Ekoh I know you webb and merk don't do it for the money or fame even though both are nice. Your incredible home. I deal with do much anger in me that it seems lately your music is the only thing that saves me. I wanna die but don't at the same. I have kids a 14 y/o and a 3 y/o. No home but I love you man. Don't stop cause right now I need your music in my life
As a "fixer" myself, its nice to hear someone acknowledge when they dont have the ability to be in a healthy relationship and that its not your partners responsibility to fix you.
This perfectly describes imposter syndrome. The depression and anxiety and self doubt eat you from the inside out. Until there is nothing left. You are left wondering how someone can love such a broken thing. You start asking them to save themselves because in the end, you don't think you're salvageable. I love and hate how close the lyrics hit home.
I hate thinking we're going to fail and try to push away the ones who care. They stay because they love us and hate our demons as much as we do. Great song.
This song gives me Cryptic Wisdom vibes! Your new music seems harmonized and meaningful. I think some of your older stuff was more lyrical. Whatever you bless us with in the future, I hope 2022 is the year you blow up!
I seen you in syracuse. I love you music and you heart filled message that some won't get. You really are a sent to help people in need. Even though you need people to support and help you. You are always here for us
I resonate with this song so much because I’m really sick & have a chronic illness that’s destroyed the outside of my body & put me on chemo & almost killed me twice now & is ripping open my body leaving scars so hideous I would never try to have another relationship & let them see those parts of me.. & so every time I hear the chorus of this I just cry & when I saw you liked my comment my heart left my body.. thank you for helping me get through the days
This is my VERY FIRST TIME seeing you Ekoh, won't lie, NEVER heard of you, and I again I won't lie, IMMEDIATELY subscribed to you, like the song, and at around a minute and a half into this track, Niagara Falls from my eyeballs. I've been through some things and feel lost, I feel your words will help guide me into MY right direction. I'm looking forward to going through your other tracks. Keep it up lil homie.
For all those who understand this song realize there's so many people that feel the same way!!! Ekoh ... you're amazing man ...as a lyrical enthusiast this song really hit me because so many times I realize I can't stop my inevitable cycle as a person sometimes it's like the people need to go and save themselves ...thank you for blessing me with this song
If we make them stay. We will suffer until we learn the lesson God is separating his people for a reason rejection is god's protection, he will bring the people for us believe
The most underrated rapper of all time I swear this dude speaks to peoples souls and emotions it’s helped me way more than I can say thank you though ekoh
Man… this isn’t my usual kind of music. But as a veteran struggling with ptsd and going through my second failed marriage due to it.. did this song ever hit hard!
Brother I’m with with you one failed and my 12 year relationship is exploding in my face along with the rest of my life. If you ever need an outlet feel free to reach out.
I literally want to cry after hearing this track. This literally explained a whole part of my life where I had to push away the only person I truly loved to the bottom of my heart but, had to let go because I was only going to drag her down with me if I didn't do it. I swear these words cut sharper than a surgical scalpel. I wish I could have did something different back then so, I'd been able to save 8 years of my life I just let burn away in those ghostly flames that haunt me today.
Why didn't you fight if you loved her. Why didn't you vow to rise above your failures, your issues, your vices? Why wasn't love enough for you to work on yourself? I don't understand why you'd leave to work on yourself, even though you had someone who loved you at your side who would have been there by your side through all of it. You left her. She could have been wishing every day you didn't. That you believed she was strong enough to love you despite your issues. You left. But love doesn't just leave. She was left with half of her heart in her hands and a bloody void where you took the other half with you. Tell me, would you fight for your love now? Fight against your issues while staying with her? Or would you walk away again?
I get that it’s hard to lose the love of your life the only one that only gets you. I found that nature is the only closure at times that heals the soul and tears. I think we’re all a little screwed up though and all have issues. I’m sure she has her own set of issues. I have my own complicated story but I hurt someone that meant more to me than what they honestly knew. I wish I could tell them how sorry I am and how much they impacted my life but I’ll never be able to. I will say this though don’t ghost that girl because it will do more damage to her if she truly loves you.
As long as you keep speaking from your soul, anything you drop will save somebody, someday, your pain brings me healing, when there's no light, I heard pickel Rick, vibed, listened, resonated, then went through the songs falling deeply into your messages, This world needs more people just like you. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME, ENERGY AND HARD WORK!!!!
ekoh, this speaks years decades of my brain.. thanks my dude i would love to do cover work for you... as a fan you inspire alot of confidence in ourselves.. and i appreciate that.. it took most of my life to gain any confidence in my self and its a small light.. but people like you add mirrors to the light. thank you..
you know... I've been in a relationship where I've been hurt and many friendships where I've been hurt, so I've had enough of it. Girlfriends lie, friends lie even more and let you down, I've had bad luck on that part. I somewhat have money, because I work 12h shifts 5 days a week. It's work where people come and go and some people even open up to you. It's takes a load on you.... But on the free days, not sure why, but i always come back to your music and it keeps me going on.
your the Man Nathan!!! ill be 100% real aswell, i claim 4.5+ years clean off fent and pills.. but ive Gotten a few small dose opiates here and there like a handful of teeth three's horse some tramadol or hydromorphone... I would never take anything that was equal to or greater than roughly 25 or 30 mg of oxycodone , But that was only because I had also started taking out president AKA xanax. never written or said that outloud to anyone. but i just reset my recovery timer on this app i use to keep track of the days. i was just lying to myself, a relapse is a relapse... little or alot. proud of you man, i made it to 2 years and 5 months before i lost sight of my intent. lost my morals and goals, im the Living example of why at the end of the day even though some people like me did not need a support system right away. When I lost a close cousin in a house fire and then Found out my 10y/o dog was very sick and I can't afford his dental bills I felt completely useless and destroyed. , This is the 2 things that for the most part are the reasons I allowed myself to get drawn back into taking pills luckily nothing ever strong enough to really get hooked for more than a day or 2 in a row again but still I'm just dipping my toes in and I know I shouldn't be.... Going back to the drugs isn't gonna do me any good... I'm fully aware of that but as we both know knowing something is far different than being able to Deal with it.. the best thing I can do right now is take on more Jobs( I work for myself), Give up all of my spare time and my evenings to make more money so that I can get him the dental surgery he deserves. But man it was so easy just to slump down and feel defeated. I thought everything was going well. If only I had Taken it upon myself to keep an Eye on his dental health and make sure my ex was actually taking care of him properly... He is the most amazing Mini bullterrier you'd ever meet and as goofy as people think he looks, I've never had so much care for an animal in my life...We both ended up getting clean and I stuck around in her life Even after we broke up because I knew she would not take care of him but i'd had no idea she had ALREADY NOT been taking care of him since day one.. He had never gone for a check up, she had never brushed his teeth And that's just the beginning of it....When I found out how bad he was doing I became furious and because I'm of course not going to violently erupt at her. All that would do is give her a reason to take him out of my life completely... I just didn't know how to handle it and I needed to escape again but I didn't have any kind of support system or anyone to even call.. Sorry for the long message but just wanted to congratulate you on your success thus far and hopefully encourage you to do your best to make sure you have a genuinely reliable support system in place even if you know or believe you are strong enough to get through temptation when your world falls apart. Much love brother I wish you the very best and I'm proud of you even though we will never meet. Her brother is in addiction..If we didn't suffer to begin with neither of us would be here and that gives us some common ground that being said hope you have a good day or night and once again I wish you the very best.
Just heard this during a time I needed it. Things happen for a reason Ik this to be true but the pain and suffering just seems to never end. Whatever your going through td know your not alone wether it’s relationship related or whatever there’s ppl there for ya. Sending love to all. Hope your lives go well and you live prosperous!!
@@Ekohmusic to be honest man I think this is my new favorite song and that’s saying alot because I’ve had the same fav song since like middle school and I’m 30 now but this one just hits me so hard I just can’t explain it or say anything else but thank you again for this one
Dude... why you digging so deep into my feelings like no doubt I been through heavy shit lately and this song hits so hard that I want to cry. People can talk shit about being weak or what ever but there always comes a time that life breaks you. Songs like this help you through the night! Thank you ekoh I always love your music and you never cease to one up every time! Keep doing what you are doing! More people need to hear your music!
Man, you got me cutting onions out here. Way too relatable. Keep up the great work, I cant wait to see what 2022 brings. Just remember that you've got an army of fans behind you, ready to support you in any way we can.
I'm already in tears and watching you run your fingers through her hair made me bawl some more!! Why do you make me feel this waaaayyy??? Damn you Ekoh, You sure do make folks feel how you feel inside.
Wow! What a wonderful song ❤ I stumbled on a post of yours on Instagram 1 hour ago and now I'm here listening to your music. This is such an amazing song, I'll listen to it on repeat like an obsessed person for a few days - and they I'll move on to your other songs. You've managed to capture how complicated love and relationships can be in such a beautiful way. We all have our own baggage and loving and letting ourselves be loved is not always easy, but I like to think it's worth it - even if in the end it breaks us apart. Some people are worth the risk. I think all the pain we may feel one day is the price we have to pay for love... For some reason, I think the people who tell you to "save yourself" are the ones that need love the most. And the fact that they don't want to take advantage of you, but tell you to run away shows they're actually good people who try to protect you (from themselves). These people should be loved deeply because I think that's what they are capable of offering. Or maybe I'm just romanticizing some attachment issues, one of those two... If you're reading this, whoever you are, I really hope you'll love deeply and be loved in return. It's a beautiful, dangerous, bittersweet experience that changes you forever. And if it breaks your heart, it means you're capable of a love so deep that it can tear you apart - in a twisted way, I think that's beautiful ❤ Pain has a way of adding depth and meaning to our lives, especially if we don't run from it or shut down. Healing has a way of teaching us the value of things and finding strength in ourselves. And all this makes us appreciate love and happiness more deeply when we find them again.
You have the ability to put feelings that people in certain situations feel so honestly and raw and it’s like getting the wind knocked out of you in a cathartic way.
Your music is what keeps me going if it wasnt for you i would have been gone alongtime ago. Its like you come out with a song that relates to my life just at the right timing . Thanks for making these hits keep at it your the best
Helps people who are addicts see thru the fog what the other is going thru. In the moment we can't see it because of being high. I gave it up and I'm so touched by this song bc I'm going thru it now but the tables are turned. Thank you for opening eyes stuck in the haze.
I've been hurt so much I have become the person who's a mess and f's things up over and over - cause my heart doesn't work right anymore. I tell people the same, run...save yourself.
This song really pulls at the heartstrings. It can feel like an emotional rollercoaster at times as we struggle with everything going through our thoughts. I can definitely relate to this one. It hits the feels.
Me too my man cheated on me he's changed after we had our rainbow baby even sobered up I quit smoking and being an alcoholic when I found out I was already 2 months pregnant but no matter how hard shit gets we are their for eachother and sometimes wonder if we should just split but then hurt like hell when we are apart so this hits hard
All your music just hit the heart strings just right man!! Keep it up!!!!! Always hearing that ekoh in my head. Your music always picks me up when life gets rough. I lost someone close to me on xmas and I know I had your playlist on repeat. I just wanna say thank you for always making real music Ekoh!!!
I'm currently going through my biggest heartbreak rn i struggle with bipolar disorder along with other mental issues. She was always there for me till this time I crossed the line and lost her. You literally took every word out of my mouth and put it in this beautiful song thank you ekoh your music has been my crutch through this ordeal and I can never thank you enough.
Keep your head up man. I learned that I need to take care of me first and that’s what’s usually best for any relationship. It’s hard to do so I feel you. 🖤
Love it man, such an amazing song. You two have been this all together and I can definitely tell that she’s got your back. I’ve seen the steady momentum and drive and I’m loving it. I remember when you used to work all summer and save all of your tips to be Able to buy merch and play shows/tour in the winter. Your devotion to your music and self development has brought me happiness and I appreciate that you share your music with us. I’m proud of you man.
@@Ekohmusic@Vans owes you a debt of gratitude bc I haven't bought a pair of skater shoes in 20 years, but I bought some Vans to bring to my next concert!
Dude whoa.... That second verse got me.. when youre looking in the mirror. Exactly how I was feeling in my life/marriage before it ended last year. I just never had the words to say how I was feeling.. this hit it..
Can’t help but come back to this song, related to it massively when trying to find me again after a hard breakup. I’m there now but these lyrics hit hard ! You don’t get the recognition you deserve
Youre amazing. This song describes exactly why ive stayed single literally since September 2021. Because i have a vicious cycle of self destruct without me even realizing it, with almost every relationship I've since i was in my mid teens. So, this definitely hit hard and resonated in my soul. Keep up the amazing work
I can't even put into words how hard that hit me brother. We share very similar struggles and I see myself in you. I don't know how you're feeling right now but stay strong, and know many others are going through the same thing. And you're helping them.
At 33 years old ive listened to alot of music. Ive related to several tracks in my life. This one though... Ive never experienced such a powerful connection in my life. I cant even express it enough in words. Thankyou for this, i feel less alone in my mindset now.
Ekoh i recently discovered you as an artist i dont listen to ur style often these days, but ur music is relateable and hits home. This song and numb and sober pretty much describe my life right now perfectly. I am a recovering addict with 7 years and ive been at my low lately on the verge of picking back up the booze and heroin. Everyday is a battle not to, me and the love of my life fell apart and my depression and memories of my past are in full flare. Ive worked so hard to get where i am but the more i achieve the lonelier i feel. Ur music helped me to not pick up the other night and im grateful for that. Keep doing what ur doing theres a lot of us out there that feel ur story and live it also. Music can save lives.
@Ekohmusic I appreciate the response. I'm trying to make it with my sobriety intact. Just lost the love of my life, money problems, life basically on top of depression and anxiety.. so hard not to at least grab the bottle but once that demon is out it's out. I'm glad I found ur music though u have mad skills and I can relate to almost every song. I don't say that lightly I'm very picky with music and find most modern rappers to be a joke I only listen to old school rap usually like original Eminem and Tupac etc. Ever since I found u I've had u on repeat. Keep up the good work, and in ur song u mentioned its work now to u, but ur doing good work and making a difference in lives with ur messages so that's something to be proud of in my humble opinion. Thank you again for the response.
Great song, lets hope we do it right this year. This touched me again, like most songs do but yeah go out and save yourself, i hope they lend a hand because i for sure would give one.
Music like this makes me get closer to my gf. If she stays she's definitely a keeper. 💯 If she understands you can't replace that love. Opposite attract 💪🏼great song Ekoh. Put that heart of gold into this track
@@Ekohmusic I've have to remind myself of this in times when my depression tries to get the better of me. It can be rough, but I'm still here. Alive and kickin'.
All real people will always respect rappers who rap about life and shit they go through that a lot of us can relate to. You have a real talent for putting it into words and spitting it to a beat we can all enjoy. A million times better to listen to than mumbling about flash cars and partying. The fact that less people know about you than you deserve means you're truly worth listening to.
Thank you for all of this... There are many artists who dance on the fringe of their truth, traumas... Maybe out of fear of not being understood, fear of rejection .... I am so glad you chose to go all in, all the raw emotions, fears, bearing it all for everyone to see.... You have brought more people out of the darkness than you will likely ever know... Its beautiful to see someone able to put into words everything the world tells us to bottle up ... And release it... Amazing, inspiring , thank you ....
Wow brother!!!! Just wow!! I know n feel this! This is how it was for me and my ex! 8yrs first 5 was perfect! The last 3 was like living inside my head with all my insecurities, pain, self esteem and depression. My health disappeared and my self worth faded!! Everyday I would tell myself it’s me and it’s because I am not deserving of love!! And I’d look into her eyes and see she’s not there, she checked out months ago.. she has had enough of the daily routine. Not talking laying in bed feeling empty and unloved!! My depression rubbed off onto my ex, enough was enough so she saved herself!! 8 months on I’m just getting my shit together!! Why she gains her independence and frees herself of all co-dependence, I struggle to deal with my emotions!! Only now do I see my worth!! By feeling broken and lost and hurt, i understand the value of what I lost with my ex, It’s a reminder that anything can happen and that people want different things as they go through life.
Been in a real dark place these last few months, id be lying if i said i hadnt considered removing myself from the equation, then one of my fave artists drops a new track and im listening to him rapping about my exact situation, and those words hit me harder than I could imagine. Im not alone. Thanks for keeping me alive man, always with that perfect timing, I appreciate you more than i could ever say.
Songs & videos like this is why I say Ekoh is one of the artist that inspire & motivate me the most💯. What a deep,emotional,meaningful & Powerful song & video for sure💯. Chills & goosebumps all over me everytime I listen to this song💯.
I appreciate your existence so much man .I can't tell you how much your music helps me I swear its like you are talking straight to me sometimes. Much love buddy you deserve every bit of success you've earned it and then some
Honesty! Self truth, accountability, following what you know is right for you. Trusting your instincts and your path!! That looks like what a wise gentleman does - forgive yourself when you need to. If you jave peace than the decision was right. The rest is rear view. Ty, new fan today
Feel this song in my bones. Suffering from a failed marriage. Took so much abuse. Addiction brought us together but also tore us apart. The depression got worse every year. It's hard. Glad I found this song cuz it's everything I feel.
Just walked away from 10 years of the most beautiful love with that a double edge sword. We both tried . We both loved one another. It wasnt enough addiction concurs us all who are genetically set for it. I'm sorry you couldn't save each other. Love doesn't hurt.... Right?
100k! Bout damn time. Its so dope to see how far you've come. Keep those bars coming! Heres to the next 100k and beyond! Let's see you go from underrated to top rated.
When I need time to think and reflect, I come back here on TH-cam to listen to your songs and free me, from some things that happen in real life, thank you for each lyric, melody and feeling that transmits in each of them, greetings from Brazil Bro.
Without you I choke I struggle to breathe. A slow death because I can't make my wrist bleed. I struggle for air I instantly start choking. I can't cover the pain with toxic joking. No smoking no drinking Cant drown out my thinking I'm sinking, I'm falling Can't walk not even crawling I can drink the drinks take the pills smoke it out ignore the bills I'm wet and cold I've got the chills Tried every drug, to kill the feels Your words affect me your body too Beautiful self-destruction if we are through How to live without you I have no clue My feelings bruised and broken only blue You can save me or destroy me I might be smarter just to ignore me Every time I see you it floor me I always self distruct, I'm like poor me Pour me a shot pour me a bottle I go self-destruction I go full throttle I gas light I'm narcissistic I see it and I'm trying to fix it want 2 Change can you risk it
Man, this is exactly how I felt for years growing up wow. Your music speaks so much to me personally . I don’t show it and I never really did but I’ve always felt like this . I’m so glad I ran into your music
Wow this video is breathtaking. this one feels extremely personal, it’s one of the most beautiful videos I’ve seen in a long time. I love that Megan’s In it, I wouldn’t imagine the video anyone other way. You guys are too adorable and this is by far my favorite video of yours, thank you so much for making one for this song.
Between you and Chris Webby. I’ll never understand how more radio stations are t playing your music. What they offer us now is thrash compared to what I hear on here. This is so raw.
You're one of my favorite artists right now your music give me a feeling I can't even explain. It's like what you're rapping about I can relate to in real life your music is like medicine bro.
Wow.....you gave my goosebumps, I cried. Ekoh this is brilliant, this is deep. I'm so glad I became a fan this year. I am a fan for life. Thank you for sharing your talent with us. Happy New Year!
OMG another one that got hit out the park! The emotions of this one rendered me speechless. So many times has that phrase "Go and save yourself" gone through my mind and out my mouth. F**k get out of my head. Keep up the excellent work. Your on your way up time to just maintain your exceptional work.
This cuts deep , if you feel it you know . This is hits harder then 95 percent of main stream . Underground hip hop has always been the truth , shit hit hard .
Wow.....this is amazing man. The emotions you put into your music is phenomenal! And the emotions I get out of it listening to your muic is a phenomenon!
I'm speechless ,ekoh ... This song is heavy and deep but real . I had to watch the video twice to find the words to describe it and listen to it .. you are talented rapper you have a gift of speak out. I'm always here for you . Happy holidays n happy new year 🎆 ekoh . I can't wait to hear more music from you .. you are realest guy and rapper .
@@Ekohmusic you're welcome and I'm just be real with you. Some of your lyrics I understand and I deal with pstd , depression and anxiety too .. understand the look out below song that you did ..
I just found you. And now I'm listening to every single word. Been on both sides.. and your newer stuff is legit my life right now. After all my loss now I have an incurable rare disease. And seeing who's really 💯 is hitting hard. Keep doing you. There's an army behind you holding u down and up thank you @ekhomusic
I can’t thank you enough for the support on this one. I didn’t know what the reception would be and it’s been better than I imagined.
No, thank you! It gets better and we got your back. If you need someone to listen to you, we're family. And congrats in advance on 100k, 💪🏼😁👍🏻
Love this.
Best song you've made in my opinion
🤝🏻
Ekoh I know you webb and merk don't do it for the money or fame even though both are nice. Your incredible home. I deal with do much anger in me that it seems lately your music is the only thing that saves me. I wanna die but don't at the same. I have kids a 14 y/o and a 3 y/o. No home but I love you man. Don't stop cause right now I need your music in my life
As a "fixer" myself, its nice to hear someone acknowledge when they dont have the ability to be in a healthy relationship and that its not your partners responsibility to fix you.
This perfectly describes imposter syndrome. The depression and anxiety and self doubt eat you from the inside out. Until there is nothing left. You are left wondering how someone can love such a broken thing. You start asking them to save themselves because in the end, you don't think you're salvageable. I love and hate how close the lyrics hit home.
Yeah that shit hurts. ❤️
Imposter syndrome. So that’s what it’s called.
So like blitz and stolas in helluva boss?
@@jadethebigD oh em gee.. I totally see that connection. Someone make an AMV now!
My God you are so damn right
I hate thinking we're going to fail and try to push away the ones who care. They stay because they love us and hate our demons as much as we do. Great song.
Thank you for saying this…
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50K VIEWS?! Thank you guys so much. It always means a little more when songs like this get that love.
276k, we still here bruh
Just listened to Butterfly at random, now this song has me hooked.
This song gives me Cryptic Wisdom vibes! Your new music seems harmonized and meaningful. I think some of your older stuff was more lyrical. Whatever you bless us with in the future, I hope 2022 is the year you blow up!
Ekoh, you're a talented artist Brother!!
I seen you in syracuse. I love you music and you heart filled message that some won't get. You really are a sent to help people in need. Even though you need people to support and help you. You are always here for us
I resonate with this song so much because I’m really sick & have a chronic illness that’s destroyed the outside of my body & put me on chemo & almost killed me twice now & is ripping open my body leaving scars so hideous I would never try to have another relationship & let them see those parts of me.. & so every time I hear the chorus of this I just cry & when I saw you liked my comment my heart left my body.. thank you for helping me get through the days
Dude Ekoh, I know I've said it before but your music is saving people's lives for real.
You're an un caped hero for sure!!!!
Appreciate the love a lot man
We love youuuu!!!!! Speak out if ur having a bad day we won't belittle ya we gotcha back like u have for us tho you may not notice!!!!
This is my VERY FIRST TIME seeing you Ekoh, won't lie, NEVER heard of you, and I again I won't lie, IMMEDIATELY subscribed to you, like the song, and at around a minute and a half into this track, Niagara Falls from my eyeballs. I've been through some things and feel lost, I feel your words will help guide me into MY right direction. I'm looking forward to going through your other tracks. Keep it up lil homie.
@@Ekohmusicyou luv your fans as much as they luv u!
For all those who understand this song realize there's so many people that feel the same way!!! Ekoh ... you're amazing man ...as a lyrical enthusiast this song really hit me because so many times I realize I can't stop my inevitable cycle as a person sometimes it's like the people need to go and save themselves ...thank you for blessing me with this song
Thank you so so much!
If we make them stay. We will suffer until we learn the lesson God is separating his people for a reason rejection is god's protection, he will bring the people for us believe
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@@Ekohmusic2024 is gonna be a great year. Luv u cuz!
He said it... " I don't think that love is really love until you get hurt" BOOM!
Never been hurt by love,it's myself I hurt!!!!
"She ain't cheatin just fantazing bout who i was" hit home
Real shit tho
I feel like that's my husband... Not cheating but fantasizing about who I used to be... 😭😭😭
The most underrated rapper of all time I swear this dude speaks to peoples souls and emotions it’s helped me way more than I can say thank you though ekoh
Thank you homie
TRUTH...!!!
True words! Shit hits on a whole different level! ❤️🙏
Not really his voice is annoying he needs to learn cadence and improve his mixing & mastering the auto tone is terrible
He is my most played artist since I found him a few years ago
Man… this isn’t my usual kind of music. But as a veteran struggling with ptsd and going through my second failed marriage due to it.. did this song ever hit hard!
Keep ya head up bro.
Brother I’m with with you one failed and my 12 year relationship is exploding in my face along with the rest of my life. If you ever need an outlet feel free to reach out.
I literally want to cry after hearing this track. This literally explained a whole part of my life where I had to push away the only person I truly loved to the bottom of my heart but, had to let go because I was only going to drag her down with me if I didn't do it. I swear these words cut sharper than a surgical scalpel. I wish I could have did something different back then so, I'd been able to save 8 years of my life I just let burn away in those ghostly flames that haunt me today.
Literally at this point rn. Fucking painful.
That's what real music is supposed to do
I would say this how you write poetry to a melody
Why didn't you fight if you loved her. Why didn't you vow to rise above your failures, your issues, your vices?
Why wasn't love enough for you to work on yourself? I don't understand why you'd leave to work on yourself, even though you had someone who loved you at your side who would have been there by your side through all of it.
You left her. She could have been wishing every day you didn't. That you believed she was strong enough to love you despite your issues.
You left. But love doesn't just leave. She was left with half of her heart in her hands and a bloody void where you took the other half with you.
Tell me, would you fight for your love now? Fight against your issues while staying with her? Or would you walk away again?
I get that it’s hard to lose the love of your life the only one that only gets you. I found that nature is the only closure at times that heals the soul and tears. I think we’re all a little screwed up though and all have issues. I’m sure she has her own set of issues. I have my own complicated story but I hurt someone that meant more to me than what they honestly knew. I wish I could tell them how sorry I am and how much they impacted my life but I’ll never be able to. I will say this though don’t ghost that girl because it will do more damage to her if she truly loves you.
Thanks for being a part of me saving myself.
This song is so real man. "Maybe I’m just more [freaking] comfortable in the chaos" bar got me... Sounds like my life
Thank you man
As long as you keep speaking from your soul, anything you drop will save somebody, someday, your pain brings me healing, when there's no light, I heard pickel Rick, vibed, listened, resonated, then went through the songs falling deeply into your messages, This world needs more people just like you. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME, ENERGY AND HARD WORK!!!!
ekoh, this speaks years decades of my brain.. thanks my dude i would love to do cover work for you... as a fan you inspire alot of confidence in ourselves.. and i appreciate that.. it took most of my life to gain any confidence in my self and its a small light.. but people like you add mirrors to the light. thank you..
you know... I've been in a relationship where I've been hurt and many friendships where I've been hurt, so I've had enough of it. Girlfriends lie, friends lie even more and let you down, I've had bad luck on that part. I somewhat have money, because I work 12h shifts 5 days a week. It's work where people come and go and some people even open up to you. It's takes a load on you.... But on the free days, not sure why, but i always come back to your music and it keeps me going on.
No fronts but I have a year clean and sober March 8 this next week. Inspirational is a word that fails to convey how powerful your music is Ekoh....
your the Man Nathan!!! ill be 100% real aswell, i claim 4.5+ years clean off fent and pills.. but ive Gotten a few small dose opiates here and there like a handful of teeth three's horse some tramadol or hydromorphone... I would never take anything that was equal to or greater than roughly 25 or 30 mg of oxycodone , But that was only because I had also started taking out president AKA xanax. never written or said that outloud to anyone. but i just reset my recovery timer on this app i use to keep track of the days. i was just lying to myself, a relapse is a relapse... little or alot.
proud of you man, i made it to 2 years and 5 months before i lost sight of my intent. lost my morals and goals, im the Living example of why at the end of the day even though some people like me did not need a support system right away.
When I lost a close cousin in a house fire and then Found out my 10y/o dog was very sick and I can't afford his dental bills I felt completely useless and destroyed. , This is the 2 things that for the most part are the reasons I allowed myself to get drawn back into taking pills luckily nothing ever strong enough to really get hooked for more than a day or 2 in a row again but still I'm just dipping my toes in and I know I shouldn't be.... Going back to the drugs isn't gonna do me any good... I'm fully aware of that but as we both know knowing something is far different than being able to Deal with it.. the best thing I can do right now is take on more Jobs( I work for myself), Give up all of my spare time and my evenings to make more money so that I can get him the dental surgery he deserves. But man it was so easy just to slump down and feel defeated. I thought everything was going well. If only I had Taken it upon myself to keep an Eye on his dental health and make sure my ex was actually taking care of him properly... He is the most amazing Mini bullterrier you'd ever meet and as goofy as people think he looks, I've never had so much care for an animal in my life...We both ended up getting clean and I stuck around in her life Even after we broke up because I knew she would not take care of him but i'd had no idea she had ALREADY NOT been taking care of him since day one.. He had never gone for a check up, she had never brushed his teeth And that's just the beginning of it....When I found out how bad he was doing I became furious and because I'm of course not going to violently erupt at her. All that would do is give her a reason to take him out of my life completely... I just didn't know how to handle it and I needed to escape again but I didn't have any kind of support system or anyone to even call.. Sorry for the long message but just wanted to congratulate you on your success thus far and hopefully encourage you to do your best to make sure you have a genuinely reliable support system in place even if you know or believe you are strong enough to get through temptation when your world falls apart. Much love brother I wish you the very best and I'm proud of you even though we will never meet. Her brother is in addiction..If we didn't suffer to begin with neither of us would be here and that gives us some common ground that being said hope you have a good day or night and once again I wish you the very best.
I love how that Ekoh lays out the darkside of mentality. Its avibe remindinding me that im human
Just heard this during a time I needed it. Things happen for a reason Ik this to be true but the pain and suffering just seems to never end. Whatever your going through td know your not alone wether it’s relationship related or whatever there’s ppl there for ya. Sending love to all. Hope your lives go well and you live prosperous!!
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Thank you for all your raw, open, lyrics. It’s saving lives. I hope you know that. Hope God is part of your life and He blesses you.
You honestly put into words a feeling I have all the time and don’t know how to express thank you
Thank you man
@@Ekohmusic to be honest man I think this is my new favorite song and that’s saying alot because I’ve had the same fav song since like middle school and I’m 30 now but this one just hits me so hard I just can’t explain it or say anything else but thank you again for this one
Dude... why you digging so deep into my feelings like no doubt I been through heavy shit lately and this song hits so hard that I want to cry. People can talk shit about being weak or what ever but there always comes a time that life breaks you. Songs like this help you through the night! Thank you ekoh I always love your music and you never cease to one up every time! Keep doing what you are doing! More people need to hear your music!
Sorry man! Gotta do it to keep the sanity lol 🖤
@@Ekohmusic you have absolutely no reason to be sorry my brother this song is a masterpiece!
@@Ekohmusiche luvs you deep! Come out and see a live show, Sean. You will love it!
Literally everything I've been feeling.. keeping my mask up while tears are flowing down my face..
Such a Heartfelt song. Cant wait for this video 🙏
Man, you got me cutting onions out here. Way too relatable.
Keep up the great work, I cant wait to see what 2022 brings.
Just remember that you've got an army of fans behind you, ready to support you in any way we can.
That means a lot bro
I'm already in tears and watching you run your fingers through her hair made me bawl some more!! Why do you make me feel this waaaayyy??? Damn you Ekoh, You sure do make folks feel how you feel inside.
Wow! What a wonderful song ❤ I stumbled on a post of yours on Instagram 1 hour ago and now I'm here listening to your music. This is such an amazing song, I'll listen to it on repeat like an obsessed person for a few days - and they I'll move on to your other songs.
You've managed to capture how complicated love and relationships can be in such a beautiful way. We all have our own baggage and loving and letting ourselves be loved is not always easy, but I like to think it's worth it - even if in the end it breaks us apart. Some people are worth the risk. I think all the pain we may feel one day is the price we have to pay for love...
For some reason, I think the people who tell you to "save yourself" are the ones that need love the most. And the fact that they don't want to take advantage of you, but tell you to run away shows they're actually good people who try to protect you (from themselves). These people should be loved deeply because I think that's what they are capable of offering. Or maybe I'm just romanticizing some attachment issues, one of those two...
If you're reading this, whoever you are, I really hope you'll love deeply and be loved in return. It's a beautiful, dangerous, bittersweet experience that changes you forever. And if it breaks your heart, it means you're capable of a love so deep that it can tear you apart - in a twisted way, I think that's beautiful ❤ Pain has a way of adding depth and meaning to our lives, especially if we don't run from it or shut down. Healing has a way of teaching us the value of things and finding strength in ourselves. And all this makes us appreciate love and happiness more deeply when we find them again.
Seeing you perform this live in Hampton was insane! Love your work so much
Started my journey into the Indie rap game and I am a very much changed person because of the perspectives. Thankyou. Happy New Year everyone.
That’s awesome man thank you
You have the ability to put feelings that people in certain situations feel so honestly and raw and it’s like getting the wind knocked out of you in a cathartic way.
Your music is what keeps me going if it wasnt for you i would have been gone alongtime ago. Its like you come out with a song that relates to my life just at the right timing . Thanks for making these hits keep at it your the best
Helps people who are addicts see thru the fog what the other is going thru. In the moment we can't see it because of being high. I gave it up and I'm so touched by this song bc I'm going thru it now but the tables are turned. Thank you for opening eyes stuck in the haze.
That’s so true
I've been hurt so much I have become the person who's a mess and f's things up over and over - cause my heart doesn't work right anymore. I tell people the same, run...save yourself.
This song really pulls at the heartstrings. It can feel like an emotional rollercoaster at times as we struggle with everything going through our thoughts. I can definitely relate to this one. It hits the feels.
Thank you ali
@@Ekohmusicthis song is so true it makes you realize so much
Me too my man cheated on me he's changed after we had our rainbow baby even sobered up I quit smoking and being an alcoholic when I found out I was already 2 months pregnant but no matter how hard shit gets we are their for eachother and sometimes wonder if we should just split but then hurt like hell when we are apart so this hits hard
All your music just hit the heart strings just right man!! Keep it up!!!!! Always hearing that ekoh in my head. Your music always picks me up when life gets rough. I lost someone close to me on xmas and I know I had your playlist on repeat. I just wanna say thank you for always making real music Ekoh!!!
I appreciate it so much
I'm currently going through my biggest heartbreak rn i struggle with bipolar disorder along with other mental issues. She was always there for me till this time I crossed the line and lost her. You literally took every word out of my mouth and put it in this beautiful song thank you ekoh your music has been my crutch through this ordeal and I can never thank you enough.
Keep your head up man. I learned that I need to take care of me first and that’s what’s usually best for any relationship. It’s hard to do so I feel you. 🖤
@@Ekohmusic I'm literally bawling that you replied the year just started and you've already been the highlight. Thank you so much
Ekoh you’re amazing and your songs truly tell a story about who you are. Love everything that you’re about bro. This is such a good song.
Thank you bro
Much love!
Love ya bro
Love it man, such an amazing song. You two have been this all together and I can definitely tell that she’s got your back. I’ve seen the steady momentum and drive and I’m loving it. I remember when you used to work all summer and save all of your tips to be Able to buy merch and play shows/tour in the winter. Your devotion to your music and self development has brought me happiness and I appreciate that you share your music with us. I’m proud of you man.
Straight up bro! That’s the fuckin grind. Thanks for your help in those days
@@Ekohmusic@Vans owes you a debt of gratitude bc I haven't bought a pair of skater shoes in 20 years, but I bought some Vans to bring to my next concert!
Dude whoa.... That second verse got me.. when youre looking in the mirror. Exactly how I was feeling in my life/marriage before it ended last year. I just never had the words to say how I was feeling.. this hit it..
This song is a gem and will probably still be after many years for us 'the selected' listeners.
Can’t help but come back to this song, related to it massively when trying to find me again after a hard breakup. I’m there now but these lyrics hit hard ! You don’t get the recognition you deserve
Youre amazing. This song describes exactly why ive stayed single literally since September 2021. Because i have a vicious cycle of self destruct without me even realizing it, with almost every relationship I've since i was in my mid teens. So, this definitely hit hard and resonated in my soul. Keep up the amazing work
Thank you so so much
@@Ekohmusicyt metrics, what's up. Bring EKOH with you!
I can't even put into words how hard that hit me brother. We share very similar struggles and I see myself in you. I don't know how you're feeling right now but stay strong, and know many others are going through the same thing. And you're helping them.
Keep ur head up man
Damn I was not prepared for that song going into it. Powerful song man and such amazing words!
Thanks a lot man
At 33 years old ive listened to alot of music. Ive related to several tracks in my life. This one though... Ive never experienced such a powerful connection in my life. I cant even express it enough in words. Thankyou for this, i feel less alone in my mindset now.
Wow. That means a lot man. Thank you. I’m so glad to make that connection.
One of the realest and most heartfelt songs ive heard this year
Thanks man
I didn’t know Michael Myers knew how to type
Ekoh i recently discovered you as an artist i dont listen to ur style often these days, but ur music is relateable and hits home. This song and numb and sober pretty much describe my life right now perfectly. I am a recovering addict with 7 years and ive been at my low lately on the verge of picking back up the booze and heroin. Everyday is a battle not to, me and the love of my life fell apart and my depression and memories of my past are in full flare. Ive worked so hard to get where i am but the more i achieve the lonelier i feel. Ur music helped me to not pick up the other night and im grateful for that. Keep doing what ur doing theres a lot of us out there that feel ur story and live it also. Music can save lives.
Bro, you’re not alone out here trust me. You can do this. I’ve been in that same position so many times, you’ll make it out.
@Ekohmusic I appreciate the response. I'm trying to make it with my sobriety intact. Just lost the love of my life, money problems, life basically on top of depression and anxiety.. so hard not to at least grab the bottle but once that demon is out it's out. I'm glad I found ur music though u have mad skills and I can relate to almost every song. I don't say that lightly I'm very picky with music and find most modern rappers to be a joke I only listen to old school rap usually like original Eminem and Tupac etc. Ever since I found u I've had u on repeat. Keep up the good work, and in ur song u mentioned its work now to u, but ur doing good work and making a difference in lives with ur messages so that's something to be proud of in my humble opinion. Thank you again for the response.
Great song, lets hope we do it right this year. This touched me again, like most songs do but yeah go out and save yourself, i hope they lend a hand because i for sure would give one.
Thank you
@@Ekohmusic My pleasure, from artist to artist it's genuine
Ooh that beat. Those lyrics. You know the struggle as well, the battle within
Thanks for watching man
@@Ekohmusic thanks for what you do bro
Let's gooooooo Absolutely amazing brother 💯 🔥 💯🔥💯🔥💯🔥💯🔥💯🔥💯🔥
Music like this makes me get closer to my gf. If she stays she's definitely a keeper. 💯 If she understands you can't replace that love. Opposite attract 💪🏼great song Ekoh. Put that heart of gold into this track
Absolutely
I feel this one in my soul... Just gotta keep that head up and moving forward. It does get better, even when it doesn't feel like it.
Facts
@@Ekohmusic I've have to remind myself of this in times when my depression tries to get the better of me. It can be rough, but I'm still here. Alive and kickin'.
All real people will always respect rappers who rap about life and shit they go through that a lot of us can relate to. You have a real talent for putting it into words and spitting it to a beat we can all enjoy.
A million times better to listen to than mumbling about flash cars and partying. The fact that less people know about you than you deserve means you're truly worth listening to.
That means a lot man
Hits hard, hits real.
How this dude manages to link with so many people on so many levels every time is wild.
So here for it.
Thanks so so much man
@@Ekohmusicthey know you are solid!
Highly relatable right now in my life. First time hearing anything you’ve done dude. Pretty Solid!
Bruh!! Hittin home hella hard! Don’t stop Watchu doin my guy
Thank you for all of this... There are many artists who dance on the fringe of their truth, traumas... Maybe out of fear of not being understood, fear of rejection .... I am so glad you chose to go all in, all the raw emotions, fears, bearing it all for everyone to see.... You have brought more people out of the darkness than you will likely ever know... Its beautiful to see someone able to put into words everything the world tells us to bottle up ... And release it... Amazing, inspiring , thank you ....
Wow brother!!!! Just wow!! I know n feel this! This is how it was for me and my ex! 8yrs first 5 was perfect! The last 3 was like living inside my head with all my insecurities, pain, self esteem and depression. My health disappeared and my self worth faded!! Everyday I would tell myself it’s me and it’s because I am not deserving of love!! And I’d look into her eyes and see she’s not there, she checked out months ago.. she has had enough of the daily routine. Not talking laying in bed feeling empty and unloved!! My depression rubbed off onto my ex, enough was enough so she saved herself!! 8 months on I’m just getting my shit together!! Why she gains her independence and frees herself of all co-dependence, I struggle to deal with my emotions!! Only now do I see my worth!! By feeling broken and lost and hurt, i understand the value of what I lost with my ex, It’s a reminder that anything can happen and that people want different things as they go through life.
Been in a real dark place these last few months, id be lying if i said i hadnt considered removing myself from the equation, then one of my fave artists drops a new track and im listening to him rapping about my exact situation, and those words hit me harder than I could imagine. Im not alone. Thanks for keeping me alive man, always with that perfect timing, I appreciate you more than i could ever say.
Keep your head up. I know it’s gets difficult but there’s light at the end of the tunnel.
A lyrical genius. First time listening to this song and it hits home. Ekoh thank you..
Thank you so so much!
people like you are the ones who are going to save us in this world! call this music is underrated! this is art!
We’re going to save each other. Thank you for the support.
Songs & videos like this is why I say Ekoh is one of the artist that inspire & motivate me the most💯. What a deep,emotional,meaningful & Powerful song & video for sure💯. Chills & goosebumps all over me everytime I listen to this song💯.
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@@EkohmusicI gave @Vans the Andy Dufresne treatment.
Probably my most relatable and favorite songs out of millions out there. Thank you so much ekoh
Wow. Thank you so much
This is one of my favorite songs from Ekoh. Visuals are going to be epic. ☯️💯
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I appreciate your existence so much man .I can't tell you how much your music helps me I swear its like you are talking straight to me sometimes. Much love buddy you deserve every bit of success you've earned it and then some
Thank you so much man
Let’s gooooooo
Eli fam You made my day with leaving a comment on the vid and being In the premiere chat. 🖤🙏🏻
My dude!
Honesty! Self truth, accountability, following what you know is right for you. Trusting your instincts and your path!!
That looks like what a wise gentleman does - forgive yourself when you need to. If you jave peace than the decision was right. The rest is rear view. Ty, new fan today
Feel this song in my bones. Suffering from a failed marriage. Took so much abuse. Addiction brought us together but also tore us apart. The depression got worse every year. It's hard. Glad I found this song cuz it's everything I feel.
Just walked away from 10 years of the most beautiful love with that a double edge sword. We both tried . We both loved one another. It wasnt enough addiction concurs us all who are genetically set for it. I'm sorry you couldn't save each other. Love doesn't hurt.... Right?
The song is the story of my life at this moment.. Keep up the great work, you know you're a great artist when people feel your music in their soul.
100k! Bout damn time. Its so dope to see how far you've come. Keep those bars coming! Heres to the next 100k and beyond! Let's see you go from underrated to top rated.
Aye thank you so so much
When I need time to think and reflect, I come back here on TH-cam to listen to your songs and free me, from some things that happen in real life, thank you for each lyric, melody and feeling that transmits in each of them, greetings from Brazil Bro.
that means a lot to me man. thank you
Without you I choke I struggle to breathe. A slow death because I can't make my wrist bleed.
I struggle for air I instantly start choking.
I can't cover the pain with toxic joking.
No smoking no drinking
Cant drown out my thinking
I'm sinking, I'm falling
Can't walk not even crawling
I can drink the drinks take the pills
smoke it out ignore the bills
I'm wet and cold I've got the chills
Tried every drug, to kill the feels
Your words affect me your body too
Beautiful self-destruction if we are through
How to live without you I have no clue
My feelings bruised and broken only blue
You can save me or destroy me
I might be smarter just to ignore me
Every time I see you it floor me
I always self distruct, I'm like poor me
Pour me a shot pour me a bottle I go self-destruction I go full throttle
I gas light I'm narcissistic
I see it and I'm trying to fix it
want 2 Change can you risk it
Man, this is exactly how I felt for years growing up wow. Your music speaks so much to me personally . I don’t show it and I never really did but I’ve always felt like this . I’m so glad I ran into your music
Wow this video is breathtaking. this one feels extremely personal, it’s one of the most beautiful videos I’ve seen in a long time. I love that Megan’s In it, I wouldn’t imagine the video anyone other way. You guys are too adorable and this is by far my favorite video of yours, thank you so much for making one for this song.
I’m so glad you like it 🖤
🖤THIS IS BEAUTIFULLY MADE! (FROM A FELLOW LOVE MUSIC MAKER)🇩🇴
Thank you for your music, your words hit home every time you speak.
Thank you bro
Oh my goodness!!! I love it. ❤ And another one I'll be replaying over and over. Love your style Ekoh! 😘
I appreciate it so much
🙏LOVE RAP MUSIC! (FROM A FELLOW LOVE RAPPER)❌🎤
Between you and Chris Webby. I’ll never understand how more radio stations are t playing your music. What they offer us now is thrash compared to what I hear on here. This is so raw.
i appreciate the support a lot man and i know webby does too
Ekoh speaks to me ever more than some the greats , underated legend repping for Vegas here in Ireland 🇮🇪
Hell yea thanks homie
You're one of my favorite artists right now your music give me a feeling I can't even explain. It's like what you're rapping about I can relate to in real life your music is like medicine bro.
Wow.....you gave my goosebumps, I cried. Ekoh this is brilliant, this is deep. I'm so glad I became a fan this year. I am a fan for life. Thank you for sharing your talent with us. Happy New Year!
I’m so glad you did too. It means the world to me.
@@Ekohmusic love supporting you cuz! Life is lame without music!
Save yourself 👌🏻💃🏼🔥🔥
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Amazing , just amazing 💣❤️🔥
EKOH this is the best yet. PREACH IT. You'll always be a friend to me. Thank you.
Great work to the team too.
Thank you so much
This song says exactly what my heart won’t let me
That’s what music is for right there
OMG another one that got hit out the park! The emotions of this one rendered me speechless. So many times has that phrase "Go and save yourself" gone through my mind and out my mouth. F**k get out of my head. Keep up the excellent work. Your on your way up time to just maintain your exceptional work.
Man. Thank you so so much
Let's go... love it
Thanks man
Every time I'm struggling with staying sober I always come back to this song for support. Keep up the good work🤞🏼
Keep ur head up homie
This is brillaint i love it when the words just speak to you and you feel them this is how this song makes me feel
Thank you man
This cuts deep , if you feel it you know . This is hits harder then 95 percent of main stream . Underground hip hop has always been the truth , shit hit hard .
Thanks a lot man
This one breaks my heart every time I hear it. Much love Ekoh. 💚💚
Another great verbal slaying !
🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
And let me add that you and Megan have amazing chemistry 😍 y’all really bought that song to life.
🤩BEAUTIFUL AND LOVELY!! (FROM A FELLOW LOVE RAPPER)❌🇩🇴
Thank you
Another song that is deep. Thank you for ur music im definitely a fan. keep doing u and making great music ur talented.
Thank you
Wow.....this is amazing man. The emotions you put into your music is phenomenal! And the emotions I get out of it listening to your muic is a phenomenon!
I appreciate it so much man
We can save ourselves through spirituality and devotion to it. Spiritually is support and a higher belief system.
I'm speechless ,ekoh ... This song is heavy and deep but real . I had to watch the video twice to find the words to describe it and listen to it .. you are talented rapper you have a gift of speak out. I'm always here for you . Happy holidays n happy new year 🎆 ekoh . I can't wait to hear more music from you .. you are realest guy and rapper .
That means so much to me
@@Ekohmusic you're welcome and I'm just be real with you. Some of your lyrics I understand and I deal with pstd , depression and anxiety too .. understand the look out below song that you did ..
👁🎤THIS IS QUALITY MUSIC!! (FROM A FELLOW LOVE RAPPER)🇩🇴
I just found you. And now I'm listening to every single word. Been on both sides.. and your newer stuff is legit my life right now. After all my loss now I have an incurable rare disease. And seeing who's really 💯 is hitting hard. Keep doing you. There's an army behind you holding u down and up thank you @ekhomusic