Thank you doctor. I have this diagnosis since 1988 and have SSA Disability since 1994. Married to a woman with two daughters of her own I have known several ancestors of mine, including RTS Lowell, were notorious for having this vulnerability. I have had ECT and many meds and treatments but I had to move my family out of CA to get better treatment. I’m in Health Care during this time and being 62 I will retire as I do not trust my abilities. In 2011 I was in Washington DC for 4 months in a Ketamine Study which was the only effective medicine I have had. The costs are prohibitive since my wife of 27 years Divorced me from CA. The Divorce has been final for 7 years. Having NO CONTACT from any of them, I began hallucinating and having lucid dreams of her recently along with Charles Bonnet (boNAY) Syndrome and hearing things as a result of loss of vision and hearing. Several weeks ago I awoke to her in bed with me. Her and those with her have keys to my doors which the owner of the book store denied giving out. Some extremely uncommon and vivid hallucinations occurred along with Delusions which I attempted to engage with WHILE FULLY AWAKE (5 PM). This and my step daughters with others were here almost every evening and I asked for an ambulance while virtually every cop in the proximity was there saying they searched everywhere and there is no one here. “Are you hallucinating? “ And I replied “Yes. I have been spraying gallons of pesticide to kill a large infestation of bugs. Maybe the exposure to this is causing some of the Delusions.” I can’t begin to describe how horrid and creepy these visions are as this is a Family Channel. I’m scared. My cPTSD is reactivated and Latuda is not stopping it. I sold my Toyota in an attempt to avoid being unhoused. After that I’m homeless.
Thank you for being a psychiatrist Joanna. I am inspired by your story. I have had very difficult experiences with male doctors and psychiatrists. I have been molested, once as an adult and my mom caught something happening when i was a child. I’m grateful to have had two excellent female gp’s, one which is currently my doctor. I really appreciate that you are an advocate of hope for your patients. In 2019 the psychiatrist said to my dad while i was present, she will never be normal again. I was hospitalized for mania and aware i was very high strung. I’ll never really forget those words. It leaves me thinking I never was normal but I doubt that man had much faith in my abilities or the richness of my mind or what I observe and write about. I have done some amazing things in my life and i have also gone through alot of trauma and abuse. I have personality defects separate from my bipolar that contribute to my life not having panned out the way my brother or uncle’s have after their diagnosis. I realize there is still a chance to find more of a purpose than what my mental health allows at the moment. For me it’s not just bipolar, it’s trauma, depression from environmental factors. However i’m really grateful for odsp and subsidized therapy for victims of abuse. I’m grateful for people that love me. And I am grateful as you are for the insight that bipolar has given me. It helps give me the courage to shut down people who try to say people take advantage of welfare and disability. Life’s a struggle. So many people are living with trauma. I feel uplifted when I greet members of the community and volunteer my help. And I do some gardening for some income. When you speak of purpose I feel I do have more to offer. I just haven’t figured out how to get out of my slump.
i think my diagnosis is off. When my psychiatrist diagnosed me, I was in the middle of clearing out our friend's backyard of fallen trees from the ice storm. I didn't get to tell her everything that happened in my past, just what I could remember in that tiny time frame of my first visit, it was a tele visit, November 2020. She diagnosed me as bipolar 2, but I didn't get to tell her the 3 times I was catatonic, and it landed me in the ER on one episode. I had 2 that day. Before those there was one where I blacked out for hours at least, my husband found me sitting cross legged on the bed facing the headboard end of the bed, eyes wide open and I'm not responding to his yelling at me. It took him 3 times of yelling my name to get me coherent. There are a few things I need to tell her but, I tried before, and she got irritated with me. So, I'm going to try to see if she will listen to my husband. He's a retired police Lt. 22 years of police work. Some of that was mental health training, he knew I was bipolar before I did. He told my doctor everything he has witnessed and what he had learned in the training classes. He met my dad and put 2 and 2 together and got 2 undiagnosed bipolar people in front of him! I am so sorry; I am rambling on. But if she doesn't listen to my husband, I am afraid I will be going to another doctor to get a 2nd opinion.
Being bipolar is not a death sentence: I have bipolar disorder tipe 2 with comorbid ADHD. I have been through tough times in life, but I didn't accept being bipolar and didn't follow treatments, so I was always in crises. After being hospitalized for 12 days and undergoing treatment and convulsive therapy, I got better and accepted the diagnosis. Since then, I haven't had strong crises anymore. My life has changed: I went to university, studied Law, became a lawyer, did postgraduate studies, and work a lot. I live a normal life, but I avoid coffee, energy drinks, and alcohol. I exercise six times a week and sleep at least six hours a day. Additionally, I regularly see mental health professionals: I go to a psychologist twice a month and to a psychiatrist once a month. I take slow-release lithium carbonate as prescribed. We continue the fight with great determination. Disorder Type 2. My family does not know, even when I was hospitalised a few years ago. They did not find out because my two partners at my law firm organised everything with the psychologist and psychiatrist. Only my partners know about my bipolar disorder. My current girlfriend does not know that I have bipolar disorder. I am working with my psychologist to decide whether or not to tell my girlfriend. I believe the worst part of life for someone with bipolar disorder is the stigma and prejudice. Everyone thinks a person with bipolar disorder is always aggressive. I have never been aggressive with anyone, even during moments of crisis. I have never driven a car irresponsibly. I live a normal life, work a lot, and study constantly because my profession requires me to stay updated. However, I do take my medication. Never stop fighting for a better day, and believe in yourself. Hugs from Brazil.
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
@@katehamilton7240 I agree with you that living with bipolar disorder is not easy. However, if you have the right treatment, with medical and psychological support, and you commit to the treatment, I believe you can live a normal life. I'm not sure how the treatment for people with bipolar disorder is in the United States, but in Brazil, the government provides free treatment. Here, you don't have to pay to go to the hospital, have any type of surgery, or pay for an ambulance in case of an accident. Additionally, you can use a good health insurance plan. I use my health insurance plan, which is one of the best in Brazil. I have bipolar disorder type 2 and comorbidity with ADHD, so my treatment is a bit more challenging. I have had a suicide attempt and many financial losses from buying things I didn't need or paying for services I didn't require. I've never had problems with the law, but after many issues, I realized there was no other way and accepted being admitted to a private mental health clinic. There, I underwent several treatments, such as electroconvulsive therapy, among others. At first, I didn't accept any of it, but my doctor and psychologist were firm with me about the importance of accepting the treatment. All the bad things happened because I didn't accept the illness and stopped taking the medications. Once I accepted the illness and started following the treatment correctly, taking all the medications as prescribed, everything changed. I was the one who benefited the most. It's been over 10 years that I've continued with the same doctor and psychologist. Today, I see my doctor every two months because I am stabilized, but I see him sooner if I notice something is wrong. I also see my psychologist every week. I exercise six times a week, don't drink alcohol, don't drink coffee, and follow a balanced diet with almost no salt and carbohydrates, because I take lithium carbonate 900 mg, zolpidem 10 mg to sleep when needed, and in the morning, I take Ritalin 10 mg for ADHD, but I don't take Ritalin on Saturdays and Sundays. I work a lot as a lawyer, writing and reading extensively, as I deal with many complex cases. I live a normal life. My advice to you is: don't expect doctors, psychologists, and medications to perform miracles in your life; you have to do your part by taking all the medications correctly, always visiting your doctor and psychologist, and never lying to them. I even wrote a mathematical formula for us bipolars to stay well: B + MP + P + EP = NLS. B (bipolar), MP (psychiatrist), P (psychologist), EP (self-effort), NLS (normal life and success). Never give up. Good luck, greetings from Brazil.
30 years old now and haven't been back to the hospital since my initial diagnosis of Bipolar 1 at age 25. I can honestly say life continues to get better. I own two homes now, work as a Senior Consultant, and like to travel the world. In my opinion living with Bipolar is all about finding a formula that works for you. For me this means the right combo of medication, therapy, friendships, exercise, goals, and diet.
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
The awful part is how one's perspective on what is going on in the world around you totally switches (in my present situation - which has persisted for at least 20 years now) the switching can happen several times a day. But lately, the depressive episodes can last for 4 days and those depressions are total, complete with physical pain, crying episodes, extreme fatigue and overwhelming sensitivity to rejection. Depressions switch - briefly - to that manic "super-me" who talks non-stop, feels like she can solve EVERYBODY'S life problems and literally CANNOT relax. Circadian rhythm/ sleep hygiene totally falls by the wayside... And very quickly, i switch back to deep depression. I have developed allergies to most medications such that i no longer attend a psychiatrist and rarely leave my house anymore - too afraid of getting upset in public. It is awful. Yes. Soul destroying 😔
In the past you were not able to work in mental health if you had a mental illness. I always thought these people would have the most insight if a sufferer.
My niece has bipolar disorder and has been a psychiatric nurse for many years. She had some bad years but is now doing great, is married and is currently expecting her second child. So proud of her ❤️❤️❤️
I believe that someday I will be able to say very similar things about my niece who has Bipolar 1 disorder. I feel so hopeful for her after hearing some of the incredible stories that I have heard, including your niece's, that she can have a great life. With some challenges, of course. I love her so much. I really want to help her so much more than I am capable of, but she is WORTH it and I am educating myself more and more. She is a beautiful and wonderful and a very talented young woman. I can see her becoming a Psychiatrist someday, or anything she wants. She is young in her early 20s, and still trying to figure all of this out. Thank you for sharing your story about your niece, it means so much! ♥
@davidandshawnamahoney6696I have severe bipolar one I've tried all my life to accomplish things the medication in the weight gain in the akathisia is devastating unfortunately it's very unlikely your daughter will ever amount to anything successfully in life I'm sorry to tell you this but it is the Grimm reality..
Bipolar/ mental conditions usually starts popping up in their 20s - that’s what the psychiatrists say. Are there Local support groups that those with bipolar can attend,? With people their age 🙂
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
This is incredible. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s very eerie as your description of your psychosis is almost exactly the same as what I experienced 10 years ago. All the way to delusion of reference, following signs and numbers, going to the airport thinking there is a plane waiting for me, walking around with nothing but a credit card in the airport 3 o’clock in the morning telling people a plane is waiting for me and it’s a matter of life and death. Same as with you the police came. I was incredibly lucky that they didn’t shoot me. They were walking towards me with guns drawn and in a moment of sanity I immediately laid on the ground. I was put in an ambulance and woke up in the hospital the next day. I have been living with this disorder since my late teens and was officially diagnosed at 23. There is hope. With the right medication, which took a year to dial in, and some behavioral changes I’ve had a successful personal and professional life since the last psychotic episode 10 years ago. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still a struggle but I’ve learned to notice red flags and address them. Therapy really helps. It’s a never ending battle.
3 This means everlasting life,+ their coming to know you, the only true God,+ and the one whom you sent, Jesus Christ.+ 4 my lifestyle is my natural way of life 🧬
As a freshly graduated doctor who is trying to go into a non clinical field because of my diagnosis this gave me hope of being able to continue my passion.
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
I am also dealing with people who do not understand this English. I attempted to stop meditation at the request of my sister who wanted to “see me off of medication”. Then, during a manic episode, I snapped at her in an argument, and she is holding that against me, and will for years to come. I’ve been told over and over again that I just need to clean up my act and take better care of myself and then the bipolar disorder wouldn’t be difficult to tolerate. Relationships are difficult for me and I have no friends. Now I’ve pushed my family away. Things are getting difficult to handle.
I can so relate to your story. I was diagnosed when I was 29ish in the 80s after experiencing post partum psychosis. I am so thankful for the medications that keep me healthy. The whole experience was unpleasant (terrible?), but because I had good insurance, a great hospital, and some good psychiatrists, I thrive. Now, sunshine, healthy eating, exercise, good friends, family and God also help me stay sane.
If you are asking me, no. I recommend talking to a doctor about that. I learned that being very honest with my doctors about what was in my head, rather than trying to appear ok all the time, really helped them help me.@@ThatgirlLondon.
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
Thank you for sharing. My wife of 20 years was diagnosed with clinical depression, PTSD, schizoaffective and bipolar disorder 5 years ago. She’s been hospitalized several times and I have a unique situation because not only I’m her husband but a police officer of 17 years. She still up and down and with the possibility of having amnesia and anosognosia, she still today believes she’s OK. She is also very dangerous during her manic episodes! It’s been a living hell and pretty much every day she experiences some type of episode and it’s heart breaking for me and our kids watching her decomp. The only way I can get her help is to file a mental health warrant application where the crisis team and the police have to pick her up at our house.
Praying for your wife to get better..Dad had the same issues. Married to Mum for 4 years and then she got mentally sick,she was dangerous,he also had us kids to take care of!
How blessed she is to have you. So many with mental health issues are murdered by police just because they don't understand. Thank you for keeping her safe.
I've been living your exact situation for almost 25 years. We have 2 boys 20 and 23 now. My husband is currently in a rehab for self medication. I have yet to find good, real help thats actually affordable
I definitely felt like my life shattered after my diagnosis. I felt happy that i knew more about myself and made so much sense to my past and behaviors with moods. Its been difficult to find employment unfortunately. As an ex cop with no criminal record its so disheartening that people have such a negative view in my area of my disorder. Im a native American male. I feel guilty ever thinking about getting on disability. I exercise 2-3 hours every day. Im more than capable to work. It feels like no one will give me a chance.
Hold on brother, something will open up. Try high intensity training for bipolar and lithium orothate. Research them and talk with your doc. As she said in the interview everything is now up to you. You can make it, yes you can......
Tuck, don't give up! Now more than ever Police need someone with mental health training. Go to college and get a certificate in that, which can maybe take months, but would make you a more desirable fit to any police department! Remember- your diagnosis is NOT your prognosis! Good luck, you will get there, I am sure! Just believe, and take the steps.
I’m 44, diagnosed at 42 bipolar type 2. Spent over 25 years undiagnosed, but treated as major depression w/ antidepressants the whole time. Nearly 2 years in on trying to nail down a med cocktail that works for me. It’s exhausting and adds to my depression. I don’t know if I’m on the right path with the meds, but I’m 100% in with it. Lost my father last year, unbearable grief in that and I’ve gained over 50lbs. Single mom, unemployed, and am lost in life, especially with who I “really” am because I’m now looking back in life not knowing if my hypomania/mania and hopeful with purpose was truly a part of me. Anyhow, I’m rambling… my question is- I now have a proper diagnosis, I’m fully on board with trying meds to get my depression under better control, ongoing therapy the last 10 years, but I feel so isolated and hopeless with what my life is at the moment. I know I’m taking the right steps, but I need some reassurance that it will be ok… that my children will be ok.
I’ve just had a conversation with someone that was diagnosed with bipolar & as he explained his symptoms & experienced to me I felt so many similarities that I had to go met with my doctor. I was diagnosed with BP 2 … Im happy to finally have a better understanding of my last 8 years of confusion. Torture & why I’ve faced hell in the human form . Now i have to start this journey of finding my best way to recover & rebuild my life !
I was diagnosed several years ago with Bipolar2. The increase/decrease/change of meds have not been effective. Through the debilitating symptoms, even landing me in the hospital, I began advocating for myself because no one was “hearing me”. Well, I’m 54 and requested a full hormone panel. Beyond frustrated that not one doctor on this journey thought to order this. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry when I saw the results. I literally have ZERO estrogen in my body. No wonder I feel like I’m about to “lose it” at any given moment. All this to share that our age and where we are on the spectrum of pre/mid/post menopausal clearly plays a huge part for our mental health and one can mimic the other. I’m finally seeing a flicker of light in what has been a very dark tunnel. Thank you for being a supportive voice for this. 🙏💞
My condition may be very Similar to you. May I ask if you started hormone replacement therapy? This is my fifth year after menopause and all years were such a hell.
Made me tear up a bit at the end at the thank you parts. For those of you who do have good Moms and family members... Cherish them if they're still around. Love you mom! This production team needs an award for making this look like a netflix special
This lady is a hero! As someone with Bipolar I (often considered the more chronic type), I relate to her on like 80% of these types of experiences, all at a similar age(s). She has come so far and is terribly impressive. Her calling it a "vulnerability" rather than a less sensitive term like mental illness or even nurodivergency has already changed my outlook on life.
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. My husband is struggling with BD1, he is currently manic and not wanting to identity or accept his diagnosis. It’s been so tough on our family but most of all it pains me to see him struggle. I love how you can use your story to help others.
I just received my BP II diagnosis. After years of just treating it as depression. How lucky for me to start my journey with this podcast to learn more about bipolar disorder. Thank you!
That’s why personality factors are so crucial when it comes to this condition. They determine how you approach the situation and what you decide to do about it.
The best two Consultant Psychiatrist who helped me to understand my diagnosis of Bipolar 1, also had Bipolar Disorder. They were brilliant and guided me in so many ways to live the life I have today.
As someone with a BP1 diagnosis, I have always been scared to go after my dreams and goals, like what if someone judges me? I recently came out publicly on my social media about my conditions (I have ADHD as well). I have just found the right medication combo for me, which has taken me since 2019 to figure out with my psychiatrists help. Bipolar isn't easy for me to live with, but it's my journey, and that's beautiful. It's what makes me, me.
As someone with bipolar 1 I have to say this is hands down the most accurate portrayal of an episode I’ve ever heard. It’s wild how similar these episodes can be across the board. Thank you for hosting and to the speaker for her insight. I’m having a tough go at the moment and I needed to hear all of this tremendously and to hear a real person make it through and find a true sense of fulfillment and happiness. Yeah I really needed to see that. ❤
please keep as strong as you can and ry hard to find good things in your life. itshard enough to survive in this world. we have stick together! there has to be someone who cares about you!
Very profound story with that positive energy 🙏💎🙏I’m bipolar since 1998 , experienced 5 psychosis, and actually I embraced these episodes because it gave me in the aftermath a deep insight in my self.Acceptance is a very important part of the healing process.And about the lifetime medication? Just a few pills a day, so what ?😌As an artist I live a more than happy life in freedom. Of course some structure but actually no boundaries.All matters is the right point of view.I’m very grateful that all those years I am surrounded by empathetic medical support, but you must trust your own inner self….Thank you for your recognizable blog.🙏😘🙏
I am diagnosed bipolar 2. Im from quebec, i dont take medication. I deal with all the symptoms myself. I understand my condition profoundly. Ive travelled to africa 15 times in 4 years. I go around helpong people, feeding children, and enjoying life. Its eally not easy. Everytime i land here ( i just landed 3 days ago in rwanda ) i go through profoud hypomani, i understand this. I take quitiapine to help me get back on a sleep patter in this time zone. I usually become hypersexual , and extremely irritable in hypomania, but i am also extremely blessed, and unique. I no this. I have a different way of living life, o choose to lovd myself e dn with the condition and i feel like the medication would change me and not allow me to keep living this lifestyle. Its really hard to maintain relationships, especially romantic. I really enjoyed this video. I cznt help to think how lucky your patoents are to have you..
OMG, I had something so similar when I was 65 years old and ended up in the looney bin for 17 days. I went to their outpatient hospital for at least 2 years 5 days a week with 5 hours of group therapy. The people were fabulous and told me I should stay away from my sisters. I have been sober for 36 years and will be 79 in May. I never had another episode and not taking meds. Honestly. thank you so much for your story. Also I have been an Interior Designer all my life and had a great life until I had a horrible experience with my sisters that put me in psychosis 😢❤🎉
I am so grateful for this open and meaningful share. My biggest issue with mental health in the US is affordable help. My husband has been tossed around, dismissed, dropped off at scary hospitals, hurt, overmedicated. How do you stay well with no money
Wow. Your story is amazing and I’m flabbergasted how much relate. I’m not officially diagnosed with bipolar yet. But my psychiatrist had thought that’s what i have. I didn’t think. Now I’m seeing maybe I’m type two. My psychiatrist also said the same thing to me about studying psychology.
You are exactly the doc I would want caring for myself or a loved one. There can be no greater help than the understanding you can bring to the tools/meds. ❤
Thank you soooo much for your honest, authentic, and inspiring disclosure and share. Im a mental health therapist and Veteran who is recently diagnosed diagnosed with bipolar and am leaning into the effects PTSD has on triggering episodes....but absolutely how routine and sleep.....and lifestlye kept me somewhat on a psuedo track. I love the hope and focus on turning bipolar disorder into bipolar order. The side effects of medication had kept me on a roller coaster for longer than I wish to think about. Thank you for addressing that and being a psychiatrist who stays on it. You are rare! This youtube channel saves lives and is such a gift and resource. Thank you. So grateful for all of you doing this work. Keep up the amazingly helpful work.
This is a very informative interview. Bipolar affects people differently. It can be a real struggle even after years of having this diagnosis. I really related to the psychotic and the Doctors depressive episodes. Unfortunately the depressive episodes for me have kicked in again. I think if you have a good support system that’s a bonus. Some of us don’t have that. And also unfortunately if the condition has affected the majority of one’s life and not being able to work for long periods of time really affects one’s self esteem and quality of life. Mourning the life I wish I had. Thank you for this. And for being so open and honest as a psychiatrist.
Thanks for another insight of BD, noted* After living in "hell" for 35 years, without knowing,, i got "parked" on medicin, not seeing a psychiatrists more than 1 time!!. I have looked back, and know how to "see" the signs. Have read, watch a lot. I have come to the conclusion after 6 years, to leave the medicin, had all side effects with medicin, be carefull getting my sleep, walks, and start gym, to get rid of the 90 pounds i've gained by the medicin, and it help me to be on Keto too.
The generation of psychiatry. I was labeled bipolar 2 then with drugs it was bupolar 1. I was dying of over medication. Instead look though the eyes of trauma. C ptsd looks like bipolar. But I don't do tradition drug pushing.
The keto diet is very helpful! You can also watch Bipolarcast with Dr.Ian Campbell and Matt Bazucki. They both have bipolar disorder and use the keto diet to help them cope with their bipolar.
Thank you for sharing your family, I feel just as grateful as you to have a partner who is capable of giving me the support I need, although sometimes the inner voices speak to me with shame, but you give me hope and transmit joy to me.
As someone pursuing medicine who recently got diagnosed with Bipolar I, this video is absolutely Godsent. Thank you so much Dr. Joanna for sharing your story. It inspires me to become an amazing doctor like you one day.
First step in dealing with bipolar disorder is to acknowledge it. Your friends and family's understanding the situation really helps a lot. Its like being given the pill to be creative and optimistic and them suddenly realizing that it's not real and then you get very sad for no reason at all.
This is a very good talk. It's so hard to find anything/anyone on youTube to openly talk about one's Bipolar. Very interesting that I basically went through the same thing that led up to my Dx. In grad school, I wasn't sleeping much at all for 3 years. I didn't see it as a problem. Unfortunately, 3 years after I graduated, I basically went completely bonkers. I felt the same thing: like a ramp up effect that led to psychosis, which was the most horrible experience I have ever been through and would never wish it upon anyone. I slept maybe 2-4 hours every 4-5 days. It took years to completely recover.
sorry, pressed the wrong button😊. i was. 42, i learned a lot about it. i finally under stand why my mother left 3 sets of children including us four. i was finally able to forgive her, but she already had passed away😢. life for me has been very hard but i have learned to trust everyone, be strong and as happy as i can. this is and music has helped me survive all this time. i really want to live 100 years!😊
The presenter spoke of the gift of hope this dr had during her illness - everyone does not get this hope. After a friends close episode of psychosis while studying medicine in the 4th year - there was no hope but a shutting down and a life of exactly what the presenter said loss of identity job / relationships and generally a low quality life. I’m glad this was picked up on rather than just all the positives in this drs life.
After watching a thousand videos on depression as a result of my first psychiatrist mis diagnosing me with just a deep depression. I recently went to a néw psychiatrist who diagnosed me with bipolar disorder and this video just hit me because the doc explained exactly what I was also going through. Love this video.
Thank you, Joanna, your story is incredibly moving and so hopeful. Being in the driver's seat when it comes to your own health - what a powerful message that every person with BD needs to hear.
I am glad in your area that they took you to the hospital. Not my case, but i did the whole show up to an airport thing in ATL. So, thank you for sharing your story. Hopefully, I’ll be able to share mine. Well, this was my second episode. But yah i relate to all that you spoke on. Thank you for sharing this!
Really incredible and interesting. I had my first maniac phase in year 1990. In fact, very very painful condition that was. My father and all of my family was there. What Sympathy really is, I then realized. I had a series of trigger and hospitalzed dozen times in past 35 years. Bipolar Disorder is a nightmare for the patient as well as the dearest one. Thanks Joanna for sharing such an insightful discussion.
This is the first time i came across this channel. What an absolute gift this is - such a lot of wisdom and kindness in both these women. And so very brave. Thank you again, for making the time and space to share these personal stories with us. Suffering is a teacher. Learned that from another wise and compassiinate lady - Pema Chodron. Its a beautiful beautiful gift to the world to take your suffering and transform it into something so beautiful for yourself. And then share it with everyone!!
I can relate to the mania & depression. However, I can't relate to being able to have a successful career etc. I am significantly impaired by bipolar 1 disorder & PTSD despite treatment. My clinicians say it's permanent & this is as good as it gets (I can't work fulltime etc).
Been living with bipolar disorder since early twenties...now 53 yrs. old...been battling depressed episodes mostly...finding the right cocktail of medications is challenging...thanks for sharing your journey...
I have a bipolar 1 diagnosis. My manic episodes were more about not sleeping and buying everything on the planet! I needed at all that stuff, at least I thought I did at the time. I haven’t had a ton of experience with psychosis since becoming an adult, but I did as a teen. I’ve been hospitalized twice, but amazingly not in 6 years. Most of that time I’ve had a wonderful job as a Special Education teacher, where I often work with kids with mental illnesses. My experiences give me a completely different view of the struggles that they face. I don’t think I ever had a teacher who understood why I was such a troubled student. I say that because of what you talked about in relation to finding meaning. It’s so important! Now my swings are mostly functional. It’s nearly always super hard, especially the depression. I just came out of a major 3 month depression and can feel the mania coming. At least now I know what it is.
hospital stays didn’t help me, i just met people that had bipolar too. thier episodes were worse than mine! one guy had raped and murdered someone during a manic another walked all across the u.s. and back ack. she lives in cali like i do. scary! i can’t sleep for sometimes a whole week none stop and get extremely angry and irritable!
i get depression so bad i have triedto kill myself! even when i was a kid! if it wasn’t for music i wouldn’t be alive today. i left my husband for almost 20 years because we were arguing always every day and i couldn’t take the stress any longer! i never have had a true friend. still don’t very sad and lonely!
i can’t cope well with working so i quit one job and lost the other. i have had a very hard life because bipolar 1 has dominated my whole life! i just keep telling myself to be strong and happy! man i have episodes often and mostof the timethey last a long time. from mostof the experiences i’ve had, i can’t trust anyone and i have no friends. lifereally sucks! oh well…
@cindysutteranimalsfunny918 I'm in the same situation with severe bipolar Mania we have to accept in our lives I've already accepted that we are going to be marginalized and we are probably going to die prematurely suffering in pain and agony
Thank you for sharing! I am having my son watch this because he too had a manic and depressive episode with psychosis five years ago. He is still recovering because I feel like he has fears to get back out there because of what he remembers he may have done or the fear of losing control again even though he is on medication. I hope watching this will help him and with your experience you will be amazing at helping these individuals who have this brain disorder.
Dr. Jarecki is so inspirational. A shining light. Mood disorders run in my family. I was wondering if she ever hesitated about having children given the genetic vulnerability bipolar can create? and if so, how she overcame any hesitation?
This is incredibly helpful and hopeful. Thank you for the kindest, clearest, and most hopeful sharing I have found as I try to understand and support a beloved family member. You have given me a path to being a better support for her ..thank you so much.
Wow! I admire you! I’m so glad you’re doing well now. Your story helped so much to understand better mental health disorders and how important is the support of family and true friends 🙏🥰 God bless you !
I have treated rapid cycling bipolar disorder with auditory and visual psychosis. I treated her with estradiol as an antidepressant and progesterone aa a mood stabilizer. Worked like a charm. Health is about physiology and lifestyle. Look up neurosteroid. P.S. Magnesium oil(magnesium chloride) spray helps nearly everything. Store only in glass bottles. Make it yourself.
I wonder if you would be able to tell me if I am really bi polar as I don't have that type of mania.I am attending psychiatrist and am on venlafaxine and have been for years and a very small 2.5 doze of olanzapine started 2 days ago.Nightmares every night for so long but think it was when venlafaxine was increased.But so hard to remember things now and times.Am wondering if it is more hormonal but just don't know.Depression since my late teens but nothing like this.Its swings of low low depression and then terrible agitation and I am mentally drained.62 years old and 50 or so when things started to change.I live in Scotland hence asking you .
I feel many times people go off their meds especially when they're young. They don't want to be controlled.they want to live it up.or their dosage is too high and they feel sluggish. I fought being medicated until I was in my 50s now in my mid 60s I've been stable for the last 5 yrs&im a happy camper.
Thank you, Dr. Joanna for sharing your story! "Discovered the code to happiness" Yeah, i can relate to that. "Going to teach the world how beautiful life can be" . It's really comforting to hear someone else sharing this feeling, and more over, that a peer validates that this is not healthy, this is something one need to let go of. 9:40 "I knew the secret to life" There is something soothing of hearing im not the only one, and that it is not the path. And things in the world being put there "for me". But also yes, the aftermath. The shame, the guilty. So much of what you say Dr. Joanna resonates deeply with me and helps me recognize the part of my psyke that are not well.
A beautiful, powerful, witness. Thank you both so much for making this available. Have been profoundly frustrated watching a loved one suffer by continuing to deny the diagnosis given by 3 psychiatrists. The situation is made worse by the imposition of the grandiose behavior on those closest, who sadly, are dwindling in number. I don’t mean to end on a negative note though. This conversation has been tremendously inspiring. Thank you again!🕊
This is kind of refreshing to hear, but after 20 years I don't even have a pdoc and can't find one in the city. The inconsistencies in treatment and also the issues of doctors just vanishing haven't done a damn thing for my health and I'm sure it's the same for others, especially if they have dual diagnosis, etc. I wish I found this channel sooner as all the videos I have found are really informative and interesting. Sub'd
Absolutely A+++ video . Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼✝️ My daughter just had this diagnosis, and experienced a similar psychosis involving heading to an airport as well . This video brought so much HOPE. Thank you , please continue to share your story😊 to inspire Others
Thank you!! It is possible to live and thrive !!! I just had my first child, and the pregnancy and postpartum was chaos, but after research and more discussion with my doctor, we will be trying for #2. I’ve had consistent work, and managed to keep my relationships intact through multiple episodes. I studied bioengineering and then got a masters in theological philosophy. And I love the parallels in our stories!
ithe last relationship i had was extremely bad he was nice at first but gradually he became very abusive both mentally and emotionally! i as a strong person and lived like that for almost 20 years. i finally cameto my senses and left him. he had me beleving that absolutely no one loved me and that i was nothing but human waste! i really hate him and i can’t trust anymore! as it is, i’ve never had any friends, i still don’t.my daughter doesn’t believe in bipolar and she is a registered nurse! so i never have any sypathy from her! she told me that only people that are sick are people that are dieing! she refuses to listen to me or tries to understand me! so won’t talk to her even when she doesn’t feel well… do you blame me? this was the last time i will take her abuse! i thnk sometimes that i willdie alone and totally unhappy.
Dr. Joanna Jerecki, thank you for this beautiful, powerful interview! You covered so many facets of your life which is so helpful to others, especially the family who loves their person who has this disorder! You have given me more ideas on how to be more helpful. Thank you for opening up to us, and sharing your journey. You ROCK!
Thank you. I was tuned in to it all. I relaxed to the times when your husband needed to step in for a few weeks. In my journey, I have felt caught off guard with depressive symptoms showing up. They seem out of the blue. I'll like to know more about the Oops times. Normal, common, why? I can now say I don't want to go down too low again and try and be aware enough to check in with my psychiatrist and look at a medication adjustment.
Things the industry can do differently is please help families understand how and what to do when our loved ones are in long term psychosis but do not believe they are. Also how to help with medication adaptation.
An incredible story and thank you for sharing Joanna. What a great inspiration to anyone who has experienced bipolar episode or has a family member with the diagnosis.
Wow, delusion of reference I had first time at my 21-22 -- that was awesome feeling of being special, when you go from sign to another sign point by point ...but there is nothing at the end of this journey...
I remember that metro station in my city, where I came by those signs and standed waiting for a crowd of my mates and fellows, who will present something special for me. After few tens of minuted I realised that is not real and went home...
Well you do have an insight mosts shrinks don't have, you know also very well how to get someone through as long as they want to deeper inside themselves.
Thank you for sharing . Do you take new patients? My adult daughter was just diagnosed with bipolar 1 and she is terrified and deeply depressed by this. She is suicidal and think that her life is over.
So helpful thank you. I really could do with literally going to bed at 9pm every night as i feel so much better with this. The problem I have is with social invites out to dinner perhaps with people that dont know that i have this condition, and i dont want them to know. How do I get round this? To say no. Bc if I say i.cant make things in the past they just try their best to reschedule. This itself makes me feel very stressed. I have a dinner date next week and I am already feeling anxious about it, plus also when i am out in the night ( with all the dark around me) i feel even worse than i do in the day. Any advise would be hugely appreciated from anyone. Thank you and wish you all good health ✨
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Thank you doctor. I have this diagnosis since 1988 and have SSA Disability since 1994. Married to a woman with two daughters of her own I have known several ancestors of mine, including RTS Lowell, were notorious for having this vulnerability. I have had ECT and many meds and treatments but I had to move my family out of CA to get better treatment. I’m in Health Care during this time and being 62 I will retire as I do not trust my abilities. In 2011 I was in Washington DC for 4 months in a Ketamine Study which was the only effective medicine I have had. The costs are prohibitive since my wife of 27 years Divorced me from CA. The Divorce has been final for 7 years. Having NO CONTACT from any of them, I began hallucinating and having lucid dreams of her recently along with Charles Bonnet (boNAY) Syndrome and hearing things as a result of loss of vision and hearing. Several weeks ago I awoke to her in bed with me. Her and those with her have keys to my doors which the owner of the book store denied giving out. Some extremely uncommon and vivid hallucinations occurred along with Delusions which I attempted to engage with WHILE FULLY AWAKE (5 PM). This and my step daughters with others were here almost every evening and I asked for an ambulance while virtually every cop in the proximity was there saying they searched everywhere and there is no one here. “Are you hallucinating? “ And I replied “Yes. I have been spraying gallons of pesticide to kill a large infestation of bugs. Maybe the exposure to this is causing some of the Delusions.” I can’t begin to describe how horrid and creepy these visions are as this is a Family Channel. I’m scared. My cPTSD is reactivated and Latuda is not stopping it. I sold my Toyota in an attempt to avoid being unhoused. After that I’m homeless.
This is not confabulation. I’m condensing it a bit. I have an appointment again with a PhD PsyDoc tomorrow testing for Dementia. I give up.
Thank you for being a psychiatrist Joanna. I am inspired by your story. I have had very difficult experiences with male doctors and psychiatrists. I have been molested, once as an adult and my mom caught something happening when i was a child. I’m grateful to have had two excellent female gp’s, one which is currently my doctor. I really appreciate that you are an advocate of hope for your patients. In 2019 the psychiatrist said to my dad while i was present, she will never be normal again. I was hospitalized for mania and aware i was very high strung. I’ll never really forget those words. It leaves me thinking I never was normal but I doubt that man had much faith in my abilities or the richness of my mind or what I observe and write about. I have done some amazing things in my life and i have also gone through alot of trauma and abuse. I have personality defects separate from my bipolar that contribute to my life not having panned out the way my brother or uncle’s have after their diagnosis. I realize there is still a chance to find more of a purpose than what my mental health allows at the moment. For me it’s not just bipolar, it’s trauma, depression from environmental factors. However i’m really grateful for odsp and subsidized therapy for victims of abuse. I’m grateful for people that love me. And I am grateful as you are for the insight that bipolar has given me. It helps give me the courage to shut down people who try to say people take advantage of welfare and disability. Life’s a struggle. So many people are living with trauma. I feel uplifted when I greet members of the community and volunteer my help. And I do some gardening for some income. When you speak of purpose I feel I do have more to offer. I just haven’t figured out how to get out of my slump.
i think my diagnosis is off. When my psychiatrist diagnosed me, I was in the middle of clearing out our friend's backyard of fallen trees from the ice storm. I didn't get to tell her everything that happened in my past, just what I could remember in that tiny time frame of my first visit, it was a tele visit, November 2020. She diagnosed me as bipolar 2, but I didn't get to tell her the 3 times I was catatonic, and it landed me in the ER on one episode. I had 2 that day. Before those there was one where I blacked out for hours at least, my husband found me sitting cross legged on the bed facing the headboard end of the bed, eyes wide open and I'm not responding to his yelling at me. It took him 3 times of yelling my name to get me coherent. There are a few things I need to tell her but, I tried before, and she got irritated with me. So, I'm going to try to see if she will listen to my husband. He's a retired police Lt. 22 years of police work. Some of that was mental health training, he knew I was bipolar before I did. He told my doctor everything he has witnessed and what he had learned in the training classes. He met my dad and put 2 and 2 together and got 2 undiagnosed bipolar people in front of him! I am so sorry; I am rambling on. But if she doesn't listen to my husband, I am afraid I will be going to another doctor to get a 2nd opinion.
Being bipolar is not a death sentence: I have bipolar disorder tipe 2 with comorbid ADHD. I have been through tough times in life, but I didn't accept being bipolar and didn't follow treatments, so I was always in crises. After being hospitalized for 12 days and undergoing treatment and convulsive therapy, I got better and accepted the diagnosis. Since then, I haven't had strong crises anymore. My life has changed: I went to university, studied Law, became a lawyer, did postgraduate studies, and work a lot. I live a normal life, but I avoid coffee, energy drinks, and alcohol. I exercise six times a week and sleep at least six hours a day. Additionally, I regularly see mental health professionals: I go to a psychologist twice a month and to a psychiatrist once a month. I take slow-release lithium carbonate as prescribed. We continue the fight with great determination. Disorder Type 2. My family does not know, even when I was hospitalised a few years ago. They did not find out because my two partners at my law firm organised everything with the psychologist and psychiatrist. Only my partners know about my bipolar disorder. My current girlfriend does not know that I have bipolar disorder. I am working with my psychologist to decide whether or not to tell my girlfriend. I believe the worst part of life for someone with bipolar disorder is the stigma and prejudice. Everyone thinks a person with bipolar disorder is always aggressive. I have never been aggressive with anyone, even during moments of crisis. I have never driven a car irresponsibly. I live a normal life, work a lot, and study constantly because my profession requires me to stay updated. However, I do take my medication. Never stop fighting for a better day, and believe in yourself. Hugs from Brazil.
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
@@katehamilton7240 I agree with you that living with bipolar disorder is not easy. However, if you have the right treatment, with medical and psychological support, and you commit to the treatment, I believe you can live a normal life. I'm not sure how the treatment for people with bipolar disorder is in the United States, but in Brazil, the government provides free treatment. Here, you don't have to pay to go to the hospital, have any type of surgery, or pay for an ambulance in case of an accident. Additionally, you can use a good health insurance plan. I use my health insurance plan, which is one of the best in Brazil.
I have bipolar disorder type 2 and comorbidity with ADHD, so my treatment is a bit more challenging. I have had a suicide attempt and many financial losses from buying things I didn't need or paying for services I didn't require. I've never had problems with the law, but after many issues, I realized there was no other way and accepted being admitted to a private mental health clinic. There, I underwent several treatments, such as electroconvulsive therapy, among others. At first, I didn't accept any of it, but my doctor and psychologist were firm with me about the importance of accepting the treatment. All the bad things happened because I didn't accept the illness and stopped taking the medications. Once I accepted the illness and started following the treatment correctly, taking all the medications as prescribed, everything changed. I was the one who benefited the most.
It's been over 10 years that I've continued with the same doctor and psychologist. Today, I see my doctor every two months because I am stabilized, but I see him sooner if I notice something is wrong. I also see my psychologist every week. I exercise six times a week, don't drink alcohol, don't drink coffee, and follow a balanced diet with almost no salt and carbohydrates, because I take lithium carbonate 900 mg, zolpidem 10 mg to sleep when needed, and in the morning, I take Ritalin 10 mg for ADHD, but I don't take Ritalin on Saturdays and Sundays.
I work a lot as a lawyer, writing and reading extensively, as I deal with many complex cases. I live a normal life. My advice to you is: don't expect doctors, psychologists, and medications to perform miracles in your life; you have to do your part by taking all the medications correctly, always visiting your doctor and psychologist, and never lying to them. I even wrote a mathematical formula for us bipolars to stay well: B + MP + P + EP = NLS. B (bipolar), MP (psychiatrist), P (psychologist), EP (self-effort), NLS (normal life and success). Never give up. Good luck, greetings from Brazil.
30 years old now and haven't been back to the hospital since my initial diagnosis of Bipolar 1 at age 25. I can honestly say life continues to get better. I own two homes now, work as a Senior Consultant, and like to travel the world. In my opinion living with Bipolar is all about finding a formula that works for you. For me this means the right combo of medication, therapy, friendships, exercise, goals, and diet.
What about people who can't afford therapy?
@@leeanagrant860 the unfortunate reality is that good mental health requires an investment
@@leeanagrant860Look up for the Baszucki Group for help.
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
The awful part is how one's perspective on what is going on in the world around you totally switches (in my present situation - which has persisted for at least 20 years now) the switching can happen several times a day. But lately, the depressive episodes can last for 4 days and those depressions are total, complete with physical pain, crying episodes, extreme fatigue and overwhelming sensitivity to rejection. Depressions switch - briefly - to that manic "super-me" who talks non-stop, feels like she can solve EVERYBODY'S life problems and literally CANNOT relax. Circadian rhythm/ sleep hygiene totally falls by the wayside... And very quickly, i switch back to deep depression. I have developed allergies to most medications such that i no longer attend a psychiatrist and rarely leave my house anymore - too afraid of getting upset in public. It is awful. Yes. Soul destroying 😔
In the past you were not able to work in mental health if you had a mental illness. I always thought these people would have the most insight if a sufferer.
My niece has bipolar disorder and has been a psychiatric nurse for many years. She had some bad years but is now doing great, is married and is currently expecting her second child. So proud of her ❤️❤️❤️
I believe that someday I will be able to say very similar things about my niece who has Bipolar 1 disorder. I feel so hopeful for her after hearing some of the incredible stories that I have heard, including your niece's, that she can have a great life. With some challenges, of course. I love her so much. I really want to help her so much more than I am capable of, but she is WORTH it and I am educating myself more and more. She is a beautiful and wonderful and a very talented young woman. I can see her becoming a Psychiatrist someday, or anything she wants. She is young in her early 20s, and still trying to figure all of this out. Thank you for sharing your story about your niece, it means so much! ♥
@davidandshawnamahoney6696I have severe bipolar one I've tried all my life to accomplish things the medication in the weight gain in the akathisia is devastating unfortunately it's very unlikely your daughter will ever amount to anything successfully in life I'm sorry to tell you this but it is the Grimm reality..
wow 🎉 that is good news 🎉
Bipolar/ mental conditions usually starts popping up in their 20s - that’s what the psychiatrists say. Are there Local support groups that those with bipolar can attend,? With people their age 🙂
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
This is incredible. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s very eerie as your description of your psychosis is almost exactly the same as what I experienced 10 years ago. All the way to delusion of reference, following signs and numbers, going to the airport thinking there is a plane waiting for me, walking around with nothing but a credit card in the airport 3 o’clock in the morning telling people a plane is waiting for me and it’s a matter of life and death. Same as with you the police came. I was incredibly lucky that they didn’t shoot me. They were walking towards me with guns drawn and in a moment of sanity I immediately laid on the ground. I was put in an ambulance and woke up in the hospital the next day. I have been living with this disorder since my late teens and was officially diagnosed at 23. There is hope. With the right medication, which took a year to dial in, and some behavioral changes I’ve had a successful personal and professional life since the last psychotic episode 10 years ago. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still a struggle but I’ve learned to notice red flags and address them. Therapy really helps. It’s a never ending battle.
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Thanks for sharing
I had the EXACT same experience a few years back! So crazy no explanation
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As a freshly graduated doctor who is trying to go into a non clinical field because of my diagnosis this gave me hope of being able to continue my passion.
Hang in there. Me too. I am still in med school.
You can do it ! Good luck ❤
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
I am dealing with people who do not understand my condition. You are a lucky person.
Send them this interview, it might help. I am trying to educate myself to help my beautiful, sweet and talented niece. I wish you all of the best!
I wonder if it's because she is a psychiatrist. If she wasn't she would have been treated like all the rest of us.
I understand
I am also dealing with people who do not understand this English. I attempted to stop meditation at the request of my sister who wanted to “see me off of medication”. Then, during a manic episode, I snapped at her in an argument, and she is holding that against me, and will for years to come. I’ve been told over and over again that I just need to clean up my act and take better care of myself and then the bipolar disorder wouldn’t be difficult to tolerate. Relationships are difficult for me and I have no friends. Now I’ve pushed my family away. Things are getting difficult to handle.
I can so relate to your story. I was diagnosed when I was 29ish in the 80s after experiencing post partum psychosis. I am so thankful for the medications that keep me healthy. The whole experience was unpleasant (terrible?), but because I had good insurance, a great hospital, and some good psychiatrists, I thrive. Now, sunshine, healthy eating, exercise, good friends, family and God also help me stay sane.
Do you dissociate a lot I do 24/7
If you are asking me, no. I recommend talking to a doctor about that. I learned that being very honest with my doctors about what was in my head, rather than trying to appear ok all the time, really helped them help me.@@ThatgirlLondon.
Unless your employer is happy to have you regularly incapacitated for weeks on end, which is what happens with bipolar, how are bipolar people employed? I have bipolar 2, so I know this only too well.
Thank you for sharing. My wife of 20 years was diagnosed with clinical depression, PTSD, schizoaffective and bipolar disorder 5 years ago. She’s been hospitalized several times and I have a unique situation because not only I’m her husband but a police officer of 17 years. She still up and down and with the possibility of having amnesia and anosognosia, she still today believes she’s OK. She is also very dangerous during her manic episodes! It’s been a living hell and pretty much every day she experiences some type of episode and it’s heart breaking for me and our kids watching her decomp. The only way I can get her help is to file a mental health warrant application where the crisis team and the police have to pick her up at our house.
I am so sorry😢 hope she can find healing and accepts to be treated
Praying for your wife to get better..Dad had the same issues. Married to Mum for 4 years and then she got mentally sick,she was dangerous,he also had us kids to take care of!
How blessed she is to have you. So many with mental health issues are murdered by police just because they don't understand. Thank you for keeping her safe.
I've been living your exact situation for almost 25 years. We have 2 boys 20 and 23 now. My husband is currently in a rehab for self medication. I have yet to find good, real help thats actually affordable
I definitely felt like my life shattered after my diagnosis. I felt happy that i knew more about myself and made so much sense to my past and behaviors with moods. Its been difficult to find employment unfortunately. As an ex cop with no criminal record its so disheartening that people have such a negative view in my area of my disorder. Im a native American male. I feel guilty ever thinking about getting on disability. I exercise 2-3 hours every day. Im more than capable to work. It feels like no one will give me a chance.
Hold on brother, something will open up. Try high intensity training for bipolar and lithium orothate. Research them and talk with your doc. As she said in the interview everything is now up to you. You can make it, yes you can......
Tuck, don't give up! Now more than ever Police need someone with mental health training. Go to college and get a certificate in that, which can maybe take months, but would make you a more desirable fit to any police department! Remember- your diagnosis is NOT your prognosis! Good luck, you will get there, I am sure! Just believe, and take the steps.
I’m 44, diagnosed at 42 bipolar type 2. Spent over 25 years undiagnosed, but treated as major depression w/ antidepressants the whole time.
Nearly 2 years in on trying to nail down a med cocktail that works for me. It’s exhausting and adds to my depression. I don’t know if I’m on the right path with the meds, but I’m 100% in with it. Lost my father last year, unbearable grief in that and I’ve gained over 50lbs. Single mom, unemployed, and am lost in life, especially with who I “really” am because I’m now looking back in life not knowing if my hypomania/mania and hopeful with purpose was truly a part of me. Anyhow, I’m rambling… my question is- I now have a proper diagnosis, I’m fully on board with trying meds to get my depression under better control, ongoing therapy the last 10 years, but I feel so isolated and hopeless with what my life is at the moment. I know I’m taking the right steps, but I need some reassurance that it will be ok… that my children will be ok.
Everything will be ok 💜 it’s never too late to get what you want, I believe in you. From one bipolar warrior to another, much love!
I’ve just had a conversation with someone that was diagnosed with bipolar & as he explained his symptoms & experienced to me I felt so many similarities that I had to go met with my doctor. I was diagnosed with BP 2 … Im happy to finally have a better understanding of my last 8 years of confusion. Torture & why I’ve faced hell in the human form . Now i have to start this journey of finding my best way to recover & rebuild my life !
I was diagnosed several years ago with Bipolar2. The increase/decrease/change of meds have not been effective. Through the debilitating symptoms, even landing me in the hospital, I began advocating for myself because no one was “hearing me”. Well, I’m 54 and requested a full hormone panel. Beyond frustrated that not one doctor on this journey thought to order this. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry when I saw the results. I literally have ZERO estrogen in my body. No wonder I feel like I’m about to “lose it” at any given moment. All this to share that our age and where we are on the spectrum of pre/mid/post menopausal clearly plays a huge part for our mental health and one can mimic the other. I’m finally seeing a flicker of light in what has been a very dark tunnel. Thank you for being a supportive voice for this. 🙏💞
Can bipolar disorder cause irregular menestral periods
@@stevechemageri5520 that is an excellent question. I had irregular periods my entire life and never thought it might be connected. 🤷🏻♀️
My condition may be very Similar to you. May I ask if you started hormone replacement therapy? This is my fifth year after menopause and all years were such a hell.
Made me tear up a bit at the end at the thank you parts. For those of you who do have good Moms and family members... Cherish them if they're still around. Love you mom! This production team needs an award for making this look like a netflix special
Why bipolar reoccure after every 3/6 years. Waiting
This lady is a hero! As someone with Bipolar I (often considered the more chronic type), I relate to her on like 80% of these types of experiences, all at a similar age(s). She has come so far and is terribly impressive. Her calling it a "vulnerability" rather than a less sensitive term like mental illness or even nurodivergency has already changed my outlook on life.
I should also mention that I was diagnosed at age 26.
Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story. My husband is struggling with BD1, he is currently manic and not wanting to identity or accept his diagnosis. It’s been so tough on our family but most of all it pains me to see him struggle. I love how you can use your story to help others.
Continue to love him. He needs you. I'll be praying for your family.
Sending love. My husband was also recently diagnosed at 37 years old after a manic episode and subsequent hospitalization. Hang in there.
my mum is the same😢
Praying for you all.
I just received my BP II diagnosis. After years of just treating it as depression. How lucky for me to start my journey with this podcast to learn more about bipolar disorder. Thank you!
The telling of your success story has become some of the best medication for those who suffer with Bypolor...
That’s why personality factors are so crucial when it comes to this condition. They determine how you approach the situation and what you decide to do about it.
The best two Consultant Psychiatrist who helped me to understand my diagnosis of Bipolar 1, also had Bipolar Disorder. They were brilliant and guided me in so many ways to live the life I have today.
Who!? I need help for my husband!
As someone with a BP1 diagnosis, I have always been scared to go after my dreams and goals, like what if someone judges me? I recently came out publicly on my social media about my conditions (I have ADHD as well). I have just found the right medication combo for me, which has taken me since 2019 to figure out with my psychiatrists help. Bipolar isn't easy for me to live with, but it's my journey, and that's beautiful. It's what makes me, me.
As someone with bipolar 1 I have to say this is hands down the most accurate portrayal of an episode I’ve ever heard. It’s wild how similar these episodes can be across the board. Thank you for hosting and to the speaker for her insight. I’m having a tough go at the moment and I needed to hear all of this tremendously and to hear a real person make it through and find a true sense of fulfillment and happiness. Yeah I really needed to see that. ❤
please keep as strong as you can and ry hard to find good things in your life. itshard enough to survive in this world. we have stick together! there has to be someone who cares about you!
Very profound story with that positive energy 🙏💎🙏I’m bipolar since 1998 , experienced 5 psychosis, and actually I embraced these episodes because it gave me in the aftermath a deep insight in my self.Acceptance is a very important part of the healing process.And about the lifetime medication? Just a few pills a day, so what ?😌As an artist I live a more than happy life in freedom. Of course some structure but actually no boundaries.All matters is the right point of view.I’m very grateful that all those years I am surrounded by empathetic medical support, but you must trust your own inner self….Thank you for your recognizable blog.🙏😘🙏
I am diagnosed bipolar 2. Im from quebec, i dont take medication. I deal with all the symptoms myself. I understand my condition profoundly. Ive travelled to africa 15 times in 4 years. I go around helpong people, feeding children, and enjoying life. Its eally not easy. Everytime i land here ( i just landed 3 days ago in rwanda ) i go through profoud hypomani, i understand this. I take quitiapine to help me get back on a sleep patter in this time zone. I usually become hypersexual , and extremely irritable in hypomania, but i am also extremely blessed, and unique. I no this. I have a different way of living life, o choose to lovd myself e dn with the condition and i feel like the medication would change me and not allow me to keep living this lifestyle. Its really hard to maintain relationships, especially romantic.
I really enjoyed this video. I cznt help to think how lucky your patoents are to have you..
OMG, I had something so similar when I was 65 years old and ended up in the looney bin for 17 days. I went to their outpatient hospital for at least 2 years 5 days a week with 5 hours of group therapy. The people were fabulous and told me I should stay away from my sisters. I have been sober for 36 years and will be 79 in May. I never had another episode and not taking meds.
Honestly. thank you so much for your story. Also I have been an Interior Designer all my life and had a great life until I had a horrible experience with my sisters that put me in psychosis 😢❤🎉
I am so grateful for this open and meaningful share. My biggest issue with mental health in the US is affordable help. My husband has been tossed around, dismissed, dropped off at scary hospitals, hurt, overmedicated. How do you stay well with no money
Thank you for sharing this true story. I have suffered with bipolar for 4o years.
Wow. Your story is amazing and I’m flabbergasted how much relate. I’m not officially diagnosed with bipolar yet. But my psychiatrist had thought that’s what i have. I didn’t think. Now I’m seeing maybe I’m type two. My psychiatrist also said the same thing to me about studying psychology.
You are exactly the doc I would want caring for myself or a loved one. There can be no greater help than the understanding you can bring to the tools/meds. ❤
Thank you soooo much for your honest, authentic, and inspiring disclosure and share. Im a mental health therapist and Veteran who is recently diagnosed diagnosed with bipolar and am leaning into the effects PTSD has on triggering episodes....but absolutely how routine and sleep.....and lifestlye kept me somewhat on a psuedo track. I love the hope and focus on turning bipolar disorder into bipolar order.
The side effects of medication had kept me on a roller coaster for longer than I wish to think about. Thank you for addressing that and being a psychiatrist who stays on it. You are rare! This youtube channel saves lives and is such a gift and resource. Thank you. So grateful for all of you doing this work. Keep up the amazingly helpful work.
Thank you for the kind words, all the best to you ❤️
I can definitely relate to this. I have bipolar disorder type 1. On DEPAKOTE 500 mg to 750 mg. The intense feelings of anxiety are very uncomfortable.
This is a very informative interview. Bipolar affects people differently. It can be a real struggle even after years of having this diagnosis.
I really related to the psychotic and the Doctors depressive episodes.
Unfortunately the depressive episodes for me have kicked in again.
I think if you have a good support system that’s a bonus. Some of us don’t have that. And also unfortunately if the condition has affected the majority of one’s life and not being able to work for long periods of time really affects one’s self esteem and quality of life.
Mourning the life I wish I had.
Thank you for this. And for being so open and honest as a psychiatrist.
I'm thankful to hear the message that diagnosis does not make a prognosis. This gives me hope 😊
Thanks for another insight of BD, noted*
After living in "hell" for 35 years, without knowing,, i got "parked" on medicin, not seeing a psychiatrists more than 1 time!!. I have looked back, and know how to "see" the signs. Have read, watch a lot. I have come to the conclusion after 6 years, to leave the medicin, had all side effects with medicin, be carefull getting my sleep, walks, and start gym, to get rid of the 90 pounds i've gained by the medicin, and it help me to be on Keto too.
Thank you so much for sharing your journey to getting a diagnosis and finding what works for you. Keep going.
The generation of psychiatry. I was labeled bipolar 2 then with drugs it was bupolar 1. I was dying of over medication. Instead look though the eyes of trauma. C ptsd looks like bipolar. But I don't do tradition drug pushing.
If anything end psychiatric dsm nonsense
@@GregoryBoyce-wf2ie got PTSD too,, just to sum it up :/
The keto diet is very helpful! You can also watch Bipolarcast with Dr.Ian Campbell and Matt Bazucki. They both have bipolar disorder and use the keto diet to help them cope with their bipolar.
Thank you for sharing your family, I feel just as grateful as you to have a partner who is capable of giving me the support I need, although sometimes the inner voices speak to me with shame, but you give me hope and transmit joy to me.
Healthy lifestyle and sleep most important. 62 and diagnosed at 19
As someone pursuing medicine who recently got diagnosed with Bipolar I, this video is absolutely Godsent. Thank you so much Dr. Joanna for sharing your story. It inspires me to become an amazing doctor like you one day.
39:20 This is what I wish someone told me. I'm glad I've been able to tell others when they needed it.
First step in dealing with bipolar disorder is to acknowledge it. Your friends and family's understanding the situation really helps a lot. Its like being given the pill to be creative and optimistic and them suddenly realizing that it's not real and then you get very sad for no reason at all.
This is a very good talk. It's so hard to find anything/anyone on youTube to openly talk about one's Bipolar. Very interesting that I basically went through the same thing that led up to my Dx. In grad school, I wasn't sleeping much at all for 3 years. I didn't see it as a problem. Unfortunately, 3 years after I graduated, I basically went completely bonkers. I felt the same thing: like a ramp up effect that led to psychosis, which was the most horrible experience I have ever been through and would never wish it upon anyone. I slept maybe 2-4 hours every 4-5 days. It took years to completely recover.
sorry, pressed the wrong button😊. i was. 42, i learned a lot about it. i finally under stand why my mother left 3 sets of children including us four. i was finally able to forgive her, but she already had passed away😢. life for me has been very hard but i have learned to trust everyone, be strong and as happy as i can. this is and music has helped me survive all this time. i really want to live 100 years!😊
I am so grateful for Dr. Johanna sharing her story... ❤
Ditto
The presenter spoke of the gift of hope this dr had during her illness - everyone does not get this hope. After a friends close episode of psychosis while studying medicine in the 4th year - there was no hope but a shutting down and a life of exactly what the presenter said loss of identity job / relationships and generally a low quality life. I’m glad this was picked up on rather than just all the positives in this drs life.
After watching a thousand videos on depression as a result of my first psychiatrist mis diagnosing me with just a deep depression. I recently went to a néw psychiatrist who diagnosed me with bipolar disorder and this video just hit me because the doc explained exactly what I was also going through. Love this video.
Incredible vid! Thanks for making this! I struggle with the shame from post-psychosis life.
Thank you, Joanna, your story is incredibly moving and so hopeful. Being in the driver's seat when it comes to your own health - what a powerful message that every person with BD needs to hear.
We need more people to talk about this
I am glad in your area that they took you to the hospital. Not my case, but i did the whole show up to an airport thing in ATL. So, thank you for sharing your story. Hopefully, I’ll be able to share mine. Well, this was my second episode. But yah i relate to all that you spoke on. Thank you for sharing this!
Really incredible and interesting. I had my first maniac phase in year 1990. In fact, very very painful condition that was. My father and all of my family was there. What Sympathy really is, I then realized. I had a series of trigger and hospitalzed dozen times in past 35 years. Bipolar Disorder is a nightmare for the patient as well as the dearest one.
Thanks Joanna for sharing such an insightful discussion.
This is the first time i came across this channel. What an absolute gift this is - such a lot of wisdom and kindness in both these women. And so very brave. Thank you again, for making the time and space to share these personal stories with us.
Suffering is a teacher. Learned that from another wise and compassiinate lady - Pema Chodron.
Its a beautiful beautiful gift to the world to take your suffering and transform it into something so beautiful for yourself. And then share it with everyone!!
I can relate to the mania & depression. However, I can't relate to being able to have a successful career etc. I am significantly impaired by bipolar 1 disorder & PTSD despite treatment. My clinicians say it's permanent & this is as good as it gets (I can't work fulltime etc).
Been living with bipolar disorder since early twenties...now 53 yrs. old...been battling depressed episodes mostly...finding the right cocktail of medications is challenging...thanks for sharing your journey...
I am 46. All things are same
I have a bipolar 1 diagnosis. My manic episodes were more about not sleeping and buying everything on the planet! I needed at all that stuff, at least I thought I did at the time. I haven’t had a ton of experience with psychosis since becoming an adult, but I did as a teen. I’ve been hospitalized twice, but amazingly not in 6 years. Most of that time I’ve had a wonderful job as a Special Education teacher, where I often work with kids with mental illnesses. My experiences give me a completely different view of the struggles that they face. I don’t think I ever had a teacher who understood why I was such a troubled student. I say that because of what you talked about in relation to finding meaning. It’s so important! Now my swings are mostly functional. It’s nearly always super hard, especially the depression. I just came out of a major 3 month depression and can feel the mania coming. At least now I know what it is.
hospital stays didn’t help me, i just met people that had bipolar too. thier episodes were worse than mine! one guy had raped and murdered someone during a manic another walked all across the u.s. and back ack. she lives in cali like i do. scary! i can’t sleep for sometimes a whole week none stop and get extremely angry and irritable!
i get depression so bad i have triedto kill myself! even when i was a kid! if it wasn’t for music i wouldn’t be alive today. i left my husband for almost 20 years because we were arguing
always every day and i couldn’t take the stress any longer!
i never have had a true friend. still don’t very sad and lonely!
i can’t cope well with working so i quit one job and lost the other. i have had a very hard life because bipolar 1 has dominated my whole life! i just keep telling myself to be strong and happy! man i have episodes often and mostof the timethey last a long time. from mostof the experiences i’ve had, i can’t trust anyone and i have no friends. lifereally sucks! oh well…
@cindysutteranimalsfunny918 I'm in the same situation with severe bipolar Mania we have to accept in our lives I've already accepted that we are going to be marginalized and we are probably going to die prematurely suffering in pain and agony
Joanna you're amazing
She is an inspiration! What a beautiful soul 🫂✨🫂
I was diagnosed about 12 years ago. This was really great to listen to. Her story will help a lot of people. Thank you.
Ironically, she is helping to make people happy now.
Thank you for sharing! I am having my son watch this because he too had a manic and depressive episode with psychosis five years ago. He is still recovering because I feel like he has fears to get back out there because of what he remembers he may have done or the fear of losing control again even though he is on medication. I hope watching this will help him and with your experience you will be amazing at helping these individuals who have this brain disorder.
Dr. Jarecki is so inspirational. A shining light. Mood disorders run in my family. I was wondering if she ever hesitated about having children given the genetic vulnerability bipolar can create? and if so, how she overcame any hesitation?
This is incredibly helpful and hopeful. Thank you for the kindest, clearest, and most hopeful sharing I have found as I try to understand and support a beloved family member. You have given me a path to being a better support for her ..thank you so much.
Joanna is the most beautiful soul! Thank you for this podcast!
Wow! I admire you! I’m so glad you’re doing well now. Your story helped so much to understand better mental health disorders and how important is the support of family and true friends 🙏🥰 God bless you !
I have treated rapid cycling bipolar disorder with auditory and visual psychosis. I treated her with estradiol as an antidepressant and progesterone aa a mood stabilizer. Worked like a charm. Health is about physiology and lifestyle.
Look up neurosteroid.
P.S.
Magnesium oil(magnesium chloride) spray helps nearly everything. Store only in glass bottles. Make it yourself.
I wonder if you would be able to tell me if I am really bi polar as I don't have that type of mania.I am attending psychiatrist and am on venlafaxine and have been for years and a very small 2.5 doze of olanzapine started 2 days ago.Nightmares every night for so long but think it was when venlafaxine was increased.But so hard to remember things now and times.Am wondering if it is more hormonal but just don't know.Depression since my late teens but nothing like this.Its swings of low low depression and then terrible agitation and I am mentally drained.62 years old and 50 or so when things started to change.I live in Scotland hence asking you .
This provides so much hope for people. ❤
I feel many times people go off their meds especially when they're young. They don't want to be controlled.they want to live it up.or their dosage is too high and they feel sluggish. I fought being medicated until I was in my 50s now in my mid 60s I've been stable for the last 5 yrs&im a happy camper.
Thank you for sharing. Do you mean you started medication from 50s then for 10 years by now?
@@Nomad-w8o yes in my 50s my life is so much happier and steady.
Wow our stories are very similar with dealing with bipolar 1. What an inspiring story.
Thank you, Dr. Joanna for sharing your story!
"Discovered the code to happiness" Yeah, i can relate to that. "Going to teach the world how beautiful life can be" . It's really comforting to hear someone else sharing this feeling, and more over, that a peer validates that this is not healthy, this is something one need to let go of.
9:40 "I knew the secret to life" There is something soothing of hearing im not the only one, and that it is not the path. And things in the world being put there "for me". But also yes, the aftermath. The shame, the guilty.
So much of what you say Dr. Joanna resonates deeply with me and helps me recognize the part of my psyke that are not well.
A beautiful, powerful, witness. Thank you both so much for making this available.
Have been profoundly frustrated watching a loved one suffer by continuing to deny the diagnosis given by 3 psychiatrists. The situation is made worse by the imposition of the grandiose behavior on those closest, who sadly, are dwindling in number.
I don’t mean to end on a negative note though. This conversation has been tremendously inspiring. Thank you again!🕊
Amazing to hear your journey! Absolutely inspiring. Thank you and God bless you 🙏🏾❤️🥰
I'm bipolar type 2 and generalized anxiety disorder and I have got a dug addiction it's so challenging my sleep is horrible this is great content
This is kind of refreshing to hear, but after 20 years I don't even have a pdoc and can't find one in the city. The inconsistencies in treatment and also the issues of doctors just vanishing haven't done a damn thing for my health and I'm sure it's the same for others, especially if they have dual diagnosis, etc. I wish I found this channel sooner as all the videos I have found are really informative and interesting. Sub'd
Absolutely A+++ video . Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼✝️ My daughter just had this diagnosis, and experienced a similar psychosis involving heading to an airport as well . This video brought so much HOPE. Thank you , please continue to share your story😊 to inspire Others
Wow your manic episode sounds very similar to my first manic episode. It's encouraging to hear you talk about your experience.
Thank you!! It is possible to live and thrive !!! I just had my first child, and the pregnancy and postpartum was chaos, but after research and more discussion with my doctor, we will be trying for #2.
I’ve had consistent work, and managed to keep my relationships intact through multiple episodes.
I studied bioengineering and then got a masters in theological philosophy. And I love the parallels in our stories!
ithe last relationship i had was extremely bad he was nice at first but gradually he became very abusive both mentally and emotionally! i as a strong person and lived like that for almost 20 years. i finally cameto my senses and left him. he had me beleving that absolutely no one loved me and that i was nothing but human waste! i really hate him and i can’t trust anymore! as it is, i’ve never had any friends, i still don’t.my daughter doesn’t believe in bipolar and she is a registered nurse! so i never have any sypathy from her! she told me that only people that are sick are people that are dieing! she refuses to listen to me or tries to understand me! so won’t talk to her even when she doesn’t feel well… do you blame me? this was the last time i will take her abuse! i thnk sometimes that i willdie alone and totally unhappy.
i’m happy for you and i’m glad you survived post partum. a lot of women go through that.
Thank you. I took your message and placed it into my heart. Very comforting and hopeful.
Thank you for sharing your story.❤
Dr. Joanna Jerecki, thank you for this beautiful, powerful interview! You covered so many facets of your life which is so helpful to others, especially the family who loves their person who has this disorder! You have given me more ideas on how to be more helpful. Thank you for opening up to us, and sharing your journey. You ROCK!
Thank you.
I was tuned in to it all.
I relaxed to the times when your husband needed to step in for a few weeks.
In my journey, I have felt caught off guard with depressive symptoms showing up. They seem out of the blue.
I'll like to know more about the Oops times. Normal, common, why? I can now say I don't want to go down too low again and try and be aware enough to check in with my psychiatrist and look at a medication adjustment.
I relate totally .been through that severe worthless at the bottom of the ocean
Thank you so much for sharing this. It makes me feel hopeful.
Amazing doctor and woman.
Thankyou so much for this beautiful interview 🥰❤️👍🙏❤️
I just came out of a similar episode. It’s serious fresh to share, but I am so grateful for this platform and the comments.
I am recently diagnosed at 33. A LOT of this really spells out how I've felt over the years. Thank you so much for sharing your story. ❤
Things the industry can do differently is please help families understand how and what to do when our loved ones are in long term psychosis but do not believe they are. Also how to help with medication adaptation.
I relate to this so much! Thanks to Dr Jarecki for sharing her experience!
An incredible story and thank you for sharing Joanna. What a great inspiration to anyone who has experienced bipolar episode or has a family member with the diagnosis.
This was such a valuable interview.
Thank you so much for sharing your story 🎉❤😊
Giving courage to many❤
Wow, delusion of reference I had first time at my 21-22 -- that was awesome feeling of being special, when you go from sign to another sign point by point ...but there is nothing at the end of this journey...
I remember that metro station in my city, where I came by those signs and standed waiting for a crowd of my mates and fellows, who will present something special for me. After few tens of minuted I realised that is not real and went home...
Getting the meds right are extremely tricky 11 years now success
Well you do have an insight mosts shrinks don't have, you know also very well how to get someone through as long as they want to deeper inside themselves.
Thanks for this video.
You are a most amazing and inspiring person. Listening to this video has given me such hope. ❤
Thank you for sharing . Do you take new patients? My adult daughter was just diagnosed with bipolar 1 and she is terrified and deeply depressed by this. She is suicidal and think that her life is over.
Are you still on Med?
How often do you check your blood work?
When the patient says to “No Med”
What do you do?
I live like this already about 9 years😢
So helpful thank you.
I really could do with literally going to bed at 9pm every night as i feel so much better with this. The problem I have is with social invites out to dinner perhaps with people that dont know that i have this condition, and i dont want them to know. How do I get round this? To say no. Bc if I say i.cant make things in the past they just try their best to reschedule. This itself makes me feel very stressed. I have a dinner date next week and I am already feeling anxious about it, plus also when i am out in the night ( with all the dark around me) i feel even worse than i do in the day. Any advise would be hugely appreciated from anyone. Thank you and wish you all good health ✨