to get a bigger bike down the line, the history is already written, he will go down as my first ever bike, and i couldn't ask for more than that
You are making my enthusiasm for life more intense. Thank you.
so thats what happened to the rebels with the car in episode 2
Had a 2000 camera I drove for 250,000 miles and when the engine gave out and I moved on it was a surreal experience. I sold it to the scrap metal yard and I kept thinking about the brave little toaster and I went to my friends house and we all poured one out for the car that took us to all sorts of bullshit and shenanigans. I never thought I'd be the sentimental type, but I guess that was just those early years that my first car got me to and from.
I wonder if everyone relating to the video saw that Brave Little Toaster movie. Venn diagram pls
being in a household that doesn't accept me for who I am, my anatasia (anna) is my escape. My parents are transphobic, but they still got me a nice car (2019 Hyundai Veloster). While I don't knock it, it still feels empty and hollow knowing that they will never know who I really am. So, I'm turning my anatasia into my own car. Making little investments when I can, to make it my esacpe from transphobic people in general.
The way you talks about the things you did in the car is so cute, warms my heart
Hey i really enjoyed this video. This kind of personal thing is something i find really valuable. I also relate to this kind of thing as someone who extends myself into my belongings and considers that a part of life, and someone who can't help but feel about objects, all which is something i don't see or hear or get to do much.
I enjoyed this video.
Thank you for showing me and others Clyde
As someone who dislikes driving and sees cars as more of a tool I reluctantly have to tolerate because they took over modern society and became an inevitability of daily life, I can't really relate to the idea of loving one of those things. But while I feel distaste for the actual physical object called a car, I actually kinda love them as an abstract concept, the idealization of a car is really cool, mostly because it doesn't come with any of the long list of annoyances of the real item.
So while I struggle with the idea of someone legit loving their car, I can somewhat see why that might be the case if for a moment I ignore that it is an actual machine.
I think you'll understand if you ever have a bit of tech you out your life on, even if it's a scooter or a bike. I was full on like fuck cars everything and then I got a motorcycle and I was making a long trip one time and "just the two of us" started playing in my earbuds and I was like "fuck I get it"
@@36shadowboy maybe. My experiences with cars have always been between neutral and bad, I forcefully inherited one that came with a bunch of debt attached to it that I got rid of as fast as humanly possible, I just shuffled it to some other relative willing to take it.
I've also never needed one for survival, always relied on public transport just fine. Or just walking since I live in a city.
This video changed my life in such a special way... i can't describe it, it helped me change the way i see things and myself.. i just wanted to thank you
your art is so beautiful and resonant, i can tell it comes from a place of sincerity. i hope you forever remain your bonnie to your clyde
This channel holds a lot of meaning to me
This video made me cry so much, thank you. One of my favorites of yours yet!!
You're such an incredible storyteller, using these foils (games, your car, whatever) to paint such a beautiful and human picture of your life. You pour so much heart and soul into these videos you share with us, and it shows.
These past few days I've felt the most insecure since coming out, it's been soul crushing. But these touches of your life are so full of wonder, and always help me recapture the joy and wonder in my own life. For that I am so thankful
I never thought that when I watched a little video patching up the gaps in my advice as a baby trans that it would lead to me being so deeply touched by you and your story. Thank you for what you put out into the world
Haha. Love your offhand but prosaic description of people who don't understand good audio !
this was so beautiful, thank you for sharing your toughts and feelings it means so much. this altered my brain chemistry ty leadhead
So, I never really post any comment on youtube blablabla, but this one is special. (I'm a pretty tired + auDHD, sorry if English broke at some point, not my native language.)
I went up from bed after watching exactly 2 of your videos. I watched them right now, and never seen anything else you did before that.
I discovered you and your channel several days ago. I was looking for more video essayists to follow, mostly because I love it, and would like to do so some of my own. But it is a great deal to me to watch esayists whose views of the world are similar to mine, because of so many things that are communicated and meant, even when not acknowledged. But I digress.
So yeah, I blindly subscribed.
I saw your vid on my feed. Title was interesting, I thought "pretty sure that's one of the folks I blindly subd to, let's give it a go".
It is a very tender video. The relationship you have with Clyde as well as Montana are beautiful. I've been moved by your excessively genuine story. About your cars.
For the background, I'm a bike advocate, I traveled a bit with it, and it's my way to be and feel free. I get what you mean about being free. I love the two bikes I own very dearly. Being able to flee, fly on and about. That's incredibly precious. I'm a fuckcar type of bitch, but I understand how important it is for a lot of people. And this video is going -straight- gay into my favs.
Because it's encouraging, empowering about so many things. I want to get into creating stuff, but stupid traumas and auDHD get in the way, and I'm so grateful to have my gfs and close ones with me through this. I'll truly hope you and Charlotte will get through what you're going through.
AND THE STARS STORY, omg, I literaly never heard a cutest story before. Genuinely.
And the second video is the one before this one. Yeah, the one about ARG, because of the tile, netx in line, and team fucking defense fort 2. Yeah I love that game too. And seeing everything that has derived from shitposting is just... aspiring. I'd like to be able to do stuff. But I'm so afraid. I'm my own sapper but I don't even feel like I'm any building to be sapped at all.
So yeah, I barely discovered you, and the importance to say stuff on the internet, because comments can resonate withe the lives of several people. I want to make art. I want to write about stuff, games I love, essay a bit, philosophy that, game studies there,.... I want to be able to shitpost. And you two are making it more possible to me than it's ever been.
Thank you. I'll continue to watch you and the amazing stuff you seem to make, that I barely scratched the surface of.
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Life is strange music is always a vibe
i don't get it, but it's wholesome af
i love my train but they only allow me to decorate the toilets because there's camera's everywhere else :(
I love the idea of a perfectly normal train but the most decked out toilet you'll ever see
You run a train???
@@quantumblauthor7300 no i just vandalize it
Genuinely one of my favorite videos i've ever watched, this is beautiful !!!
I've personally always been kinda jealous of those who go all in on personalizing their spaces, or perhaps it's giving their space a unique personality that's separate but also complimenting them? Never really had the guts to make such a change and stick to it, or simply accepting that I can just as easily change it up again. Instead I've always kept things at their given place, always placed things back when its been moved. While keeping the space around clean and sterile of any outgoing personality. Newly I've figured it might be an issue with not feeling comfortable with myself and who I am, or who I'm supposed to be. But I've been trying to be better at it ever since I moved out on my own. Slowly placing pieces of art I enjoy on the walls, bringing home small trinkets I find, even so far as painting the space. Just making it MY little nest and safe space. Maybe it's time to let that personality grow, maybe even give it a name too :)
i feel this, and it's something i'm also trying to work on too! you're not alone in this.
Damn, this video got to me 🥹 I'm currently in the process of trying to fix up a car, haven't had a working vehicle for the majority of my adult life. You really miss the independence that comes with having your own ride once it's gone. I'm so glad you have Clyde and are clearly treating him well ❤️
wake up babe new leadhead just dropped
kinda off topic, but I saw some of your half-life videos couple years ago and now this video pops in my home tab, so I just want to say (maybe a bit late) congrats on the transition :)
nice video btw, I started to mod my car recently
This is the most romantic, insightful, and honest take on car ownership I have seen. If you hadn't already won my heart with the choice of music for this video, you sure did with the melody and harmony anecdote.
I hope Clyde last infinitely longer, and he takes you and Charlotte on so many more adventures
I just love your videos and the way you structure them. You just made my evening even more nice ^^
I've always looked at Clyde with such awe, every video that he's been in I've just stared at every little detail I could find. I'm currently saving up money to get a drivers licence and a car, and I one day hope to make my future car into as much of a person as you have made Clyde (sorry for my poor-ish english, I don't know if that sentence makes sense). You have given me such inspiration, thanks to you and Clyde!
You're not the only who names cars, mine is simply called "boxxy" (in a +/- literal translation) because it looks like a box.
Love the boy boy video at 5:33 ! Gorgeous car with a gorgeous story as well ❤
I understand completely the feeling of personal attachment to a car. I have a 1990 Celica GT and it was one of my dream cars, it feels like a second come to me and it’s beautiful.
I moved to a different state in late august of last year and I could not take Celi with me (that’s her nickname) and it broke my heart, I’m hoping that I can bring her with me soon, because if I can’t I’m going to have to sell her to buy a new car and the thought just breaks my heart.
Such a sweet video! I hope things get better for you x
I've been a fan of yours since like your third ever video and you've GOTTA stop finding new ways to hit me in the feels like this it just ain't fair lol. Never thought anyone else would get so attached to a car that they would cry over feeling like they'd let it down. I'm gonna have to do that headliner replacement, Ashley really deserves some TLC
You should write a book.
your car has a lot of memories for me, seems strange but your video coming out, was the catalyst for me to be proud, instead of hiding.
We had to just recently get rid of our minivan. An Opel Zafira A to be exact. its been a part of our family longer than I have been. Growing up and being into cars, this minivan meant a lot to me. I was just able to take driving lessons with it, before it had to go. From sitting in a baby seat to driving them myself, 22 years of history written all over the body panels.
I love your work, and I do hope you continue. Good show!
5:32 omg boy boy cameo
Sorry to be "that guy" but I am a bit worried about the ceramic pot in the back.
Please please make sure that thing doesn't become a cannonball destined for your head if you get into a car crash ❤️
Ok but that smooth transition from Thumbail to Video was absolutely godlike
I always enjoy learning more about the life of Leadhead
Your car looks so cozy, I love it
this was such a sweet video :,)