The fact that the last two lines are "It couldn't be me" followed by "it should've been me" really resonates with me. Even after you "move on" from that kind of obsession, there's a lingering melancholy regret, a wish that you'd been someone else from the beginning, a perverse hypothesis that if you hadn't fallen into obsession, hadn't made mistakes, you could've been "good enough"
You've said it perfectly. It's been almost 8 years now since a devastating breakup and I still haven't been able to go back into looking for someone else. While they've moved on and gotten married to someone else. I've accepted the reality of the situation a long time ago, but I still have at least 1 thought about her every day for some reason and always regret not being better.
This hits a little to close to home. This song is a really good representation of what it's like to be obsessed with somebody. I also like how it doesn't necessarily have to be read as romantic. When I get obsessed to the point of dependency on the person I'm obsessed with it's less uwu going to stalk my boyfriend and more I want to be your best friend and I would do anything to make you happy and the song can be read this way, making it easier for more people with attachment and obsession issues to relate to. 10000/10 song.
UUUESSYEYYSS OGNGNGNGN THIS IS EXAACTLY HOW I FEEL TOWARDS A CERTAIN SOMEOEN :3 THEYLL NEVERNLIKE ME BACK THO TwT (im arpace and i fall in love platonically :33)
i remember reading this comment when the song was first published and i wass like "thats weird" Oh how i _miss_ not being able to relate to this song & comment well op hope you're doing better now its rough
and then Delusion Chapel by Dante (Patchwork P), [There's the Miku original by Dante (Patchwork P) and then there's the Solaria one MADE BY Dante (Patchwork P)
Solaria's voice just sounds like a human sprinkled with a tiny autotune like GOD, and also great song btw cant wait to bop this at 10 am while being high
I just came back to this after it playing on my music app- I had to check if rip was singing or if it was a v-synth- I’m very blown away still____ (Sometimes artists do covers of their own songs and I didn’t remember just how realistic the just song is-)
As I was listening I got the impression that the stress on the word ‘me’ was in reference to something like ‘you may have PICKED me, but you didn’t pick ME.’ Like, ‘I thought *_I_* was what you wanted, not who you _thought_ I was.’ I don’t know, just resonated with me- for no specific reason-
I'm blown away by the quality of this song. Even though this is only the second song I've heard that uses Solaria, I'm completely convinced that it has the most realistic voice out of all virtual singers I know. The other parts of the song are also absolutely AMAZING.
This song goes so hard. Not only does R.I.P's music skills come out here, but their art, editing, lyric writing abilities, and tuning does really leave it's mark! Not to mention the music skills . . . Solaria sounds so realistic, and my gods it's so smooth and, honestly, perfect! Overall a very talented person with a very lovely AI vocal! Much love!
p sure the difference is who produced the voicebanks! crypton made miku, rin, len, etc. SynthV is a separate program with VBs like Solaria and Anri and for extra info, this is why UTAUs are considered their own thing! UTAUs are free VBs that anyone can make, really (like teto, yamine renri, momo, defoko, etc)
this song really hit close to home for me, it reminds me of the struggles i've been facing due to my BPD. wanting to be close to someone, only to drive them away instead. desperately trying to get them back, to the point of damaging your relationship more and more. there's a couple of lines in this song that *really* make me interpret it as BPD. "please don't think less of me, i'm but a lonely soul you see", that feeling of being alone? yeah. yeah. "so now it's your responsibility to make me stay alive" I'd be awfully dependent on my friends, to the point of driving them away "my polarizing rationality just couldn't pass the test" black and white thinking, another big symptom of BPD thank you for the great song RIP, i'm going to be listening to this on loop for like 5 hours now. you're epic EDIT: i just noticed the themes of jealousy in there too! nice one. definitely going to add that to the pile
@@CrustiiDustii yes!! this exactly. this really reminds me of one of my past FPs who ended up having to distance herself from me. this happened 2 years ago, it still hurts deeply to this day
@@CrustiiDustii My FP was my best friend in middle school. I was borderline obsessed with him for years, and it tore me apart to watch him date someone who didn’t even like me. I was so jealous it felt like I was being torn apart inside. I wanted him to be happy, but why couldn’t he be happy with me? I was always dropping hints about my feelings for him, and one time I was loopy off my meds and declared my love for him. In the end, I had to accept he’d never have feelings for me and moved on. We’re still best friends tho :)
This song makes me feel really good and sad at the same time. I was diagnosed with BPD right before my 18th birthday, and it really explains a lot. For years, my parents thought I was just a bratty spoiled rat. Even now, I watch them idolize and adore my sister (who is younger by 11 months) and I just… feel like it’s so unfair. She has so many talents, and I used to be a “gifted” kid. I’ve tried so hard to earn their love, but my dad still makes fun of me and dumps it all on my shoulders whenever anything happens…
You may be related by blood, but clearly thats not your family. Find a better one, you don’t gotta stick with one that treats you badly. If your sister is nice to you, stay in contact, if not, cut em all off. You don’t gotta deal with people who treats you like less.
So this person isn't even 18 yet, and they've made a ton of epic songs and never fail to impress. You truly amaze me R.I.P. Also good job on writing a song in 10 days
"It should've been me!" "You should have loved me from the start!" "And after everything I've done for you, you don't think it's bizzare?" "Oh what a shame, I've gone insane." "I think I need you to survive" "Now it's your responsibility to make me stay alive" My life in a nutshell
Lyrics: Not too loud Not too quiet Don’t be proud Don’t be shy It’s rude to stare Oh, do I dare? Keep it bold Don’t be timid Not too slow Make it quick It’s so unfair I’m almost there Lost in a fantasy My very own Pandora’s box Swarmed by my jealousy I hope that it doesn’t show Ire dipped in flattery Nobody’s been as close as me I spilled my guts And all for what? It should’ve been me You should have picked me from the start And after everything I’ve done for you You don’t think it’s bizarre? It should’ve been me Where do you think I got my spark? I chiselled down my personality ‘Til it’s a work of art There you are Can’t they see it? I’m in awe Could it be? “It’s rude to stare” Yes, I’m aware! What a sight Nearly perfect You alright? Does it hurt? I will be there You know I care! Caught in my fantasies Don’t look inside Pandora’s box Push down the jealousy No, nobody needs to know Please don’t think less of me I’m but a lonely soul, you see Oh, what a shame Ive gone insane It should’ve been me I oughta be there by your side Just think of all the possibilities that we could bring to life! It should’ve been me I think I need you to survive So now it’s your responsibility to make me stay alive Trapped in this travesty You’ve opened up Pandora’s box Struck by reality It’s time to wrap up the show Yes, it is how it seems I’m full of animosity And here I am Where do you stand? It could’ve been me Although I’m better than the rest My polarizing rationality Just couldn’t pass the test It could’ve been me But I’m unsure of my intent Surely my fragile hospitality Would shatter from the stress! It shouldn’t be me And here I thought I was above But now it’s clear to me You saw that I’m unworthy of your love It shouldn’t be me And I’m okay with that, because I truly only want the best for you And I am not the one It couldn’t been me It should’ve been me!
As a blind person who can’t read the onscreen lyrics if they exist, thank you for putting them here. I really appreciate when people do that, especially if I’m having trouble figuring out what the singer is saying due to an accent I’m not used to or not being able to hear them over the instrumentals. I come back to your comment whenever I listen to this song so I can keep solidifying the lyrics in my head, so thank you very much ❤
This feels like when you’ve been working yourself to the bone for something for years and then someone just swoops in without any struggle and easily takes what you’ve been working towards for so long.
I said this during the premiere but RIP has genuinely improved so much and seeing them able to make such amazing music and seeing their journey is honestly so damn inspiring, I’m so happy to be hear listening to this song. Today wasn’t the best for me but honestly this just made it feel a lot better, this song is incredible (and incredibly relatable :]) Tysm for doing what you do, RIP!
R.I.P somehow finds ways to improve their songs and it just baffles me how they keep getting better and better. Like Solaria sounds SUPER good in this, the beat is really on point, and the color scheme and pv look super good as well. Idk what I'm talking about but song very good. I shall now put this on loop, have a good time period folks!
this song hits me even more bc of the fact that I lost a 9 month best friend of mine yesterday due to my BPD and needing to let go in order to better myself. Maybe I will meet him again, maybe we can be together again, but thank you for this song
I was also expecting survivor’s guilt based off of the title alone. I got something so much more fitting for my current project, so I’m not complaining
Wild to have two really good songs named "It should've been me" about being obsessed with someone else and mental struggles, but hey, that's two cakes, so I'm just extra happy
God I wish I was as talented as you. It takes skill to learn *how* to tune a synth, but it takes talent to make it sound good. You have such talent. And not only that, but the instrumental. Balancing glitch effects is so hard because its so easy to overdo it but you balanced it so well. And the lyrics. *the lyrics*. It's so fucking hard to use big words in english and make it not sound choppy. Idk how you did it. You definitely understand the concept whether its conscious or not. Its really hard to convey what you want and not only sound smooth but also rhyme, so using very uncommon words is such a great way to work around this. Like I've never heard the word "ire" before but it conveys so much in so little syllables. And the art of carefully choosing specific words to convey the exact intent. Like "It's your responsibility to *make* me stay alive." *make* implies that the singer doesn't intend to actually try to stay alive. You could've easily put *help* instead and it would've had a completely different meaning. And the way it all wraps in a bow, theres so many contradicting statements, and then the line "my polarizing rationality" ties it all together. The singer *knows* they're feelings and opinions dont make sense to an outsider at this point, but that doesn't change them, so they "couldn't pass the test." I could keep going, but I think I got my point across. You're amazingly talented R.I.P, please keep doing what you're doing.
"I think I need you to survive, so now it's your responsibility to make me stay alive" GREAT line, this song is so good! I LOVE the resolution too!! And Solaria sounds WONDERFUL!!
I see a lot of comments relating this song to their BPD, I can relate this to my AvPD as well. I get so terrified of rejection, isolate, then when I find someone who I think I can be safe with tend to just... Well, go a bit too far, and when I'm rejected again I spiral. Fight not to isolate again, sometimes win, many times don't. Yet, low self-esteem tells me it was bound to happen, and I still want the best for them, it's a mess of emotions and fears. A vicious cycle, one I'm working on.
I wish you the best on your progress, its a good step you’re working on yourself but remember not to be too harsh on yourself either, you’re only human ❤
Ye, it's an interesting way to end it. Like, you just can't quite get over it despite being able to acknowledge and accept the reality. Even though you can do that, you still end up fantasizing, "But what if...?"
What a precious girl. A humble goddess tries her best, gets rejected, goes insane, instead of committing a murder she keeps her pain inside of her and wishes best for her love. Wow.
Different style from you than usual, but I love seeing you try out different things!!! I've never heard Solaria before, but she sounds SO HUMAN HOLY HECK. Need more time to look into the lyrics, but I really dig this!!!
Holy fuck. One listen to this song and I'm hooked. I'm honestly crying too. My roommate is my ex and it's so hard seeing them go out and be with other people. I wish it could've been me cuddling them, but it never will be. Thank you for this. Truly.
this song is so incredibly powerful and really hits me where it hurts. The composition too!!! Like fr dont even get me started rn. I come back to this song alot its really been healing for me as someone with bpd. I had the same favorite person for over 10 years (since childhood) and it kinda ruined my life but anyways lolol this song has been really healing for me in alot of different ways. I like what someone said in another comment how this song doesn't necessarily read as romantic and its honestly rare to find a song like this and that i can truly relate to so thank you for writing this
like this song really does a good job of describing how difficult it is to feel the pain of your love not being reciprocated but not wanting be overbearing about it either because you're too self aware like DBUCBSSHIFSHISFFHI
Coming back to this song after 2 years: its still a banger that hits so hard, both melodically and emotionally LIKE I PAINFULLY RELATE TO THIS SUBJECT MATTER
Solaria sounds so good, so I’m really excited for this to premiere! It’s definitely going to be a new favorite song Edit: This really was good! Everything from the visuals, the lyrics, Solaria- all of it. The beat is so catchy, this is already on like, three of my playlists for favorite songs lol
I don't know how to phrase this without seeming sort of weird but this song has carried a fic I've been writing for 2+ years. It helped revitalize my inspiration for it and every time I listen to it I get eager to write more. It's like, the theme for my fic. I guess I just wanted to say thanks for making a song that's been carrying my love for what I've been writing for months
Holy shit, I've been nonstop listening to Pyrite Girl all day and now I can listen to this!!!!! Yes!!! Solaria honestly sounds so amazing and then you just are also good at making bops what can I say
yo i remember when this song came out and punched me directly in the gut because i related so hard to it from both the narrator's end and the recipient of it from someone else. life update, i cut the person obsessing over me off bc it was hurting both of us (they seem to be doing much better!), worked through my obsessive tendencies over my person, and we ended up together. I'm so incredibly glad I was given the time and space to sort it out BEFORE we got the chance to try ^^ i do still struggle with this, i think it's just part of how i'm wired, but I'm finding a balance between not acting on irrational thoughts and avoiding bottling up my feelings a little better every day!
i love how this feels like the sorta song i would've listened to when i was younger, like it could fit those nostalgia playlists with like 4 TLT songs in them
My god, thus song spoke to me in so many ways. This is literally the definition of being obsessed with someone, or at the very least, having severe abandonment issues. (Or both, who knows?) I have abandonment issues, and while they have gotten much better, they still bother me at times. The way the song says that they’re better than the rest…that’s literally what it’s like. When you’re obsessed with someone, you genuinely think that you’re the best one for them, that you’re better than others in that regard. And while I’m glad that the character at the end ended up leaving whoever they were obsessed with, they say that they’re “unworthy of their love”. Which is rather sad, as they are still basing their worth based on what this person thinks of them. This is such a beautiful work, R.I.P.
im at a moment in time where this song just almost perfectly narrates everything that has happened to me during these last 2 months and thats kind of scary actually like how did you see into my future specifically
Goddamn I heard this without context and didn’t realize it was a synth. Like, I heard some of the robot-y sound but it passed for auto tune or other effects. She doesn’t have any of the stutter or clickyness of most synths. Edit: I think what it is that makes her so human sounding is if you listen carefully you can hear what sounds like the shape of her mouth changing at the end of each sound, transitioning to the next. Fucking wild.
Woah. this song really hit close to home for me, someone who's made his way up the social totem pole through selflessness and likeability, and in realizing how my peers see me, i've wondered why certain opportunities pass me by. why dont MORE people like me? I realize I've become full of myself. Nobody will ever see that, though! I'll make sure of it. thanks from this very catchy song! i like it a lot.
hihi! this is another amazing song of yours, and i can relate it with my bpd alot! i have a quick question though, this and pyrite girl are on Spotify, are you going to put your older songs on Spotify as well? like corrosion, you're an awful person, finders keepers, etc? id love to add them to my playlist! thank you :)
idk if im hearing things but it sounds like you added breath sounds between lines throughout the song and that blew me away, ive never heard a vocaloid song with realistic breathing added in. i heard once that you can tell if something is an actual person or a program made to sound like someone based on whether or not you can hear them breathing, so this literally melted my brain to hear
yes i did!! many vocal synthesizers come with breath sounds you can place manually and in some programs they’re even generated automatically by ai!! i love technology :))) thank u for your comment
I don't know why but I heard like the tiniest bit of a rhythmic beat from 'its been so long' (fnaf song) at the end, (like at 3:33 ) or maybe that's just me but nonetheless this song is amazing and the beat is hypnotizing :sob:
I need you to know I've listened to this song like 100 times since I found it about two weeks ago. Me and my sibling are OBSESSED with this song. It could've been written for one of our characters. Every time we listen to it we go 'it's the song! I can't believe it's the only song ever'
LOVING THIS!!! The tuning is amazing, the instrumental fits very well, the PV obviously has a story AND is aesthetically pleasing, and the lyrics are so amazing!!! Amazing job!!!!
Man, it's midnight where I am right now and I really just feel all of this hard. This just reminds me too much of my first crush, especially around the line of "I truly only want the best for you." I sill hang out with her to this day. I still love her, and my only goal is to see that she's happy, without me. I still struggle sometimes with that, I still sometimes get pangs of jealousy whenever someone makes her laugh in that one way that I thought only I could. But she doesn't want me like that. She only wants me as a friend, a brother to her. And that's really the best I can do. All I can do from here is to make sure that she's happy, before I leave and try to find someone else to occupy my thoughts.
This song is amazing and I love it every time I listen, but today in particular I was paying attention to the lyrics and realised this is. Basically Kieran Pokémon's exact arc to a T, lmao Which I guess shows how good the song is, that a character made years on can fit it so well
man this is the most teenage song I’ve ever heard since “you belong with me” lol. Like, I like it! and also you belong with me, but theyre just so full of the painful teenager obsession with deserving other people’s love that lots of kids deal with. The “ok but I love you so much you have to love me back because I love you so much that I’d die without you!” and horrible toxic behavior inherent in the line “now it’s your responsibility to make me stay alive”, like, holy shit is that awful to say but it’s just incredibly true to the over dramatic feelings you have at that age.
This song means so much to me, in the way of it's relateableness, it potrays the emotions it was meant to so perfectly, and at the same time manages to be catchy and memorable and will get stuck in my head so easily! Piece of art!
i only discovered this song and solaria yesterday and i haven't stopped listening to it since. this is so good omg, she sounds so human-like !! this song just scratches my brain and honestly, I'm thinking of covering it solely because the lyrics wont leave my head
Alright so previously I wanted Solaria (casual, hypothetical) but you just made me WANT Solaria (WANT) 😳 I've listened to this at *least* five times already I'm in Awe.. you're tuning r.i.p. your melody... them lyrics
I will literally listen to any song with solaria in it, I love her so much. I already loved the ones done by ghost and circus p, so this one should be no different
I’m so excited for this!! Itll premiere at 11pm for me but I’m willing to stay up that long I’ll surely be back to share my thoughts after the premiere :D Edit: Back after the premiere, and once again, I'm blown away by how good this song is right off the bat, and only made in 10 days, its incredible! Solaria's voice is beautiful and nicely tuned here, I think it works really well in this style imo. I can't wait for what else you come up with in the future :) now, the real question is, how fast will i be able to churn out fan art for this...
![Solaria / Aura [Original Song]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/EKOSQGKn5Cw/mqdefault.jpg)
MOAR!!!!!!!!!!
omg fokina :pleading:
@@RIProducer 🥺👉👈 rip chan
@@secretjanus i was gonna do the chain but i remember Rip doesnt like spam-
@@ntnb_. I didn’t know I’d start a chain with that, it wasn’t on my mind😅
hi foxina
The fact that the last two lines are
"It couldn't be me" followed by "it should've been me" really resonates with me. Even after you "move on" from that kind of obsession, there's a lingering melancholy regret, a wish that you'd been someone else from the beginning, a perverse hypothesis that if you hadn't fallen into obsession, hadn't made mistakes, you could've been "good enough"
Dragged me through filth Orethon, hope you're doing well
FUCK. this comment feels like someone reaching directly into my soul and writing something based off what they found 😭
@@moonlightnymph7975 Same dude, same
You've said it perfectly. It's been almost 8 years now since a devastating breakup and I still haven't been able to go back into looking for someone else. While they've moved on and gotten married to someone else. I've accepted the reality of the situation a long time ago, but I still have at least 1 thought about her every day for some reason and always regret not being better.
RIP's fans: You're good fam. You don't have to overwork yourself.
RIP: Okay. *Plays straight fire anyway like a boss*
pls fr
slay RIP ✨
You got 666 likes
I admire it.
Probably the smallest comment to like ratio i've ever seen on a comment
@@rinatepaste9218 i seen 5k with no comments... Or one?? I forgotten...
this is SOOO GOOD!!!!!!!
thank u so much!!!!!!!! that means a lot coming from you *cries*
Ahhh Crusher! I loved Wicked, and Would You Rather Be is underrated, you make awesome shit!
crusher is like one of the vocaloid elders
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Wait- Crusher? As in the one that collaborated with TLT on I can’t fix you??????
This hits a little to close to home. This song is a really good representation of what it's like to be obsessed with somebody. I also like how it doesn't necessarily have to be read as romantic. When I get obsessed to the point of dependency on the person I'm obsessed with it's less uwu going to stalk my boyfriend and more I want to be your best friend and I would do anything to make you happy and the song can be read this way, making it easier for more people with attachment and obsession issues to relate to. 10000/10 song.
UUUESSYEYYSS OGNGNGNGN THIS IS EXAACTLY HOW I FEEL TOWARDS A CERTAIN SOMEOEN :3 THEYLL NEVERNLIKE ME BACK THO TwT (im arpace and i fall in love platonically :33)
I am currently obsessed with someone platonically and this song really helps me get out those feelings sometimes
yes, exactly
...me. istg my dad needs to get a day shift job somewhere... I'm getting issues cuz of his lack of presence at homw ⚰️⚰️⚰️⚰️
i remember reading this comment when the song was first published and i wass like "thats weird"
Oh how i _miss_ not being able to relate to this song & comment well op hope you're doing better now its rough
Solaria’s not like other girl, she’s a goddess
Yep, First Aura by GHOST and now this masterpiece :D
@@Raster_Rasper yess
@@Raster_Rasper absolutely agree, truly an outstanding vocalist
facts
and then Delusion Chapel by Dante (Patchwork P), [There's the Miku original by Dante (Patchwork P) and then there's the Solaria one MADE BY Dante (Patchwork P)
Solaria's voice just sounds like a human sprinkled with a tiny autotune like GOD, and also great song btw cant wait to bop this at 10 am while being high
that tiny autotune is r.i.p's tuning
I just came back to this after it playing on my music app-
I had to check if rip was singing or if it was a v-synth-
I’m very blown away still____
(Sometimes artists do covers of their own songs and I didn’t remember just how realistic the just song is-)
As I was listening I got the impression that the stress on the word ‘me’ was in reference to something like ‘you may have PICKED me, but you didn’t pick ME.’ Like, ‘I thought *_I_* was what you wanted, not who you _thought_ I was.’ I don’t know, just resonated with me- for no specific reason-
Oh I never saw it that way, cool interpretation
I'm blown away by the quality of this song. Even though this is only the second song I've heard that uses Solaria, I'm completely convinced that it has the most realistic voice out of all virtual singers I know. The other parts of the song are also absolutely AMAZING.
Have you ever heard Prima?
most realistic is subjective as it depends entirely on the tuning of the producer and yes the tuning here fucks severely :>
i thought you said “sucks severely” and i had to do a double take 😭😭😭😭😭
@@RIProducer o.o
@@RIProducer NOOOOO 😭😭
This song goes so hard. Not only does R.I.P's music skills come out here, but their art, editing, lyric writing abilities, and tuning does really leave it's mark! Not to mention the music skills . . . Solaria sounds so realistic, and my gods it's so smooth and, honestly, perfect! Overall a very talented person with a very lovely AI vocal! Much love!
Not only that, but all done in 10 days! 😇
@@secretjanus less then
it slaps that hard that it actually makes my face hurt like I just got slapped quite literally
"not to hard"
There's not many vocaloids that sound so real like this, definitely good work
I seriously didn't even noticed this was a vocaloid with how good and realistic it sounds jeez-
It’s not technically a vocaloid but it’s close
@@Cyberpunk_deadgirl whats the difference?
p sure the difference is who produced the voicebanks! crypton made miku, rin, len, etc. SynthV is a separate program with VBs like Solaria and Anri
and for extra info, this is why UTAUs are considered their own thing! UTAUs are free VBs that anyone can make, really (like teto, yamine renri, momo, defoko, etc)
☝️🤓Um…It’s actually a SynthVloid
this song really hit close to home for me, it reminds me of the struggles i've been facing due to my BPD. wanting to be close to someone, only to drive them away instead. desperately trying to get them back, to the point of damaging your relationship more and more.
there's a couple of lines in this song that *really* make me interpret it as BPD.
"please don't think less of me, i'm but a lonely soul you see", that feeling of being alone? yeah. yeah.
"so now it's your responsibility to make me stay alive" I'd be awfully dependent on my friends, to the point of driving them away
"my polarizing rationality just couldn't pass the test" black and white thinking, another big symptom of BPD
thank you for the great song RIP, i'm going to be listening to this on loop for like 5 hours now. you're epic
EDIT: i just noticed the themes of jealousy in there too! nice one. definitely going to add that to the pile
THIS
i also struggle w bpd, and this song feels like my teenage self speaking from the past
Or when you get an FP. Its absolute torture and this song captures that
@@CrustiiDustii yes!! this exactly. this really reminds me of one of my past FPs who ended up having to distance herself from me. this happened 2 years ago, it still hurts deeply to this day
As someone else with bpd i vibe with this song as well 🙏😭
@@CrustiiDustii My FP was my best friend in middle school. I was borderline obsessed with him for years, and it tore me apart to watch him date someone who didn’t even like me. I was so jealous it felt like I was being torn apart inside. I wanted him to be happy, but why couldn’t he be happy with me? I was always dropping hints about my feelings for him, and one time I was loopy off my meds and declared my love for him. In the end, I had to accept he’d never have feelings for me and moved on. We’re still best friends tho :)
This song makes me feel really good and sad at the same time. I was diagnosed with BPD right before my 18th birthday, and it really explains a lot. For years, my parents thought I was just a bratty spoiled rat. Even now, I watch them idolize and adore my sister (who is younger by 11 months) and I just… feel like it’s so unfair. She has so many talents, and I used to be a “gifted” kid. I’ve tried so hard to earn their love, but my dad still makes fun of me and dumps it all on my shoulders whenever anything happens…
your parents need to learn how to raise children, because they arent doing it right
That not good for you and your sister mental heath because then your sister could go for "gifted '' to a brat in your mom and dad eyes .
Damn and holy shit. Your parents suck lol 😅
I feel sad for you. This just shows the fact that even though every child deserves a parent, not every parent deserves a child.
You may be related by blood, but clearly thats not your family.
Find a better one, you don’t gotta stick with one that treats you badly.
If your sister is nice to you, stay in contact, if not, cut em all off.
You don’t gotta deal with people who treats you like less.
this sounds like a side character falling in love with the main one, it's so good, the vocals are on point
So basically Monika?
@@Tsukishyy yeah actually, kinda reminds me of her now that you say it
Fun fact: She’s actually moving slightly throughout the entire video if you look closely enough
Holy crap this makes me wanna get on all fours and just crawl around like a little bear. Amazing
HUH
me too
true...
Your methods of cheering confuse and frighten me... But okay.
This comment summarises R.I.P and GHOST'S comment sections in 2018
It reminds me of something the living tombstone would make (this is a compliment... GREAT TUNING ON SOLARIA!!!)
I had the exact thoughts! Something about the melody personally reminds me of the instrumental part of I Got No Time near the end.
@@skunkfloof Also the chorus reminds me of Mercy a lot
It does
ahh i hear it
SAME
the fact this was only made in 10 days and it sounds this good, it's outstanding. I really like the tuning! good job RIP!
10 DAYS?????? HOLY SHIT
10 days….?!
@@minty_macaron Omori pfp
I'm loving the Solaria content fr, SUPER excited for this song!!!
GHOST got a new song with Solaria :)
@@SoulInstincts I love both of these songs 🥰🥰🥰
@@SoulInstincts I knowwww it's so good!
as someone with bpd, this song hits so close to home it almost hurts. amazing work and good luck with anything youre currently going through
So this person isn't even 18 yet, and they've made a ton of epic songs and never fail to impress.
You truly amaze me R.I.P. Also good job on writing a song in 10 days
Truly it makes me jealous
THEY'RE NOT EVEN 18?!
@@Zarmdthecoolest Yeah, R.I.P's said before that they're 17 years old
@@Zarmdthecoolest Yeah, R.I.P's said before that they're 17 years old
*goes into mind explode mode*
"It should've been me!"
"You should have loved me from the start!"
"And after everything I've done for you, you don't think it's bizzare?"
"Oh what a shame, I've gone insane."
"I think I need you to survive"
"Now it's your responsibility to make me stay alive"
My life in a nutshell
Lyrics:
Not too loud
Not too quiet
Don’t be proud
Don’t be shy
It’s rude to stare
Oh, do I dare?
Keep it bold
Don’t be timid
Not too slow
Make it quick
It’s so unfair
I’m almost there
Lost in a fantasy
My very own Pandora’s box
Swarmed by my jealousy
I hope that it doesn’t show
Ire dipped in flattery
Nobody’s been as close as me
I spilled my guts
And all for what?
It should’ve been me
You should have picked me from the start
And after everything I’ve done for you
You don’t think it’s bizarre?
It should’ve been me
Where do you think I got my spark?
I chiselled down my personality
‘Til it’s a work of art
There you are
Can’t they see it?
I’m in awe
Could it be?
“It’s rude to stare”
Yes, I’m aware!
What a sight
Nearly perfect
You alright?
Does it hurt?
I will be there
You know I care!
Caught in my fantasies
Don’t look inside Pandora’s box
Push down the jealousy
No, nobody needs to know
Please don’t think less of me
I’m but a lonely soul, you see
Oh, what a shame
Ive gone insane
It should’ve been me
I oughta be there by your side
Just think of all the possibilities
that we could bring to life!
It should’ve been me
I think I need you to survive
So now it’s your responsibility
to make me stay alive
Trapped in this travesty
You’ve opened up Pandora’s box
Struck by reality
It’s time to wrap up the show
Yes, it is how it seems
I’m full of animosity
And here I am
Where do you stand?
It could’ve been me
Although I’m better than the rest
My polarizing rationality
Just couldn’t pass the test
It could’ve been me
But I’m unsure of my intent
Surely my fragile hospitality
Would shatter from the stress!
It shouldn’t be me
And here I thought I was above
But now it’s clear to me
You saw that I’m unworthy of your love
It shouldn’t be me
And I’m okay with that, because
I truly only want the best for you
And I am not the one
It couldn’t been me
It should’ve been me!
As a blind person who can’t read the onscreen lyrics if they exist, thank you for putting them here. I really appreciate when people do that, especially if I’m having trouble figuring out what the singer is saying due to an accent I’m not used to or not being able to hear them over the instrumentals. I come back to your comment whenever I listen to this song so I can keep solidifying the lyrics in my head, so thank you very much ❤
This feels like when you’ve been working yourself to the bone for something for years and then someone just swoops in without any struggle and easily takes what you’ve been working towards for so long.
I first heard Solaria from Ghost, now you did one as well, holy crap Sloaria sounds good, you did wonders as always! keep up the good work!
i literally thought that it was a human singer when I first heard aura
I said this during the premiere but RIP has genuinely improved so much and seeing them able to make such amazing music and seeing their journey is honestly so damn inspiring, I’m so happy to be hear listening to this song. Today wasn’t the best for me but honestly this just made it feel a lot better, this song is incredible (and incredibly relatable :])
Tysm for doing what you do, RIP!
R.I.P somehow finds ways to improve their songs and it just baffles me how they keep getting better and better. Like Solaria sounds SUPER good in this, the beat is really on point, and the color scheme and pv look super good as well. Idk what I'm talking about but song very good. I shall now put this on loop, have a good time period folks!
It’s awesome to watch isn’t it? You have a good day too:3
this song hits me even more bc of the fact that I lost a 9 month best friend of mine yesterday due to my BPD and needing to let go in order to better myself. Maybe I will meet him again, maybe we can be together again, but thank you for this song
I relate to you a lot my dude, same thing happened to me a year ago. It gets better, and if they truly like you, they’ll come back eventually. -Jack
haha fucking same.
Can't believe Solaria is making me remember how much i love all my favorite creators
Man, I was thinking this would be about survivor's guilt but this slaps too
I mean that can be your interpretation
How so?
I was also expecting survivor’s guilt based off of the title alone. I got something so much more fitting for my current project, so I’m not complaining
same tbh
Wild to have two really good songs named "It should've been me" about being obsessed with someone else and mental struggles, but hey, that's two cakes, so I'm just extra happy
God I wish I was as talented as you. It takes skill to learn *how* to tune a synth, but it takes talent to make it sound good. You have such talent.
And not only that, but the instrumental. Balancing glitch effects is so hard because its so easy to overdo it but you balanced it so well.
And the lyrics. *the lyrics*.
It's so fucking hard to use big words in english and make it not sound choppy. Idk how you did it. You definitely understand the concept whether its conscious or not. Its really hard to convey what you want and not only sound smooth but also rhyme, so using very uncommon words is such a great way to work around this. Like I've never heard the word "ire" before but it conveys so much in so little syllables. And the art of carefully choosing specific words to convey the exact intent. Like "It's your responsibility to *make* me stay alive." *make* implies that the singer doesn't intend to actually try to stay alive. You could've easily put *help* instead and it would've had a completely different meaning. And the way it all wraps in a bow, theres so many contradicting statements, and then the line "my polarizing rationality" ties it all together. The singer *knows* they're feelings and opinions dont make sense to an outsider at this point, but that doesn't change them, so they "couldn't pass the test."
I could keep going, but I think I got my point across. You're amazingly talented R.I.P, please keep doing what you're doing.
"I think I need you to survive, so now it's your responsibility to make me stay alive"
GREAT line, this song is so good! I LOVE the resolution too!! And Solaria sounds WONDERFUL!!
I see a lot of comments relating this song to their BPD, I can relate this to my AvPD as well. I get so terrified of rejection, isolate, then when I find someone who I think I can be safe with tend to just... Well, go a bit too far, and when I'm rejected again I spiral. Fight not to isolate again, sometimes win, many times don't. Yet, low self-esteem tells me it was bound to happen, and I still want the best for them, it's a mess of emotions and fears. A vicious cycle, one I'm working on.
I relate this song to my DID
I wish you the best on your progress, its a good step you’re working on yourself but remember not to be too harsh on yourself either, you’re only human ❤
YOU'RE ONLY 17 AND CRUSHER COMMENTED ON UR SONG???? I'm literally inspired af RN 😭 I'm 17 too and plan to be a vocaloid producer
go for it man!! Im sure you’ll do amazing
This song makes me want to ascend through roof and eat tomato soup
slay 💃💃
same
Slayme
@@Raster_Rasper Slay me 😳
it makes me want to be a cartoony-styled cat in a vintage animation with muted colors walking on a rooftop
I love how the end it's like "i understand... it wouldn't have ever been ahle to be me." And then irs like "ITS SHOULDVE BEEN MEEEEEEEEEE" so real
Ye, it's an interesting way to end it. Like, you just can't quite get over it despite being able to acknowledge and accept the reality. Even though you can do that, you still end up fantasizing, "But what if...?"
HEYYY solaria fits your style so well omg
both her and the instrumental so chefs kiss
Salmon
@@donutlover417 omfg what about egg
@@aracelicarino1500 omg egg
This was absolutely incredible.
What a precious girl. A humble goddess tries her best, gets rejected, goes insane, instead of committing a murder she keeps her pain inside of her and wishes best for her love. Wow.
Me: - having a good day-
- listens to this because it's a banger and catchy-
Me: - starts crying because it's relatable-
Different style from you than usual, but I love seeing you try out different things!!! I've never heard Solaria before, but she sounds SO HUMAN HOLY HECK. Need more time to look into the lyrics, but I really dig this!!!
Holy fuck. One listen to this song and I'm hooked. I'm honestly crying too. My roommate is my ex and it's so hard seeing them go out and be with other people. I wish it could've been me cuddling them, but it never will be. Thank you for this. Truly.
this song is so incredibly powerful and really hits me where it hurts. The composition too!!! Like fr dont even get me started rn. I come back to this song alot its really been healing for me as someone with bpd. I had the same favorite person for over 10 years (since childhood) and it kinda ruined my life but anyways lolol this song has been really healing for me in alot of different ways. I like what someone said in another comment how this song doesn't necessarily read as romantic and its honestly rare to find a song like this and that i can truly relate to so thank you for writing this
like this song really does a good job of describing how difficult it is to feel the pain of your love not being reciprocated but not wanting be overbearing about it either because you're too self aware like DBUCBSSHIFSHISFFHI
Coming back to this song after 2 years: its still a banger that hits so hard, both melodically and emotionally LIKE I PAINFULLY RELATE TO THIS SUBJECT MATTER
Solaria sounds so good, so I’m really excited for this to premiere! It’s definitely going to be a new favorite song
Edit: This really was good! Everything from the visuals, the lyrics, Solaria- all of it. The beat is so catchy, this is already on like, three of my playlists for favorite songs lol
I don't know how to phrase this without seeming sort of weird but this song has carried a fic I've been writing for 2+ years. It helped revitalize my inspiration for it and every time I listen to it I get eager to write more. It's like, the theme for my fic. I guess I just wanted to say thanks for making a song that's been carrying my love for what I've been writing for months
omg I've found someone else who has like a theme song for their writing yes
I was convinced that this was a real person for the first times I listened to this song. Holy what, it's a *vocaloid* ?
R.I.P's ability to make songs with so much emotion, paired up with Solaria's amazingly realistic voice is perfect! I love it so much
Holy shit, I've been nonstop listening to Pyrite Girl all day and now I can listen to this!!!!! Yes!!! Solaria honestly sounds so amazing and then you just are also good at making bops what can I say
yo i remember when this song came out and punched me directly in the gut because i related so hard to it from both the narrator's end and the recipient of it from someone else. life update, i cut the person obsessing over me off bc it was hurting both of us (they seem to be doing much better!), worked through my obsessive tendencies over my person, and we ended up together. I'm so incredibly glad I was given the time and space to sort it out BEFORE we got the chance to try ^^
i do still struggle with this, i think it's just part of how i'm wired, but I'm finding a balance between not acting on irrational thoughts and avoiding bottling up my feelings a little better every day!
i love how this feels like the sorta song i would've listened to when i was younger, like it could fit those nostalgia playlists with like 4 TLT songs in them
I don't have headphones while it's premiering, so I'll just admire the art
Why does this sound like a living tombstone song (this is a complement I absolutely ADORE THIS)
I thought SOLARIA was a human singer at first ;-; I spent sometime to realize it's a vocaloid through the comments
it’s not a vocaloid, it’s a synth v database :)
@@RIProducer yeah!! She's so goddamn good, she's my fav atm :D
What even is vocaloid and all of that im so confused lmao XD
@@fell_ink3862 japanese people created something were they get a voice actors to create samples for them to make softwares sing.
@@fell_ink3862 vocaloids are a type of that, synthwave v database as well. they're not real people.
MAY I DO A COVER OF THIS AND POST IT??
absolutely!!! as long as it’s not monetized and i am properly credited :))
When I first heard this, I thought an actual human was singing it. Amazing singing!
Ghost AND R.I.P releasing a solaria song? We have been blessed
This song is literally so me, i get so obsessive and to an unhealthy/uncomfortable extent i dont even realize until people bring it up lol
My god, thus song spoke to me in so many ways.
This is literally the definition of being obsessed with someone, or at the very least, having severe abandonment issues. (Or both, who knows?)
I have abandonment issues, and while they have gotten much better, they still bother me at times. The way the song says that they’re better than the rest…that’s literally what it’s like.
When you’re obsessed with someone, you genuinely think that you’re the best one for them, that you’re better than others in that regard.
And while I’m glad that the character at the end ended up leaving whoever they were obsessed with, they say that they’re “unworthy of their love”. Which is rather sad, as they are still basing their worth based on what this person thinks of them.
This is such a beautiful work, R.I.P.
This absolutely awesome in every way! Plus Solaria sounds almost exactly like a real person!
the style of this song's instrumental reminds me of a mid-2010s fnaf fan song in all the best ways
esto nos convoca a todos para deleitarnos con otra canción de R.I.P.
Woah! The melody reminds me of The Living Tombstone's style. Really good!
UR NOT EVEN 18 AND U MADE THIS????? THIS IS SO FREAKING GOOD IM LOSING IT
It’s so cool to see Solaria stuff coming out already!! This sounds amazing so far, absolutely worth the wait!
THIS WAS SOOOOO GOOD im obsessed with that last slide in particular this vocal melody is perfect
Será una maravillosa canción!
R.I.P tiene un talento natural!
Te adoro R.I.P!
SALUDOS desde México! 😍😘
Solaria’s quality is so impressive! She sounds real!
bro solaria’s voice is so good such a gem
"Ire dipped in flattery" goes so hard I love this song smmm!!
She sounds so human wtf?!?! This is amazing!! I can’t believe I didn’t find this sooner!!
being second choice to Someone you've gave everything to hurts so much and this song really captures that
"I chiseled down my personality 'til it's a *work of art!"*
...pyrite girl, is that you?
Ok now imagine Solaria’s nose as a mouth… just saying…
BAHAHAHA
Thats what ive beeen seeing this whoel tiem 😭
I cant see it as anything else
THIS IS WHY I LOVE THIS COMMUNITY
I had to stare at her nose for a while for me to be able to invision her nose as a mouth 😭
im at a moment in time where this song just almost perfectly narrates everything that has happened to me during these last 2 months and thats kind of scary actually like how did you see into my future specifically
Could definitely see a male cover of this done with an angry inflection.
Either way, love this just like the other songs you have done.
Bravo!
The last it should've been me in the end gives me fucking goosebumps
Goddamn I heard this without context and didn’t realize it was a synth.
Like, I heard some of the robot-y sound but it passed for auto tune or other effects. She doesn’t have any of the stutter or clickyness of most synths.
Edit: I think what it is that makes her so human sounding is if you listen carefully you can hear what sounds like the shape of her mouth changing at the end of each sound, transitioning to the next.
Fucking wild.
Woah. this song really hit close to home for me, someone who's made his way up the social totem pole through selflessness and likeability, and in realizing how my peers see me, i've wondered why certain opportunities pass me by. why dont MORE people like me? I realize I've become full of myself. Nobody will ever see that, though! I'll make sure of it. thanks from this very catchy song! i like it a lot.
Been a huge fan of your music for a little while now, and I must say that this is fantastic!!
hihi! this is another amazing song of yours, and i can relate it with my bpd alot!
i have a quick question though, this and pyrite girl are on Spotify, are you going to put your older songs on Spotify as well? like corrosion, you're an awful person, finders keepers, etc? id love to add them to my playlist! thank you :)
it might take a while but i do plan to get them all on streaming services eventually :)
@@RIProducer ah thank you so much!! :)
@@RIProducer oh dude that’s great news! (I’m very late but….)
Hypetrain
@@RIProducer ohhh! Interesting!
i don’t think corrosion will get put on spotify due to fukase licensing
idk if im hearing things but it sounds like you added breath sounds between lines throughout the song and that blew me away, ive never heard a vocaloid song with realistic breathing added in. i heard once that you can tell if something is an actual person or a program made to sound like someone based on whether or not you can hear them breathing, so this literally melted my brain to hear
yes i did!! many vocal synthesizers come with breath sounds you can place manually and in some programs they’re even generated automatically by ai!! i love technology :))) thank u for your comment
I don't know why but I heard like the tiniest bit of a rhythmic beat from 'its been so long' (fnaf song) at the end, (like at 3:33 ) or maybe that's just me but nonetheless this song is amazing and the beat is hypnotizing :sob:
how do you consistently keep putting out bops that i can jam and pace angrily to???
i'm gonna listen to this for weeks now
thank you
heck yeah, more solaria original songs! i particularly like the flow of this, it's amazing how well solaria sounds with so many different melodies!
i am obsessed with this song in a way that should not be legal
Yes
I need you to know I've listened to this song like 100 times since I found it about two weeks ago. Me and my sibling are OBSESSED with this song. It could've been written for one of our characters. Every time we listen to it we go 'it's the song! I can't believe it's the only song ever'
can't believe RIP invented music
LOVING THIS!!! The tuning is amazing, the instrumental fits very well, the PV obviously has a story AND is aesthetically pleasing, and the lyrics are so amazing!!! Amazing job!!!!
I found this by listening to a spotify radio and I could barely tell it was a vocaloid. You did such a good job
Man, it's midnight where I am right now and I really just feel all of this hard. This just reminds me too much of my first crush, especially around the line of "I truly only want the best for you." I sill hang out with her to this day. I still love her, and my only goal is to see that she's happy, without me. I still struggle sometimes with that, I still sometimes get pangs of jealousy whenever someone makes her laugh in that one way that I thought only I could. But she doesn't want me like that. She only wants me as a friend, a brother to her. And that's really the best I can do. All I can do from here is to make sure that she's happy, before I leave and try to find someone else to occupy my thoughts.
This song is amazing and I love it every time I listen, but today in particular I was paying attention to the lyrics and realised this is. Basically Kieran Pokémon's exact arc to a T, lmao
Which I guess shows how good the song is, that a character made years on can fit it so well
...Huh. You are not wrong. Lol.
man this is the most teenage song I’ve ever heard since “you belong with me” lol. Like, I like it! and also you belong with me, but theyre just so full of the painful teenager obsession with deserving other people’s love that lots of kids deal with. The “ok but I love you so much you have to love me back because I love you so much that I’d die without you!” and horrible toxic behavior inherent in the line “now it’s your responsibility to make me stay alive”, like, holy shit is that awful to say but it’s just incredibly true to the over dramatic feelings you have at that age.
This song means so much to me, in the way of it's relateableness, it potrays the emotions it was meant to so perfectly, and at the same time manages to be catchy and memorable and will get stuck in my head so easily! Piece of art!
i only discovered this song and solaria yesterday and i haven't stopped listening to it since. this is so good omg, she sounds so human-like !! this song just scratches my brain and honestly, I'm thinking of covering it solely because the lyrics wont leave my head
Alright so previously I wanted Solaria (casual, hypothetical) but you just made me WANT Solaria (WANT) 😳 I've listened to this at *least* five times already I'm in Awe.. you're tuning r.i.p. your melody... them lyrics
I will literally listen to any song with solaria in it, I love her so much. I already loved the ones done by ghost and circus p, so this one should be no different
"I'm not like other girls. I have bangers written with my voice as the vocals." -Solaria, probably
I can see over 1000% effort was spilt forth for this. This is amazing.
I’m so excited for this!! Itll premiere at 11pm for me but I’m willing to stay up that long
I’ll surely be back to share my thoughts after the premiere :D
Edit: Back after the premiere, and once again, I'm blown away by how good this song is right off the bat, and only made in 10 days, its incredible! Solaria's voice is beautiful and nicely tuned here, I think it works really well in this style imo. I can't wait for what else you come up with in the future :)
now, the real question is, how fast will i be able to churn out fan art for this...
Girl!!!!
@@baskanagara hello! yes I was at the premiere hehe
I’m so happy you got here in time too!!
@@aureoberlinerinn4679 oh nice! :)