It's a tortilla talk Tuesday! WEEE! Thanks for all of your great questions! Podcast channel - www.youtube.com/@relaxwithcolleenanderik7764 Instagram - instagram.com/colleen/ TikTok - www.tiktok.com/@colleen Main Channel - th-cam.com/users/psychosoprano my PO BOX - Colleen Ballinger PO Box 55995 Sherman Oaks, CA 91413 Stuff I like From Amazon - tinyurl.com/e4e3x669 *I make a small commission from Amazon if you use this link. It doesn’t cost you extra but if you would rather use this link to see products and then purchase them somewhere else, that’s cool too! This is just the easiest way for me to link everything in one place.* Colleen Ballinger is dedicated to creating a safe, inclusive, positive space online and bullying will not be tolerated. Thank you!
Colleen, seeing you end the previous vlog while petting Daisy brought back such bittersweet memories of my own sweet kitty, who I had to say goodbye to yesterday. I used to pet her just like that, and watching you with Daisy reminded me of all those special, simple moments. Please cherish them a little extra for me. Thank you for sharing these glimpses of your life with us-they’re helping me get through this difficult time. They mean more than you know. Sending love to you and Daisy ❤️🩹
Colleen I started watching your vlogs after you gave birth to the twins. I was going through a really tough time and as traumatic as that time was for you, it gave me a sense of hope and comfort that it wasn’t just me struggling at that time and that things can get better. Your videos gave me a sense of purpose to keep seeing every day through. I went back and literally watched every single day of your pregnancy because I couldn’t get enough of your kind soul and love for your family. They kept me going and I can’t thank you enough for that. Although we will never meet, I feel like I share a huge part of my heart with you because it was you who helped me through so much. I literally can’t express in words how much I owe to you ❤ Hearing you talk about your emotional connection to music makes me very emotional because I feel exactly the same. When I was going through my tough time, I had to stop listening to music because it would just make me too sad and existential. I had to give up Christmas music because it was too happy! I’m pleased to say that I am now listening to music again and even got into Taylor Swift this year. Thank you for helping me on my journey to recovery one day/vlog at a time. I’m forever grateful to you and your beautiful family. All my love x
I can’t express how much I relate to the music answer. If I’m not in a good place mentally, a single NOTE of a song that pulls at my heart will make me sob forever so I have to skip it super fast. Certain songs feel like someone is squishing my heart. Literally. Also, having ADHD makes me hyperfixate on music which means when a song comes on I am immediately taken back to the time when I was obsessed with it. Music is so important to me and invokes stronger emotions than pretty much anything!
I swear I see you post these titles and I'm floored everytime by how big they're getting 😭, been a fan since ~2018 when I was hardly 13, still watching at 19 years old! always happy to hear that your kiddos are well ❤
Omg the beanie baby costume why have I not seen that before! So smart and also perfect for you! Maybe you could sew the ears larger onto the hood instead of a headband so that way the tag would be farther from your face!
your answer about the depression and not listening to songs is something I get so well. I love to sing and very recently i've been struggling with depression and anxiety and noticed that i don't listen to music or sing much at all which is sad because singing makes me happy. xx
OH MY GOD!! You are a genius!! I never would have thought about being a beanie baby for Halloween and the fact that you literally are the Queen of Beanie Babies and were in the documentary is just so iconic!! You are so talented!!! Would it be ok if I send the twins birthday cards to your p.o box or is the overstepping a boundary?? I love doing arts and crafts as well (not only are our names the same but we have SO MUCH in common it's like I am watching myself on TH-cam, lol...ok not that common but seriously SO MUCH!) and would love to make them birthday cards. And I also just wanted to say, thank you for being YOU!!! And I am SO proud of how far you have come in the last year! I am SO THANKFUL you are still with us! I can't begin to imagine what you went through. Ok, sorry for such a long comment, lol... sending lots of LOVE from Massachusetts!!!
I had Scarlett’s fever as a kid, and the rash literally made me feel like the inside of my skin was itching. No relief. I had it the worst on the bottoms of my feet and all I could do was numb my feet with ice packs. I FELT your pain. 13:15
The twins and I have the same birthday, and I remember clear as day having the best birthday celebration when they were born. It feels like ages ago but also last month
I remember in 2016, after the election, Jeff Goldblum was on the Colbert show and he said something that was SO comforting that I’ve remembered it every day since… I’m paraphrasing: “Even when times feel the darkest and most hopeless, we have to remember that BEAUTY that still exists in the world… nature, music, art, theater, literature….” Beauty can evoke big feelings, when we allow it. ❤️
TTQ: I’m watching your old vlogs from when the twins were in the NICU, you were so sad:( do you still think about those times a lot or is it all a blur? Would you say it’s the hardest thing you ever went through? Can’t believe that was almost 3 years ago they’ve blossomed into amazing little kids!
I think I remember you saying that ALW is not your favorite composer and honestly I’m right there with you, but I swear, whenever I hear Pie Jesu I am swallowed whole with waves of emotion. Music makes me feel alive. (I’d love to hear you sing Pie Jesu!)
Hi Colleen I too had cholestasis too with both my pregnancies. I had major itching everywhere and they seemed to know straight away what it was and was induced at 37 weeks for my son (he is now 8 nearly 9) and induced at 39 weeks for my daughter (just turned 4). It’s so funny you’ve gone through this as well as my daughter always says I am you and there is so much stuff you do I can relate too love your vlogs. Leonie
I have the same amount of pictures, but only have 2,000 videos. I also feel exactly the same way about music, which is why Pentatonix is my favorite band!
I couldn't listen to music for months after my dad died. I still have songs I avoid like the plague because they'll hurt too much. His birthday is tomorrow, Thanksgiving was the last time I saw him, and the one year anniversary of his passing is in early December. I'm still listening to music, but I've been noticing I'm not listening as much, or I need to be careful with song choices so I don't fall apart. Thank you for being something constant during this difficult year ❤
Colleen I feel the same way about music! I have very emotional reactions to many songs. I do find that if I just listen I can control my reactions better than if I sing it. Tortilla talk question: How do you get through performing an emotional song without crying? I would love some tips on controlling emotions while singing. ❤
I don't think I could come up and say hi to you without crying..... And as I'm writing this truth about me I'm in tears imagining running into you.... So I would actually just never come up to you because I don't like crying in front of people and crying out of randomness. 🥲 You have positively impacted me so much.... Thank you! ♥️
I collected Beanie Babies with my Mom as well growing up. I need this costume for next year! Some of my core memories as a child are waiting in line for the new releases to make sure you could get one.
Hey Colleen! I’m from South Africa and I’m flabbergasted! Your beaches have SOOOOO many rocks, I’ve been to Europe and many countries in Europe and have never seen rocks on the beach. Where do you think I could find other than the beach? I also don’t have any creeks near me. Also I’ve been watching from just before you got pregnant with the twins and I CANNOT believe they’re turning three. It reminded me of flynns 3rd party while they were in the nicu I can’t believe they’re now that age!
There's one song that I have a hard time listening to because it usually brings me to tears. I haven't really experienced that with any other song. That song is Happy by Marina. I first heard it during a really hard time in my life and I guess it makes me think of that time and just how she sings it and the lyrics make me so sad. 😢
I remember I was at this parking lot, after I renewed my drivers license, when the video of the twins’s birth appeared on my TH-cam feed. I cried so much of joy. I witnessed Flynn coming to this world and the Twins too… Colleen is so special to me because I known about her even before she was married. ❤ I went to one of the lasts shows she did in Orlando FL… I went with my fiancé and we had the time of our lives. We were very impressed of Colleen’s talent… I love you Colleen. Thank you for never give up.
I was a band kid pretty much from 4th grade to 12th and I still remember in 6th grade being SHOCKED (legit SHOOK) that there were people in my class who not only didn't take band, but didn't play any musical instruments whatsoever.
Not unusual to have a lot of photos and videos on your phone. I have a new phone not even six months old and I already have 17,230 photos and 996 videos. I’m a grandma so many of the pics are of my six grandchildren. Also I save alot of cooking and craft ideas on my phone. We just had a fun Halloween Dinner with a total of 14 people. All the dishes were from Pinterest. I can’t believe the twins will be 3!! And Bailey’s birthday too! Wonderful❤ looking forward to all the new videos coming up on your channel As for itching, I can relate not cholistasis but I itch because I have kidney failure. Toxins try to come out through my skin and I itch everywhere. Luckily dialysis MWF helps temporarily relieve it.
Your costume is outrageous! I am very jealous we live in Florida so there's no way I could have worn that trick or treating with my son but I am definitely jealous
Love how crafty u are...I love a good craft😊.....I'm the same way about music, it makes me so emotional...if im excited i want u to feel the same way i will listen to it a thousand times🤗✨ theres a song for every mood & situation
I've been waiting like half of a year to listen to new music. It's interesting to know I'm not alone. I don't want to ruin music with my big emotions, if that makes sense.😢
I had my first a month after you had the twins i always felt so close to you through pregnancy and waited everyday for your upload to “facetime my bestie” - i cant believe our babies are getting so big ❤
I am pregnant and literally thought i had colistatis one day because i was soooo itchy and remembered you talking about it! Went to the doctor and realized I was actually having an allergic reaction to new medication! I probably wouldnt have gone to the doctor otherwise so thanks colleen!
6:47 COLLEEN. I know EXACTLY what you mean!!! It’s like your soul is in fire and the world is silent it’s just you and the amazing song you just discovered.. very few songs have this effect on me but unlike that weirdo Erik i can name some songs that have changed my life!!!
😮a beanie baby 😆who saw it coming?!? I was all over here whys Colleen cutting out hearts!! Girl you have to wear that out somewhere the world needs that in it!!!
It's a tortilla talk Tuesday! WEEE! Thanks for all of your great questions!
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No way the twins are 3 wtf?!
Colleen, seeing you end the previous vlog while petting Daisy brought back such bittersweet memories of my own sweet kitty, who I had to say goodbye to yesterday. I used to pet her just like that, and watching you with Daisy reminded me of all those special, simple moments. Please cherish them a little extra for me. Thank you for sharing these glimpses of your life with us-they’re helping me get through this difficult time. They mean more than you know. Sending love to you and Daisy ❤️🩹
Costume looks amazing, you're so talented with all the crafty stuff you do!
Full circle moment! At 0:27 Flynn makes the same noise he did for water when he was a baby while being a Cuttlefish. 🥹💚
I love the beanie baby custom so much is amazing!! The giant tag 🐻💜✨
Can’t believe their already this old feels like they were born a few weeks ago ❤️🥰
I share a birthday w the twins!! Turning 18 I have watched Collen since I was 11
THIS COSTUME IS EVERYTHING. 😮🎉❤
Colleen I started watching your vlogs after you gave birth to the twins. I was going through a really tough time and as traumatic as that time was for you, it gave me a sense of hope and comfort that it wasn’t just me struggling at that time and that things can get better. Your videos gave me a sense of purpose to keep seeing every day through. I went back and literally watched every single day of your pregnancy because I couldn’t get enough of your kind soul and love for your family. They kept me going and I can’t thank you enough for that. Although we will never meet, I feel like I share a huge part of my heart with you because it was you who helped me through so much. I literally can’t express in words how much I owe to you ❤
Hearing you talk about your emotional connection to music makes me very emotional because I feel exactly the same. When I was going through my tough time, I had to stop listening to music because it would just make me too sad and existential. I had to give up Christmas music because it was too happy! I’m pleased to say that I am now listening to music again and even got into Taylor Swift this year. Thank you for helping me on my journey to recovery one day/vlog at a time. I’m forever grateful to you and your beautiful family. All my love x
I can’t express how much I relate to the music answer. If I’m not in a good place mentally, a single NOTE of a song that pulls at my heart will make me sob forever so I have to skip it super fast. Certain songs feel like someone is squishing my heart. Literally. Also, having ADHD makes me hyperfixate on music which means when a song comes on I am immediately taken back to the time when I was obsessed with it. Music is so important to me and invokes stronger emotions than pretty much anything!
The Ty baby is so freaking iconic and I don’t say that word lightly
Holy crap that cuttlefish costume is so EPIC omg!!!
I swear I see you post these titles and I'm floored everytime by how big they're getting 😭, been a fan since ~2018 when I was hardly 13, still watching at 19 years old! always happy to hear that your kiddos are well ❤
The beanie baby costume is incredible!
Happy Birthday Twins! ✨💖🎉🎁😘
OMG The Princess Beanie Baby costume is so awesome! You are so incredibly creative!!
I take a break with youtube to find out the TWINS ARE TURNING 3!!! WHAAAATT!!!! 😮 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THEM 🎉💖💙
Flynn: Older kid, Wesley: middle kid, Maisy: youngest kid energy
Happy 3rd Birthday Wesley and Maisy 🎉🎉I can not believe you are 3 ! Hope you guys have the best birthday 🥳🎂🎂🥳 ever 🎈🎈
Omg the beanie baby costume why have I not seen that before! So smart and also perfect for you! Maybe you could sew the ears larger onto the hood instead of a headband so that way the tag would be farther from your face!
i have 38,000 photos and 7000 videos i need to get a phone with more storage , we love to capture the special moments !!
And yes everyone please vote!! It’s so important this time. We need to win!
Whoa! Your costume is so great! I missed where you got that identical fabric for the ears. The whole thing is perfection!
THE BEANIE BABY THO🤣🤣🤣🤣 at first I was surprised you didn’t make a tag protector and then you mentioned it 😅 i was dying of laughter
Flynn doing the “blub blub blub” awhile wearing the costume reminded me how he used to say “water”🥹
TTQ: Do you remember when Flynn called outer space “spouter space” ?!? So cute
Finally someone with more photos on their phone! I have 25,412 photos!!
your answer about the depression and not listening to songs is something I get so well. I love to sing and very recently i've been struggling with depression and anxiety and noticed that i don't listen to music or sing much at all which is sad because singing makes me happy. xx
OH MY GOD!! You are a genius!! I never would have thought about being a beanie baby for Halloween and the fact that you literally are the Queen of Beanie Babies and were in the documentary is just so iconic!! You are so talented!!!
Would it be ok if I send the twins birthday cards to your p.o box or is the overstepping a boundary?? I love doing arts and crafts as well (not only are our names the same but we have SO MUCH in common it's like I am watching myself on TH-cam, lol...ok not that common but seriously SO MUCH!) and would love to make them birthday cards. And I also just wanted to say, thank you for being YOU!!! And I am SO proud of how far you have come in the last year! I am SO THANKFUL you are still with us! I can't begin to imagine what you went through. Ok, sorry for such a long comment, lol... sending lots of LOVE from Massachusetts!!!
The Princess Diana Bear is epic! You are so freaking creative!
The cuttlefish costume is incredible, but the Ty Beanie cosutume is ICONIC!! 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏
I had Scarlett’s fever as a kid, and the rash literally made me feel like the inside of my skin was itching. No relief. I had it the worst on the bottoms of my feet and all I could do was numb my feet with ice packs. I FELT your pain. 13:15
My ttq got answered! I'm so happy! I've been watching since before Flynn was born 😭 7:00
It’s my birthday on Halloween…56…getting old!!!! I love
Watching your babies. Since mine are
Grown and can’t bother with me anymore…❤
The twins and I have the same birthday, and I remember clear as day having the best birthday celebration when they were born. It feels like ages ago but also last month
I remember in 2016, after the election, Jeff Goldblum was on the Colbert show and he said something that was SO comforting that I’ve remembered it every day since… I’m paraphrasing: “Even when times feel the darkest and most hopeless, we have to remember that BEAUTY that still exists in the world… nature, music, art, theater, literature….”
Beauty can evoke big feelings, when we allow it. ❤️
TTQ: I’m watching your old vlogs from when the twins were in the NICU, you were so sad:( do you still think about those times a lot or is it all a blur? Would you say it’s the hardest thing you ever went through? Can’t believe that was almost 3 years ago they’ve blossomed into amazing little kids!
I think I remember you saying that ALW is not your favorite composer and honestly I’m right there with you, but I swear, whenever I hear Pie Jesu I am swallowed whole with waves of emotion. Music makes me feel alive. (I’d love to hear you sing Pie Jesu!)
Hi Colleen I too had cholestasis too with both my pregnancies. I had major itching everywhere and they seemed to know straight away what it was and was induced at 37 weeks for my son (he is now 8 nearly 9) and induced at 39 weeks for my daughter (just turned 4). It’s so funny you’ve gone through this as well as my daughter always says I am you and there is so much stuff you do I can relate too love your vlogs. Leonie
I absolutely understand the music thing. I haven’t heard many people say that , but I feel music in such a deep way too.
I have the same amount of pictures, but only have 2,000 videos.
I also feel exactly the same way about music, which is why Pentatonix is my favorite band!
Sonic Here.
I couldn't listen to music for months after my dad died. I still have songs I avoid like the plague because they'll hurt too much.
His birthday is tomorrow, Thanksgiving was the last time I saw him, and the one year anniversary of his passing is in early December.
I'm still listening to music, but I've been noticing I'm not listening as much, or I need to be careful with song choices so I don't fall apart.
Thank you for being something constant during this difficult year ❤
Omg I love your Halloween costume!!! I cracked up so hard when you said you need a "tag protector" 😂😂😂😂
loved the vlog
Sending you love and positivity!❤
Colleen I feel the same way about music! I have very emotional reactions to many songs. I do find that if I just listen I can control my reactions better than if I sing it. Tortilla talk question: How do you get through performing an emotional song without crying? I would love some tips on controlling emotions while singing. ❤
I LOVE your Beanie Baby costume, and the cuttlefish costume you made for Flynn! You are SO talented!🎃🧡🎃
Tortilla Talk: are you going to re-record the intro with all 3 kids? It’d be too cute!
That costume is amazing 💜💜💜
Ok but I NEED to know how you made that beanie baby costume!!!! And that onesie looks so cozy!
I don't think I could come up and say hi to you without crying..... And as I'm writing this truth about me I'm in tears imagining running into you.... So I would actually just never come up to you because I don't like crying in front of people and crying out of randomness. 🥲 You have positively impacted me so much.... Thank you! ♥️
I Lost My Best friend and the song Lost Boy makes Me cry so hard every time I hear it 😢
💛”When you're happy, you enjoy the music but when you're sad, you understand the lyrics.” 💛
- Frank Ocean
Happy ealry birthday to the twins. I have twin cousins who just turned 3 on the 14th of October.
Omg ! I love the beanie baby costume so much !!
girl I have almost the same amount of photos and videos. I back them up to my Mac
I collected Beanie Babies with my Mom as well growing up. I need this costume for next year! Some of my core memories as a child are waiting in line for the new releases to make sure you could get one.
Colleen, you are literally the most talented person I “know”. Is there any craft you cannot do? I am all left sided brain. Zero right. 😩, not fair! ❤
Music crier here! Any live music my cells explode!
Bagpipes are the worst/best! I cannot contain the tears and my soul explodes!
Your kids are adorable ❤
No way they’re 3 already??! 😵💫😵💫 time flies!! they grow so fast 😢
Hey Colleen! I’m from South Africa and I’m flabbergasted! Your beaches have SOOOOO many rocks, I’ve been to Europe and many countries in Europe and have never seen rocks on the beach. Where do you think I could find other than the beach? I also don’t have any creeks near me. Also I’ve been watching from just before you got pregnant with the twins and I CANNOT believe they’re turning three. It reminded me of flynns 3rd party while they were in the nicu I can’t believe they’re now that age!
I wish i had enough energy and creativity to be crafty like you!
There's one song that I have a hard time listening to because it usually brings me to tears. I haven't really experienced that with any other song. That song is Happy by Marina. I first heard it during a really hard time in my life and I guess it makes me think of that time and just how she sings it and the lyrics make me so sad. 😢
I remember I was at this parking lot, after I renewed my drivers license, when the video of the twins’s birth appeared on my TH-cam feed. I cried so much of joy. I witnessed Flynn coming to this world and the Twins too…
Colleen is so special to me because I known about her even before she was married. ❤
I went to one of the lasts shows she did in Orlando FL… I went with my fiancé and we had the time of our lives. We were very impressed of Colleen’s talent…
I love you Colleen.
Thank you for never give up.
i can’t believe they’re 3!!! i’m binging haters back off right now too haha can’t believe that was 7 years ago!?
I was a band kid pretty much from 4th grade to 12th and I still remember in 6th grade being SHOCKED (legit SHOOK) that there were people in my class who not only didn't take band, but didn't play any musical instruments whatsoever.
Omg Colleen I immediately knew it was a beanie baby just by the white and gold heart 😭😭 I love your costume 💜
Lmao I love that Colleen has like 40k pics and vids and thinking that’s BAD when I have 100k😂😂. Love u!!❤
You did a fantastic job on the costume. I am so excited.
Not unusual to have a lot of photos and videos on your phone. I have a new phone not even six months old and I already have 17,230 photos and 996 videos. I’m a grandma so many of the pics are of my six grandchildren. Also I save alot of cooking and craft ideas on my phone. We just had a fun Halloween Dinner with a total of 14 people. All the dishes were from Pinterest. I can’t believe the twins will be 3!! And Bailey’s birthday too! Wonderful❤ looking forward to all the new videos coming up on your channel As for itching, I can relate not cholistasis but I itch because I have kidney failure. Toxins try to come out through my skin and I itch everywhere. Luckily dialysis MWF helps temporarily relieve it.
Girl when I had my daughter, who is now 1.5, my camera roll went from like 3,000 to 19,000. I get it
Hey colleen ❤️ love to follow you, love from Julie, from Denmark (I’m a NICU nurse)
OMGG YESS! Olivia rodrigo and ariana are my go to when i wanna cry or if i wanna be a baddie
Your costume is outrageous! I am very jealous we live in Florida so there's no way I could have worn that trick or treating with my son but I am definitely jealous
The costume is friggin fantastic 😂💛💛💛💛💛
TTQ: will you ever post on your other yt accounts again ??? I’ve been missing those videos 🥹
Always!! Know you are strong and brave .. I hope everybody has a great Halloween.🎃👻🎃👻🎃
i posted a few days ago on social media "music is an emotional burden". and so i hardly ever listen to it because its too much to take on.
I have 86k photos on my phone. 12k are screenshots. ADHD is fun lol 💁🏻♀️
Omg plz try the temu sticker printer!! I see adds everywhere but how can something so small actually work ahahaha
Love how crafty u are...I love a good craft😊.....I'm the same way about music, it makes me so emotional...if im excited i want u to feel the same way i will listen to it a thousand times🤗✨ theres a song for every mood & situation
I've been waiting like half of a year to listen to new music. It's interesting to know I'm not alone. I don't want to ruin music with my big emotions, if that makes sense.😢
I had my first a month after you had the twins i always felt so close to you through pregnancy and waited everyday for your upload to “facetime my bestie” - i cant believe our babies are getting so big ❤
I love you Colleen!
Love the beanie baby costume so much!
You should test car items! Cleaning stuff, chargers, transmitters, diffusers, etc..!
Is she making a beanie baby costume!?!? so rad!
Love the Beanie Baby costume! I have that one somewhere.
That Princess Di beanie baby is amazing!!
I am pregnant and literally thought i had colistatis one day because i was soooo itchy and remembered you talking about it! Went to the doctor and realized I was actually having an allergic reaction to new medication! I probably wouldnt have gone to the doctor otherwise so thanks colleen!
I can’t the twins will be 3 years old! How exciting!! 🍂🎃👻👻🤎🤎🤎🤎🤎🍂❤️❤️❤️🍃🍃🖤🖤🖤🍃🍃🖤🖤
OMG I love that cute costume idea 😍💡❤❤
6:47 COLLEEN. I know EXACTLY what you mean!!! It’s like your soul is in fire and the world is silent it’s just you and the amazing song you just discovered.. very few songs have this effect on me but unlike that weirdo Erik i can name some songs that have changed my life!!!
Love the costume ❤
Music has the exact same effect on me as it does you. ❤
😮a beanie baby 😆who saw it coming?!? I was all over here whys Colleen cutting out hearts!! Girl you have to wear that out somewhere the world needs that in it!!!
Kitchen gadgets or cooking hacks that you already use.