"I'm allowed to show up imperfectly...tired, sleepy, anxious, non-talkative, around everyone in my life and still be loved, fully seen and accepted" This. I really felt this. Something I definitely need to remember
I definitely resonate with not wanting to speak all the time when around people. Being an introvert in a world that praises being an extrovert can be difficult because people constantly comment on you not talking but I don't feel the need to speak every moment. I process so much in my head and I want to be intentional when I speak and process my thoughts before I say something and not just speak for the sake of it
I feel like this with new people too, but my friends respect my space and they like the silence too. So I think it's all about communication and the right people
It's definitely rough, I get calls from friends sometimes and I just have to decline it because I just am not up to talking a lot of the time. I like being alone and that' so hard for people to understand.
Finding out that you don’t drink or smoke has been so calming to me. Being in college it’s so hard to find people who don’t do those things (not that I’m shaming anyone who does), but there’s a kind of embarrassment that goes along with being the only one not smoking in a group. Thank you for helping me realize that there is no shame in my choice. I know this is off topic but I wanted to thank you for being so open about your journey and your choices. Sending love.
It's not embrassing to avoid drinking and smoking, things that are harmful to your body! If anyone you know thinks it is, don't take them seriously at all. Ignore them.
If these people seem to shame you trust me it’s because they don’t want to admit that you are stronger than them and it makes them angry. I’m so proud of you :-)
I used to smoke and drink all the time in college and I’ve had major health issues because of that this year so you’re definitely making a good choice 💛 I hope you can find peers that are like minded
I just wanted to let you know that you changed my life and I will forever be grateful for that. You have made me truly want to love myself the deepest way possible, made me want to get to know myself sexually, spiritually and on every level that is possible. Please, never stop sharing your words of wisdom. I love, love, love you and your beautiful light of warmth and love. 🦋🙏🏽
Yesss. I can relate. She has done the same for me too. I love hitomi & ill always deeply be grateful i found her in the times i did. She has help me grow tremendously & just been able to speak to parts of myself that i felt so ashamed about & felt like i was never going to be seen for. So yeah the biggest grateful thanks to Hitomi❤. For being able to reach us all in the way she has❤. Much love.. Always.
wow I resonated with this so so much. I often feel like I need to work on 'talking more' in social settings when in reality, I'm not feeling awkward, I'm just a huge observer and I feel calm and at peace not speaking sometimes, which sometimes I feel my more extroverted friends don't understand, they'll ask me whats wrong hahaha. trying to honour that too but speak up when I do feel I have something to say, because sometimes I also don't honour my voice. thank you for this
“I am allowed to show up imperfectly; I’m allowed to show up tired, sleepy, anxious, and non-talkative around everyone in my life - and still be loved. And still be worthy. And be fully seen and accepted.” You don’t know how much I needed this. I suffer from crippling social anxiety but I smile through it and I bet some would even consider me as being rather extroverted from the outside... thank you for these words of wisdom. It’s okay if I’m anxious. It’s okay if I seem a little uncomfortable. It’s okay if I speak a little to quickly. It’s okay. I am worthy of being loved for who I AM, on my JOURNEY. I love you Hitomi, I feel you, I see you. Thank you for shining your light. ❤️
All too often our so called strenght comes from fear and not love; instead of having a strong back, many of us have a defended front shielding a weak spine. In other words, we walk around brittle and defensive, trying to conceal our lack of confidence. If we strenghten our backs, metaphorically speaking, and develop a spine thats flexible but sturdy, then we can risk having a front that soft and open, representing choiceless compassion. The place in your body where these two meet - strong back and soft front - is the brave, tender ground in which to root our caring deeply💚love u hitomi, youve changed me
I was literally planning on getting up at 5 a.m. tomorrow, now I'm even more motivated. Thank you for your beautiful videos and just for posting them on this plattform. Wish you all a wonderful day or a wonderful night♡
My personal advice for anyone that struggles with obsessive toughts or not being able to let the tought go, causing yourself anxiety or even panic attacks. When I acknowledge that I am thinking about something that distresses me, I refocus my mental energy on something peculiar that I enjoy. For example, I imagine to the smallest details outfit I would like to buy or want to wear. Sweater, how buttons look like, is the material fluffy, how does it fall over my shirt, what hairstyle I would wear with that, what products I need to get my make up done, etc. Hyper focussing on things that bring me joy like fashion or self care, eases my mind at those anxious moments instantly.
I sing to my bed every morning and night “ you’re just like heaven to touch, I love you so much” lol “ it’s too good to be true, can’t keep my eyes off of you” Sending love your way Hitomi 🌸🌸
thank you for being transparent and so honest about vulnerability! sometimes i look up to people on the internet thinking they have perfect lives or that they've reached a level where everything's always good, and its so nice to see someone so inspiring as you talking abt being vulnerable and self doubting, it really makes me feel like im not alone 🧡
Feeling that hardness in your breath and heart is so real, I am learning to let love in and out of me as a daily practice small gestures with beings I come in contact with.
in the beginning you were talking about how you get sleepy and take a nap when you wake up at 5 am and me too.. but on tiktok i learned that humans are actually segmented sleepers. so instead of getting 8 hours of sleep in one night, we should get 8 hours of sleep split up in 2 sleep sessions, if that makes sense, i feel like we get sleepy because we are Supposed to be sleeping twice. i want to start doing this but haven't done it yet idk lol i just thought i would share that with you because it's interesting and maybe it could help you if you switched up the routine bc i also have trouble with staying awake when i wake up at 5 am
I heard about this before too but I'm actually not sure if it's the most healthy way. I think this kind of sleeping habits lay way back in the past and we changed a lot and learned a lot. We actually need so many hours of sleep in one session because our brain needs to reset and this sounds kinda strange but our brains wash themselves at night. The fluids in our brains get refreshed and it takes quite a time to happen and it's extremly important to prevent stuff like Alzheimers. Just wanted to let You know!
@@johannabo2258 yes, I'm glad someone shared this info. Not everything we see on tiktok is trustworthy. I hope people stay safe from things that can be harmful (not that this particularly will). Sleep is important and doctors have researched for a long time for a reason, the people who have calimed we should sleep less or in crazy divided intervals are not professionals. I do question what they say. Stay safe everyone
@@johannabo2258 lol you must have never heard of the genius Nikola Tesla was and how he only got 4 hours of sleep a day he died at age 86 smarter and wiser than most men now a days. Mind over matter sweetheart remember that.
Thank you for this. I resonate with your talk about showing up as yourself so much, especially right now. I just started a new job and it's so hard for me to just relax and be me. I try to show up perky, fun and talkative to get others around me to enjoy my company when I am actually really introverted and would rather keep to myself and get the job done, by the end of my shift I am always completely drained. The other day a few of my co-workers said they had been really missing me in the shifts I use to work with them, even though I didn't always talk too often, so that made me feel really good. :) Thank you for the reminder it is okay to show up as my authentic self, I really needed that.
Hands down my favorite channel. I always feel safe here. I feel at home. I feel understood and I am so grateful for you and all the work you put into these videos you share
Thank you for speaking about choosing and honouring your silence. I'm not that talkative, especially around people that I don't know that well, and I really need my alone time to reboot. I tend to overanalyze the things I'm saying as well witch can be quite exhausting (especially if I'm not feeling safe to express myself). But I'm learning to love and honour that quiet part of myself more and more. If I want to speak, I speak. If I don't, I won't. And both ends are ok. I want my words to be intentional and un-forced.
I relate so much with feeling such deep sadness and heaviness when you're on your period I always feel that way too but I'm learning to accept it and realize that it's only temporary and we can shift our thought patterns
when you said you are too socially aware and that you wanna say something but know it will come across as deep and poetic i FELT that. when im with people and even my partner theres SO much i wanna say about something but just keep my mouth shut or only say the gist of it in fear of sounding "too much" and always having anxiety about it lol. me and hitomi would be best friends ugh i wish i knew her 🥺
You make me feel like I can be my best self. I’ve been on a journey to a natural and holistic lifestyle but you and your videos have kickstarted it and keep me motivated. I also struggle with many mental health issues and life ending thoughts and I always think they’ll never end when they start, but hearing you’re story and how there is hope to not have those thoughts, brings me so much hope and happiness. I don’t know if you’ll see this, but thank you for the many ways you have helped me grow!❤️🌸
Hitomi you trigger so much positive things into my life. Whenever i hear you i also write about what you are saying and how it resonates with my experience and then i maybe stop and thank the people in my life and boom a beautiful exchange happens because of watching you and stoping to think about how blessed we usually are and not realize as often maybe. Idk i just wanted to thank you for triggering so much good into my life by being you. Sending you all my love from Argentina😘😘
I really resonated with your thoughts surrounding stating boundaries + feeling guilty about them afterwards, it's definitely hard to be vocal about what you need when you're also an empath and worry about how others will take things. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, very inspiring, resetting, + uplifting!
Thank you Hitomi for the raw vulnerability. You give me a space to forgive myself and accept me as fully as I come growing pains and all. It’s a process and loving women like you keep pushing me to accept the process and keep an open heart through any difficulties. Thank you for sharing your light 💡
I'm not sure if you've heard of it, there's a condition called premenstrual dysphoric disorder and the feelings you've described around your period is the main symptom. it might be worth looking into if you're interested :)
Yes, I have PMDD, and I could relate a lot with Hitomi as they described their experience. That stuff is real. PS: I like your username. I'm currently sitting by my window, and the winter sun is gently melting away the snow that was falling in the garden for the last 4 days. :)
I have that big time. I just realized I had that now that I’m 26 after a few years of seriously irregular periods and now that I’m regular, hello mental instability 🙃🙃🙃
@@melliexcx Hi Melissa, I used they because I don't want to assume gender identities and (grammatically at least) they is used in instances when the person's gender is unknown. Since I'm not sure how Hitomi identifies, that's what I used. :) Hope that answers your question
I adore you. I'm so glad you're in a space where you feel like you can just be you. I am quiet as well and always have been. I've been judged because of it and I've been ashamed of it. I'm learning to accept it and have gratitude. Thank you for being you :)
The bit about allowing yourself to be introverted and quiet without guilt really resonated... With everything going on in the world right now, I've ended up moving back in with my family temporarily and it's been really hard to deal with a family that thinks we have to spend every evening together. I don't know how to balance making an effort with my family and allowing time for myself to rest and recuperate without feeling guilty or needing to have an explanation ready of why I'm in my room and not with everyone else.
Hitomi I thank the Almighty for your life. Seriously love, your openess and vulnerability makes me feel so close to you even though I don’t know you personally. It just makes me understand that I crave and love being around truly vulnerable people. So thank you for growing, thank you for breathing, thanking for being Hitomi. Love you Queen 👑 ❤️
THIS VIDEO hit so so so different and good. I loved the talk about taking up space talking. Also the fact that you actually showed a snippet of work was so refreshing a relatable. This truly felt like I was hanging with a friend with amazing energy. I loved this. Thank you for making videos and sharing your thoughts.
wow you are so refreshing. I love making your videos part of my self care routine and I sent this vlog to a greets friend of mine back in my hometown. I love when you said sometimes letting go is as easy as exhaling 🥰 lots of love 💞
I truly appreciate your little deep chats in the video, showing us a glimpse of what you're sorting through internally. I learnt a lot from you and how you process things. Normally I journal at night before I go to bed but after watching your videos I tend to gravitate towards my journal and thereafter I pray with vigor and intensity. Thanks for your content, it really is helping us hippies connect to the greatness that lies beyond this 3D reality :)
I’ve been putting off watching your vlogs recently maybe for the last 2 weeks and I know why now. I’ve just woken up on my last day of work at a job I’ve recently decided to leave and I needed to hear your message right now. “Letting go is as easy as releasing your breath, breathe mindfulness into your day” I really needed these reminders today because like you I’m about to bleed and I’ve been keeping myself to myself, neglecting the love that has been coming into my life but I’m choosing here and now to let go of the anxieties that have come with starting this new chapter in my life and believe that the universe has protected me in this next phase. I am blessed and highly favored. ✨
I was feeling anxious all morning and overthinking a lot and this helped me so much I can’t express how much I appreciate this ❤️ sending good energy 💕💕💕
i cried towards the end of the chat in your bedroom... just hearing such uplifting words said out loud to you (even if they aren't specifically told to you) meant a lot to me. i am not having the easiest time right now, so thank u
hitomiiiiii, I have really watched the bulk of your video art, you have become a real influence in my life, which I am so grateful for. this has been the most beautiful video so far, in my opinion. I've noticed how much more vulnerable and authentic you have been becoming in these videos and i feel like we are seeing a new layer of your aura. all I can say is thank you and how grateful I am for your realness dude. blessings
Your talk about your inner child really resonated. That has been coming up for me since last month as well. Just realizing that I have my littles back like I’m taking care of her now. We don’t have to cope in toxic ways because I am able to wrk through my emotions in productive ways. ❤️ but also see how I can maybe still act out how I used to when I was younger and that’s okay too. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences Hitomi. ☺️
Thank you for making me feel less alone in this world but more importantly in my own mind. Especially when you said you had been feeling.., “Feelings of wanting to protect my heart, feelings of unworthiness, feelings of questioning. Wanting to cast away love fully. Sometimes it can be so hard to let love in, because you make up in your mind that it’s safer to just be alone, it’s safer to not be vulnerable. It’s safer to not have to learn to love unconditionally to other people and it’s just more convenient to be alone. But it’s not easier it’s so much more painful to cast away love. You feel this hardening start to happen to your breath and in your heart.” You literally spoke the words I have been struggling to find to explain how I have felt my entire life. I literally wrote out and journaled everything you said in your vulnerability segment of this video. It spoke so much truth to my soul. Thank you. And thank you God for letting me find someone out there that’s like me..I always thought I was the only one..
I resonate so much with what you shared in the middle of this video and have intense emotions just before I am about to bleed. I'm actually dealing with feelings of anxiety and paranoia during my time of ovulation this month. I have also been leaning into accepting that I am an introvert and that I am allowed so show up as my truest self even if that's moody and non talkative or tired etc I don't have to be sorry about this, I am human being human. So much love for you Hitomi, watching this video at this time has been so synchronous.
Wow that chat about feeling shame and guilt after expressing boundaries is so relevant to me right now. Also the weird awkwardness around feeling quiet. This is what I feel ALL THE TIME but. Ever knew how to express it. Thank you thank you thank you.
hitomi you dont know how comforting it was to hear you speak about how you've had life ending thoughts around the time of your period. I too, felt back at square one and was so confused why I kept returning to these thoughts. it's nice to know i am not alone
I can seriously relate to the negative low right before my period. They started happening during quarantine every month right before my period. I talked about it with my boyfriend and friend and they started decreasing and now they're gone.
I thank you for being raw and genuine. I had more roommates move in a couple weeks ago adding up to a total of 9 people in the house. As an introvert, I've never lived with so many people and so many energies in the same space. It's totally thrown me out of whack and my emotions have been all over the place feeling like I don't have my own quiet space anymore. This was all leading up to my cycle which equaled HEAVY emotion. Feeling like I didn't belong and couldn't escape. I felt I needed to dedicate time to hangout with everyone but when I did I always wanted to be alone and reconnect with myself. I am worthy of having boundaries and choosing to be alone at any moment. I dedicate time to myself in order to put my best self forward when I CHOOSE to interact with others.
I really resonate with what she was saying about "life ending thoughts" and old programming. For me, I feel like I become so consciously aware of myself, attitudes, behavior, where I see myself intertwining into this self accusing spirit watching my every single move judging myself. Being accustomed to this has really question my growth, and confidence. I then have dialogues in my head that are very dark and terrible. Most of the times it feels so real. I always strive to have little positive things to say and do to myself even when Im not thinking thoughts that are going to depresses me. Then there's this one-see myself as a ghost walking on earth alone while knowing a few people that are mostly trauma bonds(which I cut alot off in 2020) or family. My goal for 2021 is to find sisterhood, begining my music inner peace & love, EXPANSIVE financial growth and starting YT!
Really struggling to accept the fact that I’m an introvert and need to let myself recharge, and not constantly be around people. Really helping me figure out what to do in that time, and not feel so guilty for it. ❤️
Thank you thank you thank you ! Yesterday I did not wanted to talk at home ( in a holiday house with some friends). I felt so guilty for that and ankward and selfish for wanted to share my energy just with myself. THIS year. I’m embrassing fully myself. Whether people like it (and connect with me ) or not. Thank you for being such a guru ( without even knowing it). You are an angel. Thank you sister. 🧘🏾♂️ love from Brazil 🇧🇷
Just wanted to drop in to say that you should look into PMDD - I had similar patterns with my mood and the week before my period and my ob-gyn told me I could have PMDD (pre-mentrual dysphoric disorder) so maybe this could be an explanation for your cyclic moods too! Maybe worth looking into it as there are some literature on how to manage it (:
When you speak it’s like you take the words, experiences & feelings from my own soul and express them beautifully. It’s insane. I feel so seen and connected so thank you for sharing.
Ducks and geese shouldn’t eat bread. I never knew that before. Apparently it’s real bad for them as it expands in their stomach and then they end up not eating anything else as it makes them feel full and they get no nutrients. So it makes them sick. Also never throw bread in a pond for them. It can kill and hurt the other wildlife in them. I never knew that either.
Re-watching your morning routine videos before bed is slowlyyyy becoming a ritual and I'm loving it! Thank u for always sharing your light. Much love & many blessings.
I feel Like u are my soul sister, it surprises me that someone i resonate SO MUCH with exists and i' d give the world to meet u. U have the most pure soul and watching ur videos makes me so at prave. Thanks For everything, i cherish u and u give me so MUCH hope in the world and the future❤❤❤😊
thank you. watching you is so refreshing. i see you as someone very deep and important to my heart & i truly feel so close to you and i appreciate how much you empower me. i can say with confidence that i was meant to meet you on youtube. thank you for being you. thank you for showing me that its okay to have boundaries. that its okay for me to be me without being sorry. i adore you and i hope you know how much you actually mean to me in my life.
wow i’ve never heard another person talked about the fear of feeling like what you’re saying isn’t worthy or contributing to the conversation so you’d rather stay quiet. it’s rather comforting to hear this coming from someone who is “public figure” like yourself 💕 i also get really sad right before my period too. thank you for sharing about your mental health struggles you’re not alone, babe!
I can resonate so deeply when you spoke about life ending thoughts around the time before your period. I have been navigating through the same thing. I have this app called 'Moody' and it's literally incredible, it tells you what your hormones are doing everyday based on you cycle. so when I'm having these thoughts I don't panic because I know me oestrogen and progestogen has reached rock bottom.
Consider veggie bullion for those moments when u dont have time for homemade broth it comes in glass and u just mix it with hot water and it makes really awesome broth
You and your thought process and lifestyle just resonate so deeply with me. I am so blessed to have people like you to feel connected to. Thank you for being you and sharing it with me.
I just wanted to say that you make so happy! your videos, especially from the last few months, let my frequency rise and let me ground. They make me feel loved and make me want to push through the journey that I am going through. Thankyouu for that, namaste.
omg at 12:30 hitomi has a tiare flower in her hair i think... my bff's middle name is tiare, it really made me think of her, and feel so greatful for our friendship... synchronicity
Thank you Hitomi. Every time I have doubts about myself and my worth the universe somehow knows and recommends your videos to me. The things you say about how you’re feeling and how you’re working through them always resonates with me so deeply that I usually end up crying. But after doing so u always feel so much lighter. Thank you 💕
I absolutely adore you! Thank u for being such an inspiration✨🙏🏼 just wanted to ask you where that blue dress is from that you‘re wearing with the turtleneck, it‘s stunning!!💙
this channel is so close to my heart because whenever I get distracted I come back here to connect and the satisfaction i get knowing there are people like me,I usually feel alone in the crowd but Hitomi and this community feels like home to my soul GRATEFUL ALWAYS
I really think you’re a light sent to my life from the universe. I’m going through a break up right now which was very unexpected and very impactful since we were together for almost five years. It just happened this week, right when I felt like I was coming into a new stage in my life. I felt excited about the future for the first time in so long. I was overcoming my trauma, getting to know my self better than ever, and understanding my unhealthy tendencies. This break up came right when I stopped being afraid to show myself unapologetically to the world, and I really didn’t want to crumble and lose all my progress. Yesterday at 5 in the morning, I wanted something relaxing to watch while I got stoned in bed. I searched “relaxing forest vlog” and ended up finding one of your videos. That video was so helpful, as it reminded me in that moment of stoned sadness that my life isn’t over, that I am enough for myself, and that I am always loved. I watched a couple more videos, and this one really moved me. Around the 22:00 min mark when you say “thank you for receiving my whole heart and growing with me,” and when you say “miracles are unfolding on your behalf, you are so loved as you are,” it made me feel so safe. It grounded me in reality again and reminded me of everything I should be grateful for. Despite how I may feel, I have no idea the future the universe has in hold for me. I feel like I can relate to a lot that you talk about, so it’s inspiring to find such a good guide on this journey of healing. I hope this comment doesn’t sound really weird. The more I learn about myself and my connection to the world, the more I feel that the universe offers me exactly what I need when I need it most. In this case, I simply wanted a video to temporarily distract me from the pain. Instead, I found your video reminding me that I am worthy, that I am not lacking, and that I have all the love I need for myself. I’ve only seen a couple videos, but thank you :)
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"I'm allowed to show up imperfectly...tired, sleepy, anxious, non-talkative, around everyone in my life and still be loved, fully seen and accepted"
This. I really felt this. Something I definitely need to remember
This is one of my mantras right now!
Yeah, i needed that too.
Same
This should be on a t-shirt 😭 giirrrrlllll!
I definitely resonate with not wanting to speak all the time when around people. Being an introvert in a world that praises being an extrovert can be difficult because people constantly comment on you not talking but I don't feel the need to speak every moment. I process so much in my head and I want to be intentional when I speak and process my thoughts before I say something and not just speak for the sake of it
I feel like this with new people too, but my friends respect my space and they like the silence too. So I think it's all about communication and the right people
i know and i’ve accepted the fact that there’s a whole world in my head
you know you find your soul family when you can all just chill and vibe without speaking every second
It's definitely rough, I get calls from friends sometimes and I just have to decline it because I just am not up to talking a lot of the time. I like being alone and that' so hard for people to understand.
I am exactly the same way! You said it beautifully
Finding out that you don’t drink or smoke has been so calming to me. Being in college it’s so hard to find people who don’t do those things (not that I’m shaming anyone who does), but there’s a kind of embarrassment that goes along with being the only one not smoking in a group. Thank you for helping me realize that there is no shame in my choice. I know this is off topic but I wanted to thank you for being so open about your journey and your choices. Sending love.
It's not embrassing to avoid drinking and smoking, things that are harmful to your body! If anyone you know thinks it is, don't take them seriously at all. Ignore them.
If these people seem to shame you trust me it’s because they don’t want to admit that you are stronger than them and it makes them angry. I’m so proud of you :-)
I had pneumonia last year and now I fortunately have an excuse lol just kidding I'd never smoke if I didn't want to😂
I used to smoke and drink all the time in college and I’ve had major health issues because of that this year so you’re definitely making a good choice 💛 I hope you can find peers that are like minded
From a 19 year old who has decided to spend this year sober,You will find like minded people
omg the bb lizard that greets you in the morning 🥺my heart💕
Omg i loovveee your channel
My faves 🥺❤️
@@StrawberrySoymilk saaame
same. my heart droppped for a second. SO cute so lovable
She's literally a whole ass princess
I instantly feel so much more connected to myself and my inner goddess when I’m watching one of your videos. Hitomi you make me feel so full
This describe my feelings so well, wow! Thankyou
this
same! her vids literally raise my vibration
This girl has changed my teenage years so drastically in the best way
I feel the exact same. She has taught me so much about myself in such a short amount of time. So appreciative :)
Same
I DIDNT EXPECT A 30 MINUTE VLOG, MY WEDNESDAY IS NOW SO MUCH BETTER
the energy this woman gives is so beautiful and safe
I just wanted to let you know that you changed my life and I will forever be grateful for that. You have made me truly want to love myself the deepest way possible, made me want to get to know myself sexually, spiritually and on every level that is possible. Please, never stop sharing your words of wisdom. I love, love, love you and your beautiful light of warmth and love. 🦋🙏🏽
SAME!!
YESSS!!
Yesss. I can relate. She has done the same for me too. I love hitomi & ill always deeply be grateful i found her in the times i did. She has help me grow tremendously & just been able to speak to parts of myself that i felt so ashamed about & felt like i was never going to be seen for. So yeah the biggest grateful thanks to Hitomi❤. For being able to reach us all in the way she has❤. Much love.. Always.
same!! she was the beginning of my spiritual journey. oh my gosh i felt so happy reading this
SAME
the way hitomi said "hi honey" to the baby lizard and waves her finger at them at 1:57 is the most wholesome thing ever 🥺😭
It's sooooooo critical to focus on you before you hop into work mode! Life hackkkkkk
The beach scene where u were reading was so aesthetically pleasing
So true ✔
love your pfp
@@cyberprincessASMR thank u:)
I didn’t think anyone could look good at 5am, but here’s hitomi glowing from the early hours
Right?? It’s that plant based diet and her self love but also NEED to know her skin care routine
wow I resonated with this so so much. I often feel like I need to work on 'talking more' in social settings when in reality, I'm not feeling awkward, I'm just a huge observer and I feel calm and at peace not speaking sometimes, which sometimes I feel my more extroverted friends don't understand, they'll ask me whats wrong hahaha. trying to honour that too but speak up when I do feel I have something to say, because sometimes I also don't honour my voice. thank you for this
Im always wating for her next post, they are always so inspirational and entertaining. She's just such a sweet person
yesss so true, I'm so happy every time she uploads!
I am having a mental breakdown I am just hoping that she can pass me the energy I need to feel better.. ... I love her so much
@@lilyteegan hope you feel better soon, sending you all the love and support you need :)
Same she really helps me have a positive outlook on life
“I am allowed to show up imperfectly; I’m allowed to show up tired, sleepy, anxious, and non-talkative around everyone in my life - and still be loved. And still be worthy. And be fully seen and accepted.”
You don’t know how much I needed this. I suffer from crippling social anxiety but I smile through it and I bet some would even consider me as being rather extroverted from the outside... thank you for these words of wisdom. It’s okay if I’m anxious. It’s okay if I seem a little uncomfortable. It’s okay if I speak a little to quickly. It’s okay. I am worthy of being loved for who I AM, on my JOURNEY.
I love you Hitomi, I feel you, I see you. Thank you for shining your light. ❤️
Hitomi is a form of art on her own
All too often our so called strenght comes from fear and not love; instead of having a strong back, many of us have a defended front shielding a weak spine. In other words, we walk around brittle and defensive, trying to conceal our lack of confidence. If we strenghten our backs, metaphorically speaking, and develop a spine thats flexible but sturdy, then we can risk having a front that soft and open, representing choiceless compassion. The place in your body where these two meet - strong back and soft front - is the brave, tender ground in which to root our caring deeply💚love u hitomi, youve changed me
I love how you phrased it ♡
it’s actually a quote! Not sure from who tho, I saved it a long time ago, yet it still hits close to home
the rain looks so beautiful in the morning with the lush green forest in the back
I was literally planning on getting up at 5 a.m. tomorrow, now I'm even more motivated. Thank you for your beautiful videos and just for posting them on this plattform. Wish you all a wonderful day or a wonderful night♡
Thats beautiful ❤✔
My personal advice for anyone that struggles with obsessive toughts or not being able to let the tought go, causing yourself anxiety or even panic attacks.
When I acknowledge that I am thinking about something that distresses me, I refocus my mental energy on something peculiar that I enjoy. For example, I imagine to the smallest details outfit I would like to buy or want to wear. Sweater, how buttons look like, is the material fluffy, how does it fall over my shirt, what hairstyle I would wear with that, what products I need to get my make up done, etc. Hyper focussing on things that bring me joy like fashion or self care, eases my mind at those anxious moments instantly.
I sing to my bed every morning and night “ you’re just like heaven to touch, I love you so much” lol “ it’s too good to be true, can’t keep my eyes off of you” Sending love your way Hitomi 🌸🌸
that's actually adorable🥺
@@ramimi1217 🥰
who was the singer who sang that song? can't remember
@stlowcl sorry took me so long to reply, pretty sure it’s frank valli and the four seasons :)
I was literally just thinking about you
this is so wholesome what
thank you for being transparent and so honest about vulnerability! sometimes i look up to people on the internet thinking they have perfect lives or that they've reached a level where everything's always good, and its so nice to see someone so inspiring as you talking abt being vulnerable and self doubting, it really makes me feel like im not alone 🧡
OMG I was just thinking, “wouldn’t it be nice if Hitomi posted soon...” then, BAM this is the first vid on my feed. Universe is listening to me🥺❤️
Feeling that hardness in your breath and heart is so real, I am learning to let love in and out of me as a daily practice small gestures with beings I come in contact with.
in the beginning you were talking about how you get sleepy and take a nap when you wake up at 5 am and me too.. but on tiktok i learned that humans are actually segmented sleepers. so instead of getting 8 hours of sleep in one night, we should get 8 hours of sleep split up in 2 sleep sessions, if that makes sense, i feel like we get sleepy because we are Supposed to be sleeping twice. i want to start doing this but haven't done it yet idk lol i just thought i would share that with you because it's interesting and maybe it could help you if you switched up the routine bc i also have trouble with staying awake when i wake up at 5 am
I've been wanting to do it too! But my schedule is so unpredictable. . . Hopefully one day soon !
I can't believe, why more people do not talk about this! It sounds so interesting!
I heard about this before too but I'm actually not sure if it's the most healthy way. I think this kind of sleeping habits lay way back in the past and we changed a lot and learned a lot.
We actually need so many hours of sleep in one session because our brain needs to reset and this sounds kinda strange but our brains wash themselves at night. The fluids in our brains get refreshed and it takes quite a time to happen and it's extremly important to prevent stuff like Alzheimers.
Just wanted to let You know!
@@johannabo2258 yes, I'm glad someone shared this info. Not everything we see on tiktok is trustworthy. I hope people stay safe from things that can be harmful (not that this particularly will). Sleep is important and doctors have researched for a long time for a reason, the people who have calimed we should sleep less or in crazy divided intervals are not professionals. I do question what they say. Stay safe everyone
@@johannabo2258 lol you must have never heard of the genius Nikola Tesla was and how he only got 4 hours of sleep a day he died at age 86 smarter and wiser than most men now a days. Mind over matter sweetheart remember that.
Thank you for this. I resonate with your talk about showing up as yourself so much, especially right now. I just started a new job and it's so hard for me to just relax and be me. I try to show up perky, fun and talkative to get others around me to enjoy my company when I am actually really introverted and would rather keep to myself and get the job done, by the end of my shift I am always completely drained. The other day a few of my co-workers said they had been really missing me in the shifts I use to work with them, even though I didn't always talk too often, so that made me feel really good. :) Thank you for the reminder it is okay to show up as my authentic self, I really needed that.
I am an introvert and I am so proud to be one! ✨🌺
Hands down my favorite channel. I always feel safe here. I feel at home. I feel understood and I am so grateful for you and all the work you put into these videos you share
Thank you for speaking about choosing and honouring your silence. I'm not that talkative, especially around people that I don't know that well, and I really need my alone time to reboot. I tend to overanalyze the things I'm saying as well witch can be quite exhausting (especially if I'm not feeling safe to express myself). But I'm learning to love and honour that quiet part of myself more and more. If I want to speak, I speak. If I don't, I won't. And both ends are ok. I want my words to be intentional and un-forced.
I relate so much with feeling such deep sadness and heaviness when you're on your period I always feel that way too but I'm learning to accept it and realize that it's only temporary and we can shift our thought patterns
you've made my day, you beautiful angel. I resonate with you so much
when you said you are too socially aware and that you wanna say something but know it will come across as deep and poetic i FELT that. when im with people and even my partner theres SO much i wanna say about something but just keep my mouth shut or only say the gist of it in fear of sounding "too much" and always having anxiety about it lol. me and hitomi would be best friends ugh i wish i knew her 🥺
You make me feel like I can be my best self. I’ve been on a journey to a natural and holistic lifestyle but you and your videos have kickstarted it and keep me motivated. I also struggle with many mental health issues and life ending thoughts and I always think they’ll never end when they start, but hearing you’re story and how there is hope to not have those thoughts, brings me so much hope and happiness. I don’t know if you’ll see this, but thank you for the many ways you have helped me grow!❤️🌸
Hitomi you trigger so much positive things into my life. Whenever i hear you i also write about what you are saying and how it resonates with my experience and then i maybe stop and thank the people in my life and boom a beautiful exchange happens because of watching you and stoping to think about how blessed we usually are and not realize as often maybe. Idk i just wanted to thank you for triggering so much good into my life by being you. Sending you all my love from Argentina😘😘
I really resonated with your thoughts surrounding stating boundaries + feeling guilty about them afterwards, it's definitely hard to be vocal about what you need when you're also an empath and worry about how others will take things. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, very inspiring, resetting, + uplifting!
Thank you Hitomi for the raw vulnerability. You give me a space to forgive myself and accept me as fully as I come growing pains and all. It’s a process and loving women like you keep pushing me to accept the process and keep an open heart through any difficulties. Thank you for sharing your light 💡
I'm not sure if you've heard of it, there's a condition called premenstrual dysphoric disorder and the feelings you've described around your period is the main symptom. it might be worth looking into if you're interested :)
Yes, I have PMDD, and I could relate a lot with Hitomi as they described their experience. That stuff is real.
PS: I like your username. I'm currently sitting by my window, and the winter sun is gently melting away the snow that was falling in the garden for the last 4 days. :)
@@FreakyBo0o why did you refer to Hitomi as "they"? did she say she wanted to be identified by that? (Genuinely asking, not attacking you)
I have that big time. I just realized I had that now that I’m 26 after a few years of seriously irregular periods and now that I’m regular, hello mental instability 🙃🙃🙃
@@melliexcx Hi Melissa, I used they because I don't want to assume gender identities and (grammatically at least) they is used in instances when the person's gender is unknown. Since I'm not sure how Hitomi identifies, that's what I used. :) Hope that answers your question
@@FreakyBo0o okay, thank you for your response. :)
Your morning routine is goals!! We love a disciplined Queen! 👑
I adore you. I'm so glad you're in a space where you feel like you can just be you. I am quiet as well and always have been. I've been judged because of it and I've been ashamed of it. I'm learning to accept it and have gratitude. Thank you for being you :)
The bit about allowing yourself to be introverted and quiet without guilt really resonated... With everything going on in the world right now, I've ended up moving back in with my family temporarily and it's been really hard to deal with a family that thinks we have to spend every evening together. I don't know how to balance making an effort with my family and allowing time for myself to rest and recuperate without feeling guilty or needing to have an explanation ready of why I'm in my room and not with everyone else.
Hitomi I thank the Almighty for your life. Seriously love, your openess and vulnerability makes me feel so close to you even though I don’t know you personally. It just makes me understand that I crave and love being around truly vulnerable people. So thank you for growing, thank you for breathing, thanking for being Hitomi. Love you Queen 👑 ❤️
I appreciate how you never ask us to subscribe and like your channel, you don’t even need to, your energy and vibe will get people to
THIS VIDEO hit so so so different and good. I loved the talk about taking up space talking. Also the fact that you actually showed a snippet of work was so refreshing a relatable. This truly felt like I was hanging with a friend with amazing energy. I loved this. Thank you for making videos and sharing your thoughts.
wow you are so refreshing. I love making your videos part of my self care routine and I sent this vlog to a greets friend of mine back in my hometown. I love when you said sometimes letting go is as easy as exhaling 🥰 lots of love 💞
The way your videos brighten any day I have even if it’s going bad is so beautiful
I truly appreciate your little deep chats in the video, showing us a glimpse of what you're sorting through internally. I learnt a lot from you and how you process things. Normally I journal at night before I go to bed but after watching your videos I tend to gravitate towards my journal and thereafter I pray with vigor and intensity. Thanks for your content, it really is helping us hippies connect to the greatness that lies beyond this 3D reality :)
Watching you be so mindful and intentional is so enchanting and attractive I wanna be like you sisss🥰🙏🏻
Every time I watch your videos I have my journal nearby. You have such profound commentary and I’m so grateful for your presence 💓
introverts club ❤️ sending love & light to everyone.
I can’t explain the joy I feel watching these videos , hitomi makes me feel so safe and comfortable in myself 💖
Am I the only one or is my bed the most comfortable in the early morning when I have to get up. It just looks and feels like heaven on earth✨
Yes!!
I’ve been putting off watching your vlogs recently maybe for the last 2 weeks and I know why now. I’ve just woken up on my last day of work at a job I’ve recently decided to leave and I needed to hear your message right now. “Letting go is as easy as releasing your breath, breathe mindfulness into your day” I really needed these reminders today because like you I’m about to bleed and I’ve been keeping myself to myself, neglecting the love that has been coming into my life but I’m choosing here and now to let go of the anxieties that have come with starting this new chapter in my life and believe that the universe has protected me in this next phase. I am blessed and highly favored. ✨
I was feeling anxious all morning and overthinking a lot and this helped me so much I can’t express how much I appreciate this ❤️ sending good energy 💕💕💕
i cried towards the end of the chat in your bedroom... just hearing such uplifting words said out loud to you (even if they aren't specifically told to you) meant a lot to me. i am not having the easiest time right now, so thank u
was getting emotional when you were talking about your inner child, because I feel the same exact way🥺💕
hitomiiiiii, I have really watched the bulk of your video art, you have become a real influence in my life, which I am so grateful for. this has been the most beautiful video so far, in my opinion. I've noticed how much more vulnerable and authentic you have been becoming in these videos and i feel like we are seeing a new layer of your aura. all I can say is thank you and how grateful I am for your realness dude. blessings
Your talk about your inner child really resonated. That has been coming up for me since last month as well. Just realizing that I have my littles back like I’m taking care of her now. We don’t have to cope in toxic ways because I am able to wrk through my emotions in productive ways. ❤️ but also see how I can maybe still act out how I used to when I was younger and that’s okay too. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences Hitomi. ☺️
The part where you got deep was so emotional and resonant... thank you for saying we are loved and affirming us. It means so much
SO much of this resonates more than i can articulate... thank u for sharing. i love the early mornings accompanied by candles. ur a gem
Thank you for making me feel less alone in this world but more importantly in my own mind.
Especially when you said you had been feeling..,
“Feelings of wanting to protect my heart, feelings of unworthiness, feelings of questioning. Wanting to cast away love fully. Sometimes it can be so hard to let love in, because you make up in your mind that it’s safer to just be alone, it’s safer to not be vulnerable. It’s safer to not have to learn to love unconditionally to other people and it’s just more convenient to be alone. But it’s not easier it’s so much more painful to cast away love. You feel this hardening start to happen to your breath and in your heart.”
You literally spoke the words I have been struggling to find to explain how I have felt my entire life. I literally wrote out and journaled everything you said in your vulnerability segment of this video.
It spoke so much truth to my soul.
Thank you. And thank you God for letting me find someone out there that’s like me..I always thought I was the only one..
Hitomi looks like a goddess
I resonate so much with what you shared in the middle of this video and have intense emotions just before I am about to bleed. I'm actually dealing with feelings of anxiety and paranoia during my time of ovulation this month. I have also been leaning into accepting that I am an introvert and that I am allowed so show up as my truest self even if that's moody and non talkative or tired etc I don't have to be sorry about this, I am human being human. So much love for you Hitomi, watching this video at this time has been so synchronous.
the morning is such a beautiful thing - this comment is a promise I’ll be waking up at 5 tomorrow
Did you?
@@hollylight768 I did indeed haha and fun fact for anyone who is reading I have been waking up at 5am consistently for the past few weeks
Wow that chat about feeling shame and guilt after expressing boundaries is so relevant to me right now. Also the weird awkwardness around feeling quiet. This is what I feel ALL THE TIME but. Ever knew how to express it. Thank you thank you thank you.
I felt the part about being an introvert and living with other people so deeply!
hitomi you dont know how comforting it was to hear you speak about how you've had life ending thoughts around the time of your period. I too, felt back at square one and was so confused why I kept returning to these thoughts. it's nice to know i am not alone
I can seriously relate to the negative low right before my period. They started happening during quarantine every month right before my period. I talked about it with my boyfriend and friend and they started decreasing and now they're gone.
I thank you for being raw and genuine. I had more roommates move in a couple weeks ago adding up to a total of 9 people in the house. As an introvert, I've never lived with so many people and so many energies in the same space. It's totally thrown me out of whack and my emotions have been all over the place feeling like I don't have my own quiet space anymore. This was all leading up to my cycle which equaled HEAVY emotion. Feeling like I didn't belong and couldn't escape. I felt I needed to dedicate time to hangout with everyone but when I did I always wanted to be alone and reconnect with myself. I am worthy of having boundaries and choosing to be alone at any moment. I dedicate time to myself in order to put my best self forward when I CHOOSE to interact with others.
Sending introvert love your way, boundaries are tough! 🦋
I really resonate with what she was saying about "life ending thoughts" and old programming. For me, I feel like I become so consciously aware of myself, attitudes, behavior, where I see myself intertwining into this self accusing spirit watching my every single move judging myself. Being accustomed to this has really question my growth, and confidence. I then have dialogues in my head that are very dark and terrible. Most of the times it feels so real. I always strive to have little positive things to say and do to myself even when Im not thinking thoughts that are going to depresses me. Then there's this one-see myself as a ghost walking on earth alone while knowing a few people that are mostly trauma bonds(which I cut alot off in 2020) or family. My goal for 2021 is to find sisterhood, begining my music inner peace & love, EXPANSIVE financial growth and starting YT!
Really struggling to accept the fact that I’m an introvert and need to let myself recharge, and not constantly be around people. Really helping me figure out what to do in that time, and not feel so guilty for it. ❤️
Thank you thank you thank you ! Yesterday I did not wanted to talk at home ( in a holiday house with some friends). I felt so guilty for that and ankward and selfish for wanted to share my energy just with myself.
THIS year. I’m embrassing fully myself. Whether people like it (and connect with me ) or not.
Thank you for being such a guru ( without even knowing it).
You are an angel. Thank you sister.
🧘🏾♂️ love from Brazil 🇧🇷
Just wanted to drop in to say that you should look into PMDD - I had similar patterns with my mood and the week before my period and my ob-gyn told me I could have PMDD (pre-mentrual dysphoric disorder) so maybe this could be an explanation for your cyclic moods too! Maybe worth looking into it as there are some literature on how to manage it (:
PMDD is the worst
when i heard her talk about her experience right before her period, i thought of PMDD too. i have PMDD and it sucks so much.
When you speak it’s like you take the words, experiences & feelings from my own soul and express them beautifully. It’s insane. I feel so seen and connected so thank you for sharing.
Ducks and geese shouldn’t eat bread. I never knew that before. Apparently it’s real bad for them as it expands in their stomach and then they end up not eating anything else as it makes them feel full and they get no nutrients. So it makes them sick. Also never throw bread in a pond for them. It can kill and hurt the other wildlife in them. I never knew that either.
Re-watching your morning routine videos before bed is slowlyyyy becoming a ritual and I'm loving it! Thank u for always sharing your light. Much love & many blessings.
I just love you so much. I’m an introvert as well and I deal with the same things you mentioned in the video. Thank you for sharing this video🙏🏿🙏🏿
I feel Like u are my soul sister, it surprises me that someone i resonate SO MUCH with exists and i' d give the world to meet u. U have the most pure soul and watching ur videos makes me so at prave. Thanks For everything, i cherish u and u give me so MUCH hope in the world and the future❤❤❤😊
I feel so blessed to be able to watch this right now
thank you. watching you is so refreshing. i see you as someone very deep and important to my heart & i truly feel so close to you and i appreciate how much you empower me. i can say with confidence that i was meant to meet you on youtube. thank you for being you. thank you for showing me that its okay to have boundaries. that its okay for me to be me without being sorry. i adore you and i hope you know how much you actually mean to me in my life.
Lol when your clearly fuming and straight away your like... "learning to manage"....👌
wow i’ve never heard another person talked about the fear of feeling like what you’re saying isn’t worthy or contributing to the conversation so you’d rather stay quiet. it’s rather comforting to hear this coming from someone who is “public figure” like yourself 💕 i also get really sad right before my period too. thank you for sharing about your mental health struggles you’re not alone, babe!
Your thoughts bring me so much peace and reassurance. Its really inspiring, thank you so much for sharing :)
Beautiful message about honoring your wounds and trauma. I will mention this to my therapist in today’s session. Thank you Hitomi♥️
I can resonate so deeply when you spoke about life ending thoughts around the time before your period. I have been navigating through the same thing. I have this app called 'Moody' and it's literally incredible, it tells you what your hormones are doing everyday based on you cycle. so when I'm having these thoughts I don't panic because I know me oestrogen and progestogen has reached rock bottom.
I’m crying watching this😭 thank you for being here
Consider veggie bullion for those moments when u dont have time for homemade broth it comes in glass and u just mix it with hot water and it makes really awesome broth
You and your thought process and lifestyle just resonate so deeply with me. I am so blessed to have people like you to feel connected to. Thank you for being you and sharing it with me.
I love your channel so much! you're a huge inspiration to me 🥺
I just wanted to say that you make so happy! your videos, especially from the last few months, let my frequency rise and let me ground. They make me feel loved and make me want to push through the journey that I am going through. Thankyouu for that, namaste.
omg at 12:30 hitomi has a tiare flower in her hair i think... my bff's middle name is tiare, it really made me think of her, and feel so greatful for our friendship... synchronicity
Thank you Hitomi. Every time I have doubts about myself and my worth the universe somehow knows and recommends your videos to me. The things you say about how you’re feeling and how you’re working through them always resonates with me so deeply that I usually end up crying. But after doing so u always feel so much lighter. Thank you 💕
I absolutely adore you! Thank u for being such an inspiration✨🙏🏼 just wanted to ask you where that blue dress is from that you‘re wearing with the turtleneck, it‘s stunning!!💙
this channel is so close to my heart because whenever I get distracted I come back here to connect and the satisfaction i get knowing there are people like me,I usually feel alone in the crowd but Hitomi and this community feels like home to my soul GRATEFUL ALWAYS
2:04 should be set to my ‘drink water’ alarm
this is so healing
I have to know Hitomi- what are your moon and rising signs? sensing some beautiful cancer energy
yesss me too - feeling some cancer & scorpio energy
@@paigekieding8230 definitelyyy
@@paigekieding8230 ik she’s a scorpio but idk the other ones
She posted her chart on her story before
Her rising is Capricorn and her moon is Sagittarius
@@KeturaSaint-Fleurose I have the same sun and rising as her, and we're both fire moons! That's so awesome. Ty for sharing
I really think you’re a light sent to my life from the universe. I’m going through a break up right now which was very unexpected and very impactful since we were together for almost five years. It just happened this week, right when I felt like I was coming into a new stage in my life. I felt excited about the future for the first time in so long. I was overcoming my trauma, getting to know my self better than ever, and understanding my unhealthy tendencies. This break up came right when I stopped being afraid to show myself unapologetically to the world, and I really didn’t want to crumble and lose all my progress.
Yesterday at 5 in the morning, I wanted something relaxing to watch while I got stoned in bed. I searched “relaxing forest vlog” and ended up finding one of your videos. That video was so helpful, as it reminded me in that moment of stoned sadness that my life isn’t over, that I am enough for myself, and that I am always loved. I watched a couple more videos, and this one really moved me. Around the 22:00 min mark when you say “thank you for receiving my whole heart and growing with me,” and when you say “miracles are unfolding on your behalf, you are so loved as you are,” it made me feel so safe. It grounded me in reality again and reminded me of everything I should be grateful for. Despite how I may feel, I have no idea the future the universe has in hold for me.
I feel like I can relate to a lot that you talk about, so it’s inspiring to find such a good guide on this journey of healing. I hope this comment doesn’t sound really weird. The more I learn about myself and my connection to the world, the more I feel that the universe offers me exactly what I need when I need it most. In this case, I simply wanted a video to temporarily distract me from the pain. Instead, I found your video reminding me that I am worthy, that I am not lacking, and that I have all the love I need for myself. I’ve only seen a couple videos, but thank you :)