Son I'm sitting in the kitchen Just envisioning our memories Wishing it was different Wishing that you'd never left me It was different when she stole you but you've started to resent me and the toll that's took is hefty and it's left me feeling empty And it's sent me down a spiral, so I'm hiding in the flat And Elle's been hiding all the knives in case the darkness tries to tempt me All my life I've been searching for a reason not to die And you're the only one I had, so now there's nothing to prevent me But you already knew your dad was just a drunk depressed freak Imprisoned by a sickness, always desperate to be set free I thought that you could save me It was up to me to save you I promise son I tried, but mummy's always fought against me Now I feel like I'm asleep when I'm awake, and it's insane And when I try and get some sleep, I always pray that I won't get dreams Cos every time I dream, I dream you're lost or you're afraid and then I always try and save you But my brain just never lets me She never let me be a father, I just wanted to protect you now I can't, and the prospect of you suffering just wrecks me And I don't know what's harder that I know I won't forget you or the fact that it seems like it was easy to forget me I don't feel like I deserve this And I don't know what I did to I know I wasn't perfect Let's converse about the issues Cos fuck it son, I love you Fuck it son I miss you Every cell, and every fibre, every atom, every sinew, Fuck it son I'm hurting, I just wish I could be with you Mental state has got me shaking, feeling nervous, always sick too And mummy doesn't give a shit She knows just what I've been through And she knows if it continues I'll be jumping off this cliff soon Enough people have told her Received the cold shoulder Come back and said "I'm sorry, But he'll see it when he's older," But she's had me in her palm And only ever done me harm So it's doubtful if them same callous hands are gonna mould ya That's why it hurts so much, That's what makes it raw Cos I could save up and I could take her for my day in court And everyone around me Keeps on asking what I'm waiting for What, to see a son who'll only see me if they make it law? You can only really understand it if this pain is yours You've seen em playing with your baby's brain from the day it's born Making false claims, calling you names That stuff invades their thoughts Until the day comes that they no longer wanna say they're yours And then it's pain when you're awake And it's pain when you're asleep This plane is not the place to be can't promise how long I'll be staying for And then it's pain when you're awake And it's pain when you're asleep This plane is not the place to be Can't promise how long I'll be staying for
Story so deep now I can't even speak loud Walking down a lonely road Feeling like I been kicked out So don't blame me if you see me tripping out losing people Got me feeling down Getting high living in the clouds Heading down tranquility Lane Life been like a merry go round It's suffercating me it's insane Like I got bloodclots in my brain Losing blood from the pain Came from the mud They told us one person can't make a change Well...I made a pretty good start If I die young Don't judge me I have a hole in my heart 💔 Nobody could recreate my work of art cos its picture perfect Until you start losing things Making you feel worthless Heart beating without a purpose Head drowning under the surface Like I been given this verdict Like they don't even respect me In my place of worship Constantly trying to look down on me like bird shit Not gonna say that it hurt but... Was it really worth it??
Always had to face the road alone home was never far from my heart even tho I was far from home Countless barz are poems A masters quotes A pad of note Never taken seriously Cos ad always act the goat Noo am actually the goat Like greatest of all time So best just take note Sailed through this life of hurt Just trying to make it work I no a fue on the same boat
Remember roaming round the block With my pedal bike I would try to reach the sky I’d try to sit and write Coz all I had for real friends Was paper pens and time Tryna cook up something different Tryna settle minds I’m tryna ease all this pain I’m gonna take my time Never playing round with triggers Never carry knifes I’m always stuck to my figures Tryna see what’s mine Coz this world has turned cold It’s time to see what shines
I’ve been stressed with the weight on my chest I’m tired of waiting it’s time to go and get Dreams I dream won’t achieve if I rest Demons in my head I confess I feel like a guest Ima give it my all until I have nothing left I feel like Johnny I feel like a test If the plan don’t work out ima work on my next This ain’t gods plan been through a lot to make you go god damn I ain’t in gods hands I’m my own man I’m on my own path
have you ever had thoughts in your life to make your life better what ever the weather I'm to break though this pressure pain Ent the same as pleasure only god no's only time can tell i got no remorse for the thoughts of the lord
Block living daily doing new things Silver riz la I don’t bill up with blue slims An a Nokia phone it holds 2 sims got me flying out of time when my mood swings I’ve got a Bally on me face cos of the street lights Lost a couple people hope they sleep tight Regretting all the shit I’ve done up in this street life Flyin round passin out all these testers Rip to all the brothers that have left us And I’m sorry babe I didn’t wanna leave ye But I had to put the pen to the pad to try destress And these days man I really do sleep less You’ve really gotta check all your mates and I don’t mean chess I really hope I get right I’ve gotta pattern up 3 up all my brothers they’ve got padded up Can’t wait till there all home and weel be laffin blud ] Jus somthin I had to make to this beat not the best but yeah
Man I love the Grime music, Everytime I spit my bars, I get all my fams, Jumpin, Going out with the lads, going stunting, I've done a bit of Hunting, get all pisssed and Grunting, had the munchies, and Started Crunching, so many flavours I've Started Moving, going into clubs and started grooving the beat am on am abusing, its so amusing old times Crusing, going mad to get the Tunes in we the AUX Cable, old times fucked up city's like Fable, get so mad ill flip the Table, phones dead wheres my cable, I qint unstable kitchens made out of Mabel, I've been on the block, bored out of my mind watching Ticktock, blazed out of my mind, watching the Clocks, old times building police stations out of lego blocks, best film attack the block, felt like my heart stopped, like a balloon it floats away, on the Streets like stay Cats, man looking fresh we a new tato
Driving down the road I’m all alone That’s probably never changing. Cuz the girl I love don’t love me But I know she fuckin hates me. What am I supposed to do. When I’m fucking going through it. Yeah I’m bout to sit down. Roll a blunt and write music. Dealing with my issues. You would probably go insane. Im at the crib I’m all alone. I might just put one in my brain. If I ever do just know I had a smile. Tired of living in the pain. Sick of living in denial. Smoked a blunt in Africa. Take a bath inside the Nile. Hope this bitch float. Down the river to Egypt. Stripes in the streets. You would swear I was Adidas. Imma Werewolf on the beat. Homie I’m about to eat this. Looking through the peephole. Looking at these people. With my third eye. That I gotta keep the heat for. Acting like you love me. But we both know that you don’t. Imma hooka imma blunt. Cuz I just really want some smoke. One wrong move makes a slippery slope. Caught him slipping at the store. Had to take all his bread. Big gun fully loaded one shot and you dead. Could be talking bout myself. Or shooting out with the feds. Rip to rob rip to ray rip to jay. I can’t believe he took my homies. Sometimes I feel like god. Phoney like Baloney. To anyone that got a problem. Fuck it you can blow me. I just need to get so high. That I feel like I’m floating. On the path to greatness. Here I am on my alone shit. Baby girl you on my mind. But I’m just trying to focus. Bars so potent. You would swear I was corrosive. We toxic that shit is nonsense . My feelings mosh pit. Stuck inside depression. Pray to god that he can stop it. About to take another drink. Feel like I need a sponsor. Deep down inside your heart. You know I ain’t that monster.
E sono solo mentre guardo questa moonlight Ti ho amata fin dall’inizio, baby tu mai Bastano musica e passione per le goodvibes Ed è passato un altro giorno, goodnight
Only wanted to make a buzz To infinity and beyond But the snake in my boot Is full of venum And I just tried to put it on So ah guess I had to suck it up And put the venom in my songs
im tryna smoke this quarter ounce they say what comes around goes around man i think im buggin out if i bill another spliff will my emotions drown cah i dont wanna live, so i got this loud so i got this loud, tryna do my mum proud but i fuck it up, cah i tend to keep buggin out i dont want it like this i cant work it out i just wish some happiness was ever found but theres no happiness from my estate its just debt and we waiting for the next payday i dont wanna live like that, i need to make a change but the only way of change is staying out til late and i aint tryna be known to the jakes cah if i get pulled over i will have suttn on my waist i dont think mumzy would cope if i caught a case so i stick to my room, busy writing a mixtape
This damn life got a poor nigga dreaming Smile on my face but inside I’m constantly screaming ex bitch keeping up my hopes I’d turn to the bottle and get steaming right down all my pain n demon just no love for a hoe no more feelings u said that u loved me u didn’t even know the meaning so hit the road with 4boxes and started dealing i put her to the back of my mind stayed on my grind and I started healing
Ik heb al dagen niet slapen zit met dingen aan me hoofd Verlies mensen om me heen. Want in de leven is er geen genade. Zie traantje trok het niet meer. Hij is weg door de schade. Het doet me pijn. Dat jij hier niet meer wou zijn. Na all die dagen In de regen. Kon je niet meer met de pijn. We gaan je nooit vergeten. Traantje je maakte ons blij. Met je karaoke set. Zingen door de microfoon. Je maakte je eigen show. Nu ben je dood. Ik vind het jammer. K zie me Moeder gaat kapot. iedereen kwam je bezoeken. Op de dag van condolatie. Tranen over me gezicht. toen ik de laatste keer keek. Ik ging kapot. Ik kan het echt niet bevatten, dat we zonder je moeten leven. jij hebt gestreden Hebt gehuild maar je hebt never gekregen. Wat je wou. Je was op zoek naar rust. Tranen zijn vlammen. Er is niemand die me vuurtje blust. Iedereen denkt aan je Je bent nu in de hemel. Op een dag kom ik je tegen. Ik wil nog zoveel dingen zeggen. Wil nog zoveel dingen weten. Gaan we samen naar de kermis. En we gaan een pilsje drinken. Traantje ik zweer het ik mis je. Ik mis je.
What I can say but everyone is drama Leave u lying on ur face but I know that was karma Not working for designer girls the yesmen or for prada More to it than risking freedom for a starter Fast impala On a 2 change trip Jack Jones w a burner Send the kit down to the shop but I can’t send em any further I ain’t serving for the day Turn it off n go away I’ll be back in 5 6 hours journey long I gotta take I know I never wish or pray But this the baitest place to go around Winter long no summer bound a dark boy inuncoloured town Parcel came im fuckung out I’m going home to raid that drought Could’ve stayed up there but wow I’ll never blend in * town Bro tell me put it out Go on harder n I’m down But the music never would or could get mortgage off r mothers house Im bags in rocks n pebs Start at debs Then I sorted out When I counted ten In my head I said don’t pause it now Fuck falling out if they meant when they said they’d got my back then they’d go sort it out Same way that’d I’d tour w rounds If someone caught my brother down I know there’s other pals n other lads If she really down to ride not down to lie then maybe I would come around Not fuss about want my brother here w us but hes down in south You does u n I do me soy when we rich we up in town smoke an ounce coz back in day we’d say we never touch the loud Fuck it bro there’s trauma now don’t talk about - [ ]
When dad was dying an he was cracking up , I hit the strip real talk I was bagging up , bag after bag , banging slag after slag real talk Id had enough , bit when the shit started cracking , it was shells I was slapping , then my girl sent me packing cus it was her I was attacking , I couldn't take it see my mouth I put the Mac in , an I was thinking about clapping - straight into my brain so loose all of this pain , but I seen my dad dying an I could feel all of the rain , but I knew for now at least this where I need to stay an it wouldn't be okay to leave all of this strain , I prey I prey I prey
Медленно, спокойным шагом по мокрому асфальту Топчим землю, глаза в мясо, мысли превратятся в реальность. Постепенно снося башню. Моя жизнь из крайности в крайность, надо было понять себя и это важно, сохранить сложно, снова мутная реальность, снова дым в воздух. Они скажут что Джанго болен и лечить позно Все же важен каждый миг, ведь это все что есть у нас есть. Поделим поровну и этот большой вес Он душу лечит. Снова будто пропадает дар речи но я подрываюсь и запишу рэпчик, залип в детали, 0
I just leet the hate flow cah I know that you don't understand but there's a reason why i act like this and why I act so bad From young I was getting fucked over by my dad i pretend it doesn't hurt but it's the reason why I'm mad I had him everyday it was all going great when to twice a week and now it's only on Sundays I didn't understand why he wanted to be away and then I realised it was the drugs that started to change his ways Now listen My heart broke when I was nine I wattxed him walls out that door that Christmas eve night jt was smoke heroine coke in little lines how the fuck could you make that dirty shit you life but hook X2 I got dreams i need to pattern Feelings that need balance Too many talents To waste it on my dad I got dreams i need to pattern Feelings that need balance Too many talents To waste it on my dad Whatever floats ur boat I just font think that heroine and coke stay afloat now ur not my dad just some drugged up bloke and there's no time for redemption cahh my hearts already broke Im willing to forgive but i can never forget I cant look at my brother without getting upset He looks like you and it feels like a threar I hope he doesnt grow up to feel this regret I hope he doesnt grow up having to imprivise And when his daughter texts i hope he replies Sorry lils you just caught me by suprise Shut up with this bullshit i dont wanna hear these lies Talking to you helped me get to better strides If that was so true why havnt you replied Maybe im over thinkinh i think this all the time Do you wanr me or not ill leave you to decide Hook X2 I got dreams i need to pattern Feelings that need balance Too many talents To waste it on my dad I got dreams i need to pattern Feelings that need balance Too many talents To waste it on my dad When i call i hope you answer but you dont Everytime I think of you it burns straight down my throat I try to form some words in the hope that I don't choke Too many man be laughing but this really ain't a joke I don't see no punchline or pause for a grin They tell u keep your head up take the grief upon the chin If you react your commiting to a sin But I'm walking on the edge and it's getting too thin I csnt cope my time is running out there walking all over me and pushing me down but I'm not a clown lemme find my crown lemme find my sound Let me wipe myself down and pick myself up off the ground I got a reason to spit the same reason to live the same reasons for this and why I can't resist Spitting pain apon a beat to people I have never seen Travelling so far to places I have never been start to make a change and look within my dad? We couldn't give a fuck bout him Hook X2 I got dreams i need to pattern Feelings that need balance Too many talents To waste it on my dad I got dreams i need to pattern Feelings that need balance Too many talents To waste it on my dad
I was broke.nearly took an overdose make no mistake i was a joke could of been ghost but im here to show i made it out off roads that most didn't take should of escaped goat I don't fake I don't waste I don't chase gold I wanna taste I wanna embrace my goals raise up the glass make a high toast I'm as high as I can go I ain't looking down no my backs against the ropes no time to fail no time to choke No one around that's okay I guess that's how the story goes I dun made it out of holes before il do my life you do yours I ain't never rolling the dice like I refused the cards iv been drawn light the fuse get ready for a holy storm I can harness thoughts I couldn't controll before Now I wake up at the crack of dawn thinking why the fuck I let the slack be drawn down to the tension no mention my intervention an own incentive I got potential force through my veins of courses if I said then I ment it call me mentalist you don't even know what mental is you can't tell me the part inside your brain at the center is pineal gland lecture over divs As it stands it is what it is goverment taking food from.mouths of starving kids the chasm and scale is larger than you can actually argue you pricks But who really cares whos really there when lifes full of crack and tares the facts are there and its backed by gears that actually work for the backs of rich when it actually hurts the backs of our kids the weight they cant take but it is what it is got the whole world in a spin nobodys using there own initiatives there equipted with gifted i know im a misfit on mission but the stars in the sky follow a path if you listen tackle any problem on your path its a ride but make the right decisions have a right laugh make memorys in this life youv been given free your self from this mental prison your living in
Coz let me take you through the valley off a yougt iving he's teens. On an estimate in London ridding with feens. The type off ppl without a sig or a dream. Who are either criminals or just ridden as feens. Coz in a way. It was lost the start. In he's ends the crime rate was off off the charts. Mums an alcoholic' dad's a tosser at heart. For either most of he's family are either drug addicts or behind bars. But in a way. She had a talent from a young age. She loved writing. Could spend hours on one page. Convinced to be an artist at some stage. But for every dream she had. The bubbles were burst As she grew into her teens the struggles got worse. Started dealing coke rather weed double the worth. But if u had the write the shit That wrote me the wrong way. Dude' this b a long day.
When I was younger I was really on that strip as I got older I become a family guy like Peter but still got evil mentality like stuey if anyone does me a dirty I show you the evil inside I got bars I here any of that on anywhere else track I want cash money 🤣🤣 no joke
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he's too good, with everything he does mashallah
This is deep
Son I'm sitting in the kitchen
Just envisioning our memories
Wishing it was different
Wishing that you'd never left me
It was different when she stole you
but you've started to resent me and the toll that's took is hefty and it's left me feeling empty
And it's sent me down a spiral, so I'm hiding in the flat
And Elle's been hiding all the knives in case the darkness tries to tempt me
All my life I've been searching for a reason not to die
And you're the only one I had, so now there's nothing to prevent me
But you already knew your dad was just a drunk depressed freak
Imprisoned by a sickness, always desperate to be set free
I thought that you could save me
It was up to me to save you
I promise son I tried, but mummy's always fought against me
Now I feel like I'm asleep when I'm awake, and it's insane
And when I try and get some sleep, I always pray that I won't get dreams
Cos every time I dream, I dream you're lost or you're afraid and then I always try and save you
But my brain just never lets me
She never let me be a father, I just wanted to protect you now I can't, and the prospect of you suffering just wrecks me
And I don't know what's harder
that I know I won't forget you
or the fact that it seems like it was easy to forget me
I don't feel like I deserve this
And I don't know what I did to
I know I wasn't perfect
Let's converse about the issues
Cos fuck it son, I love you
Fuck it son I miss you
Every cell, and every fibre, every atom, every sinew,
Fuck it son I'm hurting, I just wish I could be with you
Mental state has got me shaking, feeling nervous, always sick too
And mummy doesn't give a shit
She knows just what I've been through
And she knows if it continues I'll be jumping off this cliff soon
Enough people have told her
Received the cold shoulder
Come back and said "I'm sorry,
But he'll see it when he's older,"
But she's had me in her palm
And only ever done me harm
So it's doubtful if them same callous hands are gonna mould ya
That's why it hurts so much,
That's what makes it raw
Cos I could save up
and I could take her for my day in court
And everyone around me
Keeps on asking what I'm waiting for
What, to see a son who'll only see me if they make it law?
You can only really understand it
if this pain is yours
You've seen em playing with your baby's brain from the day it's born
Making false claims, calling you names
That stuff invades their thoughts
Until the day comes that they no longer wanna say they're yours
And then it's pain when you're awake
And it's pain when you're asleep
This plane is not the place to be
can't promise how long I'll be staying for
And then it's pain when you're awake
And it's pain when you're asleep
This plane is not the place to be
Can't promise how long I'll be staying for
That’s hard
Deep
Bro this is cold
Cheers boys
Stay strong bro
This is fire
Ich finde es ungerecht das so talentierte Künstler so wenig Aufmerksamkeit bekommen richtig fetter Beat der meine Seele Berührt !!!!!
Story so deep now
I can't even speak loud
Walking down a lonely road
Feeling like I been kicked out
So don't blame me if you see me tripping out losing people Got me feeling down
Getting high living in the clouds
Heading down tranquility Lane
Life been like a merry go round
It's suffercating me it's insane
Like I got bloodclots in my brain
Losing blood from the pain
Came from the mud
They told us one person can't make a change
Well...I made a pretty good start
If I die young
Don't judge me
I have a hole in my heart 💔
Nobody could recreate my work of art cos its picture perfect
Until you start losing things
Making you feel worthless
Heart beating without a purpose
Head drowning under the surface
Like I been given this verdict
Like they don't even respect me
In my place of worship
Constantly trying to look down on me like bird shit
Not gonna say that it hurt but...
Was it really worth it??
im gonna wrap some of these beats bro your smashin it
Always had to face the road alone
home was never far from my heart
even tho I was far from home
Countless barz are poems
A masters quotes
A pad of note
Never taken seriously
Cos ad always act the goat
Noo am actually the goat
Like greatest of all time
So best just take note
Sailed through this life of hurt
Just trying to make it work
I no a fue on the same boat
Remember roaming round the block
With my pedal bike
I would try to reach the sky
I’d try to sit and write
Coz all I had for real friends
Was paper pens and time
Tryna cook up something different
Tryna settle minds
I’m tryna ease all this pain
I’m gonna take my time
Never playing round with triggers
Never carry knifes
I’m always stuck to my figures
Tryna see what’s mine
Coz this world has turned cold
It’s time to see what shines
Nice bars bro
This is too ooooo dope 🔥🔥🔥
This hits !
This beat bangz 🔥
I’ve been stressed with the weight on my chest
I’m tired of waiting it’s time to go and get
Dreams I dream won’t achieve if I rest
Demons in my head I confess I feel like a guest
Ima give it my all until I have nothing left
I feel like Johnny I feel like a test
If the plan don’t work out ima work on my next
This ain’t gods plan been through a lot to make you go god damn
I ain’t in gods hands I’m my own man
I’m on my own path
have you ever had thoughts in your life to make your life better what ever the weather I'm to break though this pressure pain Ent the same as pleasure only god no's only time can tell i got no remorse for the thoughts of the lord
Jesus loves you! ❤
This isn't an instrumental, this is an audio art piece.
feeling this
You should reach out to NF. Your beats have his type of vibe.
yo can i use this for soundcloud?
Im going to use this
Block living daily doing new things
Silver riz la I don’t bill up with blue slims
An a Nokia phone it holds 2 sims
got me flying out of time when my mood swings
I’ve got a Bally on me face cos of the street lights
Lost a couple people hope they sleep tight
Regretting all the shit I’ve done up in this street life
Flyin round passin out all these testers
Rip to all the brothers that have left us
And I’m sorry babe I didn’t wanna leave ye
But I had to put the pen to the pad to try destress
And these days man I really do sleep less
You’ve really gotta check all your mates and I don’t mean chess
I really hope I get right I’ve gotta pattern up
3 up all my brothers they’ve got padded up
Can’t wait till there all home and weel be laffin blud ]
Jus somthin I had to make to this beat not the best but yeah
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How can I buy this beat bro this is hardddd
Check description bro!
Man I love the Grime music,
Everytime I spit my bars, I get all my fams, Jumpin,
Going out with the lads, going stunting, I've done a bit of Hunting, get all pisssed and Grunting,
had the munchies, and Started Crunching, so many flavours I've Started Moving, going into clubs and started grooving
the beat am on am abusing, its so amusing old times Crusing, going mad to get the Tunes in we the AUX Cable, old times fucked up city's like Fable, get so
mad ill flip the Table, phones dead wheres my cable, I qint unstable kitchens made out of Mabel, I've been on the block, bored out of my mind watching Ticktock, blazed out of my mind, watching the Clocks, old times building police stations out of lego blocks, best film attack the block, felt like my heart stopped, like a balloon it floats away, on the Streets like stay Cats, man looking fresh we a new tato
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Nice
I want to know what part of me
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They SHamed me gone,
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Driving down the road I’m all alone
That’s probably never changing.
Cuz the girl I love don’t love me
But I know she fuckin hates me.
What am I supposed to do.
When I’m fucking going through it.
Yeah I’m bout to sit down.
Roll a blunt and write music.
Dealing with my issues.
You would probably go insane.
Im at the crib I’m all alone.
I might just put one in my brain.
If I ever do just know I had a smile.
Tired of living in the pain.
Sick of living in denial.
Smoked a blunt in Africa.
Take a bath inside the Nile.
Hope this bitch float.
Down the river to Egypt.
Stripes in the streets.
You would swear I was Adidas.
Imma Werewolf on the beat.
Homie I’m about to eat this.
Looking through the peephole.
Looking at these people.
With my third eye.
That I gotta keep the heat for.
Acting like you love me.
But we both know that you don’t.
Imma hooka imma blunt.
Cuz I just really want some smoke.
One wrong move makes a slippery slope.
Caught him slipping at the store.
Had to take all his bread.
Big gun fully loaded one shot and you dead.
Could be talking bout myself.
Or shooting out with the feds.
Rip to rob rip to ray rip to jay.
I can’t believe he took my homies.
Sometimes I feel like god.
Phoney like Baloney.
To anyone that got a problem.
Fuck it you can blow me.
I just need to get so high.
That I feel like I’m floating.
On the path to greatness.
Here I am on my alone shit.
Baby girl you on my mind.
But I’m just trying to focus.
Bars so potent.
You would swear I was corrosive.
We toxic that shit is nonsense .
My feelings mosh pit.
Stuck inside depression.
Pray to god that he can stop it.
About to take another drink.
Feel like I need a sponsor.
Deep down inside your heart.
You know I ain’t that monster.
Imma write a song for this
Same
E sono solo mentre guardo questa moonlight
Ti ho amata fin dall’inizio, baby tu mai
Bastano musica e passione per le goodvibes
Ed è passato un altro giorno, goodnight
yo holla me looking to purchase multiple beats for mixtape , shout me ASAP
Only wanted to make a buzz
To infinity and beyond
But the snake in my boot
Is full of venum
And I just tried to put it on
So ah guess I had to suck it up
And put the venom in my songs
im tryna smoke this quarter ounce
they say what comes around goes around
man i think im buggin out
if i bill another spliff will my emotions drown
cah i dont wanna live, so i got this loud
so i got this loud, tryna do my mum proud
but i fuck it up, cah i tend to keep buggin out
i dont want it like this i cant work it out
i just wish some happiness was ever found
but theres no happiness from my estate
its just debt and we waiting for the next payday
i dont wanna live like that, i need to make a change
but the only way of change is staying out til late
and i aint tryna be known to the jakes
cah if i get pulled over i will have suttn on my waist
i dont think mumzy would cope if i caught a case
so i stick to my room, busy writing a mixtape
This damn life got a poor nigga dreaming
Smile on my face but inside I’m constantly screaming ex bitch keeping up my hopes I’d turn to the bottle and get steaming right down all my pain n demon just no love for a hoe no more feelings u said that u loved me u didn’t even know the meaning so hit the road with 4boxes and started dealing i put her to the back of my mind stayed on my grind and I started healing
Ik heb al dagen niet slapen zit met dingen aan me hoofd
Verlies mensen om me heen. Want in de leven is er geen genade.
Zie traantje trok het niet meer. Hij is weg door de schade.
Het doet me pijn. Dat jij hier niet meer wou zijn. Na all die dagen
In de regen. Kon je niet meer met de pijn. We gaan je nooit vergeten.
Traantje je maakte ons blij. Met je karaoke set. Zingen door de microfoon.
Je maakte je eigen show. Nu ben je dood. Ik vind het jammer. K zie me
Moeder gaat kapot. iedereen kwam je bezoeken. Op de dag van condolatie.
Tranen over me gezicht. toen ik de laatste keer keek. Ik ging kapot.
Ik kan het echt niet bevatten, dat we zonder je moeten leven. jij hebt gestreden
Hebt gehuild maar je hebt never gekregen. Wat je wou. Je was op zoek naar rust.
Tranen zijn vlammen. Er is niemand die me vuurtje blust. Iedereen denkt aan je
Je bent nu in de hemel. Op een dag kom ik je tegen. Ik wil nog zoveel dingen zeggen.
Wil nog zoveel dingen weten. Gaan we samen naar de kermis. En we gaan een pilsje drinken.
Traantje ik zweer het ik mis je. Ik mis je.
What I can say but everyone is drama
Leave u lying on ur face but I know that was karma
Not working for designer girls the yesmen or for prada
More to it than risking freedom for a starter
Fast impala
On a 2 change trip
Jack Jones w a burner
Send the kit down to the shop but I can’t send em any further
I ain’t serving for the day
Turn it off n go away
I’ll be back in 5 6 hours journey long I gotta take
I know I never wish or pray
But this the baitest place to go around
Winter long no summer bound a dark boy inuncoloured town
Parcel came im fuckung out
I’m going home to raid that drought
Could’ve stayed up there but wow I’ll never blend in * town
Bro tell me put it out
Go on harder n I’m down
But the music never would or could get mortgage off r mothers house
Im bags in rocks n pebs
Start at debs
Then I sorted out
When I counted ten
In my head I said don’t pause it now
Fuck falling out if they meant when they said they’d got my back then they’d go sort it out
Same way that’d I’d tour w rounds
If someone caught my brother down
I know there’s other pals n other lads
If she really down to ride not down to lie then maybe I would come around
Not fuss about
want my brother here w us but hes down in south
You does u n I do me soy when we rich we up in town
smoke an ounce coz back in day we’d say we never touch the loud
Fuck it bro there’s trauma now don’t talk about
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Put this tune on my insta 20 k followers big narstie out it on his story yesterday @scouseonroad check got my pain out nice one for this
When dad was dying an he was cracking up , I hit the strip real talk I was bagging up , bag after bag , banging slag after slag real talk Id had enough , bit when the shit started cracking , it was shells I was slapping , then my girl sent me packing cus it was her I was attacking , I couldn't take it see my mouth I put the Mac in , an I was thinking about clapping - straight into my brain so loose all of this pain , but I seen my dad dying an I could feel all of the rain , but I knew for now at least this where I need to stay an it wouldn't be okay to leave all of this strain , I prey I prey I prey
Медленно, спокойным шагом по мокрому асфальту
Топчим землю, глаза в мясо, мысли превратятся в реальность.
Постепенно снося башню. Моя жизнь из крайности в крайность, надо было понять себя и это важно, сохранить сложно, снова мутная реальность, снова дым в воздух.
Они скажут что Джанго болен и лечить позно
Все же важен каждый миг, ведь это все что есть у нас есть. Поделим поровну и этот большой вес Он душу лечит. Снова будто пропадает дар речи но я подрываюсь и запишу рэпчик, залип в детали, 0
Purest of pure 👌🏽 loved every word 🐐
I just leet the hate flow cah I know that you don't understand but there's a reason why i act like this and why I act so bad
From young I was getting fucked over by my dad i pretend it doesn't hurt but it's the reason why I'm mad I had him everyday it was all going great when to twice a week and now it's only on Sundays I didn't understand why he wanted to be away and then I realised it was the drugs that started to change his ways
Now listen
My heart broke when I was nine I wattxed him walls out that door that Christmas eve night jt was smoke heroine coke in little lines how the fuck could you make that dirty shit you life but
hook X2
I got dreams i need to pattern
Feelings that need balance
Too many talents
To waste it on my dad
I got dreams i need to pattern
Feelings that need balance
Too many talents
To waste it on my dad
Whatever floats ur boat I just font think that heroine and coke stay afloat now ur not my dad just some drugged up bloke and there's no time for redemption cahh my hearts already broke
Im willing to forgive but i can never forget
I cant look at my brother without getting upset
He looks like you and it feels like a threar
I hope he doesnt grow up to feel this regret
I hope he doesnt grow up having to imprivise
And when his daughter texts i hope he replies
Sorry lils you just caught me by suprise
Shut up with this bullshit i dont wanna hear these lies
Talking to you helped me get to better strides
If that was so true why havnt you replied
Maybe im over thinkinh i think this all the time
Do you wanr me or not ill leave you to decide
Hook X2
I got dreams i need to pattern
Feelings that need balance
Too many talents
To waste it on my dad
I got dreams i need to pattern
Feelings that need balance
Too many talents
To waste it on my dad
When i call i hope you answer but you dont
Everytime I think of you it burns straight down my throat
I try to form some words in the hope that I don't choke
Too many man be laughing but this really ain't a joke
I don't see no punchline or pause for a grin
They tell u keep your head up take the grief upon the chin
If you react your commiting to a sin
But I'm walking on the edge and it's getting too thin
I csnt cope my time is running out there walking all over me and pushing me down but I'm not a clown lemme find my crown lemme find my sound
Let me wipe myself down and pick myself up off the ground
I got a reason to spit the same reason to live the same reasons for this and why I can't resist
Spitting pain apon a beat to people I have never seen
Travelling so far to places I have never been start to make a change and look within my dad?
We couldn't give a fuck bout him
Hook X2
I got dreams i need to pattern
Feelings that need balance
Too many talents
To waste it on my dad
I got dreams i need to pattern
Feelings that need balance
Too many talents
To waste it on my dad
I was broke.nearly took an overdose
make no mistake i was a joke
could of been ghost
but im here to show
i made it out off roads that most didn't take should of escaped goat
I don't fake I don't waste I don't chase gold
I wanna taste I wanna embrace my goals
raise up the glass make a high toast I'm as high as I can go
I ain't looking down no my backs against the ropes
no time to fail
no time to choke
No one around that's okay I guess that's how the story goes
I dun made it out of holes before il do my life you do yours
I ain't never rolling the dice like I refused the cards iv been drawn light the fuse
get ready for a holy storm I can harness thoughts I couldn't controll before
Now I wake up at the crack of dawn thinking why the fuck I let the slack be drawn
down to the tension no mention my intervention an own incentive I got potential force through my veins of courses if I said then I ment it
call me mentalist
you don't even know what mental is
you can't tell me the part inside your brain at the center is
pineal gland lecture over divs
As it stands it is what it is goverment taking food from.mouths of starving kids
the chasm and scale is larger than you can actually argue you pricks
But who really cares
whos really there when lifes full of crack and tares
the facts are there and its backed by gears that actually work for the backs of rich
when it actually hurts the backs of our kids
the weight they cant take but it is what it is
got the whole world in a spin nobodys using there own initiatives there equipted with gifted i know im a misfit on mission
but the stars in the sky follow a path if you listen
tackle any problem on your path its a ride
but make the right decisions have a right laugh make memorys in this life youv been given free your self from this mental prison your living in
Mind zit vol haat
iedereen die me dingen vraagt like Jerra weet je zeker dat het gaat
veel on me mind dat is de reden dat Jerra niet veel praat
Coz let me take you through the valley off a yougt iving he's teens.
On an estimate in London ridding with feens.
The type off ppl without a sig or a dream.
Who are either criminals or just ridden as feens.
Coz in a way.
It was lost the start.
In he's ends the crime rate was off off the charts.
Mums an alcoholic' dad's a tosser at heart.
For either most of he's family are either drug addicts or behind bars.
But in a way.
She had a talent from a young age.
She loved writing.
Could spend hours on one page.
Convinced to be an artist at some stage.
But for every dream she had.
The bubbles were burst
As she grew into her teens the struggles got worse.
Started dealing coke rather weed double the worth.
But if u had the write the shit
That wrote me the wrong way.
Dude' this b a long day.
When I was younger I was really on that strip as I got older I become a family guy like Peter but still got evil mentality like stuey if anyone does me a dirty I show you the evil inside I got bars I here any of that on anywhere else track I want cash money 🤣🤣 no joke
THAT IS SO SHIT!!!!! YOU HAVEN'T GOT BARS LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL