"as a freshly adult woman.. that expectation, that supposed to do" "I can't control the fact that I was chronologically growing up but I could control the way my body reacted to it" wow.. you have just helped me realise one of the biggest reasons I got anorexia. My gosh. Holy crikeyy... this is me 100%.
The doctors that treated you after you got kicked by a horse sound like they thought being over eighteen magically makes you immune to fear. You needed someone that understood that you were scared, you didn't know what was going on and that you were in a lot of pain.
Chloe... wow... just... wow... that’s all I can say right now. Guuuurl, you don’t need to change yourself for anyone. You can still do all the things you did as a little girl without starving yourself. You. Are. FABULOUS. Now, Chloe, you cute little unicorn princess, don’t you ever forget how awesome you are. 🙁😊❤️❤️❤️
oh my goodness, i came to your channel because of heartbreak high and now i fell down the rabbit hole and watched almost all of your videos. i didn't comment on the other videos but that one just... felt personal. so relatable and honest. i'm so glad you overcame all of this, step by step. and now you are where you are! i'm so happy for you. thank you for sharing your experience.
i don't think i've cried harder to anything but this honestly that voice is in my head 24/7 saying those exact things and its hard to get rid of them and i've tired so hard to ignore them and sometimes i lose. but something about Chloe makes me want to keep going on with my life her advice is the best thing ever i love you so much Chloe x
I know this is an old video, but I really hope you see this. I'm currently suffering from orthorexia and this has just motivated me to go eat my dinner even though it has olive oil on it. Thank you.
You're an awesome Chloe. You made it and I believe that no matter what you're going to be such an inspiration to others. Love your personality. You've got similar traits and interests. Keep shining your star girl.
Chole, this is a very powerful and inspirational video:). God Bless you for making it:). I did not like the way the Doctors treated your "anxiety" in the Hospital. Some Doctors and Nurses were critical of me for being scared before I had my Bladder Surgery and before I got an Epidural (shots) in my Spinal Column. I personally do not have Anorexia, but from someone who can be a worrier, like myself, I would suggest that you remember that faith triumphs over fear. It is something I have to remind myself. Whenever you get a thought that is bad remember that God is love and you were created for a reason. I really enjoy your videos and your bravery. Growing up can be scary and any change also can be scary, but when we remind ourselves that negative things that do not kill us help us to grow Spiritually, we can help others grow. Keep making videos and be an inspiration to others:).
So much of what you said resonated with me. I remember, when I was 12, starting high school. It did cause some anxiety, but what made it worse was, the school was warned not to put me in the same class as a bully from primary school. But guess what? They did. And my mother didn't follow it up. What she could have done, was quietly ask that I get moved into another class and the bully need never have known. I remember, in that year, I developed asthma, and the cough was badly described by a respiratory physician, who knew about lungs, but knew nothing about psychology. I think that doctor should have said, also (I was diagnosed with coeliac disease, later on), as well as sending me to a cardiologist and an eye specialist, was to have looked at my mother and said, "If you don't take your son out of school, yesterday, you'll be in real trouble." The cardiologist noted that I have a scoliosis, which we later found was caused by wedging of some vertebrae. My mother made me sit for half an hour every night, with a wooden rod behind my back, held in the crooks of my elbows. The respiratory specialist told me my cough was a bit of a habit, when what he should have said was, "This cough is somewhat stress related asthma, and just like some kids will complain of a pain in the belly, yet doctors investigate and can't find an organic cause, this cough has an organic cause, but it has become a bit of a stress response." This doctor also suggested that I exercise like crazy, and my mother took it to extremes, such as making me jog every morning and then, after school swim in the backyard pool. I was skinny (my legs were solid, but my torso was long and thin, and this doctor told me I had to put on weight there, when what he should have said was, "Firstly, I think we should send you to gastroenterology, and we'll see if you have any problems, there, such as a wheat allergy. Then, after that, we can look at your diet." I was constantly pressured, and constantly bullied, as I also had pimples, and that caused a low self-esteem. Fortunately, I got some help. Starting university was difficult, as I was used to the school routine, but I was able to complete my degree,. My first year at university was very hard, as I wanted to major in Japanese and History, and the university I attended was not cosmopolitan (many of my friends were Asian, because I was bookish and amongst my fellow Australians, to be bookish saw you being labelled a "nerd" or whatever. In fact, I was referred to as "the nerd."
I remember you saying you did not want to grow up and now this makes sense. I was only 88 lbs at the time of my adult autism diagnosis just a few years ago. I am healthy now and 12 weeks pregnant. I always had trouble w food because of sensory difficulties and they are now amplified by pregnancy hormones. Everything smells bad and I can only eat bland non textured things right now.
You have been an endless blessing to me, Chloe! Thank you. The similarities in our stories are mind-boggling: from autism, to acting and singing professionally, to faith, and loving real animals and plushies so much, to food struggles, and repeatedly being lovingly referred to as “bird-like” throughout my life for similar reasons. The past few years have been so difficult and your video today came at the perfect time. Thank you for all you are and all you do, Chloe! May you be blessed abundantly as you’ve been such a blessing to so many! Thank you. 💕
Hi Chloe, My name is Angie and I have autism,anxiety, depression, and learning disabilities. I like Disney movies which is more common with adults with ASD and I am 45. I have worked with high school students with ASD. What I can say from both personal and professional experience is that people with ASD have more difficulty processing and understanding the world around them that is why we develop routines and anxiety. We need more help and support in dealing with Social situations and everyday life. Transition and change can become easier if one prepares ahead of time. Developing healthy coping skills is also important. I like you videos, thank you for making them.
Thank you so much for sharing your story! I follow you on Twitter as well and I think you’re just lovely! You’re a strong woman. Don’t ever think you’re not. I have mental disorders and I’m an adult and I still have stuffed animals in my bed and I kick up leaves in autumn also. I know it’s hard for anyone and their personal struggle. I’m so proud of how far you’ve come! Thank you for sharing in a positive light. I know you will help many young people! (And older lol) 💜
Thank you for your inspiring words. You are so brave and I wish you all good and to feel as healthy as possible. Very relatable,so nice to hear the other and unknown version of ED. ❤❤
I went through almost the same as you. I have aspergers and I too have Anorexia and have had all of the problems you have had as I was growing up. I sympathise and relate to you so much in this video ✨
It is helpful to hear other survivor stories from autistic people. My demons were those of bulimia rather than anorexia but the journey is not much different. I went through the whole of school and my first degree as an undiagnosed autistic girl (I only got my diagnoses last year while writing my PHD), and secondary school (the teen years) were definitely the worst as many teen girls are just monsters. It took me 4 attempts starting when I was at uni the first time to get into a sustained recovery, it was only the last relapse (about 3 years ago) that I finally got personal help through the NHS (which lead to identifying a hormonal condition that was one of my big triggers and is now being treated). It can and does get easier to manage and to control the demons, they never fully go away but with time it is possible to silence them most of the time, though at times of stress they can come back. Keep going and do not listen to what others say about what you should be interested in, I grew up early as I outgrew many childish things before my teens, but despite my encyclopedic learning in many ways, I am also a child. What matters, in the end, is not what the world thinks but being who we are with God since, in the end, he is the one who will justify us.
Its like ur writing my beginning life but i wasn't diagnosed until this year im 33 tho. You r so amazing horses helped me too when no one could u help me find my true self n fpr that I don't know how to thank u 💖
Oh god this made me so emotional..because I have the same fears. I’m 17, 18 in a few months…. I’m autistic as well and fucking terrified of “adulting” if you will.
Chole, I hope that you do not mind me emailing twice, but I forgot to write yesterday that Public Schools have a lot of "big rats" and "snakes" who are mean people that bully others. They do NOT have the right to "kick you" or bully you in any way!!! They were really insecure if they had the need to practice such cruelty. When I was bullied as a Child, I learned that those kids who bullied me came from divorced families. Those bullies did not have a Mom and a Dad who loved them, like I had. I think that if any of the people who bullied you in School see these videos either they will respect you or they will repent or both. Now that you are grown up, your life stories and other Adult experiences that you will have, will help others in every way. I am also happy that you have defined the Doctors and are now riding again:)! Keep making videos! You have a positive impact on so many people, including myself.
I am bullied by my classmates who have full family. They never experienced anything bad at home (child abuse or something like that). Their parents aren't divorced. They aren't abused by their parents. They have everything. And I had nothing. I was abused by my father.
You are so strong. I am 15 years old and I know how you feldt, because I was and am depresed for a year and it's really hard. The Voice in my Head is sometimes so loud that you are crying and shouting, but I keep goning. And now it's really getting better. I was 3 Month in a Hosbital to get better and it works abit. Now i am not cured, but I am on a good way.... Thanks for telling US your Story and I'm proud that you don't give up!!! (Sry, if there are grammatic fouls in this Text, because I'm from Germany and my english isn't the best. PS: I love your Videos❤️)
"as a freshly adult woman.. that expectation, that supposed to do" "I can't control the fact that I was chronologically growing up but I could control the way my body reacted to it" wow.. you have just helped me realise one of the biggest reasons I got anorexia. My gosh. Holy crikeyy... this is me 100%.
I hate being trans and the fact my body is growing up
The doctors that treated you after you got kicked by a horse sound like they thought being over eighteen magically makes you immune to fear. You needed someone that understood that you were scared, you didn't know what was going on and that you were in a lot of pain.
Chloe. You don’t know how important this video is. Thank you for sharing this.
Chloe... wow... just... wow... that’s all I can say right now. Guuuurl, you don’t need to change yourself for anyone. You can still do all the things you did as a little girl without starving yourself. You. Are. FABULOUS. Now, Chloe, you cute little unicorn princess, don’t you ever forget how awesome you are. 🙁😊❤️❤️❤️
Love you, gorgeous. Thank you so much x
oh my goodness, i came to your channel because of heartbreak high and now i fell down the rabbit hole and watched almost all of your videos. i didn't comment on the other videos but that one just... felt personal. so relatable and honest. i'm so glad you overcame all of this, step by step. and now you are where you are! i'm so happy for you. thank you for sharing your experience.
I've never struggled with an eating disorder, but your story is so empowering. Thank you for sharing, i'm in tears!! x
i cannot tell you how much i needed to hear this right now :( thank you from the bottom of my heart
"But that wasn't the only thing bird-like about me, I was caged. My wings were clipped."
i don't think i've cried harder to anything but this honestly that voice is in my head 24/7 saying those exact things and its hard to get rid of them and i've tired so hard to ignore them and sometimes i lose. but something about Chloe makes me want to keep going on with my life her advice is the best thing ever i love you so much Chloe x
Chloe you've really grown since you posted your channel in the Aspie FB group. I'm really proud of you for talking about this.
Thank you so much! x
What group
I know this is an old video, but I really hope you see this. I'm currently suffering from orthorexia and this has just motivated me to go eat my dinner even though it has olive oil on it. Thank you.
hi em! i hope ur doing well:)
You're an awesome Chloe.
You made it and I believe that no matter what you're going to be such an inspiration to others. Love your personality. You've got similar traits and interests. Keep shining your star girl.
Princess Aspien I wish you well. My hope is that you'll continue to advocate and share your life experiences..
Xx 😘😎🦋🦋🦋
Chole, this is a very powerful and inspirational video:). God Bless you for making it:). I did not like the way the Doctors treated your "anxiety" in the Hospital. Some Doctors and Nurses were critical of me for being scared before I had my Bladder Surgery and before I got an Epidural (shots) in my Spinal Column. I personally do not have Anorexia, but from someone who can be a worrier, like myself, I would suggest that you remember that faith triumphs over fear. It is something I have to remind myself. Whenever you get a thought that is bad remember that God is love and you were created for a reason. I really enjoy your videos and your bravery. Growing up can be scary and any change also can be scary, but when we remind ourselves that negative things that do not kill us help us to grow Spiritually, we can help others grow. Keep making videos and be an inspiration to others:).
So much of what you said resonated with me. I remember, when I was 12, starting high school. It did cause some anxiety, but what made it worse was, the school was warned not to put me in the same class as a bully from primary school. But guess what? They did. And my mother didn't follow it up. What she could have done, was quietly ask that I get moved into another class and the bully need never have known. I remember, in that year, I developed asthma, and the cough was badly described by a respiratory physician, who knew about lungs, but knew nothing about psychology. I think that doctor should have said, also (I was diagnosed with coeliac disease, later on), as well as sending me to a cardiologist and an eye specialist, was to have looked at my mother and said, "If you don't take your son out of school, yesterday, you'll be in real trouble." The cardiologist noted that I have a scoliosis, which we later found was caused by wedging of some vertebrae. My mother made me sit for half an hour every night, with a wooden rod behind my back, held in the crooks of my elbows. The respiratory specialist told me my cough was a bit of a habit, when what he should have said was, "This cough is somewhat stress related asthma, and just like some kids will complain of a pain in the belly, yet doctors investigate and can't find an organic cause, this cough has an organic cause, but it has become a bit of a stress response." This doctor also suggested that I exercise like crazy, and my mother took it to extremes, such as making me jog every morning and then, after school swim in the backyard pool. I was skinny (my legs were solid, but my torso was long and thin, and this doctor told me I had to put on weight there, when what he should have said was, "Firstly, I think we should send you to gastroenterology, and we'll see if you have any problems, there, such as a wheat allergy. Then, after that, we can look at your diet."
I was constantly pressured, and constantly bullied, as I also had pimples, and that caused a low self-esteem. Fortunately, I got some help.
Starting university was difficult, as I was used to the school routine, but I was able to complete my degree,. My first year at university was very hard, as I wanted to major in Japanese and History, and the university I attended was not cosmopolitan (many of my friends were Asian, because I was bookish and amongst my fellow Australians, to be bookish saw you being labelled a "nerd" or whatever. In fact, I was referred to as "the nerd."
I remember you saying you did not want to grow up and now this makes sense.
I was only 88 lbs at the time of my adult autism diagnosis just a few years ago. I am healthy now and 12 weeks pregnant. I always had trouble w food because of sensory difficulties and they are now amplified by pregnancy hormones. Everything smells bad and I can only eat bland non textured things right now.
This makes me tear up. You're beautiful inside and out. Keep smiling; you're a true inspiration :)
You have been an endless blessing to me, Chloe! Thank you. The similarities in our stories are mind-boggling: from autism, to acting and singing professionally, to faith, and loving real animals and plushies so much, to food struggles, and repeatedly being lovingly referred to as “bird-like” throughout my life for similar reasons. The past few years have been so difficult and your video today came at the perfect time. Thank you for all you are and all you do, Chloe! May you be blessed abundantly as you’ve been such a blessing to so many! Thank you. 💕
Hi Chloe,
My name is Angie and I have autism,anxiety, depression, and learning disabilities. I like Disney movies which is more common with adults with ASD and I am 45. I have worked with high school students with ASD. What I can say from both personal and professional experience is that people with ASD have more difficulty processing and understanding the world around them that is why we develop routines and anxiety. We need more help and support in dealing with Social situations and everyday life. Transition and change can become easier if one prepares ahead of time. Developing healthy coping skills is also important. I like you videos, thank you for making them.
Sending you so much love and gratitude Chloe. I relate to a lot of what you describe. The world is a better place because you are in it. 🐻🐱🐎
This literally made me CRY. YOU GO GIRL! TPWK! ❤💯
Hey Chloe you’re so inspirational to others and I hope you can keep that going
Thank you so much for sharing your story! I follow you on Twitter as well and I think you’re just lovely! You’re a strong woman. Don’t ever think you’re not. I have mental disorders and I’m an adult and I still have stuffed animals in my bed and I kick up leaves in autumn also. I know it’s hard for anyone and their personal struggle. I’m so proud of how far you’ve come! Thank you for sharing in a positive light. I know you will help many young people! (And older lol) 💜
Thank you for your inspiring words. You are so brave and I wish you all good and to feel as healthy as possible. Very relatable,so nice to hear the other and unknown version of ED. ❤❤
i just started balling watching this, i feel like i’m stuck in this bad cycle and i relate to your story so much❤️
I went through almost the same as you. I have aspergers and I too have Anorexia and have had all of the problems you have had as I was growing up. I sympathise and relate to you so much in this video ✨
It is helpful to hear other survivor stories from autistic people. My demons were those of bulimia rather than anorexia but the journey is not much different. I went through the whole of school and my first degree as an undiagnosed autistic girl (I only got my diagnoses last year while writing my PHD), and secondary school (the teen years) were definitely the worst as many teen girls are just monsters. It took me 4 attempts starting when I was at uni the first time to get into a sustained recovery, it was only the last relapse (about 3 years ago) that I finally got personal help through the NHS (which lead to identifying a hormonal condition that was one of my big triggers and is now being treated). It can and does get easier to manage and to control the demons, they never fully go away but with time it is possible to silence them most of the time, though at times of stress they can come back.
Keep going and do not listen to what others say about what you should be interested in, I grew up early as I outgrew many childish things before my teens, but despite my encyclopedic learning in many ways, I am also a child. What matters, in the end, is not what the world thinks but being who we are with God since, in the end, he is the one who will justify us.
Its like ur writing my beginning life but i wasn't diagnosed until this year im 33 tho. You r so amazing horses helped me too when no one could u help me find my true self n fpr that I don't know how to thank u 💖
Such a beautiful, inspiring, empowering video!! You are such a strong girl and I wish that I was as determined and persistent as you!!✨💘
I admire your strength. I’m still suffering. Hopefully, I can get a place to help me.
Oh god this made me so emotional..because I have the same fears. I’m 17, 18 in a few months…. I’m autistic as well and fucking terrified of “adulting” if you will.
I'm 14 and I hate the fact that I am going to become an adult
Chole, I hope that you do not mind me emailing twice, but I forgot to write yesterday that Public Schools have a lot of "big rats" and "snakes" who are mean people that bully others. They do NOT have the right to "kick you" or bully you in any way!!! They were really insecure if they had the need to practice such cruelty. When I was bullied as a Child, I learned that those kids who bullied me came from divorced families. Those bullies did not have a Mom and a Dad who loved them, like I had. I think that if any of the people who bullied you in School see these videos either they will respect you or they will repent or both. Now that you are grown up, your life stories and other Adult experiences that you will have, will help others in every way. I am also happy that you have defined the Doctors and are now riding again:)! Keep making videos! You have a positive impact on so many people, including myself.
I am bullied by my classmates who have full family. They never experienced anything bad at home (child abuse or something like that). Their parents aren't divorced. They aren't abused by their parents. They have everything. And I had nothing. I was abused by my father.
Oh my days! Ur my new favourite person to watch, ur so inspirational!💖 I can relate SO much to u
Your making cry so hard, I currently stuggle
Thank you so much for your inspiring and informative video. Thank you sooooo much!!!
You are so strong. I am 15 years old and I know how you feldt, because I was and am depresed for a year and it's really hard. The Voice in my Head is sometimes so loud that you are crying and shouting, but I keep goning. And now it's really getting better. I was 3 Month in a Hosbital to get better and it works abit. Now i am not cured, but I am on a good way.... Thanks for telling US your Story and I'm proud that you don't give up!!!
(Sry, if there are grammatic fouls in this Text, because I'm from Germany and my english isn't the best. PS: I love your Videos❤️)
I love u Chloe ur so inspirational ur videos are amazing I would love to be friends with u😊❤️
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wow so powerful I was in tears at the end I love ur vlogs @princessaspien
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How did you get third degree burns from a horse kick? I'm so sorry your hospital staff were so.... venomous and uncompassionate...