(I ALMOST BROKE DOWN) Blind Reaction - Ren x Chinchilla - Chalk Outlines (Live) - Ian Taylor Reacts

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  • @IanTaylorCreations
    @IanTaylorCreations  ปีที่แล้ว +119

    Hope you guys enjoyed the reaction. Ren is a truly beautiful soul, and Chinchilla was simply amazing!!! What should I react to next?

    • @Bearlissimo
      @Bearlissimo ปีที่แล้ว +5

      For the "Duets" there's actually some good "earlier Ren... As for emotional songs, there are ones that simply wreck me.
      Anywhooo, the duets, Jessica ft Orleans, Crutch ft Bibi, Ocean & Humble both ft Eden Nash... That's a solid start.

    • @Bearlissimo
      @Bearlissimo ปีที่แล้ว +10

      How to be me live has to follow this... Trigger warning if you know what this means " ; "

    • @Snflw3r
      @Snflw3r ปีที่แล้ว +7

      If you like chinchilla I highly recommend checking out some of her solo stuff! The live performance of Fingers is a must! Elements is also incredible!

    • @erikhorton6433
      @erikhorton6433 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      You should really do the live version of Chinchilla's song Fingers...think you'll love it and it will give you a much better picture of her as an artist outside of what she does with Ren

    • @lacollis
      @lacollis ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Would love to see your reaction to her newest single "little girl gone"🙏🙏💜💜💜

  • @ericacawthorne790
    @ericacawthorne790 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Humble feat Eden Nash. Crutch feat Bibi. Chinchilla Fingers live is outstanding

  • @inuchan74
    @inuchan74 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    Ren and Chinchilla's chemistry is just off the walls when they sing together! If you're looking for other suggestions, Chinchilla's live version of Fingers is so cool and different. The music video is good too, but the live is more impactful. Her new song out is pretty cool too. I think she would have been a huge idol of mine back when I was a teenager lol. Everything from her visual style, lyrics and voice are just out there.

  • @kyri42
    @kyri42 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    You just gained a fan for life. Incredible reaction, bro. Your complete understanding and breakdown of the lyrics brought me to tears. You’re clearly an incredibly smart dude. Keep these reactions coming.
    Edit: you should do Ren x Chinchilla - How to be Me (live) next. If you enjoyed this song, I’ve a feeling you’ll really fall in love with How to be Me.

  • @sanoraray
    @sanoraray ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Loving the channel. You just found out that inside the Ren rabbit hole there are additional doors to explore. You just opened Chinchillas.. She is amazing. Ren is the best choose your own adventure story I have ever found.

    • @rebeccaburnell9319
      @rebeccaburnell9319 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I *totally* see each reaction channel's Ren journey as a Choose Your Own Adventure story! It's so cool to see each of them piece it all together; some of Ren's songs hit differently depending what order you're exposed to them in, plus sometimes people accidentally watch like 5 rap songs one after the other before running into the trilogy/Chinchilla/Sam Tompkins/The Big Push/Eden Nash (and others) and watching those reactors' brains EXPLODE when they realize they "just" thought Ren was a multifaceted rap genius when he's actually a freaking full-on ALIEN... is a massive dopamine hit, lol.
      I think the "Choose Your Own Adventure"-ness of the reaction channel Ren journey is what has me addicted to watching reactions to Ren.

  • @mandyharvey684
    @mandyharvey684 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    The tale of Jenny and Screech in full

  • @billiejospacek3934
    @billiejospacek3934 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This song gets me every time I hear it. Ren said that Chinchilla is his alter ego twin. They have another live song together How to Be Me.

  • @nine9nine9
    @nine9nine9 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Chinchilla just released a really cool song as well, I recommend reacting!

  • @collinking4310
    @collinking4310 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Check out Ren's track Losing it 🤯🔥🎶

  • @christinehughes6397
    @christinehughes6397 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Fans of Ren call ourselves RENegades welcome to the club brother xxxx

  • @sirteabag8652
    @sirteabag8652 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I'm not crying you're crying

  • @ceekayy79
    @ceekayy79 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Heretic from Ren is one of my favorites

  • @richardbreedon1059
    @richardbreedon1059 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Appreciate your reactions, thanks. Where to start! His catalog is just amazing. I swear there's not a bad song. Chinchilla is awesome too. You should definitely check out Fingers (Live) by her, and her new song, Little Girl Gone plus her other song with Ren, How To Be Me (the live one).
    But Ren? Of course they're all different and different genres - you must do The Tale Of Jenny and Screech (Full version) if you haven't seen it yet, then try, Humble, Losing It, Money Game, Love Music pt 3, Power, Dominoes, What You Want, Crutch etc. - it's endlessly great! Then of course there's the busking band he's in "The Big Push" try I Shot The Sheriff/Road To Zion/Hip Hop, Bongo Bong, War Pigs, It's Alright - the list goes on. It's almost laughable how much talent this man has and how many great songs he's produced. Pretty much all by himself We are so lucky!

  • @acmalms0222
    @acmalms0222 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Hey Ian! I first saw you on Black Pegasus' channel. I love your enthusiasm for the craft. I agree with a comment earlier that you would be a kindred spirit to ren. It would be great if you both met and maybe even could work together. I wish both of you the best life has to offer. Love ya both!!

  • @bulldawg6895
    @bulldawg6895 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I love that you had this take. Chalk outlines are known as crime scene tools, outlining what's dead. So my interpretation was walking around feeling dead inside - your words of an empty shell is basically the same. From the reactions I've seen, you're the only one I can think of that felt it in a similar way as me. Cool to see.

  • @FranckCanvas
    @FranckCanvas ปีที่แล้ว +6

    It's a crime you haven't already gotten several thousand subscribers. Glad I'm a part of your reactions from the very beginning. Found you through P, and you don't dissapoint mate. 👍

  • @EddieChan88
    @EddieChan88 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Welcome to the world of reactions Ian Taylor! I've been introduced to you from your colabs with Black Pegasus and I have to say I really like your vibe on these reactions. You don't seem to try too hard to breakdown every single line or bar - you focus on the emotion of the song, the feeling.
    Like that trace / erase ourselves with a chalk outline line. You know and recognise that it hits hard and focus on that. There are a dozen different analyses of the whole Chalk Outline reference - it doesn't matter which one is right - it's about the emotion of the song and the human connection which you absolutely got. Really nice. Keep it up, bro! 🙏

  • @aimeekeel
    @aimeekeel ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So heavy and yet so good.

  • @elenaorujev3494
    @elenaorujev3494 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This one is so emotional - wow! Please also check out their How to Be Me for another emotional trip.

  • @maz3555
    @maz3555 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Chinchilla's live version of Fingers and little girl gone song are a must also .

  • @Shiroar
    @Shiroar ปีที่แล้ว +10

    The lyrics are brilliant. Some are so simple yet so deep. “I’m scared of being okay cause all things change”. I love all of Ren’s play with metaphors and such but sometimes simple is perfect. And the clever metaphors makes something so simple stand out even more. It really hits home, doesn’t it?
    Ren is something very special. And on top of all his talents he is also a magnet for other talented artists. And he lets them shine. What a beautiful human being he is.

  • @evolutionviii12
    @evolutionviii12 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Glad to see you doing your own channel!!! I'm here for it!

  • @NativeNYerChicHK
    @NativeNYerChicHK ปีที่แล้ว

    He’s so damn versatile and super fucking talented! Rap, sing, musician, compose, produce and even beatbox. Not sure there’s anything he can’t do.

  • @reviewandreactionvideoswit7200
    @reviewandreactionvideoswit7200 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Cry my friend. Such impactful music and a song that allowed you to describe your own self struggles.
    Thanks for your transparency.

  • @laurensharpe5834
    @laurensharpe5834 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Loved this reaction Ian. You just get it! Listen to Fingers live by Chinchilla- her voice is insane.

  • @aimeekeel
    @aimeekeel ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I love that this one is so open to interpretation. It applies to mental disorder pharmaceuticals, addiction, masking in general. I think the idea of numbing ourselves to life and others to “fit” the person shaped outline everyone is expecting, but it also protects you from the pain of interacting with all these “normal” people that we want to act like. Yet, the saddest thing is that so many of those people that we think have it all are suffering the same issues and walking around in their own chalk outlines.

  • @jamesdoherty6558
    @jamesdoherty6558 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    great track by both

  • @psychobetha
    @psychobetha ปีที่แล้ว

    what i love about Ren is that he inspires so many people to openly share their stories with each other. i never would have thought that a bunch of various youtube comment sections would be the place where thousands of people found a community of hope, understanding, and acceptance… but here we are. thank you so much for sharing yourself with us 💜

  • @skatehansen
    @skatehansen ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This one just hit different... The non live version is also very dope, worth checking out.

  • @kopperbird6665
    @kopperbird6665 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    If you like Chinchilla, you should check out their other duet ‘how to be me’ (which Ren wrote about a friend who took his own life) also her solo song ‘fingers’ (live for hungarTV)👍

  • @ksenss2513
    @ksenss2513 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    How about Jinjer? Or Beth Hart?
    No, I know: Chinchilla: Fingers, live version!

    • @ali50n
      @ali50n ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Fingers Live is amazing, as is Chinchilla's Cold Water.. Great reaction btw

  • @philth8540
    @philth8540 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    ‘How to be me-live’ as many have probably said is a must listen with these two, and of course check out some of her work too! Great reactions lad!

  • @Tessimistic420
    @Tessimistic420 ปีที่แล้ว

    Gooseflesh EVERYTIME that is how I know when it's real ❤️ here for #Ren #chinchilla an you always

  • @jsims44
    @jsims44 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Good to see your own channel bro. Appreciate your reactions

  • @DavidSmith-cc5hk
    @DavidSmith-cc5hk ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Oh, I just can't wait to take this ride with you. Let's get it!

  • @harrygreb8427
    @harrygreb8427 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Love it, we're all just winging it

  • @avicenna799
    @avicenna799 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Tripled your subscribers overnight!

  • @cody2oo
    @cody2oo ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Easily my favorite duet combo.
    Check out her fingers aong live version. Its 🔥

  • @cribpowers
    @cribpowers ปีที่แล้ว

    Now you have to dive into Chinchilla as well. She is amazing.

  • @jasonjacobelli5691
    @jasonjacobelli5691 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Love at the end getting ready to say something then chinchilla got loud and you just froze was great reaction keep killing it

  • @libby215
    @libby215 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    You might want to check out a couple more of Ren and Chinchilla at some point: 'How to be Me' (the live version) and another of them busking: 'One Dance/Drunk in Love' (Drake/Beyoncé) they perform so incredibly well together. Also if you're willing to be deeply moved: 'Crutch' is worth a visit. Great reaction by the way.

  • @alexiaspaedt-mcintosh5311
    @alexiaspaedt-mcintosh5311 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I absolutely love this song... hits my heart! Great reaction!

  • @Cunning.Stunt7
    @Cunning.Stunt7 ปีที่แล้ว

    How to be me live Ren and Chinchilla is a must mate... definitely the live version though. Its insane chemistry, it hits the feels.

  • @Lynnie_14
    @Lynnie_14 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I really do love your reactions and there are so many great Ren tracks to discover.
    Most people will say do The Tale of Jenny and Screetch (The trilogy)
    This is Bardcore story telling, truly unique to Ren. Each video was shot live in one take.
    For awesome rap skills:
    The Hunger.
    Illest of our time.
    Losing It
    Genesis
    Money Game (part 1 and 2)
    Love Music Part 1, 2 and 3.
    Ocean ft Eden Nash.
    Penitence ft Molly McKinna
    Crutch ft Bibi
    Is an absolute work of pure artistry. It's an emotive and painful insight into Ren's psychosis. The chemistry is real - Bibi was his girlfriend at the time.
    I realise I've listed too many, but there are so many to choose from and they're all great 😆❤

  • @butterflymama0838
    @butterflymama0838 ปีที่แล้ว

    I love this song so much. I never get tired of watching people react to this. I've probably watched about 25 reactors on this one.

  • @michelleowen3541
    @michelleowen3541 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    This song has got to be in my top 5 of Ren songs. So powerful and the lyrics hit hard 🥰

  • @ammocandoit
    @ammocandoit ปีที่แล้ว +5

    You'd love money game 1&2! This is live, one take yes. And yes, chinchilla is so dope! Check out here new single little girl gone! Also her and Ren's how to be me

  • @jacks9624
    @jacks9624 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Man, I hope you don't mind me saying this, but you seem the type to "burry yourself in a great big smile"?
    Love your reactions, it takes guts to reveal yourself like this. Love & support.

  • @TobiiRheaStarr
    @TobiiRheaStarr 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Beautiful song especially the live version. Daisys voice is amazing and her and Ren are such a great fit. Great analysis 🖤

  • @TheSlash666jl
    @TheSlash666jl ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Great reaction, welcome to the Ren rabbit hole 😂

  • @Av3rageD4D
    @Av3rageD4D ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thanks for another great reaction Ian! Have a great day, see you on the next one!

  • @cfinsouthbay
    @cfinsouthbay ปีที่แล้ว

    I love your genuine appreciation for this song and the soulful heartwrenching performance.

  • @reelirish7
    @reelirish7 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Ren has posted a short of a day in his life while getting treatment, and you should see how many pills he takes in a day. Literal fist fulls

  • @lemurskin1234
    @lemurskin1234 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Loved the episode with you on BP. I am so happy for you, you are so good at this! Chinchilla's Fingers Live is amazing, and you must do Ren X Chinchilla "How to be Me".

  • @alimac1469
    @alimac1469 ปีที่แล้ว

    Ren is not only making waves, he has created a worldwide tsunami that has been needed.

  • @MissMeKate
    @MissMeKate ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Love your reaction to Ren. I think the two of you have a very similar love of all the different aspects of musicality and poetry. It is awesome to see you absorbed by it all.

  • @rudi8247
    @rudi8247 ปีที่แล้ว

    Please don’t apologise for pausing, the fact that you can relate to the lyrics and appreciate so much of these words shows that you’ve been through it. I personally would prefer to watch a reaction like yours as you pick up on the same things i do, the whole song resonates with me and again the fact you are pointing out so much makes people like me feel like we’re not alone in our own feelings and actually feel seen and heard. Keep doing you, you’re reactions are precious. I see you, big love 🌺

  • @johnlasky7766
    @johnlasky7766 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I'm hooked to Diazepam (Not literally) by Ren lately, interested to hear your thoughts on it.

  • @lukewalton8745
    @lukewalton8745 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I shiver every time they start singing together. Not many artists get me to feel but these two definitely do. Great reaction great take on it. Much love

  • @tonywalsh1967
    @tonywalsh1967 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Black Pegasus sent me over to check out your new chanel Ian. Looking forward to sharing your trip down the Ren rabbit hole.😁

  • @lynette.
    @lynette. ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I always play How to be me (live) after playing this. Its hauntingly beautiful.

  • @maddmd9171
    @maddmd9171 16 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Found Ren a couple of days ago and can't stop the roller-coaster lol.
    Falling through the rabbit hole I came across your reaction to HI REN. Your insights made me seek you out and you didn't disappoint.
    I can only experience the first time hearing his songs for the first time. Watching your reactions is great as I get to see someone else get so hyped in the experience again.
    Thankyou

  • @ryanjackson645
    @ryanjackson645 ปีที่แล้ว

    forr all stoppin you have reason for it and so share it thats whats so magical

  • @Likely_Victim
    @Likely_Victim ปีที่แล้ว

    Just saw your review on "Chalk Outlines". Watching your facial reactions makes me realize just how well Ren can project his emotions and draw you into the meaning of the music. Even for those, like you, who have a great deal of experience in the industry.

  • @MissMeKate
    @MissMeKate ปีที่แล้ว +5

    For something completely different from Ren I think you might like Ocean, but I agree with everyone else about How to be Me live.

  • @Wandering_Warchyld
    @Wandering_Warchyld ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I knew this one would hit, just by what you were saying on 40 year old FUQ Bois

  • @collinking4310
    @collinking4310 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Liked and subscribed 👍 Chalk Outlines is so profound 💯🔥

  • @lisasurles1655
    @lisasurles1655 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So glad to see you diving into the Chinchilla pool! When i made my earlier comment i didn't realize you'd already gotten to it! You're on fire, man! Keep em comin!

  • @ghoul_gang8991
    @ghoul_gang8991 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Would love to see your reaction to rens videos, depression and insomnia ❤️

  • @Bearlissimo
    @Bearlissimo ปีที่แล้ว +3

    So glad I've seen the post that you have your own channel, there's such a fantastic rabbit hole for Ren, but it's even deeper when you look at his influences too. Can't wait to catch these with you Ian. Like where you're coming from & where you're going to.

  • @Veeliscious
    @Veeliscious ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Another well considered and personally insightful reaction to one of my favourite songs. Don’t apologise for the pauses - we're here for that. I just feel sorry for you that you don't get to hear and enjoy it in it's entirety first - I think you could do that too and then go back for commentary, I certainly wouldn't mind

  • @jensterooniam
    @jensterooniam ปีที่แล้ว

    Great reaction.
    So appreciated what you shared. It's a connection point for so many of us. I'd highly recommend "How to be me", and if you want something on the lighter side with the two of them, definitely check out one of their busking sessions - "Sexual Healing" or "One Dance/Drunk in Love". In Chris Liepe's interview with Chinchilla, she talked about her experience in busking with Ren, as something she was so anxious about at first (she had more experience with very large crowd performances, supporting Sting, etc.), and then totally fell in love with the whole thing. I love how Ren said that Chinchilla is like his female counterpart. It's so evident!

  • @tharrison7832
    @tharrison7832 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Hey great reaction.. the lyrics are so relatable .. Really recommend Ren xChinchilla ..How to be me (live)... Paolo Nutini Funk my Life up ..also Paolo Nutini Iron Sky live at Abbey Road. ...

  • @boho_hippychick
    @boho_hippychick ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Black Pegasus sent me here!! ❤ Great reaction!! New Sub!! 🙂

  • @rodb9275
    @rodb9275 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Nice reaction. I love how much you loved this. I'm sure a zillion people have already mentioned that you see chalk outlines around dead bodies in a crime scene.

  • @donnaewe3692
    @donnaewe3692 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Really enjoy your reactions! New sub from TN 😊

  • @Cunning.Stunt7
    @Cunning.Stunt7 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    🥰 such a satisfied sigh after your insights on this and all, every single one of your reactions im on a binge watch so far... Thank you Ian. 🫶

  • @brettevans2138
    @brettevans2138 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Sertraline is more commonly known as Zoloft

  • @pirada74
    @pirada74 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    ❤❤

  • @Singlespeedjo
    @Singlespeedjo ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m going back through your REN reactions, and I have to say I am impressed by your breakdown of lyrics and really everything about his songs and videos. It’s really enjoyable to watch and I could listen to ren all day everyday lol!

  • @jlock6901
    @jlock6901 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    So glad you started a reaction channel bro! Great reaction! Definitely got a sub from me. How To Be Me live is also unbelievably good!

  • @ReneeClay-um2kl
    @ReneeClay-um2kl 22 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Oh that's really cool you heard of this from black Pegasus he's been a real trooper through all of this really cool

  • @ReneeClay-um2kl
    @ReneeClay-um2kl 22 วันที่ผ่านมา

    My mantra is drink deeply hold lightly

  • @dazzman555
    @dazzman555 ปีที่แล้ว

    God I love your reactions. So raw and honest. Thank you.

  • @Amboy54
    @Amboy54 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Intelligent and totally charming reaction. And like Ren, you know whereof you speak, from your lived experience. I'm a therapist, but I've always tried to avoid presenting myself as "the healthy one" ... whatever that is ... otherwise, where is the empathy?

  • @dancerbird76
    @dancerbird76 ปีที่แล้ว

    Both duets with Ren and Chinchilla are beautiful- still give me goosebumps - the chemistry they have together when they sing is amazing. Love their rendition of Sexual Healing whilst busking too.
    Ren has worked with some amazing artists - think most people have suggested you check them out (you definitely should). Ocean is my favourite with Eden Nash. I also love Penitience with Molly Mckinna.
    Jessica is an early single of Ren’s which I think you’d like, not least because the video gives you an insight into Ren at work.
    Another great reaction. 😀🔥

  • @Balazs-Kodmen
    @Balazs-Kodmen ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Please check out Ocean by Ren feat Eden Nash. Straight 🔥🔥🔥

  • @angeldinkov9930
    @angeldinkov9930 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    BIg Ups!

  • @jimkhana007
    @jimkhana007 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’ve said many a time this is a truly beautiful yet haunting song performed to absolute perfection - so good…
    And great reaction man - keep up the grind 👊

  • @terrieb13
    @terrieb13 ปีที่แล้ว

    Love your channel! Great reaction. So happy to see you supporting Ren. You will like Chinchilla’s solo stuff too. ☮️❤️😎

  • @Mickee2605
    @Mickee2605 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    🥰

  • @karimabelouad5653
    @karimabelouad5653 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love this!!

  • @ClearTheRubble7
    @ClearTheRubble7 ปีที่แล้ว

    Subbed! I was feeling Ren's pain, Chinchilla's pain, your pain and my own pain all at the same time! 😳

  • @debrashrider4062
    @debrashrider4062 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    YOU are Awesome my dear Reactor!

  • @Danandrea919
    @Danandrea919 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Most excellent reaction. Your wisdom at youd young age is remarkable. You are the perfect reactor to Ren's music. 0

  • @vattulaitti
    @vattulaitti ปีที่แล้ว

    I dont mind stopping and I enjoy seeing people really feel the music the watch/listen. I just feel like you miss lot of the melodical emotion when you focus so much on lyrics and dont let the sequences to play through 😅 tho we all thrive from different aspects of the performance.
    Happy to join you on this Ren journey ❤

  • @Defiance-77
    @Defiance-77 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Amazing job again. I'm just watching all your reactions in one go. You are doing a great job. Much love 💖

  • @lafatte24
    @lafatte24 ปีที่แล้ว

    I wasn't really into this song when I first checked it out, but reading the lyrics really hit differently and I can connect. I'm scared of being okay cause all things change. I've felt like I peaked in high school, that mentally and personality wise i've never really developed from that state, at some points over the last decade I've wondered am I depressed, am i on the spectrum, do I have adhd, a bunch of these things... have a multitude of issues and trauma (nothing serious but I've allowed them to control me). I've often considered, why don't i see a therapist for this, why don't i find out for sure, why don't i fix these/cure these ailments, and I know, it's because I'm scared of being okay, I've been the chalk outline for so long I don't know what being that person is anymore. All things change and the chalk outline has worked for the last decade, at least i know it will probably work for another ten. But it's obviously not working, because I'm aware, I know, that i am not living, I am not happy and satisfied. But when that realisation comes too close to the surface, I stuff it down with one more smile, one more indulgence - food, pleasure, alcohol, hobbies and interests and material objects, and it's been happening so long that I don't remember who I was before existing in this state of unknown, all i have is that outline of who i've been, that i've relied on as a crutch for so long that it's all that I am.

  • @CindyBaucom-sb1hd
    @CindyBaucom-sb1hd ปีที่แล้ว

    RENaissance!!! #sickboi

  • @Parula06
    @Parula06 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Loved your reaction, thoughtful and perceptive. I know what you mean, it's like he's singing your/my own exact experience. The sorrow in his voice as he sings always makes me cry. Sertraline is Zoloft. Chinchilla's voice is so perfect with his. Subscribed.