Dark Night of the Soul: how bad does it have to get for you to let go? | Crystal Rapoza
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- A dark night of the soul manifests differently for everyone.
Learn what it is and how to get through it.
If you're in a dark night of your soul, you are not alone.
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Still in this. It’s been 3 years of loss after loss after loss.
I pray 🙏 to help me learn to surrender.
I don’t what to do ? It’s just feels different . I was so happy , don’t know where it’s going . I hope I find happiness again .
Absolutely brutal for me as well.. happily married with nice house, business,reputation, friends/family to absolutely none of that in a year
Happening to me now. Hope you better now.
@@theUmovement two years after that I lost my only two remaining family members 4 weeks apart leaving me a sole survivor. That was two years ago.... I'm good now but its weird as fuck not having one person on this planet that knows your story from start to finish
@@theUmovement just let it go... Lick your wounds then get excited because you have a clean slate. You will never be the same person. I moved 2000 miles away knowing no one and with 800 bucks to my name and rebuilt. Don't build back what you had.. there is a reason it was taken away.
@@troybonham9829 I am totally surrendered to whatever gods will is.
It’s just waiting and seeing what that is and how it plays out.
I'm so sorry! All the things that I've longed for, and haven't experienced Feeling the loss without ever having
The more darkness the more light. More pain, more love.
She can explain what I am going through. I could never find the words.
Seems like a time to find/become our authentic self.
I'm so happy I listened to you! I'm in it and the world is beyond upside down at the moment. But I get it. Surrender is the only way.
It's tough. But you are not alone! I'm glad I could help a little. Hang in there! ❤
Glad I was able to find this video. Many comforting similarities to my struggles (weed not being in my life anymore, feeling shame for eating meat but craving it, abandoning tarot cards) and this gave me a feeling of "this is happening FOR me, you will be fine".
Thank you ♡
This is wonderful! I'm so grateful to provide you with comfort. 🙏🏼 It's been quite a while since I made this video and I can assure you, things get so much better. ❤️
I could have written this comment! ❤
Great insight
Every word you said in this is what has been happening to me. I was guided to do Keto from being vegan which is the polar opposite. Unfortunately my housing situation is a bit iffy and cooking is hard so I had to have a break from it but I really want to get on it again.
Thank you so much my dear for sharing🙏🏼💜 Not my first dark night… so I do have some appreciation, awareness, and understanding. I have called it the Journey to becoming Butterfly for many years. But still I find that nothing helps like sharing the experience… as there is really nothing you can do but stand as still as possible and allow the transformation and metamorphosis 💜🦋 ow. Thank you again, I’m holding your hand as well😘🦋 I am understanding this is all going along with a greater dark night of the planet itself.🦋☀️
Exactly! Thanks for being there with me, my friend! :hugs:
This is by far the closest description of the Dark Night of The Soul that resonate with my experience. Thank you so much 🤍
Glad to help. I hope you're hanging in there okay. Sending love! ❤️
found this video today.. thank you so much 🥰
Sending hugs, my friend.
I've been going through something like this over the last 2 years. It's hard to surrender and let go. Im stuck in a comfort and familiar, safe but not fulfilling, zone.
I have had a strong desire to quit smoking weed for the last year. I realized that it's been a coping mechanism for the last 7 years. I started when I was 12. Its used to be fun, social, and regulated. Then 2017 happened. That was a tough year and I became a daily smoker.
Keeping my self in a low vibration and superficially happy, but it really creates more anxiety and hunger that spirals into poor eating habits, low self esteem, low enery, etc.
A few weeks ago i was journaling and asked myself, "How long does the spiritual journey/awaking have to take?"
My answer was, "until you start facing your truths."
Thank you so much for sharing all that. I totally understand the push-pull between the low vibes and just doing whatever you can to survive. 🫂
Awakening is a process its a life time journey not a destination there's no end.u will always have room to grow. Learn to enjoy to the journey and have patience. That was so hard for me. I wanted to get it over with and just feel better and I wanted that now. Once I learned losing everyone and everything was happening for me and I realized my life falling apart completely and being completely alone in the process was a HUGE DEAL and it was so obvious the universe was doing that to give a better life and make me stronger and aware of myself. I had n clue who I was,my.purpose, talents, desires, or my true identity and to get those things we all have to start from scratch. Feel the pains we blocked for yrs, the emotions, lose the shame and guilt others made us feel etc. I knew if I wasn't alone I could be.swayed and distracted from the lessons the universe was showing me. So I decided to trust source myself and the process and learn to stay present and soak up all the wisdom that I was learning and make sure I would acknowledge even the little things. I don't have job outside of the home so I can't be wasting money on stupid things.i don't have friends so I can't be distracted by peer pressure or others opinions. I finally realized the dark night was so necessary to lose old habits thought patterns hobbies Just about everything from the past to be able to start over a new better happier authentic person. U can't become someone new by using old ways. So learn to just embrace the dark night. It won't last forever. Nothing does. Some day I will have to enter the real world again. And when I do I want to be complete whole And healed from old traumas so I don't slip back into past thoughts or actions. Loss and the pain n confusion is actually a gift from the universe. I hope you can see how important u r for source/creator to want to help little ol you. Its so obvious when the dark nite sets in its supernatural! The more u embrace it and become aware of your thoughts actions and feelings the faster u will come out of it. Resisting is a waste of time and just makes it harder and longer. Let ur ego die.mourn for it. The let it go. I have no.clue who I am anymore. I had to let the.woman I was pretending to be based on thoughts and programs I learned til age 7 die.completely. it was so hard and scary for a while but the more I learned about it I was grateful.better to be authentic even its only alittle than live a lie. Take time with yourself alot of time. Question everything about yourself and ask is this my thought or my parents. Not much was mine. Thank God for the internet and we can learn from millions of others experiences. I can't imagine doing this alone and no access to story's of hope and inspiration wisdom and great advice. Thats another thing I focused on was learning from anyone and everyone else.using discernment of course.im makin up.for 14 yrs of wasted time in the education system learning useless b.s.and lies. Anyway sorry so much
I was was writing to myself also. Its good to remind yourself with writing becuz sometimes you get some advice and lessons that u write but u can't say u where u got those words from. Journaling releases trapped energies also. Good luck❤
I'm happy to find you. I can't be the person that changes the number of subscribers from 555 but I will subscribe soon.
İm 19 and having it again the second time it was at 11 beacuse of horrible life conditions i awakened and a lot of information come to me spiritually then due to survive i went to sleep again but now its so bad ive been suffering for 8 years and it did again 2 weeks ago and i fell one more time bc i got stuck in a truma. I was kinda lucky but lost a lot of oppurtinies in 2 years ive been walking around dead in my best years what should i do
Thank you for sharing that. Baking bread with different herbs? LOL glad you found your dog that’s so cool. People talk about letting go all the time. How do you know if you are letting go? Everything I say it all the time I surrender I am letting go of all attachments to this 3-D world. But yet I still have to be in it to Be able to pay my bills and drive a car and go to target! I just want to stay in my bed for days
Thanks for coming by and sharing!
I might do a video on this so I can be more clear, but letting go isn't so much about letting go of anything. It's more about being present and not so stuck on the future that you're always worried. It's more of a flow state.
Paying more attention to what's going on in your body -- how things feel on a physical level -- is a great start to feeling more present. And you can still go on Targer runs while doing it. 😉
Does that help?
Was it that or were you just afraid of thing you wanted to do?i think that there are two opposite ways.to kill your dreams and accept what is and what comes,or just love your ego and love your dreams and try a bit better for it.isnt or that?and as you go and dont progress with the things you pove you just accept ego death amd let go.but i dont think its rhe inly way.many people have found other ways.its up to you and what you are capable and willing to do with your life.and there are other many many things.everyone says about letting go.i sure accept a lot and loved life and myself.but i think that this is not the only thing
TO LET GO OF WANTING A HOME OR A FAMILY? TO LET GO OF WANTING DECENT HEALTH? ive decided to end my life, so i guess the soul can just start over.. I wont know about it.
Life is a gift. You can talk to anybody, somebody if you need to. How are you?
@@daleqtusabes7 It's a really weird struggle. I haven't had a nice life. That's a long story. But I've tried to exit and I keep ending up alive, yet my health is bad. I've learned a lot. So if you aren't doing what make YOU happy, it's like the soul will make you ill... but I live where ppl can apply for euthanasia. Things were not going my way. I applied 4 months ago. When the date was coming up, the soul started to realize I wasn't messing and a few doors opened up. But not much. Not to be rude but life has not felt like a gift. It's felt like blockages and hurdles without rewards, but instead more hardships. I can't walk very well. I've had an amputation, I've injured the other leg last year. 17 feet of my intestines removed last year. My family is a huge mess. I didn't know you're supposed to leave ppl who mistreat you.. But now; the place I'm moving to was available and so I cancled the euthanasia and then the place I'm moving to didn't do the basic repairs & they didn't let me move in. Isn't that crazy? As if my soul is trying to keep me alive and miserable? I'd just want the simple basic chances I see all around me. My parents were very abusive & unstable. Ppl say that but I'm talking tie you up and burn you; whips and 2x4's and chains etc..Make you run up and down stairs to eat your food. They were a real pair of jerks for kids. Things have not been going my way no matter how hard I put effort in. I wasnt choosing to do what was best for me tho. I've always thought I have to do good for others first. That's a real problem. It's being taught backwards----and believing in religion. I'm not sure what's going on but this has been a real difficult journey for me. It hurts pretty badly to walk at all.. I'm very annoyed. I was in a wheelchair b4 and I fought for a few years to get up and walk. And then to have the other leg get so damaged, the person love left me because hey, who wouldn't?.. I wasnt a good catch for her even tho I tried to be. But my financial situation wasn't good. I've worked hard tho. Health, family issues and lack of knowledge kept me down a long time. So now, I've stopped the euthanasia andbtried once again just to find it looks like the world is holding me off one more time, for an extra 30 days... Just to add some misery wherever possble. I've had enough misery. My life has not been a happy one. I'm not sure whybtheres always a dark cloud over everything I'm trying to do or want. But I'm willing to try again. It's just turned into another sad story over & over. Everytime you swim to the top the water levels just get deeper and overflow again. I wish I was able to just enjoy my life. I feel like whatever dues I owed, I've paid over and over again.
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Hello Crystal, i would like to shere my story. I want to know if what im going through its the dark night. I had a spiritual awakening and kundalini and i really felt one with the divine. It wasnt easy, cause i did a lot of changes in a very short amount of time because of feelings that came to the surface. One time the feelings that came to the surface was to hard for me to handle and freaked me out. Since than i feel like i regressed. Im in big depression, full of anxiety and negetive feelings and its like im so disconnect from my self that i dont know who im anymore. Thanks for your answer :)
It certainly sounds like a dark night. It's like you got a glimpse of awakening, but now you have to clear all the crud before "leveling up." It happens.
That said, I'd like to share something a friend said to me recently that made me feel better about my dark night:
"The world is awakening. And those of us who have gone through our dark night already will be there for those who must go through it in the future."
You are a warrior, my friend! Stay strong! ❤️
@@CrystalRapoza thanks alot this is so hard, but im strong :)
Buy the way. My heart chackra is blocked and because of it i feel like crap. How do i open her ?
A Reiki practitioner would be able to help more than I could, but, in my experience, the only way to truly heal a Chakra is to address the trauma that created the block in the first place. That is easier said than done, of course. So, start by being kind to yourself.
@DINXX8 how Is it now ?
I figured out all my weaknesses and I have a lot. I failed in everything in my life. I could have done better. I gave up on myself. Why is suicide considered the wrong way out?
It happens to the best of us. We try and try and things will not come right. It's time to let go and let it all just happen. I usually say out loud "oh do what you want to do" and surrender to where the flow goes. You'll come right. Love and a big hug.