This poem draws tears from my eyes. "And there are days when my heart feels like it's swallowing itself, when the lonely feels like both the problem and the cure. No one has extra concern for the boy who seems like he has it all, so I smile big because I know how easy it distracts from the dark. And I just want someone to love me hardest when I least deserve it because those, those are usually the moments I need it most." Each part of my body feels like it's melting from listening to this poem because of how accurately you've nailed it. Thank you Javon Johnson.
"Stood outside for hours, watched the sun go dim, I'm still not sure if I'm talking about the star in the sky or myself" this needs to be appreciated more (sun or son?)
I lost it at "Do you have any idea what it's like to be absolutely in love with someone you think will leave you. To wake up everyday thinking this is the day she will realize she's too good for me, so I pushed her out too, she finally left and I don't blame her". I am going through this situation right now. He is brilliant.
"I move around like people are only trying to get close enough to exploit my flaws." "There are days when the lonely feels like both the problem and the cure." "And I just want someone to love me hardest when I least deserve it because those are the moments when I need it most." Those lines...
When he went into him being diagnosed with depression that's when this became something special, something that cant be described with words, something that is true and pure art.
+The Fresh Prince of Philly it started before that. when he went from talking about how strong his love was to talking about pushing away the people closest to him, the whole atmosphere just changed
This hits so close to home... I started tearing up when he did. This poem feels like heavy words filling my guts, only, he knows how to give them life. These words, he has the talent to put them together as flesh and bones and create something so alive, so meaningful. Not just to him, but to so many.. Javon Johnson, I love you for this.
I started tearing up when he said he had close friends who haven't seen the inside of his apartment bc that's when it hit home for me. I love when I can relate, but at the same time have no idea what he's feeling. I realized I was holding my breath it was so powerful.
How it is possible for this to simultaneously break my heart and give me life I do not know. What I do know is his words feel a lot like my own, the one's I never speak for fear they'd turn to ash in my mouth, burn through my veins, and leave me engulfed in smoke. I simply cannot.........
There is so much I want to say about this poem. How much I relate but at the same time how I don't. This is beautiful. My favorite poems are always the poems written as a creative outlet for venting one's inner turmoil. (+)
Yessssss! The best poems are always the ones where people just let everything out and tell all that they're feeling. They always become the realest poems.
All this was relatable. As a kid waiting for my dad to pick me up and waiting for hours until the sun went down. The trust issues, the apartment part, the depression, the waking up thinking today’s the day she’ll realize I’m nothing special. I can relate to it all. This was beautiful
What I love about Javon's work is how he gradually reveals the subject through his eloquent, finely tuned composition and perfected pacing. It makes these poems hit hard on your heart, and it makes the final line reverberate in a way that leaves you stunned when it's over. Bravo, I always look forward to more.
I turned 16 years old today, and it's so sad to find that this is so easily relatable. I push the love of my life away (yes I have ready found him) farther and farther and I only wait until the day he realizes I'm not worth the fight. Faking smiles... boy are they the best disguise you could ever wear.
I've see many Javon Johnson poems, this one has to be my favorite because it's so powerful, it describes the feelings so exactly, and i can relate overwhelmingly. I wish i could say to javon, you save me in so many ways. with your beautiful words. please don't even think of stopping. you are amazing, thank you so much.
Listened to this a thousand times years ago. Just found out I still know these lines by heart. His intonation already is like a poem, so its like a song, or 2 poems - one is the intonation, one is the lyrics. And I still know so god damn what he is talking about...
I saved this link in my playlist called 'hope'. Even if the content is sad, it consolidates me to know that I am not the only one feeling that way, suffering this thing called depression, fighting with difficult family relationships etc
This is the first poem I have listened to this year and I am so glad that is the first of many more beautiful poems to come. I wish him the best of luck in life. I have so much more to say, but all I can think is that this is powerful and it's the kind of powerful that reminds me to hold on to those I love even when they are suffering.
Sigh...this was ALL me last year. The passing of both my grandmothers within a month and lupus diagnosis took over me. There were days when my heart felt like it was swallowing itself and I couldn't breathe. Javon, thank you for speaking to my soul.
I love this guy he has so much passion and you can feel his hurt and pain! it saddened and inspired me at the same time. I hate to say it but, most days I feel like this.
I've watched this several times, and every time I have an equally stunned, heartbroken, and awe struck reaction. Incredibly beautiful work and even truer words
This explains my life, as a child my father promises were constantly broken and then he disappeared. I was diagnosed with depression around my birthday this year. Currently, I am wondering when I will get over everything but as time goes on I realize I wont get over it. I will have to adapt and hopefully prosper.
those are all of the words i've never been able to actually write on paper. wow. amazing. crazy how so many people this hits home for. that know what it feels like to be that little child, still waiting...
"Do you have any idea what it feels like to be absolutely involve with somebody you think will leave you, Everyday thinking this is the day she realizes that she is too good for me." relatable feeling put into words!
That was achingly heartbreaking. I don't really know what to say except that whatever he may think, he is loved. The capacity that we humans are able to love is tremendous. Your flaws make you real, make you human. It does not make you unworthy. Get treatment, take care of yourself, and surround yourself with supportive people. You're not alone in this, my man
No se como explicar qe senti cada una de las palabras en este poema sin dudarlo es un poema hermoso y muy fuerte, imposible no llorar cuando los sentimientos son sacudidos por estas palabras. gracias por este poema. . . .
" When the lonely feels just like the problem and the cure . " This is so passionate.
This poem draws tears from my eyes.
"And there are days when my heart feels like it's swallowing itself, when the lonely feels like both the problem and the cure. No one has extra concern for the boy who seems like he has it all, so I smile big because I know how easy it distracts from the dark. And I just want someone to love me hardest when I least deserve it because those, those are usually the moments I need it most."
Each part of my body feels like it's melting from listening to this poem because of how accurately you've nailed it. Thank you Javon Johnson.
"But most days, the drowning feels too much like a cool drink of water." This just hits me.
"Stood outside for hours, watched the sun go dim, I'm still not sure if I'm talking about the star in the sky or myself" this needs to be appreciated more (sun or son?)
"When I've played with her hair and found freedom in her locks"
I guess that's the pun. Sun/Son.
I lost it at "Do you have any idea what it's like to be absolutely in love with someone you think will leave you. To wake up everyday thinking this is the day she will realize she's too good for me, so I pushed her out too, she finally left and I don't blame her".
I am going through this situation right now. He is brilliant.
That hit home for me too
That part described me to a "T"
Same
Man, I started crying because I explained to my husband about this exact feelings on days when my depression is too much.
I lost count how many times I have watched this. I keep coming back to it.
Same here. (+)
+Shaima Almarzouqi I'm glad i'm not the only one
Same
same...the accuracy just hits head on
this is my eighth time!
I fucking cant "i would of left when I first saw the smoke" can you see his tears building up
"I move around like people are only trying to get close enough to exploit my flaws."
"There are days when the lonely feels like both the problem and the cure."
"And I just want someone to love me hardest when I least deserve it because those are the moments when I need it most."
Those lines...
Real shit hit hard
When he went into him being diagnosed with depression that's when this became something special, something that cant be described with words, something that is true and pure art.
I hear you
This Lazy Nigga omg same this was omg im speechless
It's hard
+The Fresh Prince of Philly
it started before that. when he went from talking about how strong his love was to talking about pushing away the people closest to him, the whole atmosphere just changed
"When the lonely feels like both the problem and the cure" thanks to this line i now understand my own depression 🙏🏾
His voice holds so much passion. His words holds so much weight.
"When the lonely feel like both the problem and the cure".
When his voice breaks at the line "recently I was diagnosed with depression" I cry every single time.
same here. I can relate to this on soo many levels.
This hits so close to home... I started tearing up when he did. This poem feels like heavy words filling my guts, only, he knows how to give them life. These words, he has the talent to put them together as flesh and bones and create something so alive, so meaningful. Not just to him, but to so many.. Javon Johnson, I love you for this.
I started tearing up when he said he had close friends who haven't seen the inside of his apartment bc that's when it hit home for me. I love when I can relate, but at the same time have no idea what he's feeling. I realized I was holding my breath it was so powerful.
Why is this so true , because that's exactly what my depression feels like .. And some days I'm ever amazed I still go on
Autumn Nelson came across your comment. Hope you are doing better 💕
Are you still going on?
Holy hell this one knocked me right over, particularly when he got to the bit about depression, which he nailed.
"Watched the sun go dim, I'm still not sure if I'm talking about the star in the sky or myself" Loved this, so much.
He just explained it for me. My depression drove my last relationship away and I just can't let him go.
How it is possible for this to simultaneously break my heart and give me life I do not know. What I do know is his words feel a lot like my own, the one's I never speak for fear they'd turn to ash in my mouth, burn through my veins, and leave me engulfed in smoke. I simply cannot.........
Same here
There is so much I want to say about this poem. How much I relate but at the same time how I don't. This is beautiful.
My favorite poems are always the poems written as a creative outlet for venting one's inner turmoil. (+)
Yessssss! The best poems are always the ones where people just let everything out and tell all that they're feeling. They always become the realest poems.
They also become the most relatable. I love poems like this!
All this was relatable. As a kid waiting for my dad to pick me up and waiting for hours until the sun went down. The trust issues, the apartment part, the depression, the waking up thinking today’s the day she’ll realize I’m nothing special. I can relate to it all. This was beautiful
"..when the lonely feels like both the problem and the cure". You. Are. Amazing.
What I love about Javon's work is how he gradually reveals the subject through his eloquent, finely tuned composition and perfected pacing. It makes these poems hit hard on your heart, and it makes the final line reverberate in a way that leaves you stunned when it's over. Bravo, I always look forward to more.
Rachel Wiley and Javon Johnson will always be my favorites.
this knocked the wind out of me. it made my heart feel heavy. this hits so close to home, its scary. jesus, what a poem.
I turned 16 years old today, and it's so sad to find that this is so easily relatable. I push the love of my life away (yes I have ready found him) farther and farther and I only wait until the day he realizes I'm not worth the fight. Faking smiles... boy are they the best disguise you could ever wear.
How is 23 treating ya love?
“There are days when my heart feels like it’s swallowing itself “
this.. this is just wow, amazing, when his voice started breaking I got goosebumps. I can relate to this so much..
I've see many Javon Johnson poems, this one has to be my favorite because it's so powerful, it describes the feelings so exactly, and i can relate overwhelmingly. I wish i could say to javon, you save me in so many ways. with your beautiful words. please don't even think of stopping. you are amazing, thank you so much.
"...when the lonely feels like both the problem and the cure..." God, this resonates with me so much.
Listened to this a thousand times years ago. Just found out I still know these lines by heart. His intonation already is like a poem, so its like a song, or 2 poems - one is the intonation, one is the lyrics. And I still know so god damn what he is talking about...
I saved this link in my playlist called 'hope'. Even if the content is sad, it consolidates me to know that I am not the only one feeling that way, suffering this thing called depression, fighting with difficult family relationships etc
This is the first poem I have listened to this year and I am so glad that is the first of many more beautiful poems to come. I wish him the best of luck in life. I have so much more to say, but all I can think is that this is powerful and it's the kind of powerful that reminds me to hold on to those I love even when they are suffering.
This is so powerful & it never gets old.
It's amazing how a string of words can make me so emotional and relate to me on so many levels
Im honestly in love with this heartfelt, passionate, tear-jerking poem.
Wow!!! I looked in his eyes!! That hit home!! AMAZING Javon!!!
I listen to this everyday
Give this man a award!!! Javon Johnson is one of my top favorite poets.
Javon is such an amazing poet, always puts so much passion into his craft
So much admiration and love for this guy.
tears just keep falling. cant help it. it's honest and pure. thank you for sharing
Sigh...this was ALL me last year. The passing of both my grandmothers within a month and lupus diagnosis took over me. There were days when my heart felt like it was swallowing itself and I couldn't breathe. Javon, thank you for speaking to my soul.
he's such a beautiful and wonderful poet. thank you so much, javon johnson. thank you so much.
I do not have words to express what this poem did to me
"When the lonely feels like the problem and the cure" there were so many great lines as I could quote the entire performance here
This brought me to tears. I was feeling everything he was saying
I love this guy
he has so much passion and you can feel his hurt and pain!
it saddened and inspired me at the same time.
I hate to say it but, most days I feel like this.
I've watched this several times, and every time I have an equally stunned, heartbroken, and awe struck reaction. Incredibly beautiful work and even truer words
My ex recommended this to me, It hits home now that we are not what we used to be. I will always love you Mars. 12/20/17 till forever!
'my heart feels like its swallowing itself'
This explains my life, as a child my father promises were constantly broken and then he disappeared. I was diagnosed with depression around my birthday this year. Currently, I am wondering when I will get over everything but as time goes on I realize I wont get over it. I will have to adapt and hopefully prosper.
Hee murdered that. ... wow.. breath taking & so real. ..
I dont think a poem ever resonated more with my life right now
those are all of the words i've never been able to actually write on paper. wow. amazing. crazy how so many people this hits home for. that know what it feels like to be that little child, still waiting...
I have to listen to this poem at least once a week, it keeps me sane. I love it so much.
I’ve spent the last 3 years trying to find this poem again. For in this moment at least I am sane again.
"Do you have any idea what it feels like to be absolutely involve with somebody you think will leave you,
Everyday thinking this is the day she realizes that she is too good for me." relatable feeling put into words!
This will always be my favourite poem
That was achingly heartbreaking. I don't really know what to say except that whatever he may think, he is loved. The capacity that we humans are able to love is tremendous. Your flaws make you real, make you human. It does not make you unworthy. Get treatment, take care of yourself, and surround yourself with supportive people. You're not alone in this, my man
I snapped my fingers so much during this poem that my fingers know his voice better than they know themselves💜
Wow. Thank you so much for this poem. It brings tears to my eyes. Thank you. I love you.
You can hear his pain. Powerful stuff
I watch this video frequently because it’s so real and so personal and so relatable
This is amazing, can't stop watching it. Truly art.
I wanna hug him!
Awesomeness to the tenth POWER!
A poem I always come back to
powerful. supremely powerful. Thank You sir.
He is sooo good
This actually brought tears to my eyes.
Every line you can relate to pure genius
The message is powerful and the delivery is so authentic.
You are worth so much love. Straight made me tear up at work. Always waiting
I love this poem
Omg....why did he read my diary? this is beautiful
“Who am I to ask her to drown, just to keep us afloat?” 💔
"when I feel like my heart is swallowing itself" deep
That hit me. That was amazing. Thank you
This made me so teary.
I loved it. I felt as if he was living life through my eyes. Amazing!
Brilliant, beautiful, and very, very familliar to me.
Passionate delivery. I didn't feel everything he was saying lyrically but the passion definitely had me listening to the end. Well done
No se como explicar qe senti cada una de las palabras en este poema
sin dudarlo es un poema hermoso y muy fuerte, imposible no llorar cuando los sentimientos son sacudidos por estas palabras.
gracias por este poema. . . .
Thank you all for your kind words.
In love with this...simply amazing
"there are days when my heart feels like it's swallowing itself"
This breaks my heart.
Javon awesome as usual!
MY FAVORITE POEM EVER OMG . YOU DUDE ARE AMAZING YOU JUST UNDERSTAND AND EVEN MAKE IT SOUND MHHHH YOU DONE GOOD. Thank you 👌
This is beautiful, and so relatable it's painful.
So talented
I love you so much!
Wow... I feel this.
this just hits me so hard. i can't even breath.
and i just want someone to love me, when i least deserve it..... i felt that one.
I cried. 😣😣
Beautiful man
This is beautiful
This is beautiful.
Such a good poem!