No negativity, no sadness, no depression, just straight vibing happiness, i hope everyone who reads this will have a wonderful day, life is so amazing if you let it be.
My first thought was to say something in my anger about someone who had wronged me. Your "vibing happiness" has the effect of disarming and hugging me, so I just gave in to peace, I accept this calm and love. Much respect to you.
@@toxyzrblx4246plenty more fish in the sea as people say. I know how it hurts though, and I know it will fade away soon. Just try to let it go, that's the best you can do
It’s about 1:34 am. I’m currently in the thick of my recovery from addiction. Almost 90 days clean and I feel like 90 minutes clean. It’s so hard somedays and I’ve been struggling to feel like I belong anywhere. I feel like my memories aren’t mine and I’m watching life like it’s a movie. I’m always on the verge of tears and have a dry lump in my throat. I’m a long way from home and I just miss my family even though I feel like a stranger around them. If you are struggling in your sobriety or still suffering from addiction, I’m praying for you. One day at a time, beautiful 💕
this is great progress! you are doing great, don't give up, i believe that everything will be fine with you! if you have a hard time and want to talk, we can contact on another platform
Currently 2:37 AM, my girlfriend cut herself and has now forgotten who I am. We are still together dont worry but she doesnt remember who I am. Its like she just randomly got dementia and forgot who I am. Im sitting on call with her while she is sleeping and im busy sitting here wondering if she will even remember my face when I go to see her tomorrow. I pray to Jesus and ask for him to touch her and not just her, every one of you guys struggling. I thank the Lord for my life and I hope that she will remember me tomorrow. I will keep you all updated.
I’ve been leading a lonesome life for a long time. It’s getting harder to keep going without meaning, especially without someone to share experiences with. But I’ll stick around, the other side can wait.
2:21 am. Spending summer alone. No friends to visit, no girlfriend to call, and I'm stuck here thinking about her. Her smile, her laugh, and just the way she's always positive. I hate every moment i think about her, because i hate the loneliness that accompanies it. Thanks to everyone who are also sharing experiences. Just the fact that anyone is willing to do so at all is now restoring my faith in humanity. Edit: def didn't expect 1k likes y'all... Thanks for the support!
Try to remember you're not alone. I'm in very similar situation, we will get through this. There's plenty of chances with other girls but only one chance to live your best life. Keep your head up, you got this.
2:05 am- I feel u bro. I’ve been rejected by 8 different people this summer and lost 4 friends, and he’s just lingering in my mind and idk what to do abt it, cuz he’s been my friend for so long.
I lay in my bed at 11:57 PM, it has been 38 days since my only friend who I have lived with for my whole life was put down to stop her pain, I miss her dearly, I have told no one of her passing, the only people who know are close family, I didn’t need the veterinarian to check her heartbeat to know she was gone, I saw her eyes dilate and I knew she was gone. I feel like part of me went with her that night, I feel like a husk, a shell of my former self. I doubt anyone here will notice this comment, or care of my existence, I just wanted to make my peace somewhere. I miss you Ginger, and I hope we meet again some way or another.
The worst thing that could happen, i mean i sit here thinking about my breakup, but in reality death is the only thing we can't fix, and it hurts, i never experienced it, but i can understand to some extent. I hope you find peace, and if you need a friend to talk to, we are here.
Not all the time, sadly. Bitter and hateful people like to come to these videos just to dump on the people opening up by saying things like “no one cares” when it’s really only they who don’t care. Surprised humanity’s toxic hatred of itself hasn’t poisoned this planet beyond repair, yet. :/ I hope you all are taking care of yourselves and life isn’t trying to keep you on the ground. ❤
I always tell myself that being alone was fine, it gave you the comfort of having that privacy and getting away from all the noise of life. Then you go out and see a family with their children playing, a couple holding hands and sharing love for each other, even a group of friends just basically messing with each other. And then you start to realise, maybe being alone is just.... Not for you.
He will lead down a path of light and happiness trust in him and you shall not perish but have eternal life give your life to him and you will live with him forever he will supply you with all you need according to what you need just give him a chance and see how you turn out
@@devinbennett5500yknow, usually I hate comments like yours, but I'll hear yall out this once. How? What am I supposed to do? Just pray? Will that suddenly make life feel like it has meaning? Will that suddenly make me feel happy, even though it's not something I honestly believe? Please do tell me, genuinely, how god can save me.
@Foxi_Boio Honestly? Just cry out to Jesus and you let him take your burdens, your pain your suffering. Talk to Him as if He was right there with you in the room. Is it a little silly? Maybe, idk. Will it suddenly make everything better? Probably not, at least not right away maybe, but it gives meaning to life. Knowing there’s someone who watches out for you and sees your pain, helps me not to feel so alone. Just knowing that Christ Suffered and took that pain that shame that guilt and whatever else; died for all just to have a new life, it makes me feel and it fills that empty void inside. I still struggle, but I feel like I have a purpose and that I should keep going. And if you do feel like you want to be saved, just believe that Christ is your savior, that he died on the cross for your sins and you will have eternal life. I don’t know if I helped at all, there’s so many other people that can explain it way better than I ever could but I’ll pray for you, that you could feel Gods love and I hope you find the answer you’re searching for.
I feel you mad it's been 8 years now, I have a wife and beautiful daughter now. It kills me inside though that I will still get stuck awake at night thinking about her.
It's 1:30 AM rn, and since everyone is sharing their stories here, I'd also like to say a few words. I'm a cancer survivor. When I was 7 yo, I was diagnosed with lymphoma at third stage, and struggled for a year after that. I can never forget the pain, but the most heartbreaking thing was seeing my mother's tears. Now I'm a freshman at the university and yet again having health issues. My mental state has not been very well lately, and I'm having big trouble breathing. So for anyone who is still reading, that's what I'm gonna tell you. Every second of your life is priceless, because you don't know when everything is going to stop. Today you are having a wonderful time, and tomorrow you cough blood. So don't waste your time, come up to your loved ones and tell them how much you appreciate them. And don't forget that you are important, your life is valuable and the last thing you should do in life is giving up. I love you all, and if that's going to be my last message online, I'll just tell y'all you are awesome❤ Updated: thank you all for kind words, I hope that everything in your life is going to be awesome and whatever problems you have will vanish❤️
Chills ran down my spine and got goosebumps after reading your comment. It really was a good slap to the face. Thank you. You have my utmost respect and know that I look up to people like you who have this kind of strength and mentality. Hats off to you
Its 12:08 and i cannot sleep because of thoughts. However just want to send a prayer for bot only myself, but all the people in the comments who are struggling. God is with you, and you will make it through. Amen and goodnight ❤
It's dark and cold in my room. I sit on my bed and stare at the open window, letting me feel the wind. Being the only house in miles, it is silent outside. I can hear the ocean, waves crashing onto the shore. My thoughts are empty. I feel my chest going up and down. I close my eyes, taking in the smell of outside that the wind brings in, fresh and cold. There is so much in me fighting, so much pain, but right at this moment I am at peace. It might just be for a few minutes, but I take them in and hope it would last forever. Like the waves must crash at the shore, I have to come back to reality, but let us stay here a few more minutes, stranger ❤
Pain isn't always bad. Sacrifice is needed. There is no such thing as an easy life. If it's too easy, it means either you aren't trying enough or you just don't have something or someone you care about enough. Sometimes you just need to do it for yourself. Enjoy good moments, fight the bad. Live.
God is our true Creator, He created all the things we know in the present and He still creates wonders in the present, He who watches us from above, He who is the Only One who can save us from the pits of hell will remain in us and will love even the evil ones that are cussing His Perfect Being, because there is time to change our paths and He loves us because we have the power in us we need to bow before Him before it is too late for us He is Jesus Christ who will risks all the other sheeps only to save one and will go throughout every single place to find the lost one, even in the darkest of places because He knows that God is with Him and when God is with Him Our Savior can do unimaginable things and impossible things are as easy to overcome for Him as breathing air, because Our Savior is with Our Father that is in the Heavens So this is the time to change, if we don't take action in the present, our future is doomed and there is always time to change until there isn't and that my friend, brother, stranger, whatever you want me to call you will be your last time on this planet we call Earth, who was created by the Only God we need to trust and who we need to love with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength remember to turn to Him and to be with Him because i was evil in the past and did sin all day, my punishment for that was my anger, not controlling my actions and after Jesus Christ opened my eyes I started to see the truth, I was reborned, feeling more greater than ever before cause I could feel the Holy Spirit entering in me at that point, all the earthly things were pointless at the time when Jesus Christ was with me and guided me to the immortality that is in the Heavens. So repent, repent that your sins may be forgiven because God forgives all if we speak with Him, not to Him, to forgive us because we are nothing in the face of our God and we are nothing withouth Our Lord, in the name of Jesus Christ i will pray for you because He can do wonders, He can do the impossible and only He, remember that Only He can show us the way, can exterminate our temptations and deliver us from evil : for thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
It's currently 2:43 am on July 4th alone. this made me think about her, memorize all the happiest things we did together, my life has been downhill since our breakup, i was hospitalized, doxxed, harrassed, and mentally losing it, but im better now, i miss her alot, i want her back but. then again that's how life is, people come and go and you gotta accept the fact that it happens.
I've read your comment exactly at 2:43 but today. Stay strong. If I've learned anything during my soon 33 years here, it's that we can survive so much more than we think we can.
We've been almost 10 years together. She left me 2 weeks before our anniversary. Still cant grasp it what happend after 4 months. Theres universe full of stars and we are just a grain of sand in the sea. This music is so zen and calm.. We will heal
@@marlboro9tibike ive been with my ex for a few years, we ended things on valentines of this year, everything went downhill after, i got hospitalized, doxxed and been groomed me and the list continues, this all happened within 5 months, i can agree with the music, enjoying as i heal from the traumatic past
It's almost 1 am and I sitting alone in my bed staring at the window. No GF or Friends to think about. Just thinking all night how to make my father proud and make my life better. It's sad but not hopeless, I'll try to make my life better by working hard everyday. Reading through the comments I realised that their are many people like me who thinks the same and struggling in life but still holdin in, trying their best to accomplish what they want. I Hope that anyone who is struggling to keep on moving forward.
And to you the same my friend... We walk this earth in strength. Never forget who and what you fight for. Passion will always drive you. For when you see this comment, I want you to remember the phrase that I say, "Carpe Diem" seize this day, make. it. yours. ❤️
i'm in a similar position and writing down daily goals helps a lot. don't be too ambitious, even being able to check 1 or 2 boxes a day means so much to me some days. best of luck to you in your journey dude
12:40. I hate grief more than death. Kid at my school killed himself in September, someone on the football team. So many people showed up to his memorial…myself included, though I didn’t even know he existed. So many who cared for him spoke, left flowers, cried. Kid was a junior, sixteen years old. One girl was mad. She tried to keep herself composed and did a good job, but she said what everyone was thinking. you’re all here now. Where were you when he needed you? I knew he was struggling. I tried to help him. Why didn’t you? Why couldn’t you see? Why didn’t you at least try? its 12:44 now. Fly high, K.
For all the people reading this and doubting, or already doubting themselves too much, know that you are a good person. You have the right to be angry, sad, stressed, and it doesn't make you a bad person for not being able to properly express these emotions.Your sensitivity and impulsiveness make you human and you are a good person, with a pure heart.You deserve to be loved, take care of yourself.
hey we’re in it together. thinking of him and thinking of her respectively. but we’re the same here, so… even if we’re suffering. please take comfort in the knowledge that i am suffering with you. please let me be your weapon arm, so that i may ease your woes if not for a fleeting moment. we are okay
I am very grateful to the TH-cam algorithm for recommending this video. At 2 o'clock I couldn't control my tears. I don't know why I wanted to cry so much.
Its currently 1:53 for me. Today I celebrated christmas with my Family. We had a great time and I've got some nice things from them. I might only have one true friend and no girlfriend, but im happy, for now. I wish everyone who is reading this a great day/night
You will never see this, but I love you. Your life means everything to me. If you ever see this, you know who you are, I love you, and I always have cared.
people are my everything. they’re the reason i’m alive. sometimes, they’re also the reason i don’t want to be. i have this problem where i’ll isolate and read way too far into the people i care about the most. i convince myself they hate me. it’s not true, i know, but i can’t shake the feeling. i’m at a really bad time in my life right now where i don’t leave my house often. i hole up, sleep for over half the day, lay in bed for hours when i wake up, and check my phone. it’s a draining cycle that i repeat over and over again. my thoughts when awake and dreams when asleep revolve around people. i just wish it was in a good way.
I'm actually doing the same thing but because it's my holidays and I just want to chill alone. My solution for going out is just doing things that I like, with Friends or alone, but thinking only about what I do when i'm outside. I started skateboarding a few weeks ago and going out, thinking only about my board, the bowl and the noise of me going down the street helps me to reconnect with myself. If you don't know what you do, just try everything you see on internet that looks fun or cool if you can, it may take some time but you're gonna find something that you really like. Friends will be Always here for you cause they're you're Friends, but they're humans too, and they need to live their own life. Your hobby will Always exist for you, everytime you need it.
Man do I feel this. I’ve been at a point for years where my dreams have almost become a toxic dependency for meaningful connection, and at first I felt meaning, if it actually was meaning. The more time has gone on the more I’m convinced reality is really where meaning can be created and felt, the people involved and the environments I’m involved with everyday. Dreams will soon feel obsolete and I wonder what my dreams will be like when I truly accept that for what it is.
It's currently 2:14am. I found this video just a few minutes after my now ex girlfriend said that we'll never get back together. Just a few days ago she broke up with me, and just now she said that we will never be together again. It only hurts so much because we both still love eachother an awful lot, but she's right to not put up with my idiocy and with me in general. I spent 5 years caring for her, and now, it's gone, just like that. I haven't told anyone because I don't want to burden my friends and family with my problems, and what's of my cause. She meant everything to me, I'm so empty now; I'm struggling to find any joy in anything in life. I'm now void, I now have no one who truly cares about me, nor anyone that I truly care about. I have no connections of love towards anyone, and none towards me. I thought I found the one, but now I have...nothing: just pain and regret.
I'm sorry for you, hope you Can pass through this one day. I think you should talk about this to your friends, they're here for you and, even if I don't know you, I know you deserve better than struggling alone with your pain. And remember, me, all the others that are going to comment below you and all the good face of internet loves you, support you and care about you mate.
I know how you feel. I also had the most amazing girlfriend once. She was beautiful, smart, cute laugh and so much more and i messe it up so many times. She had the heart to forgive me the first time but the second time i crushed it to much. This happend about 6 years ago and i stille sometimes think about it and it breaks my heart. But in the end she found the right one and got married last year. Happy for her and her New husband. Things will get better, it just takes some time. Remeber to talk to someone about it, keeping it in made it worse for me. I wish i had told someone about what happend back then. Much love to you my friend!
i feel you man, the exact same thing happened to me abt 2 months ago, im a broken man, i feel nothing, no joy, surrounded by people but more alone than ive ever been, missing her so fucking much every second of the day, idk where to go in life or what to do, the absolute love of my life, my dream person, gone because of my own stupidity
Last night I had a dream I was reunited with my best friend who I completely lost contact with, everything was completely normal until I started slowly waking up. I remember her starting tonwalk away and I begged her, "Please, at least stay for even 2 seconds!" I hugged her, and as I woke up she faded away in my arms. I cried :)
I'm so sorry.. People come and people go, but when someone leaves it means that God removed them for a reason and someone better will come into your life. I hope that more oppurtunities come into your life. Just know that you're amazing and a good person.
I hate that I have dreams like this. Sometimes, it's even worse with me having friends and all of us having the same interests and everything. But then i wake up more lonely than ever
@@emmasasaki7542that so… then why did my ex leave me in October for someone else she met at work… two months on, doesn’t get easier, knowing she’s had OUR moments with someone else but when everyone said “she’s not good for you”, I should have listened to my gut and walked…. Sad thing is she lives maybe 15 mins away by car, just happened to find someone closer than me…. She will one day see leaving was a mistake…. Morning.
Знаю, что тут нет русских, но тоже хочу поделиться частичкой себя. Слушаю подобные видео каждый раз, когда чувствую себя одиноко или мои мысли не могут перестать быть страшными. Каждый раз музыка и звуки обловакивают в море спокойствия под каплями дождя... Становиться так хорошо... Сейчас переживаю очень сложный период. Сбежала с собственной свадьбы, еду в другой город, чтобы осуществлять свою мечту. Скучаю по нему, но знаю, что не я сделаю его счастливым, а он не сделает счастливой меня. Чтож... Идем дальше. Спасибо большое автору за эти видео. Благодаря им, я верю, что всё будет хорошо ❤ Всем всего наилучшего
It's almost 5 am and I'm here, in my bed alone, again alone. It’s sad, hopeless, but I try to live with greater acceptance of all the crap that’s happening, and nights like these, in which I can relax and think about life, without the morning bustle - I love the night for such an atmosphere and pastime. Reading the comments here you understand how many difficulties other people go through, but they still hold on and come here to tell, and just like me, spend the night with their thoughts listening to such playlists
Thinking about him. Did he survive from the storm inside his mind? I hope he's still alive and smile, and found new life. I hope when he said goodbye to me, he only said that to me and not the world. If you see this, i hope you live a happy life.
Don't feel bad for letting go of people who can't hold onto themselves. Whatever happened is out of your hands, that's a fact. It was his decision to not only let go but to leave you with the guilt that you could've done more, SHOULD'VE done more, fully knowing that you couldn't. It's selfish. It is unfair. Pick yourself up and MOVE ON. "He never intended to!" Intentions ≠ actions
If there’s someone I think about every night, it’s my old self. Born with autism and growing up in a society where being different is often met with discrimination, I endured relentless abuse from childhood through middle school. Ironically, things only changed when I entered high school which also a vocational art school. The bullying didn’t stop because people realized it was wrong. It stopped because they saw my autism as part of an “artistic persona.” What’s funny and exhausting is that no one in high school knew I was autistic until I told them. Every single time, they were surprised. They expected the stereotypical version of autism, but that wasn’t me. And that expectation from the stereotypes? It made me sick. Back then, I fought both literally and figuratively to prove that I was just a human being like everyone else. I fought to be seen, to be respected, and to be understood. And after so many years, i did it, I won that war. I proved my worth. But now? Now, my life feels empty. I’m almost halfway to 24 now, and it feels like the fire I once had is gone. When I was younger, I had a reason to fight, a reason to keep pushing forward. But now? I don’t know. I achieved the one thing I’d always wanted, to be recognized as a person, not just a label. But what’s next? I need to find a new purpose. I remember something one of my college teachers told me: “Life is a constant war. When one struggle ends, it doesn’t mean the fight is over. The victory is sweet, but it won’t last long, and soon you’ll move to another battlefield, whether you like it or not.” Looking back, I finally understand what they meant. Is this my new battlefield? Finding a new purpose? To be honest, I envy my younger self, the version of me who had something to fight for. Now, I don’t know what I’m fighting for or even who my enemy is. Is it the world again? My life? Myself? I’m up against something I can’t see, and it’s terrifying. But even so, I’m trying. I’m doing my best to build a new torch. I don’t know what it’ll look like yet, but it’s better than sitting in the dark with suicidal thoughts.
Years ago I went through this stage in my life were I was searching desperately for meaning so i know how very empty it must feel. During the time, I was stuck between several things I wanted to pursue but I realized no matter how outlandish I twisted them and made them look in my head I couldn't see myself deriving joy from any of those things in the long run. Eventually I decided to drop everything and trust my feelings I gave sometime to myself to actually listen, to listen to what I really wanted and suddenly I found it. I think the problem you're having is that you have unintentionally boxed yourself in this ideal state of which you described above, the state with which you have bean accepted, and somehow maybe unconsciously you are afraid to move out of this state to explore your other interests. I want to tell you to trust yourself and give yourself the chance to feel again and settle for that meaning you've been searching for without the fear of being mislabeled, Cause you owe it to yourself.
I feel like I would be reading myself because I had almost the exact life. And yes, finding a new purpose and view of life will be something you will learn through life. But this time, your purpose doesn't have to be done motivated by hatred, but by love. When I was younger (I am 24, too) everyone critized me for being a smart-geek (even my family, they saw me as Sheldon Cooper) and it was sad to feel. When I became an adult, based on all the books I had read, I set up a business with my knowledge in languages (to get more customers), psychology (to treat people) and philosophy (to understand others and myself). Now they respect me, and I am still finding my new purpose motivated by love, not hatred anymore... Good luck 😊❤ In wish you the best!
This comment feels like home. I'm born with autism as well. I couldn't be more grateful to be around humans. At what cost is to be grateful, myself. I don't expect recognition, return of love, the way I treated humans more than family, but creatures that breathe like home and not toxicity. Autism is a apocalyptic, no one understands until they are born with the exact agony genetics we go through. I expect attentions all the time from random strangers because I want help, but nothing is preceived the same when I see it, realizing girls never liked me during my middle-school and high-school years, and the different outcomes for different boys is always lucky for them. The times when I needed someone to talk to, and be comforted by someone, it always ends up myself being forgettable, dumb, and slow. Whatever you're going through. Just to let you know, this comment feels like my house.
right? its so confusing, you don't know what to do, u want to deny your ending of the relationship, you want to bawl your eyes but you can't because he hurt you so much.
I suddenly thought of a childhood friend. She suddenly moved away and I have no idea where she ended up. She might’ve been kicked out of the country, or maybe her parents found a better job- I really don’t know. I just wonder how she’s doing now. I barely remember her face now. It’s weird how I almost only remember the bad times with her yet I feel immense affection for her to this day nonetheless. I hope to see her again one day
Well it happened to me i am a boy amd i was first class amd someone choked me hopefully a boy camed and helped me and i asked his name his name was same as my name i said "lets meet here another time" i still waiting for him🥲
I feel your pain,my only true friend,I lost him BC I moved out,I still remember his lovely smile and all the good times we had,thinking about this just makes me tear up..
i have a world of family and friends by my side, i'm so incredibly privileged to have such a support group, and yet, i feel so very alone most of the time. nothing ever seems to go my way, and i don't know who i am sometimes. the one person who gets me is asleep next to me, the love of my life, and without them, i'd likely be well beyond my lowest right now. i'm grateful. i'm so damn lucky. i love you.
I'm sailing the opposite direction, friend. I cut my family off for being abusive, I'm living with a friend now across the U.S.. I'm getting over an ex now, too, who swears I did everything wrong by them despite that just flat out not being true, considering I wasn't the one gambling away vacation money to visit the other, I wasn't lying to keep them happy, and I wasn't the one threatening the other's life when I broke up with them. I don't know what's happening anymore, I don't know myself all of the time. All I have that I can't lose anymore is my moral compass, and no idea what a "man" is. My friend will be leaving for a Thanksgiving family meet and this'll be the first holiday where I'm completely alone. I miss having a family greatly, and frankly despite knowing the abuse was killing me, if I'd known how great the pain of being completely alone was, I'd have rather stayed in that abusive situation.
i miss her, we broke up today and its 2:08am i remember she was helping me get over someone and when i got over her i told her exactly "thank you i owe you one" i still remember and before we broke up i reminded her about the thing that i still owed her and she said "fine if this is the end then i want you to forget and move on from me" it hurts so much but its for the better because she's struggling with mental health problems as her relatives has recently passed. All those who are missing their special someone just know you'll get through it even though you'll think "damn should i text her?" or "when will i ever get a text from her?" dont worry you'll move on eventually.
She's always gonna remember you as the guy who left her at her lowest ;) Or is it the other way around? When her relatives died, she had to go through a messy breakup as well. Wonder how that's weighing on her conscious. Wonder if that weighs on yours Either way why care about someone's mental health when you don't even know them anymore. Move on and forget. Honor her last request❤
Such a funny little thing, love… Allow me, if you will, to share in my thoughts with like minded fellows, joined in brief grief. I have dealt with such an experience previously, about two weeks ago or so… we had been seeing each other for about two months, and our affection for one another had blossomed so that the passion we shared burned with a joy I hadn’t known for many summers and winters… however, the strain of her academics, her unstable emotions and family pressure drove her to end our relationship, or at least that’s what she told me over messages, briefly before we finished speaking altogether. I was left wondering what I had done wrong, or what else could I have done to prevent this outcome, I considered finding the answer to my enigma in the middle of the concrete floor, for it to bash my skull in with a flood of clarity, but alas, my cowardice begged me not to, and I obliged. Not long after, out of sheer curiosity, I took a small tour of her social media, only to find a mocking post about my body, my hands to be specific… someone who claimed to love me, cherish me, and that would never leave me now publicly exposed her misshapen former relationship. I was no stranger to such public ridicule, just not from someone I held so close to my heart. Such a funny thing, love… we all believe we deserve it because of the innate fact of our humanity, of the small heart we have that is waiting for its better half. I’m left to wonder, inside this small lair of mine of thoughts and madness, if our collective belief in love, in connection, serves the same purpose as our belief in God does, to provide some sort of comfort of faith, during uncertain times where logic is nowhere to be found and the maniacs are running the asylum? How groundbreaking would it be to find out that, fated love is no more a matter of fact than the almighty above? The people would fall into panic, and there would be no shortness of lives cut short. I suppose that, for the sake of sanity, it is best to leave this conniving thought as it was born, alone and unbothered. Karma, worth, faith, belief… I know now that they are as vital to our survival as is the very food we eat and the trees that gift us the air we breathe, and to disturb that knowledge, that status quo, would be to sink an already troubled world into a decaying pit of sorrow. If you’ve read all this, you have my sympathies and thanks, any comment or opinion is welcome for discussion. May we all rest, and have no good deed be punished.
Love prevails man. Just look at all the other people who you love and love you. That's way more than one person could ever do for you.. from one stranger to another - I hope you will see the love in your life. ❤
@@I_AM_MONKEYY well, its complicated. so to begin with, I used to meet with her twice or once a week for 1.5 year, before that we had been friends. during summer we had a lot of free time so we saw each other almost every day. 26th of july when she was showing me sth on her phone, random number wrote sms to her saying "hi" , then i didn't see any more message from that number. she said that she has no idea who that was and i believed her, because she was loyal. for the next two days we haven't seen each other in order to make a little brake and did our own things, but we were texting like always. we made a plan to meet next day but she didn't text that day, so i thought she might have been tired or sth. so i began waiting, 4 days passed, i wrote to her and she replied after 10days later saying that she talks with me only because i want to talk. we started texting about all of that but she seemed to be emotionless. it looked like everything was going to be calm after we would get through it. she said that she was lacking her free time for her hobbys or whatever, but i wanted to be with her so i said that i would sit beside her and just be with her while she crochet or do sth else but she didn't want me to be then. it is important to know that we both are a little (a lot) autistic, and we are both introverted, she is more of avoidant person but im more like insecure one. after almost week of texting (there have been days without any chats) we finally met. it was really strange because we used to see each other every day and we felt really close, but 2 weeks was enough to make us feel like strangers (we still both felt the connection between us). after a while she started crying and moving away from me but i wanted to hug her l, for a moment she wanted to move away from me but then she came to me and we have been hugging for 15minutes or more standing. she was crying and saying that i should not comfort her because it is her who made a mistake and treated me horribly. rest of the day somehow worked out. next day we went together to her family living somewhere else. they saw me first time and i think they really liked me. we have been with her family for 4 days and it was nice. it seemed like all bad things ended and we can be happy once again. after these 4 days i had to leave but she said she would stay for 3 days more. she wasn't bored with her family but she spent around 3h watching TH-cam every day(i know bc i wanted her to show me her screen time because we are both trying to get rid of phone addiction), but she said she hadn't had time to talk with me(i knew that she was avoiding me). after 3 days without talking she was supposed to come back but she texted me near midnight that she would go with her grandma for weekend to lake. so i waited again 2 days. then she said that they(she and her family) are with her grandma's friend and she cant talk rn so she will text me next day late at night. so I waited and she didn't text anything. after a day i texted her asking if she is going to talk with me. she ignored me for a week. from the start of her strange actions it has been a month. i wrote another message saying that what she is doing only worsen our connection. i waited 3 days. we used to meet with scouts group nearby. i went there thinking maybe i could see her in here. of course she came there and she said hi to me. instantly after that she opened her Whatsapp and marked my messages as seen. then on that scout meeting she was acting like i wasn't there(no words were said to me). at the end i told her that i will go back home with car and she can go with me, but she in hurry said that she prefer public transport and left. that was 3 days ago. i thought that she might text me or sth but she didn't. after 1 day i asked her what is going on, but i still didn't get any text from her. i really appreciate that you read that, it means a lot for me in that hard time. maybe if you wanted i could give you my discord name
Hey, its 3:03 am rn. Just remember that life is beautiful. Whatever your struggle, you endured 5000x that before you were even born. You can and will do it. Please try for the love of god. It will get better. That girlfriend, great physique, or that promotion, it will all happen. Step out of your comfort zone. I currently weigh 170lbs at 13. I am trying, if i.can do it, you can too. Just remember, you fought for this opportunity, dont waste it.
It’s 2:50 AM, last week I graduated from my university and got me wondering; about my future and what does it mean to be an adult, to live life in a meaningful way, how can I reach that happiness of being throughout my personal challenges. I remembered all the people I met during this years, some came in and some left. I miss the good times I had with them but now I feel better with myself, I just wanted to say thanks. Thanks to who stuck at my side, thanks to who keeps staying with me even tho I’m very far from the best. I’ll be better, I hope for an happy future.
I’m sure the future will be great for you! But always remember to live in the present, because that’s the only way one can build a happy and successful future. You’ve got this ❤
it’s not 2am for rn but it’s midnight so close enough. was just with my girlfriend, she headed out to go to sleep but i’m just sitting here now thinking about how lucky i am. i’m so lucky to have the life i have, a roof over my head, shoes on my feet, a phone im using to type this, a loving family, the girlfriend of my dreams. i’m so fucking grateful for my life. i thank the lord for giving it to me and letting me live it the way i wish to live it. i’m so happy, so lucky, and so grateful. if your ever feeling down, just look in the mirror and tell yourself “ im here for a reason”. if you feeling down just remember you were given this life for a reason, don’t waste it. and don’t end it yourself. life it to the fullest and always be grateful. that’s all i have, thanks for reading and i hoped i helped anyone. have a good day/goodnight, whoever you are, wherever you are.
Currently its 10:55:07 pm on Monday July 2024 if anyone is reading this slowly im loseing my self in this undoubtedly cruel world the more i give the more i lose my sense of giveing to those who may need and even then to end up stabbing me in the back using me for there own gain Even if its true if anyone is reading this give lots of love to those you fully trust and cherish every moment and make sure you cant give more than you can receive
its currently 12:44 AM, and this is one of many nights i've found myself thinking about her. she was my first love, and also my favorite love. maybe thats because i set her as the new standard. but how could i not? nobody else ever had, has, or will make me feel that way. i pray that she and i cross paths, or that she would reach out to me. but that hasn't happened. “just move on bro” says all my friends. i cant just move on. she’s the only thing i want. without her in my life, my heart is cold, my mind is numb and my body is lifeless. perhaps im just stupid. perhaps im just too in love. maybe a combination all i know is two years is a long ass time to get over someone.
>She was my first love >She was my favorite How the hell can you pick favorites when she's literally first and only. By proxy that makes her favorite and also least favorite, best and worst. See what I mean? You'll get over yourself, time heals all wounds. Don't get into the trap of thinking "ohh she was the one" If she was the one things would've worked out. I'm betting that next time you fall in love you'll call that one your favorite, and the time after that you'll call the next one your favorite, forgetting all about this Stop crying. Get a grip.
dang bro, i though i had it bad. trust me, you WILL get over her as i have my past exs. you will find someone new even better than her. if Brooklyn ever finds this I wish her the best with Oscar.
The road to happiness is not a straight line. Sometimes you are required to move backwards in order to move forwards. The path winds and twists, and at points you won't know if you are truly going the right way. When you contemplate this, just start walking. You may not be confident in the way you are going, but one way or another you will make it to the end of the path, and you can look behind you to see how far you have truly came.
@empty. I appreciate you making this, I hope you realize you’re bringing so many hurt people together and from here we can help lift each other. I believe everyone here is good and will have all they deserve one day. I don’t know any of you but if it means anything, I love you all
I have just made the biggest ever thing in my life and told my friend about all the things i have been keeping to myself for years. I can not describe how happy i am to finally walk towards being straight forward, honest with people and to accept myself in the way that i am. This is surely the best and the biggest day of my life, and i might even call it the first one, even though the rest heavily depends on what i do further. I do not know why i am writing this, but if you are reading this just know that the best thing you can do in your life is to talk to other people and i really wish myself to understand that heavily
being literally addicted to someone you love so much you can't even explain it really hits different . I currently became suddenly really close to someone where in the first I only considered them as a friend but now , the destiny made all my problems go away because of how much happiness that guy gives me , in this moment I really can't imagine my life without him
Having just one person giving a meaning to your life is so refreshing after strugling for so long. She is asleep, far away from me, but i can sense her presence that bond is priceless, hope ya'll will have a bright future, life is good never give up
@@shadowkrystall9783 Soo real, especially that before he came , I just felt empty, sad and quit depressed because of the gigantic amount of exams n' the pressure to be so worried about it that I literally became so lazy for 3-4 weeks straight and only kinda started studying the day before my finals. But hoppefully , that guy just came and boom , I never was so happy in my entire life , so much so that I can't go a day without talking to him for at least an hour and I am in the same case as you are ! we too may be quite far away from each other yet, I don't know if he feels the same but I feel always that connection , as if he is already by my side right now Thank youuu !! I hope you too will have a wonderful future with them !!
I used to cry to these playlists. I used to want to die. But now they bring me peace of mind when I’m at night and unsure of myself - the world can be a beautiful place. It is hard but if you keep watching you will see some flowers growing on the side of the road. I can see a storm through my window and the lightning is so beautiful. Life doesn’t have to be ugly, it doesn’t have to be lonely the path is strewn with pitfalls but it is there
It’s currently 2:15 AM and I’m happy I found this video because I’m on a road trip and this video helped me think about my friends back at where I live. I am beginning to think there is just something wrong with me because if I leave the state I live in with my friends, I always struggle to have happy dreams with my friends In them. This video is also helping me calm down with pressure and kinda freaking out about possibly getting a girlfriend soon, so that’s fun. And to anyone who reads this please have a good day and who ever the person or people you are thinking about always have good memories with them.❤😊❤😊❤😊
3:40 am, July 29, my grandma just passed a few days ago, I’ll never forget all the conversations we had when she’d drive me to MMA class as a kid. Can’t wait to see her in Heaven one day.
(it's 4:06 am) and i'm thinking about my buddy who died in a boat racing crash during thunder on the snake a few years ago. i made the trip from the opposite side of the country just to watch him race and he got crushed by his boat when it caught air and flipped. [i helped his wife move along with her two sons and two daughters. as of now we still keep in touch and he stated in his will that i am to be given the title of uncle of his kids should he pass at any time]
i know you'll never read this, but you're my everything conor. the way your laugh could light up my face rain or shine, the warmth of your body against mine, that god damn smile. something about you draws me in so effortlessly, and i would do anything to tell you how i really feel, even if you already know. i can tell that someday i am going to love you with all my heart, but for now we can be friends who want so desperately to be more. i hope you're safe out there, you're worth so much more than you give yourself credit for and you have no idea how much better my life is with you in it.
God is our true Creator, He created all the things we know in the present and He still creates wonders in the present, He who watches us from above, He who is the Only One who can save us from the pits of hell will remain in us and will love even the evil ones that are cussing His Perfect Being, because there is time to change our paths and He loves us because we have the power in us we need to bow before Him before it is too late for us He is Jesus Christ who will risks all the other sheeps only to save one and will go throughout every single place to find the lost one, even in the darkest of places because He knows that God is with Him and when God is with Him Our Savior can do unimaginable things and impossible things are as easy to overcome for Him as breathing air, because Our Savior is with Our Father that is in the Heavens So this is the time to change, if we don't take action in the present, our future is doomed and there is always time to change until there isn't and that my friend, brother, stranger, whatever you want me to call you will be your last time on this planet we call Earth, who was created by the Only God we need to trust and who we need to love with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength remember to turn to Him and to be with Him because i was evil in the past and did sin all day, my punishment for that was my anger, not controlling my actions and after Jesus Christ opened my eyes I started to see the truth, I was reborned, feeling more greater than ever before cause I could feel the Holy Spirit entering in me at that point, all the earthly things were pointless at the time when Jesus Christ was with me and guided me to the immortality that is in the Heavens. So repent, repent that your sins may be forgiven because God forgives all if we speak with Him, not to Him, to forgive us because we are nothing in the face of our God and we are nothing withouth Our Lord, in the name of Jesus Christ i will pray for you because He can do wonders, He can do the impossible and only He, remember that Only He can show us the way, can exterminate our temptations and deliver us from evil : for thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 Please don't say God followed by the D word ever again❤❤❤❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏🙏❤🙏Love you all🙏❤🙏🙏❤🙏❤🙏🙏❤❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤
I always get lost in reading the stories of so many lives in the comments during these videos I dont always have as much to tell, but the feelings are definitely the same Wishing the best for every one who comes by, and myself.
It’s OK you don’t have to worry what you did is not who you are right now if you’re reflecting on it and making different choices to better yourself, God bless you. I hope you’re having an amazing life!❤
you are not the problem, it's just you reflecting off the situation. its not your soul that has ruined your purpose, it was your choices, it may or may not be your fault but you have done ur best. 💕
Bro, same here. Idk why my best friend and my friends kicked me out of them and the dont want to talk me. Idk who i am, idk why i am here and idk what i did to deserve this. Idk why i still alive.
EDIT: Thanks for all the support guys, I appreciate it. I didn't want it to sound like I wanted to end my life again so I'm sorry if anyone read it that way. Unfortunately my mom passed yesterday suddenly and now I'm going through that process with my brother and it's made me reevaluate things and now I'm just in a hard place again and wish everyone here does good in life and makes something out of themselves and I'll be here rooting for you! Thanks again! :) 3:08am - 21 years and nothing to show for it. Everyone I grew up with are off on their own journeys and starting families of their own while I sit in the background wondering where life went wrong while wondering what I'll do for the remainder of my time here alive. I've tried to communicate to people and have always felt like no one could understand me. They would agree with what I'm saying or try to relate but it never "felt" like they actually understood what I was trying to say or feel so I started self destructing. Alcohol was my go to for most of my teens since where I lived it was easy to get ahold of. I kept trying to find someone to love, to care about but it always ended in the same way either them pulling away with no explanation or being blamed for all of their problems and being beaten down until I couldn't take it anymore. Every day seems to feel like my last day as I struggle to find motivation to get up or do anything without remembering all of the pain I've endured from my own friends and family members dying or my finding my dog passed away on my bed when I woke up. I know everyone goes through their own struggles and I envy everyone who manages to beat their depression and makes something out of their lives to be remembered by and cherished. I wish I could say that I want to live but the truth is I'll probably be gone in a couple of weeks and wanted to share this because I feel like this might be the last time I actually try to open up and funny enough, it's on the internet surrounded by strangers I don't even know and that's okay because I know someone will read this and use this as an example to not become like me and better themselves. Don't let my story dictate your actions or thoughts. YOU are better than me, no matter what you may think of yourself. If you think no one cares about you then please listen to the words I'm writing here because you matter to me and I'm sure as hell there is someone out there that cares for YOU and don't let them down by stooping down to my level. YOU can do this, I believe in YOU so get up and try to be the best person you can be and if you fail then keep trying until you physically can't try anymore cause I know YOU can do it and that's worth more than anything in the world.
YOU can do it. Find something, anything at all. Talk to strangers, walk across the country, you can do anything you want to the only thing keeping you back is comparing yourself to others. YOU can do it.
Hey i am 22 years and all my friends are doing somethingwith their life while i am here doing nothing, BUT you just gotta think that everyone go their own way in life to find what their goal in life is, NEVER compare urself with others, its super hard cuz i do it alot, but try to stop it, not a good writer but hope this helps, we are here for you and talk to anyone about ur problem before the problem eats u alive
Damn, I’ve been reading these comments for about an hour straight and it’s almost 2am. I’m thankful for all my family and friends have done and see how my life has been blessed. I’m also scared of the thought being left by, anyone. My girlfriend, family or friends. To all u reading this and to the ones who don’t see this, I love u and god loves u and u can get through the tough times no matter how bad it seems ❤ much love to y’all
It’s 3:52 am for me currently. Laying in bed, listening to this calm ambience, staring at my dark ceiling. With the wind from my fan and the sounds of it swaying back and forth, I wonder, how could I have done things differently ? Not to mention, my first love real interest, whom which was also a dear childhood friend of mine, is celebrating her birthday today. I thought about everything that happened between us over the years, and everything up until now. Despite us not seeing each other in person since well before I graduated highschool, nor have we stayed in contact due to the pandemic and other circumstances, I miss her. I miss the connection we had. I feel as if I messed it up because I wanted more, even though it wasn’t perfect what we had. It was enough, but at the time I didn’t realize it. I chased after her for so long and seen her get her feelings hurt too many times on my hands to count, and it just bothered me so fucking much. For the longest time I wondered why I couldn’t be with her. I feel I know why, for a variety of reasons of course. But it still bothers me so much, to the point of insanity some times when I think about it too hard. Despite not thinking about it for so long.. it still makes me wonder what life would have been like, what journeys we could have went on, experiences we could have shared, and so much more. I yearned for this person for so long, and now I barely think about her anymore. I don’t know if I’m fucked up, or what. Idk man… (4:00 am by the time I finished this, didn’t expect to go so long, but my mind just kept working, and my fingers kept moving. Despite this, I wish everyone a lovely night, love to all ❤️)
These playlists allow me to close my eyes and only for a couple of nights, they bless me with a glimpse into an ideal future, where ive settled down with the love of my life and on cold nights like this one, im a free man bound by no chains of the self, others, and fate. Allowed to freely navigate across the beautiful land as i ride on horseback below a blanket of the cozy night sky. I've opened my eyes and been brought back to the reality that the girl im so enamored with and we hit it off really well ever since we started dating, has become a bit distant to who knows what, but i reassured her that im always there for her when things become too much and im giving her the space she needs, because in life sometimes that what we all need, just a break from all the madness. This is simply just a redirection to that ideal future, life doesnt always go the way you want it to, but i wont let this get the better of me, Ill work tirelessly to achieve my dreams and passions, and you should too! To whoever may be reading this late at night, know that we strangers, family and friends alike, will always fight the good fight alongside you and never feel afraid to ask for help when you need it. May you all take care and have amazing days going forward 💗 💜
It’s 1:41am. And I know it’ll never be a thing between the two of us but I still sit here wondering. “Will you ever love me? Or am I wasting my time trying to see where we end up?”
This is probably the most relateable coment ive ever seen. Ive tried to convince myself i dont need her im fine being single but it never works. For years now ive been trying to lie to myself. I dont know how to stop feeling this pit. Im too self conscious to ask her our but im too lonely to go on for more years being alone.
i haven’t been able to get good rest since our fight and she’s distanced herself from me and i’ve come to the realization that i may not get to talk or see her again. she’s been in my dreams ever since, i wake up early from my sleep to check my phone in hopes of getting a message from her. nothing but there’s hope im clinging on day by day that i’ll get a second chance with her. i miss her
Try saying sorry, apologize to her,while you still have contact with her,if you can talk to her say sorry,I hope things get better between the both of you.
talk to her no matter how much she ignores you, this will prove your love that you don't want her gone. if she doesn't prove she loves you by leaving you on delivered while online or just seen, you may have to face the undeniable truth, clinging onto her may seem a good idea but it'll hurt more once she leaves, may God be with you.
edit: i broke up with him and we talked about it and apparently he’s been feeling the same way for a while but he was gunna wait till school started i’m going through the same thing kinda with me and my bf we’ve been together for a little over 2 months and when we first started dating we would constantly text and ft but now we barely talk to each other today was the first time where we haven’t spoken and it’s scary to me cause i’ve fallen so in love with him even tho it hasn’t been that long idk what to do at this point also any time we do “talk” it turns into an argument 2 nights ago we got into a huge argument and last night we started kinda arguing about dying (my little sister is in therapy for wanting to unalive herself) and he made a joke about harming himself and i took it the wrong way but he says he didn’t mean it like that and idk how to feel or what to do
You've got this, you can make it through whatever you're going through right now just talk to someone, anyone, as long as you have someone to talk to everything will be ok. Sometimes it will be hard to sleep, maybe its a breakup, maybe its grief, but you can, and will keep going in life. Its been a couple days since i saw her so im definitly thinking about my girlfriend right now. This video is a blessing. Have a good day, or night. ❤❤❤
To you,, Thank you for everything. Thank you for being there when things sucked. Thank you for knowing all the right things to say. Thank you for being you. Thank you for the time shared, and memories cemented in legacy. I could never repay you for what you’ve truly given me. Goodbye.
It's 2 am. She is perfect, her smile , her laught, how she talk and look at me, everything is perfect about her. She is gentle and so sweet and beautiful. I feel something i can't explain, just seeing her makes me smile and happy but when i look at her then look at me i realize this can't work, she is too good for me and i think she never gonna feel this same. I known her for several years. Everything what i want is to see her happy, it doesn't matter if its with me or not. Sorry for my bad english. I from poland and im not very good at this language I will talk to her soon about what I feel to her She didn’t want me
I can understand feeling as if you're not good enough, or that you won't be. I felt the same way about her. That she was just to good for me. But you've got to realize that that isn't true. Sometimes you've got to let go of you fears, of your worries. Do what you want. I guarantee you that when they think of you, she doesn't do it un such a negative way. They, too, respect you and appreciate you. Without a doubt
I fucked up. Currently 12:09am, I’ve lost so much in my life. Dad left at age of 10, mom hates me, family hates me, aunt who was like a mom to me died of cancer, etc. Yet the on girl that actually chose to hold my hand through it all, the one who stayed when everyone left, who cared and noticed when no one did. Who loved me when others didn’t. Someone who was my friend… my best friend… I hurt them… I really hurt them… after I realized what I did and the mistake I had made, I tried to make amends but time has taken us both astray. Now I write sad songs, cut myself, bruise myself, hate myself, as I work 2 jobs while in school to provide for people who don’t even love me. Shits tough, I look up as I lay awake in my thoughts, and I pray hoping for things to change. Anything, and maybe just maybe, I can be happy again… Love you JJ, I wish I really meant it but I want you to be happy even if I’m not the one to do that. Sorry I had to be the one to hurt you, I was usually the one to get hurt and now the one thing I had loved I had hurt… Wish you the best, will always love you for who you are and I will always be thankful for being there. Sorry I couldn’t be… 😔
I remind that situation, when i got 2 breakdowns on the exam on history. I've got really worried, question was really hard. I stared to worry moe and more until i actually got a breakdown. Then after that, my classmates started to bully me and after that, i've got a 2nd breakdown. And when actually my brain was almost completely disabled, my other classmate came to me after an exam (it was last lesson) and we talked about this problem. She gave me some tips to avoid that sh@t. After that i've finally got to be a normal person. I'll never forget her... And she's the only classmate, that i can trust anything. I've even helping her with homework almost every day. Being that nice in a class, filled with bullies is really rare. God bless her and save her, if something dangerous will affect to her. I'll return my help back. And yeah, she had lots of problems too, just like me. She has many heart problems and she's really vulnerable to heart cancer (pls don't do this) and i have massive problems with my nerves and psycho system. If i am angry, i can kill someone. So that's why i need to stay calm. If you want to know her name, her name is Angelina. Now we are very addicted to each other, just like friendship. And when my cat died, she also felt that pain like me. True friends with many problems. I am moving to 8th grade and i hope to be next to each other to be calm. I've had this, but we both got scared of each other, so we didn't talked to each other. But i also helped her, when she had headache (it's active, when she's scared of our class). I've even risked my life to an real death in school, because when i wanted to help her, my blood was starting to be more painful, because my blood oxygen was at 82% (critical amount to death). Now after that pain and suffering that we went, can we be next to each other in 8th grade. I hope it can be real. Love her as a friend, and i hope she'll be good :)
This is a healthy reminder to everyone who reads this. No one has it all together. It's easy to think that there's a right way to live life, but there isn't. The best that any of us can do is try. Keep trying even when you don't know what to do. Loss hurts, and everyone loses once in a while. Pick yourself when you fall, please...
0:10 i think a piece of me will always love you. i miss our friendship, i miss us staying up all night and just talking while you smoked your marlboros. getting drunk with you and making out for hours. songs i abandoned because they remind me of us. i don’t know if you still think of me or if your happy with someone else. but i don’t think i’ll ever completely get over you. and i tried i swear i tried. you were the best guy i’ve ever known and i truly love you marca. ❤
He said he didn't love me anymore. We had each other for an entire year. He said it wasn't my fault, but that depression made him unable to love anyone. It broke me. I miss him so much.
The spiral down has been intense. So very much has happened in just four months.. I lost her after 4 years together, countless nights spent together, consoling and helping each other almost daily - parents divorcing loomed on the horizon days after she left, and now with the legal troubles and messinesss of all that looming - and now the group of friends I'd had since middle school are shattered apart and at each other's throats. This is the first cry I've had in a long time - and it's agonizing.. but intensely cathartic. It might finally be time to start healing again - some how, some way.
Before I had a girlfriend I would cry over getting friend zoned or being ignored or just bad communication. During freshman year was one the most depressing and lonely years I’ve ever had, there’s no amount of pain that could bring me back there, I was incredibly suicidal and quiet so nobody had an idea I would tell myself no one cares about me…as if I were to die right now no one would notice. A long time after I realized that people do care and it’s just hard for some people to tell you that if they truly do! I had a cousin that was around 21 develop a heartbreaking disease, but I never realized how much I cared about how kind and loving she was to everyone she met. I only realized after she passed, after my grandpa passed. I have been able to find comfort through God and music by “surfaces” very uplifting and just…helps me feel like I can be loved, be cared for, be treated with respect and kindness. If any of you are out there feeling alone, it’s hard to not be selfish on yourself, it makes you feel like no one else has ever experienced such a feeling. But there are millions of people around the world going through phases, trials, heartbreaks, grief, depression, and suicidal thoughts. Right now as you are reading this. Another thing is that people hate me for being quiet and not social, I’ve never been but never knew why? I guess I just realized that people hurt, people can heal, people can kill other people, people are weird, strange, and confusing? What I’m saying is that the world is cruel there might never be peace on this planet. But I guess we just have to push through, it’s not easy and no one should ever say it’s easy, it’s not and they need to realize that. Some people never realize that and can never relate to other people feeling like how YOU feel, reading this comment, I truly wish this pain could go away. No one knows how I feel…ever. I push it down day by day until I break…let it out. Then it just comes back to haunt my heart. I’ve always hidden my emotions and thoughts but whenever I let them know it’s almost ignored every time. I have a friend who is my best friend. I know he’s depressed and suicidal, he hides it every day, I want to talk to him about it, he gets ghosted by every girl he talks to, he doesn’t go on any dates even if he try’s. I’ve been trying to get a girl to go out with him but I just know he’ll get his heart broken once again. I pray for all of you and hope you find some kind of relief, peace, and purpose ❤ Hard times will never end so we must fight it, a constant battle. Please. Please win❤ I want you to win. Don’t let it defeat you, battle, and battle every day, never give up, and never, never let suicide win, never let depression win❤ All love from your friend, your partner, your guiding light, your past and present, your YOU, love from YOU ❤
She has been the only person that didn’t make me feel so alone and I can’t be with her because I’m dying. I wish I could keep making her smile for an eternity more. Her laugh brings a smile to my face no matter how bad times are, her eyes are like amber pools reflecting a shimmering world that should have been, her spirit has a quality of strength I could only dream of attaining. Please take care of her when I can’t.
Currently 4:32 AM. Got stood up for 3 days straight now. Can't stop thinking about her either. She means everything to me but always treats me horrible.. but something about her, always draws me back in. Why does she have to make me love her? Just when I'm about to get over her, she comes back into my life again. I wish I would be enough for someone to truly love. I hate being alone.
I had a crush in school a few months ago but semesters changed and I haven't seen her since. I still think about her and I've gotten to the point where it feels like I'm being pulled in two different directions, one is "move on, you'll find someone else" and the other is "keep reminiscing about her" To anyone reading this little rant thanks for taking the time to do so, these thoughts have been bottled up in my head and this is one of the only times I've talked about it
tbh, im not really thinking about someone. I realized, I overthink a lot about myself the most and especially about the past, which ruins my mental health
I appreciate how positive this comment section is. Right when I thought it was over for humanity, seeing how judgmental and negative society is, I am starting to see a glimpse of hope. Maybe it’s not over for us..?
Currently 4:08 am, 20 yrs old, work a very tiring and stressful job, all my friends seems to have slowly withered away, my girlfriend of 14 months is still with me and were still happy, but the constant thinking about her and the fact that I havent seen her in about a month has all my wires mixed up. I cant do nothing but think about her and only her. My trust in people has also slowly faded away and its got me in a sort of “limbo mode”. I cant help but lie im bed starting into the darkness with nothing on my mind except her.. i miss her dearly and would give anything just to see her face again. Whatever your struggles are, you’re stronger than them and I believe you can get up again and keep on fighting.
It’s 2:40 I can’t sleep, I kept thinking about all the bad thing that I did in my life and all my regrets. I wish I can go back in time and fix everything in life but I can’t. The only thing I can do is accept it, move on and keep going. But I still failing, over and over again, sometimes I can do everything so well and just a god damn day ruins everything and I fall and start from the beginning. I hate that feeling so much, made me feel like everything I did isn’t worth it. I’m conscientious when I’m doing wrong but I still do it, and I hate when I still awake in the morning cause thats the time when everything gets ruined by myself, and I regret all the things in live that don’t let me sleep.
Hi, using this as backround for my cramming session at 2:53 AM, dunno but these types of audio allows me to concentrate and sets aside my struggles as of the time being. To anyone who's reading this I'm hoping....we're hoping that maybe time will come where we conquer all our struggles. keep fighting
Even though I know I'll never have the courage to just end it, the thought runs in my head when I get time to think. I hate that I need to convince myself to keep pushing when I can easily tell others they need to keep pushing when they struggle. Words are so hard, But the moments are always worse. Sometimes I wonder what will happen when I can no longer convince myself.
i know it’s out of topic and i don’t know what you gonna gain from this but while listening to this two of my old friends texted me asking about me and making sure i am ok while the close people around me right now they don’t even care and they don’t ask about me even though i am around them 24/7 so i want you to know distance and quality time doesn’t mean the amount of love someone have to you and how much they care about you
It's 2:30 a.m. right now, and I'm thinking about what I'm going to do, about tomorrow's exam, about all the effort I have made, and about her eventually.
it’s 2:03 am and we just broke up 7 hours ago. i have absolutely no idea what to do now. he is all i can think about. what about the future we planned or the plans we had this month. no contact is actually really hard.
I felt that way too!!! For the first few weeks. Then it simmers out you know? You realise your friends are there, have always been there. You'll lean on them. You'll continue your hobbies, play whatever sports you may, watch shows and eventually it'll all be a fleeing memory. Seen as I'm pretty late to this chances are most of this is already happening or has happened! Isn't it sweet.
It’s 2:19 right now and i’m so glad this showed up for a break. I just got dumped for a really dumb reason i couldn’t control. this is helping me think about the simple things and everyone else that i have. Thank you for this moment.
You saw the red flags and you knew better. But she was so pretty, so kind and caring. She did for you what you had always done for others. She was beautifully damaged and broken. You tried to love her, to show her she wasn't stupid, fat or anything all the other people in her life told her she was. But you just weren't enough. Now you need to walk away, for good this time. Love and respect yourself enough to KNOW that you deserve better. Even though you still love her, it's what you need to do.
Finally, some music for my crippling existential dread :) In all seriousness though, it is 1AM and I've been in a state of crushing anxiety for three days straight just thinking about those people I once knew.
I can never let anyone close, yet everyone tells me how close they are to me, I'm everyones safe space except for myself...then my father used to be my safe space but life has changed, i feel more like burden to him than ever despite his praise to me...i dont know i cant tell people how lonely i feel, how unseen i feel, there are so many people who love me but i can never understand why, like why do i matter? Im still never good enough, people i look up to tell me they look up to me and i cannot fathom it. I wish i saw what they saw. I wish i was enough for myself. I wish u could say i felt seen. I wish i could let people see me. Thank you for this video, it helps me feel.
I originally had a long drawn out comment about advice. I'll admit I was projecting hard cause you remind me of me, but I know most people come here to vent and that's probably not what you want to hear. So I'll keep it short. Talk to someone. One day, everything you bottle up inside is gonna come pouring out whether you like it or not, so you might as well be in control of when that dam bursts. Don't wait; talk to someone. Even if it's scary.
@@johnhagler20 Hello! Im doing better thank you, and I slowly have been talking to people more about my mental health, i do have a therapist, i had them even when I commented this I was just not too close with them at the moment. Now we understand each other more and shes a really nice woman who is helping me through it. I still feel the way I did back then but I feel like I can put it into better words now. Ever since I was young I was conditioned by an abusive family member that love was conditional. If i didn't give my all than it meant nothing and I always had to make that family member look good. Through talking with my therapist I've learned this was never true, love is deeper and more meaningful than what you can give. We recognized that a main reason I wouldn't feel close to people was because I have a specific love language and it wasn't being met very often. Since then I've been working on telling people how I feel and how I'd personally like to be appreciated and those lovely understanding people in my life have since took that into consideration and have been making efforts to show me that type of appreciation. Its the small little ways they show it that make me feel like the world has stopped spinning and in that moment I'm being cared for. It's actually a freaky feeling just because I've never felt it before. Thank you so much for going out of your way to comment on this, it means a lot that you saw something in me that you recognized, helps me realize I'm not alone. Please take care of yourself kind stranger
This is me with my Great grandma she died last year and I felt like I never cared enough just always had my face on a screen like my Nintendo Switch and I never really payed attention to her as much as I was supposed to I was a blinded asshole and I never knew it until it was too late I stood strong at here funeral on the inside but in the outside I broken beyond repair and I feel ever sorry for not giving her enough love. This is what laziness and sloth can do to you make you miss opportunities in life that could be very important so please if your reading this go hang out with your family and friends it doesn’t matter who it is just give them attention and make them think they mean something to you cause you’ll never know when you won’t get an opportunity like that ever again RIP Grammy Shirley Watson fly high with pappy bill 😢
My grea tgrand mother passed a year ago. My sister and I visited her for two weeks when I was 8. I was a little kid though and was bored and sometimes a brat and took it for granted. Found out she passed. Wasn't able to go to her funeral because she was living In Mississippi while I'm all the way up in New Hampshire. I understand. I like to light a candle near her heirlooms to honor her.
2:40 am for me. All i want is for her to see me and love me unconditionally. But the more i just scroll my days away on my phone the more I realize that the people you love sometimes will never love you the way you love them. I hate that I know she’s not for me when all I want is her. Every minute she at least pops in my head once and its almost sickening. To whoever is still reading this, work on yourself, love yourself, as if you cannot love yourself you cannot love others. Its a long process, trust me im still tryna build my way out of this gutter. But the more you can look yourself in the mirror and say “I love myself, I look good, I am proud of who I am”, the more attractive you will be to others. C’est la vie
No negativity, no sadness, no depression, just straight vibing happiness, i hope everyone who reads this will have a wonderful day, life is so amazing if you let it be.
Riiiihght
Hope u doing good 🫶
My first thought was to say something in my anger about someone who had wronged me. Your "vibing happiness" has the effect of disarming and hugging me, so I just gave in to peace, I accept this calm and love. Much respect to you.
Got rejected so life ain't peeking atm
@@toxyzrblx4246plenty more fish in the sea as people say. I know how it hurts though, and I know it will fade away soon. Just try to let it go, that's the best you can do
To anyone reading this, your a good person. You are worth so much. You’ll be okay.
i love you
liar
It's "you're" and thank you.
@@randombro7397 no lie
what about the girl who traumatized me in multiple different ways
I love how the names of these videos are like super sad and I'm here with my insomniac ass trying to sleep at 5:27 am
Read your comment and looked at the time its 5:24am for me right now...and same except I'm thinking about her...
Fr.
4:55am for me
Holy crap it's like 5:27am while I'm reading this and I'm trying to sleep haha
IT LITERALLY TURNED 5:28 AM WHEN I READ THE LAST PART😭
It’s about 1:34 am. I’m currently in the thick of my recovery from addiction. Almost 90 days clean and I feel like 90 minutes clean. It’s so hard somedays and I’ve been struggling to feel like I belong anywhere. I feel like my memories aren’t mine and I’m watching life like it’s a movie. I’m always on the verge of tears and have a dry lump in my throat. I’m a long way from home and I just miss my family even though I feel like a stranger around them.
If you are struggling in your sobriety or still suffering from addiction, I’m praying for you. One day at a time, beautiful 💕
❤❤
You’re doing amazing. I’m so proud of you
You got this, each day counts and you're a winner for that.
this is great progress! you are doing great, don't give up, i believe that everything will be fine with you!
if you have a hard time and want to talk, we can contact on another platform
We share the same sentiment. You got this.
I’m surrounded by people yet never felt so lonely
I know that feeling. I promise better times will come
I know that feeling. I promise better times will come
Relatable 😅
Hang in there my friend
Relatable man I could be with someone a friend, family and still feel alone
Currently 2:37 AM, my girlfriend cut herself and has now forgotten who I am. We are still together dont worry but she doesnt remember who I am. Its like she just randomly got dementia and forgot who I am. Im sitting on call with her while she is sleeping and im busy sitting here wondering if she will even remember my face when I go to see her tomorrow. I pray to Jesus and ask for him to touch her and not just her, every one of you guys struggling. I thank the Lord for my life and I hope that she will remember me tomorrow. I will keep you all updated.
I will be waiting for an update, giving you and your girlfriend courage to keep going and live the best life you can have 🤍
We are waiting for you bro
How'd it go?
We're here for you bro
Howd go man
Folks, keep your head up. We got this. Alone or with someone, we can go through anything. Love to ya'll
im going to add your line to my vigilante story i am writing
Thanks stranger, i love u too, hope u doing well ❤️🩹
@@Lyraaaaw life's been tough but I know sister can't give up btw love from 🇵🇰❤️
I’ve been leading a lonesome life for a long time. It’s getting harder to keep going without meaning, especially without someone to share experiences with.
But I’ll stick around, the other side can wait.
We try my bro.. we try ❤️
im happy i see no negativity in these videos comments, just people exsisting along eachother...no fights...no hostility...just peace
2:21 am. Spending summer alone. No friends to visit, no girlfriend to call, and I'm stuck here thinking about her. Her smile, her laugh, and just the way she's always positive. I hate every moment i think about her, because i hate the loneliness that accompanies it.
Thanks to everyone who are also sharing experiences. Just the fact that anyone is willing to do so at all is now restoring my faith in humanity.
Edit: def didn't expect 1k likes y'all... Thanks for the support!
Try to remember you're not alone. I'm in very similar situation, we will get through this. There's plenty of chances with other girls but only one chance to live your best life. Keep your head up, you got this.
2:05 am- I feel u bro. I’ve been rejected by 8 different people this summer and lost 4 friends, and he’s just lingering in my mind and idk what to do abt it, cuz he’s been my friend for so long.
shut up you are not the main character
@@lufcc neither r u lmaooooo
@@lufcc I like how you're willing to write to this particular comment. Good luck doing it to each and every other comment, my guy. 😂
I lay in my bed at 11:57 PM, it has been 38 days since my only friend who I have lived with for my whole life was put down to stop her pain, I miss her dearly, I have told no one of her passing, the only people who know are close family, I didn’t need the veterinarian to check her heartbeat to know she was gone, I saw her eyes dilate and I knew she was gone. I feel like part of me went with her that night, I feel like a husk, a shell of my former self. I doubt anyone here will notice this comment, or care of my existence, I just wanted to make my peace somewhere. I miss you Ginger, and I hope we meet again some way or another.
God bless Ginger 💙
Ginger lives on in your heart
The worst thing that could happen, i mean i sit here thinking about my breakup, but in reality death is the only thing we can't fix, and it hurts, i never experienced it, but i can understand to some extent. I hope you find peace, and if you need a friend to talk to, we are here.
she's watching on. count every little miracle and thank her, she might be putting in a good word for you in the afterlife ❤❤
rest easy
I love these videos because there is nothing but love in the comments. What humanity should be to each other online
I agree. It’s weird, feeling like I can open up to total strangers online, but it feels so safe Yknow? The best side of the internet I’ve seen
@Greg2ThEMAX yes I also agree. Loving the comment page. Where people feel the same and can vibe.
Not all the time, sadly. Bitter and hateful people like to come to these videos just to dump on the people opening up by saying things like “no one cares” when it’s really only they who don’t care.
Surprised humanity’s toxic hatred of itself hasn’t poisoned this planet beyond repair, yet. :/
I hope you all are taking care of yourselves and life isn’t trying to keep you on the ground. ❤
I always tell myself that being alone was fine, it gave you the comfort of having that privacy and getting away from all the noise of life.
Then you go out and see a family with their children playing, a couple holding hands and sharing love for each other, even a group of friends just basically messing with each other. And then you start to realise, maybe being alone is just.... Not for you.
And your never alone the Lord is with you through all your struggles calling for you to come to him
He will lead down a path of light and happiness trust in him and you shall not perish but have eternal life give your life to him and you will live with him forever he will supply you with all you need according to what you need just give him a chance and see how you turn out
@@devinbennett5500yknow, usually I hate comments like yours, but I'll hear yall out this once.
How? What am I supposed to do? Just pray? Will that suddenly make life feel like it has meaning? Will that suddenly make me feel happy, even though it's not something I honestly believe? Please do tell me, genuinely, how god can save me.
@Foxi_Boio
Honestly? Just cry out to Jesus and you let him take your burdens, your pain your suffering. Talk to Him as if He was right there with you in the room. Is it a little silly? Maybe, idk. Will it suddenly make everything better? Probably not, at least not right away maybe, but it gives meaning to life. Knowing there’s someone who watches out for you and sees your pain, helps me not to feel so alone. Just knowing that Christ Suffered and took that pain that shame that guilt and whatever else; died for all just to have a new life, it makes me feel and it fills that empty void inside. I still struggle, but I feel like I have a purpose and that I should keep going. And if you do feel like you want to be saved, just believe that Christ is your savior, that he died on the cross for your sins and you will have eternal life. I don’t know if I helped at all, there’s so many other people that can explain it way better than I ever could but I’ll pray for you, that you could feel Gods love and I hope you find the answer you’re searching for.
@ no build a relationship which does include praying
Bro how am i still not over it after more than 6 years
and that’s okay… it takes time and there’s no right amount of it. things will work out for you, i promise. ❤️🩹
Same, dude, this is so strange
Bro it seems like the ones longer ago affect me the most… I was so young back then I didn’t know what I was doing
I feel you mad it's been 8 years now, I have a wife and beautiful daughter now. It kills me inside though that I will still get stuck awake at night thinking about her.
And you will never be over it you have to learn how to live with it . STAY STRONG
It's 1:30 AM rn, and since everyone is sharing their stories here, I'd also like to say a few words. I'm a cancer survivor. When I was 7 yo, I was diagnosed with lymphoma at third stage, and struggled for a year after that. I can never forget the pain, but the most heartbreaking thing was seeing my mother's tears. Now I'm a freshman at the university and yet again having health issues. My mental state has not been very well lately, and I'm having big trouble breathing. So for anyone who is still reading, that's what I'm gonna tell you.
Every second of your life is priceless, because you don't know when everything is going to stop. Today you are having a wonderful time, and tomorrow you cough blood. So don't waste your time, come up to your loved ones and tell them how much you appreciate them.
And don't forget that you are important, your life is valuable and the last thing you should do in life is giving up.
I love you all, and if that's going to be my last message online, I'll just tell y'all you are awesome❤
Updated: thank you all for kind words, I hope that everything in your life is going to be awesome and whatever problems you have will vanish❤️
that made me cry 😭
Hope you beat all the odds again man, rooting for you.
Chills ran down my spine and got goosebumps after reading your comment. It really was a good slap to the face. Thank you. You have my utmost respect and know that I look up to people like you who have this kind of strength and mentality. Hats off to you
Good luck and May you live to send more pozitívne emotions to people
I love you ❤️
Its 12:08 and i cannot sleep because of thoughts. However just want to send a prayer for bot only myself, but all the people in the comments who are struggling. God is with you, and you will make it through. Amen and goodnight ❤
It's dark and cold in my room. I sit on my bed and stare at the open window, letting me feel the wind. Being the only house in miles, it is silent outside. I can hear the ocean, waves crashing onto the shore.
My thoughts are empty. I feel my chest going up and down. I close my eyes, taking in the smell of outside that the wind brings in, fresh and cold. There is so much in me fighting, so much pain, but right at this moment I am at peace. It might just be for a few minutes, but I take them in and hope it would last forever. Like the waves must crash at the shore, I have to come back to reality, but let us stay here a few more minutes, stranger ❤
Pain isn't always bad. Sacrifice is needed. There is no such thing as an easy life. If it's too easy, it means either you aren't trying enough or you just don't have something or someone you care about enough. Sometimes you just need to do it for yourself. Enjoy good moments, fight the bad. Live.
God is our true Creator, He created all the things we know in the present and He still creates wonders in the present, He who watches us from above, He who is the Only One who can save us from the pits of hell will remain in us and will love even the evil ones that are cussing His Perfect Being, because there is time to change our paths and He loves us because we have the power in us we need to bow before Him before it is too late for us He is Jesus Christ who will risks all the other sheeps only to save one and will go throughout every single place to find the lost one, even in the darkest of places because He knows that God is with Him and when God is with Him Our Savior can do unimaginable things and impossible things are as easy to overcome for Him as breathing air, because Our Savior is with Our Father that is in the Heavens So this is the time to change, if we don't take action in the present, our future is doomed and there is always time to change until there isn't and that my friend, brother, stranger, whatever you want me to call you will be your last time on this planet we call Earth, who was created by the Only God we need to trust and who we need to love with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength remember to turn to Him and to be with Him because i was evil in the past and did sin all day, my punishment for that was my anger, not controlling my actions and after Jesus Christ opened my eyes I started to see the truth, I was reborned, feeling more greater than ever before cause I could feel the Holy Spirit entering in me at that point, all the earthly things were pointless at the time when Jesus Christ was with me and guided me to the immortality that is in the Heavens. So repent, repent that your sins may be forgiven because God forgives all if we speak with Him, not to Him, to forgive us because we are nothing in the face of our God and we are nothing withouth Our Lord, in the name of Jesus Christ i will pray for you because He can do wonders, He can do the impossible and only He, remember that Only He can show us the way, can exterminate our temptations and deliver us from evil : for thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
@tamyakatamy the darker the sky the brighter the stars shine, pain is part of the process, just gotta push through
Writing some fan fic?
@@jam92esidk and idc just don’t spread hate
It's currently 2:43 am on July 4th alone. this made me think about her, memorize all the happiest things we did together, my life has been downhill since our breakup, i was hospitalized, doxxed, harrassed, and mentally losing it, but im better now, i miss her alot, i want her back but.
then again that's how life is, people come and go and you gotta accept the fact that it happens.
Are you from Washington state?
@@GiuliaBuzzoni-hg1zg no
I've read your comment exactly at 2:43 but today.
Stay strong. If I've learned anything during my soon 33 years here, it's that we can survive so much more than we think we can.
We've been almost 10 years together. She left me 2 weeks before our anniversary. Still cant grasp it what happend after 4 months. Theres universe full of stars and we are just a grain of sand in the sea. This music is so zen and calm.. We will heal
@@marlboro9tibike ive been with my ex for a few years, we ended things on valentines of this year, everything went downhill after, i got hospitalized, doxxed and been groomed me and the list continues, this all happened within 5 months, i can agree with the music, enjoying as i heal from the traumatic past
It's almost 1 am and I sitting alone in my bed staring at the window. No GF or Friends to think about. Just thinking all night how to make my father proud and make my life better. It's sad but not hopeless, I'll try to make my life better by working hard everyday.
Reading through the comments I realised that their are many people like me who thinks the same and struggling in life but still holdin in, trying their best to accomplish what they want. I Hope that anyone who is struggling to keep on moving forward.
And to you the same my friend... We walk this earth in strength. Never forget who and what you fight for. Passion will always drive you. For when you see this comment, I want you to remember the phrase that I say, "Carpe Diem" seize this day, make. it. yours. ❤️
i'm in a similar position and writing down daily goals helps a lot. don't be too ambitious, even being able to check 1 or 2 boxes a day means so much to me some days. best of luck to you in your journey dude
Remember that eventually, someone will love you
I need an update
12:40. I hate grief more than death. Kid at my school killed himself in September, someone on the football team. So many people showed up to his memorial…myself included, though I didn’t even know he existed. So many who cared for him spoke, left flowers, cried. Kid was a junior, sixteen years old. One girl was mad. She tried to keep herself composed and did a good job, but she said what everyone was thinking. you’re all here now. Where were you when he needed you? I knew he was struggling. I tried to help him. Why didn’t you? Why couldn’t you see? Why didn’t you at least try? its 12:44 now. Fly high, K.
People tend to say things and cry when it's already too late. And you are completely right. Where were they when someone needed them..?
For all the people reading this and doubting, or already doubting themselves too much, know that you are a good person. You have the right to be angry, sad, stressed, and it doesn't make you a bad person for not being able to properly express these emotions.Your sensitivity and impulsiveness make you human and you are a good person, with a pure heart.You deserve to be loved, take care of yourself.
Bro your message brought me to tears because I have felt that way too many times to count
Wish it was true.
@@bradleybursch4834 Take care of yourself, I hope that whatever is causing you pain will subside so that you can be happy
@@RyuSH6578 I'm sure it's true
@@manonaimoz6604 thank you man you don’t understand how much that means to me
The fact it’s 2am and I’m thinking about him, and this was at the top of my TH-cam
hey
we’re in it together. thinking of him and thinking of her respectively. but we’re the same here, so… even if we’re suffering. please take comfort in the knowledge that i am suffering with you. please let me be your weapon arm, so that i may ease your woes if not for a fleeting moment. we are okay
it's a bad bad feeling
Same dude, hope you're okay
“The sunset sure is beautiful isn’t it?”
3am, I confronted her about my feelings for her today and got rejected. Life isnt peeking but hopefully there will be light later on in life
I am very grateful to the TH-cam algorithm for recommending this video. At 2 o'clock I couldn't control my tears. I don't know why I wanted to cry so much.
Its currently 1:53 for me. Today I celebrated christmas with my Family. We had a great time and I've got some nice things from them. I might only have one true friend and no girlfriend, but im happy, for now. I wish everyone who is reading this a great day/night
You will never see this, but I love you. Your life means everything to me. If you ever see this, you know who you are, I love you, and I always have cared.
...thank you so much, buddy...I feel so lonely these past few months, I was really needing that...🧡
Thank you ❤
I love you too❤
A real legend ❤
stop lying.
people are my everything. they’re the reason i’m alive. sometimes, they’re also the reason i don’t want to be. i have this problem where i’ll isolate and read way too far into the people i care about the most. i convince myself they hate me. it’s not true, i know, but i can’t shake the feeling. i’m at a really bad time in my life right now where i don’t leave my house often. i hole up, sleep for over half the day, lay in bed for hours when i wake up, and check my phone. it’s a draining cycle that i repeat over and over again. my thoughts when awake and dreams when asleep revolve around people. i just wish it was in a good way.
See if u can try and make urself the focus of ur life. I feel like u too and get lost in other people but it always comes back to u. Keep thuggin
I'm actually doing the same thing but because it's my holidays and I just want to chill alone. My solution for going out is just doing things that I like, with Friends or alone, but thinking only about what I do when i'm outside. I started skateboarding a few weeks ago and going out, thinking only about my board, the bowl and the noise of me going down the street helps me to reconnect with myself. If you don't know what you do, just try everything you see on internet that looks fun or cool if you can, it may take some time but you're gonna find something that you really like. Friends will be Always here for you cause they're you're Friends, but they're humans too, and they need to live their own life. Your hobby will Always exist for you, everytime you need it.
Man do I feel this. I’ve been at a point for years where my dreams have almost become a toxic dependency for meaningful connection, and at first I felt meaning, if it actually was meaning. The more time has gone on the more I’m convinced reality is really where meaning can be created and felt, the people involved and the environments I’m involved with everyday. Dreams will soon feel obsolete and I wonder what my dreams will be like when I truly accept that for what it is.
It's currently 2:14am. I found this video just a few minutes after my now ex girlfriend said that we'll never get back together. Just a few days ago she broke up with me, and just now she said that we will never be together again. It only hurts so much because we both still love eachother an awful lot, but she's right to not put up with my idiocy and with me in general. I spent 5 years caring for her, and now, it's gone, just like that.
I haven't told anyone because I don't want to burden my friends and family with my problems, and what's of my cause.
She meant everything to me, I'm so empty now; I'm struggling to find any joy in anything in life.
I'm now void, I now have no one who truly cares about me, nor anyone that I truly care about. I have no connections of love towards anyone, and none towards me. I thought I found the one, but now I have...nothing: just pain and regret.
I'm sorry for you, hope you Can pass through this one day. I think you should talk about this to your friends, they're here for you and, even if I don't know you, I know you deserve better than struggling alone with your pain. And remember, me, all the others that are going to comment below you and all the good face of internet loves you, support you and care about you mate.
I know how you feel. I also had the most amazing girlfriend once. She was beautiful, smart, cute laugh and so much more and i messe it up so many times. She had the heart to forgive me the first time but the second time i crushed it to much. This happend about 6 years ago and i stille sometimes think about it and it breaks my heart. But in the end she found the right one and got married last year. Happy for her and her New husband. Things will get better, it just takes some time. Remeber to talk to someone about it, keeping it in made it worse for me. I wish i had told someone about what happend back then. Much love to you my friend!
i feel you man, the exact same thing happened to me abt 2 months ago, im a broken man, i feel nothing, no joy, surrounded by people but more alone than ive ever been, missing her so fucking much every second of the day, idk where to go in life or what to do, the absolute love of my life, my dream person, gone because of my own stupidity
Jesus cares man.
You guys alright man ? Going thru the same thing, been 2 months since I left her house & it just keeps getting worse day by day
Last night I had a dream I was reunited with my best friend who I completely lost contact with, everything was completely normal until I started slowly waking up. I remember her starting tonwalk away and I begged her, "Please, at least stay for even 2 seconds!" I hugged her, and as I woke up she faded away in my arms. I cried :)
I'm so sorry.. People come and people go, but when someone leaves it means that God removed them for a reason and someone better will come into your life. I hope that more oppurtunities come into your life. Just know that you're amazing and a good person.
I hate that I have dreams like this. Sometimes, it's even worse with me having friends and all of us having the same interests and everything. But then i wake up more lonely than ever
@@emmasasaki7542that so… then why did my ex leave me in October for someone else she met at work… two months on, doesn’t get easier, knowing she’s had OUR moments with someone else but when everyone said “she’s not good for you”, I should have listened to my gut and walked…. Sad thing is she lives maybe 15 mins away by car, just happened to find someone closer than me…. She will one day see leaving was a mistake….
Morning.
Знаю, что тут нет русских, но тоже хочу поделиться частичкой себя. Слушаю подобные видео каждый раз, когда чувствую себя одиноко или мои мысли не могут перестать быть страшными. Каждый раз музыка и звуки обловакивают в море спокойствия под каплями дождя... Становиться так хорошо...
Сейчас переживаю очень сложный период. Сбежала с собственной свадьбы, еду в другой город, чтобы осуществлять свою мечту. Скучаю по нему, но знаю, что не я сделаю его счастливым, а он не сделает счастливой меня.
Чтож... Идем дальше. Спасибо большое автору за эти видео. Благодаря им, я верю, что всё будет хорошо ❤
Всем всего наилучшего
Всё хорошо
Все будет хорошо, дорогая 🤗
Русские есть везде, и мы с радостью поддерживаем своих😊❤
Красотка, успехов тебе!
Удачи вам, сил и терпения!!♡
It's almost 5 am and I'm here, in my bed alone, again alone. It’s sad, hopeless, but I try to live with greater acceptance of all the crap that’s happening, and nights like these, in which I can relax and think about life, without the morning bustle - I love the night for such an atmosphere and pastime.
Reading the comments here you understand how many difficulties other people go through, but they still hold on and come here to tell, and just like me, spend the night with their thoughts listening to such playlists
Thinking about him. Did he survive from the storm inside his mind? I hope he's still alive and smile, and found new life. I hope when he said goodbye to me, he only said that to me and not the world. If you see this, i hope you live a happy life.
Thank you for sticking it out for him as long as you could. I can imagine that it got really hard at times like it did for my ex.
Don't feel bad for letting go of people who can't hold onto themselves. Whatever happened is out of your hands, that's a fact. It was his decision to not only let go but to leave you with the guilt that you could've done more, SHOULD'VE done more, fully knowing that you couldn't. It's selfish. It is unfair. Pick yourself up and MOVE ON.
"He never intended to!"
Intentions ≠ actions
If there’s someone I think about every night, it’s my old self. Born with autism and growing up in a society where being different is often met with discrimination, I endured relentless abuse from childhood through middle school. Ironically, things only changed when I entered high school which also a vocational art school. The bullying didn’t stop because people realized it was wrong. It stopped because they saw my autism as part of an “artistic persona.” What’s funny and exhausting is that no one in high school knew I was autistic until I told them. Every single time, they were surprised. They expected the stereotypical version of autism, but that wasn’t me. And that expectation from the stereotypes? It made me sick.
Back then, I fought both literally and figuratively to prove that I was just a human being like everyone else. I fought to be seen, to be respected, and to be understood. And after so many years, i did it, I won that war. I proved my worth. But now? Now, my life feels empty.
I’m almost halfway to 24 now, and it feels like the fire I once had is gone. When I was younger, I had a reason to fight, a reason to keep pushing forward. But now? I don’t know. I achieved the one thing I’d always wanted, to be recognized as a person, not just a label. But what’s next? I need to find a new purpose.
I remember something one of my college teachers told me: “Life is a constant war. When one struggle ends, it doesn’t mean the fight is over. The victory is sweet, but it won’t last long, and soon you’ll move to another battlefield, whether you like it or not.”
Looking back, I finally understand what they meant. Is this my new battlefield? Finding a new purpose?
To be honest, I envy my younger self, the version of me who had something to fight for. Now, I don’t know what I’m fighting for or even who my enemy is. Is it the world again? My life? Myself? I’m up against something I can’t see, and it’s terrifying. But even so, I’m trying. I’m doing my best to build a new torch. I don’t know what it’ll look like yet, but it’s better than sitting in the dark with suicidal thoughts.
Just keep up and continue your Life you don’t need to search your war , you war will come at you at any moment
Years ago I went through this stage in my life were I was searching desperately for meaning so i know how very empty it must feel. During the time, I was stuck between several things I wanted to pursue but I realized no matter how outlandish I twisted them and made them look in my head I couldn't see myself deriving joy from any of those things in the long run.
Eventually I decided to drop everything and trust my feelings I gave sometime to myself to actually listen, to listen to what I really wanted and suddenly I found it.
I think the problem you're having is that you have unintentionally boxed yourself in this ideal state of which you described above, the state with which you have bean accepted, and somehow maybe unconsciously you are afraid to move out of this state to explore your other interests. I want to tell you to trust yourself and give yourself the chance to feel again and settle for that meaning you've been searching for without the fear of being mislabeled, Cause you owe it to yourself.
I feel like I would be reading myself because I had almost the exact life.
And yes, finding a new purpose and view of life will be something you will learn through life. But this time, your purpose doesn't have to be done motivated by hatred, but by love.
When I was younger (I am 24, too) everyone critized me for being a smart-geek (even my family, they saw me as Sheldon Cooper) and it was sad to feel.
When I became an adult, based on all the books I had read, I set up a business with my knowledge in languages (to get more customers), psychology (to treat people) and philosophy (to understand others and myself). Now they respect me, and I am still finding my new purpose motivated by love, not hatred anymore...
Good luck 😊❤ In wish you the best!
This comment feels like home. I'm born with autism as well. I couldn't be more grateful to be around humans. At what cost is to be grateful, myself. I don't expect recognition, return of love, the way I treated humans more than family, but creatures that breathe like home and not toxicity. Autism is a apocalyptic, no one understands until they are born with the exact agony genetics we go through. I expect attentions all the time from random strangers because I want help, but nothing is preceived the same when I see it, realizing girls never liked me during my middle-school and high-school years, and the different outcomes for different boys is always lucky for them. The times when I needed someone to talk to, and be comforted by someone, it always ends up myself being forgettable, dumb, and slow.
Whatever you're going through. Just to let you know, this comment feels like my house.
Can't seem to forget him, it all seemed so genuine.
going through something similar.. I don’t understand it
right? its so confusing, you don't know what to do, u want to deny your ending of the relationship, you want to bawl your eyes but you can't because he hurt you so much.
@@coope-3537it'll make sense one day, have faith. 💕
@@ssxnityy. i set up a day to talk with him.. i really want to listen and forgive him but i dont know if i should
@@coope-3537 do you want to go back to him? do you still love him?? do you even know if he loves you back?
I find some joy reading through these comments and for once feeling im truly not alone and there are others who feel the same
I suddenly thought of a childhood friend. She suddenly moved away and I have no idea where she ended up. She might’ve been kicked out of the country, or maybe her parents found a better job- I really don’t know. I just wonder how she’s doing now. I barely remember her face now. It’s weird how I almost only remember the bad times with her yet I feel immense affection for her to this day nonetheless. I hope to see her again one day
Well it happened to me i am a boy amd i was first class amd someone choked me hopefully a boy camed and helped me and i asked his name his name was same as my name i said "lets meet here another time" i still waiting for him🥲
Maybe the bad times brought you guys closer together
I feel your pain,my only true friend,I lost him BC I moved out,I still remember his lovely smile and all the good times we had,thinking about this just makes me tear up..
the fights are what make you closer, your bond is never to break. you will reunite one day, have faith. 💕
@@Thenightisbeautifulcrying about the past gives u hard times remembering it, but we have to move on. they are forever with you.
i have a world of family and friends by my side, i'm so incredibly privileged to have such a support group, and yet, i feel so very alone most of the time. nothing ever seems to go my way, and i don't know who i am sometimes. the one person who gets me is asleep next to me, the love of my life, and without them, i'd likely be well beyond my lowest right now. i'm grateful. i'm so damn lucky. i love you.
I'm sailing the opposite direction, friend. I cut my family off for being abusive, I'm living with a friend now across the U.S.. I'm getting over an ex now, too, who swears I did everything wrong by them despite that just flat out not being true, considering I wasn't the one gambling away vacation money to visit the other, I wasn't lying to keep them happy, and I wasn't the one threatening the other's life when I broke up with them. I don't know what's happening anymore, I don't know myself all of the time. All I have that I can't lose anymore is my moral compass, and no idea what a "man" is. My friend will be leaving for a Thanksgiving family meet and this'll be the first holiday where I'm completely alone. I miss having a family greatly, and frankly despite knowing the abuse was killing me, if I'd known how great the pain of being completely alone was, I'd have rather stayed in that abusive situation.
i miss her, we broke up today and its 2:08am i remember she was helping me get over someone and when i got over her i told her exactly "thank you i owe you one" i still remember and before we broke up i reminded her about the thing that i still owed her and she said "fine if this is the end then i want you to forget and move on from me" it hurts so much but its for the better because she's struggling with mental health problems as her relatives has recently passed. All those who are missing their special someone just know you'll get through it even though you'll think "damn should i text her?" or "when will i ever get a text from her?" dont worry you'll move on eventually.
She's always gonna remember you as the guy who left her at her lowest ;)
Or is it the other way around?
When her relatives died, she had to go through a messy breakup as well. Wonder how that's weighing on her conscious. Wonder if that weighs on yours
Either way why care about someone's mental health when you don't even know them anymore. Move on and forget. Honor her last request❤
Such a funny little thing, love…
Allow me, if you will, to share in my thoughts with like minded fellows, joined in brief grief.
I have dealt with such an experience previously, about two weeks ago or so… we had been seeing each other for about two months, and our affection for one another had blossomed so that the passion we shared burned with a joy I hadn’t known for many summers and winters… however, the strain of her academics, her unstable emotions and family pressure drove her to end our relationship, or at least that’s what she told me over messages, briefly before we finished speaking altogether. I was left wondering what I had done wrong, or what else could I have done to prevent this outcome, I considered finding the answer to my enigma in the middle of the concrete floor, for it to bash my skull in with a flood of clarity, but alas, my cowardice begged me not to, and I obliged.
Not long after, out of sheer curiosity, I took a small tour of her social media, only to find a mocking post about my body, my hands to be specific… someone who claimed to love me, cherish me, and that would never leave me now publicly exposed her misshapen former relationship. I was no stranger to such public ridicule, just not from someone I held so close to my heart.
Such a funny thing, love… we all believe we deserve it because of the innate fact of our humanity, of the small heart we have that is waiting for its better half. I’m left to wonder, inside this small lair of mine of thoughts and madness, if our collective belief in love, in connection, serves the same purpose as our belief in God does, to provide some sort of comfort of faith, during uncertain times where logic is nowhere to be found and the maniacs are running the asylum? How groundbreaking would it be to find out that, fated love is no more a matter of fact than the almighty above? The people would fall into panic, and there would be no shortness of lives cut short. I suppose that, for the sake of sanity, it is best to leave this conniving thought as it was born, alone and unbothered.
Karma, worth, faith, belief… I know now that they are as vital to our survival as is the very food we eat and the trees that gift us the air we breathe, and to disturb that knowledge, that status quo, would be to sink an already troubled world into a decaying pit of sorrow.
If you’ve read all this, you have my sympathies and thanks, any comment or opinion is welcome for discussion. May we all rest, and have no good deed be punished.
Love prevails man. Just look at all the other people who you love and love you. That's way more than one person could ever do for you.. from one stranger to another - I hope you will see the love in your life. ❤
@@igi108have you heard back man? pls tell me you have😕
@@I_AM_MONKEYY well, its complicated. so to begin with, I used to meet with her twice or once a week for 1.5 year, before that we had been friends. during summer we had a lot of free time so we saw each other almost every day. 26th of july when she was showing me sth on her phone, random number wrote sms to her saying "hi" , then i didn't see any more message from that number. she said that she has no idea who that was and i believed her, because she was loyal. for the next two days we haven't seen each other in order to make a little brake and did our own things, but we were texting like always. we made a plan to meet next day but she didn't text that day, so i thought she might have been tired or sth. so i began waiting, 4 days passed, i wrote to her and she replied after 10days later saying that she talks with me only because i want to talk. we started texting about all of that but she seemed to be emotionless. it looked like everything was going to be calm after we would get through it. she said that she was lacking her free time for her hobbys or whatever, but i wanted to be with her so i said that i would sit beside her and just be with her while she crochet or do sth else but she didn't want me to be then. it is important to know that we both are a little (a lot) autistic, and we are both introverted, she is more of avoidant person but im more like insecure one. after almost week of texting (there have been days without any chats) we finally met. it was really strange because we used to see each other every day and we felt really close, but 2 weeks was enough to make us feel like strangers (we still both felt the connection between us). after a while she started crying and moving away from me but i wanted to hug her l, for a moment she wanted to move away from me but then she came to me and we have been hugging for 15minutes or more standing. she was crying and saying that i should not comfort her because it is her who made a mistake and treated me horribly. rest of the day somehow worked out. next day we went together to her family living somewhere else. they saw me first time and i think they really liked me. we have been with her family for 4 days and it was nice. it seemed like all bad things ended and we can be happy once again. after these 4 days i had to leave but she said she would stay for 3 days more. she wasn't bored with her family but she spent around 3h watching TH-cam every day(i know bc i wanted her to show me her screen time because we are both trying to get rid of phone addiction), but she said she hadn't had time to talk with me(i knew that she was avoiding me). after 3 days without talking she was supposed to come back but she texted me near midnight that she would go with her grandma for weekend to lake. so i waited again 2 days. then she said that they(she and her family) are with her grandma's friend and she cant talk rn so she will text me next day late at night. so I waited and she didn't text anything. after a day i texted her asking if she is going to talk with me. she ignored me for a week. from the start of her strange actions it has been a month. i wrote another message saying that what she is doing only worsen our connection. i waited 3 days. we used to meet with scouts group nearby. i went there thinking maybe i could see her in here. of course she came there and she said hi to me. instantly after that she opened her Whatsapp and marked my messages as seen. then on that scout meeting she was acting like i wasn't there(no words were said to me). at the end i told her that i will go back home with car and she can go with me, but she in hurry said that she prefer public transport and left. that was 3 days ago. i thought that she might text me or sth but she didn't. after 1 day i asked her what is going on, but i still didn't get any text from her. i really appreciate that you read that, it means a lot for me in that hard time. maybe if you wanted i could give you my discord name
Hey, its 3:03 am rn. Just remember that life is beautiful. Whatever your struggle, you endured 5000x that before you were even born. You can and will do it. Please try for the love of god. It will get better. That girlfriend, great physique, or that promotion, it will all happen. Step out of your comfort zone. I currently weigh 170lbs at 13. I am trying, if i.can do it, you can too. Just remember, you fought for this opportunity, dont waste it.
Well said and definitely needed to hear‼️
Right..
That girlfriend rejected me today so life ain't all sunshines and rainbows atm
Yo bro i was 200 at 14 and now 150 at 16 i did it
@@devilstat1498 ay good job im tryna get somewhere like that too
It’s 2:50 AM, last week I graduated from my university and got me wondering; about my future and what does it mean to be an adult, to live life in a meaningful way, how can I reach that happiness of being throughout my personal challenges. I remembered all the people I met during this years, some came in and some left. I miss the good times I had with them but now I feel better with myself, I just wanted to say thanks.
Thanks to who stuck at my side, thanks to who keeps staying with me even tho I’m very far from the best.
I’ll be better, I hope for an happy future.
I’m sure the future will be great for you! But always remember to live in the present, because that’s the only way one can build a happy and successful future. You’ve got this ❤
God love you all guys, dont hide from Jesus presence, find peace leaving all your worries to Him
it’s not 2am for rn but it’s midnight so close enough. was just with my girlfriend, she headed out to go to sleep but i’m just sitting here now thinking about how lucky i am. i’m so lucky to have the life i have, a roof over my head, shoes on my feet, a phone im using to type this, a loving family, the girlfriend of my dreams. i’m so fucking grateful for my life. i thank the lord for giving it to me and letting me live it the way i wish to live it. i’m so happy, so lucky, and so grateful. if your ever feeling down, just look in the mirror and tell yourself “ im here for a reason”. if you feeling down just remember you were given this life for a reason, don’t waste it. and don’t end it yourself. life it to the fullest and always be grateful. that’s all i have, thanks for reading and i hoped i helped anyone. have a good day/goodnight, whoever you are, wherever you are.
Currently its 10:55:07 pm on Monday July 2024 if anyone is reading this slowly im loseing my self in this undoubtedly cruel world the more i give the more i lose my sense of giveing to those who may need and even then to end up stabbing me in the back using me for there own gain
Even if its true if anyone is reading this give lots of love to those you fully trust and cherish every moment and make sure you cant give more than you can receive
Got it. You make sure you stay safe out there, ya hear me?😊
You have Jesus he’ll never stab you in the back
its currently 12:44 AM, and this is one of many nights i've found myself thinking about her. she was my first love, and also my favorite love. maybe thats because i set her as the new standard. but how could i not? nobody else ever had, has, or will make me feel that way. i pray that she and i cross paths, or that she would reach out to me. but that hasn't happened.
“just move on bro” says all my friends. i cant just move on. she’s the only thing i want. without her in my life, my heart is cold, my mind is numb and my body is lifeless.
perhaps im just stupid. perhaps im just too in love. maybe a combination
all i know is two years is a long ass time to get over someone.
😢
This is exactly how I feel. You aren’t alone bro. Keep your head up you got this man. I hope things between you and her work out.
>She was my first love
>She was my favorite
How the hell can you pick favorites when she's literally first and only. By proxy that makes her favorite and also least favorite, best and worst. See what I mean?
You'll get over yourself, time heals all wounds. Don't get into the trap of thinking "ohh she was the one"
If she was the one things would've worked out. I'm betting that next time you fall in love you'll call that one your favorite, and the time after that you'll call the next one your favorite, forgetting all about this
Stop crying. Get a grip.
dang bro, i though i had it bad. trust me, you WILL get over her as i have my past exs. you will find someone new even better than her. if Brooklyn ever finds this I wish her the best with Oscar.
The road to happiness is not a straight line. Sometimes you are required to move backwards in order to move forwards. The path winds and twists, and at points you won't know if you are truly going the right way. When you contemplate this, just start walking. You may not be confident in the way you are going, but one way or another you will make it to the end of the path, and you can look behind you to see how far you have truly came.
@empty. I appreciate you making this, I hope you realize you’re bringing so many hurt people together and from here we can help lift each other. I believe everyone here is good and will have all they deserve one day. I don’t know any of you but if it means anything, I love you all
It's now 3:20 at my place. I am thinking about myself and no one else. This music helped me understand myself better. Thanks ❤️
I have just made the biggest ever thing in my life and told my friend about all the things i have been keeping to myself for years. I can not describe how happy i am to finally walk towards being straight forward, honest with people and to accept myself in the way that i am. This is surely the best and the biggest day of my life, and i might even call it the first one, even though the rest heavily depends on what i do further. I do not know why i am writing this, but if you are reading this just know that the best thing you can do in your life is to talk to other people and i really wish myself to understand that heavily
I have such a hard time opening up. I'm a women and I know people will react to it better then if I was a man but I still can't bring myself to do it.
being literally addicted to someone you love so much you can't even explain it really hits different . I currently became suddenly really close to someone where in the first I only considered them as a friend but now , the destiny made all my problems go away because of how much happiness that guy gives me , in this moment I really can't imagine my life without him
Having just one person giving a meaning to your life is so refreshing after strugling for so long. She is asleep, far away from me, but i can sense her presence that bond is priceless, hope ya'll will have a bright future, life is good never give up
@@shadowkrystall9783 Soo real, especially that before he came , I just felt empty, sad and quit depressed because of the gigantic amount of exams n' the pressure to be so worried about it that I literally became so lazy for 3-4 weeks straight and only kinda started studying the day before my finals. But hoppefully , that guy just came and boom , I never was so happy in my entire life , so much so that I can't go a day without talking to him for at least an hour and I am in the same case as you are ! we too may be quite far away from each other yet, I don't know if he feels the same but I feel always that connection , as if he is already by my side right now Thank youuu !! I hope you too will have a wonderful future with them !!
I used to cry to these playlists. I used to want to die.
But now they bring me peace of mind when I’m at night and unsure of myself - the world can be a beautiful place. It is hard but if you keep watching you will see some flowers growing on the side of the road. I can see a storm through my window and the lightning is so beautiful.
Life doesn’t have to be ugly, it doesn’t have to be lonely the path is strewn with pitfalls but it is there
So happy for you man reading that put a smile on my face 😃
It’s currently 2:15 AM and I’m happy I found this video because I’m on a road trip and this video helped me think about my friends back at where I live. I am beginning to think there is just something wrong with me because if I leave the state I live in with my friends, I always struggle to have happy dreams with my friends In them. This video is also helping me calm down with pressure and kinda freaking out about possibly getting a girlfriend soon, so that’s fun. And to anyone who reads this please have a good day and who ever the person or people you are thinking about always have good memories with them.❤😊❤😊❤😊
3:40 am, July 29, my grandma just passed a few days ago, I’ll never forget all the conversations we had when she’d drive me to MMA class as a kid. Can’t wait to see her in Heaven one day.
(it's 4:06 am) and i'm thinking about my buddy who died in a boat racing crash during thunder on the snake a few years ago. i made the trip from the opposite side of the country just to watch him race and he got crushed by his boat when it caught air and flipped. [i helped his wife move along with her two sons and two daughters. as of now we still keep in touch and he stated in his will that i am to be given the title of uncle of his kids should he pass at any time]
😢
that's completely devastating.. may your buddy rest in peace and be thought of everyday.
@@ssxnityy. thanks
R:I:P to your bro! 🙏 also love to you and his family, stay strong life is very tough so we gotta stay together ❤
Damn, I know that river too. Hope you’re doing good
i know you'll never read this, but you're my everything conor. the way your laugh could light up my face rain or shine, the warmth of your body against mine, that god damn smile. something about you draws me in so effortlessly, and i would do anything to tell you how i really feel, even if you already know. i can tell that someday i am going to love you with all my heart, but for now we can be friends who want so desperately to be more. i hope you're safe out there, you're worth so much more than you give yourself credit for and you have no idea how much better my life is with you in it.
God bless you I hope you’re having an amazing day❤
God is our true Creator, He created all the things we know in the present and He still creates wonders in the present, He who watches us from above, He who is the Only One who can save us from the pits of hell will remain in us and will love even the evil ones that are cussing His Perfect Being, because there is time to change our paths and He loves us because we have the power in us we need to bow before Him before it is too late for us He is Jesus Christ who will risks all the other sheeps only to save one and will go throughout every single place to find the lost one, even in the darkest of places because He knows that God is with Him and when God is with Him Our Savior can do unimaginable things and impossible things are as easy to overcome for Him as breathing air, because Our Savior is with Our Father that is in the Heavens So this is the time to change, if we don't take action in the present, our future is doomed and there is always time to change until there isn't and that my friend, brother, stranger, whatever you want me to call you will be your last time on this planet we call Earth, who was created by the Only God we need to trust and who we need to love with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength remember to turn to Him and to be with Him because i was evil in the past and did sin all day, my punishment for that was my anger, not controlling my actions and after Jesus Christ opened my eyes I started to see the truth, I was reborned, feeling more greater than ever before cause I could feel the Holy Spirit entering in me at that point, all the earthly things were pointless at the time when Jesus Christ was with me and guided me to the immortality that is in the Heavens. So repent, repent that your sins may be forgiven because God forgives all if we speak with Him, not to Him, to forgive us because we are nothing in the face of our God and we are nothing withouth Our Lord, in the name of Jesus Christ i will pray for you because He can do wonders, He can do the impossible and only He, remember that Only He can show us the way, can exterminate our temptations and deliver us from evil : for thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Please don't say God followed by the D word ever again❤❤❤❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏🙏❤🙏Love you all🙏❤🙏🙏❤🙏❤🙏🙏❤❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤
@@Child_Of_God_Our_LordGod Damnit
@@Creature---ikr bro had to go on the God shpeal
@@Child_Of_God_Our_Lordjust let people live in peace, sheesh
Loneliness is the comfort I feel when darkness is no longer around me.
It’s 00:12 and I’m thinking about my two young sons I haven’t see in so long…..
Hope you’ll see them)
We all hope you will see them safe
I always get lost in reading the stories of so many lives in the comments during these videos
I dont always have as much to tell, but the feelings are definitely the same
Wishing the best for every one who comes by, and myself.
It hits hard when it's actually 2:15 and all I can do is think about what I could've done wrong, but what I did is all I am.
It’s OK you don’t have to worry what you did is not who you are right now if you’re reflecting on it and making different choices to better yourself, God bless you. I hope you’re having an amazing life!❤
Thinking how I messed it up 2am
you are not the problem, it's just you reflecting off the situation. its not your soul that has ruined your purpose, it was your choices, it may or may not be your fault but you have done ur best. 💕
Bro, same here. Idk why my best friend and my friends kicked me out of them and the dont want to talk me. Idk who i am, idk why i am here and idk what i did to deserve this. Idk why i still alive.
It’s going to be okay, no matter what happens guys, don’t do it, it’ll all end up okay.
EDIT: Thanks for all the support guys, I appreciate it. I didn't want it to sound like I wanted to end my life again so I'm sorry if anyone read it that way. Unfortunately my mom passed yesterday suddenly and now I'm going through that process with my brother and it's made me reevaluate things and now I'm just in a hard place again and wish everyone here does good in life and makes something out of themselves and I'll be here rooting for you! Thanks again! :)
3:08am - 21 years and nothing to show for it. Everyone I grew up with are off on their own journeys and starting families of their own while I sit in the background wondering where life went wrong while wondering what I'll do for the remainder of my time here alive. I've tried to communicate to people and have always felt like no one could understand me. They would agree with what I'm saying or try to relate but it never "felt" like they actually understood what I was trying to say or feel so I started self destructing. Alcohol was my go to for most of my teens since where I lived it was easy to get ahold of. I kept trying to find someone to love, to care about but it always ended in the same way either them pulling away with no explanation or being blamed for all of their problems and being beaten down until I couldn't take it anymore. Every day seems to feel like my last day as I struggle to find motivation to get up or do anything without remembering all of the pain I've endured from my own friends and family members dying or my finding my dog passed away on my bed when I woke up. I know everyone goes through their own struggles and I envy everyone who manages to beat their depression and makes something out of their lives to be remembered by and cherished. I wish I could say that I want to live but the truth is I'll probably be gone in a couple of weeks and wanted to share this because I feel like this might be the last time I actually try to open up and funny enough, it's on the internet surrounded by strangers I don't even know and that's okay because I know someone will read this and use this as an example to not become like me and better themselves.
Don't let my story dictate your actions or thoughts. YOU are better than me, no matter what you may think of yourself. If you think no one cares about you then please listen to the words I'm writing here because you matter to me and I'm sure as hell there is someone out there that cares for YOU and don't let them down by stooping down to my level. YOU can do this, I believe in YOU so get up and try to be the best person you can be and if you fail then keep trying until you physically can't try anymore cause I know YOU can do it and that's worth more than anything in the world.
YOU can do it. Find something, anything at all. Talk to strangers, walk across the country, you can do anything you want to the only thing keeping you back is comparing yourself to others. YOU can do it.
Hey, are you still around?
@@currysoup2002 yeah! Do you need to talk?
Hey i am 22 years and all my friends are doing somethingwith their life while i am here doing nothing, BUT you just gotta think that everyone go their own way in life to find what their goal in life is, NEVER compare urself with others, its super hard cuz i do it alot, but try to stop it, not a good writer but hope this helps, we are here for you and talk to anyone about ur problem before the problem eats u alive
Hey man, you okay? I hope you're still here. We love you. You're needed. If you need anyone, I'm here for you
Damn, I’ve been reading these comments for about an hour straight and it’s almost 2am. I’m thankful for all my family and friends have done and see how my life has been blessed. I’m also scared of the thought being left by, anyone. My girlfriend, family or friends. To all u reading this and to the ones who don’t see this, I love u and god loves u and u can get through the tough times no matter how bad it seems ❤ much love to y’all
It’s 3:52 am for me currently. Laying in bed, listening to this calm ambience, staring at my dark ceiling. With the wind from my fan and the sounds of it swaying back and forth, I wonder, how could I have done things differently ? Not to mention, my first love real interest, whom which was also a dear childhood friend of mine, is celebrating her birthday today. I thought about everything that happened between us over the years, and everything up until now. Despite us not seeing each other in person since well before I graduated highschool, nor have we stayed in contact due to the pandemic and other circumstances, I miss her. I miss the connection we had. I feel as if I messed it up because I wanted more, even though it wasn’t perfect what we had. It was enough, but at the time I didn’t realize it. I chased after her for so long and seen her get her feelings hurt too many times on my hands to count, and it just bothered me so fucking much. For the longest time I wondered why I couldn’t be with her. I feel I know why, for a variety of reasons of course. But it still bothers me so much, to the point of insanity some times when I think about it too hard. Despite not thinking about it for so long.. it still makes me wonder what life would have been like, what journeys we could have went on, experiences we could have shared, and so much more. I yearned for this person for so long, and now I barely think about her anymore. I don’t know if I’m fucked up, or what. Idk man… (4:00 am by the time I finished this, didn’t expect to go so long, but my mind just kept working, and my fingers kept moving. Despite this, I wish everyone a lovely night, love to all ❤️)
Wasn't trying to tap on this video but here I am! Hello to anyone reading this! Take care of yourself. I'll be sad if you don't. Shalom and much love!
These playlists allow me to close my eyes and only for a couple of nights, they bless me with a glimpse into an ideal future, where ive settled down with the love of my life and on cold nights like this one, im a free man bound by no chains of the self, others, and fate. Allowed to freely navigate across the beautiful land as i ride on horseback below a blanket of the cozy night sky. I've opened my eyes and been brought back to the reality that the girl im so enamored with and we hit it off really well ever since we started dating, has become a bit distant to who knows what, but i reassured her that im always there for her when things become too much and im giving her the space she needs, because in life sometimes that what we all need, just a break from all the madness. This is simply just a redirection to that ideal future, life doesnt always go the way you want it to, but i wont let this get the better of me, Ill work tirelessly to achieve my dreams and passions, and you should too! To whoever may be reading this late at night, know that we strangers, family and friends alike, will always fight the good fight alongside you and never feel afraid to ask for help when you need it. May you all take care and have amazing days going forward 💗 💜
you are worth everything you ever gave any person. You are worth someone as good as you ❤ (to anyone reading this
Cant stop thinking about the fact we are taking a break for 2 years but im willing to wait for him no matter what because i love him so much
they come, they go. repeat and repeat.. over and over- but she, she will stay 4ever- keep ur heads up lads
It’s 12:22 and I’m thinking about myself in the next 5 years because I know what I’ll be 💪🔥💰
It’s 1:41am. And I know it’ll never be a thing between the two of us but I still sit here wondering. “Will you ever love me? Or am I wasting my time trying to see where we end up?”
SAMEEEEEEEE IM STAYING DEVOTED TO SOMEONE WHO PROBABLY WILL NEVER GIVE ME WHAT I WANT 😭
Real
This is probably the most relateable coment ive ever seen. Ive tried to convince myself i dont need her im fine being single but it never works. For years now ive been trying to lie to myself. I dont know how to stop feeling this pit. Im too self conscious to ask her our but im too lonely to go on for more years being alone.
@@earthtoeden8977 EXACTLY. Man I thought I was the only one!
@@DragoniGr real bro ☹️
i haven’t been able to get good rest since our fight and she’s distanced herself from me and i’ve come to the realization that i may not get to talk or see her again. she’s been in my dreams ever since, i wake up early from my sleep to check my phone in hopes of getting a message from her. nothing but there’s hope im clinging on day by day that i’ll get a second chance with her. i miss her
Try saying sorry, apologize to her,while you still have contact with her,if you can talk to her say sorry,I hope things get better between the both of you.
Same shit happening to me
talk to her no matter how much she ignores you, this will prove your love that you don't want her gone. if she doesn't prove she loves you by leaving you on delivered while online or just seen, you may have to face the undeniable truth, clinging onto her may seem a good idea but it'll hurt more once she leaves, may God be with you.
@@TBL_ I hope you can speak to her about it..
edit: i broke up with him and we talked about it and apparently he’s been feeling the same way for a while but he was gunna wait till school started
i’m going through the same thing kinda with me and my bf we’ve been together for a little over 2 months and when we first started dating we would constantly text and ft but now we barely talk to each other today was the first time where we haven’t spoken and it’s scary to me cause i’ve fallen so in love with him even tho it hasn’t been that long idk what to do at this point
also any time we do “talk” it turns into an argument 2 nights ago we got into a huge argument and last night we started kinda arguing about dying (my little sister is in therapy for wanting to unalive herself) and he made a joke about harming himself and i took it the wrong way but he says he didn’t mean it like that and idk how to feel or what to do
You've got this, you can make it through whatever you're going through right now just talk to someone, anyone, as long as you have someone to talk to everything will be ok. Sometimes it will be hard to sleep, maybe its a breakup, maybe its grief, but you can, and will keep going in life. Its been a couple days since i saw her so im definitly thinking about my girlfriend right now. This video is a blessing. Have a good day, or night. ❤❤❤
To you,,
Thank you for everything. Thank you for being there when things sucked. Thank you for knowing all the right things to say. Thank you for being you. Thank you for the time shared, and memories cemented in legacy. I could never repay you for what you’ve truly given me. Goodbye.
If you’re seeing this somehow, someday. Just know that I really like you and wish for something magical to happen between us.
It's 2 am. She is perfect, her smile , her laught, how she talk and look at me, everything is perfect about her. She is gentle and so sweet and beautiful. I feel something i can't explain, just seeing her makes me smile and happy but when i look at her then look at me i realize this can't work, she is too good for me and i think she never gonna feel this same. I known her for several years. Everything what i want is to see her happy, it doesn't matter if its with me or not. Sorry for my bad english. I from poland and im not very good at this language
I will talk to her soon about what I feel to her
She didn’t want me
Your English is actually pretty good
Boring 🥱
@@supreme.justice?
Hey man, good luck with her I just wanted to let you know
I can understand feeling as if you're not good enough, or that you won't be. I felt the same way about her. That she was just to good for me. But you've got to realize that that isn't true. Sometimes you've got to let go of you fears, of your worries. Do what you want. I guarantee you that when they think of you, she doesn't do it un such a negative way. They, too, respect you and appreciate you. Without a doubt
I fucked up. Currently 12:09am, I’ve lost so much in my life. Dad left at age of 10, mom hates me, family hates me, aunt who was like a mom to me died of cancer, etc. Yet the on girl that actually chose to hold my hand through it all, the one who stayed when everyone left, who cared and noticed when no one did. Who loved me when others didn’t. Someone who was my friend… my best friend… I hurt them…
I really hurt them… after I realized what I did and the mistake I had made, I tried to make amends but time has taken us both astray. Now I write sad songs, cut myself, bruise myself, hate myself, as I work 2 jobs while in school to provide for people who don’t even love me. Shits tough, I look up as I lay awake in my thoughts, and I pray hoping for things to change. Anything, and maybe just maybe, I can be happy again… Love you JJ, I wish I really meant it but I want you to be happy even if I’m not the one to do that. Sorry I had to be the one to hurt you, I was usually the one to get hurt and now the one thing I had loved I had hurt… Wish you the best, will always love you for who you are and I will always be thankful for being there. Sorry I couldn’t be… 😔
I remind that situation, when i got 2 breakdowns on the exam on history. I've got really worried, question was really hard. I stared to worry moe and more until i actually got a breakdown. Then after that, my classmates started to bully me and after that, i've got a 2nd breakdown. And when actually my brain was almost completely disabled, my other classmate came to me after an exam (it was last lesson) and we talked about this problem. She gave me some tips to avoid that sh@t. After that i've finally got to be a normal person. I'll never forget her... And she's the only classmate, that i can trust anything. I've even helping her with homework almost every day. Being that nice in a class, filled with bullies is really rare. God bless her and save her, if something dangerous will affect to her. I'll return my help back. And yeah, she had lots of problems too, just like me. She has many heart problems and she's really vulnerable to heart cancer (pls don't do this) and i have massive problems with my nerves and psycho system. If i am angry, i can kill someone. So that's why i need to stay calm. If you want to know her name, her name is Angelina. Now we are very addicted to each other, just like friendship. And when my cat died, she also felt that pain like me. True friends with many problems. I am moving to 8th grade and i hope to be next to each other to be calm. I've had this, but we both got scared of each other, so we didn't talked to each other. But i also helped her, when she had headache (it's active, when she's scared of our class). I've even risked my life to an real death in school, because when i wanted to help her, my blood was starting to be more painful, because my blood oxygen was at 82% (critical amount to death). Now after that pain and suffering that we went, can we be next to each other in 8th grade. I hope it can be real. Love her as a friend, and i hope she'll be good :)
All the best to you and Angelina ❤
This is a healthy reminder to everyone who reads this. No one has it all together. It's easy to think that there's a right way to live life, but there isn't.
The best that any of us can do is try. Keep trying even when you don't know what to do.
Loss hurts, and everyone loses once in a while. Pick yourself when you fall, please...
i love u for this
0:10 i think a piece of me will always love you. i miss our friendship, i miss us staying up all night and just talking while you smoked your marlboros. getting drunk with you and making out for hours. songs i abandoned because they remind me of us. i don’t know if you still think of me or if your happy with someone else. but i don’t think i’ll ever completely get over you. and i tried i swear i tried. you were the best guy i’ve ever known and i truly love you marca. ❤
Holy how does this not have more likes
He said he didn't love me anymore. We had each other for an entire year. He said it wasn't my fault, but that depression made him unable to love anyone. It broke me. I miss him so much.
There is always something that reminds me of you. Every day I think of you. Miss you grandpa
The spiral down has been intense. So very much has happened in just four months.. I lost her after 4 years together, countless nights spent together, consoling and helping each other almost daily - parents divorcing loomed on the horizon days after she left, and now with the legal troubles and messinesss of all that looming - and now the group of friends I'd had since middle school are shattered apart and at each other's throats.
This is the first cry I've had in a long time - and it's agonizing.. but intensely cathartic. It might finally be time to start healing again - some how, some way.
Before I had a girlfriend I would cry over getting friend zoned or being ignored or just bad communication. During freshman year was one the most depressing and lonely years I’ve ever had, there’s no amount of pain that could bring me back there, I was incredibly suicidal and quiet so nobody had an idea I would tell myself no one cares about me…as if I were to die right now no one would notice. A long time after I realized that people do care and it’s just hard for some people to tell you that if they truly do! I had a cousin that was around 21 develop a heartbreaking disease, but I never realized how much I cared about how kind and loving she was to everyone she met. I only realized after she passed, after my grandpa passed. I have been able to find comfort through God and music by “surfaces” very uplifting and just…helps me feel like I can be loved, be cared for, be treated with respect and kindness. If any of you are out there feeling alone, it’s hard to not be selfish on yourself, it makes you feel like no one else has ever experienced such a feeling. But there are millions of people around the world going through phases, trials, heartbreaks, grief, depression, and suicidal thoughts. Right now as you are reading this.
Another thing is that people hate me for being quiet and not social, I’ve never been but never knew why? I guess I just realized that people hurt, people can heal, people can kill other people, people are weird, strange, and confusing? What I’m saying is that the world is cruel there might never be peace on this planet. But I guess we just have to push through, it’s not easy and no one should ever say it’s easy, it’s not and they need to realize that. Some people never realize that and can never relate to other people feeling like how YOU feel, reading this comment, I truly wish this pain could go away. No one knows how I feel…ever. I push it down day by day until I break…let it out. Then it just comes back to haunt my heart. I’ve always hidden my emotions and thoughts but whenever I let them know it’s almost ignored every time.
I have a friend who is my best friend. I know he’s depressed and suicidal, he hides it every day, I want to talk to him about it, he gets ghosted by every girl he talks to, he doesn’t go on any dates even if he try’s. I’ve been trying to get a girl to go out with him but I just know he’ll get his heart broken once again.
I pray for all of you and hope you find some kind of relief, peace, and purpose ❤
Hard times will never end so we must fight it, a constant battle. Please. Please win❤ I want you to win. Don’t let it defeat you, battle, and battle every day, never give up, and never, never let suicide win, never let depression win❤
All love from your friend, your partner, your guiding light, your past and present, your YOU, love from YOU ❤
She has been the only person that didn’t make me feel so alone and I can’t be with her because I’m dying. I wish I could keep making her smile for an eternity more. Her laugh brings a smile to my face no matter how bad times are, her eyes are like amber pools reflecting a shimmering world that should have been, her spirit has a quality of strength I could only dream of attaining. Please take care of her when I can’t.
Currently 4:32 AM. Got stood up for 3 days straight now. Can't stop thinking about her either. She means everything to me but always treats me horrible.. but something about her, always draws me back in. Why does she have to make me love her? Just when I'm about to get over her, she comes back into my life again. I wish I would be enough for someone to truly love. I hate being alone.
I had a crush in school a few months ago but semesters changed and I haven't seen her since. I still think about her and I've gotten to the point where it feels like I'm being pulled in two different directions, one is "move on, you'll find someone else" and the other is "keep reminiscing about her"
To anyone reading this little rant thanks for taking the time to do so, these thoughts have been bottled up in my head and this is one of the only times I've talked about it
All good, G
tbh, im not really thinking about someone. I realized, I overthink a lot about myself the most and especially about the past, which ruins my mental health
I appreciate how positive this comment section is.
Right when I thought it was over for humanity, seeing how judgmental and negative society is, I am starting to see a glimpse of hope.
Maybe it’s not over for us..?
Currently 4:08 am, 20 yrs old, work a very tiring and stressful job, all my friends seems to have slowly withered away, my girlfriend of 14 months is still with me and were still happy, but the constant thinking about her and the fact that I havent seen her in about a month has all my wires mixed up. I cant do nothing but think about her and only her. My trust in people has also slowly faded away and its got me in a sort of “limbo mode”. I cant help but lie im bed starting into the darkness with nothing on my mind except her.. i miss her dearly and would give anything just to see her face again. Whatever your struggles are, you’re stronger than them and I believe you can get up again and keep on fighting.
It’s 2:40 I can’t sleep, I kept thinking about all the bad thing that I did in my life and all my regrets. I wish I can go back in time and fix everything in life but I can’t. The only thing I can do is accept it, move on and keep going. But I still failing, over and over again, sometimes I can do everything so well and just a god damn day ruins everything and I fall and start from the beginning. I hate that feeling so much, made me feel like everything I did isn’t worth it. I’m conscientious when I’m doing wrong but I still do it, and I hate when I still awake in the morning cause thats the time when everything gets ruined by myself, and I regret all the things in live that don’t let me sleep.
I wish I could just stay in my head, listening to this. It’s the only thing keeping me company at night…
Hi, using this as backround for my cramming session at 2:53 AM, dunno but these types of audio allows me to concentrate and sets aside my struggles as of the time being. To anyone who's reading this I'm hoping....we're hoping that maybe time will come where we conquer all our struggles. keep fighting
Everyday and everynight, im thinking about her...
Your 'her' and my him are probably the most beautiful people in the world ❤
@@Hallo_TH-camawww that’s so poetic and beautiful. I hope you’re having an amazing day and you’re doing well. Both of you. God bless.
@Hallo_TH-cam nah everyone is beautiful
Even though I know I'll never have the courage to just end it, the thought runs in my head when I get time to think. I hate that I need to convince myself to keep pushing when I can easily tell others they need to keep pushing when they struggle. Words are so hard, But the moments are always worse. Sometimes I wonder what will happen when I can no longer convince myself.
That's why we are here, to convince you to keep pushing through when it's your time to struggle
i know it’s out of topic and i don’t know what you gonna gain from this but while listening to this two of my old friends texted me asking about me and making sure i am ok while the close people around me right now they don’t even care and they don’t ask about me even though i am around them 24/7 so i want you to know distance and quality time doesn’t mean the amount of love someone have to you and how much they care about you
It's 2:30 a.m. right now, and I'm thinking about what I'm going to do, about tomorrow's exam, about all the effort I have made, and about her eventually.
ここにたどり着いた皆様へ
辛いことが沢山あると思います。
我慢しなくたっていい、思っていること誰にも言えないこと、ネットだからこそ打ち明けられると思います。逃げていいんです。ここに来ればいいんです。忘れないで欲しい、ここにいるみんなが貴方の味方と言う事を。
it’s 2:03 am and we just broke up 7 hours ago. i have absolutely no idea what to do now. he is all i can think about. what about the future we planned or the plans we had this month. no contact is actually really hard.
I hope you get better, kayla 💗
I felt that way too!!! For the first few weeks. Then it simmers out you know? You realise your friends are there, have always been there. You'll lean on them. You'll continue your hobbies, play whatever sports you may, watch shows and eventually it'll all be a fleeing memory. Seen as I'm pretty late to this chances are most of this is already happening or has happened! Isn't it sweet.
It’s 2:19 right now and i’m so glad this showed up for a break. I just got dumped for a really dumb reason i couldn’t control. this is helping me think about the simple things and everyone else that i have. Thank you for this moment.
You saw the red flags and you knew better. But she was so pretty, so kind and caring. She did for you what you had always done for others. She was beautifully damaged and broken. You tried to love her, to show her she wasn't stupid, fat or anything all the other people in her life told her she was. But you just weren't enough. Now you need to walk away, for good this time. Love and respect yourself enough to KNOW that you deserve better. Even though you still love her, it's what you need to do.
Finally, some music for my crippling existential dread :) In all seriousness though, it is 1AM and I've been in a state of crushing anxiety for three days straight just thinking about those people I once knew.
I can never let anyone close, yet everyone tells me how close they are to me, I'm everyones safe space except for myself...then my father used to be my safe space but life has changed, i feel more like burden to him than ever despite his praise to me...i dont know i cant tell people how lonely i feel, how unseen i feel, there are so many people who love me but i can never understand why, like why do i matter? Im still never good enough, people i look up to tell me they look up to me and i cannot fathom it. I wish i saw what they saw. I wish i was enough for myself. I wish u could say i felt seen. I wish i could let people see me. Thank you for this video, it helps me feel.
Based off what others say, you seem like a lovely person. I hope you can see yourself that way soon, too❤️
I originally had a long drawn out comment about advice. I'll admit I was projecting hard cause you remind me of me, but I know most people come here to vent and that's probably not what you want to hear.
So I'll keep it short. Talk to someone.
One day, everything you bottle up inside is gonna come pouring out whether you like it or not, so you might as well be in control of when that dam bursts. Don't wait; talk to someone. Even if it's scary.
@@johnhagler20 Hello! Im doing better thank you, and I slowly have been talking to people more about my mental health, i do have a therapist, i had them even when I commented this I was just not too close with them at the moment. Now we understand each other more and shes a really nice woman who is helping me through it.
I still feel the way I did back then but I feel like I can put it into better words now. Ever since I was young I was conditioned by an abusive family member that love was conditional. If i didn't give my all than it meant nothing and I always had to make that family member look good. Through talking with my therapist I've learned this was never true, love is deeper and more meaningful than what you can give.
We recognized that a main reason I wouldn't feel close to people was because I have a specific love language and it wasn't being met very often. Since then I've been working on telling people how I feel and how I'd personally like to be appreciated and those lovely understanding people in my life have since took that into consideration and have been making efforts to show me that type of appreciation. Its the small little ways they show it that make me feel like the world has stopped spinning and in that moment I'm being cared for. It's actually a freaky feeling just because I've never felt it before. Thank you so much for going out of your way to comment on this, it means a lot that you saw something in me that you recognized, helps me realize I'm not alone. Please take care of yourself kind stranger
@@abbless Thank you, I'm doing much better know and starting to practice positive self talk
This is me with my Great grandma she died last year and I felt like I never cared enough just always had my face on a screen like my Nintendo Switch and I never really payed attention to her as much as I was supposed to I was a blinded asshole and I never knew it until it was too late I stood strong at here funeral on the inside but in the outside I broken beyond repair and I feel ever sorry for not giving her enough love. This is what laziness and sloth can do to you make you miss opportunities in life that could be very important so please if your reading this go hang out with your family and friends it doesn’t matter who it is just give them attention and make them think they mean something to you cause you’ll never know when you won’t get an opportunity like that ever again
RIP Grammy Shirley Watson fly high with pappy bill 😢
My grea tgrand mother passed a year ago. My sister and I visited her for two weeks when I was 8. I was a little kid though and was bored and sometimes a brat and took it for granted. Found out she passed. Wasn't able to go to her funeral because she was living In Mississippi while I'm all the way up in New Hampshire. I understand. I like to light a candle near her heirlooms to honor her.
2:40 am for me. All i want is for her to see me and love me unconditionally. But the more i just scroll my days away on my phone the more I realize that the people you love sometimes will never love you the way you love them. I hate that I know she’s not for me when all I want is her. Every minute she at least pops in my head once and its almost sickening. To whoever is still reading this, work on yourself, love yourself, as if you cannot love yourself you cannot love others. Its a long process, trust me im still tryna build my way out of this gutter. But the more you can look yourself in the mirror and say “I love myself, I look good, I am proud of who I am”, the more attractive you will be to others. C’est la vie