Bipolar & My Recurring Delusion
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 1 ต.ค. 2024
- Please take the meds.
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Sometimes I mess up my words my litte girl is Summer not Shannon, I have no clue why I said that, in case you are wondering I don't edit most of my videos and I have no script. Hence the long pauses and my jumping topics hopefully it's not too bad. I experienced symptoms of psychosis the last time I was in the hospital but due to my medication I was mostly just hypomanic. I was willing to go to the hospital and I was held on 51/50. When I got out my current psychiatrist added Geodon just to get me through the trauma.
I repeat myself a lot I want everyone to know just how bad it can get without medication. It's HARD to find medications. Most people have NO idea how hard it is. No idea how many times we have been misdiagnosed. The side effects. The pain of just hoping something works. It's not an easy road for us but remember our capacity to love is strong and we are worthy of happiness.
Always be honest with your psychiatrist if you drink fess up, smoke weed, have suicidal thoughts just be honest and keep a journal of any side effects.
#delusional #bipolar #depression
Please watch to the end for the point of this video. Anosognosia is the unawareness that you are sick. I can't wait to retire! Do you have a reoccurring delusion? Have you been misdiagnosed? How many meds did you try before they worked? Also thank you for watching! ❤️ Also sweet baby girl is Summer not Shannon...flubbed my words. Also tell me a topic, I do the video.
Question: would it be appropriate to share this video with my wife? She is relapsing and has clinical depression, schizoaffective disorder and bipolar; she also will not take her prescribed medication and has moved out of our bedroom to the living room.
Of course! But it might be more affective to show her if she is in a deppresive episode or stable. If she experiences psychosis it's really hard to get through to her. Because she might have a delusion about the video like I was paid to do it or you asked me to. Share anyone please my goal is advocate for compliance ultimately save lives! I hope she gets bettter soon. Sending you positive vibes.
Thank you. That was kind. I'll think about it. I'm just so indescribably tired all the time. I feel like I'm spinning plates and just frantically trying to keep it all going before the next thing happens. I'm having some business successes right now which is 13 years of work and it's all coming together spectacularly and I fantasized about being homeless. Even I know that's not right. Everything feels unreal. Also, I don't feel it. There is just nothing there. There is nothing. I think there are genuinely some lives which are just not worth the effort. There is no reward...just ongoing suffering.
Sorry. I'm feeling better. Life goes on.
I hate that I know exactly how you feel right now. I'm sorry, you do matter, all lives are worth living. Depression clouds our judgement we literally can't see beyond the pain. Just because you can't see it though doesn't mean it doesn't exist. People care, I care and I bet the people reading this will too. Black Mirror came out today that's something to get excited about!! I go through it too sometimes but my situation right now makes my life significantly easier than most people battling it because of my support system and my ability to do youtube and music. It makes me feel like I have some kinda control but I remember living alone planning my demise on the daily. I went to work got no work bc I went psychotic at work and couldn't be trusted, then went to get food bc I was to depressed to cook. The home an hour of sienfeld and candy crush and I was in bed by 8p. Oh I also smoked weed from morning till night and even on my lunch break. Success is amazing!!! But I know, it should be exciting right? But sometimes it's scary too. I know numb and too sad to cry, my mom always said "this too, will pass."
thank you so much for making these videos, i've been diagnosed for a little over a year and you make me feel so much less alone. i'm currently in a relatively stable phase right now feeling like i've always been fine and i don't really need my meds, this was a really good reminder to keep taking them. thank you again. ❤
Yes! ❤️😁
Thank you for this vid. You holding up your Summer is so adorable. I really want to share this vid with a friend if mine. He is currently trying to negotiate with me: basically if I buy him things he wants only then will he take his prescriptions :( He’s has the exact same diagnosis as you. He’s manic right now.
I hate hearing that...:( but also I appreciate it because it means the person who is sick has someone that loves them and is trying to understand rather than run away. If he's in mania you probably can't get through to him until he comes out of it. Once he's out of it you can help a lot because that's when all the shame, embarrassment, depression and hopelessness come. He will come out of it eventually, when I was sick just someone there and showing me kindness ultimately gave me a reason to come out of it. I believe that. ❤️ Thank you for being so awesome!
I'm so sorry I hope things get better soon. Don't let go of hope. ❤️