Losing My Mum | Dealing With Loss & Grief

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  • Hey angels, thank you so much for all of the love & support you've shown me over through the last few weeks after I lost my mum, and more specifically, for the overwhelming kindness on my tribute video to her (which you can watch here: • Deborah Jane ).
    This is my story about losing my beautiful mum to a brain tumour at the age of 54. As hard as this was, it was really important for me to make this video to raise awareness for brain tumours, cancer, dealing with loss & grief and for showing other young people out there who's parents are battling cancer that they are not alone.
    I love you guys so much and I am so grateful for your friendship. See you again very soon xxx
    Instagram - @elledarby_

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  • @kizziejay1837
    @kizziejay1837 4 ปีที่แล้ว +116

    you haven’t lost her permanently she is always with you 👑 she is so proud of you 💗 keep your head up it’s amazing how far you have come 🥺💞

  • @jessieward8517
    @jessieward8517 4 ปีที่แล้ว +166

    When my mum was 10 years old she lost her mum to cancer. I never got to meet my grandma. My mum tells me things that she can remember about her all the time. Watching this makes me think how confused my mum must have been at just 10 years old not knowing much about cancer or what was going on. My mum has managed to cope with it as it has almost been 40 years now since her death. Some days she gets upset and wishes she has her mum to talk to. We say white feathers are her and when one falls we know she is there with us. I know she would be proud of what my mum has achieved today and I know she is always watching over us xxx

  • @dean20221
    @dean20221 4 ปีที่แล้ว +181

    I couldn’t imagine losing my mum, I have a life we’re things go wrong quite a lot from family drama etc but my mum is always the glue that keeps things together. I honestly couldn’t cope without her, the video prior to this was completely beautiful, and the strength your showing filming this is really admirable.. stay strong 💕💕

    • @arcadian2356
      @arcadian2356 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      LA Vickers what a ridiculous and insensitive comment, she isn’t doing this simply to get the money in fact I’m sure that’s one of the last things on her mind. For many people, and Ellie herself, this video will be hugely helpful in dealing with grief or loss by allowing people to realise grief is a normal process and people aren’t alone in feeling it. Allow Ellie to share her emotions in any way or platform she feels it can either benefit herself or others. Ever heard of the saying “If you have nothing nice to say just don’t say it at all”? Maybe you could benefit from it 🙄

    • @seannine
      @seannine 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@lavickers2852 Do you really think it's appropriate to be sending negativity to a woman grieving her mother?

    • @Sir_BlueWolf
      @Sir_BlueWolf 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Dude or dudet, not the time, there is never a time to say that s"""

    • @nonameneeded2943
      @nonameneeded2943 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@lavickers2852 calling out cold murder isn't bad so nice try but no

    • @nonameneeded2943
      @nonameneeded2943 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@lavickers2852 not really because u are misunderstanding the saying. When people say it, they don't literally mean you should only say something nice. It means if all u have to say about something is unwarranted negativity then it's better to keep it to yourself

  • @charlottebarnett9368
    @charlottebarnett9368 4 ปีที่แล้ว +248

    Elle, I haven’t watched this video because I lost my mum just under three months ago and I know it’d be too hard for me, but I just wanted to say that you’re not alone. My mum was my best friend and the only person I truly ever loved, and I won’t lie, it’s been awful and isn’t getting any easier. Aside from your world being turned upside down you’ll probably learn that a lot of people you called friends or family aren’t the people you thought they were. You’ll see a side of yourself you never thought was there. You’ll have days where you want to be around people all the time and days where anyone near you makes you want to scream. It’s shit, and I’m not going to sit here and pretend it’s all sunshine and rainbows again after a few weeks. However, having people to talk to is so important. I know you have Con and your sisters but sometimes it’s a hell of a lot easier to have a rant to someone who isn’t so emotionally involved in the situation. It’s one of the things that I couldn’t have lived without recently. I know I’m just a stranger on the internet, but please reach out if you come across this comment and just want to chat to someone who knows how you’re feeling. My Twitter or Insta is glassbeats, I’m 21 and I’m called Charlotte. Sending you all of my love Angel x

    • @mandyjackson6894
      @mandyjackson6894 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Bless you and I understand everything you said because I went through it too. Take your time to deal with it. You'll never get over it but you will learn to live with it IN YOUR OWN TIME. Sending love to you and your family xxx

    • @charlottebarnett9368
      @charlottebarnett9368 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Mandy Jackson Thank you x

    • @oliviagrace5108
      @oliviagrace5108 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Couldn't relate to you more. I am also 21, my mum fell asleep yesterday following a four and a half year journey of ovarian cancer. It's so so tough isn't it, especially when you're closer to your mum than anyone can imagine. You're ready xx

    • @sophiehawksworth7971
      @sophiehawksworth7971 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@oliviagrace5108 Just wanted to send love to you, I'm 24 and my mum is down to the final days of her 3 and a half year ovarian cancer battle just now and I feel just so sad. Ovarian cancer is so aggressive and her deterioration has happened so quickly that how she was even 3 weeks ago feels a lifetime ago now, it truly feels like I've stepped into a parallel universe. I don't know what I can offer or what to say but your comment resonated so strongly with me and I just wanted to send love xxx

    • @charlenemcdonagh6361
      @charlenemcdonagh6361 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      So sorry for your loss may she rest in peace 💔😇💕💞❤

  • @Eltoria
    @Eltoria 4 ปีที่แล้ว +192

    I literally want to give you the biggest hug ❤️ this is so so brave! I am deeply so so sorry for you loss. Sending you all the love and positivity. Xxx

  • @paulaj8974
    @paulaj8974 4 ปีที่แล้ว +217

    Elle, you’ve handled this with such poise and grace, it’s truly admirable. I’m blown away with how well you’ve spoken and all the thought you’ve put into this video and your mum’s beautiful tribute.
    I can only imagine how hard it’s been to be consumed by this experience for so long and to have your mum pass and have the world around you continue and need to find your way through it all. Surreal. You’re so brave and although it’s a devastating loss the growth that you will have from this will be huge. This adds layers to your soul and you’ll be an even more compassionate and empathetic person. Truly sorry you and Katy are going through such a tough time and I hope your mum is filled with the lightness that no doubt comes from when we leave our sick physical bodies. May she rest peacefully xx

  • @katiejonesxo
    @katiejonesxo 4 ปีที่แล้ว +105

    I lost my mum to a brain tumour in July 2019, this video has been a rollercoaster of emotions, thank you soo much for making it, I didn’t know I needed it until I finished it. Love to you and your family 💖

    • @Dz-nn9gt
      @Dz-nn9gt 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      lol

    • @alexaxoxo3883
      @alexaxoxo3883 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Sending lots of best wishes to you x

    • @hannahogidi
      @hannahogidi 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      D1 what’s wrong with u

    • @jennyr5642
      @jennyr5642 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I’m sorry sweetheart xxxx

    • @joeleighlangford6714
      @joeleighlangford6714 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@hannahogidi The original lol stands for lots of love I'm hoping that's what they mean.

  • @jadebrueton7794
    @jadebrueton7794 4 ปีที่แล้ว +154

    This is so hard to watch, I lost my grandad on the 3rd December 2019, he was diagnosed with COPD in 2015. He was slowly deteriorating, he couldn't walk, he had his bed in the living room cos he couldn't walk far, he was always in and out of hospital.. but I never thought I was gunna lose him. He also had a catheter attached as he couldn't walk to the toilet. He went into hospital on the 24th November, this is when they found out about his cancer, he had lung cancer, a collapsed lung and COPD. On the 26th November, we found out that he only had days to live. He sadly passed on the 3rd December, holding my nans hand.
    On the 14th Feb 2020, it was my grandads birthday, we had a little party to remember him by, my nan was singing and dancing crying and laughing. She was a mixed of emotions, she missed her husband but she loved her family too.
    We sadly found my nan on the 15th Feb 2020 in the morning passed away...
    This was a major shock to us all, as we saw her the night before and she was fine where as with my grandad we had time with him, with my nan we really didn't.
    We found out that she passed away from heart disease but she didn't know.
    Us as a family use 'she died of a broken heart'
    Her and my grandad was together for 46 years
    But now they are back together..
    Keep strong Elle, you have a massive support system and it helps alot! Xx

    • @daisybrimble6904
      @daisybrimble6904 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Jade Brueton 💗💗

    • @jadef2598
      @jadef2598 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Wow I completely understand what you are going through! I felt like I was reading my own life story! I lost my nan in January just like your grandad she had COPD and as you said we watched her deteriorate so quickly, she wouldn’t move out of bed, she lost so much weight, couldn’t walk anywhere it was so hard watching her like this and knowing there was nothing you could do about it. I then called a ambulance the one day as she was really really poorly she showed signs of being okay and then not okay but overall I did think she would get better and soon come home. She then collapsed and was having seizers only for us to find out the day she died she had suspected lung cancer and the cancer had spread to her brain and this was causing the seizers. It all still feels so surreal my deepest sympathy goes out to you and I for one understand completely how overwhelming and surreal this all feels. I just only hope within time the pain of the grief fades as it’s so hard to deal with.

    • @yxngfn3187
      @yxngfn3187 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hopefully your okay

  • @justinelouise7069
    @justinelouise7069 4 ปีที่แล้ว +71

    I lost my mum when I was 27 years old, I remember coming home from the hospital and thinking I can’t believe she’s left this world and the world is still going without her in it... such a strange feeling. It’s true what people say you never get over it but you learn to live with the grief and ways of coping. Stay strong, you will have good and bad days but it does get easier 💕

  • @charlottew2648
    @charlottew2648 3 ปีที่แล้ว +58

    This has bought a tear to my eye, I saw she was pregnant before watching this vid because I’m new here and wondered about here mum, I’m so happy she’s pregnant and doing well💕

  • @eviechappell6159
    @eviechappell6159 4 ปีที่แล้ว +314

    Elle you are so strong honestly. You should be so proud of yourself for talking about this ♥️

  • @hannahkerrigan7722
    @hannahkerrigan7722 4 ปีที่แล้ว +313

    I lost my mum at 19 to a stroke. I found her laying there and she couldn’t even speak. Not one word. I am 26 now and I still am grieving. This video is what I would have loved back then. Even though the cause was different. Losing your mum when you are young is so devastating and affects your life in ways no one else can imagine unless they go through it.
    You have handled yourself so amazingly throughout this video. I am so proud of you for how you have spoke. You are such an inspiration to everyone and your mum would be so very proud of you for this.
    Xxxxx

  • @your_princesa_isabelg
    @your_princesa_isabelg 4 ปีที่แล้ว +325

    My respect goes out to all the mums who:
    . Lost a child
    . Lost their mum
    . Couldn't be with us
    . Played the dad's role
    . Struggled to become a mum
    . Got seperate from the child that they cared for
    Happy mothers day to all the amazing mums❤

    • @danixx2323
      @danixx2323 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      But Mother’s Day was ages ago???

    • @your_princesa_isabelg
      @your_princesa_isabelg 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Ezi O’L and in Brazil🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷❤

    • @kenblyberg341
      @kenblyberg341 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      My mom experienced all of those and she died of cancer 30th november this year. Im not looking forward to christmas tomorrow

    • @your_princesa_isabelg
      @your_princesa_isabelg 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@kenblyberg341 I'm so sorry to hear that❤ Rn, my mum has Covid

  • @joehood2464
    @joehood2464 4 ปีที่แล้ว +65

    I’m in the incredibly fortunate position where I haven’t lost any of my immediate family and yet I was still somehow able to gain a sense comfort from your video. I have never seen someone speak so candidly, articulately and sincerely about their experience coping with the loss of a loved one and the subsequent grieving process and although I can’t directly relate, I’m sure this will resonate with many other viewers. I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your mum and I wish you and your family all the best at this difficult time x

  • @oliviamitchell6045
    @oliviamitchell6045 4 ปีที่แล้ว +125

    I am a palliative care nurse in Bristol. This has really helped me see things from a family perspective as often we can get stuck in the clinical side of things. Thank you Elle for making this video, despite how much you are hurting xx

  • @jaywalford2365
    @jaywalford2365 4 ปีที่แล้ว +52

    I lost my Dad when I was 15.. two days before my GCSE’s started. That happened in 2009.... now it’s 2020, 11 years this week on the 15th and I STILL get caught my a song, a memory, a feeling that I suddenly get upset. I never grieve by continually thinking of him but there will always be times it catches you off guard. The worst is feeling guilty for not thinking about them for a while but the memories are the most precious things. I appreciate my mam a gazillion times more (although she’s always been my best friend) and the strength she had during my dads diagnosis/when he went. Sending you SO much love. You’ll never forget her and you’ll love her forever, as she will you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @hannahedwards1626
      @hannahedwards1626 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Jay Walford I also lost my dad when I was 15, just before GCSEs. Your comment is so true ❤️ so difficult even years later. Sending love Xxx

  • @nikitaandrews8377
    @nikitaandrews8377 4 ปีที่แล้ว +146

    You’re so strong. You should be so proud of yourself. God knows everyone else is proud of you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @kelseyflanagan5576
    @kelseyflanagan5576 4 ปีที่แล้ว +46

    I couldn’t watch it all my heart hurts, but I know if I ever need it . I’ve got this video to look back on, strong lady ❤️

    • @proudtobeageordie2926
      @proudtobeageordie2926 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Just incase you ever want to come back to it here's a notification 💜

  • @DramaticMac
    @DramaticMac 4 ปีที่แล้ว +142

    You are actually so strong making this video Ellie! I can’t imagine how hard this was for you! Thank you for sharing your mums story. Sending you, Katie and the rest of your family love and prayers 💕

  • @kalvinhorabin3162
    @kalvinhorabin3162 3 ปีที่แล้ว +131

    My mum is in her final days with lung cancer. I find myself here not knowing what to do. I already lost my dad. I’m utterly and completely broken

    • @daisie3740
      @daisie3740 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      sending you so much love x

    • @lilxdreamerr
      @lilxdreamerr 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sending hugs! ❤️

    • @EleriBowen
      @EleriBowen 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I'm sending you all my love and lots of hugs. I hope you know how strong and loved you are xxxxx

    • @isabellxsweeney29
      @isabellxsweeney29 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Sending you a lot of love ❤️❤️

    • @jessx8069
      @jessx8069 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      sending love❤️

  • @gurcaycanel9130
    @gurcaycanel9130 4 ปีที่แล้ว +59

    I lost my daddy 2 n a half years ago n the pain I'm feeling still makes it feel like it was yesterday u never accept it life is never the same all u can do is try to keep going n to try n stay strong sending u hugs 💖

    • @LS-du7ot
      @LS-du7ot 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Gurcay Canel I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my father in 2007. I miss him everyday. Time heals all but you never forget. Stay strong 💪🏼🙏🏼

  • @bethanyhickman8387
    @bethanyhickman8387 4 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    Elle, the way you talk is so eloquent and beautiful. You really touched my heart. Words can’t describe how amazing and strong and brave you are. Sending you so so so so much love ❤️

  • @lotuspetal5143
    @lotuspetal5143 4 ปีที่แล้ว +45

    You always “angel” us but you’re the angel! Sending you the biggest hug and prayers as you continue to deal with the loss of your mother. I truly believe she’s looking down at you and smiling 💕

  • @han7349
    @han7349 4 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    I lost my mum when I was 16, I’m now 19. Thank you so much for making this video, you’ve been able to articulate how I’ve felt for almost the past 3 years. Ive watched this video with my boyfriend and it’s really helped him understand how and what I’m going through and me to communicate how I feel about being without my mum to my boyfriend. I 100% agree with the small little milestones such as eating cereal or dumb stuff like doing the first food shop without her. I dread the big milestones like getting married and having children without her but like you said, we are going to get through it. I’m sending so much love your way and I hope these videos are helping you to grieve and somewhat heal x

  • @rebeccaokane3571
    @rebeccaokane3571 4 ปีที่แล้ว +113

    I lost my beautiful mum in October 2019 to a long battle with cancer quite similar to your own mum’s journey. No one will ever understand the pain of loosing your mum, especially at this age- and how alone it can make you feel. I’ve been searching for a video like this for years. You’ve done your job by helping someone feel less alone. Thank you❤️

    • @melissawalker4163
      @melissawalker4163 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      So sorry for your loss 😢 I just lost my mum July 28th 2021 😭 I'm so loss without her 💔

    • @netterz3411
      @netterz3411 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I just lost mine yesterday... this is the WORST feeling I’ve ever had in my life

    • @melissawalker4163
      @melissawalker4163 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@netterz3411 I'm so sorry for your loss 💔 may Father God bless you through this difficult time 🙏 😢. I loss mine July 28th 2021 😭

    • @netterz3411
      @netterz3411 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@melissawalker4163 thank you and I hope the same for you also. Just talking and listening to others who have had this happen also makes me remember I'm not the only person who has dealt with this pain and it helps to not feel so alone.

    • @melissawalker4163
      @melissawalker4163 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@netterz3411 i feel the same way. God Bless You 🙏

  • @tara.nolan9012
    @tara.nolan9012 4 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    Cried pretty much the whole way though. My mum is my absolute life and dont know what I would do it where I would be without her. You are so so strong ❤ I know we all say that to people but a mum is an unconditional bond and its heart breaking. Thank you for sharing. Thank you opening up and thank you for just being you. 💕💕 love from an angel gal

  • @deannayoung5311
    @deannayoung5311 4 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    My sweetest Elle 💞💐🕊
    I'm sending out the biggest
    hugs and love to yu,
    And darling kit kat💗
    I knew there something wrong"
    I reached out to Lucy to just
    ask if yur ok...
    My heart sank when I then saw
    The recent announcement"
    The universe is sending you
    Such love I hope you feel it
    Biggest hugs ever from
    California boo 💞

  • @alwaysmarcy9428
    @alwaysmarcy9428 4 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    I know how hard this must be for you, as I said before I was 23 and I lost my mom unexpectedly she was here one day healthy next day it was the hardest time of my life, I was angry at everyone, my son was just a couple months oldand I didn't want my mother-in-law to give me any advice since my mother couldn't. I was working in emergency room and found it so hard to have any compassion for people coming in on losing a relative. I went through so much anger anger and pain. My advice to you would be just talked about her when you're around other people just like she was still here keep her memory alive

  • @courtneycameron2248
    @courtneycameron2248 4 ปีที่แล้ว +127

    My dad was killed in a accident just before Christmas last year and I’m still dealing with a lot of hard moments on a day to day basis and I found this video very comforting to watch, thank you

    • @shauna6086
      @shauna6086 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      So sorry for your loss :(( ❤❤❤

    • @kaitlandoneill5512
      @kaitlandoneill5512 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Courtney Cameron sorry for your loss 💜💜

    • @yeshuaischrist9951
      @yeshuaischrist9951 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      PRAYING FOR YOU. I DON'T KNOW IF YOU ARE A BELIEVER IN OUR BEAUTIFUL FATHER YESHUA(JESUS) BUT BELIEVING IN OUR CREATOR HELPS YOU INCREDIBLY . I HOPE YOUR FATHER WAS A CHRISTIAN AND YOU AS WELL, SO THAT ONE DAY YOU CAN MEET AGAIN. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.

    • @christan6994
      @christan6994 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I know how painful it can be
      to lose a parent coz I lost my mom about one and a half year ago too. Be strong and do your best in life to make him proud!

    • @blissdrive1763
      @blissdrive1763 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      My dad was murdered

  • @EllieVictoria
    @EllieVictoria 4 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    I lost my dad in a car crash incident when I was 4 years old... its so unbelievably hard to deal with grief, I've forever found it hard to speak about, but also found that speaking actually helps too.. for me what breaks my heart is that I never got the chance to share memories with my dad as he was only in my life for a short 4 years before he was taken away, but I can be forever thankful that I have precious videos and photos to remind me of what an amazing man he was♥️
    You are so incredibly strong Elle and your mum will be so so proud of you, this video is really admirable, you are such an inspiration♥️

    • @kaitlandoneill5512
      @kaitlandoneill5512 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Dear ellie
      I'm so sorry for your loss of your dad just know that he loves you very much and wants you you to be happy I also lost my day his name was Kevin he died from cancer stay safe you are not alone 💜

  • @rachm77
    @rachm77 4 ปีที่แล้ว +46

    I lost my Dad on the 23rd of March 2019, from cancer. The cancer spread to his brain and within a month he was gone. By far the hardest thing i’ve ever had to go through. Our way of dealing with it was to laugh and joke about it, my dad was so strong and didn’t want anything to ruin the rest of his life. He always told me that everything would be ok. Its heartbreaking, but believe me when I say, it does get easier. You cry a little less each day. But you never forget. I still have alot of anger that he was taken from us, i still talk to him and ask for his advice, the pain never goes away, you just learn to live with it. Sending you massive hugs! ❤️

  • @beckyyyvb
    @beckyyyvb 4 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    You are one brave beautiful woman. You have stayed so strong throughout this whole process. Mama raised a strong woman and you and Katie are part of her legacy. May she rest in perfect peace ❤️

  • @TheLaurenm91
    @TheLaurenm91 4 ปีที่แล้ว +35

    You told this heartbreaking story in such a beautiful way. I can’t imagine how hard this has been for you and Katie to go through. I am in bits x

  • @AmyAnneBla
    @AmyAnneBla 4 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Darling Elle - you are one of the classiest, most eloquent and genuine women on TH-cam. I don’t buy into the whole ‘influencer’ thing and you most certainly don’t fit into that box. This video is singlehandedly one of the most brave and selfless things anybody has ever put on this platform. You beautiful, beautiful soul. I am so very sorry for your loss and I really hope grief shows you a little kindness as time moves on. This video will have helped people more than you even realise xx

  • @maevee3846
    @maevee3846 4 ปีที่แล้ว +93

    I'm 18 years old, my mum has been recently diagnosed with a rare secondary occurance of a tumour. I think I need a bit of help.

    • @rachisabella
      @rachisabella 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      eve I’m so sorry, I’m sending you and your mum so much love 💞

    • @selgjb5072
      @selgjb5072 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      I’m so sorry❤️

    • @lexiebelle5805
      @lexiebelle5805 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      eve she’ll be absolutely fine!! sending love her way!! xxx

    • @kristyllouise28
      @kristyllouise28 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Reach out ❤️ your mum is a strong women xxx

    • @Chelsea1234101
      @Chelsea1234101 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I'm so sorry to hear this, much love to you and your family 💜xxx

  • @roshnierose6537
    @roshnierose6537 4 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    Ele you are such a strong person and think I speak for everyone when I say we are so proud of you ❤️

  • @abbystreets1935
    @abbystreets1935 4 ปีที่แล้ว +73

    You’re actually so brave Ellie I couldn’t imagine the pain and every emotion really what you’re going through right now. 🥰

    • @za88y
      @za88y 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Abby Streets yea she is brave for making money on her mother’s death 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

    • @elliemay1967
      @elliemay1967 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      baba BZNZ what she’s done is incredibly brave of her, she’s sharing with her audience her story in losing her mother which can help so many people going through the same thing. Have some respect man

    • @naomi.105
      @naomi.105 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@za88y there’s someone wrong with you, please seek help

  • @AT-nz4vs
    @AT-nz4vs 4 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    I'm crying before El even speaks a word, the whole vibe of the video, emotional ♥️
    Lots of love Elle💕🌷

  • @jansqu
    @jansqu 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    I lost my mother, my best friend to spreaded ovary cancer when she was only 46... I was 18 when se slept away.
    The saddest thing is that her death is so final.
    Sometimes I just feel like I want to die too, so I wouldnt have to live without her. I have to try to keep on living for my siblibgs, my little sister is just 10 years old and she leans towards me.
    Moms death has also changed dad, sometimes I am scared of him if he might yell, I think that is why my sister leans to me instead of him.
    It is really hard to live cause mum was the glue to our whole family...
    She wasn’t just a mom. She was my best friend, literally. Someone who always listened, always made me feel safe and loved.
    Without her love life just feels empty.

    • @BekaBelle
      @BekaBelle 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Relate to this so much,she was my best friend!

    • @jansqu
      @jansqu 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@BekaBelle ❤️❤️

    • @Randomgirl866
      @Randomgirl866 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      This breaks my heart. I feel beyond sorry for you💔.I know I am not in the position to say that because I luckily can’t relate to you but it will get better and you will come to a point where you will truly love life again. Don’t give up. She will always watch over you and your family.

  • @annabellyth6625
    @annabellyth6625 4 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    My mum died of a brain tumour when I was 4 and I’m still looking for closure❤️ thank you for making this amongst the pain❤️

  • @brian-emo
    @brian-emo 4 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    This has helped so much. Its been 8 years since I lost my mother (who is also called Deborah Jane!) from MS when I was 10. Wishing you and your family the world - you are so strong to be talking about this so openly.

  • @meganrose1489
    @meganrose1489 4 ปีที่แล้ว +40

    This was so difficult to watch😭I lost my dad to cancer when I was a child and last year my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. This video was really helpful tho and although I wouldn’t wish it on anyone it does help to see that other people have gone through similar situations. Thank you for being so brave and posting this ❤️

    • @user-hb5qh8qe3e
      @user-hb5qh8qe3e 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I'm so sorry for your dad's loss 💕 I'm sending my best wishes wishes to you and your mum. I hope your mum can battle cancer and please stay strong for her. Lots of love x

    • @meganrose1489
      @meganrose1489 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Ishrat Islam thankyou so much💞💞

    • @user-hb5qh8qe3e
      @user-hb5qh8qe3e 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meganrose1489 you're welcome ❤

  • @emilymccarthy3721
    @emilymccarthy3721 4 ปีที่แล้ว +74

    This poor girl still puts a smile on her face when she feels like the whole world has fallen onto her. This proves how strong she is. I’m so proud. So sad anyone has to go through this xxxx

  • @lesleyjones999
    @lesleyjones999 4 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Elle you did this video with such poise and grace my heart goes out to you. Your such a beautiful person inside and out take care xx

  • @emerald637
    @emerald637 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Dear Elle,
    I am so sorry for your great loss. My prayers are with you and your sister Katie. I am a cancer survivor myself (Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, stage-4, at 25-years-old), and I truly appreciate your story more than I can say.
    Did you journal during, not only your mother’s journey, but especially, your journey as a daughter, sister, and caretaker? If so, it would be so helpful in perhaps writing a book, which would help so many in your position.
    My personal experience as a cancer patient, was one thing, then when my older sister, younger half-sister, and father, were all diagnosed with different types of cancer, I was suddenly experiencing the other side of the cancer experience, where I felt even more helpless than I did to personally undergo cancer, and all that it entails, myself.
    I have now lost both of my parents, as well as my beloved brother, just months after losing my father. I know the anguishing depths of pain and grief which goes far beyond word description, yet, I also know that there is a Living God of great comfort. He is the Prince of peace, whose name is Jesus.
    Psalm 73:26
    “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
    Joshua 1:9
    “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
    We will never forget those we lost. We will always cherish the gift of their lives, and the time we were blessed to have with them on earth. Personally, I believe I will see my loved ones again in heaven.
    Revelation 21:4
    "He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

  • @skinbymadss403
    @skinbymadss403 4 ปีที่แล้ว +130

    I lost my Auntie 6 days ago to an 8 year battle of cancer. She had it in three areas then got rid of it all and then it hit harder, she was given two years to live in 2015 but got through another 5 years from then. She was due to stay at her dads on morphine on monday just to keep her comfortable but sadly as they were getting her ready to leave hospital she passed. i’ve been following this story not only because i watch your normal videos but because i knew the time was coming for my auntie too.. your whole aspect and way of getting through it has really helped me do the same. thank you❤️

    • @erinxo6870
      @erinxo6870 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Madi Faye I’m sorry for your loss , stay strong 💓💓

    • @Dz-nn9gt
      @Dz-nn9gt 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      lol

    • @skinbymadss403
      @skinbymadss403 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Erinxo thank you❤️

    • @skinbymadss403
      @skinbymadss403 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      D1 err? you ok?

    • @erinxo6870
      @erinxo6870 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      D1 what is wrong with you ??

  • @NaomiVictorias
    @NaomiVictorias 4 ปีที่แล้ว +112

    I've currently got someone very close to me and who I see everyday, battle with cancer and I spent almost my entire christmas and new year period this year in and out of hospital when she was having her chemotherapy and radiotherapy treatments. I never shared any of that online and it was a real personal struggle, i really get the *need* to find somebody to relate to. It's so incredible scary seeing how fast a person can deteriorate and how quickly cancer can take hold.
    This video was incredible, youre so gracious and you've done your mum so so proud 💕🙏🦋

    • @erinxo6870
      @erinxo6870 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Naomi Victoria stay strong 💓💓

    • @ashleyez2022
      @ashleyez2022 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      My nan who is one of the most important people in my life has a few weeks left to live...we only found out she had cancer a few days ago, and i live 5 hours away. She really doesent want me to visit because of corona, she saidit would give her alot more to worry about

    • @AmySarahx
      @AmySarahx 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Naomi, I am so so sorry to hear you are going through this. I have watched your videos for a while and just wanted to say I will keep you in my thoughts. Sending you loads of love ❤️ Always here if you need someone to chat to xx

  • @beccibrennan934
    @beccibrennan934 4 ปีที่แล้ว +35

    Elle you are such a strong person 💛 you’re being so brave, honest and raw telling us all your story of losing your mum 🥺 I lost my grandmother in January 2019 very suddenly and I miss her with all my heart every single day! She always treated me like her very own daughter we were so close and I never imagined the day I’d have to live with out her 🥺 there were days when I thought I’d never be happy again but it’s strange how true it is that time really does help! you slowly learn to live with this new reality and hold on to the memory of them so dearly, looking forward to the day when we are hopefully reunited in our own time 💛 I truly believe we never fully lose the people we love, they are always with us throughout our lives just like your mum is with you every single day 💗 she’d be so proud of you, just as we are too!! ❤️ x

    • @lavickers2852
      @lavickers2852 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I would feel for her if she didn't monetize the video.. feels wrong to make money from this tragedy

    • @seannine
      @seannine 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@lavickers2852 Are you serious? You don't feel sympathy because she's simultaneously doing her job AND sharing her story? I take it you don't feel sorry for people who have to work while they're grieving either, no?

  • @laurawilliams6957
    @laurawilliams6957 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    My dad was diagnosed with a grade 4 brain tumour scattered all over his brain, so our journeys have been pretty similar from the point of grade 4 diagnosis. He passed away 18 months after diagnosis on 2nd January 2020 when I was 15, my sister was 12 and my brother was only 8. We “celebrated” his 45th birthday on the 25th of July. There are so many things I could say and agree with but this comment would be too long. All I can say is that I am so so glad that I came across this video ❤️❤️ thank you so so so so so much for sharing xxxx

  • @yourprincesslaya
    @yourprincesslaya 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I lost my mom when I was 26. She passed away after 28 months of a courageous battle with Ovarian Cancer. To lose a mother is something that you know will happen someday , but to lose them too early feels like some type of punishment. It has taken me almost 10 years to get to where I am today , and to all of you in the comments just starting this journey or to you Elle I send all my love and my heart and prayers. It is so important to know you are not alone and that everything you feel is normal and you need to feel it. Bridget Ann Charlton was my mother , the most beautiful and special woman. The softest hands, the most beautiful smile and my favourite laugh in the world. She was the person I would talk to for hours and she was always there when I needed her. Happy mother's day to all of those who's mothers are in heaven , hoping they are all there with nothing but goodness around them. Elle you are so special for sharing with everyone and your mother would be so proud of you.

    • @eastafricanprinny
      @eastafricanprinny 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hi I came across this as I am 26 now and mum has terminal ovarian cancer I also lost my dad last year to same illness..it’s a difficult and lonely journey and you really don’t want to hear anything from anyone unless they’ve gone through the same thing...but know there is beauty in human strength and learning to move on and adapt. I’m a completely different person with a different outlook on life now. Btw you are brave and amazing💜

  • @aliceecoombes_
    @aliceecoombes_ 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I lost my mum 7 years ago (age 15) and this video was extremely difficult to watch as it was so relatable. You're so brave Elle ❤️ it's nice reading the comments and knowing we're not alone. Thank you xx

  • @amymorgan3736
    @amymorgan3736 4 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    Oh Elle. I know everyone is telling you you’re so brave but my admiration for you is sky high. You truly are an incredibly brave amazing woman. Crying and sharing your vulnerability doesn’t make you any less brave but the way you respected your mums choices throughout her story and the dignity and love you carried on with is truly brave and so strong. My heart broke watching this for you, I’m sorry you had to go through it. I’m sorry anyone has too. Out of a truly heart breaking story you’ve still found some light sharing your story and helping so many people who are going through something similar. Your mum must be incredibly proud of you and your sister. You are inspiring to us all. Love you Elle

  • @katielord9738
    @katielord9738 4 ปีที่แล้ว +85

    I think I speak for everyone when I say I’m so proud of you 💕🙌

  • @Alice738
    @Alice738 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I lost my mum last year in March at the age of 54 due to multiple tumour cancer- she fell ill on a Monday night, and rapidly deteriorated then died on the Saturday. It all happened so quickly. It will always stick with you (I still occasionally have nightmare now that she's in the hospital and I have to bring a cure to her but I get stuck and don't make it in time) . It does get easier with time, you learn to discuss the good memories with happiness and not sadness. Myself and my younger sister can reminisce now about our family memories without tears. The first Christmas without her was tough but we kept up our usual family traditions. It'll be tough without her with the big milestones such as marriage, having kids etc. There are a lot of people out there who lost parents prematurely, we all get through it one way or another

  • @vickylawrence7693
    @vickylawrence7693 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    My mum was called Debra Jane as well💙I lost my mum when I was 19. Nearly 4 years ago, the pain hasn't decreased at all it's just the way I cope and go throughout my life that somehow heightens. My mums passing was short and traumatic but it still doesn't prepare you for the loss of your best friend. Thankyou for this story Ellie, and for being real and open about it. May God bless you and your family to be💖❣

  • @katiex8473
    @katiex8473 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Sending Elle and anyone who has lost a loved one a massive cuddle! Life can seem so cruel but it is also so beautiful for letting us share it with the ones we love. Sending love and strength!💓

  • @holliex664
    @holliex664 4 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    What a kind soul you always think of others even in times like this! You’re incredible Elle 💕

  • @kenideeleanne2327
    @kenideeleanne2327 4 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Elle Darby we love you, you strong admirable woman. I truly believe she waited to have one last Mother's Day with you before passing on. You will forever treasure that last conversation with her. 🤍

  • @carolinewike5340
    @carolinewike5340 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    When my mum was diagnosed with cancer last february i felt like my world had ended. This video has helped me massively. So thankyou. 💔❤️

    • @christan6994
      @christan6994 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I share your pain. Stay strong coz your mom wants you to move on and live your life to the fullest. Remember you are not alone. I lost my mom to cancer too.

  • @AmySarahx
    @AmySarahx 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    No words could possibly do yours and yours mums strength, bravery and courage any justice. You are both incredibly beautiful souls. I hope that one day you can look at yourself through the eyes of your mum and see what a truly beautiful reflection of her you are ❤️Xxxx

  • @anyanicholas2704
    @anyanicholas2704 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    i have a stronger relationship with my stepmom rather than my mum. my stepmom has an extremely rare condition with only 6 people in the world have. She’s trying to live her life but it is slowly getting worse. i will never forget the time when she had a seizure infront of me. one minute she was showing me the shopping the next minute i was shouting my dad to call an ambulance. i’m taking every time i spend with her the best i can make it because i never know when that last time is going to be. be strong lovely, she’s looking over you and she’s very proud of you 💓xx

  • @jadeashworth6298
    @jadeashworth6298 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    I lost my mum at the ages off 17 , 7 years ago she was my best friend and she had it in a few areas and then traveled to her brain. I watched her take her last breathe and Ino exactly what your going through.. the pain never goes but you live your life go deal with it.😢 stay strong Ino how hard it is.❤️xxxxxxx

  • @sophiejames2759
    @sophiejames2759 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    This was so inspiring to watch. I lost my grandad to cancer, he was a huge part of my life and watching him pass was the hardest thing ever so watching you tell your story was so brave! Sending the biggest virtual hug your way ❤️

  • @poppyrose7969
    @poppyrose7969 4 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    I lost my mum when I was 12, i'm now 16 and I still miss her more and more each day! when my mum passed away I needed a video like this so I knew I wasn't alone, so this really helped! thank you and I hope you're okay xx

    • @christan6994
      @christan6994 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      So sorry for your loss. I lost my mom about one n half yrs ago.. I m still struggling and crying every other night. I m still struggling to find a way to cope with this pain n looking for answers how to live without my mom.

    • @poppyrose7969
      @poppyrose7969 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Chris Tan hi, I’m so sorry also for your loss, you’ll never be over the death of someone special, but just keep doing you! When you ever get upset just think about how happy and proud she is of you, and everything you do, do it even better just for your mum!

    • @christan6994
      @christan6994 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@poppyrose7969 hi poppy thanks for the comforting words. Can I ask you how you fight this pain of losing your mom at such a young age. How long has this been for you till today? You are so strong and I pray your mom will always protect you from above. Till this day some nights I will burst into tears. Nothing can be more painful for me than losing a mother. Stay strong Poppy Rose. And thanks for sharing.. Truly appreciate

    • @poppyrose7969
      @poppyrose7969 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Chris Tan thank you and I hope you are okay! I’m sure your mum is so unbelievably proud of you! It has been 4 years since my mother passed x

    • @christan6994
      @christan6994 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@poppyrose7969hi.. Please be strong! I know your mom loves you very much and she will protect you wherever you are.

  • @librasax7369
    @librasax7369 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    It’s hard to have any sympathy when you have slagged off ethnic minorities for simply existing. I’m glad Gleam dropped you. JUSTICE.

  • @charleneshearsby6365
    @charleneshearsby6365 4 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    I lost my dad last year and the pain I felt that day I never thought I’d ever feel heartache that much.
    He will always be in my heart and my thoughts all the time.
    My mum passed away with cancer 12 years ago so both my parent are my angels 👼

    • @erinxo6870
      @erinxo6870 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Charlene Shearsby I’m so sorry for your loss , they must both be so proud of you and will always be watching over you 💓

    • @jennyr5642
      @jennyr5642 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 so sorry sweetheart

  • @Han-ww6ls
    @Han-ww6ls 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Elle, you should be so proud of yourself. I'm really lucky that I've gotten to 25 and have never had to deal with the loss of someone close to me (touch wood) but I hope that when the time comes I will be able to carry myself the way you have. I know your mum will be so proud of you. I hope Katy is doing as well as she can possibly be at this time. I'm thinking of you both xx

  • @Mc1988-p1i
    @Mc1988-p1i 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Just when we thought we couldn’t love Elle anymore than we did.
    I needed this. My dad passed away 5 years ago and I’ve always struggled with the fact I didn’t ‘grieve’ and just seemed to move on so easily afterwards. Hearing this, I really feel like I did my grieving whilst he was still alive and once he had passed, it was more a relief, I can finally stop beating myself up for feeling that way. This video will reach out and touch so many people and honestly, through the last 5 years this is the only time I feel like someone actually gets it! Well done Elle, you’ve been amazing throughout this journey! We’re all here for you!

  • @loveminioms5196
    @loveminioms5196 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I seriously cried when she start talking about her last convo with her mom . Elle your such s strong girl seriously I never thought from all those amazing videos you have posted on your channel that you was going thru such a difficult time . You always tried to put a smile on your face seriously I haven’t seen such a strong girl . Love you and stay strong ❤️🥺

  • @abbeymckenna7350
    @abbeymckenna7350 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I am so glad I found this... My mum passed away due to cancer 2 weeks ago (I'm 25) and can relate to so much of this 💕💕 thank you so much xx

  • @carasimpson-hayter2469
    @carasimpson-hayter2469 4 ปีที่แล้ว +85

    Elle you are honestly so strong ❤️ I lost my dad last July due to a long fighting battle with depression and it honestly broke me and I lost myself completely! I know everybody says this, but it will get better I have just accepted that he has gone, and it takes time. Your have your good days and your bad days. And the firsts are honestly the worst but it does get better. It’s so important to talk. You have honestly gone through such a journey and you make all us angels so proud of you ❤️ lots of love xx

    • @natashaferran420
      @natashaferran420 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      sending all my love

    • @RosannevanEden
      @RosannevanEden 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Lots of love and strength to you 💓💓

    • @lucymorgan2320
      @lucymorgan2320 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      You are so incredibly brave. You should be so proud of yourself❤️x

  • @maiasmith8749
    @maiasmith8749 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Each and every one of you in the comments who has lost someone I’m sending all my love and bravery to you as I couldn’t even imagine going through something so horrendous but being so brave whilst doing it . You should all be proud of yourself and you Elle . We’re all here supporting , every step of the way ❤️❤️

    • @Karla21.
      @Karla21. 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      ❤️❤️

  • @Catherine95100
    @Catherine95100 4 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    Your mum was right, you were being so brave. Such a strong beautiful girl. You did everything you possibly could do to make your mum's last years what she wished for. You should be extremely proud of yourself for that for the rest of your life

  • @evelynbuckley5794
    @evelynbuckley5794 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Greif really is a life long thing, I lost my mum when I was 13 that was nearly 11 years ago now, yet I still cry and think about her all the time! Stay strong and just know your mum is always there even when you think she isn't 💕💕

    • @kjlandon9140
      @kjlandon9140 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I also lost my grandmother (who raised me) when i was 13. She was only 59, and this was in 2012.
      It’s such a hard age to loose someone tbh
      What made it worse is my great grandmother (her mom) lived 4 years after her, so we had each other but i think loosing a child is even worse
      I definitely think of her often and cry a lot to this day.
      I don’t get upset at holidays, it’s little things
      Like the summer before she died, we watched big brother. She would make us popcorn, soda even with how sick she was..
      And this year, the winner of that season came back.. i had a full on breakdown as i no longer watch the show, but an ad popped up and i hadn’t seen his face since we watched the show together and i sobbed for a while after
      It does get easier but it never fully goes away

  • @michaelac7853
    @michaelac7853 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    I lost my Mam to cancer last year she was 39 and I was 17, so thank you for this, you are an inspiration ❤️

    • @christan6994
      @christan6994 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Stay strong. She is always in your heart and protecting you from above.

    • @proudtobeageordie2926
      @proudtobeageordie2926 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hope your doing alright 💜

  • @alliinmyfeels
    @alliinmyfeels 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    i haven’t personally ever had to deal with loss, nor can i imagine what you’re going through. but, i can understand how this video can help others going through similar situations. im sending you and katie so much love and positivity. you’re incredibly strong and never ever alone 🤍

  • @chloewithall9859
    @chloewithall9859 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Elle you’re amazing. You should be so proud of yourself! ❤️

  • @lilysmith8122
    @lilysmith8122 4 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Elle we love you sooooo much (an unbelievable amount ) we will support always and we hope you take your time with recovering from loss 💓 🕊

  • @floofy7194
    @floofy7194 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Sorry for your loss...it's true grief stays with you forever. I lost my dad when I was 12..it doesn't just go away after a short period of time. I still have periods of crying even after nearly 25 years
    I think about him most days. He wasn't here at my wedding, grandkids and seeing them growing up..etc it's hard
    Thinking of you... don't you feel any guilt she'll always be there in your memories

  • @Amelia-ir2no
    @Amelia-ir2no 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I can’t believe people are disliking this video... This is the saddest video I’ve ever watched I am in tears! Elle has the biggest heart and her mum will be so proud of her! I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this was to deal with, the loss and the build up, being told she has this long left but then she makes it past it, how scary that must feel. We’re all sending love to you and your family💞 (p.s she’s still looking absolutely beautiful)

  • @katelynpoyner2815
    @katelynpoyner2815 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I’ve never felt like I’m having a one - to - one chat with a TH-camr more than I did through this video 💕
    I lost both of my grandads to cancer in the space of 5 months . One died very suddenly in one day and no one saw it coming and my other one went through it very slowly until he was in a hospice and I was there when he took his last breath 💕

  • @gracewhitaker633
    @gracewhitaker633 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Wow elle i cannot belive how strong u are and how well you are dealing with this, love you❤️🥺❤️xxx

  • @Lambbd5rb
    @Lambbd5rb 4 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    I honestly lost it at hello angels 😭

  • @marzenapolishmum6444
    @marzenapolishmum6444 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    I've watched this video when you've uploaded it and now I am going through the same thing. My mum passed away this morning and I still can't belive it and don't think I want to. It feels like I just face time her telling her to look after herself and that I love her so much and now she's gone. Myself and my family we all are in shocked, it was so unexpected. She didn't feel well for the past week, just muscles aches, headache than a little bit temperature and lack of appetite. She got covid test done and came back positive. And yesterday when we spoke in the morning she was so restless and couldn't speak much so I said to go sleep and message me later when you want to talk but she didn't so I rang again in the evening to check on her and she was better, said that her appetite is coming back so I said to take it easy because she didn't eat much for the past week and than we finished. In the morning my sister told me that my mum is gone. I probably won't be able to say goodbye because I live in UK and my mum in Poland. My mum is my best friend I face time her almost everyday and I miss her already so much 😭 cant believe going through my life without her, every problem, every question I had she was an answer for everything and I am so lost without her x

    • @rileykinder1381
      @rileykinder1381 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Sending you all the strength, love and healing energy 💛

  • @charliebees7742
    @charliebees7742 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    It’s been three months since I lost my mum, this is what I need right now. Thankyou xx

  • @fernskinner7546
    @fernskinner7546 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I lost my nan years ago it felt like i lost evreything she fighting for four years and that was the hardest things i was young and scared ... the scariest thing about my beautiful nan pssing is that stilk till this day talking about the memories ect i just cry and its so upsetting how i cant stay strong ... i just want to say that you amazing and i dont know how u copped The part of griveing was the worst prt of my nans death 😰so well your so brave your amazing ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @JuneStay
    @JuneStay 4 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    I lost my mum too and I know it would have really helped to have had a video like this at the time. I also would search through the internet things like ‘mum has brain tumour, advice or experience’. This will help so many people! Thank you for being so brave! I’m sure your mum is so proud! 🙏🏽🙋🏽💖🌈 ✨ Xxx

  • @milliemullen6595
    @milliemullen6595 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Only 30s in and I already feel like I’m going to tear up 🥺 I can’t even begin to imagine how you have found the strength within you to do this right now, I can see in your eyes the pure pain you are feeling and how vulnerable you letting yourself be💔 thank you for helping so many people by putting your pain out there & showing people it’s okay not to be okay. I love you angel 😇❤️

  • @lauren189
    @lauren189 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    This video means the world to me I lost my mum 3 years ago now from Liver disease and I’ve never related so much to how someone felt thank you Elle❤

  • @marilynwisbey9446
    @marilynwisbey9446 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    “ No rules for grieving “ none at all. Plus any illness and lost is just the same when loosing a loved one!

  • @lisacooper272
    @lisacooper272 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Aw Elle.... all my love and thoughts are with you and your family at this tough time. I lost my mum to cancer to and can relate so much, loss like this only make you stronger ❤❤ xx

  • @josefineoijer
    @josefineoijer 4 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Elle you are an incredible woman ❤️ we love you Elle ❤️

  • @drilonalazaj2593
    @drilonalazaj2593 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I couldn’t stop crying. You’re amazing and brave . I had to go through the same feeling when my mum died on 25 December. It was like I lost everything . You have to be strong for your sister and your boyfriend. Everyone is there for you beautiful. Your mum is always with you . She will protect and love you and your sister forever ❤️❤️🥺

  • @BlawnDer
    @BlawnDer 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Watching this for the first time. My Mom has brain cancer. (Glioblastoma) 💔

  • @vanessadavidson2018
    @vanessadavidson2018 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I lost my mom in 2015. It’s 5 years this years in July. She died 6 days before her 55th birthday. I totally relate to everything you have said Elle. My mom died of cervical cancer. Virtual hugs coming your way lovely. I’m so glad I have my fiancé. He’s my rock. Keep strong Elle. Your mom is always with you x

  • @summermccall6643
    @summermccall6643 4 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    i love that connor is so good with you and i’m so happy you have such a good support system around you. You are strong and incredible to be doing this. We are all proud of you & katie xxx

  • @aislinnkaye4860
    @aislinnkaye4860 4 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    sending so much love and strength to you and katie. we all love you so much.

  • @amihumphreys194
    @amihumphreys194 4 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    You’re such an inspiration, both you and Katie. You’ve dealt with this incredibly and I honestly don’t know how you’ve done it. You have such good support from Connor, from the angels. Your mum will be so proud and she’ll be on her favourite beach looking down and beaming with pride ❤️

  • @bethanyridley6806
    @bethanyridley6806 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    My thoughts are with you Elle. You are incredibly brave and strong. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Love to you and your family ❤🥰

  • @charlotterichardson2385
    @charlotterichardson2385 4 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    I lost my mom 7weeks ago due to covid and I'm really struggling with her passing atm I've been put on anti depressents and anti anxiety tablets I just feel like I will never get over her loss

    • @emilymalcolm87
      @emilymalcolm87 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thinking of you lovely. No one should have to pass away from this. Take care ❤️❤️

    • @mariachurchill1369
      @mariachurchill1369 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I can promise you, you will get thru this horrible stage of grief, these early weeks are horrible, they make you feel like you won’t feel like you again, but you will, not 100% how can you ever feel 100% after losing your mum, but you’ll be able to breath again, without the suffocating feeling of grief. You will never get over her dying, you will learn to accept it. How many years this will take , no one can say. My mum died 7 months ago, I do know how you feel, you’re not alone, there are people you can talk too. Keep going. Xx

    • @laurawilliams6957
      @laurawilliams6957 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I feel like nothing I can say will ever make it better, but my dad passed away this January and I have found that acceptance has been the best thing to help me. Not necessarily moving on or forgetting, but accepting that there is nothing you can do. This is a hard but a crucial part to grief ❤️❤️

    • @xxxshannonxxx13
      @xxxshannonxxx13 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I hope you’re feeling better ❤️ you can get through this

    • @nataliest91
      @nataliest91 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I lost my mum one week ago due to covid too... The feeling is unbearable.... I cannot accept it.. No. No....