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When you sing, it's like peanut butter and jam Your voices blend together, like bread and ham It's a strange connection, but oh so sweet Like a mismatched sock, but complete
"I feel like a burden for hurting " My body started tingling the first time that line was sung. How do you guys keep writing songs that feel so real? I hope you guys are not hurting as well
I could relate to this song ever since i was around 5 years old before this song came out. I'm scared of how people think of me, I always hide how i feel and who i am and i feel like nothing but a mistake and a burden😞
Wish I wasn't a burden... but that's all I have ever been, a worthless waste of space ... I scroowed up my life a long time ago, an now I don't have enough time left to fix my Dmg, an get to do what I wanna do, in-part cuz I'm not even sure I even want to anymore... I've atleast THOUGHT I wanted to be a Game dev since I was 12?-ish ... but I don't really know anymore, an I don't really have the time left to figure it out... People act like 35 is still young, but it isn't... It's just not "old" ... YET ....
This is how I am. I say nothing even when I have tears rolling down my face. I smile and go on. I love this song. Thank you for making the music you do Citizen Soldier! You know what it's like.
This is how I feel every day. I feel like I'm losing my friends, and I don’t want to be a burden, so I don’t tell anyone how I feel. This song is amazing.
I don't tell anyone how I feel either even when I'm at the edge of the cliff. You'll be OK. One day you'll be able to conquer the pain. You'll still have dark moments but don't let those bother you. We're both warriors and we're built to fight. Never give in and raise a white flag. I believe in you that you will conquer your pain and wear your crown. It's just like from another Citizen Soldier song. What doesn't kill you is what builds your throne. One day you'll look back and remember when you decided to stay. I was broken completely in 2019 then I decided to face it and now I'm stronger than I have ever known. You can do the same even though it will be scary but don't let that fear keep you in chains. Break free from your chains and show your pain who's boss. You're strong and I know you are. I'm so proud of you for making it this far. Just remember this... it'll be OK when you feel like shit you've got to keep pushing through it and never give up. Your story isn't over yet and your story needs to be told.
"If I don't keep my secrets safe, the ones I love would never stay". That's what hit me the hardest. The idea of opening up to a person I love and then losing them is unbearable. Probably because it's already happened once
I know it won't help much, but... You should remember that those who abandoned you when you opened up to them never really deserved your love You've been through a lot and you definitely deserve someone, who will love you for who you are
“My defense all my friends like me more when I pretend” this hits hard cause most of the time they distance themselves from me when im depressed, and I have to hide the pain in order to be around them….
I grew up being told to hold it in to never let my sickness show. So thank you for saying the words I could never say I love you guys, so please keep being that solace for those that are in need of it, and I hope that they see that there not alone. So thanks for being there for us.
I had to let my children go 😢😭😭 And to never have them again. Because of narcissistic and SA abuse !I’m 48 ! When WILL HUMANITY HELP ME, HELP US!! The SURVIVORS of ABUSE??!!!
I’m so tired of everything hurting... 😢💔 One time, this horrible therapist I had asked me “you don’t want to be a burden to your parents forever right?” Made me feel just lovely.
@@Lily-wq2tc Thank you so much 🥺 I remember how most times I would be crying when I left her office... Eventually I found out that she used to be a therapist in a women’s prison. That explained a lot. I needed someone kind, compassionate and understanding not someone tough and rude... Thankfully I did end up leaving her and went through a couple other therapists until I finally found the one that was right for me. I didn’t give up and that’s something I want others to know as well, that just bc you had a bad therapist doesn’t mean you should stop trying to find the one you click with ☺️
@@EternalRiver90 Yes!! I’m finally getting back into telehealth therapy a year after ending my appointments with a therapist who got a bit too close for comfort to me, and accused my fiancé of being abusive towards me, when what was really going on was that I was recovering from years of abusive relationships prior to meeting him. She also didn’t want to let me go as a client and kind of pressured me into staying several weeks beyond the week I intended to leave, rather than referring me to another therapist. Among other things… Not all therapists have worked through their trauma deeply enough to interact in healthy ways with their clients, and not all therapists were meant to be therapists. So glad we are finding more peace in therapy now 🖤
@@Lily-wq2tc Oh wow! I’m sorry about that creepy therapist. Did it seem like she was becoming romantically attracted to you? Cuz that’s what it sounds like. I’m actually a bit interested in what other things were said and done but if you feel uncomfortable with that I totally understand! That’s so true! Some therapists cross boundaries and are inappropriate with their clients if they didn’t work on themselves properly... There was this other one who I helped my bestie get with who let me stay in the sessions with her since she was terrified of being in therapy by herself & wanted me there for support. I was only supposed to be there for maybe a couple months at most but it ended up being almost 3 years! During that time, the three of us really established a therapeutic relationship together and it actually seemed that her therapist was developing feelings for me as I unfortunately was for her... My bestie actually admitted that she could tell we were flirting a lot and wasn’t sure what to make of it... Eventually the therapist and I were getting a little too close so she had to put an abrupt stop to it and kicked me out of the sessions literally by texting my bestie to tell me I’m no longer welcome... What the actual f*ck is that? It absolutely shattered my heart to say the least... She could have at least given me a last session to say goodbye and help me get that closure I needed before discharging me as I was basically one of her clients anyway since I was there just about every single Monday throughout those years... She acted like I was never there and that nothing ever happened between us... I actually was in so much excruciating pain that I ended up taking my anger out on my bestie... Biggest mistake ever. She didn’t speak to me for 4 months and then since then things haven’t been the same between us even tho I apologized a billion times... It’s been almost 3 years since this happened as it occurred in Oct 2021 and I just deeply miss how our relationship was before all that bs happened... 💔
"If I don't keep my secrets safe, the ones I love would never stay". I did not need to be called out like this. But seriously, your music hits on such a deep, emotional level. Thank you for making those of us who struggle feel seen and understood. And for helping us put words to how we feel when we can't find them. Keep up the amazing work Citizen Soldier!! 👏 ❤
It's a blessing and a curse how many of us can relate to your music. Blessing we have your music. Curse what we have been through or are going through! Another masterpiece added to my playlist 💞
Agree. It is sad that there is such anguish in this life for so many and that the singers have gone through so much too but the best blessing they got through - keep getting through - to bring comfort and courage to others.
When I struggle to put these thoughts into words, your music just understands. It's incredibly cathartic for me to listen to and I am ever grateful to your band
"Feeling like a burden for hurting" the whole I reason I don't tell anyone about my mental health in one sentence. This is the most relatable song from Citizen Soldier I've heard today.
@@1onebox902well you can ever know who will carry that burden and who will lie to you and tell others and make fun of you, too many fake friends these days, I don't understand how no one can remember the native American ways when no one was fake 😢
My boyfriend got back early today,while I was listening to this. I was crying, because I could relate so much. He asked no questions, just sat down hugged me and listened to the song with me in silenece. We both have had our share of hardship, but I think we've finally both found a safe place in each other.
I don't feel sad, I'm not depressed, I don't feel hopeless. Yet there is something about your music that makes me dive into every single note, every single beat and every single word sung. Music has always had a great influence on my perception of the world and I'm so glad to say that your band is also a part of it in some way. You have so many great songs, I can't even tell which is my favorite anymore! I feel like your music is truly helping people who are struggling. Thank you for that❤
@@sirdudenstein6967 I'm just teeling the truth,nothing more If you want to talk about anything that is or was bothering you i'm here for you and if you don't want that's fine too I care about you ❤
I don't have words for how strongly this resonates, especially that second verse and prechorus. Sometimes you don't know how much you need to hear something until it captures all of your feelings at once.
“if I don’t keep my secrets safe, The Ones I love would never stay” wow- this catches my entire way of thinking lately, I’m falling apart and I can’t tell those I love for fear of them leaving me
Oh my goodness, I think this is the song I relate to the most. There’s no worse feeling than hurting and not being able to tell anyone for fear of feeling like burden
This definitely hit hard for me, it hits way different when you read the lyrics and realize that a lot of it hits you in the gut, most of the lyrics are thoughts that go through my head everyday thank y’all for this masterpiece 🙏
Great song, I woke up at 4:00 AM last night fully in pain and bearly able to breath, then I realized what day it was and forced myself to grab my phone to listen to this masterpiece, I'm glad I woke up at 4:00 AM it was totally worth it, keep up the great work y'all ❤️
@@CitizenSoldier well currently having some body problems and after we checked in at the ER about it the next day I got sick and I'm still sick, I'll be better soon hopefully
I'm so glad I found Citizen Soldier. I've never found anyone who understands but feel like someone actually understands now. Thank you Citizen Soldier ❤
As a dad struggling with crippling depression. Thank you. I'm sure I speak for alot of guys. We're over looked more than most will understand so we stay silent. Stay strong kings...
I know that girls play victim a lot, and I apologize for the rest of us girls, women can be abusive, and damage mental health, so I hope that guys out there get a better life and living situation
"Cause I would rather hold it in, till I run out of oxygen". Oh this line couldn't be more true. It's so suffocating and yet I'd rather kept everything to myself than then let anybody know the state I am in.
I don't know if you ever feel this way. I have experienced trauma endlessly over my short life to the point that I wonder often why I am alive. I have been feeling so useless to the world for a while. There was a time I believed I was worth something through my writing - but that's gone nowhere now - however I can say if you ever wonder the same as I then I hope this helps, I hope it feels like an answer for you. You are still here because of your music, your absolutely remarkable, breathtaking, stunning, epic, just plain flawless ability to give a voice to millions of people's pain, comfort and epic music to vent to all simultaneously. I can say confidently that I'm still here because of your music. Been down and in dark places alone many times but your work has helped me through. Thank you for that but even more so for somehow finding the right words to describe how many feel. It brings me such comfort that you get how this pain feels and certainly not like a therapist pretends to get it. Thank you! I hope you are doing well. You are a treasure for your music and empathy. You don't judge or label and I cannot say how fantastic that is. Thank you for your time, efforts and courage. I bet it hasn't been easy for you but I know your fans deeply appreciate all you do.
If I don't keep my secrets safe the ones I love would never stay...that part hit so hard. Most people leave after they realize I struggle a lot so I try my best to keep it hidden
God this song made me feel so called out. This song is me every day of my life. Almost had tears in my eyes and now I can't stop listening to the song it's just that good
Another amazing song by Citizen Soldier, I just really hope Citizen Soldier and everyone listening to this song relating to its lyrics, are doing okay or are on the journey to get better.
Citizen Soilder always helps remind me (& many of us) we aren't alone feeling like we do. I thank the God's everyday they can be/are here to help so many of us through the dark time's, the muddy water's, the Pain & Panic or however we individually referr it. Finding the words we can't say or bring ourselves to face. Reassuring many of us, we aren't alone in our thoughts, feelings & our silent wars. Lifting our spirits when our heads hang low. I just wanted to say thank you guys & give you an awesome shout-out genuinely from the bottom of my heart for being here, not only for myself but all of us out here that feel your tunes on levels words can't describe. Lots of love from Ontario Canada. I hope to see you guys here soon 🤟😁🤟
citizen soldier never disappoints us in their songs. I have been big fan since 2019!! The face that they reply to the fans texts is just amazingly indescribable! Thank you for saving our life couple of times
I love this band because they speak truthfully about both sides. How it feels to want to hide it away. To pretend. But also that you are enough, you're not a burden. And it's okay to feel that way. Because people care. Honestly. Helped me with my depression for years
It's sad how much I relate to every single song you release but listening to you guys helps me through the day. Thank you for saving my life. Keep on going. Love you guys 🙏🏻🤟🏻
I am sure of it now. I want to get a tattoo of the CS logo. Your music never fails to make my day better knowing I'm not alone. Thank you for that! And for everything else too❤ I would also love to hear the meaning behind the logo before getting it done!❤
I KNOW this will touch so many people. So many people are told they should be healed by now, but healing is different for everyone. Some people take months while others may take years, and that’s okay! I often keep my mouth closed in fear people will leave if I’m honest, but truly trusting the people closest to us will help us heal better. Still, it’s hard and scary. Take it one step at a time loves, i’m proud of you!!! I truly believe you can heal, in your own time 🫶🏻
Citizen soldier I gotta say thank you for spreading the awareness of everything you are doing. You find the words that I can never find. It helps me so very much when I am feeling down and my wife is trying to find a way to help. You are amazing, keep up the amazing work my friend ❤
i was looking for this an hour ago when i remembered i saw a clip of it safe to say i love this song and literally all other citizen soldier songs this is one of my top favorites now the line "feeling like a burden for hurting" hits so hard too every time im going through something i feel like a shouldn't because my life is better then before or others have it worse citizen soldier you guys put all of my thoughts into words and help me when im in a rough patch thank you so much for getting the words no one else can out there!
Right?!? Wishing this rolled out last week when my team lead was calling me out for not talking to anyone because I wanted to be alone and not explode out on anyone. Made a me problem a her problem. I’d have thrown this at her lol.
Once again you guys find a way to be the voice of those who are in an unseen struggle with their selves or what they've been through. The band that writes songs that transcend the darkness of depression and reach the people it's burying
Sitting here in the recliner with my knees up at my chest & my hands blocking my face from being seen by the people to my left. By 1 minute I'd already noticed I wasn't gonna be able to hold these tears in. In the end I lost to the tears, I couldn't stop them. Hopefully those obvious signs one has been crying will disappear before they see my face. Yet another song I can relate to by my favorite group.
If only I was brave enough to tell the people around me, this is what I feel like. This is what's happening, every single time. Thank you for your wonderful music, it helps, day after day ❤️
Oh my god how much I love that whenever something big happens in my life there is a new song coming out that almost always describes exactly how I feel ❤ I realized today that i never learned to healthily communicate when I was struggling or needed help so instead I turned to lots of unhealthy coping mechanisms that I went to therapy for and am now free of. Realising that the reason I even got into them and still feel like I can't live without them was because I felt like "a burden for hurting" is literally what I needed today.
To anyone watching that doesn't even want to post anything because you feel like it's not even worth it. You're not alone even though it feels like it. You are worth the effort!
Whew. This hit the mark hard. Can’t count the times I now murmur to myself ‘say nothing’. Near the end of days, I’m writing the story of my life so when I’m gone, maybe someone will know who I really was.
I think this track and "Would anybody care" are the only ones that would legit make me cry. IDK maybe because of the strong connection to them. Nothing bad about it, just it shows how good they are. Thank you Citizen Soldier
This is what I feel everyday in my relationship, she deeply care about me and help me became better than I believe in myself, but my mind is in so much trauma I can't let feel my pain, as I cut into sensitive stuff and have tantrums in the same conversation when I don't want to especially the person I deeply love! Thank you, Jake Segura, Matt Duffney, Kooper Hanosky, Wonitta & Kyle Persell aka Citzen Soldier (Oh & LEXX) for sharing deep song that inspire me so to be better mate for the one I loved 1:35
I needed this today... Once again, you've managed to capture my exact feelings and put them into words... So many times, I just say nothing because I know that if I tell them, they'll leave me. They'll decide that I'm just not worth it anymore, abandon me, and find someone else with less baggage. Much love ❤️
"it's a struggle no doubt but I'd rather shut down than be judged for who I am" hits harder than anything. Thank you CS for another beautiful song! Stay strong lovelys 💙💙💙
I absolutely love this, this is exactly how I've been feeling lately.. I feel like my friends don't care anymore and they are only being nice so they can have a clear conscience.. Your guys music is always an escape.. Things are just so difficult and your music helps, I thank you so much for continuing to speak out on these issues that no other band will touch.. I will always be a fan, thank you.
My epilepsy and dysthymia are always journeying hand in hand, this fits so well. Thank you for writing the words I didn’t have, with the courage I never could. 💜
You guys have given me another way to connect with my dad. I love my dad and i know he loves me but it’s always great to have more things to bond with so thank you for giving me this great chance.
This really hits hard for me right now. I am not the kind of person who hides things from other people, but they can’t take who I am,so I have to start shutting down. I’ve been feeling very lonely,but your songs have been my friends. A million thanks!❤
The words, the music, speak volumes to me. I feel this so much. I feel like people don't really understand what I'm going through, yet your songs are exactly what I need. Thank you so much for your music, it has helped me to start seeing that I'm not alone. Not just this song, but all your songs are so powerful.
And citizen soldier comes out with another masterpiece yet again. Your talent truly shines, and you’ve helped so many, and I thank you for that, I thank you for helping me and the countless suffering souls out there who have been silenced by others. Much love to yall! And please stay safe citizen soldier!🤍
I fee this way so much, ive got a good life, so many downs but its so good right now but i still feel so down, no idea why. Hard to speak to people Out and i just say im fine. Thanks for being there for me when few were citizen soldier. Favorite band.
It song hits hard and right where I have been most of my life. This and My Bedroom Ceiling feel so personal to me, because they strike me right were I have been day in and day out since I was about 10. Thank you so much for your amazing music, it's helped out so much and made me feel less alone in this world, like someone actually gets how I feel and the struggles I faced. Again, thank you for everything. So glad you are here and sharing such amazing music filled with such powerful messages.
I absolutely freakin love this, it speaks alot of volume and relates to what I deal with on a daily. Way to Go guys, And LEXX sounded absolutely amazing ❤❤❤❤❤❤
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One day can I be ferured in some songs by yall
We are going to your concert in a month April 26th
its like you guys are stalking me, releasing this song
You should collaborate with Babymetal 😊
Just woke up to the ping of this and thought to myself:“fuck this. I‘m gonna listen to this and then go back to sleep.“ it was worth it
When you sing, it's like peanut butter and jam
Your voices blend together, like bread and ham
It's a strange connection, but oh so sweet
Like a mismatched sock, but complete
loll ngl this is the best comment so true
"I feel like a burden for hurting " My body started tingling the first time that line was sung. How do you guys keep writing songs that feel so real? I hope you guys are not hurting as well
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We all hurt so we do our best to help others understand these feelings and push through ❤
The pain is how you know you're alive, you got this!
I could relate to this song ever since i was around 5 years old before this song came out. I'm scared of how people think of me, I always hide how i feel and who i am and i feel like nothing but a mistake and a burden😞
Wish I wasn't a burden... but that's all I have ever been, a worthless waste of space ...
I scroowed up my life a long time ago, an now I don't have enough time left to fix my Dmg, an get to do what I wanna do, in-part cuz I'm not even sure I even want to anymore...
I've atleast THOUGHT I wanted to be a Game dev since I was 12?-ish ... but I don't really know anymore, an I don't really have the time left to figure it out...
People act like 35 is still young, but it isn't... It's just not "old" ... YET ....
@@drakeyaeger7939 i know how that feels but I'm sure you can get through it and rise up through the damage i believe in you
Please don't ever change, you have no idea how much your Music speaks to the wounded Souls. This one is really special.
"Feeling like a burden for hurting and I don't know why" really hits so close to home 💙
"'cause the pressure I feel to keep it all concealed makes me wanna be alone" is another hard hitter
been having shitty week. life’s kicking me down again.
funny how you find songs like this when you need them.
thanks citizen soldier.
Hey stranger. I have a shitty week as well. Just wanted to say that you aren't alone and that I hope that tomorrow will be a better day for all of us.
@@marinashirochkina9067Amen to that brother
all you need to do is communicate
I hope things have got better for you ❤
@@hayleyadams4455it has ❤
This is how I am. I say nothing even when I have tears rolling down my face. I smile and go on. I love this song. Thank you for making the music you do Citizen Soldier! You know what it's like.
We hear you 🫶
This happened to me during PE. I was crying and smiling at the same time. I told my friends it was happy tears when it wasnt
This is how I feel every day. I feel like I'm losing my friends, and I don’t want to be a burden, so I don’t tell anyone how I feel. This song is amazing.
I don't tell anyone how I feel either even when I'm at the edge of the cliff. You'll be OK. One day you'll be able to conquer the pain. You'll still have dark moments but don't let those bother you. We're both warriors and we're built to fight. Never give in and raise a white flag. I believe in you that you will conquer your pain and wear your crown. It's just like from another Citizen Soldier song. What doesn't kill you is what builds your throne. One day you'll look back and remember when you decided to stay. I was broken completely in 2019 then I decided to face it and now I'm stronger than I have ever known. You can do the same even though it will be scary but don't let that fear keep you in chains. Break free from your chains and show your pain who's boss. You're strong and I know you are. I'm so proud of you for making it this far. Just remember this... it'll be OK when you feel like shit you've got to keep pushing through it and never give up. Your story isn't over yet and your story needs to be told.
"If I don't keep my secrets safe, the ones I love would never stay". That's what hit me the hardest. The idea of opening up to a person I love and then losing them is unbearable. Probably because it's already happened once
I know that pain. Hold on my friend. Much love❤
I know it won't help much, but... You should remember that those who abandoned you when you opened up to them never really deserved your love
You've been through a lot and you definitely deserve someone, who will love you for who you are
This is my absolute biggest fear! This line was definitely a heavy hitter.
Chronic illness/chronic pain that's slowly debilitating a d disabling... yeah, everyone gets uncomfortable if it's brought up or I show signs of pain.
“My defense all my friends like me more when I pretend” this hits hard cause most of the time they distance themselves from me when im depressed, and I have to hide the pain in order to be around them….
I can relate, but still - even though it sounds like a freakin' cliche - you're not alone 🫂
I can relate to u
I feel you. I have the same problem.
I had to find out the hard way that “friends” lie…..they won’t be there when you need them
And when you open your mouth, it feels like you made things worse
Citizen soldier just described how I felt on a daily basis in under 4 minutes.
Hope the music helps 🫶
Agreed
I love out another amazing song thank you guys
Same
Unfortunately same.
I grew up being told to hold it in to never let my sickness show. So thank you for saying the words I could never say
I love you guys, so please keep being that solace for those that are in need of it, and I hope that they see that there not alone.
So thanks for being there for us.
"I feel like a burden for hurting " Hits home so hard right now.
I also know the feeling of being a burden, but believe me, it's not true, you are amazing and special!❤
Yeah,you are NOT a burden❤
Please believe me for this ❤
I hope you are doing better
The lines “and i would rather be dead than ever drag you down with me” is deep
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@@CitizenSoldier I agree deeeep
I had to let my children go 😢😭😭 And to never have them again. Because of narcissistic and SA abuse !I’m 48 ! When WILL HUMANITY HELP ME, HELP US!! The SURVIVORS of ABUSE??!!!
@@MichelleKurth-z4y🙇🏼♂️
It ok I'm in the same boat but my mom is the one slowly losing me for things she did to me like not giving me the help I needed years ago😢😢
I’m so tired of everything hurting... 😢💔
One time, this horrible therapist I had asked me “you don’t want to be a burden to your parents forever right?” Made me feel just lovely.
I’m so sorry you had that experience & I hope you found a less toxic/misguided/sh*tty therapist. Recovering from therapy trauma is so rough ❤️🩹
@@Lily-wq2tc Thank you so much 🥺 I remember how most times I would be crying when I left her office...
Eventually I found out that she used to be a therapist in a women’s prison. That explained a lot. I needed someone kind, compassionate and understanding not someone tough and rude...
Thankfully I did end up leaving her and went through a couple other therapists until I finally found the one that was right for me. I didn’t give up and that’s something I want others to know as well, that just bc you had a bad therapist doesn’t mean you should stop trying to find the one you click with ☺️
@@EternalRiver90 Yes!! I’m finally getting back into telehealth therapy a year after ending my appointments with a therapist who got a bit too close for comfort to me, and accused my fiancé of being abusive towards me, when what was really going on was that I was recovering from years of abusive relationships prior to meeting him. She also didn’t want to let me go as a client and kind of pressured me into staying several weeks beyond the week I intended to leave, rather than referring me to another therapist. Among other things…
Not all therapists have worked through their trauma deeply enough to interact in healthy ways with their clients, and not all therapists were meant to be therapists. So glad we are finding more peace in therapy now 🖤
@@Lily-wq2tc Oh wow! I’m sorry about that creepy therapist. Did it seem like she was becoming romantically attracted to you? Cuz that’s what it sounds like. I’m actually a bit interested in what other things were said and done but if you feel uncomfortable with that I totally understand!
That’s so true! Some therapists cross boundaries and are inappropriate with their clients if they didn’t work on themselves properly... There was this other one who I helped my bestie get with who let me stay in the sessions with her since she was terrified of being in therapy by herself & wanted me there for support. I was only supposed to be there for maybe a couple months at most but it ended up being almost 3 years!
During that time, the three of us really established a therapeutic relationship together and it actually seemed that her therapist was developing feelings for me as I unfortunately was for her... My bestie actually admitted that she could tell we were flirting a lot and wasn’t sure what to make of it...
Eventually the therapist and I were getting a little too close so she had to put an abrupt stop to it and kicked me out of the sessions literally by texting my bestie to tell me I’m no longer welcome... What the actual f*ck is that? It absolutely shattered my heart to say the least... She could have at least given me a last session to say goodbye and help me get that closure I needed before discharging me as I was basically one of her clients anyway since I was there just about every single Monday throughout those years... She acted like I was never there and that nothing ever happened between us...
I actually was in so much excruciating pain that I ended up taking my anger out on my bestie... Biggest mistake ever. She didn’t speak to me for 4 months and then since then things haven’t been the same between us even tho I apologized a billion times... It’s been almost 3 years since this happened as it occurred in Oct 2021 and I just deeply miss how our relationship was before all that bs happened... 💔
@@EternalRiver90 hmmm… do you use Discord or Reddit? I’d give my insta but I worry about other people finding it
Their voices go so well together! This sounds beautiful.
Glad to hear that 🫶
"If I don't keep my secrets safe, the ones I love would never stay".
I did not need to be called out like this.
But seriously, your music hits on such a deep, emotional level. Thank you for making those of us who struggle feel seen and understood. And for helping us put words to how we feel when we can't find them.
Keep up the amazing work Citizen Soldier!! 👏 ❤
It's a blessing and a curse how many of us can relate to your music. Blessing we have your music. Curse what we have been through or are going through! Another masterpiece added to my playlist 💞
Agree. It is sad that there is such anguish in this life for so many and that the singers have gone through so much too but the best blessing they got through - keep getting through - to bring comfort and courage to others.
When I struggle to put these thoughts into words, your music just understands. It's incredibly cathartic for me to listen to and I am ever grateful to your band
"Feeling like a burden for hurting" the whole I reason I don't tell anyone about my mental health in one sentence.
This is the most relatable song from Citizen Soldier I've heard today.
Some people are happy to carry some burdens, it might not even be heavy for them.
Also, today?? Haha I'm in double digits. 😊
@@1onebox902well you can ever know who will carry that burden and who will lie to you and tell others and make fun of you, too many fake friends these days, I don't understand how no one can remember the native American ways when no one was fake 😢
My boyfriend got back early today,while I was listening to this. I was crying, because I could relate so much.
He asked no questions, just sat down hugged me and listened to the song with me in silenece.
We both have had our share of hardship, but I think we've finally both found a safe place in each other.
That’s awesome to hear ❤
Roads been rough but Todays got this song to carry me through.
So really thanks more than I can say.
Stay safe 🫶
@@CitizenSoldier trying. Thanks for seeing me.
I don't feel sad, I'm not depressed, I don't feel hopeless. Yet there is something about your music that makes me dive into every single note, every single beat and every single word sung. Music has always had a great influence on my perception of the world and I'm so glad to say that your band is also a part of it in some way. You have so many great songs, I can't even tell which is my favorite anymore! I feel like your music is truly helping people who are struggling.
Thank you for that❤
I’m glad to hear someone in the comments isn’t fighting these battles 💜 I hope your life continues to bless you.
I never thought that I would find a song that describes how I have always felt, it’s nice to hear it sung out loud.
You are NOT a burden,please believe me for this ❤
@@lupoalfa118 Thank you for your kind words 🫶
@@sirdudenstein6967 I'm just teeling the truth,nothing more
If you want to talk about anything that is or was bothering you i'm here for you and if you don't want that's fine too
I care about you ❤
@@lupoalfa118 That means a lot, thank you for being here 💜
@@sirdudenstein6967 No problem ❤
I don't have words for how strongly this resonates, especially that second verse and prechorus. Sometimes you don't know how much you need to hear something until it captures all of your feelings at once.
“if I don’t keep my secrets safe, The Ones I love would never stay” wow- this catches my entire way of thinking lately, I’m falling apart and I can’t tell those I love for fear of them leaving me
Oh my goodness, I think this is the song I relate to the most. There’s no worse feeling than hurting and not being able to tell anyone for fear of feeling like burden
This definitely hit hard for me, it hits way different when you read the lyrics and realize that a lot of it hits you in the gut, most of the lyrics are thoughts that go through my head everyday thank y’all for this masterpiece 🙏
Hope the music helps 🫶
@@CitizenSoldier it will, cause it's just gonna be blasting in my headphones at school now in my free time
Great song, I woke up at 4:00 AM last night fully in pain and bearly able to breath, then I realized what day it was and forced myself to grab my phone to listen to this masterpiece, I'm glad I woke up at 4:00 AM it was totally worth it, keep up the great work y'all ❤️
Hope you're feeling better 🫶
@@CitizenSoldier well currently having some body problems and after we checked in at the ER about it the next day I got sick and I'm still sick, I'll be better soon hopefully
I'm so glad I found Citizen Soldier. I've never found anyone who understands but feel like someone actually understands now. Thank you Citizen Soldier ❤
As a dad struggling with crippling depression. Thank you. I'm sure I speak for alot of guys. We're over looked more than most will understand so we stay silent. Stay strong kings...
I know that girls play victim a lot, and I apologize for the rest of us girls, women can be abusive, and damage mental health, so I hope that guys out there get a better life and living situation
Just take it day by day or hour by hour or minute by minute (whichever works best for you)
"Cause I would rather hold it in, till I run out of oxygen". Oh this line couldn't be more true. It's so suffocating and yet I'd rather kept everything to myself than then let anybody know the state I am in.
I know what you are saying. That is the truth
I don't know if you ever feel this way. I have experienced trauma endlessly over my short life to the point that I wonder often why I am alive. I have been feeling so useless to the world for a while. There was a time I believed I was worth something through my writing - but that's gone nowhere now - however I can say if you ever wonder the same as I then I hope this helps, I hope it feels like an answer for you.
You are still here because of your music, your absolutely remarkable, breathtaking, stunning, epic, just plain flawless ability to give a voice to millions of people's pain, comfort and epic music to vent to all simultaneously.
I can say confidently that I'm still here because of your music. Been down and in dark places alone many times but your work has helped me through. Thank you for that but even more so for somehow finding the right words to describe how many feel. It brings me such comfort that you get how this pain feels and certainly not like a therapist pretends to get it. Thank you! I hope you are doing well. You are a treasure for your music and empathy.
You don't judge or label and I cannot say how fantastic that is. Thank you for your time, efforts and courage. I bet it hasn't been easy for you but I know your fans deeply appreciate all you do.
honestly. the person making these official lyric video is a genius. their literally perfect so keep up the good work. Great music and lyric as usual
If I don't keep my secrets safe the ones I love would never stay...that part hit so hard. Most people leave after they realize I struggle a lot so I try my best to keep it hidden
God this song made me feel so called out. This song is me every day of my life. Almost had tears in my eyes and now I can't stop listening to the song it's just that good
Another amazing song by Citizen Soldier, I just really hope Citizen Soldier and everyone listening to this song relating to its lyrics, are doing okay or are on the journey to get better.
Another one to describe exactly how I feel ❤
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I didn't expect a song to ever describe me so well, here I am fighting back the tears
Oh man... I'm not depressed but this song is so real still! I have issues I don't talk about to others because I don't wanna bother people with them
Citizen Soilder always helps remind me (& many of us) we aren't alone feeling like we do.
I thank the God's everyday they can be/are here to help so many of us through the dark time's, the muddy water's, the Pain & Panic or however we individually referr it.
Finding the words we can't say or bring ourselves to face.
Reassuring many of us, we aren't alone in our thoughts, feelings & our silent wars.
Lifting our spirits when our heads hang low.
I just wanted to say thank you guys & give you an awesome shout-out genuinely from the bottom of my heart for being here, not only for myself but all of us out here that feel your tunes on levels words can't describe.
Lots of love from Ontario Canada.
I hope to see you guys here soon 🤟😁🤟
citizen soldier never disappoints us in their songs. I have been big fan since 2019!! The face that they reply to the fans texts is just amazingly indescribable! Thank you for saving our life couple of times
I love this band because they speak truthfully about both sides. How it feels to want to hide it away. To pretend. But also that you are enough, you're not a burden. And it's okay to feel that way.
Because people care.
Honestly. Helped me with my depression for years
It's sad how much I relate to every single song you release but listening to you guys helps me through the day. Thank you for saving my life. Keep on going. Love you guys 🙏🏻🤟🏻
This song is my life! I love it! I absolutely love it! 🧡🧡
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"If I don't keep my secrets safe, the ones I know would never stay."
That one got me.
I am sure of it now. I want to get a tattoo of the CS logo. Your music never fails to make my day better knowing I'm not alone. Thank you for that! And for everything else too❤
I would also love to hear the meaning behind the logo before getting it done!❤
Words cannot explain how much I love this song
Much love 🫶
I KNOW this will touch so many people. So many people are told they should be healed by now, but healing is different for everyone. Some people take months while others may take years, and that’s okay! I often keep my mouth closed in fear people will leave if I’m honest, but truly trusting the people closest to us will help us heal better. Still, it’s hard and scary. Take it one step at a time loves, i’m proud of you!!! I truly believe you can heal, in your own time 🫶🏻
Truly a beautiful collab of voices. Thank you for saying what so many people feel inside. For giving us our voices back
Is it me or is Citizen soldier reading my mind and diary again? another great song, thank you Citizen soldier ❤ Lexx you have a beautiful voice!
Citizen soldier I gotta say thank you for spreading the awareness of everything you are doing. You find the words that I can never find. It helps me so very much when I am feeling down and my wife is trying to find a way to help. You are amazing, keep up the amazing work my friend ❤
es realmente hermoso, de las mil palabras no hay ninguna que pueda describir está canción 💛
Pues muchas gracias, nos alegra escuchar eso 🫶
i was looking for this an hour ago when i remembered i saw a clip of it safe to say i love this song and literally all other citizen soldier songs this is one of my top favorites now the line "feeling like a burden for hurting" hits so hard too every time im going through something i feel like a shouldn't because my life is better then before or others have it worse citizen soldier you guys put all of my thoughts into words and help me when im in a rough patch thank you so much for getting the words no one else can out there!
Citizen Soldier songs are my favorite thing to listen to you're the best! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤❤
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This song is perfect for people who are struggling with depression. Citizen solider you did it again
How can you have such a soothing voice. Idk how to describe it. 👏👌
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Related to this, "On the surface I'm fine, but the walls are caving in."
Damn... I feel so called out... I could never relate so much.
Sending hugs 🫶
You must be new here. They are really good at that. They always know what to say
Right?!? Wishing this rolled out last week when my team lead was calling me out for not talking to anyone because I wanted to be alone and not explode out on anyone. Made a me problem a her problem. I’d have thrown this at her lol.
Thank you for finding the words I can't... your music gives me the chance to 'tell' my loved ones how I feel, when my voice won't let me tell them...
Once again you guys find a way to be the voice of those who are in an unseen struggle with their selves or what they've been through. The band that writes songs that transcend the darkness of depression and reach the people it's burying
This is so amazing. Citizen Soldier is my favorite band by far. They explain everyhing perfectly. These songs are how I get through the day.
Sitting here in the recliner with my knees up at my chest & my hands blocking my face from being seen by the people to my left. By 1 minute I'd already noticed I wasn't gonna be able to hold these tears in. In the end I lost to the tears, I couldn't stop them. Hopefully those obvious signs one has been crying will disappear before they see my face.
Yet another song I can relate to by my favorite group.
Amazing, like always. Also, this song came out during a perfect time. Been feeling like this for a few weeks. Good work Citizen Soldier.
If only I was brave enough to tell the people around me, this is what I feel like. This is what's happening, every single time.
Thank you for your wonderful music, it helps, day after day ❤️
"I'd rather shut down than be judged for who I am" - So true
Oh my god how much I love that whenever something big happens in my life there is a new song coming out that almost always describes exactly how I feel ❤
I realized today that i never learned to healthily communicate when I was struggling or needed help so instead I turned to lots of unhealthy coping mechanisms that I went to therapy for and am now free of. Realising that the reason I even got into them and still feel like I can't live without them was because I felt like "a burden for hurting" is literally what I needed today.
To anyone watching that doesn't even want to post anything because you feel like it's not even worth it. You're not alone even though it feels like it. You are worth the effort!
Whew. This hit the mark hard.
Can’t count the times I now murmur to myself ‘say nothing’.
Near the end of days, I’m writing the story of my life so when I’m gone, maybe someone will know who I really was.
I think this track and "Would anybody care" are the only ones that would legit make me cry. IDK maybe because of the strong connection to them. Nothing bad about it, just it shows how good they are.
Thank you Citizen Soldier
This is what I feel everyday in my relationship, she deeply care about me and help me became better than I believe in myself, but my mind is in so much trauma I can't let feel my pain, as I cut into sensitive stuff and have tantrums in the same conversation when I don't want to especially the person I deeply love! Thank you, Jake Segura, Matt Duffney, Kooper Hanosky, Wonitta & Kyle Persell aka Citzen Soldier (Oh & LEXX) for sharing deep song that inspire me so to be better mate for the one I loved 1:35
I needed this today... Once again, you've managed to capture my exact feelings and put them into words...
So many times, I just say nothing because I know that if I tell them, they'll leave me. They'll decide that I'm just not worth it anymore, abandon me, and find someone else with less baggage.
Much love ❤️
Oh my gosh, thank you so much for all of your music it helps me when I have bad days and I love you guys so much
Another absolute beauty.
It's hard to say something's wrong when everythings fine, but this song will help me find the words. One day
"it's a struggle no doubt but I'd rather shut down than be judged for who I am" hits harder than anything. Thank you CS for another beautiful song! Stay strong lovelys 💙💙💙
Oh man- I love when you make songs in this style, the music's beautiful, and the lyrics just hit perfectly matching ❤
Every time I hear a song from you, feels like someone finally understands how I feel. Please continue making amazing music 🙇
I absolutely love this, this is exactly how I've been feeling lately.. I feel like my friends don't care anymore and they are only being nice so they can have a clear conscience.. Your guys music is always an escape.. Things are just so difficult and your music helps, I thank you so much for continuing to speak out on these issues that no other band will touch.. I will always be a fan, thank you.
My epilepsy and dysthymia are always journeying hand in hand, this fits so well. Thank you for writing the words I didn’t have, with the courage I never could. 💜
The cross over songs are a wonderful addition to a band that is doing a great thing, you will always be one of my favorite bands
Your music has helped me get through this hell they call life thank you
Every time i feel sick and sad then i see the citizen songs notification ...
Really thank you...❤
So amazing. I love it. Got me in all the feels. You guys can live in my head rent-free releasing all these amazing relatable songs
So amazing how you just described every day of my life. I hope everyone who feels the same gets through it, I believe in you!
Absolutely beautiful and meaningful !! Everyday you continue to help me deal with all my stress. I love you guys 🐨🫶❤️
You guys have given me another way to connect with my dad. I love my dad and i know he loves me but it’s always great to have more things to bond with so thank you for giving me this great chance.
This really hits hard for me right now. I am not the kind of person who hides things from other people, but they can’t take who I am,so I have to start shutting down. I’ve been feeling very lonely,but your songs have been my friends. A million thanks!❤
The words, the music, speak volumes to me. I feel this so much. I feel like people don't really understand what I'm going through, yet your songs are exactly what I need. Thank you so much for your music, it has helped me to start seeing that I'm not alone. Not just this song, but all your songs are so powerful.
Relate to the lyrics so much I had a mental breakdown.... So many tears came out!😭🥺
And citizen soldier comes out with another masterpiece yet again. Your talent truly shines, and you’ve helped so many, and I thank you for that, I thank you for helping me and the countless suffering souls out there who have been silenced by others. Much love to yall! And please stay safe citizen soldier!🤍
Now everyone and myself have a new song to blast at night when we need something to relate to.
Amazing work Citizen Soldier.
This is my current state of mind. You guys know exactly how some of us feel and know how to bring us back up, you guys are true legends.
I fee this way so much, ive got a good life, so many downs but its so good right now but i still feel so down, no idea why. Hard to speak to people Out and i just say im fine. Thanks for being there for me when few were citizen soldier. Favorite band.
It song hits hard and right where I have been most of my life. This and My Bedroom Ceiling feel so personal to me, because they strike me right were I have been day in and day out since I was about 10. Thank you so much for your amazing music, it's helped out so much and made me feel less alone in this world, like someone actually gets how I feel and the struggles I faced. Again, thank you for everything. So glad you are here and sharing such amazing music filled with such powerful messages.
I absolutely freakin love this, it speaks alot of volume and relates to what I deal with on a daily. Way to Go guys, And LEXX sounded absolutely amazing ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Exactly what I’ve been feeling lately. Amazing song❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you truly Citizen Soldier. Your songs make me feel like I am not alone anymore.
You have saved me when I was heavily struggling during my sophomore year, now as a highschool graduate three years later, I am happy to thank you guys
This song exactly on the day I am feeling my worst ever in this year. I am glad I am alive to hear this. Thank you so much Citizen soldier.