Lyrics :) Are You Satisfied?: I was pulling out my hair The day I got the deal, chemically calm Was I meant to feel happy that my life Was just about to change? One life pretending to be the cat who got the cream Oh, everybody said, "Marina is a dreamer" People like to tell you what you're gonna be It's not my problem if you don't see what I see And I do not give a damn if you don't believe My problem, it's my problem That I never am happy It's my problem, it's my problem On how fast I will succeed Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? High achiever, don't you see? Baby, nothing comes for free They say I'm a control freak Driven by a greed to succeed Nobody can stop me 'Cause it's my problem if I want to pack up and run away It's my business if I feel the need to smoke and drink and sway It's my problem, it's my problem if I feel the need to hide And it's my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? Are you satisfied with an easy ride? Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied? Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied, prayin' Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied, waitin' Are you satisfied with an average life? Do I need to lie to make my way in life? Are you satisfied with an easy ride? Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied? Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?) Cry Baby: You seem to replace Your brain with your heart You take things so hard And then you fall apart You try to explain But before you can start Those cry baby tears Come out of the dark Someone's turning the handle To that faucet in your eyes They're pouring out Where everyone can see Your heart's too big for your body It's why you won't fit inside You pour it out Where everyone can see They call you cry baby, cry baby But you don't fucking care Cry baby, cry baby So you laugh through your tears Cry baby, cry baby 'Cause you don't fucking care Tears fall to the ground You just let them drown You just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You're all on your own and You lost all your friends You told yourself that It's not you, it's them You're one of a kind And no one understands But those cry baby tears Keep coming back again Someone's turning the handle To that faucet in your eyes They're pouring out Where everyone can see Your heart's too big for your body It's why you won't fit inside You pour it out Where everyone can see They call you cry baby, cry baby But you don't fucking care Cry baby, cry baby So you laugh through your tears Cry baby, cry baby 'Cause you don't fucking care Tears fall to the ground You just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown I look at you and I see myself And I know you better than anyone else And I have the same faucet in my eyes So your tears are mine They call me cry baby, cry baby But I don't fucking care Cry baby, cry baby I laugh through my tears Cry baby, cry baby 'Cause I don't fucking care Tears fall to the ground I just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby I just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown They call you cry baby, cry baby I just let them drown Cry baby, cry baby You just let them drown Jealousy, Jealousy: I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room 'Cause all I see are girls too good to be true With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies Wish I didn't care I know their beauty's not my lack But it feels like that weight is on my back And I can't let it go Co-comparison is killing me slowly I think, I think too much 'Bout kids who don't know me I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else My jealousy, jealousy Started following me (he-he-he, he-he) Started following me (he-he-he, he-he) And I see everyone getting all the things I want And I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not Just cool vintage clothes and vacation photos I can't stand it, oh, God, I sound crazy Their win is not my loss I know it's true But I can't help getting caught up in it all Co-co-comparison is killing me slowly I think, I think too much 'Bout kids who don't know me I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else My jealousy, jealousy (yeah) All your friends are so cool, you go out every night In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're living the life Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend too I wanna be you so bad, and I don't even know you All I see is what I should be Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy All I see is what I should be I'm losing it, all I get's, jealousy, jealousy Co-comparison is killing me slowly I think, I think too much 'Bout kids who don't know me And I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be (oh, oh) Anyone, anyone else (anybody else) Jealousy, jealousy Oh, I'm so sick of myself I'd rather be, rather be (oh-oh) Anyone, anyone else Jealousy, jealousy Started following me Oh No!: Don't do love, don't do friends I'm only after success Don't need a relationship I'll never soften my grip Don't want cash, don't want card Want it fast, want it hard Don't need money, don't need fame I just want to make a change I just wanna change I just wanna change I just wanna change I just wanna change I just wanna change I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! One track mind, one track heart If I fail, I'll fall apart Maybe it is all a test 'Cause, I feel like I'm the worst So I always act like I'm the best If you are not very careful Your possessions will possess you TV taught me how to feel Now real life has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna die I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly I'm gonna fail, gonna die, die, die, die I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! I know exactly what I want, and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk, and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! Da-da-dum, da-da-dum Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum Da-da-dum, da-da-dum Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum Da-da-dum, da-da-dum Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh! Brutal: I want it to be, like, messy I'm so insecure, I think That I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me, and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I, if not exploited? And I'm so sick of 17 Where's my fucking teenage dream? If someone tells me one more time "Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here (Yeah!) I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately, I'm a nervous wreck 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I'm not cool and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here (Yeah! Just having a really good time) Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal out here, it's brutal out here) And God, I don't even know where to start I Cant Handle Change: Hangin' out where I don't belong is nothing new to me I get tired, and I get sick, and then I lose the strength to leave I can't handle change I can't handle change Nothing I do is ever good Nothing I do is ever good enough Nothing I do is ever good Nothing I do is ever good Nothing I do is ever good enough Nothing I do is ever good Leave me alone Leave me alone Leave me alone Leave me alone I can't help but repeat myself I know it's not your fault Still lately, I begin to shake For no reason at all For no reason at all For no reason at all For no reason at all For no reason at all Francis: I don't know what to do without you I don't know where to put my hands I've been trying to lay my head down But I'm writing this at three AM I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me On sunny days I go out walking I end up on a tree-lined street I look up at the gaps of sunlight I miss you more than anything I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me And autumn comes when you're not yet done With the summer passing by, but I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me
I feel so sad because I crave academic validation but I also crave male validation and I confuse love with an emotional attachment or confusing love with the infatuation of their beauty. I confuse true love with true feelings about someone.
@@Emmie1223 that’s so weird because you just described my entire life- so just know that you’re not alone, and that you are enough. The only piece of advice I can give you, as a not-therapist is to try to sleep more, and maybe play music before bed to stop yourself from overthinking, and just know that your grades do not define you
@@alliumduo1675 this one boy is pretty and it’s like I’m obsessed with him but at the same time knowing he feels the same gives me relief, but he’s taken at the same time so I can’t really tell whether or not he likes me or dislikes me. He confessed his feelings already and I guess that’s my confirmation he likes me but he can’t let go of his girlfriend, which shows hes loyal but I’m so confused
tell me about it. I suck at science and I have a 67 as my whole grade and my mom was so mad she said I have to get at least 90 on everything. same with social studies but I have a 72 in that. when I get even a 85 its not good enough
@@ImSoAwesome_Ro your not the only one I feel the same way! Ever since I got ‘selected’ for the ‘gifted’ class my mum wants me to get a 100 or atleast a 90 on everything…it’s exhausting:
@@ImSoAwesome_Ro same my mom wants me to get 100 or at least 95 on everything because I was overachieving when I was young- keep yelling at me why im so lazy now
Got an 89 on the math EoC. Highest in my class by a large margin, and it completely ruined my day. Im supposed to be some mathematically genius but I cant even get an A.
I went to a mental hospital last year. when I get there, the next day, a doctor pulls me aside for a chat. we talked abt why I'm there. I said it's just all too much. he said "well, how come a student like you, with amazing grades, can be depressed?" and to this day, I still wonder. I believe my sadness is nothing. this playlist helped me realize I'm not the only one who's burnt out n tired. to whoever reading, it'll get better. grades don't define you. I try to tell myself this everyday, n you should too.
i attempted to take my life back in April.. and ppl at home took me to a doc and he said i who got perfect marks and smart, could be so brainless and do such stupid things.. they jus don't get me.
@@sushi-ze7vd it's both comforting and sad that we feel more comfortable sharing things with strangers on the internet than our family sometimes, and how those people understand us and get it more than our family.
I know grades don’t define me. My dad disagrees no matter what he says I know that’s what he thinks. He said I’ll never be anything worthwhile without straight As and I don’t know how much longer I can keep going
No bcs I listen to most of these songs after I have a mental breakdown or after my parents scold me when I get "distracted" and not focus on my studies😭
omygosh same that happens to me everyday every HOUR like BRO ALL THEY WANT ME TO DO IS JUST FINSIH ALL OF THE HOMEWORKS STRAIGHT LIEK ESCUSE ME I AM NOT A ROBOT IM A HUMAN TOO.
my mom never pressured me to be the best, but I felt pressured to do so nonetheless because of how good I was at stuff. I was a more than proficient reader, writer, and mathematician, so I felt I had to live up to that standard for all my life. now I'm a freshman in high school and I'm tired of feeling horrible because I programmed myself to give up on a project because it isn't perfect. everytime I see the two B's in my grade book I want to cry even though I have three A's because it feels like I should have straight A's. I hate it. I hate school, and I wish I could drop out. (sorry for the vent I've just kept this inside for a long time)
As someone that used to do the same, getting out of that habit is learning how to say "at least it's something." I used to stress so much about if my stuff would be perfect that I would run myself into the ground rather than lose a few points. I eventually got a class where I had no choice to turn in work I wasn't happy with. And, honestly, I'm better off for it. The overthinking doesn't go away. At least, it hasn't yet for me. I still always second guess if I should have tried more, done more, done better. But I'm at a point that I don't have the time with school and work to have tried harder, and I know that. I know I can not have done better without sacrificing myself again. I'm not going to lie, it took a while to get there. But I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's possible, and that you can get there. I promise. Until then, though, take care of yourself. Drink some water, have a bite of ice cream or similar every now and again. Live in those little moments. They make the harder ones a bit better.
I’m now a sophomore in college and I’ve always loved learning but college is really making keeping that passion for knowledge difficult but I’ve been practicing taking breaks grounding myself in what it I truly enjoy doing which is creating stories
@@brittany9992 I'm in highschool, duel enrolling in college and lemme just say, going from almost all A's to only Bs, Cs, and Fs is the most shocking thing 😭 it's pretty much destroyed every ounce of motivation I've had
fck no this is too accurate. it’s hard being the over achiever and suddenly performing poorly. it makes you feel like you’re not good enough. and when you have siblings who are favoured to you it HURTS. why am i here ?? ive been through so much to get where i am. that’s why everyone expects me to do better and to keep improving when they don’t even know how hard it is to have this much weight on your shoulders. i wish i was normal and i didn’t have to be in any extension classes and i could enjoy my lessons without worrying abt if im doing well enough and i wish i could be with my friends enjoying myself.
Im not a overachiever i just force myself to the breaking point then seeing my friends get good grades or my brother doing better than me just makes me think im not good enough to make my parents happy.
and then when i start chatting with them, ppl say to fcking study cuz talking to my friends are deemed "worthless" in their eyes. for some reason, my wishes that i want to have are suddenly unreachable
I've always been the "gifted kid" of the family, and it sucks. you're being pressured to do good, the expectations are HIGH as the sky, and it just results in massive burnout and mental issues, and I think this playlist perfectly captures those feelings
I had a mental breakdown like I could not breath over 1 test which barley brought my grade down and when I was in grade 4 I got a b in social studies and I cried so hard
I know.. I like getting A's and stuff its just everyone thinks you should do perfect every time, resulting in pressure, and I can't handle it anymore. I just feel like giving up completely at school
I agree with you, especially because my older brother is only 23 with an electrical engineering degree and a great job. I was in the gifted program at my school in 1st grade, and I coasted through 8 years of school without having anything lower than an A because I have a photographic memory, and I stopped caring about math, got a C in 5th grade, and my parents were angry and disappointed in me, and I was crying because I didn't make the honor roll. I guess I always felt a truckload of pressure too. I managed to be a pick me girl, overachiever, golden girl, athlete, and had to be nice and kind to everyone while I was at it. 9th grade now, and I'm kind of getting tired of being 'perfect'. *Dramatically sighs* End of rant. PS: I really hope you're feeling better and don't have as much pressure.
I agree I thought I was alone in this because my parents were gifted too so their expectations are even higher I have to live up to their standards but I can’t
Timestaps :) 0:01 - 3:17 Are u satisfaid? ~Marina and The Diamonds 3:20 - 7:17 Crybaby ~Melanie Martinez 7:21 - 10:13 Jealousy, Jealousy ~Olivia Rodrigo 10:16 - 13:14 Oh no! ~Marina and The Diamonds 13:18 - 15:38 Brutal ~Olivia Rodrigo 15:42 - 19:01 I can't handle change ~Roar 19:03 - 21:29 Francis forever ~Mitsiki I just wanted to Say... I'm proud of u
These are giving me massive bakugou vibes. Well shit I relate. :( 20:14 "I miss you more the anything" woah, great that hit me hard.😕I'm crying i just ran out of tears.
I was always the gifted kid not because I wanted to but I was forced to, since I'm an only child and first born (on dad's side), I get burned out way too often. People don't realize the expectations and pressure many of these "gifted kids" are under. Please be gentle with them, thank you! I love this playlist so much, helps me focus appreciate your hard work!!
I fun burden to deal with. And if you parents see that and they want another kid they try to do so much better for the next kid. While leaving you a burnt out gifted kid.
Thank you! I’m a older gifted kid myself, and so is my older cousin by 2 years on my mom’s side. (No kids on my dad’s side).Just last year my teacher was very rough with me, telling me to go write paragraphs for the “needy kids”, forgetting about my own work. Plus most gifted kids tend to have OCD, and anxiety. So for everyone out there, gifted kids are under lots of pressure.
Still recovering from burnout last school year. Something no one talks about is how scary it is to ask for help when you're supposed to be "the smart kid". Even asking for clarification or going in for office hours feels like you're falling short somehow.
This is too relateable. I used to be a over-achiever, best-grades-in-class-always-winning student. And then right after 5th grade, boom. All of that is gone. Im not the over-achiever anymore. Im the failing kid, the kid whos always late to class and who is expected more from. I miss being the over-achiever, but i think im fine now. Remember. not everything has to be perfect, you are perfect in your own way. Luv yall < 3 Edit: HOLY CINNAMON GUYS i have never gotten this much likes and replies ever. i love yall so much 😭 Im glad to see everyone can relate to this suffering 😭 But its okay, and im sure we'll get through it. stay strong, keep fighting, at the end of the day, its not your grades. Its your hard work put into the task.
“You say that you'll grow up to be nobody. But logically.. if nobody's perfect... well then, you must be perfect.” ― Lynda Mullaly Hunt, Fish in a Tree
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
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@@Saskiaham I also feel that way sometimes , it reminds me of the song "Do i derserve it " by Sushi soucy, and "Prom queen" by Beach bunny. Actually the love listening music and sometimes i come across real depressing songs, my playlist is so doomed . But then songs like "Pretty's on the inside " , reminds me of the beauty inside me as the song title suggests.
VENT: I'm not exactly the 'gifted kid' but this playlist made me really feel like me. See I'm not getting younger and I'm almost a teenager and idk if my dad sees that or not because every little thing I do I get yelled at. I'm also the first born of my family and that's already a lot. My dad was also the first child so I thought maybe he would get my pain but it just seems he ignores it. My mom though, she's the third child out of four. She helps me always no matter what. Like I just asked her if she could drop off my stuff(my parents are divorced) cause I didn't want my dad yelling at me because I forgot things. You know what she said. Sure honey I'll be right over. You know when I ask my dad to do that the answer is always "give me 30 min. to 1 hour I'm napping." I'm so done with life. Also on another note my mom told me she thinks I'm 'growing up to fast' without even putting context of what I've gone through in my life. My parents got divorced when I was 5. 5!!!!! I had to grow up fast or else my younger brother wouldn't have a stable life. thanks to those who listened to my vent.
SophiaEditz, I know what you feel, I am in my third year of high school. I also had to grow up fast and I am the oldest. I truly wish there was a way I could help.
Hey you aren't alone I know you sometimes feel the saddest and ofcourse are disappointed but remember you are special and a loved person. You have the power to make your life and yourself better Don't underestimate yourself or depend on someone else for your happiness Virtual hugs and lots of prayers for u
thank you for the vent! apparently it is freshmen who have it easy...i don't know, in that case, how i will get through high school with a's. honestly i cried the other day after getting an 80 on a test when all my friends got 70's or below. but that feels like everything rn because suddenly it's hard to be good at something. i am technically not a gifted kid because i was homeschooled so now i can't be...missed my chance lol. but this is relatable. im so sorry for what you are going through and i hope that your life gets better soon. keep going, you're worth it! btw im the middle child which is confusing because i got the anxiety, perfectionism, and high standards of an oldest child.
i was "gifted" when i was a younger kid- i excelled at math, my teachers said they loved to read my essays, i had a fairly extensive vocabulary, i was great at reading and absorbing information, etc. adults around me considered me to be intelligent, likely because i missed so much school, (i spent a lot of time in the hospital as a kid) yet i still managed to exceed expectations. "expectations" is a word that has always hit me hard. when someone expected something of me, even if it was something small, i would force myself to do far more than they asked of me. then middle school came around.. when i started middle school, things got really tense at home. i may have lived with my mom for my whole life, but we hardly spoke- she avoided spending time with me, and spent all her time with my older brother. eventually, my brother started failing high school, and my mom was outraged. when my brother failed to meet expectations, my mom doubled up onto me. i had already been doing my best, but that wasnt enough for her- suddenly, i was lazy for not being in an after school club, i was unsatisfactory for getting one A as opposed to all A-pluses on my 1st semester report card. i wasn't enough for her. i joined the after school play so i wouldn't be lazy. i stopped eating lunch and just stayed in the library to study. i would study all night until my eyes ached. even when i tried to go to bed, i would lay awake. my mom didn't go to either performance. my mom was outraged that i missed one extra credit assignment. my mom said that the bags under my bloodshot eyes made her look like a bad mother. we moved cites and i lost all my friends. i finally snapped. i absolutely melted under the sheer amount of pressure. i went to school every day, but i couldn't even force myself to work. i would doodle in my notebooks and forget what my notes meant. all As became all Ds, save for a B in electives. teachers hated me because they couldn't even see me as a "problem child"- i was a quiet kid with no friends who caused no problems. i may has well have rotted away in my bed. after a few years of that, i dropped out of highschool. online learning started, and i couldnt handle it. the school claimed that teachers couldn't force us to have our cameras on, but two of my teachers tried regardless. one started yelling at me in front of everyone. i was so humiliated that i left the meeting and never returned. i gave up. my mom was pissed. everyone thinks that i stopped caring, but i didnt. i am so disappointed in my self. ive wanted to end my life for years- i had a few attempts 3 years ago. i turn 18 next week. i am a failure of a himan being. the worst/best part? i, who was pressured so hard, am a dropout. my brother, who was given up on? he graduated and has a job. fuck my mom, and fuck my life. let gifted kids be gifted in peace, for the love of god.
i read all of those and wow, i can't imagine how strong you could be i can't really say much encouragement word, since i'm also currently at the bottom (plus,im not good at those) but, i want you to try and love yourself more. little by little just try , you are stronger than you think
Hello.. just want to say YOU are NOT a robot and definitely NOT AND NEVER a FAILURE, YOU yourself DID AMAZINGG and I just want you to know you are LOVED and SPECIAL, life WILLLL get better..NEVERRRR stop believing. -Love from a stranger online. :)
Thanks for this playlist. I was a gifted kid and now I'm 21, can't drive due to autism and anxiety, and earn $11/hour at a job that is sometimes so exhausting that I have no energy for anything else. I was always told that I'd be super successful and could have any career I wanted and now everything is inaccessible or requires more time and energy than I have available.
gifted kid burnout is real. i wish I was never told I was gifted. what a mindset that gave me, that I always had to know the answer, because I was the gifted one in the class. i reject this title whenever people tell me today, I just can't stand it. hope things get better for you
The number of tears I nearly shed listening to this, so relatable and heartbreaking to see how many people relate to this (and how many people suffer like me, they don't deserve this!) To those high-achievers listening to this, we're all here for you! Don't give up just yet
As an honor student I remember how someone told me I was going to fail honors because my average on math was 77% and I started crying. I’m fine now but still it hurts.
i had gotten a 50 in math last 6 weeks and had a full mental breakdown im in gt so the expectations and the first six weeks my lowest grade was a 90 and my parents told me i could do better it hurt like shit cause i really tried
This playlist really hits hard because I’ve been in the gifted program ever since elementary. People always have high expectations of me just because I passed one silly test, I remember once I got a C+ on a test and had a full on break down because of it. Everyone has told me at least once “wow your grades are so good I wish I could be you!!” But no you really don’t wanna be me. I’m in gifted, STEM, bata, all advanced class, and get straight A’s but it really sucks.
I hate how they put so much pressure on us at such a young age like I’m in 7th grade now but I still remember in 4th grade crying over getting 2 points wrong on a small project. I still feel bad about cause the other kids in my group thought they did something wrong. :(
@@nin_7478 @Nin maaaannn, im an 8th grader 😭 last year we were online learning so its my first time experiencing high school and no shit I still couldnt make friends up until today + doing bad at tests especially in the major subjects 😭😭 SORRY FOR THE VENT BUT I HOPE UR DOING OKAY!! YOU GOT THIS
this is so accurate. It’s so hard being the smartest in your class then dropping to low grades. Everyone expects so much. I hate it. School would be so much more enjoyable if they didn’t give so much work.
0:00-3:21 Are You Satisfied? By Marina 3:21-7:21 Cry baby By Melanie Martinez 7:21-10:16 Jealously,Jealously By Olivia Rodrigo 10:16-13:18 Oh no! By Marina 13:18-15:43 Brutal By Olivia Rodrigo 15:43-19:03 I Can’t Handle Change By Roar 19:03-21:30 Francis Forever By Mitski
I'm a 8th grader, In my country there is an enterace exam for high school. I am the second in the class, but people expect too much from me. Teachers, Friends, Family. I am good at lessons, doing every question right, always "one of the best". But when it comes to exams, anxiety won't let me win this race. Working so hard, spending all your day to study and then. Boom. Your note was lower and lower than you expected. Not just you, for the others too. I was more happier, more energetic, more friendly, more caring before. Now that me is gone. There is only the girl who is a " burnout", always the one with head aches, and the silent among friend group. To be honest, nothing is worth living, its better to disappear. Maybe just for one day, or more, or forever.
Merhaba isminden türk olduğunu anladım😅 aşkım ben şu an 11. sınıfım ve ben bu travmayı atlatamadan seneye tekrar sınava gireceğim.Zamanın nasıl geçtigini bile anlamayacaksın. 8 in zorluğunu zerre hatırlamayacaksın. Sadece kat ettiğin yolu hatırlayacaksın. İnan bu sınavın %90 ı senin kendi içinde yaptığın savaş. Gerçek anlamda sınava kadar olan mentalimizi, sınav esnasında olan stresimizi ölçüyorlar. Sana önerim şu, lütfen ne olursa olsun pozitif düşün. Herşeyi bilinçaltımızda zorlaştıran biziz(fizik çalışırken bunu yazıyorum aslında ağlamak üzereyim). Kendine iyi bak :)
Ben bu yıl 9 a geçtım ve lgs nin nasıl hissettirdiğini anlıyorum. Ama gerçekten söylüyorum ki önemi kalmıyacak. Bütün bir sene her uyandığında, her okula gittinde sınav için yaşıyormuşsun gibi hissettiriyor ama zaman geçtikçe unutuyorsun. Umarım sınavın iyi geçer ve her şey istediğin gibi olur ♡
I understand the pressure you're under. In my country there's a highschool entrance exam as well and, although I'm an elite student in 7th grade, I feel burnt out and everyone expects me to ace that goddamn exam called "capacity" as if the grade we'll get is going to define who we are and what we are capable of. I am not going to be the 'don't worry, everything will be fine' girl, but I'm telling you that one day, things will get better and you'll rediscover your old self. I once saw a quote saying that everyone gets a happy ending and if it's not happy, then it isn't the ending. Keep your head up and raise up to YOUR expectations for yourself, because you will live your future, not you parents, teachers or friends. You've got this, princess ❤👑
Can't ever have a playlist like this without "Are You Satisfied?" by Marina and also in my own experience I've actually never had my parents pressure me with having high grades or achieving the 1st spot (I would say that It's me who's pressuring myself) all they wanted for me was to just be able to pass my school years. When I went to my first school year I was still a clueless little kid who only knew how to play, basically I was still stupid and didn't had that much thought about learning new stuff. All I wanted to do was play with my classmates and talk about things I had interest in. Until 1st grade came in, for the first time I was one of the people who got into the top students of the class. I felt happy and excited about that and I wanted to do better, but not for the toppest top just a part of it cause I knew well that having the first spot would be too much pressure and burden, and most importantly the feeling of losing the first spot would be too much lol. I continued doing this until now and I will say things really change when you get older, instead of just feeling proud and reassured about the things I've already achieved or done I just get this sense of regret or disappointment in myself whenever I do things wrong (be it wrong answer's in a test even though it's a high score), and there would be times when I'd get jealous of other students or classmates getting higher achievements than me to the point that I think I'm not smart enough or I'm just stupid. But as of right now I do still feel like that sometimes, but I try hard not to think about it too much since it's a really displeasingly hard to explain feelings that I actually don't show to other people aaaand that it would also make me distracted on my studies Sorry for suddenly commenting something like this, I just wanted to post this cause I know some people would relate to it too, also I'd appreciate it if no one comment's anything like "thing's will get better soon" or "everything will be fine soon" cause I know that damn well myself, If you've read all of this, Thank You
Being a "gifted child" is so overwhelming for me. I was always told I was a smart girl, so much that my parents started placing expectations on me. When ever I get anything below a 100%/full points my mom always go on about how she never had anything below that when she was my age. If I do get full points they don't even acknowledge it, they're just like "okay good." I'm so used to this that whenever I see something that isn't an A I start panicking, think what would my parents think, I think how useless I am. When I see someone ahead of me it drives me nuts, because then I start admiring them, then start to hate them. I compare myself to them, and so does my parents. I sometimes break down just because of my grades. I sometimes hyperventilate and when I believe I did horribly, I start to cry and then I start getting panic attacks. Over the years I've become a people pleaser, a teacher's pet and my friends tease me about it, but in reality it hurts. It drives me crazy and I don't want to live like this. I don't wanna live, but I don't wanna die. I just want to do my best without having consequences attached to it. I wanna go to school and feel free to make mistakes instead of feeling trapped within them. I am so miserable, and nowadays passing through my classes is one of the only things that makes me happy about myself. Makes me feel like I actually achieve something. I'm tired.
Me too Im studying rn its a lot of pressure tbh I'm on year 6 and im 13 so I get stressed because all people around me always say "study more, if you fail you will never reach secoundary" I havent slept a lot too but this playlist helps me focus
@@zakiyahrazzak7831 What the heck- you are only on year 6, you shouldn't put that much pressure on yourself. I remember when I was 13 (16 now) and nobody, almost NOBODY would stress anyone on studies. Like what the heck, should be illegal. Over all of that, please take care of yourself hon. Health should and is the number 1 priority in your life. Take a good rest too, don't force yourself too much
@@elisabethbardhi8037 That’s the sad part. We’re not supposed to feel pressured. And yet people ask why some of us are depressed and suicidal. It’s sucks being smart, I would know.
Well, I used to always get good enough grades in elementary school. A- ‘s and A+ ‘s , or 3-4 ‘s as my school graded. I felt satisfied with myself. I was happy, not tired, loved. But now as I looked back on it, I had that natural talent to pick things up quick, and I used my brain to figure out math problems and other school subjects than using my mind for picking out the good people. I blindly trusted anyone who was nice to me, and I had only a few real friends. I was mathematically smart, but not emotionally. Whenever I got a bad grade, I remember my mother telling me that it was okay, but her face was a bit judgmental. Now that I’m older, I’m better with emotions, seeing them on others and holding my own in. But, I’m worse in school subjects. Why is that? It’s so saddening for me to think about. School smarts with no emotion knowledge to emotional knowledge with no school smarts. Burnt out gifted kid Fr I guess.
I never realized that I was so obsessed with getting good grades that I didn't care about how looked or how I acted and how depressed I was, remember to get that sleep, to eat that meal, even if it feels impossible. Everything in your life YOU can decide what to do with it! Even if you have a quiz or a big test tomorrow, SLEEP. You may not get the best grade but its better than not sleeping and getting a worse grade, school isn't forever but your body is, please take care of it.
I got a 89 on a final test when i was younger while many others got 70-80 and I started crying so hard that i felt like passing out and my strict parents who usually dont care when i cry actually got concerned for once.
same here. when i was on fitfh grade idk how but i got like 70 on a hard test ,while many of my friends got 30-50, and i really want to cry that time but i hold it because i need to be "perfect" for my parents
This is too accurate. Watching myself being the straight A student, having classmates come to me for homework help, having the teacher trust you in helping the people who need help, always winning in academic competitions to getting F's D's C's and B's, barely getting A's anymore. Ive been trying too hard to make my parents proud as a first born, now im failing. The expectations have been growing on me and im failing myself. Im really trying, now its not just working. I feel confident after doing a test to get it back with a lower grade.
I’ve always been what they called "a gifted kid". As a kid, I thought it was normal hearing "You should be at the top, as always." And my innocent self poured everything anything possible to live up on their expectations. But as I grew up, I never expected go feel exhaustion running on their tracks without getting anything in return. I’m still the top of our school by the recent moments. Though unlike before, I feel unmotivated and numb often. Going to school because it’s necessary, not because I enjoy it. It’s sickening. It’s sickening to be called a gifted child. I still score the highest yet not knowing how did it happen. It’s like, I don’t care anymore, how come I’m still at the high spot? Although I admit I still yearn for more. Their expectations also grew with me that my achievements felt lacking to the point where being the valedictorian doesn’t seem a big thing.
I have a friend who constantly praises me and wishes they were me because of everything I do. Even so, sometimes I wish I had their life. One with no expectations, freedom, and parents who only check on me sometimes. I can’t believe I even have the time to write this down. I came here looking for people to relate to, but in all honesty I just want to *crack* and cry and sleep and just.. take a break.
I feel similarly. Just try to hold on, okay? I may be some random internet stranger, but I care about you. You should take a break if you can. Let your feelings out, have a good cry. Wrap yourself up in a nice blanket, and just exist for awhile. If you’re paranoid about your parents checking in, keep your school stuff nearby so you can pretend. But please, give yourself some time to rest. You’re worth it. 💜
Same, trying to be perfect makes u crazy with time. Getting a 10 and being the loved one in the class are the only good things, then comes stress, a group that doesn't work, hours of study, extra works, etc. School sucks.
Did you get that break you needed ? Hope life is at least a little better now and that you can sleep (and cry cause it's not healthy to keep it all inside) as much as you need !
See, this is exactly why I've stopped caring so much about grades when I got older. I was also called a gifted kid, I even skipped a grade and always wanted to get really good grades at school. When I entered puberty, I was still a good student and did what I had to do, but I stopped being so pressed about grades. I've accepted that just because you're intelligent and have talents, doesn't mean you have to stress yourself to do everything perfectly all the time. It's okay to slack off sometimes. It makes your life much easier AND chances are, if you are naturally gifted and intelligent, you'll still do a good job without giving 100% all the time.
Yessss, straight A student for my whole school, aka 8 years, cause my mom made me a perfectionist through emotional abuse, and then failing 2 courses in college and dropping out, cause I was the worst in my group and had hell at home, and being yelled at for dropping out 🙃
VENT: so my older sister is gifted, but hasn't been doing well in high school, I care about her and have seen her get yelled at, and all my parents say is "don't be like her." "don't make that mistake." and I'm "gifted" too so I'm expected to do the same if not better than her. I'm experiencing everything she went through. the being yelled at, getting very distracted, the not being able to study efficiently, the putting off and forgetting hw, and so much more. and I'm trying, I'm trying I swear. I'm trying. i tried. but I'm not perfect. its not like my parents will beat me it I fail, but the mental toll might be worse. i just want someone to tell me that I'm doing fine, they're proud. i want to not do accelerated classes bc of the stress, but my friends are accel and the adv kids are going to make fun of me so I wont. and also my ego tells me I cant. sorry this was long gn
I am proud of you for going through it all. I love you for trying. If I say "a bit more and everything will be alright", it will be a lie and will not change anything. But know that I care for you. You can always talk to me whenever you want to cause I will always be here by your side.
Hey. Ur doing just fine. Go at ur own pace and appreciate ur efforts. Dont let others downplay ur efforts. And maybe try talking to ur older sis, since she's been thru this too. So maybe both of u can try to get ur views across ur parents. Or u guys can work together. Help each other grow or defend each other when the other is being yelled at for not being perfect. And I hope that u find amazing friends that will let u and understand u. And do start with appreciating urself and give urself sm small breaks. Try doing smthing u like, hobbies. Be it anything u like. Sports comics gaming reading cooking, Anything. And if u hv a meltdown. U can try being alone. Writing down ur thoughts, sorting them out. Like y ur feeling like this? Is there a solution? Shud i change my approach? Or r my worries just useless so I shudnt let them get to me (not all worries. Comparing urself to others can be one of em. Unless it's a positive competition.) and try being more optimistic than pessimistic. U hv to identify ur feelings first. If ur feeling pessimistic, then first change ur thoughts to positive ones right then N there. And ukw, this works. One day you'll reach a point where u r proud of ur efforts and urself. Well there r sm days when it's just bad but. U cant help it. Let it be. Look forward to tmr and change for the better. Take breaks. Anw. I said a lot there N it was messy but I do wish u all the best.
I was an over achiever kid, always getting straight As, after online school I just burned out, coming back to school and getting a B+ I started tearing up and tried not to cry, my parents weren't even glad I got 2nd and kept asking me why my classmate got a higher level even tho it's just 2 points less (I got 94)
This is nice I was born very gifted as a kid (I was a complete copy and paste of my dad, first child) I’ve had a difficult life but this is one thing that has never changed but recently I’ve gotten slightly “dumber” (probably because of my pcs(post concussion disorder) I hope I get better soon it’s been almost 5 months since the accident I was in I do like being gifted (I’ve gotten used to burn out ) Have a lovely day people I’m glad so many others can relate
vent ..... living with a two toxic people ....struggling to study , exams in 3 months ...ch more than 40 ...living in a city of compitition of students of my age ...i messed up my preperation ....also i have anxiety problems ...i am someone who is not people pleasure but someone who just always do things to avoid getting scold ....and it breaks my heart and i cry hearing these two people in the same house talking bad about me...i am just scared of them saying anything negetive to me again .....i am litrally ... ....plus i just dont have guts to say anything....well i want to deal with them strongly...and have good grades ...i am dreamer but i feel like i am trapped in a web means i cant move forward but time can...... THANKS FOR READING ABOUT THIS UNKNOWN PERSON (ME)....I HOPE YOU NEVER GET TO GO THROUGH TOXICNESS AND NEVER PROCASTINATE
great playlist!! the song choice is great and very relatable :') I could go on and say how being a gifted kid sucks and the education system does too and yada yada, but everyone listening to this probably already holds this sentiment soooo yeah good luck, everyone! remember to take care of yourselves too!
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! not mine but feel free to pass it around babes
Aspie here. Since I was young my mother forced me to be a complete over achiever, to the point where when I wasn't number one she'd sit down with me and learn until I cried or was best again. Stopped caring and burned myself out on purpose at age 14. Disappointment from my parents was immeasurable. But oh it turned way worse when I got the diagnosis at age 17. They stopped being disappointed in me and rather grew mad, because "Aspergers makes people smart" and they didn't believe me whenever I told them "I can't." I'm so fucking sick of this misrepresentation in media that makes people think that certain illnesses give you perks or that you can dump all the pressure on them because they can handle it.
And that misrepresentation is one of the reasons why aspergers is being taken out/has been taken out as a diagnosis. Also autism isn't an illness it's a different type of brain, the reason we're disabled is because this world wasn't built for us and we don't have the accommodations we need.
I started getting grades under 90% in 5th grade bc it was a hard year and all the teen stuff just got me that's why I was getting 80% 75% 90% 85% 100% 90% and it was just hard 😭 but I got through and now Im back to all A's in 6th grade. everyone who got similar problems to me here: ⭐u got this no matter how hard ⭐try to not care as much about others opinion ⭐if it matters to you you will always find a way ⭐nothing is impossible bc the word itself says "im possible" ⭐you will achieve great things in life if you stick to your goals ⭐you will get through hard stuff bc you r strong ⭐aim high and reach your goals ⭐if you get bullied try to withstand the pressure and get revenge for those bullies bc u are stronger than them and they r weak bc they bully u ⭐believe in yourself ⭐you will achieve great things in life ⭐reach for things you really want bc if you don't truly want it you might not get to ur goal now continue what ever you were doing and remember than you can do it :)) positive vibes only and u r amazing bye
One more thing This is more of a personal principle i always held. *If you were stupid, you will forever be stupid. Some people are just born to suffer for life. Fate is far more cruel than death. And surprise surprise i only got 3rd rank on my 10th grade. But still
I’m not exactly “gifted” but my mother holds an unnaturally high expectation for me. I brought it up to her once and she said something along the lines of “I don’t believe in that stuff.” Referring to burnout and being overworked. I tear up every time I think about it, those words truly crushed me.
she doesn't believe in that kind of stuff? you dont fucking tell your child that you dont believe in them needing a break bc holy shit does burnout do stuff to your mental health. im so sorry dude :(
As a constant honor student, I've always feared failure and not being able to maintain my grades. I used to think that by the time I get an 80+ grade, everyone would secretly be disappointed, and that thought suffocated me for so long to the point that I always hated it whenever someone has a higher performance than me, to think that their better than me, is just suffocating. And the worst part is, they don't even know that all of that were poisoning you. And so I've changed for grades, bargained my precious friends, bargained simple pleasures, and foremost, I bargained my life for grades. "Yet how I still not better than everyone?" Is the question I ask myself every night. Grades were the only thing that overjoyed me, they were my friends.
I love this playlist and I'm just going to vent a little so yeah.. I really hat being the "gifted" or "smart" kid people around you expect you to always perfect if you bring in anything less than what you are expected to get then there's a "problem" and you need to "try harder" even though your ALWAYS trying your best it's so annoying and also I like to do art and out of my siblings I'm the only artist when it comes to drawing and stuff like that so my mom is ALWAYS talks about it and says stuff like "your a great artist and you have a gift the other kids don't have" Everytime I don't want to do things like art camp and etc ik she means well but sometimes I feel like forced to make art it's gotten to the point where sometimes I don't want to draw ever again but I still like to draw when I'm in the mood but all I have to say is being a "gifted" kid is not "fun" or "cool" and to the people who are having the same problems remember that talking breaks from something and not doing perfect Everytime is OKAY❤💖
You should be able to do what you want to do because it’s your life and you’re the one living it for yourself not others. Art can just be a hobby or interest that you like to do on your free time, not something you can you your whole life. Do what makes you happy and don’t feel bad for wanting to!!!! 🤍🤍
I've been going playlist to playlist making pov's so here is another one! POV: You did everything to be perfect. You just wanted everyone's approval, so you forgot about yourself and studied hard. You aced every test, you were always the teachers favourite. You didn't have time for friends, of course you had acquaintances that you would talk to at times, but that was all. Suddenly you realize that you've never really had a childhood. All this work for a simple smile from your parents. A congrats from your peers. Everyone at school hated you for being perfect, so you had no one to turn to. You were done. This wasn't worth it. So now you plan to become the teachers worse nightmare. People are going to wish they never put this pressure one you. They will regret it
Honestly being smart used to be a contest to me, but now it’s just stress and stacks of homework. While I give my all and get called lazy. I’m just tired, and everyone misunderstanding others who’ve burned out. A wise person once said, a fire must always go out.
My grades have been fine up until lately. I’ve been turning in assignments late and missing a few. And even though it light not seem that bad. It’s hard because I feel pressured to get all A’s and AB’s ALL THE TIME. Ppl always say it’s really hard for kids who don’t get good grades but they fail to recognize the kids that are burning themselves out and are tired. Getting anything below what had been considered normal to us, Is damaging. And my teachers say seventh grade won’t be the breaking point for us, but I’m starting to debate that. Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m already broken. My teachers say, idc about your grades, I care about you learning. Yeah- but when I go home with a C or a D and my parents see it, I’m going to get shamed with disappointment, get yelled at, and get my phone( my only source of sanity left) away from me. Middle school had been the breaking point for me, and it’s only my second year.
Idky but most parents always pressure their children to get the best grades. Smtimes they do mean well but the way they express it is not correct at all. Instead they're burdening us with their expectations. Instead of accepting our present self and encouraging to go at our own pace, learn and grow, they just want us to be perfect. They don't try to understand the perspective of a child. I often wonder if those parents vr ever kids. Hv they nvr been burdened w those expectations? If they hv, then y repeat the cycle. Y do it to ur own kids. Just why. M quite sure they nvr liked that but then why do it to us. And not all high achievers are happy at the end. Honestly. They want us to hv a good job? No. Even good paying jobs duznt make a person happy. U can see many ppl w good respectable jobs but rarely ppl who r actually happy. So wt I'd advise u is. Take it easy. Appreciate ur own efforts if no one else will. And try hvng a talk w ur parents after u hv thoroughly thought abt the conversation you'll hv. Prepare for the comebacks. Make them listen to u. Don't let them cut u off. Make sure u properly convey ur feelings. (I think mentioning the happy pt might do the job... Maybe) cuz at the end. Wt a human seeks is peace N joy. (the means can differ tho) Good luck mate. Wish u all the best
@@BakaSama24 I can’t. •Ill probably get my phone taken away •My mom will find out I lied when I said my depression was better and send me back to therapy (which i cant stand) •I hate sentimental conversations. They make me uncomfortable. •Idk you, and you might not realize, but mexican parents aren’t the most nicest.
My case was always being the underappreciated "gifted kid", after I learned about my ptsd and how many punches I took just because of other's pity, I chose to just use my talents if I feel like it's needed, but otherwise they can cry about it and you know what... I've never felt so much weight off my shoulders, I adore it.
thank you so much for making this playlist. I've always been one of the "smart" or "gifted" kids... I feel like theres a lot of pressure, I'm terrified to fail a test because I still want to be considered a smart kid, idk. Anyways thanks again
Ive been an overachiever my whole life, I had honors, peoples approval (specially from adults or teachers) made me happy. Now I get average grades, my parents tell me to get better, my teachers say they're dissapointed because they know I can do better. It makes me think "What happened to me?" "Am I not good enough anymore?" "Do I have to try harder?" I try to improve, I want to go back to that "perfection" But for some reason I don't have the motivation. I'm honestly dissapointed in myself.
that one moment where youre actualy scared of not being smart because its the only thing youve built your identity upon so when you feel dumb you also feel like you're losing yourself in the process :D
vent// i used to be a gifted kid. i was just autistic and undiagnosed in an unsafe house, i had to mask to make it through the day. i was only "the gifted kid" because school was the safest place for me to simply exist. i lived my entire life up until recently knowing that something was different about me, knowing that my classmates saw me as weird but not knowing why. forcing myself to be more likable. my parents are better and understand now but no amount of "im sorry" could fix the damage that was done. i will never be able to hear my father yell and not be scared, even though he isnt yelling at me, even though hes 3 rooms away from me. i was diagnosed last year and ive be trying to unmask but its so hard because i used to have to mask to feel at least a little bit safe. ive been dealing with extreme autistic burnout for the past 3 years, not knowing what was going on until i was given the best diagnosis, the best relief i could ever get. i finally knew why i was failing every class, why i couldnt seem to just put in the effort like i used to. trying to process all of the trauma ive endured is hard. its like being asked to untangle a large knot of thin thread. unmasking is simultaneously the best and worse thing ever. i dont know who i am. obviously i know my name, i know what i like, i know stuff like that but, i dont know *me*. i just feel empty. i dont know what my emotions are, i only know when i feel positive or negative. but, i can freely be autistic. i can let myself stim, i can let myself use alternative communication when i need to, i finally have a reason for why my parents saw me as a bad kid. i was never a bad kid. i was misunderstood because no one knew what was going on inside, no one saw me or my struggles, and i lashed out because no one would *listen.*
i am so thankful for this play list as it makes me better. Lately i struggle with everything: my grades are fine, but i feel like it is not enough. I am not enough. When i tried to tell about it to my friends,they ignored it. " You are overreacting. You are smart " words they often say. I just want to feel whole again and not worry about anything. I am happy that im not alone in this situation. To anyone reading this, you will be fine and we will get through it at one point. Be safe and thank you
I cried so hard to this. I miss being in the honor roll every year, life was easier. i was happier when my parents gave me gifts for my achievements, i was happier when people praised me and relied on me, because i was one of the "smart kids". i miss hardly having to do anything to be a high-scorer in my class. all of those things are gone now. my motivation is near to none, my grades are getting lower every year, my mental health is getting worse, and every day that passes the more i want to just disappear off the face of the planet. I still remember vividly when I ran and cried in the bathroom stalls when I first heard I wasn't in the honor roll. i cried so hard i almost threw up, i felt so stupid for crying, and i felt so stupid for failing to have a consistent grade. I know it's my fault, but I'm so in denial of me falling short and losing motivation that i find anything to blame. I don't even know what happened to me, I just slowly stopped doing assignments, slowly lost the energy to study, slowly lost my title as a gifted kid. I cry more tears every year.
a small vent: I was always the smart one in my family and the firstborn I have to be a role model to my little brother. I performed really well and I was at the top of my class, and I was naturally smart. sometimes I don't study at all and still manage to do well in my exams. my parents say my overconfidence will definitely pull me down, but they don't understand how much pressure they're putting on me. they favor my brother over me but still, expect so much from me. right now I want to study psychology but they mock me saying I can't do it and I'm not keeping my feet on the ground. I want to work hard to achieve my dream but deep inside me, I know that this is not my dream. I love art and dance, these are my life. but I know my parents won't accept me if I choose those so I went for psychology. that is the only thing that comes near to my dream. I know I am forcing myself. I know I'm not taking care of myself. but I feel like I have no choice. I'm only 13. I'm in ninth grade only. but I have so much going on. and I can't take all this out on my brother because I don't want him to worry and I want him to do what he likes in the future and not end up like me. thank you for reading...
This video is perfect, I’ve always done well in school and practically everyone in my family either says that I’m the smartest one in the family or they’re surprised by how smart I am. But lately I’ve been burnt out and I’ve kind of stopped caring about school/taking mental health days because of the stress. My parents tell me that they’re proud of me and wouldn’t care if I don’t one bad grade, but the only way I “care” about myself is depending on how smart I am, to me, if it’s not a 100 I failed. It’s stressful, and soon enough it’s going to get worse.
To those who are still in school, please believe me that only in school will you be treated like this and only in school will best grades have a significantly meaning. In real life social connections, your ability to be confident and once again, socialize with other and work in a group will be the key. Even if you know nothing, if you can show you are a cooperative, easy-going person and are willing to learn can get you a job. Some ppl straight up lie to they children about whats important in life because they think kids are stupid and will not listen to them anyway. Think about that. It's actually good to disappoint your parents if they give you bad life advice.
TW: VENT (YOU DONT HAVE TO READ OR RESPOND) I’ve always been the ‘good-grades, All A+ perfect kid’ so this year when I got a B in 2/6 of my classes and had to watch everyone get an award (which you have to get an A in atleast 5 classes for) hurt so bad that I had a mental breakdown the whole night because I had put myself under that much pressure where I thought I was a failure for not getting an A in all my classes 🥳 So yeah- this playlist is very relatable- and it’s honestly just hard because I don’t want to be in extension but my maths teacher made me, so every time I get under 90 on a test I struggle so bad mentally.
Awww, I want to give you a hug 🥺🥺🥺. I get the feeling. I’m in engineering, and I have this very smart, very close friend. We had engineering two years together now. Last year we did this project together and got a really good score on it. This year we repeated the project, but were with different partners. She got the highest score in the class and I got 4th best and it felt horrible because smartness is all I’ve ever had to my name. And now I wonder if I really won the first time around or if I was just slowing my friend down. Kids told me, you did well, but we’re really impressed with my friend. It stung, but I love her. I praised my friend like everyone else. Then one day after we tested our prototypes, she came to my project and said, “change this.” And it fixed my project. It could have bumped me up to at least 2nd. But I was a day too late. I feel you. I know how much it stings when you expect a lot from yourself and then end up falling just short of it. And it’s a valid feeling. Just remember, it’s okay, and this stranger in the internet wishes you the best 🫂🫰💜
ever since i was in kindergarten i've always been on top of the class. then because of family problems, i had to transfer schools. this completely changed my dynamic and i was so rattled that my usually straight As got invaded by a B. what's bad about this is that my parents don't mind. they actually encourage me to relax and lay low on my grades lest i burn out early. i'm the one pressuring myself, because i got so used to being on top that getting less than that feels so wrong.
Alright, fine i am doing the time thing: 0:01- ~☆Are you satisfied?☆~ by MARINA 3:18- ~☆Cry baby☆~ by Melanie Martinez 7:22- ~☆Jealousy Jealousy☆~ by Olivia Rodrigo 10:15- ~☆Oh no☆~ by MARINA 13:17- ~☆Brutal☆~ by Olivia Rodrigo 15:43- ~☆I can't handle change☆~ by Roar 19:04- ~☆Francis Forever☆~ by Mitski
This playlist literally just represents my life. I'm the oldest child, i was the smartest kid in my whole school at a really young age and everyone praised me and were jealous of my parents. In highschool, i got separated from the only person who actually cared abt me( we were accepted into different schools) and my parents started hitting me and abusing me because my grades weren't acceptable anymore. My mental health got worse and worse day by day and in my "friendship group" i was the joke. People used me for my brains and i was forced to do their homework. I'm a people pleaser and i can't say no even if i wanted to. I always cried myself to sleep. Covid came and my parents moved to a different country. Everyones expectations were skyhigh. I got full marks for the first year cuz it was online and it was fairly easy. But if i made one slip up, i would be compared to my cousins and friends. I hated it. I was forced to learn 2 languages i had never heard in my life. But that didnt mean they didnt have high expectations for those. My relatives and cousins said that i wouldn't need to work hard for those cuz the teacher would give me good marks for no reason. But they are wrong. I had to work hard,so so hard just to get a good grade. Everyone either overlooks my capability or thinks i can achieve more than anyone. What the actual fuck.
I love how it was all in the past, where I used to study until the clock striked 12am or 1am and thought it was normal. Heck I wasn't even in elementary back then, I was like in kindergarten. Everything begun to fall apart and change in grade 2, my grades, my personality, my mind-set, my taste in friends, my thoughts on reality. I am not a smart student anymore, I barely study and I get very low scores. I'm not happy about it ofcourse, but I am happier like this than before.
Since the beginning of the year I've worked hard and only kept studying, i put my heart into it and now it's exams week and even tho I'm sooo ready for all of them I'm also too stressed, i kept crying for an hour just for the stress and the worst thing is that my mind kept telling me such things as "you couldbe revising instead of wasting time, why aren't you practicing?" And that happens whenever i take a break. Even if I'm really tired and all my assignments are done it became a habit to think about these things whenever i am not studying. Okay let's say all this will pass, but for real why can't my mother just care about it a bit? I'm the only child who respects her and treats her well, the only one who runs to do what she wants, the one who shows his love more then anyone in the family, I'm the one always making her proud with my grades and achievements and everyrhing!! Guess she got too used to it that working this hard and this much stress is nothing. She literally came to my room and told me to stop crying because my little sister can't focus on her homework. Oh god, what about me?
This is tooooo relatable. I never realized how much I wanted to be perfect in school until I cried after getting my first ever 60 on a test and then an 80 on another. Like all of my friends were like "wtf that's good I wish I had grades like you" and while I'm happy about the compliments I just feel so shitty. The biggest insult for me is being called dumb or not good at anything so I try super hard and barely get any recognition for it. Imagine that when I got 97 in math my dad told me to get a 100 next time. I feel like the biggest problem for gifted kids is when family thinks that you can do better no matter how much effort you put into it. (Also wow did not expect to vent like this) Anyways great playlist that I'm downloading illegally to my files as we speak 😌 yeah uh bye and don't study too hard my fellow smart people :)
i want to have fun learning. i want to keep trying. i swear i do, so that i can try and become that kid that will live up to your expectations. you never pressured me, yelled at me, or forced me to do my classes well at all, but only concern for me since you've only wanted the best for me, and even have tried to encourage me by being competitive. i was never a gifted or intelligent student, but all i can do is just try for you. though i know at this point, it is only i who is pressuring myself, because i can't see you disappointed. i don't want to disappoint MYSELF. but this playlist is really good though, quite a pointless vent, since it doesn't compare to those who truly struggle with burn-outs and stress. my love goes out to you guys, sincerely.
I was never the “gifted” kid but I have always taken AP classes and college classes ever since I was in 9th grade and I’m friends with all the gifted kids and I cannot tell you how depressing it is when you’re around them and feel so stupid but when I’m in regular courses they’re too easy. I’ve never had that middle ground and have always seen myself as a failure (thanks to some family and friends)
Alright, this is gonna make my hands hurt… Alright, so ever since I was a toddler, I was smart. My mom taught me and my sister to read from an early age. However, I was delayed in my speech, social development, and my physical development. Even though I had many tests for the ‘tism, all doctors denied I had it because I was too smart. I was just put in a special class in preschool with 6 other kids. When kindergarten came, it was a huge culture shock. With 27 different kids (that were in gifted programs like me), I cried almost every day. People would call me a crybaby (although I can’t blame them, they were kindergarteners). I had to mask all of my emotions for all these years, and pass all my gifted tests…until around the third grade. I was sick the day that we tested and was off by 2 points. At that time, I was fine with it. It wasn’t until the next year that it caught up to me…I was not the “smart one” anymore. I wasn’t “your stereotypical autistic girl”. I still maintained straight A’s, but they meant nothing to me anymore. Now, I just gave up. I'm a straight A and B student who feels like all those years of learning and gifted testing were wasted. Thank you for reading :)
It’s hard feeling like I have to be absolutely perfect. Like I have to live up to the highest expectations, “be nicer” “be smarter” “be BETTER” when your too nice people look at you to be the one to do everything for them, and you do. People look at you as the smart one and expect you to help them. People expect you to go to the stupid school counselors like yeah that’s fine that’s something I don’t want to do.. and yeah I’ll go to the dance with some guy because he asked and I felt bad and yes I bought a old friend a whole Nintendo switch and acnh because why? NOTHING nothing happens nothing at all all that happens is I get left behind and told “wash your mouth out” “You are a horrible friend” maybe it is me.. I tell myself that because all I do is go and screw stuff up.. All I do is hammer a stupid bridge back together over and over until all the nails are gone, all of it is gone, it’s fallen… Am I scared of my parents seeing this and saying THATS NOT TRUE when over and over they end up dropping some of those nails, nudging them over of my hands because “I don’t know they don’t give off the best vibe” There’s something called being scared of adults when you feel like you have to live and be they’re standards just like me every single stupid day until the weekend and I’ll just sit down with my friends and call and play stupid block game and laugh but NO go call with friends in the state not people thousands of miles away.. So I’ll call friends and then your like WELL JUST GO OUTSIDE OR CLEAN YOUR ROOM and then freaking turn around a week later and say “Why aren’t you calling with your friends, are you arguing” No mom you said NOT TO so sorry I am isolating myself.. ig I just needed to let some stuff out sorry if I’m being annoying..
I'm trying hard to do good in school only because my mom would say she was proud of me and that's the only time I can actually think that I did something right and that I'm not a disappointment, my mom was talking about how my older siblings were in an online school and how she didn't want them to be in it because they wouldn't do their school work and stuff and I felt bad bc I didn't like school at all so I'm just trying not to complain even though I sometimes feel like breaking down, like when my teacher asks me "Why aren't you coming to school?" I always feel like just breaking down and crying my feeling out but I've hid it long enough to just hold back my tears.
Hey, I know i'm late but i wanted to say these things. I didnt realise how lucky I was in having been smart until recently... in elementary school and the first two years of middle school i always did my best and was very happy until i realised how toxic my ''friends'' were. The last year of middle school was a living hell and i just hoped i could feel better in high school. Now that I've started it im feeling way worse. I struggle doing the bare minimum and to concentrate. I feel like people wont like me if im too smart, so now im scared to get bad grades and even good grades. It seems stupid that someone could be afraid of getting good grades but i know that my classmates in middle school hated me because they were jealous of my how good i did in every subject... i have high expectations from my parents even in having friends, because my mum always had lots of them. Today I left school early telling my teacher i had an headache, but in reality i was having a lot of anxiety. I just spent my day crying and i cant even finish my homework... I know I'll have to stay up late even today to finish them. I feel like here in Italy high school is especially hard and I have way too many hard subjects like Latin and three other languages... i know i cant keep living like im doing rn but i really have zero motivation and I just want to cry all day. I basically just have one friend to rely on and shes not even in my same school. I'm scared that no one will want to be my friend in these 5 years i have to be in that school. What the hell is wrong with me.. 🥺 (also sorry if i made any mistakes)
First, it’s nothing wrong with you!! 🤍 And don’t put to much pressure on yourself as well!! I used to think the way you do but remember it gets worse before it gets better! And eventually you’ll have friends who’ll love and support you!! And don’t let your anxiety to control you either!! You may be anxious because you have a lot on your mind so just breathe and take one step at a time!! If you want get grades do it for you because if you have bad grades then they’ll make fun of you for that and if you have good grades they’ll make fun of you for being a “know it all” so just do what you want and what makes you happy. People will talk either way but don’t let it get to you. I may not have the best advice but I hope this helps and you’ll feel better and it’s okay to cry, let it out! Journaling and writing out how you feel is good too. That’s why I like these types of comments because it’s a safe place to let out how you feel without judgment!!! 🤍(And you made no mistake you type perfectly!)
@@redkxsses girlllll not to be "that person" but yessss i felt that, except for the part about living in Italy🤣🤣🤣 i just moved actually, away from my best friend im a perfectionist and im afraid of being below my personal best. idk what grade you are in or if you're in college but know that you can keep going it's ok not to always give your 100% (lol i wish i took my own advice but whatever) you've got this
For me, middle school was the best. Then the pandemic started and we sort of missed the transitioning period of junior high and now we're seniors. When I went back to school this year, it felt like I didn't know my friends anymore. Worse, I didn't like the people they became. I know its not their fault, and I also don't like myself because I see them rubbing off on me. I can't make new friends, because everyone is like that. I don't want to be alone, but I also don't want to be friends with people I don't truly want to be with, like its fake. I act completely different around them just to fit in. And then there's my studies. I tried my hardest to do well and developed such anxiety that eventually I just gave up and completely burned out. Now I'm trying to piece back my life together. Its hard, but at least I'm trying, right? Sorry for ranting, but basically wanted to say, you're not alone. Take it one day at a time.
I started being a "perfectionist" when I was younger because I'd feel validated and happy when I get high grades and proud parents, but during this pandemic I really stooped low and started getting line of 8 on my grades which honestly made me disappointed in myself and the dissatisfaction and disappointment on my parents face weren't shown but it was evident so it crushed me to bits. It honestly made me stop wanting to achieve the highest. Now this year is ending, managed to get some good grades. I'm not sure about right now but still trying to be the high achiever I used to be. I don't know why but it made me feel happy, validated and wanted. And to the others like me facing the same struggles, I assure you that you'll get through it and all of your efforts will be worth it in the end. Keep pushing and try to take it slow.
my obsession with perfect grades got so bad that I was in a state of medical help. I'm the first born and everyone always expects me to take every responsibility I'm also the oldest of 6 grandchildren on my mom's side and second oldest out of 4 on my dad's side. It was always a burden and teachers never had any mercy on me when it came to my free time. I was pressured into joining clubs and after school activities, going to school competitions etc... Last year I did bad on one of my math tests and my teacher made me feel worse about it, she said "where is (my name) I used to know? The one who cared about school?" I literally couldn't stop crying, I tried proving them that I care but they said "actions speak louder" even though I did everything I could. That period was also really bad for me because that year I lost my uncle and pets and they all died almost the same month. Also all of my family problems were conformed that year when I exposed my dad's side of the family of all of the things they did to me and my siblings. My fears got worse and I developed PTSD and anxiety because of one stupid accident or "prank", how my friend called it. Because of her stupid "prank" I literally jumped off of the balcony (2nd floor) out of fear. I only had 3 therapy sessions but I learned to take care of myself and deal with my emotional pain alone. I had countless sleepless nights, panic attacks and my mental health was never worse. I let people take advantage of me and I was too nice. Having all of that going on my teachers still put on every burden on me. But that's okay I now know that I am the only person who understands me truly and I don't need anyone else. I learned it the hard way but it was worth it. Just because I'm gifted doesn't mean I am born to be perfect. Finally, after gaining self love and confidence I can finally say I am proud of myself and I don't need to prove it to anyone else. I'm my 1st priority and everyone will for sure know that.
I'm the burned out gifted kid in my family and even thought my family tells me I don't need to success in everithyng I always get very sad when I don't
this playlist is exactly how I feel rn. I was an overachiever in hs and graduated with the highest grades. But coming to college and dealing with a tonne load of more problems alongside studying has really burned me out. I feel bad for the hs me who worked so damn hard to reach here but now I feel lost. Seeing my grades drop is so painful...I want the hs me back.
I have had a terrible childhood and im still facing it. I envied my brother even tho he made me smile everyday and if it wasn't for him i wouldn't have been able to handle this stress and pressure. I had this babysitter (strict and i always had beef with her 😊) she always compared me with my brother and i always tried not to let that get in my head but the experience in my school made me mentally weak and I've gotten sensitive,, i was never that sensitive before. It made me fear that if i didn't have good grades, elegant behavior, beauty people wont like me. My besties, friends, online friends made me happier than I did. 😊
I used to be the gifted kid in the family I always got 96% or higher in my exam results but as i starting growing up i was losing my perfection my family gave up hope in me i would study 7 hours a day to improve my grades but i got 46% which made me cry the entire night and woke up the next day as if nothing happened and i went to school other's would gossip about me i told myself if im not a perfection anymore i won't become one again My parents would hate me a lot for not getting good grades i was locked in my room for 2 days i tried to make others happy
my foster parents were trying to do what they failed to do with their own son, which is raise a decent human being. In the end we were both left without any guidance whatsoever. I think ina way she did try, but i think her mistake was her thinking she can raise someone's child the same way she raised hers. Mind you her son was 31 at the time and I was 11. I remember talking to him once, and he said "idk why she has you guys around, maybe its so make herself feel better about me, or money cause my mom wasn't the best mom, well for me atleast." I refused to see that of her, cause in my eyes she was trying to help me. Maybe in the end it was for money, because now that i look back for a moment, I realized she was never really there, she did what was mandatory of her as a foster parent. I dont think I've ever had a decent home. I'm 26 now and have a family of my own, and place to call home
kind of a vent: As a middle schooler labeled as a gifted kid - it SUCKS. I am so burnt out with my 10,000 assignments that I can apparently do on time even though I can't. I'm also a pressured only child with divorced parents. why does my life need to suck. also there's this one kid in all of my classes but one: • who asked to call me • I didn't know how to say no so I said ok • he started calling me every day and I HATED IT • over the summer between 4th and 5th grade I ignored him because he's ANNOYING and I didn't previously realize • 5th graders ARE invited to the school dances they have at my school (5th is like a transition to middle school) • THIS DUDE asks me to GO TO THE DANCE WITH HIM (we were in the 5TH GRADE! 5TH GRADE!!!!!!!!!!!) • when I (politely, by the way) say no, he bothers me for the rest of the school year • the whole time I tried to ignore him • I ignored him over the summer between 5th and 6th grade • We come back, and I am out of patience with this kid • He starts being weirdly rude because I start showing my true opinion towards him (which is LITERALLY LEAVE ME ALONE) • He started commenting on one of my videos, asking to COLLAB (he called me a dips**t and then asks to collaborate? heck no!) • you can even find this video! its the one that asks what content you want from me! its on this yt channel! • He comments "I mean this is the person who friend zoned me multiple times.." YEAH OF COURSE I DID • People start joking about it lol • Someone here, please help me deal with this dude. • I literally hate him • He is rude to me in front of me and my friends but is nicer in front of others
im truly not much of a gifted kid, always just A’s and B’s… i always excelled in things like ELA and writing, being pushed to be an author one day. so, maybe i am a gifted child? but my parents see me as the golden child, so the words ‘driven by greed to succeed’ have never been more real, it’s always just to impress them. the moment i get a C, it feels like ive fallen off, i always have the strict need to be an honors student, it feels horrible
No because like non-gifted kids don’t understand the absolute pain of laving to learn two years of science, math, english, and history material in a freaking SEMESTER. Not to mention Band, Spanish, and the music lessons I’ve been doing outside of school and homework for ALL of this. I genuinely don’t know how I’ve been getting straight A’s for the past couple of years. Im only in middle school, I shouldn’t be waking up at 4 AM and going to bed at midnight every single night from the beginning to the end of the school year.
Lyrics :)
Are You Satisfied?:
I was pulling out my hair
The day I got the deal, chemically calm
Was I meant to feel happy that my life
Was just about to change?
One life pretending to be the cat who got the cream
Oh, everybody said, "Marina is a dreamer"
People like to tell you what you're gonna be
It's not my problem if you don't see what I see
And I do not give a damn if you don't believe
My problem, it's my problem
That I never am happy
It's my problem, it's my problem
On how fast I will succeed
Are you satisfied with an average life?
Do I need to lie to make my way in life?
High achiever, don't you see?
Baby, nothing comes for free
They say I'm a control freak
Driven by a greed to succeed
Nobody can stop me
'Cause it's my problem if I want to pack up and run away
It's my business if I feel the need to smoke and drink and sway
It's my problem, it's my problem if I feel the need to hide
And it's my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die
Are you satisfied with an average life?
Do I need to lie to make my way in life?
Are you satisfied with an easy ride?
Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied?
Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied, prayin'
Sad inside in this life, unsatisfied, waitin'
Are you satisfied with an average life?
Do I need to lie to make my way in life?
Are you satisfied with an easy ride?
Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied?
Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
Black, white (are you satisfied, are you satisfied?)
Cry Baby:
You seem to replace
Your brain with your heart
You take things so hard
And then you fall apart
You try to explain
But before you can start
Those cry baby tears
Come out of the dark
Someone's turning the handle
To that faucet in your eyes
They're pouring out
Where everyone can see
Your heart's too big for your body
It's why you won't fit inside
You pour it out
Where everyone can see
They call you cry baby, cry baby
But you don't fucking care
Cry baby, cry baby
So you laugh through your tears
Cry baby, cry baby
'Cause you don't fucking care
Tears fall to the ground
You just let them drown
You just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
You're all on your own and
You lost all your friends
You told yourself that
It's not you, it's them
You're one of a kind
And no one understands
But those cry baby tears
Keep coming back again
Someone's turning the handle
To that faucet in your eyes
They're pouring out
Where everyone can see
Your heart's too big for your body
It's why you won't fit inside
You pour it out
Where everyone can see
They call you cry baby, cry baby
But you don't fucking care
Cry baby, cry baby
So you laugh through your tears
Cry baby, cry baby
'Cause you don't fucking care
Tears fall to the ground
You just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
You just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
You just let them drown
I look at you and I see myself
And I know you better than anyone else
And I have the same faucet in my eyes
So your tears are mine
They call me cry baby, cry baby
But I don't fucking care
Cry baby, cry baby
I laugh through my tears
Cry baby, cry baby
'Cause I don't fucking care
Tears fall to the ground
I just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
I just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
You just let them drown
They call you cry baby, cry baby
I just let them drown
Cry baby, cry baby
You just let them drown
Jealousy, Jealousy:
I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room
'Cause all I see are girls too good to be true
With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies
Wish I didn't care
I know their beauty's not my lack
But it feels like that weight is on my back
And I can't let it go
Co-comparison is killing me slowly
I think, I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be
Anyone, anyone else
My jealousy, jealousy
Started following me (he-he-he, he-he)
Started following me (he-he-he, he-he)
And I see everyone getting all the things I want
And I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not
Just cool vintage clothes and vacation photos
I can't stand it, oh, God, I sound crazy
Their win is not my loss
I know it's true
But I can't help getting caught up in it all
Co-co-comparison is killing me slowly
I think, I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be
Anyone, anyone else
My jealousy, jealousy (yeah)
All your friends are so cool, you go out every night
In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're living the life
Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend too
I wanna be you so bad, and I don't even know you
All I see is what I should be
Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy
All I see is what I should be
I'm losing it, all I get's, jealousy, jealousy
Co-comparison is killing me slowly
I think, I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
And I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be (oh, oh)
Anyone, anyone else (anybody else)
Jealousy, jealousy
Oh, I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be (oh-oh)
Anyone, anyone else
Jealousy, jealousy
Started following me
Oh No!:
Don't do love, don't do friends
I'm only after success
Don't need a relationship
I'll never soften my grip
Don't want cash, don't want card
Want it fast, want it hard
Don't need money, don't need fame
I just want to make a change
I just wanna change
I just wanna change
I just wanna change
I just wanna change
I just wanna change
I know exactly what I want and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine
I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy
Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh!
One track mind, one track heart
If I fail, I'll fall apart
Maybe it is all a test
'Cause, I feel like I'm the worst
So I always act like I'm the best
If you are not very careful
Your possessions will possess you
TV taught me how to feel
Now real life has no appeal
It has no appeal
It has no appeal
It has no appeal
It has no appeal
It has no appeal
I know exactly what I want and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine
I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy
Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh!
I know exactly what I want and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine
I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy
Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh!
I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly
I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna die
I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly
I'm gonna fail, gonna die, die, die, die
I know exactly what I want and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine
I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy
Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh!
I know exactly what I want, and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk, and talk like a machine
I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy
Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh!
Da-da-dum, da-da-dum
Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum
Da-da-dum, da-da-dum
Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum
Da-da-dum, da-da-dum
Da-da-da-da-da-da-dum
Oh! Oh, no! Oh, no! Oh, no, oh!
Brutal:
I want it to be, like, messy
I'm so insecure, I think
That I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me, and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
'Cause who am I, if not exploited?
And I'm so sick of 17
Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
"Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious and nothing can help
And I wish I'd done this before
And I wish people liked me more
All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
(Yeah!)
I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck
'Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park
All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
(Yeah! Just having a really good time)
Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal out here, it's brutal out here)
And God, I don't even know where to start
I Cant Handle Change:
Hangin' out where I don't belong is nothing new to me
I get tired, and I get sick, and then I lose the strength to leave
I can't handle change
I can't handle change
Nothing I do is ever good
Nothing I do is ever good enough
Nothing I do is ever good
Nothing I do is ever good
Nothing I do is ever good enough
Nothing I do is ever good
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone
I can't help but repeat myself
I know it's not your fault
Still lately, I begin to shake
For no reason at all
For no reason at all
For no reason at all
For no reason at all
For no reason at all
Francis:
I don't know what to do without you
I don't know where to put my hands
I've been trying to lay my head down
But I'm writing this at three AM
I don't need the world to see
That I've been the best I can be, but
I don't think I could stand to be
Where you don't see me
On sunny days I go out walking
I end up on a tree-lined street
I look up at the gaps of sunlight
I miss you more than anything
I don't need the world to see
That I've been the best I can be, but
I don't think I could stand to be
Where you don't see me
And autumn comes when you're not yet done
With the summer passing by, but
I don't think I could stand to be
Where you don't see me
I feel so sad because I crave academic validation but I also crave male validation and I confuse love with an emotional attachment or confusing love with the infatuation of their beauty. I confuse true love with true feelings about someone.
@@Emmie1223 that’s so weird because you just described my entire life- so just know that you’re not alone, and that you are enough. The only piece of advice I can give you, as a not-therapist is to try to sleep more, and maybe play music before bed to stop yourself from overthinking, and just know that your grades do not define you
This comment is too underrated.
@@alliumduo1675 this one boy is pretty and it’s like I’m obsessed with him but at the same time knowing he feels the same gives me relief, but he’s taken at the same time so I can’t really tell whether or not he likes me or dislikes me. He confessed his feelings already and I guess that’s my confirmation he likes me but he can’t let go of his girlfriend, which shows hes loyal but I’m so confused
You don't understand how much I love and appreciate you for this... Thanks
being smart is the only way I can feel good about myself. I just want to feel happy with myself. I cant explain it.
I understand. I hope you're feeling alright!!💚
İts to relateable for me
Yup too relatable for me too
Felt
i can relate to this and i understand i hope you feel better💖
I never realized how scared I am of getting judged of being dumb until I cried about getting a lower score but still getting the highest in the class
tell me about it. I suck at science and I have a 67 as my whole grade and my mom was so mad she said I have to get at least 90 on everything. same with social studies but I have a 72 in that. when I get even a 85 its not good enough
@@ImSoAwesome_Ro your not the only one I feel the same way! Ever since I got ‘selected’ for the ‘gifted’ class my mum wants me to get a 100 or atleast a 90 on everything…it’s exhausting:
@@ImSoAwesome_Ro same my mom wants me to get 100 or at least 95 on everything because I was overachieving when I was young- keep yelling at me why im so lazy now
Why do i relate to it!
Got an 89 on the math EoC. Highest in my class by a large margin, and it completely ruined my day. Im supposed to be some mathematically genius but I cant even get an A.
i love the way marina says "and its my problem if i have no friends and feel i want to die" lmfao
Same
I read this comment as the part played- 💀
@@IHaveAFatherButHesAbroad SAME💀
@@IHaveAFatherButHesAbroad same
@@IHaveAFatherButHesAbroad same lol
I went to a mental hospital last year. when I get there, the next day, a doctor pulls me aside for a chat. we talked abt why I'm there. I said it's just all too much. he said "well, how come a student like you, with amazing grades, can be depressed?" and to this day, I still wonder. I believe my sadness is nothing. this playlist helped me realize I'm not the only one who's burnt out n tired. to whoever reading, it'll get better. grades don't define you. I try to tell myself this everyday, n you should too.
they dont get it
i attempted to take my life back in April.. and ppl at home took me to a doc and he said i who got perfect marks and smart, could be so brainless and do such stupid things.. they jus don't get me.
@@sushi-ze7vd it's both comforting and sad that we feel more comfortable sharing things with strangers on the internet than our family sometimes, and how those people understand us and get it more than our family.
I know grades don’t define me. My dad disagrees no matter what he says I know that’s what he thinks. He said I’ll never be anything worthwhile without straight As and I don’t know how much longer I can keep going
Me when I lie
No bcs I listen to most of these songs after I have a mental breakdown or after my parents scold me when I get "distracted" and not focus on my studies😭
omygosh same that happens to me everyday every HOUR like BRO ALL THEY WANT ME TO DO IS JUST FINSIH ALL OF THE HOMEWORKS STRAIGHT LIEK ESCUSE ME I AM NOT A ROBOT IM A HUMAN TOO.
i can never relate more 💀❤
Oh my god same
SAME AND IM LITERALLY IN GIFTED😭
Fr tho
my mom never pressured me to be the best, but I felt pressured to do so nonetheless because of how good I was at stuff. I was a more than proficient reader, writer, and mathematician, so I felt I had to live up to that standard for all my life. now I'm a freshman in high school and I'm tired of feeling horrible because I programmed myself to give up on a project because it isn't perfect. everytime I see the two B's in my grade book I want to cry even though I have three A's because it feels like I should have straight A's. I hate it. I hate school, and I wish I could drop out. (sorry for the vent I've just kept this inside for a long time)
As someone that used to do the same, getting out of that habit is learning how to say "at least it's something." I used to stress so much about if my stuff would be perfect that I would run myself into the ground rather than lose a few points.
I eventually got a class where I had no choice to turn in work I wasn't happy with. And, honestly, I'm better off for it.
The overthinking doesn't go away. At least, it hasn't yet for me. I still always second guess if I should have tried more, done more, done better. But I'm at a point that I don't have the time with school and work to have tried harder, and I know that. I know I can not have done better without sacrificing myself again.
I'm not going to lie, it took a while to get there. But I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's possible, and that you can get there. I promise.
Until then, though, take care of yourself. Drink some water, have a bite of ice cream or similar every now and again.
Live in those little moments. They make the harder ones a bit better.
You have ocd
I do the same, even when there's no pressure, I feel like there is, put on by me.
I’m now a sophomore in college and I’ve always loved learning but college is really making keeping that passion for knowledge difficult but I’ve been practicing taking breaks grounding myself in what it I truly enjoy doing which is creating stories
@@brittany9992 I'm in highschool, duel enrolling in college and lemme just say, going from almost all A's to only Bs, Cs, and Fs is the most shocking thing 😭 it's pretty much destroyed every ounce of motivation I've had
fck no this is too accurate. it’s hard being the over achiever and suddenly performing poorly. it makes you feel like you’re not good enough. and when you have siblings who are favoured to you it HURTS. why am i here ?? ive been through so much to get where i am. that’s why everyone expects me to do better and to keep improving when they don’t even know how hard it is to have this much weight on your shoulders. i wish i was normal and i didn’t have to be in any extension classes and i could enjoy my lessons without worrying abt if im doing well enough and i wish i could be with my friends enjoying myself.
"Being the over achiever and suddently performing poorly"
The fact that you just described my whole life and depression-
Im not a overachiever i just force myself to the breaking point then seeing my friends get good grades or my brother doing better than me just makes me think im not good enough to make my parents happy.
This is me rn. Idk what happened. Kinda just slowly got worse and worse. Lol
YES YES YES YESSSS
and then when i start chatting with them, ppl say to fcking study cuz talking to my friends are deemed "worthless" in their eyes. for some reason, my wishes that i want to have are suddenly unreachable
I am not burned out gifted kid. I am burned out trying to be gifted.
cough BRUTAL
Same.
Same. Those lying adults said that im smart, JUST BECAUSE I SAID SOME BULLSHIT THINGS.
I miss the days when I wasn’t a topper and did pretty good but not that good man I didn’t care about 1 mark those days good ol days :(
Same, people tell me that I am smart but I am not smarter than others.
I've always been the "gifted kid" of the family, and it sucks. you're being pressured to do good, the expectations are HIGH as the sky, and it just results in massive burnout and mental issues, and I think this playlist perfectly captures those feelings
I had a mental breakdown like I could not breath over 1 test which barley brought my grade down and when I was in grade 4 I got a b in social studies and I cried so hard
i relate. i think that’s why i’ve been getting so emotional and tired lately
I know.. I like getting A's and stuff its just everyone thinks you should do perfect every time, resulting in pressure, and I can't handle it anymore. I just feel like giving up completely at school
I agree with you, especially because my older brother is only 23 with an electrical engineering degree and a great job. I was in the gifted program at my school in 1st grade, and I coasted through 8 years of school without having anything lower than an A because I have a photographic memory, and I stopped caring about math, got a C in 5th grade, and my parents were angry and disappointed in me, and I was crying because I didn't make the honor roll. I guess I always felt a truckload of pressure too. I managed to be a pick me girl, overachiever, golden girl, athlete, and had to be nice and kind to everyone while I was at it. 9th grade now, and I'm kind of getting tired of being 'perfect'.
*Dramatically sighs*
End of rant.
PS: I really hope you're feeling better and don't have as much pressure.
I agree I thought I was alone in this because my parents were gifted too so their expectations are even higher I have to live up to their standards but I can’t
Timestaps :)
0:01 - 3:17 Are u satisfaid? ~Marina and The Diamonds
3:20 - 7:17 Crybaby ~Melanie Martinez
7:21 - 10:13 Jealousy, Jealousy ~Olivia Rodrigo
10:16 - 13:14 Oh no! ~Marina and The Diamonds
13:18 - 15:38 Brutal ~Olivia Rodrigo
15:42 - 19:01 I can't handle change ~Roar
19:03 - 21:29 Francis forever ~Mitsiki
I just wanted to Say...
I'm proud of u
I hate the fact that you misspelled jealousy and I think that's saying something about me
@@THEnoelleholiday did I I?
@@Xx_Leni_xX no you didn’t I think they just saw it wrong it is spelled like “Jealously” so you didn’t
@@marj.biscuits oh okay thanks because I speak other language :)
These are giving me massive bakugou vibes. Well shit I relate. :(
20:14 "I miss you more the anything" woah, great that hit me hard.😕I'm crying i just ran out of tears.
I was always the gifted kid not because I wanted to but I was forced to, since I'm an only child and first born (on dad's side), I get burned out way too often. People don't realize the expectations and pressure many of these "gifted kids" are under. Please be gentle with them, thank you! I love this playlist so much, helps me focus appreciate your hard work!!
You’re welcome!! And thank you for commenting!!! 🤍🤍
@@musicnightmare B is allowed?!?!?!?
SAME
I fun burden to deal with. And if you parents see that and they want another kid they try to do so much better for the next kid. While leaving you a burnt out gifted kid.
Thank you! I’m a older gifted kid myself, and so is my older cousin by 2 years on my mom’s side. (No kids on my dad’s side).Just last year my teacher was very rough with me, telling me to go write paragraphs for the “needy kids”, forgetting about my own work. Plus most gifted kids tend to have OCD, and anxiety. So for everyone out there, gifted kids are under lots of pressure.
Still recovering from burnout last school year. Something no one talks about is how scary it is to ask for help when you're supposed to be "the smart kid". Even asking for clarification or going in for office hours feels like you're falling short somehow.
Literally. Asking for help at any time ever feels like you’re no longer smart and that people will no longer respect you.
It's unearthly how hard it becomes truly, I'm still coping with the fact of it even, but learning to do it without shame slowly 😌
This is too relateable. I used to be a over-achiever, best-grades-in-class-always-winning student. And then right after 5th grade, boom. All of that is gone. Im not the over-achiever anymore. Im the failing kid, the kid whos always late to class and who is expected more from. I miss being the over-achiever, but i think im fine now. Remember. not everything has to be perfect, you are perfect in your own way. Luv yall < 3
Edit: HOLY CINNAMON GUYS i have never gotten this much likes and replies ever. i love yall so much 😭 Im glad to see everyone can relate to this suffering 😭 But its okay, and im sure we'll get through it. stay strong, keep fighting, at the end of the day, its not your grades. Its your hard work put into the task.
same here, it just gets to hard to accept that you aren't super special or great anymore...
I'm sorry but in my world it has to be.
“You say that you'll grow up to be nobody. But logically.. if nobody's perfect... well then, you must be perfect.”
― Lynda Mullaly Hunt, Fish in a Tree
Off topic but I love the Stolas profile pic lol
relatable
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
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Usually I ignore comments like these when scrolling, but this was actually pretty helpful. Thanks for sharing it lol :)
Thank you:) ❤❤❤❤
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this lowkey helped lmao im studying rn
I cant sleep, I have no motivation to even stand up or just get comfy. I want to lay down and perish tbh
To whoever reads this,
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love your insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love your failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on your sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you move
i love the way you act
i love you when you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you when you're mean
i love you when you're alone
i love you when you can't feel
i love you when you feel too much
i love you when you can't take life anymore
i love you when you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you when you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you when you don't believe in yourself
i love you when you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you when you're in pain
i love you when you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love your wounds
i love your scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you when you lie
i love you when you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you when you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you when you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you when you have a headache
i love you when you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you need help
i love you when you're mature
i love you when you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you when life is meh
i love you when you're responsible
i love you when you're irresponsible
i love you when you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love you at your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
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Man I really needed to hear this, thank you
I've always hated how I looked so thats why I cherish compliments (I don't get that often) but I'm always denying it
@@Saskiaham I also feel that way sometimes , it reminds me of the song "Do i derserve it " by Sushi soucy, and "Prom queen" by Beach bunny. Actually the love listening music and sometimes i come across real depressing songs, my playlist is so doomed . But then songs like "Pretty's on the inside " , reminds me of the beauty inside me as the song title suggests.
The fact after reading this I cried for an hour…. Thank you!
VENT:
I'm not exactly the 'gifted kid' but this playlist made me really feel like me. See I'm not getting younger and I'm almost a teenager and idk if my dad sees that or not because every little thing I do I get yelled at. I'm also the first born of my family and that's already a lot. My dad was also the first child so I thought maybe he would get my pain but it just seems he ignores it. My mom though, she's the third child out of four. She helps me always no matter what. Like I just asked her if she could drop off my stuff(my parents are divorced) cause I didn't want my dad yelling at me because I forgot things. You know what she said. Sure honey I'll be right over. You know when I ask my dad to do that the answer is always "give me 30 min. to 1 hour I'm napping." I'm so done with life. Also on another note my mom told me she thinks I'm 'growing up to fast' without even putting context of what I've gone through in my life. My parents got divorced when I was 5. 5!!!!! I had to grow up fast or else my younger brother wouldn't have a stable life.
thanks to those who listened to my vent.
SophiaEditz, I know what you feel, I am in my third year of high school. I also had to grow up fast and I am the oldest. I truly wish there was a way I could help.
Hey you aren't alone
I know you sometimes feel the saddest and ofcourse are disappointed but remember you are special and a loved person.
You have the power to make your life and yourself better
Don't underestimate yourself or depend on someone else for your happiness
Virtual hugs and lots of prayers for u
Same
thank you for the vent! apparently it is freshmen who have it easy...i don't know, in that case, how i will get through high school with a's. honestly i cried the other day after getting an 80 on a test when all my friends got 70's or below. but that feels like everything rn because suddenly it's hard to be good at something. i am technically not a gifted kid because i was homeschooled so now i can't be...missed my chance lol. but this is relatable. im so sorry for what you are going through and i hope that your life gets better soon. keep going, you're worth it!
btw im the middle child which is confusing because i got the anxiety, perfectionism, and high standards of an oldest child.
Try to talk to your mom about staying at hers permanently it's hard but sometimes it's for the best.
i was "gifted" when i was a younger kid- i excelled at math, my teachers said they loved to read my essays, i had a fairly extensive vocabulary, i was great at reading and absorbing information, etc. adults around me considered me to be intelligent, likely because i missed so much school, (i spent a lot of time in the hospital as a kid) yet i still managed to exceed expectations. "expectations" is a word that has always hit me hard. when someone expected something of me, even if it was something small, i would force myself to do far more than they asked of me.
then middle school came around..
when i started middle school, things got really tense at home. i may have lived with my mom for my whole life, but we hardly spoke- she avoided spending time with me, and spent all her time with my older brother. eventually, my brother started failing high school, and my mom was outraged. when my brother failed to meet expectations, my mom doubled up onto me. i had already been doing my best, but that wasnt enough for her- suddenly, i was lazy for not being in an after school club, i was unsatisfactory for getting one A as opposed to all A-pluses on my 1st semester report card. i wasn't enough for her.
i joined the after school play so i wouldn't be lazy. i stopped eating lunch and just stayed in the library to study. i would study all night until my eyes ached. even when i tried to go to bed, i would lay awake.
my mom didn't go to either performance. my mom was outraged that i missed one extra credit assignment. my mom said that the bags under my bloodshot eyes made her look like a bad mother.
we moved cites and i lost all my friends.
i finally snapped. i absolutely melted under the sheer amount of pressure.
i went to school every day, but i couldn't even force myself to work. i would doodle in my notebooks and forget what my notes meant. all As became all Ds, save for a B in electives. teachers hated me because they couldn't even see me as a "problem child"- i was a quiet kid with no friends who caused no problems. i may has well have rotted away in my bed.
after a few years of that, i dropped out of highschool. online learning started, and i couldnt handle it. the school claimed that teachers couldn't force us to have our cameras on, but two of my teachers tried regardless. one started yelling at me in front of everyone. i was so humiliated that i left the meeting and never returned. i gave up. my mom was pissed. everyone thinks that i stopped caring, but i didnt. i am so disappointed in my self. ive wanted to end my life for years- i had a few attempts 3 years ago.
i turn 18 next week. i am a failure of a himan being.
the worst/best part? i, who was pressured so hard, am a dropout. my brother, who was given up on? he graduated and has a job. fuck my mom, and fuck my life.
let gifted kids be gifted in peace, for the love of god.
i read all of those and wow, i can't imagine how strong you could be
i can't really say much encouragement word, since i'm also currently at the bottom (plus,im not good at those)
but, i want you to try and love yourself more. little by little
just try , you are stronger than you think
@@Aya-hn2vc thank you- it really helps to hear that.
It must have been hard .
@@periwinkle003 it was and is, but I'll be fine. Thank you.
Hello.. just want to say YOU are NOT a robot and definitely NOT AND NEVER a FAILURE, YOU yourself DID AMAZINGG and I just want you to know you are LOVED and SPECIAL, life WILLLL get better..NEVERRRR stop believing. -Love from a stranger online. :)
Thanks for this playlist. I was a gifted kid and now I'm 21, can't drive due to autism and anxiety, and earn $11/hour at a job that is sometimes so exhausting that I have no energy for anything else. I was always told that I'd be super successful and could have any career I wanted and now everything is inaccessible or requires more time and energy than I have available.
I really hope things will get better for you, things will get better. Take care!
im so so sorry this happened. i really hope your gonna be okay, please dont give up.
You're no gifted kid your parents just weren't honest with u lmao
gifted kid burnout is real. i wish I was never told I was gifted. what a mindset that gave me, that I always had to know the answer, because I was the gifted one in the class. i reject this title whenever people tell me today, I just can't stand it. hope things get better for you
Please don’t give up, you got this! Go at your own pace.
Sometimes ppl don’t realize how much pressure and expectations they have put on us
This is tru
The number of tears I nearly shed listening to this, so relatable and heartbreaking to see how many people relate to this (and how many people suffer like me, they don't deserve this!)
To those high-achievers listening to this, we're all here for you! Don't give up just yet
im a low achiever and I wanna give up!! 🥲
@@astraxskii1844 Don't give up, if u pay attention everything gets clear, or show that ur really trying to the teacher, that counts too.
As an honor student I remember how someone told me I was going to fail honors because my average on math was 77% and I started crying. I’m fine now but still it hurts.
i had gotten a 50 in math last 6 weeks and had a full mental breakdown im in gt so the expectations and the first six weeks my lowest grade was a 90 and my parents told me i could do better
it hurt like shit cause i really tried
@@BLVSSEDITZ exactly
This playlist really hits hard because I’ve been in the gifted program ever since elementary. People always have high expectations of me just because I passed one silly test, I remember once I got a C+ on a test and had a full on break down because of it. Everyone has told me at least once “wow your grades are so good I wish I could be you!!” But no you really don’t wanna be me. I’m in gifted, STEM, bata, all advanced class, and get straight A’s but it really sucks.
Tell me about it, It truly does s***.
I hate how they put so much pressure on us at such a young age like I’m in 7th grade now but I still remember in 4th grade crying over getting 2 points wrong on a small project. I still feel bad about cause the other kids in my group thought they did something wrong. :(
@@nin_7478 @Nin maaaannn, im an 8th grader 😭 last year we were online learning so its my first time experiencing high school and no shit I still couldnt make friends up until today + doing bad at tests especially in the major subjects 😭😭 SORRY FOR THE VENT BUT I HOPE UR DOING OKAY!! YOU GOT THIS
@Nin @Kaede I don't want to be me or you or any other "gifted" person!!!!! it's the worst! I'm in 6th grade and I freaking hate it!!
me too
this is so accurate. It’s so hard being the smartest in your class then dropping to low grades. Everyone expects so much. I hate it. School would be so much more enjoyable if they didn’t give so much work.
And if every adult was supportive aswell
0:00-3:21 Are You Satisfied? By Marina
3:21-7:21 Cry baby By Melanie Martinez
7:21-10:16 Jealously,Jealously By Olivia Rodrigo
10:16-13:18 Oh no! By Marina
13:18-15:43 Brutal By Olivia Rodrigo
15:43-19:03 I Can’t Handle Change By Roar
19:03-21:30 Francis Forever By Mitski
“I’m not a robot” by MARINA also suits this playlist well, just a suggestion 💖
Thank u
It's funny that I know all these songs :')
these songs all being in my playlist/being my fav songs is scaring me
Jealousy, Jealousy*
I'm a 8th grader,
In my country there is an enterace exam for high school.
I am the second in the class, but people expect too much from me.
Teachers,
Friends,
Family.
I am good at lessons, doing every question right, always "one of the best".
But when it comes to exams, anxiety won't let me win this race.
Working so hard, spending all your day to study and then. Boom. Your note was lower and lower than you expected. Not just you, for the others too.
I was more happier, more energetic, more friendly, more caring before.
Now that me is gone.
There is only the girl who is a " burnout", always the one with head aches, and the silent among friend group.
To be honest, nothing is worth living, its better to disappear. Maybe just for one day, or more, or forever.
Merhaba isminden türk olduğunu anladım😅 aşkım ben şu an 11. sınıfım ve ben bu travmayı atlatamadan seneye tekrar sınava gireceğim.Zamanın nasıl geçtigini bile anlamayacaksın. 8 in zorluğunu zerre hatırlamayacaksın. Sadece kat ettiğin yolu hatırlayacaksın. İnan bu sınavın %90 ı senin kendi içinde yaptığın savaş. Gerçek anlamda sınava kadar olan mentalimizi, sınav esnasında olan stresimizi ölçüyorlar. Sana önerim şu, lütfen ne olursa olsun pozitif düşün. Herşeyi bilinçaltımızda zorlaştıran biziz(fizik çalışırken bunu yazıyorum aslında ağlamak üzereyim). Kendine iyi bak :)
Ben bu yıl 9 a geçtım ve lgs nin nasıl hissettirdiğini anlıyorum. Ama gerçekten söylüyorum ki önemi kalmıyacak. Bütün bir sene her uyandığında, her okula gittinde sınav için yaşıyormuşsun gibi hissettiriyor ama zaman geçtikçe unutuyorsun. Umarım sınavın iyi geçer ve her şey istediğin gibi olur ♡
I understand the pressure you're under. In my country there's a highschool entrance exam as well and, although I'm an elite student in 7th grade, I feel burnt out and everyone expects me to ace that goddamn exam called "capacity" as if the grade we'll get is going to define who we are and what we are capable of. I am not going to be the 'don't worry, everything will be fine' girl, but I'm telling you that one day, things will get better and you'll rediscover your old self. I once saw a quote saying that everyone gets a happy ending and if it's not happy, then it isn't the ending. Keep your head up and raise up to YOUR expectations for yourself, because you will live your future, not you parents, teachers or friends. You've got this, princess ❤👑
We have the same thing in my country too, I feel so fucking scared about them. It's in a month
Ur polish?
Can't ever have a playlist like this without "Are You Satisfied?" by Marina and also in my own experience I've actually never had my parents pressure me with having high grades or achieving the 1st spot (I would say that It's me who's pressuring myself) all they wanted for me was to just be able to pass my school years. When I went to my first school year I was still a clueless little kid who only knew how to play, basically I was still stupid and didn't had that much thought about learning new stuff. All I wanted to do was play with my classmates and talk about things I had interest in. Until 1st grade came in, for the first time I was one of the people who got into the top students of the class. I felt happy and excited about that and I wanted to do better, but not for the toppest top just a part of it cause I knew well that having the first spot would be too much pressure and burden, and most importantly the feeling of losing the first spot would be too much lol. I continued doing this until now and I will say things really change when you get older, instead of just feeling proud and reassured about the things I've already achieved or done I just get this sense of regret or disappointment in myself whenever I do things wrong (be it wrong answer's in a test even though it's a high score), and there would be times when I'd get jealous of other students or classmates getting higher achievements than me to the point that I think I'm not smart enough or I'm just stupid. But as of right now I do still feel like that sometimes, but I try hard not to think about it too much since it's a really displeasingly hard to explain feelings that I actually don't show to other people aaaand that it would also make me distracted on my studies
Sorry for suddenly commenting something like this, I just wanted to post this cause I know some people would relate to it too, also I'd appreciate it if no one comment's anything like "thing's will get better soon" or "everything will be fine soon" cause I know that damn well myself, If you've read all of this, Thank You
omg I feel the exact same way ):
Ironically the song is about the complete opposite thing.
SO RELATABLE I just started middle school and it's literal h***
@@clay9909 no it isn't.
@@juriscoughsyrup yes it is..
Being a "gifted child" is so overwhelming for me. I was always told I was a smart girl, so much that my parents started placing expectations on me. When ever I get anything below a 100%/full points my mom always go on about how she never had anything below that when she was my age. If I do get full points they don't even acknowledge it, they're just like "okay good." I'm so used to this that whenever I see something that isn't an A I start panicking, think what would my parents think, I think how useless I am. When I see someone ahead of me it drives me nuts, because then I start admiring them, then start to hate them. I compare myself to them, and so does my parents. I sometimes break down just because of my grades. I sometimes hyperventilate and when I believe I did horribly, I start to cry and then I start getting panic attacks. Over the years I've become a people pleaser, a teacher's pet and my friends tease me about it, but in reality it hurts. It drives me crazy and I don't want to live like this. I don't wanna live, but I don't wanna die. I just want to do my best without having consequences attached to it. I wanna go to school and feel free to make mistakes instead of feeling trapped within them. I am so miserable, and nowadays passing through my classes is one of the only things that makes me happy about myself. Makes me feel like I actually achieve something. I'm tired.
This is the playlist I listened to while I studied last year and now I still listen to it’s just too good
Me too Im studying rn its a lot of pressure tbh I'm on year 6 and im 13 so I get stressed because all people around me always say "study more, if you fail you will never reach secoundary" I havent slept a lot too but this playlist helps me focus
@@zakiyahrazzak7831 What the heck- you are only on year 6, you shouldn't put that much pressure on yourself. I remember when I was 13 (16 now) and nobody, almost NOBODY would stress anyone on studies. Like what the heck, should be illegal.
Over all of that, please take care of yourself hon. Health should and is the number 1 priority in your life.
Take a good rest too, don't force yourself too much
@@elisabethbardhi8037 That’s the sad part. We’re not supposed to feel pressured.
And yet people ask why some of us are depressed and suicidal. It’s sucks being smart, I would know.
It’s worse when you’re 2 grades smarter than everyone else.
Well, I used to always get good enough grades in elementary school. A- ‘s and A+ ‘s , or 3-4 ‘s as my school graded. I felt satisfied with myself. I was happy, not tired, loved. But now as I looked back on it, I had that natural talent to pick things up quick, and I used my brain to figure out math problems and other school subjects than using my mind for picking out the good people. I blindly trusted anyone who was nice to me, and I had only a few real friends. I was mathematically smart, but not emotionally. Whenever I got a bad grade, I remember my mother telling me that it was okay, but her face was a bit judgmental.
Now that I’m older, I’m better with emotions, seeing them on others and holding my own in. But, I’m worse in school subjects. Why is that? It’s so saddening for me to think about.
School smarts with no emotion knowledge to emotional knowledge with no school smarts.
Burnt out gifted kid Fr I guess.
I love this playlist! It’s sadly really relatable, and I’m glad this playlist exists
Thank you!!! 🤍
@@redkxsses I should be the one who is thanking you
I never realized that I was so obsessed with getting good grades that I didn't care about how looked or how I acted and how depressed I was, remember to get that sleep, to eat that meal, even if it feels impossible. Everything in your life YOU can decide what to do with it! Even if you have a quiz or a big test tomorrow, SLEEP. You may not get the best grade but its better than not sleeping and getting a worse grade, school isn't forever but your body is, please take care of it.
I got a 89 on a final test when i was younger while many others got 70-80 and I started crying so hard that i felt like passing out and my strict parents who usually dont care when i cry actually got concerned for once.
same here. when i was on fitfh grade idk how but i got like 70 on a hard test ,while many of my friends got 30-50, and i really want to cry that time but i hold it because i need to be "perfect" for my parents
This is too accurate. Watching myself being the straight A student, having classmates come to me for homework help, having the teacher trust you in helping the people who need help, always winning in academic competitions to getting F's D's C's and B's, barely getting A's anymore. Ive been trying too hard to make my parents proud as a first born, now im failing. The expectations have been growing on me and im failing myself. Im really trying, now its not just working. I feel confident after doing a test to get it back with a lower grade.
I relate, I want to be better. I acknowledge that but I brush it away
Thank you for making this playlist, I’m feeling burned out right now for being an over-achiever. This comforts me that others can relate too 🧸☕️✨
You’re welcome!!
I’ve always been what they called "a gifted kid". As a kid, I thought it was normal hearing "You should be at the top, as always." And my innocent self poured everything anything possible to live up on their expectations. But as I grew up, I never expected go feel exhaustion running on their tracks without getting anything in return. I’m still the top of our school by the recent moments. Though unlike before, I feel unmotivated and numb often. Going to school because it’s necessary, not because I enjoy it. It’s sickening. It’s sickening to be called a gifted child. I still score the highest yet not knowing how did it happen. It’s like, I don’t care anymore, how come I’m still at the high spot? Although I admit I still yearn for more. Their expectations also grew with me that my achievements felt lacking to the point where being the valedictorian doesn’t seem a big thing.
I have a friend who constantly praises me and wishes they were me because of everything I do. Even so, sometimes I wish I had their life. One with no expectations, freedom, and parents who only check on me sometimes. I can’t believe I even have the time to write this down. I came here looking for people to relate to, but in all honesty I just want to *crack* and cry and sleep and just.. take a break.
I feel similarly. Just try to hold on, okay? I may be some random internet stranger, but I care about you.
You should take a break if you can. Let your feelings out, have a good cry. Wrap yourself up in a nice blanket, and just exist for awhile. If you’re paranoid about your parents checking in, keep your school stuff nearby so you can pretend. But please, give yourself some time to rest. You’re worth it. 💜
Same, trying to be perfect makes u crazy with time. Getting a 10 and being the loved one in the class are the only good things, then comes stress, a group that doesn't work, hours of study, extra works, etc. School sucks.
I hope you both sleep well tonight
Did you get that break you needed ? Hope life is at least a little better now and that you can sleep (and cry cause it's not healthy to keep it all inside) as much as you need !
See, this is exactly why I've stopped caring so much about grades when I got older. I was also called a gifted kid, I even skipped a grade and always wanted to get really good grades at school. When I entered puberty, I was still a good student and did what I had to do, but I stopped being so pressed about grades. I've accepted that just because you're intelligent and have talents, doesn't mean you have to stress yourself to do everything perfectly all the time. It's okay to slack off sometimes. It makes your life much easier AND chances are, if you are naturally gifted and intelligent, you'll still do a good job without giving 100% all the time.
Yessss, straight A student for my whole school, aka 8 years, cause my mom made me a perfectionist through emotional abuse, and then failing 2 courses in college and dropping out, cause I was the worst in my group and had hell at home, and being yelled at for dropping out 🙃
I feel for you, college is really hard. I hope you get what you want and not what your mother wants
hey u amazing person
VENT:
so my older sister is gifted, but hasn't been doing well in high school, I care about her and have seen her get yelled at, and all my parents say is "don't be like her." "don't make that mistake." and I'm "gifted" too so I'm expected to do the same if not better than her. I'm experiencing everything she went through. the being yelled at, getting very distracted, the not being able to study efficiently, the putting off and forgetting hw, and so much more. and I'm trying, I'm trying I swear. I'm trying. i tried. but I'm not perfect. its not like my parents will beat me it I fail, but the mental toll might be worse. i just want someone to tell me that I'm doing fine, they're proud. i want to not do accelerated classes bc of the stress, but my friends are accel and the adv kids are going to make fun of me so I wont. and also my ego tells me I cant. sorry this was long gn
I am proud of you for going through it all. I love you for trying. If I say "a bit more and everything will be alright", it will be a lie and will not change anything. But know that I care for you. You can always talk to me whenever you want to cause I will always be here by your side.
Hey. Ur doing just fine. Go at ur own pace and appreciate ur efforts. Dont let others downplay ur efforts. And maybe try talking to ur older sis, since she's been thru this too. So maybe both of u can try to get ur views across ur parents. Or u guys can work together. Help each other grow or defend each other when the other is being yelled at for not being perfect. And I hope that u find amazing friends that will let u and understand u. And do start with appreciating urself and give urself sm small breaks. Try doing smthing u like, hobbies. Be it anything u like. Sports comics gaming reading cooking, Anything. And if u hv a meltdown. U can try being alone. Writing down ur thoughts, sorting them out. Like y ur feeling like this? Is there a solution? Shud i change my approach? Or r my worries just useless so I shudnt let them get to me (not all worries. Comparing urself to others can be one of em. Unless it's a positive competition.) and try being more optimistic than pessimistic. U hv to identify ur feelings first. If ur feeling pessimistic, then first change ur thoughts to positive ones right then N there. And ukw, this works. One day you'll reach a point where u r proud of ur efforts and urself. Well there r sm days when it's just bad but. U cant help it. Let it be. Look forward to tmr and change for the better. Take breaks. Anw. I said a lot there N it was messy but I do wish u all the best.
I was an over achiever kid, always getting straight As, after online school I just burned out, coming back to school and getting a B+ I started tearing up and tried not to cry, my parents weren't even glad I got 2nd and kept asking me why my classmate got a higher level even tho it's just 2 points less (I got 94)
Are you asian by any chance? This type of behavior in parents is mostly in the asian ones
i’m not a gifted kid or anything of the sort, but this playlist resonates with me on a personal level
same
Same
This is nice I was born very gifted as a kid (I was a complete copy and paste of my dad, first child) I’ve had a difficult life but this is one thing that has never changed but recently I’ve gotten slightly “dumber” (probably because of my pcs(post concussion disorder)
I hope I get better soon it’s been almost 5 months since the accident I was in
I do like being gifted (I’ve gotten used to burn out )
Have a lovely day people I’m glad so many others can relate
vent .....
living with a two toxic people ....struggling to study , exams in 3 months ...ch more than 40 ...living in a city of compitition of students of my age ...i messed up my preperation ....also i have anxiety problems ...i am someone who is not people pleasure but someone who just always do things to avoid getting scold ....and it breaks my heart and i cry hearing these two people in the same house talking bad about me...i am just scared of them saying anything negetive to me again .....i am litrally ... ....plus i just dont have guts to say anything....well i want to deal with them strongly...and have good grades ...i am dreamer but i feel like i am trapped in a web means i cant move forward but time can......
THANKS FOR READING ABOUT THIS UNKNOWN PERSON (ME)....I HOPE YOU NEVER GET TO GO THROUGH TOXICNESS AND NEVER PROCASTINATE
great playlist!! the song choice is great and very relatable :')
I could go on and say how being a gifted kid sucks and the education system does too and yada yada, but everyone listening to this probably already holds this sentiment soooo yeah
good luck, everyone! remember to take care of yourselves too!
🤍🤍
Yeah ik but I think that the school system in Greece sucks too
America sucks
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
not mine
but feel free to pass it around babes
Aspie here. Since I was young my mother forced me to be a complete over achiever, to the point where when I wasn't number one she'd sit down with me and learn until I cried or was best again.
Stopped caring and burned myself out on purpose at age 14.
Disappointment from my parents was immeasurable.
But oh it turned way worse when I got the diagnosis at age 17.
They stopped being disappointed in me and rather grew mad, because "Aspergers makes people smart" and they didn't believe me whenever I told them "I can't."
I'm so fucking sick of this misrepresentation in media that makes people think that certain illnesses give you perks or that you can dump all the pressure on them because they can handle it.
Wait, you can get an Asperger's diagnosis over the age of 12? They said I was too old to get one!
@@jeffoneto278xd You can get one at any age! It just gets harder the older you get. Who told you you couldn't??
And that misrepresentation is one of the reasons why aspergers is being taken out/has been taken out as a diagnosis. Also autism isn't an illness it's a different type of brain, the reason we're disabled is because this world wasn't built for us and we don't have the accommodations we need.
I started getting grades under 90% in 5th grade bc it was a hard year and all the teen stuff just got me that's why I was getting 80% 75% 90% 85% 100% 90% and it was just hard 😭 but I got through and now Im back to all A's in 6th grade. everyone who got similar problems to me here:
⭐u got this no matter how hard
⭐try to not care as much about others opinion
⭐if it matters to you you will always find a way
⭐nothing is impossible bc the word itself says "im possible"
⭐you will achieve great things in life if you stick to your goals
⭐you will get through hard stuff bc you r strong
⭐aim high and reach your goals
⭐if you get bullied try to withstand the pressure and get revenge for those bullies bc u are stronger than them and they r weak bc they bully u
⭐believe in yourself
⭐you will achieve great things in life
⭐reach for things you really want bc if you don't truly want it you might not get to ur goal
now continue what ever you were doing and remember than you can do it :))
positive vibes only and u r amazing
bye
One more thing
This is more of a personal principle i always held.
*If you were stupid, you will forever be stupid. Some people are just born to suffer for life. Fate is far more cruel than death.
And surprise surprise i only got 3rd rank on my 10th grade.
But still
I’m not exactly “gifted” but my mother holds an unnaturally high expectation for me. I brought it up to her once and she said something along the lines of “I don’t believe in that stuff.” Referring to burnout and being overworked. I tear up every time I think about it, those words truly crushed me.
yep.
she doesn't believe in that kind of stuff? you dont fucking tell your child that you dont believe in them needing a break bc holy shit does burnout do stuff to your mental health. im so sorry dude :(
As a constant honor student, I've always feared failure and not being able to maintain my grades. I used to think that by the time I get an 80+ grade, everyone would secretly be disappointed, and that thought suffocated me for so long to the point that I always hated it whenever someone has a higher performance than me, to think that their better than me, is just suffocating.
And the worst part is, they don't even know that all of that were poisoning you. And so I've changed for grades, bargained my precious friends, bargained simple pleasures, and foremost, I bargained my life for grades.
"Yet how I still not better than everyone?" Is the question I ask myself every night.
Grades were the only thing that overjoyed me, they were my friends.
I love this playlist and I'm just going to vent a little so yeah..
I really hat being the "gifted" or "smart" kid people around you expect you to always perfect if you bring in anything less than what you are expected to get then there's a "problem" and you need to "try harder" even though your ALWAYS trying your best it's so annoying and also I like to do art and out of my siblings I'm the only artist when it comes to drawing and stuff like that so my mom is ALWAYS talks about it and says stuff like "your a great artist and you have a gift the other kids don't have" Everytime I don't want to do things like art camp and etc ik she means well but sometimes I feel like forced to make art it's gotten to the point where sometimes I don't want to draw ever again but I still like to draw when I'm in the mood but all I have to say is being a "gifted" kid is not "fun" or "cool" and to the people who are having the same problems remember that talking breaks from something and not doing perfect Everytime is OKAY❤💖
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You should be able to do what you want to do because it’s your life and you’re the one living it for yourself not others. Art can just be a hobby or interest that you like to do on your free time, not something you can you your whole life. Do what makes you happy and don’t feel bad for wanting to!!!! 🤍🤍
@@redkxsses I am living my life for everyone else :|
I've been going playlist to playlist making pov's so here is another one!
POV: You did everything to be perfect. You just wanted everyone's approval, so you forgot about yourself and studied hard. You aced every test, you were always the teachers favourite. You didn't have time for friends, of course you had acquaintances that you would talk to at times, but that was all.
Suddenly you realize that you've never really had a childhood. All this work for a simple smile from your parents. A congrats from your peers. Everyone at school hated you for being perfect, so you had no one to turn to. You were done. This wasn't worth it.
So now you plan to become the teachers worse nightmare. People are going to wish they never put this pressure one you.
They will regret it
Thats, more of a "you have reached your breaking point" playlist and it would involve shit ton of breakcore or phonk
As a gifted kid working on a test at home rn this helped me remind myself that I need to take to take a break sometimes
Honestly being smart used to be a contest to me, but now it’s just stress and stacks of homework. While I give my all and get called lazy. I’m just tired, and everyone misunderstanding others who’ve burned out. A wise person once said, a fire must always go out.
My grades have been fine up until lately. I’ve been turning in assignments late and missing a few. And even though it light not seem that bad. It’s hard because I feel pressured to get all A’s and AB’s ALL THE TIME. Ppl always say it’s really hard for kids who don’t get good grades but they fail to recognize the kids that are burning themselves out and are tired. Getting anything below what had been considered normal to us, Is damaging. And my teachers say seventh grade won’t be the breaking point for us, but I’m starting to debate that.
Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m already broken.
My teachers say, idc about your grades, I care about you learning.
Yeah- but when I go home with a C or a D and my parents see it, I’m going to get shamed with disappointment, get yelled at, and get my phone( my only source of sanity left) away from me.
Middle school had been the breaking point for me, and it’s only my second year.
i started to care about to school and my grades are ok but their not exceeding my expectations
Idky but most parents always pressure their children to get the best grades. Smtimes they do mean well but the way they express it is not correct at all. Instead they're burdening us with their expectations. Instead of accepting our present self and encouraging to go at our own pace, learn and grow, they just want us to be perfect. They don't try to understand the perspective of a child. I often wonder if those parents vr ever kids. Hv they nvr been burdened w those expectations? If they hv, then y repeat the cycle. Y do it to ur own kids. Just why. M quite sure they nvr liked that but then why do it to us. And not all high achievers are happy at the end. Honestly. They want us to hv a good job? No. Even good paying jobs duznt make a person happy. U can see many ppl w good respectable jobs but rarely ppl who r actually happy. So wt I'd advise u is. Take it easy. Appreciate ur own efforts if no one else will. And try hvng a talk w ur parents after u hv thoroughly thought abt the conversation you'll hv. Prepare for the comebacks. Make them listen to u. Don't let them cut u off. Make sure u properly convey ur feelings. (I think mentioning the happy pt might do the job... Maybe) cuz at the end. Wt a human seeks is peace N joy. (the means can differ tho)
Good luck mate. Wish u all the best
@@BakaSama24 I can’t.
•Ill probably get my phone taken away
•My mom will find out I lied when I said my depression was better and send me back to therapy (which i cant stand)
•I hate sentimental conversations. They make me uncomfortable.
•Idk you, and you might not realize, but mexican parents aren’t the most nicest.
My case was always being the underappreciated "gifted kid", after I learned about my ptsd and how many punches I took just because of other's pity, I chose to just use my talents if I feel like it's needed, but otherwise they can cry about it and you know what... I've never felt so much weight off my shoulders, I adore it.
thank you so much for making this playlist. I've always been one of the "smart" or "gifted" kids... I feel like theres a lot of pressure, I'm terrified to fail a test because I still want to be considered a smart kid, idk. Anyways thanks again
Ive been an overachiever my whole life, I had honors, peoples approval (specially from adults or teachers) made me happy. Now I get average grades, my parents tell me to get better, my teachers say they're dissapointed because they know I can do better. It makes me think "What happened to me?" "Am I not good enough anymore?" "Do I have to try harder?" I try to improve, I want to go back to that "perfection" But for some reason I don't have the motivation. I'm honestly dissapointed in myself.
POV: you were always expected of a lot and had trouble communicating your stress growing up
that one moment where youre actualy scared of not being smart because its the only thing youve built your identity upon so when you feel dumb you also feel like you're losing yourself in the process :D
Being the gifted kid is stressful and powerful.
vent//
i used to be a gifted kid.
i was just autistic and undiagnosed in an unsafe house, i had to mask to make it through the day. i was only "the gifted kid" because school was the safest place for me to simply exist. i lived my entire life up until recently knowing that something was different about me, knowing that my classmates saw me as weird but not knowing why. forcing myself to be more likable. my parents are better and understand now but no amount of "im sorry" could fix the damage that was done. i will never be able to hear my father yell and not be scared, even though he isnt yelling at me, even though hes 3 rooms away from me. i was diagnosed last year and ive be trying to unmask but its so hard because i used to have to mask to feel at least a little bit safe. ive been dealing with extreme autistic burnout for the past 3 years, not knowing what was going on until i was given the best diagnosis, the best relief i could ever get. i finally knew why i was failing every class, why i couldnt seem to just put in the effort like i used to. trying to process all of the trauma ive endured is hard. its like being asked to untangle a large knot of thin thread.
unmasking is simultaneously the best and worse thing ever. i dont know who i am. obviously i know my name, i know what i like, i know stuff like that but, i dont know *me*. i just feel empty. i dont know what my emotions are, i only know when i feel positive or negative. but, i can freely be autistic. i can let myself stim, i can let myself use alternative communication when i need to, i finally have a reason for why my parents saw me as a bad kid. i was never a bad kid. i was misunderstood because no one knew what was going on inside, no one saw me or my struggles, and i lashed out because no one would *listen.*
i am so thankful for this play list as it makes me better. Lately i struggle with everything: my grades are fine, but i feel like it is not enough. I am not enough. When i tried to tell about it to my friends,they ignored it. " You are overreacting. You are smart " words they often say. I just want to feel whole again and not worry about anything. I am happy that im not alone in this situation. To anyone reading this, you will be fine and we will get through it at one point. Be safe and thank you
I cried so hard to this. I miss being in the honor roll every year, life was easier. i was happier when my parents gave me gifts for my achievements, i was happier when people praised me and relied on me, because i was one of the "smart kids". i miss hardly having to do anything to be a high-scorer in my class. all of those things are gone now. my motivation is near to none, my grades are getting lower every year, my mental health is getting worse, and every day that passes the more i want to just disappear off the face of the planet.
I still remember vividly when I ran and cried in the bathroom stalls when I first heard I wasn't in the honor roll. i cried so hard i almost threw up, i felt so stupid for crying, and i felt so stupid for failing to have a consistent grade. I know it's my fault, but I'm so in denial of me falling short and losing motivation that i find anything to blame. I don't even know what happened to me, I just slowly stopped doing assignments, slowly lost the energy to study, slowly lost my title as a gifted kid.
I cry more tears every year.
a small vent:
I was always the smart one in my family and the firstborn I have to be a role model to my little brother. I performed really well and I was at the top of my class, and I was naturally smart. sometimes I don't study at all and still manage to do well in my exams. my parents say my overconfidence will definitely pull me down, but they don't understand how much pressure they're putting on me. they favor my brother over me but still, expect so much from me. right now I want to study psychology but they mock me saying I can't do it and I'm not keeping my feet on the ground. I want to work hard to achieve my dream but deep inside me, I know that this is not my dream. I love art and dance, these are my life. but I know my parents won't accept me if I choose those so I went for psychology. that is the only thing that comes near to my dream. I know I am forcing myself. I know I'm not taking care of myself. but I feel like I have no choice. I'm only 13. I'm in ninth grade only. but I have so much going on. and I can't take all this out on my brother because I don't want him to worry and I want him to do what he likes in the future and not end up like me.
thank you for reading...
study psychology dont give a fuck about your parents ive done that now im happy with my life PLEASE LISTEN
I started middle school this year and I felt like I was the stupidest person alive because all my life I was praised for being so smart
this was just perfect thank u so much for this playlist :>
you’re welcome!!!
This video is perfect, I’ve always done well in school and practically everyone in my family either says that I’m the smartest one in the family or they’re surprised by how smart I am. But lately I’ve been burnt out and I’ve kind of stopped caring about school/taking mental health days because of the stress. My parents tell me that they’re proud of me and wouldn’t care if I don’t one bad grade, but the only way I “care” about myself is depending on how smart I am, to me, if it’s not a 100 I failed. It’s stressful, and soon enough it’s going to get worse.
To those who are still in school, please believe me that only in school will you be treated like this and only in school will best grades have a significantly meaning. In real life social connections, your ability to be confident and once again, socialize with other and work in a group will be the key. Even if you know nothing, if you can show you are a cooperative, easy-going person and are willing to learn can get you a job. Some ppl straight up lie to they children about whats important in life because they think kids are stupid and will not listen to them anyway. Think about that. It's actually good to disappoint your parents if they give you bad life advice.
TW: VENT (YOU DONT HAVE TO READ OR RESPOND)
I’ve always been the ‘good-grades, All A+ perfect kid’ so this year when I got a B in 2/6 of my classes and had to watch everyone get an award (which you have to get an A in atleast 5 classes for) hurt so bad that I had a mental breakdown the whole night because I had put myself under that much pressure where I thought I was a failure for not getting an A in all my classes 🥳 So yeah- this playlist is very relatable- and it’s honestly just hard because I don’t want to be in extension but my maths teacher made me, so every time I get under 90 on a test I struggle so bad mentally.
Awww, I want to give you a hug 🥺🥺🥺. I get the feeling. I’m in engineering, and I have this very smart, very close friend. We had engineering two years together now. Last year we did this project together and got a really good score on it. This year we repeated the project, but were with different partners. She got the highest score in the class and I got 4th best and it felt horrible because smartness is all I’ve ever had to my name. And now I wonder if I really won the first time around or if I was just slowing my friend down. Kids told me, you did well, but we’re really impressed with my friend. It stung, but I love her. I praised my friend like everyone else. Then one day after we tested our prototypes, she came to my project and said, “change this.” And it fixed my project. It could have bumped me up to at least 2nd. But I was a day too late.
I feel you. I know how much it stings when you expect a lot from yourself and then end up falling just short of it. And it’s a valid feeling. Just remember, it’s okay, and this stranger in the internet wishes you the best 🫂🫰💜
i love this, When "I Can’t Handle Change" played i started sobbing :,)
God the fact I’ve already cried to all of these before makes me so sad. Great playlist.
This is TOO relatable.
I'm scared. I AM A BURNED OUT GIFTED CHILD AND I ALREADY LISTENED TO ALL THIS SONGS OMG-
🤍🤍
ever since i was in kindergarten i've always been on top of the class. then because of family problems, i had to transfer schools. this completely changed my dynamic and i was so rattled that my usually straight As got invaded by a B. what's bad about this is that my parents don't mind. they actually encourage me to relax and lay low on my grades lest i burn out early. i'm the one pressuring myself, because i got so used to being on top that getting less than that feels so wrong.
I have exactly the same feeling
How in the world did you understand me
these youtube playlists are really saving my grades.
Alright, fine i am doing the time thing:
0:01- ~☆Are you satisfied?☆~
by MARINA
3:18- ~☆Cry baby☆~
by Melanie Martinez
7:22- ~☆Jealousy Jealousy☆~
by Olivia Rodrigo
10:15- ~☆Oh no☆~
by MARINA
13:17- ~☆Brutal☆~
by Olivia Rodrigo
15:43- ~☆I can't handle change☆~
by Roar
19:04- ~☆Francis Forever☆~
by Mitski
funny how i was never gifted from the start, but i feel burnt out. thx for this by the way.
This playlist literally just represents my life. I'm the oldest child, i was the smartest kid in my whole school at a really young age and everyone praised me and were jealous of my parents. In highschool, i got separated from the only person who actually cared abt me( we were accepted into different schools) and my parents started hitting me and abusing me because my grades weren't acceptable anymore. My mental health got worse and worse day by day and in my "friendship group" i was the joke. People used me for my brains and i was forced to do their homework. I'm a people pleaser and i can't say no even if i wanted to. I always cried myself to sleep. Covid came and my parents moved to a different country. Everyones expectations were skyhigh. I got full marks for the first year cuz it was online and it was fairly easy. But if i made one slip up, i would be compared to my cousins and friends. I hated it. I was forced to learn 2 languages i had never heard in my life. But that didnt mean they didnt have high expectations for those. My relatives and cousins said that i wouldn't need to work hard for those cuz the teacher would give me good marks for no reason. But they are wrong. I had to work hard,so so hard just to get a good grade. Everyone either overlooks my capability or thinks i can achieve more than anyone. What the actual fuck.
HAHHHHA livin the same life! except i am my parents. hope you're doing better... :(
I love how it was all in the past, where I used to study until the clock striked 12am or 1am and thought it was normal. Heck I wasn't even in elementary back then, I was like in kindergarten. Everything begun to fall apart and change in grade 2, my grades, my personality, my mind-set, my taste in friends, my thoughts on reality. I am not a smart student anymore, I barely study and I get very low scores. I'm not happy about it ofcourse, but I am happier like this than before.
Since the beginning of the year I've worked hard and only kept studying, i put my heart into it and now it's exams week and even tho I'm sooo ready for all of them I'm also too stressed, i kept crying for an hour just for the stress and the worst thing is that my mind kept telling me such things as "you couldbe revising instead of wasting time, why aren't you practicing?" And that happens whenever i take a break. Even if I'm really tired and all my assignments are done it became a habit to think about these things whenever i am not studying. Okay let's say all this will pass, but for real why can't my mother just care about it a bit? I'm the only child who respects her and treats her well, the only one who runs to do what she wants, the one who shows his love more then anyone in the family, I'm the one always making her proud with my grades and achievements and everyrhing!! Guess she got too used to it that working this hard and this much stress is nothing. She literally came to my room and told me to stop crying because my little sister can't focus on her homework. Oh god, what about me?
This is tooooo relatable. I never realized how much I wanted to be perfect in school until I cried after getting my first ever 60 on a test and then an 80 on another. Like all of my friends were like "wtf that's good I wish I had grades like you" and while I'm happy about the compliments I just feel so shitty. The biggest insult for me is being called dumb or not good at anything so I try super hard and barely get any recognition for it. Imagine that when I got 97 in math my dad told me to get a 100 next time. I feel like the biggest problem for gifted kids is when family thinks that you can do better no matter how much effort you put into it.
(Also wow did not expect to vent like this)
Anyways great playlist that I'm downloading illegally to my files as we speak 😌 yeah uh bye and don't study too hard my fellow smart people :)
CHRIST, a 97 to a 100? sorry man
i want to have fun learning. i want to keep trying. i swear i do, so that i can try and become that kid that will live up to your expectations. you never pressured me, yelled at me, or forced me to do my classes well at all, but only concern for me since you've only wanted the best for me, and even have tried to encourage me by being competitive. i was never a gifted or intelligent student, but all i can do is just try for you. though i know at this point, it is only i who is pressuring myself, because i can't see you disappointed. i don't want to disappoint MYSELF.
but this playlist is really good though, quite a pointless vent, since it doesn't compare to those who truly struggle with burn-outs and stress. my love goes out to you guys, sincerely.
I was never the “gifted” kid but I have always taken AP classes and college classes ever since I was in 9th grade and I’m friends with all the gifted kids and I cannot tell you how depressing it is when you’re around them and feel so stupid but when I’m in regular courses they’re too easy. I’ve never had that middle ground and have always seen myself as a failure (thanks to some family and friends)
Alright, this is gonna make my hands hurt…
Alright, so ever since I was a toddler, I was smart. My mom taught me and my sister to read from an early age. However, I was delayed in my speech, social development, and my physical development. Even though I had many tests for the ‘tism, all doctors denied I had it because I was too smart. I was just put in a special class in preschool with 6 other kids. When kindergarten came, it was a huge culture shock. With 27 different kids (that were in gifted programs like me), I cried almost every day. People would call me a crybaby (although I can’t blame them, they were kindergarteners). I had to mask all of my emotions for all these years, and pass all my gifted tests…until around the third grade. I was sick the day that we tested and was off by 2 points. At that time, I was fine with it. It wasn’t until the next year that it caught up to me…I was not the “smart one” anymore. I wasn’t “your stereotypical autistic girl”. I still maintained straight A’s, but they meant nothing to me anymore. Now, I just gave up. I'm a straight A and B student who feels like all those years of learning and gifted testing were wasted. Thank you for reading :)
It’s hard feeling like I have to be absolutely perfect. Like I have to live up to the highest expectations, “be nicer” “be smarter” “be BETTER” when your too nice people look at you to be the one to do everything for them, and you do. People look at you as the smart one and expect you to help them. People expect you to go to the stupid school counselors like yeah that’s fine that’s something I don’t want to do.. and yeah I’ll go to the dance with some guy because he asked and I felt bad and yes I bought a old friend a whole Nintendo switch and acnh because why? NOTHING nothing happens nothing at all all that happens is I get left behind and told “wash your mouth out” “You are a horrible friend” maybe it is me.. I tell myself that because all I do is go and screw stuff up.. All I do is hammer a stupid bridge back together over and over until all the nails are gone, all of it is gone, it’s fallen… Am I scared of my parents seeing this and saying THATS NOT TRUE when over and over they end up dropping some of those nails, nudging them over of my hands because “I don’t know they don’t give off the best vibe” There’s something called being scared of adults when you feel like you have to live and be they’re standards just like me every single stupid day until the weekend and I’ll just sit down with my friends and call and play stupid block game and laugh but NO go call with friends in the state not people thousands of miles away.. So I’ll call friends and then your like WELL JUST GO OUTSIDE OR CLEAN YOUR ROOM and then freaking turn around a week later and say “Why aren’t you calling with your friends, are you arguing” No mom you said NOT TO so sorry I am isolating myself.. ig I just needed to let some stuff out sorry if I’m being annoying..
I'm trying hard to do good in school only because my mom would say she was proud of me and that's the only time I can actually think that I did something right and that I'm not a disappointment, my mom was talking about how my older siblings were in an online school and how she didn't want them to be in it because they wouldn't do their school work and stuff and I felt bad bc I didn't like school at all so I'm just trying not to complain even though I sometimes feel like breaking down, like when my teacher asks me "Why aren't you coming to school?" I always feel like just breaking down and crying my feeling out but I've hid it long enough to just hold back my tears.
Hey, I know i'm late but i wanted to say these things. I didnt realise how lucky I was in having been smart until recently... in elementary school and the first two years of middle school i always did my best and was very happy until i realised how toxic my ''friends'' were. The last year of middle school was a living hell and i just hoped i could feel better in high school. Now that I've started it im feeling way worse. I struggle doing the bare minimum and to concentrate. I feel like people wont like me if im too smart, so now im scared to get bad grades and even good grades. It seems stupid that someone could be afraid of getting good grades but i know that my classmates in middle school hated me because they were jealous of my how good i did in every subject... i have high expectations from my parents even in having friends, because my mum always had lots of them. Today I left school early telling my teacher i had an headache, but in reality i was having a lot of anxiety. I just spent my day crying and i cant even finish my homework... I know I'll have to stay up late even today to finish them. I feel like here in Italy high school is especially hard and I have way too many hard subjects like Latin and three other languages... i know i cant keep living like im doing rn but i really have zero motivation and I just want to cry all day. I basically just have one friend to rely on and shes not even in my same school. I'm scared that no one will want to be my friend in these 5 years i have to be in that school. What the hell is wrong with me.. 🥺
(also sorry if i made any mistakes)
First, it’s nothing wrong with you!! 🤍 And don’t put to much pressure on yourself as well!! I used to think the way you do but remember it gets worse before it gets better! And eventually you’ll have friends who’ll love and support you!! And don’t let your anxiety to control you either!! You may be anxious because you have a lot on your mind so just breathe and take one step at a time!! If you want get grades do it for you because if you have bad grades then they’ll make fun of you for that and if you have good grades they’ll make fun of you for being a “know it all” so just do what you want and what makes you happy. People will talk either way but don’t let it get to you. I may not have the best advice but I hope this helps and you’ll feel better and it’s okay to cry, let it out! Journaling and writing out
how you feel is good too. That’s why I like these types of comments because it’s a safe place to let out how you feel without judgment!!! 🤍(And you made no mistake you type perfectly!)
@@redkxsses Thank youu, this means so much for me!
@@gattopazzoo 🤍🤍
@@redkxsses girlllll not to be "that person" but yessss
i felt that, except for the part about living in Italy🤣🤣🤣
i just moved actually, away from my best friend
im a perfectionist and im afraid of being below my personal best.
idk what grade you are in or if you're in college but know that you can keep going
it's ok not to always give your 100%
(lol i wish i took my own advice but whatever)
you've got this
For me, middle school was the best. Then the pandemic started and we sort of missed the transitioning period of junior high and now we're seniors. When I went back to school this year, it felt like I didn't know my friends anymore. Worse, I didn't like the people they became. I know its not their fault, and I also don't like myself because I see them rubbing off on me. I can't make new friends, because everyone is like that. I don't want to be alone, but I also don't want to be friends with people I don't truly want to be with, like its fake. I act completely different around them just to fit in. And then there's my studies. I tried my hardest to do well and developed such anxiety that eventually I just gave up and completely burned out. Now I'm trying to piece back my life together. Its hard, but at least I'm trying, right?
Sorry for ranting, but basically wanted to say, you're not alone. Take it one day at a time.
I started being a "perfectionist" when I was younger because I'd feel validated and happy when I get high grades and proud parents, but during this pandemic I really stooped low and started getting line of 8 on my grades which honestly made me disappointed in myself and the dissatisfaction and disappointment on my parents face weren't shown but it was evident so it crushed me to bits. It honestly made me stop wanting to achieve the highest.
Now this year is ending, managed to get some good grades. I'm not sure about right now but still trying to be the high achiever I used to be. I don't know why but it made me feel happy, validated and wanted.
And to the others like me facing the same struggles, I assure you that you'll get through it and all of your efforts will be worth it in the end. Keep pushing and try to take it slow.
my obsession with perfect grades got so bad that I was in a state of medical help. I'm the first born and everyone always expects me to take every responsibility I'm also the oldest of 6 grandchildren on my mom's side and second oldest out of 4 on my dad's side. It was always a burden and teachers never had any mercy on me when it came to my free time. I was pressured into joining clubs and after school activities, going to school competitions etc... Last year I did bad on one of my math tests and my teacher made me feel worse about it, she said "where is (my name) I used to know? The one who cared about school?" I literally couldn't stop crying, I tried proving them that I care but they said "actions speak louder" even though I did everything I could. That period was also really bad for me because that year I lost my uncle and pets and they all died almost the same month. Also all of my family problems were conformed that year when I exposed my dad's side of the family of all of the things they did to me and my siblings. My fears got worse and I developed PTSD and anxiety because of one stupid accident or "prank", how my friend called it. Because of her stupid "prank" I literally jumped off of the balcony (2nd floor) out of fear. I only had 3 therapy sessions but I learned to take care of myself and deal with my emotional pain alone. I had countless sleepless nights, panic attacks and my mental health was never worse. I let people take advantage of me and I was too nice. Having all of that going on my teachers still put on every burden on me. But that's okay I now know that I am the only person who understands me truly and I don't need anyone else. I learned it the hard way but it was worth it. Just because I'm gifted doesn't mean I am born to be perfect. Finally, after gaining self love and confidence I can finally say I am proud of myself and I don't need to prove it to anyone else. I'm my 1st priority and everyone will for sure know that.
I'm the burned out gifted kid in my family and even thought my family tells me I don't need to success in everithyng I always get very sad when I don't
this playlist is exactly how I feel rn. I was an overachiever in hs and graduated with the highest grades. But coming to college and dealing with a tonne load of more problems alongside studying has really burned me out. I feel bad for the hs me who worked so damn hard to reach here but now I feel lost. Seeing my grades drop is so painful...I want the hs me back.
I have had a terrible childhood and im still facing it.
I envied my brother even tho he made me smile everyday and if it wasn't for him i wouldn't have been able to handle this stress and pressure.
I had this babysitter (strict and i always had beef with her 😊) she always compared me with my brother and i always tried not to let that get in my head but the experience in my school made me mentally weak and I've gotten sensitive,, i was never that sensitive before.
It made me fear that if i didn't have good grades, elegant behavior, beauty people wont like me.
My besties, friends, online friends made me happier than I did. 😊
i love this so much, its so sadly relatable but i love it
You’re welcome!!!!!! 🤍🤍🤍
I used to be the gifted kid in the family I always got 96% or higher in my exam results but as i starting growing up i was losing my perfection my family gave up hope in me i would study 7 hours a day to improve my grades but i got 46% which made me cry the entire night and woke up the next day as if nothing happened and i went to school other's would gossip about me i told myself if im not a perfection anymore i won't become one again
My parents would hate me a lot for not getting good grades i was locked in my room for 2 days i tried to make others happy
This playlist is so underratedd!!
my foster parents were trying to do what they failed to do with their own son, which is raise a decent human being. In the end we were both left without any guidance whatsoever. I think ina way she did try, but i think her mistake was her thinking she can raise someone's child the same way she raised hers. Mind you her son was 31 at the time and I was 11. I remember talking to him once, and he said "idk why she has you guys around, maybe its so make herself feel better about me, or money cause my mom wasn't the best mom, well for me atleast." I refused to see that of her, cause in my eyes she was trying to help me. Maybe in the end it was for money, because now that i look back for a moment, I realized she was never really there, she did what was mandatory of her as a foster parent. I dont think I've ever had a decent home. I'm 26 now and have a family of my own, and place to call home
kind of a vent:
As a middle schooler labeled as a gifted kid - it SUCKS. I am so burnt out with my 10,000 assignments that I can apparently do on time even though I can't. I'm also a pressured only child with divorced parents. why does my life need to suck.
also there's this one kid in all of my classes but one:
• who asked to call me
• I didn't know how to say no so I said ok
• he started calling me every day and I HATED IT
• over the summer between 4th and 5th grade I ignored him because he's ANNOYING and I didn't previously realize
• 5th graders ARE invited to the school dances they have at my school (5th is like a transition to middle school)
• THIS DUDE asks me to GO TO THE DANCE WITH HIM (we were in the 5TH GRADE! 5TH GRADE!!!!!!!!!!!)
• when I (politely, by the way) say no, he bothers me for the rest of the school year
• the whole time I tried to ignore him
• I ignored him over the summer between 5th and 6th grade
• We come back, and I am out of patience with this kid
• He starts being weirdly rude because I start showing my true opinion towards him (which is LITERALLY LEAVE ME ALONE)
• He started commenting on one of my videos, asking to COLLAB (he called me a dips**t and then asks to collaborate? heck no!)
• you can even find this video! its the one that asks what content you want from me! its on this yt channel!
• He comments "I mean this is the person who friend zoned me multiple times.." YEAH OF COURSE I DID
• People start joking about it lol
• Someone here, please help me deal with this dude.
• I literally hate him
• He is rude to me in front of me and my friends but is nicer in front of others
im truly not much of a gifted kid, always just A’s and B’s… i always excelled in things like ELA and writing, being pushed to be an author one day. so, maybe i am a gifted child?
but my parents see me as the golden child, so the words ‘driven by greed to succeed’ have never been more real, it’s always just to impress them. the moment i get a C, it feels like ive fallen off, i always have the strict need to be an honors student, it feels horrible
This needs to be more appreciated
Thank you!!! 🤍
No because like non-gifted kids don’t understand the absolute pain of laving to learn two years of science, math, english, and history material in a freaking SEMESTER. Not to mention Band, Spanish, and the music lessons I’ve been doing outside of school and homework for ALL of this. I genuinely don’t know how I’ve been getting straight A’s for the past couple of years. Im only in middle school, I shouldn’t be waking up at 4 AM and going to bed at midnight every single night from the beginning to the end of the school year.