From my personal vantage point, your podcasts are some of the most important videos on the internet. As you yourself noted, many people with Scorpio-prominent charts have been attracted towards your work, either by coincidence or nature, and I myself am an example (5-planet stellium, including the Moon). As unfortunate as it is to admit, there is a fundamental malaise and dissociation that I've had towards the world my entire life. But the orgasm........the orgasm was always there with me. Not as mere escapism, recreation, or a coping mechanism like for the majority of people; for me, the orgasm was *IT*, the orgasm was the Great Attractor of my personal cosmos. The first orgasm I experienced was at the age of 5, when I very intuitively figured out masturbation a few hours after feeling the warm grip and soft muscle of my pre-school teacher's body when she hugged me goodbye one evening (Ms. Jenny, I will love you always). Like a drug-addict, I've been chasing it ever since. And every addict hits rock-bottom....... As is natural for a Saturn Return (my 30th Sun Revolution is this October) a message has been sent via biological symptoms that the way I've been doing things is no longer tolerable. This entire time, I've been opting for the pouring, "petite mort" catharsis of the ejaculatory orgasm and finally, in the last two years, that constant release has taken its toll on my bones, muscles, hair, and even mental/emotional bandwidth. Emergency regeneration is needed so room can be made for a very, very long postponed transformation. Tantric Sexuality has been in my peripheral for quite a while but now it has come to the front of my attention. Subconsciously, I think I ignored it because it sounded too good to be true---multiple, perpetually rising and intensifying orgasms that are themselves the byproduct of sexual energy building and cycling through a man for omni-nourishment of the body, heart, and mind to the extent that it saturates the ambience of everyday waking life? A "grande vie" superior to the petite mort?? No way in hell, that can't be true. But I have read, studied, and listened and this indeed the function. Currently going through a 30-Day period of standard Semen Retention before I make the first step into possibly the most powerful transformation of my life. Hanyel, I don't know if there's a question anywhere in this comment, but I credit you as being part of my recent developments and your articulation of so many previous unknowns is more of a comfort than you may even be aware of. Here's to Eternity!
Thank you for your commentary and compliments. It is always good to hear. Wish you the best in your transformation. My advice is get a synthesis done prior, so you can understand your full story. Sexual energy is awareness connected to the source of creation itself. It must be given the most beautiful story possible.
Oh, absolutely! Getting some things in order now for a synthesis reading request. Can't wait. Also, I look forward to accessing the series on the Prime Signal.
From my personal vantage point, your podcasts are some of the most important videos on the internet.
As you yourself noted, many people with Scorpio-prominent charts have been attracted towards your work, either by coincidence or nature, and I myself am an example (5-planet stellium, including the Moon). As unfortunate as it is to admit, there is a fundamental malaise and dissociation that I've had towards the world my entire life. But the orgasm........the orgasm was always there with me. Not as mere escapism, recreation, or a coping mechanism like for the majority of people; for me, the orgasm was *IT*, the orgasm was the Great Attractor of my personal cosmos. The first orgasm I experienced was at the age of 5, when I very intuitively figured out masturbation a few hours after feeling the warm grip and soft muscle of my pre-school teacher's body when she hugged me goodbye one evening (Ms. Jenny, I will love you always). Like a drug-addict, I've been chasing it ever since.
And every addict hits rock-bottom.......
As is natural for a Saturn Return (my 30th Sun Revolution is this October) a message has been sent via biological symptoms that the way I've been doing things is no longer tolerable. This entire time, I've been opting for the pouring, "petite mort" catharsis of the ejaculatory orgasm and finally, in the last two years, that constant release has taken its toll on my bones, muscles, hair, and even mental/emotional bandwidth. Emergency regeneration is needed so room can be made for a very, very long postponed transformation.
Tantric Sexuality has been in my peripheral for quite a while but now it has come to the front of my attention. Subconsciously, I think I ignored it because it sounded too good to be true---multiple, perpetually rising and intensifying orgasms that are themselves the byproduct of sexual energy building and cycling through a man for omni-nourishment of the body, heart, and mind to the extent that it saturates the ambience of everyday waking life? A "grande vie" superior to the petite mort?? No way in hell, that can't be true. But I have read, studied, and listened and this indeed the function. Currently going through a 30-Day period of standard Semen Retention before I make the first step into possibly the most powerful transformation of my life.
Hanyel, I don't know if there's a question anywhere in this comment, but I credit you as being part of my recent developments and your articulation of so many previous unknowns is more of a comfort than you may even be aware of.
Here's to Eternity!
Thank you for your commentary and compliments. It is always good to hear. Wish you the best in your transformation. My advice is get a synthesis done prior, so you can understand your full story. Sexual energy is awareness connected to the source of creation itself. It must be given the most beautiful story possible.
Oh, absolutely! Getting some things in order now for a synthesis reading request. Can't wait.
Also, I look forward to accessing the series on the Prime Signal.