Gemma I am 55 and lost my Mom over three years ago. I miss her every single day. Try and remember all those good times. I know that is really hard sometimes. Don't shy away from talking about your dad, he was a massive part of your life and always will be. Mandy xx
My mom lost her mom back in January of 2021. That was the hardest thing to watch my mother cry. She hardly ever does and watching her break down was so hard. I’m just glad that she has me and her children(11 kids) she birthed all of us. My mom has always been a hero in our eyes. God bless you and I’m praying for you💛♥️
I've got a few years on you and I lost mine over 30 years ago. Some days the feelings of sadness and loss overwhelms me and I find it hard to bear. Some days I can hardly remember him which makes things worse. Then there are days when I remember all the good things, the chats we'd have, what I have to talk to him about now in my life - I miss that. The bad days come from nowhere and hit you like a freight train, and yes it 'gets easier' when that time comes I couldn't tell you and seeing Gemma at this point, girl I get it. We get it and you know what. Its fine and its normal! Don't ever feel that it isn't and you must always show the stoic side of yourself.
Gemma I’m 56 and lost my Mom 5 years ago . When people say it gets easier as time goes by or you get over it it’s not true . You just learn to keep going and hold on to what your loved ones would want for you . Your Dad is always with you and watches over you . Please don’t let this world change you . I think you’ll find there’s more of us that appreciate and respect the true raw authentic genuine self of people rather than a curated facade . I believe in signs from heaven our loved ones send us . For me mine are butterflies, light bugs , feathers and red birds. When I see these in the most unexpected random places at random unexpected times I know it’s my Mother letting me know she’s always with me . I’m sure your Dad sends you signs as well . God bless , love and light 🦋
I think it’s really hard to accept that life goes on without someone who’s so important to you. It eventually eases and you don’t feel as suffocated, but the shock never leaves. My dad has been gone for almost 6 years and it affects literally every big decision I have and I think of him every single day. The most important thing is to just let yourself feel. Allow the pain to move through and don’t bottle it up. 🖤
Oh darling I just wanna give you a massive hug. Don’t ever apologise for being sad or anxious or feeling low. You help so many people out, your so kind and caring but your human with a heart and sometimes the heart needs to off load. You have lost your dad at such a young age but talk to dad he is with you he’s guiding you he’s giving you strength to achieve such amazing goals in your life that’s very special and precious. I’m glad you show some of your hard times and it’s always good to write things down or share your grief, problems, worries etc with someone. Your one of the nicest people on Social Media, I feel for you like I do my friends. Even during your episode your still thinking of others hoping it’s helped people by you sharing your grief, one hell of a strong, kind, beautiful soul. I’m always here to listen to you and I’m sure lots of others are the same. Being real doesn’t mean your being negative one bit, your allowed to feel shit and you shouldn’t hide it either. Get it out, off ya chest, out of ya mind. we all need a rant now and then, does you good. Anyway hope little teddy is recovering from his ordeal. You have lots of lovely things happening. Will be stressful at times but just come and rant to us and we will help you through it. ❤️
I lost my dad unexpectedly when I was 25 and I’m 60 on Friday. My dad was my world and I thought The pain would never go away but believe me sweet girl,it will ease and time really is a great healer. Over the years at every occasion especially Christmas and even my up coming birthday milestone, I think of him even more. Ifeel for you and you are very brave. He is watching over you and I’m sure he’s very proud of you. I believe he’s guiding you and will give you the energy and strength you need to deal with the grief. Big hugs 😘
@@Posh369 excuse me?! ...who are you?? I'm entitled to my own opinion thankyou very much...Gemma didn't have a problem with my comment..if I got a heart from the woman that made the video who are you to scrutinise my own words...stay out of any commet I ever make ...ill apologies to Gemma on your behalf for bringing negativity to her video 👍.
@@tanyajohnson7714 your poor friends and family if this is how you respond to me asking not to tell grieving people to stay strong. I have been where Gemma is - in fact I’m still there and people telling you to stay strong is quite frankly bullshit. Have a nice day 👍🏼
Gemma, I hope your ok! We are all here for you when you need to talk. If we didn’t have the bad days we don’t appreciate the good days! 🥰 we are so proud of you for everything you and Jaime have achieved ❤️
Gemma, I was crying right along with you as I could literally feel your pain as you described it. Thankfully I haven't lost either of my parents and can't say that I know how you feel, but it gave me an idea of how my friends and family genuinely must feel that have lost parents. You are such a courageous person to share this deeply emotional side of yourself, but I am glad that you did, because, those of us that religiously follow you, want you to be able to talk about this to us. Even though the majority of us don't know you personally, we are still your friends and TH-cam family! Hang in there and let the flood gates open when you need to, I for one, will be there to listen and send you much love and a huge comforting hug to help you get through those down days!!! 🤍🤍XOXO🤍🤍
I lost my dad last July we was really close he was in hospital when he passed away and we never got to say goodbye.. he was the only person on this earth who would never let me down I know exactly how you are feeling I miss my dad everyday.. he taught me everything in life but never taught me how to live without him😞 I hope your ok.
I feel the same about my dad who passed a number of years ago. I miss him everyday, but he lives on in our memories and hearts. I'm sorry for your loss. Keep him close in your memories.
I'm literally sobbing watching this my heart goes out to you so much I lost my mum 6 years ago and I still cry it's nothing to be ashamed of and definitely nothing you should apologise for your doing so well putting yourself out there the way you do I have huge respect for you it will get better xxx
Grief is the worst pain - it’s so deep and raw, and sometimes it knocks you down like a steam train …all of a sudden. Feel for you - it’s always okay to talk about it. 🙏🏻❤️
Don’t ever apologise for being raw you don’t give us negative vibes you always make us happy just you being open and honest we love you so much more Always keep it real xxxxxx
Gemma sweetheart, you're dad is always with you and he can see how happy you are and I bet he's soooooooooooo proud of you. Grief is a hard thing to deal with huni, you will never get over your dad but I promise it will get easier. Lots of love and big hugs to you. Xxxxx
I lost my mum 4 years ago at 17 and it was and still is the hardest thing in the world but I am now coping better than before and you learn to live with it but never gwt over it of course, enjoy the memories you had with him and know he loves you and don't be afraid to ever speak about it grief is something that will inevitably happen to every one of us and we all need to talk about it when needed❤
Grief is a difficult thing. I lost one of my family members 2 years ago suddenly and that was the first time grief had hit me that hard. Therapy/counseling had really helped me. Gemma, thanks for being so genuine and vulnerable with us ❤️. Please know this is helpful to me and not draining.
So Sorry Gemma. I understand Totally. I had a wobble today Crying. Lost My Mum 10th April 2 month's ago . I was out with a Friend Today and a certain song came on the Radio. And That just Threw Me. Crying with you listening , Your Dad would be so proud of you. Lots of love Tina Xx 💞
All I can say is that it does get easier my darling. Never feel guilty about enjoying good times just remember your dad may physically be not around but he's in your heart, And I like to think it's not the universe gifting you your dreams but your dad is always around sending hugs xxx
I was crying along with you. I lost my dad last year. I know exactly how you are feeling. The pain of losing someone never goes away. Your dad is so incredibly proud of you and everything you are doing. He is watching over you and cheering you on. Xx
I’m crying watching this but it’s for the best. I lost my step dad last year and I sometimes think I never Grieved enough. I go through stages where I break down only on my own and just miss him terribly. He was in my life for such a long time that it feels like I lost my real dad and it hurts, but when you see everyone else move on it makes you feel weird. I feel bad opening up to anyone, especially my mum because there dealing with it so well around me. Seeing you feel the same way really comforted me cause it made me no longer feel alone, you’ve honestly been such a light over the past year Gemma and I can’t Thankyou enough. Thankyou for being yourself and the amount of love you give to us 🤍 xx
I won’t lie and say that the loss of a parent gets easier, as I don’t think it ever really does but you do learn to live with those sad moments your experiencing. It’s natural to feel the way you do and if you need to cry, you must as it helps to let it out . Xx
Sending you so so much love. Gemma, please talk to a grief counsellor. You need to express how you’re feeling and after, it will feel like the best thing you could ever have done for yourself xx
Sending you a huge hug from a girl whose turning 37 in a week and lost her dad 7 years ago and still feels like it was yesterday. I feel you 100% and sympathise so much. You will deal with it as strongly as you can, and yes you will have sad days and maybe days you can’t handle but always remember it is ok. Lots of love my dear
I love your videos! Grief is such a horrible thing losing my mum 18 months ago was the hardest thing ever! Your dad would be so so proud of you and just remember he is always watching you ❤️💙
Hi Gemma I suffer from severe depression anxiety I lost my dad in January of last year and my baby the week later my heart goes out to you your videos inspire me you are an amazing person I'm sure your dad would be very proud of you when I'm having a low day I watch your videos cheer me up no thank you 🙏🙏🙏😇
O Gemma, I was crying with you. Ive lost both my parents and think about them everyday. The pain never goes, it just gets easier to deal with. Your Dad is looking down on you and is so proud of you. Big hug xo
You had me in tears as I remembered my mum. I lost her nearly 5 years ago. The pain never leaves. We just cope. Part of me died too. Thank you for sharing, you are not alone. You dad is with you with every step you take. Your dad lives through you. Hugs n love. ❤
Hi Gemma. I just hope you can get rid of that pain one day, I can’t imagine what you are going through now and I’m sorry… I’m sure he’s proud of you wherever he his now 🤍✨ Lots of love xx
Crying my eyes out watching this- knowing your pain, knowing exactly how you feel. For me it’s 4 years July and it still feels painful, it’s still so raw and I still have so many bad days. Sending you so much love and know how proud of you your dad is 💖
Don't ever feel you need to justify your feelings. Own your grief however it manifests. You may find it helpful to sit in your car and talk to your Dad, tell him what's going on, what you've been up to and what excites you about your future. His soul will hear you. Sending you all the love in the world and hope Teddy feels better soon. Xx
Hi Gemma grief is like a rollercoaster. It is not easy losing someone we love so dearly. My dad was my hero and like you when things change I always think of what he would say. The quote at the end sums it up. Take care. Virtual hugs xx
Hey Gemma, hope you're okay. Just want to say I felt all the emotions you felt when you were missing your dad, I cried with you. I lost my dad almost 7 years ago now and i still get those days where i miss him immensely however, one thing that really helps me is talking to him. You might think thats impossible but I have a diary on my phone in my notes. I write to him about all my accomplishments or anything big that happens in my life or even just to tell him how im feeling and how much i miss him. I find it really helps that empty lonely feeling that you get in your chest, tummy and throat when big things happen and hes not there. I also write poetry and those days all my feelings are just floating out of me, I journal it. Its a really good coping mechanism because like you quoted at the end, grief is like an ocean. From watching your videos it sounds like you are very similar to me in terms of talking about how you're feeling about him to others. The nights i wake up thinking about him i instantly pull out my phone and write to him. I never feel so lonely afterwards because it feels like ive spoken to him as insane as it sounds. You should try it and see if it helps. Its about finding the right coping statergy that helps you get by. ♡
I enjoy your videos so much, thanks for being so open about your feelings, I guess it’s a year later so I hope you aren’t in as much pain now. I just feel like your openness has made me realise I don’t necessarily need to keep the pain I feel from my sisters death inside which is what I feel like I have to do to get through each day even though it happened 5 years ago. Anyway, just going to binge watch more of you videos whilst I cleaning today 😊
I lost my dad 3 years ago & I still struggle knowing I’ll never see him again. I try to think about how proud he would be of everything I’ve achieved & I’d bet your dad would think exactly the same. You’ve achieved so much at such a young age and have been a massive support to a lot of people throughout the recent tough times. You should be so incredibly proud of yourself & understand that everyone has different ways of coping. Grief is more than an emotion, but is a process which you just have to ride. You’ve obviously got such an amazing support bubble around you and I hope you really know how appreciated you are 💛
Its really hard to lost someone, I lost my both auntys in a week for months ago, from cancer.😔 I miss them a lot. So Gemma wipe your tears and smile. All fathers are proud of their daughters😊😍
one of the things I love about watching you Gem is that you’re so real. Seeing you cry just shows that you are a real person and just because on youtube videos you seem happy, you still don’t hide your struggles. I lost my bestfriend 3 years ago and I feel I can relate to you with a lot of what you’ve said, you are fine for a while and then something so small can tip you over the edge. Your dad would be so so proud of you and he’s always smiling and watching over you all. You’re doing amazing gal and we are all here for you! I am so glad you didn’t edit that part out of this video because it’s important to know that it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to grieve and it’s okay to grieve for a loved one for as long as you need to! We love you Gem and keep being you beautiful ✨🤍
You’re dad would be so proud of you Gemma, he’s watching you and encouraging you all the way. You have achieved so much in the last few months, he is always around you . It’s ok to cry and feel the pain but he wouldn’t want to see you upset. You have so much to look forward to and you have the amazing support of Jamie. Big hug to you. 💕
I really just want to give you a huge hug. Completely admire your honesty and bravery. For me what helps is having conversations with them still or writing things I would tell them down. So I don't miss the conversation as much. And like you just knowing what they would say back. I can not wait for the moving vlogs and just know that your father is watching every step of the next part of your journey 🤍
Gemma, so proud of your of braveness. We need more moments like yours on TH-cam! It’s hard to really connect with all the pranks and fun experiences everyone’s always having when sometimes life’s just not fun and we need to feel it and not numb it and explore those thoughts so we can process it all the way. Losing a parent is life altering. Feel what you feel for as long as you feel. Love is so powerful emotion and so is sadness it can bring so much clarity and closeness in a way you can’t get when you’re content or comfortable.
Gemma losing a parent is such a hard thing to go through, especially when you’re trying to process it on your own. We will always be here for you and we want you to heal in the best way you can. If you need to reach out to someone like a therapist, there’s absolutely no shame in it and they can give you the tools to help. We love you Gemma and hope you have brighter days ahead.
Hi Gemma firstly I wanted to say I found you last year during lockdown .I love all your vlogs and feel like I know you personally that is only dut to your wonderful warm personality.I can honestly say I wait for your next vlogs all the time and always enjoy them.You are so personable and that is what draws people to you.YOU WILL DEFINITELY have helped people by showing your sad days along with the happier ones.I cried so much this evening and had to comment.I am 61 and I completely understand that you want to share all of these important events in your life with your dad.I hope that sharing your grief with us has helped you,sending you a big cosy hug.Look after yourself xxx
So brave of you to put yourself out there like that with how your feeling and so important to show that it’s ok to feel these things. Stay strong lovely xx
Oh Gemma, there's so much love for you here!❤️ You might not be able to see your dad anymore but be sure he's always around! There is no 'away' in this world. Soon your grief will transform and you will remember your dad's wonderful soul with a big smile on your face and much love in your heart! I'm wishing you all the best on this journey!
I had to stop watching. I feel your pain. Its such a physical pain loosing a parent. I recently lost my mom and I totally get you. Know you are not alone. 💖
I’ve been in tears with you there Gemma, I’ve had a melt down today all of a sudden over my two dogs ... one died in August last year then her sister died January this year. They were my world & I feel like nobody knows how I’m feeling & life is just so awful. I hope you are ok Gemma. Lots of love sent your way xx
Losing a parent is one of the most difficult things. Every year gets better and you reach a point where you can cherish the happy times more. You are a special person and I’m sure he’s watching over you and your accomplishments. 💝🙏🏻
Even when they are not there in person, they are there in soul! He probably has the biggest smile on his face because of how well you are doing! Chin up 💖
Oh Gemma, grief is always difficult. You’re so brave sharing this with all of us. If you hold it all in, the grief will never get processed. Sharing your feelings is really important. I hope you are doing better. Hang in there. It truly does get better. Life happens. ❤️❤️
When you lose someone I think you do lose a little piece of yourself because you're never the same again, the experience changes you. Yes the grief will hit you in waves but gradually the happy memories will be more prominent, the sadness doesnt go its just a little less. Never feel guilty about saying how you really feel, not only will it help you in managing the feelings but it helps others who are in a similar situation. I can only imagine how proud your dad was of you and would still be during all of your life experiences x
Claire, that’s so true you do lose a little piece of yourself and you are never quite the same again. It’s 20 years now since I lost my mum and a corner of my heart went dark when she died. Take care💜
I lost my mom & dad more than 10 years ago, and it does get easier to live with but it never completely leaves you. Those moments that hit you like a sledgehammer get fewer and farther between, but they can still sneak up on you. You never stop missing them.
We love you Gemma, in your positive upbeat moments and especially in your vulnerable moments. It’s not draining, it’s relatable. We are here for you like your videos are here for us on our bad days. I lost my dad as well and it’s so hard being a young adult and still needing your parent and how shocking the pain really is. I feel you so much and you are correct - time will help the sad spells be less frequent. These big life changes and events you have are making them come up and that’s very normal!! It is important to get those feelings and emotions out. It’s okay not to be okay every day! I know it’s hard, but I promise you are not a shell. You are strong. Sending you so much love, sweet girl. Your dad is so proud of you. xoxo
Thank you for being brave and showing a really painful moment and as heartbreaking as that was to watch you crying,it is so important for people out there who are feeling like you were in that moment,to know it is a normal part of working through grief...I am even more in awe of you than I was before,amazing person 🥰🥰xxxx
Crying is never a display of weakness, in fact you crying on camera is so empowering, and a reminder to everyone that it is ok to cry...it is ok to feel your emotions. You have a wonderful trait which is always putting others interests ahead of your own...even us strangers on the internet. If it means anything we all want to see what’s best for you not for us...I wish more than anything we could reciprocate all the love you show us. I wish I could tell you these words to your face, and tell you that you deserve to cry, no you NEED to cry. Grieving is so,so,so hard, and you never ever have to cover up how you really feel for the sake of others. Listen to your emotions and let it all out. I promise you, as you say time is a healer. You are a genuinely good person and you will attract so much good into your life, so I know there are easier times coming. Even so you still never have to stop grieving or justify the fact that you’re still grieving! I wish I could hug you and tell you how incredibly strong you are. You’re a superhero Gemma. I hope you will be just as proud of yourself as we all are of you, and as I’m sure your dad is of you! It’s time for you to start putting yourself and your emotions first. Sending all my love, and all the love in the world ( along with loads of hugs ). 💖💖💖💖💖💖
Awww Gemma my hearts breaking for you!! Just remember your dad will be sooo proud of you! Hes helping to make all the brilliant new adventures your on happy! 💙💙
I love your videos, you're the reason why I started my youtube account! Thank you for producing such amazing content Gemma! We appriciate you so much :)
Aww Gemma, my heart truly breaks for you, I can't even imagine what you must be going through. I'm sending you so much love and I really hope this pain passes. My dad saw a grief counsellor when his dad died and it helped him so much. I did DM you on Father's Day because I was thinking of you all day (not in a weird way aha) you were just in my thoughts along with my own dad and other people I know who've lost their dad. Sending you all the love xx
Your dad would be so proud of you and all the amazing things happening in your life, he’s always with you my lovely 🤍 never apologise for being real and raw, completely understand 🤍 giving you a huge hug xxx
I lost my dad last year and I can 100 percent relate to how you feel. The feeling you described, it’s always there always. I know my dad is around me and I have had a lot of signs where he has let me know that. You are very strong and it’s so lovely of you to share. I honestly feel your pain. I know exactly what you are going through. The way you described the feeling in your stomach the pain. Your dad would be so so proud of you. Thank you ❤️🦋
You're not "adding" any more pain to the world by discussing what's hurting you. It makes the world more beautiful as people feel like someone else goes through what they're going through. It makes people connect more in this disconnected world
There is no time limit on grief. I lost my parents over 20 years ago and there are still times when you think of them and still grieve the loss of them.
Aw, hope your ok, it's natural what your feeling, it's grief and what your feeling does happen when happy times come. Ime fourteen years down the line from losing my dad and I miss him every day. You will learn to live with it as the years go by and sometimes are harder than others. Enjoy your life he will be with you always xx
I lost my Dad 4 years ago, killed by an old woman with her car. The pain never goes away but we must remember the good times together and we must live as they were still here. A big hug❤️
Oh Gemma please don’t feel bad for sharing your raw emotion with us. Your dad would be amazingly proud of you & all of your achievements. I’ve recently lost my grandad & although it’s not the same I was really close to him & I miss him terribly. It is so important to talk about it & im so grateful to you for showing us it’s normal to have bad days. Thank you for sharing xx
Never apologize for being raw. This is you and we love you. This is life. It can't be glitter and glamour every day on youtube. You are such a humble and amazing person💗
I cried with you sister, my dad has been struggling with cancer treatment and it's been so hard....God knows how much we would like to share every good thing with them...
Oh Gemma it breaks my heart to see you grieving but also at the same time, you are so brave and courageous for sharing your grief. I hope you take comfort in knowing that you are really helping others to grieve and go through the process which is so often done behind closed doors. By showing your raw emotions you are encouraging others to allow themselves to grieve openly which I truly believe is the healthiest way to getting back to feeling yourself again given your loss.
I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mom 3 and half year ago and my Dad at the end of Feb. I feel lost and alone most of the time, even at the age of 44 with a grown family and can be fine then just in a puddle of tears. Its refreshing to see someone expose that side of themselves and make us feel less alone in our grief.
You’re so genuine! I’m a huge empath, but it’s not often I cry while watching you tubers (she says as she sits here with tears rolling down her face) Btw you’re definitely my fav. But it’s ok to be raw and human. You have so much love around you and I’m so sure your dad is looking down with a smile from ear to ear and so so proud❤️ you got this babe (at your own pace) Never change. lots of love Xxx
I lost my dad at the end of March this year and I've never heard someone explain the way I feel as closely as you did in the car... it was so comforting, thank you ❤ sending you a big hug xx
Hi Gemma I’m so glad u voiced how ur grief is affecting you!!it made me break down in tears with you as I lost my mum three years ago this year and it still feels like yesterday!!grief hits u at any time any place it has no limits!!I love how real and human you are and the fact you wanted ur real feelings to help someone in the same situation!!but it’s true it does feel like u loose a big of yourself and that a piece of you is gone forever like u have to form a new identity so to speak!!you take care of yourself and make time for yourself it’s important to keep memories alive!❤️❤️xxxx
Your dad is so proud of you hun 😇 you’re such a sweetheart and such a good human . Never change Gemma. I loved you since day one and you make all of us feel so happy when you upload a new video . You give us a very good energy that no one can do that . Everyone around you should be so lucky and proud of you . I love you Gemma 💎
Oh Gemma I'm so sorry you're going through those feelings. I was tearing up watching. It's so hard realising that someone isn't there when big life things are happening. Sending lots of love your way xx
Oh Gemma my sweetheart don’t get upset. Your dad is with you all the time. He would be so proud of you. You are still grieving it’s early days. It will get easier it takes time 🥰
Thank you for a lovely vlog. I lost my dad at 11 so 20+ years ago and I cried my eyes out this father’s day. However I promise it does get easier and I like to think that those moments where you imagine them saying things…..maybe they are? Maybe they are still with us supporting our every move and watching over us. Gradually the good memories will outweigh the pain but your description of the pain resonated so much almost impossible to describe but like you have swallowed a heavy weight. He will be so proud of you! Thank you for sharing so openly. I have a 2 year old daughter and if I ever think about how desperately I wish he could meet her the pain is overwhelming. I tell her stories about him so I feel like they are still connected. Xxx
Just watched your video and my heart breaks for you. I know your dad is watching down from heaven and is so proud of you in everything you do and you should be so proud of your achievements. He would not want you to be sad. We all love you and your videos and showing emotions just proves you are real. Sending love and hugs 🤗❤️
I was crying with you my love. Stay strong and just remember that your dad is watching you from above and he is sooo so proud of you and everything that you’re accomplishing. They’re never truly gone ❤️
Your videos are amazing, i lost my mum 9years this coming december and even now i still cant get my head around the fact she aint here anymore, i 100%can relate how you feel, your dad is looking down on you and guiding you in life to be happy ❤
Gemma you give us so much happiness, comfort and escape. Sorry you are having a hard time and very brave to speak out about it. We are hear to listen, you don’t drain anyone. You are helping so many! And by talking helping yourself. Don’t ever feel like you can’t talk. Lots of love xxxx
Gemma you are an absolute QUEEN!!!! and it is soooo totally normal to feel this way when you’re going through all these highs in life and the one person you want to share it with isn’t there to see it, its ok to feel sad or angry or lost but he is literally with you every step of the way it is still so raw so never feel that you have to keep up an image girl if you feel like crying then you cry if you feel like screaming into a pillow then you do it you talk to who ever you want about. I lost my grandad in 2010 and oh my god was i heartbroken i still am he was my absolute best friend i still have wobbles now he was my escape when the world was getting on my nerves but i know he’s still with me everyday. It’s so nice to see in a world full of “fakeness” you’re that little bit of realness sending loads of love 💕
You're so sweet Gemma inside out. It's so normal to feel pain when dealing with grief. Thanks for sharing this with us ❤ and so glad you're feeling better!
I have watched you for years and never comment on yt, but feel as though I needed to because I have just sat and cried for the last 20 minutes watching you cry in your car😩❤️ no one is 100% perfect all the time and it would be extremely exhausting trying to pretend to be. Your dad seemed to be incredibly proud of you and still would be! It has been amazing these last few years watching you grow so I can only imagine how proud of you he is while he watches from above. Seeing the raw, vulnerable side of you just makes you even more relatable and has made me love your videos even more. I know it sounds strange, but it’s still uplifting to see someone’s struggle, because it shows others that they are not alone in theirs❤️
Gemma I am 55 and lost my Mom over three years ago. I miss her every single day. Try and remember all those good times. I know that is really hard sometimes. Don't shy away from talking about your dad, he was a massive part of your life and always will be. Mandy xx
My mom lost her mom back in January of 2021. That was the hardest thing to watch my mother cry. She hardly ever does and watching her break down was so hard. I’m just glad that she has me and her children(11 kids) she birthed all of us. My mom has always been a hero in our eyes. God bless you and I’m praying for you💛♥️
i am so sorry about your loss im 13 and cant even begin to imagine what it'd be like withiut a mother or father, stay strong
Big hugs Mandy 💙
I'm 55 and lost my mum 3 years ago too ! X
I've got a few years on you and I lost mine over 30 years ago. Some days the feelings of sadness and loss overwhelms me and I find it hard to bear. Some days I can hardly remember him which makes things worse. Then there are days when I remember all the good things, the chats we'd have, what I have to talk to him about now in my life - I miss that.
The bad days come from nowhere and hit you like a freight train, and yes it 'gets easier' when that time comes I couldn't tell you and seeing Gemma at this point, girl I get it. We get it and you know what. Its fine and its normal! Don't ever feel that it isn't and you must always show the stoic side of yourself.
Gemma I’m 56 and lost my Mom 5 years ago . When people say it gets easier as time goes by or you get over it it’s not true . You just learn to keep going and hold on to what your loved ones would want for you .
Your Dad is always with you and watches over you .
Please don’t let this world change you . I think you’ll find there’s more of us that appreciate and respect the true raw authentic genuine self of people rather than a curated facade .
I believe in signs from heaven our loved ones send us . For me mine are butterflies, light bugs , feathers and red birds.
When I see these in the most unexpected random places at random unexpected times I know it’s my Mother letting me know she’s always with me . I’m sure your Dad sends you signs as well .
God bless , love and light 🦋
I think it’s really hard to accept that life goes on without someone who’s so important to you. It eventually eases and you don’t feel as suffocated, but the shock never leaves. My dad has been gone for almost 6 years and it affects literally every big decision I have and I think of him every single day. The most important thing is to just let yourself feel. Allow the pain to move through and don’t bottle it up. 🖤
Thank you, sending all my love to you 🤍
We’ll get through it together, thank you for being so open 🖤
Beautiful advice xx
Your dad would be so so so proud of the person you’ve become today, the success you’ve achieved and just the genuine happy self you are❤️
Oh darling I just wanna give you a massive hug. Don’t ever apologise for being sad or anxious or feeling low. You help so many people out, your so kind and caring but your human with a heart and sometimes the heart needs to off load. You have lost your dad at such a young age but talk to dad he is with you he’s guiding you he’s giving you strength to achieve such amazing goals in your life that’s very special and precious. I’m glad you show some of your hard times and it’s always good to write things down or share your grief, problems, worries etc with someone. Your one of the nicest people on Social Media, I feel for you like I do my friends. Even during your episode your still thinking of others hoping it’s helped people by you sharing your grief, one hell of a strong, kind, beautiful soul. I’m always here to listen to you and I’m sure lots of others are the same. Being real doesn’t mean your being negative one bit, your allowed to feel shit and you shouldn’t hide it either. Get it out, off ya chest, out of ya mind. we all need a rant now and then, does you good. Anyway hope little teddy is recovering from his ordeal. You have lots of lovely things happening. Will be stressful at times but just come and rant to us and we will help you through it. ❤️
I lost my dad unexpectedly when I was 25 and I’m 60 on Friday. My dad was my world and I thought The pain would never go away but believe me sweet girl,it will ease and time really is a great healer. Over the years at every occasion especially Christmas and even my up coming birthday milestone, I think of him even more. Ifeel for you and you are very brave. He is watching over you and I’m sure he’s very proud of you. I believe he’s guiding you and will give you the energy and strength you need to deal with the grief. Big hugs 😘
Everybody needs a good cry at some point ...stay strong.
Please don’t say stay strong she doesn’t need to - she just needs to be ❤️
@@Posh369 excuse me?! ...who are you?? I'm entitled to my own opinion thankyou very much...Gemma didn't have a problem with my comment..if I got a heart from the woman that made the video who are you to scrutinise my own words...stay out of any commet I ever make ...ill apologies to Gemma on your behalf for bringing negativity to her video 👍.
@@tanyajohnson7714 your poor friends and family if this is how you respond to me asking not to tell grieving people to stay strong. I have been where Gemma is - in fact I’m still there and people telling you to stay strong is quite frankly bullshit. Have a nice day 👍🏼
Gemma, I hope your ok! We are all here for you when you need to talk. If we didn’t have the bad days we don’t appreciate the good days! 🥰 we are so proud of you for everything you and Jaime have achieved ❤️
Gemma, I was crying right along with you as I could literally feel your pain as you described it. Thankfully I haven't lost either of my parents and can't say that I know how you feel, but it gave me an idea of how my friends and family genuinely must feel that have lost parents. You are such a courageous person to share this deeply emotional side of yourself, but I am glad that you did, because, those of us that religiously follow you, want you to be able to talk about this to us. Even though the majority of us don't know you personally, we are still your friends and TH-cam family! Hang in there and let the flood gates open when you need to, I for one, will be there to listen and send you much love and a huge comforting hug to help you get through those down days!!! 🤍🤍XOXO🤍🤍
I lost my dad last July we was really close he was in hospital when he passed away and we never got to say goodbye.. he was the only person on this earth who would never let me down I know exactly how you are feeling I miss my dad everyday.. he taught me everything in life but never taught me how to live without him😞 I hope your ok.
Sending you so much love x
Thank you xx
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Feel for you I lost my dad in a care home last year and couldn't say goodbye or have many at his funeral x
I feel the same about my dad who passed a number of years ago. I miss him everyday, but he lives on in our memories and hearts. I'm sorry for your loss. Keep him close in your memories.
Sending u a big hug losing someone close is painful , my husband is going through it has well losing his brother this year in January xx
I'm literally sobbing watching this my heart goes out to you so much I lost my mum 6 years ago and I still cry it's nothing to be ashamed of and definitely nothing you should apologise for your doing so well putting yourself out there the way you do I have huge respect for you it will get better xxx
Grief is the worst pain - it’s so deep and raw, and sometimes it knocks you down like a steam train …all of a sudden. Feel for you - it’s always okay to talk about it. 🙏🏻❤️
Don’t ever apologise for being raw you don’t give us negative vibes you always make us happy just you being open and honest we love you so much more
Always keep it real xxxxxx
Gemma sweetheart, you're dad is always with you and he can see how happy you are and I bet he's soooooooooooo proud of you. Grief is a hard thing to deal with huni, you will never get over your dad but I promise it will get easier. Lots of love and big hugs to you. Xxxxx
Why our parents have to leave us behind and die? :'( why?? 😢😢it breaks my heart aloooot.💔
I lost my mum 4 years ago at 17 and it was and still is the hardest thing in the world but I am now coping better than before and you learn to live with it but never gwt over it of course, enjoy the memories you had with him and know he loves you and don't be afraid to ever speak about it grief is something that will inevitably happen to every one of us and we all need to talk about it when needed❤
Grief is a difficult thing. I lost one of my family members 2 years ago suddenly and that was the first time grief had hit me that hard. Therapy/counseling had really helped me. Gemma, thanks for being so genuine and vulnerable with us ❤️. Please know this is helpful to me and not draining.
So Sorry Gemma. I understand Totally. I had a wobble today Crying. Lost My Mum 10th April 2 month's ago . I was out with a Friend Today and a certain song came on the Radio. And That just Threw Me. Crying with you listening , Your Dad would be so proud of you. Lots of love Tina
Xx 💞
It's always the songs that get you isn't it x
❤️❤️sending love
All I can say is that it does get easier my darling. Never feel guilty about enjoying good times just remember your dad may physically be not around but he's in your heart,
And I like to think it's not the universe gifting you your dreams but your dad is always around sending hugs xxx
I was crying along with you. I lost my dad last year. I know exactly how you are feeling. The pain of losing someone never goes away. Your dad is so incredibly proud of you and everything you are doing. He is watching over you and cheering you on. Xx
I’m crying watching this but it’s for the best. I lost my step dad last year and I sometimes think I never Grieved enough. I go through stages where I break down only on my own and just miss him terribly. He was in my life for such a long time that it feels like I lost my real dad and it hurts, but when you see everyone else move on it makes you feel weird. I feel bad opening up to anyone, especially my mum because there dealing with it so well around me. Seeing you feel the same way really comforted me cause it made me no longer feel alone, you’ve honestly been such a light over the past year Gemma and I can’t Thankyou enough. Thankyou for being yourself and the amount of love you give to us 🤍 xx
I won’t lie and say that the loss of a parent gets easier, as I don’t think it ever really does but you do learn to live with those sad moments your experiencing. It’s natural to feel the way you do and if you need to cry, you must as it helps to let it out . Xx
Sending you so so much love. Gemma, please talk to a grief counsellor. You need to express how you’re feeling and after, it will feel like the best thing you could ever have done for yourself xx
Thanks for uploading this because i’m going through the same emotions and nobody gets it unless they are in the same situation ❤️ it helps a lot
Sending you a huge hug from a girl whose turning 37 in a week and lost her dad 7 years ago and still feels like it was yesterday. I feel you 100% and sympathise so much. You will deal with it as strongly as you can, and yes you will have sad days and maybe days you can’t handle but always remember it is ok. Lots of love my dear
I love your videos! Grief is such a horrible thing losing my mum 18 months ago was the hardest thing ever! Your dad would be so so proud of you and just remember he is always watching you ❤️💙
They say grief is loves way of not letting go & I understand that I really do. Hugs 🤎
Hi Gemma I suffer from severe depression anxiety I lost my dad in January of last year and my baby the week later my heart goes out to you your videos inspire me you are an amazing person I'm sure your dad would be very proud of you when I'm having a low day I watch your videos cheer me up no thank you 🙏🙏🙏😇
Oh sweetie my heart goes out to you xxx
@@victoriaplum999 thank you xx
So sorry for your loss. x
O Gemma, I was crying with you. Ive lost both my parents and think about them everyday. The pain never goes, it just gets easier to deal with. Your Dad is looking down on you and is so proud of you. Big hug xo
You had me in tears as I remembered my mum. I lost her nearly 5 years ago. The pain never leaves. We just cope. Part of me died too.
Thank you for sharing, you are not alone.
You dad is with you with every step you take. Your dad lives through you.
Hugs n love. ❤
Hi Gemma. I just hope you can get rid of that pain one day, I can’t imagine what you are going through now and I’m sorry… I’m sure he’s proud of you wherever he his now 🤍✨ Lots of love xx
Crying my eyes out watching this- knowing your pain, knowing exactly how you feel. For me it’s 4 years July and it still feels painful, it’s still so raw and I still have so many bad days. Sending you so much love and know how proud of you your dad is 💖
Don't ever feel you need to justify your feelings. Own your grief however it manifests. You may find it helpful to sit in your car and talk to your Dad, tell him what's going on, what you've been up to and what excites you about your future. His soul will hear you. Sending you all the love in the world and hope Teddy feels better soon. Xx
Hi Gemma grief is like a rollercoaster. It is not easy losing someone we love so dearly. My dad was my hero and like you when things change I always think of what he would say. The quote at the end sums it up. Take care. Virtual hugs xx
Hey Gemma, hope you're okay. Just want to say I felt all the emotions you felt when you were missing your dad, I cried with you. I lost my dad almost 7 years ago now and i still get those days where i miss him immensely however, one thing that really helps me is talking to him. You might think thats impossible but I have a diary on my phone in my notes. I write to him about all my accomplishments or anything big that happens in my life or even just to tell him how im feeling and how much i miss him. I find it really helps that empty lonely feeling that you get in your chest, tummy and throat when big things happen and hes not there. I also write poetry and those days all my feelings are just floating out of me, I journal it. Its a really good coping mechanism because like you quoted at the end, grief is like an ocean. From watching your videos it sounds like you are very similar to me in terms of talking about how you're feeling about him to others. The nights i wake up thinking about him i instantly pull out my phone and write to him. I never feel so lonely afterwards because it feels like ive spoken to him as insane as it sounds. You should try it and see if it helps. Its about finding the right coping statergy that helps you get by. ♡
I enjoy your videos so much, thanks for being so open about your feelings, I guess it’s a year later so I hope you aren’t in as much pain now. I just feel like your openness has made me realise I don’t necessarily need to keep the pain I feel from my sisters death inside which is what I feel like I have to do to get through each day even though it happened 5 years ago. Anyway, just going to binge watch more of you videos whilst I cleaning today 😊
I lost my dad 3 years ago & I still struggle knowing I’ll never see him again. I try to think about how proud he would be of everything I’ve achieved & I’d bet your dad would think exactly the same. You’ve achieved so much at such a young age and have been a massive support to a lot of people throughout the recent tough times. You should be so incredibly proud of yourself & understand that everyone has different ways of coping. Grief is more than an emotion, but is a process which you just have to ride. You’ve obviously got such an amazing support bubble around you and I hope you really know how appreciated you are 💛
I can only imagine the pain of loosing a parent. Sending so much love and strength to you xx your kicking butt and your dad would be so proud.
Its really hard to lost someone, I lost my both auntys in a week for months ago, from cancer.😔 I miss them a lot. So Gemma wipe your tears and smile. All fathers are proud of their daughters😊😍
one of the things I love about watching you Gem is that you’re so real. Seeing you cry just shows that you are a real person and just because on youtube videos you seem happy, you still don’t hide your struggles. I lost my bestfriend 3 years ago and I feel I can relate to you with a lot of what you’ve said, you are fine for a while and then something so small can tip you over the edge. Your dad would be so so proud of you and he’s always smiling and watching over you all. You’re doing amazing gal and we are all here for you! I am so glad you didn’t edit that part out of this video because it’s important to know that it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to grieve and it’s okay to grieve for a loved one for as long as you need to! We love you Gem and keep being you beautiful ✨🤍
You’re dad would be so proud of you Gemma, he’s watching you and encouraging you all the way. You have achieved so much in the last few months, he is always around you . It’s ok to cry and feel the pain but he wouldn’t want to see you upset. You have so much to look forward to and you have the amazing support of Jamie. Big hug to you. 💕
I really just want to give you a huge hug. Completely admire your honesty and bravery. For me what helps is having conversations with them still or writing things I would tell them down. So I don't miss the conversation as much. And like you just knowing what they would say back.
I can not wait for the moving vlogs and just know that your father is watching every step of the next part of your journey 🤍
You are such an amazing person
Gemma, so proud of your of braveness. We need more moments like yours on TH-cam! It’s hard to really connect with all the pranks and fun experiences everyone’s always having when sometimes life’s just not fun and we need to feel it and not numb it and explore those thoughts so we can process it all the way. Losing a parent is life altering. Feel what you feel for as long as you feel. Love is so powerful emotion and so is sadness it can bring so much clarity and closeness in a way you can’t get when you’re content or comfortable.
Gemma losing a parent is such a hard thing to go through, especially when you’re trying to process it on your own. We will always be here for you and we want you to heal in the best way you can. If you need to reach out to someone like a therapist, there’s absolutely no shame in it and they can give you the tools to help. We love you Gemma and hope you have brighter days ahead.
Hi Gemma firstly I wanted to say I found you last year during lockdown .I love all your vlogs and feel like I know you personally that is only dut to your wonderful warm personality.I can honestly say I wait for your next vlogs all the time and always enjoy them.You are so personable and that is what draws people to you.YOU WILL DEFINITELY have helped people by showing your sad days along with the happier ones.I cried so much this evening and had to comment.I am 61 and I completely understand that you want to share all of these important events in your life with your dad.I hope that sharing your grief with us has helped you,sending you a big cosy hug.Look after yourself xxx
So so brave for talking about something so raw, we are all hear for you, weather that be to cry or laugh with ❤️
I honestly cried with you ❤️ the pain of loosing a loved one never goes away you just learn to live with it… I pray God give you strength ❤️❤️
So brave of you to put yourself out there like that with how your feeling and so important to show that it’s ok to feel these things. Stay strong lovely xx
Oh Gemma, there's so much love for you here!❤️ You might not be able to see your dad anymore but be sure he's always around! There is no 'away' in this world. Soon your grief will transform and you will remember your dad's wonderful soul with a big smile on your face and much love in your heart! I'm wishing you all the best on this journey!
I had to stop watching. I feel your pain. Its such a physical pain loosing a parent. I recently lost my mom and I totally get you. Know you are not alone. 💖
'What is grief, if not love persevering' your honesty is inspiring ❤️
I’ve been in tears with you there Gemma, I’ve had a melt down today all of a sudden over my two dogs ... one died in August last year then her sister died January this year. They were my world & I feel like nobody knows how I’m feeling & life is just so awful. I hope you are ok Gemma. Lots of love sent your way xx
Losing a parent is one of the most difficult things. Every year gets better and you reach a point where you can cherish the happy times more. You are a special person and I’m sure he’s watching over you and your accomplishments. 💝🙏🏻
Even when they are not there in person, they are there in soul! He probably has the biggest smile on his face because of how well you are doing! Chin up 💖
Oh Gemma, grief is always difficult. You’re so brave sharing this with all of us. If you hold it all in, the grief will never get processed. Sharing your feelings is really important. I hope you are doing better. Hang in there. It truly does get better. Life happens. ❤️❤️
When you lose someone I think you do lose a little piece of yourself because you're never the same again, the experience changes you. Yes the grief will hit you in waves but gradually the happy memories will be more prominent, the sadness doesnt go its just a little less. Never feel guilty about saying how you really feel, not only will it help you in managing the feelings but it helps others who are in a similar situation. I can only imagine how proud your dad was of you and would still be during all of your life experiences x
Claire, that’s so true you do lose a little piece of yourself and you are never quite the same again. It’s 20 years now since I lost my mum and a corner of my heart went dark when she died. Take care💜
@@katrinaryan1739 you too Katrina x
I lost my mom & dad more than 10 years ago, and it does get easier to live with but it never completely leaves you. Those moments that hit you like a sledgehammer get fewer and farther between, but they can still sneak up on you. You never stop missing them.
I can’t wait for the new house vlogs. It’s my fav thing ever
We love you Gemma, in your positive upbeat moments and especially in your vulnerable moments. It’s not draining, it’s relatable. We are here for you like your videos are here for us on our bad days. I lost my dad as well and it’s so hard being a young adult and still needing your parent and how shocking the pain really is. I feel you so much and you are correct - time will help the sad spells be less frequent. These big life changes and events you have are making them come up and that’s very normal!! It is important to get those feelings and emotions out. It’s okay not to be okay every day! I know it’s hard, but I promise you are not a shell. You are strong. Sending you so much love, sweet girl. Your dad is so proud of you. xoxo
Someone once said to me that when you think of those that are gone that is when they are the closest to you..
Thank you for being brave and showing a really painful moment and as heartbreaking as that was to watch you crying,it is so important for people out there who are feeling like you were in that moment,to know it is a normal part of working through grief...I am even more in awe of you than I was before,amazing person 🥰🥰xxxx
Crying is never a display of weakness, in fact you crying on camera is so empowering, and a reminder to everyone that it is ok to cry...it is ok to feel your emotions. You have a wonderful trait which is always putting others interests ahead of your own...even us strangers on the internet. If it means anything we all want to see what’s best for you not for us...I wish more than anything we could reciprocate all the love you show us. I wish I could tell you these words to your face, and tell you that you deserve to cry, no you NEED to cry. Grieving is so,so,so hard, and you never ever have to cover up how you really feel for the sake of others. Listen to your emotions and let it all out. I promise you, as you say time is a healer. You are a genuinely good person and you will attract so much good into your life, so I know there are easier times coming. Even so you still never have to stop grieving or justify the fact that you’re still grieving! I wish I could hug you and tell you how incredibly strong you are. You’re a superhero Gemma. I hope you will be just as proud of yourself as we all are of you, and as I’m sure your dad is of you! It’s time for you to start putting yourself and your emotions first. Sending all my love, and all the love in the world ( along with loads of hugs ). 💖💖💖💖💖💖
Awww Gemma my hearts breaking for you!! Just remember your dad will be sooo proud of you! Hes helping to make all the brilliant new adventures your on happy! 💙💙
I love your videos, you're the reason why I started my youtube account! Thank you for producing such amazing content Gemma! We appriciate you so much :)
Never apologise to us for feeling down, we appreciate you showing us the realness of your life that not everything is sunshine and rainbows. xxx
Aww Gemma, my heart truly breaks for you, I can't even imagine what you must be going through. I'm sending you so much love and I really hope this pain passes. My dad saw a grief counsellor when his dad died and it helped him so much. I did DM you on Father's Day because I was thinking of you all day (not in a weird way aha) you were just in my thoughts along with my own dad and other people I know who've lost their dad. Sending you all the love xx
Your dad would be so proud of you and all the amazing things happening in your life, he’s always with you my lovely 🤍 never apologise for being real and raw, completely understand 🤍 giving you a huge hug xxx
I lost my dad last year and I can 100 percent relate to how you feel. The feeling you described, it’s always there always. I know my dad is around me and I have had a lot of signs where he has let me know that. You are very strong and it’s so lovely of you to share. I honestly feel your pain. I know exactly what you are going through. The way you described the feeling in your stomach the pain. Your dad would be so so proud of you. Thank you ❤️🦋
You're not "adding" any more pain to the world by discussing what's hurting you. It makes the world more beautiful as people feel like someone else goes through what they're going through. It makes people connect more in this disconnected world
I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ! MY DADDY PASSED AWAY LAST WEEK ! ❤
There is no time limit on grief. I lost my parents over 20 years ago and there are still times when you think of them and still grieve the loss of them.
I'm so sorry but I laughed so much when teddy removed the collar after like 2 sec. of wearing it, bless him😂😂 sending you 4 lots of love♥️
Aw, hope your ok, it's natural what your feeling, it's grief and what your feeling does happen when happy times come. Ime fourteen years down the line from losing my dad and I miss him every day. You will learn to live with it as the years go by and sometimes are harder than others. Enjoy your life he will be with you always xx
I lost my Dad 4 years ago, killed by an old woman with her car. The pain never goes away but we must remember the good times together and we must live as they were still here. A big hug❤️
Oh Gemma please don’t feel bad for sharing your raw emotion with us. Your dad would be amazingly proud of you & all of your achievements. I’ve recently lost my grandad & although it’s not the same I was really close to him & I miss him terribly. It is so important to talk about it & im so grateful to you for showing us it’s normal to have bad days. Thank you for sharing xx
YAY! I rlly needed this😭
Never apologize for being raw. This is you and we love you. This is life. It can't be glitter and glamour every day on youtube. You are such a humble and amazing person💗
I cried with you sister, my dad has been struggling with cancer treatment and it's been so hard....God knows how much we would like to share every good thing with them...
Oh Gemma it breaks my heart to see you grieving but also at the same time, you are so brave and courageous for sharing your grief. I hope you take comfort in knowing that you are really helping others to grieve and go through the process which is so often done behind closed doors. By showing your raw emotions you are encouraging others to allow themselves to grieve openly which I truly believe is the healthiest way to getting back to feeling yourself again given your loss.
I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mom 3 and half year ago and my Dad at the end of Feb. I feel lost and alone most of the time, even at the age of 44 with a grown family and can be fine then just in a puddle of tears. Its refreshing to see someone expose that side of themselves and make us feel less alone in our grief.
You’re so genuine! I’m a huge empath, but it’s not often I cry while watching you tubers (she says as she sits here with tears rolling down her face) Btw you’re definitely my fav. But it’s ok to be raw and human. You have so much love around you and I’m so sure your dad is looking down with a smile from ear to ear and so so proud❤️ you got this babe (at your own pace) Never change. lots of love Xxx
I lost my dad at the end of March this year and I've never heard someone explain the way I feel as closely as you did in the car... it was so comforting, thank you ❤ sending you a big hug xx
Hi Gemma I’m so glad u voiced how ur grief is affecting you!!it made me break down in tears with you as I lost my mum three years ago this year and it still feels like yesterday!!grief hits u at any time any place it has no limits!!I love how real and human you are and the fact you wanted ur real feelings to help someone in the same situation!!but it’s true it does feel like u loose a big of yourself and that a piece of you is gone forever like u have to form a new identity so to speak!!you take care of yourself and make time for yourself it’s important to keep memories alive!❤️❤️xxxx
Sending so much love to you. Your Dad is so proud of you and watching over you I’m sure! ❤️ xx
Your dad is so proud of you hun 😇 you’re such a sweetheart and such a good human . Never change Gemma.
I loved you since day one and you make all of us feel so happy when you upload a new video . You give us a very good energy that no one can do that .
Everyone around you should be so lucky and proud of you .
I love you Gemma 💎
Thank you for sharing your grief with us...your Dad is proud of you and he is watching over you from heaven, you are his angel 💞
Oh Gemma I'm so sorry you're going through those feelings. I was tearing up watching. It's so hard realising that someone isn't there when big life things are happening. Sending lots of love your way xx
Oh Gemma my sweetheart don’t get upset. Your dad is with you all the time. He would be so proud of you. You are still grieving it’s early days. It will get easier it takes time 🥰
Thank you for a lovely vlog. I lost my dad at 11 so 20+ years ago and I cried my eyes out this father’s day. However I promise it does get easier and I like to think that those moments where you imagine them saying things…..maybe they are? Maybe they are still with us supporting our every move and watching over us. Gradually the good memories will outweigh the pain but your description of the pain resonated so much almost impossible to describe but like you have swallowed a heavy weight. He will be so proud of you! Thank you for sharing so openly. I have a 2 year old daughter and if I ever think about how desperately I wish he could meet her the pain is overwhelming. I tell her stories about him so I feel like they are still connected. Xxx
Bless you Gemma you will always have your memories of your dad , nobody can take them away from you xx
Just watched your video and my heart breaks for you. I know your dad is watching down from heaven and is so proud of you in everything you do and you should be so proud of your achievements. He would not want you to be sad. We all love you and your videos and showing emotions just proves you are real. Sending love and hugs 🤗❤️
I was crying with you my love. Stay strong and just remember that your dad is watching you from above and he is sooo so proud of you and everything that you’re accomplishing. They’re never truly gone ❤️
Your videos are amazing, i lost my mum 9years this coming december and even now i still cant get my head around the fact she aint here anymore, i 100%can relate how you feel, your dad is looking down on you and guiding you in life to be happy ❤
Gemma you give us so much happiness, comfort and escape. Sorry you are having a hard time and very brave to speak out about it. We are hear to listen, you don’t drain anyone. You are helping so many! And by talking helping yourself. Don’t ever feel like you can’t talk. Lots of love xxxx
Gemma you are an absolute QUEEN!!!! and it is soooo totally normal to feel this way when you’re going through all these highs in life and the one person you want to share it with isn’t there to see it, its ok to feel sad or angry or lost but he is literally with you every step of the way it is still so raw so never feel that you have to keep up an image girl if you feel like crying then you cry if you feel like screaming into a pillow then you do it you talk to who ever you want about. I lost my grandad in 2010 and oh my god was i heartbroken i still am he was my absolute best friend i still have wobbles now he was my escape when the world was getting on my nerves but i know he’s still with me everyday. It’s so nice to see in a world full of “fakeness” you’re that little bit of realness sending loads of love 💕
You're so sweet Gemma inside out. It's so normal to feel pain when dealing with grief. Thanks for sharing this with us ❤ and so glad you're feeling better!
Gemma, just thank you for all of you. Sending love and hugs 🤗
Don't ever feel bad or apologize for missing your dad. You're human..sending you tons of love and hugs.
I have watched you for years and never comment on yt, but feel as though I needed to because I have just sat and cried for the last 20 minutes watching you cry in your car😩❤️ no one is 100% perfect all the time and it would be extremely exhausting trying to pretend to be. Your dad seemed to be incredibly proud of you and still would be! It has been amazing these last few years watching you grow so I can only imagine how proud of you he is while he watches from above. Seeing the raw, vulnerable side of you just makes you even more relatable and has made me love your videos even more. I know it sounds strange, but it’s still uplifting to see someone’s struggle, because it shows others that they are not alone in theirs❤️